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[clouvu]

My emotional support space lesbians 🫶

[luishies]

fake it till you make it ༊*·˚part 1

summary:sungho and y/n are close friends due to them being in the same neighborhood and because their parents are high school friends. When they were in high school, both of them were in relationships. till senior year. They found out that their lovers were cheating on them. The both of them decided to "date" to make their ex jealous. little did y/n know..sungho wanted this fake dating to be real. trope: fake dating (?) authors note: this might have grammar mistakes and might be cringe. warning: angst,kissing,cheating

September 19, 2016

"hi! im sungho!"

"uhm..hi! im y/n"

ever since that day, he never left my side.

9 years later

march 28, 2024

"y/n!!!" i hear a shout from the corridors. When i looked back i saw sungho waving to me while his girlfriend gave me a annoyed face by waving. Sunghos girlfriend never liked me. They've been dating for 4 years now. "Moms inviting u and auntie too dinner." sungho said with a smile. "She said to bring aunties famous brownies!" "What time?" i asked sungho. "Hmm around 5?" he said with a nervous face while I could hear his girlfriend on the phone. " Oh my gosh stop it!!" I swear.. her voice is so irritating,But what can i do? Sungho brings her everywhere. "So you and auntie going?" sungho asked me. "Of course we will. since when did we miss a dinner with you guys." I said. We said bye to each other since it was dismissal already. while i was about to leave i felt someone hug me from behind. "you've been ignoring my messages.." I heard my boyfriend say while sulking. "sorry my phone died during biology class" "You should've just gone to me" i told him after giving him a kiss on the cheek. "I was supposed too but i saw u with that sungho..You promised me that your gonna ignore him." "You know that i get jealous when ur with him." he said with a mad tone but with a sad face. "I know.. but you know that sungho is my best friend." “I can't just ignore my best friend." I said to him hoping we won't argue. "He's just a best friend. Im your boyfriend Y/n!" "So he's more important than me?" "then just break up with me and date him for gosh sake y/n." he shouted at me. "Ba-" he cut me off by walking away. We've been fighting about the same thing. He gets jealous when im around sungho but it's okay if he's touchy with sunghos girlfriend.. sometimes i think that he's cheating but he says that they're just Friends. Just friends my ass.

When i arrived home, i told mom about the dinner with the Parks. We knocked on their door around 4:50. "Y/n!, auntie!!, come in." Sungho greeted us. When we went inside i smelled Ms. parks famous kimchi stew. "(your moms name)!!, y/n! ohhh youve grown so much y/n!" "You get prettier everytime i see you!" Ms. Park said while hugging me. "Thank you auntie!" is said with a smile. "Sungho, bring y/n to your room first! I'll call you both when dinner is ready!" Ms. Park said while cooking. Me and sungho went up to his room. "Sooo how are you and your boyfriend?" sungho said too break the awkward silence between us. "Oh uhm.. its okay." "what about u?" i asked to continue the convo. "Well __ has been busy on her group projects. Shes been going out so we dont really get to go out together." He said while pouting. "Huh.. __ also has been busy with group projects." i said. "Sungho.." i said while facing my entire body to him. "hm?" he siad whiel looking at me. "I know this seems rude but dont you think __ is cheating on you.." "I mean shes been busy with 'group projects' even tho she skips classes." "Shes also texting someone 24/7 and smiling while texting." He looked at me confused,sad and mad. "Look y/n.. its none of your business if my girlfriend is cheating on me or not. i appreciate your concern but she told me that shes been attending her classes and that the person shes texting is her mom." "i would appreciate it if you can mind your own business." he said with a serious face. I never heard him this serious. Maybe i did cross the line. "Sorry.. im just.. concerned." 

During dinner, Sungho didn't talk to me. I really did cross the line.. The next day was so quiet. Sungho didn't talk to me or even text me. After classes i decided to find sungho to apologize. I saw him packing his stuff at his locker, but he looked. Sad. “Hey sungho..sorry about yesterday.” “I really did cross a line there and I'm really sorry.”  I said to him while looking down. I was about to apologize again, but he cut me off. “Don't worry y/n..You were right.” “I was telling __ about what you said and she told me that you were telling the truth and that she wants to break up with me.” He said while on the verge of crying. “Also y/n..” “The guy she's dating is your boyfriend.”

[ni-kiiiii]

I’m sorry • Lee felix

Angst pt.1 / pt.2

Summary - Felix comes home frustrated and he takes it out on the reader and he as to figure out how to make it up to the reader.

A/n: this is my first story,(what I’m saying is have mercy on me and my writing ) Part 2 will either come later on today or tomorrow. I will never be late to put up at pt2 or a continuation bc it annoys me when other ppl do it to. You can count on me to not leave you high and dry🙏

-use the comment section-if u want

-I hope y’all enjoy💗

-plz reblog

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You were patiently waiting for Felix to get to your guys' shared home. You’ve texted and called but still no reply. Since you had nothing better to do You watched a drama on the couch. Which was a drama you had rewatched repeatedly. it was to the point where you could literally be an actor in it if you wanted to.

While you were watching your drama you hear keys jangling. You knew it was Felix because who else so it be. So you thought running to the door quickly to hug Felix when before he opens it would be a good idea. But you were wrong, when the door opened and you hugged He looked utterly disgusted to see you and your heart shattered into pieces. You have never seen this look of utter disgust from him or anyone matter of fact anyone. You and your negative thoughts never went well so you immediately thought something you do was wrong. make it even worse he shoved you and he has never done anything like that before so that left you shocked. Almost like you got scared.

But not to shocked for you to stand up for yourself. “Felix, what the fuck is with you today,” you said calm but stern trying to hide how broken you were inside from this little incident. Felix inhaled strongly before saying “ Y/n I don’t have time for your shit today, today is not the day.” “Or what you shove me harder?” You scoff. He looks at you with shocked eyes because he never want you to think that he would hurt you in that matter should’ve put his frustration on you. “No, Y/n don’t think like that, I didn’t even mean it like that I’m just frustrated from what happened at work,” he says softly. You stayed silent you wanted him what you were feeling. So when you walked passed him you shoved him the same way he did and slammed and locked you and Felix's shared room door.

You jumped on the bed and l layer in Felix’s spot in the king sized bed got under the covers and cried. You had the tv on following up with the fan so there was a 50 percent chance he couldn’t hear you. You knew would feel better in the morning after you talked it out and everything but it still hurt you. You later got tired of crying and fell asleep with puffy eyes.

Felix on the other hand was sick with himself he couldn’t even think of why he would do that to the person he loved. He was thinking about how he would make it up to you. Then this perfect idea came into his mind.

END of pt.1

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A/N: thank you for staying until the end. Plz tell me how you like the story. PLZ DONT COPY Work🙏

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But sorry if there any grammar mistakes or any mistakes plz point it out In the comments.

[shootingthe-stars]

someone just posted a comment on the post about trans regulus and so i looked it up and im not gonna lie i dont really like it 😭 cause why did i only find mpreg, why is it just sexual stuff??? I don't mind the ftm regulus (as someone who doesn't associate with their assigned birth) actually but it kinda seems like people are just doing it for a loophole to have harry or fetish regulus more and it freaks me out.

But maybe i just didn't good stuff, Have you looked into trans regulus?? I need to know if i just found the weird side or not

i ended up rambling a lot i’m putting it under a cut my bad

i think if a character gets hced as trans it’s only a matter of time until it turns fetishy cause unfortunately people just suck. i’ve definitely seen transmasc regulus and i actually do like it as a hc, i’ll never be against gender or sexuality hcs as long as the intentions are all good.

unfortunately i also sometimes see this paired up with making him like a 5’5 skinny twink next to 6’0 bulky james and that bothers me for various reasons. im trying to tread very very carefully but there are too many times i’ve seen fanart and thought regulus was a child and that’s bad actually!

this is probably gonna be a hot take but i think race has to do with the way certain white characters are perceived like regulus and sirius vs the ones people more commonly hc as poc like james or remus. so when only the white characters are chosen for the “small and frail” role it really throws me (not that being trans makes you these things ofc). and i have seen transmasc remus before, but i don’t think i’ve ever seen the hc treated like regulus is. if i’m wrong then 🤷 (also wolfstar is not free from fetishism either, but that’s not the topic of the post)

i have seen a lot of good stuff too btw! it’s definitely not limited to just the negative aspects, and i rly like reading things when they’re both respectful and well written!

basically i’m saying that headcanons are totally cool with me, i just think people need to be careful from turning to fetish type content or contributing to stereotypes by mistake. ur far from free from criticism because you slapped a label on someone to go against jkr just so u can get them pregnant or have different sexual organs for u to draw or write about. i feel like i need 50 disclaimers for this post because having explicit content with a trans character also does not automatically mean it’s fetish content, but it’s really obvious when it is.

anyway this is too long hope u don’t mind 🫶

[yanderu-deredere]

asdsadf idk if you answer requests like this lmao so ignore this if u dont but which of your ocs would be good with like a really bratty darling? especially one that loves to tease them till they snap but thhen, when they do snap, she pretty much goes *puppy dog eyes* u don't wanna do that do u? im just a lil baby! im just ur lil baby! would u be mean to ur lil baby? lmaooo

a/n: hey, anon.......... this is a serious question but uhm did you get this ask from that one meme LOL

neway emmm i would absolutely love to do this request! here you go lol and i interpreted 'good with' in two different ways so hopefully you like it lmaooo

warning: female parts and pronouns since the ask specified, mentions of blood

liam arieh ★ profile

liam definitely gives off the impression that he's patient and kind but, actually, he's like a predator in waiting LOL

he literally gets angry/irritated moderately fast. not the fastest in the list but it's up there and he gets angrier/more irritated the more he wants it

and oh baby, does he want you so desperately every single time

you're the fruit to his tantalus frfr LMAO (always gotta sneak those mythology references when i can)

for a bratty darling, he wouldn't be particularly terrible. his prerogative, though, would be to turn the tables on you and make you beg for him

sometimes he succeeds, sometimes he doesn't. it's very 50/50 chance

though, when you pull your cute lil 'im just ur lil baby! would u be mean to ur lil baby?' schtick, he'll break very easily and get really annoyed and he wouldn't be able to hold back

"I'm just a little baby!" You grinned in that way that made Liam's hackles absolutely rise "You wouldn't be mean to your lil baby, would you?"

Honestly, normally, you would've been right. Normally, he really would prefer pampering you than punishing you.

But you'd deserved it; prancing around in those tantalising clothes, bending over where he could see, licking your lips in that specific way that made them glisten.

You probably thought you really would get away with it this time but, unfortunately for you, Liam had enough.

Without hesitation, his hand darted forward, his fingers wrapping around your neck, definitely not hard enough to hurt you but hard enough to make you a little lightheaded in a minute.

Then, just as suddenly, his lips crashed into yours.

The kiss wasn't as soft as it usually was with Liam. Sometimes, with Liam, he treated you like you were something precious, touched you like you would break apart in his hands if he wasn't too careful.

He was always calculated with you.

This kiss? This kiss was teeth and saliva. He nipped at your lips till he tasted the copper of your blood. He pressed his lips to yours so hard, it felt like it would bruise.

When he pulled away, a string of drool came with him.

You could see in the dark of his eyes that you had made a mistake provoking him.

With little flourish, he started dragging you by the neck to the back of the tattoo shop "I think it's time for me to remind you how to behave."

fujio watanabe ★ profile

definitely not the fastest to get annoyed by your little bratty acts but definitely the fastest to act on it

to fujio, he's always in control. he's always the top dog. and what do you get when you provoke a dog? you get the teeth

he also isn't kind about it. he needs to always be more dominant than you so, when you act up, he needs to put you in your place almost immediately

holds some affection for you, of course, so he's kind about it. or, at least, as kind as fujio could be about something like that

You let out a choked sob as your fingers dug even deeper into Fujio's biceps. You were sure that, at this point, you'd probably broken skin. Part of you felt victorious at that, felt like you were giving him as good as you got.

Fujio, on the other hand, could hardly feel your nails.

He was too distracted as he watched his thick cock sink in, inch by agonizing inch, into your sopping wet cunt. No matter how hard he drilled into you day after day, you still stayed just as tight as the first time.

One of his hands pushed your thigh closer to your torso, practically folding you in half, while the other hand darted up to your face, his fingers digging into your cheeks as he made sure you looked straight at him.

"What was that about being a little baby, hmmm?" He taunted, teeth bared in a rather maniacal grin as he fucked his cock in and out of you, making sure to make every thrust as bruising as the last.

All you could do was hiccup and whine, your mind blank as tears pooled in the corners of your eyes.

Fujio laughed this time, cruel and cold, before his fingers tightened around your face “Open your fucking mouth.”

You weakly obliged but, really, the way he held your face already had your lips parting anyway. Without hesitation, Fujio spat in your mouth, his saliva warm and wet against your tongue.

“Swallow.” He ordered and, like an obedient little slut, you did “Good girl. Maybe now you’ll remember your place, huh?”

ryouta watanabe ★ profile

quickest to get annoyed LOL but he never gets truly angry

his favourite thing is pampering you and taking care of you so it'll always annoy him when you want to rebel against him

he lets you though. he'll always let you because you're his precious sweet darling

the 'best' at dealing with it in a sense because, though it's obvious he's very annoyed, he approaches you with sweetness and patience

takes a lot for him to snap like liam and fujio LOL

"Why are you acting this way?" Ryouta sighed, turning his gaming chair to look directly at you.

Your previous fire and brattiness disappeared almost immediately. You're left standing in between his legs, shy expression on your face as you held your arms against your back.

You felt a little like a chastised kid.

"N-Nothing! I-I'm just-- I'm just being a lil baby, is all!" You manage to stutter out, nervous under Ryouta's rather dark gaze.

He sighed again, ragged and huffed, before taking your face into his hand, his fingers not exactly digging but definitely pressing into your cheeks "Do you want my attention, my little baby? Is that it?"

That definitely got your cheeks to turn even hotter. Still, somehow, looking at Ryouta like this, all that rebellious energy before vanished into something softer and weaker.

Slowly, haltingly, you nodded, pout playing across your lips.

Ryouta let go of you before leaning back in his chair. Without hesitation, he pulled his joggers down and let his cock out. Despite his obvious irritation, it was already hard and leaking precum.

“Come sit.” He pat his thigh with his freehand. The expression on his face didn’t leave any room for questioning or complaints.

So, you did as you were told. You lifted that short skirt you put on just to tease him and, because you had nothing underneath, it was easy enough for you to get on top of him and position yourself over his dick.

You sank down on it, feeling every single inch as it was fed into your aching pussy.

“Good kitty.” Ryouta wrapped his arms around your waist as soon as you had sunk straight to the base of his cock. “Maybe you’ll learn to behave if I keep you right here, hmmm?"

yeong-bae kigal ★ profile

funny little guy doesn't know what to do when faced with your brattiness loool

like ryouta, he very much prefers to pamper you and just give you what you want so he doesn't understand where the brattiness comes from

like you don't have to act out to get his attention, baby

absolutely almost impossible to annoy LOL like bratting around just gets him horny. thatse it

"Baby..." Yeong-bae sighed and, for the first time, it sounded ragged and harsh. You perked up a little at that, looking at him curiously. Had you finally broken through his soft exterior, had you finally revealed the harsh Dom in him?

Instead of what you expected, he cupped both of your cheeks in his hands, his palms warm against your skin, and he kissed you. Like always, the kiss was soft, gentle, but it was the kind of tender that made your brain float.

When he pulled away, it took you a second to get back to reality.

"Why are you being like this?" Yeong-bae asked you as he pressed his forehead against yours "Did I do something?"

Faced with their earnest questions, you were left feeling rather embarrassed by how childish you were only minutes ago. You had stubbornly wanted their attention, you supposed.

Yeong-bae, ever as attentive to your every need, immediately understood. He pressed another soft kiss against your lips before pushing you down on the bed behind you.

Without hesitation, they started gently taking off your bottoms, tossing them aside. You didn’t understand what was happening at first but, when they placed your thighs on his shoulders, you immediately got it.

You grew shy under their rather rapt attention, your face hot and your ears even hotter. Your hands flew up to cup your own cheeks, your eyes wide as you stared down at your lover.

“I’m sorry if I haven’t been paying attention to you, baby.” He pressed a kiss against your clit before licking a broad stripe up your cunt “But don’t worry, we have all afternoon. I’ll give you all the attention you could ever need.”

[strawbrrycreamdreams]

Does nana actually love ren? Or yasu more? In 50 chapter i was so confused for shins speech

shin said that nana actually in love with yasu

When nobu and shin see shion go in yasus room , they were all anxious about because nana s reaction .

but nobu has replied “dont say that! She is marrying ren!” Mmmmso i think now that her true love is yasu.. poor ren😢

…And so many clues in the story , example in the chapter 69 whe yasu said thanks nana and that “thanku” was so beautiful for her she cried for the happy .. so may chapters after shion say to misato that a “thank you“ sometime is more rewarding than “i love u” if it comes from the person we love more

I know , ren has made SO MANY mistakes and in know yasu Is perfect but I believed that nana and ren were soulmates no matter what …happened . I so sad fo ren… i know.. its crazy, yasu and nana are so special but i still believed that nana x ren was more , no matter what.. till now 😮‍💨

Ren is my favorite character in nana. that’s why he is to dear to me .. my only hope is that his love is reciprocated by nana.. for real

aahhh I don’t understand what ai yazawa wants to say to us sometimes that i get angry really much. Love is not perfect sometimes… that shion theory’s so deep that i wanna scream 😂 nana was so happy for a thanku .. omg .. Ai Yazawa please.. ren is so lonely in the end.

What do you think about it? So sorry for my bad English !

This such a good question and I actually think about it alot. For me, I think she loved ren at the start of their relationship, but when he left for Tokyo her love for him changed and shifted onto yasu. Whenever nana had an emotional issue she'd run to yasu immediately, we rarely see her open up to ren once they reunited, but we always see her being vulnerable and honest with yasu. She also gets sad when she realizes the reason yasu has never made any romantic moves on her is because she's "ren's girl." And the only reason she begins taking the process of finalizing her marriage with ren seriously is because she walked in on yasu having a "date" with miu and realized that he is moving on from her. I feel like the reason nana and ren stayed together was because of their mutual obsession for each other and their deep history with one another. I personally think ren truly was in love with nana, but after he left for Tokyo I think nana's love for him drastically changed. And it makes sense considering ren is eager to take all the next relationship steps with nana but nana on the other hand is very reluctant and maybe that's because she was secretly hoping that yasu would make a move on her and steal her away from ren. It's evident in the later chapters she wants him to yet, he never does so she settles for her current situation with ren.

This is not well thought out or written 😭I just HAD to get this off my mind. It's really hard to tell with nana though so I'm not fully confident in who she loves more. She loves them both obviously but like ren was her first kiss, first love and first time and the only man she's ever been romantically with, so she's ALWAYS going to have that love and connection with ren. It's confusing and wish Ai played into her feelings for yasu and ren more idk

[pinkiepie20000]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ PINKIEPIE20000 X GN READER ((ENEMIES TO LOVERS)) ((PINKIEPIE20000 WHIPS OUT BEATRICE))

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ synopsis: you and pinkiepie20000 despise eachother! or so you think. (pinkiepie20000 just scratches her ass at you and you hate her for it but then you battle and pinkiepie20000 whips out beatrice as a weapon and you probably would've almost made out but you made the fatal mistake of saying something really, really bad.)

a/n: can we make pinkiepie20000 x reader a real tag

It had been a nice day. No seeing your mortal enemy, pinkiepie20000. That's so nice. B-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-but it's not like you like pinkiepie20000!!!! Y-you would never!! *you blush hysterically* After all, you had voted for the bear, not her!! You'd rather be stuck with a million bears in a forest than be stuck alone with her!!

As you walk to the newly established Temu store to search for some cute dinosaur dildos and guess who you saw in that aisle!! It was none other than pinkiepie20000!!!!!! *Ugh!* you thought. *It's that disgusting arlecchino liking loser!! who even plays genshin impact that's so 2020!!* You scream internally. You angrily stop up to the sexy 20 year old in the Temu store.

"YOU!!!"

pinkiepie20000 looks over at you lazily, who had been scratching her ass while looking over the items on display. "who"

"PINKIEPIE20000"

"ok"

"I HATE YOU SO MUCH!! YOU ALWAYS MISTAG YOUR POSTS ITS SO ANNOYING"

""pinkiepie20000 leaned on the shelf full of 50 cent dinosaur dildos, smirking flirtatiously, fondling her glasses attractively. "So you follow me?"

"ur like the millionth person to say that js block me

"N-N-N-N-NO!!! I WOULD NEVER!!!" your face turns bright red. "J-jUST TAG YOUR POSTS CORRECTLY YOU'RE SO ANNOYING!!"

"i stead of worrying abt me u should probably go worry abt yr rat infestation"

"Y-YOU- YOU- I DONT HAVE A RAT INFESTATION!!" you scream. People are starting to stare at you. pinkiepie20000 just whips a coke out of her ass and starts drinking it.

bewildered at her reaction, you sputter out: "O-O-O-O-OKAY I CONFESS I'M ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!!!" ...what? where did that come from?? it was like a demon posessing you. you could never love pinkiepie20000.

"do you want to see my strap i named it beatrice its pink"

"I'm always dreaming on your downfall, I hope all the male pregnancies you've been spreading over the world come to you, I hope all these tags you are flooding finally rebel against you, and you, will not see the end of that day, they will have their revenge!!!!!!"

"so ur dreaming of me"

"N-NO THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID!!"

"ok im gonna go play red dead redemption bye"

"WAIT!!" you reach out towards pinkiepie20000 and grab her arm as she turns to walk away. "LET ME FIGHT YOU FOR YOUR LOVE.... I MEAN TO PROVE IM A WORTHY OPPONENT!!"

"ok"

"GOD BREAST AMERICA BITCH" you ready your fists to fight pinkiepie20000 to prove you are not in love with her. she whips "beatrice" out and grips it in her hand, readying "beatrice" in a fighting stance.

Punches fly at Jeffery from Class of 09 from your fists, jeffery parrying your hits with beatrice. However, you are dogshit at this and miss and your punches hit the Temu dinosaur dildos. What the fuck. The whole shelf's worth of Temu dinosaur dildos collapses on you, making you stagger to the ground like an old man with a life alert necklace.

pinkiepie20000 tackles you to the ground, saying, "im gonna tickle u guys toes" you scream in horror, but your face betrays your scream, as your face is bright red.

"I FOLLOWED YOU BACK WHEN YOU WERE NORMAL!" you sob. "this isn't you baby....." you cry, clawing at pinkiepie20000's chest.

"Y-y-you're the jax to my pomni!!" You cry, tears streaming down your face.

"cmere bb and give daddy a big kiss"

you lean into the approaching pinkiepie20000 with your lips jutted out like a fish with your eyes closed. she stops suddenly, leaving you frozen in that position. she looks at you with a serious expression. "who is arlecchino from genshin impact"

You open your eyes to look at pinkiepie20000 in confusion. You don't know who that is. You don't play genshin impact. "U-uh.. I don't know??? that sounds like the name of a straight woman."

pinkiepie20000's eyes darken. "ur wrong" she says, before shoving beatrice up your ass in a ferocious manner. "mayonnaise consumer" she scoffs judgmentally at you. WH- what's wrong with eating mayo??? but you didn't have the time to think about that, as beatrice was shoved up your ass so hard, you died on the spot.

rip

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did u like my custom header

amazing work sofa this could over throw booktok (please make it overthrow booktok im begging you booktok is making me go fucking insane)

[nana-and-ren707]

Sorry i see you are a nana fan so i want to ask you a thing , Does nana actually love ren? Or yasu more? In 50 chapter i was so confused for shins speech

shin said that nana actually in love with yasu

When nobu and shin see shion go in yasus room , they were all anxious about because nana s reaction .

but nobu has replied “dont say that! She is marrying ren!” Mmmmso i think now that her true love is yasu.. poor ren😢

…And so many clues in the story , example in the chapter 69 whe yasu said thanks nana and that “thanku” was so beautiful for her she cried for the happy .. so may chapters after shion say to misato that a “thank you“ sometime is more rewarding than “i love u” if it comes from the person we love more

I know , ren has made SO MANY mistakes and in know yasu Is perfect but I believed that nana and ren were soulmates no matter what …happened . I so sad fo ren… i know.. its crazy, yasu and nana are so special but i still believed that nana x ren was more , no matter what.. till now 😮‍💨

Ren is my favorite character in nana. that’s why he is to dear to me .. my only hope is that his love is reciprocated by nana.. for real

aahhh I don’t understand what ai yazawa wants to say to us sometimes that i get angry really much. Love is not perfect sometimes… that shion theory’s so deep that i wanna scream 😂 nana was so happy for a thanku .. omg .. Ai Yazawa please.. ren is so lonely in the end.

What do you think about it? So sorry for my bad English !

Helloo and thank you for asking, I love discussing NANA always ♥

I've been confused, and I think we have all been confused just like you with these occurences to Nana being in love with Yasu, I'm pretty sure Yazawa Ai made all these on purpose just to upset us T..T and as Ren and Nana are my favorite character and favorite couple in the serie, I can tell you I was really upset!

But I'm gonna answer your question, as a Nana&Ren fan : I think she really does love Ren, more than anybody. :-)

I can't help but have a lot in common with Nana, I wasn't abandoned by my mother but I felt quite lonely my whole life, not being able to connect to anyone... until I met that one man. It's another kind of love, I swear, to meet someone that heal you from your sadness, from your loneliness, that becomes a shelter, a light in the dark, the ONLY light. The person became a GOD for you, so you can imagine the devastation when you're left by that one person. And there come Yasu! He's sweet, he's nice, he's always available, always a good hear when you need him... I think Nana really wanted to fall in love with him, she knew it would be a healthiest relationship for her... but she did not. She loved him, but she was not in love with him (at the risk of being scolded by their shipers, I think it goes the same with Hachi x Nobu :p). She cannot love anyone else than Ren, and that's one of the reason why she's quite upset

Do you remember this? That one scene in which she realizes that Yasu will not be able to "save" her - from Ren!

Concerning the scene with Nobu and Shin, "think about the way Nana feels about him", we understand in the serie that Nana is a very possessive person, she wants the person she loves to belong to her, completely. I am a very possessive person too, and it's very complicated to see someone who's interested in you being interested in someone else, because you really feel abandoned. Even if you cannot give love to the person, you need the person to love you, only you. Another interesting cap :

I think That's exactly what she'd like! That yasu keeps on looking after her, without loving anyone else, even if she is unable to give him love (because she loves Ren more :p)

The last two things that I wanted to underline, are the fact that Nana is not that upset about Myu and Yasu relationship. She's a bit angry, but she was in love with Yasu it would be the end of the world for her.

+ I have also noticed, and I don't know if you will agree with me, that as long as the things go well with Ren, Nana doesn't really need Yasu, she runs to him when the things go wrong, doesn't she?

+If she was in love with Yasu, she would have dated him during the two years of breakup with Ren, right? :-)

But this is just my opinion you know, maybe I'm wrong , maybe she's in love with Yasu and the clues you listed are quite relevant too! But I hope my answer managed to make you believe in Nana and Ren for ever ♥

Your English is not bad at all, I wish you a very nice weekend honey ♥

[totaldramafan-lauri]

uhm hi!, I just want to say I love your're work and how you write things!. It makes me really want to try writing for myself... When i found your account on Tumblr i was a little shy to talk to you since i was amaze by you're writing, charactization and how it makes me so happy at times! I hope you don't quit on this fic because i really love Golden cheese. There are so many little content of my Goddess and I was really happy when i found your work in ao3...!

I love you're other works too and dang the smut on those chapters is fire, i love it! especially when i favor affogato too! You're writting is so incredible it makes me cry! in a good way ofc!!!, your writing is impressive. Please keep it going and don't quit.. Im rooting for you!! thank you for making this fic because i was tired searching for a fic that fits my standards and you're fic was. just so right for me i started to read your other works!.. i wish you can gain more papolarity to be honest!! you deserved it because of how fatastic and beautiful your charactization are! wish you the best on luck!! and dont overdue it because you're health matters and that's the soppose top priority and hoping you are well!

Can't wait for the two endings on Chapter 10 and 11! i wonder if its sad and happy endings? oh well! i'll take it if its sad and i was curious if one of the ending take on the route of the Golden cheese kingdom being destroyed :( (Golden cheese didn't deserve getting her kingdom nuked so much) if it does though I will cry like a baby because i know its going to be sad if its your writing!! in a good way!

I was a little worried that you have given up on the fic but i was happy you uploaded! i was kicking, giggling that you uploaded the chapter 9! it was worth the 2 month wait on how much we are making out with the goddess!

when i read Chapter 9, i was so happy that i can see the reader finally getting what they deserved for a long long time!, I wonder what her Radiance thoughts of us in her perspective but I know they see us cute when how many times different people tell us how cute we are, including the friends that we, reader met!...

And when i was reading on the middle part on the chapter 9, where we tried to be pretty to her Radiance, dress up nicely and it indeed as a fail, but... h-holy crap i didn't know her Radiance can get GET THAT AGGRESSIVE and i was trembling and blushing, i was so flustered!!! I rarely blsuh on fics but these, these was an exception that i was happy to be blushing about.

I Love how aggressive her Radiance get when she found us so precious! I was losing alot of breath on that part, it took me a 30 minute break to stop blushing so c-crazily!... I love love your're writing on her Radiance!!!! I Love it!!! it makes me cry so much that i finally found a good read on her Radiance! I was crying at some point at the Reader trauma because of how much suffered.. but her Radiance comforted the reader and i was in so much thoughts on how i wish that could be me in real life..

if its a little rude of me, pls don't respond.. when her Radiance and the Reader is making out, isn't there a 50/50 chance someone could be walking pass our room hearing the Reader and her Radiance making out?

Im a simp, to much of a simp that i keep getting back and forth, back and forth on the chapter 9 because of how good the writing was! It was so long and long and i love it!!! i love it so much

I don't know how to log in on Ao3 so im writing this to you on Tumblr:) sorry for my long blabbering or if there are word mistakes ;)..

(S-so, so, so sorry for the late reply, aaaaaaaa- I-I was away from my computer yesterday @////@)

HOLY CR- *falls over* DTFHFDJHDGJFDJN!?!?!!? O///////O

C-comment about fic- LONG comment about fic- T-two in a row- What- What-!?!!?!?

I-I.....WHAT!?!!? *cough* O-OK- hhhhhhhhi!?!!?

U-uh.....I-I'm really really glad you enjoy my writing! L-like I said before, I'm trying my best to finish this thing, but I ask you to be patient with me, cuz I'm a perfectionist and I want these chapters to be as good as I can get them...! I especially don't wanna rush the ending....and NO, I'm not spoiling ANYTHING about the ending! I-I'm not taking your bait! You just gotta wait and see! X/////P

Trust me, a lotta chapter 9 made me, like....internally scream.....and I was also SUPER worried about posting that chapter cuz of it....Worried if I was going overboard with the *cough* indulgence, and if that'll make people uncomfy at all.....I-I know that it's X Reader and that kinda stuff is the FUN of X Reader, but I dunno, I was stressing out over if I should tone the steamy stuff down- ESPECIALLY the bathroom scene, a-and what happens in that part...S-so to hear that that was the scene that effected you so strongly makes me feel relieved....like, yay, it did its job.....? X/////D

A-and to answer your question, uh....no, that's not gonna happen in the fic, sorry. B-but if you wanna know how I'd write it if it did happen, it'd be this: She would LITERALLY take pride in that. X/////D Like....she would just keep going. She does NOT care who listens. Everyone around her worships her and wouldn't dare do anything to oppose her, so why stop? She knows they're not gonna interrupt her. Heck, she's probably AIMING to be heard, since she encourages the reader to be as loud as they can be while she's taking them. The more noise, the better...It's something that f-feeds her ego, heh......>///////> I-if they're just walking past without being noticed, on the other hand, then nothing's gonna come of that either....(I-I'm thinking way too hard about a hypothetical scenario IT'S NOT HAPPENING OK THIS WAS JUST FOR FUN BFBHNFSHF >//////<)

Th-thanks so much again! I-I don't mind the rambling! I'm a rambler myself, and hearing people talk about specific parts they like is my favorite thing, trust me! ^//////^ O-oh, and thanks for checking out my other stuff, too! (I'm still very attached to Naivete, it's my baby haha) As for the comment about....w-wanting more popularity for me....uh....th-thanks, but I'm not sure how I'd deal with being popular....I-I'd rather not shove my writing in people's faces.....Anyone who stumbles upon my stuff should only read it if they WANNA....(Also keep in mind that I'm an adult so I want only adults to read my work, and that kinda narrows my intended audience a bit ^^;)

I-I'm aiming to get the next chapter done either by the end of July or in early August, so.....i-if I go over, feel free to yell at me, I guess....? H-happy to provide food for you, fellow simp......!

[mariailoveyou-guerin]

Lmao I’m just saying the season with JJPOPE gayness neck kiss happen has 86% critic score and the jiara kiss szn has 20% like if that don’t tell y’all what u need to knw Idk what will! the people want Gay JJ lesbian Kie Bi sarah pope cleo, not everyone aka the fans who ship jiara saying it’s bc of big john to take the heat away from themselves bc they know this happened on the szn that forced fan service ship happened like sure big john too but not alone when it was mostly him and jiara forced fanservice that’s reason behind the shit score bc we’ve had hag yt man be in a lot of ep take screen like rafe/ward s2 it still did way way way better! so y’all putting to much undeserved blame on big john when he was only wrong for 50% of it! what s2 had pope screen time aka pope szn, jjpope kiss on the neck Cleo showing up + the two 5m popecleo scenes! vs what s3 didnt have no pope, cleo jjpope gayness popecleo storyline screentime + canon/to much jiara!

see how the POPE HEYWARD season is highest I wonder why that is? what have we learned from this?people love pope, cleo want canon jjpope if they dont give them scenes together, any storyline or screentime to the fan favorite characters ship they’ll get a horrible mocking reviews hope they dont make same mistake

me JD (knowing his the face of best obx szn )jjpope shippers pope fans going to sleep knowing the pope szn with jjpope kiss has 86% criticscore!meanwhile the jiara one is being mocked clowned the punishing bag for obx fandom but also every teen drama show fans!

JD knowing he was the face of the best season of OBX JONATHAN DAVISS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS AND THE FACE OF OBX BEST SEASON!

[zombiesun]

Haunted Doll Baby Boppy (Genuinely Haunted).

The first thing I came to realize is that baby boppy, while she is a girl doll, the spirit inside her is a man! Lol. I call the doll boppy because sometimes when I'm in another room it sounds like the dop is standing up and plopping down making a "bop" sound. But make no mistake it's definately a masculine spirit. The doll itself is very old, very broke down.

The spirit in this doll has referred to themselves as "Hal". Says he is an older man between 50 and 60 years old, and that he had one daughter and was married. He has lied about other things but has been pretty consistent about this.

The physical condition of the doll is not great, but was found in the woods near my aunts house. My kids play in those woods all the time and the doll simply appeared one day. This spirit will speak over the spirit box, and while I wouldn't say he's a "bad" spirit, he likes to see people worried and afraid. He seems to know the names of the people in my house, and likes to say things such as "(put a name here) has cancer! He/she doesn't have long!" And other things to have u scared. For instance one time my husband took my kids with him to the store and Hal began saying "Your family, car accident, dying, hurry!!" And just repeating things like "hurry, there's no time!!" Until I found out they were fine and in no way in any accident.

So he likes to lie. But other than that he doesn't cause much trouble. He can light a cat ball when he wants and isn't very respectful. But I dont think he would actually cause anyone harm. He just talks alot of $#*t!

Hal doesn't do the footsteps or banging on walls, but when he decides to let you know he is there he absolutely does. When he wants to talk sometimes he will light his cat ball just once to let u know he wants you to turn on the spirit box. He doesn't do anything on command. So all in all I would say Hal is kind of just likes having some control in little ways and is stubborn. When you call him out on lying he may cuss at you. Lol.

I have cleaned the vessel up as best as I could but I will admit she isn't in the greatest shape so she is fragile.

Having Hal around is like having a Grumpy old man around who doesn't really mean any harm, he just likes to do things for the attention I think.

If you are interested in Hal, he's all yours!

[mcc1334]

Just talking into the void at this point 😅 Anyone, if you see and want to talk, cool, but also feel free to ignore this post, I just need to vent a little.

To no one person in particular... sometimes 8 just cant stand people. I have had my project car for a little over a year and a half now, got it like May 2022. I was told by everyone that they coukd and would help me get it on the road, otherwise I would never have touched something so outside of my ability. Fast forward to now, Ocotber 2023. I have gotten about 2 things done to the car out of the probably like 50 things that need to be done before it is on the road again. About 3 weeks ago I finally got a confirmed "everyone is out" basically so here I am, no help, and an unfinished car. No problem, its all on me, fine. Then its time for everyone to PISS OFF. No advice, no suggestions, no 2 cents, you all had your chance, so get out of the fuckin' way.

I call around, talk to a few shops, find one I feel comfy with that has a guy over 50 who knows about older cars. Not some young 22 year old saying "I can look at your 1967 car!" 🙄 No junior, I am good, I will go with the mechanic who used to work on these when they started in the industry. Tenatively set up an appointment to drop off the car and have them give it a once over and tell me what it will take to be DRIVEABLE. I wanted to take the week and think about a few things and make a list of the issues I knew of with the car before saying a final "yes" to getting it looked at. (There is a post buried on my blog with a little more info on the car if curious. It does have some tags like 1967 dodge etc, I think?)

Anywho, here is where I make my mistake. I start to mention on Monday and Tuesday, in passing, to 2 of the people (the ones who were supposed to help me) about finally making progress with the car and bringing it to a shop. Friday I called and confirmed the appointment, hammer dropped. Car will go there, Tag, you are it, tell me what I need to get it running when I drop it off. Hand clap, I am done. Ahhh, bliss... Now, all weekend, everyone is texting me again offering advice (something I asked for and was basically given 🤷‍♂️ as the answer from everyone before they bowed out) and telling me what shop to bring it to, or "let me call so and so and see if they have any ideas" or "you really should do this BEFORE you get the car running as it could damage the engine if not" 😑😶 . . . Like what the F U C K. SERIOUSLY? 😶 Now, now, NOW is when everyone crawls out of the wood work and wants to second guess things that I had discussed, in detail with them, for them only now to say there is a possible problem with the order of things I was trying to get the work done in?? 😵‍💫🤯🥴 I was basically seething when the last person I clearly told "dont call anyone, I am all set, I do not need to owe anyone any favors or anything. I am good. Dont worry about it" That donkey told me today "oh, I reached out to that guy who doesnt do this any more, that you told me to leave alone, and I told him you asked me to reach out to him to see if he would be interested in helping." Literally do the thing he always tells eveyone he doesnt do anymore cuz it is a pain and he doesnt want to? Wow, thanks... after I told you NOT to? Sweet...

So, yeah, kinda bullshit at everyone who told me they were done with helping but now has all kinds of advice and shit. Piss off, donkeys, I really cant wait to have this beast on the road and just drive by knowing the only thing they all did was slow me down from driving her sooner. And to smash the gas and light up the tires while they sit their with their kids in the family minivans. 🖕🏻

Ok, I am doing ranting into the void. At least for this matter.

Again, not really looking for nor expecting comments or whatever. Just needed to vent

[pwblogarchive]

November 2006

11/03/06 Q&A

question

Dear Pete, If you created your own scent (like a cologne, body spray, perfume, etc.) what would it smell like? Love, Me [please] P.S. Please do not do ACTUALLY make your own scent. Unless it smells really good and is garunteed to get me love.

answer

the floor of the fireside bowl, summer, hemingway after he gets a bath blahblah

question

Pete whats your natural hair color?

answer

brown. like a healthy bowel movement.

question

Nice outfit on the heidi klum halloween party, aaaww the hair!

answer

if joe refuses to rock that look i will.

question

What do you want people to say about you 50 years from now?

answer

“wow, this is a nice headstone to sit on”.

question

your eyes shine bright like the headlights of one million speeding cars.

answer

im obsessed with crashing into you.

question

Pete Pete Pete whare have you been have you gone to find a life out side the internet task task task

answer

alternating between finishing our record and dying of boredom.

question

On The Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack Reissue did you guys get to choose what song you played or did they choose it for you? If you got to choose it why did you choose Whats This?

answer

we chose it. it is patrick and i’s favorite song from the movie. it is amazing. like when i watch hemingway see something for the first time- its an awakening. jack has never seen christmas before- its what goes on in his mind as it unwraps. i love it.

question

i love to hate you, does that make me a bad person?

answer

nah. but hating me is pretty 06, youve only got couple months left- then it will be like vintage hate, which could be kinda stylish i guess.

question

uhmmmm….how long do you wanna live?

answer

sometimes im over it, sometimes i wanna live forever.

question

peter, you wont ever know who this is but i miss youre more than anything right now. im starting to lose faith in the band. when will you be traveling the states?

answer

we have something really special planned for you. dont lose faith. expect to see some things beginning to happen this winter. pay close attention.

question

pete, i know so much about you i could probably write an autobiography on your life. half the things i found out by accident. do you think its creepy how much people know about you?

answer

most of the things people say or write arent true or are half true. so thats kind of frustrating. but who cares? i just keep breathing and its all ok.

question

How do you feel about Ricky (ZEZEtheX) leaving the boards?

answer

im a fan of ricky. kind of a bummer. but it seems like everyone ends up back at some point. its irresistible.

question

would u ever hate a fan?

answer

i guess i could hate anyone for the right reasons. but i am a pretty forgiving person because i make alot of mistakes myself….

November 4, 2006

“record is almost done.”

i am running out the door to hear a final song.

for those of you who dressed up, bonnie posted your pictures over at www.friendsorenemies.com

there will be a winner for best boy costume and best girl costume.

"late for a very important date"

xo

November 4, 2006

“high heals (mr. E and ms. fortune)”

cue the dream sequence.get the feeling of feeling.you make me feel pins and needles like a leg that has been asleep.we have signs on our backs that read: save me.i am in love with the rescuers.you see that heart, i will gut it like a fish.talk some sense into me.i dare you.daydream ships and sleepy summer bombers feign softness when she calls.i will make the hair on your neck stand on end.i will make you sing out in the night.

11/04/06 Q&A

question

PETE! I dont know what to do. And because you are awesome at given advice I turn to you. Theres this guy I like and he says that he wants to sleep with me before we go out. But then when i asked why we couldnt just go out he said because we had to sleep together first. Do you think he is using me? What should I do?

answer

id say probably no. i forget what its from but… whoever buys the icecream after they get the free taste? noone.

question

How did you become interested in music?

answer

oldies in my dads car then thriller then appetite for destruction then dookie then minor threat.

question

Dear Pete, In my english class were reading Farenheit 491. Its set in the future, and in the story all the books are being burnt because the public wants things that are fast, visual, and easy. They dont want to be minorities. I was thinking, and I got really worried. My generation is becoming just like that book. I dont think I can stand to see another myspace that says “reding iz gay” in the Books section. Im so frustrated. why do people have to be stupid? The point of all this: Can you reccommend to me a genious from my generation, an author, poet, or band, someone that gives you faith in the human race and makes you sure that were not all getting stupider? Youre one of course, but id really like to know of more. Thanks for this and the words and tell the boys thanks for the music Love, Brook

answer

i guess im not sure generationally, writers i like: bukowski, hemingway, miller, celine, olds- someone from our time that i love is a friend of my named wes. not sure where you could read his stuff. ill find out and put it on our site. there are plenty of other gems out there you just have to dig.

question

Pete, I find myself not really liking Fall Out Boy anymore. It is not that you guys suck or anything, its just your “untouchable”. By that i mean your my fave band, and i know i will never in a million years ever have a chance to meet you and that sucks so bad. I find myself really starting to like local bands tons more cuz i can actually communicate with them. Am i a horrible person for thinking this?

answer

not at all. i appreciate your honestu. hopefully out our new record and tours will win you back- especially with some smaller shows. we have come up with a few plans to be able to interact with fans on a smaller level coming up- i know how it goes. i have been there and it hurts. at the same time- weve never done this before so we arent even sure what we are doing… besides, i love hearing people say that they love local bands! that is how our band began- i cant wait to get back and play some smaller shows. pleas ebe sure to come over at say hey if you make it to one!

question

if i was to bake you cookies…and i “accidently” dropped a few hairs in there and you ate it and i told you late once you finished telling me that yu were crapping hairballs…what would you do?

answer

i only eat my moms cookies cause i am addicted to them. but i would probably throw up would be my guess.

question

Pete! My dog died yesterday of cancer. Has this ever happened to you? If so, how did you deal?

answer

i think i would freak out. id probably try to remember the best times and maybe look at pictures. i think after a bit id get a new dog because there are so many out there that need new homes and new buddies to take care of them.

question

hey petery, me and my friends are lossing faith in our band, singer is going crazy, guitarist isiacting starge, and rythym(me) im going down. how did ur band stay together

answer

friends stick together.

November 6, 2006

“forgive me for all the times i messed with your pretty head”

actually dont.it doesnt really matter either way.it all turns out the same.alphamale. omegalove.every dog has its day and all.but i think we slept through ours.....theres no sucess quite like failure. trust me. i can be a character witness.dodging bars that noone can find and noone can get into. it becomes a parody of itself.i love borat for bringing the mustache back before mike cardin could.but the prestige makes me want to quit the band and move to the 1800's.id bring back walkmen with sweet yellow headphones and be like the king of the world.dont burn me out on borat by trying to do the accent: here's a hint- you dont do it very well.back to diary-ing....i mean, really, how many times do you need to check your voicemails to realize noone is calling.put me down or fix me- but more like a cat or dog...had a dream where i picked orange leaves from blonde hair in moonlight.and im left forever edning signals back to you in black night.gotta run these words are terribe at best, ill be b ack to clean up this mess. i need to go to sleep not to read more,.,. or maybe not.

November 7, 2006

“id love to decode this all. but i fear it woud only be another misstep in a series. so am gonna take a leap and hold my breath.”

boots high, keep our roots from every finding us.dear to our hearts are the yellows of the moon. it you waving a flag at me: its not quite white and its not quite surrender.but its got me curious.from under the floorboards i listen to hear if you got what it takes.i want to wake the entire hallway.sometimes cheek kiss goodbyes catch the corners of lips- and its just the secret of those two forever.going home tommorrow, which is today if i get to sleep.

November 12, 2006

you call me a bad tipper of the cradle.but im tired yawns for fawns on hunters lawns.we're the hasbeens of husbands- sharpening the knives of young wives.take two years and call me when youre better...take teardrops of mine, find yourself wetter.were so miserable and stunning,lovesongs so genuinely cunning.

- xo

November 12, 2006

i know everyone thought we took the messageboard away. but how could we take away such an enlightened place for intellectual conversation. and besides how would we know who andrew hurleys new "wife" without it.? we're sorry the site was down- but our friends over at absolutepunk.net have an exclusive sneak peek at a song from our new album.

so after you make fun of the rednecks in the borat movie and IM your lil buddy and say- "i totally love/hate _______ band cause of his new haircut/pants"- scope out our new song.

see you sooner than you think.

(edit: you know we love you. dont take us too seriously)...

November 14, 2006

he said "that song is my life", it may have been my best moment. so young.

this is only the greatest story ever told"i have lightning in my head"to be brought to the world.the 101 is an iv in my veins,blood rush up your driveway.noones ever gonna get us, noones ever gonna get us-everything inside me is only meant to break your hearts.november spawned a monster.

November 15, 2006

forgive me for all the times i messed with your pretty head

actually dont.

it doesnt really matter either way.

it all turns out the same.

alphamale. omegalove.

every dog has its day and all.

but i think we slept through ours...

theres no sucess quite like failure. trust me. i can be a character witness.

dodging bars that noone can find and noone can get into. it becomes a parody of itself.

i love borat for bringing the mustache back before mike cardin could.

but the prestige makes me want to pack it all up and move to the 1800's.

id bring back walkmen with sweet yellow headphones and be like the king of the world.

dont burn me out on borat by trying to do the accent: here's a hint- you dont do it very well.

back to diary-ing....

i mean, really, how many times do you need to check your voicemails to realize noone is calling.

put me down or fix me- but more like a cat or dog...

had a dream where i picked orange leaves from blonde hair in moonlight.

and im left forever edning signals back to you in black night.

gotta run these words are terribe at best, ill be back to clean up this mess. i need to go to sleep not to read more,.,. or maybe not.

Posted by xoat 1:23 AM

November 18, 2006

im just a painter drawing a blank.but i could learn to miss you. i could learn to pity fools- because i am the biggest one and i always feel sorry for myself. i could learn to read your mind but reading in the dark has wrecked my sight.

- xo

November 19, 2006

we are the carriers but you will always be the rescuers.

i feel in love with the world. this is out of character for me. the always whining, overdramatic player of the worlds smallest violin. but i truly love the world we have created- us and you. it is a refuge and i think we sometimes take that for granted. but i can tell you i wouldn't have this smile across my face if it wasnt for you. working on the new video- i think some of our old fans are really gonna like some of the subtle touches it will have. i know some of whats going on is a stretch. but come with- because this is the greatest story ever. thanks for letting us be a part of this. this is my rushmore.

November 24, 2006

so i guess being that we are in the fueledbyramen journal- i should write about some of the happenings of FBR/DECAYdance bands.On my way home to chicago for the holidays I was sitting on the airplane getting ready to fake sleep so i wouldnt have to speak to anyone and who walks on and sits next to me? Mike Cardin from the Academy. So i spent the next 5 hours hanging with him and the rest of the Academy boys on the flight home. completely accidentally. Their new record is sure to charm the pants off of you- total brain party.Got in and made my way to the Panic! at the disco show at the UIC pavillion. Needless to say i was floored by the show. there was a fucking circus on stage. Some good hangs and then made my way home. Had Brendon and Ryan over for Wentz family Thanksgiving and went and watched the new james bond movie.RIght now i am listening to new lifetime songs. they are completely mindblowing. This is the band that totally shaped Fall Out Boy and the sound of Take this to your grave.Over at Decaydance we are looking for some new bands. if you got what it takes- get some music in our hands.dont believe everything you read. the only people i have time to date are Hemingway and Infinity On High- otherwise its just NOT the truth.oh yeah and this was a dream come true: http://www.ew.com/ew/report/0,6115,1562674_4_0_,00.htmlhave a good long weekend. forget about your problems for a bit.

- xo

11/24/06 Q&A

question

petei only went to the patd concert[in chcago] cause i thought u were going to be there but it was fun. p.s. my brother zito says hi.

answer

i went and i think the show was pretty amazing. i hope you had a good time.

question

Pete- in realese the bats when dirty is drinking mud of the ground what city were you in beacuse it looked just like the Buffalo warped tour a few years ago. much love Abby

answer

montreal.

question

are there gonna be more dolls their out of pete and sndys already and that was gonna be my christmas present from my mom :(

answer

get her three joes and a patrick. total party all the time.

November 26, 2006

“everyone looks good in black and white pictures (only's).”

she only orders drinks without mixers.

two bites of 100 dollars plates at dinner,

desserts are always enough pills to get you full.

but when im sleeping next to her im not scared what will happen to me after i die.

they only pose questions like: what makes you tick?

we throw back whatever.

red herrings. dummy cars. whatever changes the subject.

im only in love with trainwrecks.

except tonight she is four redbull vodkas into the moment-

its the closest thing she can order to an 8ball at an open bar.

im always only half there.

coasting through questions and pictures- always half way inside the world in my head.

i only know that youll never know me.

November 27, 2006

so having returned from the movie "the fountain" i feel as though my life has been turned on it's head. like youve been thinking all of this time but the reserve light just came on and there are about 20 miles to empty. i hate running into people i used to know- who tell me "congratulations" or how they always knew whatever. i am terrible at small talk. i simply have not been designed to do it. i know about 3/4 of the time it is a completely genuine thought from them- but i dont know how to respond ever. i lower my eyes to the ground and fish for a thought that will take us far from this line of questioning. they say it as if this had all been a plan- like i couldnt be in the gutter 12 months from now just as easily- and be just as happy with the right friends and right loves and maybe some books. its so much more of a relief to hear someone make fun of this or me- to laugh and tear me down. i can brush it off easier. i dont have to make small talk. and when someone walks up who has been honestly changed or moved by the music and words- i dont even need to be told anything. you can see it in your eyes. i am left speechless, usually looking awkward for a second followed by a meager thank you. i think many fail to realize that i feel just as changed, moved, saved and real by the path of this band. i feel a part of this too. i count down the days until we tour again too. and finally- it is only on the stage when i feel at home. i hate looking at the setlist and seeing the songs running out. i hate days off. i hate breaks. i only look forward to making new albums because it means i will get to play more shows. i love walking into dusty rooms where you can feel the electricity of what will happen that night. or the condensation on the floor afterwards from what just transpired. you cant capture this in a photograph, song, movie, video or review. they all fall short. i love walking into the dark frigid air and seeing those few lifers hanging on the railing- and always do my best to make sure they get to at least exchange some words. i miss this so goddamned much right now.it feels like everyone is singing heartache. i dont want to be a disposable band. i dont want to be just a poster on the wall. i know everyone wants another "sugar" or "dance, dance" out of us. but i hope the new songs will truly help you take apart your despair or at least give you a place to hide out from it in. i hope it brings you some sense of peace or rest. or maybe that when you walk down the stairs into the basement of yourself that you can dust off old ideas of who you are and know that the clouds part from time to time.i know this is a bit much. this is what i wrote upon leaving the movie. i cant wait for you to hear the new songs. i cant wait to get back and play them for you- to sing them WITH you.thank you for making me try to become a better person. truly.so on this journal i want to try and include something from the label side of things. here's my little buddy brendon from Panic talking about how we used to make Man Soup/friendsthatbathetogetherstaytogether (though i believe nfg may have invented man stew a bit earlier, u sksinny jerks could only make soup): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Je1Tlgy8P_E&mode=related&search=

- xo

11/28/06 Q&A

question

Where did “Patrick Being Weird” come from? XO Syd

answer

its actually an audio sample that was supposed to be put at the end of takethisto your grave. a bunch of inside jokes- it has pete, patrick, joe and our friend sean talking on it.

question

Peter, I just wanted to say thank you to you and all the members of Fall Out Boy. I am not a 13 year old girl who simply likes you because you are cute or because it is the “cool” thing to do. I wish my life was that easy. I am lucky in many aspects of the life I have been granted. I am 25, married to a wonderful man, and have a daughter who means the world to me. For as long as I can remember, I have felt like I am here for a purpose, to change something/someone. I live in a small town in middle america and have always felt out of place. I have questioned every decision I have ever made, and never been content with the results. I have suffered from depression and sometimes wanted it all to end. The only time I have felt “at home” is when I am listening to music. I have always had a connection with music. When I was younger it was bands like Nirvana, The Cure and Green Day. Now I feel like I am connected to Fall Out Boy. I love your music. I can not listen to Take this to your grave enough time. I know this sounds wierd because I do not know you personally, but you have left a lasting impression on me and for this I thank you

answer

wow. thank you. Mindblowing.

question

chain reaction misses you.

answer

we miss the chain. just went and saw the hushsound there, the room felt exactly the same. it was awesome.

question

pete im getting tired of asking when will fall out boy come to australia??? i will keep asking untill you give me a serious answer

answer

this year: central and south america, canada, united states (hawaii), u.k., europe. australia, new zealand, japan, russia, dubai and possibly south africa- THATS WHAT WERE 

[elvesofnoldor]

me: *find dorian’s stance on slavery unbearable since the day i met this character, has comic ideas where my mage lavellan who romanced him called him out on his bullshit and is perpetually weary of dorian’s perspective on tevinter affairs since he doesn’t check his privilege enough and i want him to be better than this* 

someone: *uses dorian as the Bad Guy in their cute text posts about  hypothetical hostile relationships between him and some tevinter characters he has never met (namely f*nris and kr*m), and ofc their text posts are only about said tevinter characters’ character developments* 

me: *visions going red* *kill bill siren theme plays* 

[mokutone]

after seeing ur hiruzen/third hokage thoughts i was wondering what u think abt tsunade ?

thank you for the question! well as far as villains go she's—

no im just kidding. i know she's not a villain. of all the hokages, she's probably my favorite, but...i suppose that's not saying much, since i dislike literally every other hokage skdjghsdkjghdkgh (it's true i don't dislike kakashi or naruto. but i don't like that they become hokages)

i struggle a lot with her because she's one of the most compelling female characters in the show, but she's also written into a lot of sexist tropes.

mostly, when i think of her, i think of this quote from john berger's Ways of Seeing

“You painted a naked woman because you enjoyed looking at her, put a mirror in her hand and you called the painting “Vanity,” thus morally condemning the woman whose nakedness you had depicted for you own pleasure.”

obviously, tsunade is not naked, but she is a 50+ yr old woman, who is drawn to look like she's in her 20s because she's doing a henge to look youthful always. all of the characters make asides about this, condemning her for her vanity, and we the audience are meant to agree. she never gives a solid reason for wanting to look like she's in her 20s, so we're meant to assume that she values her own beauty over everything else, and is afraid of losing that beauty. i have a lot of trouble getting over this point when it comes to her.

there could be something really interesting and fucked up to explore about a woman who is unable to let go of the youth that, due to war and loss and trauma, she never got to live out! about hanging on to that impossibly because she doesn't know how to grieve or move past a loss like that—but. the fact that nothing in the series gives that visual choice any emotional weight aside from a punchline about the vanity of women mean's that's not what's happening. she's just "vain." lol.

the reason she looks like she's in her 20s is probably just because kishimoto didn't want to draw a middle aged woman. that sucks. i have a really hard time forgiving him for things like this.

but, ah, whatever. this is turning more into me talking about kishimoto than it is talking about tsunade.

I'm disappointed that we see more of lady chiyo working with sakura than we do lady tsunade. not that i didn't enjoy the fight vs sasori but. tsunade is sakura's shishō...why don't we get to see them together....that would be so entertaining...

her gambling addiction and tendency to lose are interesting too, but i feel like i want to see that influence her decision making? like, the choices we actually see her make for the most part, she seems like a very cautious and calculating person, somebody who stares at tempting problem for a long time before deciding it's not worth it to risk that.

why is she so different at a gambling table?

i think i want to see a little more dysfunction from her. she's maybe the most functional hokage konoha has ever seen. I think I would've liked to see her try and make really rash calls, and either learn from the mistakes, or have to rely on the people around her to help her NOT risk it all on an off chance they'd succeed. basically. i want her to have a bigger character arc about handling power than "no i dont want to!!!" —> "oh well this little blond guy convinced me. guess ill do it."

her having lost her family is a backstory. I don't really have much to say about it. It's fine, I guess.

her relationship with the other sannin...i dont know what to say. i think i've seen more fanworks of them interacting than actual interaction, so I don't want to speak on that, my opinion will be skewed.

I think it's fucked up that she's the best medical ninja in the world, but technically Yamato's self healing properties are probably on par, let alone Hashirama's. don't you think that's fucked up? like, that's the one title she's got to herself, and just.........ugh. whatever. sorry im ranting about kishimoto again.

i think a lot about her relationship with yamato. it seems, in canon, that she doesn't feel she has any duty or connection to him (and! rightly so. just because he's connected by her former squadmate to her grandfather doesn't technically mean she's in any way responsible for him)

BUT obviously. i personally think it would be interesting regardless, if she did. I think that her having tea or meals with him sometime and just connecting with him over this shared fucked up little attachment would be funny.

I'd like to see both of them (Yamato who never had any family) and Tsunade (who lost her family) try and forge a connection where there really doesn't have to be one. I think that would be sweet. Not necessarily a mother and son thing bc. well. Idk.

like tsunade seeing naruto as like her son, canonically, is kind of sweet, but it sucks that its like. you know. she has to be hot. she has to be a mom. and we can say she's a total trainwreck but we can't actually explore what that would look or feel like for her because she has to fulfill those rolls, and being a trainwreck is neither hotcoded, nor momcoded and also she can't be old. we're kishimoto and we hate women. blarg blarg blarg.

i don't knoooowwww. i struggle with her a lot. I wouldn't have this many problems with her if kishimoto was better at writing women, or if he wrote more of them and gave them more screentime so I didn't have to look at the few crumbs he offers as intensely as I do.

[misora-msby]

embarrassing moments with inarizaki

inarizaki always looks so cool but you know they’re actually dorks and i am here to provide you the content to show theyre clowns. enjoy the headcanons :)

Kita Shinsuke

firstly. kita shinsuke being embarrased? making a mistake? unheard of.

he’s a perfect man and we all know it.

anyways

you two were having a nice dinner out together. 

it was a pretty fancy place so you decided to dress in a different style today

but you were beginning to wonder if kita liked it or not because he seemed to keep looking past your shoulder instead of at you

he was an observant guy so you were wondering if something had happened behind you

but you couldn’t hear anything weird so you assumed not

you decided to just stay quiet about it at first but now it was beginning to become annoying! 

why wasn’t he looking you in the eye to speak?

midway through your dinner, kita finally spoke up tho

“y/n, your shirt is slipping... yer bra’s showing.”

oh.

right. you were wearing your off-shoulder top.

“o-oh. shin, it’s that kind of shirt, you know?” you had to explain your outfit to ur bf with a pink face.

“oh... that so... well it’s cold these days so if yer feelin’ cold lemme know. i’ll give ya my jacket.”

GOD HES SO PERFECT KITA SHINSUKE I HOPE U MARRY HIM???????

Ojiro Aran

another man with next to no flaws.

but nature says everyone has to make some mistake.

so it was a regular school day, our aran has just come to class from morning practice and there’s still some time left until class starts.

all the girls in class are gathered around a table

he’s not sure why, it’s probably watching an idol video

but ur man wants to be a little romantic!!

plus he just showered so he smells Great uwu

he goes over and hugs you from behind, placing his chin on ur head.

“hey, bb whatcha ya doin”

all the girls gasp.

he doesn’t get whats wrong, it’s not like it’s a secret y’all are dating

pda to this level aint bad either

especially compared to his teammate miya atsumu

“ojiro aran.”

why is your voice behind him

he looks down and nearly faints when he sees he hugged the wrong girl.

to be fair she looked a lot like you from behind, just maybe 1cm shorter.

“i’m so sorry!” he keeps apologising to literally everyone and all the class is giggling bc they never seen their school’s ace so red before.

“didn’t think i’d come back from the toilet and see my bf cheatin”

“IT WAS A MISTAKE! I’M SERIOUS! Y/N U KNOW I LOVE YA!” 

hes so funny i swear

the volleyball team hears of it and it gets even better 

Miya Atsumu

it’s not a secret that miya atsumu, setter of the inarizaki volleyball team and invited to national youth training camp, had a gf

he was very much in love with u 

the whole class knew it because he’d show it off whenever he could too

so here comes valentines day

last year he received like... 50 different gifts from girls and guys aiming to win his love.

you didnt even give him one lmAOOOOO 

but this year, he had been not so subtly trying to hint that “i better not receive any chocolates this year when i’ve got a gf!”

he reaches school and plops into his seat.

there’s an anonymous box of chocolates with “please accept my love, miya-kun! <3″ on it

“the hell’s this?!”

“oh? chocolates?” - osamu who just popped his head into the class to shove into his twin’s face how much chocolate he got.

especially since the blond was off limits, the grey-haired twin had a bigger following now.

“do they not know i have a girlfriend...”

“well, ya might as well eat it. ya dont know who to return it to.”

“that’s like receivin’ their love!”

“no it ain’t. it’s just food.”

atsumu couldn’t argue with that and popped a piece in.

it was very delicious. the chocolate practically melted on his tongue and was the perfect sweetness and was filled with a delicious ganache too.

it was perfect

but he couldn’t accept this!

“it ain’t even good. too sweet and the filling’s sticky.”

“ah. really? is that what you think, tsumu?” you ask from the door where you had been watching the exchange take place.

“y/n! look at this! some weirdo gave me some choco and like... samu said to test it but i’ll toss it out, promise.”

“tsumu, i made that... i wrote it anonymously because i thought you’d know it was me and i wanted to tease you a little.”

“huh.”

osamu: “yeah actually i went over to her place to teach her how to make it.”

atsumu: “you said you went to suna’s place?!”

osamu: “i went there later but i first went to help her.”

you: “anyways if it’s not good i don’t mind if you toss it out...”

tsumu: “NO NO BABE I PROMISE IT’S GOOD”

you: “you just said-”

“BABE I SWEAR IT’S GOOD I JUST DIDN’T WANT TO ACCEPT A STRANGER’S STUFF”

“you’re always so honest though... are you sure?” you were having your fun teasing him now.

“BB PLSSSSSS”

he still cringes at the memory 4 years into ur marriage

Miya Osamu

osamu would DEFINITELY make home made dinner dates a regular thing.

this alone shows he’s the better twin - miya atsumu stan

he loves cooking and eating with you so sometimes when he’s got a day off you guys’ll set aside the afternoon to make a real nice dinner

imagine candlelit dinner with miya dorito body osamu in a suit

of course some fun stuff happens after too ;)))

and today’s your third anniversary!!

so osamu adds lots of ‘natural aphrodisiacs’ to the meal

i’m talkin

garlic bread and soup for an appetiser, a nice juicy steak with garlic and red wine sauce for the main, and chocolate coated strawberries for dessert

mm yummy

you two cleaned your plates completely (it was very delicious) and as you were washing the dishes, osamu comes up behind and wraps his arms around your waist

“yes, ‘samu?” 

“i’ve already prepared us a nice bath with yer favourite scents.” he’s got his head resting on ur chin

“really? thank you~ i’ll be there in a bit”

but he doesn’t let go of you while you’re still scrubbing at the baking sheets.

“osamu, you can let go for now.”

“don’t feel like it.”

“i gotta wash the dishes since you did most of the cooking.”

“mmm, i’ll do it if ya gimme a kiss.”

you roll ur eyes bc what a cutie 

u turn ur head to give him a kiss but suddenly he 

he burps

that garlicy wine smell is just kinda there

“ew! ‘samu!!”

his face is real red but he’s also trying not to laugh because he’s still a dude and this is absolutely hilarious to him

“want another?” he starts teasing

“i’m not getting in the bath with you.”

“wait wait wait i’m sorry, i’ll go brush my teeth and give you a proper kiss”

Suna Rintarou

you two were taking the train home today

it was quite late due to practice going a little longer than usual, so he insisted he walked you back home today.

sunarin can be a good boyf sometimes ok

it was getting a little crowded on the train tho, since people were heading home or going out for dinner

luckily you had already grabbed seats so you were quite comfortable sitting side by side. 

you and suna have the type of relationship were you dont have to talk all the time

silence is v comfy.

he’s just scrolling through twitter on his phone while you’re looking around the car, lost in ur thoughts

suddenly you notice an old lady standing a little bit away from you and you stand up

“baa-san, please take my seat.” you whisper in the crowded carriage

“oh how kind of you. thank you, dearie.” she smiles and takes your seat while you stand in front of her and suna instead.

suna doesn’t realise this exchange has happened tho

(he’s on his phone as usual)

probably starting some fights on twitter

he decides to try to be a little romantic and pretends to stretch his arm around (who he thought was) you.

“rin.” 

why is your voice right in front of him?

“young man, i appreciate it but i’m married.”

suna jumps as he sees someone he did not recognise next to him.

he looks up and notices you had moved.

you’re giggling

the granny’s giggling

atsumu and osamu sitting opposite on the carriage look like they’re going to cry because they’re trying not to laugh

“i was just stretching. really.” he mumbles and crosses his arms, face red as a tomato

he’s so embarrassed.

Ginjima Hitoshi

sometimes the inarizaki vbc would go for an after practice snack at the nearby family mart

they were really hungry after an intense preparation for nationals which was in two weeks so kita insisted they all get something to fill them up on the way home

but lucky lucky ginjima hhehe

you (his classmate who he had a crush on) were working at the cash register today.

“welcome!” you greet everyone as they enter

he cant help but stiffen up a bit 

why are u so cute and cheery today

the 2nd years already know what to do.

“heyy, i think last week i bought ya that ramen right? ya owe me my konbini snacks today!” - atsumu

“yeah. you lost a bet to me last week so u gotta pay up. a pack of jelly fruit sticks please.” - suna

“forgot my money today, mind payin’ for my snacks too?” - osamu

“like hell i’m paying for all of you. especially you, osamu. you eat too much all the time.” 

aran’s noticed what’s going on,

“hey, if it’s just for today you can do it right? if ‘samu don’t pay ya back tomorrow i’ll nag him ‘til he does.” 

“fine...” his basket is full when he goes to the counter.

he’s trying his best not to have a red face while watching u scan the items, ur hair swaying slightly as u look back and forth between the objects and the screen.

“alright. 4,890 yen please!” GOD he hated how expensive it was, that’s almost all his weekly allowance but bc it’s u and ur voice saying it it’s kinda ok

“mm, ok.” he still has his eyes on you while he takes out his wallet and puts it on the counter.

yes

his wallet, not the money

“...” “...”

“excuse me, sir. this is...”

he almost slaps his face wtf he’s so embarrassed.

“s-sorry. just a little absent minded after practice.” he starts pulling out his cash.

“it’s fine! i know how hard you guys practice!” you smile while performing the rest of the transaction and pass him his big bag of goods. “good luck for nationals, ginjima-kun!”

he almost runs out of the store and is about to fight the rest of the 2nd years for watching and (suna) recording