#ill never be over it. probably

[brrdhouse]

i am so overjoyed right now oh my god

like kicking my feet, squealing, calling my boyfriend to gush about it levels of overjoyed

all of my ranting and raving under the cut as usual (.. funeral and death and afterlife stuff, along with other things. i get really prose-y about his relationships with people because i got a little too inspired oops :[ ) :

i love your robbie so much. holy shit i love your robbie

him making baby gideon (as opposed to god gideon [godeon? ill workshop it]) into a star? because even if that's not his friend, it's a version of his friend that's facing an unfortunate fate? enamoured.

baby gideon's funeral was as big a funeral as his parents could manage. they were still a pretty well-off family despite the bad press, so they poured all they could into making sure their boy had a good send-off. the inmates he was so close with show up, a lot of the gleeful extended family, and of course, the zodiac.

its a nice affair. he's wearing some sparkly suit that he would've loved, and the valentino's even give him matching eyeshadow when prepping his body. matching, not complimenting, bud could practically hear his son demanding beyond the grave, and was very clear with what he wanted them to use.

it's really weird for a lot of the zodiac to cry over him, but they do. soos—and surprisingly but not at the same time, pacifica—the hardest, but all of them end up tearing up at some point during the crowded service. dipper's still trying so hard to hate him. he has a good reason to. not everyone deserves to be forgiven, not even in death, and he still doesn't like the guy as a person, but he can respect the dead. not let it all go, but not hold on so tightly to it. hope wherever gideon goes afterward, he can have a clean slate.

and he does. there isn't a lot of substance being a star, but it's better than being an exploited child celebrity, or a hated teenager, or a boy on a thousand-mile train ride to fight against the clock, or a man on the porch of a shitty museum nursing a beer realizing that he's fine losing against time.

i think soos found him first. melody could've if he'd spent a little longer in the kitchen, but soos walked out with another drink and laughed because of course the kid would fall asleep on the porch. and then gideon didn't move when he nudged him. or when he shook him. or when he called for melody. or...

suffice to say, he just wasn't there anymore.

back to the funeral,

mabel also has a hard time processing it all. twins always match, i guess, but she'd forgiven gideon a long time ago. call her too trusting, but it wasn't in her to hate anyone other than cipher—and herself sometimes, but this isn't the post for that—not even gideon. they all got older, and she looked back at their child selves and decided that she wouldn't hate children. if she saw gideon again and he was still an ass, she'd see him fit for a grudge, but he wasn't. snarky, yeah, maybe a little too loud-mouthed to stan because that was their nature, but not downright villainous like he was as a kid. so she deemed him alright. when he started texting in their groupchat, he'd send pictures of cute dogs or whatever coffee he was having that morning, usually with long rants about how cold it was in maine that time of year or how he'd seen a band the night before with some stupid name. she didn't like him how he wanted her to like him back then, but she considered him a friend, responding with flowers or a project she finished or a funny story about dipper that'd happened the week before.

she considered him a friend, and now he was dead.

they all knew it was going to happen, obviously, but every year that passed they all got a little more confident that he'd make it. the gleefuls were a charismatic bunch, it made sense that gideon could sweet talk even death itself into leaving him alone for a while.

he was buried in town, with a pretentious angel statue and as many flowers as the gleefuls could buy (or convince other people to buy), but a simple headstone with his name, date of birth, date of death, and a blurb about being a loving son and bright soul.

again, there isn't much substance being a star. mostly just endless warmth, and the knowledge that he might not have been a good person, but he was good enough to be in a place like this.

ermm sorry my evil god sent me a dark vision anywaysss

i'm so hooked on your robbie being like, "yes. this one. this one's mine and if life refuses to keep him, i'll at least hold him gently," i hate them, i love them, it's so fun to think about. i love you zodiac antagonists please don't die (except for right now)

teen gideon headcanons because i love him :] i am constantly thinking about him and how he's the only zodiac member (and honestly, only main-ish character because of the book of bill and the website) that doesn't get a sympathetic moment, other than POSSIBLY the finale but that barely counts

i think he deserves to have a SORT OF redemption, at least internally, because he took dipper's advice in weirdmageddon to heart. even if he gets over his crush on mabel (which i think he does. mom said its my canon now) theres still the truth of "people wont wanna be around you if youre a selfish prick"

anyways he makes me emotional so i'm giving him attention

im scared tumblr will kill the quality on my tiny handwriting so transcription under the cut:

after turning like 15, he just starts traveling, gets out of oregon and hits the ground running

uses my headcanon (?) that the amulet takes years from you, and gideon probably won't live past his 20s

he finds this out, has a total mid-life (literally) crisis at 14-15 and decides to do anything "normal" he can do because he doesn't have long to do it

ofc he still has anger issues and obsesses over people and everything else, but he's a lot better at managing it [than] when he was a kid

he doesn't care if he dies with people still hating him, but he wants it to be known that he tried

[tinyfantasminha]

hey ! what a nice shirt

[lemongogo]

they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think

[mimicmew]

my friends made me watch bfdi.. i like these things..

[iridescentis]

I'm gonna be sick and ill for a second bare with

gem's little 'pearl you're scaring me' as pearl is calling out for etho, the way she does as a red, gem regretfully killing her even though she didn't want to, pearl forgiving her instantly and falling into being a red again and jumping right into it, getting two kills almost straight away

gem being a little scared of pearl, even after she had just led an army with bloodthirsty excitement. gem loving being red and loving the chase but being almost worried for pearl seeing her like that, worrying what she had done to her, not knowing what she was like in previous seasons when she went red

not knowing that she is giving the scarlet pearl someone to fight with, finally not letting her be alone, and pearl being the same person she always is on red life, but this time with people around her, people who don't want her dead or don't run away from her - and almost everyone wants to be her ally

[nintendont2502]

btw i will forever recommend just. refusing to engage in discourse. its free its easy and you literally arent missing anything LMAO - 99% of discourse on here is just on the most pointless petty shit that literally doesnt mean a single thing to anyone in real life (i am looking directly at you "pRo/AnTi" shippers), and the other 1% is genuinely important shit... that isnt going to be solved in any productive way by insulting '''the other side''' online. arguing with strangers online never changes anyones mind all youre doing is making yourself *and* your cause look annoying as hell :thumbsup: maybe chill out. find a hobby.

[chrisrin]

i'm now on cara! follow me if you so desire.

[habitina]

yeah the doctor said kainess is going to stay in the brain Forever and Ever. i can't run from them because they are taller than me. Yeah she said that

[blipblepbloop]

the way im seeing so much hate for agatha all along's finale like....you guys just didn't get it like i did omg. i have a couple things i wouldve done differently (i really expected agatha to be dead dead at the end and get to go see nicky, but upon actually thinking about it i like this better because her story most definitely isn't finished yet and i don't think it was ever supposed to be within this show (plus we're not burying our gays!!! yay!!)) but overall i liked it. i also feel like apparently i was the only one who never thought we would get a happy agatha and rio ending? it always felt like their story was leaning more towards them having to learn to let go of each other. idk i just don't think it was bad enough to warrant the amount of hate im seeing

[ultfan]

me when tumblr recommends me someone defending dr3 in the tags and i read through the entire thing and get mad bc they don't understand what brainwashing really is.

[cent-scratchnsniff]

that day when she opened her eyes for the first time. i remember you were just staring through the laboratory's glass not setting a single foot inside.

[harvestmoth]

get rejuv blasted again!! only this time i have like a three week backlog of things i forgot to post here

[recalled11]

Last sketch of the day, we've got swimming lessons!

No, Ravio doesn't know how to swim, so Legend has to teach him

[demadogs]

ok the rate at which shows are being canceled after one season is becoming more and more ridiculous and excruciating to the point where they dont even give people TIME to watch the shows anymore!! i will be recommended a good show by a friend and think “ooo im excited to watch when im not super busy” and then just a month later before i even had the chance to watch it, its already canceled.

and these days whats considered a “successful show” has to surpass hundreds and hundreds of millions, sometimes over a BILLION hours streamed to be worthy of renewing but when shows get somewhere between 50 million and 100 million theyre treated like they were a complete flop even though that is STILL MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WHO WERE INVESTED IN THE SHOW AND WOULD WATCH FUTURE SEASONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was going to watch that show. i was so beyond excited to watch that show. it had one of my favorite actors in it and it was produced by the same creators of my favorite show of all time. but because i have responsibilities from work and school like a normal fucking adult, i couldnt make the time to watch it and now only a week after i was recommended the show, it was already canceled.

i am used to mourning stories that ive become attached to that will never be complete, but this is altogether different. you didn’t even give me a chance to meet these characters or watch this story. a story that an entire cast and crew of probably thousands of people put all their hearts and soul and TIME into and yet you gave it just a fucking month before you decided it was unworthy of pursuing. even though tens of millions of people who were lucky enough to have been available to watch it at the time thought otherwise.

[lollytea]

I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me

[wonder-and-wildflowers]

Fydor has been alive possibly thousands of years and is intelligent enough to create a new language as he speaks it, even rapidly translating Dazai's own newly created responses,

and is still shit at Japanese.

It will never not be fucking hilarious to me. Dude can't write in it in Wan. Can't speak it in main. Fydor has been alive a milenia (probably).

Hes consumed the bodies of unknown quantities of people in effort to continue the span of his own life, stealing their cool outfits in the process, and yet he cannot for the life of him speak Japanese.