#ihvntn555

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me and his blood

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me whenever i have to prepare smth for school

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i just learned that "the spot" from spider-man across the spiderverse actually is based on the pun "johnny on the spot" (a person who is at hand whenever needed) and i am ._. amazed

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imagine every bird in our universe had a nose and teeth like the grey heron from the boy and the heron

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i mean who tf would call matty healy a "tattooed golden retriever"

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there is so little time of hobie and pav in across the spiderverse but still they're all i think about

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there's no way fucking rodrick and josh have roles in oppenheimer

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me whenever the conversation goes silent

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i like the way you kiss me, i can tell you miss me

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imagine listening to cannibal corpse in your most important years as a kid

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my fear of missing out comes way too late. i'm an introvert.. but does that mean i have to miss out on everything? teenage love? parties with friends? running around through the city, not caring about what others think? i feel like time is running away from me. i am 19 years old and i have experienced nothing.

social anxiety has ruined my life and the time is over, i can't change what happened. or rather: what didn't happen.

i can try to be better from now on but what about the time before?

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on my way home i felt so strange. i sat in my dads old & rusty car, driving through my city i've known for so long. there was only one red light throughout the drive, my leg started shaking because my seat was too close to the steering wheel and i had to put too much force into my foot to push down the clutch, in this moment i felt everything crushing down on me. i didn't think in that moment. i just stared at the light. waiting. what am i waiting for? is this a metaphor? are things really getting better again or am i just trying to be happy? everything is fine, i am trying to get better. i need to get better. clean your room, fix your pc, read more, study more, be more open, be ready. ready for whatever life is planning. do my friends really like me? do they really want me? when i can't meet them it's like they don't care. "we have time" but really, do we? do we have time or is it slipping through our fingers like the sand we used to play with when we were kids? we were kids not too long ago and still, time is running away from me, i fear. it's running away from us. is it scared? are we a threat? am i a threat? i want to talk about it all at once and i want them to feel safe with me but what if my attempt to make things good turns out to ruin everything. what if i am not what i think i am. what if my world falls into a million pieces and what if i will never find a way to make it a whole again.

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girlhood

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how do i fix a network problem on my new pc i'm literally about to scream and shout and let it all out

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my two best friends arguing about taylor swifts new album in our funky lil group chat sure is a special type of vibe

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i need to read more; i need to draw more; i need to learn more; i need to watch more movies; i need to play more games; i need to listen to more music; i need to meet my friends more often; i need to clean more; i need to eat more; i need to drink more water; i need to watch that movie they recommended; i need to listen to that song they told me about; i need to take more care of myself and i really need to get out of bed