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secret--history Ā· 3 months ago
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the whole 'there are not very many Great Causes worth fighting for these days' from Julian scanned as WAY more out of touch than the moon landing thing for me the first time i read tsh
#like to the point of it being actively jarring when i got to him saying that#the secret history#'they landed on the moon??' well okay i guess it's not really their area#and they've been really out of touch with the news since it's also not really their area + they've been#off to the woods/a country house/etc and getting very drunk and killing deer and also people#i don't remember the exact dates re the moonlanding + the events of the book but like.#Sure. that's probably fair or at least kind of understandable#that could Feasably Happen On Accident at least#but julians like 'there isn't much worth fighting for these days' and um.#if you pay attention to literally anything happening in the world at any given moment at all. ever.#....what? literally what do you mean by this?#there have always been So So many Great Causes that people are dying for all the time constantly forever#and even if you've somehow managed to comoletely block out literally every piece of news/political development/etc#that's not really a reason to assume there Aren't. that's a reason to go like. well if there are any Great Causes left today then#I don't know about them. and even if we assume he's defining what makes a cause worth fighting for by classical values#and saying that that means for example that he wouldn't necessarily think of say the civil rights movement or liberatory movements etc#as fitting (which i think is also probably debatable- it comes to mind that the athenians valued (their own) freedom. political engagement#was valued but only the right kind from the right people. etc. what i'm saying is that#no i don't think they actually fit what julian would be thinking of as the classical mind's* idea of a great cause worth dying for#but also you could debate that/frame things differently/etc (*presumably there is a more particular subset of the population he has in mind#than just 'classical' or 'greek' in actuality. like. specifically those from whom we having writing/would have citizenship/etc.))#i'm certain there are plenty of arguments to be made. like plenty of people are fighting for various countries#it's not like wars or empires have stopped existing or other myriad conflicts have stopped existing#also in typing this i've realised he was maybe forshadowing henry's death#and now i need to go look up the exact quote and make another post i guess.#(also disclaimer that i'm aware i've phrased a lot of this clumsily. it is midnight these are the tags of a tumblr post and i am not sober.)#anyway to rephrase my initial point i just think with the moon landing thing that's One major event you missed.#if you're saying that there are No Great Causes Worth Fighting/Dying For (with the understanding that you think those are a thing#that can exist) then i think maybe you managed to skip out on hearing about significantly more#than just the one major event. that's much harder to manage i would think
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foxyaries Ā· 5 months ago
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My Shifting Story That Keeps Me Motivated To This Day
Well hello again! I think it is time I share my own "almost" success story. I know a lot of you might not be interested in reading about my ALMOST success. But trust me... the more I tink about my own story the more I realize how silly it was of me to procrastinate actually doing it for so long. It's almost funny. But let's get into it, shall we?
As I have already mentioned it in my previous posts (please do read them if you haven't already to fill in any blanks that you may or may not have). I have been at a very dark place at that time. And I didn't wanna live the way that I had for as long as I could remember, because I simply wasn't happy.. with my life or my family. And I felt like I was a good kid. And I was! So when I discovered the subliminal world.. I saw it as my escape and a way to finally become happy. And that's when the subliminal "Wake up in your desired family" came into picture.
Like I mentioned before, there were only a couple success stories under that subliminal, but at that time our community was even smaller compared to what it is now. And those 10 - 14k views was more than enough for me to believe that it was a real deal. It's a bit funny to think about it now because these days we tend to pick subliminals that has thousands and thousands and thousands of views? Am I right? :) That's how we decide whether the subliminal works or not.
Anyways.. back to my storytime. I have already mentioned in another post of mine that those success stories that I did see all said the same thing. That for them to start feeling the results it took them a couple months. And if you remember as well as I do. Back then everyone set a limiting belief that for a subliminal message to start working you need to listen to it for at least 21 days. Even tho that wasn't true, I didn't know much about shifting so I believed it. And I also wasn't desperate enough, so since the stories told me it took THEM 1 - 2 months, I figured it'd take me the exact amount of time. And I thought it was nothing compared to the future I was gonna have.
So all that I did for those couple months was listen to that subliminal at least 1 hour a day and sometimes if I could overnight with the idea that I could wake up in my desired family any given moment. Pay attention to that. I didn't set a deadline or put pressure on myself for doing anything wrong. I just listened and knew it was going to happen. When exactly? No idea. How exactly? Not a clue, but I didn't care. Because knowing less was actually more of a blessing than I thought. I had no limiting beliefs. All it did was awaken my inner child and that whole journey felt magical to me and I really looked foward to my results.
Probably a month passed by when I started getting tired around the same time, every single day so I'd take naps. At a time a half an hour nap was more than enough to make me feel rested and I'd get in the state of being awake yet asleep at the same time. You know what I am talking about. The state during which it feels like you are in and out of sleep. When the sounds feel like they are far far away and then they dissapear. It almost sounds like I was close to tapping in the void state, no? :)
So whenever I'd feel tired I'd just have one earbud in my ear and lay in whatever comfortable position I wanted to lay in. It usually was on my side. And I had no intention to shift because I KNEW it was gonna happen either way. So I'd lay down and just have myself doze off listening to my playlist (I had a couple boosters too but then I'd just loop the main subliminal). And then I started feeling unusual sensations and feelings I have never felt before. All I did was just lay there and day dream about how I was gonna wake up in my desired room and I tried imagining it in detail. How I was gonna walk out of my room and see my best friends that I was going to shift there with. And literally all I did was just loop that scene because it made me happy :')
I keep rambling haha I'm sorry. Back to what happened. I was probably a month in when I started to get tired and naking naps around the same time and suddenly my naps were different? I would just mind my own business, think about my future when suddenly I would feel this insanely strong sensation that I was being lifted off of my bed and that my body was turning and flying somewhere?? But because I didn't know exactly what it was it'd freak me out and my body would flinch. That's when I'd recover the feeling of my body back and it felt like I'd literally fall back into my bed. And I mean LITERALLY get slammed back into my body. And this wasn't a one time thing. Same thing kept happening every single day for like 2 weeks (until I got insecure and shifted my focus somehwere else as I've mentioned in another post). What's funny is that I didn't even realize what was happening. I was just like "Oh? That's a new feeling" I was just curious and wanted for it to keep happening so I could understand it better. I only realized what it was when it stopped happening all together and for that I blame myself.
But you know what? It's okay. I've learnt so much since then. And it's insane how all I did every day was look for other success stories to convince myself that this was real. When I had my own very real success story. I KNOW all fo this is real because I experienced it. And I am done looking for a confirmation from other people. I know the truth and that's enough. And you should too. You don't need any of these methods. All you need is to do whatever makes you feel comfortable and happy and that you know works for YOU. Cause what actually matters is that YOU KNOW is gonna work for you. That's all that ANY of us really need.
I know this is a lot, but if you actually read this I hope it helped and made you realize something... anything really. Be your own success story and make your dreams come true.
I believe soon you will hear about my own final success story:) Goodbye for now. Next post will be more about my fairy companion. Do look forward to that!
Much love,
Foxy ā™”šŸ¦Š
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luverofralts Ā· 2 months ago
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Arkhelios Adventures
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"Dad? Dad, are you home?"
Luke Lane turned to the next page in the paper as he heard his front door knob turn, and his child, Lukas burst through the door. The news was dull as of late, but Luke had his schedule to keep. Each day, he would read the paper, have a cup of coffee, and then meditate until his partner, Alex, came home. Some people thought he was dull and exceedingly boring, especially with the life he'd lived, but Luke cherished the serenity in his life and the peace that came with his schedule. It was always nice when his children dropped by to see him either way, especially Lukas. Lukas' visits had become rarer now that they were raising living teenagers and actually doing their job as required. It was hard to schedule visits when his child was a deity, charged with protecting the living realm.
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"Dad! Dad, something crazy is happening! I'm stuck in my second incarnation, and something bad is happening to Izanami, and there's these ghosts that-"
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Luke nodded, while still flipping through the paper. Lukas was a lot like their father, Linus, and over the years, Luke had learned to tune out Linus' paranoid, excitable ramblings. The less attention he gave his ex-husband, the more Linus would calm down and be reasonable. As much as he would have loved to raise Lukas from birth, that hadn't been an option, given that Lukas had been created as a fully formed adult deity from a fetus that Linus had never told him about. It was remarkable how similar Lukas and Linus were, despite neither him or Linus knowing that they had a deity child until their deaths. Luke had loved Lukas from the moment they met, and had loved seeing the same brightness in them that shone in Linus, but the Reeves side of the family was often difficult to manage, and Izanami would often trade knowing looks with Luke when chaos developed at the dinner table or the living room, or just about anywhere else in the afterlife. It was fairly common for Lukas to burst into his home, usually accompanied with their half-brother Reese, only to run out again with a bottle of wine from Luke's wine rack and a jumbled goodbye. Lukas was the perfect embodiment of Life: eager, hopeful, and more than a little bit wild and their father loved them for it. Luke had hoped that Lukas would have outgrown the amount of petty theft attributed to them over the centuries, but after nearly losing Lukas like they lost Riley, there was nothing that couldn't be forgiven. Having the twins and finally marrying Izanami after literal millennia of pining had calmed Lukas somewhat, but there was always the unpredictability of Life gleaming in their eye.
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"So Reese is going to go look for Adam Darktide for me since it's so hard to find anyone in this damn place and it should be nothing for a reaper to track him down. I've never really dealt with ghosts before, have you? Most of the time, the reapers take care of them before I even know that they're there. Do you really think that the dead could be returning in earnest to the living world? Have you ever seen anything like this before?"
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"Hard to say, kiddo. Lots of dead things can infiltrate the living world. Just look at vampires or zombies or even ghosts."
Lukas stopped speaking to glower at their father.
"Dad, you're not even paying attention. I've been talking about ghosts here," they complained. "Tell me one thing I've said since I got here. God, you do this all the time. What's so important that you can only find in a newspaper? Just use your phone, the reapers have a constant news stream about afterlife events that's been around for centuries now. You're living in the past."
"The past is a good place to live," Luke replied casually. "How else would I keep up with your exploits without the newspaper? You seem to be in this a lot these days."
Lukas frowned, but it came across as a pout. Any time they got tired of teens staring at them like they belonged in a museum, all they needed to do was talk to their father and they would instantly feel about twelve years old.
"I'm kind of a god, Dad. People are interested in what I do with my god husband in the realms they live in. I'm kind of a big deal, it's only natural that they write about me."
"And the repeated theft of expensive royal jewelry? That's part of being a deity too?"
"Well, no, but-"
"Sit down and have a coffee with me, kid. We'll talk about what's happening in your life, and you could maybe even ask about mine. It's been too long since you last stopped by."
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'Did you want a coffee too? I have the hazelnut blend you liked at Winterfest."
Lukas paused to consider this option.
"No, I don't have time, I think. I'm supposed to meet Izanami at home when he's done talking to Anakin and there's no way those two can make conversation long enough for me to finish a coffee."
Luke poured himself a cup of coffee, but left enough in the pot just in case his child changed their mind.
"How is Izanami? You two are doing okay together?"
Lukas scoffed at the idea that they and Izanami could be anything but perfect for each other. Sure they'd been stupid when they were younger and it took the two of them far too long to find each other again, but going forward, Izanami wouldn't be anywhere but beside Lukas.
"Yeah, I'm not going to burn down the afterlife because he lied to me again, if that's what you're asking," Lukas replied sharply. "We're made for each other. Our love is destined to last for eternity."
Luke took a slow slip of his coffee, giving Lukas a wary look.
"I had a destined love too, you know," he reminded his child. "Your father and I were destined to love each other so that you could be created; you've told me that yourself. I loved that man with every fiber of my being, but relationships take work and patience to maintain, even if they are destined. I don't want you to follow in my footsteps and lose Izanami the way I lost your father. I can see how happy he makes you."
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"Dad! Izanami is nothing like Linus! He's kind and sensitive and he'd do anything within his power to make me happy. He would never tell our children that they're abominations that he couldn't even stand to look at. You don't have to worry about him being like Linus. He's a good husband now that he's learned to be more honest about his feelings and what he needs from me. I can't even imagine a better husband than him. He's everything to me."
Luke smiled earnestly. It was a joy to see Lukas so smitten with their husband. They'd spent many unhappy centuries without a genuine love for their partners and it filled Luke's heart with happiness to see his child content and at peace with their life.
"I'm glad to hear that. Were you saying earlier that something was wrong with him?"
Lukas filled their father in on the last few months of insanity, taking care to avoid how miserable they were with being stuck in their second incarnation partly due to the resemblance to him.
"That sounds like quite the predicament," Luke said at last. "Death being ill, you unable to shift incarnations, and ghosts all at once? That's a lot to deal with."
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"Does any of it make sense to you?" Lukas asked hopefully. "Do you know how ghosts are escaping the afterlife? Have you heard anything about demonic plans in this realm?"
"No, I stay out of all that nonsense," Luke replied, avoiding direct eye contact with Lukas. "I know what you must think of me because of the past, but Alex and I lead a quiet existence. I've given up on ever recovering your sister, and since Linus disappeared, ninety percent of my problems have disappeared with him. The only thing I can think of regarding you and Izanami is that the Ocean is up to something. Only he would have that power. As Alex has explained to me with complicated research papers, only he has the ability to control deities and demigods. You answer only to him, so it makes sense that he's behind all this."
Lukas stared at the kitchen counter for what felt like an eternity, gathering the courage to ask their next question. It was something they needed to ask, but wasn't sure if they wanted to know.
"Dad? Do you think I'm stuck like this for another reason? Maybe demons again...or someone as powerful as my son? They weren't the Ocean, but they were able to hurt me before and...and I can't lose Izanami or our kids, or even worse, have to leave them when they need me the most. I think I'm stronger now, and I've learned so much in the past few decades about what I can do, but I-I'm afraid."
Luke's heart broke seeing his child suffer in any way. He knew that kid better than Lukas ever thought he did and he could see the panic and desperation in their eyes. He placed his coffee mug on the counter for a moment, staring kindly at his child.
"Lukas, I know you're terrified about losing control over your existence again, but I promise you, nothing like that will happen again. I know you're strong enough now to survive this test, and if you somehow aren't able to on your own, I'll be at your side in a heartbeat. I know this incarnation brings you pain, and truthfully, it does the same for me. I don't know if you're able to remember anything from that day, but I was the one who found you when your son...rendered you comatose. I found you in a pool of your own blood, lying on the floor of your office and I wanted to die myself. After losing you the first time, and then Riley, I wanted nothing more than to die with my children before I had to suffer for eternity without them. You looked so much like me that incarnation, staring at your broken, comatose body was like staring in a mirror back when I was alive during the war. You were my mirror image in a way I'd never wanted you to be. I wanted you to be happy and safe, not trapped in a perpetual cycle of violence and danger. It's okay to be uncomfortable with being forced into reliving your second incarnation and you need to give yourself permission to feel that way. A lot of very bad things happened to you during that part of your life. It's okay to have complicated feelings about being forced to confront the past."
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Luke picked up his mug again quickly, before Lukas could respond to his heartfelt statement. He was a Lane after all. His own mother hadn't been emotionally honest with him in centuries, and his twin brother had been a lost cause even when they were alive.
"Thanks, Dad," Lukas murmured quietly, equally uncomfortable about expressing familial feelings.
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"Luke? I'm home. Destiny and I have been working on a paper on the theoretical exchange of energy when a soul is reaped by a reaper and the implications of that on field work. It's probably going to take us more than a week just to study our volunteer reapers, so I'll be home late tomorrow and probably the day after."
Luke's partner, Alex Alocasia appeared in the door, waving cheerfully as he entered the house. Both Luke and Lukas looked up excitedly, glad to have a distraction from their talk.
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"Alex! I'm so glad you're home! Lukas decided to stop by and they have some questions that you may be able to answer. Theoretical, existential questions that I don't have the training to answer."
"Gladly," Alex replied cheerfully. "It's nice to see you again, Lukas. What are you currently researching? Something related to your master's thesis on the abilities and duties of the Life deity? That was an excellent read."
Lukas blushed at the compliment. They'd written their master's thesis while learning as much as they could about themselves and what their purpose was and their step-mother Destiny had helped edit it for them. Destiny was the wife of Linus, though she had moved on from him after he had disappeared after breaking Lukas' heart. Lukas honestly preferred her over their biological father, enough that they had named their daughter after her. Destiny was the only known child of an angel and had several doctorates in complicated fields, usually studying the inner workings of the universe. She was the one who had introduced Luke to Alex, and the three of them spent a lot of time together. Most days, she and Alex continued to work on their understanding of the universe by writing an endless stream of academic papers.
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"Okay, so this is all kind of a lot," Lukas began, pulling Alex to the side of the room. "First of all, I'm stuck looking like this. I can't change out of this incarnation."
Luke was just about to take another sip of his coffee, when there was another knock on the door.
"Who else is going to drop by unannounced?" he wondered aloud as he stood to open the door.
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"Dad! Great to see you! How have you been?"
Luke was suddenly swept into a hug from his son Hayden, Lukas' oldest brother. Hayden had been the product of a loveless relationship with a woman named Nicole, designed to hide his feelings for Lukas' father in a world that hadn't always been as accepting of same sex relationships. Obviously, the relationship hadn't lasted long, and Nicole ended up dying in the war that had decimated most of Luke's early life, taking the knowledge of their triplets with her. Luke had discovered that he had two sons and a daughter he'd never known about in the short period after one war had ended and before the next one started.
Lukas had been created without Luke's knowledge in the years before he had discovered Hayden and his siblings, and Lukas had confessed more than once to following Hayden around, especially when he was around their father. It was the nature of Lukas' job to watch the living, but they had had an obsession with following their parents and any of their half-siblings around, dreaming to be included in the family they'd never known. The Ocean had forbid Lukas from interfering with their living relatives while they lived, something that Izanami had confirmed made Lukas more obsessed with shadowing their family and dreaming of being a part of their lives. But it would have been disastrous to reveal themselves back then, just as it was still dangerous for Lukas to do now. The past had been less open minded, and exposing Lukas' star crossed same sex parents would have destroyed their standing in society, cutting them off from the battlefields that needed them. It would have devastated and complicated their parents' relationship with each other as Luke had never known about the pregnancy that the Ocean used to make his child. Lukas belonged with them, but they would always be an outsider in the family by their very nature, which drove an obsession in Lukas with the children Luke was allowed to know about in life.
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"Oh, this is a surprise," Luke said, watching to see if Lukas had noticed their half-brother's presence yet. "Your sibling is over here too, speaking with Alex. Please keep things civil. Please, Hayden. Lukas doesn't visit as often as you're able to."
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"So do you think you and Destiny will be able to help? Both of you know things I could never know about the universe."
Alex nodded thoughtfully.
"You know, if you read our published papers every year, you might come close to knowing more about the universe," he teased. "I send you a copy every Winterfest. But seriously, we'll do our best. I might have more questions for you later, though, so expect an email or two later on."
Some of the tension released from Lukas' shoulders, and they released a relieved sigh. For the first time, they felt like something tangible was happening to fix this situation. Their stepparents were competent, intelligent researchers, and they'd already discovered so many things about the inner working of the universe over the centuries. With Reese helping track down difficult to find souls and their stepparents researching what could possibly be happening to them, Lukas felt at least somewhat in control of the situation.
Just when they thought they could finally breathe, an all too familiar voice was complaining loudly behind them. Lukas would know that voice anywhere.
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"What the hell are you doing here, Hayden?" Lukas demanded, crossing their arms. "Shouldn't you be somewhere where you can pretend that me, Riley, Leander, and Katie Lee don't exist? This is my time with our father. You can come back when I'm gone, since it's not like you have anything important to do here or anything. Some of us are working on things critical to both the living realm and the afterlife."
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"I see Dad every Tuesday to catch up because I'm a good son," Hayden sneered. "If you're so important, then go fulfill your godly duties elsewhere. Some of us humans are trying be with their family."
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"You're both family!" Luke shouted, giving Alex an exasperated look. "You! Sit at the table! You sit beside him!"
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Lukas and Hayden took a seat as commanded but refused to look at each other.
"I didn't do anything wrong," Lukas huffed irritably. "I was here first, getting help to save lives and afterlives."
"Who cares about that? I'm older, and Dad's been a part of my life since my twenties. We have a better relationship because of that, plus I'm not related to Linus, so Dad doesn't have to be reminded of his sociopathic ex whenever he looks at me. You've always been jealous of me because you know it's true. I've seen your little disguises where you dye your hair red and pretend to be me, and it's sad. Don't worry so much about all your daddy issues since he's barely your dad. He's just the sperm donor to the Ocean's most useless deity."
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"Hayden! That's enough! I don't want to hear you talking to your sibling like that ever again. Lukas is my child, just as much as you are. I can't believe that two grown adults who are millennia old can act so childishly. Both of you apologize to each other. Now."
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Both half-siblings mumbled something under their breath that sounded somewhat like it could have been an apology. This was probably the best result Luke could hope for. He had no idea why his children were so competitive and immature. Lukas' full blooded siblings, Leander and Katie Lee, didn't seem fond of Hayden either, but Luke had never had to physically separate them from their half-brother. Lukas and Hayden were much closer in age and had come of age in a world far more violent than the current one. Luke reasoned that this might be the reason only Lukas and Hayden were so volatile, but over the many centuries, the world changed, while Luke's children did not.
Luke didn't know the solution to this dilemma. He couldn't ask just one of his children to leave while the other stayed, nor could he leave the two of them in the same room in case a brawl started. Both of them would cry favouritism at the sign of any kind of compromise, and the look on Alex's face told volumes about his intended plans for the night that didn't involve separating squabbling adult children.
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"That's it. Both of you need to leave before I call your husbands and tell them how childish you're being. You can schedule a lunch date with me sometime this week after you've had a chance to cool down. I love both of you and would live to visit with you together if you could promise me that there'd be peace, but I think we all know how likely that is. Hayden, come back tomorrow and bring Cadence. She hardly comes to visit her grandfather unless it's a holiday, and I know she's spent the past two centuries partying with the reapers at those clubs."
"Tomorrow's fine," Hayden replied, sneering at Lukas. "I'll be sure to bring my daughter, who loves her grandfather dearly. It's too bad that Lukas doesn't have any children here willing to spend time with them. I mean, you have all those bastard reaper kids who despise you that you could ask. Do you even remember any of their names? Though, if you're looking for children who are actually memorable, I suppose you killed him. I don't know, I always thought that Luke Jr was a chip off the old block, just like his father in all the important ways."
Hayden disappeared from his seat with a faint pop. Alex stood with his right hand extended, next to an enraged Lukas who looked ready to tackle Hayden to the ground had their brother remained.
"Neat little trick a reaper taught me, cataloged in 'Reapers and the Manipulation of the spirit.' It certainly comes in handy," Alex said, winking at Luke. "And for my next trick-"
With another pop, Lukas vanished from their seat, startling their father.
"That works on deities too?" Luke asked, astonished.
"Deities are simply piles of energy that burn brighter than us mortals. When everything around you is energy, it's not difficult to manipulate the energy around in ways even gods struggle to fight."
Luke beamed at his partner, thanking the Ocean and anyone else who might have played a part in him meeting this brilliant man.
"Well, the kids are gone for now," he replied, grabbing Alex's hand. "I'm sure at least one of them will be back tomorrow, listing off reasons why they hate each other. Now that we're alone, I can think of a better way to spend our time."
Alex returned Luke's passionate glance with one of his own.
"I couldn't agree more."
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radiovisual Ā· 11 months ago
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are you going to come back?
((I keep telling myself im going to, but im not sure. Im especially unhappy with how this blog was written and how it looks at the moment, bc theres a lot of things id Want to change before getting back into rp here, but I have no energy or motivation to do so šŸ˜” my art block from last year is Still ongoing, im still deeply fixated on other fandoms, and VERY recently I had an epiphany of some kind and haven't been able to stop paying attention to the news, bc anxieties about what's happening in Gaza/the West Bank, Sudan, and Chile, and not to mention this next American presidential election, have me reassessing my priorities in life, ykwim?))
((Im still around technically, i wont be deleting this blog or anything, im just in kind of a tough spot, mentally+emotionally+physically, and that makes it hard to get reinvested in something like this.))
((There's also the factor of... feeling rather restricted in this community. It's not any particular person or group of ppls fault, people are entitled to feel however they want around fictional subjects and themes, but i know that the types of things that i like to write and rp are dark and mature, and this fandom [despite the Nature of the show itself and the topics it covers] tends to attract a lot of very aggressive, very judgemental people -- as im sure youre all aware šŸ˜‚ i found some friends here, but even still, a lot of the time i know i Can't get into the kind of stuff i ACTUALLY want to write, because most of the ppl in this community would [at least, way back when,] assume that That kind of writing means I'm a bad, dangerous person who wants to engage with those themes in real life šŸ™ƒ. Which isn't to say anyone is Wrong for avoiding me if darker themes trigger them, by all means PLEASE block me for your sanity if thats what you have to do!! but when most all of those Exact Themes are LITERALLY, graphically present in the show, now, it's like. Idk man whats going on! Why are you here! if sexually abusive relationships bother these fans so much, then Why are they in THIS fandom of all places instead of somewhere tangibly Safer for their sanity, yk???))
(( i don't know. Maybe im just a brat, but ive always felt a little put out by the Hazbin community online. Its extremely self policing and isolating trying to find people i can feel comfortable talk to about my ideas, so ive kind of... given up and moved on, found a nice group of Freaks to be perverted about the Avatar sequel instead lmao))
((So... idk. I guess we'll see. But im very sorry it may have been wishful thinking when i said id come back. I really, truly meant it at the time -- things just changed šŸ’”, both in me And in the community. And maybe theyll change again, idk!but i Do know there's people in this overarching Hazbin Tumblr RP community who don't like me very much (which is Okay), and I don't want to force myself to walk on eggshells anymore -- so I'm won'tšŸ’ŖšŸ˜Ž))
((I adored my time here while i was active, whuch it why i wont delete it -- i go back to re read threads all the time! -- but unless there's a group of sexual weirdos developing that i could fall in with AND I can find a way to balance this with the rest of my life, im still gonna be on this indefinite hiatus šŸ’€šŸ‘ sorry))
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rebouks Ā· 8 months ago
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Wren: Robinnnnnnn, mom asked you to watch Ava for a minute. Robin: [tuts] Donā€™t drag her like that. Wren: Why not? She likes it. Robin: Until you drag her over a rock.
[Wren ignored Robin as she continued hauling a giggling Ava through the long grass]
Wren: Whyā€™re you here again?
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Levi: Why not? Wren: ā€˜Cause this isnā€™t your house. Byrd: Shut up, Wren-.. youā€™re being a meanie! Wren: You shut up!
[Wren scowled, muttering something under her breath]
Levi: What?
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Wren: I said youā€™re stupid! Levi: I bet youā€™re stupider. Wren: Not as stupid as Byrd. Byrd: Iā€™m not stupid! Wren: Are too! Robin: No oneā€™s stupid.
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Robin pulled Ava safely into his lap and listened to Wren and Byrd bickering, eventually turning their attention toward Levi, accosting him as ferociously as they would anyone else; his usual walls crumbling to dust as they wrestled amongst the clover. His friends might not have understood why he wanted to hang out with Levi, but Robin could sense that there was an entirely different boy hiding beneath his prickly, well-maintained faƧade.
The rustling birch trees and the dappled shadows beneath created a rare safe haven for Robinā€™s classmate, who in the absence of anyone to impress or mislead, finally smiled and enjoyed himself with a genuineness that Robin had never seen before.
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Straightening Avaā€™s little bow and holding her closely, Robin couldnā€™t help but think how awful it must be to be part of a family that never played or laughed together, a family that didnā€™t particularly enjoy your presence or show you much affection-.. if any. It wasnā€™t hard to imagine how strenuous itā€™d be, constantly pretending to be someone you werenā€™t.
He didnā€™t exactly want to spend every waking moment with his parents, nor his siblings, but Robin loved each one of them dearly and struggled to picture his world without them. It wasnā€™t expected or necessary given how supportive Oscar and Courtney usually were, but Robin took his role as an older brother quite seriously and enjoyed lightening their load by looking out for his brother and sisters; he felt a pang of sadness for Levi as he realised that on top of his absent parents, he couldnā€™t even rely on his own sister as a source of comfort or approval.
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Robin wondered what wouldā€™ve happened if he hadnā€™t heard Levi in time-.. what if heā€™d been that bit better at blocking everything out, what if heā€™d been distracted, what if he was too far away or hadnā€™t been there at all?
Heā€™d tried to convince his parents that he wasnā€™t interested in going because an elementary school disco sounded like the most boring event in existence, but theyā€™d assumed his reluctance had been due to anxiety and cajoled him into going anyway, for a little while at least. In the end, he supposed it was a good job they had.
If something had happened to Levi that night, he wouldā€™ve struggled to forgive himself, and the thought of anything terrible befalling anyone else at the hand of his apathy or purposeful ignorance filled him with dread.
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Although it could be difficult and tiring sometimes, he probably ought to pay more attention to his surroundings rather than ignoring everything, as heā€™d been partial to recently-.. just in case.
It was nice to have the option these days, but maybe Robin was never meant to suppress his gift completely, maybe heā€™d been given it for a reason. He had no idea why, how, or where it came from, but it wasnā€™t just a quirky annoyance anymore, itā€™d literally saved someoneā€™s life; it was clearly far too important to wilfully dismiss...
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starry-blue-echoes Ā· 2 years ago
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WELL āœØāœØāœØāœØāœØāœØ
if you go to the very start of his journey, it sorta starts similarly to how Jonathan's began in the sens of there's a stretch of time that's them all sitting there like "okay, this seems mostly normal, wonder how it's gonna go sideways." At the very least Joseph's playful nature and jokes relieve some of the sadness from Jonathan's death and bring some energy back, plus it's always fun to watch crooked cops and racists get their asses handed to them āœØ
Straizo's betrayal pisses off and hurts everyone, Jonathan most of all. Learning that the man he had fought alongside had became the very thing they'd attempted to destroy and presumably killed his best friend was really just piling more onto an already overflowing emotional weight
But the Pillarmen themselves....... holy shit do things get wild. Joseph hadn't explained much about the Pillarmen themselves, just that he was training Hamon to fight them. It wasn't that he was purposefully hiding anything, he just didn't really see any reason to bring it up. Beside it's not like anyone asked
So when they watch Joseph nearly die? Watch him just barely talk his way out of it? How he has to spend every waking and even sleeping moment training so he can stand a chance when the fight inevitably comes?
Yeah not fun
My personal headcanon is that Jonathan and Joseph's lessons were very different. Jonathan was just generally being taught Hamon, how to use it, how to experiment with it, the philosophical aspects of it, etc etc where meanwhile Joseph had been trained to maximize his power and efficiency. And given how everyone watched Jonathan train, they'd now be able to pick apart the details
(also speaking of Hamon and vampires, I like to think that Joseph and Jotaro were paying extra good attention during Jonathan's training and the fight with Dio for any possible weakness vampires had, and also that when they're done watching everyone and back to "reality" Joseph ends up teaching Jotaro how to use Hamon)
And honestly? They don't really like Lisa Lisa that much. They understand the gravity of this situation of course and that Joseph needs to be prepared, and in the end they do ultimately respect her for that, but they're also pretty close to Joseph and seeing him in this situation is awful to watch. They wish it didn't have to be this way, that Joseph could've had more time and didn't have to fight literal GODS who wiped out nearly the entire Hamon Clan thousands of years ago. If you want to get specific, their dislike is more toward the situation as a whole, it's just that Lisa Lisa happens to be playing a role in it
(Giorno especially takes issue with Lisa Lisa as she reminds him a lot of his mother which..... isn't fun to deal with)
But..... well there's nothing they can do about it. This is the hand Joseph's been dealt, and there is some comfort in knowing Joseph will survive in the end
This also adds a slightly different type of tension to everything because out of everyone, Joseph is the only one who strictly has to do this. For the most part, the others could all technically leave and stop their journey and turn a blind eye to everything that's happening. For all of them, the thing that kept them going were for the sake of others, and sure for a few in the long run it would benefit them, there was no reason it NEEDED to be them. Jonathan didn't want Dio to hurt people, Jotaro wanted to save his mother, Josuke wanted to keep Morioh safe, Giorno wanted to stop the drug trade, Jolyne wanted her father's disc back. Theoretically there was no threat to them, just those around them and the world as a whole. But Joseph...... while there is a pretty high chance of death even if he does train and fight the Pillarmen, his death is guaranteed if he doesn't fight
So even though he can't see them, they offer encouragement. They do what they can to keep an eye on things and think of plans to make things go better to share with Joseph when he comes back
Caesar's death........ not fun, not fun at all. It hurts even more considering the last thing he and Joseph had done was fight, and Caesar's sacrifice reminds Jonathan painfully of Zeppeli's. Jonathan's also actually the one to discover they aren't tethered to Joseph this time since no one actually explained the "rules" of how all this works in depth. He was mostly going along with how everyone else was doing it and when the fight happens he ended up trying to follow Caesar only to everyone's surprise it works
It's not all doom and gloom at least. Joseph repeatedly manages to make light of terrifying situations which make it a bit easier to bare, and seeing him think circles around his enemies was a joy to watch. Him arriving at his own funeral got more than a couple laughs out of everyone involved and was a thankfully light hearted end to it all in stark contrast to Jonathan's own end
So I just realized I never explained how I thought the memory aspect of Peanut Gallery would work so hERE IT IS NOW-
Basically, I think that upon first returning to reality, they donā€™t remember jack. Not about their adventure, not about the otherā€™s adventures, not even the fact that anything happened at all, nothing
But then the second their adventure finishes. The night they awake after last ā€œsceneā€ from their series plays outā€¦ā€¦.
then they get hit with EVERYTHING
Unfortunately Jonathan and Joseph are both kinda fucked. Jonathan has no way to avoid his death, and because Jonathan died thereā€™s no one with future knowledge to change how Josephā€™s adventure goes
But Jotaroā€¦ā€¦ Jotaroā€™s going to have a chance
And how much do you think this is going to hurt Joseph at first when the boy is born. Knowing that such a small, helpless infant is someday going to have to face such hardship
Not alone though. Joseph refuses. His precious grandson had been so alone the first time, but he refuses to let it happen. Heā€™d seen the scars it had left behind and Jotaro didnā€™t deserve that. Not again
But this also brings in the strangeness of the relations between all the living and present Jojoā€™s. The ones with their memories would be stuck with the ones without not recognizing them, and how much do you think that would hurt? Heck, when Joseph realizes Jotaro doesnā€™t remember, even during the trip to Egypt, he might begin to worry that he was alone in his memories. That heā€™d be the only one knowing where the future would lead yet be held back by the chains of old age, his body and mind wasting away with time.
Hell, in this version he might even end up continuing to practice Hamon because as much as he loves Suzie, he canā€™t bring himself to put his descendantsā€™s lives on the line, canā€™t bring himself to put the entire UNIVERSE on the line. Jolyneā€™s adventure cannot happen a second time because it would kill so, so many innocent lives and Joseph wouldnā€™t be able to burden that guilt knowing he couldā€™ve done something
ā€¦ā€¦but then Jotaro remembers. He wakes up the day after they return to Japan and asks to speak with him and he remembers
Perhaps it was selfish to feel so happy, ignorance is bliss after all and Jotaro is merely 17, but Joseph couldnā€™t deny the surge of hope at the fact he wasnā€™t alone in what he knew anymore
and then eventually Josuke remembers. And even Giorno.
By the time the year 2011 rolls around without anything noteworthy(theyā€™d tracked down and killed Pucci ages ago), Joseph is able to breathe a sigh of relief
His family is safe
And he didnā€™t have to do it alone
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taeluminal Ā· 2 years ago
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Kagami Taiga x male! reader
a/n: kinda short, but letā€™s ignore that- it is also 2am and i am tired af, so my apologies if there are any mistakes or mispelled words xd
warnings: like one swear wordĀ 
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You were supposed to watch a movie. And you did for a while! But then your boyfriend decided he had enough of the movie, that he himself chose mind you, and layed face down on your chest.
You flinched at the sudden weight on you, but quickly wrapped your arm around his waist in case he wanted to leave. Too late now though, he should know the consequences of his actions. He's not leaving any time soon and you're making sure of that. You felt him leaning even more into you, finally fully relaxing into your touch. You brought your other hand into his hair and started playing with his hair. It was relaxing for both of you, but given how Taiga groaned when you stopped, it was far more relaxing for him than you. But could you blame him? He was laying in the arms of the most perfect boy, who supported im in literally everything, got along with his friends and didnā€™t mind his obsession with basketball. Hell, you even let him teach you how to play! So of course heā€™s gonna accept every bit of affection possible and especialy you playing with his hair. He would never admit it, but it made him melt everytime. Something about your soft hand going through his hair, playing with it and untangling any knots, sometimes tucking on it intentionally or not. It didnā€™t matter to him what you did with his hair, just the sense of closure and safety was enough for him. You made him weak in his knees, it was basically quaranteed that if he was standing right now he would have trouble standing. But even if he was to fall, you wouldnā€™t let that happen. You would grip your hand tighter around his waist, pull him closer to you and whisper to his ear.
God, he felt like a teenage girl thinking about her crush. But he does have a crush on you, so at least something checked out. He couldnā€™t help it, even when you two are in a relationship he still has a crush on you. He feels giddy everytime you look at him, canā€™t help but blush whenever you whisper a compliment in is ear or look at him intensely for more than 5 seconds. He wondered what you were thinking about when you did that.
Ā  Ā  Fuck, heā€™s so pretty... The corners of your mouth turn up into a smile. You loved moments like this. Your pretty boy in your arms, smiling like heā€™s thinking about something out of this world. You wanted to hold him forever. No, not just hold him. You wanted to kiss him, laugh with him whenever you miss the basket, play with his hair, sleep next to him and wake up every morning next to him forever. You wanted him forever.
You were never the one to believe in soulmates or anything like that. But Kagami made you feel like you were made for each other. You both respected each otherā€™s boundaries, got along with the other oneā€™s closest friends and family and most importantly, loved each other like nothing else mattered. Because sometimes, especially in moments like this, it really did seem like nothing else did matter. Just you two, basking in each otherā€™s presence, cuddling, supposedly watching a movie, even though it was long forgotten since you were both too deep in the middle of describing your absolutely perfect boyfriend, just grateful for everything. ĀØ
Ā  ā€žDid you pay attention to any of the film?ā€œ you softly whispered
ā€žNo, not really. You?ā€œ Kagami said
ā€žMe neither, too busy with admiring my pretty boy.ā€œ You knew that nickname never failed to make him flustered, exactly just as now.
He hid his head in the crook of your neck, mumbling a soft ā€žshut upā€œ and shifting even closer to you to have as much physical contact with him as possible. You moved both of your hands on his lower back, drawing small circles and other shapes on his skin.
ā€žI love you.ā€œ
ā€žI love you too.ā€œ
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adonis-koo Ā· 4 years ago
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ā†³ Summary: Youā€™re a creature of habit, you plan everything from each hour to each day, so you can imagine the chaos which ensues after you discover a random guy leaking black goo in a ditch- who just so happens to be an alien.
ā†³ Pairing: Jungkook/Reader
ā†³ Genre: lowkey strangers to lovers, alien!jungkook, fluff, smut,Ā 
Word Count: 13k
Tags: tentacle sex im sorry, foreplay, oral (f) but not?? jungkook is technically a virgin by human standards ayyy, penetration, nipple play, over stimulation, double penetration, squirting, sub!jungkook, breath play, spit kink, jungkook can make his own lube??, anal im so sorry, praise kink, they become soul mates on accident oops,
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You didnā€™t see nor understand what JK was talking about at first, he just fumbled along between alleyways and roads and nobody, or what little people were on the streets didnā€™t look at you twice given your friend was as tall and broad as he was. Perks of being with a man you guessed. You still didnā€™t know what he was actually talking about except for the assumption that he had found his...friendsā€¦?
Eventually JK had dragged you through a lot of fields which had made you increasingly anxious, what if a kidnapper was out here? True you wouldnā€™t mind him using his talon like tentacles then but still...You also didnā€™t want to go to jail for assisting a homicide...Standing in an empty field, at the dead of night, was not what you intended on doing on a friday night.
JK seemed excited though as he bounced, grabbing a hold of you, he pressed his thumb to your forehead, your eyes fluttering shut on instinct from being so close to him suddenly but your brows pinched and an uncomfortable ache throbbed in your head before he released you. Rubbing your head you whined before you looked up again, only jumping with a screech at the...ship...in front of you...which was NOT there a moment ago.Ā 
ā€œHome!ā€ JK announced proudly as he grabbed your hand, tugging you along against your will, was this really...his ship? Oh god what if he was abducting you...You didnā€™t have time to think as he ushered you inside. It looked small on the outside admittedly but on the inside it was all glossy and clean, a sleek futuristic look dawning the interior.
Futuristic, he was an alien, you werenā€™t shocked at the assessment but still. This mustā€™ve been the hanger or...living areaā€¦ or...hell if you knew ship terms, it looked like the dining room but you didnā€™t expect two others to appear. All of them speaking in that same throaty tongue as he ran to them, embracing them with pure excitement on his face before he pointed to you, a look of pride on his face as he cleared his voice, ā€œY/n.ā€ He spoke clearly as if introducing you.
Ā You gave an awkward stiff wave before immediately dropping your arm, you were going to be extremely pissed if this was the LSD trip you thought you were having yesterday. You watched them all speak to one another before the one on the right nodded, saying something before gesturing JK off, who hurriedly ran off leaving you alone....with two aliensā€¦
They both looked at you expectantly as you looked around, ā€œHiā€¦ā€ You offered an awkward smile, ā€œYou guys are terrifyingā€¦ā€ Watching the one on the right grab a watering can to pour over a small...purple colored...tree? ā€œYou less soā€¦ā€ You turned to the other one, his eyes dark and piercing and wowā€¦if you thought JK was hot you hadnā€™t even thought about what it would look like to seem someone attractive from his species, ā€œYou the mostā€¦ā€ You wrapped your arms around yourself uncomfortably.Ā 
ā€œHeā€™s just assessing you, Taehyungā€™s like that with anyone associated with our Jungkookie.ā€ You nearly wheezed at the sound of the one on the right speaking full...Englishā€¦he offered a dimpled smile as if anticipating that reaction, ā€œApologies. Iā€™m Namjoon, Iā€™m sure youā€™re extremely confused and scared with everything going on.ā€Ā 
ā€œ...You could say thatā€¦ā€ Your twisted somewhat painfully as you nodded rapidly, it was midnight and you were in a fucking spaceship, ā€œUmmm, where did JK goā€¦?ā€Ā 
Namjoon as he called himself suddenly snorted, shaking his head as he sighed, ā€œTold him he shouldā€™ve paid more attention in the academy,ā€ He rolled his eyes, ā€œJungkook,ā€ He emphasised the name, ā€œThatā€™s his full Earth name. He just forgot it because he never pays attention,ā€ He offered a weak smile, ā€œAnd heā€™s in the memoir chamber rememorizing English so he can actually speak to you. Itā€™s handy for us Orionianā€™s in case a situation like this happens and we donā€™t know archaic languages like English.ā€
You didnā€™t understand a word of what he just said, ā€œIā€™m sorry...I think Iā€™m too dumb to talk to you, honestlyā€¦ā€ You felt extremely stupid but much to your surprise Namjoon laughed in delight, as if endured by your words.Ā 
ā€œYou humans are pretty humble huh,ā€ He hummed as he continued watering the rest of hisĀ  plants, ā€œAnyways, our ship crashed here on Earth on our way to the andromeda galaxy and Jungkook ended up falling out, it was an...extremely rocky crashā€¦ā€ His smile still weak as if a vague memory entered his mind, ā€œYou have our utmost thanks for taking him in when he was injured and housing him.ā€Ā 
ā€œItā€™s no problem, I wouldā€™ve done it for anyone.ā€ You shifted a little, smiling a tiny bit despite still not feeling as comfortable as you wish you could be, it was just difficult to take in everything that was rapidly changing but your words still stood, you would have. Especially for...Jungkook...you lingered on the same, it sounded more fitting for the tall puppy like boy.Ā 
ā€œSo what are your intentions with Jungkook?ā€ You jumped at how deep the second voice was...Taehyung if you remembered correctly and he only looked about as hot as he was intimidating, ā€œWhy did you take him in if you knew his identity.ā€Ā 
You flailed a little, intending to speak yet no words came out...you...you hadnā€™t really thought about it...at all honestlyā€¦ā€I...I ummm...wellā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œAre you working for them?ā€ Taehyung stepped towards you, his expression becoming cold as you feebly took a step back looking towards the ground and unsure of how to answer or if youā€™d even given him a satisfying answer.Ā 
ā€œStop.ā€ The new voice was raspy and low, not too terribly deep, but just enough to sound charming and rather rugged, Jungkook had appeared again only this time, immediately standing defensively in front of you, ā€œShe found me and even after finding out about me being an Orionian she didnā€™t report me to any Earth officials. I trust her, and you should too.ā€Ā 
He...he could speak...perfect English now...What!?Ā 
Taehyungā€™s eyes narrowed onto you, still distrustful but he laid off, ā€œRight...and what is this about you bonding with her? I donā€™t think sheā€™d be a good vessel.ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s jaw twitched and you could see the glow of the crescents on his hand burning in red, ā€œWell Iā€™m not asking for your permission to bond with her.ā€ He spat back, his brows furrowed and his lip twitching in anger, suddenly he didnā€™t look so cute and puppy like anymore, ā€œAnd itā€™s not like weā€™re getting off Earth anytime soon with the ship in this state, so itā€™s best if we just resume the plan as originally intended.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou think Iā€™d choose a vessel as inferior as humans to have my offspring?ā€ Taehyungā€™s face curled as if that was the biggest insult he had ever heard and yet you nearly choked at his words, vessel? Offspring? Uh what?Ā 
ā€œStop fighting,ā€ Namjoon sighed and much to your surprise both of the two boys quieted down, Jungkook still stood in front of you, shuffling a little closer as Namjoon sighed, ā€œJungkook is rightā€¦ā€ He made a noise of victory as Taehyungā€™s mouth twitched in anger, the marks along his body burning a deep red that was just a little scary to watch from afar, ā€œWith the technology at hand here on Earth and with Arbitrators searching for us, itā€™s in our best interest to make the most of what we have here. Besides, Earth is unsuspecting and was one of our forerunnerā€™s best creations. Itā€™s not too far off irony to let them be the vessel of our offspring.ā€Ā 
You stared up at Jungkookā€™s broad back in disbelief...this man was trying to impregnate you after a half a day of knowing you!? You werenā€™t sure plan B was prepared for this shit. Jungkook looked deeply satisfied at Taehyungā€™s reaction though before he turned to you, his expression soft and puppy-like as he smiled somewhat timidly before speaking as if he was a little giddy, ā€œHiā€¦ā€Ā 
You couldā€™ve said anything in this moment, in which Jungkook looked like he had been excitedly waiting for, and yet your choice of words had been admittedly poor.
ā€œYouā€™re gonna have to bag another bitch, I donā€™t do kids! I...I did NOT sign up for this!ā€ You immediately backed away from him like he was poison and you didnā€™t know how these fuckers procreated and at this point you werenā€™t sure you wanted to learn!
Jungkookā€™s lips parted and he looked a little hurt before he quickly approached you again, ā€œI donā€™t expect you to want to carry my children yetā€¦.ā€Ā 
ā€œYet!?ā€ You shouted out making all three of them flinch a little, ā€œI...I just let you stay at my place because you looked like you were dying in a ditch, and now! Iā€™m in a spaceship, I canā€™t find the exit and you can suddenly speak English and youā€™re talking about kids!? This...nu-uh this is going way too fast. I...I really need to get home.ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lips trembled a little as he reached out for you, ā€œIā€™ll take you back! Or-! Or you could stay here until the morning, you shouldnā€™t be out alone, Earth has proved to be unsafe at night.ā€ He tenderly held your forearms as your expression awkwardly twisted.Ā 
ā€œNothing worse could happen to me than what happened earlier tonight,ā€ You shook your head rapidly as you sighed, ā€œJust show me the exit, Iā€™ll be fine, really. Iā€™m happy for you! Seriously! I mean it looks like youā€™re reunited with your kin so thereā€™s no reason for us to stay in contact and itā€™s been fun and out of this world- literally.ā€ You laughed a little as you rambled, all three staring at you wide eyed, ā€œBut like, seriously Iā€™ll keep this to myself and just hope itā€™s a really shitty drug trip like I originally thought it wasā€¦ā€
Jungkook sighed, lowering his head in defeat and his lips trembled a little in that sulky way it had been this morning as he went to the hatch where you both had come in, dialing a few buttons he waited a moment as he mumbled, ā€œI just want to explain everything to you, I owe you that, at leastā€¦ā€Ā 
You said nothing waiting for the door to open as he dialed a few other buttons, and a few more, and again...and againā€¦ā€Um,ā€ He cleared his throat a little, ā€œNamjoonā€¦? The door?ā€ He asked, his eyes doe like as he stared at his companion who sighed, squeezing between you both as he also dialed a few numbers into the glowing pad.Ā 
They both waited before Namjoonā€™s lips twisted into a sigh as if somehow expecting this to happen before he spoke, ā€œDoorsā€™ jammed...againā€¦ā€
ā€œThis is fucking perfect.ā€ Taehyung swore with a sigh, gritting his teeth as his eyes glared into you briefly, causing you to sheepishly back a little towards Jungkook, ā€œIā€™m going back to my pod, I canā€™t deal with this.ā€ He brooded before leaving as you looked between both aliens.Ā 
ā€œ...Jammed? The door? As inā€¦?ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lips twisted into a nervous smile, his marks glowing a light purple as he coughed, ā€œLooks like weā€™ll have plenty of time to talk nowā€¦ā€ Fuck! Why did things have to be this complicated, it could have been worse, but it was the same annoyance you had when Youtube played an unskippable ad, or when the lead in your pencil broke, a cookie falling onto the floor, that type of inconvenience.
Unshockingly Jungkook didnā€™t hold the same feeling as he spoke gently, ā€œI can show you to my pod, itā€™ll be awhile before the door gets fixedā€¦ā€ He gave you an endearing apologetic smile.Ā 
ā€œ...As long as you arenā€™t gonna try to knock me up then sure.ā€ You stared at him in disdain, making him weakly smile as he stepped back up the metal stairs and if you didnā€™t know any better you wouldā€™ve assumed he was actually happy you were stuck with no other choice but to stay.Ā 
ā€œOnce you see her to your pod, a word please Jungkook...ā€ Namjoonā€™s gaze was fixed on the door quizzically as if already trying to deduce what had made it jammed, he made no effort to look back at you both but you could tell it was probably important.Ā 
Jungkook only nodded eagerly and kept your hand in his as he lead you down the small the hallway, lights flickering and while you were anything but an engineer or mechanic, it wasnā€™t hard to tell they had crash landed, Jungkook ignored the mess against the walls as he typed in something before a door slid open revealing what you assumed was his room, the door slid shut behind you making you jump a little as you investigated the space. It was a minimalistic room, a few trinkets laid around and a messy bed was against the wall.
ā€œYou can sleep if you want...I know you were tired when I woke you upā€¦ā€ Jungkookā€™s marks glowed a soft pink as he bashfully looked at the ground, scratching his cheek as if he didnā€™t know what to say,Ā ā€œI um...I should go speak to my brother.ā€Ā 
Before you could even say anything Jungkook had already left looking somewhat sheepish, leaving you to curiously look around the room, it was spacious and in tones of deep brown and black, a few gadgets laying around on his nightstand as you tilted your head.Ā 
His pod...so basically...a bedroom. You assumed as much as you couldnā€™t really make a distinct difference between the two. True you couldā€™ve slept like he had suggested, you were exhausted but too wired to even think about sleeping at the moment due to how bizarre of circumstances you were in. You were in an alienā€™s bedroom, on a space ship...
You had took your time browsing around the room, curiously holding a few trinkets in an attempt to figure out what they were, time passed slowly and for a while, you began to wonder if this was just a set up for them to butt probe you like Jimin had original thought they would. Not that you would mind as much as him but- besides the point, the longer you were left with your thoughts, the more that piled up.
When the door abruptly opened you nearly jumped out of your skin, hurriedly setting down what looked like a portable flame thrower before whirling around, Jungkook looked a little timid as he smiled,Ā ā€œIā€™m sorry that took so long...Um...ā€ He closed the door gently before he gestured,Ā ā€œPlease, go ahead and rest, from my understanding...um...humans have a standard sleep cycle yes?ā€Ā 
You didnā€™t fully understand what he was asking besides if you slept at night, rubbing your neck you did as he gestured, taking a seat on the bed before you jumped a little as it did not feel like a normal bed, ā€œUh I guess...? Why...why didnā€™t you just leave? You...didnā€™t have to wake me.ā€ You mumbled, scooping your feet up as you laid down, shifting a little as you tried to get comfortable.
The bed felt almost like a marshmallow, something in between water and memory foam as the bed moved in slow, lapping waves as you attempted to get comfortable again with a pout tugging on your lips.Ā 
Jungkook watched you with endearment before he laid on the bed next to you, ā€œYou have to stop moving, coranium matches the pattern of your body to keep everything aligned and slowly adjusts to the movement of your body throughout your sleep duration.ā€Ā 
You rolled onto your side to look at him as you curled up a little, his marks still a light pink and his smile a little shy as he spoke, ā€œTo answer your question I mean...I feel like it should be obvious, I want to make my bond with you so it was natural I wanted to take you with me. I donā€™t know Earth well enough to confidently navigate it on my own without getting lost. I couldnā€™t risk leaving you and then being unable to find my way back. As well as I knew Iā€™d be able to learn English fast in the memoir chamber, so then weā€™d be able to talkā€¦ā€ he smiled a bit timidly, his eyes fondly washing over your face as you awkwardly scooted a little away from him.Ā 
His eyes downcasting a little at the gesture as he frowned, and once again, even despite speaking english now it didnā€™t help his case in looking like a kicked puppy, ā€œWell...am I supposed to know what a memoir chamber is? Andā€¦.bonding and...literally everything you guys have said thus far?ā€Ā 
Jungkook rested his chin on his hands as he hummed, thinking about your words carefully before he spoke, ā€œThe memoir chamber is in most Orionian ships, it helps us adapt to the planet around us and depending on what region weā€™re in, the language. Our kind carry human DNA- or...moreso the other way around, so inherently we know all Earth languages as they descended from Orionian dialect, butā€¦ā€ He scratched his cheek, marks glowing pink once more, ā€œI had a difficult time studying earth languages in the academy. Itā€™s unrealistic for us to know them all, so the Memoir serves as a rebrief to put in the language back into our minds.ā€Ā 
God what were you in now? A shitty sy-fy film? You rolled onto your back as you said no more, thinking about his answer for a good long minute before you parted your lips only to shut them...Hold on one damn minute- did he just insinuate his kind created humans? Knowing all languages? What!? ā€œI donā€™t even know how to unpack that sentenceā€¦ā€ You muttered, staring up at the ceiling which twinkled in a galaxy of constellations and if you didnā€™t know any better you wouldā€™ve assumed it was an open glass ceiling to outer space.
It aligned with nebulaā€™s and stars, planets for what looked like miles and miles. You could stare at it for hours in awe, how did you not notice that until now.
ā€œI could only imagine being human, itā€™s a lot to take in,ā€ Jungkook offered a gentle smile, ā€œAs for bondingā€¦ā€ He was pink all over as he scratched his cheek again, eyes fluttering away from yours almost shyly, ā€œItā€™s what it sounds like, when we Orionianā€™s find a person who we like and want to share our life with, we begin a bond, and it takes awhile for the bond to grow but once itā€™s finished, weā€™d complete it with a mating cycle, and then...Weā€™re celestially bond together.ā€ He mumbled a little shyly, his eyes looked like stars twinkling as he talked about it, almost in a dreamy fashion.Ā 
ā€œ....ā€ You couldnā€™t even find the words to say anything before you muttered, ā€œYouā€™ve known me for a dayā€¦ā€ True Jungkook was cute, but all of this stuff about bonding and space really made it difficult to grasp the concept in a way which wasnā€™t him basically proposing to you.
Jungkook looked as if he had been abruptly pulled from his little fantasy world as he frowned, propping himself on his forearm as he spoke, ā€œTime is only a concept for Orionianā€™s, when we know who our bond is meant for, we just know. It doesnā€™t matter if Iā€™ve known you a day or your whole life, my feelings wonā€™t change. I want us to bond.ā€ His voice lowered a little, his eyes doe-like and filled with a sugary sweetness as he closed the gap between you both.Ā 
You were speechless. Many times in your life you had felt this way, but genuinely, you had no words. An alien just professed his love to you within twenty four hours of knowing him all because...whatā€¦? You fed him twice? Let him sleep in your bed once? What had you possibly done for him to think you could be his...his wife!?Ā 
ā€œIā€™m not getting married, I- I mean Iā€™m flattered! I am.ā€ You sat up, once again, pulling away from him as he mirrored you, his lips jutting into an almost frustrated pout, ā€œBut like...I just turned twenty one this year....Iā€™m hardly a person let alone wife material.ā€
ā€œBonding is hardly even close to the equivalent of human marriage,ā€ Jungkook wrinkled his nose, almost a little endeared, he knew little of human marriage from the media he had watched when you werenā€™t present, and while humans had similar ideas of romance, it was hardly comparable, he spoke gently, ā€œItā€™s far more special and permanent. Being bonded isā€¦ā€ He closed his eyes, a half dimpled smile on his lips as he hummed, ā€œItā€™s like feeling like the universe has completely aligned on your behalf, and that the planets and stardust gifted you a celestial mate who would never turn their back on you, who would always dry your tears and heal you when youā€™re hurt. The bond extends past this lifetime and into the next and so forth.ā€Ā 
ā€œ...You lost me at ā€˜moreā€™ permanentā€¦ā€ For a woman with a whole baggage load of commitment issues Jungkook was really not selling this idea to you well, ā€œSorry but I think you got the wrong girl.ā€ You could appreciate the bizarreness of this situation and admittedly you felt like youā€™d always have a superior ā€˜main characterā€™ moment story to one up somebody with but this whole business about being stuck with someone for multiple lifetimes and having alien babies was really not something you could follow up with.
Jungkook looked severely hurt which made you do a double take, not quite anticipating such a pitiful reaction as his lips quivering and his eyes even looking somewhat glassy as he spoke, ā€œO-oh...I seeā€¦ā€Ā 
wow way to make you feel like an asshole. He had shuffled a little curling up against himself as if trying to make himself appear small as he looked away from you. Sighing you ran a hand through your hair, well fuck, what did you have to lose at this point in your life?
ā€œ...Jesus christ, okay...what...what does...you knowā€¦ā€ you coughed a little, rubbing your neck as Jungkookā€™s doe eyes looked at you timidly before darting away when you met his gaze, ā€œWhat does this bonding shit entail anyway?ā€Ā 
Jungkook was incredibly attractive, there was no denying it and the worst that could happen would be things didnā€™t work and you just went back to normal non-tentacle men. Jungkook perked a little at your question, still seeming a bit reserved as he mumbled, ā€œWell...bonding is a long process...itā€™s not something out of human fiction that just immediately happens. When a bond is first created itā€™s incredibly delicate, you have to be careful and make sure both partners dedicate time to strengthening the bond.ā€
Laying your head against your arms that were folded in front of you while listening intently you hummed, ā€œAnd letā€™s say hypothetically, could the bond be broken?ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s expression crumpled a little as he mumbled, ā€œIt can be severed, but the more strengthened the bond is, the more painful itā€™ll be for both partners. But yes, it is possible. I should also mention a bond is only possible unless both partners are in agreement and want it just as much as the other.ā€Ā 
You hummed, thinking about his words, so technically it wasnā€™t really possible given both of you had different alignments right now, ā€œAlright well, here on Earth we call it dating, which is a lot less intensive than that, so if you want me to do that then youā€™re gonna have to go by human standards first.ā€ It was reasonable enough and a happy compromise.
You wouldnā€™t deny you felt a pull towards Jungkook, ever since he had arrived yesterday morning your life had been anything but normal and yet you embraced every twist and turn so far and...there was admittedly a secret giddy part of you that revelled in old childhood nostalgia that someone had actually fallen from the sky and would now show you a world of many possibilities outside of earth.Ā 
The only thing holding you back was the logic and reason that your family held and pushed onto you at a young age, long gone were the days of staring up at the stars in hopes of seeing something supernatural and daydreaming during recess about being whisked off earth. You didnā€™t know how to connect with that childlike side of yourself anymore, it had been so long since you bothered with those thoughts that now that the opportunity was presented to you, you genuinely didnā€™t know how to react.
Jungkook had immediately perked up his brows raised and immediate interest in his expression, ā€œIā€™ll do it! If it means winning your affection,ā€ his smile was a little toothy and innocent as he spoke, ā€œHow do humans date? What do they do?ā€ He tilted his head in curiosity while waiting excitedly for your reply.
You couldnā€™t help but smile a little at how enthusiastic he was, ā€œWellā€¦ā€ you drew a breath in thought, ā€œItā€™s not too different then it is from now, weā€™ll go out to eat together, get to know each other, stuff like that.ā€Ā 
Jungkook deflated a little, confusion in his eyes as he frowned, ā€œBut thatā€™s stuff we do now...as...friendsā€¦ā€ his frown furthered on his lips, ā€œWhat sets friends and dating apart if we do the same thingā€¦?ā€Ā 
You rubbed your neck, beginning to get a little flustered at his question as you shifted a little, mumbling, ā€œWell the difference is friends are strictly platonic, dating someone means youā€™re interested in them romantically and...you know...we hold hands...or cuddle or...I donā€™t know romantic shitā€¦Stuff friends donā€™t do.ā€Ā 
When did Jungkook get closer to you? His head tilted in curiosity as he spoke, ā€œ...And? Is that it? Iā€™m sorry,ā€ he apologized a bit bashfully, looking rather pink, ā€œIā€™m trying to discern possible differences in boundaries set between a regular human relationship compared to Orionianā€™sā€¦I donā€™t want to do anything that might make you...uncomfortableā€¦ā€Ā 
You stared at him for a good moment, as if trying to discern whatever he was trying to say without actually saying it, ā€œWell...Iā€™m not sure how different it can beā€¦ā€ Jungkook said nothing, fidgeting a little as you looked at him for a long moment, ā€œ...Iā€™d tell you if you made me uncomfortable.ā€ Was this...going where you thought it was going?Ā 
Jungkook shuffled a little closer, his nose nearly brushing yours and his lips that looked so soft jutted into a slight pout, his eyes could hardly meet yours as he timidly asked, ā€œ...How...intimate are humans in their relationships?ā€Ā 
Your face felt like it was on fire though as you muttered with raised brows, ā€œUh pretty hands on...if you wanna fuck me you can just ask.ā€ You looked up at him, feeling a bit bold given he was a little more on the shy side, you could tell just him asking that had obviously taken a lot of courage on his part.
Jungkookā€™s marks had suddenly filtered from baby pink to a deep maroon, his face looked nothing except shy and a bit hazy as he mumbled, ā€œWould you let meā€¦? I donā€™t...exactly share the same anatomy as your male counterpart...Orionianā€™s...intimacy looks a bit different.ā€Ā 
You felt intrigued and horny at the same time, it was tentacles wasnā€™t it? Please god let it be the tentacles, ā€œYou canā€™t threaten me with a good time,ā€ you laughed a little, trying to take a little bit of the nervous edge off Jungkook as you offered a small smile, ā€œJust show me, Iā€™m...what other humans would consider pretty kinky. Doubt itā€™ll scare me off.ā€ You couldnā€™t admit that his tentacles were immediately making your panties soaked because god did you want to be filled up like a scared hentai girl right now.
You squeaked at Jungkook suddenly climbing on top of you, his eyes hazy and he pulled the sweatshirt over his head, revealing the strip of glowing maroon that led up the center of his arms and wrapped over his shoulders, his tentacles suddenly emerging from his back much to your horny excitement, ā€œOur tendons are both are strongest and weakest point of our body.ā€ Jungkook mumbled against your neck, the feeling of something extremely foreign wrapping around your thigh, almost something between like a soft silicon and jello substance.Ā 
Not sticky like you had anticipated, but soft enough that it could be almost considered wet, ā€œThey protect us but theyā€™re also what we use to procreate with, if theyā€™re cut off or majorly damaged, we become sterilized. My eggsā€¦ā€ He suddenly became a bit timid as he mumbled, ā€œThey arenā€™t fertile yet...But regardless I wouldnā€™t fill you unless we were bonded, so you wonā€™t have to worry about impregnation. Intimacy is still an act of strengthening a bond though, so itā€™s utilized a lot at the beginning of an Orionian relationship.ā€
You werenā€™t fully paying attention at this point, too busy nearly drooling at the feeling of his tendon slithering along your clothes, ā€œI can understand if youā€™d prefer to not do this though.ā€ Jungkook seemed somewhat embarrassed and timid, his tendons slithering around your pajama band but doing nothing further.
ā€œNo!ā€ He nearly jumpedĀ  at how you almost yelled it, your eyes frantic and you were nearly dripping at how horny you were, your voice needy as you whined, ā€œIā€™m literally a slut Jungkook, Iā€™m more than happy to experiment.ā€Ā 
Jungkook didnā€™t need anymore confirmation then just that, his tentacle that had been playing with the band of your pajamas immediately pushing underneath it as you whined, your legs immediately parting for it as it ran up your panties, the soft wetness that ebbed from it soaking whatever was dry of your panties, was this arousal of his own? He moaned softly as he pressed his face into your neck, ā€œI know you feel this is fast, but Orionianā€™s tend to not like to waste time.ā€ His tentacles slid along your panties before pushing inside the band.
Your lips parted at the soft wet sensation of it gently prodding along your clit in exploration making a yelp escape you.
Jungkook jolted a little in concern as he looked down at you, somewhat shyly and his cheeks were a deep maroon much like his marks, ā€œKeepā€¦! Fuck!ā€ You whined at the way his tentacles as if testingly flicked along your clit, another tentacle which had been floating behind him absently had suddenly emerged forward, making quick work of your pajamas and panties as the other continued working along your clit making you whimper as your back arched a little.Ā 
The second tendon slowly brushed along your soaked cunt, embarrassingly wet sounds could be heard throughout the room as Jungkook moaned in contentment, ā€œThis feels so nice,ā€ he mumbled with a whine, the second tentacle which had been stroking you slowly wiggled against your entrance making you squeak. Your horniness couldnā€™t be put into words at how bad you wanted this man to shove all tentacles inside you.
Your lips immediately parting at the tip of the tentacle pushing inside you, it was too soft to be considered that of a toy or dildo but too firm to be anything foreign, you couldnā€™t resist propping yourself up onto your elbows, your legs spread as you looked down, your face twisting and cheeks throbbing at the lewd sight of two tentacles hard at work on your cunt, one continuously flicking your clit and rubbing along it while the other began to testingly thrust inside you.Ā 
Your lips dropped open as you moaned feeling Jungkook push it further and further inside you before giving it a testing wiggle, a scream nearly ripped from your throat at how it hit all the right spots.
Unable to even support yourself as you dropped back down with a whine as Jungkook quickly began to pick up the pace even more, ā€œFuck,ā€ he moaned softly, the tentacle pulsed and throbbed as it squished and wiggled while being thrusted back and forth in short motions, your cunt was so tight and your walls kept trapping him further and further inside you as you whined, ā€œMm, females of my kind donā€™t have anything like this,ā€ he moaned two more tentacles had suddenly appeared from his back, one pinning your wrists above your head and the other wandering to your flimsy shirt before pushing underneath it, and much to his delight Jungkook found nothing underneath except your soft breasts, ā€œNothing this- mmm, fuck,ā€ it came out more of a whine this time as you felt his tentacles wiggling in delight at the way your cunt clenched around him, ā€œsmall, and warm...Fuck,ā€ Jungkook dipped his head, running a hand through his hair, the third tendon wrapped around your nipple making you whimper, jolting as your cunt squeezed around the tentacle that was beginning to roughly split apart your walls as it discovered your g-spot, your mouth parting as whined spilled from your lips at the insane feeling of the tip of his tentacles flicking up against it rapidly.
ā€œAh! Fuck fuck fuck, Jungkook!ā€ You whined as your back arched, your eyes nearly rolling to the back of your head at how many sensations were going on, between him finding the sweet spot of your clit, the tip of his tentacle flicking up into your g-spot the other one squeezing with just the right amount of pressure on your nipple.Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lips parted and his eyes were hazy but in awe at the way your body contorted, your small little walls nearly entrapping his tentacle as you came harshly, whined and whimpers escaping you as he forcefully kept flicking up into your g-spot, his other rubbing gently against your clit as your body frantically moved, yet your hips kept thrusting up to try and take more of his tendon as you whined, ā€œFuckā€¦! Jungkook! Ah..!ā€ Jungkook moaned softly as he gave you just what you wanted, pushing himself further inside you until he was dangerously close to your cervix.
His tentacle was soft enough that no pain was even involved as he kept wiggling it into you, soundless moans escaped you as your cunt began wrapping convulsing around him, your clit burning in pleasure due to sensitivity as he kept letting the soft tendon rub against the tender bud.
ā€œFuck!ā€ You whined, liquid suddenly spewing from your cunt much to Jungkookā€™s surprise, his tentacle had immediately restricted at the feeling leaving your cunt feeling empty and tears nearly escaping yours eyes in frustration due to it despite his second tendon continually abusing your clits sweet spot, within the second the first tentacle entered your once more pushing with no hesitation right back to its original position as Jungkook began wiggling once again with short thrusts.Ā 
Your walls kept squeezing around him causing him to moan as he whined, ā€œYou- you need to stop doing that...feels too good.ā€ He mumbled shyly against your skin as you nearly convulsed in pleasure at the way his third tendon was wrapped around your nipple, giving the bit of pressure that had your cunt squeezing around his tentacle, too busy in your own pleasure to care about what he wanted, your hand wrapped around his throat making his eyes widen and his lips part submissively, ā€œIā€™m gonna keep doing what I want baby- fuck...I think you like it when my little cunt squeezes around it.ā€ You purposely clenched around his tentacle and you could physically feel it throb inside you.
Jungkookā€™s lips trembled a little a moan escaped him at your hand squeezing lightly around his throat his tentacle immediately fucking you even faster in comply as your lips parted in glee, your hips rolling a little to slide along the slick thick tendon, ā€œThats right baby boy, I bet youā€™ve never felt a cunt like this before huh?ā€ You let out a shaky cackle as your hand sadistically squeezed harder around his neck.Ā 
His gaze dropped and he only whined, quickly crumbling to your dominant hands that only excited you further, it was one thing to cross off your bucket list getting fucked by an alien, it was two being able to dom one, ā€œOh am I suddenly in control now?ā€ You mockingly pouted before a twisted smirk curled on your face at how Jungkook wouldnā€™t meet your eyes any longer.
Power was practically leaking in your veins, you were getting fucked by a tentacle alien and he was a shy little sub? Your squeezed harsher around his neck, a whiney moan suddenly escaping him as his tentacle harshly pulsed inside you before it frozen, his face buried into your neck, impatient and now knowing you could boss him around freely your hips lifted, squelching and slipping around the tendon with ease as his lips trembled against your neck, ā€œMmm! P-please! You have to slow downā€¦ā€ he whimpered a little at how cruel you were being with him.Ā 
You could care less in this moment though, too busy living out your dream fantasy bucking your hips against the soft subtle material, your cunt squeezing around him as you moaned softly.
Your moan twisted to a growl at the feeling of his tentacle pausing in your clit, your hand finding his hair as you harshly balled it into your hand, ā€œI didnā€™t give you permission to stop.ā€ Jungkookā€™s gaze lowered and his eyes a little watery despite the angry pout on his face.
ā€œYou arenā€™t listening to me.ā€ He mumbled stubbornly and your lips twitched, outwardly showing displeasure but inwardly seeking the chase he was trying to give. Jungkook fumbled with you had pushed away, briefly his tendons pulled away in semi surprise, at first assuming you had taken his shy words the wrong way but he was quickly mistaken when he was shoved onto the bed, a whine escaping him as the tentacles quickly adjusted to be semi flattened. His lips were quivering at the sight of your naked body straddling him and your hand on his jaw, ā€œTruthfully, I donā€™t think you want me to listen baby.ā€ You pouted mockingly, the feeling of his stretched tentacles seekingly wrapping around your thighs, ā€œOpen.ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lips parted a little, his eyes watering and looking a little confused at your words, but you had took advantage of the opportunity, spitting into his mouth as he suddenly whined, his ears bright red following along with the magenta color coursing through his body as your hand wrapped around his throat in a firm grip, ā€œGood boy.ā€ You smiled loosely, wiping a stray bit of saliva from his lip as he whined, a tentacle beginning to stroke against your soaked cunt once more but this time he did nothing except in hopes of an invitation.
ā€œSuch a good boy, go on, I know you want to.ā€ You cooed out, your head hanging a little and your lips parting at the feeling of the tentacle plunging back inside your warm walls with a loud squelch, ā€œStay still.ā€ You commanded sharply and with a noisy whine from Jungkook as he obediently listened, you could feel the foreign tendon inside you pulsing still as if it nearly killed him to do so. Your hips steadily began to move along the tentacle, your cunt clenching around it as you took more of him it only got fatter and thicker the more you took.Ā 
ā€œAhh, fuck. Thatā€™s it baby, cā€™mon keep filling me up. I know you want to. I can see it in your face.ā€ You taunted, feeling his tentacle doing a test wiggle inside you as you slid along it, arousal coating him as he whined, you had a great view of his other tentacles sliding from under his back and extending upward, the second quickly made way for your clit much to your excitement, your lips parted and a whine escaping you as it kept rubbing into your sweet spot it had previously discovered.Ā 
You were too busy trembling and moaning, attempting to fight off another orgasm at the feeling of your clit almost feeling like it was being ate out at how soft the tip of his tentacle was gently lapping against it and a soft wet arousal of his own leaking from the tip, you had bounced against his tendon in short motions, craving all of him inside you as your body began to convulse, your hands balling against his chest with a whine at how difficult it was to stop yourself from cumming immediately.
Jungkook wasnā€™t letting go without a fight though, a third tentacle had surprised you, pushing between the cheeks of your ass making you nearly gasp a whine, ā€œFuck! Fuck, please.ā€ You mumbled in a moment of weakness, giving your consent that youā€™d like to trust heā€™d be able to make this feel good. Jungkook didnā€™t hesitate for a second, the tentacle oozed a slippery liquid, his own arousal along your puckered rim. You were almost too fucked out to even pay attention, your body busy still riding him and trying to focus on anything but the feeling of the slippery tentacle flicking at your clit and finding nearly every pleasurable nerve physically possible.Ā 
It was difficult to miss the third one pushing slowly into your ass as your lips jumbled something nearly incomprehensible, your body collapsing semi against him, only being held up by your weak forearms, ā€œMmph! Fuck baby keep going, just like that. Such a good boy for me.ā€Ā 
Jungkook squeaked out what sounded like a pleasant noise at the praise, perhaps sensing your body beginning to crumble as his tentacles took back over, quickly thrusting inside you once more and wiggling to his heart's pleasure as drool nearly dropped from your lips. Unable to even do anything or say anything with two tentacles plunged inside you.Ā 
The tip of the tentacle was just narrow enough to slip inside your ass with a gentle sting but pleasurable enough to make your toes curl and whines escape you at the feeling of the force of his thrusts on either side of your body. His second was still lapping up around your clit, finding that perfect spot that nearly made your vision go white and you werenā€™t sure what escaped your throat other than possibly the best orgasm you would ever experience in your life.Ā 
And it didnā€™t stop after a second, it just kept going with his tentacles drilling inside you and lapping around your delicate hyper sensitive clit as you whined and cried against him. Jungkook moaned softly as you felt what potentially might have been a second tentacle greedily pushing inside your cunt, whimpers escaping you at how harshly he was thrusting up inside you and how stretched your body was.Ā 
Your mouth parting at the feeling of the forth tentacle pushing its way to meet the first as you squeaked and whined against him, a tentacle wrapping around your waist to hold up your lower body that nearly collapsed as your vision blurred with tears at how hard you were being fucked. Jungkookā€™s eyes were shut tightly and his hands had finally grabbed your waist as extra support as his third tentacle wiggled its way further into your ass. The pleasurable sting becoming more and more noticeable as you cried out at the feeling of one tentacle flicking up against your g-spot and the other harshly thrusting into you while your clit was hypersensitive at the feeling of being rubbed and flicked.Ā 
Your last orgasm couldnā€™t even compete with this one as you cried out, body convulsing and cunt tightening as you nearly scrambled almost looking possessed to the unknown eye, your body had clenched up so hard at being so filled you hadnā€™t even heard the sharp whine from Jungkook. Hot liquid suddenly spurted everywhere the majority of it inside you but some getting on you, over the bed, everywhere.Ā 
Jungkook whimpered and whined, digging his face into your neck and his tentacles were pulsing sharply as if literally pumping out every drop of liquid they could inside you. You were so fucked out you could hardly even ask what in the actual hell he just injected inside you. You had already been tired before but your body was burning and aching, feeling as if you had literally been ripped to pieces.Ā 
At least you finally got a piece of that tentacle action.
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You were not someone that fucked and then immediately slept afterwards, typically after a one night stand, depending on your relation with the person you would either ghost them by pretending to go to the bathroom, talk and hang out afterwards, or go get something to eat together, or by yourself, you werenā€™t picky.
Rubbing your blurry eyes you yawned, your body aching with even the slightest movement, Jungkook was the first man who had ever fucked you so hard, you had little to no choice but to fall asleep afterwards, you probably couldnā€™t even stand if you wanted too. He was curled up against your chest at the moment, his head pressed into your breasts looking way too content at the moment.Ā 
Your eyes trailed down at his fluffy raven hair before down the warm tawny skin of his back, something in your chest stirring, it felt like it was almost physically tugging you closer to his body, your hand finding its way to his hair making him stir a little. Jungkookā€™s arms wiggled against your waist to make himself comfortable once more before relaxed with a content sigh.Ā 
The marks on his back glowed a sentient purple, you had never gotten a good look at his back before.Ā 
And while this wasnā€™t that great of a position to view, you were still curious with what you could see, they formed two long strips down his back widening a fair bit and they stopped just at the smallest part of his waist. If you didnā€™t know any better you wouldā€™ve remarked that it looked like he had wings ripped from his back.
As morbid as it sounded, and that is of course if they glowed like this. Jungkook really was the prettiest thing you had ever seen, your hand hadnā€™t even meant to pull from his hair down his neck, you couldnā€™t help the tug in your chest wanting to touch.
However the moment your fingers grazed over the mark that covered his left shoulder blade Jungkook nearly flew out of your arms making you jolt in just as much surprise as him, his lips parted and he had sat up, gaze sharp as he looked around as if for any possible intruders. Slowly as he woke up though he came to the realization it was just you and him, your smile becoming somewhat sheepish as you mumbled, ā€œUm, sorry, I didnā€™t mean to wake you.ā€ You cleared your throat feeling bad now, was it just that sensitive? You might not know much about Orionianā€™s but you could take a guess and assume that was the opening to where his tentacles laid dormant, and given they were also how they procreated...It was natural Jungkook was probably a little defensive about them being touched.Ā 
Jungkook said nothing though, only staring at you for a long moment before he whined a little, suddenly crawling back up to you before collapsing on top of you as you huffed, ā€œYou canā€™t startle me like that, my scaling is sensitive.ā€ He mumbled a little shy, grabbing your hand as he placed it back on top of his head obviously wanting affection.Ā 
Your fingers dug back into his scalp making a pleasant noise escape him as his body relaxed once more, ā€œ...Scaling?ā€ Your brows furrowed at his words, complying with his silent demand to have his hair played with as he curled up against you, his lips tugged into a smile as he rested his face between your breast.Ā 
ā€œYeah, my scales.ā€ Jungkook nodded as he held up his arm, pointing at the glowing marks making you frown, that...looked nothing like scales....Jungkook smiled a little as he rested back down while explaining, ā€œThere filled with hyper plasma so depending on the hormonal chemistry of my body will change colors.ā€ You got that part, even before he could speak English, but still...when you thought of scales, you thought of stuff like fish and...scaly things. Not aliens.Ā 
Jungkook only smiled happily as he looked up at you, it looked like thousands of stars twinkling in his eyes and the dim lights reflected off his iridescent skin, little tones of purple and blue could be spotted as he lifted his hand up to cup your cheek, his fingers carefully trailing down your jawline. There was a wave in your chest, something strong like...the only thing you could describe was pure happiness, ā€œHey what did you blow inside?ā€ You hadnā€™t even meant to ask that question but it had abruptly crossed your mind.Ā 
Jungkookā€™s gaze faltered a little, his scales suddenly turning bright pink and his bashfully lowered his gaze, pressing his cheek on your chest as he mumbled, ā€œIt was just plasma, itā€™s what helps carry eggs when theyā€™re released but...I already told you...my eggs arenā€™t ready yet. You have no possible chance of getting pregnant without my prior knowledge.ā€Ā 
His fingers tethered against your stomach as if saddened at the idea that his future kin werenā€™t in your stomach, a wave of sadness fleeting inside your chest briefly as you frowned, why did you feel so odd? You werenā€™t even the least bit sad about not being pregnant.Ā 
ā€œOkay...good I was just..wondering sinceā€¦ā€ You coughed a little, not finishing your sentence which you were originally going to say because he used you like an actual cum dump- not that you minded. But still. It was good to know. Jungkook said no more, only burying into your chest with a pouty whine.Ā 
Yawning you stretched out looking around before grabbing your phone which had somehow made it alive on your night stand, your notifications flooded with Jiminā€™s drunk texting on where you went last night and why you werenā€™t home...Wait, your eyes darted to the time, it was noon?! You had a lecture in half an hour!Ā 
ā€œFuck! I have to get to class!ā€ You immediately jolted up making Jungkook whine as he was jostled onto the bed as you limped along in search of your clothes, your body aching and resisting with each fumble before you nearly collapsed out of fatigue while grabbing your panties.Ā 
ā€œCanā€™t you just stay? Just for a little longer?ā€ Jungkook mumbled, his lips in a large puppy like pout as he held out his hand to you, something stirring in your chest that wanted to just curl back up against him, his eyes doe like and soft, almost pleading for you to cuddle back up against him.Ā 
ā€œI have midterms coming up Jungkook, I really canā€™t afford to skip class.ā€ You offered an apologetic smile, ā€œBesides itā€™s not like we canā€™t go get something to eat later or anything.ā€ Pulling your pants up you wobbled to the door, frowning as you pulled your sweatshirt back over your head, where was the door handleā€¦?
ā€œ..B-but!ā€ Jungkook fumbled as he pulled his shirt over his head before hurrying over to you, ā€œJust five more minutes? Or two? Pleaseā€¦!ā€ There was something urgent in his voice as his lips trembled as if he would be devastated if you left.Ā 
Examining the door your lips parted as you pushed the button on the wall, jolting a little as the door slid open, ā€œJungkook,ā€ You paused briefly, feeling a dull ache in your chest, a brief desire to do as pleaded as you looked up at him, ā€œI really have to go to class okay? Iā€™ll drop by later when Iā€™m finished for the day Iā€™m sure you...have stuff you need to talk about with your...um...kinā€¦ā€ You raised your brow a little awkwardly before you back walking down the hallway, something inside the back of your head almost tempted to stay with him.Ā 
He looked so panicked and whiny, it made you feel bad for having to go, and furthermore you secretly wished you could stay longer but you couldnā€™t afford to miss class with midterms so close.Ā 
If your memory was correct this should lead toā€¦! Aha, you felt victorious at the sight of the main, living area?Ā  The circular table was towards the smaller three step ledge that went up into the control room and the purple bonsai-like plant which had just been freshly pruned sat delicately on the other side of the room.Ā 
ā€œNo! I....Can I come with you then? And then we can come back here together later?ā€ Jungkook pleaded, his lips trembling and his eyes almost watery as you paused with a sigh, he was really tugging on your heart strings huh...It was almost easier to deny him back when he was unable to actually speak his wants to you.Ā 
ā€œJungkook I- I mean I guess you couldā€¦? But like, itā€™s just lecture, itā€™s boring, I have to be focused the whole time and no offense but...I feel like if you came I wouldnā€™t focus.ā€ You pulled a little away from him with an awkward smile while silently hoping the door had been fixed.Ā 
ā€œMorning you two,ā€ You turned around at the sight of Namjoon appearing from the large opening of the control room Taehyung who still looked sour following after him only to lean against the wall with crossed arms, Namjoon stepped down the three steps as he offered a polite smile, ā€œI hope you slept well, Iā€™m sure itā€™s a lot different compared to human dorms.ā€Ā 
You looked away from Namjoon unable to speak at the question of having slept well, you hardly slept half the night after getting your back blown out, but he was right, it was nothing like human- in any aspect whatsoever, whether it was the bed or who you got fucked by last night.Ā 
ā€œIt was fine...um the door....Is it fixed?ā€ You pointed your thumb behind your shoulder as you offered a weak smile.Ā 
Namjoon nodded stepping closer before he abruptly paused, his brows furrowing before he looked between you and Jungkook without so much as a word, it made you somewhat self conscious as you shuffled in your spot at nobody volunteering to get the door open, ā€œYeah, itā€™s fixed, ummā€¦ā€ His smile was a little tense before he looked between you and Jungkook, ā€œAre you both going out? Already?ā€Ā 
Jungkook refused to look his elder in the eyes, his lips plush and pouty, hair dusting over his eyes as he shuffled in his spot refusing to answer whatever unasked question his elder had, ā€œUh yeah, Iā€™m going to class, Jungkook can stay here though, Iā€™ll be back later.ā€ You shrugged, not understanding what their problem was.Ā 
Taehyung had not interjected into the conversation yet, his dark hair brushing over his eyes only in the opposite effect of Jungkook, making him look as if he had a death warrant with your name on it, ā€œAnd leave Jungkook alone?ā€ He gritted his teeth looking like he was ready to snarl at you, your lips quirked a little and your brow lifted in confusion, wasnā€™t that typically what people meant when they said they had to leaveā€¦?Ā 
ā€œUh yeah, and Iā€™ll come backā€¦?ā€ You trailed off, making it sound more like a question then a statement before Taehyung suddenly pushed off the wall, his walk was by no means in any hurry, but his shoulders were squared and his steps were paced with determination that had you taking a step back at the sight of him not stopping until he was right in front of you.Ā 
The energy of the room had gone tense before Taehyung snarled, ā€œYou bonded with my little brother and now youā€™re going to leave him!?ā€Ā 
You shrieked at suddenly being shoved against the wall, your ribs throbbing in pain as Taehyungā€™s hand wrapped around your throat, crushing your windpipe as you gagged, ā€œHumans really are pathetic selfish people.ā€ Tentacles suddenly wrapped around Taehyungā€™s hand before he was ripped away from you, hot red scales were a blur as Jungkook stood in front of you protectively.Ā 
Your hands rubbing your sore throat as you leaned against the wall gasping for air, ā€œStay out of this!ā€ Jungkook growled, his lips twitching and his eyes burning into his brothers, ā€œThis doesnā€™t involve you, let me sort it out and if you ever fucking touch my mate like that again I wonā€™t hesitate to rip your eggs straight out of your utaria.ā€Ā 
You jolted at the sight of Taehyung lashing out at Jungkook, both of them slamming into the wall near the hallway as they grappled and yet you could only stare in shock at what had just happened and what you had just heard. Namjoon was immediately between them both separating the two as he growled, ā€œTaehyung that wasnā€™t necessary! I doubt she even realizes what happened!ā€ Namjoon immediately twisted towards Jungkook with a scowl, ā€œAnd you! What did I tell you last night?ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s jaw was clenched, his scales a hot burning red that matched Taehyungā€™s and yet his eyes couldnā€™t meet Namjoonā€™s, his lips twitching a little as he glared into the wall, his expression slowly melting as Namjoon snapped, ā€œWhat did I tell you!? Why canā€™t you two ever listen for once? If you had we probably wouldnā€™t even be stuck on Earth right now! This is your mess Jungkook, I told you it wasnā€™t a good idea to bond this early on in our stay on Earth.ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s expression had turned neutral but something in his eyes still seemed bitter as he stared at the ground now, perhaps too scared to look up at you, who had backed away from all the men in shock. You...but...Jungkook saidā€¦The silence set in and slowly each brother turned their gaze towards you before Jungkook was the last, his face filled with remorse at your expression as your lips parted, ā€œYouā€¦! You told me-ā€ Your lips parted variously before you finally forced out a sentence, ā€œYou lied to me!ā€Ā 
ā€œI didnā€™t!ā€ Jungkook immediately hurried over to you, his expression filled with guilt and desperation, ā€œI- Y/n I wasnā€™t even aware we had bonded until Taehyung pointed it out! Iā€™m sorry I had no idea Iā€¦!ā€ All you heard was excuse after excuse though, something indescribable filled your chest and your vision blurred in anger.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m going! I canā€™tā€¦! I canā€™t even look at you right now Jungkook!ā€ Upset felt like it had magnified tenfold in your chest as you rushed down the metal stairs, punching against the button before the door opened, your throat felt squeezed and like you were suffocating as you ran as far and fast as your legs could take you. What was happening to you?Ā 
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ā€œIā€™m fineā€¦ā€Ā 
Jimin and Seokjin exchanged glances, light poured in from the opened door behind them of your bedroom, the blanket wrapped around your body has you held it up above your nose, ā€œUh donā€™t lie bitch,ā€ Jimin quirked a brow, his lips twitching in anger at just the sight of you trying to tell such an obvious lie, ā€œItā€™s been three days since...whatever happened with JK- ā€œJungkook,ā€ ā€œI donā€™t give a fuck what his name is, youā€™ve been a recluse ever since, what happened?ā€Ā 
Just the mention of Jungkookā€™s name made your chest physically ache as you curled further into yourself, you werenā€™t in physical pain, you couldnā€™t even fully describe it.Ā 
All of your feelings just felt so amplified, like they swirled at just the surface of your chest and ready to burst out at any given moment. It felt like a physical string around your heart that squeezed and tugged harder and harder that left you in a depressed state with no energy left to do anything except what you had been doing.
Weakly sleeping half the time or scrolling on your phone in a useless attempt to think about anything other than Jungkook. You couldnā€™t even understand how you felt so attached to him and how much your body ached to just be wrapped up in his arms, but you were still so upset at what had happened.Ā 
Questions swirled in your mind and to which you didnā€™t have the answer too and it made you even more upset that you wouldnā€™t get answers unless you went back, ā€œY/n, weā€™re just worried.ā€ Seokjin raised his brows, his expression apprehensive but softened at the weak state you were in, ā€œYou havenā€™t been out of your room ever since the morning after the party. Midterms are just around the corner, I doubt you slack off for a shit reason.ā€Ā 
You only curled up further before you sighed, closing your eyes as you finally caved in and mumbled an explanation as to what had happened and what you were now suffering under. Seokjin seemed more calm but Jiminā€™s lips were twitching in anger as he scowled, ā€œYouā€™re joking! Well letā€™s just go and demand he cut whatever alien ties he has on you.ā€Ā 
You knew he was just trying to help but you only shook your head, ā€œ...Taehyung said I was the one that had apparently formed the bond, I didnā€™t even know that was possible.ā€ You mumbled, you buried into your pillow, a feeling of guilt building into your chest as you tried to forget the ghost image of Jungkookā€™s hurt eyes in your mind.Ā 
ā€œWell itā€™s obviously affecting you mentally and physically, I mean seriously, you havenā€™t showered in days, you arenā€™t eating, Y/nā€¦ā€ Seokjin kneeled down, a frown on his face, ā€œYou need to swallow your pride, as stubborn as you are, and go talk to Jungkook about this. Weā€™ll come with you, you probably wonā€™t even have the energy to get there, but heā€™s the only one who can help.ā€
You managed to roll over to your side, your back facing them both now as you pulled the blanket over your head, you didnā€™t want to face Jungkook again, you werenā€™t sure you were ready to. You had so many mixed feelings and you werenā€™t even sure what to begin on asking questions.Ā 
Neither said anymore before you heard Seokjin reluctantly sigh, ā€œIā€™ll leave it for tonight, but tomorrow morning youā€™re giving us directions and weā€™re going to get this sorted.ā€ They both left shortly after and closed the door sinking the room back into a depth of darkness. A heavy weight back on your chest and sudden ache filling you as you curled up, a dull sense of urgency inside you but you couldnā€™t distinguish what for. It felt like you needed to cry even despite not feeling sad, but maybe as a way to just release this energy.
But you didnā€™t do anything besides lay on your back, staring up at the ceiling as you sighed, trying to ignore the dull ache of your head, what a shit show. If you had known what your life would come to by just trying to be a good person, you wouldā€™ve left him in that ditch. ----
It felt like your body was being dragged through the mud, through the fire and hell maybe even gitting shit on at this point, ā€œThis is so stupid.ā€ You mumbled, curled up in your hoodie as you hugged your knees into your chest in the back of Seokjinā€™s car.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re the one that fucked an alien,ā€ Jimin snorted, twisting in his seat as he cocked a brow, ā€œWhich, what possessed you to do that seriously? Your stupid little hentai fantasies?ā€ He stared at you with a bizarre expression as you snorted weakly.Ā 
ā€œYeah pretty much.ā€Ā 
ā€œFucking knew it,ā€ Jimin collapsed back in his seat, ā€œWe could get our assholes probed by aliens now because she couldnā€™t keep her panties on at the sight of a slimy tentacle.ā€ He raised his hands dramatically and you couldā€™ve sworn you heard Seokjin try to keep from laughing at you both.Ā 
ā€œTheyā€™ll probe you with their tentacles too, apparently they make their own lube home made so theyā€™ll slide it right in no problem.ā€ If you had the energy you wouldā€™ve died laughing at the way Jimin whipped around in his seat in horror.Ā 
ā€œNo fucking way. You WILLINGLY let him do that to you?ā€Ā 
You couldnā€™t stop the weak laugh escaping you as you leaned your head against the window, ā€œIā€™m a slut.ā€ You shrugged before you lifted your head a little, ā€œRight there! It should be in the field. I think it has some sort of cloaking shield or something.ā€ Seokjin pulled off on the old winding back road which looked familiar enough.
He hadnā€™t been going fast to begin with and you had already stopped twice and the two other fields had been empty so this one had to be it, and if it wasnā€™t then it was safe to say you broken Jungkookā€™s heart right in two and he and his other space fuckboy brothers left Earth for good. Which you hoped not because you felt like you were in a weird limbo between life and death at the moment.Ā 
Stepping out of the car you paused as you heaved a breath, leaning against the car as you sighed, the energy feeling like it had been sucked straight out of your soul every passing minute. Jimin looked at you mildly concerned as you waved him off, slowly pushing yourself straight up as you wrapped your arms around yourself.Ā 
The comforts of your hoodie keep you warm as you ignore the dull ache in your chest, Seokjin and Jimin both kept close as you all looked like idiots wandering around in an empty field. The empty field however, upon stepping forward had suddenly blurred before the familiar sight of the ship came into view. Seokjin and Jimin were dumbfounded at the sight as they both stared.Ā 
You only trudged forward towards the door before you slammed your hand against the metal door, ā€œWell? What are you both doing just standing there?ā€ You asked with a furrowed brow.
ā€œWell sorry I didnā€™t fuck an alien the first chance I got.ā€ Jimin fumbled out with a huff as he hurried over along with Seokjin.Ā 
The door had immediately been opened to a relieved looking Namjoon, his eyes briefly landing on Jimin and Seokjin warily as he spoke, ā€œIā€™m glad you came back! Come on, hurry in.ā€ He ushered you in, ā€œ...Iā€™m assuming these are your...friendsā€¦?ā€Ā 
ā€œBest friends, roommates, the same guys that also allowed your little space fuckboy to stay with us.ā€ Jimin growled out as he crossed his arms, standing as a big brother you never asked for as Seokjin snorted.Ā 
ā€œChill,ā€ He shoved Jimin a little who only grumbled under his breath before he spoke, ā€œIā€™m Seokjin and thatā€™s Jimin, weā€™re Y/nā€™s roommates weā€™re already uh...aware of what you guys are we just...we donā€™t know whatā€™s going on, we just want Y/n to be okay.ā€Ā 
Namjoon nodded slowly, still a little wary but it was to be expected, he said no more as he widened the latch for the three of you, ā€œY/n left right at the beginning stage of their bond when itā€™s imperative that the newly bonded couple stay together and establish a stable connection. If not, it becomes unstable and drains the life force out of both individuals causing a wide variety of ailments and illnesses to take over. Itā€™s good you guys came back when you did, Jungkook is doing even worse sense he was the Si in the bond.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat is she doing back here?ā€ Your lips twitched a little at the snarl from Taehyung who had shot up from his seat at the table, his eyes glaring holes into you and honestly, if he could vaperize you into dust at the moment you were sure he probably would.Ā 
ā€œHere to break the little probe ass connection your fuckboy put on her,ā€ Jimin snapped back unappreciative at someone talking this way to you especially in the condition you were in right now.
Taehyungā€™s lip twitched as he shot out of his seat, ā€œMy little brother may be naive but he had good intentions and she took advantage of his fragile state! He wasnā€™t in any sort of headspace to do anything!ā€ You only curled away from Taehyung with mixed feelings, you wouldnā€™t necessarily describe Jungkookā€™s state of mind at the time, fragile as it was just horny.Ā 
Namjoon sighed as he looked at Seokjin before at you and then the two feuding men who were practically glaring into one another, ā€œTaehyung, donā€™t do anything irrational, Iā€™m going to get Jungkook.ā€ Namjoon disappeared and it was quiet inside the ship as a tension took over the room.Ā 
You tried your best to ignore it as you slumped against the wall, listening to the whirling on the interior running. Not a minute later you heard a loud flutter of steps as you looked up, Jungkookā€™s hair had been ruffled and he had looked extraordinarily tired, his scales however were lit up a sky blue, his lips parted as if trying to figure out if you were real or not before he hurried to you.Ā 
His arms wrapping around you and a small whimper escaping him as his nose rubbed into your neck, your face pressed into his chest with a sigh of relief, the dull ache in your chest fading quickly as you basked in the warmth of Jungkookā€™s arms. You had hugged many people in your life before and sure it was nice, but you couldnā€™t even describe the wash of comfort and love that radiated through your entire being at being curled up in this manā€™s arms.Ā 
Jungkookā€™s nose nudged at your neck a little and buried himself into your embrace as his fingers fiddled with the thick material of your hoodie, ā€œJungkook,ā€ Jungkook shuffled a little, his body practically wrapped around you as his eyes slowly looked up from his content figure to meet Namjoonā€™s gaze, ā€œYou both should go lay down and begin to properly set your bond together, Iā€™m sure youā€™re both exhausted.ā€Ā 
Jungkook nodded wordlessly, perhaps not trusting himself to speak as he began to lead you towards his pod, ā€œWoah, wait hold on.ā€ Jimin cut in only for a snarl like growl to escape Jungkook, tentacles suddenly shooting from his back protectively pulling towards the front of his body to create a barrier between you and any threat that might take you away from him.Ā 
ā€œWoah holy fuck!ā€ Jimin nearly screeched, holding his hands up and freaking out a little at seeing a killer glare on such an innocent face, ā€œWe didnā€™t come here for thisā€¦! What, what do you mean, set a bond? I donā€™t want Y/n out of our sightā€¦!ā€Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lip twitched in annoyance as he set his chin on your shoulder, his arms tightening around your waist and you could see the red glow of his scales slowly deepening further into a dark maroon, he did not look happy.Ā 
Namjoon put up a hand, offering a tense smile, ā€œAll that entails is them being together and being close, they need to stabilize their bond. Once itā€™s set they can figure out whether they want to...bond further orā€¦ā€ Namjoon didnā€™t finish his sentence, is eyes warily lingering on the youngerā€™s expression which was sharp and annoyed, ā€œ...You get the idea, I would advise against stopping him, trying to separate them now when he just got her backā€¦.I canā€™t guarantee Iā€™ll keep you both alive.ā€Ā 
Jimin and Seokjin shared a wary glance before stepping aside, Jungkookā€™s gaze broody as he watched them sharply as he trudged you both forward, his tentacles still out and floating behind him now as if ready to strike on contact. The tension didnā€™t leave until you were back into his pod once more, the room having not been changed except for a lot more clutter accumulation- much like your own room.Ā 
You hadnā€™t even had the chance to open your mouth before you were suddenly picking up, your legs wrapping around Jungkook as you squirmed, ā€œJungkook!ā€ You squeaked out, his hands gripping your ass tightly but his face kept nudging into your neck as he whined,Ā  the killer aura he had not seconds ago immediately disappearing, ā€œDonā€™t ever do that again,ā€ You were nearly crushed when you were dropped onto the bed before Jungkook collapsed on top of you, ā€œPlease.ā€ Guilt nearly devoured your heart at the way Jungkook held back a sob, his voice pleading and cracked, ā€œItā€™s not fair! You-! You canā€™t just do this to me then leave. Never again.ā€ You felt warm substance dripping onto your skin and your heart was pounding in your chest.Ā 
An innate need coursing through your veins to dry his tears as you did so, ā€œIā€™m sorry! Iā€™m sorry okay?ā€ You whispered out, your hands cupping his cheeks, that iridescent glow on his skin and his eyes watery and big, ā€œIā€™m justā€¦! I was just scared, I didnā€™t know what was going on and I just thought I needed time to think. I had no idea what the effects were and what would happen if I left. Iā€™m not going to leave okay? I wonā€™t leave.ā€Ā 
Jungkook only closed his eyes, tears falling down his cheeks and you couldnā€™t help but watch in a melancholy awe at an almost glittery substance filling his tears, making the stains on his skin glisten and glitter under the dark lights of his room, Jungkook said no more, perhaps not trusting himself too and only curled himself further against your as your hands soothingly ran through his hair as his body melted into yours. No words were further spoken between you both as you curled against him once more, your nose burying in his hair with the innate need to comfort him.Ā 
Feelings were too intense and magnified, as if you could feel every speck of hurt and misery Jungkook had suffered without you and despite being cognitively aware you in any other case wouldnā€™t be like this, you still were. You didnā€™t understand what happened, or how it happened, but what you did know was that despite all of the uncertainty, Jungkook needed you.Ā 
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You werenā€™t sure how much time had passed, neither of you had talked for what seemed like hours, only staying close in one another's arms, and slow but surely, that unstable feeling in your chest was beginning to fade and was replaced by what you could only describe as a warm, bright thrum.
Both of you were awake, but Jungkookā€™s eyes looked far away, his face still laid against your chest as you tenderly stroked through his hair, ā€œJungkook,ā€ He didnā€™t respond right away, shifting a little before those doe eyes looked up at you, his lips jutted into a soft pout that nearly broke your heart out of guilt, ā€œWhat....whatā€™s going on? I donā€™t understand anything.ā€ Your fingers delicately traced his prominent cheekbones, his face immediately nuzzling into your hand as his eyes closed.Ā 
Jungkookā€™s lips trembled only a little as he mumbled, ā€œ...I...Iā€™m not sure...I told you before that in order for a bond to be created it has to be wanted between both parties involved,ā€ His nose nudged your hand as you tenderly thumbed his cheek, ā€œWh-which means...even if it wasnā€™t a surface thought you still energetically reached out and initiated the bond making you the Fi and me the Si since I accepted without realizing.ā€Ā 
His lips went pouty before he pressed his head back against your chest as you stared down at him mildly confused, perhaps realizing this he spoke further, ā€œFi and Si are considered sacred opposites, in a bond both people take on one or the other, the initiator the Fi and the receiver the Si, it makes sense you didnā€™t feel as much as I did, the Fi in the bond isnā€™t affected nearly as heavily as the Si is because you were the one who created the bond.ā€
You still didnā€™t quite understand other than this being a Yin and Yang equivalent with a dash of omegaverse on the side, but then again, if humans had descended from Orionianā€™s then the apple truly didnā€™t fall too far from the tree.Ā 
ā€œAnd...the Fi is whatā€¦? The more dominant one?ā€ You quirked a brow, a smile threatening to tug on your lips as Jungkook looked up at you, an unfair pout of his face as he set his chin on your chest, leading you to believe there was some merit to your words.Ā 
ā€œNot exactly, it just means you were the one who established the bond, making you the one who, in more primal words, the caretaker. With newly bonded couples, itā€™s imperative that you be together for the first few days to stabilize the bond. Si tends to be more....ā€ He shifted a little, his scales becoming pink as he buried into your chest, ā€œ...Clingy...and Fi tends to facilitate and care for Si while the bond stabilizes.ā€
Your hand made its way back to his hair as you tenderly combed through the soft silky locks as Jungkookā€™s relaxed back against you, practically melting into your touch as you hummed, ā€œAnd...if it isnā€™t stabilized?ā€Ā 
Jungkook shifted a little against you as he mumbled, ā€œ...Well, both people become....I donā€™t know how to truly describe, if a bond isnā€™t stabilized...it becomes difficult to distinguish your own feelings from your partners, and with the bond unstable it causes an emptiness to fill both which causes sadness and pain, but because feelings can be mutually felt, it magnifies those feelings tenfold...Until eventuallyā€¦.ā€ Jungkook frowned as he shrugged a little timidly, ā€œBoth go insane, or end up commiting suicide out of despair. Si feels it a lot more intensely then Fi though because of being the one who was tethered into the bond rather than creating it.ā€
Ohā€¦
You said nothing, feeling even worse now knowing what had happened and what you could have possibly caused, not only this but for Jungkook to suffer through so much all because you couldnā€™t just hear him out for less than five minutes, ā€œDonā€™t blame yourself,ā€ Jungkook sat up a little to look at you earnestly, as if knowing exactly what you felt despite not saying anything, ā€œYou donā€™t know anything about Orionianā€™s, I...I shouldā€™ve handled everything better then I didā€¦ā€ His gaze lowered looking a little glassy as he sighed, ā€œJust...please never do that again.ā€ He collapsed back against you with a quiet mumble, ā€œI was miserable.ā€Ā 
ā€œI wonā€™t baby.ā€ You ushered softly, pressing your lips into his hair as he basked in your love, the silence taking over once more as you relaxed back down against him, intending on letting yourself fall asleep again before you felt a low rumble in your stomach, before you sighed...Well he did say since you wereā€¦.Fi...that you were supposed to be a caretaker....?
ā€œHey, Iā€™m starving...you want me to get us something to eat?ā€ You sat up a little as Jungkook shifted beneath you with a whine, his cheeks puffing a little as he huffed, saying nothing but you had a suspicion that he was definitely hungry, ā€œIā€™m getting us something to eat, what do you want babe?ā€ You got out of bed making Jungkook scramble with another whine.Ā 
He immediately latched himself to you as you sighed, ā€œThen weā€™re going together. Do you guys even have human food here?ā€Ā 
ā€œWe have plamatic barrettes.ā€ Jungkook perked a little in excitement as you frowned.Ā 
ā€œCan...Are...are they edible for humans?ā€ You raised a brow as you opened the door, doing an awkward waddle as Jungkook back hugged you, happily nuzzling into your neck before he frowned.
ā€œWell...umā€¦ā€ He rubbed his head as you tutted, it wasnā€™t that you werenā€™t willing to try it but you were really craving some fries right now and whatever it was they ate, didnā€™t sound even close to a potato.Ā 
ā€œWe can try it later babe, I brought my wallet so we can go get something to eat, if Jimin and Seokjin havenā€™t left itā€™ll be like a two minute drive.ā€ You shrugged as you both entered the common space.Ā 
ā€œYou both arenā€™t going anywhere.ā€ Namjoon had been running around with Taehyung while Jimin and Seokjin were working frantically on...what looked like an engine box as the man turned around with a serious expression making you and Jungkook twist into concern, ā€œThe Arbitrators are here on Earth, which means weā€™re leaving.ā€Ā 
You didnā€™t quite understand the gravity of the situation but...you had a feeling this wasnā€™t an ideal situation.
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(Not So) Casual Friday
Fandom: Criminal Minds Pairings: Aaron Hotchner/Female Reader Word Count: 4,456 Tags: 18+, NSFW, Dad Bod Hotch (it's not a main component but he very much has the tummy here), Pining, Accidentally admitting attraction, Embarrassment, A little angst, Oral sex, Protected sex Summary: Your best friend Derek finds out about your feelings for Hotch and teases you mercilessly. You can manage it, though, until the first ever Casual Friday, when Hotch shows up to work in a black polo and jeans and you kind of ruin everything. Or maybe you don't? *Requested by anon Link to A03 or read below! ā€œOkay, girlie, todayā€™s the day,ā€ Derek says when you set your bag and coffee cup on your desk on Monday morning. You shoot your best friend a tired smile and wonder for theā€”youā€™ve worked at the BAU for almost two years, so itā€™s probably the 500th timeā€”for the 500th time why he has to be such a morning person when you would prefer not to have a conversation until at least 10 AM.
ā€œTodayā€™s the day for what?ā€ you sigh, asking out of obligation, because itā€™s obvious thatā€™s what heā€™s waiting for; he smiles, picks up your coffee and hands it to you, which must mean you sound bitchy. You take a grateful sip, close your eyes and exhale through your nose.
ā€œFor you to admit to me that youā€™re in love with Hotch.ā€
You spit out your coffeeā€”only all over yourself, which is great, wouldnā€™t want to inconvenience Derek at allā€”and then cough so hard he has to thump on your back to help clear your airway.
It draws some attention; Hotch comes out of his office, takes a look at the two of you and probably regrets hiring the both of you, then walks down the stairs to make sure youā€™re okay.
ā€œWhat happened? Youā€™re wet,ā€ he says a bit gruffly, looking at the coffee all over your chest and sleeves. You glare over at Derek, whoā€™s clearly trying not to laugh.
ā€œDerek made me spill my coffee.ā€ You grab a handful of tissues off your desk and pat at the wet spot, trying to soak up the worst of it, but itā€™s not salvageable. Youā€™ll have to change your shirt.
ā€œAnd then youā€¦ choked on it?ā€ Hotch asks, to clarify. Derek does laugh at that; the things Hotch is saying happen to have dual meanings, slightly sexual, and now that Derek knowsā€”thinks he knowsā€”about your thing for Hotch, itā€™s clear he finds it all so hilarious. Heā€™s a twelve year old boy in a grown manā€™s body.
ā€œOkay, I didnā€™t spill, I spit,ā€ you correct, looking up at them, and Derek makes an exaggerated face of disapproval.
ā€œShould have swallowed,ā€ he says, trying to sound serious, and you shoot him an irritated look and reach out to slap him in the chest. Asshole.
ā€œDo you need help getting cleaned up?ā€ Hotchā€™s expression is kind, sweet, but youā€™d sooner die than have him blot coffee off of your boobs. It would be mortifying, especially in front of Derek.
ā€œNo, no, I think Iā€™m okay. Thanks,ā€ you add with a soft smile, and then you reach up and pull your sweater over your head, unzip your go bag, and search for another top.
For some reason, Hotch has a coughing fit scarily similar to the one you just had, and you turn to pat his back like Derek did for you.
ā€œAre you alright?ā€ you ask, looking up into his face, and he nods despite his watering eyes.
ā€œFine,ā€ he croaks, and he leaves as quickly as he came. You sigh, because itā€™s not even nine and your day has already been so weird.
Youā€™re wearing a tank top, and thankfully the coffee didnā€™t get through to that layer, so itā€™s quick and easy to throw another lightweight sweater over top of it; you ball up the wet one, shove it in the dirty clothes portion of your bag, zip it up and stash it under your desk. Derek looks like heā€™s having the best day of his life.
ā€œYou realize you just undressed in front of Hotch,ā€ he says with a tone you donā€™t appreciate. You roll your eyes.
ā€œI did not. I had a tank top on underneath.ā€ You almost always wear an undershirt, because youā€™ve been a cop long enough to know that sometimes your clothes get torn or messed up in the line of duty, and youā€™re not trying to offer a free show while taking down an unsub. Derek wiggles his eyebrows, points at your chest.
ā€œYeah, one that put those little boobies on display. His eyes bulged out of his head like a cartoon character.ā€ This time, you punch him in the arm, hard. Itā€™s too goddamn early for this.
ā€œCan you please shut up already? I donā€™t have a thing for Hotch.ā€
ā€œAh, I didnā€™t say you had a thing, I said youā€™re in love with him. And I have evidence; lots of it.ā€ You tip your head back, groan, wondering what you did to deserve a best friend who is also such a pain in the ass, and itā€™s that moment that Hotch chooses to rejoin you; he looks a little flushed, probably from the coughing earlier.
ā€œUh. We have a case; I know not everyone is here yet, but you can head up to the briefing room, Iā€™ll grab the others when they arrive.ā€
ā€œSure thing, sir,ā€ you say easily, grabbing your tablet and whatā€™s left of your coffee; you gesture for Derek and he follows, laughing and shaking his head. ā€œOkay, what is it now? Iā€™m so glad you find me entertaining today.ā€
ā€œā€˜Sure thing, sir,ā€™ā€ he says with a high, breathy voice you assume is supposed to mimic yours. ā€œYou want his dick so bad.ā€ You narrow your eyes at him as you head upstairs.
ā€œUh, because I was being respectful? I know thatā€™s a foreign concept for you, the worldā€™s biggest asshole, but you donā€™t have to read anything into it.ā€ You take your usual seats at the table, pull up the note-taking app on your tablet, and Derek sits back, crosses his arms behind his head.
ā€œWell youā€™re not calling me ā€˜sirā€™, and Iā€™m the sexiest piece in the office, so itā€™s hard not to read into it.ā€ You look over at him, elbow on the table, chin in the palm of your hand.
ā€œSexy is subjective, and you donā€™t do it for me, sorry to break it to you.ā€ He scoffs, laughs, and you laugh too because you both know you see each other as brother and sister, buddies, and fellow former cops, and absolutely nothing else.
ā€œYeah, I get it, only Hotch does it for you; heā€™s not my type, but I can see how a young lady like yourself could be drawn to his brooding exterior.ā€
ā€œIā€™m not drawn to his exterior!ā€ you practically growl, and then youā€™re joined by Spencer and JJ.
ā€œGood morning. Whatā€™s going on with you two?ā€ JJ asks, loading up the monitors for the debriefing, her eyebrows raised.
ā€œSheā€™s in love with Hotch,ā€ Derek says completely nonchalantly, and you rest your head on the table, on top of your forearms, and sigh.
ā€œSheā€™s what?ā€ JJā€™s whole face lights up, and you seriously regret everything.
ā€œIā€™m not in love with anybody!ā€ you mumble against your arms, and then you sit up, because youā€™re clearly going to have to defend yourself. ā€œAnd Iā€™d appreciate it if you quit saying that I am.ā€
ā€œI told you I have evidence,ā€ Derek reminds you, leaning back in his chair a little. One swift kick would have him toppling ass over tea kettle, but youā€™re too nice, even when heā€™s actively trying to ruin your life. ā€œShall I go over it while we wait?ā€
ā€œIā€™ll be an objective third party,ā€ Spencer says with a brief smile, and you sigh, wave your hand toward Derek.
ā€œAlright, letā€™s hear it. Iā€™m sure I have a perfectly reasonable explanation for whatever evidence you might think you have.ā€ He grins like this is the moment heā€™s been waiting for, and you feel a little stupid for encouraging this.
ā€œFor one, you always look at him. When Iā€™m delivering a profile, I notice you watching the locals, making sure they understand what weā€™re going over, since you're the queen of analyzing the micro expressions. But when Hotch is delivering a profile, your eyes are on him the whole time. Same goes for discussing theories on the jet; anyone else, and youā€™ve got your face in your tablet, scribbling notes, but you always look at him when he speaks.ā€
Your cheeks get hot. Heā€™s a captivating speaker, is all, with that deep, velvety voice, and you can learn a lot from him, so you pay attention. Thatā€™s just being smart.
ā€œSecond, you tense when he gets close to you: not like you donā€™t want him to touch you, but like youā€™re halfway to jumping him already and trying to control it. I could probably put my hand in your pocket and you wouldn't even flinch, but if he leans over you to point at something you look like youā€™re about to cream your pants.ā€
ā€œI have seen that, actually,ā€ JJ offers, and you look over at her, betrayed. Sure, you get a whiff of his clean, crisp cologne, or feel the heat of him at your back, and your body reacts, reminds you that this is your boss and youā€™re at work and you canā€™t get turned on by the way he smells, but thatā€™s actually a good thing, not an indicator of feelings or anything.
ā€œThird, thereā€™s something up with you and the gray suits. I can literally tell that heā€™s wearing one before I even see him, all because of the look on your face. Itā€™s like youā€™re drunk on the gray suit.ā€
ā€œOkay, thatā€™s not true,ā€ you say with a roll of your eyesā€”the gray suits are god tier, but thereā€™s no way youā€™re that obviousā€”but itā€™s Spencer who speaks up, this time.
ā€œYou know, I have noticed that. Your pupils tend to be more dilated when his suit is gray or blue than when itā€™s black.ā€ Fuck. You sigh.
ā€œHe barely ever wears the blue. It looks so good on him,ā€ you murmur, and then you snap your eyes shut, cover your face with your hands. ā€œFuck. This is so embarrassing.ā€
ā€œTo be fair, we are profilers,ā€ Derek says, leaning in to pat your back. ā€œBut also to be fair, heā€™s been a profiler longer than any of us, so if we know, he definitely knows.ā€
ā€œNot helping, Derek,ā€ you grind out, and then youā€™re joined by the rest of the team. Penelope takes the seat next to you, leans in with a worried tone of voice.
ā€œIs everything okay?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s having a small crisis, but sheā€™ll be fine,ā€ JJ says with a smile, and you donā€™t miss the way Hotch looks you over when she says it, concern in his eyes. ā€œAlright, so weā€™re headed to Arkansasā€¦ā€
Later that morning, when youā€™ve been given your instructionsā€”yours are heading to the crime scene with Emily and Derekā€”Hotch pulls you out into the hall, rests a gentle hand on your arm.
ā€œAre you alright? JJ mentioned you were having a crisis earlier. This is the first time Iā€™ve been able to get you alone, and I wanted to check on you.ā€ You take a deep breath, look up at him, so handsome in a black suit, white shirt, green tieā€”he almost never wears a green tie, and you absently think it brings out the more golden tones of his eyesā€”and smile softly.
ā€œYeah, Iā€™m fine. Itā€™s really nothing. Personal stuff, and Iā€™m dealing with it.ā€ If by ā€˜dealing with itā€™ you mean youā€™ve been repressing it, shoving it down day in and day out until your feelings are choking you, then yeah, youā€™re dealing with it. ā€œThanks for checking, though, thatā€™s kind of you.ā€
ā€œOf course. Iā€™m here to help in any way I can, if you need me.ā€ Good god, do you need him, emotionally, physically, but thatā€™s fantasy, and this, what heā€™s offering, is rooted in reality. Good things do happen, but not to you.
ā€œThanks.ā€ Your voice is weak to your own ears, and he swallows, nods; you see Derek hovering by the door, waiting for you, and you pull away to join him, plastering a smile on your face. You donā€™t talk about it again until Friday, and at that point itā€™s extremely unavoidable.
Itā€™s Casual Friday, newly implemented by the bureau as a way to boost morale, and while it doesnā€™t really excite you, because youā€™re fairly casual anyway, others take full advantage of it. Others, including Hotch.
He shows up to work wearing a black polo and dark jeans, his usual watch. Itā€™s easily the most simplistic, basic outfit a man could decide to wear on Casual Friday, but this isnā€™t just a man, itā€™s Aaron fucking Hotchner, and so naturally, you lose your damn mind.
It wouldnā€™t be so bad if the damn polo didnā€™t fit him perfectly, tight across his shoulders and chest and the little tummy he has that makes you want to be under him so badly, your stomachs pressed together while he thrusts inside you, holding you tightly, his strong thighs working against yoursā€¦
ā€œHello, are you alive in there?ā€ Emily asks, waving her hand in front of your face; the two of you, along with Derek, are in Penelopeā€™s office for lunch while Rossi, Reid, and JJ are out of the office for a seminar. You blink, shake away your thoughts and hope and pray they donā€™t come backā€”but theyā€™ll come back, they always do.
ā€œSheā€™s just short circuiting because of Hotchā€™s Casual Friday look,ā€ Morgan says with a wink, sitting backward in his seat. ā€œSheā€™s been drooling so much Iā€™ve had to follow her around with a mop to clean up after her.ā€ You push your wheeled chair away from them with a groan, needing space and air and, potentially, a brain transplant. Youā€™ve gotten nothing done all day long.
ā€œCan you blame me? The man comes in here everyday, buttoned up tight, looking incredible in a suit and tie, and then he shows up in that black polo, all snug and hot and delicious, and you expect me not to freak out? You guys are lucky I didnā€™t pass out.ā€ Youā€™re met with silence, and you blink, confused, at your friends, but theyā€™re all just kind of staring with looks of barely concealed humor. ā€œWhat? Itā€™s not like itā€™s a secret that I want to climb him like a tree.ā€
ā€œPretty sure it was a secret to him,ā€ Penelope says, looking shocked, and you whip around in your chair to see Hotch standing in the doorway, wide-eyed and a little flushed.
ā€œOh my god. Iā€™m so sorry. I, uhā€”ā€ He raises a hand, waves you off.
ā€œItā€™s okay. No harm done; thank you, for the, uh. Compliment.ā€ He steps forward, hands a manila folder to Penelope. ā€œThanks for taking care of these,ā€ he says softly, and then, unsurprisingly, he gets the hell out of there. You wish you could disappear off the face of the Earth.
ā€œFuck, holy fuck,ā€ you mutter when heā€™s gone, leaning forward with your head in your hands. ā€œThatā€™s it, Iā€™m quitting. Itā€™s been nice knowing you guys.ā€
ā€œOkay, donā€™t be dramatic,ā€ Derek says, and you look up to glare at him; heā€™s the one that started all this in the first place. You were fine, feelings tamped down and suppressed, until he brought it up and then told everyone you know.
ā€œDonā€™t tell me not to be dramatic, Derek! This is all your fault. You never respect my boundaries, you never know when to just let me be, you always have to pick and pick until you wear me down. Maybe I had a reason for wanting to keep my feelings private, did you ever think of that?ā€
ā€œI know you're upset,ā€ Emily begins softly, because thereā€™s some pretty thick tension between you and Derek now, but you stand up, push your chair across the room, and shake your head.
ā€œIā€™m not upset, Iā€™m fucking humiliated. Iā€™m going home; let him know Iā€™m sick, will you?ā€ You exhale deeply, storm upstairs and grab your stuff and drive home with tears in your eyes. Youā€™ve never been so embarrassed in your life, and add that to the absolute heartbreak youā€™re feeling? Youā€™re just happy you make it to your apartment, so you can break down with cheesecake and a sappy, romantic comedy with a happy ending: those perfect, fictional worlds are pretty much the only place one is guaranteed. You are, as planned, hunkered down on the sofa in your softest pajamas, watching Youā€™ve Got Mail and eating the center out of an entire cheesecake with a spoon when thereā€™s a knock at your door. You groan, pick up your cheesecake tin, and walk over to it, fully expecting it to be Derek come to beg for forgiveness for ruining your life, so itā€™s no surprise you drop your dessert on the floor when itā€™s actually Hotch on the other side.
He looks down at the tin, then up at your face, cracks the barest hint of a smile.
ā€œI thought you were sick; I brought soup,ā€ he says, holding up a paper bag, and your heart thumps in your chest. You wipe a hand over your face, because you havenā€™t been exactly neat in your heartache cheesecake consumption, and then you kick the tin across the floor and invite him in, closing the door behind him.
ā€œI thought it was obvious that I wasnā€™t actually sick, justā€¦ really embarrassed,ā€ you say when he turns back to look at you. ā€œI canā€™t believe you heard all that stuff I saidā€¦ Iā€™m really sorry I made you uncomfortable.ā€ You take the bag from his hand and invite him to follow you into the kitchen, where you set it on the counter, lean against it. He comes close, but not so close you canā€™t function, which is good; your comfy pajamas are shorts and a loose tank top, so you feel a little exposed already.
ā€œYou didnā€™t make me uncomfortable,ā€ he says softly, and you frown, must have heard him wrong. He presses his fingertips against the counter, as if for support. ā€œYou didnā€™t make me uncomfortable. It wasā€¦ unexpected,ā€ he explains, ā€œvery unexpected, but Iā€™m not uncomfortable.ā€
You flush hot, and you can feel the bad decision part of your brain switching on, warning bells ringing in your head.
Whatever you do next has the potential to be extremely stupid, and you would like to avoid that at all costs; you love your job, after all, despite how physically and emotionally exhausting it can be, and you love your team. Time to think with your upstairs brain only.
ā€œThat makes me feel a little better,ā€ you say truthfully, and despite the pep talk you just gave yourself, you move closer to him like thereā€™s an invisible magnetic force between you; you would imagine a guy like Hotch would step back, keep his distance, but he only cranes his neck a little so he can look down at you more easily.
God, heā€™s tall. And he smells good, and his face is perfect, and that goddamn polo...
ā€œGood, Iā€™m glad. I donā€™t want you to feel bad about this. Iā€™m not uncomfortable, itā€™s notā€¦ itā€™s not unwanted.ā€ You swallow audibly, looking up at him, wondering if he knows what heā€™s saying, what it sounds like.
ā€œItā€™s not?ā€ you ask, and it comes out breathy; he takes a small step closer to you, brushes his fingers over your arm, peers into your eyes.
ā€œNo, itā€™s not. Iā€™ve been thinking of you, too; I know you know youā€™re beautiful, but youā€™re also so smart, and strong-willed, and a force to be reckoned with. Iā€™m proud to have you on my team, and Iā€™d be proudā€¦ to have you climb me like a tree.ā€ He smiles again, just the barest hint of one, and you put your arms around him and pull him closer for a kiss.
One long, slow, perfect kiss turns into another, then another, and he presses your back against the counter, his hands on your face and your hands on his thick waist; you hum into the kiss, revel in the feel of his lips on yours, his tongue sweeping past them, and when you pull back for air it feels like thereā€™s only one question that needs to be asked.
ā€œBedroom?ā€ you breathe, and he nods, and you take his hand and pull him in that direction, pausing to kiss him several times before you get there. ā€œYou donā€™t happen to have a condom, do you?ā€ you ask, breathless, guiding him to the bed, and he frowns, shakes his head.
ā€œI didnā€™t want to seem presumptuous.ā€ You grin at that, lean forward and kiss him, your fingers in his hair.
ā€œI find it so hot that you even say presumptuous. I might have one here somewhere.ā€ You open your nightstand, move around books and toys until you find a couple; you flip them over, checking to see if theyā€™re expired, and offer him a couple options. ā€œTheyā€™re still good, surprisingly. You can, uh. Choose the one that would work best.ā€
He looks them over, picks one and hands back the rest, and you throw them back in the drawer and slide into his lap, wrap your arms around his shoulders.
ā€œIā€™ve wanted you for so long,ā€ he says, holding your waist as you look down at him, completely in awe that this is happening. ā€œBut I want to clarify: if youā€™re looking for something casual, I donā€™t think we should go any further.ā€ You inhale softly, surprised by his straightforwardness, and you lean in, kiss him slowly.
ā€œI donā€™t want casual. I want to be with you.ā€ His eyes are so brilliant, dark in the dim light of your bedroom, and he nods, presses his lips to yours and slides his hands beneath your top, guides it over your head. Then they move to your shorts, slipping them gently off your hips, and you stand so he can push them to the ground.
Youā€™re both breathing heavily, a little rough, and you step between his legs, kiss him again, run your hands down his chest, closing your eyes with a sigh because you finally get to feel him after a year of just imagining what it would be like. After a beat, you open your eyes, look into his, smile.
ā€œReally grateful for Casual Friday,ā€ you whisper. ā€œOtherwise you might never have found out Iā€™m kind of in love with you.ā€ You ease the polo over his head, drop it on the ground and encourage him to stand so you can take off his pants; he does, but before you can drop to your knees as planned, he takes your face in his hands, presses one soft kiss against your mouth.
ā€œIā€™m more than kind of in love with you.ā€ Oh, if that isnā€™t the greatest sentence your ears have ever heardā€¦ You wrap your arms around his neck, kiss a little more, forgetting that you planned to finish undressing him; when you remember, you make quick work of it, then have him lay back against the bed and settle between his legs.
You put your mouth on him because you want to, more than anything, and his hand drops to your hair, caressing you while you suck slowly, deeply, holding him with one hand and pressing against his stomach with the other. His moans are soft and gorgeous, his body tense beneath your hand, and youā€™d do this all night, but he murmurs your name, coaxes you up, puts his hands on your back as you settle against him.
ā€œYouā€™re so incredible. I never would have imagined Iā€™d get this, get you,ā€ he breathes, skimming his hands over your sides and hips, and you kiss softly, steamy and sweet.
ā€œMe neither.ā€ You lean up, make space for him to roll on the condom, and then press him inside; your breath hitches, and so does his, and you lay on top of him, chest to chest, stomach to stomach, arms around each other tightly while you move. ā€œHmm. Aaron,ā€ you sigh, hair falling around him, and he groans, digs his fingertips into your hips.
ā€œSounds so perfect coming out of your mouth.ā€ You smile, but it slips away when he surges up to kiss you, leans up so heā€™s sitting with you in his lap. He slides a broad hand up your back, wraps it around the nape of your neck, and pumps his hips up as you sink down, eliciting a series of soft, eager moans from the both of you.
ā€œFeels like Iā€™ve waited so long; Iā€™ve never wanted someone as badly as I wanted you,ā€ you tell him, chest heaving, and he brings you to him for a kiss, something a little rougher, less refined. Heā€™s getting close.
ā€œNever. You make me feel so much.ā€ You reach back against his leg for support, work harder to bring him off, and when he comes he crushes his mouth against yours, delicious and more uncontrolled than youā€™ve ever seen him. He chants your name, so soft and sweet rolling off of his tongue, and then gets you on your back so he can press deeply inside.
You feel so incredibly full, panting beneath him, your hands on his waist and your feet on the backs of his thighs; his perfect face is inches from yours, all shallow breaths and decadent, passionate kisses, and when you climax you pull him closer, sigh, unravel completely in his embrace.
Maybe good things do happen after all. You hold each other and talk for a while, after a quick pitstop to the restroom, and then your stomach growlsā€”understandably, since the only thing to fill it since lunch was that stupid cheesecakeā€”and Hotch orders takeout on his phone from bed; god bless technology.
Thereā€™s a knock at the door twenty minutes later, and you know thatā€™s quick for your favorite Thai place, but youā€™re not complaining because youā€™re officially starving. He offers to grab it, throws on his boxers and heads for the living room; after a few minutes, you wonder whatā€™s taking so long, pull on your robe and go to check on him.
Hotch is talking to Derek, who is standing in your living room with a piece of cheesecake and a shit eating grin.
ā€œI came with a peace offering, but now I think Iā€™ll wait for a, ā€˜Thank you, Derek,ā€™ā€ he says, and you roll your eyes, stalk over and take the cheesecake out of his hands. You give it to Hotch, lean up to kiss Derek on the cheek, and push him toward the door.
ā€œThank you, Derek. Go away, Derek,ā€ you say with a smile of your own, and he raises his palms and retreats down the hall, laughing as he goes.
This is just one more thing heā€™ll tease you mercilessly about, but this time the benefits outweigh the costs. Taglist ā¤ļø: @arsonhotchner @mrsh0tchner @ssahotchie @sleepyreaderreads @mintphoenix @meghannnnnn @disgruntledchowchow @azenpal @g-l-pierce @my-rosegold-soul @ssamorganhotchner
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superhero--imagines Ā· 4 years ago
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A/N: Sorry, but this has been living in my brain rent free too, my commission info is here
* Honey if youā€™re tall with a big butt-
* Youā€™ve got his heart the second he lays eyes on you
* Like everything he is and everything he will be -
* Baby you can have it all if youā€™ll agree to be his
* If youā€™re not tall with a big butt, well donā€™t worry Yuujiā€™s still going to adore you it just takes a little time
* Itā€™s not so much because he doesnā€™t think your smoking hot or anything-
* Itā€™s just, well, Yujiā€™s kinda dumb
* So anyone outside of his immediate go-to type, it just doesnā€™t register in his brain
* You can bet your ass heā€™ll say dumb crap like-
* ā€œFriends can hold hands right?ā€
* Or
* ā€œFriends kiss sometimes, no big deal!ā€
* But donā€™t worry babe, it might take a little while, but eventually heā€™ll notice all these feelings heā€™s been categorizing as ā€œfriendlyā€ feelings and ā€œpositiveā€ feelings are actually Romantic feelings
* Once he finally figures it out, you wonā€™t have to wait long-
* ā€œOi, (Y/N/N), want to be my lover?ā€
* Like seriously, not even a second after he has this ā€˜monumentalā€™ realization
* After that things are pretty easy between you two
* Itā€™s not like much has changed, heā€™s still your friend, and he doesnā€™t act any different-
* You guys were holding hands and, apparently, kissing before you were officially dating
* Itā€™s not even that heā€™s greedy with the way he touches you or anything-
* I think the only thing that does change is that Yuji makes an effort to spend more time with you
* ā€œOi, wanna go to Shibuya this weekend? Thereā€™s a Taiyaki store Iā€™m dying to go tooā€
* He makes an effort to spend time with you even when heā€™s not around, like sending you texts and voicemails when heā€™s away
* Part of the reason heā€™s so insistent on spending as much time with you as possible is probably because heā€™s not sure how much time he has left
* I think, Yuji is a really simple guy who sees the good in everyone, so heā€™s also kind of attracted to anyone given the right circumstances
* But I think, he especially wants someone compassionate
* Someone who will hold him during depressive episodes where heā€™ll wonder- what if I hadnā€™t joined the occult club? What if he had played track like everyone wanted? What if he had just minded his own business
* What if Megumi hadnā€™t followed him to the hospital that day, how different would his life be right now
* And itā€™s the same regret and remorse that fuels his cursed energy, but for some reason it feels like itā€™s magnified right now
* It feels like he might drown in this despair
* During those days you just hold him, whispering good things about the world.
* Soft things thatā€™ll help him right now-
* Something to give him hope
* ā€œHot tea on a cold dayā€ you whisper
* ā€œThe feeling of basking in sunlight after a cloudy dayā€
* Thereā€™s a moment of silence as you think of something else to say
* ā€œThe smell of rain, and fresh cut grassā€ heā€™ll mumble back, and you grin
* ā€œGetting Taiyaki in Shibuya with someone you loveā€ you reply with a grin
* ā€œWith ice cream filling and boba?ā€
* You laugh, what a weird combination
* ā€œAnything you wantā€
* Yujiā€™s not the one thatā€™s hard to get along with tbh, the one you have trouble with is Sukuna
* ā€œYou know youā€™ll never save him, I donā€™t know why youā€™re trying so hardā€
* You would hit Sukuna if it didnā€™t mean slapping Yujiā€™s cheek too
* ā€œShut up what do you knowā€
* Honestly Yuujiā€™s a little surprised at the hatred Sukuna shows you
* ā€œShouldnā€™t you be happy theyā€™re around?ā€
* For one because youā€™re around thereā€™s been more *clears throat* romantic incidents, which of course always leave Yuji in a pretty vulnerable state
* Heā€™s only an orgasm away from having Sukuna take over tbh
* And besides-
* Youā€™re his weakness
* They say the sun is 92 million miles away, but he swears his sun is walking in front of him on the in Shibuya, his hand held firmly in yours
* If anything ever happened to you-
* He wouldnā€™t be able to live with himself, he wouldnā€™t be able to go on anymore.
* And thatā€™s when the curse that lives inside him wins
* So he really doesnā€™t get why Sukunaā€™s acting like this is the worst thing to ever happen to him
* Sukuna opens an eye on Yujiā€™s cheek
* ā€œI hate their kind most of all, even more than Jujutsu Sorcerersā€ he grumbles
* He really does hate you-
* He hates that youā€™re kind
* He saw your type all the time at his harem, some lowly thing relatives had sold off for money and honor-
* Or a prize from a nation he conquered
* Some dumb creature that thought you would get a reward for sacrificing yourself
* Truly idiotic
* The worst part is heā€™s starting to like those little fantasyā€™s you spin for Yuji
* He can feel the sunlight warning his skin after a cold day
* He can taste the heavy condensation of the steam that wafts off of his cup of tea, brushing against his face. The heat in direct contrast to the cold winter air
* And it hurts him to know he probably wonā€™t feel like that again, not for a long time
* Not with you helping Yuji work through his negative feelings like you do
* So he hates you
* He hides his contempt in general, it only leaks out through an occasional insult
* ā€œWhereā€™s your kindness now?ā€ Heā€™ll jeer when youā€™re having a bad day
* Only for Yuuji to smack his cheek to get him to shut up
* ā€œAh, donā€™t pay any attention to him. Heā€™s just grumpyā€
* For the most part itā€™s nothing you canā€™t handle
* Really you kind of forget heā€™s there most of the time, until one day you see Sukuna pop out and take a bite of your Taiyaki as you hold it out to Yuji who said he wanted to taste the flavor
* ā€œOi that was mine!ā€ Yuji screeches, slapping his own face while Sukuna smiles from his hand
* ā€œYou just like torturing me donā€™t you?ā€ He weeps, and you offer him sympathetic pats on the back, giving him another bit of your Taiyaki
* He continues on about how Sukuna just loves to torment him, and honestly why canā€™t they get along when they share a body
* But your mind is elsewhere
* The next time Sikuna seeā€™s you is when Yujiā€™s sleeping, the damn brat snores so loud heā€™s considering throttling him just to get some peace and quiet
* Thatā€™s when he hears the door creak, seeing you curling inside around it, a plastic bag in hand
* Great, the perfect end to the perfect day
* ā€œThe brats sleepingā€ Sukuna grumbles from Yujiā€™s hand-
* He would have spoken from his face but the only thing more annoying than having to deal with Yujiā€™s snores is having to hear the lovey-dovey crap tumble from his lips when he talks to you
* He figures youā€™ll leave, or maybe curl up against Yuji on the bed but instead you kneel down, your hand dipping into the plastic bag
* ā€œIā€™m not here for him,ā€ you start pulling out a Taiyaki.
* ā€œYou wanted one right?ā€ Thatā€™s why he took a bite, because he wanted to try it too
* Though, annoying Yuji was probably an added bonus
* You hold up the Taiyaki to Sukunaā€™s ā€˜mouthā€™
* And heā€™s overcome with emotion
* Itā€™s not like he hasnā€™t had concubines from his harem feed him a great number of things before -
* Like he hasnā€™t ever felt the tender act from one of his many lovers -
* So he hates that youā€™re the one thatā€™s bringing out all these emotions in him
* And as he takes a bite from the Taiyaki he finally admits it-
* If you were in his harem, a moronic kind fool like you were one of his lovers
* You would be his favorite
* And thatā€™s why he hates you so much
* Because just like Yuji, youā€™re his weakness
* ā€œItā€™s not the same flavorā€ he mumbles
* ā€œSorry I couldnā€™t get the ice cream, it would have melted on the way here-ā€œ
* Sukuna wouldnā€™t have minded one bit licking the cream from your fingers, maybe he would even catch that embarrassed face you always make with the damn brat
* ā€œSo I got you a custard one, and a chocolate one, and on the off chance you werenā€™t in the mood for something sweet I got you a curry filled one tooā€
* You stumble, hand flying into the bag to pull out the other two, holding them up to him
* And despite himself, Sukuna finds the sight quite...cute
* ā€œWell, I suppose these offerings will do for now wenchā€ And his words are harsh, but you smile like the kindhearted fool you are.
* And thatā€™s how Yuji starts getting pestered for ā€œjust five minutes alone with their babyā€
* ā€œScared Iā€™ll show them a better time than you can?ā€ Sukuna grins
* Of course he is! Sukuna had a literal harem of lovers. Who knows what kinds of techniques he knows
* But Yujiā€™s pride wonā€™t let him admit it
* Yuji scoffs
* ā€œIā€™d rather die again then let you come anywhere near themā€
* Itā€™s kind like youā€™ve got two boyfriends
* One pink haired one thatā€™s the literal personification of sunshine
* And another, more dark and sadistic one
* And itā€™s sort of a funky little relationship
* But itā€™s yours
* ā€œI wouldnā€™t trade you for anything in the worldā€ you whisper.
* Your lips brushing against his
* Yuji wouldnā€™t trade you for anything either
* He loves you ā¤ļø
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Beautifully reckless - Dean Winchester x Reader
Title: Beautifully reckless
Pairing: Michael!Dean Winchester x Reader
Warnings: None
Prompt: lately i just felt like reading a michael!dean fic, and since you're an amazing writer, I'd love to see you write a one shot/imagine with him. so here you go, reader is sam's and dean's friend who is a psychic, and after michael possesses dean, he starts feeling something for her that he never felt before? just some soft michael!dean, please? i love ur fics, they are truly unique and awesome to read
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ā€œTook you long enough, you bastard.ā€
The voice tone, to some extent, took Michael by surprise, to the point he jumped on the spot. Though he would never admit to that. He was used to respect, well, fear actually and he was used to hearing calculated and careful words. It wasn't like he had not been called that many more times before, but that was mostly in his face, and not behind his back (literally) and in such a tone. Not when everyone around him knew better than to push their luck. The fact that he really wasn't still around the people who used to tremble in fear when he was facing them, or not actually, and that he, Michael himself, wasn't entirely the same person as when he was in the Apocalypse world.
ā€œI- Excuse me?ā€ he couldn't stop the words from leaving his lips before he stopped in his steps and turned around to face the source of the voice that was so bold.
Within barely the span of a minute, he found himself being stunned twice... or maybe thrice, but there was barely any time to duel on that. Not in those first few seconds. Not when the sudden giddiness overwhelmed him and his breath came out shakily, as if somebody had just knocked it out of him. What was it that had just happened to him made him frown but his attention was instantly back on you.
The smile on the face of the person standing before him was not a surprise on it's own, seeing how much the sparkling and warm eyes told him that smiling was not a rare occurrence, but rather the fact that he had not expected such a friendly and caring, if the words were even enough to explain it, smile on your face after the way the words had sounded. Or perhaps it had indeed been all him and there had not been a real threat behind those words. He, after all, still kept forgetting that things had changed drastically.
ā€œLet me guess-ā€ the smile turned into a smirk, the teasing kind, the friendly and familiar kind of teasing he had truthfully never been on the receiving end and that sent him off balance ā€œThis is payback for those three weeks I stood you up in a row huh? Fair enough, fair enough. You had the right to not show up today either so I suppose I should be grateful you're here. And we're perfectly timed too.ā€
ā€œPerfectly timed?ā€ he repeated ā€œI actually-ā€ but before he could get to complete his sentence, he felt a pair of arms wrapping around him in what could clearly and very easily be described as a quick hug. It wasn't the long, tight and longing one he might have expected, probably because it hadn't been long since you had last been in touch, however that was not what he really dueled on at that moment. Not something he could duel on that is, not when he had to stop himself from returning the hug himself.
It was an impulse which he could again easily recognize, and even more easily blame on you. Because you had to be the one to blame, there was no other explanation. There was no other way to describe the way his body had just straight up frozen, not in shock but rather eager no less than a puppy (he could never admit to that) to turn to face you, eager to close the distance and eager to take everything in, whether it be by just getting to look at you or by, hopefully (why really?), getting to have you melt in his arms. Though shockingly enough he found himself doing the latter, feelings his muscles relax and a soft breath leave his lips when you were wrapped around him. It was strange, in a frightening way, and he had to push back all those feelings despite how he realized that it was easier to breathe with you there, without any weight resting on his chest. It was you who was responsible, that was easy to understand. What wasn't easy was the why. Why all of a sudden he felt this way with you?
ā€œGosh, Winchester-ā€ ah yes, how did he not realize it? He was indeed the reason why and Michael hadn't even given his vessel a second thought, not until your eyes locked with his and his heart skipped a beat or two ā€œI'll be able to see an angel's true form before you ever get rid of the green plaid huh?ā€
ā€œI-ā€ he looked down at himself, well aware that he hadn't had the chance to change Dean's clothes just yet ā€œFunny enough, it was exactly what I had in mind too. Was actually planning on it.ā€
ā€œOh finally ready to dress to impress? Hm I wonder how I will be able to spot you next in the crowd. Was lucky this time I suppose.ā€ you pulled away, playful smile ever present.
His eyes narrowed slightly in a way that must have scared his enemies in the past but that held no real threat this time, and maybe that was the most scary part: that he didn't meant it to be, especially to you ā€œAnd... what makes you think I was actually heading this way?ā€
ā€œOh I see.ā€ you placed your hand on your hips, nodding your head with a growing smirk ā€œFeeling bold today. We haven't seen each other in quiet some time and here you come, ready to take me by surprise. I must warn you, though you already know, so I better say remind you-ā€ you took a step closer to him and although he didn't let it show on his face, well, on Dean's face (or so he hoped) that didn't mean he didn't feel the flutter in his chest and the sudden weakness of his knees ā€œYou-ā€ you poked his chest with your pointer and he could swear he felt the skin of his vessel start burning there, as if a fire was there that was only spreading ā€œWould find it hard to surprise me, Dean. Not many people can, it's a tough challenge.ā€
ā€œWell, you might have just done it there. It's time you finally found the right person because I was never one to say no to a challenge.ā€ he felt his own lips form into a smirk, even though he was unable to believe how much he enjoyed seeing the sparkle of excitement in your eyes. Soon followed by the very familiar playfulness he could grow used to. And why shouldn't he? He had his sword, his perfect vessel, and nobody could take that away. He was in full control over Deans body and you clearly had not realized any difference, because apparently for what it mattered, maybe he was a lot like Dean after all- or at least could be, and that was more than enough.
ā€œBold of you to assume-ā€ you pulled away and he had to stop himself- his vessel from taking a step forward to still be close with you ā€œThat it's a game with only one player. Let's see just how easily surprise you can be, Winchester. Feels like after years of friendship I might still be able to learn something new about you.ā€
ā€œThen it would only be right to warn you I am not that easily taken by su-ā€
His words would have certainly held more value and determination, if not a chance at convincing you, if his voice had not wavered and, halfway through the sentence, they hadn't been cut off by a far-from-manly yelp that broke through his lips.
Well, if that wasn't a first. Again.
ā€œYeah, I get it. I get it. You macho man.ā€ you scoffed, but the smirk on your lips was so playful that it almost made him forget what had just happened. Almost. Or maybe just for the moment, because he was sure he had a lot of thinking to do afterwards and maybe a much-needed conversation with his vessel about it.
ā€œI- I didn't-ā€ he blinked, more stunned with himself for reacting this way than anything else.
ā€œ'S alright-ā€ you grinned at him in the end ā€œJust, enough talking. Come on, this is no place for that kind of stuff.ā€ you giggled and he got the impression that this wasn't a first for you, so really he ought to be prepared to be surprised in more ways than he could ever imagine.
ā€œWha- what a-are you-ā€ it was so unlike him but everything about this situation was unlike anything he'd experienced before, he didn't really know what he should consider a normal reaction at this point.
ā€œWha- what?ā€ you teased, mimicking him ā€œCat got your tongue, Winchester? Come on, move your pretty ass before they give our table away if we keep talking here.ā€
And just because he was such a fool for you already, or perhaps out of some inexplicable fear that your table would indeed be given away and you would have to part ways before he got enough of it, he didn't need to be told twice. He followed after you no better than a lost puppy, even if he'd deny it for the rest of his existence, not paying an ounce of attention as he should to the rest of his surroundings. And so, he didn't know what should alarm him more out of the two. The fact that it was easy to let go and relax so easily around you or the fact that he couldn't bring himself to be too far away from you.
Michael was confused. And whenever he was confused, as with anything in his entire existence ever since he was in heaven, he was intrigued. And whenever he was intrigued, he followed the one that interested him. Admittedly it had been centuries, if not ever before in his life, since the one to interest him in this way had been a person, and no less a woman like you.
ā€œFeels like forever, doesn't it?ā€ you breathed out as you both settled into your seats ā€œI shouldn't tell you this but gosh... You're making me so sentimental and weak, Winchester, I'll have to change that somehow. But I have no idea how you do it in the first place, so...ā€ you huffed with, narrowing your eyes at him.
ā€œGood to know.ā€ the easy smile on his lips felt both like his own and not ā€œSo I have to keep it up then.ā€ and when he realized he too too much pleasure in your being playful with him, rolling your eyes, he didn't feel like questioning whose pleasure it was.
Your lips parted, and truth was he would have loved nothing more than to hear you tease him again, but he was also thankful for the interruption from the waitress and the moment of silence that followed afterwards, because at least then he had some time to gather his own thoughts, replay any moments that should have struck more than how beautiful your smile was or the way you looked at him.
Well, not him, Dean. But maybe-
ā€œYou said...ā€ he started just as you'd given your orders, though he had barely cared about that when the thought crossed his mind ā€œSee an angel's true form?ā€
ā€œWha- Oh that.ā€ you laughed, shaking your head ā€œI'm not even close to that yet, I'm afraid. Not as much as I'd like but that's only because you're to blame, Winchester. I'm being as careful as I can so as expected things are going slow.ā€
ā€œYou've been... trying?ā€ the confusion, if not the worry, was evident on his face much as he tried to hide it.
ā€œIf you say one more time that us psychics are too curious for our own good then I will kick you.ā€ you said and proceeded to do just that under the table with your foot, managing to earn a small groan followed by a warm laugh from Dean.
ā€œYou said if. But I didn't say a damn thing!ā€ he protested, still laughing and enjoying (far too much) the innocent shrug you gave him.
ā€œJust taking precautions.ā€ you grinned before you paused for a second too long and looked back up at him again with a softer smile, if he could even call it that, because it didn't reach your eyes not the way it should as he had observed the past couple minutes ā€œI just...ā€ you let a soft sigh ā€œI'm sorry. I've- I know I've made you worry far too many times in the past. Scared you even. And well, you're no better sure, but I'm supposed to be the friend who has the functioning brain cells here and I haven't really lived up to that. I know-ā€ another sigh and he was really starting to feel bothered by how much this seemed to stress you out, more than it stressed him out to keep up the act ā€œI know how much you worry you. I really do. So I promise, even if it's hard for me, that I will hold back if I see things getting out of hand and I'm in danger again.ā€
The words rang in his ears louder than actual sirens ever could.
ā€œAgain?ā€ he repeated with a raised eyebrow. He knew he probably looking more accusing than concerned, if not what he felt even more deep down: terrified. And he didn't even know what was more alarming anymore. The way his heart squeezed inside his chest or his palms clenched in order for his body to cope with the fact that his blood had ran cold and the shivers were far too unpleasant.
He didn't like it, he didn't like it one bit and he knew something had to be done about it.
ā€œFigure of speech, I promise. There haven't been any close calls. At least- You know, ever since we last saw each other that is. But that too has been quiet some time. Speaking of which-ā€ the smile returned on your lips and he had almost not realized it was not there until he understood how the uneasiness in his chest was also due to how you looked so distraught ā€œHow have things been for you hm? I haven't the slightest idea about what my two idiots have been up to lately. Is Sam alright?ā€
ā€œWell, he's been... keeping busy, to say the least. Same goes for me. I wouldn't even know where to begin. Think of it as... a multiverse of madness being out there that needs the Winchesters to deal with.ā€ he forced a small smile on his lips but he barely felt it to begin with, even if you were trying to stir the conversation away from any dangerous endeavors you might's recently had. And, truth be told, he couldn't even begin to think of all the times you might've gotten in trouble that weren't because of your own actions. The mere realization of that fact brought another unpleasant shiver down his spine.
ā€œAh, makes sense. We've been meeting up in this place at least once every week. 'S good though, I suppose, to take a break once in a while.ā€ you gave a soft shrug, resting your chin on your palm and looked at him through your lashes ā€œI am afraid we were both turning into two very sentimental fools, after all. Coming here, in the place we first met, after all these years.ā€ a small laugh escaped your lips but he could hear the nervousness behind it, see how shy you were about it and deep down he loved seeing this side of you as well, if not wonder what else he could possibly do to evoke it ā€œWhat are we anyway?ā€
The question did something to him and he soon realized it wasn't really him, but Dean. He couldn't always tell the difference, what with the Winchester being his perfect vessel, but in that moment he could, crystal clear. And once again it piqued his interest.
ā€œWell, I don't know about you but I for one-ā€ he paused to look into your eyes, to try and read some sort of emotion on your eyes that he might miss otherwise ā€œDon't think I mind so much. Hell, I'll take pride in being always a fool for you.ā€
To see the way your eyes widened and your back straightened in surprise. Surprise that the words were said out loud or that they were said and were straight to the point, he couldn't tell. What he could tell was that you were not used to this and it was a good thing because things were changing and in a way this should too.
ā€œAh Dean, whatever happened to you these past months?ā€ you looked away from him when you snapped out of the shock you were in, not that the small forced laugh was any indicator but the fact that you still felt stunned if not shy. You shook your head ā€œHave some mercy on my poor heart, will you? Don't say things like that so carelessly.ā€
ā€œI'm not being careless. If anything... I'm being honest.ā€ and doing an incredible job at not showing how much that scares me but he couldn't really say that out loud and he knew ā€œBesides, you were the one who started it.ā€
ā€œWell, yes but actually no. This is what we do, Dean, you can't just go and- and be so... open about it. We-ā€ a nervous laugh that he found too adorable for his poor heart's sake, well Dean's actually but it felt all the same at that moment ā€œWhat was it that Sam called it? Uh yes, we're both too emotionally constipated to function like proper humans.ā€
ā€œWe don't talk about it remember?ā€ you added in almost a whisper voice, making Michael wonder what was really there more than your playful banter and the way his vessel's heart couldn't rest for a minute ā€œBesides, I know you're not as cool about it as you'd like to think. I can see it all over your face, so stop pretending Winchester.ā€ you huffed, leaning back in your seat with your arms crossed over your chest, and he realized maybe he had underestimated you.
ā€œAnd that is supposed to mean... what exactly?ā€ he couldn't help the edge his voice took, too many years, centuries that felt an eternity, had taken their toll on him.
ā€œWell, many things actually. But what matters most right now is one...ā€ you tilted your head to the side, a soft expression on your face which stunned him momentarily ā€œThere's something on your mind.ā€ it was a statement the left no room for debate ā€œWanna talk about it?ā€
The mere sincerity and care in your words were too much to believe in this entirely unprecedented event, and so it was no surprise when the words got stuck in his throat and his mind went entirely bank. Despite the lump that was stuck in his throat, despite how hard it was to swallow it over, the words in the very end formed before he could even comprehend it. And they were some of the most honest ones he'd spoke in a long time ā€œDo I?ā€ he questioned, mostly himself without any expectations for an answer ā€œFunny...ā€
ā€œWhat's funny about it?ā€ naturally, though, you didn't hold back. It was clear that no matter how well you could read him, no matter how he was an open book to you, you wanted to know more of him. But which him was the real question.
Michael couldn't even remember when it was the last time that someone cared to know about him. Him, and not whoever had granted him access to wear around. Him, and not whatever face he had. Him, and how he felt. Him, and how he he thought. Him, and why he had done everything he did, what had led him to it and how he felt about it. It was a scary thought and feeling. Scary to hope there could be someone that would look past all of those layers, all that the eyes could see, and try to understand him. Scary that he wanted it, even more. Scary that after all this time, at the most tumultuous time and as he was in the right path to his goals, he felt the need for something so deep. Scary that it could lead him away from said path.
Who was even that reckless to try any of it though? Who could so carelessly approach him and-
ā€œNothing.ā€ the question answered itself ā€œIt's just amusing how... strange it sounds to hear someone ask me if I wanna talk about what troubles me, after all this time. But-ā€ he said as fast as he could, the second he saw you frown in worry ā€œWe have plenty of time to talk about that and I promise we will. Later. For now-ā€ he grinned, leaning back in his seat ā€œSeeing an angel's true form huh? That's quiet reckless, you know. If not stupid and careless...ā€
ā€œYeah, I know, I was just throwing out the idea that I might-ā€
ā€œBut also fun.ā€ he added before you could get to complete your sentence, enjoying the way that after your frown a smile light up your face once he added with a smirk ā€œWant any help with that?ā€
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sweetleaf-cafe Ā· 3 years ago
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"Hello hello! I would like to request Louis Amamiya and Default!Male Protagonist (seperate) Mocha biscuits please! <Relationship headcanons please with a human s/o who dearly loves them and had even asked them to drink their blood from their neck at one point if they need it? Many thanks~"
Hi-hi~! Sorry, we don't write for Default!Male Protagonist, as we lack the information to really feel comfortable writing for him. As for writing for Louis, thank you so much for requesting for our best boi!!! He deserves all the love and headpats in the world.
Your mocha and biscuits for Louis Amamiya from Code Vein are served!
Louis Relationship Headcanons
First off, he's going to feel like he doesn't deserve someone as wonderful as you in his life.
But you won't let him get away with saying that and always remind him of all the reasons why you don't care about the notion of whether he "deserves" you or not and love him anyway.
Each time you do, he'll get a tiny bit flustered and shy, and he'll get a warm feeling in his heart.
But at the same time, a pang of worry and guilt will continue to rest in his mind.
Given time, however, he can feel those feelings fade, just a bit.
Louis won't see you as below him, despite you being a human.
Still, he will worry for you, as humans don't have the physical capabilities that a revenant holds.
You'll be able to notice it in his hesitance to bring you along on missions, and when you do, he'll keep a closer eye on you.
If you do prove to be a great fighter or thinker anyway, he'll be a little less cautious.
Still, it won't be able to leave Louis' mind that if something happens and you get severely injured or die, you won't be able to come back.
And if you aren't a fighter, he'll be extremely hesitant to bring you into any potentially dangerous situation.
Louis will also not want to act too overprotective or make you feel like he's controlling you.
So unless you try or want to do something that could end up being really dangerous, he'll only strongly advise caution.
He's afraid of losing you, he's afraid of losing his memories of you.
But each time, you always remind him that you'll stay with him as long as you can and that if he does forget, you'll still be there for him.
When you're back at the base, he'll often be working on something, but will always try to take some time to spend with you.
Sometimes, these moments are just talking about whatever comes to mind.
These conversations can be anything from small bits of chatter to excited rambling over a book.
And the way his eyes light up when he starts talking about a favorite book is literally the most precious thing in the universe and must be protected.
Normally, he's quite calm and speaks in that manner.
But when he's excited over something you can hear it in his voice, he'll speak just a tiny bit faster, Louis will have this adorable smile.
AHHH I THINK I JUST TURNED MYSELF INTO A SIMP.
But oftentimes, they'll be rather quiet.
He'll hold or close, sometimes just thinking or even reading a beloved book.
Either way, Louis will cherish any time he gets to spend with you.
When he's around you, everyone nearby can sense the companionship between you both.
He'll always be just a bit softer and gentler with you.
Of course, everyone is going to bring it up, just to tease him. And boy does he get flustered easily...
At first, when Yakumo mentions how he looks happy when you're around, he'll try to brush it off.
But Yakumo can and will leave him a blushing mess.
And if you're nearby and are easy to tease, he'll leave you both incredibly embarrassed.
It really doesn't matter if you're in a relationship or not, Louis will get flustered if people bring up both your... romantic intentions.
Still, he's just adorable when he's flustered, so you don't particularly mind.
If you ever ask him to drink your blood, he'll refuse.
Louis doesn't want to hurt you, moreover, the taste itself is different, addictive.
He doesn't want to risk it if he doesn't have to.
Either way, he really does appreciate the sentiment, and will always let you know how much he does.
If there is a time where he risks joining the lost without your blood or if you tell him you would really like him to, he'll hesitantly drink from you.
But only if you are completely okay with it.
He'll pull you in close to him, more carefully than usual.
The moment that he senses any nervousness, pain, or anything like that, he'll pull away.
He'll be rambling out apologies as he puts an awkward distance between the two of you.
If you don't calm him down, he'll speed walk off as fast as he can without outright running and will probably avoid you for the next few hours.
And of course, Yakumo is going to be groaning in the background.
If you happen to be in a dangerous location, he'll stay close to you, but you can practically hear the gears turning frantically in his head.
If it goes off without a hitch, he'll pay close attention to not drain too much blood from you.
The entire time, you'll be able to feel how tense he is against you, as he's afraid of losing control.
A.K.A. he's afraid of losing you or scaring you away.
Once he's finished, as long as you're in a safe environment, he'll likely want to stay in the same position.
He'll be rather quiet, mulling over what just happened.
Once he's snapped out of it, he'll go to find bandages as well as supplies to make sure it doesn't get infected.
He'll ask to take care of the wound himself, as he was the one who inflicted it.
As Louis does so, he'll thank you for doing that for him.
The first time, afterward, he'll be a little more cautious around you and will be mentally checking in on your wellbeing, making sure there were no aftereffects.
And he won't ever ask you to do so again, but secretly, he really enjoyed the feeling of being so close and doing something so intimate with you.
When it comes to affection, you can really see it in the way he looks out for you.
If he sees something that reminds him of you or knows you'd be interested in, he'd be sure to tell you about it or give it to you.
Each time, you'd find him searching your reactions, looking to see what sorts of things interested you more than others.
Half the time, he wouldn't really do this consciously, even after you start dating.
But either way, he'd be doing it anyway.
And another thing he'll do after you're in a relationship is to generally be touching you in some way.
It makes him feel close to you and reminds him that you're there.
Often, he'll sit closer to you, or even let you use him as a pillow.
Did I mention he's the absolute best pillow one could ask for?
He might be reading something aloud to you, talking, or just thinking and you end up falling asleep on him.
It'll take him a moment to notice, as he's probably wrapped up in what he's doing.
But when he does, his heart is going to melt.
How?!?! How are you so adorable?!?!?
The entire time, he'll be careful not to move, and would definitely sneak a few glances at your sleeping face.
He literally can't help himself.
Louis will also gently stroke your hair.
No matter what it's like, he loves it, and it really calming for him. If he needs to wake you up, it'll be gentle.
He'll probably lightly shake your shoulder and softly call your name a few times.
If you're a deep sleeper, then he'll progressively get more forceful until you're awake.
And if he falls asleep on you, it's probably because he's managed to overwork himself again, and needs the sleep.
As much as he mothers over everyone else, he'll often find himself neglecting his own needs.
So he'll need you to remind him to actually take care of himself.
If you do, then he'll be eternally grateful.
Still, if he does fall asleep on you, he'll actually be pretty quiet.
He might snore ever so slightly and it's actually pretty cute when he does.
Louis also likely gets nightmares.
When he's in a nightmare, he'll thrash around or cry out names in his sleep.
And at worst, he'll cry.
At this point, it is best to wake him up.
Once he's awake, he would thank you and would likely delve back into dark thoughts.
He'll probably either want some space or would be extra clingy.
It really depends on the dream, so it can go either way.
Overall, he's best boi and best bf, 20/10 would recommend.
Literally, who gave him the right to be so precious?!
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haikyuu!! characters as bed sharing AUā€™s
taken of pinterest!
characters in question: kiyoomi sakusa, miya atsumu, kenma kozume, suna rintaro, tobio kageyama, kuroo tetsuro, akaashi keiji
kiyoomi sakusa - theĀ ā€œyou have too much nightmares, let me try this method on youā€
When you look at Sakusa, you wouldnā€™t guess any of his weaknesses... well except for one maybe
He always speaks so confidently, if he doesnā€™t feel secure, he just doesnā€™t speak
So even if youā€™ve been their manager for... several years, you still know as much about this manā€™s weaker sides as if you met him yesterday, or even less.Ā 
The surprise on your face when you binge watched a series at night, and you suddenly felt the scream definitely coming from outside your headphones was indescribableĀ 
Was the room next to yours... Sakusaā€™s?
you thought nothing of it, but night after night, you heard a lot more, you heard crying, ventilating, calling out random names, and finally you decided that not only is this interrupting your sleep, itā€™s not healthy for the wing spiker either
come on, the next day is game day, he has to be on his best abilitiesĀ 
nobody wants to deal with grumpy kiyoomi, nobody has the guts
so you remember a method your friend has told you about that their s/o uses on themĀ 
it took a lot of courage, but there you are, about to knock on his door...Ā 
Sakusa flinched hearing knocks on his door. That definitely wasnā€™t just a comeback from a dream. Someoneā€™s knocking on his door. Was he being too loud? Did he wake someone up? He prays that itā€™s just someone wanting something, even if itā€™s around 2AM, and who on earth would want someone at 2AM.Ā 
Normally he wouldā€™ve been pissed off, but now he wished for this scenario to come true.Ā 
He put on a hoodie before opening the door, since it was cold outside the sheets, besides, who wants to see him in his underwear, right? Especially if itā€™s marvel themed-
The look on his face when he sees his crush on the other side of the door is priceless. He can practically feel his face going all red.Ā 
ā€œCan I help you?ā€ he clears his throat and says lazily, pretending to be annoyed by the fact you allegedly woke him up, even though the tears still flow down his cheeks.Ā 
ā€œNo, but I can help youā€ you say, just as embarrassed as he is, and it doesnā€™t help when he raises his eyebrows like that, so you quickly addĀ ā€œThat is, if you like, please feel comfortable to tell me to piss off if Iā€™m being too much, but I have a friend with a problem simmilar to yours and I just...ā€
ā€œOkay, Iā€™m listeningā€ he interrupts, causing you to look up at him.Ā 
When you explain the idea to him, heā€™s more than pessimistic, heā€™s laughing in your face, mumbling something about how he thanks you for your concern, but...Ā 
You took the opportunity that youā€™re both sitting on his bed, and just lay on your back.Ā 
ā€œCome on, just tryā€Ā 
ā€œNo!ā€ he answers almost immediately, but, as heā€™s also a man of logic...Ā 
He really has to be on his best tomorrow, and youā€™re his only hope at the moment. He reluctantly lays down next to you, and your hand guides his face near your neck.Ā 
ā€œFine, but only so you stop with this idea already. Itā€™s not gonna work.ā€
Youā€™re both extremely out of your comfort zones, but youā€™re slowly adjusting. You feel him nuzzle closer, and your hair just instinctly lands in his hair, curling one little curl on your finger.Ā 
His showergel smells amazing, by the way. It puts you to sleep instantly, but you know you canā€™t be the one to pass out first. After a while of silence, you ask him if his trial run has expired already, but thereā€™s no response. His breath evens out, and youā€™re too afraid to stir away far enough to check if his eyes are closed.Ā 
ā€œKiyoomi? Are you asleep?ā€ you ask, but again, thereā€™s no response.Ā 
Oh well.Ā 
The next morning heā€™s so embarrassed that the idiotic idea worked, he canā€™t even look you in the eyes at breakfast.Ā 
atsumu miya asĀ ā€œyouā€™ve been so dejected lately i feel too bad to leave you alone at nightā€Ā 
He didnā€™t ask for this at all, but yet you ended up being his roommate.Ā 
A roommate who was recently going through an extemely tough time.Ā 
Seriously, even he feels bad seeing you all in tears all the time, mindless look and not paying attention to anything
Even though you werenā€™t each otherā€™s favorite people in the world before, you ended up getting closer over the fact that he was the only one to see you at the worst moments
You hated that, but what can you do, thereā€™s no safer place to cry in than your dorm
And even though he kinda made fun of it at first, the longer it kept going, the more concerned heā€™d get
It got to a point where he literally wouldnā€™t leave you aloneĀ 
While still pretending not to like you, of course
Have you eaten? Have you drank something? Have you even left your bed today? How long did you sleep last night? Not at all? You idiot, start taking care of yourself.Ā 
You dumbass, you dummy, you moron, you absolute fricking mess
Some of your friends consider him your boyfriend, judging from the messages you get from him
ā€œDummy, thereā€™s a granola bar in your bag, better eat itā€Ā ā€œHey idiot, I had to run to practice early today. Are you feeling less shitty than yesterday?ā€Ā 
He noticed that, as it is logical, your mood proggressively gets worse as you get tiredĀ 
And that you actually learned how to cry without sobbing so you donā€™t wake him up, how thoughtful of you
Well your mistake, now you have an 80kg volleyball player over you.Ā 
ā€œAtsu, whatā€™re you doing?ā€ you ask in a tired voice, covering your face with a pillow.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re crying.ā€ he states bluntly, staring at you like a four-year-old.Ā 
ā€œObservant, are we?ā€
ā€œHey. Dumbass. You didnā€™t cry for so long already, what happened?ā€ he whispers, sitting by your side, and you canā€™t mumble words, feeling so ashamed you want to disappear. You fall on your back and pretend not to notice the question.Ā 
He sighs audiably.Ā 
ā€œAlright then, just know you brought this on yourselfā€ he states, and before you can ask why, heā€™s already laying beside you.Ā 
ā€œW-whatā€™re you doing?ā€ you scream-whisper, right into his blonde hair, and he shivers at the feeling.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m comforting you, isnā€™t it obvious, you moron?ā€ he hisses.Ā ā€œAlthough, I can see my mistake nowā€ he states, and you think heā€™s gonna go back to his own bed, but no, he grabs you by the waist and rolls over, so now you lay on top of him, flustered as ever, thankful for the light being off, at least he doesnā€™t see your tomato-like face.Ā 
ā€œBut- Atsumu, please go to your own bedā€ you plea, but he shakes his head, eyes already closed.Ā 
ā€œNu-uhā€ he answersĀ ā€œYours is more comfy, anywayā€ he jokes, making you chuckle through the tears.Ā 
He puts his hand on the back of your head and puts it on his chest.Ā 
ā€œGoodnight, dipshitā€ he whispers, and you manage to fall alseep listening to the steady beat of his heart.Ā 
No tears, heā€™d feel them anyway.Ā 
kenma kozume asĀ ā€œthe heater broke and iā€™m cold as hell, can you come here?ā€
this should not have happened
the guy looks miserable
but, you see, heā€™s doesnā€™t have the biggest amount of muscles in his body, his not as ripped as his highschool friends
body fat? also no, heā€™s a skinny, fairly tall boy who gets cold really easily
for real, heā€™s wearing a hoodie at all times, and in winter, he looks like a shell of himself
so youā€™re over at Kurooā€™s house on a New Yearā€™s party
the party ended like an hour ago, everyone is asleep
(Levā€™s gonna be so dead when Yaku wakes up and finds the tall guyā€™s head on his stomach)Ā 
youā€™re almost sound asleep in Kurooā€™s guest bedroom, so gracefully given to you by the host
the only other person in the room is Kenma, who originally slept in Kurooā€™s room together with his best friend, but got annoyed by the weird questions him and Bokuto kept asking
so he asked you if he can sleep on the couch in the roomĀ 
why wouldnā€™t you say yes?Ā 
earlier that night Kuroo burnt pizza in the oven, so you all opened almost every window in the house to get the smell to leave
and kinda forgot to close the ones in the bedrooms
but no worries, you have a radiator
...right?Ā 
why is the radiator set on the highest temperature and still stone cold?Ā 
well, doesnā€™t matter, you can just wrap yourself in the heavy sheets
Kenma, on the other hand, only has a small blanket
And since itā€™s a party, heā€™s wearing a shirt, not a hoodieĀ 
The boyā€™s freezingĀ 
ā€œHey, are you asleep?ā€ you hear a very quiet whisper coming from the couch.Ā 
ā€œThought youā€™re here cause you couldnā€™t stand the chit-chat, Kenma?ā€ you ask with a grin on your face.Ā 
ā€œYeah, right. Sorry.ā€ he mumbles and you hear him shift in his spot, visibly annoyed by the circummstances. Thereā€™s a moment of silence, in which he can feel his face almost burn down from embarrassment.Ā 
Oh, my god, you sound like youā€™re annoyed with him here. Areyou? Come on, tell him you arenā€™t. He should just let you sleep.Ā 
But does he really want to spend the rest of his night feeling his feet hurt from cold? Fuck, Kuroo, you and your stupid pizza.Ā 
He gets up, tightly wrapped in his blanket, and checks the radiator.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s definitely brokeā€ he sighs, touching the cold surface, and turns back to the couch, falling on it face down, letting out a groan.Ā 
You giggle at his action, and he opens his eyes immediately, hearing the sound of your voice.Ā 
ā€œKenma... I offered you the bed once already, itā€™s warmerā€ you start, but he raises his hand and shakes it in a disagreeing gesture.Ā 
ā€œNo no, please, donā€™t worryā€ he mumbles against the couch, trying to ignore the, ironically, burning sensation in his legs. Is this a bedroom or is this Antarctica?
ā€œOh, come onā€ you say, opening the sheets.Ā ā€œWe donā€™t want you to freeze, do we now?ā€Ā 
Oh my god, what did you do. Thereā€™s so much thoughts racing through his mind right now. Should he do it? It sounds so nice... But should he really?
Fuck it, he thinks, youā€™re offering, he canā€™t turn down an offer from you.Ā 
He lazily walks over to the bad and lays down next to you, at a reasonable distance, only to hear you laugh again. He spares you an annoyed glance, and you shake your head slightly, rolling over next to him, covering him with the sheets you have wrapped around yourself so tightly, and using his chest as a pillow.Ā 
Hold on, thatā€™s not what he signed up for. Why are you... How...?Ā 
He hesitantly and gently puts his arm around you, relaxing his body, the scent of your shampoo making him slightly dizzy.Ā 
Please donā€™t notice how fast his heart is racing. This is fine. It doesnā€™t mean anything, he can promise.Ā 
rintaro suna asĀ ā€œhey dude, i hear cuddling helps you sleep, wanna try?ā€
the most chill person out thereĀ 
literally you would never have guessed how nervous he was before asking youĀ 
itā€™sĀ  just another week, another game and another hotel you are all staying inĀ 
and fate is definitely on his side today, since his bedroom is literally next door to yours
he got to your door and left without doing anything about three times before he eventually decided to be a man and knock
has a master plan in his mind
heā€™s gonna show you a website with an article about how cuddling (allegedly) makes you sleep betterĀ 
and heā€™s just gonna be so causal about itĀ 
heā€™s just gonna knock, put on an emotionless smirk and ask you, just like he always does
but hereā€™s the think, heā€™s not so chill on the outside
ā€œhow should I call them? their name? a pet name? bro? no, too muchā€Ā 
but, he does end up knockingĀ 
ā€œHey, Y/N, whatā€™s up?ā€ you turn your head to the door to see a figure of Suna in only his underwear and an oversize t-shirt with the logo of some metal band.Ā 
ā€œShouldnā€™t you be asleep?ā€ you ask, voice hoarse as you were already drifting off.Ā 
ā€œI read this super cool thing, wanna see?ā€ he seems not to mind your comment, as he walks over to your bed and practically throws himself beside you, not minding you laying there, shoving his phone in your hands.Ā 
ā€œ... help you fall asleep in just three minutes...ā€ youā€™re mumbling under your breath as you read the headline.Ā ā€œRin, this sounds so fakeā€ you laugh, falling back on your pillows, as he sighs.Ā 
ā€œI wanna try, and itā€™s either you or Kita, and he gives me serial killer vibesā€ he mutters, earning yet another serie of laughter from you.Ā 
But seeing the serious hint in his eyes, you lift your hands in surrendering gesture.Ā 
ā€œGo on with it, Mr Romanticā€ you state, watching in amusement as he groans at the comment and burries his face in your pillow.Ā 
Youā€™re sure this is him considering this mission a failed one and giving up, but then he looks upĀ 
ā€œWell, are you coming?ā€ he asks completely serious, and you have nothing left to do than hug him and settle your face in the crook of his neck, not minding as his breathing lifts your hair from time to time and tingles your skin.Ā 
Can someone feel your blush through their skin? You surely hope not.Ā 
tobio kageyama as the almighty ā€œthe hotel room has only one king size bed and we need to shareā€
He never wouldā€™ve thought his teammates would betray him like this
What the hell do they mean thereā€™s only two people rooms available and theyā€™re all in pairs already
Honestly, primary school all over again
ugh
His perfectly happy to be sleeping alone, when he finds out youā€™re his roommate
this is fine tobio, donā€™t freak out
well heā€™s composed about it
a little bit of a ā€œtchā€ and ā€œwell I guess thereā€™s nothing we can do about itā€
internally heā€™s a little girl now, but you never wouldā€™ve guessed judging by the annoyed grimace on his face
because how does it matter if youā€™re sleeping in the same room, itā€™s not like he was planning to run around naked, right?
it all changes once you press the card to open the room, and when he so gentleman-like lets you enter first, you find out thereā€™s only one, big, king sized bed for couples exclusively
the only thing missing are rose petals and candles prepared for newlyweds
you try so so hard not to burst out laughing
when he enters, he becomes as white as the walls around
he canā€™t process this, what the fu-
bet heā€™s spending hours at the reception desk explaining itā€™s a huge mistake
unfortunately, these were the only rooms left, sorry not sorry, youā€™re sleeping together
and that brings you to the situation youā€™re in currently
Heā€™s almost over the edge of making a wall of pillows between you two. You canā€™t help but feel a tiny bit offended by it, but you know heā€™s probably just super hyper embarrassed.
ā€œYama, who donā€™t you trust, me, or yourself?ā€ you ask with a proud grin painting your lips as you sit on your side, sheets tucked around your waist, back rested on the wall behind you.
He gives you an annoyed glance, before answering:
ā€œItā€™s not thatā€
Once he says that, he proceeds to somehow nestle himself in, but he looks like one of those dolls that come with a bedroom furnishing, almost lifeless, resting on his back with hands straight down his body, eyes fixed on the ceiling.
ā€œRelax, will you?ā€ you giggle ā€œYou have a game tomorrow, grumpy faceā€
He rolls his eyes.
You shake your head and turn off the light, mumbling a quiet goodnight, as you turn to your side and place a hand under your head, back facing Kageyama.
Well, this is gonna be a long night, or so you think, up until he falls asleep.
You can physically feel him move around, and you think thatā€™s whatā€™s keeping you awake.
It takes a while for you to realize the star valley ball player is getting unconsciously closer, up until you can feel his breath on your neck.
Ironically enough, itā€™s you whoā€™s all stiff and nervous now, when suddenly you feel his arm go around your waist.
ā€œOh youā€™ve gotta be kidding meā€ you mutter, but he shifts dangerously when you speak, so you have to give up side commentary.
You decided to tease him just a bit. Heā€™s the one whoā€™s gonna be flustered when he wakes up, youā€™re on a winning side by being awake.
You smile to yourself before shifting your body closer to his. He sighs contently, almost making you laugh.
Oh how you want him to wake up and see already.
tetsuro kuroo as ā€œwe fell asleep on the couch together and now my hand is in your hair and youā€™re breathing directly on my neckā€
youā€™re over studying, or just helping him with something
the point is, you were working all day
at some point he suggests getting pizza
hell yeah, pizza
you order a little bit too much of it, but since you both are suckers for pizza, nobody can back up first
and as you know, people tend to get sleepy after they eat too much
he has a wide couch, so you can both lay beside each other without having to lay ON each other
and as you tend to get a little bit sleepy, you both shift to lay down instead of sitting, still focused on the work, thoughĀ 
you donā€™t know why, you donā€™t know how but it just happens that you fall asleep
you obviously donā€™t see what happens after that, but Kuroo notices you asleep when he asks you multiple questions and you repeatedly donā€™t answer, he got it like around question number 4
ā€œLazy much, huh, sleeping beauty?ā€ he mutters to himself, but smiles unconsciously as he glances at your stoic faceĀ 
and as if that subconsciously impacted his brain, soon enough he canā€™t find it in himself to keep his eyes open as well.Ā 
Kuroo wakes up to an annoying pain in his neck, causing him to hiss and automaticallyĀ  want to place his hand on the place that ached. Whoops, did he fall asleep on the couch again? Oh well, didnā€™t he have work to do?Ā 
He lifts his hand as he wanted to, but suddenly he feels something shift beneath it, and when he looks down to see you, with your head rested on his chest, breathing slowly, a peaceful smile on your face.Ā 
Your legs are tangled with his in some unexplicable manner, and as the man of logic he so obviously is, he canā€™t even begin to understand how that happened.Ā 
Especially why his hand feels so in place, holding you by the waist, closer to himself, and the other one lost somewhere in your hair.Ā 
You shift your head slightly up, and sigh contently, now breathing directly on the exposed part of his neck. He somehow manages to not shiver at the tingling sensation, getting more and more flustered by the second.Ā 
His heart rate inscreases drastically, making him realize heā€™s stressed like heā€™d never been before, as he tries to make up his mind about whether to wake you up, gently push you off and let you rest, or maybe stay in place.Ā 
He feels attracted to the last one, but knows itā€™d only be unfair to you.Ā 
But you could wake up if he moved you, and you had a long day, after all...Ā 
Maybe heā€™s gonna let you stay there. Not for long, only five... more... minutes...
keiji akashi asĀ ā€œyouā€™re staying over at my place, you take the bed, iā€™ll sleep on the floor. no, really, iā€™m comfortable on the floor. GEEZ FINE weā€™ll both take the bed, ya happy now?
You wanna know what got you in this situation huh
well, you were over for dinner, but it started raining really heavilyĀ 
like, really really heavily
and akaashi being the sweetheart that he is, canā€™t let you go home like that
itā€™s a long way to the train station, youā€™re gonna get sick, and what if thereā€™s a traffic accident? he canā€™t have that
(he just wants to spend more time with you but shh about that)Ā 
doesnā€™t matter how hard you try to convince him youā€™re gonna be fine. youā€™re staying and thatā€™s finalĀ 
itā€™s cute, heā€™s cute when heā€™s worriedĀ 
well that brings you to where you are currently, already after your shower, dressed in one of akaashiā€™s t-shirts, oh this feels so couple-ishĀ 
you wait for him to finish with his night time routine in his room, admiring all the posters and childhood pictures he has
he has the first ever selfie bokuto took with him framedĀ 
when he comes back, thatā€™s when the problems start
ā€œAlright, well, letā€™s get some sleep, you can take my bed, and Iā€™ll take the floor
And thatā€™s what brings us to the guilt rising in your stomach as you settle in the guyā€™s sheets, inhaling the heavy scent of his shampoo from the pillow under your head. Itā€™s his house, his bed, and yet heā€™s sleeping on the floor like some random guest. Youā€™re the random guest here, you canā€™t help but feel like youā€™re crashing at his place against his will, and youā€™re making him uncomfortable.
ā€œ ā€˜Kaashi?ā€ you whisper, making his eyes open wide to see the dark ceiling of his room. Thereā€™s silence for a moment, and then he shifts to turn on the light once more.
ā€œYeah?ā€ he sighs, bringing one hand up to his face to rub his eyes, unable to open them properly because of the sudden flush of light.
ā€œAre you sure you donā€™t want to sleep on the bed?ā€ you ask shyly, making him chuckle as he shakes his head.
ā€œYes, yes Iā€™m sure. Goodnightā€ he states gently, turning on the light once again. This is gonna be a long night, he thinks.
You cannot catch your sleep. Damn it, damn your altruism and all that shit.
ā€œAkaashi no, I canā€™t-ā€œ youā€™re cut of by the sound of him laughing.
ā€œOh my god. Fine. If I move to the bed, will you sleep already?ā€ he whines quietly, and seeing you nod in the dark, he gets up and picks up his pillow.
You get off the bed, wanting to swap places with him, but are held back by his hand.
ā€œNo, if you sleep on the floor, i wonā€™t be able to close my eyes even for a secondā€ he forbids gently, moving you back to where you were previously laying.
Oh boy, you both think, this is awkward, but the warmth of his body pressed next to yours makes it hard to be mad at him for stopping you from leaving.
This is gonna be a long night indeed.
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officerjennie Ā· 4 years ago
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Title: As the Clouds Whisp Overhead
Summary: Jaskier gets off on Geralt's soft thighs and tummy. Literally. Geralt relaxes back and lets him, enjoying the show. Weight gain spoken of positively. Pairing: Geraskier. WC: 3.5K+
CW: smut, brief mention of weight loss due to difficult times (past)
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It had been a rather easy spring, all things considered.
Geralt lazed in the field, not really watching the clouds that drifted overhead, his eyes closed and breaths deepening into an almost meditative state. The smell of wine and cheese was almost drowned out by the wildflowers about them but it was still there, as was the scent of apples, salt, the road, and the lingering oils that Jaskier had insisted on wearing ever since heā€™d discovered Geraltā€™s nose was sensitive to the others that he used to reek of.
Said bard was currently shuffling their lunch about, putting most of it away for later, humming one of his newest tunes as he folded back up the blanket heā€™d apparently bought for just this occasion. Though theyā€™d eaten plenty of meals without it or the basket heā€™d purchased at the market as well, Jaskier had insisted that a picnic was a special affair and deserved the right accessories to make it just right.
Geralt had just let him do as he wished, not worried about his friendā€™s coin purse - and not worried about his own, for once. Usually the end of winter spelled a time of heavy work for him but heā€™d lucked out on a couple of easy and well paying jobs right off the bat - so he thought a bit of down time wouldnā€™t be the end of the world for them.
The song on Jaskierā€™s lips was one he hadnā€™t quite finished yet. Geralt had already heard several different renditions of the first verse alone, lyrics tweaked here and there, the exact lilt of his voice changing back and forth as he tried to settle on what he believed would sound the best. And despite his occasional grumbling over the repetition it was a rather relaxing tune, one he didnā€™t mind listening to.
Beyond that, there was a sort of...intimacy that came with being trusted with Jaskierā€™s unfinished works. The knowledge that Jaskier wasnā€™t always his best around him, was able to fuck around with a song and riddle the air with curses of ā€œbollocksā€ and ā€œcockā€ while he tried and failed and tried again to make it just right. That Geralt could see him like this and not the perfected performance that he was to the rest of the world, the mask that was firmly in place right up until the moment he didnā€™t want it to be.
And that moment just so happened to frequently involve witchers, whether directly or indirectly. How many times had he gone feral on someone for just saying the wrong thing about one of Geraltā€™s colleagues? Just early that spring heā€™d jumped someone for spitting on the ground over Lambertā€™s name, and Jaskier hadnā€™t even met him yet.
Something like pride welled up in his chest at the thought, though it was a quiet thing. Jaskier should be more careful, he shouldnā€™t be fighting their fights - but it meant the world to him all the same that he wanted to. Especially for his brothers.
ā€œYou know, Iā€™ve never been one for cheese and crackers as anything more than a snack, but that was simply delightful.ā€ Jaskierā€™s voice came closer as he talked, and the flowers and grass were disturbed next to him as the bard flopped over at his side, quickly snuggling in when Geralt moved his arm to make room for him. ā€œWeā€™ll have to go back and ask again what the name of that cheese was. Never have I ever given so much thought to pairing and wines and all that stuff - my youngest sister was always more interested in that sort of thing, and really if I heard her say one more time that my palette wasnā€™t refined enough I might have had to hide frogs in her bed again.ā€
Jaskier settled in nicely at his side, slotting in like they were made for each other, fit perfectly together. He chattered away and Geralt mostly tuned him out, something Jaskier loved to fake hurt over though they both knew it was just that: fake. Over the years Geralt had perfected hearing what he needed to hear and simply listened to the tune of Jaskierā€™s voice, the song of his highs and lows, his sighs and breaths and every heartbeat becoming the song that was his bard.
Meditation came easier around Jaskier than it did anyone else. Even around his own family it was a struggle. Lambert was a little shit at the best of times and Eskel simply existed larger than he wanted to, and Geralt was always tuned into his brothers, paying attention to them because he knew just how limited theri time was together. But with Jaskier, he could rest, relax, simply let himself be like heā€™d never experienced with anyone else.
His arm rested at Jaskierā€™s back, hand loose on his side, barely hanging on and feeling his bard breath in and out as he spoke. Jaskierā€™s fingers tapped a rhythm where they were rested on his chest, though eventually they moved, sliding down to rest against his stomach and making Geralt hmm at the pleasant warmth they brought.
Theyā€™d stripped earlier to bathe in the nearby river and had mostly dressed, though Jaskier had forwent his doublet as Geralt had his armor. It was nice, being out in the wild, away from the faux sense of safety that inn rooms allowed them and yet still able to be this content without his armor on. Just their loose clothing, not enough to be considered decent in any sort of societal setting, simply existing and being and justā€¦
Geralt was content, and he didnā€™t consider that a bad thing. Not in the slightest.
A breeze rustled the field about them, loose silver hair tickling his face though Geralt didnā€™t have the bother in him to brush it out of the way or tuck it behind his ear. The air smelled nice for once, no clogging dust on the wind, no rotting anything nearby nor farms to make his nose want to clog itself. Since the summer was still a ways off the sun wasnā€™t too harsh on his skin, his chemise enough to keep any possible chill away though it was warm enough in this part of the country, everything pleasant and not too much.
There was also a lovely set of fingers that had wormed their way under his chemise. Jaskier hadnā€™t bothered to push it up, had just scooted his hand underneath, and with very gentle circles had begun to rub patterns into the soft flesh there. It was enough to make Geralt melt beneath him, a soft hmm on his lips accompanied by a sigh as he felt his every muscle relax at the touch. The winter had been extra good to him, Eskel having returned with more coin than expected from his path which had meant more meat for their stews, and the lot of them had eaten extra well.
Jaskier had never shied away from letting him know exactly how much he appreciated it when he ate well. There had been a few times on their own path that food had been scarce, and despite witchers having an accelerated metabolism Geralt had always done his best to see after his bard first and foremost - so when times were tough his body showed it, and Jaskier had played his fingers raw when he saw the worst of it just to make sure the both of them could eat their fill.
But there had been no such worries or struggles yet this year, what with the good winter and the well paying contracts that had followed. Geraltā€™s stomach was full and soft, protecting the muscles and other important organs underneath, and the rest of him was showing the spoiling as well. His thighs had grown softer, somewhat straining against the material of his pants but it wasnā€™t quite uncomfortable yet - he knew well enough to keep his clothes somewhat baggy, to make room for the waxing and waning that came with the path. His chest, too, had grown softer, encouraging Jaskier to nuzzle into it at any given opportunity.
Those calloused fingers found some of the scars that ran across his belly, caressing them gently. Some stretch marks veined their way across his skin as well, hidden at the moment by his chemise but Jaskier felt his way across them all the same, giving off a gentle sigh as he snuggled in closer and traced his love wherever he could reach.
Geralt could not have thought of a more peaceful way to spend the afternoon. The clouds blurred as his eyes slid closed at the tender affection, his breaths deepening. Deep breaths in through his nose, smelling the wildflowers. A rabbit was nearby, chomping as quietly as it could on some grass, its hops barely whispers as it braved further away from its burrow. Geralt could hear the gentle chuffing of its babies hidden away, the call of a hawk overhead that sent the rabbit scurrying. The scent of budding trees, of a little mouse that had found some seeds to munch. The scent of his bard, his oils and shampoo and the hint of river on the both of them, and the growing scent of-
A snort brought them both a bit out of the peace, and Geralt cracked his eyes just enough to smirk down at the startled confusion growing on his bardā€™s face.
ā€œReally?ā€
Those pretty pink lips pouted up at him as if Jaskier wasnā€™t fully aware of what was growing in his pants. Geralt made a show of raising one of his eyebrows, raking his gaze down, down his bard, straight to stare at his crotch just long enough to get his point across before flicking his eyes right back up.
It took a few seconds for his bard to catch up, Geralt watching the thoughts clear as day on Jaskierā€™s face, until red spread pretty across his cheeks and darkened the speckle of freckles there. Jaskier sputtered a bit and Geralt had to bite back a wider grin, starts to words that had no finish dropping between them before Jaskier cut himself off with a whine, ducking in to nuzzle into his chest and push the rest of his body closer.
ā€œThatā€™s not fair, Geralt - what, can you, I donā€™t know, smell it or something?ā€
Geralt didnā€™t respond to that, just reached up to tug a stray curl back behind Jaskierā€™s ear. His bard peeked up at him with another adorable pout jutting out his lower lip, his nose scrunched up as he waited for his ā€˜ridiculous suggestionā€™ to be shot down.
But it wasnā€™t shot down. And Jaskier frowned, and then he squeaked, climbing on top of Geralt to straddle him and poke a very firm finger straight into the chest heā€™d just been nuzzling.
ā€œYou and your- your entirely unfair witcher ways! Are you telling me you could tell all this time? Every time?ā€ Geralt didnā€™t stop his grin this time and the indignation just grew, hand gestures growing wider. ā€œThat is- Geralt, how am I suppose to walk through life knowing you can smell my erection? How am I ever supposed to get up of a morning knowing my every waking naughty thought will be given away? Which yes is entirely too often but youā€™re entirely not fair, have you looked in a mirror in the past decade? Cruelty, unfair, entirely too sexy for your own good, for anyoneā€™s own good-ā€
Jaskier went on like that, ranting like only he could, while Geralt eventually tuned his words out just to listen to the lilt of his voice. And the bard made a rather pretty picture himself, straddling him like that. His chemise was loose, showing off curls of dark hair that Geralt could run his fingers through for an eternity and never be bored of it. Broad tanned shoulders, a soft stomach barely hidden underneath his clothes, his pants a wonderful shade of green that fit in with the waking world around them.
A very pretty picture, but a noisy one at the moment. Geralt sighed but Jaskier went on, wildly flourishing his hands as if it was the end of the world that Geralt could smell his arousal. An arousal that had notably not died down, still pressing against the fabric of his pants, catching Geraltā€™s eyes and making him tilt his head in that way that Jaskier insisted was ā€˜adorableā€™ - though Geralt didnā€™t think he was capable of such a thing.
His thigh twitched with a rather mischievous thought, and as Geraltā€™s gaze traveled back up to Jaskierā€™s face, cheeks still stained pink from his rather unnecessary embarrassment, he thought there perhaps that voice would do better singing for him than ranting about his dramatics.
Heā€™d been called an asshole before, and Geralt had never disagreed with the label. But he was lucky enough that Jaskier for the most part never minded - and he greatly doubted Jaskier would mind his next movement.
As Jaskier waved one of his delicate looking wrists in the air, dandelion seeds drifting on the wind about them, Geralt shifted beneath him until he had room to lift up one of his thighs. Before Jaskier could catch his movement it pressed up into him, cutting his bard off with a gasp, his eyes fluttering as Geraltā€™s smile showed teeth.
ā€œThatā€™s-ā€ Jaskier pressed right down onto his thigh, his hands coming down to support him, and he didnā€™t waste any time in making it more enjoyable for himself. Shifting down, one hand placed on Geraltā€™s chest to support him, Jaskier straddled his thigh and slowly ground down onto it. A pretty moan escaped his lips and his tongue darted out as if to catch it.
It was a lovely show, watching as Jaskier pressed down onto him, sought out his own pleasure by rubbing against his thick thigh. Geralt pillowed his head on his arms and just watched, not moving his leg, letting Jaskier set his own pace and feeling pride bubble up in his chest at how pretty he sung for him. On a particularly rough grind Jaskier whimpered and rutted against him faster, making Geraltā€™s own cock twitch - but he wasnā€™t really in the mood for pleasure, so he ignored it in favor of the show.
Though he made for a beautiful picture, back lit by the sun and clouds, a pretty blue above that couldnā€™t quite beat the beautiful blue of his eyes, Jaskier wasnā€™t purposely looking good for a show. He didnā€™t touch his own skin like he did when he rode Geralt, didnā€™t skim his hands down his chest and stomach to show it off. Didnā€™t bite his lip or run and tangle his fingers into his curls. The emotions that crossed his face were not stressed or controlled, his noises slipped out without thought, his body moving without any purpose beyond pleasuring himself - and it made it a moment Geralt wanted to sear into his memory forever. That Jaskier could let go like this for him. That he trusted that Geralt didnā€™t mind, trusted that Geralt did not judge him for his desires. How human Jaskier allowed himself to be, imperfect and all the more beautiful for it.
ā€œFuck,ā€ Jaskier cursed on an exhale, his movements already shaking, his cock dripping enough precum that it soaked into the front of his pants. Geralt could almost feel it wetting his own. ā€œGeralt I- fuck youā€™re gorgeous, so gorgeous, I want to-ā€ his hips stuttered, breath catching on a moan, brown curls caught on the wind and dancing. ā€œCan- can I get off on your stomach? Gods itā€™d be so soft, feel so good, I- fuck.ā€
That was something heā€™d never requested before. Geralt quirked an eyebrow, belying another twitch of his own cock, but he grunted out ā€œIf you must.ā€ And he had to bite back a chuckle at how quickly Jaskierā€™s fingers went for the ties of his pants.
Jaskierā€™s cock was leaking profusely though that wasnā€™t anything he didnā€™t already know. It looked like it was aching from it, hard and red and angry when he fished it out of his pants and smalls, and Jaskier whined as he couldnā€™t help but stroke himself a few times. His hips bucked with it, a greedy and wanting noise slipping from between his wet lips - but then he was slipping down Geraltā€™s leg to straddle his hips, and his cock was pushed against the soft skin of his stomach.
It didnā€™t slide against him very easily. The precum leaking from the tip helped, but Jaskier didnā€™t seem to care, holding onto his cock and gently rubbing it against him, jaw wide and loose like it was the single most pleasurable act Jaskier had ever experienced. Geralt cocked his head and tore his gaze away from Jaskier to watch his cock rub circles on him, precum dribbling faster and catching in the hair that curled white all over his abdomen.
Honestly, Geralt didnā€™t quite understand it. Wasnā€™t entirely sure what had Jaskierā€™s breath coming so fast, his heart beating so quick at rubbing against his soft stomach. But he didnā€™t really care. Jaskierā€™s hips jerked and he fought to keep himself reigned in, to keep his movements steady and slow, and Geralt just watched him and let him. Let him take this pleasure, smelling the arousal coming off of him in waves, listening to the rhythm of his breaths and body and heart. And Geralt memorized every little detail, from the flutter of his long eyelashes to the way his fingers dug into Geraltā€™s side, nails just at the edge of biting him.
Jaskier whimpered, long and shaking, when he came. It was desperate, his face scrunching up, eyes shut tight as if he was grasping onto the pleasure with all of his might. Geralt reached out to take hold of one of his hands, letting Jaskier clench his fingers as hard as he needed, bringing them up to brush his lips against the knuckles as Jaskier spilled all over his stomach.
His bard almost collapsed onto him, but Geralt moved him before that could happen, bringing him down with a shush at his further whimpers and letting him rest once more in the crook of his arm. And Jaskier came down slow, heartbeat eventually matching the rhythm of his deepening breaths, eyes still scrunched up tight as if he didnā€™t want to let go of what heā€™d been feeling.
When Geralt ran his fingers through his curls, they were damp with sweat. He hummed, not minding, just holding him close as he melted against him.
Eventually, Jaskier stretched, letting his arm flop against Geraltā€™s chest and legs tangle with his once more. He almost made an effort to open his eyes. Almost. Instead he frowned lightly, nuzzling into Geralt and as he moved impossibly closer.
ā€œWant me to return the favor, love?ā€ His words were light things that could have been carried off by the wind if Geraltā€™s hearing had been even slightly worse.
In truth, Geralt was turned on. How could he not be when Jaskier had ridden his thigh and stomach so beautifully? But he thought it over for a minute, the cool breeze tickling his face with a few stray white hairs, the scent of wildflowers coming back to him as the one of arousal dissipated.
ā€œNo,ā€ he said finally, pulling Jaskier closer to kiss the top of his head. Despite the interest his body had shown he found he wasnā€™t in the mood himself, content enough to let Jaskier have his pleasure and leave it at that.
Jaskier just hummed, not questioning him further, and a small smile tugged at Geraltā€™s lips knowing there would be no hurt feelings over it. His bardā€™s fingers eventually went back to lazily tracing patterns into his skin, though he made a bit of a yucky face when they found the sticky mess heā€™d left of Geraltā€™s stomach hairs. Still they were both far too content to clean up just yet, not even wasting the energy to tuck Jaskierā€™s softening cock back away in his pants as they laid there, relaxed, enjoying the non-harsh sun and the clouds that lazed across the sky overhead.
ā€œCoin for your thoughts?ā€ Jaskier whispered into his chest after a time, and Geralt grunted, not even opening his eyes to look down as he responded.
ā€œA bigger food budget.ā€
A moment later, and Jaskierā€™s laugh filled the field around them, sharp and uncontained, a laugh that was so far away from the performance he played that it drew a chuckle out of Geralt as well. That they could be themselves around each other, that they could be so carefree and human, was the most joyous thing Geralt had ever found in his long, long life - and that theyā€™d discovered a new way to have fun was exciting, and Geralt was certainly going to take advantage of this new discovery. How could he not, when his reward was a well-pleased bard melting in his arms.
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early2000smovieimagines Ā· 4 years ago
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Meeting and Dating Ron Weasley
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- Technically, you and Ron didnā€™t meet until fourth year but the redheaded boy had been in love with you since the moment he saw you, which wasĀ during first year at the magical school.Ā 
- While he was certainly too shy to approach you, he did do quite a bit of staring and talking to Harry about you; though he tried to pretend as though he couldnā€™t care less every time he realized how in love he sounded.Ā 
- So fourth year comes around and heā€™s still just as infatuated with you; and just as emotionally stunted about it, as ever. But then, it happens.Ā Ā 
ā€œHey Ginny.ā€Ā 
- You waved at the redheaded girl as you passed with a few of your friends, causing her older brother to stare at her as though sheā€™d suddenly sprouted another head.Ā 
ā€œHow do you know y/n y/l/n?!ā€ Ron immediately asked after you were far away enough not to hear.Ā 
- He spent the rest of their walk questioning her as to how she knew you and how you met and if you were close and blah, blah, blah. Ginny only got him to lay off after she started teasing him for being in love with you, but even then he still sent a few hesitant questions her way, all the while insisting he wasnā€™t all that interested.Ā 
- Ginny is very pleased with her newfound power. It was like the cat who got the canary the first time she brought you over and introduced you to her blushing brother. Ron could have killed her yet ā€œkissedā€ her at the same time; not literally.
- Even though you now know each other and are on friendlier terms, heā€™s still nervous and awkward around you. Heā€™s always messing up his words, stuttering, tripping over things, staring, etc. Heā€™s awful with women if you werenā€™t aware.
- And yet, you still seem to like him, and over time he does start to relax, even though he still has his moments.
- Ron never actually asks you out, you just sort of have a silent agreement. You start to spend more alone time together, you donā€™t date anyone else, you share awkward yet almost tender moments, etc. Your relationship status is later solidified with a; long awaited, kiss and a kiss alone.
- Ron is very much so a spontaneous ā€œIā€™m just gonna kiss her and deal with the consequences laterā€ type of person. Heā€™s bad at expressing his feelings with words so heā€™ll do it with his actions, and heā€™ll do it quickly before he has the chance to stop himself; usually after a surge of emotions.
- So, in typical Ron fashion, he heard some guy mention how he was thinking about asking you out, and realized that you never did establish that the two of you were an item. He immediately started to think about how much heā€™d hate to see you with another guy and how much he cared about you.
- Because of that, he was quite distracted when he finally saw you again. He fidgeted and seemed to be lost in his own thoughts as you walked together but just as you were thinking about saying something to him, he turned and laid one on you.
- Although you were a bit flustered and certainly very surprised, you kissed back and smiled at him as the two of you pulled away.
ā€œIā€™ve been waiting to do that.ā€ He admitted, his less confident personality returning as a blush creeped its way onto his cheeks.
- Itā€™s in that moment that youā€™ve realized that youā€™ve fallen in love with a dork. A wonderful, beautiful dork.
- Though it tends to make him flustered, Ron is definitely a fan of pda. In the beginning of your relationship, heā€™s a bit defensive about it, like when his friends chuckle at you kissing his cheek or make faces at him while heā€™s got his arm wrapped around you, but he learns to ignore it and just brush them off.Ā 
-Ā Handholding.Ā 
- Leaning your head on his shoulder. Perhaps itā€™s because itā€™s you initiating a type of affection or because it shows that youā€™re comfortable with him, but either way, he loves it.Ā 
- Hugs. Thatā€™s all this boy wants. Just wrap your arms around him and let him hold you close goddamnit!
- You giving him kisses on the cheek; or anywhere else? Unparalleled. Never stop.Ā 
- Abrupt, passionate kisses.Ā 
- Snogging. Heā€™s certainly a bit clumsy at first but you donā€™t mind; you probably are too.Ā 
- He has a few select terms of endearment that he likes to use: darling, sweetheart, woman, my girlfriend. He doesnā€™t mind pet names but please stick to a simpleĀ ā€œbabeā€ orĀ ā€œhoneyā€ and not something likeĀ ā€œwon wonā€ (shudders).Ā 
- Ron sleeps on his back most of the time so youā€™ll just usually lay your head on his chest while he wraps his arms around you. That being said, he isnā€™t particular about the position, and since he has a habit of snoring, you may want to try spooning.Ā 
- Do you know how long heā€™s waited to brush your hair behind your ear or wipe something off your face?Ā That little action is so important to him and even he doesnā€™t really know why.
- Bridal carrying and piggyback rides. Ronā€™s a strong boy and he likes showing it off, and feeling you holding onto him.
- Getting your food stolen.
- Playing chess.Ā 
- Dates at Hogsmeade. Sometimes the two of you just wander around and get yourselves a little privacy from every bodies prying eyes; and third wheeling.
- Going to the three broomsticks. If Ginny is there, he will immediately ask to leave and you oftentimes find it too amusing to be annoyed.
- Obviously, Ron doesnā€™t have a ton of pocket money so the two of you donā€™t do anything too expensive. A lot of your dates consist of roaming around the castle and the grounds together, finding somewhere to sit and just enjoying each otherā€™s company.
- Sitting in the courtyard together.
- Cheering Harry on at Quidditch together and later cheering him, Ginny and Harry on with Hermione.
- Exaggerated stories. Heā€™s always trying to impress you and make himself or what heā€™s done seem cooler than it really is.
- Youā€™re constantly making jabs at each other and lovingly laughing at the other person. How can you not tease him for being in love with Viktor Krum, itā€™s the only way you can make yourself feel better about his obsession.
- You can practically see the hearts in his eyes when you laugh. He loves seeing and hearing it so much.
- Compliments and flattery. Is it so youā€™ll do his homework? Is it genuine? The world may never know.
-Ā Making sure he actually does his work and does it well. He would be lost without you.
- You and Hermione talking about your mutual struggles with the boys. Ron and Harry watch from afar, agreeing that your little gathering makes them nervous and wondering what youā€™re saying.
- He likes when you tryĀ to teach him things, it gives him an excuse to be close to and watch you.
- Heā€™s always encouraging you and reassuring you that youā€™ll do great and that you can do it. Heā€™s so sure of you that you almost feel sure of yourself.
-Ā Although he tries to not let you know just how much he is, heā€™s very impressed and proud of you at just about any given moment. Heā€™s never met someone as amazing as you.
- Sometimes he surprises you with just how much he listens. Oftentimes at random, heā€™ll mention something that you once said and surprise you with just how much heā€™s taken to remembering; sometimes purely because it came out of your mouth.
- Heā€™s always a bit speechless when you give him a gift. Once heā€™s over the shock, heā€™ll give you a ā€œbloody hell, thank youā€ and a kiss on the cheek.
- Ronā€™s taken on Voldemort and countless other dangers and yet youā€™ll still have to be the one to kill the spiders in your relationship.
- Showing him muggle stuff. Oh Godric, the amount of time his father spent asking you about the muggle world when you first visited....
- Spending summers at the burrow and writing to each other; even though he teasingly pretends that he wonā€™t.
- Ron is the youngest Weasley boy and Mollyā€™s a momma bear so expect to be sweetly scrutinized and then made into a part of the family.
- The twins and Ginny teasing the two of you; though they do tease him more when theyā€™re alone with him.
- You should probably apologize to Harry Iā€™m advance because this boy never shuts up about you to him.
- Lightly touching and checking on each otherā€™s injuries. Heā€™s very gentle with you when youā€™re hurt, he treats you like youā€™re made of glass.
- Ron has always sort of felt like he was second best to Harry and most of his brothers so he loves when you pay special attention to him. Listening to his stories, praising him, having eyes only for him, it all makes him feel so much better about himself.
- Trying to help him smooth things over with people; especially when it comes to Harry and Hermione. Itā€™s awkward to not be able to talk to them because your boyfriend keeps you right by his side so you try to fix things as soon as possible.
- As we all know, Ron is an incredibly jealous person and when he gets jealous, he can get a bit nasty. Heā€™ll most likely interrupt you and make you choose between him or the guy, wanting you to prove that heā€™s more important to you than them by going with him.Ā 
- Afterwards, he insults the person heā€™s jealous of, maybe accidentally somewhat insulting you in the process, and tries his best to make you think the other person is a git.Ā 
- Ron is constantly jumping to defend your honor and is always ready to fight someone to do it. He may act like an ass to you at times but he really does love you and your safety is his top priority. Nothing is going to mess with his girlfriend.Ā 
- The two of you have quite a few fights, all of them varying in intensity. Ron isnā€™t good at expressing his feelings so thatā€™s usually what leads to fighting: him just not being able to communicate properly. Sometimes you have quick, hushed arguments, leaning in close to each others faces. Other times, youā€™ll be having loud and harsh ones filled with insinuations and insults you donā€™t mean.Ā 
- You usually give each other space, whether itā€™s out of respect or because you both refuse to speak to the other one first depends on the situation. He asks Harry how long he thinks youā€™ll stay mad at him and oftentimes asks the boy to talk to you for him, mainly to see if youā€™re still mad. His apologies are stilted but he does give them and knowing how he is, you usually accept them.Ā 
- There arenā€™t a ton of I love youā€™s in your relationship, given how awkward he is most of the time; particularly when youā€™re younger, but he will occasionally blurt it out without thinking.Ā 
ā€œBloody hell,ā€ heā€™ll say in awe.Ā ā€œGodric I love you.ā€
- While times certainly get tough in the future, heā€™s been in love with you since he was eleven and thereā€™s no sign of it stopping any time soon. Youā€™ll stick by each others sides and when the dust settles, youā€™ll start to build that life heā€™s been fantasizing about.Ā 
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oneirataxiahiraeth Ā· 4 years ago
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Can I request a Kai Parker smut when the reader is Bonnie's cousin and the reader sees through the things that Kai has done.
Dudeeee I actually had a this whole concept already in my drafts!!! Sorry itā€™s taken me a while, Iā€™m a very indecisive person so this was written over and over again LMFAO
Pairings : Bennett!Reader X KaiParker
Warnings : angst., some more angst, angry Bonnie, Kai Slander, mentions of blood/violence/gore, mentions of murder, language, smut, not proof read
Requested : ;) I originally based this off of POV by Ariana Grande but I made some tweaks to it so yeah
Word Count : 7k
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Your head was light and brain struggling to make any connections to the rest of your body. Your back rested against the dining room chair as you let whatever Jo fed to you get mushy in your mouth. Caroline had fed you some of her blood but your headache remained. Everything about today had went south and now everyone was just waiting on the edges of their chairs for something to happen and just wrap up the gift of shittiness to this very bad day. Unfortunately for you, you just so happened to be the fucking bow.
"I thought I told you to stay away from her!" Bonnie snapped in the living room at the brown haired siphon. You couldn't hear the arguments happening in the other room solely because you were too busy being coddled by Jo and Caroline to make sure you wouldn't be able to hear the scolding Kai was receiving in the other room.
Bonnie never saw what you did whenever she looked at him. In her mind, you were just another one of his victims. He couldn't have had any good intentions with you. Kai Parker never had good intentions of any kind. He's selfish, and evil, and cruel, and there's no way in hell she was going to let him keep ruining your life after what happened today. Everyone knew who he was and what he did, everyone saw how dangerous he could be... except you just refused to acknowledge it. Truthfully, she didn't know whether to direct all her anger at him for hurting you or put all her disappointment on you for letting it get this far.
"Bonnie I swear, it's not like that! I never meant to hurt her, it just happened and I couldn't control it-"
"I swear to god I will kill you right now, and I wouldn't even need magic to do it." She growled.
He couldn't understand what made her so angry. Obviously he never meant to siphon so much out of you, really he didn't mean to siphon you at all. He was just planning on telling from Bonnie and the bracelet you gave him with a bit of your magic in it for emergencies and hoped the whole spell would work out fine.
"It was an accident!"
"Like hell it was!" Everyone stood around... watching... waiting... hoping. Hoping he would step out of line just once so they could rip his head off. "Nothing with you is an accident, Kai!"
"I would never intentionally hurt her, Bonnie! Believe or not I'm still capable of human emotions!" He scoffed, nothing the vampires surrounding him ready to pounce at any given moment, and with his anger levels rising they were about to have a field day.
"Of course you would, Kai! You hurt everyone who's close with you! Whether it's literally or metaphorically you always find a reason that benefits you, that justifies you hurting someone else! That's just who you are! You want nothing good with her, Kai! She's a good person, just leave her alone!" Bonnie growled, but Kai wasn't going to give in so easily.
"I've changed, Bonnie!"
"Changed into what? An even better liar? Because for an actual second there, Kai, I really believe you stayed in mystic falls just to live the life you never got to!" She fired.
"That's-"
"You know, if you wanted to make us even considering liking you, you should've moved. Far, far away from here, somewhere where you can't fucked up our lives enough for us to continue to have another fucking reason to hate you!" His shoulders dropped, hurting filling him to the brim. Usually he wouldn't let things like words get to him. She was upset with him, people say things they don't mean when they're upset... only she would've said this even in her happiest moments of life. She did hate him, and she had every reason to.
"She makes me a better person- When I'm I'm with her I want to be a better Person, Bon!" He defended himself. He knew the real reason he was with her, to him it was quite obvious. She made him feel as though the world wasn't out to get him. She could stop a nightmare before it even began with just a breathing the way she does. She made the best cupcakes, even though her cooking skills were mediocre, magic could fix everything. She made him smile without even doing anything just from the warm giddy feeling in his body when he's around her. Y/N Bennett... she was the only person to exist to make Malachi Parker feel like he deserved to live.
"Bullshit! You're just using her-"
"It isn't like that!" He snapped, causing the argument to halt for a few seconds.
"Really? Then tell me, Kai. What is it? Is it because she's my cousin? Is that why you're interested in her? To get back at me in your own disgusting twisted way? Or is it because of the blood? I bet her Bennett blood would come in real handy just in case-"
"No! I wouldn't do that to her-"
"Or is it because you're just so desperate for someone who actually feels like a friend that you decided to keep her around? Hmm? Maybe it's because after 18 years holed up in that prison word, you finally came to the realization that there is no possible way you could ever be loved. That you deserve to be alone for the rest of eternity. But all of a sudden, here she is, Precious y/n Bennet, the only person who is willingly to search for even a shred of good in you!" She spat. Everyone around watching guards fell as the watched Kai slowly become less tense. His shoulders falling slowly, the will the defend himself leaving his body along with his will to live, embarrassment and anger rushing through his veins, but a small part of him kept him in the room and not on his way back to his apartment. "Let me tell you something, Kai. Maybe this you can finally get it through your head." Bonnie feeling confident enough to take a step towards the stunned looking Siphon. "Not even a Bennett witch is strong enough to fix the broken, unlovable, vile person you really are. And if you truly, by some fucking miracle have a beating heart in your chest, if you've actually let her change you for the better, then you know she's better off without you. We both know that you don't deserve her in any way, shape, or form... so just let her go. Find someone else to ruin and leave her alone."
It felt as if all the oxygen in his body had left. His heart stopped pumping blood through his veins, and slowly and painfully he felt as if he was desiccating on the insides. He hadn't even noticed the tear that had escaped while he was being scolded.
Both you and Jos head turn as you hear a muffled scream that sounded like it came from Bonnie. You tried to stand by Jo eased you back down, shaking her head as if everything was all right. You couldn't hear much of the conversation going on in the other room, but you knew if it was enough to make Bonnie angry then it was never good. And Bonnie in their with Kai... was enough to make her wanna take out the entire town of Mystic Falls.
"I feel fine Jo, I'm good." You reassure her, standing on your own again against her advice.
She knew what was going on in there... they've been going at it since before you even regained consciousness. She wasn't worried about you not being able to stand on your own, she was worried about you overbearing the heavy conversation happening in the other room.
"Maybe we should head to a clinic or something, you did hit your head pretty hard!" She tries quickly but you shaking your head.
"Caroline gave me her blood, I'll be fine." You responded, looking to the blood who seemed to be in total shock and not at all paying attention to either of you. "I think I'm just going go home and sleep, promise I won't do anything to crazy." You sent Jo a soft smile, tilting your head at Caroline in confusion but ultimately ignored it. Maybe it was some weird vampire sensory thing.
"You should take the back door!" Jo tried again, just to keep you from walking back into the living room.
"I would..." you narrowed your eyes at the dark haired doctor. "But my keys are by the front door." You spoke, walking towards the living room before Jo could make any more excuses. You caught on fast, but really you did just want to go home.
"Wait No-" Jo stood quickly, Caroline finally snapping back into consciousness. By the time she could truly think, you were already walking through the doors leading into the living room. There was still a bit of your blood on the carpet, you knew Damon was going to bitch about that later so you figured you get out why you still could.
Well... that's what you were planning to do before you stopped just to notice all of the eyes planted on you. You first assumed that it was just them just surprised at your speedy recovery... but the tear running down your boyfriends cheek made you rethink a bit. Kai never cried. No matter what or ho he was feeling, there was not a thing in this world that he would ever let get to him. Maybe he was just so worn out from the spell too that he didn't even feel himself tearing up. The whole room felt tense, and even Jo and Caroline looked like this in the Kitchen.
"What's going on?" You felt your own body tense a bit as Kai's eyes fell down to the floor.
"nothin'" Kai mumbled, voice shaky. Your eyes narrowed with obvious disbelief. His voice was kind of small, and he couldn't even look at you. He had so many thoughts racing through his head he had no idea what to do.
"Why don't i believe that..." you spoke, mostly to yourself. "I was just about to head home." You mentioned wearily. "Are you coming or are you just gonna stand there awkwardly?" You asked, half joking and half wanting to know what had him so actually upset.
"Uhm," he spoke looking back up, eyes immediately attracted to Bonnie before looking back to you. He felt her glare burning into the side of his head, her whole rant repeating itself in his mind over and over again. "Yeah, yeah, I'll drive." He nodded, turning around just so he wouldn't have to look at you again. Before he could walk, Bonnie had grabbed his arm. Rather tightly, and oddly to be honest. She usually avoided any sort of interaction with him, so even an arm touch was a weird sight to you.
All she sent was a simple look that seem to have him shaken down to his boots before she let him go. Her eyes falling back to you. She sent a smile, before just walking away. Not a word. Just silence. It was weird, no one else had much to say either, just weird looks on their faces and more silence to give. You ignored them though, just wanting to get home.
"Uhm, okay." You responded to the silence, shaking out the bad feeling from your mind before walking through the living room. You grabbed you jacket off the couch before walking over to Kai. You reached your hand up to touch his arm but he shrugged you off, walking towards the front door without even look at you. Was he mad? What could he possibly have been mad at you for?
You pretended to not noticed the coldness and just follow after him out the door. He got into the car, barely even waiting until your door was fully closed before taking off out of the driveway. He needed to get you home. To stop himself from doing the right thing and letting you go because he didn't want that. He wanted you, for as long as he could manage to keep you in his grasp. It was selfish of him, but everyone already knew what he was like so he didn't really care. He's happy with you. Happy with his life with you. Happy with his life around you. Happy with himself with you.... why in hell would he ever give you up?
Bonnie was right though, letting you go wasn't about his happiness. It was about yours. And as selfish as he was, your happiness would always come above his own. He made sure of that everyday. He didn't eat until you did, he took shorter showers so you could have more hot water, or he'd just wait until you were done and take whatever was left. You wanted- deserved a life without him and all the despair and pain that follows him around. You didn't deserve to be woken up in the middle of the night because he was restless. You didn't deserve to be distanced from all your friends just because you liked him. If living the best life you could meant leaving him behind, he was fine with that. He was fine with that for you. He was fine with you being happy even if it meant he would've been miserable for the remainder of his life.
"Kai, you need to slow down!" You spoke up, hand moving to his thigh as you noticed his hand clutching the wheel so tightly. "Your going 70 in a 35" it was late and no one was out on the streets, he didn't care how fast he was going.
"It's fine, y/n." He muttered, eyes not leaving the road. There were no deer out in this time of the year, there was no danger of hitting much of anything.
"No, Kai, it's dangerous." You responded, "slow down, please."
"No." He needed to get you home. If he slowed down, that gave you more time to talk. More time for him to think, more reasons to flood his brain on why you were better off without him.
"No? Kai, come on, seriously you need to slow down." You scoffed, not amused by his resistance. "I'd rather not die in a car crash before I'm old enough to run for president."
"Could you stop talking? Like just for a moment!" He huffed.
"Wha- I- no! What the hell is wrong with you? Slow the car down, Kai!" His eyes rolled, momentarily forgetting just how persistent you could be. "Kai!" Your hand moving from his thigh as you contemplated jumping out of the car just to see what he would do. Maybe after you break probably every bone in your body he'll slow the fucking car down. "Stop the damn car." You spoke but he ignored you, hoping you would just stop talking to him.
Instead of you stopping with the chat, he felt himself stomping on the break as your seatbelt came undone. Your body moving forward fast, colliding with the dashboard, and knocking the absolute wind out of you. He unbuckles his seat belt quickly, looking over to you. You were fine, your boobs not so much, but it wasn't unbearable. You let out a deep throaty couch, opening your car door. You only unbuckled your seat belt to get him to slow down, put the fear in him that you were going to jump out.
Well... it sort of worked.
"Y/N, what the hell?!" He growled, following you out the car. You were leaned onto the car trying to get some air into your king as the adrenaline started releasing through your body. "What the hell were you going to do? Jump out of the fucking car because I was got a few miles over? You could've gotten hurt! Hurt worse the just hitting the dashboard! What if another car was coming? You could've gotten ran over, and killed! Then you'd wake up with a craving for an AB positive juice box!" He scolded you as if you were a child.
"I wasn't actually going to jump out, asshole! I just wanted you to slow the damn car down! And if you would've done it, instead of being a dick then we wouldn't be having this conversation!"
He mumbled something under his breath that you couldn't quite make out and you finally managed to stand straight again. "Are you okay?" He sighed.
"Are you?" You shrugged. "You haven't looked at me since we left the house, you won't talk to me, practically told me to shut the fuck up, and then you yell at me like I'm kid."
"I didn't mean to yell at you. I just didn't want you to get hurt." He frowned a bit.
"I'm fine. But I'm not getting back in that car." You spoke.
"What? Why?"
"Tell me what Bonnie said to you that has you so upset." You demanded, his heart pausing for only a moment as you stated into his soul.
"What?"
"I might be a little be slower at picking up on the clues but I'm not stupid. What did she say that has you so deathly terrified to even look at me?" You asked. "Did she put a spell on you or something-"
"No, it's nothing, y/n, just drop it and let's get back." He shook his head.
"If it was nothing then you wouldn't mind telling me."
"It's none of your business."
"Seeing as your my boyfriend and she's my family, in some weird way, whatever beef you two have is my business."
"Leave it alone."
"No" You shook your head, crossing your arms over your chest even though it hurt a bit.
He wanted to yell, but he knees you still wouldn't give up. He didn't understand how you could be so annoyingly persistent still after he's shot you down so many times. It was like you knew you were getting under his skin yet you kept digging. Purposely trying to draw out some reaction just for your own amusement.
"Why don't you give up?" He groaned. "Why do you even care? Why can you stand there and look at me like that with no guilt at all?!" His foot colliding with the car tire. He hated how much every fiber of his being was pushing him to do the right thing for once. "How can you stand there knowing everything I've done and still sleep in a bed with me? Do you not care?" He wanted to stop but nothing was letting him.
"What're talking about?"
"I killed people! My own family, y/n! I hurt Bonnie! I hurt Damon! I hurt Elena, and then just because I thought you were pretty I hurt you too! And still, you refuse to see any of my faults in actions that I take pride in!" He yelled finally. It didn't phase you. You encourage him to let any emotions he was feeling out all the time. He was angry right now, and you were fine just seeing how angry he really was.
"You're not that person anymore, that's why. I trust you."
"Well you shouldn't." He shook his head. "I will always be that person!"
"You may feel like that person but your not!" You defend him against himself. "You've made a lot of progress, you know that. And I could sit here and dwell on the shit you've done in the past but if I did that to everyone, I'd have no one." You sighed, not understanding why he was bringing any of this up. What did Bonnie say to him?
"I left Bonnie in a prison world to die!"
"And you helped me get her back!"
"I tortured your best friend!"
"You wouldn't be the first-"
"Stop doing that!"
"What?"
"Making excuses for me! There are none! I'm a bad person, y/n! You aren't, this whole 'fix me' doll relationship isn't going to last because of that! Because you deserve better than me! And if I let this go any further, then that means I haven't changed. I'm not better than I was, I've just had you to keep me from making any stupid decisions-"
"Kai stop-"
"-and one day you're going to realize that this was all a mistake. That maybe there isn't something that can be redeemed in my cold unloveable heart. And when that day comes, I'd rather not wake up and see the pure and utter hatred you've developed for me just like the rest of the people in my life."
You felt your lungs stop filling with air. It was hard to get any in, you were just breathless. How were you suppose to breathe after that? Now you had a decent idea of what that conversation he had with Bonnie was.
"No. You don't get to do that, you can't push me away. I'm not here because your a chore Kai, I care about you, and I want to be with you-"
"Do you seriously have no respect for yourself?!"
"Do you?!"
"No! Because all my respect goes to you! Everything I have goes to you! And because I respect you, and because you are literally the only thing on earth that I actually truly care about I have to do this-"
"No you don't-"
"I'm br-"
"No your not!" You groaned, covering you ears as if that would effect the outcome of this situation.
"Stop being so stubborn."
"Kiss me."
"No,"
"Just do it, Kai! Kiss me, and we can make up and forget this whole conversation!"
"How can you seriously fucking stand there and act like I'm not going to ruin your life. I murdered my own siblings in cold blood. And I'd do it again, y/n. I don't feel bad, I never felt bad. I've done so many bad things and your standing here looking at me like I'm a fucking Saint who deserves the happiness you give!"
You remained silent.
"Is that what you want? To see how bad I can be? To wait for the day where you can see Malachi Parker in action? Be there when he finally breaks?! Again!" He scoffed and you shook your head, but no word escaped. "You know what" his eyes set on you, desperate to make you see what everyone else sees when they look at him. "Maybe i can get to your head, if I let you in mine." He spoke walking to you, hands on your temples before you could even move.
You tried to break from him hold be you weren't nearly as strong as he was. He was mumbling something under his breath and soon your whole body became numb. Your mouth feel open as you let out groans of pain as bloody images fill your head, and guilt and remorse and hurt filled your heart. Screams and cries ringing in your mind, but none you've ever heard before. People you've never seen crying, and struggling to run from you. Only it wasn't you they were running from. It was Kai.
His memories flooded your brain all at the same time. You had no idea had to process everything you were seeing. All the pain in your chest amplifying somehow with a deeper emotional pain. But most of that wasn't yours either. It was his too. Loneliness and Exhaustion. Hate and Longing. It was overwhelming along with the pictures and sounds running amok in your head. Soon pictures of Bonnie had flashed through your mind, and Jo, and Damon. Blood, and more blood, nothing wasn't covered in blood, and with every passing second the pain in your chest worsened. Cries of his name, and blood curdling screams filling your head, some of which belonged to you. That was when you felt the worse pain. Hearing your own screams caused a panic, and seeing your own body covered in blood, watching your body fall just earlier as your head collided with the end table. Sheer panic and anguish for some reason. But the last image to intrude your thoughts seemed like a not so distant memory of his. One of you. Even if your head wasn't being taken over you wouldn't have remembered because in this moment he wasn't with you. He was sitting across the grill watching you dunked your fries into a strawberry milkshake with a huge smile on your face in front of your friends. You seemed happy, and it was like you were witnessing someone come back to life. First grief hit you hard, then relief and joy, and then reality set in and it was like you realized that it was all just dream and that person was still dead and never coming back and you were never going to be happy again.
He tore his hands away from you, allow you to steal in some oxygen and you went dizzy, using the car for support so you wouldn't collapse on the ground. Your chest heaving as you tried to reel in your mind what you just saw, what you felt, what you heard. All of his memories. All of the bad things he's ever done, or things he would consider to be bad. But in his mind, it was only reason that you would probably be more inclined to leave him for.
Through every memories you were overwhelmed with emotions. Whatever you could feel you felt. You didn't know which emotions were yours or his. You couldn't separate the feelings. But in some weird way you could tell that the pain and anguish churning in your gut was his. You didn't know his family well enough to have regrets, or remorse... that was all him. All the fronts he put up... all those emotions exposed everything.
"Get in the car." He spoke softly, helping you off the car so he could open the door. "You don't need to say anything, I'm taking you home and then I'll be gone." He spoke as if he knew that you wanted to be nowhere near him.
Instead, you just wanted to give him a hug. That gut wrenching pain he felt still lingering within your body. Tears streaming down your cheeks but not because of what you saw, but how he felt. Every one of your friends have done things of equal evil status. Judging him for things he obviously did regret and feel everyday wouldn't be fair to him. And whether you felt like that because you wanted to be fair or because you were in love with him was a mystery to even you.
You didn't speak, you just sat in the car staring ahead of you. Trying to determine how you really truly felt. Why was him seeing you so bad that he felt he needed to include that memory in his mind torture. You barely felt time move as he flew down the road at the same speed as before. When he parked in front of the apartment the two of you shared, he decided he would just stay out and drive all night. He didn't know where to go. He knew you probably wouldn't want him around. You stared blankly at the red bricked building with the dim lights hanging from the walls.
"Y/N." He spoke softly, not wanting to look at the tears running down your cheeks.
"Kai." You returned, voice soft and brittle unaware of how vulnerable you sounded to him. "Why do you consider meeting me a bad thing?" You asked, not a single other word coming to mind.
"I don't regret meeting you. I regret putting you in this position in the first place. And if I didn't insert myself into your life then-"
"Then you wouldn't be breaking up with me on the side of the road. Leaving me alone to spend the rest of my life wondering what I did wrong to push you away. To wonder why my love wasn't good enough reassurance-" you rambled not sure why everything was coming out of your lips.
"then you wouldn't be crying right now. Then you could've avoided all of this." He sighed in response. He hated when you cried, if it was anyone else it would've been annoying. Your tears always were the one thing that could truly break him into pieces. "When I met you... when I met you, I was so sure that you were just going to ignore me or hate my guts. I fucking left your friend in a prison world to die, y/n. I tortured you, yet you still see me as someone who's able to be redeemed. You SAW what I did, and your still defending me!" His own tears starting to pool. "I d-don't want you to hate me... and I don't want to do this... but I do want to be happy and I don't think you could ever really do that until I'm out of your life." You silently shook your head as you tried not to let your own tears keep falling. Your heart clenching in your chest, breathing getting harder to achieve.
You didn't speak.
You couldn't.
Pain hitting you harder as each second passed. You didn't know how to respond to be truthful so you just unbuckle your seat belt. You sniffled, waking the tears from you cheeks only to has fresh one replace the one you wiped away. Kai still refused to look at you, maybe you finally did she was shitty person her was. And how stupid you were for being with him. You opened the door, getting out quickly hoping he follow you but he didn't. You were still a bit dizzy from him flooding his memories through your head. You're steps were slow and wobbly and you were bound to fall in seconds but you just kept moving. To any who didn't know what you've just been through, you were just so drunk sorority girl trying to make it to the door.
Kai watched you struggled for a second, knowing you could hold your own, but he didn't want you to. He got out of the car, not even caring about locking it behind himself. His feet carried the rest him over to you. Almost as if his body was acting on instinct to help you. His arm wrapped around you, your sweet scent immediately wafting into his nose causing a tear to slip down his cheek. He ignored it, helping you, and you just let him. You didn't feel like fighting. You just wanted his touch on your skin, so you allowed him to help you.
Many thoughts flooded your head. He was as bad as everyone said he was. But you he'd never hurt you, in any way. He wouldn't hurt anyone else because that would hurt you. He was good because he wanted to be, but only for you. No one else has ever really given him good enough reason to be good. You knew he wasn't the same person that he was, and tonight just cleared it all up. It didn't stop you from loving him. It just gave you all the more reason to. You've seen your best friends do worst than him, who were you to cash him out for something he's going to feel his entire life?
You didn't speak the entire way to your front door. He unlocked the door for you, hoping you would just be able to walk and get some rest on the couch or something.
You had other plans.
You stood straight on your own, looking back to the brown haired siphon who realized he was just fooled into a trap. Your hands reached for his, taking his hand in yours quickly before he could walk away.
"Y/n, please, it's easier this way just let me go-"
"You showed me your worst moment so I want to show you my best." You spoke. Eyes dead set on his, hands gripping each other's, neither one of you wanting to let each other go. "Please." You let out a small breath.
"This is going to make it a lot harder-"
"That's the point, Malachi." You sniffle, holding in a tiny laugh.
"Okay." He whispered, preparing himself for the rush of emotions and memories flooding through his head like he did to you. You pulled your hands from his, placing them on each of his temple before beginning the spell.
It wasn't long before he felt your presence in his mind, his on thoughts being taken over with your own thoughts. At first it was a horrible feeling watching every time you were happy, knowing he was never going to be able to see that from you again. Not if he kept his promise. He wouldn't to push you away, his chest light and full with joy and a love so over it was almost crushing. He watched as memories of times you spent with him. From your first date, to that one joke he cracked the made you laugh when he first kidnapped you just to torture you for practice. He watched as he teased you, to the first time the two of you had sex, to the first I love yous, and he felt how warm inside it made you at the fact that he never over used the words. You knew he loved you even when he didn't physically say those words. You felt his love every time you were around him, and that was enough for you.
Ā Ā  He felt a soft smile forming on his lips but he could tell if it was from your happiness or knowing how much he really meant to you. Memories of late night cries, and arguments ending in angry sex, and sneaking out of classes, and talking trash about your friends even though you would never said something too horrible about them.
Ā  You liked who you were with him. You loved who you were. And he felt all of that, he felt how much love you held for him, how much pain you were in to think about him leaving. And eventually that strong happy, lovely, calm feeling was stripped away from him, leaving him empty for a moment before he felt you hands against his cheeks.
Ā  You were holding his face, staring straight into his eyes, both of you almost to the point of sobs. You were praying to god that you're plan worked. The hell were you going to do if it didn't?
Ā  "Don't leave me, Kai."
"Y/N-"
Ā Ā  "I'll follow you to the ends of the earth, Kai. Let me love you, please." You pleaded, bodies moving closer together without each other even realizing. It was natural for you to be close with him, you never questioned it.
Ā  He didn't want to say no. But he owed it to you to say no.
"You saw what I did-"
"And you saw how much I love you-"
Ā  "You watched in first person how I killed four of my siblings-"
Ā  "And you watched from my point of view how badly I fell in love with you."
Ā  You just wanted to kiss and make up. You would fall apart if he left you alone. Especially if he was doing it for your own 'happiness' because that meant he thought you weren't happy with him. It was upsetting and slightly insulting, because you were the happiest you've ever been with him.
Ā  "I just want to do the right thing, baby." He whimpered quietly, you're heart nearly breaking in a million pieces. His tearing streaming quickly, mentally slapping himself for being so weak for you.
Ā  "Then stay... stay and make me the happiest person in the entire world. We could graduate together and get a small house in the suburbs, or- or we could leave. Right now. Travel all across the world, experiencing so many different things together." You offered meaning every word.
Ā  At some point in the silence that seemed to last for forever, one of you couldn't take it anymore. You didn't care to pay attention which one of you, but your lips connected, smooshing your faces together to be as close as possible. Tears mixing on each other's cheeks, his hands down on your waist pulling you closer into him as you both made you're way inside your shared home.
Ā  He used his foot to kick the door closed, being careful to touch you oh so gently. You were a fragile peace of glass to him, the most beautiful sculpture who had no business being with him. He did nothing to deserve you, yet you felt he deserved you more than anyone in the world. You wasted so many years on him tonight, and for some reason you didn't care anymore. He was here, he was on you, his hands, his lips, your minds in sync for each and every single one of your next moves.
Ā Ā  Clothes slowly being tossed the the floor as you both backed each other to your bedroom through the dark apartment. By the time you reached the bed the only thing you had left were you bra and underwear, along with his shirt and boxers. Neither of you had even bothered to pull apart for a single breath. You allowed him to gently lower you on the poorly made bed.
Ā Ā  "Mmh, w-wait-" he mumbled against your lips. Youre legs parting for him to slip between which he did without thinking. "This is wrong-"
Ā  "No, it's not?" You spoke in confusion. "I love you, Kai. I don't care what Bonnie said, because she doesn't know what this feels like." You shake your head.
Ā  "Find someone else to ruin and let her go" Kai quoted, your grip on him tightening. "I don't want to-"
Ā  "Maybe I want you to ruin me. To fuck up my life. To fuck up my morals just because I love you. I want that, Kai. I want every bit of it. I want this love that consumes me from the inside out, and I want to be able to go against everything I believe for you. I. Love. You." His hands traveling down your waist, as you let out a sigh.
Ā  "I love you." He mumbled. "I love you so fucking much." His lips came down on your collarbone, fingers slipping under you panties waistbands before snapping his fingers to get rid of them. You felt the cold air against your slick heat, the warmth from his own body radiating into yours. His hips grinding down into your, his hardon pressing into you causing a light whimpering as you felt the butterflies raging into the pair of your stomach.
"I just wanna be with you, baby." You let out a soft moan, urging him on as he nips and sucked red marks onto your skin.
You used your own magic to undo the threads of his plain blue shirt as you dragged your hand down his back. The fabric slipping down his arms which he didn't mind. He was too focus on your warm skin under his tongue. His teeth grazing across your skin, coming closed with a tiny pinch every time. Your chest heaving into his from the closeness, and heat of it all.Ā 
Ā Ā  "Tell me to stopā€ he mumbled against your skin, hips grinding into your heat as you let out needy moans.
ā€œI need you, Kai, please.ā€ Your lip caught in between your teeth, as the cloth of his underwear separating the two of you disappeared. ā€œI want you so bad.ā€ You whined, fingers digging into the soft warm skin on his back.
You felt his hard on slipping between your slick folds as he rocked his hips back and forth. He wanted to feel you, he wanted you to feel him. He never wanted to leave your side, or go a moment without feeling your warmth. He loved you with every fiber of his being, and there was no possible way he could truly explain that to you.
ā€œPlease-ā€ you pleaded before he slowly pushed himself into you. Your mouth hung open as his length filled you to the brim, the tip of his cock hitting that hot spongy spot in your cunt so well you could help but moan. He always did fill you up perfectly, almost as if he was made for you or vice versa. ā€œOh my god.ā€ You whined, hips grinding into his as his hips set a steady pace.
Your legs resting around his waist, as you let out small breathy moans. He was fucking into you hard, but it still felt amazing. He wanted to take his time with you and you felt it. Your body tingling, mind focused solely on him and everywhere your skin touched his. You felt his lips connected with you neck, continuing to suck soft bruised on the skin, placing a soft kiss after each one whispering a single ā€˜I love youā€™ each time. His hands left your waist, traveling up your beautiful naked body, taking all the warmth he could, until he traced your hands to his back. He pulled the off, even though he enjoying the sting of your nails digging into his skin, pinning your hands down above you head. His hands flat onto of yours, fingers intertwining as his lips found yours again, your kisses sloppy and slow. The sound of skin on skin filling the room as his pace quickened earning louder breathier moans from your pretty little mouth.
You felt a bubbling heat in the pit of your stomach signaling you were close to your high. Eyes struggling to sty open, as your boyfriend fucked into you so lovingly. It became harder to do anything other than focus on the feeling of him hitting so deep into you heā€™s almost hit your cervix. The kisses became harder to return and nothing but the sound of you filled the room. He watched in complete awe as you as you slowly began to fall apart. You were the most beautiful creatures heā€™s ever laid his eyes on, and he had you here underneath him on your way to this euphoric high that he him caused. His name coming out of your mouth in quiet moans and pleads and warning of you about to explode all over his dick. You were all heā€™s ever wanted out of life, and now he had you and there was no one and nothing that would take you away from him except for death itself.
You were his and that was final.
ā€œOpen your eyes baby, look at me.ā€ He groaned as he felt your cunt convulsing around him so tightly.
You struggled with the actions, your eyes focusing on his eyes as you cried out in pleasure. ā€œIā€™m so close, Kai, fuck, Iā€™m going to cum.ā€ You whined and he nodded watching as your breathing got heavier.
ā€œCum for me, baby, cum all over me.ā€ He urged you on, feeling his own high approaching.
You felt something inside you explode, a loud moan his name escaping your lips, all your juices spilling onto his hard cock a he continued fucking you through your high. You body jolting and shaking around him, as he went faster, eyes rolling to the back of your head as you realizing you werenā€™t done yet.
ā€œSo close.ā€ He mumbled, hands squeezing your so tightly you felt as if they were going to break. You ignored the pain of having your hard crush and just let out absorber moan from another orgasm building quickly.
ā€œMā€™gonna c-cum again!ā€ You warned, strained voice loud and needy.
ā€œMe too babyā€ Kai moaned back, watching your eyes squeeze shut again taking in the way your body shook around him. ā€œLet go y/n, I know you want to.ā€ He spoke out of breath.
You felt his thrust getting sloppily, but he tried keeping up the pace. His own body stiffening as his cock twitch in you as you clenched around him again. Both of your falling apart with loud moans, and whimpering of each other names, lips coming together again as he spilt every last bit of his hot cum into your beautifully worn out cunt.
Neither of you spoke any words. Just your reveled in each otherā€™s tongues, allowed you naked bodies to somehow merge into one. You felt a sudden tiredness take over you as it did the same to him.
ā€œI donā€™t want to let you go.ā€ He whispered into your lips.
ā€œThen donā€™t. Letā€™s stay this way forever.ā€ You hummed, squeezing his hands in yours.
ā€œDeal.ā€
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