#im always tempted to just rewrite it

[box-dwelling]

OK so I am like a day past completing the Ansur dungeon and it's been enough time to let my thoughts on it settle. Spoilers ahead.

For context, first playthrough with a basic tav. I'm a good way through act three and have finished a few of the pc quest lines. Minsc, Jaheria and Astarion are done. I have yet to get the hammer or do the house of grief but I have done sorcerers sundries. Also I haven't refused Ulder yet but it like the next thing I'm doing. Other context is that dnd is a huge special interest of mine. I've been playing for about 7 years straight. Both dming and as pcs and I have played under professional dms before. This does affect how I view the game but it's mostly postively.

Disclaimer, I haven't finished the game so there may be some stuff that ends up being done that I just haven't seen but the quest line says it's over and from what I've read online it doesn't seem like that's the case so.

So let's start off with the pros because I honestly have less to say there

As a dm I can and always do look at the dungeon design. Larian is genuinely really really good at this, and this dungeon is no exception. I loved the puzzles though a few could use some tweaking. They arent all great. But there's ideas there that I will probably introduce in my games some time. A chess puzzle especially is such a great idea. That was so cool and the fact bring gale along means you can get the answer free I'd you don't play chess makes perfect sense. Genuinely great.

I also liked the visual design. I had expected the appearance to be what I was starting to dub in my head as the "character development dungeon aesthetic " given that really in terms of design and function cazadors dungeon, the gauntlet of shar and the sorcerers sundries vaults are very very similar. But this one wasn't and I'm very happy about that. Give me some variety.

The Ansur fight itself, AMAZING. Great boss battle. I loved the hell out of it. I'd have to dig into the code to properly tell but it looked like they used a varient of the colossus fighting rules which while I've actually never run but I have been at tables where it has been run to incredible effect. They're good rules. I'm glad to see them used. It honestly makes me consider running them myself.

Last pro, on the face of it, I like the idea. I like the concept of wylls character development dungeon being about learning about the tenants of being a hero from one he looked up to. That tracks. It's a good place to take his charcater at least in theory.

As for the cons, it's mostly one but it's also a big one that has majorly pissed me off. Because Wyll is in my joint top 3 for favourite characters and they did him so fucking dirty.

I really really hated how they handled the twist with the Emperor. I don't dislike him as a charcater but I think it's at least to me pretty unambiguous that he's a pretty shady and morally grey charcater. Which is fine. In fact, it's actually a pretty interesting way to take Wyll's arc. That he looked up to this hero, internalised his mindset through the chambers and then learns that he was actually a pretty shady morally complex figure that doesn't live up to wylls expectation, that is a GOLD mine of character development. That is absolutely fascinating. Except, it doesn't do that. He barely even comments on it. Just says he's forged into a new hero by the trials while ignoring the person who set them is the very shady figure who has honestly fucked us over a lot.

You know who's another hero wyll probably looked up to? Minsc! And the Emperor is a real fucking bitch about letting him join the party.

This is compounded by the fact his good/bad ending choice rather than being a slow build up like everyone else where they get tempted by power and then have to turn it away, he instead just says "hey I could become grand duke" out of no where and then doesn't even need a persuasion check to get talked out of it like everyone else does.

So, I would be remiss without giving a way I'd fix it. So here is that.

Th ansur dungeon isn't given to us by florrick in the lower city. It's given somewhere else before you get there.

I'd recommend like, it being in a book or something in Wyrms crossing. The location is tied to wyll anyway. Maybe add in his childhood bedroom that he asks to go visit. You can put in some environmental storytelling telling that can expand on his complicated relationship ulder. Maybe the room is bordered up and untouched but when you get inside there evidence of genuine love.

When you get there you get the story of ansurs legend and wyll becomes obsessed with using this as a way to help save the city.

The ansur dungeon then gets basically left untouched. Twist and all.

But at the end of it, rather than just deciding he's going to become grand duke, it becomes a question. He can't become grand duke while Ulder is alive. And Bauldrian the great adventurer became a politician after wards. Give the Emperor a reason to not want ulder alive. Maybe Ulder risks not being able to defeat the elder brain in some way, and tie it into his reaction to Wyll taking a deal with Mizora.

Wyll is now conflicted. If his father dies he can carry on in both his and Bauldrans footsteps. Ulder left his child in command of an army before he was an adult. Can he really be trusted to take care of the city? Of course wyll loves him and of course wyll wants to save him but there's that doubt there. I have been reforged in to bauldarns heir. I could do a better job. I could save more people. He abandoned me. Why should I save him? If he breaks his pact this is also fed into by the fact it puts him at very active threat from mizora. It's not that prevelant. Wyll is wyll he's not that susceptible to corruption but a little bit of doubt, coaxed on by the Emperor is all he needs.

Then the lower city.

Make sure you have to get minsc before continuing his quest line. Have wyll have a reaction to the Emperor 's distrust of minsc. These are two of his childhood hero's fighting. Play that up for some drama.

Then saving ulder becomes the thing that either makes him the blade of avernus or the grand duke. He can either choose to not save his father, take on the title of grand duke and rule the city following in baulderans footsteps or, he can kill mizora and swear his life to killing demons as a the blade of avernus. . Later becoming a ranger just like minsc. Even give minsc a few lines giving him a pep talk about it. Maybe even having him explain that wyll need to be his own kind of hero taking the infulances he has from the past and learning from them to become a better one. If the pact stays he just remains the blade of the frontiers if he saves ulder but can become grand duke if he doesnt.

Then, have ulder apologise and then reconcile. Have wyll learn to actually recognise his father as a flawed man who hurt him but who is also complex. Maybe even have an option for if he chooses to fully reconnect their relationship or not.

The bones of a really really really good story are here. Please, for the love of God, larian actually tell it.

[envy-of-the-apple]

I'm 99% sure it was called "Forever Yours" and it was a yandere oneshot series basically of a ton of popular anime boys from the time. The ones I remember were the Tokyo Ghoul dude, there were some Death Note guy chapters, there was the ML from Kamisama kiss, OH and the white haired guy from Psycho-Pass. There were like 50 chapters. It had probably a million likes or something it was INSANELY popular.

Ryntymy also had some other ongoing fics (and a ryntymny/reader crack fic, god, love them for that), but god it's soooo hard to remember.

i DID find a post about one of the fics i knew of that was actually REALLY GOOD that you would have LOVED (it was very similar to saltburn although it's quotev so this yandere was ofc pretty tame):

https://www.reddit.com/r/Quotev/comments/1b652gu/trying_to_find_old_x_reader_fic/

as for what's still up... hm. i do remember parallel ink, and also psychadelic peanut (they had this really trippy izaya fic):

https://www.quotev.com/story/9754667/Unfortunate-YandereIzaya-Orihara-x-Reader/1

AH parallel ink wrote kingdom of possession, which i DO remember:

https://www.quotev.com/story/6759314/Kingdom-of-Possession-Yandere-King-x-Reader

and there was this one series that was ACTUALLY quizzes, which was neat:

https://www.quotev.com/quiz/8085561/Out-of-Sight-Out-of-Mind

this one was a pretty fun sort of mystery style thing:

https://www.quotev.com/story/11260294/Seesaw/1

and this one was like. formative for my longing for pathetic masochistic men. i wasn't super into it back then but THE SEEDS WERE PLANTED:

https://www.quotev.com/story/8901227/Then-Came-You-Sadistic-Reader-x-Yandere-Character-One-Shots/2

SEESAW????? I lovedddd that fic so so much ahhhh it was amazing!!! the fic put me in so much denial cuz i was like 'its him! wait no its not him? wait it IS him? no wait-' very very entertaining

speaking of murder mystery yandere fics...there was this one where the reader was isekaid onto a train and quickly pieces together that all of the passengers resemble ppl from this book they read years ago...except they cant remember the ending aka they dont know who the murderer is. pretty sure the author deleted it but it was good!

its so funny you mention psychedelic peanut cuz i remember they got canceled???? actually...pretty sure parallel ink did too...as well the rest of their clique....and thats why i zipped outta the quotev yandere community!

actually that one aot isekai i was talking about was hosted on quotev! pretty much the height of literature, there's no competition. if i dont find it im just tempted to just rewrite it.

Curse of a Broken Promise is still up there and i think it still holds up! its a yandere kaneki ken fic and the writing is so....whimsical? idk how to explain it but it whenever i read it i always felt so sad. good read!

Imperishable affection (yandere!mafioso x reader) is ALSO written by the same author. basically yandere mafia boss guy threatens you into loving him or else your family dies yada yada so ofc the mc does. for a quotev yandere fic its pretty dark actually.

You Need Me (Yandere Manipulator x reader) THIS was the fic that brought me into the yandere thing. and the author used to update EVERY day so this whole this was an event. and the TWIST i remember being 14 and gasping like 'omg he did EVERYTHING???' very very good

If you want a izayax reader fic whos author WASNT wierd might i suggest Twisted Obsession. Beautiful writing. Its better than most ao3 writing actually and wayyy above mine. I love the way this author characterizes Izaya in this and the backstory for why hes so strange is pretty believable. like i fully believe it should be canon.

Savior Complex is an aot isekai where the mc gets whisked into a yandere sim where Petra is the love interest and the rest of the aot cast is obsessed with her. but we can all guess what happens. pretty good tho!!!

BUT EVERYONE GO READ PRETTY its a gojo x LATINA READER AHHHHHH YESSSS. i just LOVE LOVE LOVE the way this author writes. its so poetic and there's so much left up for interpretation.

[daedalusdavinci]

"If we get caught kissing in a small, dark, kind of shady alleyway, it's on you." twomatch. or whatever. i never remeber that ship name

ive done this prompt before with these exact same characters, but i really like it, and its been a while, so im going to give a rewrite a swing. maybe my writings improved

"If we get caught kissing in a small, dark, kind of shady alleyway, it's on you," Matches says, but there's a smirk on his lips as he pulls Two Face back against the brickwork.

"Well, maybe you shouldn't have sidetracked me," Two Face says, the same playfulness reflected back in how he lets the warmth of their bodies collide, lips almost touching, but not quite. It's a tease, knuckles brushing against Matches's cheek as his smile hovers close to the corner of his mouth, but doesn't close the distance- not yet.

Two Face loves the way Matches grins in moments like this, caught somewhere between that cocksure, sly amusement, and the more genuine fondness that burns underneath it. Calloused palms smooth across Two Face's chest, bold and burning, and then his fingers hook into Two Face's vest again, keeping him in close. He touches Two Face like he has ownership on it, always unfaltering and unapologetic in the way he draws him in. "Ain't it your job to keep me on track? You're the boss, aren't you?"

"Since when have you ever done what I've asked?"

"When you ask real pretty," he says, so smug and cocky that Two Face ought to shoot him, if he wasn't so fucking smitten. As it is, his fingers pull on Two Face's vest, and finally, Two Face gives, meeting him in a kiss.

It's the kiss that really betrays Two Face. It's so slow and filled with warmth, there's no mistaking the affection he hides so poorly, instantly marking him as one of those few villains stupid enough to allow himself love. He kisses Matches like he loves him, catching him in the little moments they manage to steal with the foolish, doting affection of a husband welcoming a partner home after some time away. It's one of the stupidest things he's ever done, especially with a henchman as difficult to tie down as Matches.

But Matches already knows. For his part, the way he touches Two Face is where all of his bluster falls apart, the hand that rises to cup the side of Two Face's neck too gentle for the careless attitude he puts on. He touches Two Face like something delicate, sometimes- like something he's already lost, and will spend the rest of his life putting back together. If Matches doesn't love Two Face, then it must be something like it, because he cares too much for anyone in their line of work.

When they part, Two Face can still feel Matches's smile, brushed into the corner of his mouth as their foreheads lean together. "Ask me something," Matches says. His thumb follows the divot of a thick patch of scarring on Two Face's neck, his shoulders against the brick, his back arched into Two Face just to press a little closer. The twist of his mouth is like a dare, sly and tempting, and Two Face has never been good at avoiding his traps.

Two Face steps into it: "Come home with me." He wants to put his hands in Matches's shirt and watch the way he unravels in his sheets. He can picture Matches with coffee in hand and the warm light of the kitchen on his face, and he wants it, wants to step away from the chaos and danger of being a villain for a night and fall into Matches for as long as he'll let him. Sometimes it makes him feel mad, the way he wants Matches- like a sailor following a siren call, irrational with a desire he didn't know he had. He never seems to get anything done with Matches around, and most maddening of all, he never really minds.

Matches's smile cracks into a grin. He kisses Two Face again, pushing away from the wall and into him this time, hands sliding into his jacket to his sides. "You gonna make that curry of yours?"

"Darling, I'll make you whatever you want, if you slow down enough to eat it," Two Face teases.

Matches hums, leaning into his hold as his arms go around him and nosing at his jaw. "Mm, I can think of something I wanna eat."

Two Face's laugh is rough and snorting. It's a terrible laugh, like a lifetime of smoking glass shards echoed in a harsh rasp, but Matches seems to adore it, pecking a kiss under his jawline. "Come on. Take me home."

"Now I'm just doing what you want," Two Face says, amused. Still, he steps back out of their embrace, his hand slipping to catch on Matches's. When they walk, they walk together, calloused fingers tangled tight in his own.

[typewriteringalaxy]

i guess it was only a matter of time until i learned my lesson about not writing straight into ao3's drafts with no backup. i always knew i was flying too close to the sun. but man. i had written almost 6K. a beautiful, filthy, well formated, well-worded to the point of not needing editing story. gone like that. im tempted to throw my whole ao3 account away (but will probably just try to rewrite as much as I remember tonight)

[blabberoo]

Saw the first ep of Dead Cells Imortalis

Honestly i easily get excited with things. Especially this one. But oh man do i have a lot of things to say and im trying to hold it back 😭

So its blabbin' time.. (spoilers first ep)

Yknow, this feels like those game trailers that does exposition of the introduction of the plot of it... But slightly extended. And it just leaves it underwhelming.

The pace is very quick (possibly budget issue who knows). I dont think i got enough time for Laure's character introduction. She felt like shes just.. there?? (I guess shes literally lore expositor 😭)

I'm kind of ok with Bobby, because they left him as he is, or how i always thought of him. Still an apathetic jerk who has a death wish (WOOO LOVE THAT IN IMMORTAL CHARACTERS MY FAVORITE SOUP ✨✨)

The part where Bobby and Laure started to work as a team only got told through a narration voice over. (Ig with background visuals) So not much back and forth between characters :( Till the end..

Love Bobby's little dialogue at the end (i love how much of a jerk he is screw me), but it felt like its too early for that. Well, knowing how short these series would be i guess they would cut a few things. And i guess that was needed for Laure to strike a deal with him.

And honestly, with how bare and simple the story is so far, it is still possible to have Bobby mute. There are other shows that had already done that. The game itself did. And with the first episode, I could still see it work with him not saying a word.

Laure tells him the deal. Bobby nods and gives a thumbs up.

Laure witnessed him walking away when guard said she'd kill her if he leaves.

Laure calls him out. He turns to her smirking, and continues to walk away. Laure calls him a liar.

YKNOW HOW FUN THAT WOULD BE??!?! JUST HIM MAKING SILLY GUESTURES?!?!??

(i swear i am so tempted to rewrite the whole ep with him mute)

I guess except for that whole Bobby dialogue at the end (and maybe the lead up to the death deal)?? But perhaps the show can express that more in later episodes??

All in all, i guess im a bit frustrated. Because I really do see the potential, and the potential makes me very excited over it. But thats just that: potential. I love Laure's conflict with her own religion and i love how she weighs on what's important to her in the moment. I love how Bobby doesnt care about anything much, because all he sees is that familiar hell and wanting to see a way out. But almost half of it seemed to be resolved in the first ep.

I'd honestly take those short, whimsical silly nature of the game trailers. If they've kept the old artstyle, i woudnt have mind if it was shorter or lesser episodes. But if theyre gonna keep this new style and make a lore heavy story out of it, at least maybe commit to it?

Perhaps im just jumping to conclusions right now since it's just the first episode, and im just fresh out of it. I've only seen it twice. So my only hope was they expand on these characters rather than just plot tools to keep the show going,.. or maybe im asking too much lol.

TL;DR.

First ep impression:

Pace way too quick. Not much character build. Guessing on budget issue. Love the idea, but a bit poorly executed.

Anyways thats probably it... Some thoughts i might keep for later.

And i just wanna say i screamed giddily at this image...

[electronicwitchcollection]

not my best, will have to rewrite if I don’t just bin it all together

Prompt: Renji

“If you hate me so much why are you letting me do this?”

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Fucking Renji you spat angrily in your mind as you stormed your way though the 6ths training grounds, gathering concerned looks from fellow shinigami you were supposed to be training

Your pretty face was twisted into a murderous scowl as you hastily walked away from the cocky, arrogant lieutenant before you did something that would land you in a lot of trouble

like punching that idiotic smirk off his face

"hey! Don't walk away when I'm talking to you!" Renji called after you, just as annoyed as you seemed to be

"fuck off Renji" you snarled over your shoulder, startling two shinigami who had been walking past in that moment

You weren't sure for what reason you and Renji always seemed to be at eachothers throats. You just didn't get along. He was arrogant, cocky, pigheaded and snarky. All qualities you detested, that unfortunately made up the personality of your divisions lieutenant. Normally, you could let the personality flaws you weren't a fan of fly over your head. Anyone else and you could have pushed down your annoyance to work in harmony.

Renji, however, seemed specially skilled at enraging you quicker than anyone you had ever met. Almost as soon as you were in eachothers company you were arguing. For reasons unknown to you, your captain wasn't one for explaining himself, you were required to work with Renji to regularly train the non seated officers in the division. Giving you plenty of opportunities to get on eachothers last nerves

"I told you to stop!" Renji shouted from behind you, his enraged spiritual pressure was pulsating off him in angry waves as he heavily stomped after you

"and I told you to fuck off!" You shouted back, not even turning around. Reaching the work Baracks, you slipped through the open door only to slam it shut behind you, knowing it would piss Renji off more

good you sadistically smirked at the thought

sure enough, you weren't even half way down the corridor when the door was kicked open brutally, slamming loudly into the wall.

"YN!" Renji screamed down the hall to you, booming voice reverberating off the walls to echo down the corridor after you ."im ordering you to stop!" 

Ordering?!  You scoffed as you continued your angry March. Pompous ass

"and I'm ignoring those orders" you said back, unsure if he had actually heard you. Seeing the female bathroom, you slipped inside quickly, turning to push it closed when a foot darted out to block it. Renji pushed his way into the bathroom with you, slamming the door shut behind him as his chest heaved angrily.

"you need to show me some damn respect" he spat through gritted teeth as he towered over you intimidatingly, close enough to head butt him. The notion was incredibly tempting "im your fucking lieutenant" 

"do something worthy of my respect and I'll consider it, lieutenant " you growled back, poking him roughly in the chest as his eyes flashed dangerously. Your body began heating up and you felt an electric charge in the air. He was too close in this too small bathroom. He filled your senses, standing too close he was all you could see, all you hear, smell.

You turned your nose up at him as you turned away to face the little mirror above the sink, leaning heavily on the cool porcelain encased in a wooden counter

"get out" you snapped at him, meeting his furious eyes reflected in the mirror "this is the women's restroom. Pervert"

You suppressed a smirk when his back stiffened, shocked by the accusation before his eyes hardened again "don't fucking say shit like that". His gravely voice had lowered some what, probably to avoid being heard from outside the bathroom "like I would perv on you anyway. You have no ass" 

you did smirk at that, turning round to face him again " if you don't perv on me how would know what my ass is like?" His comments didn't upset you, you had a fantastic ass and you knew it. Before Renji could reply you threw out your own accusation "bet you wouldn't know what to do with a woman anyway. Too busy bending over for captain Kutchiki.."

the rest of your sentence was abruptly cut off when renji grabbed you roughly and kissed you. It was raw and powerful, animalistic in the way he bit at you lip harshly, teeth clacking together painfully. His hands gripped your arms and held you tightly enough to leave finger print bruises. You instantly began to fight him, though it wasn't to get him off you

you fought to kiss him harder, use more tongue than him, have your teeth draw blood first. You each fought for dominance, neither letting the other claim the win. His tongue pushed its way into your mouth, greedily tasting every part he could reach. Pushing back with your own tongue, you invaded his mouth in return, angrily groaning into his hostile mouth.

You each pulled apart as suddenly as you had slammed together. Breathing heavily, the air between you warmed up to a searing heat. Renji let go of your arms as he tried to control his breathing, not wanting to look as effected by the kiss as he was

as soon as his arms dropped your fist snapped out in a harsh punch to his hardened chest. Taking the hit well, Renji didn't even flinch. Growling, you punched him a second time in the jaw, satisfied at the grunt that had escaped him.

Staring at eachother angrily, your hands moved of their own accord, as you began tearing at his clothes, ripping them away from his chest. His started roughly tugging yours away from you, staring at you heatedly.

Standing in the small bathroom, both completely naked, you both held eye contact daring the other to break it first. Renji broke first, his eyes grazed down your naked body. Hungrily taking in your curves, his eyes darkened. You suppressed a shiver. Since he had broken first, you let your eyes travel down his tattoo covered chest, down to his impressive six pack. You followed the trail of hair leading down from his toned stomach to his girthy cock. The impressive length was rapidly hardening and you knew it would be as brutal as the kiss

"you just going to stand there gawping or are you going to actually do something" you snapped at him, bringing his eyesup from from your heaving breasts to your eyes. Renji reached out to grab your arms, spinning you quickly to slam you against the bathroom door. Pinning you with his bigger body, his cock dripping precum onto your stomach

"shut up" he growled at you, dark eyes flashing.

"don't man handle me" you met his stare defiantly

"are you going to stop me?" He challenged huskily, voice dropping dangerously

you didn't have an answer, not one you were willing to voice anyway. You couldn't understand how this was happening. You hated Renji, he was an asshole. He seemed to hate you just as much. Yet your body was on fire, stomach clenching in anticipation. You wanted him, wanted him pounding into you brutally just as much as you hated him

you turned your head to the side in a silent answer, you weren't going to stop him. Renji took advantage, hiding his smirk in your neck as he bit into the soft flesh. You gasped at the pain, rubbing your thighs together desperately. One of his large hands came up to roughly palm your breast, squeezing it firmly. Another moan ripped from you as you held onto his strong shoulders, digging your nails in for good measure.

Releasing the skin on your neck, renji licked at it sloppily. His heavy breathing tickled at your ear eliciting a shiver from you. Renji brushed his thumb over your hardened nipple before pinching it, rolling it between his fingers. Your head flew back, knocking into the door as you arched your back off it, pushing further into his hand.

Again, Renji pulled at your arm, forcing you off the door and back to the sink. You were getting really pissed off at all this man handling. You were About to snap at him again, when his hand gripped the back of your neck, forcing you down

"bend over" he told you as your hands came out to grip the sink to prevent your head smacking into it. Gripping your hips, renji pulled you back a few steps. Satisfied, he shoved two fingers into your dripping cunt without warning. You yelped at the sudden intrusion, glaring at him in the mirror. It went unnoticed, his eyes firmly fixed on his fingers disappearing in and out of you.

"you're fucking soaking" he groaned behind you, speeding up his fingers. Heat rushed your face in a vivid blush at his words. His fingers quickly stretching you made you moan loudly, as you pushed back into his hand.

"that right, moan like a little bitch." He muttered behind you, slapping your ass harshly. He didn't sooth the sharp sting with his hand, Letting the pain mix with the pleasure "so fucking desperate, fucking your self on my fingers"

"I fucking hate you"you mumbled, eyes screwing shut tightly at the overwhelming pleasure. Sloppy wet noises sounded loud in the tiled room

"what was that?"  Renji smacked your ass hard

"I fucking hate you" you moaned loudly, pushing back onto his fingered again chasing your own orgasm. You held back a needy whine as he suddenly removed his fingers, denying you your orgasm. Renji laid himself across your body, hard cock pressing up against your ass

"if you hate me so much, why are you letting me do this?" He muttered behind your ear as he gripped his throbbing erection, wetting it in your dripping folds

"hurry the fuck up" you snapped, turning your head to glare at him. Renji stood up straight, giving you a knowing smirk before he thrusted his hips forward roughly, impaling himself into your tight, wet heat. A hearty groan left renji before he brutally began slamming into you. Just about managing to grip the sink tightly before you were jutted forward, you screamed out in pleasure.

The loud slapping of skin on skin joined your loud moans, you were too far gone into the pleasure to care that it may be heard from outside the public bathroom.

"fuck" Renji grunted behind you, pulling you onto his dick with every thrust "so fucking tight."

"renji" you moaned around his name, wanting him to shut up and make you cum. Hearing his name tumble from your lips had the opposite effect, as Renji continued talking dirtily behind you. 

"that's right, moan my name"

"I'm going to mess up your pussy LN" 

"gunna make you cum all over my dick"

"RENJI!" You shouted, breaking through his lust filled rambling "shut the fuck up already"

"if you wanted it harder, you could've just asked"  he is so infuriating. Renji pulled up your right leg, resting your knee on the counter in front of you. "Keep that there" he muttered before slamming himself into you. 

You tried, really tried to keep the shout from leaving your lips. The new angle pulled him in deeper as he repeatedly slammed into all your sweet spots. You would've felt embarrassed about your desperate screams if it didn't feel just so god damn good 

sinful moans and animalistic grunts mixed together in a symphony of filth. A thin sheen of sweat covered your body, breathing erratic as you struggled to keep yourself up right. You're legs began to feel weak, knees threatening to buckle 

"come on" renji grunted, his voice strained with the effort of holding out. A large hand wrapped around your throat, squeezing possessively as it pulled you back "fucking cum already" 

you did. The orgasm ripped through you, just as forceful and as brutal as the sex that got you there. You screamed out his name as pleasure consumed you. You're vision blurred before you slammed your eyes shut, basking in the euphoria. 

Your inner walls clamped down tightly over Renji's dick, your release soaking him. "Oh fuck" Renji growled into your back as your twitching core brought him to his own orgasm, milking him throughly. 

Renji pulled himself out of you, stepping back just as your legs gave out. Falling to your knees, you sat back onto your legs, breathing deeply. You could hear renji moving about, dressing himself. You don't dare look up, choosing to close your eyes instead . You didn't want to catch his eyes. You felt mortified, embarrassed. Annoyed with yourself for letting it get that far. You'd surly never hear the end of it. 

"here" you opened your eyes at his soft tone. He had never spoken to you like that before. He was stood in front of you, holding out your own clothes. He looked off to the side, the beginning of a blush on his cheeks 

"thanks" you say, hardly above a whisper, your throat felt scratchy from how vocal you had been. You grabbed your clothes and held them to your chest, not yet trusting your legs to support you should you stand 

"are you ok? Did I hurt you?"  You couldn't help but look up at that. He actually sounded like he cared. He had never spoken to you with concern before. His eyes were soft, no trace of the usual frown on his face. He looked so much younger like that

" no". You shook your head, clutching your clothes to your chest for some modesty"I just don't think I can stand yet" 

"ok" renji said and turned to walk to the door 

the twinge in your chest confused you. Were you actually sad that he was leaving? What else were you expecting? Declaration of love? You didn't even like the man. You shook the thoughts away 

"take your time, I'll just wait over here" Renji said as he sat down with his back leaning against the door and closed his eyes.  You stared at him in shock. He wasn't leaving? 

Too tired to try and figure out what was going on, you slipped your top over your head, covering as much of you as you could, the chill in the bathroom had cooled down the sweat on your skin making you shiver . A few minutes later, holding onto the sink for support, you shakily got back to your feet. Feeling yourself support your weight you finished getting dressed. 

"I'm done" you called to him, unsure what else to say. Renji opened his eyes and easily got to his feet. Looking down at your own feet, you didn't hear Renji approaching until his feet stood pointing yours in your vision. You looked up, expecting a teasing remark, he was probably desperate to make fun of you. 

You were surprised when he brought his hand up to gently smooth down your sexed up hair before cupping your cheek. He leaned in slowly, giving you a chance to pull away. When you didn't he kissed you sweetly. Lingering. 

"Take the rest of the day off" he uttered when he pulled away, then turned without looking back to walk out the bathroom, closing the door behind him 

you didn't know how long you stood alone in the bathroom staring dumbfounded at the closed door. You didn't know how long it took you to get your feet moving, walking slowly towards your home. You didn't know how you went from screaming bloody murder at each other, to hate fucking in a bathroom, to one of the sweetest moments you've had with a man. 

What you did know is that maybe, maybe you didn't hate Renji as much as you thought you did

[gabbytalksalot]

Loki Drabble of me rewriting the ending of season 2 ep 6 cuz im sad 😭

*in the pie room*

"So what will you do?"

Loki asks mobius after they fix the loom and flow of time and the timelines and whatever.

Mobius takes a bite of his pie and looks at Loki,

Loki speaks up again "where will you go?" He asks.

"wherever you go." Mobius responds simply.

"Wherever I go?" Loki questions, disregarding his pie.

"Wherever, and whenever" Mobius replies, smiling softly

"What- Don't you want to go live your life on the timeline? Have a family? Be with you kids" Loki says standing up and facing Mobius.

Mobius puts his fork down and stands up. "Loki, all the timelines in the world couldn't tempt me to leave you, all the money and promises in the world could never make me leave you."

Loki stands still, in shock of the words just said to him.

"For all time?" Loki asks, slightly looking down to Mobius.

Mobius laughs "always."

*cut to the end credits with the theme*

[jayrisingx]

i wish every medicine cat (im going to refer to them as healers from now on) had a different experience with starclan. this is apart of my own rewrite so the characterization will be off.

like leafpool’s experience is serene and enlightening. when she wakes from the moonpool and prophetic dreams she feels energized. as if her communication with starclan is some transfer of energy. she’s motivated and typically unable to sleep after half-moon meetings. but i’d like to think that once she falls pregnant with the three this starts to decline. starclan communes with her only because thunderclan will have no other outlet. their anger and disappointment is prevalent, so leafpool finds herself feeling empty and ashamed after their meetings.

jayfeather’s communication with starclan is direct and he’s able to manifest himself there very easily. but it’s exhausting for him. he’s almost tempted to spend the night at the moonpool because he is so drained from the experience. this factors into his foul mood as well lol he’s just really tired especially since they won’t leave him alone.

yellowfang’s is similar to leafpool’s. when she initially switches roles, her conversations with starclan are curt and all business. she respects her ancestors deeply, though. but when she breaks the code, they begin to almost torment her. she’s only given prophecies when something horrible is about to happen, and these visions leave her feeling sick and paranoid. she puts her heart into healing her clan despite this.

ok ok last one! i always like the idea that cinderpelt has a pretty weak connection with starclan. she’s an excellent and passionate healer. but her destiny was altered in an unexpected way. starclan really only communes only with her after yellowfang’s death and before leafpool’s apprenticeship. once Leafpaw establishes a connection with them, all contact with cinderpelt ceases to exist. cinderpelt is always eager to talk to her ancestors but often feels disappointed by their dismissive behavior towards her.

[basedandlovepilled]

i’m so tired of seeing posts abt “comphet” discourse and how comphet isn’t real and shit. just admit you had a privileged upbringing where you were able to be true to yourself and go… i’m so tired of gold star lesbians acting like they are the only True Lesbians in the world and everyone else is bisexual.

like, maybe you’re just of stronger spirit than i am but when i was raised in an extremely religious family and desperate for their approval, i would’ve brainwashed myself to believe anything that would make my life liveable in that environment. i didn’t know anything else. when i had my first crush on a girl in elementary school and my mom told me that “girls can’t love girls, you’ll find the right man someday,” i believed her because she was my mom and i thought she knew better than me. when i was sent to a christian therapist who told me my desires for other girls was the devil tempting me, i believed her.

i think online it’s easy to forget the reality of so many women, especially lesbians, who are told that enduring a straight relationship is their only way to happiness (or their only fate in general). that to endure despite the discomfort is noble and virtuous as a woman. for me, that martyrdom of being a man’s wife was tempting not because of the man, but because i knew it meant everybody in my life would finally be proud of me. and yeah sure consider me weak minded for that but when you’re a desperate outcast in a church-centric world idk it seemed pretty rational to me.

i could probably go back and find my journals where i wrote about how “i can endure this, if i marry him then im sure i can be happy for the rest of my life. all i have to do is survive the worst of it and i’ll make my family proud.” it was a sacrifice i was willing to make. it was not an easy thing for me to accept i was a lesbian. and i don’t think it is for a lot of us. it’s not even a new or original story, but i still see bullshit abt how actually that means i was attracted to men this whole time. as if me being with a man wasn’t an intentional sacrifice i made to try to make life bearable in that situation.

it just makes me sad. it took me 22 years to get to the point where i am even confident enough in my own identity outside of the church or my family to accept that i’ve always been a lesbian. it took a lot of self reflection and rewriting the narratives that were taught to me to break the ideas put into my head by the church and my family. all for some rando on tumblr to say actually i’m a bisexual because i tried to survive.

[disventure-rewrite-takes]

mod, this is not a rewrite idea, but I was curious as to what ships from this show you do and don't care for?

ahh thanks for the ask!!! out of everyone i literally just care for gabellie and jaiden. jaiden were done so well (probably because ONC have a. thing. for mlm romance) and even though gabellie did not have the perfect execution, oh man do i miss them.

i also used to really like tomjake. like, a lot. i found the show back when season 1 was still airing, i think episode 8 had just come out, and i was rooting for these two like crazy. ellie splitting them apart made me dislike her but ultimately, after seeing them continue to bitch and moan long after ellie did her thing, i realized it was a them problem, not a her problem.

conriya is an age gap ship i never understood why we were going for since they always had zero chemistry, in season 2 i saw it as connor just being his genuine kind self; grul is. grul. huntally is so boring and everything could have been fixed if huntessally happened LIKE IT WAS SET UP!!!!!! vut just as vivziepop cannot confirm an aro character neither can ONC poly ones. because its too risky to step out of the amatonormative norm, so they just stick to gays, lesbians and bisexuals. whom like obviously could use the rep but atp im happy ONC covered neither aro or poly people because they do a horrible job with the aforementioned already.

wishley happened off-screen for the sake of wishley fans being satisfied, they’re the forced token straight couple, why would i care for them?

trevek is... a mess. i used to say i shipped them to blend in with other fans but i really never cared for them. i’ve always thought derek treated trevor like shit and saw no appeal for this ship. i am so mad at ONC for making it canon because it’s so obviously just fan service, there is no canon reason for trevor to like derek, it’s just shoved in our faces because hey!! remember them!! background characters can’t have a meaningful story without romance right!! let’s make trevor pine!! and it’s so annoying because he was such a lovely character outside of derek. but now he’s just jake 2.0 and i am so afraid that krystrevek will just become tomjakeden 2.0 because god forbid we don’t have a forced mlm love triangle. everyone loves that right!!!!! right!!!!!!!!!!!

if i say i ship anything else besides gabellie or jaiden especially ships i am actively hating here,, i have either rewritten them really well in my head or gone crazy. and given that i hc half the cast as arospec either option is possible.

i’ve been tempted lately to start a commentary youtube channel (funky frog bait, danny gonzalez, kurtis conner, chad chad type of thing yk) and i have so many (negative) video ideas about disventure camp. i would be too powerful for the small screens. and so i remain here

[nrdmssgs]

hello, hello.. i’ve come for the ask game 👁️👁️ couldn’t pick between these four, but feel free to pick and choose if it’s too many lol 🫶

💕 What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?

🦋 Which character is your favorite to write?

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

Hi!!! Its never too many, and I am so happy to switch my attention to wholesome talking for this evening!!

💕 What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?

While A heart is a deeply personal story, that I love with all my heart... Id say, my favorite for now is Kissing Ghost on the forehead because I always had problems writing for him, and this was the first time, when I put the last period, reread everything and thought 'wow. This is Ghost, the way I see him.' It just felt so good.

🦋 Which character is your favorite to write?

König. Because there is not so much lore on him - I get this freedom of interpretation. And I can make him a kind silent soul or an intimidating enigma. I secretly have actually 2 versions of him: Pre and Post colonel era. And he is someone, who made such an astonishing way, so much progress. Love him very dearly!

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

From those, I`ve already written: Gaz and Ghost. Gaz is tough, because every time it is just so tempting to make him absolutely ideal. He is smart, kind, has good sense of humour, strong morality, he is criminally beautiful... He often ends up 'too good to be true' in my stories and I have to rewrite him. Ghost... Well with his incredibly depressing story, I tend to slip to 'Simon Riley and 24\7 drama' trope. And I frankly don't want to end up there, as he can be lively in his own way, he can be smug, cocky, flirting. He can live his life and enjoy some parts of it. But I struggle to let him.

From those, whom I have never written, but secretly want: Farah!!! I adore her, but I sadly know very little about her culture and (maybe) her religion. And I am very scared to offend someone, whos culture helped CoD authors to formulate Farahs background. E.g. what if I write 'and then they celebrate their victory with Alex, sharing a bottle of beer' and someone, who shares Farahs culture or believes comes and says 'ehm, we actually never drink alcohol'. I'd feel like shit.

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

I answered here, but I can think of my second favorite trope, which is also common in CoD. Its when a good person is pushed to their limits, till their darker, more ugly side breaks free. Im currently trying to work with this trope in Matters.

Thank you so much!!! This really really helped!!

[wubwubnparmaham]

have you ever felt tempted into making auron alex endgame? if you have...how opposed would you be to making that into a small tiny alt ending? 😋😋

The screech I just let out into the comfort of my loft. Listen, yes, I absolutely have, but not in any truly official sense. Probably as long as I'm alive, Halex are the OTP, with the strongest attachment of love, almost beyond their control. They don't even choose to, it just...is.

Regarding writing that type of thing, you know your bitch is tempted, HOWEVER, knowing your bitch as you do, I would absolutely go to write some small snippet and end up rewriting the whole fucking thing, and I don't have time for that, and it's also just not the point, so it'd be a little bit of a useless endeavor. The snippets in the Late-Night publication are all factual and canon-compliant, so that would have to be some other off-shoot.

That being said, what I am already working towards in doing all this is an indeterminate tangled mess of poly nonsense, where everything grows to be a bit more free in nature and fluid connections are obtained. In their history, mainly, the monogamy of Halex was the status quo, but it's been like over 2 thousand years, and they're so comfortable and solid in their love for one another that they grow to be more free to explore any passing whim they have and deepen their connections to others without any sort of threat on them as lovers. I've already written things that highlight this, but it hasn't come out yet. Especially when more memories are unlocked via Conall, their perspective naturally shifts to better handle the complexities they all have. And Conall himself kinda... *tucks some hair behind my ear, ya know... Aha. Has a particular role to play there..........

But ANYWAY, essentially, Auron does become an end-game of sorts, and I always wanted him to be, but it was never meant to be in the official series. That wasn't the story arc of the series at all, it just articulated the complexities at play, and it set the foundations and the tone for future shit I knew I would crack into later for anyone who was still as invested as I was. Like little gift baskets. But honestly, a triangle that intense and that strong was always meant to become solidified as an end-game, it just took them forever, and a lot needed to happen to help them along in that path. And it's not just the triangle, but others as well, and you'll just have to see what comes out when im done. It's more like a pentagonal dodecahedron of love connections and bonds. And some I really toe the line with, crossing into taboo territory a smidge, but you won't see that for quite a while yet. You might be able to guess where I'm going with that tho ..

So yeah, that's my general answer.

[ganondoodle]

Hey, I adore your artstyle mate, I loveeee all the vivid colors and the fact that most of it lacks lines?? You doing the hard stuff, but it paying off 💜

can I ask, as I’d like to get into comic making, how long does it take you to finish a a single panel?

Hi!! thank you very much!! drawing lineart is incredibly frustrating to me so im very glad i was able to make the jump to mostly lineless artwork, tho im very much still at the beginning to learn how to do it xD

to answer your question, i .. cant say really, it depends on what is on the panel, and i always jump around when working on a page, i draw half of the very last panel, then jump to another, maybe i see something i want to change right away and work on the third besides i ... dont know anything about panel composition, i think in movies so i play it and try to pause it on a frame that could work as a panel, whichs is probably why it goes alot slower than normal comics, idk how much to skip gndfjknvgfdjk

im by no means an expert in making comics, you kinda have to find your own way of what works for you, i have done many in the past but all failed, i gave up before getting even one chapter done many times

general advice i can give you is, most importantly, dont wait, i know its daunting to start, but you have to start, even if you dont think you are good enough, you will always change and improve anyway, better start now or you might do it never, and remember, when a page is done its done, i know how tempting it is to go back and redo it, but if you start with that it will only lead to an endless cycle of remaking it over and over

a cause that made me abandon my old projects, was partly lack of support/recognition, but mostly that i was forcing myself to things that werent fun, like one i made in black and white bc i thought you had to do it bc color takes too long, but i live for colors, so it drained the fun out of it immediately

the only "rules" i have set for myself is that its understandable, the flow of the action doesnt flip around too much, speech bubbles are aligned in a way that guides you (of course im not perfect at that either and always learn); i dont jump between pages, i jump between working on panels, but i dont start another page before the previous is at least acceptable, otherwise id get ahead of myself and get impatient, just wanting to skip ahead and neglect older pages; and that i only work on a panel/page as long as it has acceptable quality and is fun to draw, when i notice im getting bored or frustrated i finish it quickly as best as i can and move on, otherwise it might drag the entire project down, which is why each panel or page in 'Destiny' varies alot in quality

i can barely look at the first pages .. or even at the last one i made for that matter, but its also fascinating, how much my art changes within even one update which takes me about a month for 4 pages, since i have set my 'fun' rules at least, it used to take much longer (i wish i was faster, and i could be, but i have a job, and have to look out for my health, both physically and mentally, so i take whatever time i need and draw however much i feel like drawing, no rushing)

my progress so far is that i write a rough script, what happens, what dialog, where it ends, and so on, it doesnt have to sound good, god knows mine are shitty xD but its a good guideline, even if rough! then i make a rough draft, basic panel layout, dialog (it always changes fro mthe script, again its more liek a guideline than a rule ;) ) then i start with actually drawing the first page, my art and way of .. art and writing changes incredibly fast (idk if its for the better lol) so .. by that point i redraw the rough draft version of the page if i see how it works better, rewrite dialog too, and even cut stuff from the rough draft

im not done with the first chapter (im slow af lol), but wrote the script for the second one when my hand was injured and i couldnt draw for a month, once im done with this chapter i will draw the rough draft for ch2, then write the script for ch3 then go and draw ch2 fully, at least thats the plan the more time passes the more i know what the next chapters are gonna be, tho i know the important points long before; right now i have the entirety of the first arc sepeareted into chapters, and the end of it all too, but between there its still a lil blurry and im adjusting everytime i think of soemthing better

anyway, sorry for that long ass ramble, its late and i thoguht about this ask bc im trying to get my want to draw back (not feeling well rn nkfdnkd) so i randomly decided to answer it .. probably in the most unhelpful way possible, alot of stuff noone aksed for lol

anyway, sorry, and goodnight uwu

[obsidigan]

Guess who re-read everything on stroni-bomb (ಥ﹏ಥ)

:0 No you didn't I'm gonna cry kskskskxks IM SORRY WERE SO INACTIVE JFC I PROMISE IM WRITING TAEILS CHAPTER

Gosh I love you and your support 💗💗💗

[yeosatinyngz]

hii, the one who requested bpd reader again! im not sure if this is too much but ive been doing pretty well lately (being responsible and taking my meds, going to therapy, support groups, and all that) but lately ive been getting a little too tempted to relapse so, if its not to hurtful of an idea, is there any chance you could write some headcanons with the bonten guys for a S/O whos doing their best to not relapse in MDMA addiction. its not an emergency by any means, i just think itd be nice to have a little motivation on the days it gets a little too tempting. i get if its too tough of a subject, thank you in advance :) (also sorry if this is tmi)

Hi again, I really wanted to give you motivation so of course I’ll fulfill your request. I hope that this will help you on the days you really need it. I wish the best for you! <3 (Sorry for the long wait, I hope you have a wonderful day/night. Also if this isn’t what you wanted you can always tell me and I can rewrite your request!)

Bonten encouraging their S/O to not relapse

↳GN Reader

Request Rules ➣ Masterlist

-He’s trying his best, A for effort

-He would search online for tips and then recite them back to you (but the thing is that he sounds so robotic when he’s telling you ways to prevent relapsing that it doesn’t really help)

-He’s always observing you and calculating in his head on what he should do and how to make you happy

-Best S/O, but extra af (in the best way possible)

-Would make a slideshow explaining reasons why you shouldn’t relapse (he got a little too passionate with the slides)

-Have long talks with you and make sure he’s always a call away or a feet away

-He would buy you a plushie that you could talk about your problems with when he’s not there with you. A bonus is that you can also take your frustration out on that plushie😀

-I’m sorry to say this but he is the worst influence, he wouldn’t be able to encourage you…

-Not gonna lie he would convince you to relapse💀

-Definition of actions speak louder than words

-Always does these kind gestures (Like sharing his food with you and we know how picky he is with who he shares his food with, you’re the only exception🥺)

-He knows that he’s not the best at communicating so he would leave letters for you saying how he’ll always be there for you and how much he loves you

-Best S/O pt. 2

-Often takes you out to do something fun to get your mind off your addiction

-You don’t have to say anything and he knows what to do

-Listens to you whenever you need someone to talk to about your problems

-Super supportive, and always so patient with you

-Provides everything you need

-He would book a spa retreat trip just so you could relax and unwind

-Asian mom mode activated: you say you like one thing and he’ll buy you a whole bulk of that item

-Constantly asks if you need anything and that he’ll get it for you

[steelycunt]

hi!! i love your writing style so so much. do you have any tips??? thanks<33

hii darling!! ok ill be honest i have been staring at this in my inbox all day. firstly thank u so much!! i would never ever claim to b in any position to give writing advice to anybody because i never, ever know what i'm doing, but i will do the best i can!! sorry if this becomes a little generic :-)

-> very generic, i know, but!! reading really is so so important. like i know everyone says it, but that's because its true!! read fic by writers whose style you admire, read published literature by writers whose style you admire, because the more u do that the more u will pick up on why you think certain techniques/styles are so effective, u will be exposed to more techniques, u will expand your vocabulary, and all of that impacts ur writing!! have said this b4 but my style is 100% just a hastily patched together quilt of every writer's style that i've ever enjoyed. the same goes for writing honestly in as much as: both reading and writing consistently makes you a better writer. its inevitable!!

-> something i try to keep in mind a lot when im writing is the details in a scene!! and this comes purely down to personal choice and style, but i find it makes my scenes n settings a lot more vivid. just, like, the brief inclusion of small details about a scene, like a prop or something in the background. just little marks of humanity, even if they aren't massively relevant...they can also be very useful to reflect a character's mood/personality or heighten the atmosphere in a scene :-) using all the senses and bending language n metaphors n imagery...i think one of george orwell's writing tips was never use a metaphor, simile, or other figure of speech which you are used to seeing in print, and i am no george orwell and i definitely break that rule more than i want to but i think it's a good aim to keep in mind :-)

-> everyone edits differently but i find redrafting from scratch sooo vital. which again is probably quite basic advice but honestly its such an important part of my writing process i cannot emphasize it enough hjahcjgdfsdbh the first draft is just getting it down! even if there are bits that don't work even if you're experimenting with ur prose and it doesn't always go the way u want, the first draft is the chance to do that. and then however happy i am with a scene, i will always open a blank doc and put them side by side and rewrite it--once immediately after finishing the scene, and once when i rewrite the entire fic as a whole. even scenes where i actually felt i was already pleased with them n i was tempted to just skip rewriting them, if you write it out from scratch rather than editing the existing text i find you end up having soo many more ideas and improving it in ways you weren't even thinking abt before. you cannot underestimate the transformation it will go through during a rewrite!! especially if there is something wrong with a scene and you don't quite know how to fix it.

i feel like those are the major things?? sorry if this was not helpful at all gfhcdgbfhdg but honestly!! just write and have fun writing and have fun trying things out and write things which are really vague and big-picture and write things which are sooo small and specific!! write loosely n dont think abt it too much because that can all come later!!