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What music genres do you think the batfam members listen to?I ask this because of how little Alternative music fan headcannons there are. I personally think Tim enjoys grunge and or nu metal(Specifically bands like limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Korn, and System of a Down)
I'm not too familiar with genres, so I'll be giving this my best shot. I typically listen to music by the vibe it gives. My playlists include music that makes my brain go brr (the nice dissociation), songs for muses, ones to scandalize my mother, music a garage band would play, songs that make God fear me, and a long playlist for pleasant company.
Anyways, I've seen a few fics where people say that Bruce and Tim share a love of those genres. I could definitely see Tim listening to the ones you mentioned. He probably plays it through his preferred headphones as he fixes electronics, codes, or plots destruction. He also, because he suppresses his anger a lot, probably listens to music like Ghostemane, Kim Dracula, and Freddie Dredd.
Jason definitely enjoys musicals. Dick as well, but Jason isn't as vocal about it. Instead, Jason will listen to 80's rock and 2000's girl bands if others around (he ofc listens to TLC).
I like to think that they all enjoy music in different languages. For Dick and Damian, they especially like music they grew up listening to in their respective cultures. The others, because the batfam is multilingual, just enjoy all kinds of different tunes in multiple languages. The batfam playlist, especially for hanging out in the cave, is chaotic. Bruce nearly had an aneurysm the first time he heard Touch You (Yarichin Bitch Club) over the speakers. The only reason the kids didn't get in trouble was because Damian was out with Colin at the time.
I hc that Cass likes lofi hip hop music. She typically enjoys all songs but prefers those without words (because understanding words still requires energy from her and can prevent her from fully relaxing). She does listen to a lot of classical music, a passion she shares with Alfred.
Alfred, the man the myth the legend, enjoys swing music the most. He'll put on a variety of music in the kitchen (different classical eras, opera music, the occasional musical, jazz, some more modern instrumental music, and some movie background tracks), but the whole fam knowns he's in a really good mood if swing music is playing.
Bruce is the type of person to just listen to what's on. Unless he dislikes the music, he will be fine with whatever his kids or Alfred have playing. He particularly enjoys alternative rock and old country music (like Garth Brooks), but he doesn't usually fight for the aux cord.
Barbara has playlists depending on her mood. Birds of Prey mission prep? Bruce being a dick? Dick being a dick? Batfam drama she has to once again intervene in? Coding nights? Can't get out of bed days? She also has a few playlists for each person she regularly interacts with. For calm or bad nights, she'll put the playlist in that person's comm. She also likes to hack speakers around Bruce and play her revenge music when he's being a petty asshole. Some of her revenge music includes "They're Coming to Take Me Away" by Sloppy Jane, "OoOo1" by galen tipton, "All I see is Poop" by Hobo Johnson, "I Swallowed Shampoo" by Soupy Garage Juice, "I am now going to bark at you" by thquib, and "I hope You Die in a Fire" by Grand Commander.
Duke is most definitely a Mitski, Hozier, Crane Wives enjoyer, and you can pry that hc from my cold, dead hands. He probably also likes songs similar to "Ancapistan" by Jreg or "The Fine Print" by The Stupendium.
Dick's music is either super high in energy or sad as fuck. He loves the songs "Has Anbody Seen My Will to Live" by The Tin Knees and "Copacabana (At the Copa)" by Barry Manilow because they are both sad and happy :) I hc that he likes songs by TV Girl, Yot Club, Joji, and Cosmo Sheldrake. He also has a few playlists he follows of Zumba music. The song "The Masochism Tango" by Tom Lehrer is one of his favorites.
This is already a pretty long post, so feel free to reblog with more ideas! I didn't get to Steph or more in depth with Damian :(
#dc comics#duke thomas#dc universe#tim drake#jason todd#bruce wayne#dick grayson#damian wayne#barbara gordon#alfred pennyworth#yes i do listen to every song and band I've mentioned regularly and for enjoyment#thank you for the ask!!!!#i will probably add damian and steph later#ignore any bad writings with this one cause I'm currently at work while writing it
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1. Ignition
Cheerleader!Megan x Loser Band Member!Reader
a/n - n/n basically means nickname
Rekindling Masterlist
“Hey” Lara waves a hand over your face “You good? Zoned out for a good five minutes. Anything you wanna talk about?” She questions the look on your face, placing a gentle hand on your shoulder. Noticing the deepness in your thoughts in the way your face had scrunched up.
“I'm good, Dont worry about me.” You shrug her hand off your shoulder, standing up to put your guitar strap on. “What are we working on today?” All four of your band had gathered in Dani’s garage, which had become a tradition ever since forming your quartet. Meeting up every Tuesday and Thursday to work on music together, With Lara as vocals, Dani as bass, Yoonchae on drums and You on guitar and main songwriter.
“We are voting on prom performance songs” Dani grins, “As the leader of our band, I say we should do either Still into you or Fender. if your done that is.”
“Either one works for me.” Yoonchae chimes in, quietly tuning her drum kit.
“I'm down to sing still into you” Lara shrugs and looks over at me expectantly. “What bout’ you? Still into you fits your vibes currently since you're still not over megan.” Dani slaps Laras arm, “Ow what its true!” She rubs her arm.
“Fenders my vote, Dani?” you glance over at dani who is still glaring at Lara. “For the record I'm over her.” You go back to playing around with your pick, One that Megan had given you when you were kids. A pink hello kitty one with her worn out initials on the back.
“You still using that pick says a lot, Yn” Dani scoffs “But i can ask if we do both? I’m sure Ms Grant wont mind us doing two” She shrugs,
“Well some of the lyrics on fender need some reworking since i haven't finished it.” you add in, “I’m like, 80% done though. Shouldn't take too long” you glance into your notebook, the lyrics scribbled in, varieties of different coloured pens from when you had woken up and scribbled something down. You hand it over to Lara, who takes a quick read and nods.
“This is probably some of your best work so far, Personally.” She smiles, “No offence to the other songs in this tragedy of a notebook”
“None taken, Some of those were horrid” You chuckle. “Lets work on still into you first though, I’ll finish up fender in the next couple of days.” You strum your guitar to check its tuning before turning on the amp.
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Wednesdays were always the worst. You shared one class with Megan and that was Psychology. On Wednesdays Psych was always first period, which means you had to see her with Greg. Greg is an asshole to say the least, He always teases Yoonchae, who's a sophomore while he's a Senior. Calling her a bunch of racist slurs and other things cause she's a transfer student from Korea, Not sure he realises Megan is also Asian. Pretty fucking ironic honestly. Greg always flirts with Megan any chance he gets. It's hard not to pay attention to his poor attempts at flirting with her when he's so bad at it.
You sit in your regular spot waiting for Ms Ginberg, You open up your notebook and work on changing up some of the lyrics that didn't work.
“Im hiding in the trunk im crossing my legs,” You mumble under your breath, “What's another word for crossing?” You rub your forehead as you repeat your question aloud.
“Pretzeling is a good word. If that's what you're looking for?” Megan stands by your desk, Close enough to notice the scent of oranges and persimmons, Her favourite fruits. “You write music now, That's pretty cool, N/n” She smiles at you, as if she hadn't been ignoring you for the past year.
“Thanks,” You avoid eye contact with her, scribbling down the word in place of crossing. “I'm hiding in the trunk, I'm pretzeling my legs. Sounds a lot better.”
“Whats this song even about?” She questions you, looking into your notebook glancing around at the different lyrics.
“Its nothing, just something i'm working on” You hastily close the book and shove it into your bag. “Since when do you care what i'm doing?” You scoff under your breath as Ms Ginberg walks in, Megan returns to her normal seat next to Greg with a slightly hurt expression.
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Class goes as usual, Ms Ginberg teaches nothing, Greg flirts with Megan,Ms Ginberg assigns you way too much homework, and the list goes on. You gotta give it to Greg, he is persistent. Megan comes up behind you after class ends, Taps your shoulder to get your attention.
“Hey, Can we talk after school?” She asks, with a seemingly large amount of sincerity “I owe you an apology and an explanation.”
“What makes you care now?” You cross your arms over your chest and give her a disappointed look “You haven't seemed to care for two years, Megan.” It hurts to call her that when you’ve known her for all your life as Meg or Meimei.
“Look, Just hear me out. You don't have to do anything afterwards, I'll leave you be. But just take a chance on me okay?” She pleads with you.
“Fine, I’ll meet you outside the gate and we’ll talk there.” You sigh deeply, “I’ve gotta go to my next class. I’ll see you around, Megan” You walk off, knocking your shoulders together as you push past her to your second class of the day. Lara ambushes you on your way to your shared ceramics class.
“So, what's the deal with you and Megan anyway?” She gives you a knowing look “If you're not over her just say so, Saw you talking to her earlier.”
“She wanted to talk, I dunno what about but it seems important I guess.” You shrug “I’m not entirely sure if I'm totally over her now.” You sigh again and Lara rolls her eyes
“I knew it, Dude, seriously its not that embarrassing as you think.” She pushes your shoulder playfully “First girl crushes be like that for real.” she laughs after her last comment.
A/n EEEK SO HAPPY WITH HOW THIS FIRST CHAPTER CAME OUT WOOOWOWOOO
#katseye x reader#katseye imagines#katseye fluff#katseye megan x reader#katseye#rekindling 🔥❤️#katseye megan skiendiel#megan skiendiel#megan skiendiel x reader#katseye megan skiendiel x reader#grahstumhurts
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2024 FIC Roundup
A big thank you to everyone who either mentioned or tagged me 💛 @missunderstoodlyrics @eybefioro @itsscottiesstark @bellisima-writes love y’all brilliant people 💛💛
What fandom do you write in?
Good Omens 😇😈
How many words have you published in 2024?
255 363 words 😮💨😮💨 it will keep going up until Dec. 31
What is your greatest achievement this year?
Having consistently written through the year. 2023 was my comeback to writing after 15 years of nothing and I’m so happy it lasted like that. I’m seeing a tremendous amount of progress in my writing and story telling and I’m very grateful for that 💛
What are your top three fics you wrote this year?
Drive me to the moon: (complete, rated E)
At GOMENS, world-renowned sports brand and sponsor, one takes pride in endorsing the UK’s most talented athletes. On the other hand, one would like to ignore the fact that their two top of the bill, Aziraphale and Crowley, have heartily hated each other since the day they met. But what should be expected, when one knows these two? Aziraphale is a professional dancer, Crowley a rally driver. While the former switches between fierce competitions and prestigious stages, the other goes from one track to another across the world, clearing out every prize from behind the wheel of his racing car. Two beings, two worlds, two universes that everything should keep apart. But an unprecedented charity event is getting set up at GOMENS, and quickly, their own athletes will have to compete with and assist each other in turns. Two worlds, two personalities. But if they want to run for a cause that matters to the both of them, Crowley and Aziraphale are going to have to find an Arrangement.
The Angel I knew : (WIP but 100% written, rated M)
Twenty years after his divorce and the loss of their child, Aziraphale finds his former partner and childhood sweetheart to have happily transitionned. Together they begin a healing journey. A very soft and fluffy fic despite the themes.
Richfront Valley: (WIP, rated E)
Aziraphale lives a very secluded life in Richfront Valley national park. That is until a stranger comes and turns his life upside down, their one night stand turning into the most intense three weeks of their lives.
What was your biggest pit of despair moment?
I am not sure I understand that question? Every time I lose interest in one of my WIP is a pit of despair moment I guess? Because I hype myself (and my friends lol) and feel bad that I'm not able to go through with the idea??
What have you learned?
OUTLINE.
I'm still fighting myself over the "first draft doesn't need to be perfect" thing, BUT, I have learned that outlining my fics helps me write them to the end. I'm still working a lot with the flow because I need to write to keep writing, but I know where I'm going.
What fic did you want to do but never made it off the ground?
UUURGH. So, OK. I wrote a very dark Human AU that I called No Place to House our Love, where Aziraphale is a prison priest and Crowley is a convicted fellon. This resonates a lot with me, as prison was my work environment for years, and I really wanted to finish it. It's currently 30k words and on hold. I really hope to finish it someday. Sad ending. But comes from my guts, I suppose.
Did you beta any fics?
YES YES YES!!! I had the joy to help my dear friend @eybefioro polishing up a couple of their fics: Forgive me, Father, and Vavooming part2 at different stages of writing so it was a tremendous fun!!
Also currently lurking on one of @itsscottiesstark's next work and it's YUMMY.
What three fics have you read this year that you love?
Oh boy.
OK, I declared myself the official propaganda officer for @itsscottiesstark 's fic Undone it's sooooo good guys... An AU where Crowley and Aziraphale realise just in time that Adam is the real Antichrist and decide to help raise him? HELLOOO??
In your own time, by @ineffabildaddy ... What can I say... How soft can something really be??? (I had to chose between this and I'm Beginning to See the Light and oops... seems that I've mentionned both now...)
And last but not least, Take Some Pictures or Something stole my fucking heart... By His_infinitevariety (if that person is on tumblr please wave at me!!)
What ideas are percolating for next year?
SO. MANY. IDEAS. BREWING
I have a Space Race fic idea that promises to be A BIG PIECE OF WORK. Pretty much based on the Hunger Games concept, but in space, and in a race. It's still a brewing thing and will most likely be super long to write.
I am currently writing The Angel's I Knew 's prequel! So if you're in love with those two lovebirds and wonder what they were like as teenagers... It's coming your way!
I am writing a Ghost Story, with WW2 RAF Pilot Crowley!
And last but not least, @elenthyaolyenths and I are outlining a through the ages, loss memory fic that we hope to start writing soon!!!
And well... so many plot bunnies ready to be adopted, I'm opening a bloody shelter at this point. But those are the main ones.
Who do you want to thank?
So many people... damn, starting with @eybefioro, @crowleys-bentley-and-plants and @fearandhatred -- our groupchat is still so dear to my heart <3 love you guys
@itsscottiesstark -- for having me open the Nice and Accurate Network on discord and allowing me to meet with all the wonderful people on it <3 And for being just the sweetest <3
And well... My very own internet wife, my partner in crime, my faithful reader and illustrator. @elenthyaolyenths You've made this year so much more fun, I can't wait to continue brain rotting with you in 2025!
Cheers everyone, here's to 2025! To our world!
Tagging @beerok23, @pineappleonbread, @ineffabildaddy on this <3
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Can you write more prompts for Zoro pleaseee? Thank you:))
Author's note : haha!!!i was actually gonna write a new fic for zoro when i saw your request!!!as always,ask and you shall receive!
College love
Zoro Roronoa x reader
Summary : new semester,new classes,new classmates and a new love
Warnings : none,College au (my favorite trope),studying and late night talks, gender neutral ,maybe more parts?,not me in the middle of exam season and dying from overworking myself
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College sucks.
Everyone tells you college is great;its a place full of new experiences,a new life. Having coffee with friends after lectures and studying together,or simply doodling in your notebook as the professors talk about gods know what.
But as you sip your third cup of coffee that night and rub your eyes while yawning,you glance down at the remaining pages you have to go through before your exam in two days,before you groan and bang your head to the table.
Its exam season,and you're currently sitting in the library at 3:04 am.
College sucks so bad.
You know you have tomorrow to study as well,but between working part time job at a near the campus cafe, and going to lectures,you barely had any time to study.
You stared at your empty cup of coffee and sighed before standing up;then you guess its time to get a refill
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"wow,you look like shit."
You dont raise your head from the desk as you groan at your friend.
"hello to you too,Nami."
Nami drops his bag next to you with a 'Thump' and settles down. You feel her hand rub up and down your back (almost awkwardly) and through your misery you manage to crack a smile;being comforting is like a physical torture for your ginger friend.
"did you pull another all nighter?"
Slowly,your head turns in her directly and you narrow your eyes.
"not everyone can be both gorgeous and smart effortlessly like you,Nami. Us, lowly humans,have to choose one." You ignore her eye roll and continue, "and i choose the one that can get me a good job in the future."
"looks can be pretty useful too,honey."
"I'm going to choke you."
"be my guest."
You're too busy to bicker that you dont even notice the door of the class opening and a new person stepping inside. Just as Nami's about to wrap her arm your neck and choke you instead, that's when your eyes land on the new person in the class.
And your breath stops all together.
The first thing that catches your eyes is his green hair. The man is tall,and a mess of green hair making his brown eyes stand out more. There are three golden piercings on his left ear. His black leather jacket looks expensive,and you dont need to see the key to guess that he's probably owns a motorcycle..
"y/n!" You realize you've been staring shamelessly at the man and suddenly whip your head in Nami's direction.
"Nami!" You grip her shoulders and shake her violently, "who's that?!why havent i seen him around?do you know him??is he single???!!"
Nami shoulders off your hands and looks at you like you've grown a second head.
"He's Zoro Roronoa. Our classmate. You haven't seen him cause he almost never shows up at lectures. What the hell is wrong with you exactly?"
"what's wrong with me is that the man is drop dead gorgeous," you frown at her, "and geez girl. How do you know so much about him?"
"cause he's my "kinda friend". We go out drinking together sometimes."
"WHAT?!"
Your shriek is so loud,that when you turn around, you see mr.gorgeous is eyeing you with annoyance.
Great. Your new crush thinks you're crazy.
You duck your head as your cheeks burn with embarrassment. Nami rubs your back sympathetically and you groan tiredly.
"want me to introduce you to him?"
"hell no," you whine and rest your cheek against your desk; letting the surface cooling down your heated skin, "he obviously hates my guts now."
"to be fair,Zoro hates everybody's guts."
"its just a crush Nami," you flash her a smile, "it'll go away eventually."
Unfortunately,it in fact,doesnt go away eventually.
After your embarrassing moment in the classroom,you seem to run into Zoro awfully alot; Whether it be getting a coffee from the near campus cafe,or working your shift there,you seem to always see him.
Zoro liked his coffee black,that was no surprise. The first time that you surved him the black hell,he hadnt even batted an eye at your shakey hands or your stutter.
And you were certain that he had forgotten all about you.
Among the finals creeping close and closer,and with you drowning yourself under your books until morning before going back to your lectures or job,you had completely forgotten all about him.
So when you drop your head on your text book at almost 4 am and try hard not to burst into tears or having a mental breakdown in the almost empty library,you almost scream when a warm can of coffee touches your cheek.
Your head snaps up,and your mouth parts into a small scream that soon gets an ugly glare from the librarian. You shoot her an apologizing look,before turning your head back to the person in front of you.
Zoro freaking Roronoa,holds the coffee in his hand and gives you an unimpressed annoyed look.
"why are you always so loud?"
You dont answer;your mouth hangs open from the shock,and you blink a few times to make sure you're not hallucinating.
"what," you clear your throat, "i,uh, excuse me?"
Zoro rolls his eyes and sits down in front of you while dropping his own backpack on the table. He then slides the drink in front of you and while folding his arms across his chest,he eyes you for a second before looking away.
"you look like a mess. Figured you needed some coffee," he gives you a displeased look from the corner of his eyes, "or some sleep."
Your hands wrap themselves around the warm can;and a small laugh escapes your dry lips.
"you think i can sleep with all these books?i can barely manage between lectures and my part time job with only two hours of sleep as it is!" And for some reason,your stupid brain decides that its a great idea to cry in front of your crush;as if you haven't embarrassed yourself before. So your lower lip starts to wobble,and you let out a small sniffle.
There's a moment of silence;where neither of you say a word. With you starting to finally breakdown,and Zoro just glaring at the textbooks like they had personally offended him. Finally,after a while,you hear him sigh and look up at him with your blurry vision.
"... I'll help you."
"what?"
Another sigh.
"i said, I'll help you study. Im familiar with this stuff,so it'll be nothing."
You let out a loud gasp and stand up from your sit .
"Seriously?!wont you need that time to study?!"
"helping you makes me remember these stuff. It'll be alright."
And when you hold his hands in his,you grin so widely that you feel your cheeks hurting. You shake his hands and laugh lightly.
"thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!"
"yea yeah." He shakes off your hands and stands up,and amongst your joy,you manage to catch a small smile on his lips. Zoro flings his backpack on his shoulder and walks away. He gives you one last look and says "go home and rest for now. See you tomorrow."
And suddenly,the world doesnt seem so bad. College doesn't suck,and your crush, apparently,doesnt hate your guts after all.
#one piece live action x reader#one piece x reader#opla zoro x reader#zoro roronoa x reader#opla zoro roronoa x reader#zoro x reader
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Helloooo. Hope you're doing okay 🫶🏼
I wanted to know if I can request a Yuma one shot where he says something that upset you (he didn't mean it though) and you are giving him a bit of the cold shoulder. But then he's being so cute and extra you cave and just forgive him.
Please and thank you if you choose to do this!!!
snuggly, snaggletooth menace — nakakita yuma
author's note; ngl i enjoyed this lol.. ik this was a few months ago buttt im trying to complete the remaining requests i had! sorta find it fun to write teammies request for others recently ♡
you didn't have to go this far, you thought; sulking inside your room all while burying yourself in the mountains of blankets, comfying and comforting yourself, spam liking each and every post on your feed with rage imbued within your thumb while the other kittenish—sharkish little guy with his snuggle tooth peeking out whenever he smiles was probably out there roaming around looking for snacks.
but who cares right? who cares what he's up to? when he doesn't care what you're up to either anyway?
it just so happens when after throwing on the new pretty dress you bought—you giddily hopped to where he was—currently playing video games all while yelling at his poor teammates for messing up, specifically maki.
okay, maybe it was your fault for interrupting him but all you ask was a three-second attention and what was his opinion on the dress but how can he be so mean? "oh god, not you too (name), the dress suckass. get it?—maki! i told you to not spawn there you motherf—"
so here you are now not bothering to change into your pyjamas, so deep in your thought that you were unaware of the slow creak of the bedroom door, and the boy quietly slipping in through like a kitten on his paws, climbing on top of the bed.
you only realise it by the spot close to you deepening, signifying that he was close. and you didn't care any less to get out of your 'tent'. it was silent for a few moments, fiddling his hands and all before he place his palms on your covered form, "pretty, you okay?"
you weren't supposed to answer but the pet name somehow triggered you, in a bad way, of course. "p-pretty? now i am pretty? why don't you go back to your pretty game, pretty keyboard, or whatever it's called—"
you didn't get to continue your words when you got pushed deep into the bed, yuma's weight on top of yours as he mumbled, "okay, okay, i'm sorry. i know i was too mean—" you didn't have to see his face to know he was pouting, his arms wrapped around your waist as he held you tight. "forgive me please?"
"never— ah!" you let out a yelp when the blankets were pulled off your body, closing your eyes immediately with your hands but even that were yanked away by the boy who's right in front of you, his face leaning a few inches from yours—causing a light blush to dust off your cheeks. "get off!"
you pushed him off causing him to fell off the bed, a few exaggerated "ouch" emitted from him. "so mean."
"not like what you did to me exactly three hours ago, sorry not sorry, it's past the deadline."
"excuse me, there's even a deadline?" his jaw dropped as he rubbed his back, getting on top of the bed again. you ignored him with a glare and a pout, crossing your arms despite how he look so damn cute with his messy hair.
"whyyyy? am i not your little baby shark or baby snuggle tooth anymore?" okay, that's a foul. he shouldn't be doing that, but he's so good at it as he leans closer, placing his elbows on top of your blanket-covered knees, resting his chin on his palms as he pouted—his signature snuggle tooth peeking out.
"you little menace. that's not how you ask for forgiveness??"
"but it won't work if i don't you show my tooth! isn't that your weakness? am i not your weakness?"
"no get out!"
"i'll even give you my tooth if you want!" "i don't want your tooth! that's gross—"
"then what about me?"
"not a little menace like you." you let that out in a rather small voice, though. of course, you two knew better than that despite all the banters and stuff.
"whatever you say," yuma continued with a satisfied smile as his hands pulled off the blankets completely from you—revealing the dress you've wanted so bad to show him earlier. "it's pretty, but you already know you look pretty with anything, yeah?"
a few beats of silence surfaces in the air, but you eventually snorted "horrible pick up line! learn from nicholas or fuma, yeah?"
"they're not even good at it!—"
"well, atleast they're not gold at being a little meanie menace like you!"
"who says? nicho hyung is menace too! you just didn't see it, duh" yuma retorted, "besides, they don't have this—" pointing his index finger towards his tooth peeking from the top corner of his lips, "now, watch me do this. nyah, nyah!" to your huge shock, he imitated a kitten's gesture, forming his hands into a paw as he tried so hard to make you giggle, singing a random kitten song and replacing it with apologetic lyrics.
you were about to burst into laughter but you held it in, but goddamn your stomach were about to explode as the boy won't stop with his kitten agenda.
"oh god— can't you laugh? i'm sacrificing my reputation right here, i can't let see kei hyung or maki sees this or they'll humiliate me for life—" yuma almost look like a draining line sticker drifting off the air, but continued afterwards.
"tch," you scoffed, but you could no longer hold it as you laughed so hard, and oh boy, did he loved the sight in front of him. "you silly menace."
signed and delivered! — sat, 6 jan 2024.
#&team#andteam#&team x reader#andteam x reader#&team fluff#andteam fluff#&team oneshots#andteam yuma#nakakita yuma#&team yuma#&team drabbles#&team imagines
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What do you find most attractive on Kid? Looks and Character ❤️🔥
Hmmm...
Looks-wise, I mean the scars are hot, but honestly I appreciate the punk-vibes. Also, that post-time skip THICC is... yeah. Yeah, I like my big boys.
Character-wise, I love the attitude. I love the scenes we get that show he knows how the world "works", and while Luffy has decided to ignore that part, Kid keeps it in mind.
I don't know if either or is better or right, that's beside the point, but Kid's defiance of it while being painfully aware of it is interesting to me. The loyalty born from it, the way he defends his crew, the fierce choices and risks taken because they're alive.
They're ALIVE because they're pirates. There wasn't any real living on that island, even after it took Victoria, even after they tamed it and took it over - it wasn't living. They were just existing inside the lines of how the World Worked.
Kid says the island was too small for him.
So he goes out, some island punk with, currently, no sailing knowledge save for whoever he got for the crew aside from Killer, Heat and Wire. When we see him in Wano he's not just a punk on a boat, he's someone who fights on the seas - he's a pirate, a captain - knowledgeable and accomplished.
With no mentors.
Six months with Rayleigh and Kid would be a demon. Just knowing how to use all the haki he has available with some level of efficiency that wasn't "figure it out as I go".
I love that you could switch Luffy and Kid as the protagonist of the series and it would still work. One Piece with Kid as the lead would be a much darker title, sure, but the other themes fit. That no existence is illegal, that freedom is paramount, etc. Kid doesn't buck the ideal of "piracy" the way Luffy does, but honestly we don't know how much of what and who Kid is, is propaganda. There's no canon to run off of, but I'm fine with that.
We don't know if he and his crew have done good deeds. I can see the Kid Pirates rebuilding a town - Kid especially is a builder. Luffy overthrows a government for a bowl of food, Kid overthrows a government because fuck the WG.
And yeah, there's assumptions in there, but it's all based off what we do know. We know that Luffy and crew are perceived by the public different from who they are - people know, sure, cause they've done great things, but the general populous sees them as terrifying and violent pirates.
Same as the heart pirates, the kid pirates, etc. People are terrified of Shanks and Whitebeard, 100%. Because government propaganda.
The only acts of violence we see from Kid (and Law) that aren't directed at Marines are directed at pirates. We're just not following those two cause it's not their story.
And there's something like 3,000 islands? I think I read somewhere. So there's plenty of places where Kid and Killer and the crew have stellar reputations. Maybe Kid deals with the underground to keep from being surprised, or to buy someone to free, who knows?
But Character-wise, that's why I love him. It's why I love writing him, because we have this Big Bad Guy who wants you to know he's big and bad, but he's also making like mechanical butterflies and letting birds nest in his hair, he's naming his ship after a dead friend who probably called their home island too small, and he's learned from every hard lesson he's experienced.
Which I won't get into in detail, cause it's not released in anime and I try not to spoil anything that's still manga-only.
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Two things I wanna know! (feel free to ignore obviously ^^ )
What are your top 5 favorite characters and why are they your favorite? Could be current favorites, favorites over the years that you still like, favorites in general, etc. Also any media
And/or gimme 1-5 of your ocs - whether they're your favorite, most recent, the one you've been having fun with recently, etc. Tell me some fun facts about them, and why you picked them!
Hope you're having a great day/night - and remember to stay hydrated!
Sorry it took me so long to answer I got excited and thought about it really hard and then didn't do it lol
I'm just going to do off sort of the top of my head because if I try to do all time I really will never get this done.
Favorite characters:
1. Kon-El/Superboy
There's probably some recency bias here because I just finished his 90s run but anyway- The thing about Kon is that it would have been really easy for me to dislike or only tolerate him, mostly because when he was created the chauvinism and misogyny in comics was really on full display and his run in particular does NOT help with that. However, I actually ended up really loving Kon. The thing that won me over was that no matter what Kon always sets out to do what he thinks is the right thing. And it doesn't matter who's against him or what it is, he's going to go out and do it. Now obviously this hastiness and recklessness causes some issues, but it always stems from a place of good intentions. His pride and dignity mean a lot to him, but he's still willing to wound both in order to make up for mistakes he makes. Kon makes mistakes, but he always works his ass off to do better.
2. Leonard "Bones" McCoy
I always love a character who is willing to break the rules placed on them in order to follow their own moral code, and while a whole lot of characters do that in Star Trek, I like McCoy maybe the best. The grumpy guy who cares so so much about other people character is like prime blorbo to me. Bones is always having such a bad day out in space but he's still in it to help people. Plus him and Spock are always so fun to watch interact and try to out-bitch each other
3. Stephanie Brown
She's so much an example of wasted potential I would almost assume it was really good on purpose character writing if it weren't actually because she's a female character in DC comics. She is again and again acknowledged as talented and determined and driven. Cass acknowledges her potential and Bruce says she could be as good as or even better than Tim with proper training, but no one gives her a chance long enough to get there. She doesn't get to raise her daughter because of her father. She gets tortured by Black Mask, escapes, and dies. She has been beaten to hell by the narrative and had her characterization whipped all around and she's still hanging on. For every stupid sexist thing DC pulls on her I'm determined to love her twice as hard.
(It's been over two weeks since I typed the first half of this.)
4. Vash the Stampede
I again really love characters who can't catch a break and also characters who have a very strict moral or personal code they adhere to throughout everything. Vash's refusal to kill and his refusal to give up on believing in humanity paired with his horrible experiences and depression and struggles with his own existence make a story that really speaks to me. He's so goofy but he's also just permeated by this unshakeable sadness. Trigun, to me, as a series, has done one of the best jobs I've ever seen of portraying emotions in such a way that they feel real and that made me feel very connected with the characters.
Also side note: half the time whenever you reblog pictures of that guy from the tangled cartoon or whatever it is (Varian?) I tend to think it's a stylized Vash for a second before I'm like oh no wait it's that guy
5. Cissie King-Jones
I feel she's a very interesting character, and I like the way that how she's handled is very different from how you might expect it to go. I think it's very cool to have a character who quits superheroing as a result of sort of her own moral ideas and standards for what a hero should be and then sticks with it. Because like all the core four or whatever of Young Justice have at one point stopped heroing but they always come back. (And I'm ignoring whatever the hell was happening recently with her going back to being Arrowette with a bomb in her head or whatever I ignore most DC after 2011) I also love how integral Cissie remained even after quitting to her friends and the plot of yj. Like her competing in the Olympics, her being a a medic in our worlds at war, her being on Wendy the werewolf stalker, she doesn't stop being a main character just because she's a civilian now.
OCs! I'm just going to go with some from the WIP I've been working on most recently
1. Carmen
Carmen is a werewolf who is going on a journey of self discovery of sorts. Being adopted by human parents, she never really had a pack or did any of the normal stuff a werewolf might do growing up, like lessons about controlling her more wolfish impulses and her transformations. Carmen is deathly afraid of conflict, and needs to learn that asserting herself and differences of opinion are not the end of the world. She is big-hearted and a little clueless, and very anxious most of the time.
Fun facts about her!
She loves cats. Cats do not love her.
She's a big film buff.
She knocked out her two front teeth as a kid falling at a splash park.
She mains monty mole in Mario party
2. Marsh
Marsh is by all accounts a fledgeling vampire (he's only just coming up on his fifth vamp-iversery) but has the control and demeanor of a much older vampire. The fact that he has achieved this through his fear of not being in control instead of through hard work and confidence in his abilities is definitely not going to bite him in the ass soon (it will). If he was in a self-flagellation contest, he would take second place because he would feel he hadn't earned first. He lives his life through an elaborate and painstaking persona that is so stifling and punishing to him. (Because his story is not finished) he's a very unhappy person in general, with his main solace in his afterlife being that he really, really loves his friends.
Fun facts about him!
His favorite shirt is an old band tee he stole from Cole which is two sizes two big and old and soft. He only ever wears it as pajamas and it's one of his most prized possessions.
His most common emotional response to things is to cry, which he hates.
3. Cole
I was just gonna do Carmen and Marsh but if I do Marsh I feel like I gotta do Cole and then if I do Cole I feel like I have to do Marion. Anyways, Cole is sort of the token human of his friend group. He has an affinity for creating codependent relationships with all his friends. Cole often feels unmoored and like he's fighting just to want to exist in the world, let alone have a place in it, so he throws himself at any chance to be useful. He can't handle change, and feels like he can never stop having the rug pulled out from under him, but he's still fighting and scrapping, hanging on by the skin of his nails.
Fun facts about him!
He is a seamster. Dresses are his favorite thing to make, and Marion is his favorite model.
His friends are always stealing his clothes, because he's got the most simple and cozy style of them and he's the tallest.
4. Marion
Last but not least, my girl! Marion is in a new chapter of her life where she is completely, uncompromisingly, being true to herself after an adolescence of self-repression. A witch, Marion finds a lot of joy in her magic and connection with her family, who she's close to (unlike all the other ocs on here somehow). While she may be mostly comfortable with herself again, Marion still doesn't know herself very well. She's working hard to find her ambition in life. (Perhaps a bit too hard and perhaps she's looking in the wrong places)
Fun facts about her!
She and her sister have matching flower tattoos.
She is allergic to pistachios and cashews.
Her familiar is a rat.
It's been like well over a month since you sent this ask so I'm sorry about that and I'm just gonna end it here. Thanks for the ask! I love to ramble about characters even if it takes a stupid amount of time for me to finish
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NAME lumi
PRONOUNS she/her
MOST ACTIVE MUSES sonny always on both her blogs (this and @snnydcys), second would be kate ( @greatcstarcher ), third is minah considering i am trying to keep her active with her being my very first spn oc and she deserves all da love! ( @antiqsvchotic ), my spn multi is very low ( @thel0re ).
EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS i don't even know. i will tell you one thing...i should not have been rping in the beginning stages since i was 13. how does one rp on youtube at that time?? ALL THE QUESTIONS!
FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT ooof.... depends on the mood. i would say with angst you will get longer replies from me cause OOOP. with fluff, i cry cause like... it is so nice to have fluffy shit and cry about it. now smut... i have to be comfy with the mun. otherwise i'm more eh.
LONG OR SHORT REPLIES always depends on my mood. i prefer medium to long replies because it gives me something to work with. now when it comes to starters? i always start with one liners because i can never think of anything with my dumb dumb brain.
PET PEEVES oh boy.. prepare for a rant! god modding. don't do it, please just don't. superiority. i'm sorry, but we are all here to write our silly little muses. especially with canon characters.. yes, there will be many same characters but each one should be treated with love. no one is better than the other. allow people to write freely. don't make each other feel like you can't be on this hellsite or force them out. it genuinely stresses me out whenever i see it. ship hating. just because you are not a fan of the ship doesn't mean you're allowed to make others feel bad about it. let people ship who they want to ship and let them write their little characters. (unless it's any form of incest or stepcest then i will nope out of this conversation). spamming. i've been in a scenario where i was pressured to respond fast, being spammed every single second, and it was non stop to the point i didn't want to write. allow people to breathe and to get to you on their own time. whitewashing. as a poc, please don't do it. if you are unsure, never be afraid to ask! but don't belittle someone for reaching out to you to tell you that it is whitewashing. as long as both parties are being respectful. if someone is whitewashing, do not attack immediately. just give a little nudge and let them know. ignoring female muses. as writer of only female muses, it gets disheartening. especially when the female muse is oc and poc. love your female muses like you love your male muses. they deserve recognition. fc collecting/muse collecting. my friends have fallen victim to this and watching them feel crushed?? not okay with me. no one is a collection. everyone deserves to have fun. not having a conversation. with this hellsite, it's hard to tell certain tones. it's childish to not have a conversation. as much as it's scary, have it. you never know how freeing it could be. --- i can go on and on but we don't have all day
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE honestly? i think in a way. we both tend to spread ourselves too thin and give our all to everyone. if we're also adding canon sonny, same applies along with being treated poorly while also expecting things to be done for everyone. even when we're tired or in the worst possible mood, we still try to help in any way we can. idk other similarities, but sonny is def my comfort character and i can see some of myself in her.
TIME TO WRITE currently, it's been hard with how my mental health is going. when i write, it's usually because i'm in the mood. i do not force myself to write if i genuinely can't. so i write when i want and not when i don't want.
tagged by @kindofuneven <3
tagging youuuuuuuu
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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....
Oh um! Thank you for the question, I do love that kind of thing, love writing it out... Honestly I think I can track almost a lot of my fav characters to just yaoi but whatever, I'm valid!! Also there might be some spoilers here since it's difficult to write 'why' without them. Sorry for long text, I like rambling about my favs. 1) Currently as is obvious it's Geto Suguru from JJK, I think he just combined a lot of the things I like in a way that really works for him and for the story... The inherent romance in being dead before the main plot even starts, ahh. Also the complexity behind his fall into villainy is sooo well-written, having so many reasons and chains of consequences that lead him to it, a slow and easily preventable descent into tragedy, it's so appealing... I truly believe he could have been saved and dissuaded at any point in his life, even during the events of jjk0, but people who cared about him didn't understand him, while people who did understand him didn't care enough (or actively planned to take advantage).
2) Kaeya from Genshin, similarly because he's a very contradictory character with a lot of inner demons and a tendency towards self-destructive behavior. Also back then the kaeluc of it all forced me deep into researching chinese terminology and similar examples in fiction which made playing Genshin a much more educational experience than one would expect lmao... Honestly I didn't love what the game did with him in the last few years, mostly ignoring the more serious and cunning aspects of his personality and story and focusing on the cute and insecure little trickster persona, it's very ehh to me. But in my heart I still love the version of him that made me obsess for over a year.
3) Jimmy McGill from Better Call Saul. Again, something about preventable tragedy and how difficult it is to tell where his actions can be traced back to his childhood and family relations, where he was forced and where he chose to make bad decisions himself, he is my poor meow meow 100%. Also has the benefit of being in a well-written show.
4) Princess Carolyn from Bojack, honestly it should have been Diane but Diane struck too close to home for me, while PC is a 'safer' to love option. Highly competent in professional areas, utterly delulu in others, one of the most caring characters in the cast... <З I also just liked her VA a lot, plus she's like a power fantasy in a lot of ways... Super great at her career, loving partner, realising her dream of having a baby, I mean yeah. Not that I want a baby, just that she got everything she wanted by the end, nice.
5) Wei Wuxian from MDZS, same with being dead before the story starts djkgdkjg, also a necromancer and a disaster, need I say more. I think for me a big factor of why I like him is that despite being a talented genius with a steady moral compass he absolutely failed at... everything? Lost everything he held dear or wanted to protect, when revived he doesn't even have any specific goals in the new life he was given. But his endless positivity means that he didn't mind taking that second chance anyway, and as a reward at least learned in detail why his first life fell apart, and also gained a devoted husband in the process, good for him. A rare happy end among things I like actually,, I mean I actually have words to say about the 'happy' part of it but well, as happy as it could have been for him.
6) Grantaire from Les Mis, this one is just very personal I think, a cynical drunk who never accomplished anything in his life, am I right dfjgnkdfg...,, Him being a typical asshole but well-educated and sentimental, loving Enjolras and all of his friends but giving 0 effort to actually supporting their cause, still managing to do the right thing in the end, it's ahh т_т Also I'm still obsessed with him mentioning studying under Antoine-Jean Gros in one sentence which led me down the rabbit hole of researching what real life Gros was like, spoilers he drowned himself in Seine after his artistic career went into decline. You can really see why looking at his works but that makes it all the more upsetting... Like not because of some 1 specific failure but just a lack of artistic progress overall, which his mentor, peers and students couldn't help but comment on... Anyway this isn't about Grantaire anymore but also kind of still is! 7) Vriska, I named my second cat after her!! Honestly one of the better written characters in Homestuck I think (im thinking the first five acts), just everything about her is perfect to me. A huge bitch of course, but at her core just a teenager with pure ambition and insecurities born from consequences of her actions, always trying to prove herself no matter how much she hurts people around her. And yeah like always with characters I like, so many opportunities for her to go off the doomed course, but either herself or manipulative adults always redirected her back, and that was always supposed to be the 'main' timeline, doomed by the narrative etc. The tragic nature of her friends-to-rivals-to-enemies with Terezi was also just sooo... And that Terezi didn't even care about that rivalry as much as Vriska did, or at least pretended that she didn't... Sighh....
8) Granny Weatherwax from Discworld, my favorite old woman. What's so great about her to me is that she's like all those other characters I like, an asshole who wants to solve everyone's problems, always tempted to react emotionally, do the wrong thing,... But she just doesn't, and she's been choosing to be good ever since she was young. The appeal of a powerful witch holding herself in check, mmm, she's just so much more introspective, complex and relatable than say Gandalf in LOTR who had the same issues. Iconic role model honestly.
9) Harry Du Bois from Disco Elysium, or at least specifically the communist well-natured version of him you can play as djkfgdfkfg, not that it erases his complexities and masculine asshole ways but... I mean yeah, he's a cop and an asshole no matter what, but the sheer potential he holds... No matter how low he's fallen, his sentimentality and his empathy, being so in-tune with people and the city, it all leads to a blooming hope for humanity I suppose. That you can get better, always, and not only a-la Grantaire by dying. Of course, you can also always get worse, too, but that's the other inevitable side of the coin (I still haven't played the fascist route since it makes me too sad).
10) Leo from Pandora Hearts! Again I didn't really love how he ended up, but ahhh :^) His unlikely friendship with Elliot, agreeing to becoming his servant to stay by his side more, not realising that he's dooming his friend by doing so, yandere-ish personality plus secret pretty eyes, I mean. Classic flavor.
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ooh share something about hesitation or triptych? <3
I will self-indulgently to do both <3
Hesitation but IC is inspired by a Destiel fic called, surprise surprise, Hesitation, written by apokteino, who I think was a fairly prominent fic writer back in the day? She had a series of dark Destiel fics, including Hesitation, the Bone series, the When series, and most infamously With Understanding. I find her work interesting intellectually, in her focus on exploring questions around sexual violence, relationships formed under duress, and the complexities of perpetrators & victims & their dynamics, but it feels like she maps her ideas onto SPN rather than centering canon characterizations or dynamics (at least in my read of the show/characters).
So, I decided to try my hand at a fic with the same premise but more in line with canon, particularly taking into account Cas's control/power over Dean in S4 (and which I don't feel is negated just because of Cas's sexual inexperience, altho it does add some complexity) and Dean's full experience in Hell. Part 1 is from Dean’s POV and Part 2, which I’m currently working on, is from Cas’s:
“You told me Dean wanted to have sex with me. He did, and then he didn’t.” Zachariah and he are sitting at a bar in New York, the city. It’s night, but he can’t see any stars, only the glowing of offices and apartments and advertisements against the sky. One large, flashing sign reads: Open Happiness. The moon is a cut of pure white. The humans around them talk and whisper, blissfully ignorant of the angels and the war they’re fighting to protect them. Their breath forms clouds that rise to disappear into the dark. All are dressed in what he believes are fancy clothes, long flowing red fabrics and unwrinkled suits of black, but he’s no longer sure how much he knows about humanity. Zachariah shrugs. “Humans say they want one thing, then do another, and Dean Winchester is no exception. This is why they need Heaven’s hand, Castiel.” The woman sitting to his left laughs. The man she’s talking with has taken her palm and put it up against his. Her fingernails had been carefully painted in stripes of white and black.
Triptych is sort of the opposite end of the spectrum, in that it’s my attempt at a Dean/Jack fic after looking on AO3 and finding... 2 decent fics of the whole bunch.
I started out as just wanting to do Dean/Jack during S14, but its slowly turned into Dean/Jack in the aftermath of Dean/John, probably in part 'cause I started writing it in the midst of Utena rewatch, which all about memories & cycles & incest & eternity (and then when I got to the part of S14 where Dean suggested locking himself in a coffin for eternity to save the world...) I was also struck by a post of someone discussing a common Utena interpretation that one character didn't actually want to sleep with her brother, but the poster asked if she did, would that desire negate any harm? Does wanting something "bad" mean you can't be hurt by it? If a relationship was both meaningful & hurts you, how do those elements go together?
Got a bit stalled out on this one because Holy Shit the emotional complexities here, and I want to handle it respectfully? Not be gauche? My plan is to have it all lead up to 14x20 and Thee Dean Jack Moment, re-contextualizing it within the scope of my fic, but I'm still figuring out what it all... adds up to, I suppose. (Also that I'm bad at writing character being mean, and Dean has to be mean in this fic, at least for parts of it!)
Heaven turned out to be the world’s best movie night: his favorite memories playing over and over and over again. The road trip where Sam introduced him to Harry Potter and Dean taught him how to read a paper map. He could rewind and play through his favorite five minutes as many times as he wanted. He could make everything faster or slower, which was funny for a little while, but he stopped after it got weird, like when he repeated a word too much and suddenly something would change and it wouldn’t be a real word anymore, just meaningless sounds. He could change from memory to memory in an instant, if he really wanted, but mostly he liked to let them play out before he moved onto another. And once he got to end, it was back to the beginning: a conversation trailed off or a lesson finished and then he was back at the start, to Cas’s reassuring smile, telling him about mistakes and guilt and forgiveness, or Sam’s bright concern, telling him how to take a punch, or Dean’s warm hand on his back, telling him where north was. The one thing he couldn’t do was imagine anything new. He tried, at first, in the memory of that day with Dean, how their conversation at the river could have gone—Dean’s voice low as he’d whispered, “Come here,” and then—and then—but it never worked. Guiltily he’d moved onto other memories, and at least they were too the same: if he'd ordered a hot dog, all he could eat is a hot dog; if Sam and Dean had driven past the apple orchard on a hunt, there was no turning down the short dirt road to pick fruit instead.
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Putting this below a cut as it’s long and is a response to a callout of me. If you'd like to ignore, I wouldn't blame you. Currently rebloggable; will be made non-rebloggable if people cannot behave themselves.
This is in reference to this post. It’s also going to reference ongoing, though, to be honest, relatively minor harassment by at least one other person who ships Imogen and Laudna.
The person making the callout came to my attention shortly after Laudna’s death, in which I came across this post while looking for content on Laudna. I recognized this was in reference to these posts from me, and I've kept an eye on them since. I finally blocked them about a month ago in the hopes that if I did so, they’d stop obsessing over me as they have since their very first post; they even say they made this blog because of me. Unfortunately, they seem to only have escalated in this obsession.
[Sidebar: it is very interesting the inciting cause was that I seemingly liked Imogen more than Laudna, and now I don’t like Imogen enough, when I’m pretty sure I’ve been about the same on Imogen throughout, but that’s a tangent I’d love to get into another day.]
Anyway, here’s what’s I've done:
I post my opinions a lot on my own blog. This is how blogs typically work.
In those posts I sometimes disagree with statements I’ve seen other people in the fandom make, in a general sense.
I truly almost never reblog someone else’s post with commentary outside of tags unless it’s their reblog on my original post, which is what has this person in a snit right now. (Note: it is not even their post.)
I sometimes disagree with people who ask me questions in my inbox
I don’t find im*dna compelling
That’s it. You’ll have to take it on my word, but I do not send anon hate or indeed any questions other than the occasional ask meme. This is a side blog (which I’m open about in my bio), so I don’t even post replies. It’s reblogs with tags and original posts and that’s it. I don't consider myself an arbiter of the fandom (I actually, in one of the two posts from me linked above, outright say I'm not) and I doubt anyone thinks that of me. I write meta and funny posts and I reblog things. That’s it. Any popularity I have stems from that alone. Honestly, I’d be more popular if I did post positive things about im*dna.
It is not policing or shutting someone down for me to express opinions - even if they are in disagreement with other people’s. It is not policing or harassment to respond to comments on one’s own posts. And it is the tantrum of a spoiled child to claim that it is.
For those wondering: in terms of shutting down and harassment, another blog unrelated to the person I'm linking above (here shown reblogging my post) regularly harasses not just people who don’t ship im*dna, but people who don’t ship them in the same exact way they do. I’m pretty sure this is their side blog, incidentally, given the patterns of fandoms they’ve been in, which, if true, would mean that the second post is block evasion since I’d blocked them on their other one.
Now, obviously, that’s only one case, and a couple bad apples in a large ship says nothing about most people, but here’s the truth of the matter: despite the harassment above and the general victim complex on display here, Im*dna is far and away the most popular ship for Campaign 3. A check of other popular C3 ships did not even give me a tag follower count. It’s also worth noting Laudna is by far the most popular of the C3 characters; FCG and Chetney don’t even get follower counts on their tags. Im*dna has almost as many fics as some canon Campaign 2 ships do, after far less time. If such a thing as a fandom arbiter existed, and I were one of them? I’d be failing miserably.
Here’s the other truth of the matter. I don’t have any secret insight into Marisha or Laura’s decisions nor any control over what happens in canon. I could stop posting today and it wouldn’t change a thing about what happens on the actual show. I think it’s worth considering why someone primarily known for textual analysis isn’t terribly enamored with a ship, the bulk of the canon content of which stems from unseen backstory or scenes when one of the parties wasn’t even there, but if you're into it? Go ahead.
You know those videos in which a dog is desperately trying to reach something outside of its cage, and they pan out to show that the door is fully open? This is me telling you the door is open. No one is forcing you to see my posts and no one is stopping you from saying what you want. You’re getting in your own way and making yourself mad. If that's what you want to do, that's fine, but leave me out of it.
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Big Ethel Energy Season 2 Episode 20
I personally have very little to say about the latest update of Big Ethel Energy.
Basically, Ethel's personality continues to grate me, she continues to not take or even consider taking any responsibility for her own actions, other characters are utilized to uplift her/make her appear to be the victim, and that her conflict resolution skills need SOOO much work.
For example, this.
She's putting all of the blame onto Tim. And has I have mentioned in the past this is exactly how she treats and talks about Jughead. Ethel refuses to take any responsibility or even consider that she's at fault, that she has caused any conflict herself (It takes two to tango and it takes two to create a misunderstanding). But the comic and the author continue to portray that it is everyone else around her that is causing the conflict. Never her.
It makes for a bad protagonist especially in the case of how the author and the writing treats her as a perpetual victim. As a reader it is unpleasant and grating as it continues on and there is never any growth from Ethel. With every 'solution' (example: Her relationship with Jughead) two more problems crop up or her opinions are rewritten which turn the conclusion or solution back into the problem. It's like living in a time-loop with Ethel! There is no progress or growth, but a rehashing of the same old problems with a different paint job (actually barely even that).
However, on a brighter side, one thing I've noticed while taking a peak at the comments section, which is usually a source or irritation, is that I'm not the only one who has noticed such! (Hallelujah!)
I love the people in the comments who pointed out how the author treats Ethel and ignores the unintentional flaws of her character and writing.
[This isn't the whole thread, and these two commenters are responding to a different commenter, but I included them because they are points that I vehemently agree with or have stated myself in the past.]
Atomicdarling is absolutely right in pointing out the difference between the intentional flaws written by the author and those that are unintentional that the reader sees. Ex: Her selfishness, and inability to take accountability.
And MeikosCoffee is absolutely right in pointing out how the comic utilizes other characters to portray Ethel as better or a victim (Ex: How she talks about Jughead, how Moose's jealousy and anger has spiked dramatically with this current season). As well as pointing out how she is self centered.
Really just because a character is the protagonist does not mean that excuses them being self-centered. It's very much possible to write a protagonist and not feel they are self-centered within their story.
Also just because we the readers see it does not mean it is intentional by the author. Unintentional aspects cropping up in a story is a part of writing. The author is not an all knowing being, but I agree that we should not give the webcomic too much credit with regard to Ethel's portrayal. She is flawed but a number of her flaws are unintentional with relation to the story and how she is portrayed.
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【100回嘔吐】 もう生きてるだけで褒めて頂戴 2024 (English lyrics)
cw: gaslighting, suicide
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My life feels so goddamn empty. Everyday is so monotonous; just work, and eat, and sleep. There's no chance for me to be happy. This pain is nothing special, though, ha.
Why are things like this? I guess I deserve this. But it's hard to not feel cheated and betrayed.
My life's a pathetic disaster, so why the hell am I still trying?
Well, that 'cause one day I'll be saved, I'll be scooped away, all I have to do is just wait.
Find someone I love, find a fuller life.
I want that. I need that. And I deserve all that, you know.
You know.
I deserve better than this.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!
NONE OF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND ME, YOU ALL HATE ME!! I KNOW THAT THAT'S THE TRUTH, AND GOD IT FUCKING TEARS ME APART!!
BUT POSSIBLY, DEEP INSIDE OF ME, THERE'S SOMETHING EVERYONE WANTS!!
SO PLEASE, PLEASE TELL ME, THAT YOU VALUE ME!! COME ON, LIE, LIE, LIE, OR ONE DAY I MIGHT JUST DIE!!
Wait, no, sorry! Please, ignore me!
We both know words are cheap, so nothing you could say would ever help, right?
My persona's so goddamn ugly. My mood is inconsistent, there's too much wrong with me. I probably deserve a lobotomy. With that, I'd never act up again.
WHAT A JOKE!!
Oh yeah? What's that? You really, truly think that my life's not so bad? Sorry if it's annoying, but I can only complain. Just block me, please, and go away.
But you know, I need company, I feel too lonely, yet I'm doing all of this, huh.
It's clear hypocrisy, but you're just like me.
Here, look, here, at your heart, amanojaku are in both of us.
All of us.
We're only human, you know.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!
Everyone! You're so ugly! Just like me! No matter how much you try to hide it, it's clear to see! But unlike me, you're far too willing, to have a false identity!
And, you know, I really hate that! It tears me apart! I know that deep inside your heart, something's just begging to cry out!
You realize that,
RIGHT!?
THE WHOLE WORLD HATES US, NOBODY LOVES US!! WE KNOW THAT THAT'S THE TRUTH, AND GOD IT FUCKING TEARS US APART!!
BUT I'LL HEAR YOU OUT, SO PLEASE VOMIT OUT ALL YOUR HATE AND LOVE AND PAIN!!
YEAH I KNOW, IT FEELS UGLY, BUT IT'S OKAY!! GO ON AND RETCH, RETCH, RETCH!! VOMIT ALL OF IT AWAY!!
See, see, deep inside, you're amazing!
We both know words are cheap, but in your earnest voice, I sense beauty!
So please, just like me, keep going on and on for us all!
You know, this sucks, it's impossible to think that I should be alive at all. Even so I hope that you value some part of me.
I'll catch you later, yeah?
(Weird rambling beneath the "keep reading", beware etc)
So, I wrote some English lyrics to this song I really like, because I wanted to, because the song is really good. I finished writing these a while ago, and I don't think they're really worth much just being posted plainly like this, but I'd rather do that than throw them away, so here they are, messy as anything messy can be.
I had planned on making a proper cover of this and drawing a little animation to go with it, and I certainly gave it a good shot, sorta. I wrote the first draft of the cover and started singing them while adjusting the parts that felt off, until I ended up singing the entire song front to back with multiple takes that felt "right", but then I hit the current minuscule limit of my motivation, I guess. I can't learn anything new right now, and learning how to sing earnestly for the first time ever as well as how to adjust/master vocals was toooooo much. So, here's the lyrics instead of an actual cover, because I don't want to throw it away.
Anyway, I worked on this because, wow, listening to this remix for the first time really just blew me away, which I wasn't expecting at all, which is kind of annoying. 100kaiouto/Vomiting 100 Times is the only VocaloidP I've ever followed (besides GYARI but GYARI is GYARI), and, unfortunately, I really don't like any of the stuff they made post-2020. All of it sort of feels lifeless and indistinct compared to their earlier works, as blunt and rude as it is to say that. And I assume that's because of this damn song, the 2017 original. I was following them before they released the original version of this song and randomly went pretty damn viral, and… god, this song. So many thoughts and opinions and repercussions, maybe.
I obviously don't know how 100kaioutou themselves feels about it, but I can only imagine it sort of wore them out when they saw that this was their most popular song, considering the fact that they released NANIMONO a bit afterwards, a song that they very clearly were extremely proud of, evidenced by the fact that they very quickly made a self-cover of it after releasing it, and yeeeeet, it really wasn't the song that people cared about. Sure, it has around 750K views on YouTube right now, which isn't too piddling compared to the 2017 version of this song's 3.1M, but god was it a bit sad to watch them post the NANIMONO self-cover and then post the self-cover of this shortly after, and it's all the more worrying now that they've gone and deleted all of their self-covers (I thought they were really, really cool; I don't know why they were taken down, but I sincerely miss them).
I'm not going to assume much more, here, though. Whatever 100kaiouto's doing, I wish them the best. But god do I love this remix, that's my point. I don't like anything after 2020, but I love this remix. That's statistically unsurprising, yeah, considering how this is easily one of the top-three most-listened-to songs by them for me, between its instrumental, self-cover, and plain ordinary version. I really love this song!! But then. I mean. Uh. To go on a tangent, as if this entire rant isn't already a tangent, god do I hate this song's lyrics.
Anybody that knows the original translation of this song's lyrics will probably be able to tell that this interpretation is a bit a lot liberal in its message or whatever. I personally consider it a bastardization. But god I hate the original lyrics!! The moment somebody finally translated them back in 2019 or so, I immediately was just like "oh this isn't surprising but I don't like it at all". Celebrating being alive because living is hard, especially in a cynical way, is just so… annoying and meaningless to me. So, these bastardized lyrics instead. I doubt anybody's even gonna really come across this and scrutinize it, but, y'know, I want to scrutinize myself. I feel a bit guilty about it. But y'know. Also. In 2024? After 7 years of whatever shit 100kaiouto's been going through, artistically, mentally, generally? I want to think that they'd change this message, somewhat. It is, after all, from my point of view, a song that shifted the trajectory of their career pretty hard, and, given that it was their first time writing a song like this, I personally think it deserves some amount of change. Not necessarily "improving", but a shift of some sort.
Anyway, that's me applying my own weird assumptions and opinions to a song that I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about that I arbitrarily want to apply to the artist as well, because something about it just feels wrong and cruel to me as an outsider looking in and following this artist right after they released a song about having trouble communicating and connecting with people in a light-hearted but far-too-real way. Kinda weird to go from that to "it's way too hard to be alive, we all know it, we're all deserving of praise for being alive", but 100kaiouto's pedigree is all over the place, and that's part of the reason I've always been a fan of them. Sure, I can't understand most of their songs because they're just too small to have people consistently localize their songs (it took a damn year for their most-popular song to get a translation!!), but every song is special and different and has its own vibe, and that vibe is something you can feel regardless of the language barrier, and god do I love their vibes a majority of the time, until 2020, when everything still maintained its uniqueness, but, I dunno, nothing feels alive anymore.
That's all to say, I love 100kaiouto. I hope they're doing well these days, following this perfect remix, a remix that fully upgrades an old song that I love, which meant god did listening to this remix both terrify me (upon seeing it, because I haven't liked their more recent stuff) and amaze me (after listening to it). The original track has the same momentum/intensity throughout its entire length, outside of the bridge, and the bridge is damn good, but god is the progression in this remix so poignant and amazing to me. Starting quiet and muted and tired, slowly getting more and more agitated, leading to a bridge that's really just calling out earnestly, and crescendoing in a final, intense, upbeat chorus that, to me, oozes with all kinds of guttural and real emotions. It's perfect.
In terms of finer details of this "localization" that I'm worried about, if anybody ever actually tried to do a cover with these lyrics, uh. If you don't know what an amanojaku is, look at Seija Kijin and study her, that's an amanojaku, a youkai that embodies the behavior of knowingly refusing to do what you're told/what's best for you, to the detriment of yourself and everybody around you. And then also uh sorry that the syllables here don't really match 1:1 with the original vocals, especially at the line "ALL YOUR HATE AND LOVE AND PAIN!!". I do know all of this is at least singable, at least. Hopefully. Because god do I not know how to sing and had to adjust a lot of lines to compensate for my inability to enunciate a lot of things. It should be fine, because of that. But sorry if it isn't.
Also, sorry about the nature of these lyrics. We sure do apply present thoughts and worries to art, don't we. I hazard to really call this art, though, since the effort/result here is pretty insubstantial, but it's art in some way.
#100回嘔吐#...What else is there to put here as tags anyway?#This isn't a cover so not that#Who knows but anyway#I shouldn't be posting anything on Tumblr but here's this#Take care best of luck with everything etc
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Listen To Me
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Warnings: Bakugou because he's his own warning, Violence, Reader Looses Hearing, Wattpad level writing
The One Where: Shoto's crush becomes deaf after fighting with Bakugou
Pairing: Shoto Todoroki x Deaf!GnReader
A/n: Reader's Quirk Is Weather Manipulation
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"Kacchan stop!" Deku yelled.
"(N/n) stop you're not making this matter any better!" Uraraka whined.
"(Y/n) please just stop, it's not worth it" Todoroki said.
"C'mon man, this is so not cool!" Kirishima yelled. The two most explosive students in the class, who also happened to be friends since junior high, were currently having an argument and the fight had gotten so bad that not even All Might wanted to interfere so he had sent Iida to go get Aizawa to cancel their quirks while the other students were trying to calm them down before that happened. The entire argument between the two started when you and Todoroki got paired for an assignment. Bakugo had made a snarky comment that caused a fight to break out between you two. At first it was simple barks of insults back and forth but the quirk fight had started when Bakugo set off an explosion at Todokri.
"Why do you have to be such a narcissistic, angry, little prick! Can't you just accept that someone might be more powerful than you!" You yelled as lightning struck near Bakugo. Storm cloud forming above you all. Thunder clapped but the rain never came.
"No one is better than me! You're just jealous like everyone else!" Bakugo yelled aiming an explosion at you. Todoroki, Uraraka, and Deku all winced when they saw you rub your ear. Bakugo's explosions had the tendency to cause some ear ringing pain.
"You're just a scared, angry, angsty, narcissistic, annoying, little Pomeranian!" You yelled walking up to Bakugo
"Well at least I'm not a stupid, small, promiscuous, little bitch!" Bakugo barked at you.
"I am not promiscuous!"
"I'm not angsty!"
"Go to hell!" You yelled shoving Bakugo back.
"No you!" Bakugo yelled shoving you as well. Then time slowed down.
"Fuck you!" Both of you yelled in unison. Bakugo had gotten so mad that he went to punch you. You were quick to grab his fist in time but you were both so mad that your quirks went off at the same time. Bakugo had caused a huge explosion followed by lighting coming down in between the two of you as thunder clapped above you. Bakugo fell back to the ground but the force of his explosion caused you to go flying.
"(Y/n)!" Todoroki yelled. He shot out a slide of ice before you could crash into the side of the school. You slid down the ice rolling onto the ground a little more gracefully than what would've happened if Todoroki didn't move fast enough.
"Bakugo!" Aizawa yelled furiously he had made it too late standing behind him was Mic and Iida.
"(Y/n)!" The class ran to your unconscious body followed by All Might. "Bakugo office now!" Aizawa yelled. The ashy blonde growled in annoyance as he left the scene. Aizawa, Mic, and Iida quickly made their way over to the class.
"(Y/n) wake up, are you okay?" Uraraka said. Todoroki pulled the your head onto his lap. "Their bleeding from their head and ears" He said pulling his hand back seeing it stained red.
"Iida go get Recovery girl, Kirishima go get some towels and water" Aizawa commanded. The two students nodded their heads leaving to go do as told.
"It feels like her shoulder is fractured" Deku said.
"You would know" Todoroki said adjusting you in his lap. He put his cold hand against the back of your head in attempts to cool you down when he pulled his hand away it was stained red. He ignored it wiping his hand off on his suit before pressing the back of his cold hand against your forehead.
"What happened?" Mic asked.
"Kacchan made a snarky comment about (Y/n) and Todoroki working together. They got annoyed and tried to argue, he got mad, they got mad. They yelled at each other for not even 5 minutes, Kacchan set of an explosion at Todoroki causing (Y/n) to get even more mad so they tried to make him stop with some lighting and then a quirk fight broke out worse than when Kacchan and I fought and you basically know the rest" Deku said. Kirishima came back with three water bottle and five towels and not too far behind him was Iida with Recovery Girl.
"Here" Kirishima said handing Uraraka the water bottles and towel. The girl soaked one of the towels with a water bottle and Todoroki sat you up enough for Uraraka to clean the back of your head.
"What are their injuries?" Recovery girl asked.
"Their shoulder is fractured and they have a cut somewhere in the back of her head" All Might said. Recovery girl leans forward kissing your Injured shoulder first and then the top of your head avoiding the blood Uraraka was cleaning. Todoroki set you back down on his lap using a towel to clean his hands. Everyone waited around patiently as you started to wake up.
"(N/n) oh thank god" Uraraka said pulling you in for a hug while everyone sighed in relief.
"How do you feel sweetie?" Recovery girl asked as Todokri handed you a water bottle. You nodded to him in gratitude eyes glued to the ground as you drank from the water slowly.
"(Y/n), how do you feel?" Todoroki asked quietly. You still didn't answer as you rubbed your face keeping your eyes on the ground. The class all shared looks of confusion as Todoroki set his hand on your shoulder making you look at him.
"(Y/n) are you okay?" He asked softly. You gave him a look of confusion.
"What?" You said so quietly Todoroki almost didn't hear you.
"You okay (L/n)?" Todoroki asked in a normal tone calling you by your last name instead.
"Sho I can't hear you speak up" You said once again so quietly Todoroki could barely hear you. The class all shared a look of worry.
"Mic" Recovery Girl said. Mic nodded his head stepping forward.
"Everyone back up" Aizawa said. Everyone did as told as Mic crouched down to your height holding his hand out for you. You took his hand as he helped you up before backing up some.
"(Y/n), can you hear me!" Mic yelled without his quirk first. You just gave him a look of confusion. Mic sighed heavily taking a few steps back before turning on his directional speaker. The class all simultaneously plugged their ears. Mic hesitated before taking a deep breath and yelling your name with his quirk.
You shielded yourself since the sound waves were pushing you back but you made no move to shield your ears. Gears started to turn though. When Mic stopped you brought your hand to your ear snapping twice, Nothing. You gulped nervously before making a small thunderstorm in your hand. The class could hear the rain fall onto your hand along with the thunder the clouds made but you heard nothing. You eyes were glossy as you brought a hand over your mouth shielding the sob that left your lips.
Todoroki, Deku, and Uraraka were automatically at your side. Todoroki wrapped his arms around you as you collapsed in his grip Todoroki gently helping you to the ground.
"Bakugo caused them to go deaf" Mina said.
"That's impossible, his quirk can't be that powerful right, I mean how come Midoriya, Todoroki, and Uraraka have perfect hearing and they've experienced the same thing (Y/n) did" Kirishima said.
"That was one of the biggest explosions Bakugo's ever made, not to mention that mixed with their own thunder and lighting, I'm just shocked that Bakugo didn't go deaf either" Iida said.
"Kacchan does have bad hearing, nothing too bad, his parents thinks it's the main reason he yells a lot" Deku said refusing to take his eyes off your crying figure.
"If they at least could hear something I could heal them but if their ear drum is hurt entirely there's nothing I can do" Recovery girl said sadly.
"They're burst, you can tell by the way they reacted to Yamada's quirk" Aizawa said.
"Instead of plugging their ears they shielded themself from the sound waves" Mic said his tone a lot softer than usual. The class stayed silent as they watched you in Todoroki's arms, you had stopped crying but refused to move.
"Head back to class, Todoroki take them to Recovery Girl's office, I'm going to call their parents" Aizawa said before leaving. Uraraka caught your attention making a hand gesture for you to stand up. You shook your head resting your head on Todoroki's shoulder. The boy placed one hand under your legs the other on your back as he scooped you up bridal style. Deku and Uraraka both stood in front of you two Tsuyu and Iida right behind them. You refused to look at any of them keeping your eyes glued to your hands.
"Head back to class you guys, I'll carry them to the office" Todokri said. The group nodded as they left with their classmates and All Might.
"C'mon dear" Recovery Girl said. Her and Mic took the lead to her office Todoroki trailing behind with you in his arms.
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"You son of a bitch I'm gonna kill you!" Todoroki yelled shooting up from where he was sitting when Bakugo walked into class. Deku and Iida both held him back Aizawa automatically canceling his quirk. No one had ever seen Todoroki show so much emotion before. "
What the fuck is your problem icy hot, I don't see you being suspended for a week" Bakugo growled going to his seat. "He's not the only one that has a problem with you-you jerk" Uraraka said.
"Yeah" Tsuyu said.
"To be honest man pretty much all of us are mad at you right now" Kaminari said sheepishly.
"Yeah, that was kind of a dick move and you don't even feel guilty" Sero said.
"Not manly at all bro" Kirishima said.
"What the hell did I do, not the first time (N/n) and I got into a fight" Bakugo said annoyed as he sunk down in his seat.
"You mean you don't know?" Mina asked.
Bakugo gave a look of annoyance. "Will someone tell me what the fuck is wrong?" He asked annoyed. Aizawa stepped up to his desk.
"Todoroki I suggest you calm down before you get in trouble too" He said. Todoroki glared at him before doing as told, Iida and Deku finally let go of him. Aizawa sighed looking at Bakugo. "(L/n) is deaf now because of your fight" Aizawa said.
Bakugo looked at him in disbelief. "Wh-What?" Bakugo asked. His voice cracked catching everyone, even Todoroki off guard.
"We believe the mixture of your explosion and their thunder and lightning caused their eardrums to burst. Either way the fight between the two of you caused them to be deaf, and there's no way to fix it" Aizawa said. Before Bakugo could say another word there was a knock at the door. Aizawa walked over opening it seeing Mic and Midnight with you.
Todoroki's breath caught in his through when he saw you. You were wearing his dark blue hoodie with black shorts along with your signature (f/c) high top sneakers. Your(H/c) hair was mainly in your face and you had a bag in your hands while Mic held your backpack. Your eyes were glued to your shoes while Mic and Midnight did the talking for you.
"Did anything happened when you took them to Recovery Girl's office?" Deku asked.
"Not really, we just got them cleaned up along with me since I was blood stained, Mic did had to convince them to let me come back to class though since they refused to let go of me" Todoroki said.
"How'd he convince them?" Tsuyu asked.
"Texting" Todoroki shrugged. They watched as Aizawa went to his desk grabbing a few papers before handing them to Mic. He then looked over at the group of students.
"You five, come here" He said.
"Us?" Iida, Uraraka, Todoroki, Tsuyu, and Deku asked in unison.
"Yeah" Aizawa said. The group of five walked to the door before going out into the hallway. Tsuyu and Uraraka automatically enveloped you in a hug.
"They're not going to be here for a while so they wanted to say bye to you guys" Midnight said.
"Are they going home?" Iida asked. Midnight nodded her head. When the girls pulled apart you looked up at Iida. You held your arms out Iida stepping forward giving you a hug. It was followed by Deku and then Todoroki. You held onto the icy hot boy tightly feeling as if you were going to cry again. When you pulled apart Todoroki kisses the top of your head. You kept an arm wrapped around Todoroki as you pulled out your phone typing quickly before showing the group.
Tell Kiri, Mina, Jirou, Sero, & Momo that I ❤️ them
They all nodded their heads giving you one more hug before going back into the classroom.
"Kirishima" Iida said causing the group in the back of the classroom to stop talking. "(Y/n) would like to inform you, Ashido, Sero, Kaminari, Jirou, and Yayorozu that they love you all deeply" Iida said.
"Are they leaving?" They asked worriedly.
"Only for a small while, they're going to be keeping up with their studies from home, Midnight is going to be driving them home" Aizawa said walking back in. "(Y/n) said that they're going to miss you guys" Aizawa said. "Also they're disappointed that they never got to hear Koda speak and never will" Aizawa said to lighten the mood. The class mute turned bright pink as a few of them chuckled. "I should mention that Mic has offered to teach ASL classes after school, He's opening it up to the entire school since the news of their incident reached Class 1B and 1C and a few students there wish to learn as well along with some of (Y/n)'s friends in the other years" Aizawa said.
"Why ASL and not JSL?" Jirou asked.
"(Y/n)'s mom used to be a teacher back in America and she learned ASL since some of her students were deaf due to their quirks or had gone through accidents similar to (Y/n)" Aizawa said. That caused eyes to land on Bakugo.
"How does he know sign language?" Deku asked.
"I don't remember if he's almost deaf or just has bad hearing but when he started to lose his hearing in Highschool he taught himself ASL and JSL, he wears a hearing aid often you just have to pay close attention" Aizawa answered. The class took notice of how he wasn't his usual grumpy sleepy self, he was answering questions sincerely and didn't complain. "Any more questions?" Aizawa asked.
"Do you know how long they'll be gone?" Mina asked.
"At least two weeks, but they have to learn ASL, JSL, and how to read lips before they come back and who knows how long that's going to take" Aizawa said.
"Are they mad?" Bakugo asked. His voice was soft when he spoke, his classmates could tell he was holding back tears, absolutely the exact opposite of Katsuki Bakugo. All Might and Deku are some of the only people at UA that have seen him cry and he wasn't about to let his classmates be on that list.
"As far as I know they're not mad but then again they haven't expressed any actually emotions" Aizawa said. The class fell silent after than. Todoroki made his way back to his seat along with the others that were standing around talking to their groups. "Take your your work for Ectoplasm's class, the rest of the school day will return to normal and Bakugo" Aizawa said. Bakugo looked up at the teacher. "After today keep an eye on your computer, we'll be emailing you your school assignments so you can keep up in class but other than that the same punishment as last time remains, no leaving the dorms under any costs" Aizawa said. The ashy blonde nodded his head as the teacher left leaving the class alone to wait for Ectoplasm.
"Sorry" Bakugo said quietly.
"Hmm?" Deku asked.
"I'm talking to Ic- Todoroki, sorry for making your partner deaf" Bakugo said not looking at the son of Endeavor.
"You shouldn't be apologizing to me" Todoroki said.
"Can't apologize to (Y/n), they won't hear me, doubt they'll even talk to me after this" Bakugo said. The class stayed silent after that, Todoroki just quietly started doodling in the margin of his notes some thunder clouds and snowflakes, he was worried for you then he realized something. He didn't bother correcting Bakugo when he said that you were his partner.
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"I really don't understand what girls see in this movie" You said eyes glued to the TV a look of confusion on your face.
"This is coming from you" Shoto chuckled causing you to roll your eyes and smack him.
"My mom says that this movie is popular with the ladies back in America but I don't understand it"
It was almost midnight and you were with Shoto in his room watching a few movies your mom and brought back from America. You were currently watching The Notebook trying to understand why so many people feel In love with the movie.
"This is almost as bad as Inception" You told him
"Or Matrix" Shoto added. You shivered as a cold breeze went down your spine. You grabbed your blanket you had brought from your own room wrapping yourself up in it. "Cold?" Shoto asked.
"It's fine, I just feel the coldness from your right side radiating onto me" You joked. "
Here" He said sitting up slipping off his blue hoodie leaving him in his white t-shirt. He handed it to you causing you to smile as you grabbed it.
"Thanks Sho", Shoto smiled as the movie ended. He got up switching out the disks.
"Madagascar?" He asked holding up the box. You nodded, Shoto put the disk into the DVD player starting the movie. He went to sit back in his spot until he stopped. "Scoot over like that you can sit next to my warm side" He said. You smiled doing as told. Shoto smiles back sitting next to you in the bed. He leans back against his head board.
After a few days in the dorms he made some adjustments. His bed was right across from his desk and he had a TV mounted on the wall with two shelves next to it. One had his DVD player and the other a few movies he brought from home. When the movie started to play You grabbed the now empty bowl of popcorn setting it on the dresser he had next to his bed. When you went to sit back Shoto had pulled you closer to him wrapping his arm around your waist.
"Feeling warmer?" He asked.
"Much, thanks Sho" You smiled. Shoto smiled back leaning forward kissing the top of your head. The two of proceeded to watch the movie until you fell asleep. Shoto turned off the TV looking at the your sleeping figure in his arms. Your head laid on his chest one of your hands in front of you lazily wrapped around him the other was playing with his hair. Shoto's arm was wrapped around your waist and he was very tempted to just pull you on top of him all together, actually he just did it. He scooted more towards the center of the bed pulling you so you were sleeping on top of him.
"Gnight princess" Shoto said kissing the top of your head. "I love you" He said fully knowing that you didn't hear him. He was thankful for that because he didn't want to risk your friendship going off the rails just because he had confessed his love for his first crush and best friend. Shoto wrapped both his arms around you before going to sleep himself.
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"Todoroki's in his happy place again" Deku teased.
"Huh?" Shoto said confused.
"We can tell you're thinking about (N/n) whenever you zone out and start drawing snowflakes and clouds" Uraraka said gesturing to his ASL papers that were now covered in little doodles of thunderclouds and snowflakes, not to mention he'd written your name a few times. Shoto quickly shut his notebook his face flushing pink.
"I can't help it, it's been almost 2 months, shouldn't they have come back by now" Todoroki said.
"They couldn't have missed that much" Kirishima said. Deku proceeded to list of all the things you had missed from the work studies up to the school festival you were about to miss if you didn't come back soon. If it weren't for the incident you were going to join Neijire Hado in her work studies the bubbly 3rd year taking a liking to the formerly bubbly 1st year.
"I feel bad for them, even if they do come to our performance they won't be able to hear us" Kaminari said.
"Yeah, they really adored music" Sero said.
That's right, almost everything that you loved in the world you couldn't do anymore. You couldn't listen to music anymore, you now needs to watch movies with captioning, and you can't hear your friends talk anymore. That's when Shoto realized he can't read to you anymore. You had a love for books, but due to the fact that you can't always focus you mainly listen to audio books or what you had found to be your favorite thing in the world, have Shoto read you the books. If you both ever had free time together and you had found a new book you liked you'd have Shoto read you the book while you would do your homework assignments or draw for him. They thought of it as a fair trade especially since you were in the top of your class you flew through all the homework assignments. But now, Shoto wouldn't be able to read to you, you wouldn't be able to hear him.
"Todoroki you okay?" Deku asked.
"Huh oh, I was just think about what Kaminari said. In our free time if (Y/n) found a book they were interested in they'd have me read it to them while they would do our school work or even just make a drawing for me" Shoto smiles flipping a few pages in his notebook pulling out a sketch of himself and his mom. "They made that for me last time, I had told them I was visiting my mom and so they drew this for me while I read them some book their mom had brought back from America, it was about Greek mythology I believe" Shoto said smiling down at the drawing, he had shown it to his mom and siblings they adored it. They all desperately wanted to meet you.
"Wow Todoroki I never realized how much you love them" Deku said.
"Huh?" Shoto said.
"Well man c'mon how many of your notes have snowflakes and Thunderclouds drawn in them" Kirishima said.
"Not to mention you're going through the trouble of learning both ASL and JSL" Uraraka added.
"Also you spend a lot of time zoned out thinking about them, we can tell cause you look like your concentrating really hard but your face slowly starts to go pink and sometimes you have a small smile" Mina said. By now Shoto was red to the face, he never realized how much you became a part of his life.
"Not to mention you've admitted to loving her" Bakugo said from his seat in the ASL classroom. He was practicing his JSL so he didn't bother looking up from his notes.
Ever since Junior High Bakugo always knew that he would slowly ruin his hearing, similarly to Present Mic since he had such a loud quirk, so he would teach himself JSL in his free time. He had also started teaching Todoroki as well.
"When did he do that?" Iida asked.
"The day we were working on our Ultimate moves, or the night at least. I'm assuming (Y/n) had fallen asleep in the commons studying cause when I went to their dorm to check on them, Icy Hot was tucking them into their bed professing his undying love for them" Bakugo said still not looking up from his notes.
"It was not that dramatic" Shoto told him.
"It's true?" Uraraka asked.
"I just simply tucked them into their bed told them that I loved them kissed them on the head and left, not the first time I'd done it" Shoto shrugged causing the girls to squeal.
"So cute, you two are so meant for each-" Mina's fangirling was cut off by the classroom door opening.
Present Mic and quickly come into the room with a giggling Eri followed by Aizawa. "Hey Eri" Deku and Mirio greeted the girl in unison. The white haired child smiles back at them.
"Why are you guys in such a rush?" Jirou asked. Present Mic set Eri down the girl automatically going to Aizawa.
"Lessons are canceled for today" Present Mic said earning protests from everyone.
"Because- Because…" Mic trailed off before looking out the classroom door and nodding his head. First came in Neijire Hado with a big bubbly expression as always, followed by Midnight and a (F/c) haired student. The student wore light blue ripped jeans with familiar (f/c) sneakers and a familiar dark blue hoodie.
"(Y/n)?" Shoto asked. You looked up but towards Neijire and Midnight who smiled and insisted you walk further into the room. You lifted your head with a smile on your face before looking towards the classroom. You had dyed your hair (F/c) and now had another piercing on your ear and nose but what everyone noticed was the bright smile you wore.
"I'm back" You said at a whisper but since the classroom was so quiet in shock, everyone had heard you.
Your eyes trailed across the classroom before they stopped on your friends. You smiled at them before looking back seeing Mic, Aizawa, and Eri. When you looked at Eri- Aizawa and Mic both grinned at you.
"Is that-?" You cut yourself off in fear of being too loud. The two men nodded at you as Aizawa let go of Eri.
"Eri meet (Y/n), the person we told you about" Aizawa said. When Eri herself was at the hospital Deku had told her a few stories about you, and when Eri had gotten to meet Aizawa and Mic they told her about you as well.
"While they were home, Hado and I took it upon ourselves to keep them updated on what happened to everyone while they were gone which reminds me, Midoriya" Mic said catching the green haired boys attention.
"They called you and Mirio bumbling buffoons" Midnight said causing everyone to laugh. They all looked at you and Eri.
You crouched down in front of the small girl. The little girl smiled reaching forward to touch your hair., she hesitated pulling back. You smiled gently nodding at the girl encouraging her to touch your (f/c) locks. Eri did so giggling at the color.
"You're pretty" Eri said.
"Thank you" You said making her gasp and confusing the class simultaneously.
"You heard me?" Eri asked.
You smile shaking your head. "I learned how to read lips" You said quietly and as you spoke, you did the sign motions. Eri looked back at her two guardians then at the two students that saved her before grinning.
"I learned a little, for you" The child signed. You gasped softly a hand going to your mouth as tears threatened to fall. The entire ASL class watched in awe at the scene before them.
"It is nice to meet you Eri, I have heard a lot about you" (Y/n) signed slowly for the little girl. It took Eri a moment but she finally replied.
"I hear about you… 2 (N/n)" Eri signed slightly messing up, but you could still understand her.
"Kind of ironic that the deaf kid said they heard isn't it?" Monoma asked earning a glare from his classmates and a few others. "It was a joke sheesh" Monoma said. Ever since your incident, Class 1B and Class 1A have gotten along better, even Monoma has taken it down with his constant taunting.
The class watched as you hugged the white haired girl before standing up and facing the class. Your eyes trailed to the two third years in the back, then some of the kids from Class 1B you made friends with, over to Aizawa's secret son Shinso, then to class 1A. The ASL classroom was definitely packed with the amount of students in it but no one cared.
"Hi Amajiki" You signed to the anxious third year causing the boy to turn red and face the wall making you giggle. "How do you feel Mirio?"
"Never better (Y/n), welcome back" Mirio signed. Little by little you sign some stupid little comment to each of the students and grinning when they responded in return, if they messed up you would laugh and shake your head.
"Are you in the hero course yet Shinso?" (Y/n) signed. Shinso chuckled rolling his eyes.
"Getting there, trying to replace Mineta" Shinso responded causing you to laugh. You ruffled his lavender locks before moving onto your own class.
"Koda have you talked yet?"
"Tokoyami, how is Dark Shadow doing?"
"Ojiro does Denki still play with your tail?"
What surprised everyone is when you signed something at Aoyama that no one understood. But Aoyama only smiled before signing back at you in full confidence.
"What was that?" Deku asked.
"It was FSL monsiour, (Y/n) has real taste for a classy language" Aoyama said. The class just chuckled letting you continue.
"Iida how's your brother doing?"
"Denki stop playing with Ojiro's tail"
"Uraraka how's that crush on-"
You laughed when the zero gravity girl shot up from her seat grabbing your hands. "It's going great (Y/n), it's going great" Uraraka signed. You laughed as your eyes landed on Shoto, the boy tensed up.
"Kirishima, how's that crush on Bakugo going?"
You skipped over him. Kirishima didn't know whether to be confused or flustered, that was until he saw the smirk on your face. The red haired boy chuckled before looking forward at the ashy blonde that was now red to the face. "Dating for two weeks" Kirishima signed causing you to squeal. You quickly looked over at Mina pointing towards the two students. The pink alien girl giggled nodding.
"Kiribaku?" You quickly signed. Mina smiles returning the same sign motions.
"What the hell is Kiribaku?" TetsuTetsu asked as you continued with your class.
"It's mine and Bakugo's ship name" Kirishima chuckled a hint of blush on his face.
The class fell silent as they saw you were now standing in front of Bakugo's desk, the person to cause you to go deaf. You glanced down at his desk seeing both ASL and JSL papers.
"I have an appointment to go to the doctor to see if it's possible to get me a hearing aid, they doubt it cause it's possible that not even a hearing aid from Hatsume can help but we still have hope, you're coming with me and checking to get one too, I know your hearing is starting to fade because of your quirk" You signed in JSL so Mic, Shoto, and Bakugo were the only ones that understood what you signed. Bakugo went to sign back until you went to stop him. "I'll forgive you under one condition" you signed in ASL this time.
"Which is?" Bakugo rose an eyebrow in confusion. You giggled holding out your arms. "Hug" she said softly. In the years you'd known Bakugo one thing you've always wanted from him but never gotten was a hug, well a proper one at least. Bakugo groaned rolling his eyes earning a laugh from you. He stood up reluctantly giving you a hug, a proper one.
"Oh no fair he hasn't ever given me a hug" Kirishima whined earning a laugh from his classmates.
"Aren't you two dating?" Sero asked.
"You're right, I have no room to complain" Kirishima said. When the two friends pulled apart you went to walk back to Midnight and Neijire until Deku stood up catching your attention.
"Wait what about Todoroki?" He asked quickly. It took you a moment to process what he had asked.
"What about him" You signed.
"You skipped over him" Deku said and signed making you chuckle.
"I'll talk to him when he mans up and tells me that he loves me while I'm awake, or at least when he knows I'm awake" You signed causing the class to look at Shoto.
"Ooooo, (Y/n) secretly heard you say you love them- twice" Kaminari said while also signing like that you would know what he said. You snapped your fingers twice catching the class's attention before you held up a 4.
"Four times Todoroki!?" His class mates all asked in unison.
"Twice while they were asleep one time during the license exam and the last one was when I dropped them off at Recovery Girl's office, the day of the incident" Shoto said standing up from his seat walking towards his (F/c) haired crush. "How did you know about that last one?" He signed. You smirked looking back at Present Mic.
"What can I say, I'm a sucker for love" The English teacher said his head on Aizawa's shoulder. The ASL class simultaneously laughed before returning their attention to you Shoto. Shoto went to sign something until he felt all eyes on him. He sighed grabbing your hand taking you out of the classroom. You had the dumbest grin on their face the entire time while Shoto was blushing bright red.
When you both got out into the hall Shoto took you to the window ledge the two of you sitting there. They were both silent for a moment, it was obvious you wanted Shoto to start.
"I missed you" He signed first.
"I missed you too Sho, and I love you too" You signed. Shoto smiles shaking his head.
"(Y/n), listen-" When Shoto looked back at you, your facial expression made him stop. You raised an eyebrow at him giving him a skeptical look. When he realized his mistake he chuckled.
"Just listen to me, I'm new at this" he signed making you laugh.
"I'm just saying you're asking the deaf kid to listen to you so don't complain when I can't understand you" You signed making Shoto laugh. Your smile dropped when you realized, you couldn't ever hear him laugh again, it was such a rare sound that you heard when you could still hear but now you couldn't ever hear him laugh. When Shoto noticed that you were suddenly sad he places his hand on your cheek making you look at him.
"What's wrong snowflake?" He asked you making sure you could read his lips.
"I can't hear you laugh anymore, that became my favorite sound to ever hear but, I won't be able to hear it" You said so quietly Shoto had to lean in to hear you. Shoto signed leaning forward grabbing your legs placing them across his lap before pulling you forward hugging you. Your head was on his shoulder as your fingers played with his tie. When you pulled apart Shoto took a deep breath before signing.
"I know that when I first came here, I was determined to focus on my studies and not make friends, because I wanted to prove to my dad I could be the number one hero without his fire. But then after see you that first day with your tornados, your snow, your rain clouds, I just couldn't get you off my mind. At the sports festival my dad wasn't at all what I heard, I heard you cheering me on, you've known Midoriya a lot longer than you've known me yet you wanted me to win. I never even realized that I had feelings for you until the day we had to rescue Bakugo from the league. I realized that you are what motivates me to be a better hero, when I saw you put yourself out there and risk your life just to save him, I realized that I didn't ever want to lose you. But I thought that if I told you how I felt that would ruin our relationship. That night I gave you my hoodie I knew I always wanted to see you wear my clothes, the night that you fell asleep studying and I carried you to your room I knew I wanted to do that every night. During the license exam I told myself that I didn't want my license unless you had yours, that's why I made sure that you got yours before I made sure I got mine, even though we both know how that turned out. Then, when your fight with Bakugo happened, when you flew across that field, (Y/n) I swear my heart had to stop functioning for a moment. When I noticed that you couldn't hear us, every aspect of me died inside. I realized that we couldn't have our late night phone calls anymore, or listen to music, I can't read to you anymore and that just killed me inside. The past two months have been hell without you, I never realized how much you became a part of my life until you were gone, you genuinely became a part of my daily routine just ask the group. The amount of times I've zoned out in class thinking about you the amount of notes that I have that are now covered up in doodles of thunderclouds and snowflakes, when I went to go see my mom I talked about you for an hour straight, she really wants to meet you by the way. But (Y/n), I am 100%, absolutely, positively, in love with you and I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you"
You stared at the half 'n half boy tears in her eyes. Before either of you could say anything or sign anything you wrapped your arms around him. Shoto, even though he was caught off guard, wrapped one arm around your waist the other stroking your hair.
When you pulled apart you wiped your tears as you chuckled.
"I was not expecting that at all Shoto, god, you have no idea how much I love you" You signed with the biggest brightest smile Shoto had seen.
"You say that but I'm sure that I will always love you more" Shoto signed back with a small smile. You gave him a look that told him he was wrong.
"You are incorrect, I love you more" You signed.
"I learned ASL and JSL in two months for you" Shoto retaliated with a grin.
"I learned how to read lips for you plus I kept your hoodie clean the entire time it was with me at my house, and you know how hard it is to do that with my little siblings around" You argue with a smug smirk.
"I gave you my hoodie, I read you stories, and I didn't stop thinking about you for these past two months, I even doodled you in my notes" Shoto stated. You rose an eyebrow at him challengingly.
"Listen to me, I learned how to keep my voice at a normal tone so I could continue to talk to you so you can hear my voice, I did your homework for you, I drew for you not to mention that I actually drew you, and don't feel special baby because I also thought about you non-stop while I was home. You doodled your notes with me well I doodled my bedroom walls" You said almost at a whisper but Shoto was able to perfectly understand you.
Shoto sighed a red blush coming onto his face as he looked out the window then back at his snowflake. You quickly leaned forward one hand on your knee the other grabbing the collar of the hoodie pulling you forward as he kissed you passionately. It took you a few seconds to process what was happening but when you did you happily returned the gesture. As you did the two of you slowly inches closer to each other so you'd be more comfortable. Due to it being both of yours first kiss it was a little sloppy but you guys wouldn't want it any other way.
You were the first one to break away from the make out your face burning red with a goofy grin plastered on your face as you bit your bottom lip. Your (e/c) eyes met Shoto's mixed matches ones.
"You win this round" You whispered. Shoto only smiled as he pulled you in again for a soft peck this time. He pulled back enough for you to read his lips when he says, "I'll always love you more than you know".
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Please ignore my whining I need to organize my thoughts and this is a place without irl people 🙃
So good-ish news? I got the second job I was going for. But like...I already work like 45 hours a week at my current job and I'm always exhausted as it is. But like we desperately need more income coming in till my husband graduates in late January/early February. It's also retail pharmacy which I swore I wouldn't go back to especially after covid but like I asked for 25 an hour and they didn't even bat an eyelash. Meanwhile I'm making 23 an hour with 4x the responsibilities currently at my full time job.
Which is also miserable honestly, like I LOVE my job so much but management is just fucking awful and they care about the money and couldn't care less about patient care. I even told my husband I was tempted to see if the retail pharmacy would give me full time hours and I'd just go back to retail but like physically I don't think I could go back to patient facing anymore ahaha.
I'm just restless and apathetic; my therapist said it sounds like I'm having a midlife crisis which is hilarious cause I'm not even 30 yet. Like it's the episode of SpongeBob where squidward slowly gets depressed living in his little perfect community. That's me, I'm just slowly melting. Like I'm making 4x what my mom made when she was my age and I'm struggling even more than she was. It's not fair.
Then my mom and my aunt have the audacity to be like oh well Laurel is sick and you wouldn't send her to a normal daycare if she was sick. Like...yes I would??? She doesn't have a temp, she's just got a drippy nose and a gross cough? We can't give her anything for any of it, we just have to wait it out. My fucking mother was like "I NEVER would have sent you out when you were this sick". Um. Yeah because when I was 2 and a 1/2 YOU DIDNT WORK. YOU STAYED HOME WITH ME TILL I STARTED SCHOOL AND WE WERE A ONE INCOME HOUSEHOLD AND SO INCREDIBLY POOR. Like if my mom didn't have her siblings idk where we would have ended up.
I'm sorry I have to go to work?? To provide for my children?? TO BE ABLE TO PAY MY AUNT TO WATCH THE CHILDREN YOU ARE BOTH COMPLAINING ABOUT HAVING WHILE THEY ARE SICK??? Like if I don't go to work just one day, I miss out on an entire bill and we fall behind and we are one bad week away from falling too far behind and loosing everything. I'm so frustrated about the whole situation I was so angry I almost started crying in anger when I was trying to keep calm when my aunt was making comments.
Not to mention, I almost started crying at work over all the stress of having 2 people out, the phone nonstop ringing, and just useless coworkers. I'm stretched thin, and the only thing bringing me joy is writing. I wish I could be good enough to publish, to make my stories get out there and make the work I've put into then bring me money back. Something that brings me joy instead of stress.
My friend suggested I start a patreon and start posting chapters a day early for people who pledge a dollar or more; or have exclusive stories posted on there for people to get early access to but like...idk. it feels kinda weird to do for fanfiction, and like it's not really about money for me. I just want to be able to share these things with people who enjoy them with me? But like if I had an extra 50 or even 100 a month from it, that covers a single bill which makes a difference for our little family.
Idk I'm just rambling now, I'm just in a weird mental state I think. I have my period which I'm sure is making me more emotional too. I just want to be able to be rewarded for how hard I work and how much I care about these patients and I feel like my boss is actually punishing me instead. Healthcare can be so rewarding for someone like me but it can also be a hellscape because the US doesn't have universal healthcare.
Anyways I'm fine 🙂
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