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quick daily reminder: please take a moment to be grateful for both hot water and home heating, if you can. because you do not know what you have until its gone.
#captains log: its been four days since I last showered. the water is so cold its painful to wash my hands. my apartment is at a steady 59F#we may not make it....to tomorrow.....tell my cats....i love them.......*dramatic death noises*#itll be fixed eventually we just (ironically) had a Large snowstorm that made it impossible for a repairman to get to us#in the meantime its going to be -20F for the next few days so thatll be fun!!#if you dont hear from me by march assume ive frozen to death#/joking#/but not really lol#not dp related#solhunder complains#ill get back to doodles soon i promise
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Very random but if the chain ever happens to visit legend's time again
Or even worse they happen to visit legato’s era and get dropped in front of legend's hut
And Ravio happens to be there …
Oh boy , I can only imagine the sheer salt and acidity in legato’s entire being as Ravio ends up getting “friendly” with Legend
While legato is seething with rage in the background at the display of affection and feeling deeply hurt at it
Because Ravio would always rather choose his older still hylian and more mature looking self over him
He did prove it when he got back to him
Even if legato felt so much more comfortable as a dopple Ravio would only see it as his death being disgraced by this circumstances
He did never get to hold a funeral for legend
Legend died in his eyes and a doppelgänger took his place not giving him the opportunity to mourn
Which both probably are in the right in some way because Ravio couldn’t bare it any longer to see legend get hurt over and over again while he sees him become less and less the person he once was for better and worse
While legato was given the opportunity to no longer be in pain at the expenses of his mortal body and he was more or less comfortable with the losses of many things that came with being a dopple the eventual rejection would hurt in a way nothing ever hurt before
He lost Marin through circumstances and it hurt
But he never experienced the kind of pain of being rejected by someone he loved the way he was now
While he still has to deal with the fact the person is alive and very much just over it
He probably copes like shit with it because he has no idea what to do about it other then put it in a box and pray he never has to deal with it (master at suppressing trauma and pain that he is)
He already is kinda unhappy about the way he looks
It would get so much worse when he sees that Ravio likes legend more (even if it is a version of Ravio who doesn’t even know who the random kid that looks at him with ill intent even is )
The sheer hit to his self esteem would be the equivalent of a nuke going off
Complete annihilation
The sheer amount of jealousy that would then proceed to generate towards legend as a result (even if he doesn’t want to)
Lil guy would throw a hissy fit at the very notion of legend and Ravio being in general proximity while he can’t do anything about it
And he is both happy for them and also intensely bothered because he knows exactly how painful it would be when it ends and he doesn’t want this pain for legend to experience as well
The chain meanwhile would be concerned why Ravio seems to bother legato too such an intense degree
He would have a hard time explaining why exactly he is seething at Ravio and probably get Ravio killed by accident when he messes up one single excuse for his intense sad meow meow behavior and why he wants to protect legend from the guy who kinda broke up with him and he never really had the time to get over it but that part he obviously can’t name lol he just doesn’t like scammers and there is no other reason whatsoever
But with the context that he is in a very very exploiting industry
By himself with no real support system
And apparently hates scammers with a passion to the point where he throws his first ever tantrum in front of the chain over it
When he always seemed to be a happy go lucky lil dude with only sunshine and rainbow energy to the point where getting maimed and being on the death bed is taken with a smile and no problem
He still is legend after all he can get bitter as a lime it would probably need a lot nonetheless because he is hanging around with his brothers to get his mood sour enough to metamorphose back into legend … like having to deal with his ex and a version of himself who he hopes won’t get dealt just as horrible of a hand as him
The chain gotta wonder just how worse it can show itself to be
Okay, quick disclaimer before I fully answer this: Ravio's side of things is more complicated than Legato knows. The situations you're describing would not play out that way in the series due to a variety of factors.
That said, I do enjoy angst and can appreciate the directions you're taking with this, so let's get into it :D
Either way you go, Ravio would probably be more comfortable interacting with Legend. And as you mentioned, Legato has a tendency towards avoidance whenever he can get away with it--he spent most of their visit to Legend's era hiding away and not really interacting with anyone.
Granted, he was able to get away with this because of the incident in Kakariko. Everyone thought he was upset about that and elected to give him space so long as he didn't wander too far. This would not be the case should they end up in Legend's era again.
With the newfound context that Legato is Legend's sort-of successor, Legato would have to be careful about the others interpreting his awkwardness as meaning something regarding Ravio's future. He could play it off as trying to avoid influencing the timeline too much with what he knows of it. But if he slips...
A Plot: Legend has a (not so) mild crisis, spiraling as he tries to figure out what Legato's attitude towards Ravio means. Time and Twilight try to reassure him but fail miserably due to their own personal struggles with trying to fix the past--ultimately Wild turns out to be the voice of reason, to everyone's surprise (minor callback to that LU comic about Kings of Hyrule, wherein Wind lectures Wild about fighting for the future).
B Plot: Legato sneaks off since staying in Legend's house will drive him insane, Wind and Four follow him. Wind specifically points out that it'll be good to have him along for emergencies since his pirate charm can connect to Wild's slate. They get to have a fun day of visiting the different treasure caves and mini games (and trying to cheat at them) scattered around central Hyrule. As a nice break from the angst.
C Plot: Warriors, Sky, and Hyrule are checking in with Fable at the castle. Warriors does most of the talking, while Sky and Hyrule hang back and get to wander around the castle. They talk about legacy and what it means, both as a predecessor and a successor. Their conversation mirrors some of the stuff from the A plot, in that terrible things may happen in the future but the most you can do is try to keep going and leave something for future generations to work with.
Anyway the whole thing concludes when everyone regathers at Legend's house, and it's Warriors who accidentally lets slip that Ravio was part of the War of Ages, and that's probably why Legato was worried but insisting that it all was fine. Legato is quick to latch onto that excuse and run with it.
(Ravio is very panicked about how he'd fare in a war, but quickly warms up to the idea when it's pointed out that he could make a lot of money through opening a shop in Warriors' Era. Legend now has a new thing to worry about.)
#this got a bit away from me--i think it's not quite what you were going for but i hope it's a fun hypothetical#if anyone is curious: this is roughly how i plan out fics before writing them#so some of the phrasing might be a little weird since it's just my thought process#starslog#lu doppelgänger au
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*does a super massive love beam at you* YOUR USERBOXES ARE SO COOL!!!!!! How many requests do you have in your inbox rn???? I wanna request but I don’t wanna if there’s too many TvT
there r currently 31 requests in my inbox :DD !!
#mod laios (★)#WAHHH TYSM BTW ❤️❤️#i will never get used to people complimenting my userboxes actually#ily little people on my blog#all 100+ of you JJSJDS#ik 31 sounds like a lot but guys pls keep sending requests#ill get to them eventually and with love LOL#i do kinda miss making self-indulgent userboxes but like then that means less time to work on requests#and i feel guilty cus some of ur requests date back to last month TT waahhh#dw ill get to u guys eventually#school is just rly drowning me at the moment BJSJSJKDS#answered (★)#< NOOO MY FORMAT…#i cant move it rn cus im not on my laptop TT#maybe if i reach 50 requests ill close my inbox#HEAVY MAYBE#bcus what if i get hit with the sudden motivationator#huge hit or miss with the adhd honestly
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the merits of the twinyards learning to show their love for each other in slow stilted actions r a lot. for me. to me. little things. aaron buying andrew his favorite sweets because he remembers his picky eating tendencies; andrew throwing a blanket over aaron passed out in the living room after pulling an all-nighter. opening up more during their sessions w bee, angry accusations n cold statements melting into talking abt hurts n what shaped them growing up which becomes even conversation n learning abt each other more ( to bee’s not so small delight.)
the glares n perpetual scowls aaron once wore in andrew presence turn into smth more knowing n relaxed. he thinks one day he’ll be able to forgive andrew for tilda’s death; knowing the reasons behind it now, how andrew did it for his sake. (when he tells andrew that he thought he was going to die, during the days he was locked in that bathroom, his voice is raw. andrew’s face shutters. then, he says in what is possibly the closest thing to regret aaron has ever heard from andrew, “If I could make what you experienced during that time less painful, I would.” n really what’s done is done n there’s no going back, but aaron needed some sort of closure, smth, anything ! so he turns away n tries not to shake from all the emotions of what he’s feeling. andrew sits there n waits for him to return to normal.) andrew begins to make eye contact w aaron, he stops looking thru him—choosing to acknowledge his existence, instead. he sees how aaron is making an effort, clumsily attempting to prove that he isn’t letting andrew go, in spite of everything. (“ I’m not going anywhere. I hate you, but I’m still not going anywhere.” aaron says defiantly during one session where andrew said smth abt aaron going on his merry way after graduation. it shocks andrew. he stills suddenly n it’s v hard for him to look away from aaron’s blazing eyes. “Do what you like.” andrew replies stiffly. it’s acceptance n permission wrapped up in one.)
they learn how to mend the fragments of their broken past so they can both move forward. aaron releasing his resentment of andrew slowly but surely. andrew allowing himself to think of aaron as more than someone who will disappear one day, someone permanent in his life. they talk to each other !!! they meet up to do things—in complete silence sometimes, with small comments here n there in other times. after graduation, andrew goes to play on the east coast while aaron does med school elsewhere. it’s a big change. it’s difficult, often times. aaron will look next to himself with words on the tip of his tongue, then realize andrew is not around. andrew will look behind him as he traverses the streets of nyc, hand outstretched as tho to hold onto smth, a shirt perhaps, forgetting that aaron is not there.
But!!!
the two of them call each other once a year,month, week— the occurrences gradually becoming more n more frequent. 3 years pass by. andrew is in town for a game. afterwards, he meets up w aaron for a drink. it’s quiet. not uncomfortable. they take each other in n note how separation n time away has made the other different. aaron is in a good mood , hair shaved close down, face full, n nothing like the raggedy n hollowed boy andrew met years ago. aaron in turn observes how andrew’s eyes r half-lidded w smth one would call happiness if it were anyone else, but it’s js content for andrew; his arms tattooed beneath his armbands, n a looseness to his shoulders that aaron could not have ever believed andrew to posses once upon a time. after some small talk n a small congratulations from aaron for andrew’s team win, andrew slips a piece of paper out of his jacket pocket n shoves it at aaron, face blank. it’s a new team contract. it’s in the same city as aaron’s med school :) aaron decidedly does not smile, but sources say his lips quirked up a bit. they order cheesecake. everything is fine. they r brothers. they walk out together.
#is it obvious how mentally ill they make me ……..#the twinyards reconciling properly is smth so special n dear to me#i love them ur honor 🫶#andrew will deny taking the offer bcs it happened to be close to aaron but neil knows better lol.#katelyn cheering on aaron from the side n she’ll eventually have her own confrontation w andrew abt aaron n stuff n they make it work n#andrew gets used to her !!!!#he doesn’t apologize bcs that isn’t smth he would do but they move forward !#on aaron’s part neil becomes less annoying haha#twinyards#andrew minyard#aaron minyard#aftg#they keep contact w nicky too 🫶#musing
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-"Start Here" by Caitlyn Siehl
#berserk#griffith#guts#griffguts#berserk manga#words#my posts#i have soooo many quotes that remind me of them that haunt me im going insane#i post more of them eventually#for now this is all the display of mental illness yall get#idk how to tag lol#guts berserk#griffith berserk#this very obviously is refering to how guts percieves griffith and the immediate change in his stance when he saw him again as the human#that he loved and cared for very deeply to the point that he forgot that this was actually “the monster” he had sought to kill all that time#im not at all implying anything abt griffith's nature changing#just about hoe you can never truly see someone as simply “monstruous” if you love them hard enough#how***#SPELLING MISTAKES MY MORTAL ENEMY
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This half-foot. Dandan.
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Looks preety similar to this lady here (I'll put them together so you see):
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Half-lidded eyes, black hair&eyes, small eyebrows, curly hair... Dandan's skin is lighter probably because of low sun exposure (dungeon), and he has tons of freckles because he preety.
This two are clearly relatives if not siblings.
Flertom is a mirror image of the lady up there. She got Chil's eyes. She even has almost the same haircut (a bit longer). She's clearly the mother. We've solved Chilchuck's wife mystery.
But this wasn't what I was going to say.
This implies that Wife and Dandan both knew Chilchuck since their childhood. Because there's no way that Chil was just friend of the sister. They're both close to the same age, and I'll say Dandan is a Younger sibiling (she gives big sis vibes, and he gives young bro vibes). So either she introduced him to her brother or he introduced him to his sister and they became best friends as kids.
Could you imagine how their relationship was after Chil's Wife left him?
He knows he has to say something, but he doesn't want to end his relationships. At the end he takes his sister's side. He distances a bit from Chilchuck, calling him an "aquitance" rather than a friend. It isn't that he hates him, is just that it's complicated. And they both know it. They're in good terms tho, they just aren't best friends anymore and they don't talk about it. Their worry is the guild, not their personal stuff.
That's why Dandan introduces Chilchuck to Laios. If they were in bad terms, he would've suggested any other half-foot. They both priorize the guild and general safety of their own race. That's why Dandan suggests Chil instead of a less experienced hafling. He cares about the union and respects Chil's time and experience in dungeons. They're on good terms, at least good enough. Summing up, I get the feeling Dandan doesn't particularly likes Chil after what happened with his sister, but he respects him at least.
#hi fandom its me again overanalyzing side characters from 5 panels alone and some background context! <3#i will do this again.. eventually... not on dandan. this is all i could see in him ;(#also i think their relationship gets better as time passes#it's been 4 years since wife left him#and 5 years since half-foot union was formed#i'm a wife×chilchuck lover. i'll believe they talked about it and eventually (give them a year) got back together#and Dandan allows himself to be friends with Chil again so he doesnt feel he's bettaying his sis by doing so or sth.#human interactions are so complicated.. i love them.. fascinating... eeling like Kabru. ill put them in a jar and study them like bugs.#Dandan#Dandan dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#i need an oficial name for Wife. i need.#i have the feeling Wife's older because they got married quite young. and Dandan seems the same age as Chil.#if anything hes younger. idk. tgeres no way shes marrying at 12 (chil married at 13 and dandan is same age)#this is my theory#idk how they are i insist. im working with crumbs here.#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#chilchuck dungeon meshi#i need to get some sleep lol#my shit#dungeon meshi spoilers
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forgot these in the big jon post oops lol
#i love draswing his hair down actually#its interesting to see how my opinion of certain design things changed as i was listening#ie his hair was up and professional looking in s1#but past that it kept getting sloppier and eventually i stopped drawing it up#though i still think hair up is iconic so im prolly keeping it too#ill just have a collection of jon hairstyles yay#sorry for tag rambling none of my friends have finished tma yet (i forced them to listen after i finished)#im deprived of mutuals in my current fandoms argh#tma#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#lockbox#also you can see the sticky note where i got to his silly spider backstory LOL#i decided then that id draw his grey hairs in a spider web-ish design (not that ive posted the coloured art yet but whatevr)
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Coloured the marinette sketches
#fanart#miraculous fanart#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#fashion#i just love redrawing pinterest girls as her#ive made a whole board for it lol#ill get to all of them#…eventually
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Happy Valentines day! Heres my first ever OC kiss week with Corey and @darkfire1177's lovely Valya. I had so much fun drawing our bitey babies!!!
Spicy shirtless version below the cut. Cw for healed SH scars.
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#yall better stop before you get your piercings stuck together#this was so so so much fun#i LOVE Valya#so does Corey. check out those heart eyes#they have so much in common and i think they should be besties. also they should make out-! Who said that?!#my art#yet another style experiment. ill figure out what i want eventually lmao#corey rook#fallen hero#got a few more drawings for kiss week in the works. hopefully i finish them today or tomorrow lol#ockiss25#Spotify
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OOTD faggin it up in the grocers cause I ran out of bengal spice teaa 💥💥💥
#The top and the pants are thrifted and i love them so much#the blouse is so cute its got these subtle foggy slightly purple stripes and these little puff sleeves...and a v neck...and these stitched#in ruffles in the sleeve seam and around the collar... and ofc cant forget the fake button-up buttons down the front.. its my fav shirt#it was such a scoorreee i wasnt sure on it at first but i tried it on and i was like. Oh yeah. Im buying this.#it looks so good with a corset#i actually give my sona my glasses and piercing for once in their life#Ill have to change their hair eventually when i get it cut (Im gonna get raccoon tails.. ofc in green 💞💞)#ootd#buwheart#art#lol what me tagging something that isnt spamton related this is so weird#normal posting for once in my tumblr lifespan /j
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BOO... occasional oc post
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#my art#oc art#my ocs#t&ocg:satanic-panic#t&oc:alan#t&oc:red#t&oc:jess#t&oc:henry#starting a Complicated tag system for my ocs now good luck to me and everyone else#under the cut is their original concept art#it looks really wonky bc i drew those when my hand was injured LOL#AAAAANYWAYS i posted these guys to my tt before but their lore has kinda changed since then so im gonna ramble a little bit in these tags#ill try 2 keep it short but basically jess and henry are a couple who believe they should rule over Hell (for many reasons)#they start dabbling in occult practices and eventually come to a solution which is to summon demons & use them to gain power or whatever#after their first successful ritual they send the summoned demon (red) to kill alan (jess' brother) as theyve had a rocky relationship &#alan isnt really that. great of a guy (he's just an asshole)#bla bla bla but anyways Red meets alan for the first time literally abt to kill him but he just becomes so enamored with alan... Red gets#attached to alan for some inexplicable reason and alans just scared half to death#THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS COMPLICATED BUT ITS I GUESS DOOMED YAOI OR WHATEVER like. Red loves Alan so much but Alan'll never understand why#someone even likes him that much#uhhh ill probably ramble more later idrk if anyone cares i just like talking abt my ocs LMFAOO
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it's not sinking in that today might be the last day in my house and town for many months to come
#like how do i even feel#on one hand im excited because like now that i finally agreed to dads stupid whims he technically will have to give in to things#ive been wanting since FOREVER like going to the gym#plus it's impossible to eat junk food when he's there he won't even let me kacchi maggi because maida hai bimar ho jayegi#and aadhe se zyada din toh pyaaz ye sab nahi kha sakte so it rules out any outside food#which is so good because like i just found out im pre diabetic lol#like borderline sugar like ab kuch nahi kiya toh seedha type 2 diabetes#so i need to eat healthy or ill literally die#i mean eventually but whatever being diagnosed with this in my 20s would kill me#also simply the fear of living with him is so much that i HAVE to study#and i want to now it's high time#but yeah want doesn't really work for me#i read a quote somewhere that 'goals' don't mean anything because winners and losers have the same goals#and i was like WOAH. like the person who gets an all india rank had the same goal as me: to pass the exam with good marks#but they succeeded and i didn't so it's isn't our goals that differentiate us#which ik is obvious but like still idk put things in perspective#anyway yeah that way my life MIGHT be fixed#but there's also living ALONE with my sociopathic FATHER who has more mood swings than me on pms#and being cut off frm the rest of civilisation and yk developed roads and buildings and ice cream shops#i guess it is mostly food ig :( which is good like the most junk food i can eat there is a burger from a nearby stall and that's pretty#much it they literally do not even have havmor or anything in walking distance forget scoop wali ice cream#but i like my bed and i like my ceiling with the stars and i like looking out of my window and knowing that the first ever crush of my life#lives right next to me and i like knowing that ill meet my bestfriend atleast once a month#i don't really love my mom or my brother tbh but idk maybe ill miss them it's weird ive never lived without them#i don't know i really hope that this is like a boot camp kota types experience rather than so much isolation that i sink deep into#depression. but then ive hit pretty shocking lows this year so hopefully i can handle it#my sister did say that when she lived alone with him for a month it was quite peaceful and okay because he usually gets more angry when mom#is around warna mostly he's fine#i don't know i don't know bhagwan ji please ab aur mushkil mat banana life bohot jhatke de chuke ho already ab pls#mujhe apni galtiyo ko sudharne ka mauka dena 🙏
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I get the sense that Nina is gonna haunt the next season.
#creature commandos#discussion in tags ->#im having A Moment#bride crashout incoming question mark.#i would Love To See her go after flag but its not gonna happen lol#i mean i guess she already kinda did. killing Rostovic. but like. i want her to lose it#bride says shes the only kind one out of them. she finally accepts that theyre friends and then accidentally drives her to her to her death#i want nina to have been a Uniting Force of the team. i want everything to go to shit w/o her there#a character whose Whole Life is defined by being a perceived burden to others is finally almost able to prove herself and.#i want the bride to go absolutely postal i want phosphorus to try changing for the better. asterisk. sorta. hear me out#the bride is just about nihilistic atp. she straight up says if rostovic hadnt killed nina she wouldnt have cared enough.#she deserved to have a sparkling fiery vengeful meltdown about everything next season. and she should get to kill eric godspeed.#phosphorus has already gotten his revenge.#he went through terrible shit and killed everyone who wronged him and then went on a hedonistic bender about it.#(phosphorus is also the only one to go by a different name. and he chose it for himself. i dont have anythng to say abt that yet but. ow)#but he clearly is still wracked with guilt about his wife and kids deaths too. He goes for Thorne at home. He definitely kills his kids.#in what i can only see as an intentional parallel.#but then in pokolistan when he is given a Very Legitimate reason to kill the little girl [she could out the team] not only does he Not-#he talks to and plays with her in a way that is Immediately a parallel to his own kid owwwww#[for hours possibly? isnt it night when theyre being chased and morning when her parents come down?? ill have 2 check tho]#good god im off topic anyway#phosphorus is a sarcastic prick like. comedically so.#the aformentioned scene is pretty much the only time in the whole show hes even remotely sincere#when him and the bride are trying to reassure nina before she goes to kill the princess-#he A] sounds genuinely earnest B] calls her “kid” and C] waits for her to leave before ruining it lmao#and like. i dont know if he felt paternal or anything but i do think her death is gonna mess him up a little#or maybe theyll all get worse.. i wouldnt be annoyed if they all crash the fuck out together. GI is gonna find out eventually too.#also hes reformed. kinda. in some of his recent comic appearances which makes for a fun dynamic certainly#christ this was a novel im sorry hsajdghkgdah#i dont rly have a satisfying ending i just. Ouagh
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ok but the thing is shadow and infinite isnt a "healthy" or "good" relationship at first. it takes them years to be good for each other. they shouldn't have been together! they should have broken up years ago! but they didn't and they are working through it and eventually things work out. EVENTUALLY Infinite stops enabling Shadow's self destructive behavior and EVENTUALLY Shadow stops tolerating the admittedly unacceptible way Infinite treats him.
See, Infinite doesn't know what it's like to be with someone who doesn't want to hurt him even a little. Every relationship he's ever been in has been a really unhealthy and dangerous power dynamic (he's been the weak one and the strong one before). It takes him YEARS DECADES maybe even CENTURIES to realize Shadow is NOT LIKE THAT. Shadow didn't even really want to specifically hurt Infinite when they first encountered each other in the Mystic Ruins. He was just doing a job. It takes Infinite such a long time to understand that. He's so obsessed with Shadow but he has this one conflicting core understanding with Shadow that he simply cannot wrap his head around. He needs to stay in control so that "when Shadow tries to fuck him over he has a way to regain the upper hand."
Shadow thinks he's lesser than everyone, even Infinite. Even though Infinite literally started a war and wanted to destroy everything just because he was bored. If Infinite wants all the power over him, Shadow is okay with that because surely he deserves it for being such a miserable creature. When Infinite calls him names and treats him poorly he just lets it happen because Infinite is the first person he's met in a long time who will treat him in a way he understands. To Shadow, this is unfortunately what true love looks like. Being attacked is familiar, and Shadow knows that when people are kind to him he doesn't know how to deal with it. He thinks Infinite is giving him a form of stability that he can't live without.
What's confusing for both of them is that they do have moments of tenderness, and they do have inexplicable boundaries that they never cross with each other. They've never discussed their limits, but there are things they would never do to each other because it'd be too much.
They have moments of vulnerability, where they are just sitting beside each other and Infinite is telling Shadow how beautiful he is. And Shadow believes it because he's pretty sure that Infinite wouldn't waste his time being nice if he didn't mean it. Shadow introduced Infinite to a part of himself he didn't know existed, a part of himself that doesn't want to have to try to hard to reach for the top. But that vulnerability is terrifying at first and neither of them want to acknowledge it. It just happens and then its back to business as usual again. They don't talk about it.
They will do things to each other that cause conflict or anger, enable each other's worst habits, but they won't try to change each other's identities. That's the hard limit. They might have an argument where they harp on each other's bad behavior, but it's just talk. They'd never do anything to each other that would actively contribute to a crisis because one thing they both understand on a fundamental level is that changing the answers to core questions like "What is my purpose?" or "What do I believe is right?" is mind breaking. They never force each other to do things that challenge the status quo or threaten to shake their already deteriorating stability.
But this boundary is also part of the problem. They, for a long time, don't let each other grow and absolutely get worse! They break each other down, but they keep making excuses for why they should stay together. People who constantly fight with each other should not be together!
And when I say "together" I don't really mean together. Their relationship is a situationship at best, but Infinite still refers to Shadow as his boyfriend. Shadow insists they aren't even friends, but doesn't really passionately refute when Infinite says they are together. He just deflects. Of course he wants to be Infinite's partner, but that commitment is terrifying and he doesn't get how Infinite can be ready to commit like that even though it's been YEARS. It feels so impermanent because Shadow's perception of time is based on his immortality. That's one thing Infinite doesn't have (doesn't really think he has).
Two things jade them: time and people.
Shadow and Infinite won't challenge each other's core values, but time and people will. For Shadow, this comes in the form of his admittedly slightly larger support system: people like Rouge Amy and Big especially, but also Sonic to some degree. Infinite stagnates. His only support system is Shadow, really. He also has, like, Big and Sonic and Wave, but he isn't ever vulnerable with them in the way Shadow is with his. Shadow starts to grow, Infinite doesn't.
Infinite is definitely the worse off in this relationship. Shadow always knew that. They both knew it when they got together. Shadow has a savior complex. He thought he could fix it.
It in fact gets worse. Infinite is just bound to break that unspoken boundary they set, and Shadow has to put his foot down. Only then do they break all of their walls down and talk about those unacknowledgable moments. Only then do they get better. They can't work out unless they start to see each other as equals, but it's a really slow process for them to explore what that looks like or how its possible.
#infinite the jackal#shadow the hedgehog#shadfinite#infinadow#textpost#squid screams#i also have some ocs relevant to this#but i havent mentioned them here yet#so less confusing not to mention them#theres also more about shadows savior complex#but its kind of self projecting and#doesnt fit with the point im trying to make#shadow and infinite have an open relationship which is part of#the reason they eventually grow#because if they were isolated they'd probably just kill each other#i didnt get to it much here but infinite being the first one shadow#feels real kinship with is important because its a gateway to self love#which shadow has none of lol#and in turn shadow is a gateway for infinite inti trusting others#ill make a different post about that later#guys they are so important to me#i could say words about them forever#THE POINT IS THEY ARE TOXIC#THE POINT IS THEY WORK TOGETHER TO FIX IT#THE POINT IS NOT EVERYTHING IS PERFECT ALL THE TIME#AND JUST BECAUSE ITS BROKEN DOESNT MEAN IT CANT BE FIXED!!!!!#BAD RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT A LOST CAUSE#ITS POSSIBLE FOR BAD PEOPLE TO TURN AROUND#i have catholic guilt. what about it?
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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im gonna be honest nobody in the ostc fucking likes me asides from my friends since a little something happened and it somewhat crapped down my "reputation" i guess. i need to come over that aand accept that if it wasnt over my designs and art id be given a weird look 24/7. lol. someone tried ruining my chances of being a guest artist of something just because we dont like eachother and someone else ripped off my oc because we dont like eachother people want me gone ahhhhhhhh i wish i could completely migrate to the lisa fandom but im a bit too young for that rn, atleast in my own opinion. i dont want to risk it taking a toll on my mental health considering lisa is one hell of a game LOL. i love this game but id prefer waiting that im a bit older to make it the "only" thing idk how to put it in words??? im bad at explainig aghhhhhh; i genuinely cant believe the community of a game so life ruining has been way nicer to me than a community of trading fucking objects with limbs like pokemon cards. idont really care anymore but its sad ppl dont really like me alot, however im glad ppl like my lisa stuff though i feel happier focusig on that and my friends an drawing . ah
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#IM OPPS WITH AN ALMOST 20 YEAR OLD PLEASEE GET ME OUT OF HERE#we r mutually blocked and im not going after them since but uhhhh they found my twitter somehow when it was inactive#i didnt even use my normal user it was just a default google user and i never linked it what the hell it scared me so bad lol#if i told you the reason we r blocking eachother youd be baffled. anyways#im grateful for everyone whos nice to me in the lisa community#im also grateful to thoses in the ostc community who accepted me somewhat#even if its just for my designs#i just wish people would get off my dick especially when now i know i have a grown ass adult against me#i try to be as normal as i can. however depression. but i like to play and draw#but i got a bunch of awesome ocs on toyhouse so maybe its worth it#and art of my ocs i love my ocs and my friends#ill see what ill make of my online presence eventually#i still have a little bit of time and my life ahead#everythig will b okay#:( i hope
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