#im going insane i should sleep

[nonbinarylesbianherb]

i fucking love seeing my posts get like 1 single note because yea its only 1, but that’s still a whole ass person like? isn’t that crazy to think about, I know we don’t really think or talk about it but thats a whole person! and then you think of posts that have had like 100+ notes and try to imagine a room full of 100 people with their thumbs up like! thats crazy to me

[blabberoo]

"Are you..drunk..?"

He couldn't even talk right, his hands forming in half phrases to half words (is he even talking?), then finally resolving to a 'no'.

Drifter sighed, pinching his nose bridge between his fingers. "Goddamn it. How is that even possible."

He grabbed the corpse by the arm and dragging it over his shoulder, supporting the rest of him by the waist. The beheaded was thrashing at first, attempting to get off of Drifter's grip, yet was quick to give up when sudden motions was too much for his... flame? Letting most of his weight fall over the smaller person, to which he couldn't do anything but to grumble under his breath.

Thankfully, the base wasn't too far. It took a few walks to the door and onto the bed where Drifter plopped Bobby like a carcass (well he is.)

As he stood up and was about to walk away, the beheaded grabbed him by the cloak in a state of panic. This, of course, caught Drifter's attention, simply at stasis and looking at him as if to wait for a reason. Why did he stopped him? Why did it hurt to see him go? Why the hell does his head hurt..

His eye blinked weakly, tried to muster up the energy to speak.

"Vomit." he signed.

"Oh, shit. Wait! Hold on—" It took three second for Drifter to find a basin a bring it to Bobby, just in time for him to let it all out. Seriously, how is this possible?

Though he was able to have a slight sigh of relief he wasnt able to get the mess on the bed, that's one less thing to worry about.

"Sit up. I'm gonna have clean you."

It took him a bit slow but he followed without retaliation, possibly too sick to do so. Drifter walked away to the bathroom and returned with a new basin and towel. He begin cleaning whereever the mess got him, along his hands and to his arms. Although there's not much he could do with his clothes but to wipe off what he could, it's not like he'd be comfortable enough to change his clothes. He'll have to take care of thet himself when he's more sober.

"Lord Jackal, why do I put up with you." He muttered under his breath, moreso to himself.

However, that might have caught up Bobby's attention,as he raised his hands to sign.

"Why do you?"

Drifter's gaze caught his at the sudden movement, although his eye were still unfocused, perhaps by the lingering influence of alcohol.

"People— They always look out for me because I could somehow save them from their problems. No matter how many times I've shown them I couldn't— Don't want to! Because even if I did, I will still screw it up— time and time again— ALWAYS! But everything ends the same. Everything ends. And I'm still—"

He pauses, and his hands flopped over his lap. His head lowers and shoulder slacked. He had never been like this before. Quiet. Tired.

Of course, Drifter was the same. He approached him for the same reason, and yet it hasn't crossed his mind the fact that he had gone through this a lot. And he was adding up to that.

"Do you want to cut the deal?" He intended to make it sound neutral, though his remourse came out of his soft tone.

Bobby took a moment to register it, flame still swaying through the influence.

"I don't know. I just—"

God. It hurts to think. He felt like everything around him is swallowing him whole.

"I'm tired of people leaving. I just don't want—"

He hasn't blurted out like this in a long while, maybe never. And the guts of this dead body seemed to sprung alive only to churn in pain. Its all too much. He closed his eye and let his heavy toll rest upon Drifter's shoulder. Soft flames prickling the crook of his neck.

I don't want to be alone.

He felt arms wrap around him, a palm brushing along his back in a comforting rhythm. His mind focused on these sensation, and for a moment he could feel himself grounded under Drifter's touch. It felt like he could breath again, and for the first time, felt like he mattered to someone.

This simple moment alone could stay with him for eternity. And if that were the case, perhaps he can indulge himself in it.

Tomorrow— he can pretend to forget.

[erenfox]

can we take a moment and actually talk about sylki for a second?? more specifically, can we talk about my queen sylvie?

in most relationships if one is in a very fatal situation we get to actually see the other one freaking out and determined to save their significant other. not in sylki tho, because everything was subtle.

from bonding over frigga to holding hands on lamentis to sharing that blanket to the fight at the citadel: everything was subtle. and it made perfect sense too, because lokis are canonically horrible in portraying emotions and feelings for their loved ones.

we, even the lokius fans, always talk about how love-driven our boy loki was towards sylvie, but rarely have i seen any posts about sylvie's subtle love signs towards him. and it makes perfect sense, because she didn't know how to interact with him or anyone for that matter, given her extremely tragic life - so naturally she was more careful towards displaying her emotions to loki.

and it's not like there are just a couple of examples of this. oh, no. lemme run you through a few:

the longing gaze after loki tells her about frigga on the train

the numerous times she saved loki's life on lamentis (from the guards, meteors, etc)

the whole scene of her opening up to loki about her past (we all know it was a very sensitive topic; and for her - a loki, to reveal it means a big deal)

the whole goddang lingering look and gently brushing his arm (im still not over that scene)

the look after getting separated once captured by the tva

the little 'you ok?' right after he lost mobius

the death glare to ravonna on several occasions after ol miss renslayer pruned loki

THE FUCKING DECISION TO PRUNE HERSELF NOT EVEN FULLY KNOWING WHETHER RAVONNA WAS LYING OR NOT. like cmon antis. the others i can understand, but denying this? you expect us to believe that sylvie - who has spent her whole godly life of CENTURIES trying to avoid getting pruned - would simply decide to do the very thing she's avoided not even knowing whether ravonna was bluffing and yet she still never loved loki??? like, seriously, name me one good reason why she wouldve pruned herself if it wasn't for loki.

and this is just up till mid-episode five in season one. there are dozens of more scenes of sylvie actually caring for loki. there's literally no better proof that she loved him just as much as he loved her.

they are truly tragic and made for each other, more so than any other couples in marvel. because we know that HWR planned EVERYTHING until that random particular moment in s1 ep6, which means all the canon couples in mcu were also planned by him. i know he planned for loki nd sylvie to love each other, but that kiss? nuh uh bestie. my man hwr himself was shocked (and also rooting for them) during that kiss.

theyre legit living proof of the best, most tragic and wholesome couple ever in mcu.

[strangeaxel]

Btw, sorry but rn im so hyperfixed on postal idk when ill come back to fnaf. I always come back to fnaf in my life but rn? Who knowsss. Maybe I'll do some ask the postal dudes (1 & 2) but that's all D: i love doing asks but my hyperfixation just faded out! :c thanks for all the asks tho it was really fun, for now it's in a long hiatus who knows if it'll comeback again next month or half a year or never... I'll see

I'll see if I'll do a ask the postal dudes JSKWKEMMD IDK I THINK IT'LL BE FUN.

[uhhhmarv]

Okay, I think we’ve all read at least once about Johnny crying. I mean, it’s almost in every GyJo ff I can find, and well, he does it a lot in the manga too. BUT, what about Gyro not being phisically able to cry due to his trauma? And getting mad, or confused with himself when he does?

idk, I think it’s a very interesting concept, and one I’ve never really read anything about, so... yeah. if someone likes the idea and wants to make an ff with it, then go for it!!! no need to credit me, just wanted to share a small piece of the madness anguishing my mind.

[liqu3d]

Oh god, now I’m too interested to know about your AU (from the doodles post) can you please tell more about it????

AGSJHDIIE IM SO HAPY SOMEBODY ASK !!! HEHEHE SO THANK YOU FOR ASKING Anon

Angst ig???

So in this AU both Prismo and Scarab are kinda 19-20? Maybe 20-ist. So the place where Scarab lives gets bombed (musheroom war????). Later on, after 1-2 years, he was diagnosed with some immune-related cancer because of the radioactive. After getting to a hospital, he meets Prismo there. The two talk, seeing they both share some interests and start to become closer, while Prismo's condition gets better. Scarab does not. After Prismo got out of the hospital, he still often visits Scarab, puts on a chat, or wish him to get better. They two would have a short walk together in the park (when Scarab’s health conditions let him), sharing stories and writing fanfic together. From time to time Prismo start to develop some feelings on Scarab  

Later on, Prismo visits him more often, he starts to give Scarab flowers and stays with him longer. With Prismo slowly growing on Scarab, so he also start to catch feelings for the other. But Scarab know they both gonna lead themselves to nothing, and he doesn’t want Prismo to waste time is time on him. And even tho Prismo knowledge that he just shakes it off and being more positive. And because of that Scarab just follows the flow for the shake of Prismo's and his own feelings

Few more years pass and they two become somewhere 'close friend'. Tho for Scarab's health it become worst, he feel most of time . Prismo still visits him frequantly, and sometimes Scarab would try to tell Prismo about his feelings but scared other don't feel the same. Prismo did try to talk about it, but whenever he ask about what Scarab feel about him Scarab just akwardly say that he is a "great friend" so Yeahhh (They both don't know how to communicated about those topic 😭)

I think that all happened in 5-6 years (after they met) or smt? then in the end uhhhh....

Sooooo

In the end Scarab gonna die but they two confess each other feeling. It make them kinda laugh about this and they two then holding hand (they hold hand before but this is the only time they really do that comfortablely) And Scarab spend his last moment of his life in his love embrace 

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO MY RAMBLING :3 Might have some spelling, grammar mistake or plot holes but yea ^^

(Thinking about killing Prismo too)

here is a small drawing for you to cope with

[cool-lesbian-is-here]

Marauders brain rot so bad that whenever I see those two words, I think of them

[realbeefman]

been getting deeply emotionally invested in big bang theory past few days. been really big banging as they say.

[caitlynshexstrap]

hey hey hey- commissions are officially open, especially thanks to my editor @s4garysl4tzz !! they're not super into tumblr but, they helped me so-- things may be going a bit faster than before.

keep in mind i have anxiety i may not be as consistent as you need me to be.

dm for rates, please.

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[snazum]

Little ster edit I made… Cause there needs to be more in the world :>

special thanks to like the 5-10 people on this website who upload ster clips. This is dedicated to y’all <3

Audio: noir.audioss on tiktok

Song: Like Me - Chase Icon

[sidereus-stars]

lintrollers in the head tonighttt

[anastacialy]

this has been such an experience i keep feeling like im waking up from a fever dream

doctor who rouge came out One week ago? you're telling me that was six days prior to Everything that just happened in front of my eyeballs?

[denfucker]

dennis... he is so interesting... silly, even...

to be worshipped is one thing. to be worshipped is a given. who wouldn't worship him? he leaves and the gang changes because who are they without him? he comes back and the gang chooses him because why wouldn't they? and the d.e.n.n.i.s system and being a golden god and demonstrate value, so they only see what you present and not what you are. sex is what you are. you are a god. see past the golden god and there's nothing there. engage physically. that's it, that's you. engage physically and they won't ask too many questions. nurture dependence, they want you. they worship you. they need you. neglect emotionally, once they start to get too close and worship and obsession tips into what you think is love. inspire hope, so they'll leave and come back again, because you decide what goes and what doesn't. and nothing goes. you are golden and perfect. they will never leave.

then. separate entirely. you leave first. they will cling onto you and kneel at your altar and miss the perfect version of you, and you will only be known as the golden god and you will only be remembered for sex because that is what you are.

and that's all you need. you need worship, you need obsession. you don't need to be loved, or known, because what does that bring you? to be known is to see past the facade. to be known means presenting every bit of yourself, every flaw and imperfection that you try to scrub and dye and push away before it becomes too obvious. and what do you do, when someone knows you, and they don't like what they see?

what then?

[iconic-k1sses]

yk shits bad when ur posting on Tumblr again

[the-pea-and-the-sun]

i keep starting posts abt death note and then stopping to start a new post about some other death note opinion like fuck i have so much to say. i need to relax genuinely. jts just a vaguely misogynist yaoi anime like i need to remind myself that in a year or even probably a few months something else will feel like its encompassing my entire life an dn literally will not matter to me. i know this to be true because this is how i do everything all the time always but its so unbelievable like. autistic obsession rly does make me a little bit delusional every single time. im always like "well THIS art/story/subject is DIFFERENT and clearly of unique importance and significance compared to that last thing i was obsessed with (an every thing ive been obsessed w ever)" like no matter how much i understand that logically to not be the case i genuinely cant convince myself to actually believe it. like ik this time last year i was just as much if not more obsessed with moomin valley but it just. doesnt feel true like it feels unique and special every time its so strange. death note is a story its pretty good its silly its fun its camp its suspenseful like i can acknowledge these things to be true in a normal way but it is also the most important thing on earth to me right now and i need everyone else to know all of the time. its enormous in my mind its radius expands to so many other Important Things to the extent that whether its actually objectively good or significant i could not tell you right now because it is eclipsing my entire mind. i can talk abt its objective value and significance all day but it does not matter bcz i will not stop being able to think about it regardless. fuck man. being autistic is crazy. my most consistent hobby is being in the throws of obsession. also the way im phrasing this sounds like its distressing me but i love it i love being in the throws of obsession i love it every single time it happens i just love it so intensely that the idea of it having less significance to me or to others than it has right now seems incredibly strange. what do other ppl even get out of watching tv shows and reading books if not this. i need to relax i need some coffee

[lunaticalis]

see the thing is zosan is easily predicted to be my fave one piece ship, but then lawlu came outta left field and got my brain in an iron grip. it all started from me checking out a lawlu jp artist art on twt and got hooked, I See The Vision