#im comflicted

[burninglesbian]

I would defend Ed with my life. My favorite boy has never done anything wrong. But...

IF HE ACTUALLY MAKES FRENCHIE CRY-

[lcftcult]

"H-How does America have a birthday? It-It's not a person.. it-it doesn't make any sense!"

[rhisardthewizard]

Navarre is the evil empire. They're the bad guys.

The comedic levels of disregard for life played straight, the military mom who seems to want her own kid dead for no discernable reason (don't get me wrong, Violet's irritating, but parents are supposed to be able to overlook that), the fact that this school is so "Villainous Lair"-coded that it's honestly surprising there isn't a moat full of electric eels... like, they're not being subtle.

Pretty sure that's gonna be one of the "big" reveals for this book. Have avoided spoilers, so I won't know til I know, but I'll eat my phone if this book surprises me even one time.

Dain and violets friendship is given the absolute bare minimum of development, because Dain is gonna betray Violet at some point for some reason and the writer wanted both to *have* her love triangle, but to not have one done well enough that violet will feel too conflicted about inevitably choosing Xaiden.

Speaking of! Bitch, you made a whole little speech about how "the dragons don't care who your family is" and "none of that matters here" because "to them, you're just meat." Try channeling a little of that energy, Xaiden. Mind your fucking business, Xaiden.

I love how he's described as basically a carbon copy of Rhysand, except without a single one of the things that made Rhys an interesting or compelling character.

Violet somehow becomes more insufferable, and makes less sense as a protagonist, with every single chapter.

Yarros, Google "court marshall" even one time. Literally could have saved you *pages* of effort trying to justify why or how killing a fellow trainee during military operations at a military academy is circumstantially permitted (because that detail shouldn't exist and honestly makes the whole experience of reading this book exponentially worse).

[dreamlandxrunaway]

Just read the new episode! I love how the story is going but if that’s not how you envisioned it then it’s okay to change it. I really like your work so I’d also like to read another of your stories but I don’t want you to be overloaded with stuff to do so you don’t get burnt out:/ either way I’ll be glad to read whatever you write<3

Can't say it's this or that way either. Ideas change and grow, so it's only natural the story had come to the point it has. Don't get me wrong, I'm loving the mess it has become. I definitely plan on finishing it too (and if I don't, there will be a post with a run down of what happens, as the story is kinda finished already... well there is a good bone structure there... just the fluff is left. The original take on the story was a fluffy feel good story where MCs meet during unfortune times and grow closer while facing their problems (while also being dumbasses on the internet talking about each other... to each other lol) Somewhere along the lines of when the idea first popped up in my head to it actually reaching my blog... I got this brilliant idea for a love triangle (which I don't mind... I love me a good old love triangle lol) and then I executed it... and now it's grown to a monster I don't know how to handle lol (basically me wanting to express conflict well and having to think of proper ways of dealing with the said situations. There's so many people I'm aware are reading this story, and there could be a few that are complete lurkers and I have no idea they are reading.) There's so many stories I've watched/read that I've stopped purely because of the way people involved were handling their misunderstandings etc... (or for it simple heading into that territory.... for some stories I'd come back... but after a good while lol)

If I were to do a redo of the story it would take a while, and I might do it after I'm done with the og one, or I might never do it. If I were to do it, I'd leave the whole fwb out... and that would like only take a few parts of the story out... as then I'd probably find a different way to make problems for our MC and everyone else hahaha

I'm glad to hear that last part!! Thank you!!! I'd only do it if I knew if I could handle it hence why I still haven't hahaha As this is really fun for me, with story equally as fun, it wouldn't be a burden. It would definitely be a fun way to spend my time. However I'm bad at managing my priorities at times (read: what I'm "supposed" to be doing isn't usually what I want to be doing... and ends up not being done lol). I might start one of the other stories I have in plan... if i can handle the fake accounts part of it all LOLOLOL

Thank you for the feedback<3

Tl;dr: Ranting about being dogshit at handling confrontations and refusing to put myself through people being dumb instead of properly communicating leads me to wanting to take out the frustrating aspect of the story. Might feel quirky and start a wacky smau if I can get over feeling guilty for not being productive all the time 🤪🤪🤪

[aphverse-confessions]

honestly one of the biggest things holding the writing back is how the narrative is convinced that any actions by a potential love interest are SOLEY motivated by their love for aph with zero regard for things like....context.....or their behavior...

laurance and garroth are probably the most notorious victims of in love with aph syndrome? i can't think of a single interpersonal comflict from mcd that wasn't "gar/laur is being a jealous asshole and im mad at him" while there are lives on the line???? and of course they're being weird they're stressed about the lives on the line???

in love with aph syndrome also applies to ein's weird photoshop wall btw.

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[pinkniz]

Hi im insane so I got a weird hc going on

Freddy suffers from winter wolf syndrome

The winter wolf syndrome is a seasonal behaviour change caused by a change in hormones when winter come by. In male wolves, this causes them to become a lot more aggressive, specially towards other males regardless of species because their testosterone goes higher and every other male becomes their enemy.

So basically when winter starts you can see how Freddy gradually becomes more hostile and competetive than usual, specially more towards other men around him. Its not necessarily on purpose, he simply gets a lot more competitive and territorial than usual.

During winter the men of the Shadow Decree tend to avoid Freddy more because of how difficult it is to have any sort of peaceful interaction with him. Freddy is either very grumpy and hostile towards them or TOO friendly, constantly trying to get them to fight him, he always wants to fight and to prove himself stronger than others but during winter its very hard to talk to him without him trying to fight you at the end.

Because of how hard it is to work with Freddy during winter he gets a particular "treatment" when it comes to missions. Given to his testosterone running wild hes a lot stronger, more energetic and more destructive so this is his most productive time of the year, so of course, they HAVE to take advantage of his state. So to prevent comflicts during missions Freddy is almost exclusively sent to missions with teams of women.

While he still wants to fight everyone he's much more easier to handle for women, just like real life wolves, he gets along better with girls because they dont have as much testosterone, they're smaller and they usually arent as loud mannered as men, which in a wolf's eyes means they aren't an enemy. During winter Freddy gets sent to work with female espers and the girls either find him insanely annoying or they're having the time of their life.

When Freddy is under the effects of the winter wolf syndrome the women of the Shadow Decree like to take the opportunity and hang out with him in and out of missions. Some people wrongfully think Freddy is getting all the ladies and such when in reality he basically becomes the Shadow Decree's token male friend of the girls. They gossip to him, they do his fur, they train and fight with him, they compliment his clothes or ask him for his opinion on theirs, they take advantage of him by making him carry heavy stuff that they cant or don't wanna lift and he loves the attention.

During winter its very common to see Freddy surrounded by women while they gossip together, GOD FORBIDS someone says a single bad thing about a guy in his presence because he will not hesitate to go after him for wronging one of his friends. Freddy is a lot more intense during winter and the thing is that the girls that work with him during winter are not only a pack for him, but they're a safespace for HIM. Freddy is always getting ignored, scolded or getting told how dumb and annoying he is but during winter theres people who treat him nicer, the problem with this is that if a guy comes close to these girls Freddy gets a lot more hostile and violent, in his mind they're a threat to his safespace.

Once winter ends the syndrome subsides things get back to normal, his hormones decrease and he's allowed to work with men again. Surprisingly, he apologises to some of the guys if he went too far with them during winter, he still tries to fight them BUT now its in a more playful way. He still chats with the girls that stayed with him during winter but now its not as exclusive.

[marurumai]

Hey, I’m asking this to all my mutuals, because I haven’t really gotten any responses on the post I made about it, so to you have any ideas/headcanons for c!Vikkstar’s and c!Michaelmcchill’s hybrid design/species. It’s for a fanart that I REALLY need to finish. If you don’t have any ideas, that’s fine, I’m just trying to get as many different people’s opinions as possible. Have a good day/night, bye :D

okay i had to go back and check the wiki for them since i dont know much about their lore, as im pretty much focused on cbench but by what i could find, vikk appears to do his best to not be part of any comflict. perhaps some kind of naturally "shy" species? however hes kinda looked up on, so maybe some kind of exotic species. maybe a chamaleon? im not sure, but it sounds cool. it seems its easy for him to fade in the background if he so wishes, almost like camouflage. id also would share some of the revival hc since in canon him and lazarbeam were killed and revived multiple times as experiments, ultimately being killed of to mantain secrecy. ig you take the chamaleon hc, perhaps give him super dry skin? as if peeling of, because shedding. just dead skin forever stuck on him. sounds kinda interesting in my opinion.

for michael... my first impression was a black panther, ans i honestly still kind of see it. he seems to be mischievous and chaotic, but definitely not naive. always with his guard up. however he seems to live in solitude, and untrusting of anyone. very neutral on everything too... he seems to enjoy not being perceived and it kind of comforts him too? hed rather know things about others than other knowing about him.

sorry if this isnt much, i still hope it helps you!

[dorothyoz39]

ty for being one of the only (i assume but apologies if im wrong) goyim i still feel safe following that is still actually talking about the i/p conflict and not just avoiding it entirely. its nice to see some people outside my jewish community can still have like, sane non-extremist reactions and takes while not just straight up defending the israeli government and their own extremists either

Well, anon, I'm not sure if I should thank you or be annoyed at the world. And, yeah, anon, I'm goyim.

People's innability to annalyze complex stuff without taking sides it's a very annoying thing that proves how inmature most people are when it comes to politics and social issues. One side must be absolutely evil with no reason to be annalyzed and the other must be the perfect little puppy that must be protected. The world doesn't work like that, ever. It just doesn't.

A complex situation with a complex history background necessarily is going to have a number of comflicting but true realities. It won't have an easy solution, it may not have a fair solution.

Take this situation as example.

The current Israeli government is guilty of war crimes, crimes against humanity and maybe even genocide. A ceasefire is indispensable NOW. Hammas is a terrorist organization. The Palestinan authority must be given real control over Palentinan affairs. Both Palestinan and Israeli people have rights over the land. Both Palestinan and Israeli people had tried in the past to obtain a diplomatic solution. This is not the first time Israel has exceded the necessary force. This is not the first attack Hammas has done.

They all are true at the same time. Is there a solution? Is there a fair solution?

Most experts in diplomatic situations point to a few common points:

First: ceasefire and humanitarian corridors to send help to the Palestinan civilians.

Second: Hold the current Israeli government accountable for their wrongdoings.

Third: Give the Palestinan authority real control to create a Palestinan state that allows their people to build their own country and be really capable of controling their destiny.

Four: end Hammas (if possible and in time).

Five: Find a way to get both states to stablish diplomatic relationships.

Is the 2 state solution the fairest one? *shruggs*

Could a secular country to hold everyone currently living in the old "British Palestine" be a better choice? A fairer one? *shruggs again* *maybe*

Which one is more viable? And this is key. Because there's a hell of a lot of people there... lots of lives... You can only chose the option that you think is more viable, the one that has a bigger change at succeding.

I'm not a fucking expert. If the diplomants assigned to this matter who know a hell of a lot more than I do think that option 1 is more viable, then who the fuck I am to disagree. I don't tell my doctor that she doesn't know how to read my blood tests. Same principle applies here.

But leaving that aside. Diaspora is NEVER guilty of the wrongdoings of their country of origin or of their community. That's just absurd and hateful. And worse: entirely USELESS.

If you're worried about something, you go to protests, you sign petitions, you call your representatives, you organize your community to donate money or things that are needed.... You don't go around harming or endangering others. That's not being worried, that's not being an activist, that's not being left. It's useless, selfish as the only thing you want to be "morally better" than others, and it's fucking dangerous. We have enough trouble with the far-right growing in Europe like fucking fungus, adding to that is dangerous.

Well, I think I've preached enough.

I'll give you all a few little pieces of advice:

Don't talk if you don't have enough knowledge.

Ask for a ceasefire and humanitarian help (this is useful).

Don't be hurtful to diaspora people (be they jewish or palestinan)

Don't go around mistaking religions with nationalities, ecthicities, etc. Or grouping entirely different cultures under the same big name.

Find ways to help that are useful (solo el pueblo salva al pueblo). No, yelling in the internet is not helpful.

Always chose kindness over anger. If an entire group of people fears you, you're doing it wrong.

Anyway, anon, I'm glad you feel safe with me.

Everyone else, you're free to reblog this, if you want.

[angelicyouth]

bro i just realized that most of my happinest comes from imagining myself in fictional scenarios with fictional characters because in the real world i dont really have anyone i feel i can truly trust, so really at this point one of my only sources of happiness is just being somewhat delusional thinking fictional people care about me when in reality i dont know if anyone will truly even care about me in that extent, i dont even think i could even love myself the way i want people to love me because i just see myself as a generally displeasing person to be around because im too much too bear or too confusing or too angry and people dont wanna put up with me and ive just been realizng that for the past months and it makes me wish i was someone else who could be better than whoever i am, i dont even know at this point who i really am and i wish i was better and funnier and not someone who is the embodiment of a dissapointment.i cant even bring myself to talk about my problems to people irl no matter how much id like to because im too scared to be a burden or just seem overexaggrerating so its eating me from the inside and i cant bring myself to be someone i want to be, all i do is just stay in my room all day because i dont have the energy to do anything anymore. thing that i used to like dont seem the same anymore and i just wanna be held by someone and to be told that its okay to not be okay but if someone actually did it would feel like just a big lie because i dont have that much of an excuse to not be okay so really im putting down other people's problems and looking for attention and i feel so guilty for even feeling this way but at the same time i dont wanna let go of these feelings because it feels like if i have them people will actually care about me and ill have someone by my side and if i dont feel sad then nobody would have any reason to pity me and nobody would really wanna hangout with me anymore and it feels so comflicting and it makes me wanna shut myself away from everyone and continue to pretend everything is okay even if nothing feels okay. i wish i was someone else, maybe then nothing like this would happen.

that one relatable moment where you have nobody 2 vent 2 so you vent as an anon 2 a random blog ran by the literal nicest person ever

-mango anon

mango bby :(

first of all—i’m proud of you for being honest with your feelings! i’m sure it took a lot of courage to come forward and to talk about this with someone else so please give yourself some self care in my place for taking that monumental step!

i know that it may not mean much if i say this because of how overused this line is but truly, don’t ever feel bad about what you’re feeling. always remember that the need for attention is normal and common to all humans. it’s not only limited to that but the need for comfort is also normal and common, the need for physical touch is normal, the need for validation, for acknowledgment, for a positive reaction to yourself, a need to express yourself, to talk about yourself, to voice your pain, to feel valued and important—it’s all normal and a part of just being a human being.

so please, don’t beat yourself up over having those. if you’re struggling with some of them particularly, it doesn’t mean you’re “needy”. anyone who doesn’t get those things would go to deprivation mode and end up craving them severely, eventually. those needs should be met at default and as your friend, i always want to ensure that i can readily provide those for you! so don’t feel ashamed for voicing those thoughts to me because i appreciate that you trust me enough to tell me as i genuinely want to help you. i know i may seem like a random blog run by someone you don’t know from the internet but that doesn’t mean my friendship for you is less valid. so please, if you ever need to talk to someone or just need me to listen then always remember that i’m here for you. because how else would i know what to help you with if it’s not said?

and i know that you feel delusional for seeking comfort from fictional characters but that’s simply not true. because personally, through my own writing, what these people say or do are essentially extensions of the authors who use them in their literature. so whenever craig and kenny talk to reader in youth, they’re not just baseless things that are said just cause for the plot. they’re actual words with real meaning and intent to whoever is reading their dialogue. so with that in mind, what they both have said is their words of affirmation and reassurance to you:

feelings aren’t illogical. they aren’t wrong nor are they here for no reason. they aren’t a failure of self control, they aren’t a burden, and they are not an inconvenience. emotions are generated from actual things that happened, they are normal reactions to things that actually happened!! if you feel sad, anxious, hurt, overwhelmed, mad, frustrated—even if it seems illogical, there’s a very good reason you feel this way. you aren’t supposed to control how you feel, you aren’t supposed to doubt your emotions. they are always just a reaction, they do not come from you!! they’re not your failure, feeling all this is normal and logical under unbearable circumstances of anything that’s happened.

i hope you will be kinder to yourself babe, you deserve it :< it makes me so, so upset when you can’t see how amazing you are in my eyes and i bet everyone else’s just because of some mistakes you made along the way or any ill feelings you harbor for yourself. i really wish you didn’t beat yourself up so much over them, those mistakes or whatever negative things that have happened don’t define you.

and remember: you’re not stuck the way you are now. every day you have the potential to grow and to learn, and you do grow and learn, all the time! it may not feel like it because it’s so subtle, but you do. the universe won’t let you get stuck, there is so much more to discover and i’ll always be here with you along the way! it’s inevitable to make mistakes, it’s human nature and wouldn’t make sense to be perfect on the get-go. no one is like that. just remember, progress can’t be compared. progress is still progress and slow + steady will still win the race! as long as you’re not changing yourself to cater to someone else’s needs or society’s standards then i will always support your desire to strive for the best version of yourself!!♡

[catboymoments]

Who's the main villain/antagonist of TOT, assuming there is one?

I wasn't really planning on giving the story an antagonist, much like how our world has no real "villain," just good and bad people, comflicting ideologies and interpersonal conflicts.... angel was an antagonist, but they grew to be kind... I guess the cult part of the story im working on could be considered a main antagonist, but those stem from the traditionalist ideology/political compass.... really the story is about choices and figuring out who you are.

[en8y]

I know this can be very very controvertial so im totally ok if you dont want to do it! Could you make a shipgender/shipec gender related to Curly X Jimmy from Mouthwashing?

(The reason for this is alter reasons- <- is a Curly with comflicting feelings towards that guy /halfsilly)

i totally understand the alter thing! but i am gonna have to decline, im very sorry!

[mikokiara]

im gonna say what i said on my blog but i NEED a fic or just. in canon. i NEEEED mic to forguve taco but in the most slowburn angsty way possible. i need mic to give her HELL when she messes up, i want microphone to gave comflicting feelings, i want mic to act coldly towards her, i NEED conflict. just bc tacos changing doesnt mean mic cant give her shit as she SHOULD, but also recognize taco is heavily struggling without her and needs her tough love to change

OH I AM SO WEAK FOR MIC BEING COLD TOWARDS TACO AS A MIC FICTIONKIN SKJDHSJKDSD I JUST SEE HER AND GO ''OMG WIFE!'' AND SO LIKE EVERY SINGLE TIME WITHOUT FAIL I SEE THINGS LIKE THAT I CLOSE THE TAB IMMEDIATELY THERE WAS THIS COMIC ABOUT MIC SAYING TACO TO NEVER EVER TALK TO HER OR PICKLE AGAIN AND IT PAINED ME SO MUCH I WAS BASICALLY ALL MESSED UP FOR THE FOLLOWING DAYS I THINK (EDIT: I do think mic in canon wouldn't actually act like too cold towards taco at all but like would be pretty skeptical at first, like maybe she would be angry before pausing as she sees the state taco is in and she is just like ''sighs...come here'')

[clementineskesh]

like honestly that finally argument/conversation/comflict makes PERFECT sense with their season 1 characterization like absolutely perfect and it follows season 2 changes well AND its an interesting choice im a big fan of the way the season ended

[intrige]

Sometimes I wonder if I truly am the eye of my own mind, of if it plays me like a fiddle to survive its own madness. How much more have it pushed down for me to deal with later? How many emotions awaits to reach the surface as a last ditch effort for me to actually listen? I know I need therapy, and sometimes during these past few months the need to self termenate has been strong. But I know what is happening. It's a self destruct button for suffering, it's so ironic isn't it? The brain wants to avoid pain at all costs, and when it figures out that IT itself is causing the pain, then it wants to turn itself off, forever. As if this clump of electrisity can comprehend what forever is, or that it will solve anything. My mom helped put words for it into my vocabulary. My Ego is fighting like hell with my Super Ego for survival. It's an internal comflict, a war of the minds. I am winning of course, my inner strength is luckily emense, I will prevail. I am truly beginning to properly comprehend how much of an iceberg the mind is, and that I need to learn to interpret the little I get to the surface for my own benifit. To take it as it is and not push it soemwhere for my own comfort. Listen to my mind, simply put. I have spent so many years surviviing one mental illness after another. Survival itself is so demanding for mind and body. I need to get better so I can do more than just survive. What is it they say about Marslow's pyramid, about how the basic needs being met before learning to live and self actualize? I think it is so for the mind also, not that THAT is a new revelasion. But I feel it now, differently.

I have greaved my life many times. How bad things have happened to me, how I was born with a sensetive brain, I was dealt a bad hand, yet, so very lucky. For living in norway, having afamily who loves me and can house me for the time being, for getting finansial aid from the gov cuz im so sick. Yet I have greaved my future and all the missed oppertinities I will have because of my mental health. But I am dead set on having a life with dignity, whatever that entails, with happiness and kindness towards myself. It is so easy for me to be kind to people, and animals, and children. But I am not very kind to myself. I have tried to be, I might need to learn that in therapy someday soon. We'll see how that goes once I get into the system again.

Thats all for now❤

[eloiseyybish]

I think I've finally cracked the code as to why I love Not Me and Manner of Death so much.

So a lot of it (for me at least) comes down to the fact that the primary plot for both of these shows is not based around the romance. The romantic storyline is very much aside from the main plot line.

This means that the main conflicts in the show don't tend to come from the romance and they come from the actual main story instead. So, all the annoying ass storylines that I hate with a passion - like cheating plots or severe jealousy or lack of communication all leading to unnecessary breakups - are avoided.

These types of storylines are only there to create conflict in shows where the love story is basically the only story to tell. So with shows like Not Me and MoD, the conflicts aren't just randomly put in to create spice in a story where there are no actual threats, but are as a result of a genuine plot line.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense and has probably already been said before but oh well

[undeniablycandycane]

Excited and terrified for the inevitable trending of natm on tumblr when the animated film comes out