#illsing

[stone-stars]

songs in c3e58: giant egos (timestamps from the ad-free version. does not include the generic combat music. “a wizard’s tournament” is the recap song.)

The Scrappers - 9:49

Spearmint & Tea Leaves - 27:26 and 29:32

Left is Left and Right is Center - 33:14

The Bronze Bastard - 34:42

Snake Skirmish - 35:17

Sea Elves - 35:33

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 35:49

A Fairy Remembers - 43:00

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 45:39

A Haven Away from Home - 49:22

Left is Left and Right is Center - 51:11

A Memory - 53:31

A Fairy Remembers - 55:43

Secret Basement - 1:00:16

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 1:02:42

Shadowfell - 1:06:27

Illsed's Secret - 1:11:18

The Purge - 1:14:34

context for each song + notes under the cut!

The Scrappers - 9:49 - Giant's war map / the giants defrosting

Spearmint & Tea Leaves - 27:26 and 29:32 - Callie addresses the giants while playing a fey lullaby / convinces them to talk

Left is Left and Right is Center - 33:14 - Giants argue about who should rule

The Bronze Bastard - 34:42 - High Ember Lord Charbin's intro (Fire Giant)

Snake Skirmish - 35:17 - Stone Commander Basalt Von Shale's intro (Stone Giant)

Sea Elves - 35:33 - Wavemother Akoralil's intro (Water/Fish Giant)

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 35:49 - Garrosh, Master of Whispers, introduces himself (Cloud Giant)

A Fairy Remembers - 43:00 - Callie tells the giants about the serpents and Oberon's prophecy

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 45:39 - Garrosh suggests that Raedak's election could've been influenced magically by him

A Haven Away from Home - 49:22 - Akoralil takes the giants to the Feywild

Left is Left and Right is Center - 51:11 - Garrosh admits to seeing Aryox's divination room

A Memory - 53:31 - Garrosh tells them about the Archfey in the Feywild during his time

A Fairy Remembers - 55:43 - Garrosh bows to Oberon/Foster

Secret Basement - 1:00:16 - Garrosh talks about Raedak's bloodlust and Havoc

All I Need is One Thread to Spin a Web - 1:02:42 - Telling Garrosh about their encounters with Havoc and Gowan's presence

Shadowfell - 1:06:27 - Looking for the source of Havoc's smoke

Illsed's Secret - 1:11:18 - Moving deeper in to the hallway with the mist, moving towards Havoc's source

The Purge - 1:14:34 - Scrawled writing / Gowan in the carvings

Note: Berelain (the hill giant) just gets a generic combat song as her intro.

[one-little-nerd-stayed-home]

Not that I'd expect anything less from Murph at this point but these flashbacks are fucking devestating

”Looks like a dwarf to me”

“yes sir.”

AUGH

"Things that don't belong find a place with you Moonshine."

OUGH

"Don't look away"

"I want to but I watch the sword come down."

EUGH

[therosecrest]

[naddpod-arc-tournament]

All straight from episode descriptions and patreon posts

Honorary mention to Irina... don't think it really provokes the "Murph what" response, but I'm an Ireena girl myself

PS go vote in the Bahumia Arc Tourney Final

[everythingisoak]

this is very incoherent, but I am unwell about Erdan/Lucanus and Lucanus/Jollene I have to do school, but I can't stop thinking about them. If I fail year 12 it's because of them.

"She used to razz me and I used to enjoy it" Like come on!

also, the whole flashback with Illsed.

AT THE END OF MAGE MADNESS IT IS IMPLIED THEY LIVE TOGTHER!

I am mostly thinking about the fact that Lucanus didn't know Erdan had died until after the fight.

FUCK

[winter-asleepening]

Spring Awakening Fandom Tag

By (@winter-alseepening)

1. how were you introduced to the show?

Through theater fans on instagram and tumblr :)

2. Seen a production live?

No 😭 waiting for the day

3. Dream role/character you relate to most

So disclaimer that I’m not a performer but I do relate to Moritz a lot and love his songs so it would be really … affirming ? To play Moritz 😌

4. Favorite male character

MORITZ I genuinely love him sm..

5. Favorite female character

ILLSE NEUMANN SUPREMACY

Ashamed to say that my time in the fandom previously I ignored a lot of the female characters 🤧 so sorry ladies I do love you,,

6. Deaf West Revival or Original Broadway Cast?

OKAY

So deaf west spring awakening is in my eyes a perfect revival and so artfully done so I reigns as “best version” imo.

BUT OBC has such a “kids rocking out in their garage band” energy to it ?? Where the show is so fresh and new and scary. And the energy is so grounded in nostalgia and I think it’s really special 🤧

7. Favorite song

TOUCH ME I will always die ,, the acoustician guitar stripped down start to the song is just so 💔💔💔

8. Least favorite song

I Believe ?? it’s more of a scene than a song tbh. And I think it’s really powerful as a scene . BUT like from a cast recording, album standpoint it’s a skip imo

(There once was a pirate bonus track in the cast album. Have never not skipped it)

9. Favorite quote/line

“She said love may make you blind, kid- well I wouldn’t mind at all”

10. Favorite TV performance

Forever and always the deaf west revival performance of Touch me on Seth Meyers 💙

11. Favorite cast member(s)

Jonathan groff and John Gallagher jr. are my favs from OBC

Deaf west I feel like I love everyone,, genuinely so happy that this production introduced me to so many amazing actors that I wouldn’t have otherwise known because they’re deaf,, Joshua Castille and Sandra Mae Frank are favs of mine 😌

Also I’m in love with Andy Mientus so him… obviously

12. Favorite cast member moment

Daniel Durant and Alex Boniello playing Animal Crossing together in one of the Vlogs of Purple Summer, very cute

Also the entire OBC reunion in the HBO documentary 🤧 genuinely so sweet to see everyone reconnect and reminisce 💔I cried

13. Do you write fan fiction?

I haven’t before but I’d probably come up with character AUs or head cannons or something

14. Do you make fan art?

YES !! I plan on doing a lot more but I drew a lot of Moritzs and Melchiors back in 2018 or so 😅

15. Do you cosplay?

I really want to cosplay from spring awakening,, illse’s OBC costume is so pretty💔 and I have a mighty need to cosplay Moritz for gender-y and kin reasons 😅

16. Don’t do Sadness or Blue Wind?

I always sing along with Moritz’s part but both are so beautiful, best characters my sweet children

17. Word of your body or the Reprise?

I would watch DWSA word of your body reprise RELIGIOUSLY (for totally straight person reasons) the revival does a great job taking a scene that was mostly played for laughs and make the characters seem much more grounded and whole. 💕

18. Touch Me or My Junk?

yes….. touch me is a great song but my junk is one of my favorite scenes in the show it’s so silly and crazy and I love it smm

Also the snowstorm Jonas video with the DWSA cast singing My Junk is like- my fav

19. Explain the song of purple summer

Okay, the song of purple summer is the kids singing about how they will carry with them their struggles and sing of this idealized perfect world that will someday be real because love will outlive hate and prejudice. There is one day going to be a world where no one will be ashamed to love and be loved and everything will be beautiful, even if it isn’t now.

20. Explain the song of purple summer (wrong answers only)

Illse converts everyone in the cast and the audience to her Cottage-core hippie religion….

[myheartxmyman]

Where are you?

What are you doing?

Do you miss me?

Probably you're going on with your life like usually,

maybe sometimes clouded by some bad mood and anger.

Bet there are moments you forget completely about me.

I feel pretty sure about you having wandering eyes on interesting and attractive woman who you see potential in.

I am once again going pretty much crazy. Totally.

I presume while I am going crazy, you are slowly going in the other direction, detaching yourself even further from our relationship, or better 'sinking ship'.

You are swimming in safety while I am drowning.

It doesn't change anything that I am the distant one,

I am still the one who's losing it and suffering.

My head aches continuously, my appetite has died, my clothes are all huge, and most of the new orders is smallest size xrtraxtra small, and still too big.

Feels like our bond got infected dozens of months ago. Catched an horrible and (terminal?) and devastating illsness. Combined to that hardship our love got poisened aswell. While the hearts were breaking, our relationship slowly began to wither, broke apart bit by bit.

Yet it feels like I am the one rotting and decaying in isolation. Of two lovers one of them loves more, I suppose that's me 'cause I can barley hold on anymore. Still I am loyal, I try, I have my mind on you; on us.

I kinda 'accepted' situations, which broke me, which changed me, which are still hurting to this moment. Sometimes it feels like I am betraying myself 'cause I didn't leave at times, so I could keep you in my life. I let myself down, because of my love for you, and what we were. I silenced myself, forced me unconsciously to' just forget and erase 'parts of our relationship history'. Parts where I normally as I said before, would have left and never looked back.

I fought and tried. I was hurt in such ways I would've never believed one year ago. Still can't wrap my head about some things.

Too often I am overwhelmed by suddenly occurring feelings and thoughts towards you, being the ones I trie(-d) to push away they are brutally heavy at times. The memories of our worst moments, of so much pain, deep agony, the desperation, disappointment and shock I partly felt, and still feel come rushing back as soon as somehow they get triggered just a little bit. It's just too much for my brain to comprehend. I don't get it, even now. How could it get so far? So dark? So cruel, damaged and painful? Secondly actions and words doesn't add up, it makes me think and feel on repeat until my overtaken mind unconsciously tries to erase, to hide parts from myself deep inside myself.

Overwhelming shock and confusion turn into brainfog and numbness.

I am kinda detached from myself, to be 'able' to be with you, able to be with selfneglected self.

Since approximately half a year, there are only two reasons why I still choose getting hurt, over leaving, giving up on what is left of 'us'.

Love and hope.

Love, for the man I meanwhile miss for such a long period of time. It hurts unbelievably that being in your presence, makes me miss you even more, because I can literally feel how far we are apart. How much has build up between us. I can sit right next to you, skin on skin, mostly I wouldn't really feel you. Not like I used to. Even while being platonic friends I felt closer to you than I do now. I long for you, even when we are together. Stil I hope that there is a way back for us., finding the ability to connect again, to see us for all we have been and still are. Growing together, and finding combined by our kintsugi repaired bond new positive traits in the 'actual version of each other'. Honestly sometimes I look at you, I hear your voice, I smell you.. And it's all familiar, while closing my eyes. But my mind drifts directly in the past, when I open my eyes you look like you, but oftentimes there is a stranger sitting next to me.

I hope that, after we did grow so far apart, one could say we did lose each other (out of sight, out of our compassion, out of our consideration, eg..). It came the moment when I looked over, recognized you, but somehow didn't recognize you anymore. Your smell, your voice, your eyes, it was all so familiar, at the same time I had no idea who you were.

Basically we went so far in opposite directions, it felt like a 'from lovers to strangers' kinda thing.

Two days ago a thought crossed my mind.. Apparently everything in life as we know it is connected, aswell as everything is in a balance. So maybe it's now time for us, slowly finding our way back to each other. I mean, leaving even further is NOT POSSIBLE. I wish and I need to connect on a deeper level again. We have to finally work our way out of this, we need to change, starting by treating each other with compassion, empathy, validation and care again. I hope we will manage to grow together, change for the better. We Need to treat each other with respect, again. We both want to feel secure and safe. Our nervous systems must be at high peak, we HAVE to change the damage we've done to our relationship. I've got to say, my hope is since the beginning of this year in a prolonged dying process, so yes, it will definitely be hard. And even if we are gonna put hella time and work in the both of us, I am honestly not sure, whether I'm gonna be able to heal enough from the wounds this relationship has caused me.

It's a rare occasion that I trust someone, normally my trust builds over Years. It felt pretty much from the beginning right, like the normal thing to trust you. I didn't even had to think about it, I just did it. You made me feel safe, secure, seen, heard, listened to. You talked with intelligence, empathy, compassion. The first night we talked I already felt peacefully at ease, calm and i notice just now, I probably didn't seem at all like a private and secret person. Being with you felt good right from the start, everything flowed right from the start.

Let's call the brief moment, where I suddenly lost control over my face

to find out my chin was able to move in only twenty seconds to a place somewhere between the end of my hair/stomach and the Spätzlewagenboden.

It feels like there is trying from both sides, but not once at the same time. Not once with combined power. It's more like one person is distanced, kinda emotionally checked out, physically at times 'there', yet so far gone. Not really invested. Maybe too tired? To drained of energy? Or simply over and done with it, at the verge of breaking it finally off for good.

Love for what we had, what we shared, the way we were. Love for the way my body was flooded by positive thoughts and feelings, 'just' because I was were you were, you were where I was, because we were together. Love for the future I could see when looking at you. I am in love with a ghost. Kinda. Second reason I am still in, is hope. It's said: hope dies last. And as deeply as I feel at times, my hope is still alive.

[glowling-posting]

FOOLED! it was gamma radiation

oouguhh. tthhe illsness. whhyodthisto mme igottt plllacces togo.,,,,

[skinnysgoodright]

I‘ve kind of lost the plot, don‘t know whats going on anymore…

I‘ve been at my set point since november now, not gaining not loosing, this is what I‘ve been wishing for since 2018

I‘ve spent the last 5 years gaining and loosing weight in a 30kg span, restricting, binging, restricting, binging

I‘ve completely lost hope that normal eating and staying the same weight was ever possible for me

however it is and I can‘t quite believe it, my eating still isn‘t perfect but it isn‘t anywhere near being as chaotic as it used to be, I stopped not being able to focus on anything other than food

So tell me why it still isn‘t enough, tell me why my mind makes me believe this is a perfect starting point for loosing weight again, as if this all wasn‘t to happen again

I know that if I loose weight now, the next 5 years are gonna be unbearable, restricting, binging, restricting, binging

Tell me why my mind is playing tricks on me, making me feel guilty again for eating when I’m hungry, as if I haven‘t wished for this the whole time

I hate this illsness with all my being, however there seems to be no escape

[spookie-boio]

I think maybe Caleb carved flapjack himself and maybe his wish was to be with Evelyn and stay in the boiling illses, or on a sadder note his wish was that Phillip would support him and join him. I believe that flap was already attached to Hunter but he needed hunter to admit what he wanted before he could "bond" with him. Because flap was waiting years for someone so I think that he was looking for hunter if not specifically, subconsciously. Once he saw hunter he immediately knew that was who he was gonna be with and maybe flap had witnessed what happened with at least one of the GG's bc of the scar that was over his eye. This is just me rambling about flaps motivations. Idk

The main character's deepest wish (That I've found) for their palismen.

Willow: "I want to be strong and wise to protect everyone I love. And if anyone gets in my way, they'll feel the sting of defeat."

Gus: "I'll become an ambassador to the human realm and re-establish contact with the giraffes!"

Hunter: "At least you can figure out your own [future]."

"...if I just knew a little more."

Amity: "I don't know what I'm gonna be when i grow up but I wanna choose the path myself."

Luz: "The only thing I've ever really wanted was to be understood."

[angelrhodesmusic]

It’s almost time y’all!! Come see me @lamascobar after you get off work today! #illsing #youlleat #welldrink #getlamascoed . . . . . #WeAreTheWilderOnes #singersongwriter #singersofinstagram #singersoftiktok #lovemyjob #guitargirl #girlswhorock #acoustic #acousticshow #redhead #rainbowhair #washburn #taylor #giglife #AngelRhodesMusic #AngelRhodesandTheWilderOnes #localmusician #workingmusician #blueeyes #guitarist #girlswhoplayguitar #livemusic #donthatemyhashtags (at Lamasco Bar and Grill) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cfe4FG-ulS3/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[emiko-matsui]

just saw how brian whats the most fucked up way I can spell this npcs name murphy claims ilsed is spelled

[one-little-nerd-stayed-home]

Me: wow I made it through the Bev sr fight without crying that's cool

Caldwell with a steel chair: Bev is systematically burning the drafts of the letter from his Dad because he doesn't need them anymore.

Me:

Me:

Me: I'm going to throw up.

[therosecrest]

[theokusgallery]

Always call me if you want someone to put way too much effort into a shitpost

Original ^

[gender-mailman]

The ultimate ADHD problem is a new hobby because ADHD is a bitch

-- @hypnosiacon

True, and it gets worst if you also have other metnal illnses (propositally spelled wrong)

I tried to learn how to play a guitar once and never did it again and i always say thats because my fungers arent strong enoth, but i know ADHD also played a part on that ajsgsjbsjd