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[ethotv-archived]

dream smp but its the mechanisms

aka “oh my god why do so many mechs song fit the dsmp” or “please help ive been here for 2 hours”. organised by album, all with links to the songs (and lyrics). have fun! all of this, of course, is /rp and referring to the characters

once upon a time (in space)

aka “this is just manburg v pogtopia arc but with lesbians in space”

old king cole - jschlatt. also some fun nods to technoblade being the executioner. also immortal!schlatt is a fun hc

rose red - bear with me. niki. interesting that the person stopping rose from getting married is king cole, and how schlatt held niki back and singled her out in manburg

our boy jack - tommy. is it about tommy or is tommy singing thats for you to decide.

sleeping beauty - not the main song but jonnys verses are chaos gang (wilbur, techno, dream)

no happy endings - manburg v pogtopia arc. need i say more

laid in blood - tommy and phil in the aftermath of november 16th

ulysses dies at dawn

aka “yeah this is all for trial by song thats really it”

broken horses - philza :’) and some technoblade

favoured son - a reach but.. dadschlatt au tubbo?

trial by song - nlm tubbo i made this post just for this song its HIM

underworld blues - dream as hades, if we go with the hc that joining the server wipes your memories of any time before it (another reach, but im skipping a lot of songs already :/)

ties that bind - wilbur, tommy, techno, tubbo; theres a lot of lines that can be interpreted different ways. verse 2 is tubbo though

high noon over camelot

aka “ouch (also the fact i cant assign karlnapity to blood and whiskey hurts)”

gunfight at the dolorous guard - og lmanberg being founded. also lancelots verse... ouch

hanged man rusts - gawain = quackity/butcher army arthur = philza (lol kinda) galahad = ranboo???? im reaching again. purely based on merlins verses not their responses, with the exception of quackity

blood and whiskey - bench trio (platonically. if it wasnt obvious) going to kill dream

peacemaker - fundy and ranboo as gawain and mordred after doomsday/green festival. or techno and tommy?

once and future king - philza to wilbur. ouch

the bifrost incident

aka “what the fuck am i meant to do here”

odin - pre-smp dream perhaps? foreshadowing his descent into madness even more

loki - ghostbur. also the entire reason for the post. im electing to ignore thors verse bc idk who he could be

sigyn - pogtopia tommy? excluding the verses where she finds loki ofc

(this section is short bc . well. ragnarok is hard to assign ok)

misc (tales to be told+more)

aka “theres just... so many songs...”

tales to be told - tales from the smp (minus the like... hard drinking. and violence)

gunpowder tim vs the moon kaiser (yes this gets a subsection) > the recruiters song - pogtopia/manburg propaganda > tim goes crazy - pogtopia wilbur :/ > teatime with the kaiser - tubbo (if he ever used the dead mans switch on his nukes)(also theres no single video for this one sorry)

hereward the wake - technoblade, since hes apparently a literal legend wtf

pieces - techno and tommy i am in shambles. please indulge me and pretend theyre brothers for 4 minutes 23 seconds. ignore the final verses though

stranger - tubbo and ranboo, when tubbo finds out about the enderwalk. yeah. ouch

lucky sevens - sapnap just for the pyromania and vibes but. nothing else

lost in the cosmos - jack manifold... robot hc <3

lotus eaters - exile arc with protege tommy OR eggpire

bonus: raising the dead! (jessica law) - alivebur resurrection pre-disc day (the doctors are eret and philza)

[ithinkofnealcassady]

ok so ive never listened to bruce springsteen and ur makin me wonder what all the fuss is about so....what are ur fave songs.....

i just fell in love with you.

i’m listing by album in order from early bruce onward. you need to love early bruce before you get into later bruce, just trust me. ignore the fact that there will be no recs from the 90s or early 2000s. keep in mind bruce’s discography is fucking MONUMENTAL. it’s enormous it’s huge it’s a stonking humdinger. like.

and i haven’t even listened to the early 2000s albums on spotify.

greetings from asbury park: listen to the whole thing in order PLEASE i’m begging you. it’s the first, formative album. it’s pure, pure bruce. every song is a home run; i could make my top 5 songs EVER purely from this album.

e street shuffle: this is one of my favorite albums of all time. no skips. but if i HAVE to choose—4th of july asbury park (though it’s sooo much better live, listen to the 1975 hammersmith odeon live recording on spotify); incident on 57th street (LISTEN TO THE LYRICS); (of fucking course) rosalita (but you NEED to listen to those two in order bc they lead into each other!!)

born to run: again, the desire to say Every Song is physically painful. these three albums are all perfection. literally no album has ever compared, much less anyone’s FIRST THREE ALBUMS. but to choose: tenth avenue freeze-out; backstreets; she’s the one; and then meeting across the river INTO JUNGLELAND they lead into each other

darkness on the edge of town: another perfect album. badlands is my 4th most listened to song ever and a perfect album opener. adam raised a cain is brutal. something in the night is spectacular. racing in the street gives me angina. the promised land is insanity. prove it all night is a song i will do dirty, dirty things to when my second vaccine kicks in. darkness on the edge of town is a perfect titular piece.

the river: THE RIVER MY BELOVED. i adore this album even though it broke my dad’s heart because it sounds un-bruce compared to the earlier albums. if you’re pressed for time, just listen to side A from start to end in order, it’s fantastic.

nebraska: if i was a bruce fan in the 70s and i waited two years after the river for his next album and he put out fucking nebraska, i would’ve stopped being a bruce fan. johnny 99 and open all night are the only 2 i can stomach from this album.

born in the USA: aka his sellout commercial album. not to say the songs aren’t good; it’s just inherently a sellout album. titular track is FANTASTIC, listen to the lyrics though, it’s a revolution song. i’m on fire is his horniest song. no surrender makes me screech. glory days and dancing in the dark is one of the best back-to-backs ever. my hometown makes me bawl bc i’m from new jersey.

tunnel of love: not much to say. listen to all that heaven will allow; tunnel of love; brilliant disguise.

human touch: titular track is all i love in this world

skipping to tom joad, which is like fine but i only listened to it once and can’t say you Have To Listen To Any Of It.

skipping all original stuff until he put out the record from his hammersmith odeon show in london 1975, it was his first european tour and he’s sooo awkward and good and i have literally never heard a song faster than how he played born to run that night. i’ll say again that version of sandy keeps me up at night it’s so good it makes me feel like i have gravel-burn on my heart

working on a dream: titular; queen of the supermarket

wrecking ball: titular; shackled and drawn

western stars: tucson train is going to be my most listened to song of all time by the end of this weekend and that’s a promise; it’s already number 3. it’s soooo cinematic and gorgeous and the strings make me want to carve my liver out and feed it to a horse. i wrote a short story about it last night. i also like sleepy joe’s and moonlight motel

letter to you: LETTER TO YOU MY SEXY BOYFRIEND LETTER TO YOU. letter to you is literally a letter, it’s a LOVE letter to bruce’s forever fans, it’s old bruce and yet new bruce and it’s perfect. every song is perfect. but my tops if i HAVE TO CHOOSE are as follows—letter to you; RAINMAKER; GHOSTS; song for orphans; ill see you in my dreams (which makes me weep)

also: FIRE which is actually on The Promise now that i check; protection which is unreleased and on youtube

[horansqueen]

Stuck With You - Chapter 7

Chapter 7 : Break Me, Shake Me

🡪chapter 1  🡪chapter 2  🡪chapter 3  🡪chapter 4  🡪chapter 5  🡪chapter 6

College Enemies To Lovers AU

characters // masterlist // instagrams // mood board

I never thought I'd change my opinion again But you moved me in a way that I've never known Well you confuse me in a way that I've never known

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                                                   After an other hour of work, we gave up and I leaned my cheek on the warm wood of the table with a sigh, closing my eyes. I was tired and I really wanted to be in my own bed, even if I knew it was impossible. I forced myself to open my eyes and moved my phone near my face to check the time. It was almost midnight and I felt my heart jump in my chest when I realized I would probably be late for my first class in the next morning unless I skipped the shower. I grimaced before noticing Niall who was staring at me. He was still holding his pen but I suspected he hadn't been working on our paper in over half an hour, for sure.

"You can sleep on the couch if you want." he proposed, looking away when my eyes met his. "I don't mind sleeping in this chair."

"Don't be stupid." I mumbled, using all my strength to sit back up. "The couch is big enough for both of us."

"Not if we lay down." he pointed out, looking up at me with only his eyes, his face still down.

I held my breath at how blue his eyes were and finally licked my lips nervously. When was the last time I felt like that around someone? I felt my heart hit my rib cage hard when I realized it was my teacher and cleared my throat.

"Yea well, I can easily sleep while sitting, no problem."

I noticed the left corner of his lips raise up and looked away before getting up and reaching the couch. I let myself fall on it and leaned the back of my head against it, closing my eyes. I was exhausted but I couldn't stop the thumping of my heart in my chest. With my eyes closed, I didn't know what Niall was doing, or if he was looking at me, and it made me nervous.

"Devon?"

His voice was soft and gentle and it took me by surprise. I opened my eyes and moved my head up to look at him just as his lips parted slightly. He stared at me and I was not sure what to think about it.

"Yes?"

"Mm, nothing." he finally just replied after a while. "You can sleep."

I blinked a few times but I finally closed my eyes again and leaned my head back on the couch. I was not expecting him to talk again but his voice reached me as he let out my name again in a low tone.

"Devon?"

I looked up for the second time and he just shrugged. "I still don't like you." he said casually, not looking at me.

"Yea, I don't like you either." I replied after a few seconds.

His eyes met mine and when his lips curled slightly, I couldn't help but smile back at him. I didn't know what it meant, and somehow, I was not sure I wanted to know. I felt like Niall wanted to hate me, but he didn't really. He just didn't really like it, if it made any sense.

It took me a while to fall asleep but I woke up slowly and kept my eyes closed. A lot of times, I'd wake up with a start but for some reason I ignored, I felt calm. I shouldn't feel like that. After all, I was stuck all night in a library with a guy who didn't particularly enjoyed my presence and who made me extremely nervous for who knows what reason. Still, I felt good when I woke up and my heart skipped a beat when I heard Niall's voice. He was humming, almost whispering  the lyrics, but somehow, I understood everything.

"Like the rain on a sunny day There's a shadow behind your face Tell me what you're running from I don't know what made you so afraid Don't you know you got the best of me? Yeah, you're everything I want

Anyone can see Anyone can see You're hiding, hiding You can talk to me It's more than skin deep But I'm trying, yeah."

And that's when I knew why I felt so calm waking up. His voice soothed me the same way it had when I spied on him without wanting to. Exactly like that time, I felt a bunch of emotions flood me but this time, I felt calm and at peace and I liked it.

"Since we're alone Yeah, you can show me your heart If you put it all in my hand No, I swear No, I won't break it apart Since we're alone Show me all that you are And if you get lost in the light It's OK. I can see in the dark."

My lips parted slightly but I kept my eyes closed when I realized it was the words I had read in his notebook earlier. Niall was not only humming a random song, it was a song he had written, and the lyrics were beautiful.

"All your thoughts running through your head The things you think better left unsaid Just wanna know where you came from Why would you wanna play someone else I love you best when you're just yourself Yeah, you're everything I want."

I swallowed hard but tried to remain motionless. I knew that if he found out I was awake, he would probably stop singing and it was the last thing I wanted. I felt my whole body on fire when a sudden thought came to my mind and I quickly pushed it away. Was I actually jealous of the girl he was talking to in his song?

He sang the chorus again and finally stopped but I could hear him scribble something and after a while, he sighed. I heard his pen fall on the table and his chair make an annoying noise. I felt paralyzed, like moving, even just slightly, would give myself away and Niall would find out I was not asleep anymore.

Even with my eyes closed, I once again felt like I was seeing him naked, or more like I was seeing a part of his soul I shouldn't have access to. Suddenly, the guilt inside me made me feel like I had to show him one of my painting, if only to be sure I would expose a part of myself the same way he was exposing a part of himself without knowing. It only seemed fair.

I fell asleep again and this time, when I woke up, I realized it was morning. Perhaps it was the uncomfortable position I was in that made it impossible for me to remain asleep but I grimaced and groaned low, stretching my neck slowly and keeping my eyes closed. I was about to move when I felt something on my thighs. My heart jumped in my chest before it started racing and my eyes fluttered open. It's only when I saw Niall's head on my lap that my lips parted in surprise and I stopped moving completely.

I let my eyes roam on his profile and without thinking, I let one of my hands grab the side of the couch tightly. The only time Niall and I had touched was when I had slapped him. Now, the feeling was completely different and I couldn't seem to think about anything else but the way his cheek pressed on my thigh.

He let out a short whimper in his sleep and I brought my hand closer, stopping myself just as I was about to touch him. I started nibbling on my bottom lip but all I could really focus on was the way the same lock of his hair was falling on his forehead, almost over his eyes. I held my breath as I moved the lock away and felt my fingertips brush on his skin slightly. I hadn't expect it, but it woke him up and he groaned, quickly sitting up and stretching. I had probably tickled his forehead without wanting to and I pressed my lips together as I watched him wake up.

"'Morning."

His voice was raspy and I couldn't pretend it was not hot. In fact, I pressed my thighs together without thinking but quickly squirmed on my seat, feeling extremely stupid.

'This guy hates you, Dev, why does he make you feel things?' I thought to myself trying to get back to my senses.

"Is it late enough for us to finally leave this horrible library?" he continued when he realized I wouldn't answer.

I blinked a few times and finally reached for my phone. "What time does this 'horrible library' open?"

Niall cleared his throat and got up, stretching some more. "Seven."

"10 minutes left." I simply pointed out, watching him gather his stuff and put everything in his bag.

I hated how he was avoiding my gaze but I kept my eyes on him until he put his bag on his shoulder and walked to the door to wait by it. I grabbed my bag too, throwing the rest of the food away, and decided to wait by his side. We didn't look at each other but It was pure torture. I wanted to turn to him and try to decipher his feelings through his facial expressions but something was telling me he was keeping a stoic face anyway. I hated that it mattered to me so much what Niall thought about me. After all, i did come to this school with the intention to be a stronger person who didn't care what everyone thought about me. For most part, I didn't really care what people thought but Niall... well, Niall was different. I cared even if I had no reason to. And it made everything so much worse.

When the door finally opened I heard him curse next to me and next thing I knew, we were back in our room. They had apologized profusely, probably scared that we would sue them or something but all I wanted was to sleep in a comfortable bed for a few hours.

I threw my bag next to my bed as Niall was doing the same and grabbed a towel, sweatpants and a t-shirt. If there was one thing I needed more than a nice bed with warm sheets, it was a good hot shower. Problem was, Niall and I both tried to walk through the bathroom door at the same time, resulting in us literally bumping in the door frame. He cleared his throat and turned to look at me, his eyes roaming down on my body before looking back up in my eyes. He frowned a bit before raising his eyebrows up.

"No thank you. No way." he just shrugged a shoulder, making my heart drop in my chest. "I'll do quick. Five minutes."

I was way too surprised by his rude words to reply anything and he locked himself in the bathroom as I remained motionless. Of course, I didn't expect him to invite me in the shower with him, but to act like it would be the most awful and terrible thing that could happen to him was hurtful. Okay, perhaps I was not the thinnest or prettiest girl around but I had thought that after the night we just had had, he would be a little bit nicer with me. Obviously, I was wrong.

I walked back to my bed and sat on it, hearing the shower as I tried to understand what my roommate was all about. It seemed like every single time he ended up opening up to me a bit, he quickly closed the door in my face the same way he had on my first day. Niall didn't want to let anyone in, or at least it seemed, and the only way he had found to make people run away was to be rude to them. I had no idea why it seemed to be even worse with me but maybe it was simply because of my relationship with Louis.

The thought of him made me grab my phone and I started typing a message to him, asking him if I could take a shower in his room. I knew this wouldn't help my relationship with Niall, whatever it was, but somehow, I felt like at this point, it couldn't be worse.

'It's 7 in the morning, wtf?' Louis simply replied, making me bite my bottom lip.

"Oops." I said out loud before typing an answer. 'Sorry, I was locked in the library all night with Niall.'

It only took half a minute for me to get an answer. 'Get your ass in here, woman. I want to know everything.'

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I took a shower in Louis' room and when I got out, he handed me a cup of coffee.

"You're officially my favorite person in the world!" I let out with a chuckle, making him laugh too as I grabbed the coffee from his hands.

We both sat on his bed and I held my cup with both hands to get them warm. The truth was, I couldn't stop thinking about Niall and his voice from last night, when he was singing his song. I wanted to hear it with instruments, i wanted to hear his voice louder and not only whispered. I had no idea why it made me feel the way i did and I didn't really want to know. All I wanted was to close my eyes and let his voice invade me. The problem was, I didn't have the guts to do it because I didn't want anyone to have that much power over me, even if only with their voice. And let's be real : Niall did have some sort of power over me, and it was not only because of his voice. I was fighting it though, I was fighting it hard and I intended on winning.

"So, locked with my friend Neil in a library all night?" Louis finally said, a smirk playing on his lips. "Interesting."

It was, in fact, very interesting. It seemed like nothing really happened when in reality, a lot of things had happened and I wasn't really sure where I stood or how I felt.

"We're friends, Louis, right?" I asked cautiously.

I saw him frown slightly and he squirmed a bit to sit better.  "Of course Dev, we're friends. What's wrong?"

I licked my lips, trying to remember exactly what Niall had told me the night before. I didn't want to say Louis had lied to me. It was not really a lie, just that he omitted to share some details with me, and it was legitimate of him. He didn't owe me anything, and I hadn't told him everything about myself either. Still, I felt like I had to ask and I had no idea why.

"That girl who fell in love with you..."

I didn't have to continue, Louis sighed and nodded before looking down at his cup and lick his lips. Staring at him made something twist in my chest. I felt close to him and somehow, forcing him to share secrets with me seemed like a bad idea.

"I'm sorry." I quickly added, moving a bit and crossing my legs before leaning my elbows on my knees. "You don't have to tell me, it's none of my business."

"No, no it's cool." he quickly replied before leaning against the wall and sighing. "So I made things clear with her that I could never be with her but I didn't tell her why because, well, I didn't want to betray Niall. Problem is, without a reason, she didn't really want to give up, and there was this party, I was drunk, she brought me in an empty room and just..."

He shrugged before rubbing his free hand on his jeans. I had turned my head to look at him and licked my lips before sitting up and leaning my back on the wall too, close to him.

"That sucks for Niall." I replied in a low voice.

"I know. Our friendship was already shaky and I made it worse. Way worse." he shook his head as I started at him, the back on mine against the wall. "I don't know why he still talks to me and I never dared asking him."

We remained silent for a while and I started thinking about everything that had happened to me at my old school. My best friend had not had sex with the guy I had feelings for, but she had betrayed me in an other way. I hadn't been as nice as Niall had been and I felt a sudden wave of empathy and respect for him, despite the rudeness he showed towards me most of the time. He had been hurt and I knew exactly how it feels to be betrayed by the person you trust the most in the world.

At the same time, I just couldn't feel angry at Louis. I didn't know the girl, and I wasn't there when it happened. I was not going to be pissed at my new friend for that, but it didn't mean I condoned what he did. Somehow, I felt like if It came up, I would take Niall's side. I looked at Louis again and noticed the guilt trip I had put him in and I knew that he would take Niall's side against himself, too.

"He's a good songwriter." I just let out randomly, trying to lighten up the atmosphere. "I heard a few lyrics and it's good."

"He is. He's incredible." Louis agreed with a chuckle, shaking his head. "He succeeds almost everything he does."

I chuckled too and raised my nose up in a grimace. "It's a bit annoying isn't it."

"Maybe." Louis shrugged. "But he deserves it."

"Did he... did he write many songs for that girl?"

I noticed Louis' lips curl into a smirk and he turned a bit to face me but I did everything I could to avoid his eyes. After a while, he finally answered me but kept the smirk on his face.

"A few, yea." Louis replied. "I mean they sort of dated for a few weeks."

"Oh."

"And that's the last girlfriend he ever had. He decided that he didn't want to love anyone ever again. He said that love was painful and not worth it, and that he'd never be vulnerable in front of anyone ever again, especially not someone he has feelings for." Louis added, raising his eyebrows at me. "Does that remind you of someone else's words?"

My lips parted and I felt my heartbeats accelerate suddenly. Of course, it reminded me of someone's words. Those were also my words, the ones I had told Louis a few nights before, after we had had a few drinks. Those were the words I kept repeating to myself after the heartache I went through at my old college. Those were the words I wanted to live by for the rest of my life. Knowing that Niall felt exactly the same made me swallow hard. I did feel connected to Louis, that much was true, but I would have never guessed that Niall and I had went through so many similar feelings and thoughts. I never thought I could feel connected to him, too. And I was not sure I wanted to.

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REQUESTS

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i was tagged by @jbhmalum @bourgeoix​ and @redrattlers to share my top 7 albums tysm♥ this was so hard......also let’s ignore my url and the fact that sgfg isn’t on here tagging @mikeycliffords @clumsyclifford @himbocalum + anyone else who hasn’t been tagged yet and would like to 

here’s the link to the website ramblings below 

broken machine (deluxe) by nothing but thieves this was the only no brainer. honestly i am so far up this band’s ass it’s ridiculous. the temptation to add their self-titled and at least the most recent EP on here........look i don’t think i’ll ever find the words to describe what this album means to me. definition of no skips

calm by 5sos shocker  idk how i’m not sick of it yet but!!!!!! easily their best work yet i am not debating this

hypersonic missiles by sam fender this is a gorgeous work of art. i love this stupid boy dearly. 

the loved ones by flyte dreamy britpop retro beatlesesque i don’t know how to describe it but do yourselves a favor and listen to this. it’s so devastatingly sad and beautiful and their harmonies are to kill for!! i am so excited for the new album i have been bugging them for years and they are so kind to put up with my shit they are humble and they interact with listeners and just. yeah. songs are full of literary references <3

ok, i’m sick by badflower rage!!!!!! brutally honest lyrics!! sign me tf up!!!

after laughter by paramore i sat here for solid 10 minutes battling myself not being able to decide whether to put brand new eyes or after laughter. both albums and paramore in general mean the world to me// i’m leaving it at that

the spark by enter shikari i had to include this one here even tho it might stick out the most among this crowd// let’s start with the fact that this album was released on my birthday and i’m claiming it<3 honestly it was such a drastic change in shikari’s sound and it’s one i welcomed with open arms. rou has always had a way with words but he really outdid himself wit this one,, the book of essays that further elaborate on these songs is one of my most prized possessions. i also have to mention the night i saw them live was one of the best if not the best of my life. i jokingly left a dramatic comment on their insta about playing airfield so that i can die in peace<3 and. THEY FUCKING DID. they saw it, replied ~Ok and added it to the setlist. single coolest fucking thing to happen to me. fuck i love them.

[actuallyrandomperson]

My thoughts on the Sanders Sides Spotify playlists- Virgil Edition!

Note: this is Purely me saying whether or not I like the songs, not theorising about any deeper meanings. I’ve done them all, so just click on the names to see my reactions to the others: Patton, Roman, Logan, Janus

Impressions from looking through the playlist: I don’t specifically know most of the songs (I know more of the bands), but I feel like that’ll be a recurring theme as I tend to stick within my very specific music taste and only add songs to my playlists if I hear them while I’m out and about and like them enough to find them on Spotify, which means my horizons aren’t broadened very often. The ones I do know do not surprise me that much (neither do the bands, for that matter), as they feel very Virgil

1: ‘Sunrise, Sunset’, by Bright Eyes. I didn’t mind it at first? But the chorus was a bit too,,, shouty for me. Probably Definitely a song I’d skip if it came up on a playlist in the future, as much as I liked the tune(/melody?). Not surprised to find it on Virgil’s playlist though, it gives off Angst. Was very in my face as I tried to continue reading fics.

2: ‘Lets Kill Tonight’, by Panic! At The Disco. One that I have probably heard before, as while I myself didn’t have an emo music phase, an ex friend did. I liked it more, as I expected to as I tend to like p!atd’s songs. Not one that I’d go out of my way to listen to again, but has been added to my 32 hour long playlist on Spotify (not my slightly more curated 10 hour one tho, but I mostly play the 10 hour one while doing work or while others are around soo). Once again felt like it suited Virgil, (as I imagine all of them will, so I might just call out ones that feel Odd if any do.)

3: ‘Sally’s Song’, by Amy Lee. It might shock some of y’all, but not one I’ve really heard before! I live in Australia so Halloween’s not a massive thing and I actually don’t know that many people who’ve watched The Nightmare Before Christmas. Thomas is actually one of the main reasons I know that the movie exists. I really liked it, unsurprisingly, so it too made its way to my 32 hour playlist (not the ten hour one, but only because I try to keep mostly ‘normal’ songs on there so there’s not that many songs from movies in it)

4: ‘It Ends Tonight’, by The All-American Rejects. I recognised the band, but not the title. I think I’ve heard this before though- I didn’t love it, but I didn’t hate it. I wouldn’t skip it if it popped up in a playlist at some stage in the future, but I haven’t added it to either of my playlists.

5: ‘I’d Hate To Be You When Everyone Fonds Out What This Song Is About’, Mayday Parade. Very long title (ok, I know in emo song title standards it’s not even that long but as I said I didn’t really have an emo phase so these sorts of titles always shock me) that slightly confuses me (who’s you? why is what the songs about bad for them??), but I liked it! Is now on my 32 hour playlist. I suspect that at the end of listening to all of these it will be longer than 32 hours.

6: ‘A Decade Under The Influence’, Taking Back Sunday. Another one that I liked enough that I wouldn’t skip it in the future, but didn’t add to my playlist. I just didn’t vibe with it enough. Happened to line up with Roman having a Bad Feeling™ in the fic I was reading tho so that was entertaining

7: ‘Thks fr th mmrs’, by Fall Out Boy. This was the first song to invoke feelings of Nostalgia™ in me, and I’m kinda shocked it’s not already in my 32 hour playlist. That has been remedied. This song was played a fair bit in my childhood, both on the radio and by an older sister. I imagine a lotta people my age had a similar thing. Obviously one I Love. Got me to stop reading in favour of being a doofus by lip syncing and dancing around while lying in bed (and deafening my eardrums as I turned it up louder) during the chorus.

8: ‘Be Calm’, by Fun. This was the second song that I didn’t recognise either the title or the band for. I liked it, even though the initial warped carnival-esque tune thing made me think of Pennywise. Pretty much as soon as the singing started I added it to the 32 hour playlist. It might make its way to the shorter one one day, as I actually really like it. It’s just a bit odd, and as I said I try to keep that playlist to more ‘conventionally normal’ songs as it’s designed for me to be able to play around other people without getting weird looks.

9: ‘I’m Not Okay (I Promise)’, by My Chemical Romance. Let’s be real. I would’ve cried if this song wasn’t included in the playlist. You would’ve cried if this song was not included in this playlist. If all of their songs aren’t in their respective playlists I’ll be disappointed. This song being in the playlist prompted me to go back and rewatch that episode. so many jokes originate in that ep. also we only knew one name back then? and the dark sides were barely a blip on our radars??? how????? ok back to the song- not my favourite, but I wasn’t expecting it to be. Probably won’t skip it every time it comes up in the future, but it’s definitely not my cup of tea.

10: ‘Imaginary’, by Evanescence. I laughed when I realised this was next up, as rewatching the q&a reminded me that Virgil said they were his favourite band so I’d noted that I had to look out to see if any of their songs were on the playlist. I liked it enough to add it to the 32 hour playlist, but wouldn’t go out of my way to play it in the future.

11: ‘Soft Shock- Acoustic Version’, by Yeah Yeah Yeahs. When this started my first thought was ‘oh, I think I’m gonna really like this one!’ and my second was ‘I’m kinda surprised it’s on Virgils playlist, but it feels right somehow.’ (It made more sense as I listened to the lyrics, I think I was just massively caught off guard by it being acoustic). I hadn’t heard of either the song or the band before this, but my initial instinct was Correct and it has in fact.... made it onto the ten hour playlist!! Hell yeah!! I actually liked it enough to listen to the og version as well, which I still liked but slightly less. (Also I have heard some of their music before as I realised looking at the album this came from that my one of my sisters used to listen to them, which I’m not that surprised about as we have Similar tastes in music)

12: ‘The Good That Won’t Come Out’, by Rilo Kiley. I liked this enough to consider adding it to my 32 hour playlist, and the lyrics were interesting, I just didn’t vibe with it that much. 🤷‍♀️

13: ‘Sick Sad World’, by Nervus. The bands name feels very apt for Virgil. I liked the rhythm of this one, and it was also a Certified Mood tbh. Got added to the 32 hour playlist!! Also made me wanna hug Virgil.

14: ‘Ignorance’, by Paramore. I wasn’t expecting to love this, as I don’t remember really liking much of Paramore’s music in the past even though I know I must’ve heard some, but I didn’t hate it. Didn’t get added to either of my playlists, but I probably wouldn’t skip it in the future.

15: ‘The Ice Is Getting Thinner’, by Death Cab for Cutie. I was expecting to like this one, as one of my favourite youtuber’s fave songs is a death cab for cutie song and I really like it as well. I did like this one quite a bit, but it only made its way onto my 32 hour playlist.

16: ‘Overkill- Acoustic Version’, by Colin Hay. I didn’t mind this, but didn’t like it enough to put it on the 32 hour playlist. I possibly would like the original version more, but I can’t be bothered finding it especially given my first impression is just meh

17: ‘Under Pressure’, by My Chemical Romance. I didn’t love it as much as I love the original, but it did prompt me to check if I’d added the original to my two playlists. Apparently I didn’t, even though I was listening to a Lot of Queen when I was deeply entrenched in good omens.

18: ‘Everything is Alright’, Motion City Soundtrack. I liked this one! I think I might’ve heard It before, but it’s been a while. It got added to the 32 hour playlist.

19: ‘The Middle’, by Jimmy Eat World. I didn’t recognise the title b u t I did recognise the song. Obviously. Because I’m a gen z with older siblings. It was the second big nostalgia feels song, which was made even stronger by me not immediately recognising the title (unlike thks fr th mmrs). Was added to the 32 hour playlist as soon as I realised what song it was

20: ‘Vindicated’, by Dashboard Confessional. I knew this, but mostly from a music podcast called Punch up The Jam so hearing it in full was weird. Added it to the 32 hour playlist but wouldn’t go out of my way to listen to it again.

Final thoughts: I know I said I never had an emo phase in music, but I do actually like a lot of it even tho I was never That Kid, so I was kinda expecting to at least like a lot of these songs. My favourite song was definitely Be Calm, closely followed Soft Shock and Thks Fr Th Mmrs. 12/20 got added to my 32 hour playlist, and 2 (I eventually decided my love of Be Calm was strong enough for it to be an exception) to the 10 hour one!

@thatsthat24

[willmelon]

i don’t usually do this but i feel Compelled to do a liveblog/review of Mouth Dreams so here goes

Please don’t read this if you haven’t heard the album yet as it’ll spoil Everything

(i’ll admit the idea came to me After i listened to Just a Baby so these first ones are gonna be relistened reviews)

first we got Yahoo. what can i say about this song? neil starts off Strong with incredibly sustained notes and just one phrase, in typical neil style. and he makes it work in so many different ways! honestly didn’t expect myself to get so attached so fast but that’s just the way his magic works ig. when the hoooooooos harmonise it almost brings tears to the eyes. i would love to see a group of choristers singing this with another guy on an electric keyboard. what a cold open. 9/10

of course then we go on to the titular track, the dimension of sound, the dimension of imagination, the dimension of doors. rod serling narrates the intro in his traditional monotone as the warbling twilight zone theme plays in the background. i tell ya i was actually Screaming when the track finished and he dropped the title! it may not be a song per se, sort of like Blockbuster from Mouth Moods, a ‘filler track’ if you will, but the effort in those fifty seconds cannot be ignored. it just goes to show once again how Good he is at what he does. 6.5/10

oh lawd, my favourite so far, Spongerock. reading the title i had absolutely No idea what to expect. the goofy goober song from the movie? winner takes all from band geeks? i was pleasantly surprised to find myself tapping out queen’s distinctive boom boom CLAP as the song progressed, and i was in complete Hysterics the whole way through, chanting along with the kids as the pirate encouraged me to sing louder. it’s such a beautiful fit the way they mesh together, and it’s one of those mashups that you listen to and think ‘why has nobody done this before?’ but neil is on a higher plane of existence than us and Knows where it’s at. you’re never the same after you’ve listened to Spongerock. 7.5/10

Just a Baby, where i stopped to begin this thing, is a melancholy song, which i’m not usually a fan of. i admit i don’t know the original song so i kept quiet until the last chorus or two. it’s the yang to the yin of Wow Wow from Moods, another sentence-mixer that was like a full Bop and barely gave you time to catch your breath. in Just a Baby you begin to empathise with the singer as he regales confusing times of his constant youth, including the time his mother (a train) shot a man in cold blood. it’s a powerful ballad, and it’s got a tasteful amount of justin bieber adding backing vocals to the chorus. i may have to deduct a few points cos the lyrics are gonna be hard af to remember. 7/10

ok next up we got Superkiller. this one’s totally blind! i’m. ehhhhh okay not diggin this one very much. ok that say something once line being repeated was comedy gold but talking heads are just like. kinda tuneless tbh. i’m glad he’s trying to lassoo it together with u can’t touch this but it’s kinda falling short tbh. i wouldn’t skip it but it’s not as memorable as the previous ones. 5/10

starting Get Happy. i’m not gonna lie i think i Know what this is, there are only so many options after all. i predict it’s a mix of “get dancin’” by disco-tex and the sex-o-lettes and “happy” by bahrrel williams, and i really hope that ain’t the case cos i Love the first one but despise the latter. oh well let’s see if he can pull it off. sounds like village green by the kinks so far lol uhhhh i have no idea what to make of this. okay i feel like i’m gonna like this after all. hey it’s got memorable lyrics at least! is it gonna get faster? or just more bassy? yknow maybe i was too critical at the start, but i had no idea what to expect. this is a feel-good pop song and it’s definitely making me feel happier than i was when i was listening to Superkiller. 7/10

Ribs? wtf do i expect from a song called Ribs lmao another song i’ve never heard of IH IT’S EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE TH WORLD OH YEEEEEEEEES omg i Love this song i sing it to myself when i’m walkin my dog cos his little paws click-clack on the pavement to the exact rhythm of the song omg i’m in Love! another one with odd lyrics but i think after a Lot of repeat listening i’ll be able to properly croon along to this one omg! it reminds me of Best from Mouth Silence in that they’re both about products, only instead of folgers in your cup it’s about chili’s baby back ribs omg neil you’re Perfect! how come more advertisers haven’t contacted you for a product placement deal?? 7.5/10

next we got My Mouth. welcome to? who knows let’s hit play. ooooh minor key. is this a real song? it sounds like oney singing a cover of something. oh That’s the gimmick? 2:30 long i hope there’s something else tbh cos otherwise it’s gonna get pretty thin pretty fast. mm not a fan. the weakest so far imo especially after Ribs blew me away. definitely a bad dream. 3.5/10

Aerolong don’t fail me now! okay see This is how you do a mashup. I DON’T MISS YOU BABAY AND I DO WANNA MISS A THING THAT’S GOLD!! this is just a song about saying bye to your ex lmao i love it. wish it was longer though. 6/10

Sleepin’ here we go! ok in the youtube version the first half of this song is just silence so that wasn’t fun. gee this one’s only moderately better than My Mouth i’m feeling very shortchanged. 4/10

what to expect from Aamoorree? hopefully this one’s another jam but...okay i’m likin this one. it’s Fun and isn’t trying too hard! it’s just a drunk dean martin singing about pizza pie on karaoke night, what more could you ask for lol. 6/10

Where Is My Mom? by the p-p-p-pooo-oo-ooo-oooool of course. i don’t recognise the other song but it’s decent. i’ve listened to slowed-down songs before (the sludgefest chipmunks albums lately) and this one’s kinda ok. not a fan of the ending but points for effort ig. 5.5/10

Fredhammer ay? might there be some peter gabriel in there? undoubtedly. yup there it is lol ok now bring in the flintstones? oh ig that’s fred durst? mm not totally feeling it so far but censoring he** was funny lmao HEY THERE’S SEINFELD i’m wheezin that was a good way to end a song, well done neil. 6.5/10

here goes Limp Wicket. i’m on the edge of my seat. and Again i’m disappointed. is this a bunch of ewoks singing some kind of star wars song? or is it jarjar? either way this is Not a good song. it probably wasn’t before he mashed it up but this wasn’t an improvement. bringing in Fredhammer didn’t help this song much at all, in fact i think it brought both songs down actually. last one was a 7/10 but i Have to dock it points now that it’s a two-parter. as for this one? i’m being generous cos the limp bizkit song was good. 1/10

Cannibals runs for 4 minutes. PLEASE don’t let this be a repeat of the last one. i get that miners can’t dig up gold every time but don’t just show up with a bunch of rocks and iron pyrites yknow i’m just gonna start. i don’t want to be angry at this album. i recognise that sound in the bg! from a cyriak vid i think. thx comin in. loooooooong drone. ugh UGH there are Too many lucid dreams on this album. starting to regret liveblogging this cos i Loved the other three mouth albums. this one’s just falling flat again and again. 3/10

here comes The Outsiders. there is NOTHING to say about this. 1.5/10

come on Johnny. okay that got a laugh out of me, not many songs start with a booing crowd like that, is that meta? wouldn’t put it past him tbh. ah i’ll give it a 5/10, for a kinda filler song it wasn’t too bad.

Closerflies, this has gotta be gold. PLEASE. intro’s goin on for a little too long...mm having never heard the original version of closer i gotta admit i thought it’d be faster, like the one used in Rollercloser in Silence. this version seems very sloppy and sluggish, especially the bassline. 3/10

Nightmovin’ i’m not expecting much OH good intro oh YES now here we go. this is a good one, it’s got clear lyrics and a catchy tune, i’m liking this one more and more by the second. cuts off weird but it’s going into the next one. so i’m gonna leave the rating out of this one and see how it is after the next one.

Whitehouse i’m holding my breath. mm it’s Good but not great tbh. criminal that the last one was half as long as this one. think i’m gonna give both of these songs a 5/10 i doubt they’ll be anyone’s favourites. the title is a nice little joke too i respect that.

Wah! what’s neil’s obsession with using wannabe as a source lmao! it’s another decent one but nothing memorable again. 5/10

Pee Wee Inc i’m expecting big things. good intro I’M IN LOVE okay this is Much better than i imagined it’d be. did he use the radio edit of feel good inc? this is a heck of a way to bring it back to the gold stuff and i wouldn’t be surprised if this is what neil’s head sounds like all the time. 7/10

on to 10,000 Spoons. not sure what to expect from the title. okay this is a Nice one i think. throwback to the likes of Just a Baby with the two songs and the sentence mixing and it’s Good. and really 10,000 spoons is So ironic anyway, don’t you think? 7/10

oh another song called Mouth Dreams? an extro? that was Weird lol ok the intro i wasn’t too keen on, def not as much as the intro, but i got to appreciate it as it went on. like Rlly appreciate it i was beginning to reflect on what a journey i’d been through tonight, especially writing it all down. felt very poetic. and then WHAM, out of nowhere, after being gone for 23 songs, all-star came Back and How! gotta give this one a 7.5/10

keep the train rolling Brithoven! i can hear faint bits of instruments in britney’s song in the back of her audio which sound like a mistake but knowing neil.......yah lmao. this song’s kinda like Promenade (Satellite Pictures at an Exhibition) from Mouth Sounds, i liked what i heard. very nice. 6.5/10

the final song. we’re gonna be hit one more time for Ain’t! and i have NO idea what i’m in for! in the hall of the mountain king eh? is this like a way of looping around to the first song of the first album with classical music? ok the snoring’s a nod to Bustin i’m sure lmao funny anyway. i thought i heard a hey now in there but i must be going nuts. wouldn’t call it a grand finale but it is what it is. 5/10

now the question that must be asked - was Mouth Dreams trying to make a point? was there a reasons so many songs were of lower-quality than previous albums? perhaps it’s just a matter of taste, or perhaps it’s as rod said back on track two, that this album is a doorway into another dimension, and the further you progress, the more mind-rattling, brain-melting concepts you come across. the album gets an average of 5.5 which is kinda disappointing. don’t think i’ll be listening to the whole thing again. thanks for reading!

[streetgxth]

you can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to

rules: hit shuffle on your media player and write down the first 20 songs, then tag 10 people. no skipping!

ok so i am fashionably late to doing this (very on brand for me) but i really wanted to do it so here we are. extra special thank you to @himbocalum for tagging me in this. out of all my 8 years of being on tumblr this is my first tag game can you believe? anyways lets go this is gonna be a little long and so if i can’t figure out how to put this up as a read more then i apologize. feel free to come talk to me about any of these songs or bands i'd be more than happy to chat!!

1. graveyard souls - crown the empire: i love this band so fucking much ooooomg y'all don't even know. this song goes so hard and dave and andy's vocals on it... yes. also "just shut your eyes and remember you're never alone" i'm emo about it and always will be thnx

2. teenagers - my chemical romance: speaking of emo lmao. this right here a fucking emo kid classic. this song is fun af and i love my chem v much

3. bury a friend - billie eilish: i don't care i'm gonna say it. this is a great fucking song and the vibes are immaculate especially the bridge like are you kidding? i love the horror movie energy of it so much

4. nightmare - halsey: MY MF WIFE omg i love miss halsey with my whole heart. she really went tf in on this one and for that i thank her. she sounds so powerful on this one and i just- yes

5. horizon - bad seed rising: rip to this band they not dead just broken up :( anyways i love their singers voice here and lyrics on this one feel very hopeful and the song kinda makes me think of spring time for some reason? i don't know but it's a great song

6. the fallout - crown the empire: once again I LOVE THIS BAND especially this song bc it was the first one i ever heard by them and that made me love them from the start. it has a special place in my heart for that fact and even tho it's not an emotional song it makes me emotional bc of the memories i have with it. so yeah an amazing song i love the theatrics of it and the breakdown!!! pure fuego

7. kids in love - mayday parade: this one really throws me back to the start of my emo days. i listened to this song bc it was the basis of a 5sos one shot djskdhdjd. ANYWAYS love this song it's a bop and i listen to it every time it comes on shuffle

8. rest in piss - old wounds: oof we really getting into the diversity of my music taste with this one. so basically what this song is saying is FUCK FASCISM!!! and i agree. this song goes crazy and i love it and i love his voice and i love this band

9. voodoo doll - 5 seconds of summer: this song is a bop! such a throwback to my early emo days as well. self titled era was a Time™ and i've lowkey been missing it

10. choker - beach goons: this song is pretty short and simple but i love her bc it was the first song i heard by this band and i immediately fell in love with them. i miss them so much as well. nothing happened to them just thinking about seeing them live

11. untouchable - motionless in white: i fucking love motionless in white holy fuck. i will say that this is a song by them i'm more neutral towards like she's good and all but i don't love it like some others songs by them

12. detox - darke complex: another one of my absolute favorite bands and i'm still sad about them breaking up. ugh this song is so fucking good i love it so much. the bridge on this *chefs kiss* they did not have to snap so hard like damn!!

13. autumn leaves - ed sheeran: i don't listen to him v much anymore but this song still hurts. it's so pretty and the first time i heard it i cried (which partly may or may not have been bc once again it was the basis for a fic i was reading djsjskdjfk)

14. blasphemy - bring me the horizon: another song i'm a bit more neutral towards but still really enjoy this band. oli sounds great on this song tho i love his voice

15. breathe in, breathe out - set it off: I LOVE THIS BAND AHHH!! you know how some bands really aren't THAT great when they first start one which is fine but like set it off is hardly one of those bands. this is an older song by them and like they've just always been so fucking good and i love that about them

16. lucky strike - troye sivan: my mf baby troye omg. this song is a certified bop! it's so catchy and fun and he sounds so good on it. ugh i love my son

17. concrete - as it is: my other son!! I know patty walters is not the only member but i do have a special place for him in my heart so! anyways this song launches me into my sophomore year omg. i listened to this song a lot and it's just such a pure pop punk song imo and i just love it

18. fountain of youth - cane hill: this brings me back to summer 2016 which ugh one for the books y'all such a good summer. but uh yeah this song is sick i love me some good metalcore

19. all i see is gold - bridgit mendler: y'all we failed bridgit she was the unproblematic pop girlie that we needed!! this song is just stunning she sounds amazing and the energy of this song is just so real and you can really feel the tension in it

20. winter - pvris: i love pvris!!! this song lyrically isn't that fun but overall sonically it's so bouncy and upbeat and i love songs like that especially ones by pvris bc i adore lynn's voice

if you’ve already done this pls just ignore this of course but if you haven’t then go ahead and do it if you’d like: @reddestdesert @fourdrunksluts @malumsmermaid @calsbunny @babyboyafi @killmytyme ​ @wheniminouterspace ​ @singledadharrington ​ @jizzhands ​ @daftprettyboyys

[rainforestgeek]

Ok I'll hit you. #1-20 please, if you're up for it :)

1. who is the hardest character for you to write?

Hmm. Maybe Pidge. She’s a challenge because she’s an emotional person but she’s not in-touch with her emotions.

Okay, actually the HARDEST is Allura. She and I are such unbelievably different people and it’s so hard to get inside her head.

2. who is the easiest character for you to write?

Lance. For all that he’s wonderfully complex, he’s so external that he’s just not difficult to write. Unlike Pidge, he knows when he feels all the things so I don’t have to hide his motivations from him, if that makes sense. He usually knows why he’s doing what he’s doing - even if it’s dumb as hell.

Also, I get to pour all my stupidest, weirdest jokes into his dialogue! I don’t have to think “is that funny enough to include?” If it’s funny, great! If it’s not, it’s still totally in-character for Lance.

3. How do you know if your writing is “in character”?

Part gut feeling, part review. There have been times when I wrote a scene and thought “this is contrived,” so I take a closer look to see what’s bothering me.

I put a lot of effort into understanding the characters’ psychology. Most of the time, before I write a conversation, I think about what mood they’re in and what subconscious stuff might be driving them unknowingly. That last one is actually a great source of conflict.

Once I’m really in tune with a character, it’s like they’re making the decisions and I’m just the conduit. I once wrote a Plance scene that was just supposed to be a straight confession and getting together fluffy moment, but Lance and Pidge were like “nope, gonna fight,” and boom, the fic was another chapter long

4. Where do your story ideas come from?

Thin air.

For real, it depends on the story. Sometimes it’s “but what if this happened instead?” and sometimes the idea pops up out of nowhere and I jot it down to expand on it later.

5. Do you tell the people in your life that you write fics?

I’m very particular about whom I tell, but yes. My family and closest friends already know I’m weird as hell, and when I get an especially awesome comment on a fic I want to tell my mom and say “that’s the good part of the internet!”

6. What has been the hardest fic for you to write?

Lemme scroll through ao3 for a sec...

Prompts are challenging for me, don’t know why exactly. In another way, smut can be hard (ha) because I don’t want to rewrite the same sex scene each time so I gotta come up with new acts, descriptors, turn-ons, etc.

Oh, like specific fics? Those ones are unfinished and unpublished.

7. What fic of yours makes you the most emotional?

Either Smile the Brightest or Teenage Soldier. They both deal with some hard and controversial topics and I have no idea where they came from, they just kind of happened. 

8. What is a scene you wrote that you are most proud of?

Most of my battle scenes. Those are tricky, took a long time, and I like how they turned out!

9. Is there one character that you refuse to write? why?

I can’t think of any hard no’s off the top of my head. There are probably some.

10. When you write fics, how much of canon are you willing to ignore/skip over?

If it’s a canon thing that I severely dislike, or if it’s canon that aired AFTER I started writing it. For example, If you lose your strength to stand was started after season 5 of Voltron came out. There was no way I’d just scrap the story I had in mind because season 6 decided to be hella weird, and eventually it became a fix-it of sorts?

Small things may be done away with if they’re inconvenient.

11. Do you prefer to be cold or hot when you write?

If those are my only two options, then cold, definitely. I’m a cranky, bitchy piece of shit when I’m hot. 

12. What is your ideal writing area?

Somewhere quiet and alone. I need to be able to groan in frustration and pace and mutter to myself in peace.

13. How do you come up with your titles?

I’ve started doing the thing where I steal song lyrics. Often I try to match it to a theme in the story.

ONCE, I had the title first, that was Smile the Brightest

14. How do you come up with chapter titles?

Usually I don’t. Sometimes I use song lyrics. Sometimes I try to think of a catchy phrase with minimal success.

15. At what point in writing a fic, do you decide to quit?

At the point when I’m tired of writing and think it’s good enough to post. I have a habit of posting first and proofreading later.

16. How much of your personal life do you put into fics?

Small aspects here and there. Mostly to do with emotional stuff. I have a few where there’s an autistic character or a depressed character, and with that I pour a lot of myself into it.

17. What is the most supportive comment you have gotten?

“I just want to say that you are an amazing writer. Not in a pervy way, although that smut was great, but just in the way you write. The comedy and little bits of dialogue made me laugh so many times, and you captured the relationships these characters had to eachother super well. A m a z i n g fic. Definitely write more.”

“Damn whenever you update the chapters, I just want to read more HAHAHHAJSJS thank you so much for writing!! I really love the emphasis you placed on each character’s developments and relationships as well as the real-time consequences of actions instead of like, y’know, making a big wrap-up to the show while it’s still tangled with unused storylines and character potential >:(( ahshdhjd but anyway, thank you so much for writing this and i hope you have a great everyday!”

There are some other very lovely ones but they have spoilers in them, soooo...

My favorites are when they say I did the characters really well.

18. What is the most negative comment you have gotten?

I haven’t gotten much in the way of negative comments. I’m very happy about this fact.

19. How do you handle negative comments?

I engage. I don’t recommend it as a solution.

20. What story that you have written makes you the happiest to re-read?

Hmm...I gotta go with If you lose your strength to stand. I’m really proud of it.

[jenmyeons]

ok so i was tagged by @dropsofletters to do the “top ten kpop songs” and @koribantes tagged me for the “top ten heavy rotations tag” so i decided to just mash them together lmao. i did “top ten kpop songs” a while back but love talking about my faves and felt like i missed a few good ones on that so i did it again. leaving this under the cut so i won’t clog dashboards.

Top 10 Kpop Songs

1. universe / exo i have shed countless tears to this song, it’s a true gem and the entire mini album is amazing without a single skip. i love turning on universe, close my eyes and just enjoy the mastery of this song.

2. playing with fire / blackpink one of the first kpop songs i truly, truly fell in love with. catch me doing all those little arm movements whenever i’m listening to this song because i just never get tired of it.

3. mr. mr. / girls’ generation ok but can we talk about how mr. mr. is a timeless bop? i have come to terms with the fact that some days i just need to hear ’my mi-mi-mister rock this world’ on repeat.

4. russian roulette / red velvet iconic, show stopping, never the same, concept queens. red velvet hasn’t released a single bad song and russian roulette a prime example of this.

5. lights out / exo genius vocalist and in this case also lyricist kim jongdae made me fall in love with this song all over again when he chose lights out for his solo during exploration. vocal line really put in the work and the meaning behind the lyrics is absolutely beautiful. i know i said the last time that i could make an entire list of just exo songs and lights out just has to be one of my top ten exo songs i will love this song until the day i meet the light.

6. if you / bigbang i cry damn near every time i hear this song and it’s also one of their best songs period. the whole made album was just hit after hit and bop after bop but if you always hits right in the feels.

7. wow thing / seulgi, sinb, chungha, soyeon so this is a bit of a wildcard but i feel like this song is my baby and i have been loving it since the second it dropped. this is an sm station that deserved promotions and collab stages on every damn award show and it still feels like a robbery that we got none of that.

8. want / taemin this is a slutty bottom bop and it set the tone for 2019 when it was released. it almost feels like an equally slutty sister to move and i don’t know i just never get tired of this. a bonus was the stunning stage outfits and the countless smokey eyes that miss want gave us and i don’t think we appreciate her enough.

9. sassy me / red velvet one thing i simply cannot comprehend is how this song wasn’t the title track of the RBB EP instead of RBB because this song is a goddamn masterpiece. it brings out my inner thot and maybe the reason why they didn’t make her the title track is because the people simply wouldn’t have been able to handle the power of miss sassy me. this EP/mini album is their best to date it never fails me 10. solo / jennie do i even have to say anything? it’s all in my url. it’s my girl, the first gg member i biased and holy smokes she really was a shining solo! i think my love for this song isn’t really all about the song but the vibe and the growth she went through with it. this was around the time of her ’jennie is lazy’ scandal and she really released this 2 minutes 48 seconds bop and proved everyone wrong with those solo stages.

top 10 heavy rotation tag

based off of recent repeats!

1. heart stop - taemin ft. seulgi

2. thumbs up - momoland

3. diamonds and pearls - prince

4. ya ya ya - exo

5. stay up - baekhyun

6. sour diesel - zayn

7. psycho - red velvet

8. getting closer - seventeen

9. magnetic moon - tiffany young

10. lalalay - sunmi

no idea who has done this and who hasn’t and if i tagged you for top 10 kpop songs the last time around then feel free to ignore but i’ll tag

@abunnycotton @guitaristbfjae @chogi-wae @ohsehundipity @pastel-kpop @suhoerections

i’m thinking you can just pick and chose which tag you wanna do? and anyone else who feels up for this can consider themselves tagged by me💗

[kvndeathmusic]

my favorite records of the 2010s pt 1 (the less great stuff/honorable mentions)

Neither this post or its followup are going to be in any particular order, however all the records I talk about here are, in my opinion, not as good as the records i will talk about in my part 2. they’re all fantastic but these ones slightly a little less fantastic than the ones in my “top 10″. none of this is based on stuff like 'influence' or whatever other critics base their lists on, this is solely how much I enjoyed these records. And keep in mind, I'm only human, I havent listened to a good lot of records I've heard others describe as top 10 worthy, these are just records I found and that I resonate with. long post ahead. 

Vacation - Bomb the Music Industry (2011)

If you asked me what my favorite band is i will either say bomb the music industry or jeff rosenstock, but considering those are pretty much the same things it doesnt matter lol. While Vacation isnt a perfect record, it is one I love. It lacks some of the ska elements that I love about earlier BTMI records, but at the same time, it is the first record where Jeff’s “””solo””” career sound starts to form in tracks like Sick, Later, Hurricane Waves, Everybody That You Love, Everybody That Loves You, and Vocal Coach. And these tracks are all fantastic, especially the absolutely explosive opener Campaign For a Better Weekend. Where this album suffers in my mind is the fact that it exists as a weird hybrid middle ground between BTMI and modern Jeff Rosenstock, it isn’t really ska like old BTMI and it’s not quite to the same standard as the tracks on We Cool?. And some of the songs are just, not as good as the others, like Why, Oh Why, Oh Why (Oh Oh Oh Oh), which is washed out almost entirely in reverb, and tracks like Savers feeling barren and missing additional instrumentation. But fuck man I can not dislike this record or just call it “ok” because despite this I still listen to this record a lot, it’s so catchy and fun and Im a bit too chronically addicted to btmi. 

Reflektor - Arcade Fire (2013)

i dont really get the hate/mixed feelings others have with this record. there’s so many good tracks dude!!!! sure theres a bit of a slump in the middle and it doesnt reach the same emotional heights as their previous records you gotta be ignorant to overlook this records strengths. while i do like The Suburbs more than Reflektor, man i just vibe HARD with some of these tracks; the title track, We Exist, Here Comes The Night Time, Normal Person, Awful Sound (Oh Eurydice), Porno, and ESPECIALLY Afterlife. Plus the cover art is cool and I like it. However Flashbulb Eyes is one of the worst tracks Arcade Fire has ever put out and I hate it immensely. And while far less offensive, tracks like You Already Know, It’s Never Over (Hey Orpheus), and Joan of Arc are just kinda boring and/or uninteresting. Now granted, I'm extremely biased when it comes to Arcade fire in general unless were talking about the trainwreck that is Everything Now. I started listening to Arcade Fire just before Reflektor came out, and I have a kinda sentimental attachment to the record. ill explain the feeling more when i talk about The Suburbs. anticipation oooooo.

good kid m.A.A.d city - Kendrick Lamar (2012)

i might get crucified by some for not putting this in my top 10, but whatever come at me i guess. gkmc is a fantastic record, but i do think the ending is weak, which is why it’s here instead of in the top 10. i mean, let’s be real, Real is a mediocre track, and while Dying of Thirst is an important track to the whole narrative of the record, it feels way too long. almost everything else about this record is fantastic, from the beats, to kendrick’s nasally flows, to the overall structure of the record spinning a tale of a young man battling demons both inside and out, and his eventual redemption. even if i find this record at times to drop pace, it really is flawless otherwise. it felt like a disservice to put this in the 20-10s, bc it’s a good record, but i had to make some compromises and this was one of them. 

RTJ2 - Run The Jewels (2014)

el-p and killer mike are a perfect duo, and the tracks they make together are always total bangers. and for me, RTJ2 is the best overall, with RTJ3 in a close second. it’s hard to put this on the lower half of the list, some of the tracks just don’t work as well as the others, but despite that there’s not really any tracks i hate or dislike on this record, minus maybe crown. the pure aggression in the opening track Jeopardy��sets the tone for an aggressive yet highly focused record. This is some of the best rap out there right now if you want some music to fuck shit up to. 

Pure Comedy - Father John Misty (2017)

This record is both hilarious and extremely bleak. Josh Tillman is a master of satire and sarcasm, and Pure Comedy is the peak of his songwriting skills. The title track is one of the best tracks of the decade, period. And he keeps up the momentum on the following few tracks. The main problem with this record is its weaker second half, but even then it’s criminal to suggest that those songs aren’t good regardless. And despite the bleakness, the one line that sticks in my head after all this time is the line this album fades out to: There’s nothing to fear.

Knife Man - AJJ (2011)

Continuing on the trend of folky, satirical, and bleak records, Knife Man is AJJ’s defining record (next to their debut LP). AJJ blends loud, punky anthems with quieter, folk tracks that touch on sensitive issues in a way only AJJ manages to get away with. And there’s some genuine heart mixed in as well, with the final track Big Bird always striking a chord with me. However, I do feel the record is, let’s just say, padded at times in my opinion. Still, I can’t deny how much i enjoy tracks like Gift of the Magi 2, Hate Rain on Me, The Distance, and Skate Park. Speaking of which when I saw AJJ live recently they played none of those songs and that kinda sucked but hey it was like $20 I can’t complain. And speaking of not getting what I wanted...

You Won’t Get What You Want - Daughters (2018)

It was hard choosing between this record and their 2010 self titled record, but in terms of the overall narrative and variety this record shines through. If there was a number 11 spot in this unorganized list this would probably take that spot. It’s noisey, it’s abrasive, and it’s like nothing you’ve heard before unless you’ve listened to Daughter’s previous records. Tracks like The Reason They Hate Me are catchy in the weirdest and most unwelcoming of ways, Less Sex sounds like a long lost Trent Reznor NIN track, and Guest House is a masochistic and gut wrenching finisher. Fantastic record aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

We Cool? - Jeff Rosenstock (2015)

It’s obvious that I had to include this record somewhere on these list. It’s like a more refined version of the sounds that Jeff experimented with on Vacation. Definitely more punk than ska, but still some of those roots still shine through, especially in the track Nausea. Some of Jeff’s best songs are on this record, from the loud opening tracks Get Old Forever and You, In Weird Cities, to tracks dripping with bittersweet and moody lyrics like I’m Serious, I’m Sorry and Polar Bear or Africa. The main reason this record is on the back end of the top 20 is because the deeper cuts on the record do not match the energy and heights of the best tracks. Tracks like All Blissed Out, The Lows, Darkness Records and Beers Again Alone don’t feel like they belong and stick out a bit. They remind me more of the material Jeff put out on his 2012 EP I Look Like Shit. Mind you they aren’t bad tracks, but I’ll be honest I skip them often when listening to the record because i just wanna get back to the good good stuff. 

Sports - Modern Baseball (2012)

Sports is one of the best pop punk records ever, if you can even consider it as such. It’s like a blend of emo and folk punk, and it works so well. A good majority of this record is on my main shuffle playlist. Is it pushing boundaries? Not really, but tracks like Re-Do, Tears Over Beers, and See Ya, Sucker are undeniably catchy and memorable. I NEED MODERN BASEBALL BACK TOGETHER RN. There’s not really anything that wrong with the record, besides maybe lacking in variety, but at 30 minutes, it’s a record that feels nostalgic even on a first listen, and continues to feel that way even after numerous re-listens. Speaking of nostalgia...

The Suburbs - Arcade Fire (2010)

Some background, when I was 13 (circa 2013), I only really listened to whatever my parents put on for me. From my mom, I “inherited” a taste for classic pop and 80s new wave. From my dad, I got metal and hard rock. The first time I made the conscious decision to listen to a record fully, based on my own curiousity, was when I sat and listened to Sgt. Pepper in the summer of 2013, which broadened the scope of what I thought music could even be. And later that year, the first band I got into after The Beatles? Arcade Fire. When I think of my early teens, the memories are set to this record. I remember listening to Ready to Start in my brother’s old hot ass car while driving to the local fair with some friends on a chill fall night, eating tons of junk and staying up past midnight back when doing that was edgy and cool and not a symptom of my depression. 

If I was judging this record solely by its best tracks, it would easily be in the top 3. But I couldn’t place it in my top 10 because, frankly, some of the deeper cuts are lacking. I can’t say I like Deep Blue. I really don’t like Rococo. And Half Light I kills the pace of the record. But man, that title track, Ready to Start, Modern Man, Empty Room, Half Light II, Sprawl II... these songs defined my early teen years. I still tear up listening to the title track. Sure I have to skip a few songs when I re-listen, but I can’t place it any lower or my heart will break. It existing outside of the top 10 already hurts. And that’s all that’s left now. The top 10. 

But first, some random honorable mentions that didn’t make this list:

Sound & Color - Alabama Shakes

Black Star - David Bowie

Saturation II - BROCKHAMPTON

Melophobia - Cage the Elephant

Teens of Style - Car Seat Headrest

How to Leave Town - Car Seat Headrest

Daughters - Daughters

Sunbather - Deafheaven

Bottomless Pit - Death Grips

Year of the Snitch - Death Grips (should be on this list tbh)

Doris - Earl Sweatshirt

I Love You, Honeybear - Father John Misty

Helplessness Blues - Fleet Foxes

Plastic Beach - Gorillaz

Boarding House Reach - Jack White

POST- - Jeff Rosenstock

S/T - Joyce Manor

Firepower - Judas Priest

ye - Kanye West

KIDS SEE GHOSTS - KSG

You Were There - Kill Lincoln

Flying Microtonal Banana - King Gizzard

Infest The Rats’ Nest - King Gizzard

No New World - Mass of the Fermenting Dregs

Bury Me At Makeout Creek - Mitski

Puberty 2 - Mitski

Unsilent Death - Nails

Itekoma Hits - Otoboke Beaver

Morbid Stuff - PUP

A Moon Shaped Pool - Radiohead

RTJ3 - Run the Jewels

Angles - The Strokes

To Be Kind - Swans

Undertale OST - Toby Fox

Scum Fuck Flower Boy - Tyler, The Creator 

Igor - Tyler, The Creator

Weezer (White Album) - Weezer

nightlife - yuragi

[galileosunshine]

Blossoming Love

Written for Day 4 of ChikaRiko Week Prompt: Wishes/Flowers

Rating: General Words: ~2300 Fandom: Love Live!/Love Live! Sunshine!! Pairing: ChikaRiko Summary:   When Riko's confession to Chika is unreturned, flowers begin to grow in her throat (A hanahaki byou fic)

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“I love you.”

Looking back, that’s probably where it started. On the beach that day, with the sun just beginning to rise from the horizon, holding Chika’s hand.

Riko had poured her heart and soul out to Chika in those three words. It was all she could think of, to show her gratitude and appreciation. Chika had allowed her, wanted her to be selfish, to put herself above Aqours if it meant facing the piano again, finding her love for it again…smiling again. In that moment, all her feelings welled up inside her and burst like a dam. How could she not have confessed?

And yet, Chika said nothing in return. Perhaps she had misunderstood.

Her silence made Riko flush, and she suddenly wished she had never said those words in the first place. She wished she could recapture those white puffs of air that escaped from her mouth, and swallow them back down.

Riko returned home from the beach that day with a lump in her throat. At first, she brushed it off as just her emotions roiling inside of her. That’s how all those romance novels she bought always described it, right? A lump in your throat.

And yet, the feeling didn’t go away. Not the next day, nor even the day after that. Riko could ignore it, like a smell that disappeared after spending enough time in a room. But whenever Riko thought about it, the sensation returned.

It remained, and it became a constant companion, like a mole or a birthmark. It stayed in her throat well past their second Love Live, and the closing of their school, until one day, Riko felt it shift, and grow, tickling her throat.

It grew well past uncomfortable, scratching at her inside as though she had swallowed sandpaper, pins and needles dragged along tender flesh. And when she tried to cough it away…

White and pink flower petals sputtered out of her.

She watched in amazement as they floated in the wind, before slowly drifting to the ground.

“Whoa, are there cherry blossom trees still blooming?” Yoshiko said.

“Um…I don’t–” Riko tried to explain, but another cough racked her body, and she blew out petals again.

Yoshiko gaped with her mouth open. “Are those coming out of you!?”

“Y-you’re seeing things, Yocchan!” Riko stuttered out, and quickly swept away the petals on the floor. “I think you’re staying up too late playing games.”

Riko quickly ran away, leaving the dumbfounded Yoshiko to think what she may. Riko became much warier of her those around her when she coughed after that.

Riko also slowly came to realize that the petals had something to do with Chika. It happened whenever they were together, the sharp, stinging sensation in her, and the coughs that led to petals streaming out of her.

It happened whenever she felt Chika’s eyes on her, admiring her as she wrote compositions or played the piano. She felt the scratching and had to excuse herself to cough out petals. It happened each time Chika smiled her dazzling smile, and Riko’s heart would race and her breaths would catch in her throat, only to be let out later in a flurry of white and pink. Each time Chika excitedly hugged her, her warmth enveloping her and the smell of tangerines on her, Riko would flush and run away to sneeze out pollen and cough cherry blossoms.

“Are you okay?” Chika would ask her with that cute, curious face. “You seem kinda sick lately.”

Chika’s concern for her set Riko’s heart aflutter, but at the same time, it made her throat burn like fire.

“I’m ok,” she responded, trying to sound confident, but her voice came out raspy. Even speaking made her want to scratch her throat out. “Don’t worry about me, Chika-chan.”

“…If you say so,” Chika would say, hesitantly, and put it out of her mind.

She learned the name of her condition from Hanamaru, telling stories to the Aqours members in the library about unnatural illnesses that she had read. It was called hanahaki byou, a disease where flowers grow inside you, making you cough up petals, and it grew out of a severe one-sided love.

It made sense then. Her unanswered confession to Chika on the beach was the epitome of unrequited love.

And supposedly, it could only be cured when the person’s feelings were returned.

Riko left the library that day depressed. Would she be coughing out flowers forever?

If Chika didn’t understand the meaning of her words that day, should she try confessing again? But how could she? On the beach with Chika, it had been spontaneous, a flood of emotions that she couldn’t hold back. She’d have to work up the courage on her own this time.

And if Chika did understand what she meant, but she didn’t return her confession, why would confessing a second time make a difference? And what if Chika rejected her outright this time? The thought alone was enough to make her want to cry.

Riko laid in bed that entire evening, in the dark and in her own melancholy, doing nothing save coughing out flower petals until she rested on a bed not made of cotton and foam, but of cherry blossom petals. Meanwhile, her phone buzzed with messages from Chika.

I’m out on the balcony! Are you coming out?

…hey, are you ok? Your lights are off.

It’s ok if you don’t feel like talking today! Have a good night!

Riko turned off her phone. What was the point anyways? She buried her face in the sea of petals around her.

Chika probably didn’t feel the same way toward her at all. Riko thought she knew Chika better than anyone, save maybe You. They spent every possible second together at school, they talked for hours on end over the phone and across their balconies. They’ve spent nights staying up till 3 am coming up with lyrics and writing songs. They practiced and danced and sang and performed together.

In all that time, Chika has never looked at her the same way she looked at Chika. She’s never sighed with longing at Riko. She hasn’t shed one blush of red for her. In fact, Chika hugged her far too easily, held her hands too readily, to consider her anything more than just a friend.

And she’ll have to be fine with that.

“Sorry for the other day,” Riko said from the balcony, some nights later. Chika shook her head.

“It’s fine! We all have bad days.”

“Chika-chan, we’re…good friends, right?” Riko wasn’t sure where wanted to go with the question. But she was tired, and in search of something to hold on to, something to comfort her.

“Of course we are! What kind of question is that, silly?” Chika responded and laughed. That tinkling laugh that was like water and sunshine to the buds in Riko’s throat, and Riko knew she’d be coughing out the blossomed petals after their conversation.

“Are we anything more?” she asked breathlessly, unsure if Chika heard her.

“Hmm, I guess it’s a bit different than my friendship with the first years, or the third years.” Chika grinned at her, smiling all the way up to her eyes. “We’re best friends!”

Riko tried to smile as well. Their conversation ended soon afterwards.

Riko laid in bed that night, trying to content herself with just being Chika’s friend. A relationship as close as theirs, even if was merely platonic, was more than she could have ever asked for after moving to Uchiura. Riko told herself, over and over in her head, that she can be happy just spending every day with Chika as usual, never telling her the truth, and letting her feelings of love wither away unnoticed.

But Riko knew it wasn’t true. Just as the flowers in her throat grew and grew, her love for Chika only continued to grow. The flowers spewing out of her, more and more each day, was a constant reminder of her feelings.

And Riko knew the sickness was getting worse.

She woke up one morning with a pain in her throat sharper than ever before, as though something was clawing its way out. She clutched her throat tight as she rolled and fell out of bed. Barely able to breathe, she curled into a ball and heaved out an entire vine of cherry blossoms. Their white petals were stained with flecks of red.

Riko stayed home that day.

“Are you sure you’re ok?” Chika asked her later, worried because Riko had skipped a day of school. Of course she would come. She always came. “You’ve been worrying me for a while now.”

“I told you I’m fine,” Riko said, but her pale face and tired smile said otherwise. Riko hoped Chika wouldn’t pry any further. And she didn’t. Chika did something far worse. She opened herself up.

“I care about you Riko-chan, and if there’s anything bothering you lately, I want to help! There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you.”

Chika flashed her a gentle and warm smile, and Riko swallowed down the vines scrambling up her throat. “I…”

Chika took her hands. “You know you can tell me anything, Riko-chan,” she said, her voice soft and so very, very kind that it made Riko’s heart ache that she’s been lying to her.

And suddenly, Riko couldn’t hold it back anymore. She doubled over and coughed violently into her hand, a shower of cherry blossoms and blood scattering across her palm and over the floor.

“Riko-chan!?” Chika’s voice was full of panic. Riko was unable to answer, her body jerking forward with each cough, and each cough sending showers of petals and pollen into the air.

Trying to help as best she could, Chika fell on her knees and tried to hold Riko steady, as she retched over and over. The floor became littered with petals and crimson blots. The sight of blood made Chika’s stomach churn, but she never looked away from Riko.

Riko finally finished, and collapsed in exhaustion against Chika, leaning her head into her shoulders. And Chika hugged Riko tight, rocking her ever so slightly, rubbing circles into her back to comfort her.

“Hey, Riko-chan, do you have someone you like?”

Riko’s breath hitched.

“That’s hanahaki byou, isn’t it? The thing Hanamaru-chan was talking about?”

Riko was afraid to answer, but after all that’s happened, Chika deserved to know. “Yes, I…like someone,” she confessed with shaky breaths.

“Tell me about her,” Chika whispered. Riko thought for a moment.

“She’s dazzling and radiant and warm, like the sun,” Riko began, but then stopped just as quickly, as her confidence failed her. “But you don’t expect a star to admire you back.”

“…Who is it?”

Riko shook her head. Saying she liked someone was one thing, but saying who was another. Especially when that person was right next to her.

“Riko-chan, look,” Chika pulled away just a bit and put her hand to her mouth. She forced a cough, and orange petals sputtered out of her. They were fragrant, Riko noted. Osmanthus flowers.

Then the realization hit her, and she gasped. “Chika-chan, you…”

“I have someone I like too,” she said, and smiled nervously.

Riko felt her heart beat like a drum, reverberating all the way up to her skull.

“If I tell you who I like, will you tell me who you like?”

Riko bit her lip, anxiety flooding her entire body. Did she want to know? Was that why Chika didn’t return her confession the first time?

What were the chances that it was her?

And then she noticed Chika, her brows furrowed, the light in her eyes quivering, she was biting her own lips. She looked scared, and hopeful. Hoping Riko would say yes. But why? Because she hoped for a certain answer? Was it because…she suspected that they liked each other?

Riko felt a surge of hope within her, and she grasped for it, like light in the darkness, light that Chika always brought with her, because she was sunshine itself.

“Okay,” Riko agreed.

Chika took a long breath. “The girl I like came into my life like a miracle. She helped me find my radiance. She’s always right by my side, and she's so beautiful and talented. Actually, she already confessed to me once.”

Riko’s heart skipped a beat, and she found herself holding her breath. The spark of hope lit into a flame.

“That time, I was scared of what she meant. I couldn't believe a girl like her could like a girl like me. So I didn't say anything back. And I kept on as though we were friends. But now...I think I'm ready to believe her, and...I want to give her an answer.”

Riko felt tears welling up, and the sobs rising up prevented her from speaking. She only nodded.

“I love you, Riko-chan.”

It happened slowly, then all at once, her tears welling up, then springing loose, and she couldn’t stop them running down her cheeks. She wrapped Chika in a fierce hug, and cried into her shoulders and her neck. “I love you too, Chika-chan! I love you so much!”

She wasn't sure if Chika could understand her over her sobs and her hiccups. In the back of her mind she noticed that her hiccups weren't accompanied by flower petals, and her throat felt clearer than it ever had.

But in that moment, all that mattered in Riko's mind was Chika in her arms, and her in Chika's arms, and the happiness she felt of having her loved returned.

[1989xtaylorsversion]

ariana grande releases “positions,” an album about finding love again. (my review)

ariana grande’s sixth studio album came and it came to serve. she details her journey to finding love again, and she looks good while doing it. the visuals are a fresh new vibe for her, and i’m here for it. i want to start doing album reviews, and i figured this would be a good place to start.

to be honest, i really didn't vibe with half of the songs on this album AT FIRST. but, the songs i hated ended up reallyyy growing on me, and now i love all of them, except for one (we’ll get there). i know people dragged her for this album, but i couldn’t care less what stan twitter says. half of stan twitter is made up of childish and delusional "fans” who have a problem with almost everything, and that goes for any artist, show, etc... it’s not just about ariana. so, if you want an honest review for anything, don’t go there or listen to what they say. people want ariana to keep making generic pop songs, and that’s just not who she is. she even admitted that she leans towards r&b more than pop, and i love that for her. i love thank u next, but “positions” might replace it as my favorite ariana grande album.

i said what i said.

lol actually idk.

it’s really hard for me to pick but my heart is telling me positions > tun, so i’m gonna listen to it.

anyways, onto the review.

1. shut up

this song is an intro, and according to ariana, it’s meant to set the tone for the album. she wants people to pay attention to the emotions and messages, not just the adult themes. i don’t know about anyone else, but i love it. the verses are cute and get right to the point, and her vocal range doesn’t fail to impress. i love the disney vibe it gives, especially at the end. it makes you pay attention, that’s for sure.

2. 34+35

ok... don’t come for me, but this song is making me conflicted. on one hand, it’s a bop and i know it’s not meant to be deep and meaningful. i can respect that and enjoy it for what it is. but, on the other hand, it’s one of her worst songs lyrically, and when you compare it to the other songs, it’s one of the most forgettable. the remix is better than the original, so at least there’s that saving grace. the first verse is actually one of my favorite parts coz it’s so unexpected, and the music video is great. the chorus shocked me, ariana really went there. i like the song, but if i had to rank it, it wouldn’t even make it to the top 5. it’s one of the weakest songs overall.

3. motive ft. doja cat

ahhh here is the first grower. fun fact, i really didn’t like this song at first. i thought it was short and repetitive, but then something changed within me and i made me love it. i think it’s the perfect length and the perfect bop. doja was a good choice for the track, and i actually like how they sound together. something else i want to note is a lot of the songs are pretty short on this album, which is good because it doesn’t make it feel endless. ariana doesn’t have a lot of songs under 3 minutes, and while i wish some songs were longer, the length felt appropriate most of the time.

4. just like magic

y’all... this song is everything!!!

this song puts me in the best mood. it’s so sweet and catchy, and i have nothing bad to say about it. my favorite lines are 

Losing friends left and right But I just send 'em love and light (oh, whoa)

and

Take my pen and write some love letters to heaven

i don’t know if that line was a nod to mac (may he rest in the sweetest of peace), but i internally weep everytime i hear it. if i could have those lines on repeat for the rest of my life. i wouldn’t complain. great job ariana, you snapped on this track.

here’s a visual representation of all of my moods while listening to this song:

5. off the table ft. the weeknd

i love ariana and i love the weeknd. it’s a perfect mix. their last collaboration, “love me harder” is still a bop to this day, so when i found out he was on this track, i knew it would be one of my favorites, and i was right. it’s one of the lengthiest and slowest songs, but honestly i’m more of a fan of ballads than upbeat songs anyway. i always look for ballads and sad songs on any album i listen to, and without fail they’re usually my favorites. so, this song served. their voices are amazing together, and the meaning behind it makes me want to cry. it’s about��ariana being scared of falling in love again, and it makes me want to give her a hug. i don’t know why but i love the way ariana sings this part

'Cause I ain't her and you ain't him, thankfully (baby, don't leave) But it's gon' be hard to let someone else in again (woah) Baby, baby (Woo-hoo)

6. six thirty

sooo remember earlier when i said, “i love all of them, except for one (we’ll get there).” well, we’re here. no matter how hard i tried, i could not bring myself to like this song. i hated it when i heard it and i hate it now. i think it’s one of the most boring and forgettable songs ariana has ever made. the meaning of the song is cute, but that’s literally the only compliment i have. i wish she had excluded this from the album. i love every other song, and honestly it makes me mad knowing it could’ve been a no skip album had this not been included.

also, i’m listening to it as i write this and my opinion still stands. i don’t know what “six thirty” stans see in this song, maybe i’m missing something. but, i’ll be skipping it. as my girl ariana said, “thank u next!”

7. safety net ft. ty dolla $ign

safety net stans, WE’VE WON!!

i. love. this. song. it is nothing short of perfection. i wanna thank ms. grande for deliveringggg! their voices blend so well together, and if they want to collaborate again in the future, i don’t think i’d mind. this song is so calming and peaceful and the meaning behind it is so adorable. i can’t relate, but i’m happy ariana can. my favorite lines are

You're making me forget my past Never thought I'd feel like that again I came to peace with my path Now you got me off track

and

I've never been this scared before Feelings I just can't ignore Don't know if I should fight or fly But I don't mind

the latter verse is especially my favorite. seriously, if i could have that on repeat i’d listen to it. thank u ms. grande for not disappointing on this track. she sparkled her magic all over it, and for that i’m grateful.

8. my hair

for some foolish reason, if you ever doubted ariana’s vocal ability before, let me direct you to “my hair.” this song is so calming, beautiful, and magical. it transports me to a different realm and it’s the perfect length. this was another grower, but i’m on the “my hair” train now, and i’m never getting off.

oh also, THE HIGH NOTES. WHAT??? WHO ELSE WOULD DO THAT BESIDES ARIANA GRANDE??? SHE. DID. THAT. i’m not even ashamed to admit sometimes i skip through the whole song and listen to the last verse just to hear her sensational high notes. it’s amazing and so is ariana.

9. nasty

i don’t know what else to say except nasty is everything. it makes me feel like i’m floating on a cloud. it releases the bad b inside of you, and let’s not forget the intro in which she starts the song with MORE high notes. she spared no falsettos in this album, thank goodness. if this song isn’t in your top 5, what are you doing with your life?? it’s magical, peaceful, and sensational.

10. west side

once again, “west side” was a grower. at first, i felt the same way to this song as i did with “six thirty.” i thought it was boring, but then one day it randomly got stuck in my head, and when i went back to listen to it, i really liked it. it’s not anything spectacular, it’s a cute song, so the short length is perfect.

11. love language

add this to the list of growers. i love the vibe of this song. it’s very theatrical and gives me circus vibes in the best way. it’s something different, and very cool. the lyrics are cute and calm. i will admit when i first heard it, i didn’t get the weird ending. the song stops and after a couple of seconds it picks back up for another 30 seconds or so. it’s an interesting twist, but it was so unexpected and it caught me so off guard that i literally thought i started a new song. i don’t know why she did that, maybe ariana wanted to keep us on our toes. she really said, “pay attention, and don’t get too comfortable.” i can respect that. the last verse was a nod to her boyfriend dalton, of course. i thought the last few lyrics were really cute and fitting since he’s a real estate agent.

I ain't tryna sign no lease I'm just gon' make you my home

12. positions

here she is, the title track. not gonna lie, i go through phases with this song. i loved it at first, but then i heard the rest of the album and i thought wow she pulled a taylor and picked one of the weakest songs as the single. it’s cute and catchy, but when you compare it to the other songs, it’s not one of the strongest. i still like it and i’ll listen to it, but it’s not going to be one of my favorites. the music video was exceptional though. ariana in the white house?

she’s got my vote!

nothing but respect for MY president!

one more...

ok you get it, i’ll stop.

13. obvious

i didn’t think this song was too special at first listen, but i changed my mind. i really like it now, and it’s one i’ve had on repeat. it’s cute and short, but it still makes me feel good. the lyrics are really sweet. good job ariana!

ladies and gentleman, put your phones on silent, the show is about to begin...

14. pov

@ ALL OF THE POV STANS, HAVE YOU RECOVERED?? BC I HAVEN’T.

HOW do you recover from that religious experience? i feel like i went to heaven. that’s the best way to describe this sweet and emotional ballad; you went to heaven. if pov isn’t your #1 fav from this album, rethink your life decisions. i implore anyone who doesn’t want to listen to the album to at least listen to this song. it’s too beautiful and the lyrics are something else. see for yourself.

I wanna love me (ooh) The way that you love me (ooh) Ooh, for all of my pretty And all of my ugly too I'd love to see me from your point of view I wanna trust me (trust me) The way that you trust me (trust me) Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do I'd love to see me from your point of view

i mean... come on...

and let’s not forget the bridge aka my FAVORITE PART

I couldn't believe it or see it for myself Boy, I be impatient, but now I'm out here Fallin', fallin', frozen, slowly Fallin', got me right I won't keep you waitin' (waitin') All my baggage fadin' safely (my baggage fadin') And if my eyes deceive me Won't let them stray too far away, I

i’m still not over it. clearly.

she sounds beautiful, and i choose to believe this song was crafted by God himself. i mean, how did she expect us to feel after ending the album with a BALLAD? it’s like ariana knew what i liked. thanks for catering to my wishes, girl. i have nothing bad to say about this song. if i could listen to the bridge on repeat (and i do), i’ll be happy.

overall thoughts:

like i said, people dragged ariana for not changing up her sound, and i don’t know if it’s because i’m not some music expert or what, but i don’t really care. i like this sound, and i don’t see anything wrong with it. let’s not forget the last time she experimented with a different sound we got the mess that was half of “sweetener.” half of that album is comprised of skips, sorry sweetener stans, i won’t lie. she released an album at a time where we all needed an escape, and i’m grateful for that. also, if you listen to the album in order, it tells a story of the fear of falling in love again, but eventually letting that fear go and finding happiness with a new person. it’s incredibly fitting with ariana, and i wish her nothing but the best with everything she’s gone through. i love this album, and that’s all.

the weakest songs: six thirty, 34+35, and positions

the strongest songs: pov, safety net, just like magic, and nasty

rating:

9/10

sending ariana love and light