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the-bullet-in-soaps-head · 5 months ago

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Sorry everyone, I might get the next chapter out in two more weeks. My sister and I ran out of money for this week's food, so I'll be away working.

If I don't come back around said time I'm probably resting, or busy at school.

#fish talks #someone please hire me #im desperate for another job #my eyes are so sunken #gonna knock out #bye guys see you soon

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brown-little-robin · 6 days ago

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I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.

#Robin processes emotions on main #I WANT to get good at socializing #I used to be better and I'm now worse >:[#in some ways. in some ways I've improved (e.g. am kinder). but I used to have more confidence and an easier time staying present #now I'm always shutting down and running away #literally I leave the room and go calm down in my room #I want to learn to regulate that impulse and become a chill person to hang out with. but How #I've been struggling lately with punishing myself for running away (not physically but with like. spirals of self-recrimination)#I think one good step would be to get mindful about praising myself for small steps again. I'll change faster if im kinder to myself #also I think seeking reassurance from the people I'm around more often even if it seems silly would be good #ALSO. a major problem I'm facing is that I am living with my parents. and my little sisters. and I don't... I... it's rough.#I used to parent my 15 (then 9) y/o little sister when my parents were gone and I still struggle with feeling Responsible For Her #so every time she's a little cringe I end up feeling like it's my fault and I'm gonna be punished for it and I don't know how to deal with #—how to deal with it #BIG SIGH #I'm TRYING to become a good adult who can help others rather than just living in desperate self-defensive survival mode forever #but it's so hard bro #and another issue is that I'm growing further and further apart from my parents' fundamentalist brand of Christianity #and feeling more and more incapable of making friends and bringing them to visit me. because I have to be perfect around my parents #how can I make friends if I can't offer them hospitality??#how can I be a fully realized adult if I have to hide in plain sight??#I need to move out so bad. even if I'm lonely at first I HAVE to move out #in related news my seasonal job is Over and I'm looking for full-time work! please pray for me if you're the praying type or just #send me encouraging words #that would help #<33333 I will be ok it's just a bad situation rn

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twiggyrogue · 1 year ago

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If it wasn't for the TMAGP ARG snippets I probably wouldn't be as obsessed about Sam but oh my goddd with what tiny we know about him I'm not over it. He's got a canon birthday (!!! He's 33 at the start of the show! It's p cool to know that tbh!) so we know when the Institute burned down, he was 9 year old. So at nine, maximum, he went through the Institute's child experiment. That's age he went through potentially a version of the Milgrim experiment! Mr. Spider whom, this child might have actively tortured someone because he was told to?? And that's probably the terrible event that was brought up in the interview but maybe it wasn't! Maybe it's something worse!! Oh no!!!

The guy scored the highest in empathy in the entire test group at 98% and now his job is experiencing other people's horrors like of course he can't help but look into them, of course he can't help but internalize them when Alice has warned him of what can happen, I'm so worried about this man!!!

#samama khalid #tmagp spoilers #tmagp arg #tbh i dont know how to handle the info we got from the ARG bc i still see them as spoilers for the podcast to those just listening?#so i just tag spoilers #also dont think im forgetting connor dyer but theres still a non zero chance that isnt Alice's dead bame #and i just cannot get a read on her yet weather her not knowing abt the institute is real #or just another way to protect herself #but yeah sam... almost know doubts he's marked already if that still happens in this universe #and for what end... another archavist...? or something new..... oh no.......#also he's just nice and needs to get back on his feet; what happened recently to make him so desperate for a job? :(#i could care less about potentially gay computers give me more of these new guys pls

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stemmmm · 3 months ago

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how is it that there is one single decent program for dedicated animation storyboarding and it costs $80/month

#m.txt #YES the college burnout and hideous depression killed my interest in storyboarding #AS A JOB. BUT WHAT IF I COULD DO IT FOR FUN.... BUT NO #MAKING ANIMATICS IS SO GOD DAMN DIFFICULT #i havent even been able to make myself commit to sketching anything bc im just desperately like. surely theres another way. program save me #program where are you #2 million animation softwares and all of them inadequate for what i actually want to do #i miss being in college when i could just get a student license for 9 bucks. i bet its not even that cheap anymore

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wheelercore · 1 year ago

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My toxic trait is that I want George to be Ted sooooooo bad not just bc of layers of Eddie-Ted parallels I keep on finding and you know.... Hell/cheer, the mirrored creel house in TFS promo, the resemblances from the creel home to the wheeler home, etc etc... But also it would just be so funny if the play opens up and Ted is getting high with his codependant high school gf. Like how did we get here. But alas, the timeline doesn't add up.

#when ted wheeler wasnt fifteen in 1959 but 1953 this is so fucked up why i cant i have everything i want #i dont mind it being lonnie btw my brain is just poisoned and i desperately need wheeler lore #also it would explain why mike can sense the void... also 1953 was the year MKUltra started and the lab presumably opened up...#shit im going to start unironically believing this huh. im going die.#bonus points if bettys real name is ELeanor #god pale and moody george.... another miketed parallel slzvsksosbskznslwhwlabaj #ted used to get high but now hes supposedly a responsible father of 3 and needs to hold down a 6 fig job so he just uses food to cope #im going to now start unironically believing this im sorry george!lonnie believers i hope we can still be friends 🥺#misc

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fanficmemes · 2 years ago

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*looking all 11,213 of you in the eyes* guys I need this to be a safe space for silly people bc I’m turning into a clown

#personal tag #delete later #ok so Im hanging out w this guy #and a few days ago he said no to hanging out bc he’d working #that’s fine jobs take time whatever #but there have No More Texts #and i havnt seen him in over a week #so like #if I text and offer mushrooms (bc we both like those)#is that normal and fun or the text of a man desperate to make out whole high #idk. someone pls tell me to stop being silly and text him #bc the worst he can say is no #bc if he says no then I will simply find another fish #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh dating makes me wanna set stuff on fire #I just wanna hang out with him #but i am so nervous about asking #FUCK

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caffeinatedopossum · 8 months ago

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I always feel bad for being even a little dissatisfied with my circumstances and then I remember that most of the people around me (both irl and online) would probably go absolutely bonkers in my circumstances

#like. i literally have no money. i dont buy things. i dont ask for things #it has always been like this #its not that i dont *want* money- its just that i dont have a choice being disabled and all #and i have all my necessities provided (well most of them) so like. i would feel ungrateful for wanting anything more #and like i dont think i deserve anything 'extra'. anything beyond the necessities because i cant earn it #i cant pay for it myself. so i just dont really think about the things that i want but dont need that much #another thing that would probably drive a lot of people insane is that i dont have any irl friends and dont really leave my house #except for shopping. which is anywhere between once a week and once a month #i have no job- that alone is distressing for a lot of people. unemployment can be very hard on people's mental health #and i mean evidently it is hard on mine as well. but i dont know any alternatives #people like to feel needed. they like to feel like they have a purpose #people going through unemployment often find that they have all this time suddenly but they dont know how to fill it up #all the things they had fantasized about doing are suddenly not that fun because they are the only option #anyways. rant over idk where i was going with this #i think im in desperate need of validation perhaps and im trying my best not to make this about pain olympics #or some weird type of bragging. thats not my intention

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captainimprobable · 1 month ago

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Having an eating disorder that won't let you eat most things except SOMETIMES it'll let you eat some things but a lot of the time those things are things you need to buy from restaurants is annoying enough, but when you have barely any money to get you through the next week and now it's a choice between "should I eat tonight or should I save the money for something I need" it's EVEN MORE ANNOYING

#jaytp #i just cant rationalize getting 9 dollar sushi when i have like 60 bucks #bc theres food at home!!! theres food HERE!!!!!!!!!#its my fault i wont eat the food here!!!!!!#but i cant eat that food. so now im hungry with a full kitchen and no money #this makes me seem like im desperate and im not ig? like my parents will get me groceries!#but sometimes i cant eat any of those things #so its like. what the fuck do i even do.#and im so frustrated. bc i have a job. i have one.#but due to circumstances i wont really be paid for another 2 weeks #and i havent had a paycheck in a month #so. what. what do i do.

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guinevereslancelot · 2 months ago

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hopefully i'm not getting ahead of myself with the second job idea but i'm v excited abt the possibility

#i miss the kiddos!!!!#and like 3 of my coworkers lol #but it may not be any real benefit to have someone who can only come in for 1.5 hours a day to close #bc they would be paying me potentially more than one of my coworkers to do the same thing #then they would have two people working middle shift bc im gonna close but they're still paying them like full time and then paying me also #idk it may not work for them #however theybcant retain people for shit in that program and nobody wants to close except me lol #so it mught be worth it #if they can offer more middle or opening shifts to people #also what they really need is a fourth full time teacher innthat room but they'll never do it #but another part time teacher could help bridge the gap in coverage so that it works #maybe #idk #i would really love to do it i think #bc all the issues there were related to being full time but i dont think they'll be too hard on me if i'm part time #like i'm an independent contractor basically and i have another full time job so its not like im desperate #they cant shit on me or ask me to do anything but the shift i told them i could do lol #so it should be fine #there's literally no superviser during closing i'm basically my own boss and there's nothing to do except hand the kids off #then clean and lock up #no decisions whatsoever #im letting myself get way too excited tho #bc it could potentially not work out #this has been a shitpost

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bangcakes · 11 months ago

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#feel like thw trip i took over the weekend was like. a brain reset NDNDDNNNDNDNDN #it was like i was taken back to a time precovid... pre career change.... i was just like oh ya this is how things were NDNNDMSNSMSM #just .... goin on trips with my friends....#ya...........#idk NDNXNNXJXJXJX #just needed that i guess #bc i was so stressed like between graduating and job searching and my boy problem it was so much #bc when i graduated university.... i really just had to deal with graduating. bc i had to take some time off after for mental health n then #they were so desperate in my field that i got a job within like a week of applying NFNFJJFJDNXNND #so... ya i had like time to deal with stuff. whereas this time i was hit with like... what felt like so much.... idk IDK #im just glad that i keep finding jobs to apply to. bc there were two weeks where it was so DRY. like there was Nothing to apply to and i was #like OH SO AM I FUCJED??? IS TGE WELL DRY #but nah. i found one last week that i applied to over the weekend and another yesterday that i'll apply to in the coming days...#may as well take my time.... bc its not due until 2 weeks from now #2 of the jobs ive applied to already also close this week so im like. WILL I HEAR BACK?.?????#idk idk #software is so competitive.....#psych was..... lmao. high turnover everywhere. HOWEVER.... there was this one company that had basically a monopoly on the field #in my town and the surrounding ones #so like....... wouldnt have been easy to move around #at least in software.... you can get a job at literally any sector lmao. like the options are unlimited thank god #there was a posting to work at a library..... i wasnt qualified for it bc they wanted like someoen super experienced #but i was like OH WOW A GOAL.????#like god imagine i get to work at a library.... kicking screaming throwing UP #thatd be so cool.....#id feel so accomplished...#personal

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sirpeppersto · 3 months ago

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sometimes it really hits me how badass my heart tattoo is

#i really want more tattoos but i desperately need to replace my laptop bc she turns 10 early next year #im hoping that i get some money for my birthday bc my laptop is very much at the end stages. good thing is im doing a makeup job #at the end of this month and it's with one of my fav clients :) i did her makeup for her wedding last year and she looked so so good #i just need my poor elderly laptop to make it till november then i think I'll have enough to get one #like i literally dont know if it's gonna make it till then like im scared. i need to get another external drive asap to back my files up #anyways. im gonna start tatting myself up some more bc it's been two years since i got my tattoo and i need more #first off: im getting the shadow the hedgehog symbol on the back of my upper arm bc it would be. you guessed it. badass

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iampikachuhearmeroar · 1 year ago

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the results for a job application i did for a social services job back in december 2023: have you ever considered you're just too MID to ever be employed??? also consider learning how to make decisions and solve problems.

me: fucking hire me anyway and train me to be less mid, perhaps??? and also, maybe train me to make good decisions and problem solve, or let me me pass it onto everyone else, so then i dont have to do it lmao.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #ilona's jobhunting thoughts and woes lol #ilona's work dilemmas #ilona's work thoughts #writing another longer post about this #like how the fuck am i meant to be employed if no one ACTUALLY TRAINS ME to make good decisions and problem solve lmao #they also dont like that i wont seek out professional growth and advancement opps. like bro i NEVER want to be a manager or something #bc it means havign to bother to plan shit lmao #im pretty close to applying to be a disability support worker #to see if they just straight up reject me as well #just to prove my old workplace wrong that it's 'an instant job bc they're desperate for workers!'#bc at this rate im sure even those positions are going to say some bs about 'you're not emotionally intelligent enough....#.....and you cant make decisions for shit so have fun being unemployed for the rest of your life :)

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gontagokuhara · 10 months ago

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me just trying to get through this week while the universe keeps launching airstrikes directly into my crumbling mental health causing critical infrastructure damage

#one job edging me on an offer letter. another harassing me 1) as im en route to put my dog down and 2) this morning to tell me i have to #respond to his offer by friday morning after apparently not getting thrown out after that abysmal interview #havent heard back from either promising prospect from the library jobs which is what i Am desperate to hear back from #my house is empty and i miss my dog so fucking bad and im sick and im on my period and my tax return is being delayed and im fucking broke #and on a new medication and dealing with my whole familys grief not just my own and and and [hyperventilates until i die]#i need to be sedated

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year ago

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SENDING MY FIRST ASK FROM THE NEW BLOG!!!! i feel like i am sending a letter from a new address... crazy. ANYWAY HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! i hope ur havin a good day!!!! kicking my feet like a teenager at a sleepover rn tell me abt ur day who r the blorbos in ur mind rn what kinda art r u workin on lately how's it going friend!!!

HIIIIIII HI HI . HELLO SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG- i mean catboy cellbit!!! . dude i am. dreading the coming week tbh but it is fine !! we will get thru it we will survive!!! i am so sleepytired but alas i also cannot sleep so i may just have another night of reading and music ahead of me . wah. i hope u are hsving a good night <3 IVE BEEN COMPLETELY ART NERFED TOO BTW. my laptop died on me a couple days ago and while i was able to find a new one affordably it will not be here until the 13th 😔 so no digital art from me for a while. sigh. i DID just decorate my new sketchbook with stickers tho so im hoping that will get my brain in gear for traditional art again. AS FOR BLORBOS. oh . u know. the usuals. vash the stampede. zacharie from off . masky marblehornets (also tim marblehornets) . to name three of them.

#who are ur blorbos rn. i dont watch qsmp i think sering ur posts abt it are really funny bc im like. guy walks into the room on fire gif.#i have no idea whats going on in here congratulations and/or my condolences <3 #thank u thank u i love the sleepover vibes. literally had gossip talk w one of my other friends earlier #(name withheld for reasons but if u see this u know who u are and i love u )#so the vibes are so correct #i have 2 work tomorrow :( not looking forward 2 that.#however it IS my last day of my long term overnight job which means i will be able to sleep in my own bed tomoerow night.#this is something i have not done for like. close to a month now. whcih is why ive been sleeping so awfully! so hopefully that fixes me #also have. job interview on wednesday for another aquarium place..#fingers crossed this goes better than my last one but also part of me is kind of hoping it doesnt go well #bc i hate transitional periods and i dont want 2 go thru the moving process again #and i dont want 2 meet a bunch of new ppl all at once again. and do the while job training thing.#alas that is the anxiety talkimg and i do actually want the job bc it would be good for me <3 #sorry it is late and im soooo fucking sleepy so im rambling !!!! do not feel like u have to respond to . gestures vaguely at all that #its blorbo talk time. i desperately want 2 warch more mh right now #however the house im.staying in IS in the middle of the woods and very isolated and i have been so scared and paranoid #so i am OUTTA LUCK sigh. i will simply watch smth silly instead like gg tmph or david attenborough or perhaps spongebob will b on the tv.#asks #friends!!!#false-anachronism #<< oh fuck new url!!! i got like halfway thru typing ur old one before i was like WAIT SHIT.

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sparklestheunicorn · 2 years ago

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I can see you is so pen and kelsea coded

#taylor swift #the tearling trilogy #ME!#(bet you bitches thought i was done)#'what would you do if i went to touch you now? what would you do if they never found us out? what would you do if we never made a sound?'#and the whole kelsea not feeling ✨️sexy✨️. and im pretty sure she thought something along the lines of what would you do if i kissed. what #would you do if we fucked right here right now #AND THEN THERES THE CHORUS 'i can see you waiting down the hall for me' HE IS HER PERSONAL GUARD. OF COURSE HES WAITING FOR HER #'and i could see you up against the wall with me' HOW SHE STARTED LOOKING FORWARD TO THEIR NIGHTS TOGETHER #and back to the first verse 'ive been watching you for ages and i spend my time trying not to feel it' girl has been watching him and wonder #ing why he hasnt made a move yet but she is the queen of a dying kingdom and has more important things to worry about than her teenage urges #'AND WE KEPT EVERYTHING PROFESSIONAL BUT SOMETHINGS CHANGED ITS SOMETHING I LIKE' like come on #pen desperately clinging to his job his duty and kelsea's just begging him to touch her #'they keep watchful eyes on us'. the mace the next day like 'ohoho what do we have here' and how he's just been so overprotective of her #not to mention the rest of her guards always watching.#'i could see you make me want you even more' THE FACT THAT SHE COULD HAVE LOVED HIM BACK. THAT SHE WAS ALMOST THERE. THAT HE WAS WHAT SHE #WAS CLINGING TO IN THE DUNGEONS OF MORTMESNE #im very happy i made this connection #needed another tearling post for a while now

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dankovskaya · 1 year ago

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The part during the Final Battle where Anakin and Obi Wan just start beating the shit out of each other no lightsabers necessary is so sexy. Best part of the fight easily

#Did thatthing again where i put on a star war for background noise to sleep to and rhen end up just watching it. whatever #Another tbing about Padme occurred to me too which is fhay. Given that she was essentially out of a job (already useless senate made even #more useless and cosmetic after the empire was established) no wonder she put 100% into making a final appeal to Anakin in a #desperate attempt to save her fucking Barbie Dreamhouse. If nothing else. THE DREAMHOUSE.#sw #But yeah anywya. The long ass choke mid battle and fhe dropkick. Didn't need to do all thatbut im glad he did

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