#if you would me to elaborate on something specific I mentioned feel free to ask

[heretherebeturtles-comic]

Hello! Many people have said this but ill say it too, I LOVE YOUR COMIC SO MUCH ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

I really wanted to ask you about how you do the backgrounds? (Something i struggle with) whats the process? Like from start to finish, also, to do the rise backgrounds do you use reference from the show and generally real photo of ny? Or do you come up with them? And last question- The shadow and light on the background- Like HOW

i know it’s a lot of questions but i’m just so curious qwq and wanna learn to be better, thank you again in case you read this and respond, in case you don’t, i hope you have a nice day and a wonderful life uwu keep up the great work! (≧◡≦) ♡

Backgrounds are a really broad subject and I'm always a little overwhelmed when asked this question. Just like drawing the human body, backgrounds take time, repetition, and practice!

My answer got a bit long, so it's going under a read more :) but if you digest info better in video format I found this on youtube

It pretty much goes over everything I wanted to say, but in a much better way. I wish I had found it before writing all this out lol

ok, first of all, I'm not a teacher nor was I built to be one of those cool helpful art tutorial people who do a full coloured tutorial filled with illustrations. This is just going to be a messy "how I do backgrounds / environment layouts from start to finish." kinda thing.

... lets start with a sight tangent.

Sketch from Life!!!

If you want to get better at backgrounds I recommend doing some sketching out in the real world!

When I was first getting into doing backgrounds I went to cafes and parks to just sketch the buildings and objects. Sketch rocks, flowers, clumps of grass, garbage cans, bottles, tables, street signs, etc. If you are drawing a tree observe how the trunks twist, how the bark flows, or how the leaves are bunched.

If you can't leave the house the same still applies! Sketch the interiors of your house, the walls, or common objects like chairs and bookshelves. How are objects stacked? items on the floor?

If you aren't comfortable with drawing outside or in public you can take some photos to draw from! They are good for practice and you can use them again as references later. Alternatively you can find pictures online of buildings and objects to sketch as practice.

All spaces have objects in them, it becomes easier to draw those kinds of spaces when you already have spent time observing and sketching them.

ALSO! They don't have to be good sketches! It's just to build out your mental catalogue and strengthen your perception of perspective.

now the actual thing...

BACKGROUNDS

(the pictures used for this are my own. I dug them out of my 2022 folder)

Backgrounds have slightly different rules based on what you are making them for. Videogame Environment Concept Art vs Animation Layouts vs Comic Backgrounds vs Illustration backgrounds.

They all follow the same basics, which I will go over here, but the intention and function of those designs are going to be different. It's all about how you set up the scene and what it's purpose is!

Brainstorming and Thumbnailing

I like to think about a location as though it is a character. An abandoned old house with creaky sagging floorboards is very different from a futuristic space ship with sharp metal floor panels. A gas station has a very different feeling from a library.

I usually start by asking what is this location's story? Why was it built and for what purpose? What kinds of things does this room need to fulfill that purpose? You don’t need solid answers, but its good to be thinking about it while you are working.

Next, sketch some ideas for how this place is going to look. For me, this usually involves drawing the idea from multiple angles and then making lists & small sketches of the objects I think should be filling the space.

Example: The main character of my original work is a Wanderer. They collect a lot of things on their travels, but those items have to be small enough to be easily carried in a backpack. I wanted his room to be in the corner of an attic, walled off by curtains, and filled with trinkets. You can see some of my brainstorming above.

References

I only look for references after I've done some sketching and planning; this is to solidify my idea first so that I don't accidentally copy anyone else's work. I will make a moodboard with pictures of lighting, colours, items, rooms with specific ceiling beams, old chairs, etc. basically whatever I feel fits the vibe.

Honestly, I don't use references as much as I should. For ROTTMNT fanart I look at backgrounds and screenshots from the series to study the style. I also reference actual photos of NYC to get a feel for how Rise condenses the visual information.

In general, it's good to have references of real life objects/locations, because there are so many details like cracks in pavement, stickers on polls, crowning on buildings, fancy fencing, weird chair legs, etc. that you might not think of. It's the imperfect details that can make a location feel more alive.

Perspective

Once you have your chosen sketch we move to.... the infamous perspective boxes. Doing backgrounds is just learning to be comfortable drawing So Many boxes and carving items out of them.

Many better artists than myself have made videos on perspective, vanishing points, and all the technical bits. Videos like THIS ONE and THIS ONE are helpful (this post is great too!!). There are probably a lot of classes to be found on Skillshare or Schoolism. I learned a lot of this in my college art course, so I can't give you a specific video which helped me.

You can get by and be a good artist without learning this stuff. There are quite a few successful artists who have admitted they never bothered to learn perspective (one of these people even made a whole graphic novel series).

I personally avoided properly learning this stuff until I was in my 20s because I thought it would be boring and difficult to do. tbh I really wish I had learned it earlier because it's so much fun to make those silly little boxes imo. It looks scary and complicated but, just like drawing humans, it just takes time, repetition, and practice to develop the knowledge and skills.

Cleanup

You have your boxes and lines! Cool! Now to make a scene out of it. Fill in the details, get everything placed were you want it! Generally, the lines of each item will point back towards the horizon line, but they can have different perspective points.

Generally you would want to clean it up and get your room completely sketched before doing the lineart. I tend to combine the steps (not recommended)

Lineart

I've mentioned how I do this before. Closer objects have thicker lines and more detailed inside. Further objects have thinner lines and less detail. I didn't quite achieve that balance with the image below, but it's close enough.

Colours and Shading will have to be a separate post. In the meantime, I highly recommend the book "Color and Light" by James Gurney. I used to borrow it from my local library and a good chunk of my knowledge was learned from it :)

[rawbin-hsr]

Hiiiiii!! Ehmm are your requests open? If they are, could you share your thoughts about aventurine NSFW headcanons in a romantic relationship? Hope I'm not asking for too much. If you don't want to no worries!! just ignore me hehe. Still, i wanted to tell you that I really love how you write aventurine, you made me wanna listen to all his voice lines again lmao. Anyway sorry for my english, it's not my mother tongue, and have a nice day!

A/N: Ok so I decided to separate this hc into two parts (both parts are in this post just a little separated !!) because half of it is me kinda digging into his brain a little with more general stuff and the other is just more specific kinks and scenarios and stuff like that for people who are only here for the freakiness *smirks* Didn’t go in depth about anything here but feel free to send in another ask if you want me to dig deeper into something more specific 🐺

I had penis-haver reader in mind, but nothing specific is stated so reader is technically gender neutral !!

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CWs first section: Self destructive tendencies, mentions of hard kinks (not enacted), Aventurine not setting up proper sexual boundaries, switch Aventurine but I focus on when he subs

CWs last section: lingerie (for both Aventurine and reader), sex toys, semi-public sex, phone sex, overstimulation

Only slight aftercare mentions because any deeper digging into that will get sad real quick and I kinda wanted to keep this as not-sad as possible, but I’d be happy to talk more about it in another ask !!

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Like most people I think Aventurine is pretty open to a lot of things, but I think he also has a lot of hard limits and a lot of boundaries he hasn’t really thought about himself yet

Hard limits include hurting you, you hurting him, anything with leather, anything that makes either of you bleed, most types of bondage (esp handcuffs), any roleplay that put either of you in a position of authority over the other

(These are limits you discover a little into the relationship, because at the beginning, Aventurine claims he’s okay with everything and he would keep claiming that if he wasn’t in a very loving and stable relationship. He only feels comfortable establishing those boundaries when you’ve made it clear it’s safe to do so. 🙁)

Idk if you want me to go in depth about those hard limits because I have Thoughts about all of them but I’m assuming you want to get your freak on so I won’t go into too much detail about it, if anyone wants me to elaborate on it though feel free to send in an ask !!

I think a really big downside with him is he doesn’t really know himself how far these limits go and he doesn’t always communicate about it either. Like he’ll think light spanking is fine but then you’ll notice he kind of freezes up if you go for it during sex and after he’ll only admit he didn’t like it if you kind of push him to 😭

I think he’s a switch. I hate to say this because I know it plays into the fandom’s tendency of like,, further feminising and sexualising effeminate men and making them “bottoms” and all that but I do think he has a sort of sub lean. Or like power bottom sort of ? A brat basically. It makes me feel kind of gross to call him by these terms considering what the fandom likes to do to him but I’m using it as shorthand forgive me 💀

Or maybe I’m projecting because I have Issues and will only ever read and write dom reader idk

Like I think he likes having control, but with a partner he genuinely loves, he finds so much comfort in sort of just falling back and letting you take the lead. It’s a nice break because in his day-to-day life, he either needs to be in perfect control constantly or, when he does lose control, it’s never something good and/or a sort of loss of control he purposely takes to in order to punish himself (like when he gambles. Sure there’s a good chance he’ll win, but can he be sure? He’s always afraid he’ll lose. It’s ultimately out of his hands, since he doesn’t cheat). With you, he’s safe when he does it. It is not a gamble, it is not a bet. You unquestioningly just take care of him and it just feels nice. 

At the same time, I think he won’t be as eager to let you lead at the beginning of your relationship. He doesn’t fully trust you so he won’t leave himself as vulnerable to you. Again, I think he has a lot of issues with control and power so that really plays into it. 

(Please god don’t take this as me saying that Aventurine is ‘naturally submissive’ or some weird shit like that I will ACTUALLY shoot myself !!!! I will commit I’ll do it !!!!!!)

I imagine his libido is pretty low in the beginning. He’ll go whenever you want to, sure, but he doesn’t initiate a lot. 

Quickly changes when he grows comfortable with you though. Once he actually really does love you he’d be more than happy to go like once a day or something wild like that he’s like an animal in heat for you dawg 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Happy to go at your pace though, because I really really don’t think sex is that important to him. I think he’d prefer to have sex (in the beginning because it’s exciting, and then once you two are closer it’s because the intimacy is nice), but I don’t think it would be a dealbreaker at all if you don’t wanna have sex much/at all. He’s got a hand lol

Freaky part below 😈 ngh

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I think he definitely prefers having more ‘playful’ sex most of the time. Passionate and exciting and high-energy, lots of flirting while you’re doing it too <3

I bet he’s so annoying bru teasing you and purposely saying things to get you riled up with a stupid cocky grin on his face 😒 I need him sooo bad

Enjoys dressing up sexy for you and enjoys it even more when you do it back for him. I knowww everyone says this but he’d love to buy you lingerie as random gifts every now and then. 

Loves toys. Whether you’re using them on him or he’s using them on you he’s game 😇 Fun way to switch things up !!

Ngh imagine using a vibrator on him,,, drooling,,,,,,,, anyways

Not above semi-public sex, but only when there’s barely any risk of really getting caught. Things typical for fanfiction LMAO like getting it on in a janitor’s closet. Just gotta be quiet and it should be safe, since the door’s got a lock.

Lotsss of phone sex for sure. Guy’s away a lot of the time, so if you’re okay with it he’s definitely not above sending/asking for nudes. Has a bad habit of calling you with little to no warning while he’s in the middle of masturbating too. 

Panting into the receiver, saying he needs you, begging you to talk him through it. Happy to switch to a video call if you ask for it. Super good at it too, getting the best angles and everything (unless he’s getting so desperate he doesn’t have the mind to remember things like that <3)

Doesn’t like edging LMAO he’s too impatient for that. Except every now and then and ngh it’s so rewarding once he does want it he gets soo needy so quick

Bet he enjoys overstimulation too,,, somebody put me in a mental hospital the image of him sooo fucked out he’s whimpering and drooling and mindlessly rutting up against you,,,,,,, shoot me like actually

Would fall asleep so quick after that. Barely even awake enough to put on his pyjamas after ugh he’s so cute :((

Would probably not want to wear it after anyways he likes the feeling of your bare skin against his own I bet

Make sure to cuddle and reassure him lots after you have sex tho he’ll need it. Getting him a bath and a meal wouldn’t be bad ideas either

Super sorry about how short this was I definitely think he has a lot more turn-ons and stuff that I just forgot to write here but I’m very bad at answering such broad questions my bad 😞😞 Feel free to send in more asks asking about more specific things !!!

[notmyprey]

Ope, another new character that's not actually new and has technically been a full fledged character in my brain for a while now.

Their name is Angel, and their basic premise is that they are a "Guardian" (creature made to look after a human, read specifics under cut) of a girl named Lilly.

Again, I go a bit more in-depth after the cut, but feel free to send me asks about them!!

(TW: SH and Attempted Suicide mentions under the cut. I will highlight the paragraph/s containing this in red, so you can skip over them if you would like)

Background Information:

Angel lives in a world where about 1 in every 3 people are granted a "Guardian" at birth. Most people only get one Guardian, and its rare (nearly unheard of) to have more than one. The purpose of a Guardian is to help their human with making decisions, though that's not to say Guardians dont have their own personalities. Guardians look and act like humans, but are much smaller (they are normally 9-12 cm tall once full grown). Guardians also mature at the same pace as humans, and do grow to get taller and or more mature as they age.

Guardians dont need food or water, but many choose to eat and drink because they like the taste.

Each Guardian has the ability to sprout wings. Their wings are part of the Guardian, and cannot be changed or altered, though the type of wings a Guardian is born with can be anything from bird like to bat like. Guardians also posses the ability to teleport to the human they Guard.

Guardians are near unkillable, the only way to kill one being that both of their wings need to be cut off.

Angel is a Guardian of Lilly, alongside Lilly's other Guardian, Ash. As depicted above, Angel does not look human at all, something they are mocked for constantly. They have paws, fluffy ears, and have white and black fur all over their body. They also have a tail (which is not shown in the picture).

Angel and Ash got their names from a common phrase which refers to the Guardians as "an Angel and a Devil". The phrase was originally something to degrade people who had 2 Guardians, since many thought that those born with 2 Guardians were cursed to be born with one angel and one devil. But since that theory has been debunked in modern times, its now used to say that someone has 2 Guardians.

Angels story:

Angel had a normal childhood, but things started getting rough when Lilly started school. Kids would point out Angels strange appearance, some being meaner about it than others. After the kids started to get meaner to both Lilly and Angel around 4th-5th grade, Lilly stopped claiming Angel and ignored them. This caused Lilly to start really bonding with Ash, while her and Angel did not get that same bond.

Angel is also ignored by Lilly's family, since most people in her family dont have Guardians and, as such, dont know how to interact with them. Both of these factors worsened once Lilly hit middle school, and she herself started bullying Angel as well. Her and Ash started mocking Angel and making backhanded comments about them to their face. They would also play pranks on Angel, directly putting them in harms way.

Often, when it came to holidays, Angel wouldn't get gifts, and if they did it was often something small or something Lilly or Ash discarded because they got a gift they didn't want.

Once in Highschool, Lilly and Ash started to get more elaborate with their pranks. Lilly read online a meme that was along the lines of "Technically, since Guardians are small enough and they cant die, you could eat them lol", which Lilly then took as a great prank to pull on Angel.

In short, Lilly ate Angel and kept them for about 5 days before spitting them back out.

While in Lilly's stomach, Angel started to reevaluate their worth to Lilly, and confidently decided that they were practically useless. Lilly was functioning just fine without Angel, and they didnt think they would be missed.

The night they were let back out, they waited till everyone was asleep and went to the kitchen. They tied a string to the hilt of a knife and anchored it to a drawer handle, acting like a makeshift guillotine. They placed the joint connecting their wing and torso under it and let go of the string. Their wing was severed from their body, the resulting pain making them scream for a moment. After calming down, they pulled the string to bring the knife in the air once more. Right as they positioned their second wing, Lilly's mom entered the kitchen. Upon seeing Angel, she quickly screamed for Lilly to wake up. She picked up Angel, wrapped their nub with a paper towel, and threw them into Lilly's hands. She tossed the wing into a bag with ice and ran to the car.

Once at the ER, the doctors tried to reattach Angels wing, but unfortunately it did not work.

After this incident, Lilly realized just how drastically mean she has been to Angel. Since it had just been the norm to her, and since Angel had never fought back, she hadn't thought to stop till then. She decides to try and be better towards Angel, working to build a bond with them.

What my drawing depicts is a moment a few days after the incident. Angel had by then convinced themself that they are only useful when they are "food", and in the drawing, Angel is trying to convince Lilly to eat them again.

So ya, my poor poor trauma ridden Angel......

Again, questions are the best!! ASK ME THINGS!!!!

[kmgkmg]

KISS ON THE TRAIN - CHWE HANSOL

word count: 0.7k...

pairing: hansol x gn!reader

synopsis: you and your boyfriend hansol are riding the train home, how will the commute go?

genre/s: fluff, non-idol!au, bf!hansol, established relationship, domestic

warnings: slightly suggestive

rating: pg-13

a/n: no editing done :O just in my feels for vernon! title is from the song kiss on the train by araya!!

“No, I can’t kiss you innocently, babe.” Hansol whines as he rests his head on your shoulder.

“And why’s that?” You laugh, amused at your boyfriend’s unexpected clinginess. 

You were both seated on the train, waiting for the doors to close again. Several days ago, Hansol stumbled across a video detailing a film festival taking place in your city and excitedly bought tickets for the two of you. You didn’t take much convincing to go, you loved movies as much as him seeing the films together was just the icing on top. But, the video failed to mention that the festival was an 80 minute train ride from your place and that there were about six different events taking place today. So, nearly four hours after the festival finished, you and Hansol were still crammed on the train. You asked him for a quick peck on the lips, needing to recharge after the long day but he firmly shook his head no. 

“I mean, unless you want me to makeout with you on the train…” He trails off, not moving his body an inch from yours. His fingers were softly entwined with yours. 

“Hansol Vernon Chwe!” You jokingly scold, “A simple kiss is all I asked for. The rest…well we can do that when we’re back home.” You finish, squeezing his hand that was interlocking with yours. 

Hansol shifts from his position next to you and stares into your eyes, “You mean it? I thought you would be angry with how crowded the commute back is.”

“Why would I be angry with you? I mean sure it’s hot and musty right now, but you couldn’t have predicted that. Plus, the movie festival had so many up and coming BIPOC directors. It was nice to see such a wide range of films! I mean the way that they’re breaking genres is inspirational, right? Especially that last one, Fireworks from Space? That one totally reminded me of Sorry to Bother You with LaKeith Stanfield.” 

Hansol listens intently to your ramble, happy that you enjoyed the festival as much as he did. He loves your shared passion for movies. He loves the way your eyes lit up — without fail — whenever you were excited about something. Sure, he’s dated his fair share of people, but never someone as big of a cinephile as him. 

“Fireworks from Space was super underrated! Y/N, I can’t believe we were two of the only ten people that went to that showing. And I definitely see what you mean by it resembling Sorry to Bother You. I think it also has similar aspects to Wes Anderson’s cinematography with the attention to detail, specifically symmetry.”  Hansol went on an equally long tangent, relieved that you weren’t upset with him. 

“Yes! I think I read in the interview with Director Jeon that he was heavily influenced by Anderson’s movie The French Dispatch when storyboarding for Fireworks from Space.” You elaborate, having your stomach loudly rumble at the end of your sentence. 

Before you could play it off, Hansol was scavenging through his bag trying to find anything to curb your hunger. 

“Hansol, I’m fine, really!” You tap his leg, trying to get him to stop his rummaging. 

“No, here at least eat this to tide you over. Then we can pick up some takeout at that Korean place a block from our place on the way home, yeah?” Hansol was holding a granola bar in front of you. He already opened the plastic packaging and was waiting for you to take a bite. 

“Wait, so a quick peck is too much to ask for but you’ll feed me?” You frowned. 

Without batting an eye, Hansol leaned in, rubbing your leg with his free hand and kissed you deeply. Each time he kissed you, you felt as if single handedly knocked the wind out of you and gave you air simultaneously. Nearly half a year of dating him and he still left you a mess. 

“There. Now eat, Y/N.” He instructed, holding the granola bar up to your face once again. 

“O-okay, but I can feed myself.” You replied, taking the snack from his grip. 

He returned to his original position of resting his head on your shoulder, satisfied with himself.

You watched several films, but the scene that just played out was undoubtedly the most memorable of the night.

[robiniswriting]

I’m still amazed that the BBC let Chris “wrote the Cyberwoman episode of Torchwood” Chibnall anywhere near Jodie’s run, never mind putting him in charge of it

gonna be brutally honest here anon I have never seen torchwood so I cannot comment on that specifically, BUT!

chris chibnall isn’t as awful of a writer as people think. in my opinion, he was hindered by his love of classic who. he was writing for a completely different show in a completely different time, and a lot of his plot and lore decisions make more sense when you consider the classic show. not to mention his politics, many of which were stuck in the 1960s-1980s.

as a result, fans of new who didn’t like it — certain key elements of it didn’t really gel with the current show and upset their understanding of the doctor as a character.

chibnall also made the mistake of listening to fans during his first season: everyone was saying they wanted new monsters and a break from daleks and cybermen, so he had a season of totally brand-new monsters. people hated it, said the show was unrecognizable. when he wrote a few new episodes with daleks and cybermen and weeping angels, people wrote it off because they’d already made up their mind about it.

I’ll always be grateful to chibnall for pushing forward and having the first female doctor. the pushback he received for that at the time gets largely forgotten. it would have been easy to give in to the massive pressure and recast — nothing of the seasons had been filmed when jodie was initially announced — but he refused to budge and backed jodie all the way. for that, I’ll always respect him. he’s put up with a lot of shit from the fans.

that having been said, disliking chibnall’s era is so valid. even though I really enjoy thirteen’s run (she is my wife I love her dearly) I can like that era of the show and also have enough critical thinking skills to see the problems with it. I’m pretty sure i’ve said it before but the politics of the chibnall era are atrocious (see: the woman who fell to earth, rosa, arachnids in the uk, kerblam!, spyfall pt. 2, the vanquishers — feel free to ask me to elaborate on any of these) and sometimes he falls into the trap many writers do when writing women, which is to water them down a bit. thirteen is Not as weak as many people make her out to be, but there are a few moments that irk me (see: needing jack harkness to break her out of prison. I’d have been okay with it if maybe she’d managed to stall the judoon long enough to send him a distress signal or something? maybe use the sonic to get his attention? just give her a bit of agency).

anyway, long story short, chibnall’s era has issues. but nowhere near the number that people attribute to it. as for why the BBC handed the show over to him, he was extremely successful as showrunner on broadchurch, had written well-liked episodes of doctor who and been head writer at torchwood in the past, was a massive fan of the show, and vocally wanted to being some changes and mystery to the show, something fans had been clamoring for for ages. my guess is he applied for the job, interviewed like anybody else, and they decided he was the best possible candidate.

no writer is going to have no misses, especially not on a show with such demanding deadlines as doctor who, and every new showrunner is a risk the BBC have to take. at the time, it looked like he was the man for the job. sometimes, it’s all just business.

[daddymus-mamatron]

Greetings, I come in peace. So...I saw your tag about a TFE plot rewrite on a rb and. I'm very intrigued. Please kindly elaborate 🙏🙏🙏 (Forgive me if I'm too nosy! Feel free to ignore this ask. ⁄⁠(⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠-⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠)⁠⁄

Oh it is a PLEASURE to talk about it!!!

Ramble under cut because it's going to be long

When I was in college I had a class on cinema and my brain decided it'd be my new hyperfixation. Now that'd be fun and dandy except I got a little too into it and all I can see is patterns, archetypes & trope.

Like there is maybe 10 movies/TV shows that I didn't see the plot twist coming from a mile away. My stupid brain pick up on the most minuscule details and unravel the whole plot in a second. Which sucks sometimes.

Enters TFES.

It's great but there's a few sentences/frames that drive me insane.

When they throw the Cons in jail after episode 1, the rest of the Decepticons must know about Mandroid, they'e so close in there and in later episode it's shown they can chit-chat easily

Megatron is nice now and that's it?!?!?? He hunts & imprisons Decepticons and he's free and it's fine?!?!? AND HE STILL WEARS THE DEECPTICON BRAND?!?!?!

Speaking of cells, I knew G.H.O.S.T. was iffy the *Second* they showed the empty cells. THERE'S NOTHING IN THERE NOT EVEN A BENCH OR SOMETHING WTF?!?!

Bee casually mentioning that Rumble exploded because Soundwave was low on energon.

Swindle saying they should wait for the 'plan' instead of breaking out after Hashtag Oops

Bumblebee carrying restraining bolts

Karen torturing the 'Con, how long did that go on for?!?! How come they never spoke up about the torture??!

On the same subject, Tarentulas mentions a gun that erase memories and then we never hear about it again

There's more but I have more things to say so moving on

*inhale* THEN!!! Then there's the deleted scene (The confrontation between Megatron & Shockwave + Soundwave & Starscream freeing Shockwave) THEN!!! Then there's the mentions in the official guide that were never explored/explained

SO

I said fuck it and wrote down all the things that bothered me, asked my pal @shotimus what other things she thought were weird/missing/not explained [Shots is the TF expert, I'm still a noob] and I threw that all together in a blender. Took my favourite parts of multiple continuity (IDW, Aligned/Prime, Shatter Glass, G1 & Earthspark) and made a 6k OUTLINE of the fic I wanted to write.

The one (1) thing I was doubting the most about the plot of the fic, is Starscream is older than Megs & OP in my AU. I saw a comment on Reddit once that blew my mind (goes like this: If we’re sticking pretty closely to G1-esque Starscream, it would be pretty easy to show some more of his motivations for being so conniving. 

Just show some glimpses of the life he imagines he should have and why he is so convinced he should have it, and there could be many specific ways to go about that. All you’d have to do is show why he’s like this—you wouldn’t have to get the audience to think he’s in the right or being reasonable, and it would be interesting.) Took that and ran with it. This post reassured me I wasn't too insane for making SS older

SO

So he's a golden child that got more and more bitter as the war went on and he was more and more abused. Because I have to torture my fav blorbo.

AND THEN S2 CAME OUT

It was so bad.... I have MORE THINGS TO REWRITE. Like Soundwave ripping the 'Con badge off Megatron. There's another thing I wanna talk about it's a surprise so I'll refrain.

And that's where I'm at OTZ

The fic in question is actually a whole ass series because I'm possessed with a demon and I must rewrite the whole show?!?!?

[tailsdollr]

your art is really coool! im inspired! do you have any art tips?

Thank you so much and yes I have a bit of knowledge since all the work I have done over the years. However, I understand everyone does things differently. So perhaps not all I will share will benefit you much. Especially if you already knew it BUT I will try give as many I can!

I saw that you mostly do traditional drawing, so I will keep it mainly for that. However I will mention some digital tips but will have them related to traditional in some way.

Pencil types. There are many types of pencils and most depend on darkness or light. I usually have a 0.6 and 0.9 on me. A step further is charcoal however I'm not as experienced in that. Something I often do in case of smearing is lightly dabbing my finger on the art. This can work for many tools but I think a pencil smearing can just be annoying lol. How far you press can be very important too as going to hard can leave lines into the paper that will permanently be there and affect your art in case you wanna erase. I usually go light first then dark then work around. It's okay if it's messy at first if its light as that can be a lot easier to clean.

Paper. Paper is very important to me at least due to how much it can vary. For certain tools, I'd prefer certain types of paper. Always check texture and thickness before buying. Don't just buy random sketchbooks. I've regretted many times of getting paper far too thin or way too much texture.

Texture and thickness all depend on what you'll use on it. Thicker paper can handle wet bases like water, paint, or markers. While thinner paper is much better for pencil. As the more texture the more difficult it becomes to not make a mess of extra that might smear if you're not careful.

If you have thin paper and are using markers, make sure you know when is too much for the paper. It could tear or eat a hole in it if not careful. I don't think it depends on art supplies either. I just think it depends on skill and paper. Like, I would not use Crayola markers on printer paper. But I would on card stock since it's more likely to handle it. Speaking of card stock, it can be really good for just sketching. However I don't think it takes pencil very well depending on it's texture. Since most are usually kind of glossy on top.

Thin paper can also be great if you want to transfer a drawing over. Imagine a digital sketch that you draw over. Thin paper can be used in the same way so I'd never fear messing up when you can easily get it onto something else and start over. This applies to tracing it in digital.

Speaking of tracing, I would not be afraid of using it as a learning tool. I've used references but sometimes I cannot see exactly how to draw that. So I trace and see what it looks like on its own. I don't think using something traced in your final piece is practical or good. But I think learning and guiding yourself with it is an excellent thing and I want more young artists not to be afraid of it.

Poses and certain features can be quite difficult for some. I think the best way to build up on these is to break them down. Like making the person who is doing the pose into very simple shapes.

This like all off the top of my head. If you want to ask something specific like, painting for example, feel free and go ahead! Or need further elaboration I can certainly try!

My biggest art tip of all tho, is to have fun. Draw whatever you want. Make yourself feel happy and don't let others dictate what you do.

I think cringe culture really hurt a lot of learning and growing artists. People who just inserted themselves into stories, made strange aus. They all were just having fun. I let myself not show that I loved things just for others comfort and you know what fuck them!! So what if evil teletubbies is weird?? Why are you upset that I'm having fun!

Love what you love. Draw weird and strange things and never give up on yourself when you feel disappointed.

You will get there with your art. You will if you feel love and passion for the craft.

[concernedbrownbread]

Hello, i am a fellow reader from A03 who likes your fic ‘The promise of Dawn’ very much.My username is ‘Fatchoppedsalad’.I am interested in talking about himiko. Though i dont know what to ask.

..Ah! How was himiko’s past life? It was given that she was somewhat of a political figure or was going to be one but she died before winning the election. Others than that if its okay with you. Could you please tell me more.

Sorrybtw iam a huge sucker for spoilers🌚

Heyy thanks so much for the ask!!! I really appreciate your comments on the fic! I would LOVE to talk more about Himiko.

Okay so the thing about her past life is that … we don’t know much about it. We’re not really meant to. In the next chatpter (ch4) we see a bit more of the fact that Himiko pretty much Does Not Care. The only person she ever mentions fondly is her “PR guy” and the fact that she was kicked out of her parent’s house. She mentions that she was a”governer” of a “province.” I used those words SPECIFICALLY because I didn’t want her to be associated with the usual US/Japan and those were the most generic versions of those levels of power/division that I could think of. All we really know was that she was probably a middle-aged politician. I love keeping it vague!

She’ll drop random hints throughout the fic because of course she still remembers it, but it’s mainly comedic.

Also, can I please rant about motifs? Imma rant about motifs: Spoilers below.

Okay, Himiko has 3 main motifs: suns, spiders and death. The last I’ll elaborate on as the second arc rolls around, but I’ve (tried to) set up the first two. The first is obvious: Himiko is constantly crowned by the sun, literally my QUEEN (also her being a Princess is going to be a Thing later, thus the usage of “Hime” already). The spider thing I’ve tried to be a little more subtle about but … the book is literally titled the Weaver. Her plots are webs. The very first scene is eight minutes. I have no subtlety for this.

I AM trying to have subtly for the various unfolding “mysteries” like the underground press and the whole Root debacle. Chapter 4 has a bunch of foreshadowing but okay … looking back maybe not subtle. Looks like I need to rewrite this lmao. Hopefully I can get it out by next week!

Anyway, the spoiler is she's going to get a spider summons soon! But before she does, she's going to get her death motif going by getting a scythe. As Himiko develops, especially in the second arc when she begins properly training with her team + eventually finds the underground press, she's going to become something of a monster. A polite, smiling monster that strikes beautiful, beautiful fear in the hearts of people.

A small spoiler for chapter 5, where the Nine Tails Attack happens ... she's going to mimic something very similar to what Kurama does (with the KI). It's a form on ninshu, and she uses it liberally when she figures out how to. After all, what is cooler? Killing someone or making them feel as though they will literally DIE if they cross her.

Feel free to shoot me another ask! I love them!

[nyatbinary-81]

As someone who absolutely despises the "Two Spirits in Golden Freddy" theory to the point that I legit abandoned the FNaF fandom as a whole when it became the dominant fanon... I would love it if you elaborated your findings

grabs u. thank u so much for asking. theres a free copy of the logbook on archive.org. u are welcome to read it urself. check my findings. see if i missed anything. butjust for u. i will gather my Ramblings. ill put it all under the cut b cits. oh boy its Long. theres even some new ones at the end! just for you!

The Main Argument:

ive always felt theres something no one ever really touched on when it comes to cassidy.

dual process theory asked why a random missing kid would be narratively important enough to be the vengeful spirit, and they concluded that cassidy is the crying child, charlie is the faded text, and michael is the vengeful spirit. all things i agree with, as it helps the narrative feel more cohesive to me.

the larger community asks why michael draws a nightmare animatronic, which is close.

the question i think everyone misses is simple: why does faded ask such specific questions? some of them, like 'what can you see' and 'do you remember your name', are questions that could be asked by a stranger. but then for other questions, faded knows far too much about the crying child.

a stranger would ask "did you have a favorite toy?" but faded asks "was your favorite childhood toy a plastic purple telephone?" (page 23)

a stranger might say "did you ever have a toy you talked to like a person?" but faded asks "does [fredbear] still talk to you?" (page 75)

this clearly implies that faded already knows altered/cc, and is specifically trying to get them to remember who they are. to which cc responds by spelling out the only name they can think of: cassidy.

why would cc, when they remember so little, be able to spell a strangers name? why would mike (who gives multiple numbers)? why would faded put so much emphasis on finding the crying childs name only for cassidy to be theirs?

cassidy cant be a stranger, a random fifth kid. altered/cc and michael clearly already know who cassidy is, and faded knows who cc is. since ccs friend circle is established to be his plushies and his family at best, cassidy cannot be a random kid. and the only unnamed kid in the circle of aftons is cc themself.

Hi Faded I Love U Faded No One Gets U Like I Do

'but then whos faded', asks the little strawman of cassidy truthers im propping up to make this last point. why do they write "MY name" on the grave if theyre not cassidy? well, thats easy. if youve seen dual process' theory, you already know the answer. its charlie. but here, little strawman that doesnt believe them, let me provide one last point: page 31.

while its been dismissed by those who dont think the girl is cassidy, which has been the primary argument for importance by the Cassidy Truthers, it IS, definitively, essential. on this page, the puppet is giving a pink, tiered cake with three cherries on top. a cake which, while clearly distinct, bears a striking resemblance to the cakes seen in the happiest day minigame. this logbook picture is the second time the puppet is ever seen giving out cake. hells, the page itself tells you to "reflect on the happiest day of your life" and "write about one specific memory from that day that will make you feel better if you find yourself facing CERTAIN DEATH". it could not BE a more obviously important page. and what i find interesting is that that is the page where faded asks, right in the center, "DO YOU REMEMBER YOUR NAME?" all of this comes together to clearly imply that the puppet is the one asking the question, just like how you ask any birthday kid their name so you can properly wish them their happy birthday.

Hey, Why Isnt This Mentioned In Any Mainline Theories?? (Bonus Segment)

the puppet shows up on a second birthday themed page (page 98), right next to the page where michael brings up the bite. its almost like this motif is important or something.

the first number given is pointed to by a red arrow with "MY NAME" written on it. also, the page is about what prizes you would want to see behind the prize counter. hey, that sounds an awful lot like the puppets prize corner!

yes, faded writes "MY NAME" on a gravestone. a gravestone that mike drew when asked about his future. also, theres 2 graves in the picture whos names we cant see; the 5th child and, again, (presumably) charlie. page 32, for the record

on page 43, faded writes "MY NAME" on a page of childhood toys. page 42 is where they ask CC if the toys look familiar. interestingly, on page 42, the toys are a bike, a doll of a boy, and a phone, much like cc. on page 43, they are a flute, a girl, and a jack in the box. much like, say it with me, the puppet.

on page 79, "MY NAME" appears to be written in red ink, at least on the archive.org copy. its the same font, though, so it may be michael tracing fadeds writing, possibly to ask if cc remembers either of them.

3 of the "MY NAME"s are written near bloodstains. the middle three, in fact, which is a very interesting choice.

mike draws 3 hearts on the page where youre asked to write the names of 5 people you want to see at the end of the day, as well as anyone you recommend for the job. no names are written.

"do you have dreams" with mike responding by drawing a nightmare animatronic is really interesting; it mirrors the shift in who the greater community believes is the protagonist in fnaf 4. i think its also the catalyst, but still.

"do you miss them" is asked on a page about people being stuffed into suits. a page where foxy is shown tearing up while writing, but nothing else is actually written on the page. possibly meaning its a question to michael.

actually. why are they using MICHAELS book to communicate. surely theyre talking to michael as well, it cant be the only paper with text they could possibly use. michael already responded to one question (do you have nightmares) and is implied to be the recipient of another (see above) so. how many of the questions that we think are for cc are actually for michael?

in related news, theres questions that get Ignored! like "was your favorite ride the carousel" (p56) and "is this song familiar to you" (83)

h. hold on. theres a question on page EIGHTY THREE no one brings up???? the page is labeled "draw the animatronics moving to the beat" and has bonnie playing guitar. its partner page, 82, shows baby singing. theres gotta be something significant here, im just not sure what.

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Continuing some of the previous conversations + talking about random stuff…

Anonymous asked:

I meant by the new prison warden info since you mentioned you been thinking over.

Ohh, I see! Sorry for misunderstanding, Anon.

No, unfortunately we don’t really have anything new to share for now :( That being said, whenever we get asked about the AU, we kind of come up with a lot of new stuff on the spot  lol so if you’re interested in any particular character, feel free to ask.

artfulhero-m asked:

Ryu that office worker Lilia art got me feeling like I'm at work cause as someone who works in an office herself with coworkers who are decades older than her (I'm in my 20s) I cannot express how extremely common the scaring prank is between my coworkers, at least once a week I'm hearing someone yell "BOO!" and hearing in response either a scream or complete silence followed by laughter.

Based off of real events, you got me thinking about Lilia leaving some kind of noise machine underneath other's desks playing fart sounds when the office reaches rare moments of quiet in the day. That fart machine will circulate around the office for a few days.

I am so happy to hear that you have no idea!! I’m very glad we came up with something that has this very specific office vibe lol As someone who has 0 experience with the office environment, I had no idea this type of behaviour was common in any way. I hope these interactions are mostly positive though and not annoying lol

Lilia ABSOLUTELY leaves all kinds of noise machines and whoopee cushions around, you can also never shake hands with him because he has that ring that shocks you, all kinds of classic pranks he’ll absolutely do. And as time goes, they’ll get more and more elaborate.

And if Lilia gets closer to Idia in any way shape of form, it’s over for everyone, because if they join forces… With Idia’s genius mind and skills, he could enhance that noise machine in a way that’ll make the whole office shudder…

Anonymous asked:

Oh, I sent the cursed asks about what Lilia bullied Idia into telling and Lilia’s past crimes. Those were what I was apologizing for XD

So those were yours!! Good to know. I liked these asks though lol

Anonymous asked:

After reading about General Lilia’s sordid past, the song Weedkiller by Ashnikko reminds me of him. Just….major psychotic, unhinged, creature vibes.

Psychotic unhinged creature is such a good way to describe this particular version of Lilia, and I feel like this song could fit perfectly into his personal mixtape! Along with a bunch of death metal songs, so the sound is going to be quite contrasting lol

Anonymous asked:

Do you have any designs for Ace's brother? I've always thought of his brother as Jack Hearts from Disney recruiters if you don't, but I've slapped so much angst onto those boys it's hard to imagine they wouldn't want to "support" each other whenever Ace comes home for the holidays.

Well… it’s kind of awkward, because our view of Ace’s brother is closer to Eddy’s brother from Ed Edd n Eddy lol Ace used to think that his older brother is cool and maybe even idolised him a little when he was a kid, but then got disillusioned and annoyed as he grew older. They bicker a lot because they’re siblings + both of them are kind of mean and quick to throw each other under the bus. His brother isn’t necessarily malicious (although scenarios in which he is a complete jerk could be super fun too), but they often have heated arguments + there is this sense of “I’m older, therefore I win” between them.

Sooo… while this design isn’t something that we’re 100% sure about (if I ever draw him again, he might look COMPLETELY different, so keep that in mind lol), but the overall vibe is kind of like this. A jerk that kind of looks like a slightly older Ace.

That being said, Ace’s brother being supportive of Ace and overcoming complicated stuff is a sweet idea, Anon! I really wonder what their actual relationships are like…

Anonymous asked:

Ohhh, you would LOVE Criminal Minds. Serial murderers, mind games, sympathetic backstories, cursed people doing cursed things, it’s a beautiful, terrible show. ☺️

I can’t believe this is my first time hearing about this show considering the fact that it’s rather old?? But thank you for recommendation, Anon! <3

We very rarely watch live action series, but anything that is described as both beautiful and terrible (and cursed!) is always intriguing.

[faaarawayyy]

What’s xerosaronyx /genq? Do you have a basic rundown?

for sure yeah!! honestly i feel ive never been able to concretely nail down one concise explanation entirely but:

Xerosaronyx (sometimes also referred to as “The Realm of Xerosaronyx”) is my modern-fantasy worldbuilding passion project i’ve been working on since around 2018! it started as something completely different back then, but as i’ve grown it has grown with me as well. recently its been going through a lot of changes as ive picked out many flaws and things id want to rework, which i feel im getting to a firm point with now!

as mentioned, xerosaronyx is a modern fantasy world. think sort of like onward from pixar in that sense. there’s simultaneous magic and technology which are both very important to the setting and contribute to a lot of the history and themes. there are three different categories of the people, which are: homifolk (humanoids), beastfolk (anthropromorphics), and oddfolk (stranger concepts that couldn’t fall concretely under either). there are several subraces/subspecies under each. for example, there’s a lot of variety under beastfolk, like catfolk and equinefolk, etc! broadly, they’re all called xerosans.

the influence of religion and gods is also very prominent over xerosaronyx. there lies a huge pantheon of gods and deities that oversees everything that goes on in the world. another unique part of xerosaronyx is the mortifi, which are a god-created blight on the world that is a constant threat to mortal xerosans. they are beastly and aggressive and have many different species, with each preying on the magical energy of xerosans and on different kinds of negative emotions/energies.

thats probably as basic and broad a summary i can give! feel free to ask for more specifics than this, i would love to elaborate on anything ^_^

[kingofbodyrolls]

im seeing many bts fanfic writers leave tumblr and their goodbye posts all very similarly mention how the tumblr community isn’t always the nicest and cross boundaries; consequently, making it a toxic environment for writers. if you feel comfortable saying, would you be able to elaborate on that? i saw you briefly mention something about this on a different writers goodbye post. (totally ok if you don’t feel comfortable sharing and you can ignore my ask LOL).

Hi anon 🫂

I don’t mind answering your questions, so here goes 😮‍💨

Please proceed with caution, as this post contains possible triggering subjects❗

First, I can’t speak for anyone else but myself, so that’s what I’m gonna do. But I’ll also share what I’ve seen myself in my time on this platform. I don’t know if that can or will provide any insight as to why some writers are leaving the platform, but here goes.

Why might writers be leaving?

Low interaction (minimal comments, reblogs and/or asks)

Hateful asks or harassment 

Personal reasons (that I obviously don’t know)

Mental health reasons

Not writing anymore

Not many friends/mutuals left

Okay, so these are a few points that I’m guessing could be a reason for leaving. I, myself, fit into a lot of those categories, that I’ll now dive further into. Low interaction; this is really a motivation killer. No matter how many times we tell ourselves that “I’m writing for myself, not for everyone else” that statement will quickly turn into a lie (for me at least), and we want to have people’s approval and opinion on the stuff we’re making—otherwise what is the point? And if people aren’t interacting…does that mean I’m bad? That I suck? Don’t people care? For me, low interaction is one of the reasons why I’d probably leave tumblr as well. Then there’s hateful asks or harassment; I know a lot of people have experienced harassment on this platform, and I think this is so sad. I truly don’t get why a person would be hateful towards another. I’ve received some hateful asks as well, and honestly, I felt very bad. As a person already struggling with mental health it was really hard for me not to let it go to heart. I talked with some friends about it, and if it wasn’t for them, I’d have deactivated my account back then. So I feel like that’s a valid reason for leaving. We could also talk about criticism or ‘when are you gonna update?’. I’ve seen a lot of those comments, and it’s disheartening for a lot of writers. Most of us here write for free and in our spare time; some have a full time job and just write for fun, you know? To escape… and then when people either don’t care or shit on you, you start to wonder why you’re really doing this? For me, or for everyone else? If I’m not happy, what’s the point? And the thing about criticism is very touchy, because if the writer doesn’t specifically ask for it, I don’t think people should give it. You are of course allowed to give your opinion, but maybe think about how that might be perceived by the author—will this make them sad/angry? If I kept getting criticism I’d just stop writing, when that isn’t what I’m looking for. If I actually want criticism to improve my writing or a story, I’ll specifically ask for it. Like with my original writing; I’ll let my friends or family read and tell them to be brutally honest with what works and what doesn’t, so I can fix it in the story. But when I’m writing fanfiction, I write and then post, that’s it. It’s not perfect, and I don’t want to spend time improving it after I’ve written it. For me, the difference lies in the fact that with my original work, it has the possibility to be published, and my fanfics doesn’t, and they are also free and mostly about personal subjects for me. Anyway. I’m really rambling, sorry. Then there’s personal reasons and mental health reasons and those are harder for me to guess about. But again, I can talk about myself. With my mental health—which, just to rehash it for people that doesn’t know: for years I’ve struggled with a bad image of myself, low self esteem, depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts and attempts (including cutting), and when I’m feeling especially down and I receive a not so nice comment, or someone actually being mad/angry… well… it just makes me hate myself and I want to quit (both tumblr and life). And this is not a nice feeling—so again, I come back to ‘why am I doing this?’ and ‘what’s the point?’. Okay, I fear this is getting long, but I’m moving on. Then we have not writing anymore; some people just fall out of writing because of different things, could be some of the above or very simply just limited time because of LIFE. And then they could again wonder why they are here, if they are not writing anymore. Okay, the last one is not many friends/mutuals left and this could happen when all your friends leave, like, what more is there left really? Tumblr used to be a really cool and lovely community—I’ve been here for like 15 fucking years, not active through all of them, but that’s how old my blog is. And I’d really hate it, if I had to delete it—but the thought has occurred to me a lot. Because I feel all of those things I’ve mentioned.

More on the low interaction thing

Look. We’re all people here—and knowing you as a writer did a good job or touched someone with your writing really means the world. It motivates us. It drives us. It gives us a purpose. When we don’t get that…motivation for writing simply declines. Speaking about myself again, but if I spent so much time writing and pouring my heart out for people, but get so little in return, I start to think about better ways to use my time, and that won’t be for writing, if people don’t interact. Simple as that. I know a lot of people are silent readers, and that’s fine—but I’m gonna be brutally honest here… silent readers are what’s killing writers. So that’s why I’m often saying, if you like something—fucking say it. Tell people how and why you think they’d done a good job. Tell them you care, and that they matter. Spread some love, joy and good energy. That’s partly why I started my recommendations, because I feel like people deserve to know when they moved me and made something wonderful. And when people get back to me, they are so happy that I took that time to tell them why and how I loved their story. I understand why some people are scared, reluctant to leave reviews or comments, but if it’s nice words, key smashing or just emojis I can’t see why that wouldn’t make an author happy. Of course it’s nice to see that people like and reblog my work—truly, it is. Please don’t get me wrong. But when people are silent, I start questioning myself again. And it’s okay, for me, I might just take things too personally, I don’t know, and maybe that might be my own undoing one day?

Okay. I’m sorry this got so long. I kinda went off there… I’m just really sad to see people leaving 😭 But I completely understand it! And I think it’s just a matter of time before I leave myself… 

All the best anon, and thank you so much for asking 🫂

[wedriftlikelonelyplanets]

max and charles wrecking lando will live rent free in my head forever, any specific scenario

ALRIGHTY WELL

Someone asked me about my feral Singapore thoughts, and SOMEONE ELSE (@mimi-my-love) wanted me to elaborate, so y'all get some elaboration on ONE of these scenarios here....

(AND PROVIDED YOU DIDN'T TYPO LANDO AND MEANT OSCAR)

This is HELLA outside the realm of the GITHHHW verse, and would probably be in whatever amorphous Winner's Room verse that's floating around in my brain.

Instead of a winner's room foursome that I mentioned in the post linked above, winner gets to choose two drivers in the points for the winner's room. Lando picks Max and Charles, Max because there's probably some feelings that Lando has buried deep down. This weird, jealous, victory of the fact he won by 20 seconds over Max fucking Verstappen, and also because (and again, i know that Lando and Charles don't like each other in real life, and i make it WAY WORSE in fic, but it's fun that way) he knows that Max and Charles are a thing, and he wants to try and throw a wrench in things.

Canonically, I'm a sub bottom Charles truther, (however I can also be a sub switch Charles truther), but HERE, that just won't fly.

See, neither Max or Charles are feeling particularly charitable, really. Max had his shitty FIA swearing ban, Charles had....shitty quali, and they're not here for the mind games.

So y'know....instead they absolutely devastate Lando instead (there's definitely something a little temporarily mind-break-y about this in the back of my head but that's an inside thought)

[oraclekleo]

Hyunsuk (CIX) Kinky Tarot Reading

Disclaimer:

All celebrity readings have purely entertainment nature

I don’t know any of the celebrities personally

Don’t base life decisions purely on tarot readings

I can never guarantee any of what’s said in the reading

Reading Info:

Rating: 18+

Reading Type: Single - Couple

Requested: Yes - No

Requester: /

Deck(s): Edgar Allan Poe Tarot

Spread: Kinky Reading

Questions:

Position

Libido

Turn On

Kink

Dirty Secret

Celebrity Info:

Full Name: Yoon Hyun Suk

Stage Name: Hyunsuk

Group: CIX

DOB: 08.09.2001

Blood Type: B

MBTI: ENFP

Sun Sign: Virgo

Chinese Sign: Metal Snake

Life Path Number: 2

Masterpost: CIX

Hyunsuk (CIX)

Full Name: Yoon Hyun Suk Stage Name: Hyunsuk Group: CIX DOB: 08.09.2001 Blood Type: B MBTI: ENFP Sun Sign: Virgo Chinese Sign: Metal Snake Life Path Number: 2

Spread / Question: Kinky Reading Deck(s): Tarot of Mystical Moments

Position - 2 of Pentacles

Hyunsuk is a bit of a juggler when it comes to relationships. He’s something of a chameleon; he can balance his lover in all aspects. He likes to play, push all the buttons and then play an innocent angel. On the other hand, if he’s given a task, he’s likely to complete it, even when he might be a bit of a brat about it. He’s not really a dom in a relationship but he’s not a complete sub either. He’s likely to take his share of responsibility if he’s asked to do so, although if his lover is the caretaker type, Hyunsuk will happily leave everything to them. He might have a thing for being corrupted a bit by his lover.

Libido - 3 of Swords

Normally I would say that Hyunsuk’s heart is broken and he feels no passion here but to be honest with you, I’m getting a completely different vibe here. Hyunsuk is a bit of a thief of hearts and womaniser (or men eater) himself. I mentioned before that he likes to play and he might have playboy tendencies. Hyunsuk knows how to charm people he likes and he knows how to pull them on a string as long as he pleases and then just cut them off, forget about them once he’s bored and leave them in tears, none the wiser what actually happened. While he likes to play like this, Hyunsuk isn’t really that passionate and sensual lover. Tricking somebody’s mind, playing with their heart, feels sort of more arousing than the act itself. I’m getting the vibes that sometimes Hyunsuk might find sex even boring and tedious. It’s really a strange idea I’m getting with him so please, if you disagree with me here, feel free to tell me. Maybe I’m getting wrong signals.

Turn On - 4 of Swords

Once again I’m getting a strange but very specific idea here. Hyunsuk is likely to feel attracted to someone mature, yet vulnerable when it comes to their experience. It might even be an older person but for some reason they haven’t dated much in their life. Imagine someone who got married young, lived with their spouse, now they are going through a divorce and out of the blue, here comes Hyunsuk to steal their heart and sanity. This type of person wouldn’t notice Hyunsuk’s mind games immediately and at the same time they would be likely mature and willing to pamper him. Until the moment Hyunsuk is fed up with them, of course. What a hyena, this young man is. I’m starting to like him. Lol!

Kink - Queen of Cups

I have already said that Hyunsuk finds regular love-making dull and is more likely to enjoy the process of seduction than the fruits of it. However, even such a cold hearted monster (I’m joking) has a kink. Hyunsuk is likely to especially enjoy being babied by his lover. If they are willing to actually play this role, and it’s possible that Hyunsuk will go into details and have elaborate scenarios for them, they will be rewarded by his passion eventually. I’m not sure if this kink is some sort of reaction to maybe abandonment issues, Hyunsuk might still have unresolved. Maybe his parents couldn’t give him as much attention as he wanted from them. It would make sense for him to quickly dump his lovers in fear of them doing it first but these are dangerously deep waters and I don’t really want to go there in this reading.

Dirty Secret - 3 of Pentacles

I mean… I don’t want to explore my hypothesis, but it kinda all makes sense. Hyunsuk is secretly hoping for someone to come and mend his unfinished soul structure, patch the wounds and help him to actually mature. He’s probably aware of his issues but it’s not an easy task to cope with them on his own, especially in such a stressful environment like the entertainment industry. Don’t take me wrong, he’s not really falling apart or breaking down. He’s only not completely done with growing up, yet, and he probably dreams of a person who could help him get there.

Aww! Look at him! I mean I know what demon he is and I would still hug him and give him home made cookies. 🤣

Just joking. Honestly, this is one of those readings where I feel it strongly but my better judgement is shaking head. Please, feel free to disagree with me regarding Hyunsuk. Maybe there were some solar storms disturbing my intuition or something. 😊 Take this reading with a huge grain of salt.

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[goldenbloodytears]

My lurker ass is a big fan of your work, would love to hear about Danny angst hours if you feel like it.

Sending you good vibes from down south

Oooh thank you so much anon! What a wonderful birthday gift.

Feel free to send me follow up asks if there’s any sort of specific angst scenario you’re curious about how Danny would react to, specifics can be very useful in helping me fine-tweak details.

My brain is a mega sleepy rn from finishing most of my finals + birthday, but I will try to elaborate on some of my thoughts of Danny angst events below the cut.

Mentions of divorce and doomed gay romance if anyone is sensitive to those.

I think the biggest one I’ve made a bit of mention so far is my headcanon about him being the child of divorce. I think he carries a lot of unprocessed abandonment issues and complex emotions related to that—I’ve been toying with the idea lately that he chose to stay with his dad, since he would have been old enough to have a say in the custody arrangement. However, I don’t think this protected him from mommy abandonment issues because I think his mom still felt lowkey rejected by him… and then basically proceeded to have minimum contact with him? She rebuilt her life, got remarried and had his three half-siblings.

And that’s going to still be devastating to a kid. Because as much as you have a vague idea of what your choice means, almost nobody really explains to kids the consequences of what their choices are before hand, even for incredibly benign choices sometimes.

I’m still trying to decide what the outcome of Danny committing patricide is—did he get caught in Utah? Is this the event which put him on the run? Has he been running ever since?

I kinda wish BHVR would give us another tome just so I don’t have to make the decision.

I’m drawn to the idea that he got caught but his mom managed to literally and metaphorically bail him out, it just… gets caught against my sense of disbelief. The amount of Law and Order I ingest doesn’t give me much to go off of—maybe a hung jury? That could be interesting. Like his killing of his dad sounds like it could be pled down to manslaughter, but I have a hard time picturing him not getting convicted if that makes sense…. But at the same time, a prior conviction feels like it complicates his background. It’s really a lot. It’s something I need more feedback on because… well, it’s so much to think about.

Another angst related idea I’ve been toying with as background for my fic includes whether Danny has had a doomed infatuation with someone before—Sam is a particularly butchy bi woman at times and the idea that her character might remind Danny of somebody he’s known in the past was… intriguing. I’ve been visualizing a sort of doomed ho-yay unresolved sexual tension relationship with a guy in his background… maybe even the original “owner” of one of Danny’s aliases?

It’s Jed lol

It’s at least partly inspired by how some fan-artists make Danny and Jed look like completely different people. I don’t know if it will stay Jed, the idea is very… half-baked, and I worry it will make Danny and Sam too similar if they both have a doomed gay romance lol

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Hey, feel free not to answer this if you don’t want to, but what are your opinions on the theory of structural dissociation? We’ve always found it confusing that people treat it as the definite reason DID exists when it seems to us to be completely unprovable, at least ethically. Looking through your blog you seem thoughtful and well researched, so I was wondering what your thoughts on that are, or if you could explain to us why the tosd is provable? Again, it’s okay if not. 😁

This got really long so if you want a tldr version send me another ask

I'll also say there are people more well versed in specifically this topic than I am and if I got anything wrong/something should be added they should step in and correct me

It's not provable due to ethical reasons, you're absolutely right.

However, it is falsifiable, which is something that all scientific hypotheses have to be in order to do research properly (Falsifiable in this instance would mean that you could have DID without experiencing structural dissociation). I won't go into the scientific method but basically everything in science (so including tosd) has to be tested using it to be considered worth holding any weight

TOSD is the theory of how dissociated parts exist in a person. I believe it was originally created in reference to ptsd/general responses to trauma and then later extended into CDDs

From my understanding, TOSD takes traits observed in people with dissociative disorders and essentially provides a reason of why they exist ('being traumatized separates an identity down into parts in order to function, and in CDDs the trauma was so early the parts were never together to begin with'). The TOSD didn't come up with these traits, it connected them. Disorganized attachment (key empirical symptom) was something proposed back in 1986, though its relation to DID is more recent. I'm not sure how long the connection to dissociation has been there, but based on a study I found from 1996 DID had been almost definitively linked to being dissociative in nature. It cites a quote that DID isn't about multiple personalities but "difficulty integrating aspects of personality." (Cited properly in article but for the sake of this it's from 1994).

Obviously only using one paper doesn't make a very strong argument. I'm not trying to convince you to believe TOSD is real but I hope this shows you that various aspects of it have been observed before it was suggested (Paper is from 1996, TOSD was proposed 1997).

Whether or not you believe this as the reason DID forms is up to you, but I personally believe it's the strongest contender as to why. We can't prove it, but we can take what we do know (empirical evidence) and see how it lines up (and how it doesn't! OSDD-1 notably doesn't line up with being secondary dissociation a lot even though it's 'supposed' to be). I'm sure if you look into it there are gonna be other suggestions on how DID forms and I honestly think you should look into them and form your own opinion if it's something that interests you

As to why some people call it the end all be all, it probably depends on who you're talking to and the level of nuance in the discussion. I know I used to talk to people who probably would have just told me it's "obviously correct" without elaboration but that doesn't really give you a why. So I hope this gave you some insight on why it gets related to DID, or at least why people like to call it the reason DID forms

Links to some stuff mentioned:

https://www.myptsd.com/gallery/-pdf/1-41.pdf (full paper from 1996)

http://www.trauma-pages.com/a/nijenhuis-2004.php https://www.bu.edu/writingprogram/journal/past-issues/issue-3/manton/ (how disorganized attachment plays a role)