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An Athlete & his Artist âš
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CW: none?? Its mature-ish ig, w/ the slightest sexual undertones??
Jesseâs got big, worn down, rough, hands. Hands that spend too much time with clay on a wheel- hands that have dried out but have lost none of the loving tenderness they had at the start of it all. Hands that are warm when they hold his children and support them so assuredly- hands that perfectly cup Aaronâs face & make him a lovestruck mess
And Aarons hands- soft but rough all in the same. Hands with long fingers and a sturdy grip, palmâs soft from tender care he tries to apply to keep himself like he was before. But ultimately hands that still change from all of the hard work he does- hands that send shivers up Jesseâs spine every time heâs touched by one
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#JesZ for the win tonight ig#JesZ#i got lost in the sauce & wanted to draw smth self indulgent#so~ my current perception of Jesse & Z ig#or smth similar#Wondero*Town#4town imagines#i think im still more of a JesT shipper but I couldnât make T work here#ill do more JesT another time#edit: sorry for bad image quality btw#tumblr wont let me give yall HQ images
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Cheeky.
Gwayne Hightower x wife!reader
SMUT 18+
Summary: the reader gets tired of Gwayne's smart remarks.
Warnings: fingering, teasing, sub!Gwayne, uhhh, idk kissing and cursing?
A/n: based on an ask!!!!!! I'm rubbing my hands like a fly for this one. It's good
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"Gwayne, please," she huffed lightly as she walked past him.
The man's attention immediately shifted to her and he began to follow her into their chambers. A smirk pulled at his lips, "To what do I owe the pleasure of your sweet company, dear wife?"
She paused and looked at him, "Why do you only mock me?"
His brows furrowed, "What?"
"You only speak to me with snide remarks and a quick tongue," she said as she put her hand on her hips. "It was charming at first, and now it grows tired."
His gaze softened immensely as guilt drew in his gut. "Do you truly think I intend to mock you when I do so?"
"Perhaps." She considered his question. "I⊠I do not know."
"Dear wife," he cooed and took her hands in his. "I only jest at you because I love your smile so. Your laughter is greater than the greatest music the finest musicians play." He rubbed his thumbs across her knuckles. "I apologize if you ever believed I thought ill of you."
She leaned forward and place a small kiss onto his nose, "I want you."
His cheeks turned the color of his hair as his eyes widened, "W⊠What?"
She whispered lowly. "I need you."
His usual smirk returned as his eyes turned to confident. "My wife grows wet at my kind words, does she?"
She reached up to the back of his head and pulled his lips to hers, kissing fervently.
Gwayne pulled her waist to his, their bodies now flush against one another. "Is that a yes?" He panted against her lips.
"Kiss me, Gwayne Hightower, or I shall find another to."
Her unusual teasing sent a jolt down Gwayne's spine. "You wouldn't dare."
She pulled back and her eyes lit with a playful fire. "I will."
His head tilted to challenge her.
She huffed and turned to the door, but before her hand could touch the handle of it, Gwayne threw his back against the door to keep her from leaving.Â
"I won't let another man touch you while I still draw breath, little wife."
She noted the way his chest heaved and a desperation came through his eyes. "Then do not let them. Undress and get on the bed."
He stared down at her, contemplating if she was truly asking him to do such a task. "My wife wishes to make demands to me?"
She grinned and leaned against him. "Indeed."
He nodded, and his voice was unusually soft, "Then I will do as she asks."
He moves from the door and walks to the bed, pulling at his clothing as he did so.Â
She watches him with lustful eyes as more of his skin came into her view.Â
Soon, he sat playfully on the edge of the bed in nothing but his small clothes. He held his arms out, his smirk growing, "And now?"
She took painfully slow steps towards him, "You're a beautiful man, Gwayne Hightower."
He squints at her, "Are you stroking my ego?"
She stood between his legs and took his face in her hands. Their faces neared. "If I stroke your ego now, I'll get to do what I wish with you later."
He let out a chuckle, "Is that so?"
She nodded, "Every time."
He hummed, leaning up to try to capture her lips, but she pulled away by a mere inch. His lips part in disappointment, but he tried again. She pulled away once again.
He closed his eyes as a breathy laugh left his lips, "You're a tease, my love. What must I do?"
"I want my husband to beg for me," she finally admitted as she stood straight.
Pure surprise overtook his features which then morphed into adrenaline.Â
"I can do so."
His hands grabbed her waist, pulling her to him as he began to kiss up her clothed stomach. "Let me make you feel good."
She let him, playing with the redhead's hair as he did so. He slowly stood as his lips moved up her body to her neck.Â
"Please, sweet wife," he begged before sucking at her neck and smoothing it over with his tongue.Â
A whine escaped her throat at the feeling and her resolve slowly began to fade. "GwayneâŠ"
She felt his teeth against her neck as he smirked, "Yes?"
She forced herself to close her eyes to keep herself from giving into him right there and then. She took a deep breath. "Beg me."
His breath faltered. He was sure he had broken her.Â
He considered a thought before giving in completely and kneeling down in front of his wife, his hands holding her hips still.Â
The way his eye observed her, taking in every square inch as if she hung each star in the sky made a familiar feeling rise in her stomach.Â
His earlier teasing smile was gone completely, replaced with an admiring one.
She reached down and brushed her fingers against his cheek, to which he leaned into her palm happily.
"Undress me, husband."
He wasted no time. He stood and pulled at the strings of her bodice, his fingers more clumsy than usual.
Soon she stood in her shift and only then did she turn to him again. "On the bed."
He backed up and fell onto the bed when it hit the back of his legs. He pushed himself onto the mattress and waited in anticipation.Â
She crawled onto the bed, straddling him as a wide grin broke across her face, "You've been good."
He moved to say something snarky, but nothing came out. He only laid there gawking like an idiot.
She trailed a hand agonizingly down his chest and stomach, leaving goosebumps in its wake, "Do you deserve a reward?"
He blinked blankly and nodded, still dumbfounded.Â
Her hand on his stomach trailed up her thighs, taking the seam of her shift with her, revealing her skin to him inch by inch.
He only watched with glossed-over eyes. Her hand began to move between her thighs.Â
She let out a high whine as she sunk a finger into herself and the shift dropped, leaving Gwayne with nothing to watch but her expressions.Â
She pumped her hand in and out of herself slowly, letting out small whines and moans.
Gwayne cursed under his breath as he felt himself grow hard with no outlet. His hips jerked subconsciously, but she didn't notice.Â
She continued, two fingers plunging in and out of her now and she willed herself to look at Gwayne beneath her as she did so, "It feels so good, Gwayne⊠oh⊠oh, fuckâŠ."
He let out a frustrated grunt, "you evil womanâŠ"
Soon, her head leaned back and a final whine came from her lips as the spring in her stomach snapped and she came.Â
She panted as she removed her fingers from herself and looked down at him.Â
He looked ready to flip her and take her with no remorse, but he was holding himself back. He told himself he would. But by the gods, it was hard to.
It was worth it now. His reward was coming.Â
She leaned down and kissed his lips with a cheeky grin.Â
"My reward?" He whispered lowly.
"You already got it." She smirked as she swung her leg off of him and stood from the bed on shaky legs. She wrapped a thin cloak around herself. "Stop being so cheeky with me in the future, Gwayne Hightower, and I may give you a real one."
He watched dumbfounded as she left their chambers.
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Prove It To You
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summary | You and your betrothed, Jacaerys Velaryon, are a love match. A feat that has upset many of the people vying for your hand, including Jason Lannister. When he makes a snide comment about Jacaerys not knowing how to please you properly, itâs up to the future king to prove him wrong
warnings | smut, slight insecure!jace, fingering, creampie, betrothed!jace, loss of virginity (m. and f.)
this fic is eighteen plus. minors please do not enter
divider by @princessbellecerise
In your day and age, finding a love match was extremely rare.
In fact, it was often considered a miracle just to find a couple that could tolerate each other, let alone love one another and look forward to marriage, like you and Jacaerys did.
You supposed that was why your match was often celebrated, your betrothedâs own grandsire, the king of all people, calling for an elaborate feast just to congratulate the two of you.
From all over, Lords and Ladies from the great houses travelled to Kingâs Landing to bestow their best wishes upon you and Jace. Some genuinely happy for the two of you, some surprised, and some evenâŠbitter that it wasnât them.
Despite all your protests, you and Jacaerys had been the center of attention all night which was hard for two people as reserved as you were. You supposed you were at least grateful to have your lover by you side, holding his hand under the table so that you were not alone in your discomfort.
Every time some drunk Lord gave a toast or sloppily congratulated you, all eyes would be on the two of you. And every time, you wanted to bury your head in Jaceâs shoulder to shy away from the attention.
It was so embarrassing to have people constantly looking at you, whispering their doubts and their gossip. No doubt people were pitying all of the unlucky gentleman you had declined just to be with Jace. Of course, no one would dare speak ill of the future king, but the curiosity as to why you picked him out of all your suitors still lingered.
After all, you had every man from Dorne to Casterly Rock asking for your hand, and yet you chose the sweet, quiet prince who many even hesitated to call him that.
Much to your dismay, the rumors of Jace and his parentage were still active even all these years later. Even when the king himself had named him as an heir, people still wondered. And for many people, especially the men that you had rejected, it made them feel as if your match was a bitâŠumbecoming.
After all, it was one thing to lose the most beautiful maiden in all of the land to a prince, but to an illegitimate one? Some people that believed the rumors just couldnât handle that type of rejection.
Some people like Jason Lannister.
The man was sat a couple of seats down from you, but even with how loud it was, his voice still managed to stick out from the crowd. He was as loud as the roar of his familyâs sigil, and it was hard to block out all of his jests and drunk comments from where you were seated.
Under the table, your grip on Jace had tightened the more Lord Lannister talked. It was like you were taking your anger at his snide comments out on Jaceâs poor flesh, but the prince did not mind. In fact, he was too busy clenching his own fist to notice that it was yours ïżŒcausing him pain. The diplomatic smile on his face began to slip a little bit the more that miserable man ran his mouth.
Godâs forgive himâJace was trying his very best not to kill him.
âAnd then I said: Iâll buy you a bloody dragon if thatâs what you want, but I guess the lady wishes to be with one that has true blood running through his veins.â
The whole section around the Lannister burst out laughing, but you didnât find his commentary of your last interaction entertaining, and neither did Jace. His jaw ticked, obvious annoyance in his eyes as you shared a look. It was hard to miss the slight dig Lord Lannister had thrown at him by adding in true blood.
A dig that made Jace uncomfortable, just as he always was when someone even remotely questioned who his parents were.
A few seats over, you could see that you werenât the only ones barely hanging on to your diplomatic smile as Princess Rhaenyra struggle to even lift the corner of her lips at Jasonâs recount. Much like her son, she did not like it when people brought up who the father of her children was. And understandably soâas it wasnât their business who the Princess chose to father her heirs.
You yourself somehow always knew the truth, despite Jace never really talking about it with you. But with the resemblance to Harwin Strong as clear as day, you knew that he wasnât of any Velaryon blood. Not that you minded though, because if he was, he wouldnât really be your Jace.
Sweet, kind, and more gentle than any of those other Lords that had approached you combined. Your Jace that was patient andâŠ
Positively about to lose his mind as Jason Lannister made another remark.
âI think it is good, you know. That Lady Y/N choose the prince, because honestly we all know that I can be a bit much at times,â Everyone laughed and agreed at this. But Jason wasnât finished. âNo, no, I think itâs extremely fitting that she chose him, because Y/N is a simple woman and she needs to be with someoneâŠunexperienced to match her naĂŻvetĂ©. Gods knows Iâve made plenty of rounds in my days, but Prince Jacaerys is noble enough to never experience such things. A good thing for his future wife, I suppose. Or bad depending on how many children she should want.â
Laughter immediately rang out at the last few parts, and Jace turned beet red as Lord Lannister all but insinuated that he wouldnât know toâŠumâŠsatisfy your needs.
Your jaw dropped at the crude comment, disguised as a joke that many deemed funny. You even caught the king and his sons chuckling a little bit, which was the only reason you couldnât physically do anything about what he said. It was just harmless teasing, that was all. But you knew more than anyone that Jace wouldnât take it that way.
And you were right.
Your lover had always been quite sensitive, but especially when it came to you and your relationship. He already possessed many self-doubts because his kind nature held him back, often prompting Jace to believe that he was weak. Which was the last thing he was, you assured him, but sometimes when an idea was in his head it was hard to get rid of it.
Which was why the minute Jacaerys believed that Lord Lannister was making a mockery of him, he got angry. And suddenly the warm grip that had been keeping you grounded all night was gone, and you watched with a thumping heart as Jacaerys stood up.
His fists slammed angrily against the table, which caused you to flinch and the silverware to clatter underneath his force. Immediately, the sound of his chair scraping had silence bestowing over the crowd of nobles, everyoneâs eyes on him as he stood there.
Worriedly, you looked up at Jace and you hoped that he wasnât about to cause a scene, possibly jumping across the table to strangle Jason Lannister. It sure looked that way, so you tried to calm him down by standing up as well, gently whispering in his ear,
âJace, my love. It is all right. Let him mock and let us just sit back down, alright?â
A comforting hand was placed at the small of his back, but even your gentle touch couldnât shake the anger and embarrassment he felt. With everyone looking at him, whispers began to rise. Rhaenyraâs face dropped as her son turned beet red.
âIs something the matter?â The king asked, and that seemed to be the only thing that could finally snap Jace out of his trance.
The prince looked at his Grandsire, and he was oddly calm as he moved his lips.
âI am fine, your grace,â Jace insisted through a tight smile, his eyes not reflecting the emotions he was putting out. âIâm just a little bit overwhelmed, that is all. All of the attention tonight has clouded my head and I think I shall head to my chambers before I gain a headache. If that is alright with his grace.â
âYes, of course,â Ever having the soft spot for Rhaenyra and her children, Viserys dismissed him from the feast and Jace took off at a pace faster than you had ever seen him walk.
He stormed out of the grand dining room, and that left only you, the center of attention now that your betrothed was gone.
âIâŠâ Your eyes were steadily focused on Jaceâs disappearing back, and you knew in your heart that you had to go after him. To make sure that he was okay, because you knew how these kinds of things got to him. âIs it all right if I be excused as well, your grace?â You asked as kindly as you could, throwing in, âI donât believe Iâm feeling very well either,â so that no one would be too suspicious of you going after Jace.
Of course, it was probably obvious what you intended to do but Viserys dismissed you anyways. So, you quickly bowed and then headed after your lover as fast as your feet could take you.
Jacaerys hadnât left that far before you, so it was easy enough to catch up to him, slipping in behind him right as he prepared to close the doors to his chamber.
The wooden locks clicked into place and now you were stuck there with him as Jacaerys looked at you with his jaw slightly dropped.
âMy love, what are youââ
âI had to see if you were all right,â You told him quickly, quieting your voice as if there was anyone but him around to hear you. âYouâŠleft dinner quite early and quite abruptly,â You added, âSo I wanted to make sure that Lord Lannister didnât hurt your feelings too badly with his poor jests.â
At this, you werenât expecting Jacaerys to scoff at your words. You were surprised when he looked at you fiercely, the look in his eyes one that you had never seen before.
Pure anger.
âIt is not my feelings that Iâm concerned about,â He then told you, shaking his head, âBut rather yours, and what you might feel towards me after hisâŠimplications.â
âHis implications?â You rose a sudden eyebrow at this, extremely confused as to what Jacaerys was trying to say. âAnd what exactly did Jason Lannister imply that would effect my feelings towards you?â
âWell isnât it obvious?â It wasnât. âHe was trying to imply that I wonât know how to fuck my own wife! The nerve he has, saying that to your face. I am sure he hoped it would steer you away from me to soothe his own ego, but I assure you, sweet darling, that while I am inexperienced, I am still well-versed on how to please a lady. I have read many booksââ
âJacaerys!â
You cut him off as heat flooded to your cheeks, which luckily he wasnât able to see. A burning feeling traveled through your body at such lewd words, words that you had never heard escape from his mouth before. Never in the presence of you or any other lady for that matter.
Words thatâŠsent a flaming desire straight to your core.
âOh gods,â As if he suddenly realized what he had said, Jacaerys backed away and covered his mouth bashfully. In the heat of the moment, he had ranted entirely too much and now he had flustered his poor betrothed, who looked like she didnât know what to do with herself as she looked at him. âMy darling, I am so sorry. I did not meanââ
You cut him off with a giggle and Jacaerys was floored when you started laughing at his rambling rather than scolding him. Laughing as if what he had just said wasnât inappropriate, and entirely not a conversation he should be having with you while you were unwed and alone in his chambers.
But alas, you did not seem to mind as you walked up to him and placed your hand in his. Jacaerys felt his cheeks heat up as his sheepish gaze met yours, but you were nothing less than amused as you said, âMy dear prince, it is quite alright. I do not mind if you speak of such things with me.â
âButââ
âIn fact,â You ignored his protesting and kept going, the burning sensation of your core egging you on. âI quiteâŠliked hearing you say those kinds of words.â
âYou did?â The disbelief was evident on his face. Jacaerys couldnât hide his shock as you shyly nodded, giving his hand a tight squeeze.
âI think it is exciting that you think of me that way,â You confessed, slowly bringing your body closer to his. Jacaerys nearly lost his breath as your head craned to look at him, your eyelashes batting innocently. âThat youâve thought enough about us making love that you actually gained knowledge on how to do it properly.â
âI did,â Jace confirms with a bob of his throat. A twitch of his cock at how close your bodies were. âI readâŠI read all about it. I even askedâŠa few knights about it so that I could make sure I did it correctly. When the time comes, of course.â
âIs that so?â You purred as you ghosted your lips against his, Jace taking in a sharp intake of breath from the action. His body was screaming at him to just close that gap between the two of you, to kiss you make all his desires melt away. But his mindâŠthe lessons that he had drilled into his head since childbirth, held him back.
Jace knew more than anyone that there was a certain order to these things; that he had to be gentleman to the very last second until you were wed. That he had to be patient and most importantly, not think about all the dirty things he wanted to do to you in that moment.
It was improper.
You knew it, and he did too. But somehow, as your lips and his own desire tempted him, Jace for once in his life seemed to not care for the rules.
âYes,â He breathed out in ecstasy as his mind finally sunk out of reason, giving into the temptation that claimed most men. He looked down at you and then he uttered the words he knew would cause him nothing but trouble.
âWould you like me to prove it to you, my darling?â He asked. And you, having become just as eager as he was, nodded.
âYes, my prince.â You all but begged him.
And so it was sealed. Jaceâs lips met yours in a swift kiss, hot and passionate as you tangled your fingers in his hair. Jace moaned as you tugged, a way to bring him closer without saying the words. Quickly, your lover complied and Jacaerys moaned in your mouth as your body pressed against his.
Likewise, you let out a small gasp as the feeling of his hard member brushed over your thigh. You knew that men gotâŠexcited while doing certain acts, but you certainly never witnessed it before and you never expected it to turn you on like it did.
Jaceâs arousal only triggered your own, something in between your legs beginning to stir as you deepened the kiss.
Almost involuntarily, your thighs began to grind together causing Jace to smile lightly against your lips and hold you even closer. With clammy hands, he pressed down on your waist and managed to guide your body towards his bed without breaking the kiss. Then, once your back hit the soft fabrics of his sheets, he pulled away and crawled on top of you.
Soft brown eyes met yours and you could see that Jaceâs pupils were blown with desire. Lust, an emotion youâd never seen so prominent before, danced across his face and promoted him to reach out and trace the soft curves of your cheeks. He leaned down to kiss them both, and when he whispered in your ear how much he loved you, you couldnât stop the shiver that ran down your spine.
You needed him, and you needed him badly. Your body was aching in way that you never thought was possible before, every fiber in your being craving Jace. Your most intimate parts were throbbing for him, and you wanted him to touch you before the sensation drove you wild. So, in a quick desperation, you grabbed his hand and placed it on your chest.
Jace looked surprised as you did, shocked by the desperate look in your eyes. He had never imagined that youâd want him as much he wanted you, but alas, he wasnât going to question it. Like a good boy, he started to comply with your silent request and gently massaged the clothed flesh underneath, his actions causing you to gasp a little bit.
You looked at Jace and the feeling felt nice butâyou wanted more. Hastily, you grabbed his hand again and brought it down to ghost over the strings of your dress, already beginning to undo the laces before Jacaerys quickly helped.
Together, you managed to get the tight fabric loosened and Jace nearly drooled as your breast popped out. The sweet sight of your exposed flesh caused his cock to twitch, wanting nothing more than to lean in and capture your breast in his mouth. He wanted to touch you and he wanted to explore you so bad, so thatâs what he did.
He left the bottom half of your body clothed so that he could take one of your hardened nipples into his mouth, the new sensation taking you by shock. You gasped as Jaceâs lips wrapped around your bud, licking and sucking and causing you to moan as you tangled your hands in his hair.
Never had you ever experienced the pleasure of someone sucking on your breasts before, and Jace looked up to see that you had fluttered your eyes shut in pleasure, a smile on your face.
Clearly, you were enjoying his actions which made him a bit more confident as he moved to your other bud. He took that one in his mouth and left sweet marks youâd have to cover in the morning. Licking and marking your chest so that you may remember who you belonged to, and the pleasure that he caused you.
Jace knew you wouldnât forget; not after what else he had planned for you. After this, he was going to make sure his beloved knew in her heart and soul that the man she was going to marry was more than capable of pleasuring her.
Not that you ever doubted him anyways, but you were throughly shocked when Jace abandoned your chest for something a little more exciting. For something he had learned from Daemon in secret; a sure fire way to get any lady riled up.
Jace trusted his uncle and you trusted him, so when he started to pull the rest of your dress down you didnât resist him. In fact, you aided him by lifting your hips up, eager to get the restricting fabric off. It felt like it was choking you even though your chest was already exposed. Restricting you from experiencing what you really wanted; what Jace was desperate to show you.
You could see it in his face that he was determined, biting his lip as he glanced your body over. By now, you were fully naked below him and your cunt throbbed as the cool air lapped against it. It caused you to shiver and look at Jace with a questioning look in your eyes, wondering what else he had in store for you.
Fortunately, Jace was generous lover and he didnât keep you waiting long. Which was why he leaned back down to connect your lips together.
The kiss was hot, desperation spilling over like lava from an active volcano. It burned both you and Jace but the sting felt so good, especially when he started to use his fingers to trace your body.
Ever so lightly, he trailed down and your hips bucked a little as he brushed some of your sweet spots. The spots on your body that had you trembling a little, white hot desire flashing in your stomach.
You didnât stop him as Jacaerys trailed his fingers lower and lower, but you had to admit that you were nervous. His lips helped a little bit, but the nerves you felt from being touched for the very first time seemed to eat you alive.
You were glad Jace took the liberty of studying before hand because you would have no idea what to do. You let him take control and it was obvious that Jace was grateful as he pulled away from your lips.
Slightly swollen, he curved them into a smile and lingered just below your belly button. Tempting you with his feather-light touches, dazzling you with those big brown eyes.
You swore your heart was going to burst in your chest from all the love and excitement you felt, and you were sure Jacaerys felt the same. You hadnât the courage to fully look at him yet, but you caught glances of the way his cock was straining against his dress pants. Thick and hard, a fact that made you both nervous and eager.
Slowly, your body grew hot and your mind went blank as Jace leaned down to nibble on your ear. Sighing lightly, you wrapped your arms around his neck and shivered when he began to speak.
âSweet girl, would you like for me to show you what Iâve learned now?â He all but purred, and you couldnât stop the embarrassingly quick nod that came from after, nor the clench of your thighs as your core throbbed.
âPleaseââ You rasped out the word like a begger on the streets asking for favor. Only, it wasnât food or gold that you were seeking.
You wanted him, and only him as you stared up at Jacaerys. Your E/C eyes met his dark brown ones and you could see them twinkling as he smiled at you, obviously pleased with your answer.
âHm,â He pretended to think about it for a moment which nearly killed you with anticipation. You bit your lip as his fingers danced dangerously close to your heat, obviously teasing you which you hated.
Luckily though, Jacaerys had never been a cruel man, so it was only a few more seconds of torture before he gave in to your desires. âAs you wish then, my love,â He decided, and then his fingers dropped to a place that only he could touch.
âJacaerysââ
You mewled as his slender fingers rubbed your aching core, gasping when he brushed over your bundle of nerves and then crying out as Jace pushed a finger inside of you.
You were wet, so it was easy for him to sink into your cunt but it didnât make the stretch any less uncomfortable.
Tears kissed your eyes since you had never had anyoneâs fingers inside of your cunt, not even your own, but Jacaerys was quick to soothe you with a simple praise. He whispered how proud of you he was for taking him, encouraging you on until he sunk deeper and deeper.
Your tight cunt welcomed his digit reluctantly, but eventually Jace was able to put his whole finger inside of you and he took note of how tight you were. Something in his brain couldnât stop thinking about how much he wanted it to be his cock that you clenched around, but as agonizing as it was to have to wait, he knew that this was a crucial step for you.
So, slowly he began to pump his digit in and out, looking for any sign of discomfort from you. He held your gaze and while it did sting just a little bit, you couldnât deny that the foreign sensation also feltâŠkind of good.
Youâd never felt anything like it, but it made your walls clench in ways that had you moaning a little. Jace took this as a sign that you liked what he was doing and kept going, something inside of you began to awaken. Pleasure, perhaps, stirring inside of your cunt as Jace pleased you just the way he had learned.
You were gasping and groaning, your mouth forming into an âoâ shape when Jaceâs finger brushed against a particularly sensitive part inside of your sex. Involuntarily, your hips bucked off of the bed, your back curling to the point where Jace had to hold you down.
He licked his lips as your delicious moans filled his ears and decided all of a sudden that you were ready for more.
Slowly, he sank his middle finger into you and then began to quicken his pace. The added digit surprised you, but it was definitely welcomed by your fluttering cunt. And fuckâyou never knew anything could feel this good, broken moans slipping through your lips as Jacaerys assaulted the most sensitive parts of you. His thumb rubbed pleasureful circles against your pearl while his middle and index fingers brushed against your sweet spot over and over again. It seemed that Jace had found just the right angle to please you, and whatever it was had you gasping for breath.
It felt so good and it caused your cunt to clench around him, Jace panting as a tight feeling built up in your stomach. It almostâŠit almost felt like there was something inside of you that was going to burst, like a dam threatening to overflow at any moment. It built and it built, waves of pleasure lapping over you the more Jace played with your pearl. The combination of him hitting your sweet spot and doing that was enough to send you over the edge, and a strange volcano of bliss erupted over through body.
âMhmm, Jace! Oh, gods! Iâm gonnaââ
You didnât get to finish your sentence as suddenly, your very first orgasm rushed over you and stole the very breath from your lungs. You nearly stopped breathing as your cunt clamped down on Jaceâs fingers, your sweet arousal coating the digits and the sheets underneath you. No doubt they were drenched from the sin that Jace had just pulled from your body, but that was the absolute least of your concerns.
Your were more worried about the fact that your mind had gone blank, your eyes hazy as you experienced the foreign pleasure.
It caused your body to nearly go limp and you were mumbling incoherent nonsense as Jace watched you. Brown eyes drank in every single detail that was in front of him, burning the image of your sweet cunt coated with your juices in his head. Coated with your orgasm that he pulled from you, despite never even laying with a woman before.
To say he was proud of himself was an understatement. Jace was so happy that he made you come undone with his fingers, but he was so hard that he could barely find it in himself to gloat.
Not when his cock was still straining against his trousers, reminding Jace that the best was yet to come.
His fingers had only been round one. Butâyou quickly realized that there was more in store for you as Jace began to get undressed.
One by one, you watched with anxious eyes as each article of Jaceâs dress clothes came off. First his tunic which had you staring at his defined chest, then his belt which had you trembling in anticipation.
Finally, when Jaceâs trousers came off and he was as bare as you were in the moment, you held your breath as your eyes focused on his hardened length.
It was the first time you had ever seen a man in such a way and Jaceâs cock intimidated you. It stood tall against his stomach, almost taunting you as he walked closer.
As if he could sense your nerves, Jaceâs expression turned to one of sweetness and reassurance as the prince mounted you and positioned himself near your entrance.
Slowly, he began to stroke the tip of his cock against your folds which caused you to pant heavily. You wrapped your legs around his waist like it was instinct, and Jaceâs right hand came up in order to loving stroke your face.
He stared into your eyes, and then he began to push himself in.
The pain that everyone described wasnât so bad, especially not when Jace had already warmed you up. In fact, you were pleasantly surprised that it was no more than a slight sting, that died down as Jace stilled his hips inside of you.
He waited until you were more comfortable to start moving, looking at for the slightest signs to stop. He was always so sweet, your dear betrothed. So loving and gentle with you.
But now, it was time to be anything but.
The ache you had for him was becoming unbearable so you moved your hips to let him know it was okay. Holding on tight as he began to push past your barriers, your walls and hands gripping him tight.
Jacaerys groaned at the feeling once he was fully sheathed inside of you. So tightâfuck, you were so warm. He swore that you were sucking him in, already on the path to milk him dry.
He felt like he was going to come and not that the prince had any complaints, but he wanted to last longer for you. To make your first time special, so he held on and slowly moved his hips.
His pace allowed you to feel everything, every drag of his cock along your walls. It caused illicit moans to escape from your lips and your fingernails to dig into his back.
Jacaerys winced a little at the feeling but you didnât notice due to the pleasure clouding your senses. The only thing you could focus on was the fact that his cock was hitting spots inside of you that you didnât even know existed.
So goodâso sweet. Your prince was all yours, and you proved this by leaving small marks on his shoulder.
If anyone asked, Jace would simply tell them they were bites from bugs. Never would he reveal your secret, for he knew what the two of you were doing was forbidden.
But he didnât care.
The future king didnât understand how something so wrong could feel so right. It truly felt like you were made for him; born to take his cock for all eternity.
The thought of this caused Jacaerys to snap his hips more violently. His pace sped up and soon his cock was driving in and out with lewd sounds filling the room. The sound your wetness coating his cock became all that he could focus on, his own moans echoing throughout the room as he chased his peak.
Likewise, you were mewling underneath him, eyes closed in bliss. The feeling of him inside of you caused pressure to build in your stomach, which only accentuated when he reached down to play with your pearl.
Gasping, your eyes shot open and you moaned while Jacaerys held your gaze. He was confident in the way he moved his fingers, trusting his uncle and the books that provided his knowledge. Every source he sought out said that this would be action that brung you to your peak, this would make you come undone.
And Gods, how right they were.
Jacaerys watched as you began to writhe underneath him and how your eyes rolled to the back of your head the faster that he played with your sex. He toyed with all of the spots that made you feel good while simultaneously keeping his pace, rocking in and out of you.
It felt so good that you could hardly breathe, let alone think straight as you let out a shout and came without another warning.
Your legs locked up, your cunt clenching down on him and you held onto Jacaerysâ body for dear life as you moaned and writhed underneath him. Your eyes fell to the back of your head and sure enough, not even a second later Jace was joining you with his own peak.
The prince closed his eyes, breathing heavily as he joined your hands together before letting his seed coat your walls.
Nevermind the consequences or the fact that you werenât even married yet, Jace just wanted to feel you and he did. He made sure that the two of you were as close as possible, nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck and burying himself as deep he could go.
He whispered sweet nothings in your ear and you drank them in, drank him in as a warm feeling coated your body. You were breathing heavily and you had never felt so sweaty, but you were content laying underneath Jacaerys and looking into his eyes.
At that moment, nothing else mattered to you and when his lips captured yours, you felt complete.
A little sore, but it didnât matter as Jacaerys pulled away and stroked your face.
âAre you alright, my love?â He asked softly, and you nodded as a smile crossed your face.
âIâve never been better,â You told him honestly. âThat wasâŠamazing.â
âIâm glad I was able to prove myself then,â Jacaerys said, and you both let out a laugh as he pulled himself out of you, rolling over so he could lay by your side.
You had to admit, you felt a little empty now that he was no longer inside of you but the warmth of his body was quickly able to make up for it. Jacaerys wrapped his arms around you, allowing you to lay on his chest whilst you both caught your breath.
You both knew that you only had limited time to hold one another other, since the feast was still raging on and neither of you wanted to be gone for too long. It would be too suspicious so the time that you did have, you cherished it in silence until finally it was time to get dressed.
Your cheeks were hot the entire time you slipped your dress back on and the smile never once left your face. You were so happy, you felt like you could barely contain yourself as you faced Jacaerys again.
Soft hands cupped your face and brown eyes met yours. Jacaerys leaned in to kiss you and you let him, resting your forehead on his as you sighed.
âBack to the monkey fest we go,â You told him sadly, not wanting to go back. You wanted nothing more than to just stay with Jacaerys and lay in his arms forever. You just wanted to be married already and never have to leave your chambers again if you didnât want to. And you could tell that Jace felt the same way, but you both knew it wasnât possible. Not tonight, at least.
âWe shall be married soon enough, my love, and next time we wonât have to,â Jace promised as he grabbed your hands. They fit perfectly together, and you smiled as he kissed the back of yours. âNext time, we will not invite Jason Lannister and there shall be no more questions as to if I can please my wife.â
There was still distain in his voice and you knew he was still irritated by Jasonâs comments. Youâd be lying if you said that you werenât upset too, but after what just happened, you knew you didnât have anything to worry about.
âI think youâve already proved that plenty,â You told Jace, giggling.
He smiled.
âCome. Let us go back before they come searching for us,â He suggested, and then off you two went, unable to wipe the smiles off of your faces, and the look that Jace threw towards the eldest Lannister once you got back to the feast was full of smugness, knowing that he proved him wrong and that his future bride had absolutely nothing to worry about.
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I can only share my interest in Aegon to you, so Iâll just drop this here. (Dw, contrary to what I say next, this is not a request. Just desperation.)
Broski, I NEED reader wife whoâs scared of heights and dragons but Aegon gets her to ride with him just cuz he feels like it. (My hand is probably 1/3 smaller than one of their teeth. I believe Anyone sane should be scared shâtless while seeing a dragon. đ)
I ONLY READ ONE FIC WHERE THEY FLY ON A DRAGON! WHY ARE THERE SO MANY AEMOND FICS OF THISS??? HELP ME FIND MORE CUZ I NEED TO HAVE A RIDE ON A DRAGONNNNN. Imagine the refreshing air and scenery. (I personally imagine the beautiful pink/orange clouds from Httyd when Hiccup and Astrid fly together for the first time)đâ°ïž
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Also, about the death threats, you handled it well. Really, when everyone finds out you like a hated character, itâs like they are trying to get you to sign your own death sentence. Anyway, keep doing you. You write exceptionally đ€đ«¶ ily
PROMISE NOT TO DROP ME? ONLY A FOOL WOULD DROP YOU. ( HOTD x Reader )
pairing: Prince Aegon ii Targaryen x Lady-in-waiting! Reader prompt: Aegon kidnaps you to ride on dragonback, it does not go well. word count: 1, 000+ words
You had been very very firm when it came to dragon's. You were no Targaryen nor held a drop of Valyrian blood in your veins. Sure, you like to gawk at them in art. The dozen paintings, stained glass windows, and books that filled the Red Keep were enough. You would never dare to go near one in real life. Dragonâs were not natural. To ride one, to tame one, it was not natural. A lot of the things that the Targaryenâs did were not natural.Â
So when you started as Helaena's Lady-in-waiting, you did everything you could to politely refuse to be near them. Need to go to the Dragonpits? The carriage was nice and comfy, no need to leave it. When Helaena offered to fly with her? Suddenly you grew ill with a cough. Helaena accepted, understanding your fears. She offered kind words and an open invitation should you ever change your mind on the matter.
Aegon was, as always, different. The word 'no'Â just could not connect in that tiny little brain of his. He took it as a challenge. He would jest about kidnapping you and taking you flying. You laughed and told him you'd push him out of a window if he dared to do it.Â
Of course, he had tried once with a look a little too serious on his face. After waddling away, clutching his groin from your hard kick, he learned that it would not be easy to get you on dragonback. Youâd fight back. You would be a challenge, he liked that a lot.
Kicking and screaming at the top of your lungs, you did everything you could think of to get free of Aegon's hold. Clawing at his arms wrapped around your waist, he dragged you along to the Dragonpits, the dragon keeper's onlooking in confusion and mild horror. You could give less of a shit if they thought you mad. There was no way in the Seven Hells that you were going on a flight with Aegon. You'd rather kiss the King's rotten lips than to go flying.
"No! Put me down, you drunken oaf!" You shout, thrashing against him.
"No."
"I am going to kick you so hard you'd never be able to get it up again, Aegon! Put me down!" You bellow, yanking at his hair.
"Not a chance, we are going flying." Aegon brushes off your threats, "You will enjoy it. Tis' delightful."
Letting out a loud scream into his ear, he did not falter, running off of pure spite and stubbornness. It would have been admirable, if it was not for the fact he was dragging you along to go flying. Yanking hard on his hair, he yelps loudly, though his grip does not falter. Gods damn it, why did he have to be strong? Sensing that fighting would not help you, you tried another way.
"Please, please, Aegon." You beg, "I'll give up my desserts for a whole moon. Just let me go."
"Tempting." He chuckles, a smirk on his face.
"Please, Aegon. I do not wish to fly." You beg, on the verge of tears.
"I fly all the time. Once I even did it drunk, tis' nothing dangerous." He scoffs, rolling his eyes.Â
Shaking your head frantically as his grip tightens, he drags you into the dark cave, the stench of dragon thick in the air. The few torchlights in the cave illuminated enough to see his dragon, Sunfyre, burrowing into his rocky nest. Feeling tears of fear bubbling up, you go deadly silent, losing your voice. This was your worst dream come true. Face to face with a dragon. Holding back the whimper in your throat, Aegon presses a kiss onto your temple, refusing to let you go.
âHe wonât harm you. Heâs used to your scent.â Aegon whispers into your ear, âI brought him one of your dresses to smell.â
âLet me go.â You whimper out, voice full of pure terror.Â
âCome on, youâre already here. Letâs just go for a quick flight.â Aegon argues, shaking his head dismissively.Â
âAegon..â
Slowly letting go of your waist, you go to bolt for the cave exit, only to be swept back up into Aegonâs arms. He carried you like a toddler who had a habit of running away. Letting out a loud cry as he refused to put you back down, he wags his finger mockingly, a half amused look on his face. Hearing Sunfyre stir in his nest, you try more desperately to get away, the rumbling of the dragon echoing loudly in the cave.Â
âNo, no, no.â He scolds, âBad Y/n. No running away.â
âPut me down! I want to go back to the Red Keep!âÂ
âNo, if I have to attend Court, then you cannot escape this.â He suggests, âConsider this your duty.â
âFuck duty. Put me down, Aegon!â You sob, bottom lip wobbling.Â
âOoh, so now we do not care about duty, hm?â He mocks, shaking his head with a smirk.
Pressing a gentle kiss onto your temple, he carried you closer and closer to Sunfyre, until the two of you were right in the dragonâs face. Feeling your grip tighten on him, he slowly smiles at the feeling, like see you so unlike yourself. This had to be the first time he had seen you act so improper and anxious. It was refreshing, amazing, and amusing all at the same time.Â
Smiling bright as Sunfyre stirs away, the golden dragon huffs at the two of you, his two large green eyes staring back. Puffing his chest out in pride, he hoped the sight of his dragon would impress you and make you swoon. His dragon always got compliments. Looking down at your face, there was not an ounce of admiration or awe or anything positive, only terror.Â
âHeâs pretty is he not?â He gloats proudly, âYou know, they say he is the prettiest dragon to have ever been hatched.â
âIf I survive this, I am going to kill you.â You whisper out, face pale.
âStop speaking as if you are going to die. Sunfyre would not dare to attack, not whilst I am here.â He scoffs, rolling his eyes.
âIâve seen your dragon, can we leave now. I want to go back to the Red Keep, Aegon.â You whimper, tears bubbling up in your eyes.
"No. Don't you dare." He argues, "Don't you dare do the whole crying trick on me. I am not foolish like Helaena and can be swayed."
Watching as you sniffle and whimper, his grip tightens on you, not wanting to give up just yet. Seeing the big puppy dog eyes you give him, he grits his teeth, tensing up. He falter's for a moment. He was always sucker for those big puppy dog eyes of yours. You knew how to make him crumble.
"No, no, no, don't give me that look." He tries to resist.
"Please, Aegon."
"No. Stop that." He shakes his head, "Stop that right now. I demand you stop that."
"I..I want to go home, Aegon. Please, take me home." You beg, sniffling.
Letting out an exasperated groan at you begging and pleading to go home, he begrudgingly agrees to it, knowing that it would be no fun if you cried the entire time. Scowling like a child who had its toy taken away, he loosens his grip on you, putting you back down onto your feet. One day heâd get you on dragonback. Sadly, just not today.
"Aegon, please, I want to go home." You whimper, tears streaming down your flushed cheeks.
âFine, fine, stop crying.â He grumbles, âBut next time, we are going to actually get on the dragon.â
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Small Beauties
Life at court while beneficial to your station is above all else one thing â unbearably lonely. With a youth spent in unreciprocated longing, the trap of an unhappy marriage, illness, loss and untimely farewells there is one thing that does not change throughout the years â your infatuation and blossoming friendship with Otto Hightower. After all is said and done, are you not both deserving of the very thing you never allowed yourselves to have?
pairing: Otto Hightower x fem!reader // rated E, 18+ MDNI
content: 19k words in five parts + epilogue, pining, forbidden romance, mostly gentle!otto, talks about pregnancy/infertility, minor character death, grief, religious themes (faith of the seven), smut (thigh riding, hand job, oral sex f!receiving, p in v, unprotected, coming inside, mild hand kink)
This story is available on AO3, split into five chapters âĄ
1 The Maiden Days
Otto Hightower lifts the ornate cup to his lips, taking a lazy sip before he slowly lowers it yet again. A crimson stain lingers on the soft skin, the Dornish wine momentarily painting them red. You are transfixed by the sight. No matter how often he repeats this simple action it never fails to incite a war in your chest â heart beating rapidly, your lungs fluttering with every breath.
You fold your hands in your lap to ground yourself, observing him from your spot on the cool stone bench that sits at the far end of the balcony. Around you, a handful of other young ladies has erupted into lively chatter, most of them a few years younger than you.
âSer Alister is so very handsome,â one of them chirps, giggling under her breath as they all turn to look at the man. âA fine knight, tall and strong and most honourable. His blue eyes are captivating.â
âHave you seen Ser Matthos? I hear that he has never lost a battle, the strongest knight in all the Riverlands.â
âWho do you admire, my lady?â
The voice resounds close to your ear â your friend, the Lady Emeline. You answer in a low hum, feigning contemplation. But your eyes still follow his every movement. Often times the lord will keep to himself, observing these gatherings more so than participating. His auburn hair shimmers golden in the warm sunlight and you are so very grateful to behold him outside of the gloomy chambers of the castle.
âSer Otto,â you whisper.
They all burst into laughter like you told a hilarious joke, guffawing quite unladylike which garners the attention of the entire balcony, including the man you have been speaking of.
âI am not jesting,â you inform them.
Their laughter stops at once. Emelineâs hand wraps around your forearm. âBut, you cannot be serious?â
Your eyes stay on the Lord whose solemn gaze still holds you captive. âThe Lord Hand is handsome and tall, he is intelligent and experienced in life. An honourable man who serves our realm most faithfully. Any young lady would be lucky to be wed to him.â
âBut he is⊠old,â she whispers now.
âAnd he is the Lady Alicentâs father,â another girl adds.
You decide to end your rhapsody, if only because you know they could never understand your infatuation. The Lord Hand is not older than half of the men your father is considering as a match for you, even though he certainly appears to be wise beyond his years. Recently widowed and in no want of a new wife, you are well aware that all your dreams of being with him are hopeless. However, this knowledge does nothing to quench your desires as his eyes remain fixed on you for longer than is appropriate. You confidently hold his gaze, even as your heart threatens to burst from your chest. Finally, he averts his eyes, just as the red stain slowly fades from his pale lips.
⊠⧠âŠ
Your father has been pacing since the sun began to wander westwards, his arms crossed behind his back as he fiddles with the rings on his fingers. Youâve seen this nervous gesture plenty of times in your life, only this time his distress has been inadvertently caused by you. Not even the splendid view over the prospering gardens of Kingâs Landing seems to calm his agitation. âShe is of age, she has been of age for long enough that anything but a swift betrothal would be considered shameful, especially now that we are here.â
âSurely that should not be an issue, my lord?â your mother asks. âI hear from the other ladies that she has many a handsome suitor.â
âSuitors, yes, but no promising match. We have to entertain the possibility of sending her to the Riverlands or even the North, though I would prefer for her to stay in the capital. It is always useful to have a direct line to the crown.â
âPerhaps a Lannister?â she asks. âOr Ser Alister? All the young girls seem enamoured with him and his father sits on the kingâs council.â
âWhat about Ser Otto?â you interject.
âThe Lord Hand?â Your father barks out a laugh. âHe will not have you, girl.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause you are not important enough, child, and most certainly not handsome enough to tempt a man like him. If he harboured any interest in you he would have already expressed it.â
âMy lord.â
You startle at the sound of the deep voice that haunts your very existence these days, followed by the crunching of heavy footsteps on the gravely path. Your face instantly drains of all colour until you can feel the blood rushing back to your cheeks tenfold. You and your mother are seated underneath a rose-colored pavilion but the shade does nothing to cool your heated skin. At the arrival of your guest, you both stand for a polite greeting. From your spot close beside him you make out a familiar pair of leather boots and the ornate hem of a set of dark green garbs, the elaborate pattern of which you could describe in great detail from memory alone.
You cannot bring yourself to meet his eyes.
âMy Lord Hand,â your father greets. âTo what do I owe the honour of such an unexpected visit?â
âI was informed of your arrival, my lord. I deeply regret that I was kept busy for most of the day â as you well know from your own time in the capital the council never truly rests.â He stops for a moment when your father chuckles, then his voice softens. âMy ladies.â
âMy lord, what a pleasure to see you,â your mother replies. âIt has been nigh a decade.â
âIndeed, my lady. I trust that your lord father is in good health?â
âHe is,â she says with a playful smile. âThe only ailment he cannot quite soothe is his growing ennui. He so loved to meddle in politics, now all he gets to dictate are his servants while my brother commands his army.â
The Lord Hand gives a kindhearted chuckle and you can almost feel the deep rumbling of his chest vibrating against you, a quake that has your own body trembling helplessly. You realise that every second of silence raises the risk of appearing unseemly to the lord, and so you finally glance up at him, only to find his green eyes already resting on you.
âGood afternoon, my lord,â you say, wishing the earth would open up and swallow you whole.
âMy lady.â The corner of his mouth bends into a kind if not sympathetic smile. He must have heard his name coming from your lips upon his arrival and you cannot help but suspect that he finds the suggestion pitiable.
For the remainder of their conversation you stay quiet, withdrawing into yourself to nurse your deep embarrassment and sneaking glances at the lord only when youâre certain that his attention lies elsewhere. Soon your father follows the Lord Hand back inside the keep for a private audience and you remain seated in the gardens with a broken heart. Your mother inquires about the knights and lords you have met in your time in Kingâs Landing, riddling you with questions about potential marriage candidates.
She does not ask about Otto Hightower.
⊠⧠âŠ
The lady Alicent pulls the book from the shelf ever so cautiously in the way that she was taught to handle the ancient tomes that reside in her lord fatherâs library. You stand by her side, reading the spines of the books in the collection that his lordship as well as his predecessors have accumulated over the past centuries. Storybooks and fairytales are scarce, you are quite certain that you have read all of them thrice at this point, and so you and your friend have moved on to the historical accounts that the septa never taught you about.
The Lord Hand is eyeing you from his desk where he is taking care of his correspondence, his brow furrowed in deep concentration as the quill scratches the ink into the parchment. Alicent, who has retrieved the book by now, presents the title to him.
âHm, a good pick, my daughter.â
You both smile at him and his eyes stay on you for so long that you are inclined to stall your departure even as Alicent makes her way to the door. You have never been very subtle about your feelings for the lord and for the past few moons he has indulged you by meeting your eyes more often than would be deemed appropriate should anyone notice.
âA word, my lady?â he asks, sensing your apprehension.
You glance at Alicent who merely gives you one of her kind smiles. âI shall wait for you in the godswood.â
A nervous sensation spreads in your limbs, numbing your fingers as you link your hands behind your back. His lordship stands and beholds you for a moment, his gaze betraying none of his thoughts as it flits between your face and the rest of your form. You stand still, meeting his eyes as you are wont to do, trying to uphold an air of confidence and maturity beyond your years.
âI wanted to congratulate you on your betrothal, my lady,â he says eventually.
âThank you, my lord.â You hesitate for a moment in surprise as he is the first to bring up the subject since your father presented you with the news. âI was not aware that it had been announced already.â
He sits down behind his desk, neatly folding his long hands on its surface. âI assisted your father with the arrangements. The match was my suggestion.â
âOh.â You feel your limbs trembling, the realisation like a knife in your chest. âI see.â
âI know he may not be who you dreamed for yourself,â he continues with a knowing expression that softens his features in a way that makes you want to weep.
âMy lord has a keen, observant eye.â
âIndeed I have noticed your glances, my lady.â His brows pull together in a display of almost fatherly sympathy but it only makes the knife twist and sink in deeper. âAnd while I am flattered by your⊠infatuation, I must point out that this arrangement spares you a life by the side of a man much older than yourself. Ser Alister is in the prime of his youth, a well-favoured knight, and he will make a fine husband for many years to come.â
You nod, swallowing the tears that threaten to spill from your eyes. âI am fortunate to be betrothed to such a brave and noble knight. And yet **I feel that I must point out that you are being most unkind to yourself, my lord. Your age only adds to your character, your wisdom and gentle disposition are unmatched by any knight I have met in my life. If you ever chose to marry again, the lady would be most fortunate indeed.â
âYour generous words are appreciated, my lady.â He gives a smile that feels more genuine than the ones you have seen before. You refuse to get lost in the way it makes his eyes glow in the light of the candles. âMay the Seven watch over you and bestow you with a prosperous future.â
You swallow around the tears that are painfully forming in your eyes, willing the corners of your mouth to return his kindness. âThank you, my lord. I am certain with your blessings they will.â
2 The Wedded Days
âSeven blessings on your hunt, my lord. May your arrows fly true.â
You press a kiss to your husbandâs pale cheek, the courtyard a cacophony of neighing horses, shouting men and clattering weapons in your ears. The hour is early and yet the keep is already alive as it prepares for a day that promises fresh game and other spoils of the woods.
He mounts his horse with a chuckle. âCan you not hear the deer already bawling? They are quivering with fear.â
You fight off a grimace, feeling sorry for the poor animals, and wave after the party as they depart for the Kingswood. A few other ladies who have bid their husbands farewell are waiting with you, waving until the last horse is out of sight and quiet settles in.
Your husband of three years recently inherited his fatherâs titles and has risen significantly in the kingâs esteem ever since. As a proficient hunter since his childhood days it is no surprise that he was invited to join the party. You are surprised, however, when you encounter the Lord Hand on your way back inside, the quiet of the keepâs interiors enveloping you most welcomely.
âAre you not joining the hunt, my lord?â you ask when he stops to greet you.
âNo, my lady, it is a small party.â
âHis Grace would leave without his most trusted advisor?â
âHis Grace has little use for me in the Kingswood, my lady. I am tending to important matters of the realm during his absence.â
You nod in understanding. Naturally the Lord Hand knows to prioritise his tasks but that does not mean you cannot tempt him to a small diversion. âPerhaps his lordship would allow me to keep him company, then?â
He scoffs mildly. âI hardly think that is appropriate, my lady.â
âWhy not?â
The lord stops in his tracks, his gaze suddenly softening. âMy lady.â
You raise your brows. âAre you concerned about matters of propriety?â
âI am concerned about the matter of your propriety, my lady, yes.â
âIf you are alluding toâŠâ You pause and he quirks an eyebrow, almost as if in amusement. âIf you are alluding to my childish infatuation with you, my lord, I can assure you that it has long since passed. All I wish is for some company. It has been quite some time since I had the chance to enjoy the sunrise on a morning walk and I merely wish to share the beautiful view the gardens offer at first light.â
For a brief moment, the lord regards you as though he is trying to decipher one of his books. Eventually he tips his head to the side, locking his arms behind his back. âVery well, my lady. Since you are so fond of the gardens, I shall let you lead the way.â
You chuckle good-naturedly. âThat is only because his lordship is so busy with politics that he hardly leaves the council chamber. Something he has in common with my husband.â
âThere are duties that require an environment free of diversions, my lady.â
âBeauty is a diversion, then, my lord?â
âIt most certainly is.â
You exit the keep onto a rather large balcony, the view opening up to the gardens that are still draped in deep shadows as the sun slowly rises above the horizon. A clear sky stretches out in purples, pinks and oranges, their pastel hues blending into each other with the soft brushstrokes of an artist. The sight takes your breath away for several seconds and when you come to, you notice that the Lord Hand is observing you.
âA marvel, donât you agree?â you ask.
Otto Hightower smiles softly, his eyes crinkling beautifully in their corners. âA marvel indeed.â
The pink on your cheeks must mirror that of the sky when you descend the stairs and tread along the path. The cool air is not unwelcome even though your gown with its southern cut is not meant to keep you warm. You have only known the warm climate of the capital, hardly remembering your time before you were sent here as a ward, but you imagine that this is what the earliest signs of fall would feel like further up North.
âI donât think I have properly conversed with anyone but my own servants in over a fortnight,â you muse as your footsteps lead you past flowering bushes, their blossoms still closed from the night. âNot even my lord husband has any time to spare for me these days, so busy is he with the council and his⊠lordly activities.â
âMy lady, if you suffer from feelings of loneliness, I am sure we can make some arrangements to ease that affliction.â The tall lord's footsteps are heavier than yours, a reassuring sound that follows you along the path. âPerhaps we can send for one of your sisters.â
âI do not wish to talk to my sisters who I hardly know and hardly remember.â You pause, trying to hide your disdain as you let your hand hover under a particularly beautiful flower. âMy lord, I so long for easy conversation or even just the silent companionship that being in the mere presence of a familiar person offers. Since becoming a wife my social circle has only grown smaller which I find quite odd.â
âPerhaps it simply lacks the carefree nature of childhood,â he says wisely.
âPerhaps it simply lacks another intelligent being to converse with.â
âIn which case you flatter me, my lady, by seeking my companionship.â
You cannot hide the small smile that slips onto your face. âI have always enjoyed listening to you, my lord. Your insight and wisdom in any conversation over a shared meal has taught me more than my septa during her lessons.â
He rewards you with a deep chuckle and you glance at him, the way his usually stoic face lights up in a smile. âI should think that your septa did a fine job in raising a knowledgeable, kind-hearted young lady.â
âShe did, you are quite right. I donât mean to sound ungrateful.â You continue to walk, trying to focus back on the sun that wanders along with you. âHowever, I cannot deny that I regret the ways in which time has passed. I have lost my friends to motherhood while I myself have been less than fortunate in this area. I now suffer the consequences of these shortcomings.â
âThere is still time, my lady. You are quite young.â
The smile you give him is tinged with sadness, even though you appreciate his kind words. In truth, you are close to giving up all hope to ever conceive. You have been married for three years now and in all that time you have not once been with child. Not for a lack of efforts from your lord husband nor from your unwillingness to endure said efforts, no matter how unenjoyable you found them. As of late, however, he has shifted those efforts to other recipients, if your staff is to be believed who has spotted him frequent certain establishments in the city. You are not sure if that is a blessing or a curse.
âYou speak very kindly, my lord, and yet deep in my heart I can feel that this marriage will not be as prosperous as anyone would have hoped. Perhaps the Gods did not intend for me to be a mother, as much as it pains me to entertain this possibility.â
âMy lady, let me assure you that it is not necessarily the fault of the mother,â he says, one eyebrow slightly raised. âMany good men have not sired a child in all their life.â
You consider his words, consider their implications that perhaps the fault of your childless life is not yours alone. âYou may be right, my lord, and yet if the purpose of a woman is to bear her husbandâs children then I cannot help but feel like my worth has been impaired by my failure to give him an heir.â
âSome narrow minds may view it like that, yes, but I cannot agree. My own lady wife was much more to me than just the bearer of my children and I miss her dearly to this very day.â
You cannot help the wave of pain this opens in your chest, your eyes stinging the faintest bit. âHow beautiful it must be to be loved and cherished as you did her.â
âDo you not feel cherished, my lady?â he inquires.
âI never expected to be blessed with a happy marriage, my lord,â you confess truthfully. âAnd yet the reality of it disappoints me greatly. They say a lady may not love her husband but that she will love his children. It fills me with great sorrow to find that there is no love in my life when my heart is overflowing with all that I have yet to give.â
He halts right beside you and you do the same, the view from the edge of the retaining wall quite spectacular now that the sun has risen above sea level.
âI know my lady is visiting the cityâs orphanages quite frequently,â he finally says. âAnd that she is very fond of my own grandchildren, generously helping my daughter in her care for them.â
âIndeed and it may not be quite the same as having a child of my own that I can spoil as I please but it brings me a few moments of domesticity now and again that I deeply cherish.â
He nods sagely, his sombre gaze meeting your own. âSeeing that you find yourself lacking for company perhaps I may extend an invitation to join us for supper more frequently, my lady? With or without your lord husband, as his schedule allows.â
You find yourself smiling freely at him, awakening sensations that are altogether too familiar, too intimate. If only he had not married you to a man incapable of such affections. âI shall gladly accept your kind offer, my lord. It would please me greatly.â
There is no pity in the expression he gives you this time but a gentle friendliness that you cannot remember seeing in his eyes before. You resume your stroll through the gardens, the increasing warmth of the sunlight invigorating your cold limbs the further you go, and when you reach a fork in the path that leads either further down or back towards the keep you do not wish to turn around.
âShall we keep going, my lady?â the lord asks.
You cannot help but smile when you agree.
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Otto senses some reluctance as he glances at the names of staff that is working for your household, if only because he is keenly aware that the findings of his current research may upset him in ways that will tempt him to folly. However, if your husband is mistreating you then he simply must know. His net of spies within the palace is tight as it is in the rest of Kingâs Landing but the proximity will make it much easier to have him observed.
It instils amounts of regret in him that border on a stomach ache. Marrying you to Ser Alister had been a logical decision at the time but he cannot deny that keeping you in Kingâs Landing influenced his judgement severely.
A handsome young knight, to inherit his fatherâs titles and possibly even his seat at the kingâs council, Ser Alister was an easily agreed upon match for your father, easier still for Otto who felt like he was doing you a favour after he had noticed your attentions for a while â attentions he could not return at the time, for your protection and out of the overwhelming grief he still felt after the death of his wife. Even so, Otto has to admit to himself that your very openly displayed affections have always flattered him, that you are a true beauty with a comely face that is not just a joy to look at but also a delight to listen to. You are educated, intelligent, sweet, bold in private but shy in the company of others. Endearing even to his old and fractured heart.
Alister did inherit the title as well as the seat on the council within the next three years after your wedding, having wrapped the king around his finger with his open support for the Princess and his Graceâs adamancy in keeping her as his heir. Otto can see now where he went wrong â a severe lapse in judgement of his character, to think him respectful and harmless despite their political disagreements. To think him even remotely worthy of you.
The questioning of your staff as well as a few of his spies in the city reveals quickly that the man he had you marry is a well-known customer in the Street of Silks. Otto cannot, will not believe that anyone would discard a woman like you so foolishly and after only three years of marriage. Such disrespect to the Maid and the Mother of whom you are such a striking image, deserving of nothing but reverence and adoration and a family to love. There is no honour in men like Alister, in men like Daemon Targaryen and so many others who do not know how to cherish their wives as they vowed before the Gods.
A vivid feeling of contempt takes hold of Otto, at himself as well as your husband. He cannot alter what he did in arranging this match but he can make sure that you are comforted in knowing that you deserve more.
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The Tower of the Hand has not changed much over the past few years, the narrow staircases, the cool stone walls still caging you in. To be summoned now makes you wonder what his lordship could possibly need from you. When you enter, the Lord Hand swiftly dismisses his guards and they close the door behind you. The chamber is dark, only a few candles flickering from his desk and the mantelpiece of his unlit hearth, and yet you can make out the lines of worry on his handsome aging face.
âMy lord,â you address him.
âMy lady, I am afraid that I have requested to see you on a rather⊠delicate matter. Please, have a seat.â
There is hardly enough time to scan the circular room before you sit at a small desk with his correspondence spread over top, the wax still melting over a candle. You can see his bed from the corner of your eye â his private quarters.
âMy lady, after our conversation in the gardensâŠâ He stops himself, making sure that you are meeting his gaze. âI could not help but look into matters that you have hinted at, in genuine concern for your well-being, and I am afraid that I have uncovered a concerning truth.â
âPray tell, my lord, what truth? You do not have to spare my feelings.â
âI got word from a trusted source that your lord husband has been seen in⊠certain establishments in the Street of Silks.â
âI am afraid that this is not news to me, my lord,â you say and he regards you with surprise.
âYou are aware?â
âIf it please, my lord, I would prefer for this to remain private. It is already shameful enough without the entire court knowing.â
âOf course, my lady, I merely wished for you to know the vicious actsââ
You have to suppress a dry chuckle, wondering why he seems so astonished by your husbandâs ways. âVicious? My lord, I am hardly the only lady bound to a husband who seeks his pleasure elsewhere.â
Ottoâs voice drips with venom. âThat does not make it any less despicable.â
You nod, conceding to his point. âMay I be truthful, my lord?â
âCertainly.â
âI would rather he takes his needs elsewhere than continue toâŠâ You pause, trying to phrase your thoughts without leaving respectability. âI have given up hopes on a child of my own, so there is no need to continue our efforts. I find no enjoyment in them and with no remaining purpose I find myself incapable of putting my body through the pain.â
His gaze changes now, sympathy perhaps. The crease on his forehead is deeper. âPain, my lady?â
âWere you not aware that it is painful, my lord?â
âYou say this as though it is a fact.â
âIs it not?â you ask, confused as to his meaning.
He looks at you as though there is something weighing on him, something he is desperate to share, but when his mouth opens no words come out. The lord spreads his palms on his desk as he sits up straighter, his hands pale and broad, adorned with rings that reflect the light of the candles. âMy lady, I fear that the continuation of this conversation will lead us beyond the realms of propriety.â
You nod, averting your gaze in shame. âPlease forgive me, my lord.â
âThere is nothing to forgive, my lady. I understand there is a⊠curiosity that grows upon the discovery of such intimate matters.â
You fight back the tears that have gathered in your eyes. âNo matter, he is not requesting my presence anymore. I just wonderââ Again, you have to pause, feeling like a child again and not like a woman of two-and-twenty years. âIs it true, my lord?â
He furrows his brow. âIs what true, my lady?â
âAm I not handsome enough? My fatherââ
âYour father should never have spoken to you like that,â he interrupts, only catching his tone after the words left his mouth. You are surprised he still recalls that conversation. âI can assure you, my lady, that your beauty is greatly admired at court and certainly not the reason that your husband is disrespecting you in such a way.â
âAnd yet, perhaps he cannot find it.â You swallow the tears of irritation that are threatening to spill. âPlease forget that I ever mentioned this to you, my lord. I hope you can forgive me for my transgression. I am aware that my intent is one that does not befit a lady of my station and that you cannot give me counsel in such matters. I thank you for your concern and for looking out for me when no one else does.â
âMy lady.â His voice is soft, hardly more than a whisper and when you meet his eyes you see a glimmer in them that is akin to the longing you feel in your heart.
Perhaps it is this notion that gives you the courage. You place your delicate hand on top of his, feeling the lines and ridges, scars of a long life spent with a sword in his grasp. He does not pull away, not even when you smooth your thumb over his skin in a tender stroke. You repeat the movement, his eyes fixated on your joint hands, and round the table without letting go.
Once you are in his lap, you let go of his hand to toy with his doublet, tracing the chains around his neck, the brooch that shows the world that he is the hand of the king, the second most powerful man in all the Seven Kingdoms. And yet the power he wields over you far surpasses that of anyone else. Your faces are at the same height now, your noses brushing together before you lean back. You take his hand in both of yours, admiring how large it is, how you have to use both hands to fully grasp it. For a brief moment you bring it to your lips, breathing a kiss to his knuckles. The silver ring on his finger feels cool against your mouth, his skin softer than you expected.
âMy lady,â he warns, the hesitation evident in his eyes.
You place his hand on your waist and to your delight he curls it around your shape. When you reach for his other hand he meets you halfway. They settle over your hips, holding you in place, and you rest your own hands on top of them for a moment to feel the warmth of his skin. This is how a loverâs touch should feel, you think. Gentle and warm. Safe.
âThis is foolish,â he comments but his voice is too soft to convey the sentiment.
âPerhaps,â you agree. âLet me be foolish for once, my lord. I want to know what it feels like to follow my desires, to have a memory that I can retreat to when I need it.â
His throat constricts as he swallows, his gentle gaze fixed on you as you inspect the soft wrinkles on his face, the discoloured skin below his eyes that crinkles when they move. You lift a hand to caress him, shy fingertips exploring the shape of his face. Your lord stays still for you, allowing you the innocent touch even as his heart tightens at the intimacy of it all. He has not been touched by a woman in so long that he quite forgot the reactions it lures from his body, the want, the need it stokes when such a sublime creatures offers him the tenderness and comfort he so craves.
You shift forward and suddenly his thigh is pressing against that soft part between your legs. The pressure sends a jolt through your body. You gasp and his eyes flutter closed for a moment. You move your hand to comb his beard, your fingertips grazing the skin underneath until you can cup his cheek. The lord leans into your touch, eyes still shut, and breathes a burdensome sigh.
âLet me adjust you,â he finally says as his eyes open, waiting for you to give a nod before his grasp tightens. He lifts you enough that your leg slides between his, shifting his hips forward to give you more space. You are straddling his thigh now, the fabric of your dress bunched up high enough that you can feel him pressing against your core through your shift and your linens.
âMy lord,â you whisper.
âMove your hips,â he instructs. âGently, and tell me when you feel it.â
âFeel what, my lord?â
âYou will know, darling girl.â
With your eyes on his you do as he says, rocking your hips clumsily at first. His hands guide you into a more fluid rhythm and you find more confidence when you feel the first sparks of pleasure his firm leg sends through your body. Your gasps soon fill the room, even as you try to hold them back. You recognise the feeling and the heat, you have felt it at times when your husband happened to touch certain parts of you, when you tried to touch yourself but werenât courageous enough to continue. Only now the intensity is tenfold, especially with the lordâs keen eyes so focused on your mouth, on every sigh that leaves your lips.
âMy beauty,â he whispers. âCarved from marble, a face that even the Gods must envy, and yet he does not see it, does not treasure it. What a shame to be gifted such a beautiful flower and to let it wilt in neglect.â
His words hardly register as he bounces his leg to meet your rhythm. The sparks of pleasure that spread in your body feel wrong, almost shameful, and yet you want to chase, need to chase them. But then the pressure slowly becomes uncomfortable, a tension that you donât recognise but that is bordering on painful. You whimper, stopping your efforts, whispering that it is too much.
âKeep going,â your lord orders, gripping your hips tightly to drag you across his leg. âDo not stop.â
âI c-cannotââ
âShhhh,â he coos. âTrust me, my girl.â
You cry out softly, picking your rhythm back up as he helps you with strong hands, the hands of a knight, a powerful man that you have wanted since you knew what wanting really meant. The tension pushes you towards an invisible edge and then you fallâ
âMy lord. My lord.â You wail as if in pain, your face falling against his as your breathing becomes more shallow and the pleasure tears through your body. He does not stop you as you hide your face, his beard soft against your cheek as he drags out the sensation by moving his leg back and forth, pressing against that spot again and again. The fabric of your linens as well as his pants feels damp against your core.
Your body goes slack and his arms wrap around you, cradling you against his broad chest as you catch your breath. Even as your body stops trembling the warmth and contentment stay trapped within you, your muscles slowly relaxing now.
âMy darling girl,â he whispers, breathing a kiss to your hair. âAnd how well you did.â
âWhat have you done to me?â you ask breathlessly.
âWhat you are owed, my lady,â he says with a chuckle. âI have given you pleasureâ
âPleasure.â The word tastes sweet on your tongue but it comes with a sting. How cruel to give you a crumb of bliss only to pull it away again.
You lift your head to look at him, a softness on his face that lets you believe he holds a warm affection for you, at least for this fleeting moment. The desire to kiss him is overwhelming and you place your hand on his other thigh. Immediately you feel the hardness between his legs against your arm and you flinch back in uncertainty. âMy lord.â
âPay it no mind,â he says.
You ignore him and place your hand on his stiff member, feeling the outline clearly even through the fabric of his garbs. The gasp that leaves him sounds like music, the first sign that this is affecting him beyond what he is willing to share. You want to kiss him still, your face inching closer on its own accord. His hand moves up to cup your chin and he places his thumb on your plump bottom lip, only allowing you to hover above his own mouth. It is but a futile attempt at restraint, at keeping up the illusion that nothing here is untoward. You move your hand to stroke him through his pants and his hips buck to meet your movement.
âGods have mercy,â he breathes, his voice raspy and barely audible.
You wonder how long it has been since someone touched him like this. Mesmerised by his reaction, you do it again and his eyes flutter closed, his unkempt brows furrowing so tightly that they almost meet. After only a handful more strokes he releases a scarcely concealed groan and you feel him kicking against your hand, the thick fabric turning wet as it soaks up his spend.
His ragged breathing betrays his state, even as he controls any other sound that leaves him. You are still trapped in the haze of your own bliss, in the newfound sense of power you have gained from whatever it is that you just did to him. He still wonât let you kiss him, his thumb firm against your lips. Perhaps it is better that way, you think, the only skin of his you have touched being that of his hands.
âMy sweet girl,â he says after a moment, clearing his tight throat with some effort. âWe can never speak of this again.â
The words tear you back down from your high, their reality so evident, so clear. You nod and allow the pain to spread in your heart, expected but all the more severe. Of course nothing has changed, not in truth, even though you feel like you will never be the same again.
Otto removes you from his lap, making sure that you can stand on your own and waiting patiently until your legs stop wobbling, his hands firm on your hips. His face betrays his regret â he cannot hide his emotions from you anymore, not after what you just did. He is such an honourable man, valuing propriety and respect above all else, that this must pain him more than you can understand.
You make sure your gown sits correctly and smooth out the strands of hair that have fallen into your face from moving so erratically. The door-handle feels cool against your warm hand, a feverish sensation spreading within you. You spare the lord one last glance, your eyes meeting his for a burning hot moment, and then you slip through the door, a profound sense of loss slowly settling in your bones.
3 The Lonely Days
Your handmaiden carefully adjusts the sleeves of your gown, a deep blue fabric with golden accents to match the colours of your husbandâs house. Bejewelled earrings and a bracelet complete your look, dainty jewellery with blue stones just like he once told you he prefers. You stare at your reflection in the polished metal for a long moment, struggling to recognise yourself even after years of wearing his colours. You are almost ready when the door to your chambers opens and a footman enters with his gaze lowered.
âWhat is it?â you ask impatiently.
âHis lordship has requested to stay in bed tonight,â he says. âHe is not feeling well enough to accompany you to the celebration, mâlady.â
âHe is unwell?â
âHe has been sleeping for most of the day, mâlady, complained about a headache.â
âWhy have I not been informed?â
The servant simply stares at the floor and you sigh as you realise that the signs point to a long night down in the brothels more so than an acute illness. It would certainly not be the first time that he is leaving you to your own devices to nurse the ailments of a night spent drinking andâ You clear your throat.
âSend for a maester should he not feel better in the morning,â you tell him. âAnd inform me of his condition the moment it changes.â
A nod and the door softly closes. Another event you will have to attend by yourself. You would be glad to avoid a night of his indifference were it not for the fact that his absence must appear even more worrisome to the other houses. You are anything but a strong unit and talks about your childless marriage never cease â you see them whispering their rumours from ear to ear whenever you enter a room, followed by pitiful glances.
âAnything else, mâlady?â your handmaiden asks. âPerhaps a shawl in case you feel a chill?â
You falter for a moment as you look down at yourself and suddenly detest your whole attire. Why are you dressing for a man who disrespects you at any chance he gets, who cannot even exert himself to appear by your side when it truly matters? âApologies, Malena, but I have decided that I will wear the green dress tonight after all.â
She bows and you begin to undress as she fetches the garment. There is only one pair of eyes that you want to feel on your body tonight and it wonât be drawn to blue fabric.
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The hall is filled to the brim with people of all houses â a banquet to which not only the capitalâs nobility has been invited but any noble who was willing to commit to the journey to Kingâs Landing. It is a celebration in honour of the Prince Aegonâs nameday but Otto insisted on the opulence â the prince has to stay on their minds, his grandson, namesake of Aegon the Conqueror, and as far as Otto is concerned the future regent of the Seven Kingdoms.
Noisy chatter fills his ears as he watches his lovely daughter introducing Aegon as well as the Princess Helaena, her second child, to the lords and ladies who have not had the pleasure yet. His Grace is watching them with a gentle smile on his face and Otto cannot help but feel a hint of complacency. Thanks to Aegon the mess the king created in naming his daughter his heir can be mended, if he plays it well.
Even though he feels a deep affection for his grandchildren, two innocent infants who are blissfully unaware of the role they are going to play in securing peace and order in the realm, Ottoâs eyes are drawn to the entrance. You are late, a few minutes of tardiness that Otto spends wondering if you decided against attending after all, perhaps in favour of staying with your lord husband. He was informed just an hour ago by one of his little mice that the lord is feeling rather unwell this evening, that he has been complaining about different symptoms for a while now. Otto is not surprised by the news. These may well be the first signs that his increasingly frivolous whereabouts are affecting the manâs health and, therefore, his accountability.
When you do arrive at last, Otto is quite struck by the sight of you entering the hall â so much so that Alicent rouses him with a concerned look on her face. He gives her a reassuring smile, then trains his eyes back to your form. It is quite distracting, the way your dress accentuates your womanly figure. His colour, he notes, the dark shade of green he usually wears. A mere moment later you eye him with a gentle smile playing at your lips and his suspicion is confirmed that youâre wearing it for him. Gods, he finds that your beauty is taking his breath away even more so than usual. Not that he did not admire you before, you have always been a sight for the Gods, but now that he knows what you sound like in the throes of your pleasure you fully and irrevocably occupy his mind.
Perhaps tonight, then, he thinks, toying with the small box he has been keeping in his pocket for a few weeks now. You are tempting him to folly, evoking emotions of a strength he has not felt in years. Even his work is impacted by this attachment. He finds his hands forming fists underneath the table whenever your lord husband speaks up during council meetings, most days still half drunk from the night before. Pathetic, with no sense of honour, besmearing your good name in the process. Seeing you now without this worm hanging by your arm is most welcome, wearing his colour no less, a beautiful deep green. It seems that you are well aware of who you truly belong to.
No, who you should belong to, Otto must correct himself. A constant reminder of a mistake that caught up to him faster than he would have wished for. A mistake that calls for more mistakes that he cannot allow to happen.
Dinner passes with stolen glances and timid smiles. Ever since the moment you shared in his quarters you seem to blush and turn away whenever you catch sight of him and yet it seems like your gaze never strays too far. It is quite endearing, the shy glances, the rosy cheeks that no one else knows are just for him. As daring as you were in the privacy of the tower, you have respected his wish to never mention it again. It is for your own protection, of course, although Otto fears what it would do to his own integrity if word spread about an illicit affair, no matter that what occurred between you hardly deserves the name. He has been meticulously crafting his reputation for decades now and he cannot allow these foolish desires to taint it.
Soon, the dancing is in full swing. For a brief moment he indulges in the fantasy of asking you to do him the honour, to see the cheerful smile on your face he has not seen since he married you to Alister. Judging by the expression on your face as you observe the dancery, he imagines that you long for a partner to share the delights of a joyful evening. Young as you are, it is a shame that you should sit in your chair all night. Another reason to loathe your husband, not that he is lacking for those.
Perhaps this is the reason why you slip away the moment the steady flow of wine and musical distractions allows you to do so unobserved. It is his only chance. Otto rises as soon as he can without arousing suspicion. The hour is late enough to justify a reprieve.
âExcuse me for a moment, your Grace,â he says without waiting for an answer.
The castle is abandoned and his steps echo loudly, bouncing off the stone walls of the keep. He finds you in an empty hallway halfway back to your chambers, gazing out of a window that overlooks the gardens that he knows you are so very fond of. The two guards who are closest pay him no mind, yet he dismisses them with a nod and they take station at a more unobtrusive spot.
You turn as his steps approach, confused momentarily as to who could be following you. When you recognise the figure as him your expression visibly softens and your guard is let down once more. The effect he has on you should alarm you but on the contrary, you seem to be eager to welcome him in your presence.
âAre you tiring of the festivities, my lady?â he asks, approaching you with cautious strides.
âI do not have much to celebrate, my lord. You might have heard that my lord husband is feeling rather unwell.â
âAnd yet you are not with him, no?â
You eye him with barely hidden annoyance and he chuckles lowly, satisfied. There is hardly any cause for jealousy when your disdain is so very obvious. Otto approaches, closing the distance cautiously to make sure that you remain comfortable in his proximity. He stops about two steps away from you, a towering and broad figure compared to your shorter frame, and you have to look up to meet his eyes. He drinks you in for a long time, not lustful but in admiration, letting his gaze wander over your body in a way that has goosebumps spreading all over your skin. He would count every single one of them, if he had the time.
âYou look beautiful tonight, my lady,â he whispers. âA new colour?â
You meet his eyes, boldly this time, in the way that makes him want to pull you into his arms and ravish you. âMy favourite colour.â
âIs that so?â
A timid smile. âI know, I should not, I cannot⊠But, my lord, you know that it is true.â
âIt is alright, my sweet,â he assures you. âIndeed, catching you alone allows me to do something I have been avoiding for too long and I do not mean complimenting your beauty.â
âAnd what would that be, my lord?â
âI do not wish to offend your sensibilities, my lady, I know it is not my place to lavish you with gifts and you may find it presumptuous, but⊠I have something that I wish to offer you.â Your eyes widen, so he quickly continues. âI am in no position to put a claim on you and yet it would please me greatly to see you wearing it on occasion. I am certain that you can think of a plausible explanation as to how it came into your possession.â
Before you can protest he retrieves the small box from his pocket. Taking off the lid he reveals a finely crafted ring with a sparkling green gemstone â a real emerald. He must admit the choice of colour was quite on purpose, green as the beacon of the Hightower when his house rides to war. A war Otto cannot win, he knows, but it is a war he is fighting every day nonetheless. To see you fighting it with him, if subtle, would be a great source of comfort.
âMy lord, but this isâŠâ You admire the beautiful piece of jewellery, your eyes drawn to the way it shimmers in the moonlight, subtle and delicate but breathtaking nonetheless. âIt is too much.â
âI am afraid that no gemstone will ever suffice to express what I truly wish to say, my lady,â he says. âAnd yet I hope you will honour me by wearing it.â
You nod and stretch out your hand. The lord takes the ring and carefully slides it onto your finger. A perfect fit of course, he made sure of that. His larger hand gently holds yours so that he can admire the jewel and you briefly rest your other hand on top of his. His skin is warm and weathered. It is all you want to feel for the rest of your life.
âForgive me,â he says and youâre not quite certain what he means until he lifts your hand to his mouth and places a reverent kiss on the back of it. He lingers, his beard tickling your soft skin as his lips travel along your knuckles and finally rest on the gem.
âI shall think of you whenever I wear it,â you supply. Then, with a softer voice: âThough, in truth and in shame I must admit that I already think of you more than is proper, my lord. You occupy my mind and heart at all times. You always have.â
He smiles, a tight-lipped, pained smile. âYou honour me, my lady, in ways that I fear I do not deserve.â
âIt matters not what we deserve, my lord.â You lift your hand and cradle his face, stroking his cheekbone tenderly with your thumb. âI shall find comfort in knowing that you return my affections at last.â
âMy darling girl,â he whispers and the words sound like a prayer from his lips.
You close your eyes for a moment, trapped in the sensation of his lips on your skin, the feeling of his beard against your fingertips just like he is trapped in the gentleness of your touch, in the longing for more of your simple comforts that he has to deny himself over and over again. You both pray in silence that the moment never ends, and yet he has to let go of you eventually and come to his senses. How cruel to ache for a love that he denied himself in the first place.
⊠⧠âŠ
Your sitting room is illuminated by burnt-down candles, the hour late as you have reclined on a settee to read in your book. Truth be told, you should be sleeping, but you cannot bear to let your mind wander as it tends to do in the quiet of your canopy.
To your surprise, the door opens and your husband stumbles in. Even from afar you can tell that he reeks of wine and the fumes of the city. He sits down in a chair and stares at you in a manner that has always made you rather uncomfortable. Rare as it is, you do not enjoy his company.
âI overheard a most interesting conversation in the council chamber,â he says out of nowhere, a smug smile playing at his lips. âAbout the Lord Hand, Otto Hightower.â
You pause, closing the book as you gaze at your husband in interest now. He is not in the habit of discussing politics with you and certainly does not bring up the council on his own accord.
âHe was dismissed as Hand to the King,â he continues, standing now to pour himself a glass of wine from your private pitcher. âFinally, thank the Seven.â
âPray, what do you mean?â
âThe king finally had enough of his little schemes. He does not wish for Aegon to be his heir, he insists on keeping the Princess in the position and rightfully so. Your lord got too bold with his endless attempts at installing his own grandson as heir, spreading rumours about the Princess. His greed for power is so obvious even our blind king can see it now. Perhaps you should go and bid your lord farewell before he departs.â
âHe is not my lord, whatever are you talking about?â
He sets the glass down, turning to you with a withering expression. âDo you think I am not aware that you are wearing green more often? That youâre suddenly wearing emeralds instead of blue stones? That your lord continuously eyes me with disdain when I speak up during council meetings and dismisses any of my suggestions, even proceeds to work against them? How his eyes linger on you when we are invited to sup with the king and his family? I may not be the most devoted of spouses but I do have eyes in my skull.â
âUnlike you I remain in control of my desires. As does he,â you reply coldly. âThe Gods see what you are doing in the Street of Silks, what you are doing to your own wife.â
âPerhaps,â he admits. âBut my sins do not absolve you from your own and, let us be frank, my dear lady wife. The difference between thought and action matters little to the Gods when it comes to corruption. Whether it festers on the inside or the outside you end up rotten. I might as well take what life offers to me instead of pining after someone who could be my own father. It makes you look pathetic and not just in my eyes.â
You bite back a reply. His provocations mean little to you, especially with the knowledge that the Lord Hand has been dismissed from his position. If it is true then he may leave Kingâs Landing for good.
Leave you.
Without another word you abandon your book and exit your chambers. In the quiet of the old hallways of the keep you take a few deep breaths, the tightness of your dress suddenly suffocating you. This cannot be true, you think, His Grace would never dismiss such a trusted advisor, such a devoted servant of the realm. But then you know Otto is ambitious, that his plans at times may be unpopular and that the peace of the realm has always ranked higher for him than the will of the king. The Princess threatens the delicate balance between the lords of the Seven Kingdoms, threatens the loyalty of many houses to the crown who will not accept a queen where there is a male heir to be had. And while you always loved the Princess and considered her to be a worthy successor you can see why he may have tried to sway the king in Aegonâs favour. He is his grandsire, after all, and he knows the ways of court politics.
As soon as your racing heart beats a more bearable rhythm, you hurry to the Tower of the Hand. However, the guards inform you that you cannot enter as it has been abandoned not long ago. You are unaware as to when this conversation your husband overheard took place and the hour is late, or perhaps too early, when you finally decide to retreat to your own chambers.
You see nothing of Otto over the next day, even though you are pacing the hallways of the keep in a way that must make even the guards nervous. You all but give up on ever seeing him again until from a window you spot Queen Alicent by the gate across the courtyard with a rider who you can only assume is her father.
He is leaving, you realise.
Heart pounding anew you hurry down the stairs, nearly tripping over your dress as you run faster than is deemed appropriate for a lady. But you care not, even as your feet begin to ache and you finally reach the courtyard. It is pouring, the rain mercilessly beating down from the skies above but you cannot wait for anyone to fetch you a coat. When you approach the gate you hear the clicking of the hooves on distant cobblestone but the rider has already left.
You donât, cannot, stop, not until you are by Alicentâs side, your Queen, your friend, who falls into your arms in painful, shaking sobs that vibrate deep within your chest. Something inside of you breaks with a finality that weakens your very bones. You cannot hold back your tears either, letting them mix in with the rain until you cannot tell them apart any longer.
4 The Widowed Days
Every morning, you observe the murky water rushing down the river and mouthing into Blackwater Bay â a steady, endless stream with harsh currents as well as the occasional softer tide when the weather is more agreeable. Time passes in much the same way.
It has been nearly ten years since the first symptoms showed, made memorable by the night of Prince Aegonâs name day celebration. While the illness progressed slowly at first, with years and years of mild symptoms, your husbandâs health has been declining rapidly over the past two years. You take care of him to the best of your abilities but as a proud man he does not wish to be fussed over and more often than not he sends you away. The maesters are clueless as to his condition, perhaps the repercussions of his drinking excesses that would not cease even as his affliction progressed. Whenever you look at him you see a withering face, the face of a man much older than the years he truly lived. Even though you donât hold much love for him it pains you to see him succumbing to such an undignified illness.
You have not much to hold onto besides the fantasies your mind conjures up in the quiet hours you spend in the keep, a weak attempt at comfort. The years have not diminished your love for Ser Otto, or rather the desire for a love that could have been. He comes to you in dreams, fragments of memories of the feel of his weathered hands in yours, the scratch of his beard against your fingertips.
Alicent knows about your affections for her father as you spilled your heart to her the very moment he had left and you found comfort in each otherâs arms upon his departure. Ever since, your bond is as strong as it used to be in your childhood, perhaps even more so with years of hardships added to its weight. Thanks to her you know that he is in good health, that he is safe in Oldtown, and as much as you long to see him again you are comforted in knowing that he is faring well.
You spend much time helping her raise her children, especially the Princess Helaena, an intelligent but misunderstood girl who struggles with the life she was forced into, not unlike her mother. Alicentâs role as queen is demanding and you notice how she is changing, becoming more and more like her father, a clever woman forged by court politics and increasing responsibilities as Queen of the Seven Kingdoms. Life at court has become tense with rumours about the legitimacy of the Princess Rhaenyraâs offspring, with tensions between her children and those of the queen as well as the notable decline of the kingâs health. You do not envy her.
The night he left, you found a letter from Otto on your bed, delivered to you in secret â a brief message that was written in haste before his departure. My lady, I regret to inform you that my time at court has come to a premature end. However, I remain hopeful that we will meet again under improved circumstances. Know that it pains me to leave you without as much as a spoken farewell. In my absence, I ask you to remain by my daughterâs side, if not for the affection that I hope you still hold for me then as her loyal childhood companion and friend. May the Seven keep you in good health, Otto.
You know it by heart, the parchment old and scarcely readable by now. Since then, some letters have been exchanged between Ser Otto and you in which you have informed him about the whereabouts of his grandchildren and he thanked you for your support of his daughter and family. Even so, you remain a married woman and regular correspondence with a man who is not your husband raises too many questions, too many rumours on top of an already strained reputation. So you keep the exchanges sparse, hold the replies he sends you as dearly as you can, and tell yourself that he must be thinking of you fondly still or he would not write to you at all.
With your husband bedridden and often unresponsive, you find yourself a widow in all but law. Though your life feels even lonelier than during the first few years of your marriage, you found solace in frequenting the gardens, supporting the capitalâs orphanages as well as keeping the queenâs company. Every morning you go on a lengthy walk, reminiscing about the time you spent here with Otto, following the exact route you took with him the morning of the hunt. It feels as though centuries have passed since then â the bushes have been replaced, the paths altered, even you yourself donât feel like the same person anymore. What never changes, however, is the beauty of the sunrise over Blackwater Bay, though the colours vary and are never quite the same â every morning a welcome but familiar surprise.
When you return one morning, the Keep is more alive than usual at this hour. Servants are running past you almost as though you are invisible. Perhaps they prepare for the arrival of some noble guests, you think and head to the nearest window facing the outer courtyard. You cannot see any larger wheelhouses, nor do you spot anything out of the ordinary. That is, until one of the riders by the gate lifts his hood.
You scarcely believe your eyes. It must be a trick, an evil one at that, but you could swear that he looks like Ser Otto. It would not be the first time that you see him in someone elseâs face, that your mind deceives you so cruelly into believing that he is near. Missing him has been one of the harder burdens of the past decade and sometimes relief means delusion for just a few precious seconds. However, as you continue to observe the man, you cannot help but see Otto in in his shape, his height, in the way he moves.
Of course you know that Lord Strong and his son Ser Harwin recently perished in a fire at Harrenhal but you had not assumed that Alicent would send for her father to replace the Lord Hand. It is entirely possible, however. Suddenly invigorated, you storm down the stairs and head outside in what may be unseemly but entirely necessary for your own sanity.
You nearly stumble when you finally exit the keep, though fortunately the lord does not notice your ineptitude as he gives orders to a footman. Seeing him in the flesh feels like a dream, his tall stature only slightly more slumped with age but not diminishing his dignified presence in the slightest. Your heart begins to hammer in excitement, in relief, and you have to hold back the tears to feign an indifferent politeness.
âMy Lord,â you say. âHow it delights me to see you back in the capital.â
He turns to offer you his full attention. Within a split second recognition flits across his face. âMy lady.â A soft chuckle. âWell, you honour me. How lovely to be greeted by a welcome, familiar face.â
âIt gladdens me to see that you are in good health,â you say happily as your eyes meet the very face you have not seen in near a decade. âIn fact you have not changed at all, except perhaps for a few grey hairs.â
He smiles at your mild teasing and you wonder if the years away from court have softened him. âAs a wise lady once told me: My age only adds to my character. And the same appears to be true for you. You haveâŠâ He pauses, weighing his words. â⊠matured.â
You give a soft laugh. âIt has been ten years, I should hope so. Or are you implying that I look old, my lord?â
âI would not dare suggest such a thing,â he says. âLet me rephrase, my lady. The years have served to enhance your beauty.â
Warmth blooms in your cheeks at the first openly spoken compliment after so many years and for a moment you feel like the little girl that used to admire him from afar. If she were here now she would be floating on saccharine clouds for the rest of the day, daydreaming about him reciprocating her hidden desires. But you are not that girl anymore. The past decade has left its ugly marks on you and coveting what you cannot have has only brought you the deepest misery. You vow to protect your heart, no matter how much it wants to beat out of your chest and land in his gentle hands.
âThank you, my lord,â you say. âI trust that we will see each other more frequently now.â
âI should hope so, my lady, since I am reassuming my position as Hand of the King.â
You perk up in delight at the news, your suspicion confirmed. âI do not wish to keep you, my lord, I am sure you long to be reunited with your family and acquaint yourself with the current state of affairs. I do hope we will get the chance to speak in more depth.â
âI will make sure of it, my lady.â
His expression gives you hope that his promise is sincere.
⊠⧠âŠ
âA green dress,â you order, dabbing some of your scented oils to your neck and wrists.
âWhich one, mâlady?â
âThe darker one with the lower neckline, I think. Or the green-gold one?â
Your handmaid smiles to herself; you think she must be amused by your antics. âI think he would like the lower cut, mâlady, if I may speak so freely.â
As always she can read your thoughts and you have to agree. âThen that one it is, Malena. And donât forget to bring the emerald ring.â
You hope his lordship wonât be cross with you. He did not seem opposed to your initiative the last few times you were alone together, even if that was over a decade ago, so you hope he wonât mind you paying him a visit so soon. He has been rather occupied since arriving but tonight Alicent invited you to sup with their family and you are quite certain this means the Lord Hand must be ready for company.
The hour is still early, the sun has only just risen and you are getting ready to start your day with a visit to the Tower of the Hand before your morning walk. You are not sure you could sit through supper without having seen him for yourself first. The past days have been filled with anticipation, the sheer prospect of being in his proximity enough to keep you awake at night.
As your feet carry you up the stairs after many years of absence, your heart is beating mercilessly against your ribcage. You carry a small basket, clutching it tightly to your front so its content comes to no harm.
The men of the Handâs household guard allow you to enter without a second glance, announcing you briefly. Otto Hightower stands from his chair, surprise but no dismissal in his features. He easily rounds his desk to approach you and you are once again struck by his tall frame, the grace with which he moves.
âGood morrow, my lord,â you say, trying to find your courage. âI have come to deliver a welcome present for you. I thought you might still be weary after your long travels andââ You pause, looking at him and his tired eyes. âForgive me for being so forward. I am certain that you are quite occupied andââ
âNo need for apologies, my lady, I would have sent for you shortly.â
âI wanted to give you more time to arrive, my lord, but I simply could notââ Again you pause, your heart hammering so fast that it drowns out the thoughts in your head. âI could not fight the urge to see you.â
The lord takes a step in your direction, an untamed emotion in his eyes now, and he only falters for a moment before he fully closes the gap between you. His hands grasp your wrists and wander up your arms, careful and slow, as though he is trying remember the shape of you. With a tender expression he finally captures your face and while his openly displayed attention confuses you you canât help but melt into his touch. The lord leans forward, his beard and nose brushing against your cheek as he inhales, taking a deep breath to have his fill of you. All of his senses satiated, he releases a wistful sigh, the depth of which sends heat pooling into your lower belly.
âI brought you some oils, my lord, lavender for sleeping aâ andââ You pause when his lips trail along you jaw, so soft you hardly feel them. âMy lordââ
âTell me,â he urges. âTell me you feel the same, my sweet girl. That you did not forget me. You must let me know.â
You canât help but whimper, his insistence making your skin tingle with need. âI have missed you every single day, my lord,â you whisper as if in silent prayer, the truth spilling out despite your resolution to be cautious. âNo day would pass that your vision did not haunt me. I have dreamt of the day that the Gods would return you to me, begged for it in the darkest hours of my existence.â
Another deep breath, shakier than before, and he looks at you with a fire you have never before seen in the calm lordâs eyes. âThe Maid herself sent you into my arms all those years ago, the sweetest girl I had ever seen, and I was fool enough to refuse her gift. To this day it is my biggest regret.â
âRegret not, my lord, please.â You set the basket down on his desk right by your side, then you place your hands on top of his, gently grasping them where they are still holding your face. âYou did what you thought to be right and honourable.â
âAnd doomed you to a life by the side of a man who could not cherish you as I wished to do.â He huffs out a breath, two long thumbs stroking over your wet cheeks. You are unaware as to when you started crying but now you can feel the tears burning in your lash line, pearling onto his fingers. As you grasp his hands tighter his eyes are caught by the sparkling emerald on your finger and his expression softens with sentimentality. âYou still own it?â
âIt is my greatest treasure.â
The lord closes his eyes, his brow furrowed tightly in a way that betrays his pain. âI shall make things right, sweet girl. I promise this to you.â
âBut my lord, I am still maââ
A loud knock interrupts your words. You break apart just as a servant enters the chamber and you are certain that you must be red and hot as the flaming tips of dragonâs breath. The servant appears to be quite winded, as though he ran up the many stairs of the tower in quite a hurry.
âExcuse me, mâlord, mâlady,â the man says. âIt is urgent. I was sent to come looking for you.â
âWhat is it?â you ask, brow furrowed in increasing confusion. You look to Ser Otto for help but his expression is filled with sympathy, almost as though he knows what the man is going to say even before you do.
âIt is your lord husband, mâlady. He passed in his sleep.â
⊠⧠âŠ
An orange sunset coats the roofs of Kingâs Landing in its golden light as you let the evening fade out on a balcony with Alicent by your side. You were supping with her family just earlier, for the first time in a decade joined by her father as well. Even though you had to push the occasion back, caused by the recent news of your lord husbandâs passing, the evening was pleasant and a welcome distraction. You had not seen the Lord Hand since visiting him in the Tower and though not many words were spoken between you this evening you found comfort in the way he would meet your eyes so reassuringly.
It has only been little over a week since the Silent Sisters took Alister for cleansing, to prepare him for his final goodbye. Since then you have received many offers of commiseration, in letters as well as from people here at court. You wanted to spend your period of mourning alone but your queen forbid it after a mere four days of isolation. She said she needed you, having received her own news of loss, and that you should spend each other comfort in these times. Now, watching the sunset for the first time after you lost him you are glad that she is here with you.
âThe Stranger has visited us again and so soon,â Alicent says, pouring you a glass of wine. âFirst your husband and now Laena Velaryon.â
You accept the wine, even though you donât drink before your queen has taken her first sip. âAnd they were both too young, though I am afraid my husband wonât be as direly missed as the Lady Laena.â
âPerhaps he sensed that my father came back, that it was his time to go knowing you would not be alone in your grief.â
âHe would not have done me the kindness of letting go so that I could be with your father,â you reply, no emotion in your voice as you speak the words frankly for the first time. âIf he had known he would have made sure to live another decade, just to make me miserable. He once said that my feelings for the Lord Hand made me pathetic and I doubt he ever changed his mind. He was always too fond of the Princess.â
She regards you hesitantly, the monotony in your voice no doubt unsettling her. âNo matter, he is gone now, a blessing after all the pain and suffering he had to endure. May he rest with the Gods.â
She finally drinks and you take a sip as well, tasting the sweetness of the wine in contrast to the bitter reality of your life. A childless widow now, at just over thirty years of age. Even though you never loved your husband you feel a sense of loss. For the life you could have had, perhaps, a life without the stain of a childless, loveless marriage that ended far too soon. The family he never gave you, the true love he took from you.
âIf it is still your wish,â she says, sensing your thoughts, âthen I will not object to a match between you and my father when the time comes. You are already an integral part of our family, we might as well make it official. And I want you on my side for what is to come, the both of you.â An awkward smile. âThough I must admit⊠it will take me some time to get used to calling you mother.â
âPlease, do not call me mother.â You both have to laugh at that notion, the first real sign of emotion you allow to bubble out of you in days. âHowever, I am not sure if the Lord Handâs affections run so deep that he would propose a wedding.â
Alicent smiles, grasping your hand in hers. âHe would be a fool not to marry you and my father is anything but.â
5 The Happy Days
You roll up the letter and place it back on the table, staring at the broken wax seal with the sigil of your fatherâs house. Amongst the bustle of the royal family arriving back from Driftmark you nearly missed the raven this morning. The keep had been entirely too quiet as the kingâs family was away to attend the Lady Laenaâs funeral but now that they have returned rumours are spreading like fire.
It is easy to tell that something has gone awry. The Prince Aemond is missing an eye, the people at court whisper when you take a stroll in the gardens to clear your head. A conflict, a bloody fight between the children of Queen Alicent and the Princess Rhaenyra. You have to refrain from intruding as your concern grows after hearing increasingly violent stories, the need to see Alicent and the children overwhelming. It is almost enough to distract you from the news you received that very morning.
You donât expect anyone to call on you soon in the aftermath of what happened and with the tension still so very palpable within the Red Keep. The very evening of the familyâs return, however, a footman arrives at your door carrying a small chest with a familiar crest.
âThe Lord Hand sends for you, mâlady. He wishes for you to wear these.â
⊠⧠âŠ
The Tower smells of incense. It is the first thing you notice and you wonder if your lord has been praying, calling to the Gods for his grandson. Unlike many times before you do not find him behind his desk but on a daybed that must have been brought in recently. The padding looks unused, rich green brocade, and it is positioned perfectly in front of the hearth to provide ample warmth during cooler nights. You wonder if his joints are troubling him.
Otto Hightower looks up, the flames casting an orange glow on his handsome face, and his features soften remarkably as he beholds you. Under his gaze you fiddle with the matching pair of emerald and gold cuffs he gifted you and that his eyes are drawn to immediately.
âMy lord sent for me,â you say, hovering by the door.
âI should like to have your company tonight,â he says, patting the spot beside him. âI am in need of a gentle face and a soothing voice. But only if it please my darling girl.â
He looks weary, you note. Despite his sweet words there is a heaviness to him that he must have carried here all the way from Driftmark.
âCan I offer you wine?â he asks as you approach.
âDo not trouble yourself, my lord. I am perfectly content.â
As you sit down beside him the scent of incense grows stronger; like perfume it clings to his robes and skin. His hands are folded in his lap and you see the tension in his white knuckles, in the way his rings bite into the soft flesh of his slender fingers.
âMay I, my lord?â you ask cautiously.
He nods and you reach for one of his hands, pulling it into the lap of your black linen dress. You gently take off his rings, soothing the abused skin with a kiss. Your lord allows you to linger and when you press your lips to the next finger you meet his gaze. The warm light of the fire has softened his features even more but his eyes are keen as always as they observe your doings. When his lids flutter shut as you press yet another kiss to his knuckles it satisfies you greatly.
After a few more kisses you stand to rid yourself of the rings, placing them on his desk instead. The oils you brought him before his departure still lie in their basket and you take a deep purple phial before you settle by his side once again. Applying some drops to his wrist you begin to massage the tincture into his skin with a circular motion of your thumb. The lord sighs and visibly relaxes as the rich scent of lavender penetrates the air.
âHow are you faring after your loss?â he asks after some silence.
âI am quite well, my lord. I have long since started the process of grieving, tethered to his bedside for years. Now the Stranger has ended his suffering and I feel at peace knowing that my husband is with the Gods.â
âI am glad to hear it. I would not wish for you to be in pain.â
âIt is a tragedy,â you say, carefully then, âwhat happened to your grandson, my lord. Will the prince be alright?â
He gives a court nod. âHe will, though I am afraid that his eye will not. But that is the price he paid for his dragon.â
âHis dragon? You mean Vhagar, my lord?â
âYes, my sweet. I am certain you heard the rumours.â
You smile at the term of endearment, ending your massage with a kiss to his palm before you reach for his other hand. The lord is rather pliant, allowing you to move him this way or that with the odd grunt of amusement. You do not dare ask for details, aware that he is looking for distraction and comfort tonight.
âSuch good care you take of me,â your lord says, his voice deep and calm. âI should like to have you in my chambers more often.â
You glance at him, your resolve melting at the fondness in his expression. âI should like to take care of my lord whenever he is in need of me.â
âOtto,â he corrects softly. âPlease.â
You look into his eyes. âOtto.â
A smile, gentle and warm. You continue to relieve his muscles, giving his second hand just as much attention as the first. However, your heart is heavy as you sit on the news you do not wish to bring up. The letter that arrived this morning makes any moment you have with your lord bittersweet.
âI am not sure how many evenings we will have, my lord. It seems that the Gods do not wish to see us together,â you finally say.
His left eyebrow rises. âWhat do you mean, my girl?â
âA letter arrived this morning in which my father requests my presence at our familyâs seat.â You swallow, trying to hide the bitterness in your voice. âAn old friend of his has expressed a specific interest in me and the match would bring me much closer to my family.â
âI certainly cannot fault him, my darling. Your presence is a gift to anyone who is fortunate enough to enjoy it.â He begins to stroke your hair with his free hand, gently running his fingers through the loose strands that arenât pinned to your head. His movement carries the calming scent of lavender back to your nose. âHowever, I shall not allow it.â
âMy lord?â
âOtto,â he corrects again, his brow furrowed in disapproval as his fingers curl underneath your chin, firmly holding it in place.
You try again. âWhat do you mean, Otto?â
He resumes his attentions, trailing his hands over your shoulder now in a gentle caress that mirrors the movement of your hand. âI claim you as my own, sweet girl. Your father will not dismiss the request of the Hand, I am quite certain.â
You sit up straighter. âAnd you mean it?â
âI will not see us parted again,â he states and his hand comes to rest on your cheek, more tender now. âIf it is agreeable to you then I will send word to your lord father and after a reasonable period of mourning we arrange for the wedding.â
You cannot hide your relieved smile. âThat is most agreeable to me, Otto.â
âVery good.â
You resume the treatment of his hand, noting the subtly pleased smile on his lips. He has always been sweet with you, sweeter than with anyone else as you know him to be stern and not too sentimental outside of his family. As a child you interpreted the changes in his demeanour as sympathy, pity even, and perhaps it truly was at times but now you realise that he must have always had this soft spot for you. Perhaps this was inevitable, perhaps it was always meant to be like this.
His hand tenses in yours, then, and his expression sours. âI do not know the extent to which my daughter has let you in on the tensions that are rising within the royal family but I feel that I mustââ
âI am aware,â you gently interrupt with a hand on his arm, not wanting him to speak the words that trouble his mind. âMy lord â Otto â whatever may come, I promised my Queen to be by her side a long time ago. In what function matters not.â
Perhaps it is his fatigue that makes him accept your decision so easily or perhaps it is the conviction in your voice. You were always rather adamant that you saw yourself by his side, that you were loyal first and foremost to your queenâs party. When your eyes meet you exchange a silent promise and there is no need to speak of it any longer.
Ottoâs hands reach for yours then, softened by the oils. His eyes take in the sight of the finely wrought cuffs adorning your wrists, his thumbs trailing their rims where they meet your skin. The bracelets are narrow enough to remain delicate but still allow for the emerald ornamentations that run along their outer curve to stand out. The gems sparkle in the firelight, endless shades of green.
âDo you like them, my darling?â he asks.
âThey are beautiful, Otto.â
He smiles, then runs his thumb over the matching ring on your finger. âI had them made for you before I left for Driftmark.â
For a brief moment the memory of him gifting you the jewel flickers in your mind, how hesitant he was at the time and how you both had to stop yourselves from speaking the truth of your feelings. Now he seems less hesitant to stake his claim, less hesitant to open himself to you.
âThank you for such generous gifts, Otto,â you whisper. âI do not know how I deserve them.â
âYou are deserving of more than mere jewels,â he replies, grasping your hands even tighter. You are surprised by the strength he still has in them. âYou must know how very dear you are to me.â
You give a weak nod, getting lost in the intensity of his blue eyes. His lips part and you realise that you have leaned closer, a mere hairsbreadth separating you. The rough tips of his beard tickle your chin and you shut your eyes. His breath is warm against your lips.
âOttoââ
You want to ask for it but you cannot bring yourself to say the words. He does not close the distance but he also does not pull away. You blink your eyes back open and find his brow deeply furrowed, his eyes trained on your mouth.
He is conflicted, you can see it plainly written on his face. âYou are in mourning, I would not offendââ
âThere is no offence,â you whisper. âOttoââ
âIf you are sureââ
Your lips meet before he finishes as you desperately press yourself against him. He groans lowly, his grasp on your hands tightening as he leans into you. Your lord tastes of sweet wine and tart berries, the flavours of a fading summer. No kiss has ever felt so warm and inviting but then you have gone without a loverâs touch for so long that you can hardly remember.
With some effort your lord pulls away, a sharp exhale through his nose following. His forehead comes to rest against yours, fingers searching for your cheeks as he cradles your head. âIs this what you want?â
âYou said the Gods placed me in your hands,â you whisper in reply, skin prickling where his beard touched it. âI believe you are right.â
He presses another kiss to your lips, long thumbs swiping along your cheekbones. âYou would let me have you, tonight?â
âI would let you have me every night.â
âHm, such tempting promises.â
His lips wander, so very soft in contrast to his beard as they travel along the sharp line of your jaw and down to the much more sensitive skin of your neck. You inhale the smell that clings to his hair, incense, lavender and something that is distinctly Otto, some mix of ink, parchment and the crackling fire in front of you.
âWe have denied ourselves for so long.â Your voice is desperate even to your own ears. âI do not think we have to repent any longer for sins of the past.â
âNo,â he whispers against your jugular. âWe give thanks to the Seven for their graciousness. Worshipââ
âWorship?â
He stops as his hands stray, ghosting along your bare neck and then, suddenly, he tugs at your bodice. You gasp in surprise, and after another attempt it finally loosens, your breasts spilling over your dress as you shiver in the cool air. The lordâs warm hands soon find the soft flesh and with his slender fingers he kneads them, drawing noises from you that sound so very unfamiliar to your ears. You can tell that he is quite overcome as well. His breathing comes in hard bursts that betray his state and yet he is gentle with you, careful.
âWorship their gift,â he clarifies, glancing down at your partly revealed body. âCherish it, treasure it.â
His mouth presses to the pliant curve of your breast and you realise that it is you he is idolising, your body the sole object of his adoration. You are melting under his lips, the reverence with which he kisses every bit of exposed skin exhilarating and new. When his warm mouth closes around your nipple you bury your hand in his hair and he moans deeply, wantonly. You feel yourself clenching at the sound.
It must have been some time since he touched a woman and just like you even the simplest contact seems to affect him. You would explore the possibilities if he allowed you to but presently he is too occupied with the mechanisms of your dress. You gently urge him away and help with the fastenings on your back, but he soon finds that he prefers to peel it off your skin in a rather slow, torturous fashion.
âBlack,â he states with a hint of distaste, freeing your arm from one of the wide sleeves.
âI know my lord prefers me in green,â you whisper.
âAnd soon you shall be wearing it for me, my darling. It suits you so well.â
It gives you a thrill to have him take off your mourning dress with which you commemorate your late husband, a husband who shamed you for your attraction to the very man you are intimate with now. It is a sick feeling, a sinful feeling, to strip off your memory of him so soon and give into your desires with the man he so loathed. It gives you a perverse sense of satisfaction. But you have suppressed your needs for too long and you think it truly must be a sign of the Gods that they have brought you and Otto Hightower together again tonight.
When you are in nothing but your shift, the lord sinks from the daybed and kneels in front of you, bunching up the sheer fabric until your legs are exposed. You want to alert him that he should not rest on his poor joints on the cool stone floor but then his lips press to the inside of your knee and the thought is forgotten. He is yet unhurried, languid kisses pressed to the sensitive skin of your inner thighs, the roughness of his beard sending pleasant tingles into your belly.
The nearer he draws to your core the more restless you become. You feel yourself getting wet, throbbing in anticipation. You grasp at his hair, a blush spreading over your cheeks and when he does not stop you tug at the thinning strands. The lordâs eyes find yours, heavy-lidded, and you feel the warmth of shame blossoming in your chest at the lustful display.
âMy lord, I have neverââ
âOtto,â he corrects yet again, a mild reproach with one hand stroking your calf. âLean back, my girl, I want a taste.â
It is not a request. You rest your back against the brocade and he grabs one of your thighs, placing it over his shoulder to reveal your private parts to him, to angle your hips just right. He holds your gaze and even though your heart is hammering almost too violently you cannot bring yourself to deny him. His lust-blown pupils paint his eyes black, a thin sheen of sweat gathering on his brow. It is an odd sight, a new sight, the usually so composed and controlled lord driven by his carnal impulses in a rare loss of composure.
He beholds you for another moment to make sure you are in agreement before he presses his mouth to your cunt. It is entirely too much, the lighting bolts of pleasure it sends into your body, the way he feels so hot and wet against your most sensitive parts. You moan, an obscene sound that you stifle with your hand the moment it leaves your lips. Ottoâs eyelids flutter shut and his lips part against you. His tongue is soft in contrast to his beard that is chafing your thighs, licking along your slit and flattening against the sensitive bud at the top that you only rarely found the courage to explore on your own. He continues like this, his nose pressed to the swelling knob while he devours you like a man starved. When the lord pulls away to breathe you roll your hip in his direction, trying for more, and he gives an amused chuckle.
âYou are a wanton thing,â he says. âI should have known.â
He says it fondly, running a thumb over the coarse hair that gathers where your legs meet, wet with your arousal and his own spit. He rubs along your slit then, circling the spot that lures the most sensual sounds from you. Your hips move on their own accord, trying to meet his rhythm, and you feel the heat building in your lower belly as he stokes the fire.
âPleaseââ
You clench around nothing and the lord withdraws, leaving you aching. His beard is glistening wetly in the light and you watch as he cleans the digit with a low hum. âMy girl has the sweetest of tastes.â
You do not know whether he speaks the truth but his eyes are filled with devotion and desperate longing. When he stands, you pull your legs to your body to nurse the dampness and unsatisfied pulsing between them. The lord flinches as he straightens his knees, no doubt feeling the pain you anticipated but he recovers before you can inquire and reaches for your hand to help you up. You understand he does not wish to feel old tonight.
âOn the bed,â he says.
His voice is firm and controlled. When you stand before him he surprises you with a hungry kiss, hands following the lines of your scantily clad form and squeezing at every bit of soft flesh he can reach. You feel like a debauched woman and modesty seems to be out of place. With shaking hands you pull your shift over your head and crawl onto his heavy four poster bed. The fabric of his sheets feels soft against your bare skin and you sense a thrill running through you at the prospect of what he might do to you. You are nude safe for the jewellery he bestowed you with.
âYou are an exquisite sight,â he says as he watches you from the foot of the bed, the buttons of his garments coming undone with practiced fingers. âAnd you are mine now, sweet girl. Does it please you?â
You forget to reply, quite distracted as he reveals the tunic he wears underneath. The lord knows, as he always does. The admiration for his body must be written all over your face and you cannot look away as he fully exposes his torso to you. Despite his age his body is that of a knight, toned in places but overall softened by decades spent behind his desk. Tufts of greying hair cover most of his chest, the supple curve of his belly resting right above where he is already hard inside of his breeches.
The same bravery you felt all those years ago takes hold of you at the sight of him and on your knees you crawl over to where he is standing. Cautiously, you run your hands through the hair covering his upper body, feeling the soft skin underneath. He seems rather docile, allowing you to squeeze and palm whereever you want to, silence interspersed with the odd hum of approval at your exploration. Starved for the touch of a woman there is no resistance but a deep infatuation in his eyes. Perhaps he is just as enamoured with the sight and feel of you as you are with his.
âPleased is hardly a word I would use at present,â you finally reply and allow your hand to cup him through his breeches. âAre you aching for me, too?â
A dry huff of a laugh, as though the question itself is superfluous. Two fingers tilt your chin up, the fire burning in his eyes answer enough. His free hand dives into your hair, not gentle but not rough as he frees it from its constraints and allows it to fall over your shoulders. Once he can angle your head how he pleases the lord closes the distance and litters your neck with kisses, teeth and tongue teasing at your skin. You find the fastenings of his breeches but your fingers are too jittery. The more you palm at him the rougher his kisses become until all breaths between you are drawn in desperation.
His patience has run thin. He climbs onto the bed, effectively urging you to lie back as he settles between your legs. His weight on top of you is heavenly, the feel of his skin against yours enough to have you whimpering underneath him. Otto grabs your wrists, one in each hand, pinning them down on either side of your head. The gold cuffs bite into your skin but not unpleasantly so with his warm hands covering them. His fingers slot between yours, grasping them, and you feel your pulse hammering against the ball his hand. Large as they are his hands almost completely cover your smaller ones and as his weight comes to rest on his forearms you feel like he is spreading you open for him.
âYou are a sight for the Gods,â he whispers. âSuch beauty, even they must envy me.â
You buck your hips, desperate for the feel of him now that he is within reach. âPlease, Ottoââ
âNeedy, shameless,â he chides, voice sultry and deep. âTell me, how many times have you fantasised of this? Or have you stopped counting?â
The arrogance in his tone only makes you want him more. His hands tighten almost painfully in yours as he kisses you, feverish and filthy, forcing his tongue between your lips with a distinct possessiveness. It is evident that he intents to claim you in more ways than just adorning you with jewels. You are not resisting but you cannot match his pace, overwhelmed with the intensity of your desires for him.
When his mouth releases yours, bruised and wet, you moan at the loss of him. The gasping breath you take burns in your lungs and once again you cannot help but tilt your pelvis to try and find some relief.
âShhhhh, I know,â he whispers. âI will have you, my girl. You were very patient.â
The blood flows back through your wrists when his tight grasp loosens and he finally works his breeches open. His member is coated in arousal, thick and throbbing after his own stalling. You release a sob when you feel him sliding between your folds, grazing your swollen bud. The lord groans when you reach down to help him find your entrance and you notice how hot he is, how painfully stiff against your soft fingers.
âYes,â you whisper when you feel his tip parting you. âPlease, more.â
He relents, tries to go slow for your sake but you are slick and worked up and one thrust is enough to fill you to completion. The feeling is unlike any of which you have experienced before, no pain or discomfort but just the dizzying need for more of him that burns through your veins. He stretches you open, both of you glancing at where your bodies join so beautifully before your eyes meet once more. Your lord takes your wrists again, softer now, and as your hands link together it is you this time who tightens their grasp.
He begins to rock his hips, gentle at first as he holds your gaze, swallows the first of your moans with his puffed lips. Soon his thrusts harden, the pace he sets merciless as he drives himself into you over and over. You are both too sensitive for it to last long, the lingering fire inside of you spreading into your fingertips, your toes, and you feel as though you could explode with the sheer bliss of it all.
You come undone a moment later, crying out his name and spasming with a force you have not known before. Your lord holds you and you sink into the feeling, trembling and weightless in his arms. Otto hums at the sight but he only pauses for a moment before he resumes his movements, prolonging the pleasurable sensation. He moves to pull out of you as he nears his own end and you catch his wrist, pressing it against your chest.
âNo,â you whine. âPlease.â
He holds your gaze as he continues to take you, chasing his own pleasure more savagely than before. You cradle his face, brush the sweaty hair back that has fallen into his forehead, and when he finds his release the sound that comes from his throat is broken. His hips still but you feel the heat of his spend as he fills you, his body going slack on top of yours after the efforts of the night.
You recover with his gasping breath warming the crook of your neck and even though he is resting some of his weight on his elbows his strength has ultimately left him. Wet skin clings to wet skin, soft and comforting as you stroke his back through the aftershocks. Your chests heave in sync and you swear you can feel his heartbeat matching your own.
A deep sigh tickles your shoulder, then, and he carefully rolls you onto your sides, wrapping you up in his arms as he gathers you against his chest. The position is much more comfortable and you curl up against him with a warm, sated feeling in your belly.
âWill you stay a while?â he asks.
âFor as long as you will have me,â you reply, using the quiet to allow your fingers to explore more of his chest. âI thought you might tell me about Oldtown.â
A smile, so soft and genuine that your heart stutters. The lord brushes your hair back, thumb following the line of your brow down to your jaw and resting on your lips. You can only imagine the mess you look but he does not seem to mind.
âPerhaps you should like to dine with me tomorrow?â he asks.
âI should like that very much.â
âGood,â he mumbles, closing his eyes. âVery good.â
He is exhausted and you know sleep will take him within moments. Lips softly pressed below his ear you reach for the end of the comfort and provisionally pull it over your entangled bodies. The fire is still burning but you know you will catch a chill once your skin cools. You will have to leave before the morrow but right now dawn is far away and you are too content to rest in the safety of his arms. At last.
Epilogue: A year later
A yawn parts the lordâs lips. He stifles the noise quite quickly but it does not escape your notice how his hand flies to his mouth. He so rarely makes a sound, a man of silent concentration, choosing every word with a deliberation that requires his full attention.
You smile to yourself. âI did not take you for a man who falls victim to ennui, husband.â
âIt is a slow night,â he concedes, rubbing an ink-stained finger along his brow.
âAnd you have copied this letterâŠâ
âSeven times, my heart.â
You softly close the book you have been reading while sitting in quiet companionship with the Lord Hand. You so love watching him when he dedicates his evenings to his correspondence, the scratching of the quill a calming noise in the background.
âPerhaps I can aid his lordship in finding a less tiresome occupation?â
He leans back in his chair, surrendering the quill as well as his efforts as you saunter over. A smile tugs at his lips, amusement. You find him less serious these days, less stern, at least when heâs sharing your company. The months have been kind to you both.
âMy darling wife is as insatiable as during our first night,â he muses, pulling you into his lap.
âHow disappointing, I made such an effort to become worse.â
He kisses the mock pout from your lips. For a man who has aged so gracefully his hunger has not dwindled. He tells you that your enthusiasm keeps him youthful and perhaps that is true. After over a decade in a love and passionless marriage you have a lot to make up for. Otto is happy to indulge you.
âThe hour is late,â you whisper against his lips, a subtle proposition.
âIndeed,â he says, one hand sliding up your hip, then pressing down gently on your belly. âWhat are we to do with this hunger of yours, lady wife?â
âPerhaps my neglectful husband can sate me.â
âNeglectful?â
âAt times I feel that he prefers the touch of his quill over mine.â
He lifts you abruptly, placing you on the surface of his desk where you can hear the parchment crumpling underneath your skirts. Your lord stands tall in front of you, broad-chested yet slender of frame save the small pouch of his belly. You trace the soft curve up to his chest but he quickly grasps your chin to draw your gaze up to his, ever imperious.
âAudacious,â he chides, âthat you would make such accusations.â
The hint of teasing in his voice sets you alight. His long fingers curl underneath your jaw, denting your cheeks with his grip. With a raised eyebrow he studies your face, knowingly, your flushed skin betraying his effect on you. His patience is like to drive you mad as he is methodical and studious even in your shared intimacy. You think he reads you as though you are words written on a page of his books, drawing meaning from tracing the shape of you with his eyes.
Only when you are writhing does he close the distance in a heated kiss. As if to prove you wrong his hands eagerly roam your body, unfastening the lacings on your dress and groping every soft spot he meets in the process. Before long you find yourself stripped and heaving under the strain of your passion. It is a well-rehearsed dance by now, the undressing, the way from his desk to the bed where your lord likes to take his time with you, pleasuring you, teasing you until your begs and whimpers fill the quiet of the chamber and at last he is satisfied.
Under the canopy he leaves scratchy, open-mouthed kisses along the column of your throat as his fingers work you open. So far his seed has not taken and the maesters are not sure it will. You had hoped that you could refute the rumours of your barrenness but even so your second marriage is a much happier one than your first. The Gods have been good to you and you wonder if in time you may be blessed with a son after all.
âFocus on me, my girl,â Otto rasps, then, and you find him staring down at you, pupils so wide that they swallow his irises. His hair has fallen into his face, thin strands clinging to his forehead. You reach out to brush them back and as always he leans into your touch, starved for affection. An ink smudge stains his brow. He works so much that the signs never leave his face.
âForgive me, I lost myself for a moment,â you whisper and push at his shoulder.
He removes himself and sinks into the pillows beside you, reclining with a soft, weary sigh. You climb on top of him, easing him inside of you. Otto pulls you forward, wrapping his arms around you as you both begin to rock against each other. You can feel his soft chest hair tickling your breasts, pressed together as you are, and you breathe broken moans into each others mouths.
âWhere were your thoughts, then?â he whispers, biting into the soft skin of your neck.
âI thought about the future,â you say. âI thought about you giving me a son.â
His hips buck and you keen as he hits you deeper than before. You tug at the hair on the back of his head, following his rhythm as he groans into your ear with that deep, raspy voice. You smile, enjoying the feel and sound of him so desperate for you.
Whatever the future may hold, you know that you will never tire of this, the small intimacies with your lord, the knowledge that he burns for you so vigorously after a lifetime forced to spent apart. You can taste your own fire on his lips, feel it as you both crest and his seed drips down your legs. Otto kept the promise he gave you â he made things right, he cherished you, and now nothing shall part you again.
âI am doing something I learned early to do, I am paying attention to small beauties, whatever I have â as if it were our duty to find things to love, to bind ourselves to this world.â â Sharon Olds, from "Little Things"; Strike Sparks: Selected Poems, 1980-2002
Thank you so much for reading! Kudos, comments, reblogs etc are as always much appreciated but most of all I hope you enjoyed the story âĄ
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Could I request reader who is like huo huo from honkai star rail except the fear is of Dottore ^^
I apologise that this one took so long cause I had to learn about HuoHuo and even do the quests about her and I love it!
It was Pantalone who hired you. You were but a scared little foxian priestess that got lost in Inazuma in which the Regrator has found you during his mission and decided to take you back with him.
It took him months to get you to open up to him without having to be frightened about him or his status as a harbinger. He had shown you that he bore no ill-intent nor will he ever harm you.
So with time, came trust. You told him about your past and the Regrator offered you a more high-paying job to be his personal assistant.
Of course he knew about Mr. Tails, he doesn't mind how the spirit would be sarcastic or somewhat rude towards him. He's already used to it.
He would be dragging you along with him to every meeting. Protest or decline his offer all you want but he would keep a firm grip on you as you are forced to come out of your shy and introverted shell. Extrovert adopting an introvert dynamic.
Regrator would always show you off to his fellow harbingers. Even though said harbingers would always be complaining on why he would even keep you when you're just a coward. Pantalone was quick to argue that you are a hardworking and it would be such a waste to just let you die in the forest back then.
Capitano and Columbina adored you due to your foxian features. Childe liked talking to Mr. Tails and sometimes have some playful arguments with him. Those three harbingers you were comfortable to speak without stuttering but there's another harbinger who just makes you want to run away: Dottore.
You don't know why but seeing him everytime makes you want to dig a hole and bury yourself in it. He just has the vibe of something sinister and horrendous. You would always tell the Regrator about it but he would only jest about how you would be overthinking about it and to simply treat him as your superior since he is, after all, the second harbinger.
"Why do I have to go in the laboratory.. can't Lord Regrator just order someone else to do this.."
You cried out as you held the document to your chest, slowly walking along the quiet hallways down to Dottore's laboratory. You were about to knock on the door only to hear the sounds of someone screaming in anguish.
"....maybe no one is inside. I'll just deliver this another day-!"
You turned and were about to run back only to be stopped by Tails as he pushed you back to the door.
"Quit yapping already and just give the documents! We don't have all day to your complains. Best to get the job done and be over with it!"
"But I don't wanna! It's scary! Didn't you even hear that scream? Lord Dottore is probably torturing someone!"
"The only someone who's about to get tortured is you! If you don't deliver those stupid papers, I'm going to torture you instead!"
"You're so mean!"
You whined as you looked back to the door before taking a deep breath and knocked. You shakily opened the door and peeked inside only to see the entire room pitch black. You wanted to lay on the floor and cry so badly but tails was quick to keep pushing you inside, only for you to trip and scatter the documents Pantalone instructed you to hand over to Dottore.
"Mr. Tails I can't find the other papers! Lord Regrator is going to be upset at me and fire me! Wait.. this could be a great idea. If I'm fired then I don't have to face any of these scary stuff or see Lord Dottore anymore! I should start writing my resignation letter."
"Oh? You do not wish to see me anymore?"
The light of the room was turned on as you turned to face the doctor himself. You could only sit up at the floor as you watched him walk over to you. Tears already forming at the corner of your eyes as you crawled back, hoping to get a good distance from him. You couldn't even see his eyes. The only thing you could look at was his bird-like mask which makes it more horrifying.
"N-no I didn't mean it like that, sir.."
"Sweet little (Y/n).. you know I have very unique observation skills. From the first time we met, you were always quick to hide behind your master. So easily frightened like a small prey. You should know I felt a bit hurt to see you run away when I simply wanted to have a little chat..."
"I'm sorry... please don't kill me-!"
You were already on your feet as you ran towards another door behind you, screaming like a headless chicken. You ran and turned around a corner only to bump into a hard chest. You glanced up only to see Dottore smiling down at you as he grabbed your arm.
You shrieked in fear, not knowing how he was fast at catching up with you but you were definitely sure you were ahead of him. You let out a cry as you waved your arms around to squirm out of his grip, only to smack the mask off his face instead.
"Oh my goodness- I'm so sorry! Wah!"
You screamed in fright at what you saw. What you thought you were looking at were the eyes of harbinger was nothing but circuits and wires with a red diamond in the middle staring back at you. You quickly pushed him away and skedaddled away, not wanting to be in the laboratory anymore.
"Mr. Tails please help me! I don't want to die! Why are you not helping me?! I need you!"
You tripped on air as you skidded and fell to the floor. You cried as you glanced at Tails only to see him still stuck to you and not even bothering to help you out. You sat up and hugged your knees to your chest as you let out quiet sobs. Already thinking of the worse, you closed your eyes and waited for the doctor to torture you as well like what he does to his experiments.
You let out a squeak when you heard the sounds of heels clicking against the floor coming towards where you are. You glanced up and stared horrifed as you saw not only one but two Dottores walking up to you. One still has the mask on his face and the other one was who you accidentally smacked the mask away from.
"P-please don't kill me! I'll be good! I'll do anything just please don't hurt me!"
The Dottore with the mask was quick to shush your cries as he picked you up bridal style before walking back to his office.
"Not to worry, little one. I hold no malicious intent towards you nor will I harm you out of boredom. You being in this area of the laboratory, especially near the cells will surely lead you to your death if you keep running around. Although I do enjoy a little chase with you, we'll put that on hold for now. Omega, make sure you lock the area here."
"Very well, sir."
You were shaking the rest of the way back, sniffles and hiccups can be heard from you as you clung to Dottore's clothes. Your heart and mind still in shock from everything that has happened.
Dottore placed you on the couch in his office as he looked over you to make sure you didn't end up having any injuries from your little run. He held your chin between his fingers as he tilted your face from side to side, observing your features up close with a grin.
"...please don't experiment on me.. I'll do anything..."
"Silly fox, I just stated that I won't bring any harm to you. But if you're offering to do anything, then who am I to waste an opportunity?"
Your ears flattened against your head, tears rolling down your cheeks to which Dottore wiped them off with his thumbs as he lightly coo'ed and grabbed your hand. Oh, he definitely loved seeing how frightened you get so easily because of him. He wants to see it more. Something dangerous bubbling up from within him as he grinned at you, his grip on your hand tightening a bit which made you winced but he didn't even bother to notice.
"You said you'll do anything, yes? Then be mine. Work under me from now on. I'll handle Pantalone. Just stay here with me instead, hm?"
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In appreciation of hitting 200 followers, hereâs another mindless Levi drabble~
Sleepy!Levi being needy, because who doesnât love a little OOC Levi from time to time :)
By the time youâd made it to bed that evening, you were absolutely flabbergasted to see your lover already tucked in under the quilt adorning your shared bed; covers draped over his shoulders in such a way that you could only make out his raven hair poking up and splaying across the pillow behind him.
You nearly did a double take at the uncanny scene laid out before you, the urgency of slight concern creeping into the back of your mind. Was he ill? Did something happen?
The need to check up on him blended easily with the need to join him, so you hastily slipped out of your work attire and donned something more comfortable to sleep in; one of his tee shirts, of course.
Pulling back the covers gently so as not to wake him, you crept into bed and attempted to lie down near his relaxed figure. Before your head even hit the pillow, his eyes were peering up at you from under the quilt that covered every part of him from the bridge of his nose down. Staring back into his eyes in surprise, you lowered yourself down onto the pillow.
âLevi darling, is everything okay?â you whispered.
âIs now,â his raspy whisper came out muffled from the cover. âThought Iâd beat you here so I could have more time with you.â
Smiling at his answer, you shuffled closer; only to have his arm drape over your hip and tug you the rest of the way across the bed to him. Wasting no time, he wrapped the quilt across your shoulders and tucked it around the two of you. Being eye to eye with him, and only being able to see his eyes, you chuckled softly.
âLook at you, looking so needy for cuddles,â you teased him, but the both of you knew the jest was all in good fun. His eyes crinkled around the corners, a hint that he was smiling under the quilt.
âYeah? And what if I am? What are you gonna do about that?â Came his muffled and husky reply. Despite yourself you blushed, and brought your arms up to hold onto him as tightly as he held you.
âI suppose Iâll just have to comply with my needy Captain and hold him.â You giggled.
With a sigh of contentment he closed his eyes and hummed in satisfaction, nuzzling closer to rest his forehead against your exposed collar bone. After placing a couple soft kisses to the skin there, he stilled and began to breath deeply.
Realizing he was drifting off to sleep, you smiled to yourself and rested your cheek stop his head and kissed his brow.
âGoodnight, my love~â
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felix catton x reader
summary: after seeing felix continuously surrounded by girls at his birthday party, you try your hardest not to get drunk on jealousy.
contains: jealousy, angst, fluff? oh, and like a million references to drinking.
a/n: this one's for all my fellow retroactive jealousy girlies out there! yey mental illness! wrote most of this at 2am so don't mind the elusive ending.
word count: 0.8k
the cicadas have been droning on for what feels like an eternity as you wait for felix beneath the minotaur statue at the mazeâs heart. the inky sky above you stretches on beyond the garden walls, fractured by an array of white-hot stars. you cross your arms, tap your heel briskly against the earth, indicating your frustration to no one but yourself. all night youâd watched girl after girl fawn over felix, linking their arms into his own, batting their lashes with an evident goal. you couldnât watch any longer, stomping away towards the maze, wishing for nothing more than to get so lost you would never be found. nevertheless, you have been.Â
âso this is where youâd disappeared to.â felix sighs, golden angel wings glimmering in the moonlight. âiâve been looking for you all over.â
âsurprised you even noticed iâd gone.â you scoff.
felix purses his lips. âiâm sensing some tension. what have i done now, hm?âÂ
he cocks his head at that, a confused look about his features. he holds up an offering, a bottle of fine wine heâs clearly been helping himself to. you refuse it, try teasing him to forget your emotional turmoil, but it comes out all wrong. âwouldnât you rather get drunk with your fan club?âÂ
felix wastes no time towering above you, a gentle hand clasping your chin, a soft pair of lips pressing your own. âare you jealous, love?â he asks, and you can practically hear his smirk. âthis has to be cutest thing. sure, maybe they were a little enthusiastic, but you know i only have eyes for you.â
âoh, hush!â you whine, swatting his hand away. âwhy donât you go bother one of your girlfriends.â you know youâre being petty, but you canât bring yourself to care.
âi only have one.â he says, voice gravelly and stern. âand donât you forget it.â
felix has grown to be well-versed in the art of comforting you. he knows you often feel insecure or not worth his time, a concept he will never truly grasp, in spite his best efforts. what he doesnât know is the gut-wrenching feeling of imagining your lover leaving you for someone else. the knowledge that he loved someone else before you, who knows how many. you try to fight it, remind yourself this is a natural thing and in no way his fault.
âiâm sorry.â you click your tongue. âi donât mean to be annoying or toxic.â your voice takes on an edge, a subtle quiver only a trained ear such as felixâs could detect.
âhey, none of that.â he playfully scolds, enveloping you in strong arms. âyouâre the only girl for me, you know that. iâll remind you as many times as you need.â
âwhy do i feel like this?â you asked. âyouâre nothing but understanding and loyal.â
he gives you a warm smile, plants a kiss atop your head. âitâll pass, love. trust me.â thereâs a silence so heavy neither you knows how to break it.
âwant a drink?â he asks, holding up the wine. felix smirks as he tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear. perhaps a bit of humor will do the trick. âin a way youâre kind of an alcoholic, you know, only drunk on jealousy.âÂ
you give him a roll of the eyes and a faux laugh. âat least iâm not an actual drunk.â you tease as you take the bottle from him.Â
âwe all have our faults.â he jests. âyou feel better?â
âsort of.â you sigh, but you realize itâs a lie as you start to spiral once again. you wonder if youâll ever be able to harness those feelings of yours that lead you to this state. the jealousy that feeds you manufactured visions of felix`s past, one where he was happier with someone who wasnât you. one where another person slept on your side of the bed, touched him the way you do. you know it isnât real (not anymore), but the mind can be quite a convincing thing â
âlove?â you hear felix say, and suddenly youâre on a staircase; your makeup is fresh, the night still young. âyou look amazing!â he says proudly as he takes a drag of his cigarette. itâs the first heâs seen of you this evening, and he canât stop himself from drinking in the sight before him. it was all in your head. now the party has just begun and your mind will not stray. the vicious cycle will not repeat itself. there will be no comforting, no drying of unnecessary tears tonight. you will focus on the man, the angel before you and steer clear of the maze of jealousy. yes, you will get drunk tonight, drunk on open-mouthed kisses, drunk on someone who wants you and only you.
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hi! do you take requests? if not you can discard this but i really love the way you write emotionally charged moments so iâd love your writing style on this prompt, it can be a one shot or more of a blurb whichever you like: so perhaps taking place post canon where arthur is found half dead on that cliff and reader is nursing him back to health, trying hard to stay strong and believe heâll get better but arthur is just waiting to die any day now and wishing he hadnât been found, until he hears reader in another room crying to herself having to see him so deathly ill like that and slowly losing hope. so he starts feeling more determined to at least try for her sake and maybe see her smile one last time. but in the end he does get better, not quite back to his full strength yet but better đ„č hope i didnât ramble too much, i absolutely love your work and the way you write and i canât wait to see what you post next đ«¶đ»
IN TREMBLING ARMS
Pairing | Arthur Morgan x Fem! Reader Summary | While the world you had built around yourself seemed to crumble right before you, the last measures to sustain your happiness grew hard to take as the man you love fell deeper into his own despair. Tags | Angst-heavy, description of violence and wounds, fluff somewhere... :o Word Count | 11.4k A/N | Hiiii lovelies! ⥠I recently got this request that I really liked the sound of, which meant I obviously had to write it;) I hope what I wrote was in tune with what you had in mind! Enjoy! Also, thank you for the kind wordsâĄ
The pain of recalling an old life is surely something weâre all familiar with. Undoubtedly, itâs a brutal world we live in, one that sometimes takes too much and only gives small crumbles in return. You often found yourself crawling the ground to pick up these crumbs, laden with dust and dirt, just like your joyous memories are tainted in blood and painâsmall glimpses of happiness amidst the hardship in day-to-day life, the tiny things that make living worth fighting for.
They were all thanks to Arthur. Youâd been aware for quite a while that he didnât think highly of himself, meaning he couldnât possibly estimate how much his presence impacted your life. He couldnât see that every good memory lately was in his favorâhow he held your entire world in the bare palm of his hands. He could never understand, and you could tell he didnât.
Every part of you was clinging to the last remains of a man who dropped the worldâs weight off his shoulders, preparing to breathe the last breaths on this earth, alone and without you. It was so close now that you could almost taste it. You could tell by how his shoulders dropped heavily in resignation, the words that grew dull and lifeless, and his wit that never failed to bring a smile to your lips disappeared.Â
Even so, you saw glimpses of the man you fell for, and if you looked closely, you could find those few crumbles that gave you hope, even though they were ridden with filth. Heâd still pinch your waist lightly to jest when you were in a bad mood, always putting your comfort above his own, even though he needed it more.
The burden on his shoulders was heavier than ever when he returned from being out. He was no doubt following Dutch's careless orders that, with time, became more uncaring and, worst of all, unsafe. It bothered you heavily that there was no regret anymore as he bid his orders around like Arthur wasnât hunching down in exhaust with every step, more often than not needing a seat as coughs so rough wrecked through him, never failing to make you cringe.
Of course, Arthur could take care of himself, never stopping short of explaining that to you. But now, times were different, and you could see his eyes grow slightly more hollow every time he returned to you, and his bloodshot eyes grew into normality.
So naturally, you never stopped short when voicing your concerns to Arthur, but he was so headstrong he refused to acknowledge the toll everything was taking on his body. Deep down, you wondered if he continued since he had come to terms with his fate, putting otherâs safety before his own because he had simply stopped trying.Â
He damned you for not listening to him, but his words held no real threat because he couldn't find it in himself to force you away against your will. So he let you stay, and through his violent coughs and wheezing, he always felt you rub his back soothingly, knowing that his time was running short. Because of this, he took every chance to bask in your gentle touches that felt more like home than anything else.
"Did you find out anything about John today?" Speaking softly, you run your fingers through his tousled hair, undoubtedly from wearing his rugged hat all day, observing his tired face as you were on his lap, Arthur sitting down as he came back to rest his aching legs.
"Mmm, we did." Thumbing at the fabric of the shirt you had stolen from him, he let the words rumble softly against you, breathing warmly against the chilled skin of your cheek.
"Abigail's real worried, you know, begged to come with us." Humming, you pondered over his words. Your dear friend has been over her head in worry as of late, the disappearance of John not doing the slightest to ease her anxiety.
"We'll get him back." You weren't sure if you were reassuring Arthur or yourself, but then again, there wasn't much you were sure of anymore. It seemed unlikely that anything you would say would comfort him, but that didnât mean you didnât tryâevery chance you got, you wanted to make him see reason.
Bringing you closer, he breathed heavily into your shoulder, throat whistling slightly from the strain, as his hands gripped your waist firmly, sighing in contentment when you hugged him back.
"How are you feeling?" you whispered, earlier taking notice of his eyes that had grown redder than usual and the slight blood stain he hastily wiped when you approached him, hoping you didn't get the time to spot it.
"The usual, I guess." Nodding slightly to appear positive before you, he let out a heavy sigh.
As the silence stretched, he kissed the top of your head lovingly after a while when you nuzzled your head further into his shoulder, savoring the moment since you hadnât seen him much these past days.Â
"Tomorrow, me and Sadie thought about goinâ-" You didn't give him a chance to finish, lifting your head from his shoulder as a frown appeared. God, you knew it was coming, but you had hoped he would still see reason and not do something stupid like that in his condition.
"Couldn't someone else go with Sadie? You not-" Catching yourself before you said the words you knew would get him riled up, you sighed slightly. "I'm sorry. I'm just so worried about you, Arthur. About everything."
"Hey." Cradling you closer, he softly grabbed your chin between his calloused fingers, beckoning you to meet his warm gaze. "What did we talk about, hm? I'll be alright."Â
You grabbed his cheek and stroked your thumbs against the scarred skin. He was so beautiful to you, just like he had always been, and you were sure he would scoff at you if you voiced your thoughts. But it was true. That face had seen you through the most challenging times of your life, and never had they been the reason for your tribulations and sadness.Â
"Now you're just lying to me to make me feel better." A long silence followed as you stared at each other, both stubborn beyond means, until the corners of his mouth raised slightly, a low chuckle rumbling deep in his chest. Rolling your eyes, you couldnât help but smile against your will, trying to keep your previous frown on your face.Â
His eyes, often weathered and wise, turned into soft pools of warmth and affection as they gazed at you. The worldâs weight seemed to lift every time, even now, leaving only the tender vulnerability of a man deeply in love.
"Now, now," he spoke, words growing into his usual teasing tone as he grazed his hands along the fabric covering your sides, a wicked smirk growing on his lips. Thereâs an intoxicating allure to how his lips curve, never stopping short of making the butterflies in your stomach go haywire. "There's that smile I've been looking for."Â
Slightly tickling the sides of your stomach, you gasped as you tried peeling his hands away when a giggle left you from the unexpected sensation. Damned be Arthur and his refusal to let you worry about him, always trying to lessen your pain when he was severely worse.Â
"No, Arthur! Stop it!" Laughing merrily, he placed small kisses in the small crevice of your neck, relentlessly tickling your sides as you squirmed in his arms, an ugly laugh leaving you as you found it harder and harder to breathe amidst his torture. He snickered audibly at the sound leaving you, always finding humor in the strange quirks he loved so much.
The moment didn't last long, though, for the gut-wrenching coughs that left him amidst your banter made the cheerfulness of the moment quickly grow into a distant memory. Arthur would tell you he was okay and that all he needed was a few moments, just like he always did, but you both knew the disease was growing more severe as time passed.
Your precious memories grew less and less, though, and as time passed, there were hardly any crumbs left for you to pick up. The ugly paint of power, distrust, and hatred covered them. A hatred that grew so deep in every single being that surrounded you, and even in yourself. Hostility from oneâs upbringing, misfortune, and wrong-doings. Bitterness for striving towards a goal that doesnât have a finishing line, only a no-return sign at both the start and end.Â
A selfish disdain, it is, and oh so human. How could you possibly find the end where everyone could make amends when they had no will to change? How could you save him when he didnât want to be saved? His only interest now was to get everyone away from the gang that he could for the time being. It had been apparent for some time now that whatever this was, it was over.
Because of this, Arthur told you to leave some time ago. He had begged you on his hands and knees as the blood he coughed up dripped like rain down his paled, gray skin. A beautiful tragedy it was, one that would leave people in a theater with tears glistening down their cheeks as the sight before them clenched at their hearts. That wasnât how you experienced it, though. It was more like someone cutting through your numb skin and laying your heart down on the table to unfold every crevice and nook to prod at every part that hurt so terribly with a knife.Â
It made you wonder if hearts could bleed. You werenât sure, but somehow you knew yours did as every strained cough from the man you love caused the tears that fell from your eyes to turn into a deep red, mingling with his on the ground.Â
As he begged, you could only stare at the ghost of a man you once loved: the warm skin turning cold under the palm of your hands, calculating and mischievous eyes growing vulnerable and exposed, and strong arms that once held you tightly, weak and skinny. They gripped your skirt for dear life like the sullen fabric covered with filth kept his weary body alive. And god, how you tried, despite the pitying looks thrown your way and resistance from Arthur's side, you wanted to keep him alive.
You had hated no one in your meager, seemingly insignificant life, but you hated Arthur. You hated him passionately for trying to make you leave behind the only thing that made you feel even the slightest bit of happiness. The only reason you had stayed with these people for so long was him, only him, and now he asked you to leave so he could spend the rest of his short time either getting shot or dying from his disease?
âYou go now, or Iâll drag you on that train myself and tie you to the seat.â Silence had followed his last attempt to push you away, thick with a wave of heated anger from both of you as the remnants of your love grew shrouded in an unwillingness to understand. You didnât want to recognize his worry, for you knew it would be the end for you and him.
âI ainât got much left to lose now, so I must do this. You have to understand. Go.â The bitterness in his words grew colder as he spoke; the conversation that started so filled with passion grew harsh.
âDonât get much to lose?â Your meek voice was choked up with frustration as you felt your heart drop to the ground. âWhat about me?!âÂ
Everything hurt deeply, like he had set your whole body alight and then stomped on the remaining ashes. You had tried so hard to keep your head straight for Arthur through these challenging times, following every step he took loyally, never once questioning his decisions. Him telling you to leave had been the final straw. For him to expect you to give up everything you had done for him made you wonder how much you were worth to him.
âYou canât just tell me to leave!â Broken sobs left you when you spoke, hands trembling where you tried to rip his hands off your skirt, anything to lessen the tightening in your chest. When he didnât ease his grip, your hands hit his chest as tears flowed down your warm cheeks. He closed his eyes from where he sat, the grip on your skirt turning his skin ghostly pale as you tried to create some distance, refusing to let you back away.Â
In your head, he was supposed to want you with him until the last second, and you could not dare imagine it any other way. Because of this, it wounded you deeper than he could imagine.
The hands that never once had grown harsh with you only pulled you closer, letting you bat tirelessly at him while your eyes grew heavy with a furious sadness gnawing at your insides. The surrounding air had become thicker than it usually was in the confines of Beaver Hollow, so it left you gasping for air as the distress wound its way around your throat.
His eyes were as warm as they always seemed when looking at you, and you damned him for it. Even when Arthur broke your heart, he rendered you entirely at his mercy the way he kept this gaze reserved for only youâlike he understood you.
âI hate you.â Growing weak, you sank to your knees and rested your weary head on his chest, letting him hold you as you trembled in his sickly arms.Â
Soon after that, it seemed everything had reached a breaking point, and it couldnât have been late enough. Arthur put you behind Sadie on the tall horse, making her promise to get you somewhere safe while he went and risked his life. Risk it for what you thought, kicking and screaming at him as he lifted you. Sadie was trying to comfort you, her hand on your waist as the worry for you and Arthur filled her mind.
"Let me down!" Tears were falling from your bloodshot eyes, filled with endless pools of agony and sorrow as the man before you avoided your gaze. "You're not sending me away!" You attempted to swing your leg over the saddle as you spoke through the hiccups that wrecked through you, fighting against Sadieâs hold.
"Please, sweetheart, come on." Broad arms caught your waist hastily, lifting you to put you back behind the worried woman. "Go with Sadie, now; she'll keep you safe." His voice grew distressed as you resisted, a deep worry for your safety that he always kept as a priority clouding his thoughts when you didnât comply.
Not listening to him, you shimmered down the horse and threw your arms around Arthur's familiar embrace, burying your head in his shoulder as you breathed in his familiar scent. "Don't leave me here; please take me with you."Â
You knew now that his death was inevitable, an end you had refused to acknowledge as possible ever since you first set your eyes on him. Despite this, the love you kept for him made everything pale in comparison, not wanting to spend the endless days of the remaining part of your life without him. If he would find his solace in death, so would you.
He didn't answer you, instead wounding his arms around your smaller frame as he hugged you tightly against him, trying to map out every part of you into his mind so that even in death, he could remember the feeling of you forever.Â
"Don't go." You begged him without shame, holding onto him tightly as your tears darkened the material of his shirt. "I'm begging you."
You felt a pair of hands cover your cheeks, the blue orbs you knew so well staring reassuringly into yours, hiding the endless anguish taking cover behind its facade.
"I love you, sweetheart." His voice shook as he spoke, gazing with a terrible agony into yours. "I love you so much, you hear me?" Shaking your head slightly as he said, you could only weep as you realized your attempts to save him were useless.Â
"I love you too, Arthur," you said through sobs. Arthur was stroking the tears from your eyes as he pulled you in one last time, face scrunching together from having to leave you as he kissed the top of your hair. Â
So, in the end, he watched you leave as you stared after him in disbelief when Sadie set off, your body growing numb as he disappeared between the forest trees, hugging the woman as sobs wrecked through you.
"God." Crouching down, he panted as coughs broke through the silence surrounding him after you departed. But it didnât seem to be the only thing rendering him on his knee as the dirty ground prodded at his knees, the all-to-consuming thought of never seeing you again clamping at his heart something so fierce he thought he might heave.
He had never been a stranger to heartache, having lived a life full of gut-wrenching memories and stories that were not for the faint-heartedly. But this, this was something entirely else. All these years of fighting, never knowing where he would rest his head the next night, and for what? So he could be free? He had been angry, so very angry at the world.Â
It all felt meaningless now, the constant blood on his hands, the pain he had brought others that might as well have been him had he chosen another path, the choice to drag you with him to the gates of hell instead of taking your hand and running off so he could keep you forever.Â
And in the end, as he lay there on the mountain, bleak eyes staring at the rising sun, he could feel an unfamiliar peace crawl up his feet, relaxing the very troubled muscles that had never rested up to his chest where a heavy weight had been present his whole life. In it, the heaviness had torn a big hole in his chest that pulled every good thing that had found him in his life into the prolonged darkness.Â
 But somehow, a relief was spreading in his mind as he figured peace was closer than he thought, slowly and surely beginning to unfold in front of him. Darkness spread around him as the last lights reached his eyes before the tired lids grew shut, the now ever-so-strong memory of you branded into his mind.
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You were no stranger to the rain. As a child, you reveled in the droplets that fell from the sky when the clouds formed. It was so simple, yet a memory so strong that it stuck with you throughout your life. Now, though, the rain that clung to your clothes only made the numbness grow worse, unable to feel your fingers as you rode on the muddy path that stretched before you, slippery and treacherous. It was no longer comforting, raking through your body like ice, chilling you from tip to toe.
Although not sure of your actions, there wasn't a single regret in your body for leaving both Sadie and Abigail when they found John, taking the first chance to head back the way you came from, the glimmer of hope that you would discover Arthur alive pushing you on, even though it dimmed with time.Â
When John returned, he could only look at you sadly while shaking his head, the look in his eyes enough for you to understand that Arthur hadnât come with him. But you knew, of course you did, that he wasnât coming back to you; his words and your knowledge of his ways are telling enough.
You had calmed down now, thinking more logically, but you preferred how you felt before instead of the hole beginning to form in your chest. It consumed you, growing bleaker and bleaker with time, making you wonder if you would ever find Arthur.
You found him eventually, but the torment of seeing him lying lifeless as the warm, lingering evening sun glazed over his skin beat at your bruised heart. For the first time since youâve known him, he looked so small, like his body was cowering against the ground, seeking shelter from the cold breeze and a world that had grown so cruel, so malicious.Â
If the anguish following his departure was anything to go by, the sheer pain that shot through you after your bewildered moment of silence could only be likened to a thousand times worse. What you had feared the most seemed to be reality now, and it couldnât have hurt any less.
Your aching feet, sore from climbing the far way up the mountain, ran the muddy path up to him as your hands enclosed his cold cheeksâswollen and purple with bruises as dried blood covered the majority of his skin.Â
âNo, no, no!â You mouthed the words since you couldnât get a single sound to leave you, a force so firmly clamping at your throat. You grabbed his clothes, shaking him as if it would make a difference and show a sign of life. It didnât work, so you could only wrap your trembling arms around his neck, wailing out his name while begging the heavens above to bring him back to you, for the pain was too much to bear.
How would you continue life without him? The thought was too heavy to consider, your distressed mind refusing to believe he was gone. Heâd always rise back up the moment something brought him down, so strong mentally and physically that you sometimes wondered how he was real. Why couldnât he do that now and spare you all this hurt?
âDo you remember when we first met, how you always told me we would run away, just you and me?" Grabbing his hand, you placed small, lingering kisses on the battered knuckles, intertwining his fingers with yours as your voice trembled fiercely.Â
There had been a magnetic pull in the way his gaze had lingered on you when he spoke of his deepest wishes as if every word was a silent vow etched into the very fabric of your relationship. Itâs something you both said of often when everything grew heavy, like an escape from reality to what things could be.
âHow can we do that now if youâre going to leave me?â Sobs wrecked through you, gazing at his closed eyes while you internally begged for them to open. âWhy are you leaving me?!â
Resting your head on his chest, you breathed in the scent solely your Arthur as he flooded your senses. Your guttural cries of anguish filled the air until your voice broke, eyes growing heavy with strain while you could only lay there with him, imagining he was alive under you.
Your head had grown empty after that, laying upon the body you had so many times before. You remembered the moments of complete and utter peace when he held you in the confines of his tent, warm hands always managing to find sanction around your waist no matter how exhausted he was.
The thought made you smile, remembering how his heartbeat would pick up as you intertwined your fingers. He was in many ways stoic, rarely sharing how you affected him, but you knew. In secret, of course, you knew, and you would kill to feel that again.
But when he fell asleep underneath you, the beating pattern would cease and instead follow a slower thud, never failing to bring you to sleep. Just like it beat now, you felt the lids of your eyes that were still wet with tears grow heavy under the comforting thudding of his heart, lulling you closer and closer to sleep.
Your eyes shot open so fast that you almost got a whiplash, raising your knees in disbelief. Arthur was lying still even now, body still beaten and bruised, but as you put your fingers on his pulse, you could feel it.
There it was, the slight thud of a pulse buried deep between the layers of skin and flesh, keeping Arthur alive despite the turmoil that had rendered his body almost inert. Grabbing the sides of his face, you shook it slightly, hope now filling your mind even though he didnât move a single muscle.Â
God, he was alive, even though barely. The air got lodged in your throat as you felt puzzled, having been dead set on having to bury a corpse.Â
âArthur, can you hear me?â Not a single indication left him as you spoke, wiping the hair covering his eyes so you could get a better look at him. A slight fluttering of his eyelashes could be seen as your voice broke through the stillness of the mountain. The more you grabbed his body in disbelief, the more movements you saw from him: fingers twitching slightly, small intakes of breath, and brows furrowing in small motions.Â
Raising on your feet, you sat down with his head in your lap, stroking his cheeks gently before you started tapping at them briskly, anything to wake him up. It didnât work, so you started calling for him loudly, hoping it would reach him wherever he was.Â
âGod dammit, Arthur, wake up!âÂ
That did it. Unfocused eyes began to open up from underneath you, though Arthur found it difficult because of the swelling around the eyes. Seeing him so beaten up hurt you heavily, but you put all your energy into making him regain consciousness, forcing the turmoil far away from your mind.Â
âHey, look at me. Can you see me?â The slightest motion of a nod could be seen, and you thanked whoever above that he responded to you.
Although through blurry eyes, he could see a slight indication of you hovering above him, wondering if he somehow had ended up in heaven to be able to gaze at you one last time. But maybe it was hell after all, the torturing fire replaced with you, barely in reach where he couldnât touch you, which was the worst kind of torture he could conjure up.
You could see his fingers flex slightly, in your mind trying to show signs that he heard you, but in his stretching so he could reach out to you to touch the softness of your skin with his sinful hands.
âI need your help, Arthur. I canât carry you alone, so you need to try, okay?â To be quite honest with yourself, you had no idea what you were doing, never mind if it was even possible to get him to move to the state he was in. But you had to try, at least. You werenât leaving him here to fend for himself in search of help, pondering if those few moments could lead to his death. It was the only way.
âI told you to leave.â Amidst his close-to-death confusion, Arthur had grown more conscious, managing to speak as his eyes closed again. He realized you werenât conjured up; instead, you were as real as could be as you prodded at his exhausted limbs.Â
You ignored his hurtful words, putting your arms under his head so you could assist in getting him to raise. He wasnât light, that was for sure, but still, you tried until he was sitting up, although his head was hanging low and his back was arched forward in exhaustion.
âCome on, Arthur, I need you to help me.â Amidst your tries to keep him upright, you felt the all too familiar flood of tears threatening to flood from your eyes when the challenge felt impossible. You never felt so weak as you did right now, the possibility of helping him stay alive fading against the man's heaviness and your weary muscles.Â
âHoney, go. You-â Arthur slurred out as he almost dropped. âYou shouldnât be here.â Yelling in frustration as he once again fell towards the muddy ground, you put your hand over your face as the dam of tears broke.
âIâm not leaving you here to die, Arthur!â Taking a deep breath, you bent down again to try once more. His eyes were barely open now, staring at you in pain. âPlease, just try.â
A loud grunt left him as he raised again, hands gripping the soil underneath him, damning your stubbornness. Although weak, you managed to get him to stand, leaning most of his weight on you. It was hard, no doubt, to feel his body supporting your smaller one, but it worked, for now. The breaths leaving him were awful, and he gasped out loud as you stepped forward slowly.Â
âThis ainât gonna work, honey,â Arthur mumbled, not a single hope left in his body to survive the long way to safety.
âYes, it is.â You refused to listen to him, mind set straight on getting him to the horse.Â
Far back in your mind, you remembered a place Arthur used to take you, always going on about a man he used to hunt with until your ears bled. He had told you of its location when the poor man had died, bringing you there once. That should be fine, you thought. Hopefully, it was empty. If not, you have another problem on your hands.Â
The way back to the mare was challenging, with both of you falling countless times as the ground underneath you was uneven and riddled with stones. But your stubbornness wasnât in vain because, after some time, you saw the familiar black coat of the horse appearing in front of you like an angel.
Not a single sound left him, eyes now almost closed as coughs left him then and again, both body and mind tired. He was taller than you, so he got on the horse much faster than you initially thought possible. Soon after, you swung your legs over the saddle in front of him, letting him lean his weight on you as you circled his arms around your waist so he wouldnât fall off.Â
âStay awake, Arthur.â Glancing back when you didnât get an answer, you only met a tuft of hair as his head fell on your shoulder. âCome on, I canât do this without your help.âÂ
The road to the house you barely remembered was long, and you couldnât ride too fast, worried about the grip on you that grew less by the minute. Thankfully, he had managed to stay awake the whole ride, but you felt his breathing grow more unstable and shallow.Â
The weather on that mountain had been forgiving, like time and space had stopped moving in sorrow, the warm sun covering you in its blanket. Now, though, the howling wind surrounding you made your surroundings bitterly cold, arms held in front of you to see where you were going.
Many times, you tried to speak to make sure he was still with you, but your voice grew muted against the forceful wind, so you gave up, hoping his weight on you meant he held some sort of consciousness.
As time passed and darkness began to spread around you, a small house by a lake appeared behind many trees and foliage. It was different from what you remembered, but still, somehow the same, staring back at you like some sort of angel, the promise of comfort egging you forward.
Not a word was exchanged as you helped him down the horse, a solemn resignation making him follow your will without a complaint, or maybe he was too tired to complain; you werenât sure.
Stumbling through the doorway, it felt just as cold as outside, shivers shooting through you. It felt strange just barging into a dead man's home, but you deemed your selfishness just, Arthurâs health at the forefront of your mind. Empty of life, it was, and it made you relax slightly, not having to worry about someone else taking refuge here.
Soon, you could rest your heavy arms; you thought as the bed in the right corner of the house appeared before you like a halo. With the door closing behind you with a slam, you waste no time pulling Arthur with you in clumsy steps, letting him lay down on the soft mattress with a huff, dust flying around you as the bed creaked audibly under his weight.Â
Glancing at Arthur, his face was still contorted in pain as it had been since you found him. You carefully lifted his legs on the bed, removing the filthy, wet shoes from his feet and throwing them to the floor. Leaning over him, you touched his freezing cheek, finding him already passed out.
Hastily, you removed the wet clothes from his shivering body, laying them by the foot of the bed as you hurried to drape the sheets as well as some pelts you found over him to warm him up. Looking around, you tried to get your hands on some firewood to warm up the house, thankfully finding some not too long after your search. Your arms complained, though, from the weight already spent from the strenuous dayâblisters on your fingers only worsen it.Â
The room soon filled itself with an orange glow, bouncing in heavy shadow on the walls, and your whole body huddled close to the fire as you warmed your hands for a moment, not realizing amidst your frenzy that you, also, were almost freezing to death in the chilly night.
It only lasted for a moment, though, the reminder of Arthur making you rise on your tired feet, rummaging through the cupboards and various wardrobes to find some supplies. Luckily, it appeared that the veteran kept quite the supplies on him, which you thanked him for under your breath. Some bandages you were sure you could still use were pushed into your arms, a few tonics that could lessen the pain, and, best of all, coughing medicine.Â
Walking back on the creaking floor, you dragged a side table closer to the bed and placed what you had found in your search, running outside quickly to get the water pouch hanging off the mare.Â
It wasnât easy tending to Arthur; the number of hits he had taken was noticeable. Some kicks to his ribs, it seemed, amidst the various other bruises that loitered his skin. Stopping in your tracks, you wondered who could have done this. You hadnât thought about it until now; your worry for his safety has been on your mind this entire time.
Micha.
The sudden thought of him sullied your mood even further, making you realize that no Pinkerton would leave him at the brink of death like that. Undoubtedly, they would have finished him off or taken him with them, another way to get to Dutch, for sure.Â
Cringing deeply at every purple bruise you dragged your finger over, hatred for the man laying his hand on Arthur grew. It was more fierce now than ever, the persistent name-calling and teasing he put him through when the disease started taking its toll not nearly as severe as this. You knew Micha was capable of this; deep down, you had known.
And where was everyone else, you wondered. Thinking logically, everyone had most likely run away the second things went downhill, but Dutch and Charles? Javier? Had they lost Arthur as they escaped from Beaver Hollow? And why did John not return with him if he had been alive?
The questions were running wild in your mind, but you had to put your questions aside for now; there was enough time later to wallow in contempt and confusion. Instead, you focused on cleaning the rest of Arthurâs bloodied face and bandaging the more gruesome gashes on his body. You knew getting him better wouldnât be easy, but you werenât ready to give up.
Sighing audibly, you put your head on your knees when you had done all you could and dragged the sheets over his shivering form. Gods, you were tired. It felt like your whole body had been running on spurts of adrenaline until now, and now that you got the chance to sit down, it rushed over you like a tidal wave. The whole ordeal, by any means, had felt like a fever dream.
No, more like a nightmare, you concluded. It was strange, and everything had happened hastily like the time had been fast-forwarded. Quite the difference from now, as the only thing audible was you and Arthurâs breathing and the slosh as the water hit the bridge just outside, time seeming to stand still in the tiny house by the lake.
It felt nice, though, you concluded as your eyes grew heavy. It was like the air around here cleared your sullied head slightly from all the months of stress and worryâgaining some distance even though it wasnât by much. You could see why the man who had lived here chose to stay, finding the landscape calming yourself.Â
Often, Arthur would tell you about the man. Hamish, you believed his name was. A veteran, he said as he stroked your hair, telling you about the days he spent with him, softly lulling you to sleep. You had always found their relationship endearing but were only met with a scoff from Arthur every time you voiced your thoughts about their camaraderie. The idea made you smile.
You turned your gaze toward him, gazing thoughtfully. The swelling on his face was severe but not yet rendering him unrecognizable. You admired him for a moment, the rugged masterpiece under the purple bruises that the harsh strokes of life had always weathered. Yet he had always seemed to have been carved with a pen so beautiful everything it created couldnât be anything less. Every scar, like poetic verses, had always added to his allure.
In many moments, Arthurâs gaze had been a haven for you, a refuge where you could peer into his most profound thoughts when he kept himself away from you. It was a place where you could find solace amidst all the chaos, a silent dialogueâa gaze that showed what he never said. But now they were closed, and the thought left you sadder than anything.
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You had tended to Arthur many times before, and even though the scrapes had been nasty, this was something entirely else. His disease only worsened the state of his injuries, taking you ten steps back every time you thought you could see a flicker of consciousness in the following days.
Yet, he remained motionless on the bed for days on forward, awful coughing episodes making him shoot straight up from the mattress. Succumbing to the relentless coughing, it echoed in the room with harsh, hacking sounds. Each one seems to wrack his body, the force evident in how his shoulders tense and his grip tightens on whateverâs within reach, the strain etched on Arthurâs face, lines deepening with each cough.Â
Your hands reach his back to reassuringly rub the warm skin, feeling helpless. Unable to stand his pain any longer, you retrieve the cough medicine you put on the side table, the label on the glass bottle promising relief.Â
Too out of it to register what you were doing, he only lays there as you pour the liquid down his throat, and as soon as his sore throat swallows the last drops, his eyes flicker close, body relaxing in resignation on the bed.
âYou would hate me if you were awake right now.â A breathless laugh left you, hand stroking the hair away from his face as you pondered how long he would stay like this. It seemed thatâs what filled your days and nights now, constant worry as you sat plastered by the side of the bed, holding his hand tight as you prayed for whoever would listen to give him back to you.Â
Rarely did you take the time to open the various cans loitering the cabins, filled with canned food and other things that would fill your stomach well? Instead, you grew nauseous at the thought of it. You took the chance to spoon Arthur some soup, though, the small moments between sleep and wakefulness, hoping it was enough to give him some energy.
Some nights, when the pain was too much to bear, you would wound yourself around Arthur like a snake, being mindful of his injuries as you rested your head on his chest. You would listen to the slow thumping of his heart that had grown steady, slowly falling into a deep sleep, letting your heart rest, if even for a moment.
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You were unsure how much time had passed in that house, endless days bleeding into each other. Most time was spent looking after Arthur, and when you werenât, you were perched on the wooden steps of the house, gazing into the flickering water of the lake. Your bleak eyes always stared heedlessly at the scenery before you, and although beautiful, it did nothing to lighten the intricate knot growing in your chest.
Despite trying to keep your head straight, doubts always come to mind whenever you donât have your hands full. What if you had been wrong all this time, and Arthur wouldnât get better? The possibility was big, but you couldnât imagine doing it any other way as you thought more of it. But all this chaos and energy you put into keeping the very soul of him alive, what if it wasnât enough? What could you do that would be enough?
You walked down the porch steps with light steps, bending down on the bridge to wash your face, hoping it would ease your mind. While it didnât, seeing your drained face and bleak eyes greying your features worsened it. You could only sigh as the sight of your exhaust reflected in the water.
âGod.â You said, sitting back on your heels as you stared into the distance, horrified. No wonder you hadnât taken the moment to care for yourself in the drastic days of apprehension, having been too wrapped up in the horrifying complications. With closed eyes, you rinsed your face, refusing to give yourself another lookover as you walked back towards the house.
The sight that you saw when entering through the door made your heart rise your throat. Blue eyes you adored so much were staring back at you, and although laden with fatigue, they were halfway open, gazing at you indescribably.
Quietness followed your surprise, and after a moment of contemplation, Arthur mumbled out under his breath. âWhy'd you come back?âÂ
His question hung heavy in the air; the only answer you could provide him was a face of bewilderment, mouth dry like cotton.Â
âI canât-â As Arthur closed his eyes, a sluggish arm came to rest over his eyes. â-canât save you now.â
You motioned to speak, but the words were lodged somewhere deep down where you couldnât bring it up. Instead, you stepped closer to Arthur with small steps, like he wasnât real. He couldnât be; you hadnât been given that hope for the longest time. But he was breathing before you now, moving.Â
You were so quiet at this moment you even surprised yourself, but as you crawled your way beside Arthur and draped your arms around his neck as you had done so many times before, you found that the bridge holding your tears at bay had blocked the words so they couldnât escape you. But the bridge overflowed, tears now running freely down your cheeks as the feeling of his arms finally circled your waist.Â
He held you in that cranky, old bed for a long while, drowsy, sunken-in eyes closing in content regardless of his earlier concern, basking in the warmth your body provided his shivery one as his hands memorized you. The sunlight mirrored its way on your skin, the feeling now warm and tender, unlike the cold and empty touch it grazed with you before.
Arthurâs raspy voice pulled you closer in his embrace as he consoled you, tears wetting the skin on his neck as you gripped the strands of his hair tightly in your grasp.
âHush, now.â He murmured out, voice so comforting it only increased your sobs.
"Breathe, sweetheart, breathe." Whimpering into his shoulder, you gasped for air between your snivels, breathing erratic that grew somewhat more stable as he ran his broad hand over the small of your back, hushing soothingly.
Things seemed to ease up from that day onward, and now that Arthur grew more conscious, you didnât feel the draft of loneliness waft through you anymore. Still, he wasnât up on his feet yet, heavily bedridden as the slightest movement could set off his coughing.
While his recovery gladened you something immensely, you could tell it put a heavy strain on his confidence; not used to being so weak and counterproductive. You could see how his eyes faltered when you tended to his wounds and how he avoided your gaze as you helped him eat, a deep confliction noticeable.
In these moments, he grew quieter than he usually was now. It was like he was waiting for somethingâsomething that was just out of his reach, putting a distance between you that wounded you deeply. You had to tell yourself many times to give him some time, to provide him with some peace of mind as he recovered from the trauma to both his body and soul.
So, you took the struggles daily, and as you stayed with him, you could see a glimmer of the Arthur you knewâthe stubbornness, the humor, the fierce loyalty. But they are fleeting moments, overshadowed by the weight of his conviction that he is destined for a different path that doesnât intertwine with the life you could offer.
âYou know,â He told you one night, surprising you as you were plastered on the chair beside his bed, stroking the back of his hand while deep in thought. âI always felt at peace out here, like the air is different somehow.â He only got a hum as your eyes were locked on his fingers, intertwined with your smaller ones.Â
âItâs something I always imagined for us.â He murmured, staring at the ceiling as he searched for the words to voice his thoughts rightly. âWell, when times grew hard, I thought about it quite a lot.âÂ
After some time, a small smile graced the corners of your lips, never having heard him be so open with you. You often voiced your wishes to run away together, towards something more fulfilling, something that would ultimately be safe. An ordinary life with Arthur was more than you could ever ask for, always opting to tell him about it late at night when he was too tired to react fully to your words.
It wasnât possible; you both knew it, so it was only decided as wishful thinking. Also, Arthur always shot the idea down when you steered the conversation that way. He was too loyal to Dutch, finding your words unthinkable, constantly shaking them off as nonsense. Now, if it was because he felt that way or finding the thought hurting too much, you didnât know.Â
âI didnât know you felt that way.â You spoke quietly, meeting his warm gaze as he stared at you, lifting your hand to his chest, where he placed it against his heart.Â
âMmh. Well, every time I passed here, I thought about you.â He smiled slightly at you, continuing as a rumbling chuckle left him mid-sentence. âHamish asked about you quite a lot, found you fascinating, he said.â
âMe?â You raised your eyebrows, half-endearingly for the thought that Arthur talked about you and half-suprised that you made an impression on the man. âHow come?â
âHe wondered why a woman like you stayed with someone like me. Said you were doinâ charity work or somethinâ like that.â You rolled your eyes slightly in jest, bringing his hand to your lips as you placed a nimble kiss on the coarse fingers.
âWell, I happen to like doing charity work,â you mumbled against the skin, breath warming the cold tip of his fingers, finding Arthur gazing at you indescribably.
But some days, he let the words that he pondered about day in and day out be heard, and those moments were the hardest for you.
âI donât understand you.â He would mumble as his head finally began to clear. You told him that John, Abigail, and Jack had likely gone to safety. It made his mouthâs corners chirp slightly, content they got on alright. But as matters turned to you, he suddenly became cold, eyes crinkling when his eyebrows screwed together.
âYou get the chance to go and live your life to the fullest, yet you go back to try and save a man that already died a long time ago.â It appeared impossible for him to wrap his head around the thought, looking at you as if you were a scientific experiment.Â
âYouâre not dying.âÂ
âYES, I AM!â You gasped slightly as his voice grew loud suddenly, yelling out the words as his hand pointed at you, eyes wide open where he lay glued to the bed.Â
âAnd all I want before I die is to see you safe, and you canât even give me that!âÂ
He had never yelled at you like this if he had even yelled at you at all. Arthur had always tended to take the image of the rugged, unforgiving brute, but never had he been that way with you. It was always tender touches, calculating glances, and a sense of utter contentment when you were aroundâacting like you would break if he didnât keep calm and collected.
It differed from now, the usually calm sea of his eyes now a stormy whirlpool, harshness lining the edges, and it was pointed towards you. You pulled your hands against your chest nervously, wishing to shrink into the ground to avoid his, to you, unjust fury.
âStop.â Your voice grew quiet as the air in the room seemed to lessen, eyes shooting towards the ground.Â
Groaning, Arthur raised his arms, gasping when he had to support his weight on it. Stepping forward to help him, you were only faced with his palm begging you to stay away.Â
âOf course, I couldnât leave you,â you reply gently. âBesides, I had to know what happened to you.âÂ
âStubborn woman, didnât I tell you to go? It ainât safe anymore.â You backed away, not wanting to listen.
âNow I donât know where the hell Dutch is, where Micha is, which means this is far from over. Thatâs why Iâm sayinâ you shouldnât stay!â He tried to reason with you, make you realize that your part in this was over.
He felt conflicted. Whenever he thought of you, he struggled between being selfish and thinking of what was best for you and what he needed to do to keep you alive through all of this. On one side, he longed for every part of you to remain with him, but on the other side, he couldnât stand you being hurt on his behalf more than you had already been.Â
He knew he crushed you in the process, it was undeniable, the cries that left you when placed behind Sadie before telling enoughâbut it had to be done, despite how much he despised himself for putting you through this. You were always so calm and level-headed that he couldnât be anything more than heartbroken when you called after him that day, the distress so unlike you.
Arthur didnât like it, which fueled him to push you away even further when he realized you didnât see reason, deciding that the only plan left was to show you what kind of man he was, or rather, what kind of a man he was to everyone else.Â
âThis isnât you talking, Arthur.âÂ
âWhat do you mean it ainât me talkinâ?â His face grew red with strain as he spoke, alerting you as you bent down to meet his gaze, placing your hands on either side of his cheek. He scrunched his eyes together, heart pleading to give into you as your everâso-gentle hands closed around him.
âYou're sick, Arthur, and youâve been beaten to a pulp. Now, I donât know what transpired on that mountain, and Iâm not sure finding out would do me any good, but I thought-'' Stopping in your tracks, you closed your eyes. âI thought you had died, Arthur. I, I cried for you, thinking I would never see you alive again.âÂ
âI ainât less than a ghost now, darlinâ; you should have left when you had the chance.â He stared tiredly into your eyes and then turned away from you. âYou have to accept that. Itâd gone much easier if you left me on that mountain.â His heart beat as he voiced the reality of his thoughts, knowing it would hurt you, but the statement was also true.
Silence followed for a long time after that, the turmoil inside you breaking, seeping like blood from the cracks of your heart as you were left staring at the side of his face.Â
âIâve loved you for a long time, Arthur, but it has never felt like Iâve known you entirely.â While he gazed at you, the fury still raced deep in the blue orbs, coloring them darker with pain.Â
âYou have a barricade around your heart that I can never breach. And I tried; believe me, I did. For the longest time, I tried to be there for you, be something for you to come home to, to ease your mind that always was off somewhere else, somewhere I could never follow!â Your tone that started quietly grew loud as you spoke, heart racing inside your chest as the words fell like liquid out of your mouth.
âI canât-â Your voice hitched, angry tears falling unwillingly from your eyes. âI canât help you if you donât let me in!â
âI donât need your help!â You could see Arthur close off from you even more, pushing you away as the harshness of his voice cut you like a razor. âI never had!â His voice broke as he yelled, panting as he sat on the bed, hunching forward as frustration rose.
âArthur!â You felt anger grow in your chest, finding him unbelievable as you swatted at his chest lightly, standing up to put some distance between you, seeing him trailing after you. âIâm done with you telling me to go when all I live for is you!â Fiery and consuming anger flared within you, setting your cheeks ablaze as you spun around to face him.
âWell, Iâm over you being so stubborn all the time! Never listen to me when I only want to see you off safe, caring for me like itâs a glimpse of hope that Iâll survive!â A scoff of disbelief left you, staring at him as you almost laughed in shock.
âMe!? Stubborn!?â Your palm found your forehead, voice laced with anger-filled frustration. âThat is very rich coming from Mister. I never listen to anyone other than myself!â You paused before you yelled. âEver!â
âBecause I know whatâs best, alright!? And I know that you should be far, far away from me!â A fire started to show in his voice, but it also crept into your bones, warmth spreading on your cheeks.Â
âOh, and what?! Find some boring, middle-aged asshole whoâll tie me to the kitchen and make me have tea-party with some lifeless, dreary, pompous, old ladies?!â Your breathing was hectic as the words spilled out in a heated rush.
âYes, thatâs what I want, âcause that would mean you would be safe!â He stalked closer, cornering you at the door.
âIâd rather die, Arthur,â you said. âIâd rather die with you than face the long, bleak years of this world alone! You backed away, feeling suffocated when he didnât give you any space to breathe.
âThe only place I feel safe is with you, Arthur!â Your voice broke slightly, gripping his shirt to shake some sense into him. âItâs with you Iâve always felt at home!â Gripping his stubbled cheeks in your palms tightly, you pleaded with him as he gazed into your eyes. âIâm not leaving you; get that through your thick, dumb skull!â
âStop being so goddamn unselfish and think about yourself for once!â He met your gaze, dark as he stared at you from underneath his brows. âGet out the hell out, leave!âÂ
You only stared at him, cold shivers like freezing water wrecking through you, backing towards the door as his shadow grew more prominent, stepping unbalanced on his feet towards you. Grabbing your shoulders in his broad hands, he stepped so close that all you could see were his eyes blaring into yours.
âCome on!â He yelled, shaking your body as if to shake some sense into your stubborn mind. âGO!â
Choking on your tears in distress, you were left gasping for air as you tried to breathe, feeling his body falter above yours. The coughs that now raked through him made you sink on the floor with him, and as the blood splattered on your dress, covering your chest in a deep red that contrasted the ivory fabric, you sat on the dirty floor, a man devoid of the will to live anymore laying in your trembling arms.Â
After that, you only felt his lips that sought yours, entangling your limbs together like snakes in a snake pitânot a gentle surrender but a clash of hunger, a collision of lips borne from ages of holding back the reality.
Bloodied lips against bloodied lips met in a fierce urgency after taking a quick breath, fueled by the unspoken desires and the acknowledgment that, despite your disagreements, the love you kept for one another was deeply engrained in both of you, hearts unable to stand the hate you felt.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, gripping as if seeking reassurance as the world blurred. Anger melted into a raw vulnerability, frustration giving way to the unspoken plea, and the desperation grew more considerable than it ever hadâand as you both pulled away, breaths heavy and gazed locked, the air crackled around you as he instead hoisted you up in his arms so you could fall into each otherâs embrace yet again.
Your tears now rubbed their way down Arthurâs cheeks, your breath hitching as sobs still found their way through you. His broad hands pulled you tighter against him, the inner fight that took place in his mind showing as he wanted to push you away, only to draw you closer to his dying limbs.
âYou know I ainât a good man, honey. That ainât going to change, ever.â His gaze was gravely and serious as he stared into your eyes, an uncanny vulnerability etching them deep down. âThis life lives within me; I canât escape it. I canât escape the sins that I carry. Iâve done horrible things, things you couldnât even dream of.â Sighing, he closed his eyes. âYou know that.â
Your eyes softened as you saw the wrinkles in his face release, finally hearing something real coming from him. âYouâre not your sins, Arthur. And even if you were, Iâd carry them with you, lighten the burden.â Stroking his cheek with the tips of your fingers, he opened his forever lonely eyes, now staring into yours.
âGod, I tried, honey. I tried to get you to leave, talkinâ to you in ways Iâve promised myself I never wouldâeverything to get you to leave.â He pushed your head against his shoulder, resting his head on yours in defeat. âIt was harder than I thought, see you cryinâ like that.â Sighing heavily, he continued. âBut somehow, you always stay.â
âIâm not leaving.â You mumbled against his skin.
âThereâs no mistaking that.â He chuckled, stroking your back. âEverything I do is to keep you safe; youâre so stubborn not to realize that.â
âIâm safe when Iâm with you, Arthur.â He didnât answer you for a while, holding you comfortingly. He felt the strings that held his will up loosen, giving up on trying to push you away, the sight of you sobbing tugging at his heart.
âI feel like all I do is make you cry lately.â Staring at your smaller arms that hugged him, the doubt that he still wasnât good enough for you clouding his mind.Â
âYou make me cry when you push me away,â you admitted, your voice steadier now. âIt hurts, Arthur.â He sighed, fingers still entangled in your hair, twisting your hair strands with his fingers.
âI know, honey,â he murmured, a concession to the unspoken ache.
âThen stop.â He lifted your head to make you look at him through wet eyes.
âStop hurting me; I canât handle it anymore.â He felt like you had shot him right in his chest as you begged him, staring through vulnerable eyes he rarely saw. He had done countless horrible acts in his life, but this was indeed to be pivoted as the worst, never having felt the pang of agony quite so brutal.
He couldnât tell how long he would live now, down to his last breaths, but he didnât have the power to keep you away from him any longer, not when you were so adamant about staying. Had you been angrier at him, he was sure you would take your things and leave him, but there was a part of you he so adoringly loved, a part that always seemed to care too much, love too hard.Â
Somehow, he praised whoever made you that way because were you not, he would no longer have the light of his life in his arms, even if his time was running out. No longer would he be able to feel the graceful touch of your fingers on his skin and the sparkling in your eyes as you stared up at him in mischief, making him feel more alive than he had ever felt in his miserable life.
Hugging you closer to him, he captured your soft lips in his, feeling the ache only increase as he basked in the way you sighed, relieved. You felt the promise of not pushing you away anymore lingering in the corner of his mouth, dragging you closer to him as hope finally seemed in reach.
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âAnd as the last light of day shone through the window, he realized how it felt like to hold the world in the palm of his hands, for her eyes were the window to everything he wishes for, and more.â Glancing mischievously into Arthurâs eyes through the pages, you conclude. âThe end.â
Pushing the bookâs pages close with a loud bang that echoed through the sunlit room dramatically, you presented him with a toothy smile.
âI never took our dear friend for being such a romantic, Arthur.â Raising from the bed, you spun around to face the man who seemed reluctant to let you go, bending down to stare into his eyes cheekily. âAre you sure you went hunting together? With all these books, maybe you spent your time cooped up here reading romance?â A giggle left you as you walked towards the stove, checking on the stew bubbling deliciously, the smell making your mouth water as it passed your nose when you opened the lid.Â
Behind you, you could almost hear how Arthurâs eyes rolled back into his head, arms still outstretched towards you. âSure,â he drawled, staring at you warmly as you teased him. âOur favorite pastime. How did you know?â
His sarcastic tone reached you as the warmth of the cooking burned your tongue slightly when you tried to get a taste, hissing as you dropped the spoon back into the pot.Â
âYou canât fool me, Arthur; I know youâre a true romantic.â Pushing your finger against the sore part of your tongue, you turn to face him, resting against the counter.Â
âItâs something I always imagined for us.â You mocked slightly, puffing out your chest as your voice grew into his familiar southern drawl, imitating your earlier talk with him some time ago.
Scoffing at you, he suddenly rose from the bed, the book falling from the floor as he stepped towards you. Perking up at his motion, you found yourself stuck as his arms encased around you, the warm scent of him mingling with the food as he stepped closer.Â
Cowering slightly under his gaze, you giggled nervously as you leaned back. âHave you ever heard of personal space?â He didnât answer you as you jested with him, palms finding each side of your face as his eyes observed you tenderly.Â
God, he loved you like this. Ever since your fight, every obstacle that hindered you from growing closer to each other was breached. Every time you laughed, it filled his heart with warmth, finding the life he once fell in love with reaching you again as you settled; the hardest of times now passed.
He couldnât help it as he pressed against you, sighing deeply as your lips found his in a loving caress, smoothing over one another as the sound of your slight humming broke through the silence.Â
It felt like a blessing to have Arthur close again. Some time ago, you feared you had utterly lost him as he remained a shell of who he once was, shielding himself from you and everyone else. Although at ease now, the heavy shadow of his disease still lingered over you like a cloud, most times reminding you of the sad realization that all was not well.
Despite this, you could see how much better he was faring, now both up on his feet and with a sane mindâmuch more like the man you fell for. At times, the anxiety still clawed its way into your mind, wondering if all of this was too good too last. Although, since both you and Arthur realized that relying your thoughts and fears on one another was fatal if this was going to work, he always kissed your worries away, driving the somber mood gone with his hands.
âWhere did you go?â The words rumbled quietly against your lips as your eyes lifted to gaze into his wondering ones, feeling him push your hair behind your ear. You gave him a small smile, playing with the buttons on his shirt.
âSecret.â You whispered when you felt him lean closer again, the tension growing in sparks around you.Â
âOh, I see. We keepinâ secrets now?â Raising his brows in fake mock, you felt his hands circle your waist so he could lift you around his torso. An innocent smile covered your lips as he hoisted you up, slightly pinching your waist so you let out a breathless laugh.
Stalking back towards the bed, you realized his only plan had been to bring you back all this time, giving Arthur a knowing look. âI am allowed to have some secrets, you know.â
âAre you now?â He smirked at you, kissing your nose before laying you on the soft bed, hovering above you. âI think I know a few ways to get you to speak.â Crawling up your thigh was a hand filled with sinful intent.
âWell, I wonât tell, you brute!!â You laughed as you squirmed against him, wishing his hand away as they traveled further.
âOh, Iâll show you, brute, darlinÂŽ.â
All the wounds and hurt werenât healed by any means, but as time passed, it started to mend the damage it created. The crumbs that once were so few grew larger and larger, now swapped out with a special love that you were sure was destined just for you and the man who always had it in the palm of his handsâonly the need to accept himself in order to let it reach you.Â
And while this story certainly isnât over, the worry about Arthurâs health and the glimmer in his eyes he still kept for the life he had lived and would never escape still existed. You could tell he was aware you saw it, noticing him staring longingly into the wild, fingers flexing with anticipation.
But those were thoughts for darker days. For now, as you lay with Arthurâs arms wound around you and the sparkling of the fire cracking into the silence, you would bask in it for as long as you could. With the soup long forgottenâyou realized you would follow him to the ends of the earth if he asked you, even if it meant your death.
#arthur morgan#arthur morgan x female reader#arthur morgan x reader#red dead redemption 2#rdr2#arthur morgan imagine#red dead redemption imagine
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"Deeds, not words"
A/n: Finally finished this and tbh I am very proud of how it came out even if I see that I could have done better in certain areas. I prefer the first one better, but tbh I love them both. I have scrambled together a little story to go along with this, although I do have to warn that the details of Jien and Proxy's story, how it really unfolds, is still subject to change. This drabble here is just me exploring ideas of how Proxy can start seeping more and more poison into Jien's life, but we'll see. To anyone that does read it, thank you <3 Mwah.
Contents: Syaoran, a technician of the team of Armed Archeologists, is accompanying Jien to Scalegorge Waterscape at the invite of a High Elder. What waits for them there is no warm welcome.
There is an odd tension in the air, so ill it made him sick. Scalegorge Waterscape had towering walls of water all around, and it felt as if they were ready to swallow him at any moment, the sky above being the only solace. The air was still with the smell of salt, and there was a quiet sound. Like the one a dog made before it growled.Â
Miss YueXia didnât budge, and Syaoran judged it was because she was from these parts. Perhaps she felt at home even, but whether that was good or bad didnât have space in their conversation with the Elder before them. And now he could sense that feeling of anger from Jien, he only wished he could see her face from where he stood, a step behind her. Did she look angry? Or was it that cold expression she once served the team after that messed up expedition?
âWe have welcomed you into our fold and treated you as our own. Yet our eyes have reported your face sneaking about in the night around the Luofu, sowing suspicions and spreading gossip. Is this your way to show gratitude, YueXia?â
The Elder looked at Jien with cold suspicious eyes.Â
âHigh Elder, while I appreciate your invitation to meet me I fail to see how or why I would do such things, especially since I have not been on the Luofu in almost a yearâ she replied, cold and even tone, yet there was an unmistakable tinge of some need below it all - a need to make things right. A flicker of a flame.Â
âMoreover, I have never wished you or the people of Luofu any ill will and I have always advocated for the safety of the civilians as much as a Cloud Knight. Did you bring me here to confront me for something another has done?â
âAnother?â the Elder bristled, arrogance rolling off of him like a cloak. âI have seen it myself, this âanotherâ was you. I saw your face in the darkness. And you dare lie to my face? The Disciples of Sanctus Medicus have been on the prowl and you with them. I knew the IPC wishes to get their clutches on the Vidyadhara, but I refused to believe you would aid in such a goalâ
That is not true, Syaoran wanted to say, feeling his face twist in displeasure. Jien was against the Abundance, against the Disciples, the whole team knew, but even if she wasnât - her team was. Syaoran knew Kaiya had a burning hatred for the Abundance and his wife was from the Xianzhou Yaoqing. Heâd be the first to jump against any idea of Jien bringing any harm to Xianzhou Luofu, but everyone knew sheâd sooner go mad than think of such schemes.Â
âDo you know how many youâve hurt with your doings? And you wish to say my eyes are deceiving me as well?âÂ
Jienâs eyes fell dark and darker still, her jaw stiff as she ground her teeth together, listening to the Elder talk without interrupting him.
âI meant no insult when I previously said you were mistaken in your assertion, but now you are accusing me and my team of inexcusable crimes and I will not tolerate suchâ Her tail brushed against the cold stone, pale and gnawed away by sea and time. âHigh Elder, I can assure you I had no chance to do such things, even if I had the plan to ever harm you and the people, which I remind you again - I never did and never will do. I was half a cosmos away. Do you propose I have, perhaps, cloned myself? I pray you don't jest, High Elder, and listen to what I have to say. Who you saw was not me, I swear on my life..â Jien put her hand over her heart to show her sincerity as the seams of her silence began to tighten and break.Â
The Elder Syaoran couldnât remember the name of frowned deeply at her words, distrust swimming in his eyes, body taut as a bow string. âAnd you propose I believe you over the reports of countless others?âÂ
âI cannot force you to put those reports aside and trust my word alone, but I hope the eyewitnesses of my team, as well as camera surveillance and date records of my passage through the cosmos can be proof enough to you and so many others that are holding the belief that I or any of my team have committed these crimes. I am more than willing to bring them all over here, to you, as soon as morning comes if that would let your mind let go of these beliefsâ Jien sighed and shook her head a moment later. âAlthough, I do fail to see - if these crimes are so severe, I would have expected someone else to come and question me about them..â there was a mild insult interlaced between her words and tone, so skillfully that not even the Elder before her could point it out without sounding mad.
He only exhales a long breath through his nose. âYou will be questioned by the Ten-lords Commissionâ he said, tone resolute. Syaoran could see Jien move her hands behind her back, her fingers forming into a fist. Somthing told Syaoran that the High Elder came to this decision on the spot.. âThe evidence is overwhelming and not in your favor. But I will give you until morning to bring your evidence to us, and weâll take it from thereâ
#honkai star rail#digital art#my art#original character#-tapestries#hsr#hsr oc#honkai star rail oc#fake screenshot#xianzhou luofu#vidyadhara#hsr x oc#honkai star rail x oc#oc#artist of tumblr#writers on tumblr#đžïžProxy
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"opened it with much impressmentâassumed, of course" van Helsing's unboxing video... no but really this line. He's actively trying so hard to appear cheery and lighthearted all the time for Lucy
awwww Lucy sounds SO cute when she thinks she is receiving a gift
"but not for you to play with." Um, van Helsing, people don't typically play with bouquets of flowers...
I fricken love whenever people describe Lucy having an animated face. The thoughtful wrinkles Art and Mina love. The sharp look she gave Jack when telling him to go to bed. Today's "wry look" and van Helsing telling her "you need not snub that so charming nose" - every time it feels like more of the true Lucy being expressed beyond the face she puts on for her mother/society at large.
But once again van Helsing is mischaracterizing Art by saying he wouldn't like to see Lucy's snub nose. I am one hundred percent confident he would specifically love that expression on her face. I wish he had not worded it in a way to make her feel guilty over the idea of upsetting Art with her appearance, because she's too prone to be worried about things like that (at least as regards her illness) already. I know he was joking but still
LUCY'S VOICE WITH LAUGHTER
"I never jest!" you filthy liar
No but really his sudden sternness is super telling. He's been actively trying so hard to be gentle and lighthearted and reassuring. But he is extremely stressed and his instructions have already been discarded once to disastrous effect. I don't know that Jack would have told him it was Lucy's idea, in which case he'd want to nip this in the bud all the more, or maybe it was just the pressure getting too much at the idea of another such dismissal. He's gone to a lot of effort to get these flowers and he may not be entirely sure that they will work yet but he wants to give the best chance possible, and at that laugh he loses his control for a moment
but again I hate that he guilts her. It's a good method to get Lucy to do something but she doesn't deserve it and I fear she'll take it to heart
anyways, Jack sounds so taken aback by vH's snapping too. "seeing poor Lucy scared, as she might well be" with such a sense of 'wow, professor' awkward silence
I love the rustly flower noises. And the window sounds! (someone fix that broken window)
"It all seemed.. grotesque to me" well that's a bit harsh Jack
"It is well we have no sceptic here, or he would say that you were working some spell to keep out an evil spirit." Jack says this line half like someone would say 'okay so this story happened to a friend of mine' when it was obviously them, and half like someone making a joke out of a suspicion specifically with the intent of being corrected and told that they're wrong
But instead van Helsing says "Perhaps I am", with ominous music and everything. Love the delivery, more than half to himself. and Jack, not getting the response he hoped for, falling into awkward silence rather than replying
Lucy's calm solemnity in her promise <3
The way Jack says "unshed tears..." is so good
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âThe Assistant and The Starâ
Chapter 3: Preparations
*Part 1
*2 hours later
"Who's there?" Demanded the boy named Safi. "I know someone is in here."
"Hello fair one." A voice replied in a smooth tone. "What is your rank?"
Safi set down his mop. "Where are you? Show yourself."
"Why don't you come this way and find me?" It teased. "I'm closer than you think. Right under your nose. Or should I say, your feet?" The voice chuckled at it's own joke. Safi huffed.
"Do not jest with me! Show yourself!"
"Oh, I won't do that just yet. But come and uncover my whereabouts!" It beamed. Safi stayed where he was. The last time he followed a voice trying to lure him deeper in the library, some rascal pranksters dumped a bucket of dust all over him. His allergies nearly killed him that day!
"If you won't tell me where you are, then tell me your name please."
"I am what I am." It answered. "But do tell me, what is your rank? Are you the King?"
Safi frowned. "No, I'm not. You don't need know my rank! Tell me your name please."
"Oh no, I'd rather not. Are you close with the King?"
"What even is your business here?" He demanded.
"Watch your tone." The voice gently chastised. "Such ill manner speak is unbefitting for a noble setting."
Safi mopped the floor in front of him. "And yet, you interrupt my work to ask about my position without properly introducing yourself. Actually. Talking to you isn't worth my time."
"You are testing my patience." It groveled. "Are you close to the King? Can you at least bring him to me today?"
"And what is your business with-?"
"No more questions." It intruded. "Tell the King to make my acquaintance and come to the library so that we may converse today. Now."
Safi put a finger to his cheek and looked to the side in an exaggerated wondering look. "Hmmmmmmm. Still rather vague. I haven't seen you and I don't know your real name so I can't say who is calling for the King's presence. Given my schedule, I might not have time to talk to him today." He sucked his teeth. "Not to mention that you have no respectable dignity. You want me to tell the King to see you today? Not even consider if he's as busy as me? Without even saying please? Even if I did manage to summon the King here, he has little patience for those who disrespect his associates." He began to walk away. "You're not worth the trouble. Sorry ێ۟۔ Űș۱ÙŰš."
The library was dead silent after his remark. Safi dipped his mop in and out of the water bucket when the voice returned. "If you shall not help me, then leave my presence." It hissed.
Safi turned towards its direction. "I'm not finished cleaning."
"Get out." It demanded. The force of the sound vibrated the water in the bucket. Safi frowned. He's encountered arrogant nobleman before but none of them had an affliction in their voice such as this.
"Such ill manner speak is unbefitting of a noble setting." He recited, picking up the bucket. Maybe this was another magic nobleman?
"Get. Out." The voice repeated. It was softer but something about the voice was off. It's tone was venomous and the vocals sounded... accursed.
Safi reflected on their conversation and he got an idea for why this voice wouldn't share its name or show its face. Safi backed away and grabbed his other cleaning bucket in case he really did need to leave after asking this question. "Are you even a human being?"
"GET OUT!"
The boom in the voice shook the entire library floor. Several books fell from the bookshelves and Safi knees buckled as the sound shook his very bones. Only the upright mop kept him from falling. He looked ahead from him to the center library space and his face moved from shock to horror as he noticed a tile from of the floor. A green light was emitted from the edges of the tile. As quickly as he'd seen it, it vanished. Not willing to find out anything else, he stood upright and rushed out of the library, shutting the doors behind him with a gentle ~click~.
After a quick trip to throw away the mop water, Safi made his way to the castle storage closet where he simply set down the buckets and mop inside. Safi proceeded to fall against the door and release a heavy sigh.. As if the day hadn't been exhausting enough, there was, indeed, a thing in the library. He heard a rumor from the other cleaners that the Grand Library was haunted. If you went deep into the library, you could hear a voice. And because of that, the cleaners rarely did the whole library. Safi didn't consider himself much of a skeptic. He wouldn't deny that ghosts or spirits were real, but Safi rarely cleaned the library thanks to the dust bunnies that would ambush his senses if he wasn't careful. However, he hated how the other cleaners left most of the library to accumulate so much dust because of the rumor. Only today did he hear the infamous haunting but what was he to do about it? The other cleaners tried to report the haunting but whenever the guards investigated it, they found nothing to convince them that the haunting was true or could be dealt with.
You know what. Maybe he should leave the Library for another day. He cleaned half of it and it was last thing left to clean anyway.
A/N: Making this into 2 parts because Tumblr will only allow 10 pictures on a post and I need gifs for the rest of the chapter. Comics should not be this hard to make.
Here's a first look at a "new" character but the interaction I planned went sideways. I wanted Safi to find the voice and accidentally offend it but now he's deliberately offending it? Honestly, I like it better but why are you sassy now?!
Also, the Arabic text translates to "stranger", for those wondering.
@annymation @signed-sapphire @wings-of-sapphire @chillwildwave @uva124 @rascalentertainments @emillyverse @flicklikesstuff @mythartist21 @oh-shtars
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The Doll House
Yan! Modern Childe x 'pet'! Fem! reader x yan! modern Pantalone (Xtra Dessert!)
Minors do not interact or better yet, if you're uncomfortable with dark fiction. You may look away and nothing will be gone from you.
Thirsty fans, come git yer round 2 dessert. I know you guys have a separate stomach for it. Have a mood board for this fic too.
Warnings: R18+ Explicit content, Using Childe's actual name, Dub-con/non-con(?), bondage (ribbons), cosplay, use of titles/pet names: Sir, kitty, sweetie etc.., And more unnamable things to come. (+ Bad writing of smut)
This is my apology to you guys since I ran into some difficulty making the requests given in my inbox or chat, because I'll be busy for the next couple of days for personal reasons. - Puppeteer
"Y'all are thirsty, ps. Scribe doesn't know about this so please keep it between you and me." - Falaila
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"Give me a little twirl, Darling." Pantalone commanded as you move your body around in the black lolita style cosplay.
"A-ah⊠" letting out a low moan as you took a step. Feeling the cat tail wag inside of your rear, no doubt that Pantalone got it just for his entertainment. Sweet chimes of bells ever bounce along with you as you get near the Regrator who sat upon a red velvet-y couch.
"Now, that's a good girl. Big improvement from last time." He smiled, having you on his lap, nipping at your exposed skin. Savoring the sight of you wearing the things he picked. Especially that collar of yours, customised embossed on the leather with his title. Hands roam around your body while your head rests on his chest. You couldn't do anything with your hands tied by a ribbon.
"Pan-!" Feeling the sharp pain on your bare bottom under your skirt making you yelp.
"Tsk, tsk, _. We talked about this, address me properly." Pushing up the frilly skirt before resting his hand on your butt cheek, rubbing it.
"I'm s-sorry, master." Whimpering as you buried your face against his chest out of humiliation.
"Mm, there we go." He hummed seemingly satisfied, it had been at least a few months after taking you in. His other gloved hand stroked your head, occasionally playing with the cat ear headband. Meanwhile, the hand that's on your ass teased you by pushing the tail a bit further in before rubbing your exposed cunt.
"Does my little kitten miss her master filling her up?" Teasing as to get a lewd reaction from you, while leaving love marks all over your neck. Knowing this would be enough to piss off Ajax once he comes back.
"We have all the time to ourselves, sweetie." Inserting his fingers in your sopping wet hole. "Oh, rose." He hissed when he felt you rubbing against him on his lap. Pulling his digits out and forcing you to lick it clean. Hesitant lips pried open as your tongue identifies the substance. â Tasty?â Another jest, a humoured chuckle resonated from his throat.
He retreats his hands from your body, first you hear the jingle of his belt, then his zipper. It caused you to shiver in fear. " Don't be scared now." He mused before forcefully pulling you down on his lap, entering your warm entrance.
"Ngh⊠Master⊠It's too much..!" You were about to say his name again but rather not get humiliated. Tears welled up in your eyes as the pain slowly subsided into pleasure. He could feel you squeezing him tight, another spank is earned this time, his hand just squeeze your buttcheek.
"Shush, you take it as it is with pride." Kissing the side of your head before moving your hips to meet with his, letting your mouth make incoherent, lewd noises. What adds to your mortification is that the immoral act is on display to whomever enters or opens the door.
Jealous eyes met with his, the Regrator merely smirked and thrust his hips more. Hearing those sweet melodious moans from your lips satisfies him along with the saccharine tolls of the bells. Baby blue eyes that peered from the crevice of the door, stared coldly at him with an ill intent. His grip on your ass hasn't left, with one final thrust, he came inside of you. Some of his cum dribbled out, biting his lips as he felt you also came all over him.
"Mm, fuck⊠Who do you like better, doll. Me, Or a child?" He's asking a rhetorical question. Because he knows you'll choose him, right? It is also to taunt the little peeping tom in the room who made eye contact with him. His smile turned smug when he saw a child giving him the middle finger from the crack between the doors. In response to that, Pantalone's hand made contact with your pinkish butt cheek again earning another moan from your candied lips.
Before you could even speak, the door slammed open. "You fucking bastard, getting a head start!" Looking back at Ajax who had his shirt tattered a bit, he got into a fight earlier. While Pantalone just hummed and pulled you closer to his chest.
"Look, you're scaring her.." He cooed, kissing your forehead. It irked Ajax as you started to dread the sounds of him taking off his pants. "Oh, I'll fucking show you." Grumbled the 11th seat.
"W-wait-! I'm not ready- ah!" The cat tail is removed from your teased asshole as his cock slowly sinks in, replacing it. Letting out a loud groan, both men felt how your gummy walls clenched around them.
But that didn't stop the ginger haired combative man. "H-huu.. s-sir..!" He didn't hear your plea as he grabbed onto your bound hands from behind and used it to pull and push back into you.
"Fuck..! So, tight!" Ajax huff in your scent as your voice bounces off the room he can't even hear the sweet sounds of the bells placed on you.
Not seeing that scheming smile on Pantalone's face, he wasn't lying when he told you that he'll have more time with you than with Tartaglia. Especially when Ajax just came back from work. He figured that Pierro would assign the youngest to another turf for another shake down soon, leaving less time with you.
"Hope you don't mind working overtime, sweetheart. Unless you want us to breed you just before our wedding tomorrow."
#fatui x reader#genshin x reader#pantalone x reader#pantalone x you#childe x y/n#genshin fanfic#yandere pantalone#yandere childe#genshin smut#Falaila's Dessert#Scribe's not here!
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Moments: Midnight Moments
Moments masterpost
Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x fem!reader
Summary: Set in the Moments universe. Three times Isobel Bridgerton keeps you awake in the middle of the night.
Warnings: fluff, some slightly suggestive themes
Word Count: 1.5k
Authors Note: I hope you enjoy this Moments one-shot. No, its not a tribute to Taylor Swift lol. Thanks to @margowritesthings for the awesome Moments moodboard above and @makaylan for the read through. There will also be another festive Christmas Moments fic coming next month. <3
I
Seven weeks after your wedding
He finds you hunched over in the garden, being sick into his beloved rose bushes. Itâs around midnight and one of those warm late summer nights. Itâs been over a month since you returned from your two-week honeymoon in France.
âDarling, why are you out here so late?â Benedict asks, full of concern, handing you a handkerchief from his night robe to wipe your mouth
âI thought some fresh air might help,â you say weakly, closing your eyes and swaying on the spot slightly, trying to tamp down another wave of nausea.
âLet me get you a glass of water,â he bustles, giving you a quick peck on the forehead and disappearing back into the cottage.
When he re-emerges, you take it gratefully, rinsing your mouth, then taking a slow drink. You place the glass on the table next to a flickering lantern as he wraps you in an embrace from behind.
âSorry if I woke you,â you say softly.
âYou didn't, my love. I stirred, and the bed was empty, so I came looking for you,â he assures. âDid you eat something bad?â
You chuckle, enjoying the brush of his warm lips on your temple as you both gaze up at the stars.
âNo, darling.â
âThen why are you being sick? Perhaps an illness you picked up?â
âNot that either,â you tease, waiting for the penny to drop.
âThen what is it?â he queries.
âBenedict, it's been seven weeks since our wedding nightâŠ,â you pause, seeing if he figures it out.
âYes and?â he prompts, sounding nonplussed.
âAnd I am frequently feeling nauseatedâŠ, and I have not bled this month,â you offer the puzzle pieces.
You hear more than you see the moment he figures it out.
Thereâs a gasp and a hitch in his breath right by your ear. âOh!! Are you⊠pregnant!?!â his tone is filled with wonder and excitement.
âI rather suspect I am,â you smile, placing your hands over his, around your waist.
He spins you in his arms, so you face him.
âOh darling, thatâs so⊠wonderful,â he gushes, kissing your forehead, cheeks, and mouth. âA sibling for James,â he whispers happily, wrapping you tightly in his arms.
âYes, my love,â you smile up at him, and you rest your foreheads together.
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II
7 months after your wedding
You stand in a shaft of moonlight, staring out of the window, unable to sleep. Jamesâ sibling has started kicking now and sometimes wakes you up at night, dancing away. You gently rub your belly over your nightdress, hoping to calm them.
âShh shh, my sweet,â you soothe quietly âitâs nighttime, and we should be resting.â
âBaby moving?â Benedictâs voice is low and rough with sleep.
âYes, my love,â you turn back slightly towards the bed. âIâm sorry to wake you; go back to sleep; they will be done soon, I hope.â
He yawns then you hear footsteps as he pads out of bed.
âLet me see what I can do to help,â his smile is warm as he kisses your lips briefly before kneeling in front of you.
He cups your bump gently and brushes his lips against it. You feel his warmth through the thin cotton fabric.
âThis is your daddy, my darling; please go back to sleep. We love you so very much, but your mummy needs rest. Will you do that for me, please?â His voice is sonorous and vibrates over your skin.
âOh my heavens, Benedict, it worked,â you whisper excitedly, âthey have stopped.â
âI know I can feel the differenceâ his tone carries a touch of wonder as he kisses your bump softly.
âYou do know you will have to do that every night now,â you jest gently.
âHappily, my darling,â he responds, but something in his tone is a little duskier, and you feel butterflies as he looks up at you with a heated stare. His hands run slowly up your legs tracing over your skin and pushing up your nightgown â I can think of one way that may offer⊠an acoustic advantage,â he smirks, fingertips dancing on your inner thighs.
âMr Bridgerton!â you playfully admonish but sway your hips towards him.
âDo you truly object, my darling?â he asks, feeling his breath on your naked skin, your nightdress now pushed up over your bump.
âNot in the slightest,â you admit, hands running into his hair as he pulls your left leg over his shoulder and encourages you to lean back against the window frame.
âGood because I canât resist you like this, all swollen with my child,â he admits in a low tone.
And then there is no more talking for a while.
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III
7 years after your wedding
You wake to a scared little voice and a small hand shaking your arm.
âMummyâŠâ
âIsobel, what is it?â You murmur, blinking awake, sitting up and gathering your six-year-old eldest daughter into an embrace.
âI had a bad dream,â she snuffles, âbig scary animals were chasing me.â
âItâs alright, my love,â you soothe against her hair, wrapping her up tight and bringing her up onto the bed with you.
Sheâs usually so self-sufficient and fiercely independent that itâs rare she comes to you or, indeed, anyone for comfort.
âYou are safe now,â you assure her as she calms and stays wrapped in your arms for a few minutes. You reach over to light a bedside candle, and she clambers into the space between you and Benedict.
âMummy, is Daddy awake?â she whispers loudly.
âHe is now,â is the sleepy resonant reply, his back turned.
Benedict rolls over to face you both and kisses Isobelâs hair.
âHello, my sweet,â he rumbles, stifling a yawn.
âDaddy, I had a bad dream,â she explains.
âIâm sorry,â he sympathises, âdo you want to sleep with mummy and me tonight?â He offers indulgently.
She nods happily, her mood rapidly improving.
He smiles and pulls down the bedding slightly, and she burrows in excitedly, her face pinging between you both as you lay on your sides facing her.
âYou seem much better now,â Benedict observes with a wry smile.
âYes, the creatures canât get me now in my dreams,â she beams, âmummy and daddy will scare them away.â
Both you and Benedict chuckle at that.
âIt was just a dream, darling,â you say gently, âyou would be safe in your own bed too.â
âI know, but Iâd better stay here now mummy; I donât want you to lose sleep worrying about me,â she says solemnly, patting your hand.
Benedict smirks at you over her head. This child is too smart for her own goodâshe always finds a way to get her own way.
âWhy are you pulling that face, daddy?â Isobel asks
âBecause your mummy here is experiencing what itâs like to be at the other end of her fearsome intelligence, and Iâm rather enjoying it,â his crooked smile growing wider as he snuggles back under the bedding.
You purse your lips and raise your eyebrows at him. He mirrors the expression with mocking affection.
âDaddy here would do well to remember you have a tendency to kick your little feet when you sleep, Isobel,â you counter, âand when you lay in the bed with us where they may landâ you add pointedly, glancing down to her feet at the same level as his crotch.
His eyes track yours; then, thereâs a rush of movement as Benedict gets out of bed and drags Isobel with him into his arms.
âCome on, my sweet; I think itâs better you sleep in your bed after all,â he opines as Isobel wraps her arms around his neck. âYou are my big brave girl, arenât you?â
âFine, daddy,â she concedes, âbut youâll need to read me a bedtime story.â
âAnother one? But I read one only a few hours ago,â you hear him counter as they disappear down the hallway.
âThat was my last sleep; this one needs a story too,â itâs the last thing you hear as their voices fade. You already know the little negotiator has won her argumentâshe would make a most excellent lawyer.
Your husband is right; she is too damn smart for her own good, you think to yourself as you blow out the candle and settle down somewhat triumphant. With four children, you will take all the moments of peace you can get.
About fifteen minutes later, you feel a dip in the mattress, and an arm wraps around your waist under the covers.
âWell played, Mrs Bridgerton, well played,â he huffs, but the tone is definitely playful.
âItâs important to outwit your own children, my love,â you giggle.
âAnd your husband too?â He inquires as you roll over to face him.
âOh, I outsmarted him years ago,â you smirk, pulling his hand up onto the swell of your breast.
âOh, did you now?â He plays along; his tone pitched right where he knows it turns you to putty, his fingertips swirling your nipple through your nightgown as he leans in to kiss you.
âYes, I hoodwinked this beautiful creature into marrying me and giving me all his equally beautiful babies,â you tease flirtatiously as the kiss ends and his lips move to your neck.
âWhat a wretched siren you are,â he gusts, shaking his head.
âMmm, donât tell him,â you warn, closing your eyes under his sensual assault, his lips hot on your skin.
âYour secret is safe with me, Mrs Bridgerton,â he assures, his hands pulling off your nightgown with practised ease.
Some midnight moments are very precious indeed.
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I have been deeply perturbed by the revelation that the qsmp egg admins (and other admins) have been unpaid. Anyone but particularly young folks are taken advantage of a lot in the working sphere and it makes me feel deeply ill.
The amount of love those admins have clearly had for this smp and what it stands for is absolutely highlighted all the more. Every time they were on especially if not ârequiredâ by plot, thats just pure love. Love for loves sake. And it kills me to know all the obstacles they may have faced irl to work on something purely for passion.
no money. no fame. no name. Every egg always fell quiet upon jokes or jests of there payment. No sass because there was nothing. Nothing to show their families nothing to fund this âlifestyle choiceâ thats a job that doesnt pay. Being characters synonymous with the series, begged for, all the while with nothing. While the streamer they attend to is getting donoâs they preform on screen. Their streamers meet together offline at big events, while theyâre not even supposed to communicate over call with one another. Left behind with nothing, if they want merch from the streamer they hangout with day in and out they must buy it from there own pocket.
(speculation on my part but Dappers admin started getting burnt out around summer, they also hinted at building things behind the scenes, did they do so because that was paid work? Man so many little moments make my stomach turn)
this is a very serious matter.
this isnt to make everything either good or evil. People not getting paid for the work they do is bad. While I can hold the hope and hold accountable that the right thing (in payment and back payment) will and must be done, I hold it very dear when I say there is damage. Nearly an entire year these wonderful human beings have worked for nothing. The same or more work the streamer they are accompanying is praised for. So much goes on in a year that having no pay to show for work done is appalling and detrimental towards. It makes my skin crawl with all the possibilities behind the scenes. I am both incredibly angry and upset.
I do not know how Quackity was unaware. I am ignorant on how that is the case. I will believe it as the adminâs statements have been so but I am deeply disappointed. I do not believe him âevilâ he is human but people who are under his name are not having their needs met and I take that very seriously. His mission is good his love is good but this absolutely must be rectified. Not of criticism but of fact it must be done.
young people get taken advantage of so often and quackity himself could be swept up into that category, I am unaware of the particulars behind the project but as its in qâs name he is the one I am looking towards.
I have no particular ills to speak about quackity other then this topic, once resolved can be forgiven but I find it more disheartening how many wish to downplay severity or that they themselves would be happy to work for free. Those attitudes perpetuate cycles of abuse. I so hope for a future were folks come to know their worth and how precious there time, energy and love really is, and that those abusing do better and honor that work or else suffer a downfall.
So sick of people being taken advantage of.
I do think things can be fixed but that does not negate that this is a very serious subject (to me personally). I can believe something is good but requires fixing without it being synonymous with bad or evil. If somethings broke you fix it and its fine. Right now its broke, were in the fixing stage so I reserve judgement upon why this occurred until presented with the fix.
I do not like to villainize or dramatize these people or situations, this topic is serious and needs appropriate care. This can be done. I have faith. What I dont like to see is downplaying needs or making monsters of men.
People need pay for their work.
#Qsmp crit#qsmp discourse#qsmp neg#im still not sure how tags work or if this is right dont care if anyone reads this just want to make sure they have the chance to avoid it#If its too big a subject of discourse
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Can I get an 8 with Jamil? đ
pairing: jamil viper x gn!reader cw: suggestive, hypnosis (+ implied multiple times used) a/n: you certainly can! jamil is really fun to write for, i hope you enjoy this!!
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Nestled in your dorm at Scarabia, a heap of papers adorning the veneer surface of your desk, you heaved a sigh with your fingers tangled in your hair as you come across yet another problem youâre incapable of solving.
âThis homework is too much, Iâll never get it done,â you griped to yourself in vanquishment, pushing back on your chairâand just in that moment of tilting your head back, a knock resounded on your door. âCome in!â
You didnât bother to ascertain who it was, instead simply giving permission to impose upon your space.
With a soft sombre retained in his eyes, Jamilâs voice enveloped the room, although his tone only reflected a hint of annoyance (for your protection), â[name], you should really be more careful who you let into your room like that.â
A silver tray embellished with treats and drinks laid on Jamilâs arm as he shut the door behind him and padded deeper within. Motioning to his arrival, Jamil added, âKalim wanted me to bring you some things. For working so hard, he said.â
âHe shouldâve brought it to me himself instead of making you do itâŻâ you breathed out, feeling a sense of pity and vexation on Jamilâs behalf. You were sure that he had other things he wished to be doing instead of bringing you snacks for âworking so hardâ, which was just your normal spread of homework.
âNo, if itâs for you, I donât mind,â Jamil retorted with his thin lips arched into a smile, forsaking the tension bouncing between his strained muscles as his body went slack with relief.
Just from hearing your voice, so mellifluous to his ears as you never once displayed anything short of purity, Jamil could feel at ease around you. He was more open, more truthful, when he was around youâand he didnât feel the need to moderate his words as much. Thatâs not to say he doesnât still have his secrets, of course.
âOh⯠well, I appreciate it! I was just thinking about how I needed a break,â you chortled, an immense feeling of gratitude bursting over your insides, before asking, âAre you busy, Jamil-kun? We can share some of the snacks, if you want!â
Curling his fingers around his chin, Jamil vacillated on whether to accept your offer or notâthe idea of spending some alone time with you without thewretched, chaotic interruption of Kalim was enticing. âIs that really what you wish for?â he lightly jested.
âI would like you to join me, yesâŻ!â
You ushered the two of you over to the diminutive yet opulent couch in your room, the one that Kalim had bought for you, and set the tray so graciously offered to you onto the table before it.
Guided by your hand, Jamil plopped down into seating and thought about the irony of his emotions for a moment. Being dragged around you was different from when Kalim did it; and he always assumed heâd hate someoneâs selfishness in wanting him to do as they say.
But not when it comes to you.
Jamil watched with ravening attentiveness as you innocently ate at the snacks, biting into the crackers decorated with various spices, and his smile blossomed when you hummed in delight.
You really were so sweet and pure, werenât you?
Ahh, how he desperately wanted to close this distance between you. Youâd never fathom his true intentions or feelings until he outright said them to you⯠and yet that was something he couldnât ever do.
âTheyâre so yummy! Thank you, Jamil-kun!â you expressed your appreciation with a gentle yet pronounced coo, your lips curving into a charming smileâso undefiled by corruptionâand Jamil found himself becoming ill-fated.
âWhat else is in your heart?â Jamil questioned with a half-lidded gaze, instinctively reaching a hand out to your cheek and cupping the supple skin, âIf you could wish for anything, what would it be?â
Swirls engulfed his grey irises as he fixed his gaze into your eyes, each coil of hypnotic magic twisting around your precious frame bringing you further into his thrall, and as you blinked, a cloud blanketed your eyes.
And poor naive you had no idea what was happening, just curious on why he was bringing this up as you tried to answer, âIâd wish forââ
ââyou see, [name], Iâd wish for you to become mine.â
One more blink and you were entirely captivated by Jamilâs spell, your voice resonating with monotone hues, âYour wish is my command.â
âThen, kiss me,â Jamil ordered, and he observed as you obediently did as you were told; pressing your lips onto his, allowing your mouths to melt together in consonance.
Jamil took the initiative and prodded his tongue between your lips, slithering inside your mouth and savouring the slightly spicy taste within the crevice. From the crackers he baked for you.
Groaning into the kiss, almost frenzied to keep your mouths connected as long as possible, Jamil instructed between longing kisses, âNow, take off your shirt and come closer.â
Just the mere thought of having you following all of his commands exacerbated his arousal, and Jamil licked his smirking lips as you pulled back in order to peel off your shirt. You then moved over to him, settling your hands onto his shoulders as you straddled him; your hips, your own heat, resting atop his.
Jamilâs pants were growing awfully tight now, and you can feel it brush against your groin. âGood, little jewel. I love it when youâre like this,â Jamil praised, seeing how your cheeks flooded with delirious warmth in response, âitâs been a while since we had time to do this⯠Iâm looking forward to it.â
Not that youâd remember those times, of course. After all, his wish is your command, no?
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