#im 6 of their clownery

[v-arbellanaris]

i love adding more people to my block list btw

also: i have no interest in debating this with you people anymore. anyone sending me an anon about it, gets blocked. x

[lonely-space-ace]

20 Questions for Writers

Thanks for the tag @serenbex!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 31

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

137,690

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly Doctor Who, but also RWBY, Star Wars, and a bunch of other stuff, most recently I've been writing for Dimension 20

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Build This House Into a Home: an NCIS au where Gibbs adopts a bunch of children (genuinely don't know why this had the most)

Not Again: a crossover between Gravity Falls and Amphibia

Everything After: a RWBY fic about the fallout of volume 9, which is currently unfinished but Im working on it I swear

I Beg to Differ: Also a RWBY fic about Yang and Ruby recovering from the events of volume 9

Mates: The Doctor and Donna being best friends :)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes! Mostly! I really try to respond to all of them but sometimes I forget to and then feel weird responding three months later

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Uhhhhh

angsiest fics as a whole is probably I Beg to Differ or Carry On, but my only one with an actual angsty ending is This Time which is a drabble about the Fifth doctor in the Caves of Androzani

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Yes.

Jokes aside its probably either Sunrise or The Many Proposals of Nyssa and Tegan since those end with couples getting together and marriage etc.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Thankfully not yet!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Nope.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I've only written one so far! It was a crossover between Gravity Falls and Amphibia. I've had one planned for ages between ToH, GF, and Amphibia but haven't finished it.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope, but I'd be down to try it sometime

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

Don't do this to me

My favorite to write is probably Nyssa and Tegan? But I also love Bumbleby. And Imodna. And Beauyasha. and so many others. Dont make me pick

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I live in a world of clownery where I fully intended to finish all wips eventually (ignore the fact that some haven't been updated in literal years)(I'm working on them I swear)

16. What are your writing strengths?

I feel like I'm pretty good at characterization and voice. I've also gotten a lot better at description and image recently

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action scenes can and will kill me. also I don't know why I write romance so much seeing as I have literally never dated anyone. Also I tend to struggle with longer projects, although I'm much better at it than I used to be.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Its fine but I prefer to be familiar with the language before writing it. And seeing as other than English I only know Latin, ancient greek, and ASL it doesn't come up often when writing fic

19. First fandom you wrote for?

...I plead the fifth

(It was ncis. on ff.net. like four years ago.)

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

ohhhhhh that's hard. I love The Many Proposals of Nyssa and Tegan, both because of the fic itself and also because it introduced me to some lovely fandom friends. Everything After is one I am particularly proud of, as is Raising Our Glass, I don't know if I could pick one

Tagging @social-mockingbird @writing-my-mind-ink and anyone else who wants to join :)

[guesst]

20 questions for writers

tagged by @bloustorm and @aobawilliams thank you for the tag!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

15!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

71,186 :0

3. What fandoms do you write for?

m!ik and bnha

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

all for you, 'uwu' - 897 the road to heaven is paved with bad intentions - 615 anonymous fic :) - 507 to find your heart a home - 251 a case of purposeful grandchild acquisition - 223

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

usually yes! i like getting replies from authors when i comment and also all commenters should know how insane i go about their thoughts. there are some fics i forgot to reply though and atp i feel a bit awkward replying cus its been like. a year

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

'what happens after your clown father rejects your clownery for his younger more clownish son?' - its a crack fic but it does have an unhappy ending so

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

'my friend kira', or 'the frog and the prince', or 'the thing'. they all have very happy/hopeful endings

8. Do you get hate on fics?

nope!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

nope!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i enjoy reading them! but ive never written one. i have a crossover prompt thats been sitting in my inbox for like 2 years though.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope! unless they did it without me knowing

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes! 'fish in a birdcage' - i wrote it with @raccoonwithacoffeeproblem for a prompt challenge, it was great

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

idk voldemort x harry potter probably

okay in all seriousness i have no clue i dont really have a shi-- KIRIO/IRUMA ACTUALLY (but make it dubiously platonic)

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

i have a vague hope that i will finish all of them...... one day........... well i guess afuwu is one im sad about cus i made a vow to finish it and everything and i have not

16. What are your writing strengths?

DIALOGUE! well idk if its a strength but its one of my favourite parts of writing

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i am slow as FUCK

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

hummm not if the whole conversation ends up being in another language and you have to translate in the end notes. but if i got a foreign character i think tossing in idioms and little exclamations here and there is fun

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i guess on ao3 it's bnha but i know theres a pjo fic in a childhood diary somewhere

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

this is a mean question because every fic i write is my favourite fic at the point of writing it. but i guess... i really like 'how to commit accidental grandson acquisition' just because of how much ive thought about the worldbuilding. also the soulmate au 'to find your heart a home' and ------- im going to end up naming all my m!ik fics jsjdfhg

umm now i will tag @raccoonwithacoffeeproblem and @syanara and @seeesame (hello sesme its been a while)

[youngpettyqueen]

Hiya! If you're still doing that WIP ask game, could I please request "rumor has it" and "for the man who gives everything"? Thank you! ^_^

P.S. I LOVE your idea for a fic about Hawkeye and the still in PoA omg!!!

yo!! im totally still doing the WIP ask game its so much fun and I love any excuse to ramble about my writing- thanks so much for asking!

"rumour has it"

it's this post. ive been working on this one on and half ever since I made that post, actually. its been slowgoing due to a) and miles to go before i sleep b) writer's block and c) I keep making new WIPs because I have absolutely no self control whatsoever and if I dont write down every idea I have im gonna die

anyways onto writings cause I have quite a bit for this-

"“Mornin’, sir,” Radar greets, all pleasantries, though he’s wearing an additional anxious look over his usual nervous one, “I was wonderin’ if you maybe had a minute?” 

BJ offers him a warm smile. “For you, Radar, I’ve got at least two,” He tells him, “What can I do for you?” 

Radar manages a little smile of his own. “Oh, well, thanks,” He says, “It’s about a patient, actually. I’ve got one who could use your help. Think you got enough minutes for that?” He asks. 

BJ chuckles. Radar’s tone isn’t urgent, so it’s probably not anything serious. Probably one of his animals with another splinter, or a runny nose. “Sure, Radar,” He agrees, “Bring ‘em on in. Is it one of your pets again? I warn you, if I have to surprise-deliver another litter of guinea piglets, I’m gonna have to charge you.” He jokes. 

Radar’s expression goes nervous again. His eyes flick to outside the door- he still hasn’t stepped fully into post-OP, just sort of hovering half-inside. “Uh, not exactly,” He replies, “Y’see, it’s-“

“Not exactly?” BJ would recognize that offended tone anywhere. Sure enough, Hawkeye shoves his way inside not a second later, nearly bowling Radar right over seeing as he’s got his arm around the kid’s shoulders to lean on, “What’s that supposed to mean, not exactly? Just which one of your animals are you comparing me to?” He demands."

this one is all silliness! thats it thats all just a lot of silliness. Hawkeye's hurt (not seriously) and he won't tell anyone what happened, and BJ's determined to get to the bottom of it. the 4077 rumour mill does nothing but make his mission more difficult, as rumours escalate to ridiculous levels. which uh, all becomes really funny when you find out what happened. which is in the post itself

bonus because this bit makes me laugh-

"“Sir- sir, you’re gonna fall-“ Radar is saying, managing the impressive feat of staying upright as he keeps up with Hawkeye hounding in on him.

“Oh, no! No, no, no!” Hawkeye continues, undeterred, hobbling after Radar like he’s chasing him, “You opened this can of worms! Which of your animals are you comparing me to? It better not be-“"

because I love some Hawkeye and Radar clownery <3

"for the man who gives everything"

I do not have anything written down for this one besides plot notes to myself, but I do have the blurb!

"All the ways Klinger shows how much he loves everyone, and what they do to show him how much they love him.

Or, 6 times Klinger did something just to make someone else smile, and 1 time everyone got together to return the favour."

classic 5(ish) + 1, centring on Klinger because I love him. I recently got to Where There's a Will, There's a War in my rewatch and Hawkeye thinking of when Klinger got him the magazine made me wanna cry, and I realized I havent really written anything about Klinger despite how much I love him! so, the idea for this came to mind

this will be a longer oneshot (like rumour has it) where Klinger goes out of his way to do something nice for another main cast member, all from the POV of others, and then it will be how everybody repays him from his POV. because Klinger deserves the world and im gonna give it to him

again, thanks so much for the ask!

[rockheadcd]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.

name: paloma, but i go by ovan here. either works! or fonze(worth) hee hoo.

pronouns: i really don’t have a preference ngl. but she/her if you need a choice.

preference of communication: discord, but i always start with tungie ims because i typically don’t add people right away until after we’ve had a conversation.

name of muse(s): steven, roark, adaman.

other muse(s): falkner @/zephyricd, and i have an au for my oc @/fonzeworth. 

experience/how long (months/years?): uhhh since 2011 or so ( i digress this really means nothing to me, like just bc i started writing in 2011 doesn’t mean it was like GOOD until like 2016 LOL..... )

platforms you’ve used: whirled, sms ( no fr ), msn/windows live, skype, discord, tumblr, deviantart, forums 

best experience: honestly... a lot of the stuff i wrote with my late girlfriend on @/amberenigma. this post fucking slaps and it was one of the last ones we did here. for this rpc, though, it hands down has to go to the clownery that spiraled out of hisui verse with @/electrivolt. this one in particular! 

rp pet peeves/deal breakers: i don’t follow/back blogs that don’t have their posts tagged, hands down. long posts are the same thing, because it really freaking sucks on mobile. otherwise, i’m personally not a fan of overkill on ooc, especially when posted in a way that’s basically as invasive as possible. i do tend to clean up my follow list bc if i wanted that sort of thing i could just........go to my priv twt. and lastly, that’s kind of mostly bugged me specifically writing in this rpc, if you don’t have the means to format a post......draft it and save it for later. it won’t hurt anything to wait.

fluff, angst or smut: depends on the dynamic, really. some interactions thrive towards one or two, sometimes even all of them. i probably write smut the least as i’m very picky on who i will write it with, and it certainly isn’t on this blog specifically to begin with. overall, i probably lean towards fluff and angst, but i present a third challenger: slice of life.

plots or memes: either works, but memes probably make it easy to have a more non-committal, casual interaction that has the option to be as committed and thought out as a plotted thread. my energy doesn’t really differ between the two ( but i just take forever to respond to asks more often than not q_q ).

long or short replies: whatever fits the post. sometimes the muses have a lot to say ( formal apology to you know exactly who you are ).

best time to write: sometimes a noodle from the flying spaghetti monster just presses down on my head and suddenly i have like five drafts done at 2am and other times i simply do not write for like 6 months. i fight constant fatigue so lately, i’ve been drafting things during work during the mid-morning when i have two gracious hours of functioning like a normal person. it’s a nightmare.

are you like your muse(s): kind of. we share different facets of personality, interests, and life experiences. but no one is quuuite a 1:1 to this village idiot. :^)

[keepscrollinghun]

find you a girl who can do both ✔

ffs these clowns

[dannielricciardo]

i also did the thing. you can really tell how it goes from "i'd die for you" to "oh you are doing well? nice to see!" to "mmmm ok then" to a 6 way tie for supporting cast

[1kook]

That post really got me thinkin

[kumawrites]

open the gates (to ur heart)

☆ Kuroo Tetsuro x Reader + YouTuber AU ☆

☆ - Y/N is a YouTube gamer who has been hooked on Animal Crossing: New Horizons™, and coincidentally makes contact with Kuroo Tetsuro through a trade. And fuck, he’s hot.

☆ - a/n: first smau!!! this is my first anything with haikyuu and im rlly excited i love my babies!! also lol i’m back and resurrected from the dead haha

//

profiles

1 - missing left kidney

2 - h*rny police

3 - garden gnomes

4 - smashtown USA

5 - FC code

6 - concern

7 - “bullied” over text

8 - shameless

9 - character development

10 - babe

11 - unconditional love and support

12 - collab

13 - scared

14 - brozoned

15 - dress code

16 - clownery

17 - missing

18 - guilt

19 - explanation

20 - visit

21 - pucker up

22 - touching

23 - boyfriend

epilogue

☆ - COMPLETED

[hotpinkstaples]

tagged by @bobafvcks eighteen years ago, but answering now bc i finally got back into tv after eighteen million years

currently watching

- remarriage and desires: top notch clownery with a shitty premise and an even shittier backdrop. it’s dumb bitch disease on television, a parody on arranged marriages in south korea, undying devotion some dumb bitches have towards their cheating husbands, and golddiggers with godtier fits and jewelry.

rewatch

- law and order svu: cuz im wack

watchlist

- narco saints: i just want to objectify park hae soo and ha jung woo’s characters; also i love the netflix narcos series, and will pretend that this is yet another spin-off

- deliver us from evil: i saw a transwoman and ray the butcher fanart, and now i wanna know what the fuck is goin on

currently reading

- the best horror of the year vol 6, edited/collected by ellen datlow: getting into anthologies these past few years really got me ultrahooked on short horror fiction. love ellen datlow’s editing and collecting prowess.

- the ancestor, by danielle trussoni: italian yeti horror taking place in the alps, burned thru most of the book until we got to the part where the main character will not stop being a dumb bitch, so now i got like a hunnid pages left that i will finish..... eventually.

- the age of surveillance capitalism the fight for a human future at the new frontier of power, by shoshana zuboff: my nonfiction title of the season, a great walkthrough of google and other tech companies’ rise to power by exploiting big data

tagging cousins, feel free to ignore if busy: @empireofdirt, @strawberryclementine, @1997berserk, @villainessbian, @a-tea-spoon-of-internet, @hauntedluminarybbq, @loafingdragon; @spindaonateaspoon, and @bobafvcks again cuz its been eighteen years

[vadergf]

It is homophobia!

Another four?? This is getting homophobic

[ichipercent]

i have a crush on my classmate and this is the first time im down BAD for someone

no offense but hes not even a ten, a 6 at best. the kind of crush that your friends will say 'you do you sweetie' when you show them their photo

AND IT'S ALMOST 7 MONTHS OF ME ACTIVELY APPROACHING HIM YET HE DOESNT MAKE ANY 'REAL' MOVE

if he shows any kinds of discomfort or just tell me that he's not interested, ofc i will back off instantly but noo

he keeps this game of push-and-pull and honestly im just tired

but then i saw him on my friend's ig story with his cuteass smile and i know i will continue this clownery until god knows when

TLDR; i'm an idiot

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

Picture Perfect

summary: in ur picture perfect world you’d love your life as a model single and happy, soulmate no where to be found. In shigarakis picture perfect world he’d be a pro hero without all the modeling gigs he has to pick up. but not everything is picture perfect now is it.

Extra info!: tis a hero!shigaraki au :)! and a soulmate mark au! f reader

•y/n is Rumi’s sister so obviously y/n’s quirk is a bunny quirk which is what got her into modeling in the first place :)

•all of LOV are hero’s in this au

•all of class 1A are working within a model agency rather than also being hero’s :)

a/n: EEEE GUYS IM SO EXCITED FOR ANOTHER SMAU I HOPE U GUYS LIKE THIS ONE AS MUCH AS YOU GUYS LIKED BAD CHOICES :)))

1. i’m going to die

2. LOL WHO?

3. For me?

4. Rumi😁

5. Simp

6. Clownery Luv

7. Burst a blood vessel

8. Actually gonna vomit

9. F in the chat

10. Personal sugar daddy

11. and you’re mine

eeee n just like that another one finished :) thank you guys for so much love <3

[merakiui]

then yanven anon is fine by me!! im looking forward to interacting more with you (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

i feel the same!! luckily, we might get some events that feel more fun soon enough hehe

ahhh that's so great!! i picked up on wishing soon enough (which is why i have been using yanfei ever since), but ill admit it kinda hurt my heart to replace my starters, save for kaeya who's still by my side (;ŏ﹏ŏ) i really admire starter mains, tho. best of luck on resource farming ୧( ˵ ° ~ ° ˵ )୨

aha i guess clownery's part of why the games so fun, tho,, and that's understandable! i personally figure out that if nobody's gonna talk, then i will, and luckily i have never gotten any unpleasant experiences either!!

and i'd like to try my hand at writing for him, someday (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) i don't write often, but reading so many works with him definitely makes me wanna try!! (i can understand why you like it. i also really love everything you've written about him (•ө•)♡!) and thank you!! i can only hope there will be a re-re-rerun of him someday, but i guess i can live without it too haha

thanks again!! i guess ill have to make lots of efforts to save up on my side orz. the anemo hypostasis is an annoying foe indeed, tho personally i like think of it as less annoying than most of the other elementary cubes... (╯︵╰,)

hehe, that's the plan ᕦʕ •ᴥ•ʔᕤ! it's already arrived, so all i have to do is wait for the banner!!

riddle??? that's such a good choice omggg!! he was definitely close to being a favorite for me, but i have been in love with ace ever since i decided to take his hand (●♡∀♡)

ahh i'm so looking forward to it if you ever decide to share your writing about twst!! ill admit i don't know much about the characters, yet, shame on me ...(´-﹏-`；) im a new fan, but im definitely set on consuming as much content as i can to really get into it, since the characters look really appealing to me 😚

and the adeuce duo is such a fun one!! deuce is probably one of my favorite characters too, atm. it's fun to see all the shenanigans they get into, especially when poor mc is dragged into it as well;;

riddle has really captured my interest, tho. his controlling nature and 'obsession' with upholding the rules gives me food for thought, even if it's sad to see what made him like that. it would no doubt be hell for a darling, too, if he doesn't get any more lax (´;︵;`) well, i think, at least, im not too informed on the characters yet so i might be off there.

(he also has a really cute face. i can't help but think that his little strands of hair look like antennas. it's funny (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧)

Yay! I'm glad you're okay with it! (❁´◡`❁)

I'm excited for the upcoming events, especially Lantern Rite. Do you know which four star you'll choose? It seems like a really difficult decision because they're all great characters and I could use constellations for any of them. >_<

And thank you for the good luck wish!! When I first started all I had was the starter characters, so I built them and did the occasional experimental pull here and there. My first ever banner four star was Chongyun, but I never built him because I was trying to build Kaeya, Lisa, Amber, and Aether. Now he's c6 and somewhat built! Since you're a Kaeya main, do you have any of his constellations? I main him as well and haven't been lucky enough to get any yet. T^T

Omg if you ever write for Childe I'd love to read it!!! He's a stinky gremlin, but I still love him lol. I think everyone should try writing for Childe at one point because he's a character who can be written in the most interesting situations. And writing mind games between characters is always fun. Hopefully you can add him to your party one day!

I have so many drops from that boss, but due to the fact that I've built Kazuha, Jean, and now Xiao I'm very low on the gemstones. Xiao is stuck at level 80 until I can get enough to make 6 of those stones. But I'm just relieved that it's an easy enemy! :D Luckily you don't find it too annoying either!

Omg the arrival of the Venti cosplay... Manifesting Venti's rerun for you so that you can lure him home with the outstanding cosplay!!!

The moment I saw Riddle I went :O!!! Maybe I like him so much because red is such a lovely color and Heartslabyul is red all over. Or maybe it's his personality... Either way, he became an instant favorite! I'll admit I almost took Azul's hand for a second. ;;; The power of a businessman is strong. (°ー°〃) But despite that I took Riddle's hand in the end!!!

If all goes well, I hope to post my first twst fic soon!!! It will be my official debut as a twst writer omg. After that I'll finish a Dottore fic and post it. And then I might write a fic for Azul or the Leech brothers. The level of intensity in each fic really varies... ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )

Adeuce has my heart!!! They're so much fun. I love seeing them interact. Poor mc, though... Always becoming part of their shenanigans whether they want to or not. I also really like Deuce! He seems very nice. <3

Riddle and his rules... Yikes. He can be really extreme. I think he would have high standards for his darling because he was raised with high standards. :( Outsmarting him might be difficult considering he's a very intelligent student and could probably figure out your goal the moment you slip up.

Oh, and his face!!! It's very cute!!! I love how his strands of hair are shaped like a heart. Somehow he became even cuter in nendoroid form. T_T But it is funny when they look more like an antenna.

[teenyweenynightghost]

Måneskin Group Chat- Chapter 5

(Ok so I will be a decent human being and give y’all a bit more of a warning. So when I wrote the angsty plot last night i was feeling dramatic so now i have to listen to sad music so i can get in the mood for writing what i hope will be the last non-text chapter. Anyway, once this is posted my writing is no longer my problem so be cautious)

Warnings: my writing, language

“Ethan”

His name echoed in my head over and over again, a beautiful song with no end, an orchestra made of nature’s most delicate creatures. The sounds of birds chirping and leaves rustling as the wind softly blows them all around...that’s what hearing and saying his name felt like. As if the sun suddenly peeked through an endless sea of stormy clouds. Everything began warming up, all doubts and worries left my mind, as if on instinct, so that it can be filled with the one thing that truly healed it, the one thing that truly healed my soul- my darling Ethan.

“Y/N?” Damiano asked from the drivers seat, again, and thus succeeding at making me stop thinking about Ethan, for a second time. I was close to killing him.

“What is it” I asked sharply. “We’re home” he responded, with a soft look on his face.

Oh. Shit.

Now this was very much not a fairytale anymore and the peaceful sound of birds chirping turned into an irritating non-stop alarm that scratched my ears. Focusing on all of the things that bothered me, I forgot to get out of the car, thus having Thomas slowly picking me up and putting me on the alley-way.

“You know what I realised” I said, softly looking at the sky.

“You’re in love with Ethan?” asked Victoria with a cheeky expression on her face

“What? No Im not Ethan is my best friend and I do- O MY FUCKING GOD” My face fell at the sudden realisation . Behind me i could hear three people losing their shit laughing. The world was spinning under me and the corners of my eyes turned black.

“Holy Fuck Victoria why the fuck didn’t you tell me earlier you dumbass YOU LEFT ME ALONE!” I kept on rambling trying to find an excuse for being in this overwhelming nerve-wrecking minefield of an emotion. Meanwhile, I am pretty sure I heard Damiano trying to help Thomas up, after he inevitably fell down from laughing too hard. At me.

A sudden wave of embarrassment rushed over me. “What the fuck guys! First you kidnapp me, then you tell me i love Ethan and now you’re laughing at me!?

Vic wiped a tear and tried to answer through giggles “Im sorry cucciola but the way you reacted to it all is just hilarious! I mean it literally is like that audio on tik tok with the piano song- at first its soft and peaceful, just like you were in the car ride here, and then the realisation hit, and, in perfect sync with the music you realised the clownery of it all!

I heard a howling laughter coming from behind me. I turned to see Damiano on his knees, choking and struggling to breathe, as he was cackling even harder than before. “Shut up” I muttered quickly and went inside. 

I quickly made my way up the creaky stairs and ran to the bathroom. I slammed the door shut and let my emotions overwhelm me. My night had gone horribly wrong. I was right. I knew I wasn’t made for these things. God, what was my poor date even thinking. What was I thinking? Was I really in love with Ethan?

I kept sobbing and shaking until I heard a light knock on the door. I tried to wipe away my face quickly but it was too late. In a moment I had Ethan’s strong arms wrapped around me, bringing me the comfort i so badly wanted. “Shh, princess, it’s alright. You don’t have to think about anything right now” He had no idea how much those words meant to me. No idea how much he meant to me. I snuggled my face in the crook of his neck, as he shifted his weight so that we could both sit comfortably. He started humming lightly, and his vibrations only soothed me further. His fingers started playing with my hair, before going to my shoulders and massaging them lightly. I slowly closed my eyes, and noticed how I had unconsciously matched my breathing with his. He smelt like sandalwood and a dark stormy day, a scent which for years comforted me deeply. I slowly started feeling his muscles flexing as he picked me up and took me to his bedroom. He laid me down on the mattress and got right behind me. He helped take off my clothes and did the same with his. All we were now was a tangled mess of limbs.

I started becoming incredibly aware of everything. His breath on my neck, his calloused hands sliding up and down my bare back, barely even grazing it. I shivered and his eyed immediately met mine. “Are you cold, cara mia?” “No, don’t worry about it.” I snuggled into him even further, and soon there was nothing between us. Not even air.

For the first time that night, I felt at peace. As if nothing was in its wrong place, as if i wasn’t doing something bad or that I would regret. I knew what Victoria had said, and I just couldn’t wait any longer. Thinking back to all the moments Ethan had tried to express his emotions to me- offering me a warm cup of coffee every morning, offering to take care of my goats, despite being quite furious with my purchase initially. His actions spoke louder than his words. As if on cue, he tightened his arms around my waist and left a chaste kiss on my neck.

“Ethan” i muttered half-asleep. “Yes darling” His eyes were closed, no frown on his face and all of his muscled relaxed. He looked so at peace, so young. I smiled slightly and brought my forehead to his. Our noses touched, and thats when he opened his eyes too. I was met with his sleepy but affectionate gaze, dark and striking, reading all of my secrets.

“What were you going to say cucciola?” His eyes never once left mine, only gently bringing me back to reality. I smiled and brushed a hair strand behind his ears. “I’m in love with you.” His eyes widened. He scanned my face to see if he heard me right and i only smiled to reaffirm my words. His lips were instantly in mine, capturing them in what felt like the most passionate kiss I ever had. We moved in sync as he brought his hands up to cup my face, and I couldn’t help but smile. We pulled apart, no longer being able to breathe, but staying so close we could hear each other’s heartbeat. “ I’m in love with you as well”. He kissed me once more, then pulled me back into his arms. He brushed my hair again and with that, we both drifted to sleep.

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I was awoken by a few light beams filtering through the curtains. Behind me, I felt someone breath evenly as their arms held me close. My mind wandered back to the events of last night. We were off to a rocky start, but it was all forgiven once I came home to him.

Y/n tried to turn softly so that she wouldn’t wake Ethan up. Now facing him, she couldn’t help but admire his soft features. She left a few soft kisses on his cheek, before lightly brushing her lips with him. At that, the boy in front of her opened his eyes, and smiled brightly. He cupped her cheek and brought their faces together, kissing her once more.

The pair stayed cuddled like this for a few more minutes before heading downstairs. Y/n approached the coffee machine and turned it on, while Ethan took some leftover patisserie from yesterday. After all of the food was on the table, Y/n went to sit down, only to be interrupted by Ethans grunt. He took a seat on one of the chairs and beckoned her to come closer. “C’mere amore”. Y/n did as she was told and went to sit on his lap. They ate together in silence, listening to the soft tunes playing on the radio.

Out of nowhere, they heard some giggling. They both turned around and saw three heads peeking from the staircase. Y/n rolled her eyes and sighed gravely, earning a chuckle from Ethan. The three musketeers who created so much chaos the previous night, emerged from their poor hiding spot singing Italy’s National Anthem.

Y/N scoffed at that and Ethan smirked. “So, who finally confessed” asked Victoria cheekily. “We both did, but Ethans came second” Y/n said proudly. Now it was Ethan’s turn to scoff. Thomas, who was still pissed that he had been woken up so early stole the remaining croissant out of Y/Ns plate and ate it in one bite. The rest of the band sat down and enjoyed some coffee too, as Y/Ns goats kept bugging the poor guitarist.

“Well, Im glad the issue between you two has been fixed. I was starting to choke on all that tension” said Damiano out of nowhere.

“Ha ah very funny” answered Ethan, his face completely blank. Y’N turned around and kissed him once more, to keep Damiano on Ethan’s good side.

The rest of their day was similar. Soft touches, random glances filled with love, kissed in between the bands’ practice sessions...

Truth be told, no one was happier than the two lovers who no longer kept their feelings hidden under the mask of friendship. 

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Omg so I was listening to some classical music and just as I was getting to the mushy parts it started playing a circus theme omg the universe is talking to me and im afraid its not good.

Anyway i hope you liked it, i will definitely continue chapter 6 as being chaotic and sarcastic, however , if yall want to, i could possibly write some blurbs with ethan x reader.

Until then, y’all can wait until the next chapter cuz its seven am and i have a long and empty day ahead of me 

[clevercorvidae]

I like roadtrip but that's because I will listen to anything and tolerate it. Once sat through a 6 hour car trip with nothing but just like the worst music I think I had ever heard and didn't say a thing.

ok but my problem is that everyone ranks mask BELOW road trip and its cause theyre BIASED theyre BIASED theyve heard the sus version too many times and have laid the clownery on thick cause of the music video but when you put the two songs side by side its clear that mask is the victor in almost every way. can you tell im passionate about this