#ill figure smthn out ig

[rose-sereniteeth]

Maybe I will change my entire personality (layout) again, now that I'm back in Chanhee-land...

[bergamotz]

im actually properly like mentally addicted 2 kratom which has never happened b4. w everything else it was just a stop gap solution 4 the fact that my life sucked and then I stopped when it stopped being useful or started being problematic. my life no longer sucks and kratom isn't particularly useful anymore but I don't and haven't had the motivation 2 stop. part of this is that there's no serious downsides except the fact that I'm physically dependent on it and it costs money. not even that much money if I do it right. there's no consequences. I tried 2 stop a few times but it nvr worked out 4 various reasons. c'est la vie ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[cryptidapprentice]

man,,,

[gailsfrog]

Bruh, im lowkey kinda scared of the next Smg4 episode.... and random my brain is dieing of a fever cant think rant lol :T

Judging on the end of the last smg4 episode (Mr. Puzzles Clubhouse) im kinda scared for WOTFI now.... since smg4 can pull something creepy like that- it messed me up for a whole 2 days- aint good with that stuff- its cool but also eerie- ig its the spOOkKEyeyY time of year- but still- creepy-

anyway ima TRY to post something :/ idk im new asf to this posting stuff :/ cant rlly do digital art (ecpecialy with a cpu mouse) as good as i am with paper and i have no camera but ill figure it out eventually and post a crap ton of stuff and doodles or smthn from school of Smg34 or Marware or the 2 full sketchbooks of Mr. Puzzles and the.... OLD art that makes my eyes bleed- if i ever do a comparison or smthn idk probably not :/ but if/when i do get a camera i'll probably do art sugjestions cuz aRt bLoCK fjkghfdkjghsflkjh whitch is killing me rn- might just learn to draw more Hazben Hotel charichters :/ ive only drawn Angel Dust so far- HE IS SOOOO FUN TO DRAWW hgjhdksg but the arms are a PAINN hard enough to position 2 not to mention 4-6 :/ but other than that and the diff mouth style hes ez might actually color something for once idk

anyway my brain has been frying for the past several days but i had the wonderful idea to post cuz i put the song from the outro of the Puzzlebox episode- (thankyou some random post on X) then my Ive been dieing of the snezeis ALL DAY brain told me to post here b4 bed :/ so here i am- like an idiot :0 so go go gaget braincells :')

(ima regret this in the morning istg)

[frostbite-the-bat]

goofy ass ms paint werewolf eating a mango as a divider between the rant under this bc i do not wish to be precieved rn but i still wanna rant some thoughts out

random lovely guzma urge to delyeet everythin on myne site bc not only did i make it for petz things back when i was active between petz folks and got some encouragement there and ended up never finishing petz things for it, but i also feel horrible and uncommited for it being hosted and made on weebly and for bein too lazy to yeet my shit over to neocities just cause that shit gives me a headache and instead of getting inspired by people i feel jealous and unwelcome

also been working on my sleep schedule its a bit better now and im like. better in general now..? idk how long i can keep this up but getting up early makes me just. so tired like all day urgh i do not understand how i used to keep myself up when this tired. tired tired. brain empty. hard to do shit for long. defo needs more breaks but i swear to god everything feels like its frying my brain but i got nothin to do indoors. guess i can go draw traditionall but i end up putting such high expectations on myself i just yeah. fuck it up. get stressed. not fun. i need to stop thinking about others bc i keep thinking i put effort into smthn i need to show it off.like if i wasted time here i might as well. no this isnt showable it sucks damn it

even stuff i do draw purely for myself as self indulgent shit i go urhh this aint right

oh and then i try doin a lil excercise so im not like. physically diyng but my god that tires me out like instantly. but its okay, baby steps.

dont know what sort of place i am in mentally. the type id prolly spiral a bit over if it werent nice and 2 pm. wacky stuff. i wanna maybe do some stuff but ugh my brain just. isnt big thoughts when im tired. but honestly when am i not tired. and i am getting art done but i cant get myself to draw all day again ill end up in pain again my hand rn already is being a bit of a bitch

uhhh played pokemon in the morning but i need better pokemon already. i fuck up every raid (raids i need so i can get better mons easier) (and my shiny ralts i want easier)

hmm maybe i need a break from stuff but what kinda break what even is relaxing in my case? and "break from people" is a slippery slope of self isolation i always slip into. bit difficult to figure myself out

also, different thing, but ive been considering this for a good few months now and kinda ignoring it but i read one (1) thing and i m intrigued to do more n more research now but man do not like how moral ocd clicks perfectly with a lot of my most common issues . so i guess thats a thing to consider going into (like research) . if it helps .bc dear god i am Sensitive

but uhmmm yea sleeping better now ig like i went to sleep around ONE. my usual sleep time was 5-6 am a while ago !!!!!!! 1 am has always been my kinda usual time. man and i used to do that even when i had school and i *functioned* with less sleep. how did i do that. uhm. not well i guess

but yeah. things.. arent feeling right and i kinda wanna wipe my brain. also the neocities thing seems to be a part of my issue of (ppl who dont care abt me) r gonna thingk i suck bc i dont do (this that i find difficult) (coding) i will be exploded forever and shunned andhated

uhmmm what else yea last thought i forgot as i was gonna type it and the last thing i am deciding not to share anyway bc Shame so hooray

guy who is eeypy tired

i am just realizing how like tired i am but if i go nap ill make it worse so uhmm cope i guess lmfao at least it keeps me going to sleep at a more regular hour but like srsly brain we got around 8 hours of sleep why are you tired we used to get less and function fine. maybe not as good but we functioned

[banjo-bugs]

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[patronsaintsofnothing]

hey my phones kind of a piece of shit n it keeps saying that i have no storage left but most of my storage is being taken up by the system memory. ive moved all my pics to my sd card, i have two actual apps w only less than 100 mb and ive disabled/turned off all my unused apps. can anyone help w figuring out how to free up more space?? or to take out whatevers in my system memory?

[magicalgirlpropaganda]

So i got into HP before all the stuff abt JK being trans phobic came out and like

I was gonna donate my books because i figured "the money goes to the thrift store I donate it to, not to JK. So if someone is going to buy the books anyways, they might as well buy from a thrift store so it doesnt go to JK"

But that's still not good bcs they could buy merch or smthn idk

Ig ill just let them sit in my attic? But idk now that im no longer a minor, i want to actually do something instead of just signing petitions. Issue is, i have enough money to get by but im a college student so i don't have much

And i dont have a car

But petitions don't rlly do anything ig

Idk, i wanted to get into activism as soon as i became an adult but i dont have money or a car still.

I guess for some reason i expected to be independent by now?

So for now, im limiting consumption (especially of clothing, and im getting into upcycling) and just doing all i can enviromentally but thats abt all i can do at the moment i think :/

Is there anything else tht i could possibly do? I dont wanna just post a black square on instagram and call it activism bcs that doesn't help.

[seita]

I’m at 72 on my pity and I have 22 wishes, I just need Zhongli to win the 50/50 for me :,)) then I’ve gotta speedrun farming primos for Klee

LMAOOOOOOOOOO i'm gonna save thru eula ig and try for klee and then i guess save thru the rest of korea banner and try for kazuha?????? IDK THIS IS GONNA BE TRICKY AS FUCK ILL FIGURE SMTHN OUT

also i'm praying for u to win the 50/50 <3 i hope to win pity too )-:

[idk-my-aesthetic]

isle kingdom au

so i’ve had this idea for an AU for a little while, but i don’t wanna actually write anything for it until i’m done w/ my current descendants wips, but i also wanna talk about it lol so ig im making a post? please send me asks about it i wanna talk about it.... anyway

**tw for child abuse and semi-graphic descriptions of violence.

basically the premise of the au is that even though he tried to get it passed at first, ben never went through with pulling the vks off the isle. he kept meaning too, but it just kept being pushed to the back of his list of priorities bc he was so busy w/ being king and never happened 

so bc of this, the core 4 stayed on the isle and never got off it. if you’ve read the stuff in my keep them close series u probably have a better idea of my hc of the isle, but the basics of it are that 1) most of the parents are really bad and abusive + the conditions are disgusting 2) none of the kids are really evil and 3) the vks are all kinda frenimes/rivals and will work together to keep eachother alive even if they act like they hate eachother or will even hurt eachother

so, in the ‘canon’ timeline before going to auradon the core 4 are a gang and slowly gaining power. they’re already the top of the vk gangs and are like gaining on some of the adult ones.

bc they never go to auradon, they just kinda keep doing what they already are and gain more and more power. but, as they gain power their parents start becoming afraid of them and acting like more abusive in attempts to keep the core 4 under their control 

ok bare w/ me for this next bit bc it’s gonna sound real ooc for like a sec then make sense

so, as they’re gaining power and their parents are haveing more and more trouble controlling them their parents are becoming more and more violent.

im not sure on the order yet, but basically cruella, jafar, eq, and malifacent all do something like really really bad to their respective kid, so one of the other core 4 kills them bc like. yeah. 

i have some vauge ideas of what each of them could have done and i don’t really know if i want to say them or even use them tbh bc they’re like.... bad, like real bad. which they kinda have to be, you know? bc like.... none of the core 4 would turn to killing if they didn’t have a real good reason, and their parents continuing the abuse that they always have woulden’t be enough, so the parents would have to do something really really bad for one of the others to justify killing them 

its important to mention that none of them kill their own parent. it’s always one of the other 4, im not sure who kills who just yet, but none of them kill their own parent. They’re saved from their parents by each other and they never really have any confrontation with their parents (which will change l8r 👀👀, let me explain)

Even tho they didn’t kill their own parents, everyone kinda assumed they did in order to take their places/gain power. A handful of their friends know the real story, but it’s mostly kept under wraps and it’s like general “knowledge” that they killed their parents for power. They’re not really hiding it or anything, I mean they did still each kill one of the 4 most powerful villains so it’s not like anyone is gonna be less afraid if they knew the truth. ppl just make assumptions and never really question them and they just let ppl think what they do

So bc their parents are dead and they let everyone assume they killed their own parent they very easily climb up the ranks and end up in charge of the isle bc atp they’re seen as the most ruthless/evil/powerful

So now that they’re in charge of the isle they start like..... actually making it a livable place. Ofc at first they try to make a version of Carlos’s machine to break the barrier, but they can’t get it to work so he just modifys it to steal magic from the barrair for them to use. (Another idea stolen from my keep them close series but like I like the idea lol)

And when I say they make it a livable place I mean they start doing stuff like building water purifiers, making like safe houses, establishing some kind of working economy, taking control of the barge drop offs and how everything is distributed, fixing broken electricity, etc etc

A lot of what they do is based off of Carlos’s machines and designs, which like obvi other ppl are helping him gather materials and for and build, since he has power bc he’s like one of the ppl in charge. And he like teaches other ppl how to do what he does and fix anything that goes wrong

Evie kinda puts herself in charge of setting up like medical centers + homes for kids and stuff. Also some kinda way to grow food. B4 they’re in charge nothing can really grow but they use the magic they steal from the barrier to make stuff grow. And evie can use it to make like lots of healing items and such

Jay ends up mostly in charge of like collecting and distribution of their recourses. At first like the barge is kinda a hugeeee problem to deal with bc ppl are fighting over the like moldy food and destroyed clothes and stuff. But eventually they get it organized and have stuff sent to the respective place it should, like clothes and scrap fabric are sent to a place that repairs and sells them, parts and electronics are sent to Carlos or his helpers, etc

Other minor vks like Celia, dizzy, the sea three, Diego, etc are all in this two but this is already really long so just know they’re like helping and like pretty high ranking/highly regarded. Send me an ask with questions please

Mal is kinda regarded as the ultimate leader/queen of the isle ig even though the other 3 have basically the same amount of power. Mostly bc her job ends up being keeping the adults who dislike them inline and keeping their power as heads of the isle

Most ppl are just kinda chill w/ them being in charge, especially a lot of the ppl who were banished for minor crimes. A few of the adult villains try to fight them and end up dead lol, and anyone caught doing especially bad things, like r*pe, hurting someone they shouldn’t have, being a child abuser, etc will end up killed by mal or one of the others. They don’t kill u for like every crime obviously only the like inexcusable ones. Stuff like stealing or mental illness or w/e they basically just help you work through

They’re aren’t any like real laws ig but they deal with issues as they go and give harsh punishments if needed. It serves to keep themselves seen as strong/evil/powerful despite all the good they do and helps keep others too afraid to challenge them. Like frollo isn’t going to challenge them if Ursula tried the same thing and got killed. (The fact that she abused uma and her siblings obviously had nothing to do with that,,,,,,,,,,,)

So yeah! They basically turned the isle into a inhabitable place in the years that they spent as its leaders, and it functions as its own kinda kingdom despite its harsh and confusing laws/rules

But we ain’t done yet, lol

Basically everything I’ve just explained is.... mostly backstory? Kinda? It’s the type of thing where you slowly find out about all this stuff while they actual story goes on, but I figured it’d be less confusing to explain it first :3

So the Actual story starts a few years after when Ben originally was supposed to take the vks off the isle. He, all the other princess/princes he want to school with, the core 4, the sea 3, etc are all in their mid to early 20s.

Auradon has basically no clue what’s the deal w/ the isle. They’re only interaction w/ them is through the like goblins that bring over the trash barges, but those guys are chill and basically don’t tell the aks anything lol.

So Ben is ruling his kingdom, and the core 4 are ruling their own, both sides are doing pretty well and ignoring each other, but then! All of a sudden there’s these sudden deaths/fires/some kinda terrorist attack on the outskirts of the kingdom.

I haven’t thought through this part too much, but basically he knows that they’re is some kinda threat, but he doesn’t know excatly what it is. All he does know is that the villain that is attacking is demanding to speak to the children of malifecent, jafar, cruella devil, and the evil queen.

He basically rounds up the heroes of those respective stories bc they’re all being threatened in some way or another. The mystery villain continues to do more damage and seems basically impossible to beat, and has given them a time limit b4 they’ll go and start destroying more

They discuss their options and decide their best plan is to go to the isle and convince them core 4 to help, bringing along the heroes and some of the main aks w/ them

Obviously it doesn’t go well bc they show up and mal basically has them arrested lmao

Again I have more in-depth ideas for this part but this post is already wayyyy to long so I’m trying to hurry and finish up

The talk, vks meet their respective heroes, everything is from ak/hero POV so as they explore the isle and talk to the core 4 and other vks they slowly find out about all ^^^ that stuff up there

The core 4 are eventually agree, and they go to face the villains only to find out its their parents who have been resurrected!!!! Fuck!!!!

Idk how or why just yet lmao but I will soon

Parents are obvi pissed, core 4 face their own parents and finally get like some kinda closer or smthn idk I feel like y’all get the gist

in the end auradon agknolages the isle as its own kingdom and the core 4 as its leaders and open trade/remove the barrier so the isle can continue to grow bc it’s been struggling due to lack of recourses

And that’s like the basic outline of my au! I wanna write it eventually but tbh I’m expecting eventually to be like 3 years from now bc of how much other stuff I have so for rn I’m just gonna blog about it. Obviously there’s a lot of other stuff/plots/emotional arcs etc I didn’t talk about bc like This Post Is So Long I’m So Sorry, So please please please send me asks/questions/comments/even your own ideas!!! Please. Everything about this will be tagged with “isle kingdom au” :3

[officialnaruto]

O is this abt the divorce thing?????

ok so ill tell u abt that

im sorry 4 not doing that earlier. ur right u deserve 2 kno

its sorta obv that me n ur mom have been... distant recently. like were rly good friends but smthn is lacking and i think what is causing this disconnect is quiet posibly how im in love w some1 else. she knows abt it tho tbh and weve been talking abt it and trying 2 decide whats best. she went in2 this marriage knowing im being railed by uhhhh much closer 2 sasuke than her even tho shes a great person. we talked abt it 2. it was rlly uncomfortable. shes a straight up savage when she wants 2 b ngl its p awesome. but not then. uh were still figuring this all out

anyways u can stay w me and sasuke however long or short u want. i want u 2 do what makes u happy and comfortable. just tell me what u need bc being alone hurts a lot ik that much

also like a week ago u asked 4 mortal kombat 11 for switch (u told me u have the switch hima has the xbox). i tried 2 specifically remember all of this and i got it 4 u. i picked up my ninja gamestop preorder 2day. here it is

ig its like a peace offering

ik i cant buy ur love but im trying 2 show u im trying 2 listen and remember stuff u r excited abt

ily boruto 🧡

@boruwhat some1 told me honest communication is best 4 bonds so… want 2 hand out and u can b honest w/ me?