#ill be fine dw

[muttalert]

forgot how much in person classes make me wanna die aggghhhh

[missionel]

a tmbg hyperfixation will have a bitch listening to flood during a flood warning

[the-withering-system]

Opens tiktok, sees the most triggering video that only warns of the trigger AFTER showing the triggering material.

Welp, guess it's panic attack time.

[pinkcatminht]

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i am not doing okay

and the fact that im also out of my antidepressants and have been for a few days now just makes me want to end it all already lmao

obviously i wont but like. god it's tempting today.

[not-actually-human]

the carrot soup was so good. however. it did not agree with my stomach

[anonymous-user84]

Brother some of the psych wards are 900 dollars a night.

friend is explaining me the american healthcare system. WALK IN CLINICS COST MONEY??????

[thahxa]

gah i'm so tired. first week of new job has been tiring. sleep is bad. oh well. can't complain, might as well go on

[happi-dreams]

Woahza!! Spongbob critterpants?! (Again?!)

As well as huggy hassleholf

And another art because im insane

[cometblaster2070]

ranting for a bit because the entire scene where elphaba tells glinda her secret makes me go rabid and actually makes me want to chew concrete because not only is it actually absolutely heartbreaking to see just how deeply elphaba believes all the horrible things her father reinforces; how she thinks she's responsible for her mother's death and is the reason for nessarose's disability even when it's literally not her fault in any way and is actually DIRECTLY her father's fault.

and just the fact that elphaba tells glinda all this and tells glinda her father hates her and that everything's her fault and glinda looks at her and she's absolutely heartbroken to hear elphaba saying all these things and she becomes the first person in elphaba's life to look her in the eyes and tell her that none of that is true and that it is NOT her fault, it was NEVER her fault despite whatever anyone said.

ik a lot of ppl see glinda's "it was the milkflower's fault" line as a very sort of shallow take by glinda (I'm explaining it poorly but ik some ppl wonder why she didn't just call out governor thropp directly) but I've got to disagree with that take because personally I think glinda heard elphaba talking, heard her describe her secret and heard how her father forced her mother to chew milkflowers constantly during her pregnancy all because he was afraid the baby would come out green like elphaba and she heard all this and she hears how elphaba thinks this is all her fault.

and yk they're roommates. glinda sees the way elphaba talks about her father and how even though she says that he hates her in an almost casual manner despite how she says he's justified for hating her, elphaba still loves her father and she still wants to do right by him and she still wants him to love her.

so glinda knows that elphaba will not listen to her if she straight up tells her that her father's fucking mental and completely wrong and that it was all his fault and that she's probably going to bludgeon him to death. she knows that elphaba will never accept this and she knows that right now it won't do any good for anyone.

so instead she tells elphaba it was the milkflower's fault. and she looks her in the eyes and she tells her this was never your fault you shouldn't think this was ever your fault and anyone who ever told you that it was your fault was completely and totally wrong and I need you to know this.

because the primary concern isn't about telling elphaba she's got a shitty dad the primary concern is telling elphaba that it is not her fault for simply existing. and to let her know that there is nothing wrong with her and that there is someone here, right now, who loves and cares for her so so much and wants her to know that. that there is someone who will hold her hand and who will tell her that they are there for her and that she is fine the way she is. that she is loved.

[tordlover]

bacondonut is back baby !!! 🥓🍩

[quirkle2]

waiting for the news

[symeona]

I would have a nicotine addiction if I could afford it bitch

[bookwyrminspiration]

there's something undiagnosed plaguing me but going and getting evaluated sounds like a hassle so I'm just gonna side eye it suspiciously for now

[alyimoss]

uhh lack of sleep mostly (all nighter)

im also entering my third (or fourth??) can of redbull and i cant remember how much adderall ive taken but i think its over the prescribed dose

so theres a lot contending currently

chat help im losing vision

[intermundia]

so the answer to the question "heyy why haven't you been writing?" is that i've been too busy doing art therapy, and uh i may've gone overboard with the art therapy? how much art therapy is too much art therapy? regardless 😅 i hope to be writing again soon

[hexados-on-a-string]

ghosts can't haunt ghosts silly, must be your mistakes then !