#im going to be so mad if i get covid

[thedisablednaturalist]

ok good news and bad news

bad news is some incel dudebro cuck leaned over me while we were on the metro despite there being plenty of room to stand elsewhere, did this for two stops, extremely close to me, then fucking COUGHED on me and got off. I was the only person wearing a mask at the time. He kept staring down at my phone too. I usually take up a whole disabled spot since I like to transfer to the seat and hold onto my wheelchair with my legs so I don't have to cling to the rail for 45 minutes straight, but I tried to make some room for him to sit next to me even though it was difficult with my chair since I thought he wanted to sit down. Nope. Just kept leaning and staring at me. I didn't say anything because I was scared and kind of shut down, it's hard enough having to get the courage to ask people to move out of the disabled seating area. Thank god I had my mask, Im going to lysol the shit out of my chair too.

ok now good news!

my cubicle finally got expanded! I have room to turn around! The entrance is still a little tight, but they are looking into widening it. They also put in an adjustable desk so I can have it at the correct height for either my wheelchair or office chair. It lets me choose which one works better for me at the time. I also have room to park my chair if I want. All my coworkers gathered like a surprise party to see me examine my cubicle for the first time lol. I felt like a kid whose parents got them a new bike.

unfortunately I don't have pictures of the before, but most of you have seen a normal office cubicle before, they're usually pretty small.

[faerynova]

on a social level i like my current choir more than the previous one. im actually getting to know people and enjoy talking and going to social events outside of choir which i havent done since my first choir. but also i definitely miss the music taste my last director had

current choir has a focus on north american composers. obviously theres baller stuff in that selection pool. but listen. listen i wanna sing bulgarian folk music again.

[toytulini]

god i really went THREE FUCKING YRS without getting sick i was being so goddamn careful but then my parents got smth and foolish me, didnt step up the level of precaution i was taking around them, and lo and behold, im almost definitely sick

[bivampirism]

thinking about becoming full of myself a little bit. i’ll keep u posted

[larry-ben-kenobi]

I just cannot escape the yearning to die

Its almost been a decade and if I think about it it still brings my mental space into the molten core of the earth

I'm just so tired of being depressed im not depressed like I used to be, though, it just gets duller because I'm so damn used to it unless i let myself think about how much I don't want to be alive

Bleh. Ive said it for years and still true, if I could find 18 year old me id tell him to do the attempt better, rather than anything about how life is worth it. It's been eight years and honestly it only got worse. Was supposed to have done it when I was 14 probably, and never bothered anyone.

Hate being such a stereotypical zoomer freak about my own existence though.

[jonahfagnus]

in other news im thinking about my (very very vague) portal jonelias au again

[castielafflicted]

I need more enrichment in my enclosure

[artemisiatridentata]

roommate has covid (again) (I hopefully dodged it bc I've been out on a work trip all week but still). I apparently got assigned awhile ago to lead next week's work trip but today is the first I heard about it so I'm scrambling to prepare everything on time. a covid conscious person I connected w/ online is coming to visit tomorrow and I'm stressed bc I have to get a bunch of work done before then and also I hope the vibe is cool in-person and that we can be friends! also none of my coworkers have said they can cover my shift tomorrow even though I put the request in the group chat weeks ago and I cover their shifts whenever I can. i am on day 32 of a 41 day stretch of working every single day with only two days off including 9/5 and tomorrow (IF one of my coworkers steps up...) . and then my next day off, in October, isn't even really a day off because I have to drive 4 hours round trip to the nearest city to get an MRI to see whether or not my recently diagnosed genetic disorder has given me internal cysts or tumors. I am hanging on by a thread haha

[eyefocusing]

this has been the most week

[thewickerking]

my mom texting my best friend asking him to tell me to respond to her:

me, texts and calls her:

my mother: *no response*

[memequeen92]

babygirl are you okay? you've barely sexualized your irredeemable bastard today

DFHNFJHFDKHNHF

I swear I'm fine I've just been chatting with a Springtrap AI chatbot for the past week it's been a blast I'm having a silly little time with it I'm alive I swear

[gilfrespecter]

WAIT I DONT HAVE LIFT RESTRICTIONS ANYMORE AND TODAYS MY SUNDAY WHICH MEANS I CAN GO TO STORES AT STRANGE TIMES

I'm going to go to c*bella's and make them let me try EVERY BOW in the archery range

Not really I haven't done any archery in years so I'm lucky if I can get to 30lbs of draw weight but NO TITS I DONT HAVE TO COMPENSATE FOR TIG OLE BIDDIES I PROBABLY WONT STRING SLAP MY ARM INTO OBLIVION YIPPEE!!!!

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Ahahahah

I feel like shit

And im 99% sure its because I'm stressed

I always feel sick when im stressed

But the stress always gets worse now when that happens cuz of covid. Which makes me feel more sick.

Awesome 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[toytulini]

give me the strength not to google covid teeth rn lest i spiral into a Health Anxiety Meltdown about it during the night

[bunnyb34r]

So fucking sore and tired lately 😔 mom was like "maybe you should go back to the dr" (didn't specify which but I think she meant the pain management guy) and it's like they always tell me that that's my normal now. Then I tell them it's WORSE than normal, and they tell me oh it's just a flare up. Or "well then THIS is your normal now" or the favorite "you need exercise. What's your diet like?"

I mean I'm sure if I had the energy to actually cook and had an appetite, I'd feel at least a LITTLE better. But need energy to cook and eat better and need to eat better to get energy so it ends up being a null like nope. Then with exercise it's like yeah I'd probably feel a LITTLE better, but I'd need to stop being completely drained from my 20hr a week retail job first. Like I come home and I CRASH lately. And I'm VERY active at my job, hauling around heavy boxes (people up at front end do not believe me when I say how heavy these boxes are. Like 50lbs is the usual, it's a thrill when they're feather light 😭 but that's usually only the baby dresses). I'm running back and forth to get signs, constantly moving stuff from the floor to the table then back sometimes, recovering and zoning as quick as I can bc I'm the only one that stocks that area. All on my feet for 3.5 straight hours (then a 15min break and 15 min of trash compacting). Not to mention when I have to work in grocery/the baby aisle and I'm hauling diaper boxes, baby wipes, heavy ass detergent, and 25 lbs+ boxes of food. Like I'm GETTING exercise, I'm only sedentary at home bc I HAVE to be. I'd love to be able to go to the pool and swim, go for a walk, or lift weights after work, but I CAN'T.

It sucks man. I'm also so over holistic treatments, I've tried so many to no avail over the years. Like just give me meds man 😩🤲 please... what's one or two more a day with all the rest I'm on...

[actual-corpse]

My roomate and I were talking about airtravel.

I got on the topic of luggage abuse fears which led to a talk about wheelchair users.

Neither of us are wheelchair bound.

I said, "we really need to advocate for those people because nobody takes them seriously and it sucks. It's even worse when the best way to make people consider accessibility is to ask them 'what if you ended up disabled and you have to deal with all this?'."

And that's the best way I can think to get people to consider accessibility.

Making selfish people think of themselves and how they would feel if they became wheelchair bound and needed to get around.

It should just be "let's make life easier for everyone because that's the right thing to do!"

Instead it's "what if I become disabled? Omg life will be so horrible and I won't be able to go anywhere!"

Then DO SOMETHING! If you don't want to think about other people (selfish prick) then fucking make the world accessible in the event you end up disabled (selfish prick).