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Jason Grace x Childish!Reader
warnings; none ! author's notes; STAND ALONE JASON GRACE CONTENT AFTER YEARS OF TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO WRITE FOR HIM :(( i love you jason grace, you would've adored watching cartoons with me !
MR SERIOUS AND HIS SUPER UNSERIOUS PARTNER ???
you already know they're gonna be the power couple !!!
sticking stickers on him when he's stressing over demigod things or school work maybe
like he's clenching his pencil/sword in his hand and you just show up putting a little "you can do it !" star sticker on his face and he loosens up a bit
has an entire notebook filled with stickers you've given him :3
his desk is ALSO full of the sheets, empty and filled
moving on from stickers !
you make him watch cartoons with you fairly often, mainly just because he likes being around you and it's usually what you're doing anyways soo
would've ate up scooby doo me thinks and maybe adventure time ? maybe even over the garden wall
CRAYON DRAWING TOGETHER ??
because what better way to destress from almost dying everyday of your life than to draw your partner in crayon ?
really likes the older Disney movies like aristocats and lady and the tramp !
comments on how they're kinda like you guys which makes you go crazy
gifting each other little trinkets ?? i think soo !!!
you guys probably have like- matching lps toys
and you do stuff like this with them^^
Leo teases him for it but he really does nott care. like at all.
as long as you're happy, he's happy and he wouldn't have it any other way !
he honestly finds your ability to stay so happy go lucky and positive quite amusing
you're a demigod risking their life everyday and yet you still like coloring and dragging a stuffed animal around like a child ?
he just wonders how you do it..
continuing on, i think you being childish and loud probably helps him break some of his.. prim and proper Roman child soldier stuff !
like sometimes you'll catch him having a little skip on his step or humming a song you got stuck in his head
anything that breaks character for him is a little win in your book :)
starts keeping little candies you like on him maybe ?
like he always has fruit snacks or sour gummy worms for you
nobody really questions it and just assumes someone just gave it to him
that's until you show up by his side and he hands it to you with a soft smile !
probably warns you about cavities and whatnot but im sure he realizes it's never gonna stick-
this was kind of all over the place so im super sorry for that ! i just REALLY needed to finally writing something for one of my faves :((
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Could you do what it’s like for the reader to take care of sick Stu w a cold? :D
Reader x Stu w a cold
I’m sorry I thought I already sent this but I forgot…When I seen this I remembered what a post I made about this😭😭
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When Stu is sick boy oh boy is he so dramatic… He acts likes he dying and wants to be hold. He would literally say the most dumbest shit ever.
Stu would be clingy more than usual...Im talking about x1000 times worse. When he takes a nap, you best believe you aren’t going anywhere. This scooby doo William Afton will have a death grip on you like a baby with a hand of your rice.
He’s winey and ask you if you love him for the one million time. Billy was there to drop by and Stu just started accusing him of random shit😭😭 Honestly, he’s a drama queen but, you love him nonetheless. He would talk nonstop you had scotch tape on the table side just in case….You know…
PLEASE for the love of god don’t let this man kiss you…The moment you do he’s not gonna stop
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*Stu and reader are watching arlo the alligator boy*
Stu:….When I die stay away from Billy
Y/N: *Slowly look at him*
Stu: What?
Y/N: Don’t what me boy! We are literally watching a masterpiece and you saying the MOST outrageous shit!?
Stu:*randomly bite you* Your marked
Reader:……
Reader: Why are you like this?
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#slasher x reader#stu macher x reader#ask me questions#thanks for the ask!#answered ask#anon ask#ask to tag#ask me anything
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Ok ok ONE more question abt Time Travelers Trio. Are Cavendish and Dakota still time Travelers as well at this point, or have they like retired or smth? Just curious as to what's up with them? :^D
finally going to answer this question! i have thought long and hard about it and come up with two answers: the short one and the deranged rambling one!
the short, less satisfying answer being: i think it could go either way! i really truly could see them either scrambling their way back into time traveling or finding jobs in the 21st century. Although.. i find the latter choice not quite as entertaining. So i prefer to think on the idea of them returning to time travel!
Now, The long answer:
(TLDR for it first: I think they may continue time traveling. Eventually Cavendish & Dakota start their own, rival to the time bureau, Time Traveling Agency. Whether the trio will be part of this agency is undecided but a probable yes.)
ok, so, theyre banned from time travel, full stop... But i mean, they know the guy who INVENTED it. its a silly solution, really & truly very goofy (although i think in line with the silliness of dwampyverse overall) but .. They could ask doof to make a rule that theyre allowed to continue time traveling. Total oversight by block to trap them in the century where doof invents time travel. Of course block wouldn't just Let this happen, or anything, but cartoon shenanigans ensue and im sure you can picture something sufficiently entertaining and set to the scooby-doo-door-chase song here.
The interest for me in this theory lies also in what dakota and cavendish would do up until the point where they return to time traveling! Trying to imagine them working regular jobs for like, a 10-15 year period.. i simply cannot.! The one ive found myself having the most fun thinking about is the idea of them helping out with the creation of the time machine, as well as coaching the trio on it a bit once they start testing doof's prototypes (although, theyre not the best people to ask for time traveling help i imagine HAHA). But in any case.. i also think they would change what they do with their time traveling quite a bit. I mean, neither of them WANT to do the pistachio stuff.. It's shown you can travel through time AND space, although they never leave the planet on screen (for pistachio purposes i would think). If they were in charge of their own missions, i quite think they would be doing much more exciting things! and. hopefully dying less...! CAVENDISH...
OK I SWEAR IM GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THIS. Because at this point i feel they are getting old and perhaps wishing to do something less dangerous.. Ok get ready for this.. This has been my favorite thing to think about today... What if they started their OWN time travel agency! A Ha! I might find this more exciting than other people, but nonetheless, i think its fitting. I mean, Block is a terrible boss. The bureau of time travel was never very kind to cav and dakota, and given that they have the resources (Doofenschmirtz! Love That Guy!) why not, right? plus, this gives the opportunity for some Secret Agency vs Secret Agency goodness. Which I always love. I only thought of this concept recently, but It's definitely my favorite of the bunch, so probably what I'll go with! Just left to decide whether the trio are part of this agency or not (probably yes).
#tttau#hi guys. feeling super normal#Can you tell ive been reading frankenstein with the commas in this... im sorry if so HLEP...#milo murphy's law#au#asks#Feel free to ask more questions!! I love to think about this au ^_^
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AO3 Tag Game!
Tagged by @mvshortcut :) I did it here as well but now I'm doing it for this fandom/account bc I CAN (a lot of this will be directly copy/pasted if applicable im sowwy)
How many works do you have on AO3?
116. (Including snippet collections.) For this fandom/account. Far more if you count others,
What’s your total AO3 word count?
Okay this one it won't let me separate by pseud or fandom so you're just gonna have to live with being lumped in with all my MBS and a few other misc fics at "653,461". Didn't get the other accounts though. Man, I'm a mess
How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?
Okay, well, this one by nature is also not solely for this fandom,
(number in parentheses is number of ao3 works posted)
The Mysterious Benedict Society (116) (including snippet collections)
Ted Lasso (44) (also including snippet collections)
Instinct (2) (one is a small snippet collection--)
House MD (1)
Death by Dying (1)
Gravity Falls, technically, but it was one crossover (1)
ditto with The Legend of Zelda (1)
King Falls AM (1)
The House in the Cerulean Sea (6)
Shadowhunters (??? at least 36) (some now hidden/lost)
Professor Layton (1)
The Librarians (2)
The Sandman (1)
The Mentalist (2)
Star Trek (AOS) (1)
Sanders Sides (at least 1)
Miraculous Ladybug (1)
Rosewell: New Mexico (2)
The Dresden Files (1)
That's stuff posted to ao3/finished. There's also, technically,
for stuff I published when I was twelve and I now refuse to acknowledge (not all bc of the fandom but bc the fic was Bad):
Doctor Who
Supernatural
Sherlock
Psych
Castle
Welcome to Night Vale
Avengers
A Series of Unfortunate Events
And then stuff I've written for but never finished:
Warehouse 13
Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency (2016)
Dirk Gently (2010)
SurrealEstate
Zoo (podcast)
Once Upon a Time
Scooby Doo
Person of Interest
The Goes Wrong Show
Spy Kids (???)
Ace Attorney
The Adventure Zone
Criminal Minds
Star Trek (TOS, TNG, and DS9)
Haven
MacGyver
Trollhunters
exactly one (1) joke The Magnus Archives fic
Percy Jackson and the Olympians + The Kane Chronicles + Tales of Apollo
Leverage
Pushing Daisies
The Sarah Jane Adventures
Megamind
Bones
Avatar: the Last Airbender
Lucifer
Some of these are deeply questionable and/or only have like two (2) wips or even posted works at most, but I'm thorough. Also, I will write about almost anything bc my brain loves to process things like this. I may have even missed something
Top five fics by kudos:
I was gonna have the snippets collections not count but I've got so many exact ties it doesn't matter.
gemini schmemini (136)
kate and her bucket sitting in a tree, S-P-Y-I-N-G (98)
caught (81)
[insert poetic title here] (81)
affectionate gestures<3 (81)
of rube goldbergs and weather machines (74)
tumblr snippets: mbs edition (74)
keeping out the cold (70)
birdsong (70)
Number Two Regrets Her Life Choices™ (68)
timeline? i don't know her (68)
That's actually 6 bc I made a mistake but I've already color coded them so whatever
Do you respond to comments?
I really try to, but then I get all in my head about it and/or am really really tired and put it off so long it then feels like it would be weird to respond because it's been forever. However, if there's a direct question or something I want to address/respond to, as in, I have something particularly unique to say or a question to answer, then I'll usually respond really fast.
And this fandom's smaller so if I'm slightly more likely to respond 😭
Also when I know who's commenting personally which is al ot more likely
What’s the fic with the angstiest ending you’ve ever written?
Honestly, I'm not a huge unhappy ending person, but. uhhh
solo
bring me home (in a blinding dream)
hollowed
seasalt
checkmate
dark side of the moon
wretched clarity
cruel kindness
green-eyed monster
the naming of cats
curled & crushed
oops
I didn't even look at the snippet collections lkgfhjh
Do you write crossovers?
Not often, but I rotate them in my brain. Honestly, though, I'm more inclined to write a fusion than a crossover proper. And even so, I tend to just be thinking about it rather than actually writing it. I've only written one crossover in recent memory (recently, that is) and it was mostly a joke about a shared actress made into actual angst. :)
Have you ever gotten hate on a fic?
Yeah lmao
Do you write smut?
😏 ......not for this fandom. That I'd post anyway
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
👁️👁️ not. Directly in this fandom
Have you ever had a fic translated?
yes!! also not in this fandom
What’s your all-time favorite ship?
In this fandom? Nicholas/Milligan. Overall, ever? Recency bias/hyperfixationitis says whatever I'm into the most at the moment. But generally for MBS I prefer gen (although I've written a lot of Nicholas/Milligan, that's partially because it's blissfully easier to find gen already)
What’s a WIP that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will?
:(
SO many
Particularly minotaur, the dearly departed, and the "paralyzed" series. Oh and the hanahaki AU
What are your writing strengths?
I think I can write a really funny string of dialogue, and I'm also fond of fun metaphors, both in the elegant poetic way and in the more Douglas Adams/Terry Pratchett way (which is to say, still potentially elegant but also comedic as hell)
What are your writing weaknesses?
Motivating myself to write anything; being overly self-indulgent
What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fics?
I'm extremely bad at linguistics in general, so if I must include someone talking in another language in my fic, I think I'd tend to cheat and do italics or some other indication that this is 'in another language' (ie "Where are you going?" she asked in Russian), but that's admittedly a lazy approach. But I also think it's probably better than butchering it with an auto-translator? Also, when people just include the translation in the end notes, even with a link (although that makes it marginally better) it breaks the flow of the story and makes it hard to read. Making an effort to at least match grammar is good (which I would do if it was for longer than a single scene, probably) but I think the best solution is when people know what they're doing and like, have an actual translation with a little html code so you can click on it and it reveals what it means? Or if you're clever, revealing what it means using context around it, but that has its own limitations. So that both like, uses the actual language and doesn't break up the flow. It balances accessibility, flow, and respect for the other language in question well. But you've got to both know what you're doing with the language (either asking someone/hiring someone/knowing the language yourself) and the html (although there are guides for that you'd have to spend time figuring it out + know it exists in the first place to look). And this is fanfiction, something we ultimately do for free in our spare time, so the lazy approach, I think, can be understandable. Maybe not in every context, but it's not worth stressing a lot over in a few random lines or anything, you know? It is really cool when people do know a language well enough to include it properly in a fic, though, it can say a lot about a character or dynamic; and their background(s) and like. it's neat :)
What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?
Ever? Doctor Who. In a shitty little notebook in middle school. Then there was some Star Trek (both TNG and TOS) and Avatar: the Last Airbender and Marvel and such, and then Supernatural (my first smut? extremely terrible Destiel smut. rip) and I think the first thing I ever posted was Welcome to Night Vale? Not sure.
What’s your favorite fic you’ve written so far?
Oh, man. I have no idea. Here's a few favorites from this fandom:
cain's lament
minotaur
shades of green
a hope in hell
Number Two Regrets Her Life Choices™
tagging:
PLEASE, if you want to do this, I'm begging you, tag me in it and do it. i'm too tired to come up with names im so sorry
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Comeback to Tumblr!❤️🩹
hi guys im here...again! :-)
Twitter is slowly dying and I'd rather come back here and create a cooler place where I can reblog things that I like and feel good and be myself. This time, I want this to be an opportunity to create better ties with people (like on twitter, i guess lol)
Welcome back here to myself lol...and hi moots! 💓✨
Get to know me
dean; she/her, 24 yo, bi goblin, vegan🌱
I'm from Spain/España.
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Some Fandoms i'm really into right now: Scream franchise, The Locked Tomb, Hannibal, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Chucky franchise, Twin Peaks, Miraculous Ladybug, Interview with the Vampire, Supernatural, Ohsama Sentai King-ohger, Sanrio, Resident Evil, Bluey, My Little Pony, Godzilla, Labyrinth, The Wizard of Oz, Dungeons and Dragons, Smallville, Scooby-doo, Shin Chan, Monster High.
Other fandoms i like: Shameless, The Walking Dead, From Series, Criminal Minds, Nana, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Genshin impact, Winx Club, Hamtaro, Chobits, We Bare Bears, True Blood, Hemlock Grove, Doctor Who, Sonic The Hedgehog, Steven Universe, Regular Show, Ouran High School Host Club, Downton Abbey, Dexter, Grey's Anatomy, What we do in the Shadows, Only murders in the building, The Boys, Friends, From dusk till dawn, Kamisama Kiss, That' 70s Show, Bates Motel, The Care Bears, IT books and movies, HIMYF, Charmed, Stranger Things, Nos4a2, etc.
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Some music i like: Twice, Girli, Wednesday Campanella, Selena Gomez, David Bowie, Elton John, (G)-idle, Girls' Generation, Red Velvet, Blackpink, B.I, Jeon Somi, Mia Rodriguez, Loona, Marina, Maneskin, Aitana, Rosalía, Boys World, Charli XCX, Wallows, Avril Lavigne, Paramore, Mamamoo, Bibi, Taemin, Sabrina Carpenter, Dove Cameron, Aurora, The Smiths, Jackson Wang, Kailee Morgue, Stray Kids, Taichi Mukai, beabadoobee, Angèle, Clairo, Taeyeon, Victoria Justice, Weathers, Miyavi, Solar, Hwasa, Aimyon, iKON, Yoasobi, Pomme, Sunmi, Xylø, Suda Masaki, Nirvana...
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Hii! I wanted to send some asks for the game thingy if thats ok :> /g
1, 4, 5, 8, 21, 22, 31, 34, 42, 44, 45, 49, 50
Sorry theres so much, Im just really curious! Dont feel obligated to answer them all though <3 /lh /g
-🕯️(I hope this one isnt taken ah-)
HELLO! >:D!
and no need to apologize! i like questions! >:P
ALSO YOU’RE MY FIRST ANON WHICH IS VERY EXCITING FOR ME >:D /gen /pos
1. “do you ever wish you were someone else”
yes! very often :P
4. “have you ever dyed your hair”
yes! i love dying my hair ><, i just recently dyed it purple >:D
5. “what’s your eye color”
hazel! it’s like a muddy green with specs of blue and right on the outer ring of my pupil is like a brown explosion >:D!
8. “what would you say is your best quality”
probably my understanding (?) of people! like my empathy i believe is what it’s called! :D (words are hard man >:/) i can pretty much put myself into any and everyone’s shoes for the most part! :P
21. “do you believe in love at first sight”
yes!! i don’t really experience love the way others do (i’m aromantic) but sometimes i’ll meet someone or just like see them (online + real life) and i’ll get this strong pull to just protect them and care about them no matter what! :D
22. “do you believe in soulmates”
y e s !!!!!! all kinds of soulmates! i love it!!! even the tragic soulmates :< </3
31. “how does someone win your heart”
that’s a good question! hm! just be obsessed with me like i am with you, don’t be an asshole >:[! love me unconditionally and just bond with me, take time out of your day to spend with me and i’ll do the same (i’m quite overbearing though :])
34. “do you get jealous easily”
yes!! >:0, i’m a very jealous and possessive person >:/, sometimes i’ll tryyyyy to hide it, but where’s the fun in that? :P (i am pretty shy, i don’t like overstepping)
42. “favorite type of movie”
HORROR!!!! i love that shit! >:D! or animation (SCOOBY FUCKING DOO IS T H E SHIT >:D)
44. “are you good at hiding your feelings”
yes! unless i’m sleepy, super irritated, or around lots of people :P
45. “do you fall in love easily”
yes! i get attached very easily, it happens so fast i barely realize it’s happening, i love it :D
49. “where’s the most magical place on earth”
a playground :0, or a circus!! ><
50. “what’s your type”
yes. i don’t really have a set type, well, i like possessive, obsessive, kind, alt, <3 clowns <3, i think that’s all? this is a rough question for me :/ hehe
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I posted 1,489 times in 2022
That's 1,489 more posts than 2021!
450 posts created (30%)
1,039 posts reblogged (70%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@andromedaspark
@ghostlynimbus
@flashwaves
@imsodishy
@every-dayiwakeup
I tagged 1,430 of my posts in 2022
Only 4% of my posts had no tags
#q - 597 posts
#stranger things - 588 posts
#billy hargrove - 379 posts
#ghost.txt - 359 posts
#steve harrington - 308 posts
#harringrove - 203 posts
#eddie munson - 178 posts
#gif - 136 posts
#chrissy cunningham - 131 posts
#eddissy - 115 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#ideally id like something higher stakes than like... scooby doo but i also dont want to feel constantly worried about main characters dying
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
I love when people hc that Billy wouldnt consider Jason a threat, its a lot of fun to read that.
But also consider:
Billy who doesn't consider Jason, by himself, to be a *physical* threat. He knows he can take Jason in a fight. Hell, he's pretty sure Max is scrappy enough that she could take Jason in a fight.
But Billy is still scared of him. Billy is terrified of the smooth talking, privileged, religious asshole and the potential social threat he could be.
Jason isn't dangerous because he's unhinged and will fight whoever, that'd be manageable to Billy, Jason is dangerous because he is *really* good at turning the narrative in his favor and starting witch hunts.
And that... I think that'd be terrifying for queer-coded Billy Hargrove.
(intentional or otherwise, i think it was a really meaningful detail that they showed Robin immediately after Eddie's "hunt the freak?" line. when she was just talking about how dangerous it'd be if she asked the wrong girl out earlier in the season.)
197 notes - Posted July 9, 2022
#4
In an AU where Hopper ends up taking in Billy too, El picks up Billy's habit of saying "I can't do [x] im gay."
only she doesn't understand what it means really or what context is appropriate to use it in or that Billy's mostly being sarcastic/joking when he says it (he can in fact do math, and he personally thinks his driving skills are just fine thank you very much).
And it eventually leads to a situation like that one scene in Modern Family, with Hopper telling El "You're not gay you're just confused!" way louder than he meant to in the public space they're in.
219 notes - Posted September 5, 2022
#3
s3 au where the mindflayer gets into billy but just... for some reason it can't really control him.
like at first the mind flayer thinks things are working, but it actually turns out that the things it was trying to make billy do were actually just things billy decided to do anyway
and the mindflayer just thinks he needs more time or to try harder or whatever to break billy and take over but just... nothing is working. by the time the mindflayer decides fuck it "i'll find a more convenient pawn" it discovers to it's horror that it can't voluntarily leave billy either.
billy still gets the heat aversion and the super strength and healing, and he's just like 'huh, that's weird' and continues on with his life.
Billy & the mindflayer:
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281 notes - Posted September 23, 2022
#2
Billy and Steve start hanging out and Billy starts noticing that Steve doesn't know how to do a lot of basic stuff, and the stuff he does know how to do he does weird.
At first Billy dismisses these observations as being a product of Steve having grown up rich, like.. of course Steve doesn't know how to change the oil on his car, he can afford to take the thing in regularly and pay someone else to do it. But the more they spend time together the more Billy realizes that thats not quite right.
The Harrington's have a shiny fancy working dishwasher (Billy knows it works, he's seen Henderson use it). But Steve always washes dishes by hand.
And it's definitely not that Steve is just some weirdo who likes hand washing dishes, he clearly hates doing it, but he still never uses the dishwasher.
And going grocery shopping with Steve is an actual nightmare, Billy thought he hated shopping with Max (who somehow always convinces him to buy her shit she doesn't need), but Steve... Steve makes shopping with Max seem well worth the wasted money.
The way he meanders about the store, flitting back and forth between the aisles and constantly doubling back to get something else that was right next to something he grabbed twenty minutes ago is absolutely incomprehensible to Billy. A shopping trip that would take Billy twenty minutes, even with Max tagging along, takes Steve at least an hour.
Billy also pretty quickly learns that if anyone ever points out any of these oddities, Steve will react in one of two ways.
Either he'll try and brush it off and downplay the whole situation or he'll get extremely prickly and defensive about it.
Billy does not understand, but the puzzle of it all fascinates him.
It's not until one time when Steve's parents come back early from a business trip that it finally clicks.
Billy had been staying the night, eager for more time with Steve and time away from Neil. He was supposed to be long gone by the time Mr and Mrs Harrington got back, but apparently their plans had changed last minute.
Billy woke to an empty bed, and Steve's empty bedroom, and had made his way downstairs just in time to accidentally catch the tail end of Steve's father berating him for apparently doing the laundry incorrectly.
It was clear Steve's dad had already been talking for a while, and the part that Billy caught was too long by itself.
And in all that time and with all those words Mr Harrington had for his son it was clear that not one of them were any sort of instructions on how to correct the mistake, no hint of how to do it right next time.
When Steve finally emerged from his father's study, looking so resigned (at least until he noticed Billy then he looked embarrassed), it was clear to Billy that this was Mr Harringtons usual way of handling such matters.
And that was when Billy finally understood that the reason Steve didn't know how to do basic things, or did them in weird incomprehensible ways, was because no one had ever taught him. They'd just expected him to start doing these things and then gotten mad when he didn't manage to do them to unspecified standards.
Months later, when Billy and Steve have moved into their own shitty tiny little apartment downtown, Billy starts showing Steve how to do shit. It's hard, trying to toe the line between gentle instruction and patronizing, especially since they both have so little experience with gentle but eventually, despite the times it blows up in their faces and one of them stomps off somewhere to cool off, they get better at it.
And as it turns out, Steve can actually be pretty good at all sorts of stuff as long as someone bothers to teach him.
446 notes - Posted November 2, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Thinking about Billy with food allergies/intolerances today.
Neil refuses to accommodate Billy's issues in any way. Susan makes whatever she makes for meals, maybe she knows about Billy's issues and is just forgetful about it, maybe she just doesn't care, maybe she doesn't even know about them in the first place. Whatever susans reasoning or justification the stuff that Billy shouldn't eat shows up in meals at the Hargrove-Mayfield house pretty regularly.
Billy isn't allowed to not finish his meals, that would be rude and wasteful. So he just does what he has to do and accepts that he'll suffer the consequences later.
He avoids meals at home whenever possible. But he also doesn't exactly have a lot of spending money to go out and get things he can eat (and lbr, depending on what specifically he's allergic to/intolerant of, it may be difficult or even impossible to find stuff he can eat that is cheap and doesn't require a kitchen to prep).
So he has a lot of times when he has to choose between not eating or going home and potentially having to eat stuff he isn't supposed to.
Steve at some point ends up making a meal for Billy and it includes the thing(s) Billy isn't supposed to eat bc he doesn't know. Billy doesn't tell him, just cleans his plate like he's expected to at home. He doesn't really care, it's what he's used to only better bc this was something that Steve made for him which in Billy's opinion makes it automatically better than anything Susan has ever made.
Only it's not like Billy can just leave after the meal is over, they still have plans to hang out for a while longer after that.
And Billy's good at hiding this sort of thing, Neil didn't like when Billy kept getting sent home from school because lunch kept making him sick. So Billy got good at hiding the reaction he has to this sort of thing. But Steve, Steve notices anyway.
And at first Steve is freaking out bc he thinks he gave Billy food poisoning, but then (because he can't stand Steve looking all anxious and upset with himself) Billy says that it's fine he's just not supposed to eat [xyz].
At which point Steve asks some variety of "then why did you eat it?/why didn't you tell me?"
And Billy just shrugs and tries to act like it's no big deal and mentions that he eats it all the time it's not like it's going to kill him.
Nothing gets resolved completely that night, but Steve makes Billy write him a list of all the things he shouldn't eat and a list of all the things he doesn't like to eat and Steve studies that list.
He starts making Billy food he can actually enjoy whenever he comes over, and when he notices that Billy either doesn't have lunch or has a lunch that has stuff on the lists he starts making him lunches too.
Billy can't even remember the last time he felt so well fed and taken care of, and he experiences a significant and overall improvement to his health. His new better diet even clears up issues he didn't even realize we're because of the food thing.
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succession s4
ep 4
im actually rlly into logan dying i think the tension between the siblings is rlly spicy
“your reading documents is what ur doing ken”
“they may think theyre vikings but we were raised by wolves” most cringe shit gerri has said
the hood up look is actually kinda fire
oh the swedish guy is eating them up
everyone is dressed so well this ep
“just trying to make you fucking rich” “already rich :3”
this ep is so midsommar
he sent his blood to his employee 😭
“might be hard for you but stop sending people your blood”
“it’s quad squad type shit”
“your ear lobes are thick and chewy like barnacle meat” okk
“his two big boys playing scooby doo” 🫢
roman and kendall are bad at getting what they want lol
ep 5
uhg i hate that he’s not wearing shoes
“no one can say no” uh don’t like that
wtf is bitey 😭
they’re including greg more than they include shiv 😭 also shiv knows abt the swedish guy’s weird blood thing so like
“but you’re not your dad”
kendall loves a jacket and i actually support him in that
living plus is just disneyland senior home?
stop kendall is so unserious
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i was gonna say that i knew that sarah michelle gellar dyed her hair for scooby do and thus we were going to see that in the show, and that gone was where i noticed it, but then i found out that she was wearing a wig (that i thought was her dye job from scooby do) and then i found out that she wore a wig in the movie so. im 0-2
#anyway i love the color of the wig its kinda strawberry blonde so i was like oh the red dye is starting to fade :)#buffy the vampire slayer
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To ZENA . My 3rd dog. I was in 8th grade when we got you. time had already gone bye from grandma dying and then just soon after my 2nd dog ROXY died.
If it wasnt for Roxy dying...i wouldnt have met you.
Oh you big silly dog.
Zena im scared. Today we are getting a new dog. But ill never forget our bond. You knew me from 13-23. You knew me in a tragic time. You brought me peace. So i guess thats what this next dog is suppose to do right?????
I dont want to love something again when i know it will die. Seeing you grow old to the last of your days was hard for me. Thankfully i was living with my grandma,she is alive, i was away so i didnt have to see you suffering every moment.
I love you so much zena. Im so cold and angry without you. Im alone.
I miss your nose. I really want to see you again.
Thank you for being the best side kick.
Im getting older now. Im 27. This is a new chapter in my book. Your chapter was the most life changing. It made me who i am today.
Everyone loved you. They still remember you. "The horse" "scooby doo"
You beautiful angel. My life is changing quickly and i know youre right behind me guarding my aura.
The new dog will be here any minute. Im scared. Im not ready. I didnt ask for this.... but its how its written.
Zena. You're my #1
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i love this so much and i also think it's why having in essence 2 series finales works so well!! because we see what happens if you don't change that system and it's that buffy fucking dies. we see where we end if we don't change the system and it's her gravestone. she saved the world a lot and that's it. she's dead. world still needing saving.
but also the way that every season finale is on some level about: are you going to accept the status quo or are you going to struggle against it, that's the neverending friction
prophecy girl: buffy meets her terrible fate and also she flunks the written | becoming: buffy being GIVEN her fate in the first place in the flashbacks. willow changing angel's fate. buffy having to kill angel anyway. buffy leaving her society entirely because her fate has both been changed too much and also not changed at all. and then that being the lead-in to anne!
primeval/restless as a combo pack!! it's the /you could never grasp the source of our power, but yours is right here!!/. adam being the status quo in that he is militarism and he deals only in death, in endless pointless destruction. buffy & co names as freaks and anarchists by the narrative and by the status quo mouthpieces, and literally merging their powers to fight it. like adam as disparate parts sutured together but still defined by their separation: he isn't a monstermanmachine he is monster-man-machine and the disparateness is killing him and all of us. but the scoobies! total union. /we are forever/! super buffy as a communist metaphor actually.
and then restless! it's /you are not the source of me/. which is that fundamental tension, because sineya both is and isnt!! buffy's gonna be a fireman when the floods roll back!! but also she is still squashing down the degree to which she is sineya and sineya is her, and her impulse remains to cast sineya as an adverary rather than someone she can join with to change the system. and s4 is all about systems. it's about where we come from at the source. where did this all start.
and then the gift !!! /I DONT KNOW HOW TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD IF THESE ARE THE CHOICES!!!/ so then she DOESNT!!!! she opts out!! buffy giving into fate prophecy status quo by dying, as every slayer is made to do. but buffy resisting it by saying no!!! this girl doesnt die i am not killing my innocence, not this time. dawn gets to have more life.
and then grave!!! grave about status quo transformation on the interpersonal level rather than the societal!!! the status quo as death and suffering, and willow wants death and suffering, but xander will still love her anyway, the radical transformative power of love, and so willow gets to have more life. buffy telling dawn she wants to live in this world, she doesn't want to suffer, she wants to share it with her. spike changing the very act of what it means to have a soul!! altering the whole show's cosmology!!!!!!! by seeking his soul by saying this isnt the status quo anymore. i dont know what it's going to be but it can be something different than this. 'things change, if you make 'em./
so. chosen. /because a bunch of men a billion years ago made up that rule!!/ /this is the part where you make a choice!!!/ /every girl who can be a slayer, will be a slayer!/ /CAN STAND UP, WILL STAND UP/ / ARE YOU READY TO BE STRONG/ /NOT THE ONE AND ONLY CHOSEN ANYMORE/. im. im!!!!!!!! im!!! i cant even say anything about that. it's right there. it's right there. they fucking. CHANGED IT!! they disrupt the cycle of death..... oh they disrupt the endless death!!!!!!
i am just so obsessed with the fact that buffy’s story is one of the very very few superhero narratives that doesn’t end by reasserting the status quo. “chosen” isn’t just about saving the world. it’s about changing the world. like you can just do that. you can tell that story. the people who have recognized that a system is unjust and actively seek to change that system aren’t the bad guys who have a point but they’re just too radical. they’re our heroes and they’re right and they succeed. i think about this every day.
#btvs meta#sorry i wrote a dissertation on ur post kdsljfjlkdsf i tried to put it in the tags but then i had too many tags and tumblr cut me off
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Ya’ll ready for Anime NYC bc boy am I not haha
School can have my whole ass and kill me o|<
#im dying scooby do#I havent been in touch with friends.. do I even have friends#haha#fanart#omg#borderlands#-cry-#handsome jack#wawa#art#ugh#rhys the company man#soldier 24#gabriel reyes#moira o'deorain#overwatch#oof
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I hate that my want for social interaction outweighs my ability to cope with it. I want to spend time with my friends, I want to make experiences and memories with them but I can't. And if I say f it and do what I want anyway I end up exhausted and in pain and that stops me from being a good friend and partner in far more ways than saying no to a social event does.
#i spent so many years feeling excluded from my friends becuase i had sl much social anxiety#it feels like as soon as one barrier lifts theres just another one waiting behind it#i just wanna be able to do social stuff two days in a row without feeling like im dying#autism#actuallyautistic#neurodivergent#autistic#scooby 🍋
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JAKE WHAT THE FUCK??
accept the maidkat angst joen
you created it
#insane tag#im half joking#the concept is so ridiculous to me that its making me want to do it sooo bad#like. dont get me wrong when i say i legitimately love it im being serious but dude its. its dirk in a catboy outfit. dying. its so funny.#there is real angst potential in this i can see it we can pull a scooby doo with a gun on this#but making its majority shitpost and then just throwing it a legit high effort emotional scene? thats my shit.#i dont know man.#explanation to all of this: irony#everybody go home now
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03 08 - Season Finale
SHFSKFDJHSDFK BIGGEST CONSISTENCY AT LEAST - WE KNOW DAMN WELL OUT KIDS ARE UP TO SOME FUCK SHIT
broOOO OBROR BOR RBO BOR OUGHGAKHJSDJKAHSDKAJSDKAJSDHASJH EW EW EWE WE EWEW EW E IM GETTING THORUGH THIS BY NOT LISTENING BUT OUGHHAKSDAKHJSDKHJ FUCKING HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTT EL EL ELE LE HELLO NO ? EW EW EW PUT A GLOVE ONNNNNN - NVM ITS WITH HER BRAIN FUCK THATS NASTY <- GUY WHO ACTUALLY DOESNT MIND GORE BUT APPARENTLY I HAVE CERTAIN LIMITS AND THATS SHIT UNDER THE SKIN.
EW EW EW VERY FUCKING. ALIEN CORE
FORGOT THE NAME OF THE MOVIE FOR A SECOND
ERIIICAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET HIS ASS. GET! HIS! ASS! FUCKING NUMBERS BRAIN
hopper shut UP SHUT UP!! !!!!!!
mY batteries low - Low oN SPOONS ? yeah
HOW LONG WAS HE JUST SITTING OUT THERE JESUS CHRIST I HAT EHIM SO MUCH DIE DIE DIE DIE
I AM EXPLODING BILLY HARGROVE WITH MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY DONT PEOPLE BELIEVE DUSTIN I HOPE SUZIE IS FUCKING REAL !!!!!
BALD EAGLE AKSJDHAKJHSDKA !!!!!!
iCKY !!! NASTY FUCKING FREAK ASS MONSTER DISEASED RAT KI N GGG ASKDJAKJH god this is such a nice shift though the atmosphere is so different and no longer feels like a scooby doo liveaction movie
hOPPEER shut up. stop talking. I dont like them together >:( i miss bob
i HATE how this thing MOVEDDD, i hate how you OOZE youre getting your ICK everywhere. nasty.
LUCAS AND HIS FUCKING SLING SHOT BABBEYYYY YEAHHHHHH
OUGH YOU KNOW ITS GETTING GOOD BECAUSE I KEEP FUCKING HAVING TO PAUSE THE GOD DAMNVIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANT KEEP THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING ME I CGOTTA KEEP PAUSING TO TAKE A BREATH AKSDJHAKSDJH
EW GOD NASTY NASTY NASTY LOOK AT ITS TOES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUZIE!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE WHEN THERES A CAR CHASE AND THEY STILL DRIVE ON THE CORRECT SIDE OF THE ROAD
DUUSTTTINNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH LISTEN TO THEM IM FUCKING CRYING. PL EASE. AKJHKJHAJHKASDJKHADSLJKAHDKJHLASD PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE ILL ACCEPT THIS. BRINGINGBACK THE SCOOBY DOO LIVE ACTION ENERGY BUT ILL TAKE ITFOR DUSTIN!!!!!!!
EXPLODES BILLY WITH MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!
does no one. hear this happening like real talk i g everyone is at the 4th of july thing BUT LIKE ?????? OKAY ??? AND NO ONE HEARS THE MONSTER????????????????
THHE FUCKING DESTRUCTION ??????
OK.
oouhhakadjh ouGh y ikes y ikes yikes oH that was. SUCKING IN BREATHS THROUGH MY TEETH - i know hes posessed BUT ALSO ? HE WOULD DO THAT REGARDLESS HE DID BEFORE AND OUGAKHSDASKJH
god this underground russian base just looks FAKE like CARTOON ASS FAKE SHIT
god i just i hate Billy so much i hate hate hate htae how well written he is as an abusive older brother like holy fuCKKKKK youre hitting home in ways i cant even put into writing.
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY DOES THIS FEEL LIKE STARWARS NOW I CAN AKSJDHASKJDH??? LI KE ?>>??? IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT BUT THE FIGHT BETWEEN HIM AND THE FUCKING TERMINATOR
i have nothing tos ay about getting through to Billy like that
IS HE FINALLY GONNA DIE IS HE FINALLY GONNA DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!
i have very complicated feelings about Billy but nothing to say about Max's reaction because I understand!! i get it.
i am SO HAPPY hes finally dying !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
(also sorry Max for the complicated things you must be going through rn)
OH YOURE B ACK OKAY!!!! THE MILITARY FINALLY ARRIVED BABEY DAMN
El just. losing everything again?
OH hte fucking Satanism god
SDKSJDHFSDKJHDSFKJHFJDKSH STOP BULLYING HIM HES SO.
GODddddDDD PAcking,,, his DnD stuff 333 doesnt AKSJHD bUT for. AHH idk the shift athte end of the seasons where everything feels normal again always throws me off !!! akshj
i OUAKDHASKDH cant wait for them to be over it makes me so uncomfortable
SO IS HOPPER GONNA LIKE STUMBLE OUT OF THE WOODS OR IS MY MAN DEAD DEAD AKDHJSAKJDS
pLEASEEE introduce Erica to DnDDDDD PLEASEEEEE I LOVE H R SO MUCH
the ending having absolutely no music and its "snowing" FEEls like an implication that people are in the UD (Hopper) IDK
I... FEE L LIKE I MIGHT HAVE MISSED SOMETHING??? SAID THAT ASTHE POST CREDIT SCENE FUCKING ROLL KAJD
OH YEAH OK ERICA FORSHADOWED THAT EARLIER !!!! knew he'd come back fucking. FREAK ass egg man alright enjoy YOUR SNACK
okay anyway still feel like i missed some stuff but im not sure what hopeu all enjoyed my ramblings
Stranger Things - Season 3 thread 03 01
LETS GO GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay okay okay starting off strong 1984 i see you i see you all these bald men are so sweaty and shiny and exhausted looking.
OH THE VFX BUDGET WENT UP BABBBEYYY OH LOOK AT THAT SHIT THATS COOL AS FUCK
So El isnt the one who opened the gate OG?? Really sick that they needed that much power to do it only forit to backfire and some little girl could do it with ease - OUFH SORRY TO THE BITCHES WHO JUST GOT EXPLODED
i understand why the bald men are sweaty and exhausted looking
SO WHY DO THEY WANT TO GET IN THERE SO BAD!!!!! OH THIS IS THE RUSSIAN PLOT PART YEAHHH
is this like ....... wanting to win the coldwar type shit??? because we're past the space race and into the 80s.... (<- guy who doesnt know much about this specific subject of history tbh)
EL LOOKS SO GOOD - fucking hate seeing them kiss im so sorry it makes me so uncomfortable - FEELING REAL HOPPER THOUGH LIKE ITS ICKY but also damn KING GIVE UR KID SPACE
i fucking LOVE THE shift in colours in this season !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE ITS SO BRIGHT I LOVE IT!!!! AND STEVEEEE!!!!!! AND I FINALLY GET TO MEET ROBIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh this movie is foreshadowing some shit i can feel it. labesq SHIT!!!!!!! AND THEN THE POWER GOING OUT!!!!!!!!!!! this means things my brain is too small to make proper connections
OH SHIT LITTLE ME!!!!!!!
YEAH SEE Lost smoke monster !!!!! somethings thers i just know it
"im not gonna fall in love" "ok"
JOYCE MY BELOVED
booOOOOOBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DUSTIIINNNNNNNNNN
<- guy whose just REALLY EXCITED TO SEE THEIR FAV LITTLE MAN
GIRLIES WHO ARE WE LOOKING COOL FOR IM -
thought it waas gonna be gay forgot Billy existed
HOPPER IS ACTUALLY A FUCKING INCEL IM CRYING ITS BEEN LIKE 20 MINUTIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KING OH MY GOD SHUT UP rooted for you but nah youve really always been like this
A Heart to Heart? What is that? <- man whose never been shown compassion???? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THAT IS shut up
ngl tho me n hopper shaking hands how to you approach people about things without people helping you write shit out word for word
this entire board roOM REMINDS ME OF THE BEGINNING OF SEASON 2 OF FARGO - but she a woman TYPE SHIT AKSHJD
Nancy is. trying so HARD and girl i am so sorry
HIS GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THE WAY HE TALKS ABOUT HER <3333
Steve. i got nothing to add he just. wow
ROBIN I LOVE HER I L OVE THE PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS ON THIS SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its romantic <- jealousy
Its gross <- somehow not jealousy tho sorry
Its bullshit <- jealousy
BRO ARE HE LLO WHAT PIED PIPER SHIT IS HAPPENING???? CRYING AT ALL THE LITTLE CGI GUYS LOOK AT THEM ALL!!!! THEY ALL HAVE LITTLE WHITE FEET THO???? THOSE ARE. exploding. theyre exploding. :(
ENOUGH OF HIM I DONT WANT TO SEE HIM I WANT TO SKIP THROUGH HIS MOMENTS I ACTUALLY HATE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH IM IN. PAIN. LIKE. OU GH. THE. SECOND HAND EMBARASSMENT IS? PAINFUL I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE HIM I HATE HIM IHATE HIM PHYSICALLY GAGGING
LUCAS AND MAX mAKE me so happy and MAx is still transmasc coded in my heaRTTTTT
DUSTIN BABY IM SO SORRY YOURE HAVING A MY CANADIAN GF MOMENT BUTSHES MORMON AND FROM UTAH
SHOWING MomEnts of Joyce being so happy and gENUINELY IN LOVE WITH BOB JUST HURTS SO MUCH HE WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE
oh now we have shit with MAGNETS and the spaceship space race cold war babbeyyyy
DISEASE RATS!!!!!!!
HOPPER ASHING ON HIS FACE KING????? OW?????????????????????
This is so uncomfortable bro my dad did this to me once and it was horrifically misguided on his part and he was making some wild ass assumptions about my relationship with certain people and oUGADHADKAJSHAKSJH this isthe season of second hand embarassment and its PAINFUL
MIKE IS JUST MA KING IT WORSE PLEASE SHUT UP I OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I KEEP PAUSING IT BC I CANT HANDLE THIS
HOPPER H ELLO ????
IM
THIS IS
BRO THIS fucking entire season is gonna be so fucking painfULLLL STOP STOP STOP like the. BROOOOO stop stop stop whose got a link to a breakdown of the family dynamics between everyone and how fucked up everyone is i cant even put thi sinto words im just losing my mind hopethis makes sense
SORRY DUSTIN I !!! GOD. PICKING UP RUSSIAN SHIT INSTEAD OF HIS GF SORRY
i literally cant handle this weird Billy fucking Milfs arc and i cant even begin to stress how much i fucking hate it and him. I have literally no room in my heart for that piece of shit
im SORRY to KaREN WHEELER THOUGH LIKE DAMN GIRL your mariage is in shambles and you really want to be fucked by THIS GUY ?
HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IDIOT FUCKING GET ATTACKED BY FERAL DISEASED RATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CALLING ALL RATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know he fucking dies but iM GONAN LOSE MY MIND DOES HE GET FUCKIGN KILLED BY STOPP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP THIS IS SO FUC NNY YEAHH HYEAHHH BABEY FUCKING GET HIS ASSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
#bo posting#stranger things#st#live blogging#IT WAS A GOOD ENDING#wasnt my fav season but i feel like i said enough about why#dont tell me Hopper was Always Like That because no he was worse#like drastically worse#in a different way too this was beyond needing control over El bc his trauma around losing his daughter#like this WAS INFINITLY WORSE#i dont have many other thoughts rn that i havent said#but oh man cant wait to be told about shit i missed AKSDJH
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#it kinda sucks having this feeling of wanting to talk to someone specifically#but you know you arent in good terms with them anymore and still find yourself wanting to tell them things that has happened#and ask what they been up to and whats been up#it just sucks feeling like im not welcomed ? if that makes sense.#i think i should just remove them as a friend on Snapchat and Instagram but it doesnt feel good hoovering over it#like i really do miss them but i messed up our whole friendship while going through some things i didn't tell them about#im sure to them i like changed out of nowhere and just became pessimistic#but in reality i was missing my old house and the memories came back with my two dogs that passed away#and how i took care of Scooby while he was suffering from seizures for him to die on Easter Sunday#while i was away hurt me so much i really blame myself so much for my dog dying.. he died laying next to my bed..#i remember when he first had a seizure i held him and rubbed his back to try and calm him down i was so scared i was going to lose him#then the whole niece's calling me a loser.. really hurt me so much i really just felt like everyone just was better without me around#and i could tell they weren't really in the mood to talk to me anymore so it was better for them i suppose#it just honestly sucks cause i see there name on Snapchat and some times i want to just be like yoooo whats up punk how you been#but its been months since we last spoke. they didn't even tell me happy birthday either. so i know they dont think of me or care about me#yet i can kick it off me i just hope they're having a great life honestly#i can't lie i drive to my old house to see how the new houses they're building looks and its just so depressing#then the whole thing with a other friend telling me to do it when i told him i think my depression was coming back#and i had been thinking of trying again and they straight up told me don't talk about it to me unless you're going to do it#i swear i know i shouldn't have forgiven him cause he still hasnt apologized I just started to talk to him again and just pretend#he never said those things to me i just felt like if i didnt forgive him my whole friend group is going to shatter#hes friends with both of my friends heck he was friends with them before i was there friend and i never wanted to put them ina situation#i never wanted my friends to feel like they had to pick who to be friends and i never asked them to pick cause its not right#but then i started to realize how more often my friends David and ryan were joining my parties more than his or maybe he just didnt get on#but idk it just felt so wrong so i just decided to join a party invite to our old group on ps4 and when he said he got hurt#i didn't think of what he said to me that day i was just concerned about his well being and unblocked him and we started to talk again#so far he hasnt had a good apology cause im sorry i shouldn't have said it doesnt cut it but i still forgave em for the sake of our friends#..#anyways i need yo try and sleep#personal
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