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me and his blood

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me whenever i have to prepare smth for school

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i just learned that "the spot" from spider-man across the spiderverse actually is based on the pun "johnny on the spot" (a person who is at hand whenever needed) and i am ._. amazed

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me whenever the conversation goes silent

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imagine every bird in our universe had a nose and teeth like the grey heron from the boy and the heron

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i was running, heart in my hand

from feelings i could not withstand

you stood so steady, patient, kind

saying "take your time, i don't mind"

i built my walls so high, so strong

you promised you'd wait, no matter how long

and slowly, brick by brick

i let you in and found my peace

you said "i’ll stay, i’ll love you true

through every storm, with all we got to go through"

i gave my heart, i gave my all

but now i sit here as it falls

with love that burns, with love so deep

i was ready to give it all to keep

you watched my world come crashing down

stood as my anchor when i drowned

you were my last, my only light

through endless days and sleepless nights

but as i reached, you turned away

your love had faded, gone astray

and now i’m left to hold on to

this love i’ll never get to show you

did you mean it when you said you'd stay?

when i broke my walls and let you lay

beside the parts i hid away?

now they're scattered in disarray

the tears fall soft, the silence loud

i scream your name, but you're not around

you said "i’ll stay, i’ll love you true

through every storm, with all we got to go through"

but now i know, those words were dreams

fleeting whispers, broken schemes

with love that burns, with love so true

i was ready to give it all to you

now i sit alone, my chest still bare

the love i saved just lingers there

for someone who’s no longer mine

a broken heart lost in time

and all that’s left of you and me

are the tears i cry, the memories

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It still takes me a long time to not take it personally. So often, I spiral down the rabbit hole of my mind and think: Is it me? Was it me? I really did get too boring. I got too sad, too depressed, and I lost all of myself in the few months my life fell into pieces.

"I fell out of love with you," he said, while I sat at home writing letters full of love for him to make him happy between the years. December 25th. Merry Christmas.

He’d been watching my life crumble apart every day and gave me all the strength I didn’t have myself. He showed me my worth and his love. He gave me the touch I had been craving for so long, and he gave me the eyes of trust.

After just a month of commitment, he took all the touch, love, and care we had been building up for half a year away from me. Why would he do this to me? I’ve thought this so many times. Why would he tear my whole heart out and leave no pieces?

He had been watching me fall apart and stood strong behind and next to me. He told me about patience, and after four weeks of unconditional love, he took away the things I had been fighting not to get for years.

I ran away from him until he got faster than me, stood still in front of me, and told me to trust. He told me to feel. I did. I trusted, and I felt all of it and more. Just for him to get bored of me.

I started listening to his music, started to get into his hobbies, and really loved hearing all the smart words he let out of his mouth. I began to be him instead of being me on his side. I lost myself entirely just to love freely. I lost my friends, and also my love.

Falling out of love is something a man can't explain. But I’m learning to understand, and I’m learning to not take it personally. It’s just thoughts and fears inside my mind.

This is the first relationship in forever that did not end on bad terms. I will take the best out of it and find myself, be myself, and only love myself for the closest part of the future.

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i mean who tf would call matty healy a "tattooed golden retriever"

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there is so little time of hobie and pav in across the spiderverse but still they're all i think about

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there's no way fucking rodrick and josh have roles in oppenheimer

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i like the way you kiss me, i can tell you miss me

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imagine listening to cannibal corpse in your most important years as a kid

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on my way home i felt so strange. i sat in my dads old & rusty car, driving through my city i've known for so long. there was only one red light throughout the drive, my leg started shaking because my seat was too close to the steering wheel and i had to put too much force into my foot to push down the clutch, in this moment i felt everything crushing down on me. i didn't think in that moment. i just stared at the light. waiting. what am i waiting for? is this a metaphor? are things really getting better again or am i just trying to be happy? everything is fine, i am trying to get better. i need to get better. clean your room, fix your pc, read more, study more, be more open, be ready. ready for whatever life is planning. do my friends really like me? do they really want me? when i can't meet them it's like they don't care. "we have time" but really, do we? do we have time or is it slipping through our fingers like the sand we used to play with when we were kids? we were kids not too long ago and still, time is running away from me, i fear. it's running away from us. is it scared? are we a threat? am i a threat? i want to talk about it all at once and i want them to feel safe with me but what if my attempt to make things good turns out to ruin everything. what if i am not what i think i am. what if my world falls into a million pieces and what if i will never find a way to make it a whole again.

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girlhood

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how do i fix a network problem on my new pc i'm literally about to scream and shout and let it all out

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my two best friends arguing about taylor swifts new album in our funky lil group chat sure is a special type of vibe