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It sucks because I'm doing so much hard work to move past my trauma in therapy, but all of it keeps getting undone by the sole fact that I still live with my parents and the house they abused me in. every day when I come back from therapy I have to face the same people who did these horrible things to me, and I have to pretend that I didn't just relive every smack, whipping, or emotional abuse all over again. I have to come home to them. I'd ebeg but I genuinely don't feel like I deserve it without giving any kind of reimbursement. I've tried taking on more commissions but I can't ever finish them and half the time they end up with a full refund in addition to half finished art as well. genuinely makes me feel like a scammer accepting commisions and not knowing if i could finish them. i dont accept commissions anymore and it's still barely made me any income. people halfway around the world steal my art all the time and make bank. If I could even afford to table a convention I KNOW that I'd be able to start making money but I can never save up enough money at once to get a spot let alone the money needed to make merch in the first place. but whatever. whatever whatever whatever. until one of us dies or changes their minds I guess all I can do is say whatever.
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vegaspetemacau headcanons
aka a long episode of 'can two fucked up dudes and one school kid make up a healthy family? the answer is yes <3'
both macau and vegas hate hospitals with a burning passion. it reminds them of their momâs illness so the instant vegasâ doctor says heâs improving theyâre in the car, yelling for pete to get in. (pete does not get in. the doctorâs next sentence had been to specify they still need to keep vegas under observation. the brothers try protesting for exactly three seconds before they see how the smile falls from peteâs face)
this is not to say pete is indifferent to their discomfort. within the first week, the hospital room is filled with flowers and huge, gorgeous bouquets. the brothers breathe easier without the oppressive scent of hospital chemicals but thereâs barely room to sit. when vegas points t out, pete insists theyâre from his well-wishers. (yeah ok his bluffing skills are poor. thereâs a reason he got his tattoo) âi have two well-wishers,â vegas reminds him flatly. âand theyâre both in this room.â macau tosses a flower stem at his face and vegas clarifies: âthe second one is this doctor.â
itâs not all sunshine and roses but pete does his best to make the most of their situation. mornings mean family breakfast before macau is packed off to university. afternoons crawl by till vegas discovers peteâs uncanny talent with girl group choreographies. those are simultaneously torture and heaven to spectate. evenings are spent watching the worst of thai reality television, something macau claims to hate till heâs yelling at the stupid plot lines just as much as the other two.
(âoh come on, heâs obviously lying about them being cousins!â âdidnât you say youâre not watching.â âyou canât call it watching if iâm trying to gouge my eyes out the entire time, hia.â)
somehow, the nurses never wake vegas up at the crack of dawn for unnecessary blood tests, which is pleasant but still shocking.
(ok fine maybe pete had a nice, very sweet chat with the medical staff when they woke vegas up minutes after heâd finally drifted off in the early hours one morning. but it worked, so whoâs complaining?)
(macau overhears him bc of course he does. he doesnât interrupt. when pete returns to the room, smiling, with a terrified nurse in his wake, macau has his favourite dessert waiting.)
casual murder-threats aside, the three of them have a fairly uneventful time. a good thing for vegasâ recovery and a shit fucking deal for his attention span. itâs only a matter of time before cabin fever brings with it the fever of competition.Â
see this is fun bc vegas is ten kinds of terrifying till you put him in a board game. there, he refuses to cheat, says something about morals and fair play which is unfortunate bc, as it turns out, he really fucking sucks at games.Â
pete and macau donât give a shit. they kick ass at game night and take no prisoners. macau cleans vegas out so bad in the first few rounds that by the time pete flexes his skill at card games, heâs already irritable and betting on stupid shit like going to bed on time.Â
(he loses that one tooâ€ïž)
when the competition threatens to tear their family apart, all three decide to take a break.
the peace doesnât last. macau comes back from uni one afternoon, stars in his eyes, smiling all wide. âitâs true love,â he says, dazed. pete and vegas exchange looks. itâs some girl who doesnât know macau exists.
their amusement dials down to zero fairly quick when macau asks for dating advice, though.Â
âpâpete come on! you work fast! how did you get hia to fall for you?âÂ
âpâpete told me i need therapy.â
pete is affronted. âi also said you donât suck!â which, reallyânot the best improvement.
macau gives him a witheringly unimpressed look before turning to vegas.
a very unprepared vegas. taking a leaf out of peteâs book, he goes for honesty. âoh uh. my approach was a bit. hands-on. wonât be your style, buddy.â
pete, who has never missed a chance in his life, jumps in immediately. âoh yeah definitely not your thing, macau. he called my grandmother up to ask if we can go on a trip three minutes after we spoke properly for the first time.â Â
macau frowns, wants to know why but vegas is quick to mumble some nonsense about blessings for their relationship.
neither of them are sure why macau seems to believe this excuse. vegas doesnât exactly have the best track record, but hey whatever sticks, right?
by the time the doctor is finally ready to clear vegas for release, the entirety of their medical staff is on the verge of quitting, macau has had his heart broken (he ignored their advice and composed a song for the girl bc chay said it works 100% of the timeâit didnât) and vegas has lost a little less than a million baht to both of them through their nightly game sessions.Â
âand youâll lose a million more,â pete says cheerfully, helping him into the waiting car. âonce weâre home.âÂ
vegas canât bring himself to complain. not when âhomeâ sounds so lovely coming from his love.Â
macau, getting increasingly good at interrupting their private moments, manages to seat himself right between the two of them. it mends something in all their chests, the quiet moment of togetherness, shoulders brushing as they squeeze into backseat together, driving home.
(the serenity doesnât last long. macau captures the aux cord and insists on playing them his latest songwriting attempt.)
#im stopping here bc otherwise i never will jfc!!!!#vegaspete#vegaspetemacau#kinnporsche#vegaspete fic#idk i just think that they. them-- [blubbers incoherently]#[slaps roof of my found family]: these bad boys can fit so many of my self-indulgent fantasies in them#what i am trying to say is: s2 needs to deliver on them. Or Elseâ€ïž#queuing this bc i think i had fun with this but im not sure bc head achey :((#i need to write stupid amounts of fluff for them to feel sane sorry <3#jaane queue
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all I ask - part seven
warnings: language, more dramatic irony, more fighting, gun mentions, assault mentions, a lillll bit more dumb bitch syndrome than usual pairing: peter parker x reader, soulmate au word count: 3.5k
masterlist ~ requests are closed ~ part eight
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Peter looked miserable at school the next few days, which you thought was fair given he was still somehow fighting some kind of sickness. It probably didn't help that you nearly caused him a heart attack by stupidly saying your feelings.
It was hard to act normal around him after that, but you forced yourself to.
"Hey," you greeted him carefully, "Feeling better?"
"Not at all," he said simply, and you frowned.
"Then why are you still coming back at school?" You chided, "You only took one actual day off-"
"I'm perfectly fine, Y/N," he promised, even when you gave him a doubtful look. "I don't want to be at home right now, anyway."
You dropped the worried expression on your face, wondering what that meant. Maybe he was afraid you'd show up and bother him again as Black Cat, but you didn't want to assume that. Especially since you were considering not going back again after his reaction last night.
"If I see you sneeze once I'm dragging you to the nurse myself," you threatened, and he cracked a smile.
"Yes ma'am."
Throughout the day, you realized Peter definitely regretted not staying home. He seemed more out of it than usual, not to mention him definitely still being sick. You figured he just left the house so May wouldn't be worried.
During your last period of the day, he basically was asleep on the desk. He was lucky your teacher wasn't paying attention.
"If you stayed home, you would be feeling better," you pointed out after the bell rang, and he just let out a groan.
"Fine. I'll go to the meeting and then go home and I'll take Monday off if I still feel like shit. You happy?"
"I'd be happy if you just went home now," you muttered, and he huffed. But you meant it - you hated seeing him this sick, and you would like nothing more than to just take care of him, but he wasn't even taking care of himself.
If it wasn't for the last conversation you had with him as Black Cat, you would've brought him more soup and meds. You weren't sure if he'd even take it now.
A few hours later, and Mr. Harrington finally dismissed the decathlon team nearly forty minutes after MJ suggested it. You and Peter left out the side door, which was closer to the subway station he needed to hop on to get home.
"God, I hate when meetings drag on this long," Peter complained on the walk back, and you couldn't help but agree. It was already getting dark since it was winter, and you frowned at the sky as snow began to fall. Peter shuddered, and you felt even worse about him being out in this.
"Yeah," you sighed, "You should get home before it gets too cold. I really don't like the sound of that cough."
He gave you a look, but you just gave him one right back. "Okay, but I have to walk home with you first."
"Uh, no you do not," you narrowed your eyes, "Appreciate the gesture, but I'm not going to let you walk me home when you're sick. I have pepper spray, and you have a fever. I think I have a better shot by myself."
"But-"
"And it just started snowing, and we live in complete opposite directions. No, Peter."
He was going to protest again, but you held a hand up, "I've walked home multiple times, and I don't live far away. Trust me - I'm fine. Go home or I'm calling your Aunt. Seriously, Pete, I hate seeing you like this. Please go home."
Peter's expression softened at your concern, and he seemed to accept defeat way easier than you anticipated. "Okay, fine. But text me when you get home or I'm going to call the police."
"I will, promise," you held a pinky out, and he smiled a little as he hooked it with yours. "Have some soup or something. And if I see you at school on Monday and you're still ill, I'm kicking your ass."
"Yeah, okay," he dropped your hand, giving you another look, "Please be careful."
"I will," you repeated, knowing full well that you never had an issue on this route home.
New York was quiet for once, though it wasn't too surprising considering the neighborhood by your school. The subway rattled alongside you once or twice, and a few people passed by, but it was quiet.
You only wished Peter could've walked with you for the company. Considering you definitely had more than just pepper spray at your disposal, you really weren't concerned with anyone trying you. It hadn't happened before, but even if it did, you were prepared.
But it was lonely without him. It was the only time he was really himself around you, considering how guarded he was around Black Cat and how little time you really interacted with him at school. You were trying to convince yourself that even though it didn't go well, telling him how you felt was a good thing. He deserved to know, and if you couldn't be honest about who you were, at least you could be honest about your feelings.
You turned one of the last few corners before reaching your building, digging around in your backpack for your keys. It wasn't abnormal for them to fall to the bottom of your bag, and you were cursing yourself for not having them out earlier like you usually did. You really needed to start just attaching them to your lanyard that had your pepper spray.
The distraction was enough for someone to sneak up on you.
Someone grabbed your arm and pulled you into a side alley, making you let out a surprised noise. You were shoved against the brick wall, and you winced from the ache now on your back.
"Alright sweetheart, everything in your bag, now," the guy didn't sugarcoat it, pointing a gun at you. You gave him a disbelieving look before it really hit you what was happening.
"Oh, great," you muttered in annoyance, and he seemed to take offense to that. He shoved the gun further toward your face while you frowned at it, almost feeling crosseyed.
"I said everything in your bag, right now, do I look like I'm messing around?" He growled, and you resisted the urge to roll your eyes. Fortunately for him, you didn't get the chance to do anything about it.
A familiar sound made you tense, and you watched as the gun in your face was snatched away by a web. Same thwipping sound again and the guy was pulled off his feet, shouting in surprise as one of Spider-Man's webs tugged him to the ground.
"Men like you are why I hate my job," Spider-Man's angered voice made you tense, and you made yourself look over to where he now was standing over the guy. He shot a few more webs at him, effectively pinning him to the ground.
Your annoyance only deepened with his arrival, and it was hard to remember you weren't Black Cat at the moment.
As per usual around Spider-Man, your fight or flight instincts kicked in - but right now, to him, you knew you were just some random girl that almost got attacked. Running away from him wouldn't exactly help you.
"Hate assholes with guns," he muttered, and you tried not to look weird as he came up to you. He sounded annoyed, more than he usually did when he fought muggers from what you had seen. "Are you okay?"
He said something else to his AI that you didn't register, before walking over to you with his masked eyes squinted, and you realized you should probably answer his original question.
"Hi, hello?" Spider-Man's voice softened, and it took everything in you not to shove his arm away when he placed a gloved hand on your shoulder, "You alright there?"
"I'm fine," you said shortly, and then your eyes widened when you realized how mean that sounded. You were pretty sure no normal person would act like that when Spider-Man just saved them, "I mean, sorry, thank you! Thank you so much. I-I didn't mean to be rude, I-"
Spider-Man laughed, and you almost tensed at the sound - you'd never heard him genuinely laugh before. "Oh, don't worry at all, that was scary. I know you're not being rude."
It really wasn't that scary. You'd faced much worse things than a mugger, and you were sure given two more seconds, you could have easily handled it yourself. In fact, it was kind of weird how quick Spider-Man was there.
"Well, it's late and clearly not safe around here...can I swing you home?"
You felt like your brain was short-circuiting. "What?"
"I don't feel comfortable letting you walk home alone after that," he said, his masked eyes getting smaller as he looked down at the webbed up mugger, as if he was glaring at him. "The police are on their way to get this loser, and I'd like to avoid an encounter with them anyway. So I can swing you home if you want?"
"No," you said quickly, and then hurried to correct yourself, "I mean, no thank you, I'm fine. I'm literally only a few blocks away, really."
"Hey, it's okay, I promise I won't go too fast," he assured you, and you wanted to bang your head against the brick wall, "But seriously, I can't let you walk home by yourself. Not in good conscious."
You could already tell that no matter what argument you tried to give, he was way too stubborn to let you be. As much as he annoyed you, you couldn't help but admire that part of him that wanted to help everyone. Even if it was unrealistic.
"Okay," you said in defeat, and he let out another one of those laughs. It brought a weird feeling to your chest that you forced yourself to ignore.
"You are very stubborn," he pointed out, and you almost chuckled at the irony of you just thinking that about him. "Where do you live? I can even swing you right to your window!"
In a panic, you remembered that you left your suit out on your bed. "Oh, well, that's not necessary. My, uh, parents would freak out."
He seemed to pause, "Parents?"
"Yeah, they're crazy, super overprotective," you lied, knowing full well there weren't any parents of yours anywhere near your apartment. "Plus, I'm sure I left it locked or something. Maybe just the front of my building would be fine."
"Okay," he said slowly, but he seemed to shake off whatever thought about that he had as he held his arms out, "Ready?"
You didn't let yourself hesitate, though it felt way too weird to be around him without arguing or fighting. And you hated not being in the suit - you felt too vulnerable as he gently wrapped an arm around your waist and whispered a "hold tight", before pulling you off the street.
You said probably way too many curses as you clutched tighter to him, the feeling of swinging through the streets way different than in the rare instances you used your grappling hooks. Especially given the fact that you weren't in control.
The worst part, though, was that he was laughing at you. You were pretty sure the second he realized you hated swinging, he found it hilarious. His grip on you tightened as he did a close turn, and you gave up trying to keep your head out of the crook of his neck.
"You can let go now," Spider-Man's quiet voice in your ear was the only thing that made you realize he had landed. You managed to let go of your tight grip on him, almost feeling dizzy.
"Okay, never doing that ever again," you squeaked, and Spider-Man was still laughing as he dropped his arm from your waist.
"Sure," he agreed, snickering, "Hopefully you'll walk home with someone next time and we won't be in this situation again."
You frowned, mentally cursing Peter in your mind for jinxing you. Of course this would happen the one time you wouldn't let him walk with you.
"Yeah, well," you wanted to argue that you would have stopped him, but that probably wasn't going to help your identity at all. "Thank you, Spider-Man. I appreciate it."
You hoped that sounded sincere, even though it almost felt like it physically hurt to say. His mask shifted into what might've been a smile, or a grimace. You went with smile.
"Of course, no need to thank me," he looked like he was going to say something else but then he sneezed, making you jump.
You stared at him, "Uh, bless...you?"
"Thanks," he sniffed, looking like he was already in a rush to leave, "Not contagious, I promise. Just...allergies."
"Right," you agreed, a strange feeling creeping up your chest. "Well...thanks again for the lift. And the save."
"Anytime, Y/N," he gave you a wave, and your eyes widened as he swung away. For about a minute you stood there before the cold got to you, and you trudged up to your apartment and unlocked your door with shaking fingers.
Spider-Man knew your name.
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You spent the entire weekend thinking about Spider-Man and how he knew your name and you couldn't think of any conclusion that would make you feel better.
The obvious one - he knew you. Somehow, somewhere, you've come across Spider-Man when he was a civilian, because you sure as hell never interacted with the hero as Y/N before. So you knew Spider-Man outside the suit. Super great, not at all concerning.
Even worse, he knew you and remembered your name. It wasn't like it was someone you bumped into on the street that might've recognized your face. You remembered how angry he seemed about you having a gun in your face, how softly he spoke to you directly - he knew you on a personal level.
You didn't want to think about anyone that could fit the description. It could've been anyone from a classmate to the barista who memorized your regular drink to...a close friend.
Something that you promised yourself a long time ago was that no matter what, you wouldn't try to unmask Spider-Man. He was a dick, sure, and he pissed you off multiple times - but what he did for others was good. As much as you hated to admit it, New York didn't deserve him. If you found out who he was, maybe others would too. His life would be ruined and many other lives would be in jeopardy.
You forced yourself to not think about it any longer.
But the subject of his identity didn't bother you as much as the subject of yours. If you knew Spider-Man, and he knew you, was it possible he could find out who you were? Depending on who he was, would he do anything about it if he found out?
Stupid question - of course he would.
Again, though, you made yourself shut those thoughts off as you went to school after the weekend.
"How come you didn't tell me what happened on Friday?"
You glanced up at Peter's annoyed expression, and for a minute you were almost worried he found out you were Black Cat - he'd never directed an attitude like this at you unless it was in that context.
"What?"
"Shh!" A librarian walking by hushed you both, and Peter seemed to get rid of his mood a little at that. Instead he just gave you a look as he sat down next to you on the long seat of the table you were studying at.
"Why did I have to find out through Spider-Man at my internship that you were almost mugged?" He stated flatly, and you felt your heart drop.
"W-What? How would he have known that you know me?"
Peter tensed a little, "Well, I talk about you sometimes. And Ned and MJ, of course, but...anyway, he stopped by the desk Tony assigned me and I have a picture of you guys on there and he said he recognized you from saving you from some creep with a gun the other night."
He rambled that out almost too quickly for you to understand, but you caught the gist of it. The idea of him having a picture of you all on his work desk was adorable.
"Aw, that's sweet, Peter."
"Don't change the subject," he frowned, but he didn't seem mad at you, not really.
You felt yourself almost relax. This made way more sense than the stupid scenarios you were coming up with. Spider-Man, who knew Peter for years at this point, had heard about you through whenever Peter talked about you and his other friends. He saw a photo of you on Peter's desk and probably realized you were the same girl. They were probably somewhat friends, and seeing a friend of his getting mugged was bound to piss Spider-Man off.
God, he had even told you as Black Cat that he knew Spider-Man. Of course you would just to stupid conclusions before remembering that key factor.
"I'm sorry," you apologized, and you meant it. "I didn't think it was anything worth mentioning."
"Y/N, seriously?" He asked softly, his brown eyes searching yours, "You were mugged. That's not normal. Are you okay? Did he hurt you?"
You made yourself look away from his stare, once again balancing that fine line between knowing he cared about you as Y/N but not in the same way as he viewed your alter ego. "No, Peter, I'm fine. Honest. I didn't want you to worry."
"Of course I'm going to worry," he huffed, almost sounding offended, "It's-I can't not worry about you. And considering the fact that I let you walk home alone-"
"No way you're blaming yourself for this," you interrupted him, hating the guilty expression on his face. "Peter, you were visibly sick. What could you have done if you were there anyway?"
"I just don't like the thought of you being in danger," he sighed, and you couldn't really say that you'd been in much more dangerous situations. "I'm sorry. I'm not mad at you, I'm frustrated that it happened."
"Almost happened," you pointed out, and said the next words even if you didn't want to, "Thanks to Spider-Man I am alive and well, and have my backpack still."
He snorted, and you tried not to tense when he pulled you into a hug. "You can't walk home alone anymore unless it's broad daylight, deal?"
"Deal," you agreed, letting yourself hug him back and trying not to get lost in it. Not for the first time, you wondered what his reaction would be if he knew who he was really hugging.
He ended up staying with you at your table, pulling out the math homework you both had for the same class. Despite you thinking that conversation was settled, he still seemed almost on edge while you both went through the problems.
"How was it seeing your parents?" Peter asked absentmindedly, and you gave him a funny look.
"They aren't in town until next week, remember?" You forced a chuckle, luckily remembering at the last minute that you told Peter and Ned the made-up dates for your parents to visit. It was too suspicious for them to think you lived by yourself year-round, but also too suspicious for you to claim your parents were always around and them never seeing them. You made up the lie about visits back when you first met your friends.
"Oh. Must've gotten the dates mixed up," he frowned like something bothered him, going back to his paper. "What'd you get for 24?"
"Uh, 67."
"Damn," he muttered, erasing his paper almost angrily.
"You okay?" You asked, frowning at his expression.
"Just been out of it lately," he admitted, as if you hadn't noticed. "I'm fine."
You had to think about it, but it's been nearly a week since you saw Peter as Black Cat, which was longer than it had been in months. He's been acting off ever since the last time you saw him, but you couldn't imagine they were related. He made it clear he didn't want you to come around any longer.
"Is it your soulmate?" You asked before you could stop yourself, and he looked up at you a little too quickly.
"Oh, uh," he shrugged, "Kind of."
You didn't press him, as that was pretty much an answer right there. He started talking about the problems again, so you got the hint and didn't bring it up any more.
At least now you were more certain in your decision to try to go see him as Black Cat again.
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Stutter Something Profound
A/N: Yâall wanted part 2, so you get part 2 with some sub!Din! It did get a little soft, I might add, but enjoy! Happy Valentineâs Day from me to you! As always, comments and feedback are welcomed! xx
Pairing: Din Djarin x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 6k
Warnings: SMUT (18+ only) -Â oral (m and f receiving, unprotected sex, etc...)
DOUSE THE LIGHTS (PART 1)
THE MANDALORIAN MASTERLIST
MAIN MASTERLIST
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âQuiet down,â Dinâs voice was sharp and biting as your brow furrowed and you turned to him with a look of confusion marring your features.
âI didnât say a word,â you huffed in response as you turned your attention back to the little bean sitting across the cold, metallic floor from you. His favorite little ball was in his tiny hands as the two of you rolled it back and forth to each other. Youâd been stuck in hyperspace for some time, and there really wasnât much else to do. It was like the Mandalorian - Din,  you reminded yourself - refused to have even a modicum of fun. Heâd been even more quiet and stoic than normal recently.Â
Ever since -Â
âYes, you did,â he turned his head sharply, surely almost breaking his neck as he turned to look at the two of you from the captainâs seat. You quirked a brow in question before gesturing between yourself and the small child. He huffed sharply through his nose, the sound a loud, bitter thing as it reverberated off the walls, âkeep it down.â
âThatâs what I thought we were doing,â you snapped back before rolling your eyes and turning back to your small compatriot. He cooed gently before smiling and taking the ball as you rolled it back to him. You couldnât help but smile at the little one; he always had the best and most calming aura about him. Before you could stop yourself, under your breath you murmured, âmaybe you just need to calm down a little.â
"Excuse me?" oh. You just knew there was a scowl on his face, those plush lips pulled in a frown. Maker, those lips, delicious and soft, has been all over your body, mapping and marking almost every single inch of skin. You'd been thinking about them ever since that night - his touch, his taste, his feel. All of it.
Nothing had been the same since.Â
And yet nothing had changed.
"You heard me, Din," it was the first time you'd used his name since that night. It was a challenge as much as a question. It was silent, almost dead silent, as he slowly rose to his full height. He presented an impressive sight, covered in gleaming beskar, as his chest rose and fell steadily. Slowly, ever so slowly, he stepped closer, each footfall loud and purposeful. Shit, shit, shit. Youâd fucked up and this was it. You were always pushing and pushing and pushing, and youâd finally pushed enough. Maybe heâd reached his limit.Â
He came over to you and slowly crouched down, predatory in every way, reaching over and taking your chin in his gloved hand as you turned your face up to meet his own. You were left breathless as you stared back into the black T of his visor, wishing you could see the expression in his eyes, âare you telling me what to do?â
Part of you wanted to remain small and shrink away, but another part of you, this one was feeling particularly strong in the moment and there was no holding it down, âyes.â
âUh huh honey,â he dragged his thumb across your bottom lip causing you to part them slightly, âyou sure about that?â
âY-yes,â your head was already spinning with all sorts of thoughts and fantasies. He dipped his finger slightly into your mouth and you had to resist the urge to suck on it. But then you remembered - you remembered what you had told him last time. As you laid in his arms and made a promise that you planned on making good on, âyes. I am, Din.â
âHmmm,â it was a soft gentle growl as he released your chin and stepped back, standing up again. Your heart was fluttering wildly as he walked towards the ladder, to head down, âweâll be on Sorgan soon. Keep him with you.â
You waited until he was gone and thoroughly disappeared before hanging your head and sighing shakily. Before you could get too caught up in your head, a small bit of laughter and gentle cooing captured your attention. You looked up and found your little friend grinning at you, his little teeth on display as he made grabby hands for the small metal ball.Â
âOf course, my sweet bean,â you smiled fondly at him, giving him what he wanted, âanything for you. At least one of my boys isnât being a Mr. Grumpy Boots!â
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âThis is Sorgan?â you asked softly as you held the little one in your arms, already falling behind Din as made it a point to stop and study your surroundings. It was a beautiful place, lush and green and teaming with the sounds of all sorts of animals in the distance. He made a small noncommittal sound without so much as looking back at you. You rolled your eyes at him before sticking out your tongue and blowing a quiet raspberry, causing the little one to giggle. It appeared that he still wasnât over being grumpy, and you were sure that he was still sour over your little outburst.Â
You remained quiet as you followed after him, deciding that it was best not to push his buttons. Although you werenât so concerned with the possibility of what he would do. You knew that he wasnât going to abandon you in some remote part of the galaxy as you once had feared; no, perhaps heâd even give you another...punishment like he had previously.
But you werenât sure he ever would mention again. Youâd wanted to bring it up, desperately so, but you just...didnât quite know how. The morning after youâd woken up a few times only to find yourself still wrapped up in his arms, resting your head on his chest as he snored lightly. When youâd gone to get up for the day at hand, he was long gone, already dressed and going about business as usual.
You'd tried not to be upset, not to let it get it to you...but kriff. It was a one time deal but Maker, you wished it weren't. But who were you to question and interrogate him on the matter? Besides the words that needed to be exchanged, or your little altercation earlier, he'd avoided you like the plague. It was even worse than being stranded in the most desolate desert in the outer rim.
"Keep up," he called over your shoulder as you realized you'd been caught up on your myriad of daydreams and fallen far behind. You huffed as you picked up the pace to keep up with his long strides, "we're almost there."
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Almost there ended up being another half hour of trekking through the woods until you reached the small village that served as your destination. Part of you had been tempted to complain, but the other half was thrilled to be able to get out and stretch your legs and see something other than metallic walls or dirt and decay. The air was fresh and light, doing wonders for your spirit and lungs. The little one seemed to be enjoying everything as much as you were - his eyes were wide and curious and as he studied the new surroundings. At the sight of a few butterflies, he reached out to try and capture one, almost tumbling out of your arms at one point. Giggling, you slowed your pace and set him on the forest floor, letting him follow behind the two of you all while keeping a close eye on him.
Eventually, the sounds of life - childrenâs laughter, animals, and animated chatter met your ears and you found yourself in a picturesque, small village. You look at everything in awe as your green bean toddled over to the nearest group of children. Instinct took over and you moved over to grab him, but Din grabbed your arm and shook his head, as you frowned at him, âheâs fine. He knows them.â
âOkay,â you nodded, but nonetheless your guard was up. You were more protective over Din and the little one than anything else. If something happened to either one of them you didnât know what youâd do. Din must have sensed your hesitation as he lightly put his hand on your arm and pulled you along with him. Nodding, you silently acquiesced to his request.
It was another short walk to the center of the town, where you spied a small group of people milling about, almost as if they were expecting them. Din gave them a nod, but kept you close at his side.Â
âMandalorian,â a beautiful woman with long hair walked over to the two of you as Din held his hand out to her but you stepped slightly behind him. She had a kind face and eyes, and you could tell she meant no ill will, "you've returned."
"As I said I would," he insisted as he shook her hand. Turning her attention to you, she looked you up and down, observing you with intense scrutiny, and yet you did not feel afraid. Whatever had happened between the two of them, you could tell she was looking out for him.
Holding out your own hand, you steeled yourself as you offered it to her and gave a kind smile accompanied by your name.Â
"Omera," she had deemed you worthy of her name and seemingly her approval, "you'reâŠ"
"She's mine," he insisted sharply, causing both you and Omera to look at him in surprise. Inside, you were beaming and bursting with joy and pride at the surprising revelation. You weren't sure if it was purely situational or he had meant it as more - as what it was, but Maker - your face felt hot and knees weak.Â
"She's yourâŠ"
"Mine," he repeated simply with a curt nod and an air of finality. His hand found the small of your back as you raised your eyebrows at the woman in shock, practically glowing from inside.
"Very well Mandalorian," the woman turned on her heel and motioned for the two of you to follow, "we're pleased to see you and the little one again. You may stay as long as you'd like; let me show your quarters."
Hesitating for a moment, you watched as the two of them started to walk away, leaving you behind. All of this seemed so surreal - domestic, uncomplicated, and...free. It almost felt surreal and you were afraid it would all end up being a dream. Too good to be true - a taste of what your life could be. Maybe...maybe one.
"Sweet girl," perking up at the use of the almost sacred nickname you caught his gaze. Holding out his hand to you, it wasn't but a mere moment before you took it, nervously - tentatively - and let him pull you towards his body. And then softly, almost as if it was just the two of you and not a whole gaggle of people around you, Din leaned in, "keep up."
What was even going on anymore? Surely this had to be a dream...but then again the warmth of his hand in yours was tangibly real. This was actually happening.
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"This is it, huh?" looking around the small cabin, you quickly decided that you liked it. It was quaint and cozy and warm - everything that the Crest wasn't. Definitely something you would appreciate for a week or two and definitely something you would miss as soon as you left. The little one had been busy with his old friends, and Omera had graciously offered to take him for the night. As much as you both loved him, it was nice to have a little bit of time to yourselves.
"Not to your liking, princess?" his hands were on his hips as he watched you closely. It was teasing - lilting and with a small tone of amusement. Shaking your head you turned to him and offered a small smile, "you'll be comfortable here. Better than the ship and it'll give you an opportunity to stretch your legs."
"I like it," you agreed, "its nice to slow down for a change. Who knew you had a heart and a brain after all, Din?"
"Very funny, brat," the way you tingled at his use of the word was enough to render you speechless. He paused for a moment, thoughtful and quiet, "I donât hate you, you know."
"Huh?" your eyes widened in surprise at the sudden declaration and the doe eyed look on your face enough to make his own cheeks tinge with a pink flush. Once again he was eternally thankful for the beskar helmet. He slowly reached up and grabbed your chin between his fingers as you swallowed the lump in your throat.
"I know I'm not always...the easiest to get along with," he all but whispered, "but I do appreciate you more than you know."
"Hmmm," your body was electric as his touch sent sparks down your spine, "I know, Din. I...fuck. I appreciate you too. I've been...thinking about you."
"Have you, naughty little thing?"
"Mhmm," you closed your eyes and keened into its touch, "ever since that nightâŠ"
"Then what do you want?" his voice was low - dangerous - as his hand tightened around your throat, squeezing ever so slightly. Your pupils were dilated, eyes practically black with lust as a small sound escaped your lips. How easy it would have been to give in and let him have his way with you, "tell me little brat. Use your words."
"You," it was almost a whimper as the heat pooled low in your belly and the delicious, tingling ache between your legs started. How easy that would be to let him use your for his (and your pleasure). Even within the thick haze of arousal, you reminded yourself of your promise.
He would be your good boy.
Almost out of nowhere, your hand was on his wrist, delicate compared to his large gloved one, and pulling him away from you.Â
"What are you-"
"I'm in charge, Din Djarin," you reminded him, a surge of confidence running through your blood as desire seeped into every fiber of your beating. Your heart was beating wildly as you anticipated his reaction, treading carefully to make sure you didn't overstep any boundaries, "I made a promise last time and I don't break promises."
He chuckled - a dark, delicious sound that sparked pure fire in your bones. Instead of a smart remark for once he...acquiesced.
"Tell me what you do want."
"Strip," you echoed his words from the last time you'd found yourself in this position, "and get on your knees."
"As you wish,â he pulled back and started to slowly peel off his gloves, his gaze trained on you the entire time. You felt like a shy maiden, rather than a woman about to make a grown man cry, as a flush rose up in your neck and face; but you didnât shift your gaze away.
Din made a show of pulling off each piece of armor, bit by Beskar bit, in painfully slow manner. The cocky Mandalorian knew exactly what he was doing. As soon as he was left in his underclothes, you could see that his cock was already painfully hard and straining at his trousers. A sense of pride welled up in your chest as you realized you were the cause of it all. Keeping the helmet on for the moment, his large hands skimmed the hem of his shirt as you almost lost your patience and tore it off for him. Languidly, methodically, he left the shirt up and tugged it over his head, letting it fall with an unceremonious small sound to the floor.Â
He was beautiful - even more in the fading light of day than he had been in the dark. Tan, golden skin littered with freckles and scars came into view as your breath hitched in your throat. Maker. You bit your lip as he tilted his head to the side to gauge your reaction. Trying to play it cool, you motioned for him to continue his fingers trailed over the waistband of his pants. The dusting of dark hair that disappeared into his pants was enough to make your mouth water as you remembered the promise it held.Â
Din popped open the button and slowly unzipped his pants before tugging his pants down his legs and kicked them off along with his boots. Apparently you werenât the only one getting impatient. Making a small, musing sound in the back of your throat you walked over to him, admiring his beauty - and his hard cock that was already leaking fat beads of pre-cum. Smirking, you trailed a hand down his warm skin, raking your nails over it as you pressed a few lazy kisses along his broad shoulders. You were almost positive that you could hear a small sigh leave his lips.Â
âYou are beautiful, Din Djarin,â you murmured as you pressed featherlight kisses to his neck, noting that he swallowed thickly, âitâs a shame no one sees - but a privilege to have you at my mercy.â
Before letting him get a word in edgewise, you went over to the windows and made sure everything was tightly closed and curtains were drawn before turning off the bedside lamps. There was almost no light left in the small room, save for the candle near the door; just enough to get by but not enough to actually see anything. Flouncing back over to Din, his large, warm hands found purchase on your waist as you reached up and tentatively rested your hands on the side of his helmet.Â
âDo you trust me, Din?â you whispered, a far cry from how domineering you intended on being. His hands circled around your wrist as he offered you a soft nod. You lifted your hands up, along with his as you pulled off the beskar and gently set it down along with the rest of his armor.Â
When he was fully stripped, a sharp contrast to you being fully clothed, he immediately tried to crash his lips onto yours to kiss you; a hungry, feverish thing. You smirked against his lips before quickly pulling away and placing a finger on his lips and shaking your head, âno, no, no honey. Not yet.â
âBrat-â
âHmmm,â your hands went to his shoulders as you pushed him down and onto his knees, âit seems to me like youâre the one not listening. Wonât you be a good boy, Din?âÂ
Knowing what you wanted immediately, his hands went to your waist as he undid your pants and pushed them to the ground, helping you to step out of them. You knew normally he would have argued with you or something but today something was different; almost like you had him under some sort of spell.Â
âSo beautiful,â he murmured as his hands ran up your thighs, stopping to paw at your bum and giving it a good squeeze, pulling a squeal of delight from your lips. He chuckled against your skin, placing kisses along your thighs and hips before working over to your mound. Running a finger through your already soaked folds, he gathered some of the your arousal before it in his mouth and sucking it clean, âlike fucking candy.â
âDin,â it was a herculean task not to completely surrender control to him and have his face. He hummed in content as he nudged your legs further apart and you could feel his breath fanning against your warm, wet center. Carding a hand through his dark locks, you gently yanked his head away, âwe donât have to do thisâŠâ
âTell me what you want, sweet girl,â he rasped as you nodded slowly, âI can handle it - whatever you want.â
His gentle reassurance was enough to get you back on your game as you brought his face to your core, where you were getting desperate for his touch, âeat it.â
Warm hands anchored themselves to your hips as he buried his face in between your thighs, licking up your soaked folds like a starving man. It was such an unexpected, pleasant rush that you almost lost your balance as you braced yourself against the wall. A small whimper escaped your lips as Din continued to lap at you, his aquiline nose nudged against your clit. For all the talents this man had, eating pussy was definitely one of them.Â
âKriff,â it wasnât long before your legs started to shake as the pleasure in your belly grew and grew and threatened to snap. He was not shy or soft spoken as he murmured filthy praises against your heat as he licked and suckled on your clit and folders before plunging his tongue into your velvety walls. He was quick to balance you as you almost staggered forward, âDinâŠâ
âSo good,â he praised as he reached up and added two thick fingers to his ministrations, curling them in a come hither motion as he quickly found your sweet - the one that made you see absolute stars. Your eyes squeezed shut as you felt nothing but warmth radiate throughout your body and pressed his face firmly against you. You felt the vibrations of his chuckle as he continued on, just a little further and harder until you were over the edge. A large hand had snaked up your body to cup and squeeze your breasts through your shirt as you keened into him.
This time you didnât even bother to hold back your mewls and moan as you came all over his tongue and fingers. Making a sound of approval, he worked you through your orgasm until you were a shaking, whining mess above him. His name came off your tongue in reverence as he stabilized you and lapped up every last bit of your arousal.Â
âMaker,â you finally managed to catch your breath after a few minutes as you pulled out of his grasp and helped him to his feet. In the soft candlelight you could see your juices glistening on his face. Unable to stop yourself, you threw your arms around his neck and crashed your lips onto his, kissing him in a fervent tangle of tongue and teeth. He responded eagerly, taking his time to taste you and explore your mouth as your wicked hands roamed his body. Din almost choked on a moan as you grabbed his weeping cock in your hand, coating it in the reminder of your wetness. A smile grew on your face as you pulled back and looked at him innocently, âgood boy, Din. It must be painful, huh? To be this hard and have no relief? Do you want me to make it better?â
âMouth,â it was a soft whisper -Â a plea, âuse your mouth.â
âHmm,â you mused as you continued to stroke his length, noting how he seemed to thrust into your hand more with each passing second, âI donât know if youâve earned that yet.â
A mess of sounds, guttural and visceral, met your arms as you played with him before massaging his balls just to push him as far as he could go. It wasnât only before you felt him twitch in your hand and could hear the struggle as he tried not to come in your hand.
âSweet girl,â he stammered out as he closed his eyes in bliss; but you beat him to the punch and pulled your hand away, creating a painstaking distance between your bodies. He hissed at the loss of contact and his orgasm as you ripped your shirt and bra off, letting the offending articles join the heap of his clothing, âfuck!â
âI told you that you hadnât earned it yet,â you reminded him with a saccharine smile, âonly good boys get to cum.â
âI am going to-â
âGet on the bed and lie on your back,â you insisted sharply. He huffed sharply before marching over and getting on top of the plush blankets. Looking around for a moment, you knew exactly what you were searching for, hoping you hadnât misplaced the crimson silk fabric. After a few moments of digging, you made a small noise of triumph as you found the object of your affection. Walking back over with a sway of your lips, you displayed the fabric to him, âhands up and behind your head.â
âWhat are you doing?â it was a tone of wonder and amusement as you raised an eyebrow and hoped he was able to see it.
âYouâre not allowed to use your hands,â you grinned as you stole a kiss before grabbing his wrists in your hands, âno touching, Din. Not until I say so.â
The Mandalorian - your Mandalorian - grunted as you threaded the fabric through the headboard and secured his wrists. It wasnât necessarily a strong, tight hold, but it was enough to get your point across. No touching. Din could have easily broken through the thin fabric, but he wasnât going to try again - he was going to be a good boy.
"What are you going to do sweet girl?" he asked as you spread your legs on either side of his hips, your wetness brushing the soft curls of his pubic hair. Grinning almost sinfully, you grabbed his jaw and turned his face towards, only making out the highs and lows of his features. Leaning down you kissed him, chasing after his lips with your own.
"Have my way with you," you whispered as you kissed the shell of his ear before working along his jaw and neck, making it a point to nip and suck at the delicate skin. And then, as you reached the hollow of his throat and placed a chaste kiss there, he practically whimpered, "oh, my sweet boy."
Din tugged lightly on the restraints, enough to shake the headboard slightly, but not enough to do anything. Shimmying down his body you tenderly touched and kissed every part of his body making sure each little freckle and mark and scar were given attention. The man practically melted under your touch; no one had ever given him this type of love and attention before. In the past it had all been either sloppy blowjobs or quick fucks; it had never mattered about him or the other person before, the only end game was release. But this...this was different. Delicate, gentle - caring.
Kissing along the V of his abdomen before nosing along his soft pubic hair, your raked your nails up and down his legs.
"When's the last time someone loved you, Din Djarin?" it was a hushed whisper, one you really expected an answer to you, but Din had almost inhumanly adept hearing - perks of a lifetime as a bounty hunter.
"Never."
"Well I do," it was an easy confession that startled both of you. You had meant it as both a I'm going to love you just now and I'm in love with you all at once. But that was something to be delved further into another time, "I do very much."
Before he could say anything else, you licked a long stripe up his shaft. His reaction was immediate as he bucked his hips up causing you to just push them back down. Laughing lightly, you tutted at him before taking him in your mouth - as much as you anyway. He was big and it did take some effort to get as much of him as possible.Â
It wasn't long before he was writhing under you as you licked and sucked him to an inch of his life. Making a point to hollow your cheeks and be noisy, you played with balls as you pushed him closer and closer to his release. Your mouth was already costing with your spit and his salty pre-cum and his cock twitched in your mouth. Just before he came, you pulled off of him and say back on your haunches watching his chest rise and fall rapidly.
"I was almost-"
"I know," it was a sticky sweet answer as you ghosted a hand over his body. Your hand found its way around his throat as you squeezed; more intensity than he had applied to you, but not enough to hurt, "tell me, sweet boy, are you going to let me sit on your face?â
âUse me,â he insisted as you kissed your way up his body and stopped at his lips and captured them in a searing kiss. His were perfect against yours - soft, full, and plush. Before getting too lost in his kiss, you positioned yourself over his face, and his eager hands tried to reach for you, only to find out that he couldnât. A small groan of frustration left his lips as you grinned and ran a hand through his dark curls, âsweet girl.â
âUse your mouth, Din,â you braced yourself on the headboard as you lowered yourself down to meet his mouth. If you had thought he was eager before, you were sorely mistaken. The man in question lapped at your freshly soaked folds like it was the last thing he would ever do. His nose was perfect against your sensitive bundle of nerves as his tongue delved into you and caused you to cry out in pleasure. Seeming satisfied with his work, you felt him grin against you, his beard tickled you in all the best ways, âfuck. So good - so, so good.â
âSweet girl,â he murmured against your skin as you felt yourself melt into a puddle of jelly. His praise along with this ministrations was enough to have you seeing stars as you closed your eyes and felt that familiar coil start to snap in your belly. Rocking against his face, he picked up his pace until you were just about to cum again, but instead of letting your orgasm fully wash over you, you pulled back and moved off of your face, âwhatâs wrong?â
âNothing,â you shock your head before kissing him, tasting yourself on his tongue, âyouâre perfect. Want to cum on all over your cock, Din. Feel you inside of me.â
âPlease,â he was practically beginning at this point; he was harder than he ever been and needed to be inside of you, âcome on, sweet girl.â
Swinging a leg over his hips, you grabbed his hard cock and pumped him a few times before lining himself up at your entrance. Slowly sinking down on him, the two of you moaned in unison, as he stretched you fully and completely.
âDin,â his name was but a soft, reverent whisper off your lips as you put your hands on his chest and started to bounce at a slow pace up and down his cock. He felt perfect inside of you, hitting all the right spots as your clit rubbed against his pubic hair. He thrust his hips up to meet each of your bounces, pulling harder and harder at the bindings. You leaned down and wrapped your arms around his neck as you pressed your chest against his and kissed every part of him that your lips found, âso close - sweet boy.â
âMe too,â he agreed, his voice crackling and rough, âgonna cum inside you.â
âYes,â you breathed as your warms started to contract around him and you felt him twitch within you. Squeezing your eyes shut, you buried your face into his neck, whimpering against his skin, âDin.â
âSweet girl,â he so desperately whispered he could wrap his arms around but instead kept his hips as close to yours as possible, âso good - so perfect.â
You all but collapsed in his arms as you laid on top of him, the two of you working to catch your breath. Once you came down from your high, you kissed his nose, and slowly moved to undo the bindings and free him from his confines. As soon as his arms and wrists were free, he wrapped his arms around you and traced his fingers up and down your back in soft patterns. Relaxing into his arms, you sighed contentedly, âyou can be a good boy, Din.â
âOnly for you,â he whispered softly, pressing a chaste kiss to your cheek, âI...I love you, sweet girl.â
âYeah?â you asked as you rolled over and next to him. He hesitated for a moment but then slowly confirmed with a soft nod, âgood. I...I love you, Din Djarin. I have for a while.âÂ
âI never...would have thought,â he murmured as he pulled into you his arms without even thinking - so easy and effortless. You eagerly complied, letting him pull you tightly against his chest as you tangled your legs with his. You werenât sure what this all meant, or would lead to, but it was definitely something you could get used to.Â
âReally?â you laughed lightly, a musical wonderful sound that he adored, even on his grumpiest days, as you took his hand and brought it to your lips, and placed a tender kiss to his knuckles. How he hadnât known was beyond you - it all seemed so obvious. Din made a small sound, âI thought it was so obvious. It was to me at least, honey. Â Even when weâre at each otherâs throats - it was with love. Besides, I like when you get mad. Itâs sexy.â
âYouâre such a brat - my brat,â he buried his face into the pillow, but not before pressing a kiss to the side of your head, âyouâre amazing.âÂ
âYouâre just saying that because I finally let you cum,â you teased as you felt your eyes getting heavy, âworth it.â
âYeah,â he agreed with a yawn, âbut Iâm getting you back for that next time. No hands? Thatâs just cruel.â
âHmm,â you mused, âare we just going to keep taking turns? I could get used to that, Din.â
âI hope you do, sweet girl,â he murmured, âI hope you do.â
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Dick Grayson x Reader - Mania
this was requested by: anon
word count: 10.5k / rating explicit
a/n: sex pollen so auto dubcon (?), but both reader and dick are affected so idk
taglist: @daddyissuesmademe @idkmanicantenglish
It's your fault, really. You should never have got involved in the first place, but the temptation was just too great to resist. How could you pass up the opportunity to investigate Poison Ivy's pollen? This was the first decent sample any of you had ever managed to get - even Bruce, though you suspect there have been a few times he's managed to get up close and personal with the pollen - and normally Tim would handle it, but he's away on business with Bruce, and Damian's too young to deal with intensive research, and Jason just can't bring himself to care. So, that left Dick, and you could've left it at that. You should have. Then again, Tim did text you to recommend that you helped Dick: actually, you would never have left your room if it hadn't been for his intervention. It's Tim's fault.
The thing is, everything was fine at first; you've, perhaps, been harbouring the slightest crush on Dick for a while now, and it's always nice to spend time with him. He's fun to be around, even if his classic charm sometimes borders on teasing flirtation, and he's got such an incredible mind. You forget that, at times - he has a bad habit of putting himself down as the 'kind one' of the family, the emotional support or the comic relief, and he forgets to let himself be brilliant, too. He doesn't realise you've noticed that. Or maybe he does, but he doesn't say anything, and you've happily spent the past two hours studying Ivy's pollen together.
"It's definitely pheromonal, but I've never seen a chemical composition like this before-", you say, eyes glued to the computer screen. Dick is leaning over the back of your chair, one hand on your shoulder and one hand on the desk beside you, and you shouldn't feel as tense as you do. "-look, this section doesn't occur naturally in any species we've seen. She's synthesising these pheromones somehow, it's not like she's injecting them, but I just - I don't get how."
He pushes off from the desk, grabs the back of your chair, and spins you to face him with a half-smile. "I hate to break your train of thought, but I think we need a biochem specialist.", he says, and you suddenly notice how tired he looks: his eyes are still vibrant, warm, but exhausted. "We've done as much as we can on this, right? No shame in calling in the big guns."
"Tim?", you reply, knowingly, relishing in the way Dick's smile grows into a full grin. He's still gripping the edges of your chair, effectively caging you in: you are not looking at his arms, and you can be certain of this because you are looking very, very intently at his face.
"Having a genius brother has its perks, I know. I'll call him now. It's late in Tokyo - he won't be in a meeting, he'll probably just be awake in his hotel room, tapping away at his laptop.", Dick says, finally moving away to fetch his phone, and his voice trails off into a mumble that he clearly doesn't mean for you to hear. "God, he worries me. He really does."
It's much too warm in here: you sigh, and shrug off your jacket, slinging it over the back of the computer chair before calling out,"You're such a mother hen sometimes, Dick."
"I care. Sue me.", he replies with a faux scowl. "You don't complain when you're ill and I bring you hot soup."
"You're a good cook, what can I say?"
"Husband material!", he chirps. You feel your stomach leap and your cheeks heat up at his words. He's only teasing, but the truth of it is, it has more effect on you than you would like to admit. Thankfully, he's quickly distracted by the crackle of Tim picking up the phone. "Timmy! How's things?"
Tim's voice is dry, as always, but with a noticeable undercurrent of frustration. "Shit. I hate it here."
"Hey, Tim. Bad day?", you say with sympathy. You feel a little bad for bothering him, now; as hard as everyone in the family works, Tim definitely pushes himself the hardest.
"I'm the youngest person here by at least twenty years, and my stomach can't handle sushi. Plus, Bruce gets separation anxiety from the rest of you. The one upside is that I've been able to practice my Japanese.", Tim replies. You feel bad for him, of course, but the image of him having to comfort a homesick Bruce has you suppressing a snicker.
Dick shoots an amused smile at you - he's too beautiful when he smiles, it isn't fair - that starkly contrasts the comforting tone he uses to respond to Tim. "Don't worry, darling brother - I've got something exciting for you! Check your emails - wait, only the most recent one, though, I sent you a link to a Red Hood fanpage-"
You interject with an accusatory wave of your finger. "Why the fuck didn't you send me that? Red Hood is sexy." If Jason were here, he would probably threaten to shoot you, but as it is, Dick's amusement only grows. His smile is so infectious, like it spirals out into the air and right into your chest, and you can't help but smile back at him. You don't know if it's the warmth of the room or simply from Dick himself, but you feel as though you're going to need to step outside for some fresh air soon.
"Because of your raging crush on Nightwing, probably." Tim cuts in, and you could fucking kill him. Dick gives you a pleased wink. "I'm looking at a pheromonal compound, right? Ivy's special formula?"
You muster as much venom into your voice as you can, without pissing Tim off so much that he leaves you to deal with this on your own. "Fuck you, Tim - and yeah. It's a newer version, though - I think she's evolving, if that makes sense? Her physiology is definitely changing." Tim gives a thoughtful hum in response to your words: you imagine it's in agreement.
Dick continues your train of thought. "We think she's working with someone else, or she's been experimenting on herself, maybe. Do you have any ideas about how she's making the new chemicals?"
"I'll need a few hours. Send me all the data over. You're right about it evolving, though - it's definitely airborne. Shit, this is actually really interesting - the molecules are more compact, smaller, so she doesn't need to rely on physical touch through her plants anymore-"
The rest of Tim's words are lost to a wave of horror. Airborne, he said - you'd doubt it if it wasn't for the similar shock that's written over Dick's face - and you have not been treating this sample as airborne. Ivy has always relied on physical, tangible contact to use her chemicals: you couldn't have known, there was no way you could've known, neither of you are experts on this kind of thing - you've fucked up.
"Airborne? How... airborne are we talking? Like, don't-sniff-the-test-tube?", Dick asks, cautiously, maintaining eye contact with you all the while. *Please, God, let it be don't-sniff-the-test-tube and nothing more than that. Please.*
"Shit, you haven't been wearing respirators - have you?". Tim sounds positively horrified. It does nothing to allay your fears, the worries that you've both been infected with Ivy's pollen; in fact, he all but confirms it. Everything is beginning to fall into place now. The tension around Dick - more so than usual, at least -, how warm you're feeling, the mental sluggishness that had you calling Tim in the first place.
You're angry at yourself, for your own stupidity - not Tim, but you're panicked, you're so unbelievably freaked out, and so you can't help but snap at the phone. "How were we meant to know, man? Ivy's never even hinted at having something of this level before!"
"You're working with chemicals, unknown chemicals, I hate-"
Dick cuts in before this can turn into a full-on confrontation. You've got no idea how he's managing to keep a level head. Perhaps the pheromones are already taking a more severe effect, or maybe it's a placebo effect, and you pray that it is, but you can already feel your heart beginning to pound against the confines of your chest. "It's just pheromones, right? We know it's not toxic, at least - Ivy's victims only take a few days to come around, at most. They're just kinda fucked up for a few days."
You admire Dick so, so much. He's right, he's always right, he always manages to keep you calm and make you feel safe: you'll just have to stay with him, and you'll be okay. If you stay here, he can comfort you, and maybe the impacts of the pollen won't even be that bad. And, if they are, well, there's no one else in the manor tonight, and Dick's so handsome and kind and strong, and maybe he'll - fuck.
Tim snickers. "Fucked, indeed. Only when Ivy's in a good mood, though. You guys better get ready for a tough night. I've heard it can get really bad, especially if you're deprived of - oh, fuck, I can't talk about this, this is too funny but it's so weird, oh my god-", and he dissolves into a fit of awkward, stunted laughter. Dick fixes you with an apologetic look, but you swear his golden cheeks are tinged with red.
"How long until it kicks in?", he asks. It's a stupid, stupid question, because you feel like you're close to dying already. You know what he means, though: when will it get bad? You've seen Ivy's victims before. They're entirely without dignity, practically begging to be touched, sobbing from the pain of it all - and you've only heard rumours about the depraved things they let Ivy do to them. What they ask her to do to them.
The huff of Tim's breath crackles through the phone. "Uh - I don't know, maybe an hour? A little less, since Bruce never opens the windows in there. Just seal the sample up, drink plenty of water, and try not to freak out. It'll pass. You won't die."
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You thought you could do it - stay in your room, deal with this alone, avoid any potential awkwardness with Dick -but you can't. It's barely been an hour. Sixty-seven minutes since you left the cave, to be exact. Sixty-seven minutes since Dick grabbed you by the waist to halt your speedy departure, touch light but insistent, and said if you need anything, come to me. His eyes were dark when he said it. Deep, dark blue, an ocean that you could get lost swimming in; but pupils already dilating, breath already speeding up. He meant it as nothing more than a kindness. Still, though, that hasn't been enough to stop you from coming onto your fingers with the image of those eyes burned onto the backs of your eyelids.
Ivy's pollen is designed to induce lust, yes, but only for the first person you see after you're infected with it. This means two things: firstly, that you need Dick more than anything right now. Your head is pounding, your lungs feel like they're on fire - the sensation between your legs isn't aching, it's agony, and you've spent fifty-two of the past sixty-seven minutes trying, and failing, to fool your body into believing that your fingers are his. The first thing you know, is that you need him, because you saw him right after you were infected. The second thing you know - there was no one else in that room. You were the only person Dick could have seen.
So, stupidly, you seek him out. You go back down to the cave, without even taking the time to wash your hands, because that's what your body is telling you to do, and you're acting more and more on instinct. Potential awkwardness be damned. He'll fix this.
Dick's facing away from you, reclined in the computer chair: his posture seems almost relaxed, just almost, legs sprawled out and left elbow visibly sticking out from around the back of the chair, like he's got one hand close to his head. You'd assume he was still looking at the computer, if you weren't so hyperaware of everything right now, but you are, and you notice more. From what you can see of his body - it's low-blue-lit from the computer screen, enough that you can make out the muscle of his legs through his sweatpants if you squint, but it's not enough, you need to see more - he seems tense. Too tense. Normally, you'd sneak closer, but your head is practically spinning now and Dick will help you. He'll make this better. Your voice is hoarse and dry when you manage to call his name.
He immediately jolts in his seat, spinning to face you, and now that he's backlit by the computer, you can barely see more than the outline of his body. God, he looks so lean, so tall - "Are you okay?", he asks, and he sounds almost as bad as you feel. You swallow thickly before responding - and, through the fog in your head, you realise that your jacket is clutched in his left hand.
You, miraculously, manage a weak smile. "I just - I thought maybe it would, you know, be better to... be together, during this. In case - if one of us needs help, or something. I don't know.". You sound stupid. Dumb. You feel it, too, and you can't even bring yourself to care. The mere sight of him is helping: it doesn't remove the pain, or any of the physical sensations, really, but at least the panic of not being near him is being soothed.
"That's - yeah, okay. How are you feeling?", Dick replies. His voice is barely more than a whisper, but you hear it as clear as if he were right up against you. Chest pressed to your back, lips on the curve of your jaw, that voice going right through you and into the pits of your stomach.
It's wrong, to think of him like this, when all he's doing is trying to check that you're alright. He knows you aren't, but he's trying.
The best thing you can think to do is make a weak attempt at a joke. "I've got a newfound fear of Ivy." Dick even huffs out a laugh, but it's just as half-hearted as your words. "I didn't think it was going to be this bad at first, Jesus - but it keeps getting worse, and, it just-"
"-it hurts. I know.". Dick nods. As you take a step closer to him, you realise that your eyes have finally adjusted to the relative darkness of the cave, and you realise that you can see his cock straining against his sweatpants. He's hard. What's more, there's a distinct wet patch leaking through the material.
When you entered the cave, you couldn't see one of his hands; the chair wasn't moving enough for him to be stroking himself, and you're not sure whether you're glad he wasn't, but now that you think of it, there was definite movement. Like he was palming himself through his sweatpants, maybe. And the hand that was close to his head, it's clutching your jacket, he was holding your jacket close to his face while he-
"Dick - were you...?"
He sighs, halfway between embarrassed and resigned, and sinks back down into the computer chair. He keeps your jacket clenched in a white-knuckle grip. "I had to take the edge off somehow, right? I'm sorry, I didn't think you would be coming back down here, I never meant to make you uncomfortable or anything-"
"I'm not uncomfortable.", you blurt out before you know what you're saying. Dick's expression visibly shifts - you don't have the mental clarity to figure out into what, exactly - but you can feel your own eyes widen as you process  the implications of what you just said. "Oh, fuck - I didn't mean it like that, I - sorry."
Dick just shakes his head. He must mean for you not to worry. You stand in silence for a while, not exactly awkward but certainly thick with tension, before he pats a hand onto the desk beside him. "God, this is worse than I thought. Do you wanna come sit down?"
Do you? Although being closer to Dick sounds like the only thing you want in the world right now - god, you can't help but think about how good he would look, if you were close enough to really study him, now that you're beyond giving a fuck about etiquette - you're also acutely aware of how difficult it'll be to control yourself. Undeniably, you want him. You've wanted him for months, really - but the pollen has taken that desire and multiplied it tenfold, made it so that it's all-consuming and painful. In your room, nothing more than imagining him, it was bad enough. Now, now that you can see his fucking cock, now that the image of him rubbing himself with a blissed-out look on his face, it's almost impossible to control.
You move to sit next to him. You can't help yourself. Once you start moving, you feel like it's all in slow-motion: Dick's watching you, dark eyes trained so closely on your form, and you're wearing nothing more than a tight-fitting pair of leggings and a thin t-shirt. After what feels like an age - too long to be apart from him - you reach the desk, and upon clumsily perching yourself on it, you see Dick looking as though he's about to pass out.
"Fuck, did I - did I do something wrong? I'm sorry-", you say hastily, but he instantly shakes his head and trains his eyes on yours. The blue is nearly gone. It's all blown-out pupils now, so much that his eyes are nearly black.
He licks his lips as if to wet them. "-no, no, but - when you were in your room - when you were alone - did you do anything to take the edge off? Did you touch yourself?"
You could say no, if you wanted to. You could lie. He would know, but he wouldn't press it, and you could save yourself the shame. For all that Dick must be struggling just as much as you are, he's exceedingly kind, so much that no amount of fucked-up drugs could change that: he's still your Dick, underneath all of this.
"Yeah.", you admit after a heartbeat, and your stomach lurches when you see his cock twitch through the sweatpants. Still, you're embarrassed, and you feel the need to explain yourself just a little. "It felt like my skin was on fire unless I did. It still feels like that, though - like it just wasn't enough, I guess."
"I can smell it on you.", Dick says lowly. Oh, God. That's hot. That's so, unbelievably hot - especially when you see his cock twitch again - but absolutely mortifying. You're torn between wanting to jump on him, right here and now, and retreating back to your room. You compromise by burying your face in your hands, and letting out a pathetic whine to signal how fucked-up you are right now. Maybe you can calm down, now that you don't feel on the verge of a panic attack from being away from him, if you take a few deep breaths.
Naturally, Dick hardly gives you the chance. You feel his hand come to rest on your knee out of nowhere; it's a gentle touch, but you can feel him trembling, and the touch sends a bolt of electricity through you that's strong enough to make you jolt. "I want to help you. The whole point of these pheromones is to make it so that you need touch - it only hurts because we're not getting that. So, I can-", he says raspily, punctuating the pause with a reassuring squeeze to your lower thigh, "-touch you, just... platonically, if that's what you want. What you need."
His voice drops down an octave with the last sentence - you whine again, involuntarily, but you just about manage to turn the sound into words.
"Dick, you don't have to - we can just push through this, I know it'll be uncomfortable for you - I mean, I know it's not like we haven't hugged and stuff before, but this is different, I don't want you to feel forced because you feel bad for me."
Dick must lean forward, closer to you, because his palm slides further up your thigh. The pain that prickles insistently under your skin is beginning to turn into fiery heat: not unpleasant, but desperate, hot, and you're starting to feel like you're not going to be able to stop if he asks you to touch him. "I don't feel bad for you.", he insists, reaching up with his free hand to peel your hands away from your eyes. He curls his fingers around yours as he continues. "I just want to make you feel better - both of us feel better. See, it's already helping, right? Just relax. This is bad enough as it is."
His thumb starts to trace circles on the inside of your thigh. It's nowhere near high enough to be considered sexual, but the movement has your legs almost trembling. You wonder if he can feel the tension of your muscles. "It's... it doesn't hurt anymore. Thank you.". And, technically, you're not lying: it doesn't hurt, in fact it feels fucking incredible. You spent fifty-two minutes trying to replicate this sensation. He's only touching your thigh, it has no business feeling this good, but each little beat of his thumb has waves of pleasure crashing through you. God, how good would it feel to fuck him like this? You're shaking, and you know it, and it only makes him tug you by the hand to stand up.
Even the loss of his touch on your thigh feels devastating, but Dick's next words are more comfort than you could have imagined possible. "Here. Come sit, if you want.", he says - whispering again, voice so low and so deep, but it's just the effects of the pollen, you tell yourself - and gestures to his thigh. "You can lean back into me, don't worry, it'll be better for your back."
This has to feel as good for him as it does for you. Logically, it has to. You've both breathed in the same pollen, his skin has the same sheen of sweat that you can feel on your own skin, you're both trembling in every part of your body, and he's still rock hard. You can feel yourself leaking, god, enough that it might have dampened your leggings and left a wet spot on the desk. What would Dick do, if he saw that? He's clearly turned on, but maybe he still has the good sense to avoid fucking: maybe his view of you as 'just platonic' is so deeply ingrained, he would never touch you down there to feel how wet he's made you. Or, maybe he wants you like you want him.
"Are - are you sure?", you stammer. You can't stop looking at his lap. His cock, painfully obvious (and he mustn't care, because he blatantly drew your attention to it), and the corded muscle of his thighs, spread out straight to form you a perch.
"Mhmm...", he hums from somewhere deep in his chest, and suddenly you're grateful that he's still holding your hand, because the sound almost makes your knees buckle. He tugs gently. "Only if you want to be close to me, though."
He says that like an afterthought - like he knows exactly what you want, and like he's hungry for your touch and doesn't want to consider the idea that you don't want to give him it. You can't bring yourself to look at him before you move to sit in his lap, because you know he'll see the desire, and for now, you're still pretending that you don't want to push him down in that chair and ride him for hours. He'd like that, you think. He'd like it if you pulled his hair while you did it.
Dick lets go of your hand so he can take your waist in both hands, guiding you down onto his lap and gripping harder when your ass inadvertently brushes over his cock. You don't mean to do it, of course, and you jump like you've been shocked: you shuffle further down his thigh to avoid another mishap, but the movement causes your pussy to just barely drag against the hard muscle - you hardly manage to control your moan, forced to sink your teeth into your lip. Thankfully, Dick doesn't seem to notice, and he helps you lean back so his chest is pressed to your back, before lifting his arms to rest on the armrests. From here, he begins to rub soothing lines up and down your arms, and he tips his cheek down to rest against your shoulder with a relieved sigh.
"Fuck, that... yeah, that feels better.", you practically gasp. Feeling him pressed up against the entire length of your body, as torturous as it is, is the most relief you've gained all evening; his legs are shaking just enough that you can feel it in your core, though, and you're forced to tilt your head back to rest on his shoulder. You'll lose your fucking mind if you don't start to relax, he's right.
With your neck exposed, though, you can feel Dick's hot breath tickling your skin when he speaks. "Good, right? It feels good?". For the first time, you really hear the tension in his voice. So much so that you can't pass it off as your own projections, or a trick of his tone - he's just as desperate as you are, holy shit, he sounds halfway to begging, he sounds like he's dying to know that his touch is making you feel good. Your hips twitch of their own accord.
"Yeah... Dick?", you whisper after a few moments. He nods in response against your shoulder, a slow, dragging movement that feels like honey dripping through your veins from the point of contact. "Are you really warm, too, or like - is that just me? I - I feel like I'm burning up... Do you mind if I..." - you trail off, instead opting to tug cautiously at the hem of your shirt.
He sucks in a deep, rapid breath that you feel press against your back. For a moment, you worry that you've gone too far - it feels so good, but it's too weird, too strange for him even now - but then he slowly curls his fingers around the hem, replacing your own hands, and starts to pull upwards at a torturous pace. His knuckles drag over your lower abdomen for just a second and your hips twitch again, and he definitely felt it this time but he says nothing, and his breathing is warm and fast against the skin of your neck; with the shirt discarded, you're left in nothing more than a thin bra. Although the room feels warm, furnace-hot, you're all too aware of the blatant hardness of your nipples, and you tell yourself it's okay, he won't notice, because you're facing away and he won't - his palm drags against your breast on the way back down and it feels so good, too good, and you can't help but whimper, "Fuck, yes-"
Three things happen in quick succession. Dick freezes, you realise what you've done and move to jump up and run for the hills, and then Dick grabs your hips and pulls you back into him, right over his cock, this time. The friction makes both of you let out a breathy sigh, but where you clap a hand over your mouth, Dick follows it up with a hoarse proposition. "I can touch you properly, if you want. It'll make all this go away, I promise - do you want me to?", he rasps, pressing one, quick kiss to the skin where your neck meets your shoulder. "Do you want me to touch you?"
His grasp on your hips is tight, wanting, but gentle enough that you know he wouldn't stop you if you tried to leave again. When you make no move to do so - you're frozen, you can't believe he's just offered to do what your body is screaming for - Dick pulls at your hips, slowly, dragging your ass over his cock and then pushing you back down. He repeats the motion a few times, rolling his own hips up into you a little more with each motion, and soon your muscles start to work so you can grind down onto him. Dick rewards you with a quiet moan - oh, you want him to do that again, you're going to make him do that again, louder and louder - and then, with a touch so light you could cry, he traces one hand over your hipbones and down to your pussy.
One finger traces your slit through your leggings, and you hear yourself moan, but you're hardly aware of making the noise - just this simple touch feels almost as good as the orgasm you had earlier, even just this feather-light pressure through two layers of fabric, and every nerve ending in your body sets alight at once. This is what you needed, more than anything, for Dick to touch you and drag you down onto his cock, and you're so overwhelmed that every muscle in your body goes lax, leaving you to collapse into his chest.
Dick rubs gently at your pussy a few more times, like he's exploring you, and then suddenly he taps right where your clit is. You cry out, and he sighs against your neck. "God, I can feel how wet you are already. You should have told me, I would've done something sooner, you know that - fuck, you're so wet, let me - let me finger you, huh? Please?"
"Yeah - please, Dick.", you whine, and when you say his name, he moans and shoves his cock up against you again. He mumbles something into your skin that you don't quite make out, and then his hand is fumbling with your waistband, clumsily slipping into your underwear and then he's there, his fingers are brushing right against your clit, you sob out a broken cry - you're so wet that his fingers brush right through your folds, gliding like silk, and by the time he reaches your hole, two fingers easily sink in right to the knuckle.
Your pussy instantly clenches down, hard, and you feel more full than you thought could be possible. Dick moans into the skin of your neck and gives you a moment to calm down, to soothe the desperate jolting of your hips, before he starts to pump his fingers; slowly, at first, but soon picking up into a faster and more urgent pace. With each movement, he scissors his fingers a little, spreading you wider every time, and he starts to mouth at your neck with hot, wet kisses. "Do you like that, yeah? Am I making you feel good? Is this what you need?"
You fling an arm behind you to grasp at his hair, and when you tug after a particularly delicious curl of his fingers, he bites down hard onto your shoulder. "Fuck, yes, yes - please don't stop, please, Dick, don't stop-"
"I'm not going to stop, don't worry, I've got you - I'm here, I'm not gonna stop, you sound too pretty for me to stop, fuck - I knew you would sound pretty, keep making those noises for me."
Your body feels like it's going through the most intense orgasm of your life, especially now that he's given up on pumping his fingers in favour of curling them in rapid beats against your g-spot, but you know that you're not even coming yet: you're close, though, judging by the way the room is spinning around you, and the pressure building in the pit of your stomach - "I think I'm close, Dick, - oh, oh, oh my god, I don't - it's never felt like this before, I don't - fuck-"
"I know, I know, baby-", he croons, and the pet name has you tugging at his hair again, the other hand white-knuckled on the armrest, "-it's okay, it's gonna feel different - it's gonna feel better, I promise, it's going to be so good, I'm going to get you there, baby, come on."
"Fuck - fucking - Jesus, Dick, keep going, just like that-!", you all but shout, and Dick continues the massaging movement right up on your g-spot: the positioning of his hand means the heel of his palm is dragging over your clit, and your hips are frantically grinding up into his hand - god, you're gonna come, the world feels like it's crashing down around you, you feel the contractions start a few seconds before it actually hits you and it's going to be earth-shattering, you know it, every muscle in your body tenses up and through it all you hear Dick whispering, come on, that's it, I've got you, come on, come on, and then you're coming-
Distantly, you can feel his fingers continue their movements inside of you, unrelenting - and the other hand keeps a firm grip on your hips, grounding you onto his lap - but other than that, all you know is the white-flash across your vision and the pleasure slamming into each nerve in your body, one by one and then all at once: this is better than anything you've ever felt, better than every orgasm put together, and it feels feels for a moment like you're actually going to black out from the sheer intensity of the pleasure.
Then, suddenly, you're back in reality. Dick is heaving for breath against your shoulder, but it's nothing compared to the way your own lungs are screaming for air - god, you think you were screaming, given the scratching sensation in your throat - and his fingers are back to a slow, steady pumping, in and out of your swollen pussy. It hurts, a little, but this one orgasm has done nothing to sate your desperate hunger: in fact, it's only made it worse, only increased your desire for him, and you swear his cock is impossibly harder against your ass now.
"You - you're dripping onto my hand, baby, oh my god...", Dick pants, and there's a heartbeat where neither of you move - then, you feel his breath hitch, and suddenly his other hand is shoving unceremoniously under your waistband and going straight for your clit. He picks up the pace with the two fingers still inside you, matching each curl with a flick over your clit, and the motions are all so frenzied, those of a man possessed with some ravenous desire, like his one purpose is to have you writhing in his lap, and you give a wordless cry - too overcome with blinding pleasure to actually make a sound - that allows you to hear his ragged words. "Please, give me another one, one more - I want to make you squirt this time, it's going to be so good, I promise, just give me one more, pretty girl-"
This time, it's not just one wave of pleasure, spreading from your core and emanating outwards; no, it's wave after wave after wave, violently crashing over you and completely overcoming every part of your body, unrelenting and constant - this one lasts at least twice as long as the last, but you're hardly in the right state of mind to keep track of time, and every wave of pleasure that rushes through you is tenfold stronger than the last. You hear yourself shriek his name in the most pathetic, broken tone, and Dick cages you in against his body as best as he can as he keeps both hands working at your pussy, and you realise you're sobbing when he finally, finally stops.
When his fingers slip out of your pussy and exit your leggings, they're dripping wet. Dick audibly gasps, and then he brings his fingers to his mouth and sucks, moaning around the digits, and through hazy eyes you can see the most fucked-out look on his face just at the taste of your cum. He licks his fingers clean - you feel your pussy clench down again at the sight - before opening his eyes, fixing you with an intense stare, and panting, "You taste so fucking good - baby, I'm not going to be able to stop, I'm sorry, I need this, I need to fuck you - please."
He's asking permission, you realise. Neither of you are in control of what you're doing anymore, and he's still asking, as best as he can, if he's allowed to fuck you. There's a terrified look in his eyes, behind the frenzy and the lust - you clumsily crash your lips against his. He tastes of your juices, but it's one of the hottest things you've ever experienced, and he moans openly into your mouth, eagerly meeting your tongue with his own. You're exhausted, but kissing him renews your energy tenfold. You're suddenly overcome with the urge to feel his cock - inside you, yes, but you want to see it first, you want to make him cry out and moan and gasp for you - so you manoeuvre in his lap, keeping your mouth against his, to straddle his narrow hips and face him.
"Ah - ah, god, that feels amazing.", Dick moans, broken up between sloppy kisses, saliva starting to drip down both of your chins - but it's hot, so hot - as you frantically reach down to palm at him. The instant you finally touch his cock, you're gone: there's no stopping now that you can feel how achingly hard he is, now that you feel how he twitches under your hand each time you kiss him, and it takes much longer than you would like to undo the drawstring of his sweatpants, pull them down, and wrap your hand around the exposed length of him. He hisses as his whole body jerks.
Instantly, you set a frenzied pace of stroking him, relishing in each ragged moan that you rip from his throat; he's leaking into your palm, you realise, dripping over your fingers as you pull him back by the hair and attach your lips to his neck. When you suck a bruise into the softest part of his skin - the salty-sweat-tangy hollow beneath his Adam's apple - he shouts out your name, loud, followed by, "-fuck, fu- let me fuck you, baby, please, I - I'm close, you have to stop-"
"Come on my hand, Dickie.", you plead, and you're granted a thick spurt of precum when you lick a stripe up the column of his throat: he tastes so good, his skin so hot under your mouth, you can't stop, and you croon right into his ear, "It's - it's gonna last for hours, still, you're still gonna be hard - I'm still so needy for you, Dickie, look - come on my hand, let me see it, please. You can fuck me after, just come for me where I can watch it, oh - oh, please." His moans start to pick up in volume and frequency, coming from a place deeper in his throat. He's close, you know.
You've started to grind onto his thigh somewhere along the way. It feels amazing, it feels even better because you know he's twitching and aching for you just inches away - once you finally drag yourself out of the crook of his neck, you see that you've left a damp streak on his sweatpants in the wake of your hips, and the steady stream of precum leaking from his cock has soaked the material higher up. "Come on, Dickie, come on, let me see you come, I wanna see it, I - I'll, fuck, I'll lick it clean after, Jesus-", you blurt out, too far gone to be horrified at the ease with which the words spill from your lips.
"Oh, baby, shit-â he cries, and then his voice dissolves into a broken jumble of incoherent mumbles and whines. His cock twitches hard in your palm, once, twice, three times against the rapid pace you maintain on him, and then Dick bucks his hips up into your hand, back arched, perfectly still and tense; he comes hard, almost whimpering, head thrown back and eyes tightly shut, looking so, so perfect as you stroke him through it and grind feverishly onto his thigh. It's the image of his cock that has the breath snatched from your chest, though. Several thick ropes of cum spurt from him as you work him through it, some hitting the skin of your abdomen and some dripping down the length, and it just keeps going, no sign of stopping until Dick completely collapses, after almost a minute of moaning and coming - your hand is drenched with him.
The sight of his cum dripping from your palm makes something in your stomach clench hard, painfully, and suddenly you need to taste him, you have to, it hurts so much and it'll go away as soon as you get your mouth on him. You scramble off the chair, almost falling to your knees in front of him - he rushes to steady you, even with weak and shaky arms - but you don't care about how graceful you look right now. As soon as you manage to nestle yourself between thighs, you lick flat up the underside of his cock. The taste of it makes your eyes roll back in your head. Dick spits, "Holy shit!", and it trails off into a deep gasp as you wrap your lips around him and sink down as far as you can go. You'd take your time, usually, but everything in your body is screaming for you to taste him, let him fill you, and you're in no position for argument.
With each dip of your head - punctuated with a moan from the man above you, each one becoming closer to a growl, animalistic, and you think the pollen is beginning to send your bodies into total overdrive now - you take him as deeply as you can. You're nearly gagging, but that's what you need. His hands tangle into your hair; at first, you can tell he's trying to be as gentle as he can, but that's soon overcome with a tight, guiding grip that pushes you further down onto his cock with each bob of your mouth. The burning heat under your skin is killing you now, too much to ignore, so you manage to shuffle out of your leggings and underwear and kick them away: Dick groans roughly, maybe because he can smell you more clearly now-
"Come here, pretty girl-", Dick says, sliding his hands from your hair to lift you up by the jaw. You mean to whine, perhaps beg him to let you back down, because he feels so good in your mouth - then you see the look on his face. He looks totally gone. Nothing like the Dick you know, warm and gentle and relaxed: his eyes are completely clouded over, lips parted and slick with saliva, brow furrowed with something between pain and carnal desire. You imagine you look much the same, with spit dripping from your chin, the heat you can feel burning your cheeks, and the wetness you feel running down the insides of your thighs. He meets your eyes, and there's a moment of stillness. One thumb slips from your cheek to trace over your lower lip.
Then, both of you move at once - you surge forward to kiss him again, those perfect, pink lips - you fumble with the hem of his shirt, ripping it up and over his head while barely leaving his mouth for a second - Dick's hands slide down your body to your waist. He pulls you into him as he leans forward, half-supporting your weight, and suddenly your back is against the floor and he's on top of you, kissing you hard and bruising, the chair long since kicked away and forgotten about. Every inch of freshly exposed skin feels like molten silk under your touch: you slide greedy hands over his torso as he licks into your mouth, feeling the network of ridged scars and each ridge of muscle. Thankfully, Dick grants you a few precious, savoured moments to feel his skin, while he alternates between rolling his hips against your bare pussy and kicking off his sweatpants.
It's all ungraceful and clumsy - wet kisses stolen between your movements, each of you moaning against the other's lips - and it takes much, much too long for both of you to finally shed yourself of all your clothes. Dick's hands grab greedily at your breasts as he ruts his hips against you a few times, and you can feel how your wetness spreads over his cock. Then, his hands fly down to find your knees, and he drags them to fit around his waist, pulling up until your hips are fully tilted, the stretch of your muscles verging on uncomfortable. "Oh, fuck, that's it, baby. Keep your legs there for me, won't you? Come on, wrap your legs around me - I want to get as deep as I can, it's gonna feel amazing, I promise.", Dick says, bordering on a growl now that his voice is so deep and strained, and you do as he says immediately. You need him inside of you, now; you hook your ankles behind his back, kiss him, and desperately grind your hips into his.
And then, with one deep roll of his hips, he's inside of you. One quick thrust and he's buried to the hilt, and, God, he fits inside you so perfectly: your body all but melts at the feeling of finally being filled, and you keen as you instinctively use your ankles to press his hips further into you. Dick's just large enough to stretch you out, even with how wet and ready you are, without becoming painful, and the pollen means it only takes you a short moment to adjust to his size before your body is pleading to be fucked. He's shaking and panting with restraint above you whimper, "Ho-holy fuck, Dickie, please... please move, oh my god."
"I know, baby, I know.", he says, breathlessly, voice tight with pleasure but still sympathetic. Even with him motionless inside you, it already feels so good, better than anyone you've ever fucked, and you can hardly stop yourself from grabbing him by the shoulders, pushing him down, and riding him. "It just feels so good, you feel so good - I don't want to rush it, I want to make it last. Jesus, my body feels like it's on fire while I'm touching you, I - oh, fuck, I want to take it slow, make you feel so good you cry-"
"-We have all night to be slow, Dick, you can do whatever you want to me, just fuck me-"
Dick's hips roll into yours and a drawled curse falls from his parted lips. He pulls out, almost completely, enough that you panic and squeeze him tighter with your thighs, but then he pushes back into you, slowly, letting you savour the way each nerve ending inside your pussy is set ablaze; he repeats the motion, faster, his curses morphing into sweet mumbles of your name each time he bottoms out. You can hardly breathe - it feels so good, and each thrust of his hips is met with a pollen-driven roll of your own, so it's half-grinding, half-fucking - the slight curve of his cock has him dragging deliciously against your g-spot every time. His movements are picking up in intensity now, and you can tell the pollen is taking him over completely. The same is happening to you: fuck it, you don't want to think about the pollen anymore, you just want him.
"Ah, yes! Yes, right there-right- keep going-", you cry out after a particularly hard slam of his hips. Dick is propped up on one elbow, hair clinging to his forehead with sweat, and the other hand slips down to grab at your ass and pull you up into him. He's deep enough that it hurts, but it's the best pain you've ever experienced. "Fuck, faster, please!"
He obeys, mercifully, and you think you can see sweat starting to bead on his temples. "Is this what you need, pretty girl? Come on, tell me what you want - tell me I'm making you feel good, because you're making me feel so fucking good, I swear, better than I ever even imagined - fuck, you're so wet, are you going to come again? Please, please let me make you come on my cock."
The combination of his cock inside you, and his pelvis bumping against your clit, and the overwhelming sensations coursing through your body: it's all too much to bear, your body is going into total overdrive, and it's so embarrassing that he's got you like this. You never normally beg, you never normally come so fast, but this is different and addictive and incredible - you cry out an affirmation to his words, and suddenly his hand is gripping your chin. He's fully collapsed onto you now, and his movements are more frantic rutting than anything else.
"Look at me-", he pleads, using his hand to guide your face so you're staring right into those glassy eyes. "-look at me while you come, and it'll make me come."
You can feel your muscles beginning to tense up as your orgasm starts to grow. Already, your world is spinning, and you feel halfway to blacking out from the sheer intensity, so you tangle your hands into his hair as a way to ground yourself. "Please come inside me!", you whine - the idea of being filled with his cum, letting it drip out while he fucks another load into you, it's fucking mind-blowing and you can't imagine anything better than feeling him shoot into you while you come on his cock.
Dick's jaw clenches tightly. "Are - are you sure, baby? Is that what you want?"
The next thrust hits you perfectly, and you can't help but pull him tighter into you, so his head drops to the crook of your neck. "I need it, Dickie, you know - you know that - you need me too, right? Fuck, fuck - it's gonna feel so good, I'm so close-". He spends a few moments sucking a bruise into the most tender skin of your neck before moving to press his forehead to yours. Each rough movement of his hips has you jostling against the floor; your nipples are dragging against his chest every time, making you keen, and your swollen clit is being hit so perfectly by his hips, and he's making the most perfect and breathy noises against you - he looks so fucked-out, so gone, so completely absorbed in the feeling of his cock inside you, and your vision is starting to blur at the edges as the spark in your stomach finally bursts into flames-
"That's it, baby, come for me just like that.", Dick gasps, just as your orgasm rips through you. You've got no choice but to clutch at him desperately and ride out each devastating wave as a scream tears itself from your lungs: it feels like your body is tearing itself apart with each ripple of pleasure emanating from your core. Like your body is folding in on itself like a black hole does, when everything becomes too much to bear. You actually feel like you've died, you must have, this is too good and too much and too overwhelming - you hang on to Dick through it all, and your pussy clenches down so hard he can barely move inside you, and he chokes out your name before his own orgasm hits him.
You've come down just enough to process the way he looks and sounds as he comes. Your eyes are still hazy - you kept them on him, you must have - but you nearly come again at the mere sight of him. He's too far gone to even make sounds, and instead he stutters out broken breaths through wet lips, cheeks flushed and eyebrows furrowed hard, and his eyes stay fixed on you the whole time. Even as the rest of his body spasms and rocks into you uncontrollably, even as the hand on your chin slips down to your neck and squeezes, he keeps staring at you with all the lust in the world. The best part of it all, though, is how you feel his cum spilling out into you; even more than he shot onto your hand, somehow, and you realise you're crying from how relieved your body is. Fully, fully, crying, and Dick kisses away your tears as he collapses against you.
Despite how both of you are wincing at the overstimulation, neither of you ever stop moving through it all, and you keep grinding gingerly, carefully but sloppily, against each other even while you gasp for breath against each others' lips. It can't be more than ten seconds from when you come down, before you can't control the urge to whisper, "Give me another one, Dick, please. Keep fucking me." It hurts - it hurts because he's not fucking you, he's not moving enough - you need more.
Dick keeps rolling his hips against yours in shallow movements for a few seconds. His mouth is occupied with sucking more bruises into your neck, up your throat and across your jaw: he's mumbling something incoherent, slurring his words. Each fresh bruise has you gasping his name. You're going to be covered in marks after this - not just your neck, his grip on your ass and hips has been tight enough to leave bruises there, too - and you're entirely certain you've left scratch marks down his back. You nearly come again just at the thought of that; Dick, walking around for days with your marks left on him. Scratch marks under his dress shirts when he's on business, or under the tight material of his Nightwing suit, or blatantly visible through the obscenely sheer shirts he wears out clubbing. He's going to be marked as yours.
"You look so pretty like this, holy shit-", he says, pulling his head from your neck to admire his work. "You're so gorgeous - you always are, you always fucking are - but you look even better when you're mine, fuck-"
â-make me yours, then, please-"
You gasp in shock and disappointment as Dick suddenly pulls out, and his own face crumples at the loss of touch, but his palms are firm and insistent on your waist - he kisses you once, firmly, before he's manoeuvring your body like putty in his hands. You're flipped onto your stomach with another whisper of how pretty you are, and then Dick runs calloused palms down the soaked flesh of your thighs, up over your ass, over the curve of your spine and all the way up to gently, gently, press your cheek flat against the floor. He follows his hand with hot tongue, and when he reaches your ear, he murmurs, "You taste so good, pretty girl. Stay there for me. It's okay, let go. I've got you."
Uncontrollably, your ass jerks up and backwards against where his cock is pressing into you. He chuckles. He fucking laughs with his lips pressed to your cheek - maybe having came inside you has cleared his head enough that he can think straight enough to find your desperation funny - and one of his hands slides back down your body, spreading your pussy open for him to look at. You sense his body tense as he gazes at you. "...My cum is dripping out of you, oh my god."
Fuck it back into me, you think, but you're too far gone to string together a coherent sentence anymore. Your body can do the talking. You keep your cheek pressed to the floor, maybe because your muscles are too exhausted to lift your head, or maybe because it was so fucking hot how Dick pressed your head down, but you manage to meet his eyes. You plead with him as well as you can.
Dick's piercing blue eyes roll right back into his skull when he pushes into you again. From this angle, he feels even deeper than before: with one of his hands running lines up your spine, and his lips wet against the backs of your shoulders, and the steady, strong pace he sets fucking you, you're brought to the verge of tears again within minutes. You can hardly move your body to work with him in this position: he uses the weight of his body to press you into the floor, and each thrust of his hips has you moaning loud against the floor.
He brings a string of kisses and nips up your nape, so he can kiss your cheek again. It's sweet, a gentle gesture, only amplifying the pleasure that each deep snap of his hips brings. "I - I'm not hurting you, am I? I know it must be sensitive, baby, I understand if it's too much, I know - you can tell me if it's too much-"
"-no, please-", you whimper, terrified he's going to stop, "-it's so good, please, Dickie, you're exactly what I need-", and then your voice cuts out into a broken sob as one of his hand snakes between your body and the floor to find your clit. The rough pad of his finger brushes over it a few times, eliciting whimpers from you, before he settles for simply resting his finger on your clit. With each thrust, your hips are jostled against his finger just enough to send sparks of electricity shooting through your veins - every time, it feels like flames licking through each limb, and he's fucking into you so perfectly, claiming you with teeth at your neck, rasping your name against your skin - there's wetness against your cheek, like you're drooling, and you're almost certain you can feel the wetness of your pussy dripping onto his hand.
You're so swollen with desire, you can feel how tightly you're clenching down onto his cock. The mind-blowing pressure Dick's applying to your clit is only making it stronger. "You feel so good, baby. So, so, fucking good - holy shit, you're taking me so well." Then, there's a savage thrust of his hips, one that has both of you crying out in surprise and pleasure: he freezes buried to the hilt inside you. "You're going to make me come again soon, sweetie."
That means more of his cum inside you, more of his delicious moans and groans as he comes, and you say, "God, please-"
"-not yet, I want to make you come for me again. You feel so tight and hot when you do - I need it again, I want nothing more than that, please - you think you can give me another one, huh? One more for me?"
"I - I - yeah.", you stammer. You can, you know you can - your body is practically vibrating from how hard you're trembling on the edge of another orgasm - but you don't know when it's going to stop, you don't know it ever will - maybe this will go on all night, maybe he'll fuck you for hours on end and make you cry and let you lick your mess of his cock. But maybe it won't. Maybe your body will give out, or the pollen will leave his system: this will end and nothing will ever compare. You don't want to come again if it means the end of this pleasure. "...Promise you'll keep going after, Dickie."
Dick starts rubbing rapid circles on your clit with his ring and index finger, and kisses your hairline to soothe you as you sob again. "I'm only going to stop if you ask me to, baby, I promise. You feel too good to stop, I swear - I never thought you would be so fucking perfect, but now I know, I can't stop - I'm right here, I've got you, I'm going to make you come so many times you forget your name if that's what you want."
God, you're going to come again, holy shit-
He hardly gives you the chance to come back around before he's crooning, "-one more, one more for me, right on my cock like that-"
You can't even breathe. Your lungs are on fire, your vision is completely blacked out even once the second orgasm ends, your muscles and bones have turned into mush and you can't feel anything other than the sensation of flying. You're weightless, Dick is the only thing grounding you - he coaxes you down from the aftershocks with soft kisses to your cheek, and his hand tracing circles onto your aching hip, and the muscles of his abdomen are flexing with restraint against your back. "I'm gonna come, baby-", he hisses, and you manage the barest nod and then he sinks his teeth right into your shoulder as he starts pounding into you like a whore, fuck, it's sending you spiralling out of control again-
"Fuck, yes, take my cum like that, that's it, keep coming for me, holy shit-"
You're both boneless and drenched in sweat by the end of it. You're collapsed against the floor, Dick's collapsed against you, and he's still hard inside of you. You can feel his cum - it must have spilled out onto the insides of your thighs, judging by the wetness you feel there. His cock twitches inside of you with every ragged breath he takes. You're so exhausted; this is destroying your body, it's ripping you apart from the inside out, and you're terrified that if you come again it'll split you into pieces. And you want that. You twist your body, wincing against the waves of pleasure that crash over you at even the slightest movement of his cock inside you, and kiss him.
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not again...
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it was the middle of your summer break. you had just gotten back from a week long trip with some of your good friends. your roommate yangyang, was pretty jealous he didnt get to go as his two best friends did. but of course, becauce your best friend's ex was yangyang, she wasnt comfortable with him there.
you got out of your friends car, walked into your apartments elevator, and clicked on your floor. you walked to the end of the hall to your apartment, unlocked to door and went inside.
hearing a sudden noise, he peaked his head out of his bedroom to see you taking your shoes off. "dude! your finally back!" yangyang yelled. he ran out to hug you.
"woah, im holding bags here." you said.
"haha, sorry. let me help you."
he took your suitcase and a few of your bags to your room.
"there, i may or may not have ordered food."
"cmon, man! i told you to stop ordering food. theres plenty of food here! i literally ordered groceries to the house before i left!" you snapped.
"sorry, mommy"
"ew, dont do that."
"dont lie, you like it." he winked
"yeah! just not from you?"
"oh why not? ive known you since i was born, so technically ive known you the same amount as my mom."
"ok, no. that makes no sense."
"sure does!"
"whatever."
"anyway, can we play a game and eat?"
"fine."
you two played your normal pc games for about an hour, but you left to your room so you could unpack.
you threw your stuff on your bed and started separating everything. as you sorted your things, yangyang just started randomly poking you everywhere.
"cant you see im trying to do something?"
no response, he just continued.
"stop."
"why?"
"because."
"no."
"do you need something?"
"yes."
"ugh, what?"
"im having a chick over so you might wanna cover your ears.."
"bro! again? i just got back, and i didnt need to know that!"
"oh, so youre not jealous?"
"no? why would i be?" ,you were definitely jealous, but you didnt need him knowing that.
he put his hands around your waist, and hugged you, "you sure about that?"
god, you were blushing like crazy, but luckily you had a history of being good at hiding your feelings.
"uh yeah?"
"okay." he let go, and walked away.
you wanted to brush what just happened off, but you couldnt. i mean, your three year crush, called you mommy? and waist hugged you?! come on. but hes having a girl over, so whatever. you took your makeup off, changed into pajamas, and continued to unpack.
after about an hour of you watching videos, with your headphones of course, you went to the bathroom, expecting yangyang and his girl in his room.
oh my god. you look out your room to see your best friend jerking off and watching porn in the living room?!
"YAH! YANGYANG?! WHAT THE FUCK?!"
"GOD DAMN YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!"
"SO DID YOU! I DIDNT WALK OUT TO USE THE BATHROOM TO SEE YOUR DICK!"
"SORRY!"
"COVER UP DAMN IT!"
he scooted to the corner of the couch, covered himself up, and turned the tv off, while you went to the bathroom.
you walked out, and sat down at the other end of the couch.
"so, you want to explain?" you asked.
"sorry.. i just.."
"just what?"
"i was, you know, horny, and i lied to you about having a chick over so you would bother me."
"i thought you would have sex in your room!"
"yeah... but i expected you to stay in your bedroom."
"i mean yeah, but this is my house too."
"sorry."
"its fine just dont do it again."
"ok.... also youre blushing."
you opened your phone camera to see if he was right. he was.
"no im not! i just did a face mask, thats all!"
he got up and sat infront of you on the floor.
"why are you on the floor?"
"no reason. i just see you prepared for me, huh?"
"what?!"
it took you a second. you werent wearing pants. thats what he was talking about. as soon as you realized that. you blushed even more, and just decided to leave to your room, until he grabbed your thighs and pulled you back on the couch.
"let me leave yangya-"
he put a finger over your mouth.
"not yet. just wait."
he was about to sneak his head under your oversized t-shirt, but he stopped.
"y/n.. consent?" he asked.
"i- uhm- i-"
"im guessing thats a yes."
he spread your legs, put his head in between your thighs, and ate you out like there was no tomorrow. he had you grabbing onto anything within your reach, and making a bunch of noise.
yangyang stopped, took the towel off of his waist. when you werent even looking, he put a condom on. he started kissing your neck, while he lined his member with your body.
he let go, asking you if you were ready. you nodded, and let him enter your heat. he continued at a normal pace, running his hands across your covered body. thinking your shirt was in the way, you began to take it off, but he stopped you.
"keep your shirt on."
"no, its fine. if you want to see me you can take it off."
"no. i know your not comfortable with that."
"are you sure?"
"yes."
everyone, including yourself, thought he was just a player, and that he wouldnt be this sweet in bed.
after a few minutes, he had sped up the pace, and gave you a few hickeys on your neck.
suddenly, you heard a knock at your door, it was one of your friends.you looked at each other, and ran to the bathroom. you told yangyang to get his hair wet and run to his room in a towel, while you showered.
he was wetting his hair, when you heard what sounded like your friend.
"dang it, i forgot i gave her a key." you said to yourself.
"yangyang, i need you to just play along ok?"
"alright."
you hopped in the shower, and you were peeking out of the shower door with your eyes closed.
"yangyang! are you done peeing yet?"
"god! sorry! let me wash my hands!"
"not in here! your going to make the water cold!"
"fine! ill go to the kitchen! damn!"
"thank you! now get out! wait close the door!"
"okay! no need to yell!"
he walked out and shut the door behind him to see your other best friend standing there watching him.
"uh hi?"
"hi? what just happened?"
"i was in the shower when she get home, so she forced me out of the bathroom so she could shower. but i needed to pee and get my hair product out of there."
"oh, so you two didnt shower together?"
"ew no, she has a boyfriend."
"she does?"
"i think?"
"oh.."
"anyway, she will be out soon, so just sit tight."
"alright."
your friend sat down on the couch, and saw a condom wrapper on the table, a towel with wet marks on it, and a pair of boxers on the floor.
"oh my god. they hooked up."
she got up and went to the bathroom where you were showering.
"hey y/n, im leaving, so you can get out and continue your fun time with yangyang. bye!"
"what?! what do you mean?"
"bye!"
she just walked out of your apartment. yangyang listened, so he went to the bathroom and told you she left.
"i know! whatever. im tired i wanna do this tomorrow please."
"of course. do you want to lay down while i put away your stuff? i know where everything goes so it should be fine."
"okay."
he picked you up and set you on your bed. you told him what was clean and what was dirty while you lay there telling him about your trip until you fell asleep.
he shook your shoulder to ask you if he could lay with you, and of course, you said yes.
the two of you finished what you had started in the morning, causing the people next door to complain.
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The Night Shift part 7 (F!Reader x Frankie Morales)
Summary: Sunday lunch with the nightcrew bois, what secrets will come out?
Warnings: Emotional abuse
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The sun was too fucking bright. You groaned and rolled over, mouth dry and head pounding. Your phone told you it was almost eleven, which meant you only had an hour to get ready. That was okay, though. You werenât exactly dressing to impress. It was only Manny and Frankie . . . Frankie.With a wince, you remembered your conversation with him last night. Had it been painfully obvious that you were talking about yourself? Surely not, if he was drunk too. But as you showered, you thought about what he said, and realised that he was right. At least, he was right about what you could remember him saying. Leaving Kurt wouldnât mean you would be alone and unloved. You had Manny and Sara; you knew they loved you. But that didnât change that if you left, youâd have nowhere to go. You had never been the type of person to ask for handouts, especially sympathy handouts. There was just too much to think about.
A text from your phone from Sara told you as much as you needed to know about her night went.
Manifestation WORKS đ sent 8:34AM
You spent a few extra minutes washing your face, enjoying the feel of cool water on your skin. Flecks of makeup that you had slept in swirled down the drain, grey and black and blue. Tiny bits of glitter glinted on your cheeks, reminding you of days past when you would drown yourself in glitter to go out clubbing. The memory made you smile, remembering how carefree and happy you were just a few years ago.
Grabbing your darkest pair of sunglasses, you were ready to go. You hadnât bothered with styling your hair beyond running a quick brush through, and your face was devoid of makeup aside from any remnants left from last night.
It was a quick walk to the bistro, your stomach roiling the entire time. You knew it was food you needed; you had already thrown up several times last night after arriving home. The thought of filling your stomach spurred you on, your feet moving slightly faster. You whipped out your phone to text Manny.
Get. Bread. Please.
There were a few unread messages from Kurt. You knew that avoiding him was immature and would only come back to bite you on the ass when he came home, but the thought of opening them and actually reading them made you feel ill. And he would know when you opened them; he complained whenever you turned your read receipts off. So, you kept them on, to keep the peace, and just avoided opening his messages until you were ready to deal with them.
The bistro came into view, and you saw Manny already sitting at your usual table on the outside terrace. You sat down gingerly next to him and flashed him a weak smile.
âYou look terrible,â he said gleefully, pushing a basket of bread and butter your way. You grabbed a small roll and broke it open, inhaling the warm scent.
âI feelterrible,â you told him. âHangovers donât suit me.â
Manny laughed ruffled your hair. You groaned loudly, swatting his hand away, which only made him laugh harder.
âLover, Iâve never seen you in this kind of state before, let me tease you a little,â he said. You flipped him off and ate another roll.
âIs Frankie here yet?â You asked, trying to keep the hope out of your voice. Judging by the look on Mannyâs face, you had failed miserably.
âCrushing on the cook, are we?â He waggled his brows.
âNo! Of course not!â You said quickly. Liar a tiny voice whispered in your ear. âI was just wondering if he got the right place.â
âWell, wonder no longer, thatâs him isnât it?â
From your spot on the terrace, you could see the familiar figure walking down the shady street to the bistro. Your palms dampened with sweat at the sight of him.
âFrancisco!â Manny called, waving him over. Frankie broke into a half jog, raising his arm in a wave. You sunk slightly in your seat, praying that he wouldnât bring up your conversation with him last night.
âHowâs your hangover treating you?â Frankie asked, taking a seat at the table.
âFucking terribly,â you said, âthis is not at all what I was promised last night when I did my fourth shot.â Manny snorted and turned to the waitress who had appeared at your table.
âGood afternoon, dearest Andrea,â Manny said.
âManny, hun, you know I hate when you use my full name,â Andi, as she preferred to be called, said. You liked Andi, she a couple years younger than you and working her way through a masterâs in engineering. âWhat are we all having today?â
âMy usual, please,â Manny said.
âThe greasiest thing on the menu for me, I donât care what it is,â you said. Andy smiled at you in sympathy, knowing the tell-tale signs of a hangover. She then turned to Frankie.
âI donât believe weâve had the pleasure of meeting before,â she said, her voice suddenly an octave higher.
âFrancisco, or Frankie if you like,â he said. âCan I have the alfredo?â
âOf course, Frankie, anything else I can get for you?â
You and Manny glanced at each other, Manny with his eyebrow slightly raised. You knew Andi was a flirt, youâd seen her flirt with customers dozens of times, but something about this felt different. Personal. You chewed the inside of your lip, hoping your annoyance didnât show too plainly on your face.
âSo, what didyou do last night, lover?â Manny turned to you once Andi left.
âDrank too much,â you said. âKurtâs out of town and Saraâs in town so I . . . I could go out. And I saw Frankie and his friends out.â
âAre your friends all as gorgeous as you?â Manny asked, turning to Frankie who blushed deeply.
âI wouldnât say Iâm gorgeous,â he mumbled, adjusting his cap slightly. âIâm just average.â
âGorgeous and humble,â Manny said, âyour partner is a lucky person.â
âIâm not- I uh donât- Iâm not with anyone,â it dawned on you that Frankie was terrible at taking compliments.
âMaybe itâs my personal bias, but out of all his friends, Frankie is truly the most attractive of them,â you said. You knew this could lead to something dangerous, but the chance to see Frankie flustered was just too good to miss.
âYo-you do?â he asked, turning an even deeper shade of red. You nodded seriously.
âWhoever you date in future is going to be very lucky,â Manny said. Then, never one to linger on a topic for too long, Manny took a sip of his water and declared that it was feelings time.
âFeelings time?â Frankie sounded uncertain.
âWell, neither of us can afford therapy, so we use each other as therapists,â Manny explained. âWe started it when I was working at Louâs, and itâs been so long since Iâve had a good feelings time. Of course, you donât have to participate if you donât want to, and if you do want, keep it as light or as heavy as your heart tells you. Consent is key.â
Frankie nodded, obviously still unsure of the whole situation. It struck you then how strange you and Manny would seem to an outsider. Andi returned with food for the three of you, placing down the biggest burger you had laid eyes on in front of you.
âEnjoy,â she said with a wink to Frankie. âCome find me personally if youâre not satisfied.â
You couldâve thrown up at the blatant flirting. What made it worse was Frankie seemed to be enjoying it, smiling up at Andi.
âIâll start,â Manny said, once Andi was gone again. âIâm feeling overwhelmed recently with my new job and the house renovations James and I are undertaking. We had a big fight over fucking tiles last night, and I know we wouldnât have if I could just be decisive.â
âDoes James know how youâre feeling?â You asked. Manny shrugged.
âI donât know. Iâd normally tell him about it in a heartbeat, but heâs been stressed too, and I donât want to add to it.â
âHeâs your husband, right?â Frankie asked and Manny nodded. You glanced at him in surprise. âHusbands should support each other. You usually feel supported by him, right? So why is now any different? His stress is your stress, yours is his. Thatâs what you signed up for when you got married.â
âYeah, you shouldnât be afraid to tell him whatâs going on with you,â you said, realising how ironic that was coming from you.
Manny looked thoughtful as he cut into his vegetable stack. âYouâve given me a lot to think about. Now your turn, lover.â You groaned. Feelings time was fine when you were listening to other people, and when the feelings you had werenât so messy. But you could filter your feelings, and you trusted the two men you sat with.
âOkay,â you took a deep breath. âOkay, Iâm feeling like I want to end my relationship. I feel like Iâm fucking miserable, but I also feel like Iâm trapped. Frankie, you remember that friend I told you about last night? Itâs actually me.â
âI know.â
âYou know?â
âYeah, it was pretty obvious, but I didnât wanna make you uncomfortable by saying that.â
âOh, my god,â you rubbed your face. âRight. So, like I said, I want to break up with Kurt, but itâs not easy to do.â You waited for one of them to interrupt you, when they didnât, you went on. âFor one, I donât have enough money to move out. I donât have much in savings at all because I keep needing to dig into it when heâs short on rent or money for bills or whatever. I donât love him anymore, I donât even know if I like him. Also, he said hedkillhimselfifieverleft.â
âExcuse me, he said what?â Manny leant forward, rage curdling his usually placid face. Frankie too, looked furious.
âHe said he would kill himself if I ever left,â your voice was small. âI tried, one time, and-and he sent me a video of him tying a noose to a ceiling fan telling me it was my fault he was doing that. So, I went back, because I donât want his death on my hands.â You realised with growing humiliation that you were crying.
Manny reached across the table and took your hand, holding it gently. âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âBecause I didnât want to bother anyone,â you said, âit was my problem to deal with.â
âWhen does he come back?â Frankie asked quietly.
âTomorrow,â you said. Manny and Frankie exchanged a look and Manny nodded.
âIf you let us,â Manny said carefully, âweâre gonna help you get out. We wonât force you into anything, but we want to help.â
âWait,â you sat back, confused, âwait. Have you too been conspiring behind my back? How? When?â
âNo, not til this morning. I gave Frankie my number when I first met him, in case he had any questions. Then he messaged me this morning, and we got to talking about how we can help you.â
âIf you want our help,â Frankie said. Part of you felt like you shouldâve been angry, but you couldnât be. Instead, you were overwhelmed with gratitude, with love. You grabbed a napkin and dabbed at your eyes under your sunglasses.
âI think I want help,â you said finally. You knew you couldnât do this without help, even though it embarrassed you to admit that. Frankie nodded, satisfied.
âAlright, we need to make a plan.â
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someone commented this on one of my posts of the pics of RA at the WhatsOnStage Awards 2022 and I ummed and ahhed over even responding privately but I thought I would post it because it's a sentiment I see a lot of and I'd like to talk about, but I won't lie, this one kind of shocked me because of how quickly the comment was made after the photos became public
so sincere apologies to the person who commented - I have deliberately hidden you and no ill feelings at all (if anything thank you for bringing this up so I could talk about it! â€)
people often complain about seeing the same image several times after an RA event/sighting happens and I'd just like to point out (as someone who tries to post new pics when they come out for others to enjoy):
a) due to the nature of large FB groups & social media algorithms, often people posting pics/news don't realise that others have posted the same image in a group already because you never see 100% of everything going on in your FB feed. no matter what the group is about you'll always get double-up posts for this reason
b) people may be re-posting the image again because they have something different to say about it than the last person and that's okay
c) 3 times is uh... not a lot of times at all and an incredibly small number you can easily skip over without it affecting your day
d) there will also be double-up photosets on tumblr - different blogs trying to get new pics/news out to different followers. if you get sick of seeing new content on tumblr over and over again, maybe try to either stick to following only one blog that does regular updates rather than many, or temporarily block the RA tag for 24hrs after you've seen all there is to see? then you can unblock after a day or two when people have stopped discussing it
e) it's literally only been 24 hours since the pics were made public, of course people aren't going to be posting pics from 15 years ago right this second. let people just enjoy the new content for a few days and they'll soon switch back to the old images as well
f) I'm not sure why you think complaining on my tumblr post is appropriate here? if your issue is on FB, then maybe you could post in the FB group directly and see if people can collectively come up with a system/admin team so the same thing doesn't get posted multiple times?
g) this seems like a nothing complaint and is a negative comment for the sake of being negative when you could just easily & quickly scroll past re-posts. I'm personally a big fan of not saying something if you don't have anything nice to say? we all have our opinions and that's fine but... as said above if it's a huge issue for you, you need to take it up with the FB group, not bring that complaint to someone else's similar post on a completely different social media platform. alternatively if you just want to scream into the social media void, can I suggest making your own post about it (it's rather theraputic) rather than commenting negatively on the post of a stranger who is advising followers of new RA content?
#i feel kinda bad but like... i just dont understand why they brought that negativity here when it was wildly unnecessary on my post#richard armitage
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By Hook or by Crook (6)
Hey kid. Iâd like to have a chat with you, if youâre up to it. Would you be free this afternoon?
Izuku idly reread the text and the brief exchange that followed as he whiled away the few minutes left before the agreed time for the meeting.Â
Just a little over twenty-four hours before, Izuku had had a minor stroke at the mere thought of All Might texting him about a trip to the police station. Just a little over twenty-four hours before, he would have soared straight to cloud nine at the thought of All Might texting him âto have a chatâ. It was a pity that the only emotion he could muster at the moment was a vague sense of stunned apathy.
âIâll get that.â He informed no one in particular when the bell rang. The man installing what probably were legalized viruses on his laptop gave him an odd look, and his mother replied something indistinguishable from the bathroom. Izuku shuffled out of his room and unlocked the front door.
âYoung Midoriya. Good afternoon.â All Might had reverted to his laid-back cargo pants and t-shirt attire. He seemed more tired and subdued as well, more like on the day Izuku had met him.Â
âGood afternoon.â Izuku gestured at him to come inside, which he did with a quiet thanks. He did not remove his shoes though, and he stopped only few steps in upon spotting the second man fiddling with the landline in the living room.
âAh. Busy day, is it?â All Might acknowledged the technician with a knowing nod. He then turned towards Izuku and tilted his head towards the front door. âSay, how about we take a walk? I bet your house feels crowded enough without me imposing as well.â
His motherâs head peeked into the hallway. All Might greeted her with a little wave and a weirdly embarrassed grin.
âIâm going for a walk.â Izuku announced as he slipped his shoes on.
âUhm, are you sure?â Her eyes shifted between All Might and him with ill-concealed unease.
âYeah, Iâm sure.â Izuku cut short. He wasnât in the mood for another discussion. âSee you later.â
He strode out of the building without hesitation. He made his way down the stairs, through the parking lot, all the way to the sidewalk before stopping. All Might caught up with him a minute later, after lingering on the threshold to exchange a few words with his mother that Izuku decided he did not care about. He also decided to ignore the pointed stare the hero aimed at him when he finally reached him.
âAnywhere youâd like to go in particular?â All Might asked after a beat, gazing up and down the small road.
âNot really. You?â
âAny place is fine by me. I need to get reacquainted with this city, its layout is quite different from how I remember it.â
Right, All Might had just moved in. And Musutafu had likely changed a lot since his U.A. days⊠That would have been a tremendously interesting topic for a chat, Izuku could feel the questions popping up in his head in droves, despite everything. Unfortunately, he was under no illusion that what All Might wanted from him could be that kind of casual conversation.
They picked a random direction and started walking. For almost five minutes, they strolled without breathing a word. It wasnât nearly as awkward as it would have been under any normal circumstances.
âHad another rough night?â All Might said eventually.
âMh.â Easy guess. The bags under Izukuâs eyes would soon rival the fixed shadows circling the heroâs if he didnât manage to rein in his sleeping schedule soon. The nightmares had ceased, thankfully, but his head had been so full of disjointed and clashing thoughts and memories that he hadnât managed to catch some shut eye until so late that it had become early.Â
Nothing made sense. Everything made too much sense. In hindsight, it felt strange that Izuku had never contemplated the possibility himself. It also felt absurd that it could be true though, instead of some sort of huge misunderstanding. That his father could be-
âOh, before I forget. The villain is faring much better.â
âUh? What?â Izuku blinked.
âThe sludge villain whose quirk you returned.â All Might graced him with a gentle smile. âI heard he was already mostly coherent by last night, and as of few hours ago he was firmly denying ever bearing any âseriousâ ill intent towards you and your friend, demanding to see his lawyer and complaining about the quality of the lunch he was served.â
Guilt needled Izukuâs stomach upon realizing that the villainâs plight had completely escaped his mind since his return home from the police station. How poorly committed his sympathy was. âOh. Thatâs⊠good, I guess?â
âWe guess.â All Might chuckled. âI donât think Iâve dealt with another incident that badly in years, but Iâm glad that no one suffered any permanent damage, at least. And thank you again for bringing the matter to a close in my stead.â
âItâs hardly your fault if things went the way they did. But⊠yeah, Iâm glad heâs okay and that itâs over.â Now if only that hadnât sparked a much worse and much more scarring mishap, at least for Izuku⊠âAre you all right, by the way?â
âMe?âÂ
âYeah. Have you managed to see a doctor yet? About, uhâŠâ Izuku pointed at his own mouth, unsure how to describe the attack the man had suffered the day before, the likes of which Izuku had only seen in movies and cartoons, usually from people sporting deadly and gory upper body wounds.Â
All Might laughed with inexplicable, genuine mirth. âOh, donât worry! I wasnât playing it cool when I said I was fine. Itâs just a thing that happens. Usually it isnât quite as, uh, dramatic, but it really is nothing concerning.â
âBut⊠you hadnât even used your quirkâŠâ Izuku could not fathom how spraying blood like a fountain on a presumably regular basis couldnât warrant seeking any kind of medical attention, but the hero waved off his objection with finality.
âTrust me, itâs fine. More importantly...â All Might wasnât looking at him. He seemed deeply focused in memorizing as much as he could of his surroundings, peering here and there at street nameplates, buildings, alleys⊠manholes too, amusingly. But the low and soft quality of his tone made it clear that he wasnât asking just out of politeness. âWhat about you, kid? How are you?â
Izuku dropped his gaze to his feet and shrugged. It was an accurate answer, actually. Heâd spent so many hours torturing himself with doubts and grief and confusion that at some point his brain had sort of⊠ran out of energy to spare for emotions. He supposed it wasnât the worst response he could have had. Stolid empty-headedness was largely preferable to the scorching waves of betrayal, impending doom and overbearing dismay heâd sampled the day before.
âI imagine how difficult all this must be for you.â All Might went on, just as tactfully. âHave you talked with your mother?â
Oh, scratch that. He was still capable of feeling something. His mother was enough of a sore topic to make him clench his fists. â...Yeah. I have.â
â...I donât think-â
âShe knew.â Yeah, he was still angry. It bubbled in his chest like boiling tar, thick and sticky and suffocating.
âShe told you that?âÂ
âI heard you three talking about it last night. I was listening from outside the living room.â
âWhat?!â All Might seemed genuinely shocked. It hadnât been Izukuâs proudest moment, admittedly, but letâs be honest, what else was he supposed to do? Pretend that they werenât discussing life-changing revelations just few meters away from his bed? He was only human. All Might slapped a large hand on his face and dragged it down alongside his pointy features with a groan. âOh, come onâŠâ
âShe knew, and she never told me.â His nails were digging painfully in his palms and- oh great, now he was getting teary again. Heâd held it together for the whole day and now he was going to lose it five minutes after All Might had showed up. For the third or fourth time in as many days. Sure, why not? It wasnât like heâd managed to retain any sort of dignity since the very moment heâd met his idol. Why bother now? âS-Sheâs known since- since before marrying him- however that happened⊠I j-just...â
All Might regarded him silently for a moment. â...Things like these look very different from an outside perspective. Especially to someone as young as you are. Itâs very easy to judge, and even easier to misjudge.â
âBut she knew he was a criminal - one who would not even consider changing his ways for his family - and she⊠wanted him around anyway? Why would she do that?! Itâs- I wouldnât want an unrepentant villain still involved in illegal business around my son! Heâd be... a bad influence, at the very least!â
âBefore yesterday, have you ever thought that he could be having a bad influence on you?â
âUh? No, I⊠I didnât know that he was⊠I never⊠questioned...â
All Might sighed deeply. âYour father is a notoriously charismatic man. Heâs always been particularly adept at coaxing people to his side without open coercion, but with simple, well-aimed words. You never suspected that he may have been acting in his own best interest while offering or withholding certain information from you, although it may seem obvious in hindsight. I bet he managed to instil the same trust in your mother, despite what she knew about him.â
âIâŠâ Izuku rubbed away the tears flowing freely down his cheeks. He couldnât understand. He just couldnât. And it tore at him. âW-Was it because of the money? She never... I-I thought we were good, she n-never said anything⊠I-If Iâd known, I would have⊠I wouldnât have asked for⊠s-so many things, I-â
âI highly doubt that a few toys and games could have had that big of an impact on the family budget. Thereâs no reason for you to beat yourself up over anything.â All Might slipped his hands in his pockets, sympathy plain in his sunken eyes. âYour mother found herself in a very tricky situation, through no real fault of her own. She navigated it as best as she could, and Iâm sure your well-being was her top priority. Seeing the healthy and upright young man youâve grown into, Iâd say she handled it admirably.â
â...I know.â Izuku knew it, really, he understood that. But⊠heâd always seen his mother as just about the most transparent, honest, sensible and sensitive person on Earth. And it turned out she didn't⊠exactly⊠meet that standard, however idealistic. It had been a blow, on top of everything else, one that had left him without a real, fully trustworthy figure when he most needed it. âI know that, but⊠she should have told me. At some point. Thereâs no excuse for not doing that.âÂ
âPerhaps. Itâs hard to predict the negative impact that such a confession may have on a younger child, but perhaps she should have.â The hero conceded. âIâd refrain from handing down verdicts though. You kept some secrets of your own from her. You hid your quirk-â
âBut thatâs not the same thing! Not even close! A quirk isnât as big an omission as your father being a criminal!â Izuku snapped, then immediately hunched his back in regret, his tone losing some volume but not its bitterness. âAnd, you know, maybe, maybe I wouldnât have listened to him so readily if someone had warned me that he isnât exactly an upstanding citizen!â
âLook, it isnât my place to comment on how things stand or should stand between you and your mother, or how you should behave, but⊠if thereâs one thing you need to keep in mind - and please do keep it in mind, at all times - is that the one person who bears absolute and doubtless blame is your father. Thatâs the source of all the lies that have been fed to you. Lies and deception are⊠what he does, really. What heâs always done. You and your mother are both victims in all this.â
Izuku sniffed and wiped some tears and snot on his sleeve. It was gross, but he couldnât bring himself to care. There was a logic to All Mightâs words, but no logic justified the staggering duplicity that had just turned his life upside down. The unfairness of it all was simply too much to accept.Â
The boy looked up when All Might poked him on the shoulder to catch his attention.
âSpeaking of whichâŠâ All Might swerved to the left, entering a smaller and more secluded lane leading away from the more trafficked routes. He had resumed his perusal of the area, and his expression had regained a firm, almost steely edge. Izuku followed him. âWhat I wanted to talk to you about concerns what transpired about your father, and how it will affect your life going forwards.â
No surprise there. The two plain-clothes agents that had shown up that morning, no doubt mourning the loss of their well-deserved Sunday rest, had been clear enough of a warning of some upheaval to the Midoriyasâ routine. All Mightâs vague text had only cemented Izukuâs expectations of further disruptions.
âI hate being the bearer of bad news, but it is imperative for you to understand the gravity of your fatherâs position⊠especially to prevent him from enacting any sort of manipulation or control on you in the future.â The hero began. âThe man you know as âHisashi Midoriyaâ goes under many aliases, so much so that we are still unaware of his real name. He has committed an astounding variety of serious crimes, over the course of decades. Even if your mother claims to be aware of his background, I assure you she doesnât know the half of it.â
Izuku physically curled up under the weight of those words. It was⊠even worse than they thought? His father sounded more and more like some obscenely powerful yakuza boss or something, which was just⊠just...
âThe police will be gathering and analyzing as much evidence as possible to find clues leading to his current location and activities. All possible forms of communications between you and him will be monitored. Your phones will be bugged, and any electronic devices you own will be fitted with tracking software. Your mail will be examined before delivery.â All Might paused, assessing Izukuâs lack of a reaction to his speech. âDid they tell you about this already?â
âS-Some of it, yeah.â Izukuâs gaze dropped to the asphalt again. The dried tears made the skin on his cheeks and around his eyes itch. âWill there be cameras too? Inside the house?â
âI havenât heard about cameras. I donât think so. Seeing as your father never set foot in your house, there doesnât seem to be any reason to surveil it that closely from the inside. The outside will be watched, so weâd notice anyway if he tried to approach it.â
â...Okay.âÂ
â...I know itâs an oppressive situation. No one likes having their privacy invaded. But know that the professionals in charge of monitoring you are utterly uninterested in you specifically, or in whatever you do with your free time, as long as it isnât anything outrageously illegal.â All Mightâs voice softened again, although not enough for Izuku to dare raise his eyes from the ground. âI hear they are especially unconcerned about peculiar web searches and piracy perpetrated by bored adolescents, and some such things. Anything that isnât strictly related to the case at hand wonât ever make it into any reports.â
âMh.â A couple of small mercies were better than none, Izuku guessed. He really couldnât muster neither enthusiasm nor gratitude for them at the moment though.
âAh, about this⊠Those monthly phone calls your mother mentioned are particularly relevant for the police. They are likely their best bet in pinpointing your fatherâs position.â All Might paused. âFor that reason, we would appreciate your cooperation on that front.â
Izukuâs brain suddenly jolted into activity, a myriad of spy movies and comics coming to his mind and offering plenty of distressing scenarios he could be potentially thrusted into. âYou mean like⊠you want me to help you find him? Get him to drop hints about where he is, or- or asking him to go somewhere where you can set up a trap, or-â Izuku looked back up at the man, without bothering to conceal the pure terror that such prospects filled him with.
âWhat? No, of course not!â All Might exclaimed, surprised. âI mean, it isnât out of discussion that we may try to actively lure him out at some point, but that would take extensive preparations and precautions on our part. Weâd need to gather more intel and agents, recruit other heroes first⊠We definitely arenât considering taking any such steps yet.â
âO-Oh⊠okayâŠâ He let out the tiniest sigh of relief. No wild capers⊠for now...
âBesides, even if we were, we wouldnât use a child as bait! Your mother would be much more suited to assist us. Any request from her would have more sway on your father, and she would handle the pressure much better.â
âSo⊠what do you want me to do then?â
All Might shrugged. âJust keep up appearances. Continue having your monthly calls with him as if nothing happened, so as not to alert him that something might be wrong.â
That wasnât that big of a demand, objectively speaking, but... it didnât seem feasible either. Izukuâs grasp on his own emotions was tenuous at best at the moment, and his father had always been exceptionally perceptive to his state. He really didnât think he could endure up to two hours of small talk about heroes, quirks, school and assorted pleasantries without having some sort of breakdown halfway through. Izuku gulped, bracing himself for the inevitable scolding of his cowardice.Â
â...I-Iâm sorry, Iâm not sure if I can do that.â
Surprisingly, All Might wasnât put off in the slightest. âIn that case, you could ask your mother to pretend you got hurt in some way that prevents you from speaking. Bad tooth, removed tonsils, broken jaw, you name it. That would earn you at least another month of silence and⊠hopefully the investigation will make some progress in that time, or youâll grow used enough to the situation to face him with a cool head.â
That was a reasonable approach to the issue. It was a relief to know that someone else was putting some thinking into all this in Izukuâs place, now that his already flimsy decisional autonomy had stumbled into the metaphorical equivalent of a bear trap. â...Iâll think about it.â
âThank you.â All Might nodded, strangely unperturbed by Izuku's less than proactive attitude. âOther than what Iâve mentioned, you will also be followed wherever you go whenever you arenât at home or at school-â
âW-What?â Izuku instinctively glanced around, envisioning slow-moving cars or shady individuals with sunglasses and holed newspapers observing him from bushes.
The corners of All Mightâs mouth twitched upwards. âYou will not be aware of it, nor will anyone else, of course. It will have no actual impact on your daily life, like all the other measures weâve already covered.â
âBut why?â Izuku griped, his heart sinking so deep that it would soon pierce through the Earthâs mantle. âMy father isnât going to suddenly drop by to say hello, you just said so yourself!â
âItâs for your own protection too.â All traces of humor vanished instantly from the heroâs demeanor. âYour father is no stranger to violence. In the past, he has resorted to brutal and immoral means to dispose of his enemies, and... Iâm sorry to say that he would not hesitate to employ such methods against his own family, if he deemed it a danger to his own safety.â
Izuku couldnât hold back a little hysterical chuckle that sounded pitiful to his own ears. âThat⊠sounds a bit exaggerated, doesnât it? I-I get that heâs a bad guy, but⊠I really donât think heâd do something like that to us. H-Heâs never even raised his voice with me, never...â
âMidoriya. I beg you to believe me when I say that you canât trust anything of what you think you know about your father.â All Might stopped to glare intently at a narrow, dingy alley littered with trash bags. âHe is dangerous. Extraordinarily so. Tsukauchi is pushing for having further safety measures enforced for your family, and until those have been granted, please be very aware of your surroundings at all times. Refrain from taking unfamiliar routes, and stick to crowded areas whenever you can. I donât want to scare you, but even having eyes on you at all times is no guarantee of a timely intervention, under unfavorable circumstances.â
âIs it⊠really that bad?â Izuku breathed, gutted by the unexpected harshness of the picture painted by All Mightâs words. It was⊠inconceivable, still. His father, deliberately hurting him? His father, whose cutting sarcasm was just about the only vaguely hurtful trait Izuku had ever witnessed? His father, a hardened, soulless criminal averse to puns and All Might trivia, and yet always so willing to let Izuku torture him with both? His father, ambushing him from dark corners? âIs he really that bad?â
âYes.â
âWhat did heâŠâ Izuku started asking, only to trail off. It was a pointless question, with a clear answer. It had been buzzing in his head for the whole night, blindingly obvious by now. â...He steals quirks, doesn't he? Thatâs what he does. He... maims people forâŠâ
âIâm afraid he isnât nearly as conscientious as you in regards to-â All Might cut himself off with a visible flinch. âWait, he told you about his quirk? You know itâs the same as yours?â
âY-Yes.â
âYou didnât mention that to us.â Bright pinpricks of blue were suddenly trained on Izuku with piercing intensity. It kept catching him off guard, how both of the Symbol of Peaceâs towering forms could switch from amicable to intimidating at the drop of a dime.
âI-I thought⊠He said it was a secret- one of his confidential matters. Iâve always thought he was some sort of⊠prison guard or undercover agentâŠâ God, how unbelievably stupid it all sounded now. Izuku had never felt more childish.Â
â...That goes to showâŠâ All Might mumbled, barely audibly. It unsettled Izuku. It went to show what? His fatherâs cunning? Izukuâs naivety? Or⊠surely not that he could be hiding something on purpose...
âI-Iâm⊠Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to⊠I had no idea how- how serious- Iâd never-â
âMh?â The hero blinked at him, as if emerging from a private musing. âAh, I mean⊠There could be some merit to the other thing I wanted to ask of you.â
Izuku just waited, barely able to withstand the acuity of the heroâs gaze without shrinking. After a few tense moments, All Might let out a sigh and resumed walking, his eyes wandering back to the street ahead.
âTo be frank⊠Personally, I donât think weâre going to achieve much from all these investigations.â He grimaced, as if regretting those words as soon as they left his mouth. âNot for lack of trying, mind you. Tsukauchi is an immensely capable and dedicated officer, heâll pursue each lead as thoroughly as humanly possible, but⊠Your father knows how to cover his tracks. Phone calls, payments, mail, blatant cues like those have never brought us close to him in the past, not once. To his associates, yes, to his⊠âaftermathsâ, yes. But never to him personally. His circumstances were always shrouded in impenetrable security. I doubt this case will be any different.â
Buildings gave way to the open horizon. They had reached the end of the street, which merged into a largest road running along the coast. They crossed it, and kept going on the opposite sidewalk, looking down on a thin stretch of sand separating them from the sea.
âThat said⊠he did leave one huge trail for us to find this time. A whole family, out in the open.â All Mightâs eyes returned to the boy pensively. âA breakthrough like this, if youâll pass me the term, is unprecedented. The most obvious leads could turn out to be dead ends, but maybe there is something to be found in the smaller things.â
âThe smaller things?â
The man gestured vaguely. âHeâs been talking to you, has he not? To you and your mother both, for over a decade. Not that often, but⊠hell, he even told you about his quirk, and one would expect him to be very tight-lipped about that. There might be more to dig up. Details he may have deemed unimportant, or accidentally let slip. Hints. Small things.â
Izuku was finally catching the drift. âIâm really sorry, but⊠I know you probably canât take my word for it, but I really donât know anything about what he does, or ever did. He never let anything slip about his⊠his âjobâ...â
âOf course not, thatâs not what Iâm referring to. The thing isâŠâ The hero clucked his tongue in frustration. âWe know so little about the man himself as well. His identity, his background, his history⊠We know next to nothing about him, and what little we do know, we were only able to discover through very unconventional means. If thereâs a chance to glean one more shred of information hidden among the fabrications, I think itâs worth pursuing it.â
âSo the police are going to question us about⊠fourteen yearsâ worth of chit-chats?â That seemed like a disproportionate endeavor for something as volatile as the possibility of parsing an ounce of truth. Exactly how desperate were they to catch this increasingly perplexing father of his?
âThatâs the gist of it, yes. And ideally, we would like to interview you separately, to avoid that either of you could, ehr⊠inadvertently censor yourselves about information not known by the other-â
âLike my quirk. Or dadâs âactivitiesâ.â Izuku muttered.
â...Yes. Things like those.â All Might paused, then cleared his throat. âWell⊠given the delicate nature of the case, we are trying to keep the workforce to a minimum, and involve as few people as possible. This ought to speed up coordination and briefing, as well reduce the risk of information leaks. Tsukauchi will be personally questioning your mother⊠as well as direct the entire operation. Heâs quite the multitasker. And, well⊠since technically Iâm already involved and up to speed and I wonât be contributing to the proper detective work in any capacity⊠we thought I might take care of hearing your side of the story.â
A little Oh was the whole extent of Izukuâs reaction as the heroâs words washed over him. All Might seemed a little discouraged by that.
âWe figured it might put you a little more at ease⊠Talking with someone youâre already familiar with, instead of a brand new face. And, ehr⊠well, you mentioned being a fan, soâŠâ He elaborated, his hands drawing half-formed shapes in the air to underline his words. He looked⊠almost nervous? âItâs just a possibility, of course. If youâd rather be entrusted to a proper member of the force, itâs well within your rights to request that.â
Izuku did not miss the underlying meaning of that winding speech. It was within his rights to request who he wanted to be interviewed by, not if.Â
âDo I even have a choice?â All Mightâs guilty grimace was all the reply Izuku needed. â...No, sorry, I⊠Thatâs a stupid question. Iâve no reason to refuse either.â Surely not the faint sense of betrayal knocking on his conscience at that very moment. Could he even feel bad about betraying someone whoâd never been honest with him in the first place?Â
â...I know itâs far from an enticing perspective.â All Might rubbed the back of his neck uncomfortably. âItâs going to eat up a lot of your time, and people are never exactly eager to âsnitchâ on relatives, even when theyâre criminals. But I really think it could be of great help to us.â
So that was the role Izuku was going to have in this whole mess, that of a very oddly-shaped piece in a very complicated puzzle. It could be worse, he supposed. Being stuck in a room talking with the number one hero for hours could hardly be considered a real punishment. Were the topic of the conversation literally anything else, itâd be a dream coming true, even. He should push that angle on himself, Izuku pondered. Maybe he could talk himself into enjoying the whole thing, in some way.Â
âSince Iâm no policeman, Iâm amenable to reward you for the time and effort youâll generously dedicate to the task with suitable bribing. I was thinking snacks, if that doesnât come off as too cheap.â All Might continued with a tentative grin, although his attempt at levity didnât stick the landing. âNo? How about, ehr⊠All Might merch?â For some reason, his face scrunched up as if the suggestion physically pained him.
Izuku sighed. There was no point in fighting the inevitable, was there? âItâs fine. Iâll do it.â
â...Thank you, that is very good to hear.â All Might smiled with evident relief. He patted Izukuâs shoulder encouragingly. âIâll say, youâre taking all this a lot better than I was expecting. For all the crying, you have quite the resilient attitude. Heroic, even!â
Izuku let out a half-choked sob. Oh. Oh, wow, that realization hurt. He hadnât thought about that since⊠had it really only been a couple of days since making it into U.A. had been his biggest concern in life? And nowâŠ
âEhr⊠Sorry, did I say something wrong?â All Might asked when faced with the new bout of tears streaming down the boyâs cheeks. Izuku shook his head.
âS-Sorry, itâs just⊠I-I guess thatâs the closest Iâll ever get to becoming a hero now, uh?â
âWhat?â
âThereâs no way theyâll let me anywhere near a hero course now, is there? My father told me it was basically impossible before, and now...â
âYour father told you that you couldnât be a hero? Your father who is a villain?â All Might gave him a pointed look. âYou may want to start reevaluating some of the nuggets of wisdom heâs been imparting on you in light of the new revelations, kid.â
âBut heâs right, isnât he?â Izuku griped. âItâs even worse now that he turned out to be a villain! A bad one too! Abusing the same overpowered quirk I have, itâs just⊠too great a bias, isnât it?â
All Might seemed caught off guard, then he frowned and looked away without replying. There it was, the naked truth. Not even an attempt at a rebuttal. Out of discussion. Izukuâs dreams scattered to the wind, without hope of salvation.
âY-You know, I actually thought⊠I could work my way around it.â Izuku continued among the sniffles, dropping his gaze to the ground. âI thought I could just pretend to be quirkless. F-For a while. Pass the test like that, make some friends, get⊠get trusted as a hero because of my work. A-and then, then one day, just⊠after everyone trusted me, I thought I could come out clean. And start using my quirk for good. I thought it could work. Get others to know me before my quirk. B-But itâs never going to happen now. The police know, the school will know.â
â...I must say that building your budding hero career on a lie isnât the most solid plan Iâve ever heard.â There was no accusation in All Mightâs tone, but his words still cut deep.
âI knowâŠâ Izuku bit his lip. Heâd known, but what alternatives did he have?
âBut I guess we canât all carelessly parade our true selves before public scrutiny, can we?â The man sighed, scratching his own head. âYou are right about one thing though. Actions do speak louder than words. You might not be able to talk your way out of your⊠delicate circumstances, but factual demonstrations of good intentions can go a long way.â
âThatâs⊠Thatâs all Iâm asking for!â Izukuâs head snapped up, desperately latching onto that single lifeline. âI would do whatever it takes to be allowed to try!â
âWell, Iâd say youâre already on the right path then. Cooperating with the police is definitely a good step to establish good faith.â All Might flashed him a sheepish smile. â...Iâm not saying that just to grind my own axe, I swear.â
âDo you think it would be enough for U.A. to let me attempt the test?â
âYou want to apply to U.A?â The hero seemed strangely surprised.
âYeah. Is it⊠not a good idea?â
All Might took a few moments to reply. â...It might work in your favor, actually. U.A. is famous for the degree of self-determination afforded to its management by the government. If youâre worried about external interference, U.A. is your best bet to avoid it.â
A tiny, shy flicker of hope ignited in Izukuâs chest. Â
â...Iâve known the principal of U.A High School for a long time. Heâs a bit of an eccentric, but one with an impeccable work ethic.â All Might resumed after a moment. âHeâs not the kind of person to let unfair judgement undermine his institute. Especially if it prevented an aspiring hero he deems worthy from being appointed his student.â
âYou mean thatâŠ?â
âI mean that if you do plan to apply to U.A. you could have a chance of making it in, regardless of your unfavorable background. If you pass the admission test, that is.â All Might suddenly stopped walking. â...What is this?â
Izuku blinked, ripped out of his thoughts, and took in the portion of the seafront they had reached. Wow, he really hadnât been paying any attention to where they were going, had he? â...Oh. Itâs, ehr⊠an illegal dumping site, I guess.â
âReally?â All Might commented, eyeing the sad, disregarded No Dumping sign welcoming its disobedient visitors.
âYeah. The currents always bring flotsam to this area, so it was never clean in the first place. And then people started taking advantage of itâŠâ
âAnd no one ever comes here to pick up any of this?â Strangely, the sight and the slight stench of mounds of rusting metal and assorted junk didnât bother All Might, who climbed down the few steps separating the sidewalk from the beach.
âNo, the city administration never took an interest. Everyone else just avoids this spot altogether. Itâs been getting worse over the years.â Izuku had no idea why All Might was studying the piles of dismissed appliances as if they might hold some hidden treasures within, but he felt rather dumb for accidentally introducing this to the hero, of all places in Musutafu, as his first sightseeing landmark. âSorry, I should have brought us somewhere else.â
âItâs fine.â Undaunted, All Might wandered deeply into the maze of refuse, with Izuku ruefully tagging along. âA safe, handy spot where a passing criminal in a hurry could stash some loot, donât you think? Good to know.â
âOh. I didnât think about that.â Right. That was what it meant for a hero to know his turf, right? It went beyond street names and layouts. It meant to be aware of how each location could lend itself to certain criminal activities, what places could make for good improvised hideouts, where civilians were more or less likely to be gathered...
âHow were you planning on passing the admission test?â All Might asked when they reached the waterâs edge, eyes fixed on the waves crashing on the sand.
âUhm. Well, Iâve already started reviewing the subjects listed in the syllabusâŠâ
âI was referring to the practical session, actually.â
âOh, uhm⊠Well, I tried looking for information about it online, but there doesnât seem to be any. Apparently itâs U.A.âs policy to bind all participants to non-disclosure. They say that observing how potential candidates react to unexpected situations is part of the evaluation process, soâŠâ
All Might looked at Izuku, his expression blank. âYes. So?â
âEhr.â Suddenly Izuku felt extremely on the spot. âW-Well, without knowing what Iâm getting into, I donât really have any specific strategies in mind.â
All Might cocked his head with a slight frown. âWhat about generic strategies? What skills were you going to capitalize on?â
âI⊠Well⊠I thought Iâd just⊠try my best. Improvise and use my head.â
All Might blinked. â...That is what everyone else is going to do too. Except everyone else will also have a quirk to rely on, while you werenât going to use yours. Thatâs a massive disadvantage right there.â
âYes, I know.â Izuku clasped his hand behind his back in shame. That was an excellent point, one that somehow no one had ever raised with him. Everyone, including his father, instantly shot down his idea as soon it left his mouth. No one had ever asked him to elaborate on the practical details. Which he had sort of⊠failed to sort out so far.
âAnd you have no notion as to how to bridge that gap.â
âNot⊠not yet.â
All Might crossed his arms, sporting possibly the harshest expression Izuku had seen on him yet. It made his stomach lurch unpleasantly. â...Are you serious about this hero thing? Are you sure it isnât just a passing fancy?â
âIt isnât! It absolutely isnât!â Izuku answered immediately. âI just⊠I donât even know if Iâm allowed to bring any tools, or-â
âTools?â All Might scoffed as he walked back to him and gave him a critical once-over. âLooks to me you already have all the tools you need, if you deigned to consider them.â
âUh?â
âYou have arms, donât you? Hands. Legs. Arguably a head.â All Might poked at each listed limb with a bony finger as he started circling him like a starved shark. âAll in working order, yes?â
âY-Yes- I mean, Iâm not ill or anything, but-â
âThen why arenât you trying to capitalize on those? A quirk is an important part of a person, but itâs not the only one! You have a body, use it!â
âAh, yes, IâŠâ Izuku gulped. âIt would make sense to, uh, try to get a little stronger, I guessâŠâ
âYou guess? â All Might was reaching yet unexplored levels of visible exasperation, which was saying something considering the whole secret-villainous-father debacle. Izuku didnât know if getting the number one hero so worked up about his little pipe dream should be considered flattering or shameful. âBeing a hero isnât a desk job! Running fast, lifting heavy weights, enduring fatigue are not optional skills! No matter what quirk they have, no hero worth their salt can neglect to keep in excellent shape!â
âR-Right. Of course. Itâs just that, uhâŠâ Izuku fidgeted. âIâm not really good at that sort of⊠physical stuff. Iâve always been a bit on the scrawny side, and I get tired easily, and Iâm no good at brawling-â
âDespite training?â
â...Iâve never followed a proper training regimen, butâŠâ
All Might rubbed his hands on his face. âKid, unless they have a physical-enhancing quirk, people arenât just born strong. They get strong by training - do I really have this state this out loud?â
Izuku was fairly sure his face was about to spontaneously combust. Of all the things heâd expected to happen in his near future, being scolded by All Might in person for his lack of commitment to physical activity was not one of them. âY-You are right. Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to⊠to disrespect you or your professionâŠâ
âYou didnât, I was just⊠You seemed passionate about this two days ago...â All Might trailed off. âMy point is that all the equity in the world wonât net you a place in U.A. if you donât pass that test. And if you really are serious about raising your chances of becoming a hero, you have to give this some serious thought, and soon. You can cram months of study into weeks if you have the brains for it, but you cannot do the same with workouts.â
Izuku willed himself to hold his head up straighter. âI-I will. Thank you for your advice, it makes a lot of sense.â
The silence that descended between them was more than a little awkward.
âIâve pestered you enough for today, havenât I?â All Might eventually said as he took off towards the sidewalk. âLetâs go back.â
Izuku trailed behind the hero as they made their way among the waste, and almost bumped on him when he slowed to a stop to stare at a particularly high pile of contorted, rusty scraps.
âIs something wrong?â
âNo, I was just thinking that⊠What I need is a quiet, lonely place to have some private chats with you, and what you need is a way to work up some muscle and rack up some good karma, right?â All Might scratched his chin as he scanned the heaps of trash hiding the rest of the city from view. â...Say, how do you feel about community service?â
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bring home a haunting (1/12)
Fandom: The Haunting of Bly Manor
Pairing: Dani Clayton/Jamie Taylor
Rating: M
Wordcount: 11,511
Summary: Dani almost has her life together, when a familiar face arrives back in town after ten years. A childhood friends AU written with @youngbloodbuzz
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âThe sweetest thing in all my life has been the longing â to reach the Mountain, to find the place where all the beauty came from â my country, the place where I ought to have been born. Do you think it all meant nothing, all the longing? The longing for home? For indeed it now feels not like going, but like going back.â - CS Lewis, Till We Have Faces
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I: 1987
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The sound of water sloshing through the pipes was a constant drone in the air. Dani stared at herself in the mirror. Her hand rested on the tap, holding it open. Steam crept in along the edges of the mirror as hot water continued to stream into the white porcelain bathroom sink, pale tendrils framing her face like smudged fingerprints against the glass. She was still dressed in pajamas, her hair a rumpled mess. There were dark shadows beneath her eyes. Her face felt puffy and her stomach heavy, but above all else she just appeared tired.
There was movement behind her. The bathroom door opened and her head jerked up in surprise as the door frame squared around Eddie's tall silhouette. In the misted mirror, his glasses seemed to reflect all light, obscuring half his face in a gleam like the sun glancing across the surface of a windscreen.
His reflection smiled. "You still getting ready?" he asked. "We need to go in ten, if I'm giving you a ride to work."
Abruptly, Dani twisted the tap, cutting off the flow of water. She cleared her throat. "Sorry. No. I'll â I'll drive myself."
"You sure? I don't know if your poor little car will make it."
"No. It'll be fine," she assured him, trying to sound far more confident than she felt. Never mind that the local mechanic had given her a list of incomprehensible ills that plagued her car the last time she had taken it into the shop after it had broken down again. "Thanks, though."
"All right," he said, but still he did not turn to leave. "You know, I was thinking. We should probably sell it."
"Hmm?"
Dani had opened the mirror door to reveal a jumble of bottles and toothpaste and toothbrushes, only some of which were hers. She scouted around for what she was looking for. Even after a few weeks, everything still felt so displaced. She struggled to find the smallest item these days, be it her favorite sauce pan or a bottle of â oh, there it was.
"Your car," Eddie was saying behind her. "Don't you think we should sell it? We don't really need two. Not now that we're living together."
Dani froze with her hands cupped in the water of the sink. She could see her own reflection weaving and waving from the disturbance until her face looked disjointed. Like some sort of Picasso. An eye here. A jaw there. Scattered into separate chambers.
Without answering, she leaned down and splashed her face, rubbing at her cheeks until a foam lathered, eyes squeezed shut.
"Well?" Eddie asked.
She bought herself a moment by rinsing the suds from her face and reaching blindly for a towel that she had perched on a nearby rail for just that very purpose. When she spoke, her voice was muffled through the cloth, "I don't know. I just think â" She lowered the towel and wiped at her neck. "Wouldn't it be inconvenient? You having to drive me around everywhere?"
In the mirror, his outline shrugged. "I don't mind. More time spent with you, right?"
She offered him a weak smile, drying her hands and folding the towel neatly back on its rack. âYouâre sweet,â she said. âBut really. I mean â What if I need to pick up groceries on the way back from the school? Or what if I want to visit your mother? Or â?â
âAll right. All right. You win,â he laughed, softly. He came up behind her, hands settling on her waist, gentle but heavy all the same. âJust think about it. Okay?â
The steam at the edges of the mirror had begun to fade, and Eddieâs features came into sharp relief. Looking at their reflection was like looking at the picture in their living room where they were posed for prom. Eddieâs hands clasped at her waist, and Dani still with that deer in the headlights smile. It was almost perfect. It was almost enough. Being a fresh-faced fiancĂ©e. Wearing rumpled pink pajamas. Living together. Watching a life unfold before her as though it belonged to someone else.
She shrank away from him in order to turn around. âI should finish getting ready,â she said.Â
He let her go but leaned down for a kiss. Instead, his glasses bumped the side of her face. Laughing, she pushed the glasses up his nose as he retreated with a wince.Â
âSorry,â he said. âIâll see you tonight.â
Her hand was still lingering on the side of his face â scratch of stubble beneath her fingertips â and Eddie pressed a brief kiss to her palm before striding from the bathroom. Dani stood there, clutching her hand back to her chest, listening to his retreating footsteps down the hall. Something curdled in her stomach, though she hadnât eaten anything yet this morning. She passed it off as hunger instead of guilt.Â
Eyes squeezing shut, hand clenching into a fist at her sternum, Dani inhaled a deep steadying breath. Then, opening her eyes once more, she turned back towards the mirror and reached for a hairbrush.Â
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The coffee in the teacherâs lounge was always dark as sin and tasted of battery acid. Dani pulled on the tap, filling up her styrofoam cup until her hand burned and she had to hold it gingerly from the top with her fingertips. Enough creamer followed so that the coffee resembled milk more than the original brew. She tested it with a sip, crinkled her nose, and added sugar until it was barely palatable. It would still strip paint in a pinch, but it would also keep her going throughout the day.Â
With a resigned sigh, she carried the coffee over to the round table in the back corner of the lounge, where her piles of notes and textbooks waited. The binders sported multi-colored tongues, every section marked with a tab and her broad loopy handwriting, and there was a satchel of pens and markers in every hue under the sky. Taking a sip of her cup of paint thinner, Dani pulled out a plain black pen. She trailed her thumb down the tabs until she reached the desired section, and flipped open to the correct page. There, she began to record her meticulous notes. She would pause every so often to flip through a textbook and double-check some figure or another that she had convinced herself she had forgotten.
The lounge was mostly empty but for her. It was still an early hour, even for her colleagues. Here, she felt like she could actually work. Back home she would inevitably feel like she had gotten in the way. Not of Eddie. Not usually. Though sometimes he would wander over to the table while she was trying to arrange a lesson plan and distract her with talk of banalities that always made her hand slip, that always made her lose her place on the page. Other times he would complain about how her work sprawled and took over the whole dining room.
Mostly it was the house itself. Still so fresh and new and clean, walls pressing in like a stomach lining. Spreading all her work notes out felt like she was intruding upon the space of the napkins and cutlery. As though all of the items people had bought them for their engagement were more at home there than she was. A house of cardboard boxes. Of clothes. Of china. Stuff. Things. Their things.Â
Daniâs writing had slowed. She shook her head briskly and straightened in her seat. Another sip of fortifying turpentine, and she was scribbling away again.Â
âEnjoy the summer holiday?â
Dani glanced up at the sound of that familiar voice. Hannah Grose, seamlessly elegant in a wine-dark skirt suit, stood with her hand on the back of one of the chairs around the little table.Â
A smile broke across Daniâs face, and she said, âYeah! And you?â She gestured towards the chair with her pen, adding, âPlease.â
âNot much to report on the western front.â Hannah sat, delicately leaning her elbow upon the table so as not to disturb the sprawl of Daniâs notes. âBut I hear thatâs not the case in your camp. Congratulations are in order.âÂ
Dani could feel her cheeks strain with the effort of keeping her smile in place. âThanks!â
âWell?â Hannah asked, her eyes agleam with warm curiosity. âGo on then. How did he propose?âÂ
âWhich time?â Dani joked half-heartedly. When Hannah gave a little huff of laughter, Dani said, âNo, seriously. Heâs been asking me to marry him since we were kids.âÂ
âWell, congratulations,â Hannah said. âDo you have a date planned? Or is that still in the works?â
Dani fiddled with the pen between her fingers, repeatedly removing the cap and sticking it back on with a nervous jab. The plastic clacked dully against the unfamiliar band of gold around her finger. âOh, no. Not yet. We â uh â weâre going to wait a bit. Eddie just started his new job, and Iâve â well. Youâre the one who asked me to teach sixth grade this year. And Iâm excited, but also I feel so unprepared for a whole classroom of twelve year olds.âÂ
âDonât be nervous, dear,â Hannah said, and though her tone was soothing her small smile was teasing. âThey can smell fear.â
Daniâs laugh was slightly too breathy and too short to be heartfelt. âOh, I know. Itâs just ââ She made a flighty gesture with one hand, ââ getting a new batch in. Itâs always a little nerve wracking. There are so many names to memorize in the first week. And sorting out the dynamics of them all, how they interact, and â well, you know.â
âNo, I donât. Not really, anyway,â Hannah said. âI came up the ranks through an administrative route. Never had any classroom time to speak of.â
âOh, thatâs a shame,â Dani said.
Hannah gave Daniâs notes a nudge with her elbow. âWhat was it you were just telling me about the trials and tribulations of homeroom?â
This time when Dani laughed, it was far more relaxed. âThe kids are the best part. Really. Thatâs why you do it.â
Hannah gave her a knowing look. âYes. And thatâs why I hired you.â
âHave I thanked you for that, yet?â
âOnly once a year for three years.â
âMy next gift basket is in the mail tomorrow, then,â Dani joked.
âHang the basket and bring me a slice from the cafe instead.â
âWith coffee?â Dani asked, grinning when Hannah wrinkled her nose at the idea. âYou got it, boss.â
âTea,â said Hannah primly, âis perfectly serviceable. Thank you. Itâs eight thirty, by the way.â
Daniâs eyes widened and she checked her watch to find that Hannah was, in fact, correct. âOh, shoot!â Hastily, she scraped together the loose papers, shuffling them back into their notebook. Tucking it beneath one arm, she snatched up her styrofoam cup and made a dash for the door. âIâll see you tomorrow, Mrs. Grose.âÂ
âDonât forget to bring back a receipt for the slice!â Hannah called after her. âYou must let me pay you back this time!â
âPut it on my next remuneration review!â
â
The kids were all filing into class, and Dani was hesitating at the blackboard. She held the tip of a piece of chalk against the dark grain. Her hand had frozen on the final downward stroke of the 'M' when she thought â should it still be 'Miss'? 'Ms.'? What were the rules?
The sounds of children jabbering away behind her, chairs scraping, things being thrown, urged her into action, and Dani wrote the name she had always written before turning around.
"All right, let's settle down, please." She waited until twenty-five faces were turned towards her in relative silence â as good as she could hope for given the circumstances â before smiling. Then, she set aside the chalk and picked up a clipboard full of names. "Hi, everyone. I'm Miss Clayton. Welcome to homeroom. Let's go through names. Make sure everyone's here."
It was the same, she told herself even as she meticulously took roll. How different could a bunch of twelve year olds be to her usual ten year olds? She even recognized one or two names from when she had taught a previous class. One of her former students waved at her from the back of a row of desks, and Dani smiled in return.
She skimmed right over the roll call and into the first introductions to the year. It happened so fast, that she hardly even registered a familiar looking name on the list. The boy in question merely raised his hand upon his name being called out, and Dani forged on to the next. With so many new faces to memorize, she did not even pause to mull over the presence of a Michael Taylor in her class. There were too many of them. Always too many. She never could keep track. Always remembering faces, but never names. Maybe if there were fewer of them, she thought. Maybe if they were younger.Â
They never were.
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Even after two weeks back in the classroom, the bell ringing never failed to make Dani jump slightly. She nearly dropped her chalk from where she was drawing on the blackboard. Already behind her she could hear the scrape of chairs and the excited babble at the arrival of the weekend.Â
Setting down the chalk, Dani turned around and began wiping her hands against her skirt. She had to lift her voice to be heard. âAll right everyone, donât forget your permission slips for a trip to the community library! If you donât bring back a signed form, you wonât be able to go, and youâll have to stay here! And, Michael? Can you stay behind for a minute, please? I want to talk to you.â
Michaelâs head whipped around at the sound of his name. A few other students shot him odd glances and his shoulders crept up around his ears. He shoved his books and notes into his bag â a dark blue canvas with silver stars that looked like theyâd been painstakingly drawn on â then slouched at his desk until the others had all left.Â
Sitting behind her own desk, Dani brushed at the chalk handprints on her skirt â she was always a mess by the end of a school week; chalk everywhere â and gestured for Michael to come closer. He hesitated before pushing himself upright and walking forward until he stood in front of her desk. His brow was furrowed but his head was bowed, looking contrite, as though waiting for some sort of reprimand. Â
Dani gentled her voice. âMichael, I just wanted to -"
"Mikey."
She blinked, faltering. "I'm sorry?"
"My name," he said very firmly for someone who stood with such a stoop. "Itâs Mikey. I donât like Michael."
With a smile, Dani said, "Of course. Mikey. Youâre not in trouble. I promise.â With a light tap of her palms against the surface of the desk, she pulled out a piece of paper from atop one of the stacks and slid it towards him across her desk. âThis is your homework from Monday. Do you remember this problem here? Number eleven?â
Shrugging at the weight of his backpack, he nodded.Â
âWell, I kind of messed up,â she said, lowering her voice and leaning forward as though revealing a secret. âAnd I copied this problem from the wrong section of the book. The back section of the book, I mean. Most of the others didnât even try to answer it, and those that did got it wrong. Except ââ Dani tapped a finger against the edge of the page, ââ for you.âÂ
Mikey did not say anything. His gaze remained dropped, as though he were studying his shoes.
âDo you know what this âxâ is?â Dani asked, pointing to the math problem in question.
Mikey shook his head. âNo. I thought it was like a question mark?âÂ
âYeah.â Dani smiled. âYeah, thatâs right.â
He glanced up at her, saw her watching him, and then hastily lowered his eyes again, shuffling his feet.Â
Leaning her weight on her forearms, Dani said, âI know youâre a transfer student this year, and you came from somewhere out of state. Did your other schools teach you algebra by any chance?â
Again, he shook his head.Â
âOkay.â She ducked her head down in an attempt to look into his eyes. âI told you: youâre not in trouble. I just wanted to know â do you like math? Because it seems to me youâre really good at it.â
âI guess,â he mumbled. His hand tightened around the strap of his backpack. âCan I go now?â
Dani toyed with the edge of the page of homework. Then with a sigh she leaned back in her seat. âYeah, you can go. Have a good weekend.âÂ
He murmured some pleasantry in response, but in the next moment he was gone from the room so fast she thought she must have imagined it. For a moment, Dani frowned after him. She pulled his homework towards herself, studying the page. Mikeyâs handwriting was cramped and messy, but there was no mistaking the fact that he had written every answer only once. There were no eraser marks to be seen. He even showed the steps he took to reach his answers.Â
Her thumb traced over his name at the top right hand corner. Then, with a little shake of her head, she set the page back atop the stack of other papers and began to clean up.Â
Even after the kids had mostly left, there were always a few stragglers left behind. Some trotted through the halls in packs on their way to whatever extracurricular activities their parents had signed them up for. Dani kept the door to her classroom open, and the squeak of their shoes echoed down the corridor along with the sound of their fading voices. Tilting her wrist to check the time, she pulled out the latest round of homework assignments that had been handed back to her earlier that day. The set she hadnât had a chance to mark yet.Â
Best to just get it done with now. Her car was clinging to the last vestiges of life and had landed itself back in the workshop earlier that week. She would be here a while until Eddie got off work.Â
She grabbed a red pen and pulled the first page towards her. The pen flicked officiously as she scanned through the questions, barely pausing until she circled the final grade at the top and set the page aside in favor of the next. And so on. And so forth. It was almost relaxing. As relaxing as a known constant could be. She could always rely upon the dependability of homework that needed grading. Just like she could rely upon the dependability of death and taxes.
She glanced up only rarely from her work whenever a flurry of movement flitted across the corners of her vision. A bird darting from a tree branch here. A janitor sweeping the floors there. Dani paused to push her seat back from the desk and make small talk, asking after the janitor's wife and kids until he shuffled along with a wave, pushing his long-handled broom, which looked more like a breed of shaggy dog than a cleaning implement. She had almost finished grading the stack of papers, when she glanced out the window towards the street. She looked back down at the papers, then did a double take.
That was a student sitting on the curb. She recognized that blue backpack with silver stars. Dani checked the time again. Nearly four in the afternoon now. With a hum and a frown, she returned to grading, but her gaze would wander after each finished page back towards the window.
Finally, she capped the pen and set it down atop the finished stack of papers. She would need to enter those grades into the system later, but that could wait. For now, Dani swept everything into her bag before slinging it over one shoulder. Her keys jangled from their lanyard as she locked up and made her way outside.
Mikey was still crouched on the sidewalk when she approached. Her shoes clacked dully against the pavement, and he turned to look over his shoulder at who was approaching him.
Dani smiled brightly. "Hi!" she said. "Youâre still here?"
Mikey nodded, but gave no verbal reply. Some sort of magazine was hanging loosely from his fingers, half open and tucked between his legs as though he had been caught red-handed.
Setting her bag down on the ground, she sat beside him and craned her neck to get a look at the cover he was clearly trying to hide. "Wonder Woman, huh?"
His cheeks flushed in embarrassment, and he refused to look anywhere near her direction.
"You know," Dani said. "I used to wait up at night to catch all the episodes of the show as they were airing. The Lynda Carter ones? You ever watch it?"
His eyes were wide when he finally turned to look at her. He nodded. "Yeah. I love that show."
"I recorded them all," Dani confided in a whisper, as though the two of them were in on a secret. "Still have them on tape at home, though I haven't watched them in forever."
"My sister gets annoyed when I rewatch stuff too often," Mikey said. He had straightened his legs, and now the comic book was sprawled across his bony knees to reveal a few inked pages.
She nodded towards the thin paper booklet. "I never read the comics, though. Are they any fun?"
It was like opening flood gates. Suddenly, she found herself being regaled about the entire publication history of Wonder Woman, while Mikey gestured wildly with the comic so that the loose pages rustled with every motion of his hands. His face came alight when he spoke. Dani listened with amusement. She perched an elbow on her knees and propped her chin on her hand, nodding along, asking appropriate questions. Once she asked what was obviously a dumb question, for he made a face and explained her error in great detail.
The early autumnal sun was slanting through the trees by the time a boxy silver sedan rolled up to the other side of the street. Dani could see a familiar mop of dark hair and the gleam of glasses through the windows. The car puttered to a halt, engine idling, and Eddie pressed down on the steering wheel so that the horn blared briefly.Â
Dani waved in his direction and said to Mikey, âThatâs my ride. Are you going to be okay out here?â She glanced down the street for any approaching cars. âSomeoneâs coming to pick you up, right?â
In answer, he held up the issue of Wonder Woman. âItâs okay, Miss Clayton. My sister will be here soon.â
âOkay, then,â said Dani. Slapping her hands on her thighs, she pushed herself to her feet, bag hanging from one shoulder. She walked towards the car with a smile and a wave back at Mikey. âIâll see you next week!â
He did not answer. He was already nose-deep in his comic book again. Shaking her head with a small chuckle, Dani continued towards where Eddie was waiting for her, tapping at the dashboard. It wasnât until her hand was on the chromed door handle that she finally registered what Mikey had said.Â
A sister. He had a sister. At first sheâd thought â well, a sister who got annoyed with a brother who hogged the television set would surely be a younger sister. But a sister who drove to pick him up from school was definitely not a younger sister.Â
âDanielle, are you all right? You look a little pale.â
The sound of Eddieâs voice made her jerk half out of her skin. She hadnât even realized he had rolled down the window.Â
âYeah,â she said, her voice catching in her throat. âYeah. Can you just - Can you wait a second? Iâll be âIâll be just a second.âÂ
Dani shoved her bag through the open window into her seat, then whirled around and marched back across the street. Her hands were clenched into fists at her side. She could feel the bite of her short nails into her palms. Something acidic boiled in her stomach, twisting it into knots, until she stood over Mikey, struggling to find her voice.Â
âYou said you had a sister?â she asked. âAn older sister? And â And your last name is Taylor?âÂ
Looking puzzled, Mikey shrugged. âYeah?âÂ
This was impossible. There was no way. For a long moment, Dani stared at him, his brown hair, his brown eyes, his narrow shoulders, the almost familiar shape of his nose and face.Â
Dani cleared her throat and tried to sound nonchalant. âAnd what â uh â whatâs her name?âÂ
With a quizzical frown up at her, Mikey turned a page of his comic book to where Wonder Woman was punching stars from one of her foes. âMy sister?â he asked, as if it were the most bizarre question in the world. âJamie. Her nameâs Jamie.âÂ
âRight,â Dani breathed, feeling like sheâd just received a blow to the space beneath her ribcage. âRight. Of course. Sorry. Iâll just â Bye.âÂ
Without another word, she turned on her heel and strode back towards the waiting car. She willed her breathing to even out, even as she felt something coil around her sternum and tighten with every step. Yanking open the door, Dani slipped into the car. She pushed her bag down to her feet and pulled the door shut behind her.Â
âEverything good?â Eddie asked.
âYeah,â Dani lied, her voice sounding oddly high even to her own ears. It was difficult to swallow; her throat felt too tight. A rush of blood flooded through her ears in a deafening crash. She stared fixedly at the reflection of her own clenched hands in the slanted windshield, willing them to relax even as her knuckles went whiter. âFine. Everythingâs fine.âÂ
And Eddie didnât question it at all. He merely shrugged, put the car into gear, and drove away.
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It stayed with her afterwards. Like a bruise upon her skin, blue and purple, tender to the touch. That cloying sense of the air too thick. Molasses on a hot summer day, the dark shadow that clung to her heels in sunlight, haunting her every step. She couldnât breathe with it, couldnât escape it.
Jamie. Jamie, here. Jamie, home.
Somehow Eddie didnât notice. It completely passed him by, the way her eyes darted around as they stopped to pick up groceries, her clenched fists held tightly to her sides, consumed with the uneasy notion that she might turn around the corner and Jamie would appear, as if summoned by the gravity of Daniâs pounding heart.Â
It shouldâve been easy â like most things eventually â locking it away. Erasing it. She had managed now for years, days, months. Except now the very thought of Jamie being so near again, so tangible again, made her somehow indelible. As if sheâd always been there. Waiting. As if sheâd never gone. It felt altogether at once like being peeled and stripped away, down to an exposed nerve.Â
Dani wished she could say she slept easy that night. Instead, after spending much of the witching hour staring at the ceiling, she finally succumbed to the sound of Eddieâs soft snores, his arm splayed across her waist, only to wake up feeling as if she'd been cracked open and hollowed out. Somehow, in between the moments of stumbling out of bed and driving up to the blue bungalow across town with Eddie in the small rental truck behind her, Dani managed to go through the motions of call and response. Her limbs moving, her mouth speaking all of their own accord, and she could only watch it happening. She pulled on the turn signal. The click of the light like an errant drip of a tap. It was only when she was cutting the engine to stare up at the house that was once hers, that something tightened in her chest, shunting her back to earth.Â
Carson met them by the front steps where he sat in his studded leather jacket that he wore regardless of the weather, two takeout cups in hand.Â
âTook you long enough,â he grumbled, standing and offering one of the cups to Eddie who reached him first. âThought I was gonna have to drink these myself before they got cold.â
Eddie huffed a laugh, taking the cup. âYeah, we wouldnât want that,â he drawled before helping himself inside the house without a backwards glance, taking a long sip from his cup.
Carson stared after him for a moment before turning to Dani with a smirk, and said, âSomeoneâs in a mood.â
Managing a chuckle, Dani folded her arms around herself. âYeah, he uh, heâs just eager to get it done, you know? Realtor wants the place empty by three today.â
âWell, in that case,â he said, holding out the last cup, his smirk softening to something kinder.Â
âOh, thank you,â she said, taking it. The brush of his fingers against hers was warm and welcome. âYou didnât have to do that.â
âSure, I did,â he responded with a shrug, and nudged her to take a drink, âGo on.â
At the first sip of what Dani had thought was coffee was instead a sweet and rich hot chocolate. Her eyes went wide.Â
Carson laughed at the expression on her face. âThought you could use a little something sweet today.â
She smiled at him over the plastic top and took another longer sip. âThank you,â she said, âFor coming. You didnât need to, but ââ
ââ You needed some extra muscle, which Iâve plenty of.â His grin seemed rueful. There lingered in Carson more of the boyish youth that Dani had seen in Eddie so many years ago. He wasnât as gangly or as broad-shouldered as his older brothers, but he was always, without fail, a comforting presence in an otherwise rowdy OâMara household.Â
âAnd yet none of your other brothers showed up, I see,â Dani said.Â
âYeah, well,â Carson shrugged against his leather jacket, hands stuck into the pockets. âGuess, Iâm just the only responsible one.âÂ
âI knew there was a reason why I liked you best.âÂ
He winked and lowered his voice. âDonât let Eddie hear you say that.â
With a snort, Dani reached out and ruffled his perfectly coiffed hair so that it more resembled Eddieâs unruly curls. He ducked his head and swatted her away with a whine of complaint. She laughed when he stepped away to carefully fix his hair in the reflection of her car window.Â
âYou leave your pomade at home again?â Dani teased. âThought you never left without it.â
She could just make out his face in the reflection, nose scrunching up as he raked his fingers through his dark hair until it was suitably tamed. The door of the house one over opened, and a young man strode out, wearing a bathrobe and clutching a mug of coffee. Immediately Carson straightened, as though heâd been tapped with the wrong end of a cattle prod.
Dani waved. âHi, Jason!âÂ
Her neighbor lifted a desultory hand while he fumbled with his letterbox. âLast day?â he asked, voice raspy with sleep.
âTaking the last of it now,â she said.Â
Jason shut the letterbox and scooped up the newspaper that had been tossed onto his lawn earlier that morning. âLet me know if you need an extra hand.âÂ
âI should be all right. Thatâs what Carsonâs for.â She gestured with her hot chocolate towards Carson, who had his hands jammed back into his pockets and was now leaning against her car with an odd expression on his face.
Jason glanced over and nodded, no more than a jerk of his chin up, before walking back into his house with the newspaper tucked under one arm. The muscles in Carsonâs jaw were clenched, standing out like the ropes of a sailing ship.Â
After the door to Jasonâs house had swung shut, Dani asked, âI thought you two were friends?â
Carson grunted a wordless note. âWe had a falling out a few months ago. Anyway ââ He turned on his heel, grin back in place, and started making his way towards her house. âShow me the heavy stuff. Come on!â Â
By the time they first made their way inside, Eddie was already hauling out boxes filled with her things. The tops and sides of each cardboard box had been painstakingly labelled in Daniâs hand, the letters neat and blocky. Carson slipped by Eddie with an exaggerated pose as if squeezing through a tight space as they passed one another in the door. Eddie paused, arms laden, and turned his face to Dani while she climbed the steps leading up to the entryway. The extra step allowed her to press a chaste kiss to his cheek and, mollified, he continued on his way towards the truck. Once inside, she found that Carson was already heaving an armchair up with his hands. She moved out of the way so he could trot after his older brother, leaving her momentarily alone.
The house was bare. Most of her things had already been carted away the week before. The transition into their new shared home had been gradual, just like everything else in their relationship. Eddie settling in first and coaxing Dani along as though she were a particularly nervous show dog that had slipped the collar. Looking around now, hands on her hips, Dani felt like an intruder. Like she was an archaeologist who had wandered into someone else's burial site with a rusty torch and hammer.
It almost looked bigger now that it was so empty. Her footsteps echoed too loud on the wooden floors, the sound traveling further and longer. The bare walls once peppered with paintings and photos now like a skeleton expanding its ribs, waiting to expel her in one long sunken breath. Her thumb gradually drifted to her mouth as she took it all in, biting hard at her nail and skin, fixedly eyeing the spot where once a small reading nook used to be.Â
The sound of footsteps behind her was harsh and loud to her ears. âHey, what did I tell you about that?â Eddie said from beside her suddenly, his hand gently pulling Daniâs away from her mouth.
She swallowed heavily and pulled her hand carefully back to hold into a fist by her side, and said, âYeah, I know. Sorry. I just ââ
âI donât like you hurting yourself,â he said, frowning. She couldnât help but let her shoulders slump at the concern in his eyes, and only managed to give him a tenuous smile and a nod. âLook, weâre almost done. Soon weâll be out of here in no time and we can finally just focus on our home. Just let me and Carson do all the hard work.â
âI can help,â Dani said. âI want to help.â
He sighed. âDanielle -â
âI have my inhaler in the car. I wonât keel over and die,â Dani said.
âHey, Ed, buddy, what happened to that deadline, huh?â Carson said, leaning heavily on the wall and pointing behind him to the kitchen, âYou gonna help me with this thing or not?â
Eddie rolled his eyes, and briefly placed a hand on her shoulder before disappearing into the kitchen with muttered grumbling. Dani grinned after him before catching Carsonâs eyes, chuckling and shaking her head as he winked at her before following Eddie.
âGotta give her a minute to breathe, Ed.â Carsonâs voice was soft, but still Dani heard it all the same and wrapped her arms tight around herself.Â
Clearing her throat, she strode off in the direction of her old bedroom. The bed had been taken away and put in their new spare bedroom for guests who might come to visit. The carpet still bore indentations from where the posts had once sat. Eddie had already been in here; the boxes were gone. Dani glanced around for any last remaining items that might have been forgotten. The closet door was slightly awry, and with a frown she pulled it fully open. There was a single wire coat hanger hooked on the bar that stretched across the closet. Her hand reached out to take it, when she froze.
There, tucked away into the corner beneath one of the built in shelves, was a small wooden box. She could hardly remember the last time she had seen it, let alone opened it. A layer of dust covered the top. Kneeling down, Dani pulled the box out and into her lap. She blew the dust off and had to wipe a bit more with the edge of her sleeve. It was made of plain wood with a bronze latch fastening the lid shut. Her thumb teased the corner of the latch. She worried her lower lip between her teeth before steeling herself and lifting the lid open on squeaky hinges.
Nestled inside were a series of photographs, faded with age. Something clenched in her chest as she touched the first one with trembling fingers.
She and Jamie looked so young, and they were. Barely fifteen. Jamie's arm flung around her shoulder, arm outstretched to snap the photo while she pressed a kiss to Dani's cheek even as Dani laughed and elbowed her ribs. Swallowing down the urge to be sick, she slipped the photo aside to see the next. Jamie was younger still. Her arms were outstretched as she balanced her weight on the narrow steel bar of the abandoned train tracks beyond the fields that surrounded the town. Dani could remember the day she took this with crystal clarity. The days of summer in those years had been longer somehow, stretching on into warm endless nights.Â
She was a furtive grave robber, flicking through picture after picture, exhuming a past that she hardly recognized herself in now. And pictures werenât all that were stored here. There was a band shirt that had been half eaten by moths over years of neglect. An old Zippo lighter with scratched edges along the chrome plating. A necklace that was actually just a worn old half dollar coin pierced through and hung from a cheap chain. A cassette tape labelled Jamieâs Mixtape (1978) in a messy slanted scrawl, long missing its protective case. And finally, an old battered copy of Valley of the Dolls, where if she were to flick it open, she would find a pressed blue morning glory hidden among the pages.Â
She gently ran her hand over them, still trembling as if the living memories within the treasure trove thrummed under her skin with its own heartbeat.Â
In the distance, she could hear footsteps and the back and forth between Carson and Eddie in the living room as they manoeuvred a couch through the front door. When the footsteps drew closer, approaching down the hall, Dani hurriedly stuffed everything back into the box and shut the lid.Â
Carson leaned in the doorway. At some point he had shed his leather jacket, so that now he only wore a white undershirt that was two sizes too small, tucked into his jeans. âYou good here? Weâve loaded the last of it into the truck.â
âYeah,â Dani said. She pushed herself upright, clutching the box to her chest as though it were an heirloom. âYeah, that's everything.âÂ
His eyebrows rose and he nodded towards the box. âWhat do you got there?âÂ
Daniâs grip tightened. She could feel the grooves of the box pressing into her skin. âNothing important.âÂ
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Dani went about her routine on edge. At the supermarket, gripping the shopping cart between her hands and turning down the different aisles. At the gas station, stepping out of her beat up old car to work the pump. At the school, peering out the window at all the parents dropping off their kids in the parking lot. At the local cafe nearest the elementary school, picking up a newspaper and a slice for Hannah. Hoping for a glimpse of Jamie and dreading any encounter with her all at once.
Except Jamie never appeared. And Mikey sat at the back of the class, doodling in his notebook, not paying attention but knowing all the answers regardless whenever Dani called on him to participate. She could always see him after school sitting on the curbside and reading a new comic issue, or thumbing through a book from the paltry school library or scratching at his homework with a pencil. Not once did Dani loiter long enough to see him get picked up, and she felt a stab of irritation that he should be left alone for so long. But it wasnât her business, and he got along well enough with the other kids during recess.Â
Dani was still stewing silently over the whole affair at dinner with her future in-laws. She sat at the dining table, chewing at the skin of her thumb, with Carson at one elbow and Eddie at the next. Mike, Judyâs soft-spoken stooping husband, sat at the head of the table, while Judy herself set the last of the platters down and invited everyone to tuck in.Â
âHowâre the kids this year?â Judy asked as she spooned peas onto her plate.Â
Dani made a noise in the back of her throat, before lowering her hand into her lap. âYeah, theyâre great! I â uh â I actually have a transfer student.â
Judy made a sound to indicate that she was still listening even while she passed a platter across the table to Eddie.Â
âHeâs really smart,â Dani continued. âI donât really know what to do with him. He â well, he always looks a bit bored, to be honest.â
âDonât they have some sort of advanced program for kids like that?â Mike asked. He had already tucked into the food even though his plate was only half full.Â
âIâd need to talk to the parent or guardian first,â Dani said, her stomach flipping at the thought. The peas had made their way around the table to her now, and she slowly scraped the last of them onto an available corner of her plate. Swallowing heavily, Dani concentrated hard on the steady movements of her hands, and said, âJudy, I donât suppose youâve heard of anyone new coming to town?âÂ
Judyâs mouth was full. She frowned thoughtfully as she chewed, and swallowed before answering. âNo, I havenât, now that you mention it. Iâll have to ask around the ladies at the book club if theyâve seen anyone.âÂ
Any hope Dani might have nursed of learning something new about Jamieâs presence in town flickered out like a snuffed candle. âThanks,â she said, already feeling the conversation wander towards other topics. âCan you pass the salt, Carson?â
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Sitting here in her Sunday best with Eddieâs warm hand in hers and a book of hymns in the other, Dani was sandwiched in the pew between her fiancĂ© and her mother. Karen smelled sharply of cheap mall perfume, her dress pressing in tight on her ribs. The priestâs voice echoed from his place declaming near the altar, but Dani wasnât listening. She was too preoccupied with the way her heart pounded in her chest, the clench of her stomach and the restless nerves that someone might have seen her.Â
She hadnât planned on going to the movies yesterday, not at first. Not until she had seen the ad in Saturdayâs morning paper, an art house theater two towns over advertising a one-time showing of Desert Hearts. It had caused such a stir in the community a few years ago that any curiosity Dani had felt toward it had died and shriveled up inside of her. Yet her Saturday afternoon had been free, and Eddie had been mercifully busy after helping her move the last of her things.Â
And now Dani sat in the same church sheâd been going to her entire life, feeling like a marionette whose mouth was puppetted by invisible strings as she joined the others in song. The priest leading them through a hymn wasnât the same man who baptized Dani as an infant. The bench she was sitting on wasnât the same she sat in week after week. The woman on her right was virtually nonexistent. The manâs hand she was holding loosely in her left wasnât the same man who she grew up with, he wasnât the boy who asked her again and again to marry him.Â
This Dani, this new Dani, lied to her fiancĂ© and drove an hour out of town the day before with a whispered prayer on her tongue for her car to just hold on for once, for just one more day to see a film that left her blushing scarlet and her stomach dropping not uncomfortably, sitting alone in the dark with a carton of untouched popcorn. This Dani would return to her car, and her first thought would turn to whether this would be the kind of movie Jamie would have picked as her choice of their weekly film showing â knowing immediately that the answer would be 'yes.â And just as abruptly as the thought appeared, she promptly squashed the idea of even contemplating such a question.Â
Daniâs voice faltered, wavering over the words as a flash of guilt washed over her when the heat returned to her skin. She looked up at the cross, hanging on the back wall over the priestâs head, and glanced furtively at Eddie to see where he was in the verse, praying no one had seen her stumble. When service finally ended, and the ritualistic gossip on the front steps had been entertained, she allowed herself to be led outside. Eddieâs hand was warm and steady, completely enveloping her own, pulling her to the warm air where it finally felt like she was able to breathe again.Â
She felt a heady rush of relief when her mom begged off brunch, claiming to suffer from a headache as she walked to her car with a half-hearted wave. Relieved two-fold when Eddie needed to run off to the office for preliminary work for Monday, kissing her on the cheek in a goodbye that she barely registered before rushing off to his car. Until she was only left with Judy.Â
âSo,â Judy asked, and for a brief terrifying moment Dani thought she might know, she might have finally seen her. In the end though all Judy said was: âHow about that lunch?âÂ
Judy linked their arms, pulling her in close until all Dani could do was smile and say, âLead the way.â
The bistro Judy directed them to was relatively new, Dani had passed it multiple times over the last couple weeks but had never actually gone in, always driving by with casual curiosity and a bemused but charmed smile at the name: A Batter Place.Â
âYouâre gonna love it,â Judy said, guiding Dani in with an arm linked in her own, âTheir macaroons are to die for.â
Gamely, Dani smiled along to Judyâs enthusiasm as Judy pointed to various fixtures of the restaurant, steadily ignoring the strain building in the back of her neck. It wouldnât be fair to say that Judy made her nervous. There were too many good intentions behind her warm eyes and her warm hugs, always with her hands full of containers of hearty food, always holding on a little longer than Dani expected, like she was afraid Dani would drift away. Judy, she knew, at least cared.Â
Perhaps that was why, after settling in their seats and ordering their lunch, Dani hid her hands under the table, fingers trembling as they picked at the skin of her thumb.Â
âSo, how have you been, honey?â Judy asked over her cup of coffee, smiling that kind, good-intentioned smile. âI feel like Iâve barely seen you since school started up again.â
A small pressure valve released in Daniâs chest, and she finally allowed herself a real smile. âIâve been keeping busy, and well â you know how it is with a new school year. This year especially is different.â
âBecause of the higher grade?â
âRight. And I just â I want things to be perfect, you know?â Dani said, and chuckled ruefully, âThough twenty-five twelve year olds will certainly be a challenge.â
This she could manage. This she could at least be grateful for, the way Judy allowed the conversation to steer towards something that filled Dani with a sense of purpose, smiling proudly at her over the din of conversation around them with no mention of Eddie or long overdue wedding planning.Â
Judy took a pointed sip of her coffee. âWell, I know you like the challenge, but you canât forget to take care of yourself,â she said, her lips pulling into a familiar smile. One to be used when nearing a cornered animal. Daniâs stomach sank, when Judy continued, âNow, I know you and Eddie need time to get used to living together, doing all the things couples have to learn to do alone but, you donât have to steer clear of the house forever. I know we all recently just had dinner together but ââ
Dani glanced away.Â
ââ You could come over at any time. Like yesterday! What were you up to yesterday? I would have made lasagna for you.â
âOh, uh ââ Dani gave a nervous breathy chuckle, hoping to hide the grimace at the memory of the two women who had stared brazenly at her when she had exited the art house theater yesterday, Dani in her too bright blouse and high jeans, looking frazzled and out of place. She took a long sip of her coffee, hoping to hide the same feeling under her skin now. âYou know. Busy.â
Judy waved her explanation away with that same smile. âOh, well, never mind that. It doesnât matter now. Thereâs always next weekend,â she said, and her hand reached over to clasp Daniâs before she could hide it again. âIâm just hoping I get more time to spend with my favorite future daughter-in-law before things get too crazy. Wedding planning and teaching a class of twenty-five kids is one thing, but thinking about raising a baby is another.â
A moment passed before Dani could process the words. A baby. Of course.Â
âOh,â was all Dani managed to say, a polite smile frozen on her face as Judyâs grip on her hand tightened in a way that anyone else would have found comforting. The hand that Dani so wanted to pull away, to press against her chest. A pressure building inside her ribs, pulling her skin taught and straining at the edges. A ringing in her ears that sounded more and more like the whistle of a tea kettle or the whine of an over-revved engine.Â
She was only saved by the grace of their food arriving, the pressure abating to something manageable as Judy freed Daniâs hand to make room for their plates. It gave Dani the opportunity to down half of her coffee, hot enough to scald, and to clench a fist under the table, her nails pressing hard into the soft skin of her hand.
At the first bite of food, Judy hummed and sank back into her seat. âNow that is delicious,â she said, gesturing with her fork. âGo on, take a bite.â
Dani took advantage of the moment, letting the previous topic of conversation pass over them untouched as she pulled her own forkful of food in her mouth. She blinked in surprise.Â
âWow,â she said after swallowing, sharing an incredulous chuckle with Judy. âThat is really good.â
âIâm telling you, this new chef knows what heâs doing,â Judy said with a grin, as if she had known exactly how Dani would have reacted.Â
It should have been comforting, being so well understood. And for the most part it was. Afterall, Dani had spent much of her youth at Judyâs table, being fed day in and day out as if she were Judyâs own. Always having a safe haven. A home away from home, where she would be welcome. No questions asked. It should have been an absolute solace. Yet somehow, she couldnât shake the feeling of being made of glass. As if she were standing there and Judy was looking right through her at someone else that didnât exist.Â
The bell attached to the door rang as it swung open, and the sound drew her back to the table, almost startling her. She swallowed down an unexpected thickness in her throat, ignoring that steady pressure in her ribs, and shared another unassuming smile with Judy, taking a second bite.Â
âWe should come here again,â Dani said, hoping to alleviate some of the pressure that was building in her lungs.Â
âThen itâs a date. Next Sunday.â Judy smiled wide.Â
It was so easy, making Judy happy, making her smile wide and bright like sheâd won the lottery. It was something Dani was good at, pleasing others. The very thought of speaking up and potentially ruining the moment was enough to cause a vein of dread to thread its way through her. Yet something in that moment caused Judyâs smile to flicker, the sound of the bell ringing again as the front door swung open with a squeak of unoiled hinges. Judyâs eyes glanced over somewhere behind Daniâs shoulder and they slowly widened to an expression Dani had only seen once before â when Eddie announced their engagement during family dinner.Â
âJamie Taylor?âÂ
Dani tensed and turned around, and sure enough, there she was. Jamie Taylor herself. Dark jeans, big work boots, and a brown jacket, strolling into the bistro like sheâd never left town. Like the air from Daniâs lungs hadnât been sucked out by a gut punch releasing every single pressure valve at the very sight of her.Â
âOi, Sharma! Whatever happened to you saying you could fix those hinges without my help?â Jamieâs voice rang clear across the room.
âDanielle, honey, you didnât tell me that Jamie was back,â Judy said in a rush of breath, already out of her seat and walking toward Jamie like a woman on a mission, as if there wasnât a hurricane forming within Daniâs chest. As if a swell of feeling wasnât rushing through her as she sat unmoving with wide eyes attached to the lines of Jamieâs back, to the curl of her hair, unchanged, unkempt, and yet completely different.Â
Whatever Dani had expected to feel upon hearing that voice again, it wasnât to feel all of it at once. She didnât know which feeling to land on, watching Jamie turn at the sound of Judyâs voice, catching sight of the familiar lines of Jamieâs face as they twisted in surprise and fell into a charming smile as Jamie conceded to a tight hug from Judy; the fluttering of happiness, the rush of anxiety, the desperate desire to flee, the shock that belied the anger and muted resentment.Â
In the end, Dani just sat there, unable to move and unable to look away.Â
The pair pulled out of the hug, with Judy briefly and affectionately framing Jamieâs face with her hands like she used to. And Jamie rolled her eyes good naturedly with a crooked smile, burying her hands in her pockets. It was like no time at all had passed. They were teenagers again, and Judy was sending them off back home from dinner with warm hugs and piling their hands with leftovers in tupperware.Â
When Judy gestured over towards their table towards Dani, it was all she could do to not run and excuse herself to the washroom, to not slip out the back door. But it was too late, tension coiling in her body as Jamieâs head turned towards Dani and their eyes finally met.Â
It was suddenly incredibly hard to breathe. Dani blinked, and the look on Jamieâs face at the sight of her â startled, mouth agape â was gone, and all that was left was something entirely unfamiliar. A polite placid smile as Judy talked her ear off, answering Judyâs questions and gesturing across the counter towards a handsome man with a thick moustache wearing an apron. Even so, Jamie only had eyes for Dani, her gaze occasionally roving back, her expression unreadable.Â
Before Dani could do more than stare, Judy was guiding Jamie back to their table, a hand on her back. Daniâs stomach twisted itself into a knot at their approach. Her heart began crashing against her ribs until it was all she could hear. Jamie was looking at her with that crooked grin, and Dani didnât know what else to do but stand from her seat, faintly dazed, a hand brushing against invisible lint and wrinkles along her sky blue dress.Â
âLook who I found!â Judy said as they pulled up to the table, as if Dani hadn't been on the verge of a nervous breakdown in the last minute. The last decade, if she were being honest with herself.Â
All Dani could do was give a trembling smile. âJamie,â she said, almost breathless, the name feeling foreign on her tongue. âHi.â
Jamieâs grin shifted into something like a smirk, gaze drifting over Dani so fast that she felt it on her skin like a flash fire. âDanielle,â she said, and Daniâs smile faltered. âBeen a minute.â
âIt has,â Dani said in between barely gritted teeth, the feeling in her stomach souring.Â
âI was just telling Jamie how this is the first time Iâve brought you here,â Judy interrupted, oblivious as ever. Jamieâs smirk dropped back into something softer, an eyebrow quirked and her head tilting curiously. âHow today of all days, that we all walk in the same restaurant together. It must be kismet.â
âDonât know about that, Mrs. OâMara. Was never much one for kismet,â Jamie said with a shrug, looking so much like sheâs sixteen again that a dull pressure returned to Daniâs chest. âWorldâs too chaotic for that.â
âAnd yet here you are.â Judy shuffled back into her seat and gestured to Jamie. âCome, come sit. Just for a while until your takeout is ready.â
It was only by the grace of luck and Judyâs affection for Jamie, that she gestured toward the chair next to her instead of Dani. Jamie didnât argue, taking the seat, and Dani following after, almost a second delayed from the shock of it all. She could feel Jamieâs eyes on her as she settled in her chair, but Dani kept her attention low and focused on her food, feeling distinctly like she was in a dream.
âDanielle, truly, I canât believe you neglected to tell me Jamie was back,â Judy admonished with a teasing grin.Â
She clenched her teeth. Dani had a hard time believing it herself. âMustâve slipped my mind," she said.
âHow long have you been back again, honey?â
âAbout two months now,â Jamie said. At the admission, Dani finally pulled her eyes away from the table to look up at Jamie, lounging back in her seat like she had all the time in the world, noticeably avoiding Daniâs gaze.
Two months. Two months, and not even a phone call. Not even a letter. Dani took another heady swallow of her now lukewarm coffee in an effort to ground herself. Some things just never changed, she guessed.Â
âWe were so worried when you left, after â after everything, especially. We all were. I thought about you for so long afterwards. Kept you in my prayers,â Judy said, and while the words were sobering with the memories of those days, Jamieâs expression remained unchanged, detached and ambiguous, the corner of her mouth quirked.Â
âThen I guess I have you to thank,â Jamie said, âAll that praying mustâve done something good. Mikey and I have been getting on quite nicely, if I do say so myself.â
Judy gasped, a hand clutching at her chest. âOh, Mikey! That sweet boy, how is he? Oh, I canât believe itâs been so long. He must be â what? Eleven now?â
âTwelve actually,â Jamie said, then chuckled. It was something new. The way her eyes turned just a bit brighter, her smile more gentle, as she reached into her pocket to dig out a beat up leather wallet, flipping it open towards Judy. Judy gasped again, holding onto the wallet with a laugh. âTwelve years old and already reaching my chin," Jamie continued. "The little gremlinâs gonna have me beat by next year at this rate, I swear.â
âHeâs wonderful,â Judy said, her eyes alight with emotion, âGosh, he looks just like you. Except for the eyes, those sweet brown eyes. Heâs definitely going to be a heartbreaker.â
âNot on my bloody watch,â Jamie grumbled.Â
âHave you seen him yet, Danielle?â Judy held out the wallet to Dani, who had to refrain from recoiling back, as if Judy was holding out a live snake.Â
âI have,â Dani admitted quietly, âHeâs one of my students, actually.â
âOh, so thatâs what all those questions were about the other day,â Judy said, and tapped Jamie playfully on her arm resting on the table with her wallet. âWhat did I tell you? Kismet.â
Jamie flipped the wallet shut and returned it to her pocket. âMikey did mention the name once or twice. Miss Clayton this, Miss Clayton that, and I thought: what are the chances?â
Dani swallowed down a scoff and the bitterness brewing in the back of her throat. Her left hand ached from clutching it so tight in her lap, knuckles white, crescent-shaped grooves in her palm. She stretched her hand out and ran it through her hair, her fingers trembling as they smoothed down the gentle waves and curls she put in that morning.Â
âAh, so heâs done it then,â Jamie said, apropos of nothing. She leaned forward on the table, staring so abruptly and intently that Dani shifted away in her own seat slightly, hoping she hadnât noticed.Â
It was the first time Jamie had fully addressed her since that singular hello. Dani frowned, that ever present knot in her stomach twisting tighter. âSorry?âÂ
âThat nice big shiny rock on your hand.â Jamie gestured down to the aforementioned rock, and sure enough, there was her engagement ring, shining bright against the afternoon light pouring through the window. âMustâve cost a damn fortune.â
Dani had thought the same, when Eddie had dropped to his knee, proffering up the box where the ring lay, his face flickering through a wide array of emotions â adoration, anxiety, hope. At the time all Dani could think, staring down at the large square cut diamond, was that it looked heavy.
âBut isnât it gorgeous?â Judy gushed, reaching out to grasp Daniâs hand to pull it closer for Jamie to see. Dani breathed out an awkward laugh at the sudden motion but let herself be dragged along. âI went to help him pick it out, and â gosh, well, we all know how many times heâs asked over the years. Our Danielle always liked to keep him on his toes. I just about died at the news when they officially announced the engagement a few months later.â
Jamie whistled low. âI can imagine,â she drawled.
Judy continued to ramble about the announcement. She released the hand that Dani tried to surreptitiously and swiftly return under the table, hoping to hide the desire to shrink under the table as well. Meanwhile Jamie seemed to be only half-listening, watching Dani with a tilted head and a sharp glance that left Dani feeling like a strip of overexposed film. Her eyes strayed to Jamie's old scar against her will, landing on the long stretch of a pale line that started from her lower lip and descended down towards her chin. It was usually hard to see, but today it was easy to find in the light of the room. Â
Dani swallowed thickly and glanced away.Â
âSo, howâd he do it?â
âMmm?â Dani looked back up, a little dazed.Â
Jamieâs head tilted pointedly towards her. âEd,â she said. âHowâd he go about it this time? To be honest with you, I had my bets placed on senior prom night, like heâd always planned. Flowers in the park after the dance, and all that rubbish.â
âHe told you that?â Dani frowned.Â
âWouldnât shut up about it.â
âOh.â Dani fiddled with the ring, glancing down at it. âNo, it was um â â She smiled, a frail subdued thing, only to fold her right hand over it, covering the diamond so that it dug into her palm, â â it was during a dinner date.â
Jamie lifted an eyebrow. âIn public?â
Dani nodded. âYeah.â
âChrist,â Jamie breathed, looking somewhat horrified.Â
âLanguage, sweetie,â Judy piped in, seemingly instinctively.Â
And like clockwork, Jamie ducked her head sheepishly. âSorry,â she said, not looking sorry at all.Â
Judy laughed, patting Jamieâs arm. âGosh, just look at us,â she breathed, her eyes shining as they bounced between Dani and Jamie. âI still canât believe it. Me and my girls back together again. Whoâd have thought?â
Dani breathed out a chuckle, her cheeks aching from the force of holding a smile in place, not knowing what else to say. And what could she say, really? That none of this felt familiar? That it all felt so wrong? That after years of absence, to finally be just armâs length away from Jamie, only to feel like she was meeting a stranger wearing a familiar face?
No. No, that wasnât right. She worried her lower lip between her teeth, but Jamie had never stopped watching her. A shared look passed between them and it was there, finally, that she found something warm and tangible. The ghost of a memory of sitting across the table from each other at Judyâs during dinner, sharing a secretive knowing smile, while Judy gushed over Daniâs help in the kitchen, or admonished Jamie for yet another skinned knee. A smile pulled at the corners of Daniâs mouth, slow and real. Jamie blinked, her gaze softening as she mirrored Daniâs smile, and for the first time in a long time, Dani felt something in her chest unspool.
A bell rang. Jamie glanced away, and the moment was gone, leaving Dani chilled in its absence as if she had stepped out from a warm building and into a storm.
âThatâs my cue,â Jamie said, sounding just as she had before, as if nothing had transpired between them. âCanât let the kid starve without some lunch.â
She moved to stand but Judyâs hand held her in place. âDonât think you can get away again this time without at least letting me give you my number,â Judy reprimanded not unkindly. "We got a new one at the house, you'll be surprised to hear."
Grinning crookedly, Jamie said, âAnd I imagine youâll be wanting mine, then?â
Judy pulled out a pen from her purse and waggled it back and forth. âYou know me too well.â
Grabbing a spare napkin, Judy jotted down a series of numbers. âNow donât you forget to give me a call, all right? I want to hear all about your time away,â she said, handing over the pen and napkin for Jamie to rip out her piece, and note down her own number. Daniâs eyes strayed down to the confident, angled numbers, just barely able to decipher them from her vantage point. âAnd I hope you know, you and Mikey are welcome any time over for dinner. I want to meet that young man. See if heâs anything like his older sister.â
The words were fond, but Jamie snorted all the same. âDonât you worry, Mrs. OâMara. Heâs my better half.â
Dani rose to her feet out of politeness when Judy stood to give Jamie a parting hug. For a terrifying moment, she thought Jamie might expect one from her as well, but Jamie only lifted her eyebrows and nodded before turning towards the counter to collect her order. She didnât glance in Daniâs direction again as she left, pushing through the glass door and striding off down the street with the breeze in her hair. Dani watched her go, jaw aching from how hard she was clenching her teeth together.
Judy sat, and Dani followed suit as though she were simply mimicking Judyâs movements. âJamie Taylor back from the dead after ten years. Imagine that.â Judy chuckled to herself and picked up her fork. âFeels just like old times, doesnât it?â
âYeah,â Dani breathed. âJust like old times.â
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Fairytale Complex - [Undertale | Sans x Reader]
[Gender Neutral, Frisk's Parent Reader | Slow Burn]
Chapter Nineteen | Temmie Village (Part 1 of 2) [First] | [Previous] | [Next]
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Alternate Chapter Title(s): Stand by Me (no duh) or The Corny One With A Song Title Reference, Part 1
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The shopping districtâs as busy as the roads youâve just driven by; food courts are the most bustling with the hour your phone marks: ten minutes past noon. Contraire to her punctual self, Brendaâs running late, though you settle for waiting ten more before sending her a message. You sit by an empty booth and take the last chair available in the row to avoid disturbing those whoâre already eating. Then, you pull your planner out and skip through a few pages until you find the right one. Aside from your usual schedule, you had her visiting again this Friday, a meeting with Toriel regarding some plans she wanted to discuss with you on Saturday, and another one with Sans on Sunday to arrange the second step towards homeschooling Frisk while you enrolled them somewhere else.
Itâs still hard to read that last one, not for what it was, but for the fact that almost every school youâd tried to sign them up into declined having other guardians aside from you and Jerry to pick them up. They declined Toriel just as much as they declined Undyne, all due to the new rules and regulations set up in schools since the monstersâ arrival. What Toriel wanted to discuss with you was related to that, though you hadnât been given too many details as to what it was, exactly. You glance back to your phone to see over ten minutes have passed by already, yet Brenda's nowhere to be seen. You start typing up a message, only to be interrupted by her call; the device almost slips off your hands with how abrupt it is.Â
âH- Hello?â you answer, catching your breath.
She screams an accusation at you, not an ill-minded one per se, but one questioning over why youâd kept information hidden from her.
âWhy didnât you tell me youâre that close to him already?â she asks, words jarringly loud. You have to turn down the volume despite it not being set on speakerphone. âSo he's going to help you with Frisk? Thatâs serious boyfriend material, honey!â
Thankfully, she sounds happy.
Still, a correction's deemed necessary.
âWhat do you mean, Brenda?â
âAuntie Brenda, mind you.â
You huff and bring a hand to the side of your neck, tension consuming it. âAlright, Auntie Brenda⊠Where are you right now? I donât have much break time left anymore.â
âJust go ahead and eat, dear. Iâll drive over on the weekend.â
Right as youâre about to complain over her choices, she speaks up again, calmer than before.
âOr why not come over after you have lunch there?â she asks, words cooed. âYou work close to him, don't you?â
âThanks for the offer, but Iâll stay here.â You canât help feeling a little sour over her suggestion and with the reminder youâve waited almost half an hour for her at the mall. With the call, itâs now thirty-five minutes past noon, giving you barely sufficient time for you to eat -- let alone listen to her rambling over how sheâd misinterpreted your relationship and how Sans was better than she expected him to be. âYou didnât bother him with questions about his job, right?" you add. "Heâs-â
âWhy would I? Heâs working an office job just like you!"
âHe, what?â
You canât avoid blurting that question out; a blank canvas replaces the image of him working at a hot dog stand. You try to imagine him working an office job, but it's near impossible to. Even if he knew plenty on various subjects, the monotonous yet fast-paced ambience of a desk job didnât quite fit with your view of who the monster was to you.
âHe works an office job, honey. Donât you know where your own boyfriend works?â You can almost hear her shaking her head, disappointment made known through the blatant change in her voice. âShame on you!â
You pinch the bridge of your nose and stand up, too vexed to sit still. âThatâs not what I meant, Bre- ...Auntie Brenda,â you say, trailing off on your words. âI just⊠didnât know he worked two jobs.â
âHe does?!â
You lower the volume once more, Brenda's voice taking up a speakerphone quality to it again. Her tone then grows fainter as she questions the skeleton about the legitimacy of your statement. When her voice turns louder, you figure heâs given her an answer -- one youâve no clue of. If he had two jobs, then youâre not so sure over how she'll be reacting. And if he didnât, then youâd inadvertently put him on the spot by letting the truth known, something that didnât really make sense if he was supposed to be working -- or at the very least, ending his lunch break right now.
Feeling itâs going to take a while, you stand in line at one of the fast-food establishments nearest to you; a growl from your stomach reminds you timeâs running out. âSo what did he say?â you speak up, knowing sheâs getting distracted again.
âHe does!â she exclaims, almost in a cheer. âWhy didnât you tell me he was that well-off, then? You should marry him now that youâve got the chance to.â
âWerenât you scolding me over the opposite barely a week ago?â
âMaybe so, but that was before I knew him better, dear!â
You roll your eyes and sigh, headache worsening. âAlright, Iâm hanging up now. Donât bother him too much, and stop interrupting his-â
âWait,â she calls, excitement still there. âHave you ever thought of learning more about monsters? Thereâs a bunch of workshops going on right now⊠And I figured you could take one, since youâre dating one and all!â
Nearly the time for you to make your order, you let your tone become sterner, hoping to get your point across. âThat⊠That sounds good and all, but I really need to go now. My lunch breakâs almost over.â
Brenda huffs. âFine.â Her voice comes out dragged, and itâs almost possible for you to hear her pouting. âBut we need to talk all about this on Friday!â
âSure. See you then.â
âFarewell, dear!â
You hang up, slip your phone back in your pocket, and turn to the register when youâre done, right on time to make your order.
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Breathe in, breathe out.
You repeat that sentence along with those actions as you clock out of work, more than ready to relax, but less than capable of with how much you've left to resolve.Â
Before turning off the computer, you click on your boss's e-mail for a third time today and read it once more.
>> Come to my office as soon as you're done with your shift for the day. I'll be waiting. â Sent from my ayPhone <<
You huff and glance at the pills on your desk. Despite these being given to you by the doctor herself, you're trying not to take them as often as the instructions on the bottle tell you to. You don't want to grow dependent on them, yet -- at the same time -- it's nearly impossible for you to go by your usual routine without having the repercussions of not taking them delay your progress. The side-eyes and looks some of your co-workers offer you on occasion reveal they're not too thrilled by the idea of having someone in your state around, either. Dizziness takes over and your headache worsens; they're enough for your body to finally give in, causing you to stumble out of your desk chair and direct all gazes on you.
Breathe in, breathe out.
It's just as impossible trying to ignore everyone, and it's even more difficult trying to stand up without making a complete fool of yourself.
Breathe in, breathe-
A hand's offered out to you; you accept it, yet you refuse to look at the person until you're back to your feet.
When you do look up, you recognize who the person is in an instant. It's the same man Sans had taken a picture with the day you first met. His hair looks different, but his face and clothing style remain the same. His hand stays holding yours until you assure him you're capable of standing straight again, and even then he still has his doubts. A subtle frown shows on his visage, fueled by concern.
"Are you alright, or should I call someone?" he asks, forehead creasing. "That fall looked pretty serious."
"I'm alright," you reply, managing a smile. You're still dizzy, the headache has only grown worse, and having people still looking in your direction doesn't help much with any of that, either. Even so, having him by your side along with a few other, approachable co-workers helps with bringing you back down to earth and allows you to find some more stability before going to meet with your boss.Â
"Excuse me, (L/N), butâŠ"
You turn to the voice to see a woman -- tall, pale-skinned, and dark-haired -- offering you your phone. It takes some time, but you're able to recognize her as one of the few co-workers you spent your lunch break with before Frisk went missing. She's as professional as ever, and her formality still shows subtly through speech, yet it doesn't erase how warm and genuine her tone sounds. "Your phone broke with the fall." She pulls her hand back as soon as you have the device in your hold; her body language reveals she has a hunch in terms of just how 'alright' you really are, and what a twice-broken phone in less than a year could do to your current, physical and mental state alike. "It seems like it still works though, since it was ringing just a minute ago."
"Thank you." You turn it on to view a cracked screen. The update Alphys gave it appears to have made it more durable, based on how minor the damages are compared to the first time it fell. You're capable of unlocking it and even checking your notifications to notice you've got a few unread messages from Brenda and Frisk's school, coupled with a missed call from Sans. That last one is harder to take in. He already knew what hour you clocked out, and he had enough common sense and decency not to call you unless it was an emergency -- unlike Brenda, who didn't really know how to read the room, and Frisk's school, which called only when it was absolutely necessary. "I, uhâŠ" You're not sure on what to do first. Brenda could be easily set aside with what she did during your lunch break, but the same couldn't be said for everything else.
Breathe in, breathe out.
You flinch at the sudden sensation of needles on your forehead and a dizziness so strong and wild, it makes your stomach far too queasy for you to manage with. Still, you combat that feeling by grabbing some gum from your belongings, taking a few, and chewing them all at once. The sharp taste and scent of mint helps wash away nausea, yet the dizziness persists.
"Do you want us to take you home, (L/N)?" the man from earlier asks, sounding more concerned than before. Meanwhile, the woman approaches you with some water, one you accept and drink as quickly as it falls in your hands. They both help sit you down on a different desk chair -- one without wheels to prevent you from falling over again. Most have left, while some stay and try to offer more aid. Your boss stands by the exit, arms crossed, stance firm, and face hard to read with how bad your symptoms have turned. "Or maybe accompany you to the bus stop, at least? You shouldn't drive in these conditions."
"It'sâŠ"
Your eyes fall on your phone again, tempted to make a decision.
With your priorities now changed to the subject of your health, you set Frisk's school aside with the knowledge they're with Toriel at this hour and forget about the meeting with your boss, aware she's already seen you from a distance. Only his name remains; truthfully, you'd rather limit how much time you spent with him, knowing what the opposite did to your heart and mind alike. You hesitate and stare blankly for a short while before you click on his missed call. One tap and two rings is all that's needed for you to reach him. It takes a second for you to answer back at him, half as much as it takes for your hand to stop shaking and for your voice to gain a better semblance of strength. It's too late to hang up now -- and his call could likely be an emergency -- so you continue forward with it.
"You don't sound too great. Everythin' okay?"
"About thatâŠ"
You share some words with him and refuse to tell him of your situation until he gives you his own reason for calling you at this hour.
"...Why did you call me?"
"It's about Frisk, but it ain't an emergency or anythin' -- it's good news, actually."
"Then why did y-"
"Listen, I don't mean to be harsh or nosy, but you sound awful right now. I can give you all the answers you need later, but could ya tell me what's wrong?"
You heave a small breath and look at the time, along with the hour of his missed call. He made it around eleven minutes past the end of your shift, so it wasn't exactly interrupting your job, but you're not sure how to interpret his call and the fact it was his first occasion calling you so close to your work schedule. Even if you were overthinking it, you didn't want to overlook anything, either. And then again, the state you're in isn't really the best for you to be questioning every little thing about your relationship with him -- at the moment, of course. "I feel sick. Kind of similar to that day at the hospital." You decide to be earnest, regardless of how dry your throat feels and how fast your heart goes. "I, wellâŠ"
"Want me to pick you up?"
Your ears turn hot while your hands do the opposite. "Y- YeahâŠ" Your chest tightens and your words grow faint, until you continue with, "I need your help, teddy bear."
"Teddy bear?" he asks, chuckling.
"You're calling me puddin' now, aren't you? You're a teddy bear in my eyes, then."
"I wonder why."
You smile.
"...See you in a bit?"
"'Course. I should be there in ten minutes max."
"Thank you."
With that, you say your farewells and hang up.
Now left to wait, you put your phone away, pick up the rest of your belongings, and stay with the company of your two co-workers as you make it to the exit. Your boss is still waiting next to it, yet she steps aside as do other people standing nearby, providing you with space to pass by. She says nothing, so you stop for a second, only to have her nod for you to carry on walking.
"Come to my office as soon as you recover, (L/N)."
That's the only thing she says as the door closes, leaving you with one co-worker by your left and the other by your right, both waiting in case you were to fall over again.
Breathe in, breathe out.
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All healthcare/medical attention mentioned in this story is based off my country, meaning it's either free or at the very least, affordable enough that you don't have to choose between an Uber or an overpriced weewoo vehicle in case of a medical emergency.
For example: I pay only $10 for 4 different medicines I'm meant to take, 3 which are for a lifetime (example: thyroiditis), and the only thing my insurance doesn't cover is optometry, which is around $300 to $500 a year for a full exam and prescription!
Tl;dr: It isn't. There's no debt here so far, lol.
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-> headcanons, how they tell you they love you for the first time, part two!
characters: sakusa, iwaizumi, x fem!reader
warnings: fem reader, âšhealthy relationshipsâš, oikawa being oikawa
wc: 3.6K
a/n: WOAH okay uh did NOT expect that last set to be that popular,,,, y'all thirsty for love huh? me too anyway i thought id do a part two since i honestly really enjoyed writing the first set and my brain is vibrating with âšthoughtsâš and seeing how much love it got really made me feel how i haven't felt in so long, so thank you! maybe ill turn this into a series so lemme know if u wanna see someone specificđđđ also sorry for like posting and then dipping again lmao thats just my social media brand i have the attention span of a fucking worm
read part 1 here!
Sakusa Kiyoomi
okok i know its like common for sakusa to be shown as not interested in PDA (in private or public) unless hes feeling "needy"
BUT i believe that after a few weeks, maybe months if he's still unsure, he would definitely be much more comfortable with PDA
like, if its been a long time and your both serious about it and not just in a relationship to be in a relationship he starts to notice your routine
he notices the changes you make so that he's comfortable and so that you can be close to him without him being worried about icky yicky germy wormys (someone take away my thought privileges)
so now that he knows that you take care of your hygiene and exactly what you do for it, slowly he's wrapping an arm around you in 30° heat while you're both sweating
slowly he's "forgetting" his mask in the car for dates
slowly, but surely, he understands that a little bit of exposure, isn't a bad thing.
"kiyoomi?" your voice brought sakusa's eyes to yours where he could see the concern behind them.
"are you okay y/n?"
you'd decided, after three weeks of intense training and barely seeing your boyfriend, that you wanted just one day and one night with him. just the two of you, you know he'd never admit it, but he needed a break.
after atsumu decided to try out some new plays that didn't start off to well, sakusa had been silently groaning everytime he had to reach for something. he was excellent at making sure he wasn't overworking himself, and he wasn't, its just that the human body is an absolute wonder, and not in a good way. sometimes things that should have mildly injured you, left you with a tiny scrape, or a bruise or a very quick-to-fade red mark, and sometimes you drop a phone on your face and break your fucking jaw.
you offer him a gentle smile that completely washes away the concern in your eyes.
"im fine omi! but you," you reach your hands up to rest on both sides of his face turning his head side to side, studying it intensly.
"you're looking a little pale. and possibly grey."
"how do you mean y/n-chan?"
for such an intelligent man sometimes he really could be a himbo.
"i mean that i think you might be sick, baby."
sakusa stared blankly at you, as if he couldn't fathom the possibility of 'himself, sick?'
"omi? kiyoomi!" you nabbed his attention, "i think you're sick, and we best go home."
"but-" he started, but you were quick to cut him off knowing exactly what he was about to say.
"kiyoomi, it's inevitable. even if you were the worlds most decked out with ppe, and the worlds leading force in hygeine, you'd still end up catching a cold at least once. that's just how the world works baby. and don't worry about the date, all i want is to spend some time with you."
you ended up practically dragging your sad little puppy of a boyfriend back up the complex stairs and into his unit before settling him on the couch and getting to work.
"ill get you some water, you just sit here and relax. i don't want to think about what would happen if those dumbasses didnt have you there next week, bokuto and hinata would probably crack their skulls!" your attempt at a little light hearted humour helped sakusa forget for a moment, but he was quick to go back to not understanding how he was sick.
"thank you." he took the glass from your hand and rested it between his legs, when he noticed the rubber gloves you had clutched at your side. he knew what they were for, those were his cleaning gloves.
"what are you doing? you can't stay you'll..." he paused. "you'll get sick too."
"i'll be fine omi-omi! you just relax and drink lots of water, ill take care of this." you turned towards the wall with a soft smile before muttering, "ill take care of you."
sakusa watched you clean, the bucket full of diluted bleach, the duster, a cloth, and his cleaning gloves. he loved the way that they were too big for you, the way you kept having to pull them up every so often to keep them on. he loved the way that everytime he finished his glass of water, you were right there to fill it back up.
you don't even remember seeing, or hearing him lift himself from his spot on the couch and make his way over to where you were humming and covering the counters in the diluted solution. you felt a pair of big arms wrap around you, a chin on your shoulder and a kiss on your cheek.
"thank you, y/n. i love you."
thank god he caught a cold, or he might never have realized just how lucky he was.
Iwaizumi Hajime
family man
is a family man but not just ANY family man
yes, it's important to him that you like and respect his parents and vice versa
but its just slightly more important to him that you get along with his friends, his found family because im a SUCKER for the classic lilo n stitch trope
he knows that many people say that its his life and he doesn't need anyones approval etc.
but iwaizumi believes different, he believes that he doesn't need approval in the literal sense but rather approval through watching you interact with his friends and his family and how you do your best to learn about them and make time for them, even though you dont have to
and he thinks it's absolutely enthralling
the way your eyes light up when you see that book his mom has been talking about wanting to read and picking it up with no hesitation
how you're able to almost flawlessly keep up with issei and takahiro's anticsïżŒ while also making sure they don't go too far, something even iwaizumi struggles with
and most importantly, how effortlessly you connect with his childhood best friend.
there were many things that Iwaizumi Hajime enjoyed, volleyball, athletics, godzilla of course, spending time with three dumbasses (but heâll never admit that) and a little while ago, he added you to that list.
you were so effortlessly able to connect with his team, his friends, and his family but most importantly, the way you were able to connect with Oikawa brought a smile to his face.
âoh, iwa-chan~, what are you admiring?â there he went again, Iwa thought, Tohru Oikawaâs dumb smirk and hyper awareness of his team, both on and off court. how he wated to head-butt him in the face. but, he showed restraint. after all, he wouldnât want loserkawa to use you as a human shield from his head. so, he ignored the urge. but it passed as soon as he saw tohrus arm arond your shoulders, crossed feet and leaning on you ever so slightly while he took a few occasional swigs from his water.
and just like that, the incredible restraint vanished like morning mist.
you could practically see the steam coming off of his hot skin, and the vein popping out of his forehead, when you noticed what had him so heated. âtrashykawa get your filthy hands off of my girlfriend!â
âexcuse me!â he pouted, âmy hands are clean and tailored! just like any responsible setters would be!â he stuck his lip out farther and gave you his irresistable puppy-dog eyes. ây/n-chan, iâm not filthy! am i?â he whined.
and, as the word suggests, his look was truly irresistable and you stumbled over your words. ân-no! of course not tohru!â
âsee, iwa-chan! y-n thinks iâm squeaky clean!â his dumb smirk appeared again, and rather than continue with flirtykawas obvious games, Iwa opted for the less violen approach.
âdonât flatter yourself, dirtykawa. sheâs just being nice.â he growled. âIâm done for the day, i have a project due. y-n.â he offered his hand to you like the gentleman he is not forcing you to take it, but the look in his eyes told you that he wanted you too.
âsee you later, tohru!â you gave him a quick hug and intertwined your fingers with iwaâs.
now, technically, girls arenât allowed in the boys locker room but since itâs after hours and just you and iwaizumi no one cared. to be fair though, literally no one knew except the team so, whatever you didnât complain you got to watch yout ultra ripped boyfriend change. quality time. you thought, when you noticed him mid-change with his shirt over his head, resting on his arms. as any good girlfriend would, despite the devil on your shoulder, you came up behind him placing your hands on his seriously broad shoulders. taking notice of the tension, you started to work at the muscles. your care was quickly rewarded with a quiet sigh, and relaxed shoulders.
âhajime?â you continued rubbing at the tight fibers, âare you alright? youâre usually the one telling me im holding too much tension.â you giggled and he turned to face you placing one hand against the side of your face.
âhajime?â it came out shaky and worried.
âiâm okay,â he smiled âitâs just,â hesitation. he was never one to hesitate.
âi know i have no right to be but seeing oikawa so clingy with you it just, i dont know, it really gets to me i guess? he, just, he gets all the girls, all the attention, and i donât want to-â you stopped him.
âsweetheart, itâs okay to be jealous or upset iâm not going to be angry, you have a right to your feelings. I understand how you feel, i never mean to flirt with him, if i ever have, i mean i donât know, you know how bad of a flirt i am,â he chuckles at that. âitâs just that i know how important he is to you and you are so, so important to me and i want to be able to understand whats important to you, so you never have to choose between us, because that wouldnât be fair. i love you, hajime iwaizumi, and everything about you.â
you expected him to be shocked, hell, he thought he would be shocked when or if you said it, but he wasnât. and thatâs exactly how he knew what to say next.
âi love you too, y/n l/n.â pressing a soft kiss against your lips.
âgeez, it only took you two a century and forever.â someone snarked.
hajime chucked a towel at him âget out assykawa!â and he did, he bolted through the door laughing like the demon matchmaker he thought he was.
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Chapter 9
"And how am I supposed to learn to control them if they forbid me to do anything?" Lily asks from the back seat.
âWeâll talk to your father. Depending on what happens, weâll send them the necessary equipment,â informs Fury.
"Depending on what happens?"
"Legal aspects.â
"As which?"
"Lily, one problem at a time," Nat interrupts.
âFine. Where are we going?"
"Do you want a donut?"
"Sure!"
The van pulls up outside the Randyâs Donuts store, Fury comes out. They both look at him from inside the car. Tonyâs sitting on the huge donut.
"Why did we come for him?â She grits her teeth, remembering the annoyance towards her father.
"You two should talk," Nat says.
"I donât want to.â
"If you want us to help you, that is the condition.â
Lily turns away from the window and folds her arms looking at the redhead.
"You didn't say anything about conditions.â
"Now there are.â
"It's not fair,â She sighs and then looks at Nat's outfit. "Why do you wear that? Is it your super spy uniform?"
 "Something like that. You like it?"
âYou look weird, but I like it. Do you have weapons or explosives?"
âPerhaps."
The agent receives an order from her intercom. She responds and returns to the girl.
"Come on, I'll buy you a donut."
They both get out of the truck and enter the premises. Nat asks Lily a chocolate donut and walks to the chairs where Tony and Fury are, while the girl takes the donut from her and sits in an armchair away from them, with her back to them.
"Huh!" Tony says when he sees Natasha in a new outfit "You're... fired.â
"That's not up to you,â answers the redhead sitting down.
"Tony, I want you to meet Agent Romanoff,â adds Fury.
âHi."
"I'm a S.H.I.E.L.D. shadow. Once we knew you were ill or out of control, I was tasted to you by Director Fury. Besides taking care of your daughter in risky situations,â She tilts her head towards Lily.
Tony frowns and looks away to meet the little girl, eating a donut while she swings her legs. He goes back to the redhead.
"I suggest you apologize,â answers Tony.
"You've been very busy," continues Fury. âYou made your girl your CEO, youâre giving away your stuff, you neglect your daughter without taking into account the high priority over her powers, you let your friend fly way with your suit. Now, if I didânt know betterââ
 Tony rolls his eyes. Again, someone else scolding him for whatever stupid thing he does. Although he now knows that he did screw up, he doesn't want to hear it again. He has enough with his own mind.
"You don't know better. I didnât give it to him. He took it."
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, He took it?" asks Fury. âYouâre Iron Man and he just took it? The Little brother walked in there, kicked your ass and took your suit?" He says. âIs that possible?"
âWell, according to Mr. Starkâs database security guidelines, there are redundancies to prevent unauthorized usage,â answers Nat.
Tony snorts.
"What do you want from me?"
âWhat do we want from you? Uh-uh,â Fury says as Natasha gets up. âWhat do you want from me? You have become a problem, a problem I have to deal with. Contrary to your belief, you are not the center of my universe,â He scolds him.
In that, Natasha injects something into Tony making him scream. The conversation is overheard by Lily, but only when he complains does she turn around.
"Oh, god, are you gonna steal my kidney and sell it?" Tony asks.
Natasha moves Tony's head and Fury sees the lines on Stark's neck slowly disappear.
Fury explains what the substance they just injected does to him.
âGive me a couple of boxes of that. I'll see right as rain."
"It's not a cure, it just abates the symptoms,â Nat explains.
"You need to get back to work, Stark," Fury says and Tony sighs. "And by Stark, I mean both," He points back.
Lily realizes that he sees her and turns away.
 "I don't think she wants to work as a team now."
âShe has her reasons. You are a terrible companion.â
***
They all return home to Malibu. Tony and Nick sit on the terrace, now destroyed. They both talk about the reactor, the technology that Howard Stark couldn't finish, and about Vanko father and son.
Fury takes it upon himself to explain everything to Tony, while Lily returns from her room after making sure that no one had destroyed her. Nat had told him what happened with Rhodes and Tony.
The little girl walks to sit on the stairs that lead to the terrace, listening to the adults.
âYou told me I hadn't tried everything. What do you mean I havenât tried everything? What havenât I tried?" Tony points out.
"He said that you were the only person with the means and knowledge to finish what he started.â
"He said that?"
âAre you that guy? Hmm? Are you? âCause if you are, then you can solve the riddle of your heart. Or maybe, I should be discussing this with your daughter."
Tony winces and shakes his head. Lily frowns.
"I don't know where you get your information, but he wasn't my biggest fan," says Tony.
"I'm not either," adds Lily, resting her chin on her arm. Tony glances at her.
"What do you remember about your dad?"
This catches the girl's attention.
 âHe was cold, he was calculating. He never told me he loved me. He never even told me he liked me, so itâs a Little tough for me to digest then youâre telling me he said the whole future was riding on me anâs passing it down. I don't get that."
Hearing that, Lily feels a little sorry for Tony. Only a little. She imagines how  could be her grandfather when Tony was her age.
"You're talking about a guy whose happiest day was when he shipped me off to boarding School.â
"Thatâs not true.â
"Well, then, clearly you knew my dad better than I did.â
âAs a matter of fact, I did. You can believe and think many things about him, but knowing all that, do you really want Lily to think the same about you?" says Fury and then finishes his drink. More agents appear to drop off several suitcases. "Well then, what else will I know about one of the founding members of S.H.I.E.L.D.â
"What?"
All three get up. Lily walks over to see the suitcase.
"Whatâs this?" Tony asks pointing at her.
"You got this, right?" asks Fury.
"Got what? I donât even know what Iâm supposed to get,â answers Tony nervously.
âNatasha will remain a floater at Stark with her cover of her intact. And you remember Agent Coulson, right?"
âYeah."
They both greet each other.
 "Oh, and Tony,â says Fury before leaving. "After you fix this whole mess, we should talk about Lily's new training, she needs it more than you do. And remember, I got my eye on you.â
The latter makes Lily laugh.
Natasha and Coulson explain to Tony what to do and what not to do, while Lily walks over to the suitcase.
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"Okay, time to work, Kid," says Tony.
âNo," Lily walks away. "We've been together for several hours and you haven't even apologized, and now you're just hoping that I'll help you?"
Tony raises an eyebrow, shifting uncomfortably.
âBasically."
Lily looks at him in disbelief.
"I don't want to, I won't help you,â She says and then returns to her room.
***
The truth is that Lily does want to help him, but she knows he doesn't deserve it. Moreover, she cannot be alone in her room doing nothing. She wants to know whatâs in that suitcase, but she doesn't want Tony to find out about her.
An idea crosses her mind. She may not be the stealthiest, but she is the only thing she has. She goes into the living room of her destroyed house and presses the hidden button on the emergency elevator that goes alone to the workshop. She enters it and after a few seconds arrives at the workshop.
 All the lights are off and Tony is sitting in an armchair facing a projection. Lily sneaks up behind the old project.
They both watch the old Howard Stark tapes, rehearsing the presentation of what is now Stark Expo. The man has several mistakes with words, but something else calls him the attention to the girl. Just as a little boy comes out the other side of the desk where Howard presents a model. The boy takes one of the pieces and Howard notices.
âTony, what are you doing back there? What is that? Put that back!â He scolds him.
Lily leans in to get a better look at the boy version of her father. Now she can see the resemblance between Howard and Tony when scolding their children, but is also fun to watch.
Several takes with more errors follow.
âSo, from all of us at Stark Industries, Iâd like to personally show you my ass,â says Howard. Lily can't help but laugh at his words, giving away her presence. Although Tony had listened to her since she arrived.
"I know you're in there, kid. You're too curious to miss this,â She comes out of her hiding place, crawling on the ground until she reaches the other side of the projector.
"I'm still mad.â
Tony sighs.
"I know,â He leans in the chair and sets aside a notebook.
âTony," says Howard causing both of them to return to the screen. âYouâre too young to understand this right now, so I thought I would put this film for you. I built this for you. And Someday you'll realize that it represents a whole lot more than just peopleâs inventions. It represents my lifeâs work. This is the key to the future,â He shows the model and the reactor. âI'm limited by the technology of my time, but one day you'll figure this out. And when you do, you will change the world. What is and always will be my greatest creation⊠is you,â The tape ends.
 "Do you think Grandpa Howard would love me?" Lily asks when the lights come on.
Tony laughs when he hears âGrandpa Howardâ, heâs sure he wouldnât like to be called that.
"I donât know. Maybe he would love you more than me,â He looks at Lily.
"I am more adorable than you.â
Tony nods, unable to fight back. He sighs. He thinks about the words of his father and wonders why he was never like this with him when they were together. Why does he have to find out about this from a tape or from other people? Then he thinks of his own daughter and Fury's words come back to him.
Tony doesn't want Lily to grow up thinking that he was worse than Howard, he knows what he did.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you that day," He begins.
"And?" She says crossing her arms.
"And sorry for what you had to witness at the party.â
"And?"
Tony purses his lips.
âI'm sorry I failed you. I shouldn't have left you alone, or yell at you, or lie to you.â
"Nat told me that your chest was killing you,â He nods. "Didn't it occur to you to ask for help?"
âIt is somewhat complicated. When you say that you are dying, everyone panics.â
"But then they help you.â
 "I guess so.â
Lily feels a lump in her throat. Just remembering that, she again feels afraid of losing her father without even knowing something about what was really going on.
"I don't like that you hide things from me or lie to me," she says with a broken voice.
âSorry."
"No, you must promise that you wonât do it again,â she interrupts him.
Tony watches Lily's determination.
"I promise.â
âMr. Fury said we are a team. You must do your part,â she says as she gets up.
"Mr. Fury?"
"Dad!"
"Okay, okay, I got it!â He argues. In that he remembers an unfinished business. Tony stayed for a moment in the destroyed mansion and as he passed through the kitchen he saw a burned box on the sides.
He walks over to his desk with Lily following him. He removes the remains from the box and carefully takes the gift from him.
"It's a good tryâŠâ
"But you didn't even open it," she complains.
"I'm sorry, but you were missing some details.â
Lily rolls her eyes.
 "I put it together by watching a video, it's not as if you had explained each part to me.â
âThat can change. Do you remember the rules we agreed upon the first time you were in the workshop?" She nods. âForget the question limit. From now on, you must ask.â
Lily can't help but smile.
âAgree."
"So, are we good now?"
"Yup, but if you do something wrong, I'll tell Mr. Fury to scold you again."
"He didn't scold me," He complains.
"Whatever you say. Now what shall we do?"
Tony sighs and then winces.
âI must go to Pepper, stay here and cover me with the secret agents. I will not be late.â
"Good luck.â
***
After a few hours, Tony returns with the demo that his father had shown on the tapes. He arms it on various tables.
âCool," says Lily approaching.
Tony orders Jarvis to scan every detail so he can manipulate it, he takes the hologram and moves it away from the table.
âOpen your eyes wide, Kid. The answer to our problems is here,â says Tony giving her a bench and he sits on another. They both look at the model.
"What do we have to look for?"
"A new element.â
âEasy," she says sarcastically.
"My father put it here, we just have to move some things,â He brings the projection towards the center, a sphere.
"He must have something at the core," Tony whispers.
Lily sees what is around.
"What ifâŠ?â
"What?"
"What if we put everything together?"
Tony frowns, but an idea crosses his mind.
Little by little, Tony is gathering the important aspects towards the center of the Expo and in each step, heâs explaining Lily. In the end he manages to find a new element, the possible solution to the problem of intoxication.
"Dead for almost twenty years, and still taking me to school,â He says watching his creation. "Nice work, Kid.â
She smiles.
"How will you make it work?" She asks.
"Unfortunately, itâs impossible to synthesize," reports Jarvis.
Tony gets up from his chair.
âGet ready for a major remodel, fellas! We're back in hardware mode. Câmon, kid.â
Between Lily and Tony - mostly Tony - they break down some walls, open the floor and use any energy source in the mansion to connect it to the workshop part. They both open some boxes that S.H.I.E.L.D left them and use every material they have on hand.
"Hold the lamp," Tony tells her.
"It's what I'm doing,â Lily claims while she also tries to see what Tony is doing.
"More to the right.â
"What does that do?"
âGives more energy. Bring the lamp closerâŠâ
In the meantime, neither of them notices that Phil walks into the shop.
"I heard you broke the perimeter,â says the agent.
"Whoops" says Lily.
"Uh, yeah. That was, like, three years ago. Where have you been?" Tony answers.
"I was doing some stuff.â
"Yeah, well, us too, and it worked.â
Coulson checks the boxes. He pulls out some kind of unfinished shield.
"Whatâs that?" asks Lily.
âItâs exactly what we need to make this work. Lily, take it,â She obeys. "Lift the coil,â He says to Coulson and between them they lift it up a bit. Enough for Lily to put it under. Tony sets the leveler. âPerfectly level. I'm busy what do you want?"
 Coulson warns him that he must go on another mission and says goodbye.
"Glad to see you are a part of it, Lily.â
"It was not easy,â she answers making him laugh.
The hours pass and they both go back to work. In the end, Tony gives Lily some special glasses and explains what they will do.
The energy is concentrated in the device.
"Initializing prismatic accelerator," reports Jarvis. Suddenly a fine laser is projected and reflected off a material.
"Get behind me,â Tony orders him.
Stark operates the machine with the laser, but not before cutting part of the wall where he directs it.
"Oh oh.â
âOops!"
With difficulty, the laser reaches the small inverted triangle that Tony prepared so that the power would be trapped there. After a few minutes, they turn off the machine. Tony approaches and with tweezers takes the triangle and puts it in the reactor. The itemâs accepted.
"We did it?" Lily asks.
âWe did it."
She sighs in relief, right now she feels the exhaustion. She walks over to the couch and sits on it.
"Wake me up when we're in trouble," she warns him.
"Why would we be in trouble?"
 "Rhodey says we have that talent.â
"Makes sense.â
In that a beep is heard.
"Incoming call and with a blocked number, sir,â warns Jarvis.
âMy phone privilege is reinstated. Lovely. Kid, we have the phone back!"
âGreat," she answers from the couch.
"Coulson. Howâs the land of enchantment?"
"Hey. Tony. How you doing?â The voice is unknown to Lily so she settles in the chair and leans out. "I doubled cycle."
"You what?"
âYou told me double cycleâs more power. Good advice.â
"You sound pretty sprightly for a dead guy.â
"What?" whispers Lily. She gets up and walks over to Tony. He makes a sign so that she doesn't make noise.
"You too,â answers the man.
Tony removes his microphone from the call.
"Trace him,â he orders Jarvis.
âNow, the true history of Stark name will be written. Your secrets will be revealed at any moment."
"What is he talking about, dad?"
Tony ignores her and keeps checking the call.
 âWhat your father did to my family over forty years, I will do to you in forty minutes and I will make sure your offspring disappear. I hope you're ready,â He says, and then hangs up.
Tony sees Justin Hammer's announcement at Stark Expo on another screen, and based on the coordinates of the call, Vanko may have something planned for the event. He gets up and takes the new reactor.
"Dad?"
Stark replaces the reactor in his chest, after coughing a bit, the man feels the difference.
"Time to go,â He says walking towards his armor.
"Hey! No. You promisedââ
"I have to go, Lily."
âBut, you must tell me what happens. You promised not to lie to me,â She gets in her way. He sighs.
"Vanko, the man who tried to kill me in Monaco, wants to do something at the Expo and I have to stop him.â
âWhat does he plan to do?"
"I'm not sure. You must stay here. I'll talk to Fury about sending agents here. Turn on the TV, I'm sure they'll put it on,â He continues on his way.
âDad," He turns again. "Be careful, please.â
Tony smiles and nods.
"Stay in the workshop in case I need your help.â
"You got it.â
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Love Sick | JHS
⥠Summary: When youâre sick on your favorite holiday, Hoseok just wants to make you feel better. ⥠Pairing: Hoseok x Gender Neutral!Reader ⥠Genre: Fluff, established relationship ⥠Rating: G ⥠Warnings: None ⥠Word Count: 1.8k ⥠A/N: For @btsholidaybingoâ. Halloween may be over on the calendar, but it still lives on in my heart and through my Halloween wips that Iâm still working through. Bingo Square: Horror Movies
Jiminie: Hyung is freaking out because you're not answering his calls or texts
You sigh when your phone vibrates for what seems like the hundredth time and finally look at it.
Y/n: Sorry, I've been asleep all day
That isnât a lie. You had slept most of the early morning away. The rest of the day was spent watching bad Netflix horror movies and throwing up what was left of your tainted dinner from the previous night. Of all the days your body decides itâs time to be ill, being sick on your favorite holiday was truly a betrayal.
Jiminie: All day? It's nearly four, and itâs Halloween. What's wrong?
Y/n: Nothing! Iâm pretty sure I just have food poisoning.Â
Y/n: DON'T TELL HOSEOK. I don't want him worrying about me. You know how he is when Iâm sick.
You should've known not to trust Jimin to keep your secret. Out of all of the members, youâre closest to Jimin and trust him most. Even so, you know this little tidbit of information is going to slip through his friend filter and that heâs going to tell Hoseok out of worry for you.
Not even half an hour after youâve sent him the text and he replies with an 'okay,â you hear your front door open. You bury yourself further under the covers and groan, making a mental note to exact revenge on Jimin when you feel better.
"Y/n!?"
As annoyed as you are with Jimin, you canât help but smile at the sound of Hoseok's voice. Itâs one of your favorite sounds.
"In my room!" You manage to croak out, throat feeling raw. You listen to his footsteps rushing down the hall and the crinkling of a paper bag. You smile at the sight of your boyfriend, looking at you with eyes full of concern
"Why didn't you tell me you were sick!?" Hoseok sets the bag on your bedside table and gingerly climbs into bed next to you.
"I didn't want to worry you. Plus, you guys have that huge Halloween party going down at Big Hit tonight. I wanted you to enjoy your day."
Hoseok smiles warmly at you before pulling the comforter back to see more of your face. "Baby, you should already know that I would give up any and every party to spend my day with you. I always enjoy being with you, sickness that you neglect to tell me about, and all." He reaches over to cup your face and frowns.âYouâre so clammy, Y/n.â
You shrug. âIâve been trapped in the bathroom for most of the day. Iâve probably thrown up all my fluids.â
âWhenâs the last time you drank some water?â
Good question. âUhâŠâ
Hoseok clicks his tongue in disapproval before grabbing the bag he brought with him. "Well, before I came over, I stopped at the store for medicine. I brought candy, popcorn, and tea, but meds come first because I know you havenât taken any.â He gives you a look. He wasnât wrong. âI wasn't sure what symptoms you had, so I got one that covers all kinds of food poisoning symptoms. This one is for nausea, upset stomach, diarrhea, stomach cramps, bloating, and indigestion. Do you have all of these?"
"Unfortunately.â
"Good, now open up." Hoseok insists on feeding you the medicine himself, and after a lot of whining on your part, you eventually take it, complaining about how gross it is the entire time while Hoseok just laughs. Thankfully, he lets you handle the task of drinking a glass of water yourself.
"Thank you, Hobi. You don't have to stick around anymore if you-"
"Hey, I already said Iâm spending my time with you. Iâm here to celebrate Halloween with you. Now keep drinking your water and stay here. I'm going to go make you some tea and soup."
"But-"
"No, buts! I'm making you something to eat, and that's that." Hoseok offers you a smile and leans down to place a small kiss on your forehead before leaving the room.
You sigh and continue to sip your water in silence. Heâs being his usual selfless and considerate self, but this is the main reason you hadnât wanted him to find out. Hoseok had a habit of babying you any way he could when you were sick. It was sweet, but also tiring.
Twenty minutes or so later, Hoseok comes back into the room with a small tray. It has a steaming bowl of soup in the middle and a cup of tea on it. You also notice a few small packs of crackers around the bowl. "I know you like saltines with your soup, so I brought some too."
"And the tea?"
"Four sugars, honey, and a splash of creamer. I even put a little extra honey, so it'll ease your throat." You smile at your boyfriend as he takes a seat on the bed next to you. Your prop yourself up against your pillows and situate the tray on your lap. Before you can pick up your spoon, Hoseok has it in his hands. He brings it up to your lips after blowing on the hot food.
"Hoseok, I can feed myself, you know."
"I know, but I just want to help you." He breaks into his bright, heart-melting smile, leaving you no room to object. You let out a groan before opening your mouth and letting him feed you.
Once youâre done eating and have your tea, which he made sure to blow on to cool it down for you, he draws you a warm bath, explaining that it'll help with your stomach cramps. âHere, let help you.â He reaches to lift your shirt, but you bat his hands away.
âI got it, Hobi.â
âWell, I can wash you up. Youâre probably still feeling tired.â
âNo, thatâs okay, babe.âÂ
âI can at least stay in here to make sure youâre safe. In case you get too hot and-â
âI can do it myself!â You snap at him, pushing him out of the bathroom. As flattered as you are by how much heâs willing to help, it was starting to annoy you.
When you emerge from the bathroom half an hour later, you do have to admit that youâre feeling better. Hoseok is sitting on your bed, scrolling through his phone and he jumps up when you enter. He makes a move to leave, but you stop him.
"It's okay. You can stay." You send him a smile before making your way over to your dresser.Â
"Y/n, I uh, Iâm sorry that I made you so mad. I promise I only want to help you. I didnât mean to upset you."
Once you are in a fresh pair of pajamas, you crawl into bed, tugging his hand to bring him with you. Hoseok situates himself in bed and pulls you to lie against him.Â
"First of all, I'm not mad," you begin. "I know you mean well. It's just the fact that you always tend to hover over me when Iâm sick and do things you don't need to do. I just have a stomach bug. Iâm not paralyzed or dying. I can take off my own clothes and eat my own soup. I'm grateful to have you here to take care of me, but you're worrying too much."
Hoseok sighs and begins rubbing your arm. "I'm sorry. I care about you too much to not want to dote on you, you know. I love you."
"I love you too, and thank you for your concern. I actually feel way better than I did this morning." You glance up at him, seeing that wonderful grin on his face.
"See, I knew the bath would help! Is there anything else you need or want? Something Halloween-y, perhaps?"
You think for a few seconds before lacing your fingers through his. "Watch horror movies with me?" Knowing how stressed scary movies make him, you assume heâll suggest something else, but to your surprise, he nods, albeit visibly reluctant.
"Anything for you,â he chirps, voice a little too high pitched. Hoseok leans down to lightly kiss the top of your head before getting out of bed. âPick whatever you want. Iâm going to make some popcorn. I think youâve earned it since youâre feeling a little better.â
You scroll through Netflix looking for a movie as you wait for him, deciding on one of your favorites, The Conjuring. When he gets back, heâs balancing a big bowl of popcorn in one hand and a few mini Milky Ways and Twix bars in the other.
After getting situated, he pulls you into his chest again, and you can hear how fast his heart is beating.Â
âHobi, are you sure this is a good idea? You know how you get with horror stuff. We can do something else.â
âY/n, please, Iâll be fine because Iâm with you.â He does his best to reassure you as he turns the lamp on the bedside table off.
An hour into the movie and he is most certainly not doing fine. Heâs already screamed four times and nearly knocked over the popcorn. At some point, heâd taken your comforter and cocooned himself into it to hide in the fabric.
The movie is more than halfway through when a particular spook has Hoseok falling off the bed in shock. You fish the remote from underneath a pillow and stop the movie, exiting out of Netflix altogether. Out of all the times heâs attempted to watch horror movies with you, this is the longest heâs lasted through a movie, so you decide to give him a break today.
âBabe, what are you doing?â He asks from the mound of fluff on the floor.
âIâm changing the movie, Hobi.â
âYeah, but-â
âToo late, the movie is already off. I appreciate that you want to spend time doing something I want, but I have other Halloween movies I like that will be kinder to you.â
Hoseok seems to recognize the opening of Hocus Pocus, springing up from the floor as the movie starts. He climbs back onto the bed to cuddle with you again.
âYou know I love you, right Y/n?â His sudden question surprises you, and you look up at him only to see him staring right back at you.
âOf course. And you know I love you.â He beams at you, kissing you tenderly and pulling away before you can get lost in his lips.
âGood, because Iâll need you to hold me when Billy comes on screen. Heâs entirely too creepy for a Disney movie.â You canât help the laugh that bubbles out as you snuggle closer to Hoseok. This yearâs Halloween is turning out not to be the worst, after all, thanks to Hoseok and his love for you that you can practically feel radiating off of him, making you feel much better.
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Spiderman has allergies?
Febuwhump Day 24: allergies
Read on AO3.
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âPeterâs here!â Pepper called up to him from downstairs.
Tony finished putting his laundry away. Â Heâd become so domesticated ever since Morgan was born and he complained about it even though he secretly loved it. Â His family was the most important thing to him now. Â He smiled at that thought. Â If the Tony from twenty years ago could see him now.
âDo you want some pasta honey?â Tony heard Pepper ask as he made his way down the stairs. Â âI just finished and thereâs plenty left over.â
âUm maybe just a little? Â Ned and I had lunch before I left.â Peter answered and there was something about his voice that made Tony frown.
âHey kid.â He greeted as soon as he came into the kitchen and found a seat next to Peter at the counter.
âHey Tony.â Peter responded and again there was something off about the way he sounded.
Pepper finished dishing up the pasta for Peter and slid a full plate across the counter to him.
âThanks.â Peter said, always with the perfect manners. Â Thank god Morgan was picking up on some of that. Â The instant the thought passed through his mind, he felt bad. Â Peterâs aunt had died in a car accident in the intervening five years between the snap and its reversal, and of course Tony had taken him in, but improving Morganâs manners definitely wasnât worth the loss of his kidâs mother figure.
âAre you hungry?â Pepper asked him as he watched Peter dig into his pasta. Â When he looked over at her, she arched an eyebrow at him, so he knew the question had only been a courtesy.
âIâm starving.â He nodded. Â It wasnât a lie. Â Heâd only had coffee for breakfast. Â
âWhereâs Morgan?â Peter asked and Tony finally put his finger on what was wrong with his kidâs voice. Â It sounded nasally.
âShe spent the night at friendâs house. Â Tonyâs going to pick her up this afternoon.â Pepper said.
âWow thatâsâŠâ Peter let whatever he was going to say trail off.
âThatâs what?â Tony asked.
âBrave?  I mean I always thought you were kind of a helicopter dadâŠâ
Tony raised his eyebrows at him.
ââŠso that must be hard for you?â Peter finished.
âNo. Â Itâs fine.â He denied and Pepper snorted as she handed his plate of pasta to him. Â Peter didnât need to know the details of the hours long discussion theyâd had before agreeing to let Morgan stay overnight at her friendâs house, Pepper being for it and Tony being adamantly against it.
Peter smirked and went back to eating. Â Tony took a few bites of his food but side eyed the kid, trying to figure out whey something wasnât right about the way he sounded. Â Had he broken his nose and it healed wrong? Â It looked fine. Â
Peter finished his plate of pasta in record time. Â âThanks Pepper.â He said as he got up to rinse his plate and put in the dishwasher.
Tony took another bite of his own food as his eyes narrowed. Â Peterâs sentence had come out sounding more like âDanks Pebber.â
âYouâre welcome.â Pepper said automatically but then shot a look over at Tony. Â Sheâd obviously caught on to Peterâs weird voice too. Â He gave her a subtle nod.
âSo Pete,â he said as he finished his own meal, âwhatâs new with you?â
âNothing much.â Peter shrugged. Â âNed got a new pet.â
âUh huh.â Tony frowned at him. Â âWhy do you sound like your nose is broken?â
Peter rolled his eyes and started walking away toward the couch. Â âItâs not. Â Iâm fine.â Â Even though it came out sounding like âItâs nob. Â Iâm fibe.â
Tony put his plate in the dishwasher and followed Peter to the couch. Â âOk then, if your nose isnât broken, why do you sound all weird?â
âAllergies.â Peter answered as he flicked through the different channels on the TV.
âYou?â Tony asked sarcastically. Â âHave allergies?â
âApparently.â Peter shrugged, unaffected.
âEven with your spider powers?â
âApparently.â Peter repeated.
âSeems a little odd.â Tony opined. Â âAre you sure youâre not sick?â
Peter shook his head and denied, âIâm not sick.â
âHow do you know?â
âI think I would know.â Peter said, arching an eyebrow at him. Â âLike Iâd feel bad and I donât, so it must be allergies.â
âUh huh.â Tony nodded. Â âSure. Â Youâre not sick. Â Nothingâs wrong. Â You just have allergies youâve never had before.â
âI havenât been sick since the spider bite either so why would that make any more sense?â
The kid had a point there. Â After coming back from the snap heâd lived with them for almost a year and heâd never gotten sick, although that couldâve been luck. Â Now that heâd gone off to college and lived with Ned, Tony worried.
âOk so you sound like your nose is broken because of allergiesâŠâ He still couldnât bring himself to truly believe it.
âThatâs what I said.â Peter huffed.
âYou sure you donât want to get some rest? Â Or I could get you a juice box?â He offered.
âIâm not sick!â Peter protested.
âAll right whatever you say.â Tony let it go but watched Peter like a hawk for the rest of the weekend, but Peter never gave him any indication that something was wrong.
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âTony!â Peter yelled. Â Tony jerked his head up and smacked it on the bottom of Morganâs bunk bed that he was in the middle of putting together. Â He rubbed his scalp and brought his hand away, looking at it. Â No blood. Â Well at least he hadnât cracked his head open.
âTony?â Peter called out again.
âUp here!â He answered.
âWhat are you doing?â Peter asked a moment later in the doorway.
âTrying to put this bed together.â Tony complained.
âLooks easy.â Peter laughed.
âItâs not.â Tony said, dragging himself out from under the bottom bunk.
âNeed help?â Peter offered.
Tony narrowed his eyes at him. Â The kidâs question had come out like âNeeb helb?â
âAre you still sick?â He asked.
âWhat?â Peter frowned. Â âNo. Â I was never sick in the first place. Â I told you it was allergies last weekend.â
âAnd what? Â Itâs still allergies?â Tony asked skeptically as he stood and brushed the dust off his clothes.
âYeah.â Peter answered as if it was obvious.
âHow the hell does Spiderman have allergies?â
âNo clue.â Peter shrugged. Â âI used to have asthma and be deathly allergic to peanuts before the spider bite, but ever since I got my powers, Iâve never needed my inhaler and I eat peanut butter all the time without any problem. Â Itâs so good!â
âWhat?â All of this was news to him.
âYeah. Â Didnât you know that?â
âNo! Â How would I have known that?â
Peter shrugged. Â âI donât know. Â You always say you know everything, so I just assumed.â
âDonât be a smart ass.â Tony complained as he reached out to press a palm against Peterâs forehead, still not believing all this allergy talk.
Peter immediately jerked away. Â âIâm not sick!â He insisted, sounding annoyed. Â Well, he wasnât warm at least, so whatever it was, it wasnât serious enough to give him a fever.
âHmm. Â So if itâs allergies, why havenât you taken anything for it?â
âI did! Â I tried Zyrtec but that was useless with my metabolism and the same thing with Flonase.â
Ah. Â True. Â Tony hadnât considered that.
âAnd youâre sure theyâre not working because youâre actually sick?â
Peter rolled his eyes. Â âIâm sure dad.â Peter said the last part sarcastically but Tonyâs heart still warmed. Â Peter only ever called him that in jest or when he was being sarcastic, but Tony appreciated it every time all the same.
âOk son.â Tony ruffled Peterâs hair. Â âBut if this doesnât get any better, Iâm calling Bruce.â
âGod youâre so extra.â Peter complained but Tony could see he was smiling.
Tony smiled. Â âMaybe. Â Now, do you want to go to the garage and work on those suit upgrades I was talking about?â
âUm duh. Â Do you even have to ask?â
Tony shook his head, equally annoyed and amused in the way only Peter could make him, but they headed down to the workshop, and the rest of the weekend Tony didnât notice any red flags besides the congestion causing Peterâs voice to go all wonky, so he didnât say anything.
**********
âHey Toby?â Peterâs voice rang throughout the cabin from downstairs two weeks later.
Tony met Pepperâs eyes across the bedroom and they both raised their eyebrows at each other at the obviously persistent voice issue.
âIâm upstairs!â He called out.
âThis has gone on long enough.â Pepper whispered to him, aware of Peterâs super hearing. Â âFigure it out.â
âAlready on it boss.â He said and walked out of the room, meeting Peter in the hallway at the top of the stairs.
âWhatâs up kid?â He asked as he studied him for any sign of illness. Â Peterâs eyes were bloodshot and his nose was red with a darkened line across the bridge of it, something heâd never seen on him before, but otherwise he looked ok.
âNothing.â Peter shrugged as if everything was all hunky dory even as he reached up to swipe at his nose.
âNothing.â Tony repeated skeptically.
âYeah. Â Why?â Peterâs brow furrowed.
âBecause you look like an extra for a zombie movie kid!â
âI do?â He sniffled.
âYep. Â Iâm calling Bruce.â He said, already pulling out his phone to text his friend.
âNo!â Peter protested, snatching the phone out of his hands.
âHey.â Tony warned. Â âGive that back. Â You remember our deal? Â I told you two weeks ago that if this didnât get better we were getting Bruce involved.â
âI never agreed to that.â
âWell too bad because this looks like itâs getting worse and you havenât said a thing about it.â
âBecause Iâm fine! Â Itâs just allergies.â
âGive me my phone.â Tony ordered as he held his hand out expectantly.
Peter eyed it for a moment and Tony lifted his eyebrows, daring Peter to test him, before Peter sighed and slapped the phone back in his hand.
âFine, but if you do call him and make him come all the way up here, youâll be wasting his time because heâs just going to tell you the exact same thing Iâve been saying.â
âYeah, weâll see.â Tony said doubtfully, already typing out a message to his friend. Â Bruce was nothing if not prompt. Â He responded less than a minute later.
âHeâs on his way over.â Tony held up the phone screen for Peter to see, but his kid just rolled his eyes and pushed past him.
âIâll be in my room if you need me.â
âResting? Â Thatâs a good idea. Â You should rest.â
âNo. Â Doing homework. Â Not resting. Â Because Iâm not sick! Â Itâs allergies!â
Tony hummed in disbelief but let Peter go, wincing as he slammed his door shut behind him.
Pepper peaked her head out of their bedroom. Â âWhat did you do?â
âNothing.â He held his hands up innocently. Â âBruce is on his way over.â
Pepper smiled. Â âAh. Â Good.â
He nodded. Â Now he just had to wait for his friend to tell him he was right, and then they could finally fix his stubborn kid.
**********
He wasnât right.
âHeâs not sick.â Bruce said.
âWhat?â He asked in shock.
âI told you.â Peter said and way too happy about it.
âThen what is it?â Tony looked down at where his kid sat smugly on the couch.
âIt looks like allergies.â Bruce shrugged.
Tony blinked as Peter barked out a laugh. Â âHa! Â Thatâs what I kept saying and he wouldnât believe me.â
âDidnât you used to be allergic to everything under the sun? Â Before the bite?â Tony asked, none of this making any sense.
âI mean thatâs kind of an exaggeration, but yeah, I guess.â Peter shrugged.
Tony shook his head and turned to Bruce. Â âSo if all his previous allergies went away after the bite, then how on earth did he suddenly develop allergies again? Â And to what? Â Does this mean his other allergies are back too? Â Do I need to hide the peanut butter?â
Peter rolled his eyes. Â âI had peanut butter toast for breakfast this morning so Iâm pretty sure thatâs still safe.â
âItâs probably environmental.â Bruce explained. Â âThose allergies are mediated through different pathways.â
âOk, but that still begs the question, why now? Â And besides, itâs the middle of winter, what kind of environmental allergies could he be getting into?â
âYouâd be surprised.â Bruce said. Â âThereâs still dust mites, mold, pet danderââ
âWait.â Tony held up a finger and then looked down at his kid accusingly. Â âDidnât you say Ned got a new cat a month ago?â
âYeahâŠâ
âItâs the cat. Â Itâs got to be.â Tony said, finally happy to have an answer. Â That hadnât been so hard to solve. Â Actually itâd been surprisingly easy. Â He frowned before asking Peter, âHow did you not figure this out?â
âI knew ok! Â But what was I supposed to do? Â Tell Ned that Fluffy had to go?â Peter threw his hands up in the air.
âFluffy?â Tony made a face.
âHeâs a rescue. Â I canât ask Ned to kick him out when he just found his new home. Â How do you think that would make him feel?â Peter said, sounding way too emotionally invested for this to just be about the cat. Â âHe doesnât have anywhere else to go.â
Tony cleared his throat. Â Heâd had almost six years with Morgan to get used to showing emotions, and heâd gotten much better, but he still didnât love doing it in front of an audience.
He knelt down so he was face to face with Peter, clasping his knees. Â âI get it kid. Â But youâre clearly suffering. Â And Fluffyâs a cat, not a human.â
Peter pursed his lips and Tony could tell that his current argument would get him nowhere.
âOk, how about this, what if we find Fluffy a new home thatâs just as nice. Â Or better?â
âUm, I might have an idea.â Bruce interrupted and Tony and Peter both turned to look at him. Â âI could probably synthesize something that would work. Â It just might take a couple days.â
âOk.â Peter agreed readily.
Tony sighed. Â He never liked the idea of pumping new drugs into his kid but he trusted Bruce. Â âFine. Â But if it doesnât work, weâre going to have another discussion.â
âFine.â Peter said begrudgingly.
Tony stood and clapped Bruce on the back. Â âThanks big green. Â Youâre a life saver.â
âDonât thank me yet. Â I have to make it first. Â And we have to see if it works.â Bruce hedged.
âIâm sure it will.â Tony didnât have any doubt. Â If Bruce thought he could make something that would work, then heâd end up making something that would work.
âHey uh Dr. Banner, how strong can you make it?â
Bruceâs brow furrowed. Â âWhat do you mean?â
âLike can you make something that will still work even if Fluffy sleeps on my face?â
Bruce and Tony shared a look. Â
âHeâs your kid.â Bruce raised an eyebrow at him even as he tried not to laugh.
Tony just shook his head and walked away, muttering, âI canât believe this.â
âWhat? Â Where are you going? Â Tony!â Peter called out after him.
âIâm going to go call Thor and see if he can put in a word with the big guys upstairs about getting my kid some common sense.â He said, only half kidding.
âHey!â Peter protested.
He smirked when he heard Bruce say, âWell, heâs not wrong.â
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Morgana wakes from a dream of Gwen being crowned and is deeply confused.
When Gwen comes to wake her in the morning, Morgana asks her point-blank if she likes Arthur, to which Gwen, panicked at her years long crush asking about her starcrossed boyfriend, panics and says, âNo!â then backtracks and says something like, âNot that-- Iâm sure heâs perfectly lovely really, if you know him, which I donât, I didnât mean--â
Morgana snorts and goes, âPerfectly lovely? Arthur? Hardly.â
With that option (erroneously, mind) firmly off the table in Morganaâs book, she ponders the other possibilities. Uther? Never. Morgana would kill him before he forced Gwen into anything, and Gwen would never marry him of her own free will. So it canât be any of the current royal family, and Morgana plans to take the throne soonâŠ
That possibility that had been niggling in the back of her mind that sheâd been refusing to entertain now seems the only viable option on the table, and Morgana blushes despite herself, butterflies lighting in her stomach.
She holds off on going to Morgause until sheâs sure, and in that time, every time Gwen looks at her or touches her (quite often, given the duties of a maidservant) makes her giddy, and she starts to believe it despite herself.
Hating Gwen, kind, lovely Gwen, who holds her after she wakes up screaming and brings her flowers to brighten her day, had been so hard. This is effortless, by comparison. Natural. Like breathing. And if her dream is right, Gwen will feel the same, whether she falls now or later. Morgana is positively giddy.
Gwen deserves wooing, and Morgana starts to daydream of all the ways she could make Gwen happy⊠flowers for sure, maybe a dress? A romantic picnic, perhaps. The possibilities are endless, and Morgana cannot wait to start putting a smile on Gwenâs face.
Morgana starts by gifting Gwen whatever she seems enamoured by at the market. This includes but is not limited to pastries, pretty bobbles, truly expensive silk, a bouquet of flowers, and way too much jewelry. Gwen is really, really flustered by this and has absolutely no idea how to handle it. She tries to tell Morgana to stop, but Morgana is like âIâm basically a princess and if I want to buy gifts for my maidservant, Iâll damn well do so.â
Morganaâs not really got any concept of subtlety or taking it slow, see.
Poor Gwen is so flustered she feels like she could explode and has absolutely no clue where this came from, which only encourages Morgana to buy more stuff because she thinks Gwen being flustered is adorable. Itâs as much the way Morgana is looking at her as it is the gifts, though, warm and fond and like Gwen hangs the moon and stars, and Gwen had missed that look, and she turns into a stammering wreck.
Afterwards, once Gwenâs collected herself, she explains to Morgana that she just canât buy her things for money reasons, for Uther reasons, the whole shebang. And Gwen doesnât really want or need those things, she says, and she certainly doesnât want them all at once.
So Morgana has to go back to the drawing board.
Morgana goes to Morgause like, âHey, I know we havenât talked in a bit but I was wondering what you knew about wooing people.â
And Morgause is like, â??? Wooing people???â
âYea.â
âUhhhh, find their greatest desire and use it to manipulate them? Chop off their enemyâs head and propose a strategic alliance?â
So Morganaâs like, â...Right, so youâre absolutely useless, bye,â and fucks off to go look for other, more trustworthy sources.
The problem is she trusts absolutely no one other than Morgause so this is a difficult endeavor. She asks Arthur in a bid of desperation because heâs had flings, right???
Arthur goes, âUh. Slay monsters very impressively? Show personal growth? Offer chicken? Have Merlin do it for you?â
Which is also useless, but she should have expected that, really.
She goes to the library as a last resort and tells Geoffrey, âBRING ME A BOOK ON WOOING!â in her most intimidating voice and Geoffrey scampers off to get that but heâs like. Really slow. Morgana waits as Geoffrey rushes and yet moves as fast as molasses, getting increasingly impatient and snappish.
What she gets is mostly a book on courtly rituals, so a lot of it is useless with Gwen but damn if Morgana isnât going to try, but it also mentions something about asking family for permission, which, no, but it reminds her to go, oh! Iâll ask her brother!
And Elyanâs mostly like how many goddamn royals are in love with my sister (within the privacy of his own head, of course), but he also tells her that Gwen likes thoughtful, heartfelt gifts and honest work (and privately resolves to tease Gwen so much when she comes home).
So Morganaâs like???? Heartfelt???? What do I do with that??? Crap, what does Gwen like? But sheâd given Gwen all the things she liked at the market, so that canât be all there is to it?? Morgana is confusion?????
Okay, honest work. So should she make a gift?
Morgana doesnât have any crafting skills though. Fuck. Uh.
She could embroider something? Sheâs crap at embroidery but she knows how to do it, at least. Something small, thereâs only so much embroidering she can stand. Handkerchief, maybe? And thatâs like offering a favor, almost, so thatâs cool.
Morgana thinks back to the market and all the fabrics Gwen had lingered on and goes for a (relatively) moderately priced one that Gwen had run her fingertips over longingly.
So Morgana utilizes her well-honed sneaking skills to go buy the fabric, then bewilders Gwen by kicking her out to work. This is not her brightest idea, as it makes Gwen feel quite hurt and renews her suspicion.
After many, many hours of pricked fingers, extensive and creative cursing, and a half dozen traumatized servants (except not because if you work under the Pendragons on a regular basis youâve probably got balls of steel, but Morgana certainly tries her best), Morgana comes out with a crude, messy rendition of a rose embroidered onto the (...maybe a little bloodstained? Whatever. It's fine.) handkerchief.
Morgana presents it to Gwen, shy and yet utterly pleased with her work, and Gwen wavers between fond laughter and bursting into tears. In the end, she just smiles so hard her cheeks hurt and thanks Morgana, then tucks it away like something precious.
Gwen still regards it with wariness, of course, because Morgana has up to this point been extremely suspicious and possibly (definitely) evil, but it's very hard to think it might be magically dangerous when it looks like a child's work and Morgana had seemed so sincerely proud. The fear and animosity melts away in the wake of it despite Gwen's best judgement, and, she reasons, it would alert Morgana to her suspicions if she didn't use it, right? It's only logical to use it and treat it like something precious and gaze upon it fondly, right? Right.
And now Gwen has two utterly romantically incompetent people she adores with all her heart doing their best to make her happy. And that's⊠yeah.
This might work out after all.
(Meanwhile, Arthur finds out who Morgana wanted to woo, and the two of them turn the courting of Gwen into a competition, because of course they do, ignoring entirely that Gwen is perfectly happy to date both of them, and plans of kingdom conquering fall to the wayside, much to Morgauseâs chagrin.
Merlin regards Morgana with deep, deep suspicion that she returns with interest, but Gwen won't stand for the animosity so they grudgingly make nice while glaring at each other over Gwen's head and being blatantly insincerely sweet. They forget their hostility only when they both turn on Arthur, at which point they join forces in insulting him, Arthur complains, and Gwen laughs at them all. It turns out to be remarkably hard to sustain ill will in such a comfortable atmosphere; who knew? It's like there hasn't been attempted murder on both sides!
Uther is bewildered by his childrenâs good moods and Morgana's renewed disdain of him, and they merrily ignore him except when he's being genocidal. When his genocidal tendencies manifest once more, as they inevitably do, Merlin and Morgana are baffled to find themselves on the same side but remain vehement in their assertions that they do something about it, and Arthur is convinced by his very passionate friends and quietly conflicted but firmly insistent girlfriend.
(Merlin and Morgana feed off of each otherâs strong feelings and forget to check with Gaius and Kilgharrah and Morgause respectively. As such, they have no one to talk them down into caution and suspicion, which is on the whole for the best as they find themselves a united front.)
This whole situation cumulates into a coup. Also, magic reveals. And long, emotionally involved, serious conversations about magic and its morality and Merlin and Morgana's roles in magic shenanigans thus far. There's a decent amount of shouting, maybe a few threats, hurt all around, but they make it through, and they do it without completely destroying their relationships with each other, so that's cool.
Uther is overthrown (Morgause is very upset to have missed it), the kingdom is absolute chaos, it takes a lot for Arthur to be seen as a legitimate, trustworthy ruler, but he has his people behind him, they call the knights of the round table and knight them, and they make it work.
Work is started on the legalization of magic.
Gwen does become Arthur's queen, and Morgana relives her dream, and finds herself overwhelmingly, brilliantly happy despite having been wrong. After all, afterwards Gwen throws herself into Morgana's arms to give her an enthusiastic kiss and wipes away her happy tears with the handkerchief Morgana had gifted her all that time ago.
And so they live happily ever after (or something mushy like that).)
#bbc merlin#morgwen#mine#mari writes stuff#you cheer me up#this is absolutely and unabashedly silly#and wish fulfillment to a factor of like eleventy billion#i can't figure out how to insert breaks from my phone so sorry ab that#girl of my dreams
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