#im decorating my wall with drawings so i'm doing this :)

[tavlerone]

i needed motivation

[sinning-23]

please please please do different arcane/opla character's kinks???? (preferably some Jayce but yk-)

OMG I was just returning to arcane roots. Mind you I haven't seen the recent season (Im waiting for my mom and sister since we all watched dit together) UHH take these smutty lil kinky lil headcanona!

P.s For as much smut as i write I have the hardest time remembering the differences between kinks and fetishes BUT I think I got it down lol. Bare with me yall.

P.P.S. I'll make a part two with some more of these guys lol I started to draw a blank on a few and get burnt out but I want to provide QUALITY writing to y'all

Enjoy-

Silco

Yknow every time I come on this god forsaken app I find myself thirsting over dead midleages if not older men....

Ahem

Smoking and Begging I feel like would be two kinks of his. And like he already is a smoker so just translating that over to the bedroom....oof.

I feel like he's the type to smoke after or before, but like in a way that relaxes him even further? YK what I'm saying? Perhaps he'll even offer you some with a firm grip on your face while he blows smoke into your mouth, just before he kisses you.

I also think the begging gets him hot under the collar. Just the idea of his partner asking so desperately for release knowing he's in control of whether they're allowed to or not really does it for him. He's ruthless but sweet in the most deliciously contradicting way. Saying things like, " Begging is so unbecoming of you my dear," or "You can beg better than that, I thought you wanted to cum?"

Sevika

Sevika my belovedddddd <3 come home baby the kids miss you lmao. Sevika seems like the type to be down for a lot but also has her limits? One thing that really gets her going though is overstim/multiple orgasms. Please let her pull as many as she can from you its literally her favorite thing watching her partner come undone. She likes to see how messy you get and how your thighs tremble and shake, damn near tensing up from the strain.

She starts slow. Maybe two...then three more.....how bout we shoot for 4 to 5? SIx you say?! Alright, let's just say fuck it and go for 7.

"C'mon, you can give me one more. Thatssss it, let go."

Vander

This is a harworking, loving, family man okay. He doesn't have time for a lot...However, he definitely has time to just have you squeeze down on him with those hot, wet walls, simply existing. Ahhh yes the art of cockwarming in cwich he is an expert in. Hes a sneaky fucker too, taking time to just position you in front of him so he can slip his cock into you, just enjoying your warmth. No movement, just there, your back to his chest, pretending like nothing is happening behind the counter.

He especially enjoys the late nights, your bodies melted into one as you just sinkkkkk down on him, just adjusting to his length, fighting the urge to move as does he. Just that's part of the fun. Expect lots of soft gentled caresses as yout walls memorize him

Vi

Babygirls got a thing for hot chicks in uniform. Be in business attire, military, or otherwise, she loves it.

I mean, honestly, I was not hot about clean white button-downs tucked into fancy dress pants adorned by emblems of silver or gold. A nice neat hairstyle, no flyaways, very much office siren.

And please god don't let you have a snappy domineering attitude, telling her what to do, sexily taunting. Babygirl will be weak in the knees.

Jinx

I don’t think she’d have any kinks if I’m being honest. I see Jinx as a very experimental and fun but soft and vanilla lover. She enjoys being treated softly and gentle, especially in a moment of vulnerability like being intimate with a partner.

Viktor

I hate to be the one to say it but stalkings/knee highs and glasses… Yall HEAR ME OUTTT HEAR ME OUT! I know that sounds really bad but if you see the vision. I feel like Viktor is a lover of pretty things, patterns and decoration. The feeling of lace or tights under his fingertips, the thrill of being the one who gets to remove your glasses before you go down on him.

All is truly a treat in his pretty yellow eyes. Especially when it's his beloved and devoted partner. He takes his time with you treating you delicately as he pulls the fabric off your kneesocks away to reveal pretty legs he gets to you all the way up to the main prize. He likes taking his time unwrapping his gifts. His favorite part is discarding it all from your body. Or at the very least, making you do it.

"Strip." He hums, leaning forward as you shed layers of clothes with a smile.

Ekko

At first I was thinking that mmm Ekko doesn't have any really kinks. Maybe he’s more vanilla but then I got thinking…

Nah nah this guy..

He likes being bitten.

Oddly enough he wasn’t sure why when you had first done it on impulse, the two of you in one of your more intimate moments. You hand grazed his shoulder, only applying slight pressure before stopping yourself from going too hard but the sound it pulled form him. Gorgeous.

“D-Do it again. Please?” He asks, lifting a bit above your too see your glossed fucked our eyes.

“Bite you?” You reiterate, trying to read him and it’s nothing but pure lust and adoration.

“Baby, please.” He huffs, lulling his neck to the side, giving you access.

Please mark him up he really likes it.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 8

Midnights anon, champagne problems anon (new), numb anon (new), Home Depot Anon (new), situationship anon (new), galaxy anon

Midnights anon

Ask 1:

yes! You're growing up and it's supposed to feel scary and exciting at the same time! But even as it all happens, make sure to take time to enjoy it. take pictures, write down fun moments, take time to just be a kids and not only think about your future. Do silly things like go to an amusement park on a school day or get ice cream at 9 in the morning. Enjoy your life, because you SHOULD, you know?

I'm so glad you're feeling excited about the future. <3

Ask 2 and 3:

I think what you said about putting on music and drawing is such a good idea though. Because remember in your first ask, you DO have good times. Thigs CAN be better. And I promise, you're not bad at everything. But it's during those in-between times, when you feel down, that you need to use those strategies like music or drawing, to help you feel your feelings instead of avoid them. What if during the good times, you also write down the good things? That way, when you're feeling low, you can read what you wrote and try to focus on that?

Sending so much love <3

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champagne problems anon

hi cas this may be like a champagne problems kind of ask so uh bear with me

me and my older sibling have shared a room ever since i was born. i have never not shared a room with him. we don’t NOT get along but we do have a lot of fights about everything

this year he’s graduating, and i thought that meant that he was going to move out but he’s going to a local college and therefore will be living at home

i was kind of looking forward to having my own room. i’ve basically had no privacy in my room for my entire life and even though im graduating in a few years i was just really looking forward to that

i’m not going to tell him to leave or anything, it logistically and financially makes no sense for him to move out but yeah idk

and it seems whenever i talk to this about my friends they just approach it in a weird way. they are all only children or their parents have enough money so they don’t have to share rooms at all

i sort of feel mad at him. like i feel as if he should’ve gotten better grades so he could go to a better nom local college, and i know it’s not his fault but im still mad

HI i just sent an ask about sharing a room with my brother but i have some things to add im so sorry :’)

he won’t let me repaint the walls (we picked it out when i was 8) and he is very untighty with all of his stuff and i have a problem with things not looking neat like it gets under my nails so badly but he refuses to do anything about it

also he just like… throws his clothes all across the floor, right now as i’m typing his staring at a pair of his jeans that have been on the floor for 2 days (i also can’t touch his dirty clothes, otherwise my hands feel dirty for a long time after)

also a few years ago him and my parents used to get into SCREAMING matches and because he was always in his bed, so i got very used to just leaving the room and blasting my music through my headphones

he also almost hits me a lot when he’s frustrated and he can’t hit hard but it is still kind of scary

yeah idk i know he doesn’t want to go to a local college either but he’s just such a handful and im just so tired of basically having no space to myself or no privacy

also i want to just like tear down all the decorations in our room so bad and just like restart but i can’t do that either

oh one final thing we also share a bunk bed and it’s SUCH a hassle and i want to get rid of it SO badly

Hi!

I don't think this is silly at all! All teenagers want their own space. It's frustrating to not have that. Like yeah, sometimes it's not possible, but it doesn;t make it suck less. And with what you added about how your brother acts...the fact that he hits you is actually unsafe, and if he's legally an adult, your parents could get in HUGE trouble for this.

Have you told your parents about these concerns? Even if there's not an extra room in the house, they should still be the ones telling your brother to cut the shit. Him being a slob is one thing, but hurting you is not okay, and imo if it was my kid acting like that I'd tell them either they act safely or they get their own place. I know it sounds drastic but like...safety is a big line to cross.

<3

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numb anon

Hey Cas

I really need some advice, its serious. This is mental health related so. Fair warning.

Basically, I think I need help. I've never been diagnosed with anything because I've never really told anyone so I dont know what specifically is going on but this is where im at: (redacted)

Hi! It definitely sounds like you're NOT faking it, and you're NOT being childish! you need someone to talk to, and that's okay! Do you have an adult in your life that you trust to listen and not judge? Parents, family, family friend, teacher, coach, doctor...you don't necessarily have to say 'I need help.' You can just say 'I need someone to talk to.' And then, it might be a good idea to write what you want to say first, just like your wrote to me! That way you have your feelings down, and you just need to hand them what you wrote. Less pressure in the moment, you know?

But you deserve to have someone listen to you and help you through these feelings <3

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Home Depot Anon

hey cas! I don't know if you've read my first ask yet, but I'm the one who wrote to you about coming to terms with the fact I might actually be a lesbian instead of bi

I just wanted to update and tell you that I kind of came out to my friend today! (She was also the one i talked to when I started questioning if I was bi) We were just at the bus stop, and she was talking about some gorgeous guy she had seen in a Home Depot, where I was like "yeah, I get it haha" where she just responded in the most casual and gentle way something along the lines of "do you tho?" and i just- i felt so seen and validated, and i just started talking about how i had actually been kind of struggling with accepting the fact i might be a comphet lesbian and it just felt so good to get off my chest! She also told me that she was pretty sure she was bi too, ever since she had seen Anna Kendrick in Pitch Perfect when she was seven, and it was just so nice

Anyway sorry for rambling I just wanted to update you :)

Hi! I think I originally answered your ask here. Which....is probably not helpful/more confusing now, ngl.

Honestly, I think whatever YOU feel about your identity is what you should go with, and that's the only thing that matters. Nobody else's opinion- mine, your friends, the people who wrote that document- matters as much as yours. If you feel good identifying as a lesbian, that's what you should do <3

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situationship anon

Hi Cas! I love your writing. It always makes me smile. I’ve seen a lot of posts asking you for advice and finally worked up the courage to do so myself.

Can you be Aromatic but still want love/ like romantic things? I’ve been thinking about this for a while and am just don’t know. I just don’t understand why love can’t just be love. Why do some things have to be “romantic” and only for relationships? I keep finding myself in situations where my closest friends ask if I like them and tell me we have fallen into a situationship, but after some thought I realize I only love them platonically. I’m just confused because I apparently don’t see love the way others do and it always leads me to getting hurt or making the people I love uncomfortable😢

And advice?

Hi!

I mean the only reason some things are seen as romantic and others aren't is because of social norms. But fuck social norms. If you and your best friend want to go see a movie and then go have a candle-lit dinner, fucking go for it! Nothing is or isn't romantic unless people decide it is, you know? I think the problem here is that the people you're talking to THINK you have romantic intent, but you don't. But yeah, you can be aro and still like long walks on the beach!

Also remember that aromanticism is a spectrum. It could be that you only like romantic things in certain circumstances or with certain people, and that's still super valid! I think the only problem here is maybe both you AND your friends need to work on communicating like "hey, we're doing these things, but our relationship is this." For example, "Hey, we're going stargazing together, but we're still just friends." And that's totally fine!

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galaxy anon

Hi Cas! It's Galaxy anon!

I took your advice and spoke to my friend and she apologised and said that she didn't mean for it to come across like that, so thank you for helping me to sort that out!

I just wanted to rant for a moment (so sorry lol) but I'm sad because I'm about to have a Leaver's Day where I have to say goodbye to all my friends before we split up to go and do different things before uni. I've still got my exams to do, and I'll get to see them during that period, but not nearly as much as I have been up until now.

I guess I'm just upset that this part of my life is ending, you know? And, like, I'm really nostalgic, and it doesn't really feel like I've achieved anything so far. I can remember when I was younger and I used to think about how cool it would be to be a teenager, but now I don't really know what I'm doing with my life.

I really thought I'd have formed a band or something by this point, but so far, I've been too anxious to really do anything.

And I'm getting these huge, really unpredictable mood swings too. I get that they're sort of part of puberty, but it's not like puberty's all that new to me, and these mood swings are. They're honestly kind of scary because I keep snapping at people when I don't mean to, or I have weeks on end where I have no motivation to do anything and it feels like a huge task just to get out of bed.

But then I go through another (usually shorter) period of time where I'm fine again, so it kind of feels like maybe I'm just being dramatic, you know?

And I STILL can't talk to my parents about it either. I don't even really know why anymore. I guess I just don't want them to look at me differently?

AND I have to start my exams like next week too. I'm just so done with everything. All I want to do is curl up in bed and have a nice, long nap, but then I've got to study and do my chores and text my friends (who I love, but talking to people is just so DRAINING omg) and then it feels like I don't have enough time to recover from how tired I am at the end of the week.

I just need a week in between each week so that I can actually relax.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I hope you're doing alright!

Hi!

Everything you're feeling right now is SO valid, and SO normal. You're going through a huge change in your life--one of the biggest changes in your life so far, maybe! It's natural to feel sadness, excitement, nostalgia, regret, exhaustion. And because of all of that, yeah, mood swings aren't a shock! You have a lot of emotions, and not a lot of places to put them!

Here's the thing, though. You're going to have SO many other amazing times in your life. I won't lie--none of them will be quite like this. You'll miss this time for many reasons, but you also WONT miss this time for just as many reasons. So I know it's difficult, but try to look at this as something exciting. For me (and most people) University was TEN times better than High School. It's scary and overwhelming, but you're going to have an amazing time. Enjoy this time now, make the most of this summer by seeing friends and relaxing, and try to embrace what comes next. It'll be amazing, I promise <3

[whiskydisky]

alright buddy you asked for those headcanons....

a lot of them are for rachel for some reason, or just me projecting, or really out of character, I thought of them in the shower, blah blah blah you don't wanna hear me yap.

some of them are also just "____ reminds me of _____", and they shift past and present tense cause I'm STUPIDD so sorry

ANYWAY

Andre

Andre doesn't really have a definite music taste, he just listens to whatever Cal likes and whatever's on the radio (OR SO HE SAYS)

He was pretty much a straight A student, he probably would've even gotten a scholarship.

His family has had Mel since she was a kitten.

His favorite arcade games are those hunting simulators with the guns.

REPRESSED HOMOSEXUAL (obviously), but he probably would've never figured it out anyways.

If he was alive today he would've been one of those shitty misogynistic fortnite players that watch andrew tate and you can't change my mind.

His bed is the best thing you will ever lay on, it's so ridiculously comfortable.

out of character, but it's funny, so who cares. andre secretly LOVES pop music, but he never really gets a chance to listen to it.

cannot draw anything to save his life.

HATES musicals. absolutely despises them.

still sleeps with this one stuffed animal he's had since he was a kid. its a lamb.

THE HEAVIEST SLEEPER YOU WILL EVER MEET. it is almost impossible to wake him up unless he does it on his own.

he's red to me.

autistic. how many more characters will I project onto? only god knows.

necklace guy.

one of those white guys that punch holes in walls when they get mad.

pops his fingers a lot.

paranoid about balding. (AND FOR GOOD REASON.)

Cal

knew absolutely nothing about guns before andre started talking to him about them.

him and rachel were childhood friends.

had a MASSIVE cd collection. just shelves and shelves of cds in his room that him and andre would listen to when they hung out.

doesn't really like going out.

sonic fan. im not explaining he just seems like one.

his entire wardrobe is just black band shirts and jeans because black shirts "go with anything" (he isn't wrong).

bracelet guy.

a little spoiled, ends up spending money like an idiot because of it. (example, his massive cd collection)

the way he was bullied was either physically or those kinds of "my friend has a crush on you" type deals

huge music geek, and gets angry when andre doesn't keep up with all of the stuff he tells him about bands.

REPRESSED BISEXUAL. he probably would've figured it out.

middle school was the absolute worst for him.

says the absolute meanest shit about people and then says "but who am I to judge?" and thinks that covers it

absolutely loved chuck e cheese animatronics as a kid.

he's blue to me.

draws on himself a lot, just draws in general, it's a way for him to fidget.

definitely neurodivergent.

chews off the paint on his nails, and his nails.

Rachel

hums a lot.

not exactly a "popular kid" but people do hang out with her.

air hockey god, nobody can challenge her, they will lose.

earing girl.

people sometimes look at her weird for hanging out with cal, but she defends him.

had a little crush on cal, but nothing would've really come out of it anyway.

her house is super nice, like those grandma homes with the glass figures and useless decor with lace everywhere and uncomfortable couches to sit on. I'll send a picture if u don't know what I mean.

really nice to hang out with.

fidgets with her hoodie strings a lot.

one of those people that can adjust their personality depending on who they're hanging out with.

doesn't like andre because of his reputation and how cal acts around him (like how he actually is), but she doesn't actively bully or talk about him. she isn't that kind of person.

absolutely loved prom but the ride home was so incredibly awkward that it almost ruined the night for her.

has naturally curly hair, but doesn't really treat it right so it's pretty frizzy.

HATES it when car windows are down, her hair gets in her face a bunch.

also doesn't like putting her hair up unless it's really hot out.

paints cals nails. she knows he's a little 💅💅💅 but doesn't say anything.

really liked cal.

i do think she moved on, but it definitely took her a long time.

I'm very sick and tired of the "lesbian best friend" trope in caldre fics, she just doesn't seem like it to me.

falls asleep unnaturally quick.

absolutely loves going out, especially to malls or the park where she can walk and talk with people.

really good in school.

freshman year was horrible for her.

really likes reading and writing, she has a journal that she keeps to herself, it's one of those that have keys to them and stuff.

absolutely obsessed with unicorns as a kid. wanted them to be real so badly.

worried about how she'd look on her college application.

hung out with cal AND andre one time. did NOT like it and absolutely still talks to cal about how bad it was.

AND THAT'S IT... SO... YEAH!

THABK YOU SO MUCH FOR FUELING MY BRAIN AHHH I LOVE THESE SO MUCH!!!!!!

[yumiiyummech]

diary entry : EYES

this is in continuation of this post. I might make this a series if people want more!

large block of text and WENDY lore ahead!

Diary entry number … a corner of the page is burned

This room isn’t mine, I think. I’ve slept, wept, and ate here but it's so bleak that I feel as if im walking into a different world every time. MISTER DIARY, you’ve already heard this from me but I feel like you should hear it again. Just imagine it. The walls are bare with no decorations, just a pale yellow color that drives me insane. My bed frame is textured black wood. My sheets alternate between an ugly ashen gray and porcelain white every week. My pillows are still practically new because I hardly sleep with them. The carpet is dirty and I keep pulling pieces of it out from boredom. There's nothing to do here. Nothing to look at. I'm tired. So very tired. Not the sleepy tired, I don't know how to describe it. Sometimes I want to tear off this ugly paint from the walls like I tear pieces out of the carpet. But it would make MOTHER angry and she would definitely notice. 

MOTHER isn’t pretty when she’s angry. Do you remember when I told you, MISTER DIARY? The moment she got angry that one time, she placed a camera in here. That was evil, wasn’t it? All because I told her that the camera had eyes? Why doesn’t she see them? You’ve never seen them before so I’ll draw it today.

See? Isn’t it scary? It’s watching me right now. The ones during a photoshoot are a lot worse though. It’s like they’re multiplying. They follow you and they never let you out of their sight. Sometimes they take over the room but no one seems to see it. 

She gave me a glass unicorn to play with because she felt bad. You don’t believe it either, right? MOTHER thinks she can buy my feelings with money. Even with that camera, she hasn’t realized that I don’t play with dolls anymore. The unicorn is sparkly, just like the dresses I have to wear but it has no wings. Unicorns are supposed to have wings, right? You don’t think MOTHER took their wings, do you? Otherwise, that'd be really evil. There are only 4 things I own in this room anyway. She didn’t have to take the wings. 

A glass unicorn. I named her after me. 

A teddy bear. There’s no name for them.

Alphabet blocks. What am I, like 5? 

And a plastic fairy wand. 

I wish the fairy wand was real. Maybe I could create a biiiiiiiiiiig window, large enough to jump out of and never come back. I could summon a real unicorn that could fly me away. It would take me to a faraway land called…FARAWAY UNICORN…IA....

There are little notes on the side but they were burned away.

I hear footsteps coming upstairs. It’s probably the scary LILICA. Did you know that she has those eyes all over her too? Anyways, you probably think im crazy, MISTER DIARY. Bye, I need to go. I’m sorry that I keep burning your pages. I might have to do it. Again. 

>> PART 2

[xxmia0wm4yh3mxx]

GLOOZE

(Chapter: 4)

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I really love making these its so fun to write these characters even if im bad at writing :3

I can't wait for chapter five!!!

(Also plz leave comments it makes me happy)

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The Boy stormed out of Able's office after a long and boring lecture about "proper classroom etiquette" and "Treating others how you want to be treated" So stupid... He's definitely never going back to school again

Enock: Hi...

Enock was timidly waiting for The Boy outside

The Boy: What?

Enock: Umm... I- um.. I wanted to- umm...

The Boy: Ugh, Spit it out man!

Enock: Umm.... I thought you were really funny... and... I wanted to give you something...

Enock nervously, he gives him a folded piece of paper, The Boy rolled his eye and grabbed the paper from him

He unfolded the paper and saw a drawing in crayon of him with small angel wings and a halo, it was simple and scratchly drawn in green pen, the drawing itself looked a bit strange, the eye was drawn in a realistically oval shape contrasted to the boy's cartoony circled shaped one, He gazed at the image, examining every doodle surrounding the Strange depiction of the Boy, He could feel his Eye start to water

He started tearing up

Enock: I-I did I do something wrong?? Is it the Artstyle??

The Boy: No... its fine... thanks dude...

Enock: do... do you... wanna play?

The Boy: Uh... sure!

Later, Enock took the boy to a long hall in the circus, unlike the Brightly colored circus, it was cute and pastel, calming yet fun, Doors where placed along side of the pastel walls each having the face and name of the pals on them, on the end of the hallway, right was a Orange colored door in a wacky shape, Enock's picture and Name on it as well as stickers and glitter plastered all over it

Enock: dishes myoom!! I decorated it with pretty stuff! Cool right? Qwerty said it was childish but my mom and dad really likes it!!

The Boy: Wah- Huh- um cool

Enock opened the door and led The Boy inside

It was a spacious room with striped walls and decorated with Drawings, photos and random decor, plushies and toys were everywhere, a small doghouse was sitting against a wall with balloon dog (giraffe?) Was sleeping peacefully, in the corner was a small twin sized bed ridden with plushies and colorful pillows, opposite to the door he entered was a out of place fancy looking door with stickers spread across it to make it blend in more, it was probably just a closet or something

The Boy was utterly entranced by the room like it was a world forged from his wildest dreams

The Boy: sick room dude!!

Enock: really? Forgor to clean it today

Enock: Hey! You wanna see something cool?? I always wanted to show it to someone

The Boy: Okay, hit it

He sit down on the floor

Enock: Okay, here it goes...

Immediately, Enock's body started to morph, he rapidly grew five new pairs of arms and legs, his torso split and his head went into the new cavity, he started levitating in the air

Enock: Guess wha I am!!

The Boy was equal parts gobsmacked and terrified, and a bit impressed

Enock: look Ima Sunshine!!

The Boy: Cool!!

Enock remorphed into his original form

Enock: Really? Everyone says its creepy

The Boy: Its totally awesome man!! What else can you do?

Enock: well... I can do this!!

Enock in Qwerty's voice: My Name is Qwerty and I'm reaaaallly boring and I talk in a boring voice like thiiiissssss

The Boy laughed, And Enock made alot of random cartoon noise in response

The Boy: thats so awesome!!! I bet you can pull a @#$% ton of pranks with that!

Enock: Nah, well, sumtimes, but I usually just make music!

The Boy: You make music too?! What do you sing about?

Enock: usually about things I like, my family, dinosaurs, sometimes death on occasions, food i like, or just random things I like!

The Boy: I always wanted to make music, I can't though, But If I could I would sing about how cool I am! Or maybe about something about dragons

Enock: I love Dragons!! My favorite are the rainbow ones!!

The Boy: I like the Big ones who have GIANT horns and Wings!!!

Enock: Golly! If I had Wings I'd fly just like my dad! And why I could visit Ms. Sun and Moon everyday!!

Enock and The Boy rambled with eachother, topics changing in a second, Enock started flailing his arms and legs and the boy bobbed his head back and forth

Enock: -Ms. Queenie is always in her garden, I like it there! Its really pretty, But she dosent like me in there she says always I step in the flowers, so I have to stare at the flowers from atleast five feet away, Marigolds are my favorite to look at, they're really, really pretty! And its my favorite color!! It also a symbolism of Death! I like death! He sure seems Lika swell guy!! He has a skull for a head lika cally-vara!! I've never had a cally-vara before, My mommy says all that sugar isn't good for me, But I really, really want to! She says I havta eat more veggies, but I don't like veggies at all! There gross, slimy, and green... Oh sorry! I didn't it like that!-

The Boy: No I totally get it! I hate veggies! They're totally gross, And I love gross things! Like, mud and swamps and green moldy cheese and bugs and barf and other stuff! But I don't like Adults, they don't like gross stuff and yell at me when I do things, I hate them!

Enock: I like some adults actually, Like momma and papa and miss sun and moon and miss Ragatha and Miss Gangle and mister miss Zooble and Mister Kinger and Queenie, I don't like Mister Jax though, He's mean to me, each is way I think Patchricia is mean to me, I'm happy my parents are nice, they're the best! My dad is super cool and Can make anything and my mom is super smart! I'm happy I have them And not other Adults, well Ms. Moon and Sun could be my parents, Miss Moon already Likes my mom and Dad and- Hey, Are you Okay?

The Boy was silent, he stopped bobbing his head and had a uncomfortable expression, they just stared at eachother awkwardly for a bit

Enock: Did... Did I ruin it?

The Boy was Still silent and looking at the ground, Enock could sense he was upset, he tired to think of something to cheer him up, and then he got a idea

Enock: Yanna see my house?? Its really cool and fun!!

The Boy: Isn't the Circus You're house?

Enock: No, nota Circus, My dad's manor!

Enock unzips one of his plushies and Grabs a key inside of it, he Goes up to the door opposite from the door they entered and unlocks it

The Boy rolled his eye Enock and the Boy stepped out of His room, Enock took his hand and guided him through the dark halls illuminated by candles sparked with crimson flames

The Boy: Oh Great, I great see your boring bourgeois house

The Boys Jaw drops when he steps out of the halls and sees a long hall draped in vibrant red, long marble pillers accented with gold stretched to ceiling, the ceiling was covered with an artistic mural of the heavens, diamond chandeliers hanged down like willow branches, Sunshine shined through the tallest stained glass windows he had ever seen, a long red velvet carpet spread out before the two childern rolling out farther than the boy could see, it looked like he stepped out of the mortal plane and into some kind of Valhalla

Enock: see? Its pretty isn't it?? This is only wonuva halls though, the actual rooms are much cooler

The Boy was silent, Astonished and completely overwhelmed by the sublime halls of the manor, Enock poked him to get a response

Enock: 大丈夫?

The Boy snapped out of his daze

The Boy: Wah- Huh- Uh.. I mean yeah its cool or whatever I guess...

The Boy tried to keep a cool and uninterested demeanor but Enock could sense he was impressed

Enock: Heyawunna seemy favorite places?

The Boy nodded his head and Enock Eagerly tugged him through the hall, Enock turned left and entered a twisted hall, it looked like it was melted and refrozen again, Enock stopped at a abstract door

Enock stepped aside urging The Boy to Open the door, The boy rolled his eye and pushed the door open, Enock then shoved him into the room

The Boy: Hey!-

Inside of falling on his face like he thought he would, he floated in the air like he was in outer space, floating furniture was scattered across the room, Enock jumped in to join the slimy boy

Enock: Dishestha Gravy Room!!

The Boy: Woah!- uh, Don't you mean Gravity?

The Boy awkwardly turned his body to face him, his jelly body hard to move in zero gravity, Enock Pushed away a full gravy boat the was floating towards him

Enock: Uhh yeah!

Enock: I like this room alot, Its really fun to pretend your flying or in space, I useto bring Qwerty in here, but they don't like it very much, But now you can play with me!! Tag!!

Enock poked his eye and flung himself from a floating table

The Boy: Hey!!

The Boy thrusted himself foward towards Enock, propelling himself like a fish in the water, Enock pushed himself against the wall dodging The Boys attempt to Tag him, they continued to play with eachother, Jumping from Floating furniture and bouncing off walls, after a while, They exited the Gravity room so they could explore more of the manor

Enock: C'mon!! I wanna show you more!!

They sprinted across the mansion, sliding down spiral stair railings and swinging from from antique chandeliers like a Jungle gym, they jumped from room to room, exploring the wacky wonders of the palace, They snacked on the walls and furniture in the candy room, explored in the Giant room, playing with the giant toys, and running from a giant soccer ball rolling towards them, bounced through the bouncey room and walked through an aquarium tunnel that was big enough to fit a blue whale, They Boy was especially estatic at seeing all the Different kinds of sharks

Enock: C'mon Greenie!! I haven't showed you the Safari Room Yet!!

The Boy: Im Coming Man! I'm still getting used to my Body!

The Two boys were running through the halls, Enock zipped past the rooms, The Boy barely being able to keep up with him with his gelatinous form, The Boy reached a fork in the road between two entrances, The right entrance emitted a soft glow, Curiously, he went right

He entered a large foyer, its colors where split down the middle, on the Side The Boy was on was bright warm red and on the opposite side in front of him was a soft blue manor, he slowly squirmed his way to the boy side

Enock: STOP!!! そこへ行かないで!!

Enock grabbed The boy and placed him on the red side of the manor

Enock: where not allowed to go on that side! My Uncle is kinda weird about his part of the house, Its boring there anyway so I don't like going there anyways, Qwertys allowed on my dads side because My dad is alot more fun than my Uncle, and also I think that My dad likes Qwerty more than My Uncle likes me, Momma says I'm being silly and that he loves me but I'm not really sure because he never wants to play with me and looks at me funny when I talk and-

Enock turned to see the boy staring up at the giant family painting placed between the red and blue side, He had a strange strange expression that Enock couldn't really identify

Enock: Hey... you al'ght?

The Boy: Im Fine....

Enock: No you're not, I can tell you're sad-

The Boy: I said Im FINE!!

Enock jumped back at the Boy's yelling, The Boy looked back at the Ground awkwardly, Enock could tell he was upset, he hated when his friends were sad, he had do to something, anything but stay here where he was upset

Enock: You... You Wanna go Play with The other Pals?

The Boy: ......

in the grounds the Pals are hanging out and play with eachother, Patchricia and Niku are playing tic-tac-toe together, Princessa and Princely are identifying bugs with eachother and was quietly Qwerty is reading a book

Patchricia: AH! I win again!

Niku: How do you keep beating me?? Are you playing a trick or something??

Patchricia: Nope, Guess im just naturally skilled!

Enock walked to join them, The boy trailing behind him

Enock: おはようございます、皆さん!!!

All of pals let out a audible groan

Qwerty: Enock, it is 4:05 pm, it is not morning anymore

Enock: I-I knew That!!

Enock twiddled his hands nervously before turning to the boy

Enock: So umm... Whattawanna play?

The Boy: I dunno, I'm done for anything

Enock: OH! OH! Can we play play space cowboys?? I never get to play that game!

The Boy: Uhhh.... Okay, sounds cool

Enock and the Boy were having a pretend standoff, using sticks as Laser pistols

Enock: This Spaceship ain't big enough for the both of us!!

The Boy: oh Yeah?? Well you know is big enough for the spaceship?

Enock: Who??

The Boy: YOUR MOM!!

They Boy let out a war cry and charged towards him, followed by Enock making a High pitched Screech while sprinting towards the boy, The crashed into eachother and thudded on the ground, they got off the ground and chased eachother, giggling while doing so

The Other Pals gave them passing looks, trying to ignore the loud racket the two boys where making

Enock: You're time is up Space Criminal! You can't out run the law!!

The Boy spinned around

The Boy: Well I can Out laser the Law, with this SICK @#$ HELL RAILGUN!

The boy positioned his hands to look like he was holding an invisible gun

Enock: WAIT, WAIT, WAIT! PAUSE, PAUSE! Who know what would be cooler than a pretend railgun??

The Boy cocked his head

Enock: a REAL Railgun! I can manifest it!

The Boy: You can Do that?!

Enock: Yeah!! JusHolon, I neda focus...

Enock took a deep breath and closed his eyes, he held his hands close together leaving a small space between them, The Boy watched as Enock's body strain and jitter

The Boy stared at him confused on what he was doing exactly, His confusion quickly turned to amazement when he saw a low polygon shape glitching into existence forming between his hands

The Boy: Dude!! That is Sick!!

Enock strained his body harder, beads of sweat trickling down his tooth face, he gritted his teeth together forcing all his mind power into his craft, the random pile of polygons glitched and flickered until it took on a rectangular shape, it flashed random colors it and started lighting up like a lantern, Qwerty Looked up from their book

Qwerty: ENOCK!-

In a split, A loud boom erupted throughout the the grounds, The pals were thrown violently, their screams lost amidst the chaos. Debris rained down, scattering in every direction, while dust and smoke stained the air

Slowly, they all got up, racked by the explosion and covered in dirt and smoke

Patchricia: Is everyone okay?..

Niku: ...No...

Enock crawled out of a small crater created by his attempt at creation

Enock: ugh... ....Cheesy rice...

Patchricia: ENOCK!!

Patchricia ran up to Enock, Rage filled her Cotten body

Patchricia: WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT ENOCK?! DO YOU REALISE SOMEONE COULD'VE HURT?? OR KILLED??

Enock Shrinked into himself, stroking the tendrils that dangled from his head to calm himself from the shaking panic that spread through his body

Enock: I... I didn't...

His breath hitched, tears welling up in his eyes, Niku waddled up to the Two, limping due to the pieces they lost

Niku: its not his Fault Patchy, He- He didn't know

Patchricia: I KNOW, he never means to mess things up, but he keeps doing things he KNOWS are Stupid!!

Patchricia: Maybe He should pay more Attention to the Real world instead of playing pretend all day and babbling about Skeletons and zombies like a He's a Stupid Baby!!

Tears streamed down Enock's face his voice hitching between sharp breaths

Enock: ...I'm... I'm notta dumb baby...

The Boy reformed his shape form from his compact shape and stood between Enock and Patchricia

The Boy: HEY! HE'S NOTTA DUMB BABY! HE ONLY WANTED TO HAVE FUN!!

Patchricia: Well That FUN Could've killed us!!

The Boy rolled his eye at what seemed to him as hysterical complaining

The Boy: You're Just Jealous that he's Funner, cooler and Awesomer than a Uptight, Bratty, STUPID B#$%@ LIKE YOU!

All the Pals gasped, mouths agaped, Patchricia stomped her foot on the ground and pinned her crinkly ears back, her teeth gritted and snarled at him, The boy was completely unfazed with the angry bunny and continued to stare her down

Qwerty walks inbetween them

Qwerty: Cease this behavior immediately, both of you are acting in an immature manner, Patchricia, your reaction was inappropriate and resulted in Enock becoming upset, When You are aware of his sensitivity to shouting

Patchricia thumped her foot repeatedly before slowing down

Patchricia: Yeah... I guess you're right... sorry...

Patchricia rubbed her arm awkwardly, And Qwerty turned to Face The Boy

Qwerty: I understand you are new and unfamiliar with our procedures, but your behavior was inappropriate, You should not have enabled Patchricia's unprofessional conduct, Additionally, Enock has made a dangerous mistake that he has repeated multiple times and must face appropriate consequences for his-

The Boy: Im not taking rules from a Guy in a PINK TUTU!

Qwerty: My wardrobe is not my choice, Please return to the subject at-

The Boy: Enock didn't do anything wrong! He just wanted to play!! Somthing YOU are Cleary above!

The Boy shoved Qwerty and they fell to the ground

The Boy: You think You're so smart but they're an Stupid kid like the rest of us!

The Boy: You're just trying to compensate for the fact that Enock is a Gazillion times more personality than you do! I mean just because you're an NPC dosent mean you have to act like One!

The boy grabbed Enocks arm

The Boy: C'mon Ennie, we're to cool for these LOSERS

The Boy Took Enock back Inside the circus, Enock was still teary eyed

Enock: No one... no one ever stood up for me like that... Thank you...

Enock Smiled warmly at the Boy, The Boy looked puzzled at Enock's expression, But slimed regardless

The Boy: Uh.. Um.. Thanks, I guess...

The Boy: Do You... Do ya wanna hang out more?-

A Loud warping rang through the Tent, indicating that the portal reopened

Enock: Mama!!

Enock ran off to the main area of the Circus,

The Boy followed and observed the Pals greeting their parents, Hugging them, telling them about their day, he saw Caine lift Enock off the Ground and spun him around Playfully and hugged him tightly

The Boy felt a Sting run through his body as he watched the Pals with there parents, he was overcome with a feeling of bitter resentment For the other kids, Kids, Like they were even kids, they weren't kids, they weren't even people, they were nothing but machines with preprogrammed responses, they didn't have feelings or thoughts, they were nothing but AIs, and to think he made a real friend...

Enock hugged his mother tightly, savoring each second with her

Enock: Oh! Oh! Mommy! Guess what?!

Pomni: what is it Ennie?

Enock: No, You havta guess!

Pomni: You... um... You taught Bananer a new trick?

Enock: Noooooooooooo

Enock Swayed side to side, his eyes glistening with Happiness, Caine floated down to Enock's height, Hanging upside-down

Caine: Well what is it Son?

Enock: I Made a New friend today!! A real friend!! And I wanna him to you!!

Enock Grabbed his mom's arm and dragged to where The Boy was, But he was gone

Caine: Oh! Is this another one of your invisible friends!

Enock: Huh- Wuh- No, he was right here and... Um... Nevermind momma...

In The manor, Pomni was washing the dishes that was generated every evening, Enock was telling his mom about all things he did with his friend

Enock: -And than we walked through the Fishy tunnel thing, He really liked the Sharks! Especially the Big ones with Sharp teeth!

Pomni: Wow, its sounds like you had a alot fun today!

Enock: Yeah, he also says alot of funny things I don get...

Enock: Hey momma?

Pomni: Yes Enock?

Enock: Whats a NPC?

Pomni felt her body freeze

Enock: Mamma? Whats wrong?

Pomni: ...Where did you learn that word?

Enock: My Friend said it to Qwerty today, Whats wrong mommy?

Pomni: NOTHING! N-nothing is wrong! Why would anything be wrong?? Haha!! I- Uh- I need to go talk to your Father

Enock watched as his mother ran off down the halls, He could tell She was lying to him, he could always tell

END OF CHAPTER 4

[wrongcaitlyn]

Just read chapter 17! It was sooo worth the wait!

It totally flew over my head that nico and will got a apartment (had to go back and reread, lol) but I feel like someone needs make a pintrest board on what there house looks like, what do you imagine?

As soon as I read that will was going to a party I KNEW he was going to trigger nico with alcohol. It was really sweet though how he just kept confessing his love to nico, I couldn't keep giggling at that part

Oh poor will, the dating accusations with ncio are only going to get worse lol. In all honesty I guess he's not going to care that much about people knowing he's bi, but I don't think nico will like the speculation

Nico making the luckey one the seventh track omg we love the cabin 7 refrence!

I am so ready for this new album (my spotify playlists consist of nicos music from this au, not even egsagurating) I'm so happy with the addition of all falls down (I hc that the saxophone was Austin's playing!)

Also will Hazel and or Frank ever make a appearance in this au? If not why? (Genuinely curious)

This was a great chapter! I hope you have so much fun at the eras tour, and I hope you get a good suprose song!

so sorry it took so long for me to respond to this!!! at first i wanted to wait till i was able to make a pinterest board, but then i couldn't really find exactly what i wanted (but still made a board - here's the link!) so i decided i'd just describe it:

it’s a penthouse, and right now it’s veryyyy empty. they moved into it just before will’s next semester started so not much time to decorate!! they kept all like the basic furniture, so i do think they have a sort of living room connected to the kitchen - hold up, now i’m realizing i sorta based that layout off my uncles house. don’t know why i did that but!! we’re going with it. so they have two couches in the “living room” and a tv, leading to a kitchen with the generic appliances + a kitchen island - then i think that there’s a hallway with doors to one of the bathrooms, the guest room, and the studio, and then the master bedroom is also like. right across from the kitchen. if im even making any sense. i actually don’t know what a penthouse looks like so im just going off of pinterest vibes💯💯 anyway i think that eventually, they’ll also def have a lot of (fake) plants (bc lord knows they don’t actually have time to water and take care of plants), and LOTSS OF BLANKETS. i think that like almost every time they go to a target or smth to get smth they actually need, they walk out of the store with at least one blanket. they’re all over the couches, the beds, the chairs, idk why but i just want their apartment to be very very cozy :) aside from that, will 100% has his record collection moved to their room, with a few hanging from the living room- there’s definitely shelves of a bunch of awards or posters and things like that - A PHOTO WALL TOO!! definitely a photo wall. i also think that both nico and will are very messy, at least when they’re busy with something (and they always are) so every countertop and table and desk is filledddd with clutter. like so much. papers and textbooks and headphones and laptops they’re everywhere.

i realize it’s actually really hard to explain my vision for their apartment, which is funny bc i have a very specific layout in my head - and also one for nico’s apartment in so american btw!! so maybe sometime ill figure out how to draw a floor plan just so i can show yall what im thinking, but in the end, that’s the general vibe of it!!

now on to the rest of the ask‼️

will is ADORABLE he’s just such a simp and i love him for that. drunk words r truly sober thoughts in his case

youre 100% right with will not really caring abt people knowing!! i know some people assumed that will was the one being outed, and this was going to lead to some sort of angsty plot line, but seriously- will doesn’t care for that stuff. in his eyes, he’s already out, because he’s come out to all of his friends and the people he knows. the people on twitter are trying to search for something that just isn’t really that important

YES YES YES FOR THE ALL FALLS DOWN HC!!! i forgot to mention the songs and the artists in the end notes but seriously, all falls down by lizzy mcalpine is SOOOO fucking nico. i almost considered it being apollo (which i think it could also be) except the production style just wasn’t rlly very him if u get what i mean?? he’s much more like mainstream pop, and nico is too but he’s less worried abt sticking to a genre and i think it matches him perfectly

hazel and frank WILL be making their appearances soon!! i’ve had their backstories planned for sooo long and i can’t WAIT to finally include them. it’s been a long time coming but i swear it’ll be worth the wait!!

thank you SOO MUCH and i’m sorry again for taking so long to respond to this!! i had an incredible time at the eras tour and got some AMAZING surprise songs so thank you for that!!

[castlebyersafterdark]

obsessed with your partner being into decor, never wanted to ask about your house as you always draw a good boundary. but i am always so curious if you were one of those guys with like the cabinet full of figuines or fan merch like you see in youtube reaction videos haha! most fans i've encountered in this space seem / say theyre the type to go to cons, buy the merch, etc. i remember the flurry of people who wanted the new will's painting merch! personally i'm never into that stuff, mainly because i am super into interior design (im a decorator!) and so my taste in entertainment doesnt really bleed into my taste in decor in my home. two separate worlds! it never makes sense for me to blend them, always makes me feel like a teenager with posters on the wall (no offence to anyone, just not my cup of tea anymore).

i remember you said you had a little funkpop (Will?) in your house plant hahaha but thats all! (must admit if someone got me a will funko, i would pop him on the shelf in some sort of nonsensical spot cos i like the idea of one random thing that makes no sense in the room haha. wouldnt buy him for myself though)

so is your man into design trends or has he got his own eclectic style? does he love diy and is always wielding a saw and youre there just drooling? does he wear his corduroys to go antiquing for midcentury glassware on the weekends? am i now just projecting?

possibly.

anyway love to hear that he's into seasonal decor, he sounds like suchhhh a keeper for all the reasons you've ever listed about him <3

I've been feeling really really sappy lately so I'll indulge if yall will let me ramble about the guy for a post. Sat on this ask a bit because I feel a little self conscious sometimes when I talk about my life? And other times I'm waaaaay too easily tmi haha and I can never predict! Day by day. Under cut as I always do when I get personal for no reason other than that's my thing here:

Anyway, my lovely Z 💙 and his our super cool house. He has, in my very biased opinion, such a great sense of style and taste. Old soul. A bit fussy and uptight while I'm a chaos tornado - but that's ok! Love despite drastic differences 🤭 "does he wear his corduroys to go antiquing for midcentury glassware on the weekends? am i now just projecting?" HEY THERE SO ARE YOU SPYING ON US OR SOMETHING??? This is. So spot on it's astounding. Super eclectic here but sooooo cool. I like how busy it is. Refined, but busy. Very retro. Cozy but curated? Very cool. Gosh, he's so quietly cool. Loved the place and moving in a while back, it was so unlike myself but now I can't imagine being surrounded by anything else.

And right right - I'm totally not the biggest merch collector, despite loving the show so much. I'm very picky!! I want cool merch and no shade, but so much Stranger Things merch just isn't to my taste? I like things that kind of blend in but are still merch or are really unique (I have some cool Star Wars stuff like that). Or collabs. I've bemoaned before about the cost of the lego sets (which I do collect) or there being no Hot Wheels or Matchbox ST big collab (which I also collect).

I keep my nerdy stuff in our office room BUT - I have a Mike and Will Funko set because I LOVED that they have Mike with the painting. They are set in the planter of Z's giant pothos plant (I think is the name?) because I thought it was funny with all the vines 😆

And we are fully Christmas-ified now!! It was earlier than I would have liked but I came around to it - both needed some joy. And we had so much fun going over the top this year.

Keeper? Yeah. He is everything 💙

[kawaii-butt-crust-core]

Rise of the TMNT headcanons because I feel uhhhsodk emotions or something

Warnings: anxiety , gore mention, trauma/PTSD mentions, kidnapping, yelling mentions, claustrophobia mention, if I missed any please lmk ‼️‼️

Donatello ( my favorite hands fucking down )

LOVES "it's always sunny in Philadelphia" and relates to Dennis wayyy too much

( also made a joke about how splinter is frank and he was actually cool with it )

Likes those HYPERBOP and songs like that

At 5am and raph is waking up for the day and he finds Donnie in his room fully awake

"Ive been up for 3 days everything is haunted everybody's evi-"

He also likes twentyone pilots

House of gold, taking my time on my ride, and car radio are his favorites

Actually hates monster ( like the drink ) but he has a can in his room from 2020 that he just poured out for decoration

( honestly I can't even really hate on it I think 2020 just ruined it LMAO )

Has no blankets. Sleeps with a single sheet and a unwashed unsheeted pillow.

Is one of those people that people mistake for way older

Yokai thinks he's at least 18-20 and get so freaked out finding out he's actually just 14

( he loves the attention )

He actually likes HOMESTUCK 😭

( this is based on my friend who likes Homestuck and they remind me of Donatello to some degree )

Has a fan that hasn't had a break since 2016

Maybe longer

Has seasonal depression

He likes to be with April or doing something during the winter because of it to distract himself

April and raph are good with helping him

Leo knows but he knows to just stay out of his way and leave him the fuck alone

And Mikey hasn't really been told because Donnie feels like he's burdening people with his problems ( he didn't even want Leo to know but he just caught on )

He even feels guilty for dragging April and raph into it

Him and Mikey LOVE LOVE LOVED spiderverse

( Donnie got the movie illegally before it even came out )

This mother fucker definitely fell to his knees for spider punk im so sorry

This same mother fucker also probably loved Danganronpa...

He doesn't really like southpark but some episodes get to him

LOVES GHOSTFACE

TO ANOTHER LEVEL

NO ONE CAN LOVE GHOSTFACE AS MUCH AS HIM

Actually probably has purple injected into his veins

"yeah my veins bruise in the blink of an eye and I can't move my body sometimes but so what? It was worth it??"

hates on dream so hard....

DONT HUG ME IM SCARED AKWNWJJF

ALL OF THE BOYS WATCHED IT ( maybe not raph tho actually )

He actually made discord ( idk if I'm even joking or not )

Would this be a good time to add a picture of what I think human Donnie would look like?

Uhhh yeah

Yeah I think so

Ok next

Leonardooooooooo

Just fyi this shit is gonna be so angsty

It will dip I promise

He can't get enough of those "drake the type" memes

But also low-key he is drake

Has a hello kitty clock in his room that actually works for him

He was that annoying ass kid who would say "I can scream like a girl" and then scream to the top of their fucking lungs

The ADHD was tooo muuchhh

So he just basically climbs walls who cares

He's on the ceiling? What's new.

Ok so spieerpunk had don to his knees but Leo was all for Miguel

" NOOOO MY SPIDER PAPIIIII- " *splinter right fucking there*

Daddy issues just crawling out of all of their skin ANYWAYS

Can't draw for shit but loves art

The way he words things makes him sound like a complete gaslighter but he's just stupid

"?? I don't gaslight?? HUH no seriously what did I do?"

The Mario movie possessed him for a while tbh

DIP!

even hours after him returning from the prison realm he was dissociating so bad he was crying to feel something

Just a few weeks later, he isn't better yet by any means he's just ok enough to function

Someone dropped a plate or something ( I probably need to rewatch the scene before I make headcanons for it LMAO ) or dropped a pot, something loud

And he practically went down with it

He fell to the floor and stayed there for a bit

He didn't cry or say anything

Then Mikey tapped his shoulder and he fucking SNAPPED

He will never forgive himself

🫶🏼

The CRUCIAL NIGHTMARESS

*rubs my hands in evilness*

He could feel the same AIR as the prison realm at times

He smelt the same scent

Raph, draxum, and Casey had to sleep in the same room for a while so they would hear him

But sometimes he didn't loudly jerk himself awake

Sometimes it played through and he woke up and didn't make a peep

Sometimes they knew and sometimes they didn't

Most of the time one of them would just wake up because of instinct and see him just frozen

Can't handle gore now

He used to but can't anymore

It reminds him of 1

The kraang

And 2

Seeing his brothers eye all fucked up like that was too much

There were times he didn't even know who he was anymore

He was scared to leave his room for a while and felt such bad guilt for it

While they're out on a mission and Leo's just curled up in his room blowing up raphs phone

Raph wishes he could say something like "oh how the tables have turned" but this isn't what he wanted at all

Uhh ok sudden switch up

HE LOVES BO BURNHAMMMM

Him and Don and Mikey listen to Will Wood

SHAYFER JAMES TOO

JUST THOSE TYPES OF ARTIST

Mixed with late 90s to early 2000s

"erm.... what da flip ;-; NO STFU IM JUST KIDDING STOP BULLYING ME ITS A JOKE-"

Him if he was a hummmaannn

+ maybe some scars on his back

Raphael

Blind in his one eye and low-key has bad eyesight in his other one

He can still see decently but it's pretty much fucked

He likes squishmellows but he knows Mikey LOVES them so if he buys/ finds one, he'll give it to Mikey

He's more of a "childhood stuff animal nostalgia" anyways

Doesn't like to cuss but if he's REALLY scared, he'll let a loud and quick "FUCK -" slip out of his mouth

Or if he's angry hell mumble "this bitch-" or something like that

He feels like he's not doing enough as a brother but genuinely forgets that he needs to take care of himself

Not physically but more so emotionally

He beats himself up when making a mistake even if it was out of kindness

He doesn't think things all the way through and just immediately jumps to "I wanna help people!"

And ends up making a bigger mess so he feels like a bad person

( people have reassured him he's not but he plays back how people get mad at him when he messes up and he doesn't know how to forgive himself if someone got THAT mad at him )

He sometimes just gets this burst of love and just hugs one of his siblings or friends

I think he doesn't develop feelings easily ( infact it's kinda hard for him to, not in a bad way )but one time there was a yokai, about his size, and they really enjoyed each other

He didn't tell anyone but he got her number and they still talk and he might have small feelings for her

The reason he hates being alone because it's a PTSD thing ( that only got worse after the kraang thing )

( he was alone and in danger for most of the movie, the only reason he wasn't freaking out because he knew if he did he was fucked )

And he got possessed before he could even lose his shit

But basically I think he got kidnapped by a hunter and held him captive ( either chained, or in a cage ) for 2 days before splinter found him

( yes they searched for him for 2 days )

The hunter would shoot his gun next to the cage ( or restraints ) he was in to purposely mess with him

And if he cried he would get in his face and start yelling until raph forced himself to stop crying because of fear

It was traumatic

Splinter has his own trauma from losing his fucking kid for 2 days, but it still fucks with raph badly

He still remembers it so vividly that it feels like it had only happened a week ago

So add that in top of the kraang doing what they did to him.....

He was only holding it together for Leo tbh

He can't go to certain areas or he'll start to hear the hunter yelling in his face again, like a hallucination

It's gotten a little bit better over time but the kraang set him so far back

He was also already claustrophobic, but if anyone tries to hold him down now he just immediately throws them off

And hard

Anything that really reminds him too much of the past he just starts freaking out

So he doesn't like to be alone :)

I could do a separate post for this maybe

But moving on

Any early 2000s song from anyone or any 2000 themed song is his SHIT

They did a karaoke night and he did Brittany spears ( yes I know that's like late 90s but yk THAT CATEGORY )

He put on a blonde wig tho and was actually kinda feeling it at some point

He LOVES walking around at night

Just strolling

He loves food. He eats everything

There is nothing he won't eat

He just loves everything

I forgot his scar sadly but here 😔‼️💔

( the nose piercing is fake he's too scared to get one HELP )

Mikey:

This lil shit STEALS

HE USES HIS INNOCENCE TO HIS ADVANTAGE

And I sleeps fine at night with all of it in his room.

ADVENTURE TIMEEE

he loves cartoons

Adult cartoons, children cartoons

If it's animated he wants it injected into his spinal fluid

His music taste is everything

But he really likes indie / indie rock songs

Has all of his art and drawings hung up on his walls

There's maybe one or.two posters he actually bought the rest is his art

Loves spiderverse but he couldn't even enjoy it because he kept looking at Leo crazy with this out of pocket comments

"I wanna pick him up like a baby lion and wash him and feed him milk and release him back into the wild"

"*deadpan* Leo. What the actual hell."

Draxums favorite. Only Mikey knows he's his favorite. If anyone asks drax who his favorite is he says he hates everyone equally and looks over at Mikey

Speaking of drax I think they're vent buddies

Drax vents to him Mikey vents to drax

Drax was very helpful with all of them during the time they were all fucked up from kraang

He even got them into therapy but I'm gonna make a draxum section because I love him ( I lied he's my favorite character, then Donnie)

( God I love drax and Mikey so much let me go on a rant rq )

Apart of draxs training he could definitely pass as a licensed therapist

So if really anyone has some sort of mental thing going on he's there

Even for Leo ( even tho Leo didn't really want his help, that quickly changed tho, again I'll just put this in his section✨ )

But Mikey has these really bad panic attacks that even his brothers don't know about

Only splinter and drax

Splinter is there to comfort him and drax is there to let him talk about it

Mikey doesn't want his brothers to know because he's technically the "therapist" so splinter and drax will never tell anyone

Watched MSA just to make fun of it

Also says cringe shit because he thinks it's funny like Leo

"GYATTTTT....... Y'all know I'm joking right-"

Loves Lilo and stitch

Has an art Instagram with over 1000 followers

LOVES SPICY FOOD

He ate the spiciest chip and then asked for another

Loves spooky month

Fought leo for that damn hello kitty clock

Then stole it

" I'm in your walls :3"

He ate a like 2 handfuls of orbeez when he was 5 before splinter caught him

HUMAN

Draxum:

MY ACTUAL FAVORITE FUCKING CHARACTER AAAAAAAAA

YES I absolutely believe he could qualify as a therapist and he absolutely uses that to his advantage

Leo was still "ish" about draxum but he became a lot more appreciative of him during the times that raph and Casey couldn't be there ( like missions )

He even took time out of work to be there

If he called? He's already almost there

He absolutely a mom IDC he even has the messy mom bun

Mikey calls him dad and that's part of the reason he's his favorite

"honey, it was ruined when she bought it *snaps*" ( I'm sorry ) ( I have to draw this now)

LOVESS BLANKETS

Like all the blankets

The resting bitch face is so real

He has to be leaping for joy happy to maintain a happy face

Goes to Donnies room and tells him to lay his ass down ( he doesnt )

Sends millennial memes to the boys....

*insert a cat smashing on a piano* he's wheezing.

Him and Mikey paint together sometimes

Because he can actually paint super fucking good

Scars all around his body

HUMAN FORMMM

Thats all ill probably make more for April and Casey and splinter

[favoriteizzy]

@e-vay

OMG I finally got back to WRITING!! I've been going through way to much but i'm finally able to take a break and get back to my favorite hobby and I'll be doing more fanfics later Also Happy late birthday E-vay this is for you

A Trip Of Rivalry

Ima do at least 10 parts / and if you want to write something or draw something about this fan fic pls use hashtag # A trip of rivalry! I am trying to be famous so this helps alot

While Amy and Sonic went to the client’s house, Shadow and Aurora had just arrived to the brand new Diamond Café. It opened up a month ago and Rouge told shadow about the place. Not because of the name itself, but because of how it looked. They Hopped of the motorcycle and entered the place for the reservation. As soon as they entered they would be shined with bright diamonds around the place with blue and white walls and white tables with such fancy chairs and many decor. Shadow started to feel guilty because he didn’t think this would be a well and fancy café, he thought the name was just something to catch customers in, but by the way this place looked, this was for people who were going on dates or a anniversary celebration. But of course those to were the only ones with normal clothes people would wear to the mall. After waiting only 10 minutes a employee came to escort them to there table. “ Thank you” Aurora said sitting down. “ Your welcome the waiter well be here shortly” the employee replied walking away to help the next person. They opened the menu and went to see the foods. Shadow ordered a steak medium rare while Aurora ordered the chicken Alfredo pasta. The couple talked about how their day was and their plans for the following week.

(TIME-SKIP because i'm still learning about how to write good dialogue sorry LOL)

They were halfway through their food and so far they had absolutely no complaints. Even shadow cracked a smile here and there because he honestly enjoyed his steak. "So...sense my parents will be working for a while how about we head to the park I'd need to blow off some of this pasta im full" Aurora said patting her stomach showing she was about ready to go. "Yeah I'm with you on that I could blow some fat off too how about a little race while we're at it~" Shadow said giving Aurora a smirk challenging her. "Oh your own mister!". Shadow pulled out his wallet and payed for the food. They exited the restaurant feeling full but satisfied with no longer feeling the need for food. Once again they hop on shadows motorcycle riding to the nearest park. Before shadow drives quickly aurora grabs her phone and snaps a photo of her and shadow riding around the city then sending to her mom saying "Having a great time tell dad I said hi love you both ❤️" She put her phone in her pocket and held onto shadows back as they get closer to their destination.

[bakugoushotwife]

I'm here for your match ups babe. I'm infp, a Pisces, I enjoy art, anime, video games. You can do guys or girls don't really care. I'm also chaotic with my ADHD. I can't wait to see who you choose. Take your time and stay hydrated.

P.s there is only four right answers.... JK I'm honestly curious who you pick for me

newtnewt hehe im excited but i'm sure you already know what's under the cut!!

i ship you with...

c h o s o

also before i get into this, i'm curious about the other possible correct answers. i feel confident in yuuta, and i'll throw megumi in here too. i know choso is a right answer, so who am i missing??? nanami? gojo?

but back to the main event

choso is so baby omg

i think he would be the perfect gentleman, super understanding and validating of your gender identity. he was a glob of cells for 150 years so he's all about paving your own way and he will defend your honor from nasties thru and thru

i totally see you getting him hooked onto video games. like you let him use a nintendo switch for animal crossing one time and now he's buying his own

down to try anything you like, always approaching it as more things you can do together if he likes the game or anime you show him

choso is clueless and attentive at the same time, which comes across as you talking about your recent drawings and choso decorating his wall with them or picking out every box of colored pencils he ever comes across until tlc's hoarders should be on the scene

all ways he shows you his love though, the calm in the storm during panic attacks or struggles with adhd, he's gotten very good at distracting you and talking you through it

keeps you on task as well as anyone though, mostly because he is always gentle and kind to you and you never feel scolded

he is a drama king like wants work tea and actively comments his real opinions LMFAODJDSHFHS

he doesn't understand a lot of human structure, so when you complain about work or doctors or medication he always gives you a deadpan and completely serious, "burn it all down."

though that's tempting, little brother yuji always makes sure to specify that choso is being sarcastic...though we're not so sure he can do that

overall i give this a chef's kiss

[itsfairly]

Hiya, I just came across your tea themed ask game. Idk how old it is but I wanted to participate:

Palm tree, nutmeg and papyrus

🧚🏾‍♀️ I feel like I should use this emoji bc of your @. On a completely different note, baby talk has me thinking of dad nanami so thank you for making it hard to focus on anything else 🙇🏾‍♀️ I have to work in 2 hrs too!

Sincerely 🦋 Jade

hi jade! thank you for calling!

first things first, im glad you liked baby talk. i think its my first fanfic i've written about nanami and i honestly want to write more about papamin. so trust and believe i am planning to talk about him because nanami as a dad? yeah, that doesn't really leave my mind either. i might use the fairy emoji a bit more haha, i didn't really though much about its relation to my url until now!

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

i dont think i do. but if i had to mention one, i would go with the fates from hadestown. i know they are more of anti-hero, neutral character, but the way they are portrayed comes across as playful and even daring when pushing the other characters to their limit is soooo fun. their songs in the musical are so good as well. i know they aren’t villains, but they also seem pretty shameless with their behavior, so that’s why I’m mentioning them!

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

i dont have a specific aesthetic in my room. if anything, i just try to make it look and be cozy as well as having bits of me around it. i feel that if you were to look around it, you would know a little more about me: my favorite colors, my hobbies, my music tastes, etc. actually, the main colors on my page (the brown and blue) are the main colors, each being the base and accent respectively. i do put a a lot of stuff in my wall—pictures, drawings, stickers, places i've been too, and such.

i try to make my room look as close as to who i feel i am to be comfortable in it.

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

I got i bet on losing dogs by Mitski. I'm a sucker for sad songs and Mitski knows how to write them. this song specifically makes me think about wanting to stick to something just because you are familiar to it or you're not quite ready to let go of it even if you know its doing you no good. in a way, it comforts me because it makes me thinks on the things i am still holding on and that i could live without. besides that, i mostly associated it with friendships I've had in the past that i didn't feel but stuck with because if not i would feel alone.

hope your shift went well!

get-to-know-me ask game (heres the voicemail)

[suck-itaand-see]

date, time, me, city i am in, nowhere

And on my deathbed I will only say your name for the last time because my heart anyway stayed alive 'till now so i can taste a little bit of yours. I won't regret what i will miss in the future, i am forever a prisoner of a past. I'm tired of keeping things I love alive just for a while then finding new ways not to die because it feels like all I ever had take me as it goes. On my deathbed my last sentence will be that one you very well know, only three words, just like my favorite number / no one ever cared to know why it is my favorite one. They will find out too late and far too soon. The only happiness I've ever got was in a hands of one who are under the ground, for such a long time now. I'm tired to care, too tired to cry, I'm done waiting for a miracle all the damn time. I believe in God but not really that it exists somewhere but more like a concept. Someone really wanted to live so he invented God and prayers. I think you need to be strong to survive only by praying to stay alive. I was always only one contradict. I got to know me and decided i don't like what i see. The saddest part of all is I can't be changed, tamed just damned.

' I won't cry myself to sleep like a sucker I won't cry myself to sleep If I do, I'll die I pray your life is sweet, you fucker '

I used to love you, I was ready to be trained like a dog. Nothing is ever enough from what i got. People come and take only good i have inside and they run, run. run and i can never hide! before next ones arrive.

I came to realize im not as empty as i thought. My therapist blame it all on borderline. It's just the bullshit parade, for someone to ease their pain so they don't take the blame. I'm full of life, understanding, wanting to know, to run free, to read, to draw, to love..Oh, to love and be loved! No one knew how to love me since i was a child. My mom used to rush to the ER every other night, i almost never cried, she was scared i might die because good babies cry!

I wish my mom knew that I will definitely stay physically alive but nothing was ever normal when it comes to me as a person. I don't say I'm much different then anyone who walks by but somehow i can't find a place for myself nowhere even if i try so, so, SO hard to find..To belong where it is nice, where i can meet myself as a human being and not as a statue someone built and hopes it won't fall apart for as many years as possible. I can't stay alive only so other people don't get sad or depressed... like they even cared. Even when someone dies the only victims are the ones who carry them to the ground. I don't won't to rot in the cold cemetery but I would rather my ashes to fall in the sea, to go somewhere so deep where i always belonged. My thoughts are becoming so strong, always been too deep to keep any conversation clean. I scare people, either they way i don't look like i have a spark in my eye or when i open my mouth i say something they find really weird. I cannot fit in. Arms who held me knew how to destroy me when they let me go and it is truly only home, one where i felt warm. I changed homes a lot. I don't have one now and no will to try too look for one again. I love this quote: 'don't turn people into a home you might end up homeless.' Not the most precious one but neither am I. I can't find warmth inside of any four walls, cute decoration or christmas lights...By the way, they are all over the town. It reminds me that another year is ending just like me. Somehow, i never understood why people celebrate january 1st? Sounds like a game..to be dependend to a stupid calendar. Laughing this out, the stupid one is I. I put my life in strangers hands and always felt like it is where my hopes are! Lucky are those who count years as a blessing as well as getting old. I'm still a little girl who once got lost for ten minutes, looking for my mom's face in a crowded restaurant, then i thought i will never find. I stayed in that exact state of mind. Only truth i believe is that freedom is a state of mind which i never felt. Tattoo on my arm 'prayer for the wild at heart kept in cages' is favorite part of my body because it's truly a part of me i know i can feel as mine. As i write this i cry but im so tired for it to be loud, just tears are falling out of my eyes in hopes i won't survive 'till next hour.

[wildfangz]

DONEEEE. I'll put this under a read more to be safe

To summarize, I also have mixed feelings!! I haven't seen much in terms of actual gameplay from vivaland yet but as it stands at the current moment, it's nice, and I could see it growing into a solid game later on down the line, but for now I'm not super into it? Though if I had a friend to play with in the future I'd give the multiplayer an honest go, it just seems like right now that's one of the few things they're doing different. Anyway these are just my thoughts right now but I've spent 20 minutes on this so far and im giving up momentarily because I'm too tired BUT I reserve the right to update this later with more:

What I didn't like

The controls are not completely intuitive and building is a little slow. There's also no option to hide walls so decorating small spaces (and playing in them, assuming thats still the case upon EA release) can be difficult

I'm not sure I like some of the stylistic choices for the terrain and the paths as much as I like the Vivas. It'd probably benefit from being less saturated.

MAJOR issue: it is so damn frustrating at some points trying to place things because you're so limited. Ran into errors left and right. An example in the kitchen to keep in mind when you see it below - I was initially going to make it open, but as I placed things I decided itd be a lot cuter and more cozy as a small room. I ran into problems because apparently you can't have a kitchen counter against the wall, so I had to replace the one I had on the left with a cabinet, and then there was another open counter i couldn't seem to place up against the wall at all.

I don't wanna compare this too much to the sims because it's not the sims, but there's some features I feel like really should be included. A better way to do foundations is one of them. Like the sims 2, you have to draw out the foundation before you can build. I also would really like the ability to move the lot after I've started working in case I build too close to the edge or something. Finally columns can't be snapped to fences, which makes them mostly useless to me and my smaller home building ways.

The game has a color wheel for a lot of items, but that doesn't extend to flooring and wallpaper, and the lack of pre-existing swatches does get to be a bit much.

On a similar note, again not even properly early access, but I had a really hard time finding a decent paint for the exterior. Feel like the game was really missing some siding and paneling

there are no ceilings at this current point in time which is why the lighting is so ass

What I liked

I really like a lot of the assets! Most of them have a touch of realism while still being well stylized. In particular I got so excited working on the kitchen (which was the first thing I went for) because there's older appliances and they're visibly rusted. I feel like grime is one thing that's been missing from what we've seen from Paralives & inZOI & I was so happy to finally see it here.

A lot of the items seem to be older in general. Had major sims 2 vibes from a lot of the furniture, which makes me assume the timeline of this game is probably early aughts. Big fan if so tbh

Good clutter selection so far & that's an early access demo. reminded me of house flipper with the style & the way some things are categorized, pieces like the books etc

While the game has some weird limitations with placement, there is some good free placement for clutter items, and free placement for doors & windows and everything else mostly for that matter. I had some clutter objects and appliances initially snap to surfaces but after it's there you can seemingly go ham placing things around it, though they can't intersect. Obviously no idea however if what I built could even be usable by a Viva though lol. There were also some really surprising placement options, like being able to lay clothes out on the bed! & obviously just in general the lack of object snapping makes for some more realistic and thorough cluttering. Also I could place a coffee machine on a normal desk!!

any thoughts on the vivaland demo (assuming you play it) i tried it and ive got some mixed feelings honestly!!

I am actually toying around with it as we speak!!!!! I'll get to working on a list and reblog this later lol. Naturally I want to actually finish a house before I think too hard about it

[universallychaoticpan]

Fyodor x black winged reader, but s/o is very protective of him? A literal guardian angel. Even Dazai realize that it's very dangerous to attack Fyodor with s/o around.

oooo scary reader- it's giving quiet intimidating guardian and I love it. Heehehehe so fun; Im delighted with this idea and I hope I did it justice. Please enjoy and come back any time <333

The wind loved Fyodor; it clung to him, it's scent on his skin, sending his cape flying open behind him until it looked like he might fly away. He didn't have to try to look dangerous; a deadly appearance was innate, bespoke to him. And with the rising moon's white face showing through the decaying walls and open rafters, the wind running through the once grand place, his sighs felt like a great, volatile beast. Dazai was wary of letting his eyes leave the madman; at any other time, even he wouldn't enjoy letting him leave his sight. That was, if there wasn't another force, another being, perhaps just as deadly and only half as restrained.

The wind loved Fyodor. In the same way, it adored you.

Your legs hung down from where you sat, perched lightly on a rafter, sitting so prettily while you stared disdainfully down towards the two men. Quite a scene, really, a priest of destruction and a devotee to chaos; though the black wings sitting around your shoulders made you less of a worshiping devotee and more a vengeful god the more Dazai looked at you.

"I see you've spotted my dearest companion," Fyodor purred. "Quite a stunning thing, aren't they- that perfect mix of beautiful and deadly."

"You always did have an eye for beautiful things," Dazai replied. His eyes were still firmly on you, his relaxed expression not doing much to hide the set of his jaw or the way every flicker of movement in your body drew his attention. For your part, you didn't look away either- your gaze felt like a blade dragging over his skin, ready to draw blood if you so chose to.

"As did you; that at least I respect about you. However I must advise you not to get attached in any way. They do very much belong to me."

Dazai chuckled. "So you've found yourself a pretty songbird, then? How sweet."

Your laugh cut off any words either men could further utter. "How rich," you sighed gleefully. Standing, you swung yourself around a beam before letting go, your body dropping like a black comet before your wings stopped your fall. "The very notion alone is more than amusing." Your smile was unnervingly polite, like the three of you were chatting in a cafe and not very ready to kill each other. "However," you continued, stepping smoothly towards the two men, "I think you'll find he belongs to me just as much as I do him."

And the horrible thing was, Dazai could see it was true. Fyodor respected your power, that much was clear; you stood at his side, not behind him, but as an equal. But he also picked up on something much more subtle: the way Fydor's gaze softened the smallest amount when you crossed in front of him, the familiar way with which you spoke of one another.

This was no simple alliance of power; the two of you loved each other in some strange twisted way.

"You know," you murmured, stepping closer to Dazai, "I am well aware he has no need of another's protection. He wouldn't have come so far had he needed anyone. But," you paused, tracing a knife tipped nail gently around the dip of his throat, "rest assured if you dare try and lay a hand on him, there is nowhere you will be safe from me."

"I think you'll find I'm not someone who is easily frightened by idle threats," Dazai growled.

"Oh but that's just it," Fyodor chuckled lowly as you returned to his side. "They aren't idle at all. Unlike me, you haven't seen just how well the color of blood decorates them so nicely. Truly a wonderful sight."

Dazai scoffed and ran a hand through his unruly hair. "You're fucking insane, both of you. You deserve each other."

"Perhaps," you replied. "But insanity and passion go well together.

That's why you haven't laid a hand on either of us!" Your cheerful smile chilled him, Fyodor's hand on the small of your back giving the two of you an eerily domestic look.

"You won't touch us because even you know nothing begets power quite like obsession."

[yandere--stuck]

i saw rqs are open and im curious if you’d write more yan joker? i dont have any specific ideas in mind, i just rlly love how you write him ^^

I hope this is to your liking! ^^

Can be any Joker but I leaned a bit towards Arkhamverse!Joker

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Moonlight poured in through the barred window of Joker's cell like how sight managed to slip through shaky fingers covering one's face. Joker had huddled himself into the corner closest to his bed where the most light was shed. He made swift, smooth motions with his arms, fingers flecked with red chalk dust.

He wasn't sure who had originally smuggled it in, not that it really mattered, but it had changed hands enough for The Joker to borrow (read: steal) it from Jervis. His cell was far too drab and colorless! He was sure ol' Jervy would understand. Being in this place really could make one go mad.

With a groan, the Clown Prince of Crime straightened up his back. It gave a few loud cracks and the man heaved a heavy sigh. This cell was far too cramped! It was an outrage! An outrage, he said! Two feet wide, and even then the bed took up most of the space, and what? Just barely over seven feet? Hell, his own bed was barely enough to fit him.

Not that he exactly had room to complain. He knew full well that, in the eyes of many, what he's done - and will continue to do - was beyond redemption. But, they still stuck him in this place to 'help' him. No space to move, barely any time outside, shitty food… So much for humane treatment.

It was funny. A smile rose to his lips. It was so, so funny. You'd laugh about it, he was sure. You always got the joke. 

He turned his attention back to his drawings. Big, gaping smiles, batmen made of blobs of red, harlequins with big hammers.

Joker's heart gave a twinge. He wondered how Harley was doing. It had been a long time since they allowed them to stay in the same cell block, so his nights had become a lot more quiet. A lot lonelier.

But among the other drawings that decorated his walls was a more consistent figure, consistent name. Doodled with hearts around them or drawings of clowns with heart eyes to the side. 

More than he wished for a bigger cell or Harley or Bats or a sudden explosion that caused hundreds of inmates to pour out and wreak havoc upon Gotham, Joker wished for you.

Joker sat back against his bed, knees tucked against his chest and back against the hard, rough walls of his cell. He slipped the chalk underneath his pillow and wiped the remaining red on his jumpsuit. 

Looking up, he watched as a cloud stretched over the sky, suffocating the moon and blotting out the sky, plunging his cell into darkness. A nervous, shaky feeling filled the Clown's chest. It was so quiet and so dark. Nothing for him to see, hear, nothing for his mind to clutch onto and distract him.

And most importantly, no you. Light of his life, treasure of his soul, oh, how awful they were for separating you from him. Not that that would stop him in the long run, of course, but it still hurt! Oh, where was he without you? And more importantly, where were you without him? Sure, he had his men observe you from the shadows, but they were idiots! They didn't know you like he did!

... Suddenly, a thought flitted into his mind and another smile graced his lips. It'd been some time since he last graced Arkham with a serenade.

"This song goes out to a special someone out there," The Joker giggled to himself. Laying his head against the wall of his cell, he began to croon, "Where, oh where, has my darling gone? Where, oh, where could they be?"

Memories of you flashed through his mind, making his grin grow and grow until his lips were near splitting from how happy you made them.

Green eyes twinkled with delight as the clouds passed overhead, light once again shining down on him. "We make such a great pair, when they laugh without a care…"

You really were magic, weren't you?

"With them, I'm a happier me…" He trailed off, voice soft and expression content.

Filled with warmth at the thought of you , granting him a bit of peace, The Joker laid down and allowed himself some rest. And he hoped that if he dreamed, it'd be of you.