#im freal yall

[jessafuria]

I need some help. You know like nobody can get through to me. The thought of another day of this life I'm in. I gotta finish this mothers day card and say goodbye to eliot then I am going to go see if I can find out the final mysteries. You know cuz nobody is listening and turns out this whole thing was for nothing. Like there ain't no drake and I guess eliot isn't God and e he never liked me anyways. So like I cant take care of myself. There ain't nobody want me around I just you know I wish my mom never had me. I mean I don't know what else to say the people around me I mean they hurt so bad too and they aim their guns at me and now I'm so self conscious and anxiety never goes away all my hope is gone i can't God you should just shut this whole world off

It's not gonna work. I want to leap off the overpass freal. I don't want help anymore. Once people help u they think you owe them. And eliot I loved you the most and you just ruined my entire life. For nothing I Haye even 5alking about anything to anyone anymore. Shit just don't even matter. YOU KNOW IM TRYING TO FALL ASLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP MY GUY. U KNOW LIKE FENTYNLNL IS A BEAUTIFUL THING. I TRY TO TEACH THESE FOOLS. THEY DONT LISTEN THEY DONT WANT. Savior they want a scapegoat. U know i could have fixed everything but ya'll to scared and proud to give me credit or save my ass. It's not worth to you to even try my top theory. Please me and make my dreams come true and everyone's will too. Just one girl. Just me and the rest will nah fuck yall imma give up on you guys like there's no more me. I really really liked lionel too. Bye lionel.

[post-hoc-fallacy]

SEX

Alright got your attention. So if ya suck at wanting to sex or can sex pretty good once you get into it but just never think about this supposed pinnacle of human enjoyment untill you do, ive got a revelation for ya. Im usually pretty skeptical about "self help" books and junk but said eh why not and stumbled upon Dr. Emily Nagoski's Come As You Are and bought that shit.

Alright hear me out, I'm not done the book yet (like half way through) but it reads like a text book with some fun nerd references and if my college lvl psych class says anything, her research seems to be science based and sound. But I didn't even explain anything did I? Well, instead of 10 ways to satisfy your partner, Dr. Nagoski goes into the science and psychology of why people like myself (who never spontaneously want sex except for hormone going crazy time of the month) are perfectly normal and why we function the way we do. I hate when people plug crap like this, but with Dr. Nagoskis book, it felt like reading a biology or psychology book which I love just straight facts and no bullcrap. Some of the language she uses can be kinda "how do you do fellow kids" but for the most part it seems like part of the marketing and her just wanting to be relatable to people like myself (late 20 somethings), and just wanting to appeal to the widest range of people possible (also completely understandable since she usually teaches college kids).

Anywho, at the very least, her methodology and research seems sound to my very limited scope of psychology and resonates deeply with an insecurity I've had for at least a decase now. so at the very least I wanted to get a conversation started or plant some seeds in peoples mind weather this post gets reblogged or not. Dr. Nagoski's basic message (from what Ive read so far) is that no matter how much or how little you want sex, you are normal. No matter how your bits are rearranged, or colored, or shaped, you are normal. We're all made up of the same stuff, just organized differently and that is normal.

For many this might be beasic stuff, butbfor me it was revolutionary, that I'm not the only person who doesn't think sex is an end all be all, but isn't exactly asexual. I mean I still enjoy it in my own time, but I wanted to start a conversation, and even if I reach one of my followers, I've done my part. You're not alone, you're normal, there's nothing wrong with you and I love you and feel like you do too.

So here's a link to Dr. Nagoski's opening chapter of her books Come As You Are. It has the dumb "kinda looks like vag but is just a (insert innocuous object here) cover that marketing a book requires, but I assure you the facts and psychology is sound. Some words may be trying to hard to sound relevant, but if you look beyond that the messge of an accomplished, well educated, well established sex researcher is there.

https://medium.com/@enagoski/pleasure-is-the-measure-d8c5a2dff33f

If you're like me, and sex just isnt that sexy, im there for ya. I feel and respect ya. I'm married to boot and working my way through but there is hopefully a way out for those of us who want to work towards it.

[mcgrathandwives]

after months of trying to find a place that sells my size:

yah boi just got their first binder

[ariyadaivaris]

hmmmmm...........jack and ariya............................should..................................................hold h*nds

[homingpigecns]

imagine if twitter had a functional tagging system that allowed me to filter out content i don’t like.... NO!! TOO UNREALISTIC

(also if u didnt know im on twitter a lot now pls follow me @jailsgrr or drop your handle so we can Connect)

[kyojinsenshu]

See, now when someone actually bites him yall wanna get yall knickers in a twist because they saw your post encouraging this rude ass shit but cook on I guess sis

He’s okay with biting. Someone kill me.

[tocatchapedophile]

@ previous anon: im not ace but im also not an idiot. if youre ace, you dont have SEXUAL attraction. you can have ROMANTIC attraction. ace peeps can be het. its not rocket science.

i used to id as ace but the community is so homophobic that i just.... dont. i cant take them.

but like freal yall..... this is a pedo hunting blog not an ace discourse blog

- mod strider

[alwaysycu]

1,6,8,15, 20,28,33,36,40,41,46,50 ❤

woah lots of numbers

1: favorite boy? if u can’t tell by my blog i would die for louis william tomlinson so that’s that (but ofc i love all of them equally)

6: favorite music video? probably best song ever just cause it’s really fun n all the boys are very cute in it!! but also, drag me down!! is!! a masterpiece!!

8: favorite interview? hm………probably majority of the mitam ones, esp the one they did in Mexico (where the iconic larry moment happened), also the late late show!! 

15: most favorite song on each album? BUCKLE UP YALL

uan: WHEN I SEE YOOOOOOOU WITH HIMMMMMMMM SLOOOOOW DANCING!!!

tmh: honestly this album had so many bops fuck,,,,,,but back for you always has me boppin

mm: EVERYONE TRIES (THEY TRY) TO SEE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE (FEELS LIIIKEE) BUT THEY’LL NEVER BE RIGHT CAUSE ITS BETTER (ITS BETTER) IT BETTER!!!!!!!!!

four: f i r e p r o o f (and no control because duh)

mitam: i lovelovelove wolves (FIGHT ME ALL OF U ITS A GREAT SONG) & love you goodbye

20: Feelings on Sophia? i never kept up with her kahdkjshhs

28: one song they should take off the setlist? sorry but i dont really enjoy little white lies im SORRY

33: favorite rumor? all larry ‘rumors’ ;))))

36: did you see the 1d movie in theatres? i wasnt actually in the fandom at that time, i was kinda dippin my toe into it, so no

40: simon cowell: yay or nay?? whomst??????? (but freal ive always wanted to audition for txf and agt, so just to get his opinion on my voice would be cool. but to work with him long term……nope)

41: favorite lyric change? “i have loved him since we were eighteen” and also “tell me will u ever fuck me again, love me agaiiiiiin”

46: favorite inside joke within the fandom? idk if this counts but all the zayn jokes make me giggle kahdjashd also #ohnoniall is still hilarious 

50: favorite moment of pride for the boys? when they all took off to do the solo stuff. my heart fills with pride every time they get another # 1, another award. i will never stop being proud of them.

ask me 1d stuff!

[post-hoc-fallacy]

Dear Lily, im sorry i drew you while i was kinda buzzed, but you were also the only villager who wanted to move out when wanted Piper to move in so I have mixed feelings. Stay adorable but dont come running back lol

yours bitterly,

post hoc