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i loved your jazterwave designs so much!! and wanted to draw them but i gotta ask is soundwave wearing a religious outfit or is it just a stylistic choice?
thanks so much!!! i'd be super happy if anyone wanted to draw my designs ^-^
for soundwave, my initial thought was simply that they would cover themself as neatly and as thoroughly as possible because that seemed to fit with soundwave's usual vibes, plus in my head, it would also be somewhat of a sensory thing to feel 'shielded' from the world
and tbh i couldn't decide on a hairstyle i liked, and doodling hood + hat outfits from pinterest sort of.expanded into hijab fashion because i just thought they looked nice,,
(put together a few earlier scribbles to make this post more fun, see below for more)
i've read some ppl's tags/comments under my other post + i do honestly like the idea of hijabi soundwave, but i'm not particularly religious myself, i know that i can't be completely thorough or find all accurate information when i go searching things up about wearing hijabs or other head coverings and the reasoning behind it,, and i don't want to blatantly misrepresent real-life beliefs/groups even if it's in fiction (・・;)
while i know that it varies between individuals on how closely they follow traditionally taught ideas and different beliefs can coexist, like people being both lgbtq+ and religious, i'm just a bit hesitant to say for sure whether i want to treat soundwave's headscarf as a religious covering or just a clothing choice before i can get a better understanding,,
though it might also be possible that i'm overthinking fictional characters and i should just let hijabi soundwave commit sins and atrocities?? i sincerely welcome feedback on this hfhdfjd
#by sins and atrocities i mean like.canon typical violence and bribery and blackmailing and murder etc#ill keep thinking it over maybe#in case its not clear ive made soundwave they/them in my secret self indulgent au but thats just funsies fhshdj#asks
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the place me and my roommate were supposed to move into today was so disgusting and uninhabitable we just took our stuff and left and now we're gonna be staying at airbnbs and hotels until further notice/until we can find a new place hopefully quickly...........im in my homeless drifter era y'all!!!😍😍so if im not as active then thats why LMFAO
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#bro was literally trying to rent us a silent hill apartment#we already paid first and last too which was 2700k and he said hes not gonna refund us EVEN THO WE DIDNT EVEN MOVE IN!!#like first month i get BUT NOT EVEN THE SECOND MONTH?? all landlords go to hell#looking back at the og listing like.....yeah i can see why he never took pics of the outside......literally looks like a landfill😃#we're SO LUCKY that uhaul allowed us to keep our things stored with them bc if they insisted on our shit still being dropped off#we woulda been so screwed/forced to move in and then would have had to hire ANOTHER uhaul to move back OUT lol#AND I HATE MOVING the idea of unloading all of our stuff just to pack it again literally makes me wanna perish#but even tho i may be a homeless drifter rn that wont stop me from also working on my oneshot between searching for places😍#the oneshot has a smut scene at the beginning LMAO and smut takes me forever to write so id been putting it off#but now that im over that hump (pun intended) i think ill be faster now brrrrrrrrrrr 9k words so far#its probs gonna be like 40k LMFAO maybe longer... idek#but also ill be hella busy trying to find a home so LMFAO who knows...chat im so fucking TIREDDDDD🧎♀️🧎♀️#my moms trying to see if she can fight him and get our money back but it aint lookin good bros#if i randomly open commissions then youll also know why LMAO
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since tumblr always has to suffer my personal vents and breakdowns and rants and annoyances you get the most wips and pics of unfinished stuff, im sure that makes up for it
the (unfinished) shiekah arm concepts that made me want to explode and i dont think im gonna work on again
#ganondoodles#art#zelda#ganondoodles rewrites totk#botw2#wip#calling it wip but i dont think i can go back to it#i tried to keep going on this for so long bc i have had the idea in mind for so long and it seemed fun#well ...... turns out that was a lie#thought to myself maybe i can do like one of those cool concept art things where they just go for interesting shapes first#and then refine it to actually work#but im not made for it#tbh im not sure what im made for#(i dont think posting wips im not posting elsewhere actually makes up for my annoying mental health spirals..)#i hope its not too small#was intending to go for version H but only got to do one variation#the outer casing can be customized with several designs#theres a guardian arm that extends and stretches to form the hookshot in the bulky part as well as the stored magic#there is always something on it to glow bc it also subtly shows how low your magic meter is#and if it runs out the blue parts turn orange like other shiekah tech in stand by mode#wanted to draw all that on here too#but .... ill need to start over when im doing better ....... WHEN im doing better and can draw again#speaking it into existence#(....man how all those “designs” look is so ... i feel even stupider for getting so extremely frustrated over it ...)
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Rory has been trending a little bun-obsessed lately, probably because we have lots of bunnies in our condo complex and she has to practice a lot of impulse control as she can't chase or really fixate on them, so I've been looking for ways to help her fulfill her bunny-murder urges safely.
Unfortunately we don't have a ton of areas I comfortable coursing her (letting her chase buns until she can't see them or catches them) because our bunnies are mostly urban animals BUT I was at the bougie pet store for unrelated reasons and they had dried rabbit feets which gave me an idea!
I bought a few and got some paper bags and put Rory in another room while I hid them around the apartment to sniff out, destroy, and eat. I figured it would satisfy some of her murder urges, even if it's not the whole predation sequence.
She was pretty happy about it! I'll try to add this to our rotation of enrichment activities and maybe get a few rabbit feet to chuck at her outdoors sometimes. Hopefully it'll help vent those bunny frustrations so they don't build up and hurt my good dog behaviours.
#dogblr#rory borealis#dog enrichment#bird dog training#the good thing about my lifestyle is that rory does actually have a lot of outlets for her hunting behaviours#we constantly go out for free time in the field for her to scent stare and stalk#shes not a huge chaser tbh but she could be#she chases her dog friends or me and she did chase that bunny the other day#maybe thats the piece thats missing#maybe i should make her a flirt pole?#i dont have a lot of space for it and its gonna get icy#but maybe its worth doing anyway#im glad i started writing out these tags because i wasnt even thinking about the chase piece because she gets toooooons of running time#but it isnt the same focus as chasing#HMMMMMMMMM#okay so new plan#gonna keep this up and also make a flirt pole#maybe we can get some chasing time in before it snows or ices over#she does chase me but she cant grab-bite or kill-bite to finish the sequence#if i get some rabbit hide it might satisfy those missing pieces#stay tuned ill report back in a bit
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idk, crowsx3 design??? sdkjfh
the heads are all made of porcelain, and can rotate like that one horror short film with kevan brighting voicing in it
#artswin#quick sketch up#idk#tsp#tspud#crowscrowscrows#crowsx3#the stanley parable#stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#ik im probably not the first one to come up with this but i have an idea for smth so i wanted to make a vague idea for a design first#my current idea rn is that. at least for my au. since theres three crows. there needs to be three sort of proctors for the game#and since proctors are people who oversee exams/officer with responsibility at a school#what im thinking is that narrator and curator are both proctors who “oversee”/“admin the game" (according to oxford)#or “one who is emploied to manage to affairs of another”/“person who takes charge of or acts for another” according to wikipedia#they both at least have control over the game (ie. narrator writing the script n stuff/curators museum etc)#but they need a third.#in 2013 tsp 432 goes missing. sees that the wheel needs to keep turning#the crows see him understanding the situation. and how he wants to keep the game going. so they appoint him as another proctor#thus timekeeper. who gets added on to manage the settings and time in ultra deluxe#i have more to say but idk just yet sdkjfhskdf#i feel nervous just bc idk if im stealing someones idea or concept for this. or even getting it wrong even if its just an interpretation#maybe later ill explain idk sdkjfkjsf
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ough god, I cried over this
#the monkees#mike nesmith#michael nesmith#davy jones#micky dolenz#keep stickin around kid we all love you#micky will be such a hard one for me guys. paul mccartney will break my mom im sure but ill be in such hardcore denial over micky i know it#and like micky and mike make me emotional but micky and davy do too… and he had to include pictures of them in the 70s… before their#‘breakup’ when i tell you i thought about it a bit too long and then started to cry…#the monkees make me way too emotional but good god#cause it’s that one picture that’s like i think in the late 70s !! and they’re buddies !! and then… ough poor micky#and he has all these memories#(or maybe not cause they did tell him he had a good time lol)#and i cannot look at anything related to mike and micky in 2021. i will get very distraught. michael is too much for my brain to handle#i need to go to bed now lest i get to sleep too late again but i’ve been thinking about this post literally all day#like thinking of both mike and davy on the same day… if micky isn’t involved in the relationship i don’t care it seems so this post broke me#okay okay goodnight i’ll shut up ill shut up i cant even think too hard about it im just blabbing in the tags so so sorry#also that first picture is gorgeous#like they’re all so pretty but davy is serving hard and i don’t say that lightly cause im not usually someone who usually favors davy#over micky and mike#but that’s such a beautiful picture of the three of them and i will shut up now goodnight
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hiii I was wondering, is it just me or does it feel like Yesod would spontaneously combust the nanosecond his little walnut brain realizes "hey they might not be visiting me just to bother me about paper" ? in reference to your funny Blue Cheese/Netzach/Yesod post
also how often do you think Chesed is haunted by Chuck-E-Cheese ?
genuinely cant think of anything funny to say in reaponse all outa ideas it got drained out of me into the lobcorp machine to get on the stupidest of grinds for this . feels like it would go all quiet up in there before going back into existence to fully process the fact . exaggerated for a sad attempt at humor
on regards to chuck e cheese not quite exactly the idea presented but i havent slept in awhile so i hope this slight tangent regarding the idea will suffice. i think it haunts him like an ever present oil stain thats just faded but when youre having a nice day pops up to remind you of its existence. not quite sure how it haunts as its not necessary good nor bad but it sure does never leave. if we are talking literal apparition haunting deal. maybe like on weekends
does the city have a chuck e cheese. did chesed ever experince the very grungy experience of a chuck-e-cheese. is there some sort of abnormality that took on its form akin to how fragment of the universe tried to change its appearance in order to communicate its intent though crayon scribbles and hearts but for the mascot of chunky cheese to communicate the . pain of entertainment joints or smthn. ill never know . hopefully ill stay ignorant to such matters
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#this is so stupid im so sorry. even by my standards i regret having caffeine at 9 why did i think it would be funny#there is no activity inside my brain. absolutely nothing. its almost liberating if not a little weird.#will i see this after taking a nap and go 'yeah i totally posted that at 3am that sure is a 3am post'#probably. will i do anything abt it? yeah go back to sleep maybe until i need to rush out the front door#.... .. . do i even want to tag acrually. yeah sure#yesod lobcorp#chesed lobcorp#netzach lobcorp#i GUESS. im ntot going to get into an argument w myself ill decide later if it counts or not#i keep am worried abt ooc but then i realized its. afuckin g thing about paper and chuckecheese. i dont care anymore#and then o felt the warm embrace of liberty. maybe im losing it a bit i should just post this and get over the ever present shame
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can i say something. can i be mean.
they did not need to hire matt fucking mercer to play manfred lol
#bioware critical#datv critical#vows and vengeance#vows and vengeance spoilers#MAYBE ILL END UP DELETING THIS POST IF THE SKELETON ACTUALLY TALKS LOL.#i hate to be a downer and also disclaimer like in the grand scheme of things this is nothing. its fine. its objectively a whatever situatio#but it just rubs me the wrong way. it honestly feels kind of insulting#to have scrapped the keep and reduced our imported choices down so egregiously - thereby making the return of certain older charas/actors#completely impossible#while at the same time hiring an extremely famous/prolific/borderline a-lister VA#to make GRUNTING and SNARLING noises and not even talk#I DONT KNOW. ITS JUST. IT WAS CERTAINLY A CHOICE YKNOW.#im so excited for datv and i think its going to be a great game. but i think some healthy hater-ism in moderation is good for the soul lmao#anyway. hater moment over im back to being a lover. emmrich stans rejoice <3 what a sweetie#AND VARRIC + NEVE DOUBLE NEXT EP LETS GO LOL
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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doctober day 23: nostalgia
fact: doc has a saxophone in his garage in both 1955 and 1985, with seemingly no ties to his scientific pursuits. hypothesis: theres some sentimental reason, maybe he played (plays?) it as a hobby since and/or prior to 1955...? conclusion: they def had at least one jam session
[[ proof of my claims >:0 ]]
#back to the future#bttf#marty mcfly#einstein brown#doc brown#emmett brown#doctober#doctober 2023#christopher lloyd#michael j fox#my arts#my sketchy wip arts#i had like half a ficlet typed up for this instead of a drawing but then i realized itd be very out of place for my content so far#so i had to start over. hence lateness even tho this is very simple overall >_<;#maybe if i ever do a proper fic ill just put that scene in lol. i kinda dont want it to go to waste ehh :P#anyway i know they bonded about an interest in music. pry it from my cold dead heads#tbf doc has a jukebox and obvs the amp in 85 which could be more evidence but also u could argue those were put in specifically for marty#HOWEVER there is no debate abt the sax. WHY would 55 doc have (and keep??) that for 30 years unless he had some sort of attachment to it !!#ive connected the dots !!! (you havent connected sht) IVE CONNECTED THEM !!!!!#i personally think he got it in his pre jules verne era. ie before he got into science and was just kinda figuring out what he wanted to do#bby doc like 'uh idk music??' n his mom like 'ok sweetie which one do u want' and obvs he has to pick the quirkiest one in the store. king#so hence why i categorize this under the 'nostalgia' prompt. its like a childhood hobby that he revisits thanks to his musical teenager <3#but thats all just my theory so uhh yeah ;w;#also every time i listen to 'back in time' this image manifests in my head. it literally has guitar and sax so like. its them. TO ME#also also i hate drawing instruments BYEEE. like youd think after being in 2 other music heavy fandoms id know how but. u would be wrong
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Gothmog, Thuringwethil, and bonus Tevildo
i was digging around in my files and rediscovered some really old silm art of mine, including my original angband trio designs (mostly traced off heroforge models lol):
and they're actually pretty cool! thuringwethil's tail is maybe a little questionable of a design choice (how are you supposed to fly with a giant tail flopping around...) but it looks really good on gothmog.
i don't really remember what i was doing with sauron (he looks a little like early curufin for unknown reasons) and idk what the wrist things are supposed to be, but Original Flavor Thuringwethil was actually a corrupted maia of manwe (eonwe's sister?), hence the feathers instead of traditional bat wings. for Original Gothmog i am less sure about his origins but he is possibly a corrupted maia of ulmo (originally a sea serpent, hence the tail and ulmo style ear-fins) who basically dried up into a more stone-based serpent
anyways i think I might keep thuringwethil's face/wing design and gothmogs full design for future use
#silm#silmarillion#sauron#gothmog#thuringwethil#hm now i must go check the other ancient dusty designs#yeah idk why thuringwethil has a tail i think i just wanted her to match the other two#for some reason half my original flavor elves look vaguely like curufin or celebrimbor#idk why they jsut all have celebrimbor vibes#my modern design gothmog is more coal-y#like with black skin black armor magma skin cracks and fire hair#which is also cool but very hard to actually see the details on#so maybe ill use Gothmog the Fair as his default design and Gothmog the Burnt as like an intimidating battlefield design#okay yeah hes a maia he can have two different fanas right?#definitely not keeping the giant pauldrons for thuringwethil though#not sure how shes supposed to raise her arms over like chest level in those things#also unclear how the tattered danglies are attached to her sleeves#are they sewn on for dramatic effect?#2021 me had really cool ideas and a rather poor understanding of how clothes actually work#oh well i can fix that now#ooh maybe ill do an uncorrupted thuringwethil/gothmog next
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Mike aggressively cutting his hair because he realized that he not only wanted to be like Eddie, but he also liked Eddie. And now Eddie is dead and it's fucking torture to keep looking like him. The man he liked, wanted to be like, inspired him...dead and will never come back, it all just made Mike have a breakdown and cut his hair to cut that part of his life away from him. He wants to be his own person, he wants to find solitude, he doesn't want others to be his inspiration for life. So he cuts his hair because new hair is new you
#and watch kas eddie come back and be like cool hair wheeler and mike falls head over heels again#either way mike needs to realize that he cant keep basing himself off of other people and how other people will react to him#he has to be his own person no matter what people think#stranger things#mike wheeler#eddie munson#byler#kas eddie munson#kas!eddie#i do not ship eddie and mike#mike had a crush on eddie#there is nothing more#also yay kas eddie#i havent mentioned him in a while#maybe ill post more about kas eddie because i love kas eddie#whatever you guys want- actually no! imma be my own person and post about whatever i want
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for a guy constantly stuck as the butt of the joke (and in the unrequited love torture chamber) I think he deserves the dub of someone ANYONE confessing to liking him no matter how big the crush or how long ago idgaf it should've happened to the greatest dude ever kuwabara
#idccccc gimme kurama randomly dropping that bomb on Kuwabara after a study session#yeah i think im irrevocably in love w/u and i dont mind at all. ill see you next tuesday 👋🏼#yusuke finally getting his shit together years after they're out of school#and kuwabara is like now? in the waiting room for my colonoscopy?? also i already knew#''you KNEW?'' ''just cos i got bad taste doesn't mean i should act on it!!'' ''???''#some random kids from school maybe a girl he'd protected during his patrols of his territory#a guy that sits behind him in class that fell head over heels during his study arc in episode 3#HELL HIEI EVEN. sitting outside on a tree on his property leaving the occasional demonic relic on his windowsill#kuwabara is like who tf keeps putting rocks here. he keeps em tho#basically i think anyone and everyone in their silly little verse is completely capable of loving kuwabara#he loves kittens and calls himself a warrior of love and is 6ft and NOBODY ever said hey i like you#okay cool on that note togashi we're boxing 👊🏼👊🏼👊🏼#qeued post#kuwabara kazuma#yu yu hakusho#yeah yeah he got popular in highschool but WHO CARES? NOT KUWABARA#he literally doesn't take that shit srsly istg he doesn't think anyone's genuinely interested in him#i could talk about how kuwabara's only truly comfortable in the unrequited role bc it's all he's ever been allowed#but that's a whole nother post
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25 year old Bonnie, after trying to get friendships and relationships of their own, now realizing how buck wild their family is: What do you guys mean you guys decided to spend the rest of your lives together only after knowing each other for a few months
#'bonnie you did too' 'I WAS 10'#isat#bonnie isat#isat spoilers#also older bonnie having a slight crisis over the fact that yeah they really were really close to not having their isa mira sif and dile#in their life like yeah time loops but also... say thinks went well and the king was killed no problem... they would have gone home to their#sister and then... who knows maybe it would have gone well but it might have been the last they saw of their family#and thats scary to think about especially since that day went so many ways but only in one of them did they agree to travel together#makes you wonder about chance meetings and trying to build normal relationships#especially with the context of being a savior of vaugarde it must be kinda weird for them#anyway bonnie retroactively being baffled by their ride or die family is funny to me#tbf the family also probably has regular friendships too but bonnie's main point of reference for healthy relationships are 4 wild af people#who decided to risk their lives to save the country (5 if loop is there) and then decided to just keep hanging out forever plus their sister#who is probably figuring out this stuff on her own anyway so prob cant give the best advice#rip bonnie trying to find a balance between not really befriending anyone and 'hold up Ill bury the body for you' crew
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hades art dump + some whiteboard doodles
#nep draws things#sketch#oh shit how do i tag these things. um.#hades game#hades supergiant#zagreus#thanatos#is that it. i think thats it. anyway if you follow my main blog youve probably seen my insanity over this game ^_^ i wanna get around to#drawing some of the other characters but i just. shrugs. theyre cool to me ok. i think ill draw uhhhhhhhhhhh persephone next maybe????#anyway i believe there should be more wholesome artists for this fandom bc some posts here are uh. um. Yeah. ^_^ < has seen the Horrors#watch me never post for this fandom again sasdfkjjskdfkj it feels so cold and empty. there is no life or warmth to be seen here.#ik ppl are there in the community but it doesnt Feel like other fandoms ykno. its scaryyyyy anyway im keeping to my main communities fornow#ANYWAY on a lighter note the gameplay is sooo addicting...... aourgh. i was also gonna say smth else but i forgot#posting this from my drafts before i go to bed lol gn
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Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps
#SHES AMAZING I LOVE HER AHHHHH#I hope we manage to find a cute bsd pfp it would be literally my dream#little vent tw!!#it's been so long since I matched pfps last time was with my ex who started being wayyyyy too weird..#and the other time was with a friend who started ghosting me some months later just because I didnt give her enough adopt me pets or smth 💔#and like. her stopping talking to be literally broke me as a person. it was devastanting for like 13yo me#woahhh thank you k. now I have social anxiety and keep dobting whether people really want me there or not#I still have a sort of love hate relationship w her but like its been over 2 years maybe 3 why do I still care abt it sm :<#especially since our other bestie is wayy more affectionate w k than w me it just makes me feel so weird like im sort of a 3rd wheel#but at least the friend im gonna match with is the sweetest person ever and we can be silly together :333#unfortunately we only know eachother from a course so we always have to wait 2 weeks to see eachother#and even tho i still see k almost every day shes pretty different now#but ive been feeling so so happy the last few days since school started and im afraid I might go back to being how I was when she returns#because. I bet my two friends will keep being silly together and ill have to sit w my ex again cuz hes still part of our friend group#I mean hes a nice and funny guy but I figured that a relationship wont work with us. I tried it and I just wanna be friends#I have a lot of fun w him but like in a platonic way#and im afraid he still thinks we should be together#meanwhile my besties keep flirting w eachother like??#I mean its pretty funny as a joke but I cant help but feeling kinda jealous especially because I used to have a huge crush in one of them#talked a bit too much ooopssss#Im just trying to move on but I hope k coming back doesnt start everything over again#anyways!! I love my bestie from the course smmmmmm Im still so so happy :D wish we could see eachother more#random stuff#chaos#friendship#violet rambles
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