#if you haven't read the fic: her dad died when she was a baby

[aprillikesthings]

I wrote on my 60's au fic, yayyy

For all the (bordering on excessive) research I've done for this fic, I have intentionally not looked up anything about how trust funds work, much less how they worked in the 1960's. I have Adora a week after her 18th birthday just sneaking her birth certificate and some "paperwork" from her mother's file cabinet when she's not home and going to the bank and pulling out a little cash, since it's her money now, right??

Anyway, now I have a draft of the scene of her buying a red jacket which is something I've looked forward to writing!! There's an irony in the fact that she wears that red jacket for the entirety of canon because she's uncomfy in any clothes so she just keeps wearing what's familiar and gives her purpose (per Nate on twitter), but in my fic Adora buying her red jacket is a big Fuck You to her mother and makes her feel cool and even kinda hot for the first time.

Anyway want to read my first draft of this scene, it's a bit over 400 words--

(side note before going in: antique/thrift stores/flea markets in the 1960's often had Victorian/Edwardian things for CHEAP. That stuff was the same age then, as buying stuff from the 1950's and 60's is now, but apparently there was just more of it? I dunno how often I've read about hippies buying clothes from that era by the pound for almost nothing and then cutting them up to make new things.)

A week after Adora's 18th birthday party, she found her birth certificate and other paperwork in her mother’s file cabinet. She went to the bank after school and smiled at the teller and pulled several hundred dollars out of her trust fund. 

That weekend, Adora and her friends went downtown, and stopped at a dusty antique store with racks of super-old clothes. They took turns trying on a top hat and laughed while the shop owner scowled. 

Glimmer grabbed a purple velvet skirt made of real silk with a small rip at the bottom. “I can cut it shorter. Maybe make a top out of what I cut off, or even just the lining.” She showed them the lining, a beautiful lavender satin. 

Perfuma dug through strings of beads and looked at each one separately before putting it back or setting it aside. 

“Damn. It’s too small.” 

Adora looked up to see Bow struggling out of a red jacket. She walked away from where her and Glimmer had been flipping through a rack. 

The jacket was a vivid red wool, trimmed in gold braid and brass buttons. There was fur lining the collar and cuffs. It looked like something from a marching band, or maybe an old-fashioned military uniform. It was amazing. “Let me try it on.” 

Adora pulled off her green letterman jacket and draped it over a nearby rack before taking the red jacket from Bow. She put her arms through the sleeves and knew before she looked in the mirror that it fit. 

Her reflection startled her, a little. It wasn’t just that it fit, it made her look…cool. Really, really cool. 

But she also looked…hot. That was a new feeling. She turned in the mirror, admiring herself.

“Wow. Adora, you have to buy that,” Bow said. 

Glimmer looked over. “Oh hell yeah.” 

It smelled a little like moth balls. It was also missing the top button.

She sighed. “My mother hates it when I wear red.” 

Perfuma looked over and then gave Adora an up and down. “Hmm. Red’s a good color on you, though. And I saw a brooch that might work for the missing button, hold on.” She came back and dropped it into Adora’s palm: it was a gold wing. She pinned it in place of the missing button. It fit, somehow; like the jacket was intended to have a wing for a top button.

Glimmer walked up behind her and made eye contact in the mirror and grinned conspiratorially. “You know, it’s cold in the summer in San Francisco. My aunt complains about it.” 

Adora grinned back. 

(author's note: ahahahaha yes the jacket is based on one of the ones Jimi Hendrix wore, not that Adora knows who he is yet)

[probssomethingorother]

what's coming out of my keyboard

okay folks, here we go...a candid look at everything I have SLOWLY swirling around out there (as of 9/14)

(and if you read something you like and want more of it just like drop a comment or send an ask or spam me with messages cause I have a BAD habit of letting fics rot 😅)

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In the After : the bits we didn't get to see as Joel and Ellie escape and then what comes after, moment by moment as they try to recoup

-> slow whump, lots of hurt/comfort, just tragic Joel and Ellie trauma dynamics after David, and ofc the birth of "dad" Joel -> in progress, chapters -- 13, ~65K words, last upd. 8/24 -> affectionately nicknaming this one the forgotten older sib cause yeah Read here on Ao3 or find the first chapter on Tumblr here

Back & Forth : Joel and Ellie struggling to fall back into a rhythm immediately after Silver Lake because they are both too stubborn to admit they are not doing hot

-> Ellie (trying) to take the lead, bad communication, hopelessness and double angst, dash of comfort -> in progress, chapters -- 11, ~45k words, last upd. 1/5 -> I posted chapter 1 of this so the idea would get out of my head and I could focus on in the after. I had zero expectations or plans of continuing and now it is one of my most popular?? Read all of it here on Ao3 or, find chapter 1 and the latest chapter 11 on Tumblr here

We all break a little, when we fall : weeks and weeks out from David, basically to Utah, Joel and Ellie finally have to confront things they haven't been talking about

-> dark with some canon typical violence, big sad, with big convos, a look inside Ellie's traumatized brain, oh and some FEDRA backstory for funzies -> in progress, chapters -- 7, ~26k words, last upd. 9/20 -> probably one of the darker and most serious things I have ever written and was soooo nervous to post. I wrote out a massive section of the end of this before even writing the beginning so yeah that's all Read here on Ao3 or take a peak at chapter 7 on Tumblr

Derail the mind of Me: Joel told Ellie she would go back to her normal self after winter. When that doesn't happen, she tries to find a solution herself at the end of a little orange bottle

-> not super dark, but probably a bit depressing. Drug use, angst, and Joel freaking the fuck out when something goes wrong -> in progress, chapters -- 2, ~14k words, last upd. 2/15 -> I've had this one brewing for while, and have been trying to do the concept justice, but damn is it hard. Read all of here on Ao3 or chapter 2 here on Tumblr

Turning in the Undertow: A shorter fic picking up right after Joel and Ellie leave the restaurant and walk off toward the Lake, Ellie POV

-> A bit of a slow and introspective take on post-episode 8. Lots of tender Joel through Ellie's eyes -> in progress, chapters -- 1, ~8k words, last upd. 9/14 -> This was rotting on my computer for like five months and finally decided to post the first half (yay!) Read all of here on Ao3

Sad and More Sad:

Next of Kin: Joel becomes a dad on the worst day of his life

-> Hurt/small touches of comfort cause Joel just lost his wife and that’s sad and he’s 21 and doesn’t know anything about caring for a baby. -> COMPLETE ✅chapters - 1, ~16k ->this one is just really really sad. I think the canon is that Joel’s wife left him, but I just think it would make his character way more tragic if she died. Especially because Joel had Sarah so young. You don’t know Claire Johnson but you will be grieving her just like Joel. Read here on Ao3 or just pop over to the Tumblr version

Cried out, to you alone : a continuation of Sarah's death on outbreak day cause Joel sobbing in a field was not enough

-> Hurt/no comfort cause Sarah is deadzo, Joel is a mess, and Tommy is stepping up, surprisingly a lot of Tommy in this one??? -> Complete (for now) ✅, chapters -- 2, ~8k -> started as a one-shot ish, and is kinda the first multi-chapter fic i've finished. There was interest for me to continue, and I have ideas, but not sure if that comes as more chapters, or another part (probably this) Read here on Ao3 or find the latest chapter on Tumblr here

I can't do this without you : Ellie taking care of Joel after he gets stabbed - that's it, that's the fic

-> a sick fic if you want it to be, but really is just Ellie trying to make sure Joel doesn't go six feet under -> in progress, chapters -- 1, ~4k words, last upd. 7/16 -> impatiently posted the bit of the fic I was working on cause I didn't have the beginning done, and then never went back to it (shocker) There has been some interest lately in an update so a new chapter will be on the way soon 👀 (and by soon I mean there is words on a doc but date unknown) Read it here on Ao3 or find it on Tumblr here

Out of my Ordinary:

Just Like The One I Used to Know: After Silver Lake, Ellie is not herself. Joel tries to change that

-> hurt/comfort but also fluff???, Joel gives Ellie a taste of Christmas and it's kinda sweet -> Complete ✅ , chapters --1, ~5k words -> It's a lil holiday one shot that was written for secret Santa, but also post ep 8 cause I can't help myself...but that's like not the main point at all Read it on Ao3 or here on Tumblr

This is the Best it Will Ever Be : the five day trek to the University before everything went to shit

-> fluff???, just Ellie and Joel riding around, a father - daughter duo -> in progress (but really basically abandoned, i'm sorry), chapters -- 1, ~5k words, last upd. 6/28 (rip) -> um yeah this was supposed to be five chapters, one for each day, but never got past day one so opps. Maybe one day this will be revived but that's not going to be anytime soon! Works as a one shot tho :) Read it exclusively on Ao3 .... cause I guess I never posted it over here (hehehe another oopps)

Whumptober:

Push through it : Ellie (and Joel) are struggling in the nourishment department post Silver Lake cause food is icky

-> Silver Lake one shot, but mainly whump, hurt/comfort/progress, tw for eating disorders (sorta kinda) -> Complete ✅, chapters -- 1, ~4k words -> PROMPT: no. 1, But now this room is spinning while I’m trying just to fill in all the gaps” w/ Swooning & “How many fingers am I holding up?” -> Wrote this pretty much on my phone and haven't really looked at it since so beware of writing errors Read here on Ao3 or in full here on Tumblr

Dark as Space : Ellie's first time in the Hole back at FEDRA - nuff said

-> whump ofc, absolutely no comfort because this is the Hole, smol little Ellie and mean ole' FEDRA -> Complete ✅ , chapters -- 1, ~3k words -> PROMPT: no. 3, "Like crying out in empty rooms; with no-one there except the moon” w/ Solitary Confinement -> I got so hyped thinking about the idea for this one and then had no time to do it the justice it deserved, which is not a great sale tactic to you but oh well, give it a read cause its still depressing good stuff Read it here on Ao3 or stay on Tumblr and read here

It's the scars that had me wrong : Ellie tries to get rid of her scar a different way the first go around

-> whump w/ basically no comfort, Ellie hurting herself cause she's a poor tortured soul and doesn't want her scar, special guest appearance by Tommy -> Complete ✅ , chapters -- 1, ~4k words -> PROMPT: no. 27, “You drew stars around my scars; But now I’m bleeding.” w/ Scars & “Let me see” -> I wrote this in a day and Idk man just give it a read. TW: for Cutting/Self-Harm. Read it here on Ao3 or Tumblr here

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[finderseeker]

doodle requests: kid Asteri? teeny tiny shape shifter? :o (I haven't caught up on your fic yet even if it's a high priority, so i unfortunately. have no specific-er requests u_u;)

HNDHSKJDIDISJDSI MY FIC IS A PRIORITY!? IT’S AN ABSOLUTE DISASTER OF PACING AND QUALITY AND CHARACTERIZATION BECAUSE I DIDN’T THINK ANYONE WOULD READ IT

Aaaaaaaaaa I’m all shy now,,, it’s hot garbage so if you do ever read it just,,, know I can do better,,,

BUT UM! Kid Asteri!! Yeeeesss, teeny shapeshifter!! You’ve successfully activated rambling mode. So uh. Prepare.

She actually went through a lot of different forms as a kid, and finding one she liked was a continual challenge. There aren’t many shapeshifters, most monsters look like something (mostly animals), and so the innate urge to mimic combined with, y’know, being a kid and wanting to fit in, Asteri had a hard time with a sense of identity. The clan her family is from most mimics reptiles, amphibians, and aquatic beings. (More piscine/amphibious on her mom’s side, reptilian on her dad’s). Most of her family wasn’t bipedal— more emphasis was put on strong legs, tails, and jaws, and so the ability to form usable arms was slowly lost. But she didn’t really want to be quadrupedal or aquatic. So she went through dozens of different shapes. But most of the time she looked sort of lizard-/dinosaur-/dragon-like. This didn’t stop her from trying to have arms anyway to fit in. But they weren’t usable, they don’t hold their shape or respond properly.

(Wow these are really low quality exports for some reason??)

There are multiple ways to use/incorporate extra bodily magic (the teal), but it takes some practice and planning. She was young, so she wasn’t very good at it and just sort of wrapped it around herself. She did get frustrated at one point over not being able to find a form that felt like “her,” and went through a phase of “here’s the lowest effort form: eye sockets, a mouth, a nose, a body, legs, and all my extra magic wrapped around me.” It was really unnerving so fortunately it didn’t last long.

When her parents died, she was still young, so she never really learned how to incorporate the extra magic in a skillful way, so even as an adult she still wraps it around herself like a cloak, which are what her “wings” are.

But if you want BABY baby Asteri/her ““true”” form, it’s just a huge, semi-transparent blob of magic with a SOUL.

[youarestellarverse]

Happy WIP Wednesday Tuesday!

Today, we have a special treat: a whole fic. Because I need the dopamine boost of having finished a thing. This might not make sense if you haven't read appendicitis fic, and you can't atm unless you downloaded it (that's why that feature exists, by the way! Always feel free to download my fics for your personal enjoyment! Just don't upload them somewhere else without asking).

But if you have read it and you want to read about Jason's stepmom freaking out in the aftermath, here it is!

Content warnings/dead dove tags: alcoholism, family enmeshment, parentification of the surrogate spousal variety, latent trauma from conservative Roman Catholicism (get it get it), past miscarriage, past stillbirth, medical neglect, domestic violence, emotional abuse

November 14th, 1:47 PM (Sweeney Todd, intermission) >Hey, Mom >I'm sorry to ask but I just threw up in a trash can for the 3rd time :(  >can you talk to dad for me?  >I feel worse than I did last night >I don't think I can play like this and if I talk to him myself he'll just get mad  >you know how he is >Annabeth can tell, she's been finding excuses to put her arm around me when we're onstage  >I already got dizzy once and she was the only reason my knees didn't give out >I just feel really awful. something's wrong. 

I can't sleep.

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November 15, 2 AM

This is all my fault. I want to throttle my useless husband. I can't look at myself in the mirror. Thalia's voice is still ringing in my head.

The problem is, she's completely correct. This happened because I failed him. I wasn't there when he needed me. I was weak, and because of my weakness my baby almost died.

It would be the fourth time I'd killed a child I claimed as mine. Maybe it really is me. Maybe that bitch carrying him kept him from being poisoned by the nuclear waste inside me.

He's alive. I'm sure he is. T, as angry as she was when I left, has kept her promise and sent me a picture every 3 hours on the dot. The most recent one was 2 hours ago, and Jason was fast asleep with his stuffed wolf toy in his arms. He looked about twelve years old. I cried until I had a blinding headache. 5 glasses of cab so far. Headache gone, will come back worse, don't care.

The house is silent in a way I haven't heard in years.

Jason is so quiet, but he's never silent. He's always here, even if he's in the periphery. I never realized how much I rely on his presence, how sharply it would wound to know he's gone.

He looked like death. He had no color in his face at all, no warmth to his cheeks, no spark in his eyes. I almost didn't realize what was happening at first, because I'm so used to looking for a towheaded player among the sea of purple.

He got up. Number twelve. He took a step, stumbled, and collapsed, coughing on vomit as Percy Jackson screamed for the medic and doused him in ice water.

No one has ever glared at me like P did when they were loading into the ambulance. I felt like I was moving in slow motion as I ran down the bleachers to his side, but P looked at me like a lion protecting his cub. I had absolutely no doubt in that moment that if I touched Jason, Percy would have torn my hand clean off. That's how enraged he was.

I deserved it. I deserve every bit of shame I'm feeling now. I should have put my foot down the minute I got Jason's text and I CERTAINLY shouldn't have let R see it. Part of me wants to leave, to grab Jason from his sister's apartment and take him with me to Milan, but I know I have no claim over him. I should have fought harder when his father talked me out of adopting him.

I keep staring at the pictures T sent me. Jason looks so small and frail in that bed, with tubes in both arms and huge circles under his eyes and that horrible dye job his sister did.

I want nothing more than to hold him and soothe his pain. I poison everything I touch. If I don't stand between him and his father, his sister will eventually break or lose in a show of force. He needs me, I know he needs me, but every mark I leave on him bleeds.

I'm no Mary. I'm no Merrhoe. I'm Jezebel, just like my father said. The whore of Babylon. Wicked. Beyond salvation. I don't know why I ever thought I could stroke his beautiful angel wings without soiling his feathers like petroleum drowning a seabird.

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November 15th, 9 AM >Just checking in >Thalia's finally asleep, she's been awake since yesterday :( >anyway I'm doing ok, they said I can go home today or tomorrow >I'll be at T's for about 6 weeks. You should come by for breakfast sometime. >(I'll talk to her first. I know she's mad, but I think she'll understand if I explain. You're both just trying to protect me, and I think she knows that.) >Anyway. Thanks for trying. I hope Dad didn't blow up at you because of me. >There's sugar-free gatorade in the garage, the waffles I made from sourdough starter in the freezer and naproxen in my med cabinet. Stay hydrated and away from tylenol today, ok? >And try a plain waffle right out of the freezer if your stomach feels funky. >Always works for me when it's not, y'know, sepsis. ^_^; [a photo of Jason in his hospital bed, still looking pale but slightly less pallid. There's a whisper of color returning to his face and he has enough energy to smile, albeit tiredly. He is using one hand to lift Lupa the Second's paw in a wave.]

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November 15th, 11 AM

I have many regrets.

I barely remember what happened. There are three empty bottles of wine in the sink and an open one on the counter. I think I threw a glass at my husband. I think I called him a murderer. I'm pretty sure he slapped me, but I think I deserved it, and I must have hit back since he has a bruised cheek and won't speak to me. (I think he deserved it too. My husband and I deserve each other, really.)

My poor little Moses knew somehow that I got lost in vino last night. When we lived in California and his father was still screwing his PA, I used to bring Jason with me on tastings. He would charm the staff by talking about the different cheeses, and I would skip the bucket while he had their attention.

He'd call a car and hold my arm and let me lean on him as we went inside. He'd make me a cool cloth and some rice, like M. taught him, and keep me hydrated and medicated until I slept it off.

It's been years since I embarrassed myself like that. Still, he knew. Like always, he didn't judge me or insult me or call me names or accuse me of humiliating him; he just made sure I was okay as best as he was able.

I was in my car with my keys in my hand before I remembered Thalia threatening me with a custody battle to keep me from going anywhere near him until she gives the okay.

I hate her. If it got that far, she'd win no matter how good Julie is in court. Thalia is the Mary to Jason's Christlike goodness— the frightened young woman who sheltered that sweet little boy as he grew into a glowing, golden hero. All she'd have to do is look at the judge the way she looked at me: shaking with fury, but teary-eyed from the kind of fear that can only be born out of agape. The purest, highest form of love.

She'd win the case before I even walked through the door, and I would have nothing left to buoy me through the waters of my own shame.

~fin

DAMMIT AO3 I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF POSTING A FIC

[theonethinginlife]

I actually always 'read' that she was saying 'I wasn't ready' , but god who knows, the seeds of doubt entered my brain now lol! But even if she said I was pregnant or something similar about pregnancies, she could also refer to the fact the she's thinking about him adopting them maybe? with the father talk Liv is saying? it could be that Amanda really thought she was gonna die and it got her thinking, what would have happened to Jesse and Billie if she had indeed died? they could have being separated, Billie with Al and Jesse with Declan or even god forbit her parents. And she wouldn't have wanted ANY of this, the only person she would have wanted her babies to go to is Sonny, hence the talk with Liv, maybe she wanna ask him. uuuugh I wanna know!! because I really don't want the storyline to be, she was pregnant and she lost the baby, like the fuck?? why are they so cruel to Amanda, hasn't she suffered enough? an almost mortal shot is not enough? you want her to miscarriage too now writers? after 11 years that's what she gets?! hell no please.

But good lord if indeed is the lost baby thing and I really really do not want it to be, but if it is and she still haven't told him because she doesn't know how because she knows it's gonna be so painful for him too and doesn't want to hurt him but she needs to tell him, can you just imagine the scene these two are gonna film together when she will tell him??? I will die if it happens, that scene is GONNA DESTROY ME thaaaaanks.

Anyway, when are we gonna see this bench rolivia scene anyway? this week?

Hi Anon!

I've seen multiple things now, and am generally not sure if it's "I was pregnant" or "I was ready" or "I was reckless."

The context for the conversation we don't have the entirety of, but Liv looks very happy/excited and definitely says "For what it's worth, at the end of the day, [your boyfriend?] is ten times better than most other fathers."

Jesse and Billie are in this episode (in multiple scenes), too, so I'm thinking the conversation has to be something about the girls and Sonny's relationship to them--whether that leads to a "Dad" line or an adoption conversation (or both), that's probably setting up whatever Amanda is talking about here.

For the longest time, I really did think it was "I was pregnant," (even went as far as writing a whole fic about it to try to control it) and I'm still not sure if it is or not, but there's three options I see that don't mean a pregnancy loss.

"I was pregnant" could be something about her realizing when she was pregnant with one of the girls (probably Billie) that Sonny was the kind of father her kids should've had.

"I was reckless" could be further reflection on her life that builds upon the last episode as well--Amanda has blamed herself for the girls having 2 different uninvolved fathers before, so it would be in character for her to reflect on that with Liv.

"I was ready" could be about a lot of things, including her going back to work (she might be constantly worried about the girls while she's on the job) or Sonny proposing (which would lead to an adoption).

As we saw last week, Amanda is super vulnerable right now and she's skipping therapy (don't even get me started on that), so the emotionality of the conversation could definitely be explained by that just as much as a pregnancy loss.

Jesse and Billie are in this episode, too, so I'm thinking the conversation has to be something about the girls and Sonny's relationship to them--whether that leads to a "Dad" line or an adoption conversation (or both), that's probably setting up whatever Amanda is talking about here.

(I also think Kelli & Mariska themselves were super emotional that day, judging by the BTS pictures, because neither of them want Kelli to leave the show.)

That said, I don't put anything past the show, especially given that we know Dick Wolf ultimately runs it and wanted to kill her off in the premiere (don't get me started on how they treated her there, either).

What I am holding onto is what David & Julie have promised about the way their storyline will go, which Julie said will include "joy" and David said will have a "happy never ending."

I'm also keeping in mind that when David first mentioned that this was a Rollisi episode, he said there were some really romantic moments in it, something hard to do if this was an episode with such a hugely devastating storyline like that, especially when you consider that they've also got to have a case in there.

TLDR: I think anything is possible, but that the pregnancy loss scenario is a little less likely than other ones above, but whatever happens, we know Rollisi is promised a happy ending, and that's what's keeping me going.

[ashilrak]

hi! Do you have any fics you've really enjoyed lately? Any pairing is fine with me!!!

Hi! I haven't actually be reading that much fic lately, but I'm always down to rec some fic. I've recced a few of these authors as a whole before, but am trying to avoid fics I've already recced in the past. This is in no way a comprehensive list 🥰

Gen

alone at the edge of the universe by Sarcastic_Metaphor (T, WIP)

The sea is not unlike the abyss; it is deadly, destructive. It hides secrets in its depths and threatens even those that know it well. The sea easily swallows life with no trace left behind. The sea can be quite similar to oblivion. But when the mood strikes them, both the oceans and the abyss can be tempted to create life instead. (Or, an AU where Percy is born a little less human and a little more otherworldly than healthy. With powers he was never meant to have, and a third parent he never wanted, the life that the fates planned for him will be thrown vastly off course.) Title from the song Dream Sweet in Sea Major by Miracle Musical.

Awake, Awake, You Children Bold by @mrthology (G, WIP)

Sally knew on their way to Montauk that this would be the last time. She could feel it in her bones and see it in the curious look in Percy's eyes that his childhood was reaching its end. She could not deny that her child was of the divine. She knew now, more than ever, that her son was something extraordinary, something the world had not seen in centuries. Her little hero. Sally wouldn't be able to keep him safe for much longer now. ——————— Or, Sally and Percy throughout the years, for better or for worse.

Someone to You by @mrthology (G)

Anna wasn't sure what to think of Percy Jackson, truth be told, having only met him twice. She adored her daughter in law Sally and her little granddaughter, but there was something about Percy that put her on edge. She had no idea what - he was a kind boy, eager to help with his baby sister when most teenagers would run for the hills and clearly adored his mother - but there was just something about him, something about his too-bright eyes that made her feel uneasy. ~~~ Or, Paul's parents are taking care of Estelle for a few days. When picking her up, they meet Percy again as well as his older brother (what was his name? Tri?). At this point, Anna just wants to know what the dad looks like to have kids that look like THIS. Especially when, several days later, they meet the stepmother as well.

Percabeth

A Stone's Throw From The Precipice by @mrthology (M)

“He’s alive, Annabeth,” Chiron said, large hand gripping hers. “Where?” Annabeth demanded, heart beating so fast in her chest it was painful. “Chiron, I need—” “Annabeth,” the centaur repeated, cutting her off. “He should have died. Poseidon prevented that.” Annabeth laughed wildly, tears of joy on her cheeks. alivealiveALIVE. “Of course he did,” she said. “Poseidon loves Percy, he wouldn’t let something happen to him, he’d make sure Percy was seen to by the best healers, and—” Chiron cut her off once more. “Percy should have died, Annabeth,” he said, urging her to sit again. “There was only one way to prevent that. Poseidon turned him into a god.” ~~~ After a devastating injury, Percy is transformed into a God to save his life. He isn't pleased by this development—not in the least, regardless of how happy everyone else is that he's still alive.

the anatomy of a hurricane by barbarianprincess (T, WIP)

The day they tell her the plan, Clarisse thinks it's a joke. She actually barks out a laugh. But that was before. Before she notices how Chiron is shifting on his back hooves. That’s before she looks over at Annabeth and sees the way she’s staring pointedly at the opposite wall. That was before Athena and Hermes shimmer into the Big House. She’s not laughing anymore. (in which annabeth fake dies and clarrise endures and observes the aftermath.)

Perpollo

Uncomfortable Realizations by @anxioustofu (M)

Will didn’t notice at first that there was anything different about how Percy was acting. ------------ In which Will is stressed and Percy just tries to take care of him.

why would you offer a name to the same old tired pain? by @stardustupinlights (E)

He stares at the golden letters now properly stretched out, blinks, and then frowns in confusion. “What the hell?” It takes him a second. And then he almost dies out of embarrassment because he realizes he’s holding a mirror so the words are backwards. Percy blushes at his own stupidity and then scrambles, not knowing how else to do this. He ends up just abusing the fact that he was born flexible and sits down, holding his leg up by pressing his foot against the wall and craning his neck, stretching out the skin of his thigh until he’s able to make it out. Percy’s heart drops to his stomach as he realizes the whole name is in Ancient Greek. -------------------------- “If you don't have a soul,” Hyacinthus started, ever contrarian. “Then what is this?” His fingertips brushed over his hip, where his name laid, the perfect color of Hyacinthus' eyes when the sun started setting. It burned where he touched. “I do not know, but it is not a soul. It could never be.” Hyacinthus smiled, then, cheeky and bright. “Then maybe it's your heart.”

you'll have my rise, you'll have me fall by @mrthology (E)

Percy had no reason to feel anxious and oddly fussy. He was doing well in all his classes, was making strides in therapy, made time for his friends, and was likewise taking time for himself. And he had Apollo, though he knew whatever was between them wasn't serious enough to actually count. But he couldn't seem to shake the odd feeling of anxiety that would come over him at times, no matter what he did. Apollo, at least, seems to have some idea as to what's wrong.

Perpollobeth

bet you've been a fan of me by @mrthology (E)

"I need your help with something." Annabeth said in a rush. Apollo laughed. "You're asking a god for a favour? No sacrifice? No kneeling? Daring of you." He stepped closer, body exuding so much heat she began to sweat. She looked up at him unflinchingly. "Tell me, Annabeth Chase, what exactly are you asking of me?" She grinned up at him. "How do you feel about fucking Percy while I watch?" ~~~ Or, Percy has a type, Annabeth wants to indulge him, and Apollo is more than happy to help.

[sixstepsaway]

Oh my god, that anon was genuinely hysterical. Are they a tiny little baby child? I wanted to defend your position and honor but it would genuinely feel like punting a toddler. I can't believe you had the AUDACITY not to come up with an imaginary first episode of OFMD S2 that didn't have enough of the main protagonist in it! (And seriously, I think Ed could be considered co-protagonist at this point anyway.)

fddskjfsd this made me laugh thank you nonnie

It makes me chuckle that they get so riled up because... I don't have any power here? Do I dream that David Jenkins sees my posts and my fic and goes, "Hey, random person, wanna come work in my writer's room?" Sure do. My actual dream right there. But it's unrealistic and I don't know anyone on the cast, I don't have an in anywhere. I am completely unable to force Steddyhands into becoming endgame. It's devastating, truly.

But they act like I, personally, can wreck the show with my metas and commentary and ideas. Man, I hope they never read my books because they would hate them.

(That said, when I come up with ideas like these, I always remember the final episode of Medium - spoilers, if you haven't or ever do intend to watch it.

I sat down with my parents to watch it, cozied down. I would have been about 18. As my dad lined up the last episode to watch, I turned to my mom:

"You know, if I was writing this, I'd kill Joe off in the finale."

My mom looked at me, aghast, "What? No! Why would you do that?"

"It'd be the right move for the show. She's a medium. She talks to the dead all the time! How else would you end a show like this? I'd kill her husband."

Anyway he died 10 minutes into the finale.

Which was a banger btw.

On the one hand, I will never forgive them for killing off Joe. On the other hand, it was the right decision and that finale was fucking amazing. I still bawl thinking about the kiss at the end. Also, unrelatedly, Patty Arquette is too good and we do not deserve her, thanks.)

And yes, I agree with you: Edward is definitely a co-protagonist at this point. Rhys is the lead, first billed and rightly so, but it's an ensemble show. It'd be like looking at New Girl (Jess is the lead in that) and going, "Well, there's just too much Schmitt." It's an ensemble! They're all required or it's just Zoe Deschanel making doe eyes at the camera for half an hour!

[arinbelle]

For the fanfic writers ask game, 5 and 9!

Hello! Thank you so much for asking!!!

5.What fanfic of yours should everyone have read?

9.What are your favorite fanfics?

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5. So I'm not used to tooting my own horn too much but I'll say that even though Lost was a big hit with everyone, I think I spent so, so, SO much time in writing "Learning Curve," and I think if you really want to get me as a writer that's one to read.

9. So I'm not sure if this is asking me as a reader or writer so I'll answer both. As a writer, my favorite fic I ever wrote might be A Court of Witches and Warriors because I never thought I'd stick to something for that long. And even though I know I haven't updated in forever, it's still my first big thing I ever did and I'm proud of her!

As for other fav fics, where to begin?!?

- Embers and Light is a given. I don't think at any point that any Nessian fan hasn't read it yet but if you haven't read it yet, GO! SHOO! Written by the lovely @duskandstarlight

-In Which She Makes a Friend by @bookstantrash is just 👌😚 (this is my made-up chef's kiss emoji btw). It's so cute, and funny, adorable and angsty. The perfect blend of everything. And it’s all the forced mom, dad, child random family put together trope plus girl training as a boy in the army trope so like...ALL THE TROPES. WE LOVE THE TROPE!

-@vidalinav has...things? It's not easy to explain bc she releases a million snippets that I devour and I basically consider them mini chapters at this point and all of then are their own perfect story. Most notably, Nesta’s Love is Quiet which is done and is actually 5 full chapters.

-Anything by @moodymelanist but my fav will forever be Mr. and Mrs. Archeron because I love Nessian and I love Mr. and Mrs. Smith and the combination AU is just *swoons and dies*

-Bittersweet by @inkedstarlight ...so I actually binge read this fic and then couldn’t find the name and panicked and bothered a bunch of people and refound it because it is SO DAMN GOOD. So beautiful.

- A Favor by @ncssian is *screams very high pitched scream* I mean I can’t really explain it but like it’s perfect. It truly is perfect. It’s just AKJSDFKSJASJ I can’t explain further. Sorry. You’ll have to go see for yourself.

-Fine Print by @noodlecatposts. It’s smutty. It’s soft. It’s angsty. It’s a guilty pleasure. Did I mention it’s steamy? Because it is. 

-Okay so @caotica-e-quieta writes on AO3 as “closet_monster” and it’s actually really funny because when I was just a lurker on tumblr and didn’t interact with anyone and read on AO3, I was the BIGGEST FAN of her work. Like I mean, reread almost everyday because for one, there was literally not much Nessian work out there so you devoured whatever the hell you could find. Her work is some of the best that’s out there so I obviously...ahem...may or may not have every fic memorized. My favorite one is I Made Dinner- Impeccable in every single aspect. WAIT I just remembered I also love, love, love it takes time and a little death. 

-Sand and Stardust by @sayosdreams makes me fucking cry and scream and laugh and cry all at once. So beautifully crafted and it’s Nessian babies!!!!

- @letstakethedawn writes...well, honestly, FILTH. Anyways, I think I’ve read Babooshka many times and well...rose quartz’s are just neat I think. That’s all I’ll say. Read it to understand it.

- It Was the End of Everything by @nehemikkele. Beautifully told. Made me cry. Also, not the only thing written by this writer- because there is SO MUCH to read. But it’s the one I’ve had a chance to read fully and loved unconditionally.

-Been obsessed, remained obsessed, will forever be obsessed by Bottled Up Storms by @perseusannabeth. Imagine soft Cassian, soft Nesta, all the angst and softness in the world and you’ve got this fic.

There are SO MANY more, but these are the ones I can list easily off the top of my head. I actually have so many fics saved and liked but I need to scroll a bunch through my tumblr to find them. Which I will when I’m feeling particularly nostalgic one day!

[trappergirl]

hi baby can i have the ship questions for the leverage ot3 and the character questions for our king john doggett?

added the read more!!! ur welcome beloved mutuals ❤️

when i started shipping it if i did: well i knew about them when i started watching cause of you but. maybe it was the 12 step job that really solidified it for me. just those hugs at the end, and eliot and hardison pretend dating with the sole purpose of helping her. love that episode

my thoughts: soulmates. made for each other. never seen a more literal use of the hands/head/heart trope.

what makes me happy about them: they care about each other so much. they're all obsessed with each other's quirks. also, comedic value <3

what makes me sad about them: that it's not like, properly properly canon? u know i haven't seen the revival yet but. let hardison and eliot kiss in 2023, cowards

things done in fanfic that annoys me: don't think i've read enough fic to have anything

things i look for in fanfic: realistic eliot and parker dialogue? i imagine they're not so easy to write well

who i’d be comfortable them ending up with: eliot and parker can fight over who gets sophie when nate dies of alcohol poisoning

my happily ever after for them: aren't they already practically married lol. i think they should buy & move to a ranch together

who is the big spoon/little spoon: i don't think either of them (esp parker. she's less of a spoon & more of a weighted blanket) are quite used to sleeping with other people. too many levels of self defense that don't allow that. but i think it really depends on who needs what at the moment. they are nothing if not flexible

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: uhm. heists. duh. annoying the shit out of eliot because they know he won't bite :o)

❤️

all the people i ship romantically him: i'm not answering this one. iykyk. it'd do mulder some good if they got a quick hate fuck out on that oil rig, though

how i feel about this character: i love him so so much. no words for how much. begging for u to take my hand wreck my plans that's my man etc

my non-romantic otp: dana his friend dana <3 if they had met at school he'd leave valentine's in her locker

my unpopular opinion: i wholeheartedly believe this man is a homosexual

one thing i wish had happened in canon: he deserves more. like, in general. i just want him to be happy. give my man closure.

my otp: (o:

my cross over ship: he needs someone passionate, and stubborn as hell, and driven, and maybe in need of mellowing down. he has a soft spot for those who need protecting. he is such a gentleman. do with that what you will

a headcanon fact: he loooves classic rock. he's such a dad. he plays it loud (not loud enough to bother the neighbours of course, and not on a sunday, and not between 2 and 4) and sings along. he does air guitars and uses a spatula as a mic. van halen, journey, zeppelin, all of those.

[alolanrain]

Hey! It's the anon once again. I was finally able to see your post once I got the Tumblr app. I want to thank you. You and your ideas got me back in the Pokemon fandom and actually inspired me to work on my own Pokemon fanfic. I also have some questions. What do you think of Ash? Who's your favorite and least characters from each game/anime? What's your favorite pairing? Some of your favorite headcanons? Why do you hate Rose so much? (Haven't played SWSH)

I’m so happy that you were able to see it!!! And I’m happy that my work and ideas brought i you ou back! And wnsnans I CAN’T WAIT TO READ THE FIC!!!!

What do you think of Ash?

I’ve always seen myself in Ash. He reminded me of a child with severe ADHD, and me a child with severe ADHD loved having a character I can somewhat relate to than just more than girl characters. I also love how close he is with his Pokémon, and how he treats them very differently from a lot of trainers. Along with how he never actually forces them to evolve, it’s always up to them if they truly want to do that. 

What is your favorite/least favorite character from each Game/anime?

(I’ll do the games another time but I’m sticking with the Anime for now!!!)

Gen 1

Fav: Ash 👀 which is obvious

Dis: Lance surprisingly, I liked him a lot better when he showed up in Johto and during the last fight in Hoenn. But never liked him to begin with.

Gen 2

Fave: Brock, Ash actually gave me some annoyance during Gen 2 and Brocks Normal antics with pretty girls didn’t really upset me like it usually does

Dis: Misty, for the soul fact I didn’t like her voice. It reminded me to much of one of my old pre school teachers that actually hated me so I just associated Misty with her until after the Sinnoh arc

Gen 3

Fav: May, she reminded me a lot like Ash and also with having a little brother. I have two little sisters so I connected more with May

Dis: Wallace. Fuckin’ Wallace for the reason being I hated his fucking outfit 

Gen 4

Fav: Cynthia, she wanted to fight Gods and I love her

Dis: mix up between Paul and Barry for reasons very blatant

Gen 5

Fav: Ash back at it again because Cilan and Iris were to fucking annoying

Dis: Iris and Alder. It’s a tie between the two. Alder because he’s a Bumbling idiot and doesn’t deserve the title of Himbo. And I took personal offense every time Iris called Ash a kid when he ended up doing a small thing wrong or doing something that he just Dose because he’s Ash.

Gen 6

fav: Professor Sycamore, when he found out who the mask Blaziken was it made me smile a lot because the Professor also kept the secret to himself for so long

Dis: Serena, she was a good character and loved by many, I respect that. Her voice was annoying, along with Bonnie but I had a weird connection to her since my sisters loved her, and how blantant she was with Ash. Even though it was his own fault for not seeing the obvious fucking clues

Gen 7

Fav: Professor Kukui and Ash, FAMILY BOND!!!!

Dis: Faba. Do I even have to explain him?

Gen 8

(Ik, IK it’s barley even out tho)

Fav: I’m having a feeling I’ll love Marnie if she comes to the anime. But for now it’s Ash, the art style is amazing and the scene with Lugia? B L E S S

Dis: Chairman Rose and Oleana, I know their not in the anime yet but I still can’t help myself.

What’s your favorite pairing?

Its a toss up between four right now.

Palletshipping- it was literally the second ship I got into and was also another reason for me to continue watching Pokémon after Gen 1 because my friend hinted that Ash and Gary made up, somewhat, after the Johto conference. So it’s an oldy but a goodie and I enjoy a lot of smaller headcanons about them.

Originalshipping- it was, I think, my fifth ship? I loved watching my older brothers play the first Pokémon games every Christmas Eve after dinner at my dads. It was a tradition that still goes on today. But besides that, I love stoic and silent Red with blabber mouth and energetic Green. I screamed when I found out they were going to be at the battle tree in the Alola Sun and Moon game.

(I blame @hiddenbyfaeries for the next two because she talked/screamed with/at me about them)

Ash/Hau/Gladion- their cute separate and together. And Hau and Gladion has a lot of good emotions in the game while both had very good episodes with Ash in the anime. Gladion and Hau just didn’t have any together from my recollection.

Leon/Ash/Raihan- I never stated anything about this in a post. But I will clarify that I mean Leon/OLDER!Ash/Raihan, for Ash would technicaly be around 20-something if the anime would let him age up instead of staying ten. But it’s slowly climbing higher in my heart of ships.

Favorite headcanons?

- Ash is strong, crazy strong. But his body doesn’t shown it, he still has soft baby fat and slightly round edges. Yet he can still chuck you to the moon if he puts enough effort into it

- my Tattoo!AU in general, which I’ll expand later on

- Brock is still the best cook to Ash, even when he gets older and all. Brock is the best

- Gary has a natural attraction to Dark and Fairy types. So when he goes to Kalos for a few month working under Professor Sycamore he ends up getting a sylveon, shiny or not is your chose to interpret

- Cynthia likes watching Dawn during contests, just like Diantha likes watching Serena in her contests

- ^^^ Diantha was slightly sad that Serena wasn’t going to enter in the Kalos contests. But she did warn Wallace about how good Serena is and got the older man to watch some of the girls old competitions. Wallace ends up falling in love with the girl and some how ends up becoming her pseudo weird ass uncle

-^^^^ she calls up May, who Ash sent her phone number to because he doesn’t want to approach Serena yet because of the kiss, and asks about Wallace

- May: *Sighs* he unofficially adopted you?

Serena: *panicked* he’s asking me to call him Uncle Wall!?

May: *seriouse* welcome to the family, you can’t escape

- both Gary and Ash melt when you pet their hair, like really get into it and lightly scratching their skulls. Their puddles of love and whine and complain when you stop.

- this is more canon I believe than a headcanon, but Professor Oak was an Ice type trainer before becoming a Pokémon Professor. So imagine him with an Alolan Ninetails

Why do you hate Rose so much?

I don’t have SWSH either, I watched my little cousins and older brothers play it on the Tv. I had an inkling of Rose since he was first introduced before the game. Something just bagged at the back of my head and grew as more content came out. This is the first time we’re dealing with a Chairman of the League in general, it’s usuajust the Champion that you see running it (or in Alola’s case, Professor Kukui). So having an actual Chairman just set off my warnings signs and I ended up being right that he was the bad guy. Oleana also didn’t help his image to me. But I’ve also felt with people like him and they were all very condescending to me, so just seeing him made my blood fucking boil.

[jerzwriter]

Since I'm back on my T/C era (expect my ❤s on their fics after TS soon), I came to put some respect on Jordan Carrick's name because we haven't talk enough about him 👀 and ask

Does things change between him and Tobias? (I remember reading some MCM about their relationship)

How is he as an uncle to the girls?

Does he gets to meet Ethan, Bryce and The Gang?

Is he gonna be there when they tell Vivian the news?

Hey love. Thanks so much for sending this. :)

Jordan will be making more appearances very soon.

Here is a brief history of their relationship:

Growing up, they were close, but not super close because of their age difference. 7 years means a lot more at 7 and 14 than it does at 37 and 44, ya know? So they were always in different places. But they loved each other, and Tobias was very protective of him.

When Tobias & his dad began having issues, Tobias began avoiding the family. So that impacted his relationship with his brother. Then, when his dad died, he and Tobias had a huge falling out because his brother was angry at Tobias for avoiding their father for so many years. Ironically, his brother had the same issues, but he just wasn't as outspoken, and they were all really hurting at that time.

When Tobias moved to Boston, he didn't have much contact with his brother again. But not long after Tobias became an attending, with his best friend Kerry's prodding, they began to mend fences. I wouldn't say they were super close, but they were the closest they ever were.

Jordan met Casey after she and Tobias began dating, and they liked each other very much. But when they got engaged, Jordan balked. He knew his brother never wanted to get married and wondered what changed. He thought it happened too quickly. Then he learned Casey was pregnant and made the mistake of insinuating that she was trying to "trap" Tobias for his money. You can imagine how well Tobias took that.

They didn't speak at all after that, and he wasn't invited to the wedding (initially, he was to be the best man). But he showed up right before and apologized. Tobias wasn't quick to accept it, but Casey convinced him that he should. She pointed out that they were having a family, and their baby should know their uncle. He apologized to Casey, and she said she wasn't forgetting, but he had plenty of time to prove to her that he didn't mean it because she was staying with his brother forever. Now, if he wanted her to truly forgive and forget, he needed to start by being a good brother and a good uncle. The rest would follow.

By the time Samantha was born, all bridges were mended. He apologized profusely for the rest of all time because in the end, he and Casey were very close. She totally forgave him. His reaction was wrong and not acceptable, but it was based on a lot of things. from his past. All was forgotten.

He was SUCH a good uncle to the girls, and they adored him. He and Bryce fought for the crown of "Fun Uncle" constantly. The girls have no idea there was ever any bad blood there.