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May be an odd request, but do you have any fic recs where Anathema is characterized really well?
I don't see much of her, and when I do, she tends to be there to fulfill a role that may be lacking for what I'm after
I went through my bookmarks and picked fics I remember Anathema from, not just as a prop to get Aziraphale and Crowley together, but as a full character with her own stuff going on...
Friendship is Demonic Magic by Shadow0kana, whtbout2ndbrkfst (T)
After Crowley interrupts Aziraphale and Anathemaâs phone conversations one too many times, Aziraphale suggests the two have their own meetups to discuss what they have in common. Cue monthly coffee dates between a witch and a demon who can passionately discuss (debate) anything from Halloween to Astronomy to Hamlet⊠while also conspiring to form a book swap aimed at getting Aziraphale to read anything written after 1950.
Reluctant Hospitality by brionypoisoned (G)
Anathema Device comes to stay at Aziraphale's book shop after breaking up with Newt. She doesn't know that Aziraphale and Crowley are romantically involved, and Aziraphale attempts to keep it that way. Everything goes very badly.
It's Not The Journey by cosmya (T)
It had been going so well. Theyâd averted the apocalypse, averted their punishments, averted further investigation or attention by their respective organizations. They were left with little to do but bask in the happy ending. Therein had been the problem. Another champagne, sir?â interrupted the flight attendant. Aziraphaleâs eyes snapped open. Oh, I shouldnât, he thought. âYes, please,â he said. âThank you.â Anathema and Newt are getting married, and two of their wedding guests are in a bit of an awkward place. An all-inclusive resort with unlimited alcohol is precisely what they need to re-break the ice.
Do I wanna know? by KissMyAsthma (M)
Aziraphale and Anathema are both closeted queer people, and they decide to do what any sensible closeted queer people do - they form a fake relationship, to shut the mouths of their families and shoo away unwanted suitors. Their comfortable arrangement is put into question when a school reunion makes Aziraphale reconnect - or connect, really - with his school crush, Anthony Crowley. But past is past, and now that theyâre both adults, Aziraphale is just glad to make a friend. If the friend finds himself interested in Aziraphale⊠Well, thereâs nothing for him to do since Aziraphale is taken, right?
what the water gave me (we'll watch the sun kiss the sea) by sabraneadaz (T)
âWhatâs your name?â Pepper asked, jumping to crest the next wave. Sheâd drifted further out to join Adam where he stood between the Them and the stranger. âAll these questions,â the man said, ânext youâll be asking me if Iâm an animal, vegetable, or mineral.â âGo on then,â said Adam. âWhich one?â (The Them find their summer holidays spoiled by fly-tipping. A woman struggles with life without prophecy. A bookshop owner learns to love, and a mysterious man navigates 21st century courtship. In other words, it's the selkie au no-one asked for.)
Married at First Sight by Aracloptia (T)
âWell, that was a thing,â Crowley said once they were out of earshot. Without talking about it, they were both heading down the field, towards the lake where the photographer (and likely a few more people from the TV crew) was waiting. âThat was a wedding,â Aziraphale replied, surprised at his own annoyance that somebody called a wedding a âthingâ. âYeah, obviously, didnât miss that part,â Crowley said with a shrug, and waved abruptly in Aziraphaleâs general direction. âNeither did you, from the looks of it, since youâre dressed like a wedding bride and everything.â âExcuse me, I am aââ Aziraphale stopped himself, and started over. In which Aziraphale ends up marrying a rude stranger who wears sunglasses.
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werewolf shameless au
The Gallagher werewolf pack. The kids inherited the genes from Monica. So she left the kids to deal with that with very little guidance.
They first found out about the wolf thing when Fiona transformed when she was about 9. Monica wasn't there for Fiona's first full moon. Frank didn't find out until Ian transformed when he was twelve. He was too high enough to care and still doesn't care to this day.
Fiona helped each of the kids through their first full moons. She has a way of figuring out if one of the kids could possibly be a wolf. They're more animalistic than most kids. She was kind of hoping Liam would turn out normal but when he started teething she realized he wasn't.
Debbie was a late bloomer. Carl would tease her about it relentlessly.
Fiona is the leader of the pack. Those things don't change. I brought wolf dynamics into the Gallaghers. Most things for them actually don't change. They're more territorial and aggressive over family.
Things kind of change when Ian bites Mandy on accident. And when Sammi gets brought into the mix.
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â CANDY BOY ! â
᥎êȘ« sum. who would have thought that the #1 camboy in your city was no one other than your virgin roommate gojo, whoâs totally putting on a show for his fangirls. he talks too much, but maybe you can shut his mouth and put his sweetened little fantasies to reality.
wc. 5.8k
warnings. fem! reader, camboy!gojo, college au, gojo's a virgin, switch! gojo, unprotected, dirty talk, he gets pĂșssy drunk quick, overstim, "good boy" usage, cunnilıngus, premature ejaculating, nipple play, lots of spıt, handjĆbs.
if someone would have told you that your loser of of a roommate who stuffs his mouth with a bit too many sweets, cries at romcoms, and is just an overall dork was a camboy, youâd call them crazy. batshit crazy even, yet thatâs exactly what happenedâ
gojo was rightfully one of the top camboys in the city, probably in the world too. he was sort of a household name, it was more of a side hustle for him. he did it only for the moneyâsure, he adored his fans, even the ones that went a little too extreme with the provocative thirsting. but thatâs all part of the job, heâs about seven months strong in his little gig. every saturday and sunday, he logs on under the user of: @/GOJOSLUTORU.
the moment that same notification pops up that heâs live, a plethora of his fans join immensely, wondering just what their favorite camboy satoru was up to today. his streams would last for a good two hoursâlonger sometimes if it was some kind of special event where heâd reach a massive amount of donations, a special treat for his fans. gojo was beloved for his flirty personality, heâd make his fangirls swoon with his words, despite knowing full well he doesnât know the first thing on how to please a lady.
thatâs until you came alongâmore like catching him right in the act. it couldnât have been any more embarrassing though. eleven thousand eyes were cheering him on, showering him with lewd "good boy" praises until you drop your bag.
âsatoru?â you utter, curling your brow into a surprised furrow once you take in the scene in front of you. tossing the spare set of keys into the bin, you glance at your roommateâhe freezes mid stroke with the most flustered expression. his hands were a bit ⊠occupied, and a glimpse of a familiar cloth you once wore catches your eye. âare those my panties?â
ânoâŠ.?â
with a deadpan, your shoulders drop before you drag your feet towards him to take a quicker look. oh, those were definitely your panties. so thatâs where they ran off too. gojo tries to shield his nude exposed lower half with a nearby towel but itâs no useâyou saw everything you needed to see.
âanywhooo,â he swallows, taking a brief peer at his chat that was flooding with all types of questions. they wanted to see you, they wanted to see gojoâs pretty roommate who heâs always rambling about on stream. clearing his throat, he runs a hand through his hair before pitching his tone. he tries to sound more attractive but ends up butchering right away, stuttering at his first pathetic sentence. â i- i didnât think youâd get here so early. how was the exam?â
âit was ⊠fine,â you mumble, barely acknowledging his words. your mind was racing vigorously, trying to process how youâd just seen your roommate half naked. going up behind him, you lean in towards his neat set upâyou grew a bit curious, immediately, your eyes meet the other eyes that stare back at you. near the top right displayed his large following of eight hundred thousand, the top left displays his current view count, a whopping amount of almost twelve thousand. peeking at the chat, youâre met with dozens of freshly new comments saying how pretty you are, asking if youâre his girlfriend he always talks about, and so on. âyouâre a camboy?â
âheh, camboyâs kind of an exaggeration but,â and heâs nervous, you can hear the slight tremor in his voice. itâs cute, gojo was prepared for you to judge him for his side hustle but instead you donât. he relaxes a bit, shifting his attention away from his crude chat and towards you. âi like to label myself as a um, streamer..â
you have a growing simper. âi donât think streamers usually get naked for their audience,â and you take a quick stare at his attireâhe was practically shirtless, his boxers were covered although he was wearing some kind of tank that had âsubmissive and breedableâ printed on the very front. you furrow your eyebrow, though you choose not to question it. his nervously sly smile only grows once he catches your eyes quite literally checking him out. glancing at the comments again, you hum. âwhy do they keep asking if iâm your girlfriend? you donât have a girlfr-â
âwoah, s-shut up!â he whines, cupping a hand over your mouth. you giggle, feeling the warmth of his palm rub against your lips. gojo lowers his voice, speaking in a faint whisper. âthey think youâre my girlfriend,â and he peels his hand away before running a finger down his nape. âi told them that because-â
âsatoru,â you roll your eyes, noticing how he was quite stiff with his body language. being this close to you, your mere elegant fragerence was so exhilarating for him. you made him this nervous, truth be told ; you were far too caught up in your academics to even realize your roommate had a little crush on you. however, you do wish you found out in a more ⊠non less of a lewd way, a way where he wasnât caught red-handed fondling with a pair of your pretty sage-colored panties. with a sigh, you mumble to him. âyou wanna fuck, donât you?â
thatâs definitely not what he thought you was gonna say,
with pouty shimmery lips, gojoâs eyes widen before a sheepish grin marinates against his features. âpft. do i wanna fuck, whaaat?â and he doesnât even last a second before sighing, dropping his head down in defeat. ây-yes..â
the ringing from his monitor â dozens of women sending him gifts, tickets, donations, begging for their favorite camboy to notice him only gets more disruptive.
the ringing grows louder, the repetitive chiming sound of bells, the blaring notification it makes whenever someone sends him a sweet contribution. pretty soon, he was on the verge of meeting yet another goal. ever since you got spotted on the stream, his viewer count doubled.
âwell, why didnât you just ask? besides, thereâs other ways than using my panties to get off.â and a wave of embarrassment washes over his face. the towelâs still covering his torso before he shoots you a shy smile. any closer you couldâve got to him and he thought he was gonna explode. the heat radiating from you had his head going in a crazed ditz. stroking his cheek, you speak softly.
âiâm sorry,â he whines, bottom lip poking out. you end up sitting flat on his lap, and instinctively, the curvature of your waist was met with two big hands snaking around it. youâre so pretty like this, he wanted you so so bad. swallowing, he peeks towards his chat before you cup both of his temples to stare right back into your eyes. âi was gonna ask you but- but iâve never done this, you know,â and the way you slide a finger behind his neck, skimming the texture of your middle finger down his undercut snatches a purr from him. âi- i want you, but i just donât know what to do with like .. i wanna make sure that i donât embarrass myself.â
oh, he couldnât have been any more cuter,
you heard the slight crack in gojoâs voice at the end of his candied sentences before you sling your arms over him. âdonât be embarrassed,â you softly reply, still straddling his lap. âi can always show you how.â and he gulps, your voice was smooth as silk. sweet as honey, the more you strum your thumb down his undercut, the more he can hear the rapid pulse of his heart beat throb through his ears. the simplicity of your touch was enough to have him weak.
âplease..â he murmurs in a hushed tone, loving the way how gentle, how tender you were with your touch. gojo mewls out a needy whimper, feeling a sudden tent rise near between his legs. he was hard, youâd giften him a pretty solid boner and whilst you were propped up on his lap, you felt it rub against you all too well.
gojo awaits for you to make the first move, but youâre teasing . . seeing if he was going to initiate, and he does, inching his sheeny lips into yours.
your roommate pulls you into a deep kiss, he tastes like candy, candied. with your arms still occupied, wrapping around him, you glide your tongue against his, parting lips, teeth clashing amongst each other in sync. you could hear the faint sounds of whimpers run from his lips, he doesnât exactly know what to do with his hands thoughâso gingerly, a hand of his strums down your back, giving the fabric that stuck against your skin a soft yank. he wanted you, the strain beneath his half on boxers only grows the more he starts to suck on your tongue.
heavy, wheezing breaths collide against each other, hitting each moving muscle like a wave,
heâs so eager,
gojoâs mind clears everything out of his head and heâs just focused on you. the saccharine tang of your signature lip gloss, he tastes it and itâs so delicious.
through cerulean-pristine hazed peripherals, gojo looks towards his chat to read some of the comments . .
chososdoublehomicide: i miss choso
zorosthroatwarmer293: i wanna be gojo >:( sheâs so pretty
secksybabeamy: Hey hot stuff ;) Subscribe to my only fans!
throatgoatemily: His whines omg
as the kiss deepens, gojo whines once your hand slithers its way down between his legs. slowly removing the towel that sheaths his exposed body, you feel against his dick. at first touch, he whimpers, then whines, then whimpers again.
he was so pent upâyou could feel it, you were gentle with your fingers, brushing it against the length of his dick before gently wrapping a hand around its girth. gojo moans in your mouth, feeling hitched breaths arise from his lungs. he could never get enough of how fucking sweet you were,
and he didnât even want to.
pulling away for a long gasp of fresh air, he bites his lip as he looks down to feel your hands stroke his cock. gojo had quite the staggering inches on him, he shivers at how precise your hand movements wereâ
up and down,
with a hand of yours gripping over his fat length, a thumb of yours runs down the vein that coats his shaft. its pulsing, heâs needy for more of your touch so bad that it sends shockwaving static to rigorously coarse through his bouquet of neurons.
ây-your hand feels so much better than mine, heh,â he breathes, swallowing the imaginary balled up lump that resides near the back of his throat. blue irises, dilated and all stares at youâa hand reaches towards your back before his thigh starts to bounce. ânot to be weird but i kinda had a dream about this, angel.â
âa dream about me stroking you?â you hum, amused before sneaking a wet kiss near the crook of his twitching lips.
gojo nods wearily, forever deeply captured by your beauty. your hands swiftly resumes to stroke him, feeling the tender skin that lives near his frenulum peel back every few seconds. gojo moans, burying his face into the very depths of your neck. so desperate, he wanted more and more. âaw, is this too much? should i slow down?â
âno.. donât stop,â and his desperate plea was so sweet, though he wanted to go further. you giggle once he suddenly lifts you up, dragging you towards the bed. âf-fuck, âm sorry. canât wait anymore,â and he hovers over you with that crazed look of total desire. âcan i ⊠eat you out?â
with a coy smile, youâre laid on your back as he just stands over you â eyes gawking at your entire physique, the way your thighs were all out with the short hem of your shorts reaching against your ass. you could tell gojo was impatient, that hungry stare in his eye never once faded.
âyeah,â you coo, parting your legs slowly. oh, you were a fucking tease.
not only were you a tease for him, you were a simple force to be reckoned with. no panties on either, gojo felt himself get hard yet again before he kneels down. with your roommate positioning himself between your legs, he lets off a soft sigh.
combing your fingers through his soft tangles, he looks up at you with a craving yet impish expression. you giggle, making him look right into your eyes. peering at his chat that was going ballistic over his girlfriend, you speak in a soft tone. âdo you know how to even eat pussy, âtoru? i can h-â
âgirl i know how to eat pussy,â he grumbles, and he sounds almost offended at you asking if he needed any sorts of help.
sureâgojo literally didnât know the first thing of eating a woman out, maybe visually.
but now that heâs up close, he has to stop himself from folding right then and there. so soaked, he gets a full view of your slick entrance, your pussy was the prettiest thing heâs laid his eyes upon so far.
as heâs a few inches a apart, with sprawled open thighsâthe last thing youâd expect was for to gojo to start drooling all on your cunt. a stringy, syrupy concoction of his own saliva pours out of his mouth and onto your folds. just a quick glimpse and heâs pussy drunk. fuck, heâs more embarrassed than heâs ever been but he canât help it. gojo didnât even get a taste and heâs already salivating at the sight of your sopping wet arousal. a thumb of yours wipes the spit that dribbles near the corner of his mouth and he whines at your touch again before he finally digs in.
lolling out his tongue, the very tip licks near the inner moistened entrance of your pulled out labia. gojo for probably the umpteenth time lays his tongue flat before he goes all in. a broad left hand of his attach towards the fat of your thigh as he remakes a long striping lick. âs-shiiit, âtoru.â you gasp, the coldness on his tongue taking you by sheer surprise.
the texture of it .. youâre weak, gnawing on metaphoric bars of your enclose as well as the skin on your lip, you whine.
for someone whoâs never had much experience, let alone no experience, youâd easily second guess. your back arches forward while gojoâs tongue rummages through every part of your clit. he sucks on your nub, closing his eyes and fully sinks into bliss. gojoâs pristine white brows cock into a furrow before he slides a thumb down your wet entrance. he just canât get over how wet you were for him. sopping wet, inept lips of his constantly quivers before he gives your cunt a sweet kiss.
wet for him, he breaks his lips away for a few seconds just to smear his face against your pussy.
âm-mhm,â he whimpers, wanting your scent to linger on his face for as long as it could, your scent .. it was hard to not get obsessed, a few minutes in and he already felt his mouth watering.
as bundles of minuscule taste buds of his tingle with excitement â his tongue swiftly swirls through every orifice, not missing any spot. he searched through the gooey crevices of your walls, lips moving in complete tandem. his dick strains between his thighs that itâs almost painful.
if eating you out tasted this good, he only imagined what itâd feel like to be inside,
shoved deep into your pussy, stuffing you full with his luscious thickset inches . .
that same repeated whine that always sounds raw dies straight out of your esophagus, you yank on the strands of your roommateâs messy hair as his pace quickens by a mile. in the midst of devouring your heat, a broad hand of his caresses near the juncture of your thighsâhe kisses the long slope inside of your entrance, lips all glossy and glittering with gloss thanks to you. that same panging throb starts to grow within you again. your toes curl up tightly before your eyes meet the drywall splattered on the ceiling. his tongue, the way it continues to scrabble all through every part of your cunt, he grows addicted almost immediately. gojo canât help but lather a few sloppy kisses on your folds, sliding his tongue through your slit.
he even starts to tongue fuck you, softly thrusting the swollen tip of his tongue in and out until youâre about to whine out again for him.
that was his favorite part by far, pushing his tongue in and out of your puffy folds â relishing the way your pretty pussy coats the underside of his chin with a lustrous amount of sweet, burnished slick.
ângh, âtoru,â youâd wail, and your hips start to jitter against his face. he doesnât mind . . in fact, gojo brings two hands to grip against the curves of your hips.
once he maintains a secure grasp, he lets you rub your wetness all over him. with his tongue thoroughly exploring in every part, he starts to whine too .. so eager to touch himself but he wants to keep his hands on you. a whiny whimper wrenches from the back of your throat before you start to babble. âsatoru, âm gonna cum, fuuuck. jusâ like that, keep l-lickinâ there, baby.â
he was such a quick learner, part of you thinks he maybe had more experience than you oughta thought. gojo canât help but attack your sweet syrupy folds with a multitude of kisses, drooling lips of his making you more sticky than you already were. your legs could barely hold themselves open.
he had to pry them open with clammy hands, slurping in every drop as if he was dehydrated with thirst. a thirst you happily quenched with him being propped between your legs. after a while, he runs a thumb down your slit once more, pretty eyes glancing up at you, wanting to see your sweet face. âa-am i doinâ a good job?â and his voice was a bit hoarse, the way he speaks, drooping eyes and a sheepish grinâvisibly pussy drunk, you grab onto his strands before rocking your hips into his mouth. he giggles, muffled noises eliciting from his mouth, taking your eager jittery movements as a yes.
he just couldnât get enough of his roommateâs taste.
occasionally, he likes to depart his lips to gather a nice concoction of salivaâonly to then spit right onto your sopping folds, whining at how it was so shiny. so pretty, heâs mesmerized again at how it looks, and you end up cumming with the cutest shrieking orgasm. it snatches out of you roughly, your speech is slurred for a moment as your legs quaver in utmost pleasure.
youâre shaking, feeling him clean you up with the flatness of his tongueâgojo moans, white lashes fluttering as he takes your beauty in. this was so much better than one of his risquĂ© wet dreams. so much better,
without even a single word leaving from his lips, he gets up to pull you into a kiss. almost immediately, you taste yourself that lingers on his tounge. it tastes sweet, gojo props himself between your thighs as you sit up, a free hand of his sliding between your stretched out legs. the constant rings of his donations continue to scream out that same annoying chime before he leans in to shut his computer. heâd probably have left so manyâthousands of his fan girls devastated, but there was only a new fan girl he was fixated on.
you.
gojo was addicted, with tongues colliding against each other, hot breaths wafting against each own, he feel his breath hitch at your touch. a hand of yours snakes down to feel on his erect dick. he whines, gnawing at the bottom of your lip before his tongue gets more curious. he licks the bottom of your chin, the side of your mouth, only to then pull you into another deep kiss. âf-fuck, âm so hard,â he rasps between sultry kisses, heaving from each breath. you still couldnât get over the taste of yourself that loiters all on the flat of his pink tongue. âi wanna feel you from the inside, angel.â
âbut your stream,â you tease once he finally pulls away, taking a second to catch your breath yourself. you felt the heat roam across the room before stroking his cheek â flushed lips of his burn with such intensity, you had him feral. âyour fans, i wouldnât wanna interrupt them, âtoru.â
âfuck them,â he pouts, the cute frown on his face tugging against his lips. âokay thatâs mean, they help me pay rent but just- i want you right now,â and heâs so needy. he paws at your t-shirt, glossy eyes widening, god. his bottom lip pokes out, squinting for two seconds before seeing how your nipples invitingly poke out. so perky, he could feel his mouth watering sporadically. he lays you back before swallowing, a loud gulp before he hovers over you. âyou knew this was gonna happen, didnât y-you? such a tease.â
you simper, opening your legs for him and he gets a good glimpse. gojo sucks his teeth, still so soaked. he only dreamt of what youâd feel like inside.
probably so tight and warm,
the more he thinks about it, the more he could feel himself starting to drool. gojoâs panting as if heâd just finished a marathon. a hand of his wraps around his lengthâgiving it a few solid pumps. âi thought youâd wanna do doggy for your first position,â you sweetly say, and oh, he pouts for you again. you sit up, awaiting for him to take the lead first before smiling. âmissionary though? youâre not so good with eye contact, baby.â
âi know how to do missonry.â he grumbles.
âmissionary,â you correct him with a titter.
he pouts again, preparing to align himself. so wet, your pussy was sopping wet, swollen from just being eaten out so good. a warm breath fans out through his lips before he rubs it against your slippery slit. âand donât call me baby,â he moans, although the simple pet name for him a lot harder than he thought it would. slowly, gojoâs fat leaky tip continues to ghost against your folds. you hold back a sweet moan, laid all out on display for him on the mattress. heâs waited for this moment, had dreams about it, even fantasized about it. âfuck,â heâd huff out, and his voice cracks. youâd laugh but heâs staring at you the entire time with that cute pouty expression. âcan- can we hold hands? for you know, leverage?â
âleverage, sure,â you play along, your fingers locking against his. damp, perspiring palms squeeze against yours before his rounded tip starts to slowly make its way inside. immensely, a breath gets caught in his throat and he whines. the warmth heâs rudely greeted with makes him gnaw his pearly whites together. âyouâre kinda b-big, so go a little slow, âtoru.â
âiâm big?â he repeatsâcutely enough, it boosts his ego that you think so, yet his confidence fades the further he dumps a few hefty inches into your entrance. as you expected, you were a bit tight and stiff for a few secondsâunyielding against him for a moment, you moan. saying gojo was big was a mere understatement, he couldnât help but lean in to lay against your chest. âhowâs it feel? s-slower?â
âitâs good. thatâs good,â you start to heave, gasping once he inches his head closer to latch his lips against your neglected cold nipples. he doesnât even lift up your t-shirt, he runs his tongue through the fabric and sucks on your perked tits. ât-toru, fuckk.â
it was a soft twinge sensation at first before heâs close to bottoming out . . so close,
itâs at the moistened tip of his tongue. gojoâs shaft resumes to go in further, you feel him pulse inside before once heâs all the way in, heâs already out of breath. with his mouth occupiedâheâs still sucking on your nipples through the shirt, whiney. a free hand of his runs gives your left thigh a nice firm grasp before he starts up a single few thrusts.
you whine, tossing your arms over him and he glances down at youâbeads of sweat race down the sides of his brow before he sits up in a proper position. gojo canât get over how pretty you look for him like this, heâs fully in and he sneaks a kiss onto your lips. âcan i m-move?â and the falter in his voice was adorable, gojoâs breath continues to get more heavy before you give him a nod. he peppers various kisses near your mouth, neck, and of course, your precious chest. his personal favorite,
with frail arms wrapped around him, pulling him closeâyou run your ankle down his back and he moans. âoh, âs even better than i imagined,â he whispers against your ear, hot breath sending you antsy judders. the more his breath goes against your skin, the more you smell how minty it was. fresh, you desperately yearned for more so you pull him into another kiss for the nth time. âugh. the way you clamp down, âs gonna kill me,â he babbles in a low puff. heâs speaking between staring up at decent pace for you to get accustomed to. you whimper, trying to get adjusted to his barreling length but he was just so fucking big. it was an ongoing rumor that between gojoâand his best friend suguru geto had the top biggest dicks. of course, you always wondered exactly how whoever started that rumor would even know, but gojo was definitely a packer. he stretched you out in ways youâve never felt before. with strained breaths, he coats your mouth with many wet kisses. time and time again, the feeling of himself going into you raw has him drooling again. âpussyâs so wet, âm gonna die, oh my god.â
âdonât be dramatic, youâre not gonna die.â you try to reassure him. the grip on your hand only grows tighter, crimson lips of his suck against the underside of your chin.
so damn needy,
mussed strands of white tickle against your forehead the closer he presses his body into you. gojo was shivering, just a few minutes in pussy and as if it was a gameâheâd be on the last level, game over. albeit, you feel it too. the warmth, it turns into a sweltering hot. as his hips rock, his whines start to become more vocal. he sneaks a hand down to feel the area thatâs being stuffed, a thumb skims against your tummy before he moans,
âfeel me t-there, yeah?â he whispers, a cute attempt at dirty talk but alas, itâs subtle. gojo easily folds once your eyes meet his gaze.
you moan, intertwining your fingers with his, moaning out a soft, âyeah,â and you sound out of breath yourself.
heâs jerking back and forth â his pace, his tempo . . wasnât too slow or two fast, perfect.
with a quivering bottom lip, he leans in to lick against the outer shell of your ear. your cuntâs singing in harmony, sloshes of wet that leaves its metaphoric vocal cords and you start to get a bit louder. âf-fuck, âtoru right thereâfuuuck.â
âs-shit, youâre so pretty,â he pants, repeating his ways at coating your entire face with his wet kisses. you had him weak, entirely. you found it a bit silly considering how this could have happened anytimeâanytime at all, all he had to do was ask. but gojo being gojo, he was not only a man with barely any experience, but he was nervous. heâs always had a bit of a crush on you but confessing sounded way scary. it was as if this entire thing was mere coincidence though, you happen to find out heâs not only a sloppy eater but,
heâs a camboy.
part of you wonders what he does on his streams. if you saw him rubbing one off while thinking about youâyou could only imagine what other lewd antics he participated in.
gojoâs rutting into you at a much more quicker pace, heâs whining into your neck;
forgetting to praise you, and itâs more of the other way around. youâre cupping his face, stroking his cheek before repeating in that same melodic voice, âgood boy, âs so good, makinâ me feel good, âtoru baby.â
your voice, oh your voice, he could listen to it all day. you feel the constant twitch of his cock inside you and he whines every time your ankle rubs down his back. with the way your pussy holds him hostageâ itâs so provocative, his reaction time was as slow as a sloth, droopy eyes stare at you before he grunts out a pleading, âf-fuck, âs gonna come,â and his voice sounds like a soft purr, gojo was like a kitten to youâ so cute, his pout always make things more true too. heâs groaning in your ear, fat balls thwacking against you before his ears starts to ring. youâre moaning with him, bodies thrusting in sync that itâs almost like a pornographic choreography. âugh, i- i feel it, âm gonna cum so much. so hot, gonna die.â
âbreathe, baby,â you whisper, pulling his face closer to you. his chubby cheeks squish together once heâs within your grasp, the sharp piston of his hips makes you moan. his thrusts gets a bit sloppy and you press a kiss onto his mouth. âmwah,â you hum, watching how flustered he gets at a lick of your affection. âyou wanna finish inside, donât you?â
gojo whimpers. âyeah, yeah. really bad,â and the moment you suggest that, his ears perk cutely. heâs gotta be careful thoughâwith a cunt as addicting as yours, he just might end up falling in love.
speaking of love, itâs as if heart eyes pour into his irises as he glances at youâagain, metaphorically of course. gojo gulps at the tender touch of your fingers, leaning in to nip a kiss near your neck. through muffled words, he mewls. âi wanna fill you up. âs only fair since youâre milking me s-so much, âm so thirsty,â and heâs just babbling, pulling him closeâhe whines once he feels your finger glide through his sensitive undercut again. âhngh, gonna break me. let me make a mess in you please? iâll even eat it out of you once âm done.â
youâre tempted at his pleads, giggling before dragging him into a deep kiss. âsuch a blabbermouth,â you tease between kisses, staring to feel the tears of sweat race down the sides of your forehead alsoâ with a sly smile, you lick the drool that was about to run down the side of his lip. âfinish in me, âtoru. itâs okay. be my messy boy.â
his eyes dilated once he hears that,
your messy boy.
he even repeats it, ây-your messy boy, yeah, âm so messy for you, roomie,â and as heâs preparing for his inevitable release, he sinks into your warm embrace. âone more kiss, h-hold me.â and as if on command, you yoke his head in close, giving him a deep, passionate kiss. his pulsing heart beats through his ears. gojoâby this point, he was already whipped. the way his hips pick up, growing more sloppy and derangedâheâs feral.
the feverish under parts of his thighs burn, longing for its incoming conclusion climaxâyet, as your smoldering heat gnashes against his, it finally comes.
with a primal gasp, itâs here.
the nirvanaâeuphoria, whatever it could have been called to describe this feeling, it was here.
gojo whimpers, going into a complete spazzing fit once he feels the slow orgasmic waves of himself starting to shoot literal humid blanks inside you.
itâs hot, parching hotâ your heat against smelts his, it scratches a fervor itch in your brain. his tongue rummages the inside of your mouth again as heâs painting the insides of your gummy walls with his snowy white color.
satiny ropes of your roommateâs seed trickle into you, itâs so gooey and hot that it starts to stick against the inner parts of your thighs. each rough kiss reflects the same desire the both of you share before he shudders.
slow thrusts, heâs barely moving as fast as he was before but heâs still active. he wants to make sure you feel every inch heâs saved for you,
for weeks, months, maybe even yearsâ
âgod,â he whimpers out, pulling away from your glossed lipsâa pretty cobweb of spit departs from each and he happily laps it up with his tongue. who knew your roommate was nothing more than a mere freak.
not you, not by a long shot.
it takes a moment for him to catch his breath, with a flustered lookâ gojoâs now clingy.
he doesnât wanna move away from you, nor does he wanna exactly pull out. not just yet, heâs plugged you full of sticky cum that was threatening to ooze of your hole before he kisses the bridge of your nose. âthat was so awesome.â
and just like that, the moodâs ruinedâyou pant, heâs hovering over you, his weight barely on you before you sigh.
âyou know,â you change the subject, brushing a thumb against his cheek. âyour moans, you sound more like a girl than me, âs kinda hot.â
âwhaaat?â he grumbles, his sweetened pout forever returning. âthatâs not nice, ân besides if itâs anyone who moans louder itâs you, angel.â
you kiss near the twitching corner of his lip, watching his sudden attitude shift like a light switch and heâs now a puddle. âyou finished a bit early though,â and with your arms wrapping around him again, you speak in a soft voice. âwanna go again? youâre a natural, âtoru.â
âplease,â he whines with a nod, feeling how sweltering hot it felt to be still buried into the comforting tightness of your cunt. âthis time, i wanna try doggy.â
âokay, pretty boy,â you tease, leaning in for another one of gojoâs sloppy, need kisses. just before he could pull out, the door springs open. the hinges scream once it pulls back and the two of you both look to see what the racket was.
as the door opens, it was getoâgojoâs best friend, and he had the most disgusted look on his face.
with a scrunched up face, he utters. âiâm never running errands for you two again, what the actual fuck.â
and as he turns his heel to leave, gojo snorts. âsuguboooo! aw, donât leave just yet. you can always joinnn.â
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satosugu x reader smut ?! college au (like ur SCRUMPTIOUS nanami fic!!)
also, are there any genres (or kinks / fetishes) u are uncomfortable with? aside from the obvious weird ones...
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Suck and Blow
Tags: Satosugu x Reader, college au, nsfw, mdni, mmf, switch sub leaning Satoru and switch dom leaning Suguru, canât express this enough they FUCK.
Synopsis: While playing a good old college game of suck and blow, youâve seemingly captured the attention of both Satoru and Suguru
An: Hmm, aside from the grotesque ones (age play, race play, piss/scat kink, etc.), i donât think i have any hard boundaries. i try to be pretty flexible with my writing. i think one thing i would probably not be motivated to write would be ass play in a heterosexual relationship. nothing wrong w it! just not my cup of tea, and iâd find it hard to write. So sorry, this was kinda rushed near the end, but I needed to get it out before monstertober. Hope you enjoy!
"Hey Satoru?" Suguru's soothing voice cooed to his long-term boyfriend. Well, basically his boyfriend. They never officially put a term on their relationship, but fucking each other raw on a nightly basis is basically being boyfriends right? If you were to ask Satoru, he'd say Suguru is his husband, and they're basically married by common law.
Satoru was lounging in a recliner in the common area of the frat house. He was pressing buttons on a small handheld gaming device as he concentrated on it. "Yeah?" He responded.
"Can I talk to you about something?" Suguru asked as he walked into common area. He crossed his arms over his chest as he looked down at the white-haired male.
"Oh, you're serious." Satoru mused as he looked up at the brunette. He quickly shut off the gaming device and tossed it to the side. "C'mere." He hummed as he patted his lap for Suguru to sit down.
Geto's lips curled into a smile, and he rolled his eyes at Satoru's request. "What?" Satoru asks with a small pout as he looked up at the brunette.
Suguru takes a seat on the couch, and his hands pat on his lap. "You c'mere." He mocks. Satoru's pout immediately melts, and he hops up out of the recliner.
"You don't have to tell me twice." He hums with a smile as he sits at on his boyfriend's lap, wrapping his legs around the larger one's waist. "What is it, Sugu?"
"I was wondering about something." Geto says calmly as his fingers come up and gently card through Satoru's fluffy hair. His boyfriend leans into his touch like a needy kitten.
"Go on. You're like edging me here." Satoru laughs as he flutters his eyes shut. His long white eyelashes batting closed.
"You normally like it." Suguru smugly comments, earning a pinch from Satoru. "Okay, okay... I was just wondering... Have you thought about fucking a girl?"
Satoru's eyes immediately open as he furrows his eyebrows in utter shock and confusion. He did not know that was where Geto was going with this.
"What...? Are you saying you're straight because you take an awfully large amount of dick to be str-"
"That's not what I'm saying you idiot. I was wondering if you ever just... thought about fucking a girl? It's okay if not."
The white-haired male pondered his boyfriend's question for a minute. Had Satoru thought about it? Sure. He was a man who would really fuck whatever gender as long as he thought they were attractive and if they had a good enough personality. Is that something he should tell his boyfriend though?
"Is this a trick question? Are you going to be mad if I say yes?" He reluctantly asks, still unsure of what Geto was trying to get at here.
"I'm not going to be mad, Satoru. I asked for a reason, just please answer." Suguru reassures as he continued to play with his boyfriend's hair.
"I mean... yeah, I've thought about it, but I would never do that to you."
"Have you thought about.. fucking a girl with me?"
It was straight up embarrassing how fast Satoru got hard at the thought.
"No, I haven't... but now that you mention it, I don't think I'll ever be able to get that thought out of my head."
"I think we should do it." Suguru casually mentions as he looks into his boyfriend's eyes. "I think it'd be fun."
"How do we find someone to do that with though? I don't think I want it to be just anybody, but I don't want any of our friends to see us like that either."
*** *** ***
The frat house was filled with people. Alcoholic beverages were at every turn. A group of misfits in the corner were packing a bowl. The guys had pushes all of the common room furniture to the walls, making an open space in the living room.
Satoru was sat on the floor between Suguru's legs. The brunette was sharing a cigarette with Shoko as he lazily petted Satoru's head. The white-haired male was looking through the crowd. He was on a mission tonight.
Ever since Suguru brought up sharing a girl between them, Satoru hadn't been able to shake the thought out of his mind. All of it sounded so exciting to him, being able to have the best of both worlds? He felt like a horny teenager all over again. When Geto wasn't tending to him, he was jerking off to the sheer thought of sharing a girl with him.
Suguru was much more tamed in his desires, though he still thought about it often. He had a wet dream of him and Satoru sharing a girl one night, and that was what started this entire mess. He had never woken up to a pool of pre-cum like he did that morning after the dream.
"So anyways, that's why I want to die." Shoko finishes up her story of why she has the worst roommate ever. Geto was halfway listening, but he was mostly just bumming cigarettes of Shoko. He didn't get to smoke often, since Satoru always whined about the taste, but he indulged during parties.
As he nodded and took another drag, a figure caught his eye. He looked over towards the sea of people in the kitchen, and he saw you quietly socializing with a group of people.
You were breathtaking, and you absolutely did not go to their college.
"Shoko, who's that?" Suguru asks calmly before nodding his head towards you.
"Oh, I think that's one of Ino's friends." She answers as she sits up. "I think Ino mentioned that she recently just transferred here."
"How is Ino friends with her?" Geto immediately asks as his face twists in confusion. Ino wasn't necessarily a bad guy: looks or personality wise, but he just couldn't see a girl like you hanging out with a guy like Ino.
"Beats me." Shoko shrugs uninterestingly as she leans her head back against the couch.
Suguru gently nudged his boyfriend as he was still sat between his legs. "Look towards the kitchen." He murmurs softly.
Satoru immediately glances over towards the kitchen, making his gaze seem casual. However, once his eyes lock onto you, he immediately knows why Suguru told him to look in the kitchen.
"Her." Satoru decides. "We could share her."
*** *** ***
Why would Ino invite you to a party then not show up? Now, you're stuck awkwardly talking with his other friends about shit you don't even care about.
Transferring to a new college right at the cutoff date was the worst idea you've had in all your life. For one, you were dreadfully behind in all your classes. For two, you had no idea who anyone was besides Ino. For three, all of the good dorms had been taken, so you were stuck living in the shitty one with a leak.
Honestly, coming to this party was the second worst idea. You should be in your leaky dorm catching up on the mountain of homework piled up. You only showed up to this damn party because Ino invited you, trying to be a good friend and introduce you to people.
You set down the alcoholic beverage you had been sipping on casually for the last hour, and you decide that you're going to just go home and pretend like this didn't happen.
As you reach towards the door, you notice a tall figure step in front of you. He leans his arm above the doorframe, and he looks down at you.
"Leaving so soon?" The white-haired male spoke in a pouty tone, but he had a smirk on his face.
"Oh- um, yeah... I have homework to do." You answer awkwardly as you stare up at him. His bright blue eyes were pretty but almost eerily so. It was giving uncanny.
"It can wait just a couple more hours, can't it? The party's only just begun." He coerces as his hand slowly drops from the top of the door frame down towards you. "I'm Satoru by the way. I don't recognize you."
"I just transferred here." You quietly admit as you take his hand and tell him your name.
"This late in the semester? Sounds pretty foolish to go through all the trouble."
"You're telling me." You respond as you look towards the door again. You really should go back to your dorm and catch up with homework.
"Satoru, you're crowding her." A calm voice spoke as he approached as well. He had long dark hair and a kind, trusting smile. He was also just as tall as Satoru. "I'm sorry about him. He gets a bit excited." The calmer male explained as he placed a hand on Satoru's shoulder.
"He's alright.. I was just leaving anyways..." You respond as you move toward the door. The dark haired male gently grabbed your wrist.
"Hey- I think I recognize you from somewhere." He says as he slightly leans in as if he's inspecting your face.
"No Suguru, you got it wrong. She's a transfer." Satoru says as he also leans in with Suguru, propping himself up on the dark-haired male's shoulder. They were both leaning in closely to your personal space.
"A transfer, hm? I'm sure that's not been easy. You deserve to let loose a little." The other responds, saying all the right things to convince you to stay. "Let me get you a drink, yeah? We should be good hosts, Satoru." He says as he walks off to the kitchen, leaving you and the other behind.
"Where'd you transfer from, sweets?" Satoru asks as he subtly leads you away from the door.
"Oh, just a nearby community college." You respond as you see Geto walking back towards you two with a red solo cup in his hands. Now, you've heard all the horror stories of what can happen to vulnerable college girls at frat parties. "I don't drink, sorry." You politely decline with a smile.
"Hm? I saw you drinking earlier." Suguru says as he tilts his head to the side slightly in confusion. Shit. Busted.
"Oh sorry, what I meant to say was I don't drink drinks that are made by men."
A look of sudden understanding crosses Suguru's face. He then looks down at the drink, and he takes a huge gulp of it first. "Satoru, take a drink." He hands the cup over to the other male, and he also takes a drink out of it. "I'm sorry. The thought never crossed my mind."
Satoru hands the now almost empty cup to you, and you can't help but laugh softly. These two dorks really just almost drunk the entire drink to prove to you that nothing was in it. "Oh, what the hell." You shrug as you take the last gulp of the drink. "Thanks."
"Of course, angel." Suguru smiles in your direction.
"Ooo, do you know what we should play with our new friend?" Satoru asks with a cheeky grin as he wiggles his eyebrows up at Suguru.
*** *** ***
Before you know it, a group of people are sat in a circle around in the common area, and there's a playing card in the center. Suck or blow is a game where the players pass around a playing card using only their lips via sucking or blowing. If the card is dropped between two people, they must kiss. To heighten the fun, after the card is dropped, it is cut in half, making it harder to keep the card up on the players' lips.
"Okay, but this isn't fair. Satoru and Suguru shouldn't be allowed to sit next to each other because they're just gonna kiss every chance they get." Someone in the circle mentions as they roll their eyes.
It just now occurs to you that the two men who convinced you to stay are lovers.
"You're so right. C'mere, sweets, so we don't ruin the game for everyone else." Satoru grins as he scoots over to the side, making room for you between him and Geto. Your eyes widen slightly from his proposition as you had a weird feeling about this game.
You slowly crawl between Satoru and Suguru. They're both big men sat with their legs crossed, so their legs are just casually rubbing against yours. No matter how much you try to scrunch up you're own body, they seems to press right against you.
Your eyes follow the playing card around the circle as people are giggling and taunting each other. Faces are red, there's awkward moments of tension, and a pair of people actually end up accidentally dropping the card.
It actually seems like a pretty lighthearted game. The card is cut in half, and the game resumes. Your heart starts to thump in your chest a bit harder as the card is making it's way closer and closer to you. With the way the rotation is going, you'll have to receive the card from Satoru and pass it off to Suguru.
Seems easy enough.
Satoru leans in to some guy that's sat beside him, and they both nearly laugh. Luckily, Satoru is able to obtain the card from the guy, lightly sucking in so the card stays flush against his lips.
He turns towards you, and his eyes lock with yours. For a moment, you swear you're able to see a devilish look in his eyes before he tilts his head up and blows the card away from his lips. "Oops. I dropped it." He feigns innocence with a smirk. "What can you do?"
You feel yourself lean back slightly. Surely, this wasn't fair. It's not that you didn't want to kiss Satoru. Let's just be honest, who doesn't? But you certainly didn't want to kiss him in front of his boyfriend.
"What are you runnin' from, angel? Satoru doesn't bite too hard." Suguru encourages you as he gently nudges you forward. Your face immediately flushes, and you barely have any time to respond before Satoru cups your cheeks and pulls you into the steamiest kiss you've ever received.
This was not like the kiss those other two people shared. This was deep, intimate, and totally inappropriate. Satoru scooted off of his bottom and onto his knees as he leaned more into you, bullying his way into your mouth by biting your lower lip.
A small muffled whimper escapes your mouth as youâre almost unable to breathe. Your hands push against his shoulders, and he groans as heâs forced to separate from you.
His face is slightly flushed, and his breath is short pants. His bright blue eyes were half-lidded as he leaned back to his spot with a smirk.
Your face is also completely flushed with embarrassment. Reluctantly looking around the room, the people are giggling and whispering about you. Some of them look towards Geto waiting for his reaction. Your heart starts to thump harshly in your chest.
You place your hands behind you on the floor to get up. This is too much. What kind of kiss was that anyways? Why would he embarrass you in front of everyone?
Before youâre able to get up from your spot, Suguru wraps his hand around your wrist, and he holds you back towards him.
âNow, now, angel.â He clicks his tongue disapprovingly, and you feel your heart drop to your stomach. Thinking Suguru is about to rip you a new one for kissing his boyfriend like that, you immediately start to apologize. âWhat you apologizing for, hm?â He asks as he leans in dangerously close to you. âI was just going to say that if Satoru gets a taste, then so do I.â
What kind of sick prank was this?
His dark eyes flicker down to your lips, and his other hand brushes your hair away from your face before he leans in and presses a softer - more sensual kiss. His lips are smooth and delicate; the complete opposite from Satoruâs.
You feel like youâre about to explode from embarrassment, so you pull away with a whiny huff. The brunette merely chuckles are your reaction. âI could still taste him on you.â He murmurs into your ear, making your heart skip a beat.
Your palms find your face as youâre literally trying to hide from the situation. Not that you can see, but the two men were literally just grinning at you, pleased with the mess they caused.
âAlright. That was fun.â Satoru announced, denoting the end of the game.
âMaybe for you.â A guy retorted with a halfway-annoyed laugh. You could hear people shuffling around, leaving the circle they were all sat in.
Slowly, your hands leave your face, and you see most people have went back to hanging out in their own social groups; however, Satoru and Suguru stuck by your side.
âWell, it seems sheâll share a kiss with both of us. I wonder what else she might do with both of us.â Suguru mused as he propped his head up with his hand. His elbow sat on his knee as he gazed at both you and Satoru with an enamored expression.
âI- We were playing a game!â You quickly go to defend your case, but Satoru is right there to also taunt you.
âOh, so youâd only kiss one of us if we werenât playing a game?â Satoru asks as he also leans into you, fluttering his long white eyelashes. âSweets, if you wanted it to be just you and I, I could tell Suguru here to give us some space.â
âWhat-? No, thatâs not what IâŠâ
âSo, you were open to kissing both of us.â Suguru cuts you off, not letting you refute or argue.
Your face is bright red as you feel your head spinning. Both of the men were matching each otherâs energy, applying pressure to you. Their dominant personalities were making it hard for you to even get a word out.
âPlease- stop.â You whisper quietly as you look down at your lap, practically folding in on yourself like a hermit crab who senses danger.
Suguru shoots Satoru a quick glance, and they seem to have a silent conversation between the two of them. The brunette is the first to speak up, gently placing his hand on your shoulder.
âHey- itâs okay. We were just teasing.â He reassures you softly as he bends his head down to try to look in your eyes to show that heâs sincere.
Satoru gently tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. âWeâre sorry, sweets. We didnât mean to overwhelm you.â
âYouâre not mad at me..?â You quietly ask the two of them as theyâre both doting on you with physical affection to soothe your anxiety.
âWhy would we be mad, angel?â Suguru asks softly. His hand is gently rubbing on your shoulder, lightly massaging you.
âYeah, we kissed you. Why would we be mad?â Satoru pitches in as he carefully cards his fingers through your hair.
Your heart continues to flutter a bit. Having both men tend to you emotionally and physically was rather appealing.
âI kissed you two back, and you two areâŠâ Your voice trails off as you donât know what type of label to place on their relationship.
âOhhh, sheâs worried about us being jealous, Sugu.â Satoru grins as his hand pats the top of your head.
âPoor thing. Allow me to let you in on a little secret.â Suguru dips his head closer to your ear, and he drops his voice to a low whisper. âNeither of us care as long as we both get to have you.â
You mustâve misheard him. Is he really just openly offering a threesome between you, him, and Satoru?
âI donât understandâŠâ You quietly murmur, not daring to make eye contact with either of them right now.
âYes, you do.â Satoru interjects as he sits up a little. His hand grabs your chin and forces you to look up at him. Bright blue eyes stare into your very essence. âI think weâve made our intentions pretty clear here, sweets. We both want you. So, you can either follow us up to the bedroom, or we can all pretend this didnât happen, and you can go back to your dorm and play with yourself to the thought of us.â
Youâre sure that if these boys keep it up, youâll have a heart attack at some point. Your breath hitches in your throat as you try to comprehend how Satoru could be so bold. Youâre truly lucky that Suguru is there to balance him out.
âYou donât have to decide right now, angel. Satoru is a bit too impatient for his own good.â Suguru speaks lowly as his hand gently caresses your back. âYou can make your mind up whenever youâd like. We just want to be clear in our intentions.â
âThat you want to sleep with me?â You ask as your eyes dart over to Geto.
âYou make it sound so bad, love.â Suguru responds as his eyes look over your face. âItâs not just sleeping with you. Itâs making you feel good. Itâs sharing you between us and watching you deteriorate into that little shy mess that you let us get a glimpse of earlier.â
Satoru pinches your cheek as he still has your face cupped. âItâs about seeing how much you can take and which one of us will fold first and fill you up.â
You press your thighs together as you feel your heartbeat in your cunt. How did they make sex sound so appealing? Not that you didnât like sex, but you never had it described to you like that.
âYou like what heâs saying, angel?â Suguru muses as he leans in close to your ear. His nose brushes against your hair gently, and his warm breath ghosts your skin. âItâs okay. You want us both to fill you up. We can give you that.â His voice is so soothing as if heâs speaking a lullaby to you. His large hands trails to your inner thigh. âYou just gotta give us the word, love. Weâll give you a night youâll never forget.â
*** *** ***
So, thatâs how you ended up in Satoruâs massive bedroom upstairs while the party continued on upstairs.
Suguruâs lips were on yours, practically making love to your mouth as he ran his hand through your hair. The back of your knees hit Satoruâs king sized bed as the brunette was gently coaxing you there by taking small steps forward.
His boyfriend was watching the two of you with big eyes. His hand was absentmindedly palming himself through his jeans as he admired the way you submitted to Suguru so willingly.
âSuguâŠâ Satoru nearly whines. If it was just the two of them in the room alone, he would be already pouting, but he has a dominant role to uphold.
The brunette gently parts from the kiss leaving you a panting mess to look over at his cute boyfriend, eagerly palming himself like an animal who couldnât help themselves. âSuch an only child.â He remarks with a smirk. âNever learned how to share properly.â
âI want to kiss her too.â Satoru huffs as he approaches the two of you. Your eyes are glued on Satoru almost out of fear. Despite how whiny he could get, he was definitely the more rougher direct one.
âBe my guest, Toru.â Suguru hums as he gently nudges you onto the bed to where your bottom is on the edge. âI wanna kiss somewhere else anyways.â His fingers hook into the waistband of your pants, and he tugs them off of you.
Satoru moves his upper body on top of yours while staying out of Suguruâs way. Heâs slightly jealous that Geto is getting to taste you first, but heâs sure that heâll get to feel you wrapped around him first. His hands pin yours above your head, and you squirm a bit, testing his grip.
âThink you can get away, sweets? Go ahead and try.â Satoru smirks as he doesnât even have to try to hold you down. Youâre no match for him, especially considering heâs a pro at contact sports.
Your squirming intensifies as Suguruâs fingers gently brush against your damp panties. âShe already made a mess for us.â He muses to Satoru.
âWhat a slut.â The white-haired male grins before he finally gets what he came here for: a kiss. His lips devour yours in another steamy kiss as Geto starts rubbing small light circles against your clit with his thumb.
Youâre completely at the mercy. Your body squirms around from the stimulation, but neither of the boys relent. Before you all went upstairs, Suguru made it clear that you had a safe word: crepe. If you uttered that word, both of them would completely stop whatever they were doing. Until then, you were fair game no matter how much you whimpered or squirmed.
The thought of it makes you try to press your thighs together as your cunt clenches around nothing, but Suguru forces your thighs apart. âDonât hide your pretty cunt from me, angel. I donât want to have to tie you down.â
Chills go up your spine from the thought, and you reluctantly stop trying to close your legs.
Satoru kisses bruisingly hard, gulping down each of your breaths and using your whimpers as a way to slip his tongue past your lips. His hand is still holding down both of your hands while his other starts to grope your breast.
Suguru presses chaste kisses to your core through your panties while still rubbing you. He hums with contentment as he watches your hips rise from the bed searching for more. He decides to indulge you for now, slowly sliding your panties down your legs.
âSo pretty.â He murmurs as he gazes at your soaking wet cunt. His eyelids flutter shut before he leans in and ever so gently laps at your cunt, causing you to squeal into Satoruâs mouth.
The white-haired male finally relents in his kisses to gaze down at his boyfriend while he was leisurely indulging in your cunt like it was a gourmet meal. He bites back a moan as his dick is painfully hard, straining against his jeans. Itâs nearly enough to make his head spin. He needs release â like now.
He unbuttons his pants before shrugging him off of him quickly. His cock has already leaked a small wet spot into his boxer briefs.
Youâre too consumed with Getoâs tongue that you donât even notice Satoruâs cock until he straddles your shoulders. Your eyes widen while looking at his size. His cock quite literally casts a shadow over your face with its massive size. His tip is an angry red color from neglect, and a bead of pre-cum sits upon the small slit.
âOh sweets, you flatter me.â Satoru grins as he takes note of your facial expressions. The palm of his hand then gently pushes your forehead back, and he drags his length across your lips, smearing his pre-cum against your pretty mouth.
Satoru enjoys just gently rubbing his cock across your face as you give him pitiful glances and small whimpers. You try to take him into your mouth, but he wonât let you. Heâs enjoying toying with you too much.
Meanwhile, Suguru is completely lost between your thighs. His jaw is almost sore from making out with your sloppy cunt, and thatâs saying a lot considering heâs use to sucking dick. No matter, he continues alternating lapping at you and tongue-fucking your tight entrance. Each time his tongue thrusts inwards, he canât help but think about how good youâre going to feel wrapped around his dick later.
Your hips try to shimmy away from him, and he takes it as a sign that youâre close. His hands grip onto your hips, preventing your escape, and his mouth then focuses strictly on your clit as he gently suckles on the small bundle of nerves.
Your mouth falls open as you gasp, and Satoru takes his chance to fill your mouth while youâre off guard. His cock immediately stuffs your mouth, muffling all of your sweet noises. Your eyes squint closed as you struggle not to immediately gag around him.
âOh, come on. I know you can do better than that, sweets.â He taunts as he looks down at your poor struggling face. âYouâre not even taking half of me.â
Your spit accumulates on his cock as he sits still for a moment, giving you just a mere second to prepare yourself. Then, he starts to rock his hips back and forth, fucking your pretty mouth while he holds you still.
âLook at me.â He demands with a small grunt.
Your eyes flutter open obediently to look up at him while he uses your throat to his heartâs content. Tears brim in your eyes, threatening to spill. Cute.
For a moment, your entire body tenses up as you gush juices against Getoâs face and chin. Your eyes slip shut as itâs almost too much to handle. The brunette continues to drink you down as if you didnât just cum.
Satoruâs hips continue to forcefully push himself deeper into your mouth. He hates that Suguru is getting all the attention!! He gets to kiss you first He gets to taste you first. Now, heâs getting to make you cum first!
Taking his frustrations out on your poor throat, Satoru doesnât even realize that his orgasm is rapidly approaching him until itâs almost too late. âF-fuck.â He grunts as he presses your head down harder. His tip grazes the back of your throat, causing you to gag around him. The tears slip past your cheeks.
âYeah, gag around me, slut. Thatâs what you get for letting him make you cum first.â He moans as his hips stutter. He then shoves himself as deep as your throat will around, and his cock pulses between your lips as he empties himself deep in your throat.
Your cry muffles around his length as he stays seated in the back of your throat until heâs a sensitive mess. Your hand quickly comes up and hits the side of his thigh with a small whine.
With a small chuckle, he slowly gets up off of your shoulders, and Suguru had finally ceased eating you out. Your body is so tired. Taking a moment to rest in Satoruâs bed with your eyes closed, you hear clothes shuffling around.
You assumed they were maybe getting back dressed, but no, you were sorely mistaken.
âCâmere, angel. Let me hold you.â Suguru whispers softly as he crawls behind you onto the bed. Your eyes flutter open to see him completely naked, patting his lap for you.
He is (thankfully) not a big as Satoru is, but his cock is definitely fatter. You swallow harshly as your eyes wander his body.
âListen to him, sweets.â Satoru snaps your mind back to reality as his hand gently swats at your thigh.
You slowly crawl up onto Suguruâs lap, and he turns you facing away from him. Your back lies flush against his chest. âIâll be gentle with you. Donât worry,â He hums softly as he pulls your shirt and bra off of you, finally discarding those pesky items.
His hand carefully adjusts his cock right between your thighs, fitting snuggly between your warm wet folds. âMmm, feel good, angel?â He asks as his body lightly shudders from the feeling.
You weakly nod your head, and Geto starts to slowly rock his hips back and forth, coating his inches in your slick.
Satoru climbed next to you two, and he cuddles into your side before lazily catching one of your nipples into his mouth. His eyes flutter shut as he gently suckles on the sensitive bud. His hand is gently playing and rubbing on your other.
âMnnph~ fuck..â You whimper as you lean your head back against Suguruâs shoulder. His hips continue to rock behind you, spreading your slick all over your thighs.
âWanna see something.. ah~.. fun, angel?â Suguru asks quietly as he gently takes your hand. He slowly guides you to grabbing onto Satoruâs hair, which elicits a small whine out of him.
His blue eyes flutter open as he looks up at you pitifully while swirling his tongue around the small bundle of nerves. It seems as though he has a weak spot - his hair being pulled.
You can barely concentrate from the movement of Suguruâs hips when he makes you pull Satoruâs hair again only harder this time. The white-haired male moans around your nipple, adding vibrations to the mix of stimulation.
âLook at me, pretty boy.â Geto purrs at his boyfriend. Satoruâs eyes look up towards both yours and Getoâs faces. His eyebrows are pinched together, and he doesnât dare stop suckling on the soft bud.
Suguru reaches down with his other hand, and he adjusts his cock right against your warm entrance. His tip bumps against the ring of muscle, causing you to whine from the sensation.
âGonna prep her for you, okay?â Suguru mumbles to his boyfriend. The white-haired male immediately pulls away from your breast with a soft âpopâ noise.
âWait no, I wann-â Satoruâs words are futile as Suguru pushes into you with a loud groan. His head falls back against the pillow behind him. Your hands grab at the sheets with a whine as you squeeze your eyes shut. It feels like heâs trying to split you into two with his fat cock.
âMmnn.. so, so tight.â He grunts, obviously provoking Satoru more. âFeels so good.â He adds while his hips shallowly move, pushing his tip in and out. The tight wet muscle envelopes him each time with a squelching noise.
Satoruâs eyes are as big as saucers as he watches Suguru barely pump into you. The sight of your cunt struggling to fit him and dripping juices all along his length makes him feel feral.
A huff escapes his lips as he shifts his face between your legs. âI wanted to stretch her.â He furrows his eyebrows in slight jealousy.
âToo bad. Youâre just going to have to⊠ngh~.. watch me do it.â Suguru retorts as he pushed a couple inches deeper, allowing your gummy walls to squeeze around him.
âOh f-fuck..! sâtoo much-â You cry as your hips start to tremble. The pressure from his cock pushing deeper causes you to arch your back away from the brunette.
âAngel, Iâm barely even in yet. You can do better than that.â Geto tsks disapprovingly. His hands wrap around your hips to hold them still. âHelp her out, Satoru.â
The white-haired male looked up at your scrunched face as white hot pleasure and pain course through you, and he actually takes a little bit of pity on you⊠or maybe he just really wants a taste. Either way, he drags his tongue up Suguruâs length, licking your juices off his boyfriend. He continues to lick upward until his tongue presses against your clit.
You choke out a moan as youâre struggling to keep control over your body. Itâs all so much. Your poor cunt squeezes around Suguru as Satoru continues to lap at you. As soon as you begin to adjust, Suguru pushes all the way into you, down to the hilt.
âFuuuuck~ so good.â He groans as you clench around him so deliciously. Your juices mixing with Satoruâs saliva make it absolutely messy. The wet smacking noises fill the room as Suguru wastes no more time fucking himself into you.
Satoruâs tongue continually switches from focusing on your clit and licking up your juices from the base of Getoâs cock. He hums in pleasure as he pitifully grinds his painfully hard length into the mattress, desperate for any sort of friction.
âSh-shit-! Satoruu~â You drawl as your hand finds his hair, but he quickly pins your wrist down, not letting you force him to submit again.
âSheâs weepinâ for me, Suguru.â Satoru taunts with a hint of pride.
The brunette is lost in his own deep thrusts. He can feel his balls tightening, signaling how close he was. âYeah? Get in here then. Make her feel good.â Suguru instructs as he pulls himself out of your wet heat, mostly to prevent himself from finishing too quickly.
You immediately whine in protest from the empty feeling, causing both of the men to chuckle at you. âSuch a slut. Just needing something to fill you up, hm? You donât care which one of us it is.â Satoru is back to his degradation as he sits up on his knees, scooting himself between both yours and Getoâs legs.
Suguru carefully tucks his cock back behind you, in between your soft pillowy cheeks. Satoru takes his opportunity and pressed himself against your entrance.
âFuuck sweets, sheâs cryinâ for me.â He groans as he bullies himself inside of you, immediately pushing all the way to the hilt, causing for you to let out a silent scream. His tip practically kisses your cervix, filling you fuller than you ever have been before. âGotta give her what she wants.â
His thrusts were unlike Getoâs. He was rough, not giving you any time to adjust to his length before he starts pounding your pretty pussy. Your body jerks and squirms, but both of the men hold you down, making sure you canât get away.
With each brutal thrust, your backside inadvertently grinds against Suguruâs already sensitive length. âFuu- hnnngh~ my god.â The brunette whines behind you as his fingers dig into your hips.
Youâre already a complete blabbering mess, getting completely fucked stupid in the head by the white-haired male. âHah~⊠fuuuck, pleaasee.â You whimper, not even know what youâre begging for.
Satoru has your wrists pinned against Suguruâs shoulders while he slams into you. Sweat gathers on his forehead as heâs completely enamored by both yours and Getoâs spent faces. His mind plays tricks on him, convincing him that heâs miraculously fucking both of you right now.
âWhatcha begginâ for, sweets?â He huffs as his hips push into yours, forcing your entire body up and down against his boyfriend. âNeed both of us?â
Your eyes immediately widen, and youâre shaking your head quickly. âAh, ah, I donât hear the safe word. Suguru, I think she wants it.â
Geto pants and moans as he slowly pulls his hips back, allowing for his cock to slip between your legs. Heâs painfully hard and sensitive too. âThink you can take b-both of us, angel?â He asks as he gently rubs his tip against your entrance that is already being filled by Satoru.
âN-no~! I-⊠I canât.â You practically pleading as your legs are trembling from Satoruâs harsh abuse of your cunt.
âShh, nonsense.â Suguru soothes as he brings his hand up to his mouth. He spits onto his hand and drags it along his length, lubricating himself so he can glide in. âYou wanna be a good girl, donât you?â
âPlease. Sheâs not good for anything besides taking us.â Satoru interjects as he slowly pulls himself back until just his tip is inside, allowing Suguru the room to squeeze in.
âPoor angel, canât even resist it, can you?â Geto mocks as he guides himself to your entrance. He slowly works his was inside. His cock was completely flush against Satoruâs, and your walls completely tighten around the both of them.
Tears fill your eyes as the pressure from both of them is almost too much. Your entire body tenses up, trying to cope with the feeling of being so full.
âShhh, you gotta relax, darling.â Suguru murmurs into your ear. His hand reaches around and gently rubs small circles against your clit, coaxing your body to open up for them. âWeâre gonna take good care of you. You need to trust us though.â
Satoru sits patiently, biting his inner cheek to prevent himself from moving. The tight feeling of your sopping cunt as well as Suguruâs cock smushed against his was nearly enough to throw him overboard. He gathers your hair carefully, and he gently moves it out of the way so he can kiss on your neck.
Suguru follows suit: kissing and biting gently on your opposite shoulder. Both of the men worked together to ease your body while Suguru slowly sunk in deeper and deeper, stretching you to your fullest. ïżŒ
âGood girl..â The brunette quietly purrs in your ear. âTakinâ us both so well. Think you can take a little more?â
âDonât call her that. This slut can barely fit us both.â Satoru grins as he wastes no more time. His hips start to roll back and forth, and his hands grabbed at the bottom of your thighs, lifting your legs up so they both could have better access.
Both of the men take turns pushing their cocks deep inside you, not giving you a single moment to rest or adjust. Your head was spinning, unable to form a coherent thought as your poor cunt was being taken by two at once.
Suguruâs clasp on your hips tightens as he rhythmically buries himself into you repeatedly. The feeling of your warm gummy walls combined with Satoruâs cock rubbing against his, creating a delicious friction was too much to handle.
âF-fuck.. Iâm not gonna last too much longer.â He pants as he continues torturously rutting upwards into your sloppy wet entrance. âN-need to feel this.. mmmph.. this pussy up.â
Satoru growls lowly as he slows his pacing but makes each thrust count. Watching his boyfriend unravel underneath you was something he didnât know he needed. He can feel himself getting close too.
But it was you who finished first. You couldnât even warn them before your orgasm suddenly washed over you. Fluids gushed along both of them as your cunt spasmed and clenched around them.
âDid you just-â Satoru looks down at where you two are connected to confirm it with his own eyes. âD-dirty girl, you just squirted on us.â He muses as his thrusts grow sloppier.
Suguruâs barely pumping into you before he tilts his head back. His adamâs apple bobs as he paints your insides white with a loud, needy groan.
Satoruâs legs are trembling as he keeps fucking himself into you. Itâs so fucking wet from Suguruâs cum as well as your juices. The combined throbbing and clenching bring on dual sensations that have him spilling inside you as well.
âG-god fuck!â He tightens his grip on your wrists as he works his way through his orgasm.
The three of you stay in bed connected together while panting softly. The frat house is eerily quiet. Everyone mustâve went home.
âAre you alright, angel?â Suguru asks as his feather light touch grazes your tummy softly. âWe didnât hurt you, did we?â
âN-no⊠Iâm okay.â You mutter weakly. âI donât think I can walk back to my dorm thoughâŠâ
âGood. Youâre not leaving anyways.â Satoru declares with a playful smile before he snuggles into you and Suguru.
âHeâs a bit clingy, but I agree. Stay here for tonight.â Suguru says, also wrapping his strong arms around you.
While the three of you slept peacefully in each otherâs arms, your phone was blowing up with texts and calls from Ino who was worried sick when he showed up to the party, and you werenât there. Oh well, youâll just have to tell him in the morning.
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pairing: mafia! ot8 x undercover officer! reader (fem)
genre: mafia/organized crime au, drama, angst
w.c: 3.3k
ch. summary: after countless months of preparation and ensuing anxiety, you finally revisit the infamous Black Pirates, but from the other side of the law, and itâs almost as if youâve never left.
ch. warnings: not too manyâŠ.uhhh very light depictions of violence, a bit of blood, a bit of manhandling (not the sexy kind), mingi is unhinged (?) and has a gun lmao, no smut this time but just you waittttt
a/n: hi thereeeee i cannot tell you how excited i am to share this with you all đ„č this is my first mini series and iâve never tackled anything this big before so please be patient with me when it comes to updates~~ (also this chapter will be the shortest of them all given itâs the intro hehe) but aaaaaaa iâm so happy we can go on this journey together >w< now sit back, relax, and enjoy ~ and if you like, please pleasee share your thoughts and feedback with me <33
song rec: scene 1 - value ~ ateez, concrete jungle ~ bad omens
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âAre you ready for this?âÂ
All you could hear was your heart thumping inside your ears, unable to focus on your Commander in Chiefâs loaded question, tuning into the sounds of keyboard tapping and faceless chattering about the current crimes and cases that were plugging up the figurative drain of your local prescient, rather than what he was saying to you. Were you ready to infiltrate one of the most prevalent crime families your law enforcement agency has come to know and loathe over the better part of the year? Not as their friend, but this time, as an enemy? They had half your city in the palm of their hands and were itching to take it over, pushing the drug and gun trade into overdrive, washing countless loads of dirty dollar bills, and in turn, leaving you and your agency to clean up the mess they left behind â and what a mess they always made. Bullets, bodies, and broken dreams. Crime and punishment. Officers, regulations, and yellow tape. An endless game of chess that nobody ever seemed to win. The perpetrators of this game, their faces never left your mind, etching their likeness inside the grooves of your memory even after being away from them all for so long, at least, until now â if you stopped being such a goddamn pussy and answered your boss.Â
âY/NâŠ? You can back out if you need toâŠâ He gave you an apologetic smile. âGiven your history, I know it might be a lot on you. We can always put somebody else in instead.âÂ
âNo..!â you suddenly protested, bringing a closed fist near your mouth as you forcefully cleared your throat. âWith all due respect, sir, Iâve been preparing myself for this since you helped meâŠchange course and join the academy.â Realizing you were digging your nails into your palms, you relaxed your grip, leaving red idents behind. âAnd, of course, when we realized what the Kim Estate was actually doing behind closed doors.â
âIt certainly wasnât tennis,â the seasoned man chuckled softly, leaning back slightly inside his fraying office chair, rubbing at his eyes from underneath his reading glasses, not aware of how prominent his eye bags were becoming. He let out a small sigh. âY/N, I have a lot of trust in you. Going back into that world as an undercover operative is not a walk in the park under any circumstances, but thisâŠthey have proven to be unpredictable. Iâll ask you once more. Are you sure you can handle this case?âÂ
In all honesty, you were never too sure what you could handle, both in your professional and personal life, but the uncertainty never stopped you from diving in headfirst. And this, this case, being one of the dominos that would knock them all down, wellâŠit was simply too delicious to pass up.Â
You stood up, bowing your head to your superior, before giving him a knowing nod. âIâm ready, sir.âÂ
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Your closest friend back in your police academy days and fellow undercover partner, Yeonjun, was the first person you spotted upon exiting your bossâ office, well, specifically his bright red hair, slowly navigating past the maze of desks and whispering coworkers to make it over to him, privy to the looks some of them gave you as you slipped past them â though it didnât phase you anymore. Your past did not define you. At least, thatâs what your therapist had been telling you the past few years.Â
âHey, partner,â Yeonjun greeted you with a smile, reaching out to hand you a paper cup full of freshly steeped coffee, leaning back to sit down on the crowded surface of his desk. âTomorrowâs the big day. You ready?âÂ
You took the steaming cup, your jaw tensing as the bitter liquid hit your tastebuds. âIâm as ready as Iâll ever be, Choi.â You always thought of someone else when you uttered that surname. He was the complete opposite of your partner here: calm and collected, soulless when he wanted to be and full of love the very next moment, ticking back between the two like a malfunctioning metronome. You hated him for it.Â
âHey, itâs just Yeon, now. Come tomorrow, I wonât be my normal sexy self.â He pulled his freshly printed fake ID out of his t-shirt pocket and held it up to your face, replicating the toothy smile he had inside the picture. âWell, still sexy, yeah?âÂ
Chuckling, you leaned in, studying the fake ID, impressed by how real it looked. âVery sexy, Yeon, but remind me why you dyed your hair red? Is it the quarter life crisis settling in?âÂ
Yeonjun rolled his eyes, tucking his ID back into his pocket. âHa-ha, funny. I just thought I should look the part if Iâm going in as some renowned hacker.âÂ
You pushed a few files out of the way to lean against Yeonjunâs desk beside him. âHave you been studying up on your skills then?âÂ
âOf course, I have. I know I joke around a lot, but Iâve dedicated my life to this, Y/NâŠâÂ
You looked down at Yeonjunâs hand, the one that rested on the desk in between you, his fingers drumming against the surface. âGood, because they donât play aroundâŠâ
The drumming stopped. Yeonjun turned his head to look at you, a flicker of light inside his brown eyes, like he was trying to understand you. âDo youâŠever think about your life before the academy? Before this? Do you wish you could go back?âÂ
You bit into your lip, gazing past Yeonjunâs hand at one of the files that contained information about the very people you would be betraying. âIâŠjust want to be good. Do whatâs rightâŠThatâs why I left all of that. Itâs why Iâm here now.âÂ
He leaned over slightly until his shoulder pressed into yours, using his pinky to nudge at yours. âNot many would do what youâve done, yâknow. Giving up their way of life for something like this.âÂ
You nudged back, staring into the half empty cup of coffee you were still holding onto. âNot many people are this stupid.âÂ
âNot stupid.â Yeonjun pretended to clink his empty paper cup against yours, giving you a soft smile. âBrave. Youâre the key component of this entire operation, Y/N. Thatâs huge. Youâll make a difference. Isnât that what this is all about?âÂ
âMaybeâŠyouâre right,â you replied softly, once again distracted by the folder from before, the one that was slightly open just enough to reveal the image of a man with slick back hair, dressed in quaint Victorian style clothes, with a big bow wrapped around his neck. Kim Hongjoong, owner of the Kim Estate and leader of the Black Pirate Organization. You knew him all too well, and all his closest cohorts. Would they recognize you? You hadnât seen them since you were a young girl, forgotten by most and lost inside a system that didnât care about you, except for the ambitious young man that swore he would one day be sat atop his ivory tower with those that followed his path. And now there he was, living the high life inside his big shiny mansion, sipping on fine wine, while you were still forcing down bitter instant coffee day after day, surrounded by people that looked at you, but never really saw you for what you were, whatever that was. Maybe Hongjoong knew.Â
âY/NâŠ? Youâre staring off into space againâŠâ Yeonjun whispered near you, getting up from the desk once you came back to Earth. âAnyways, itâs late, and we have a lot to do tomorrow. We should get going.âÂ
âYouâre right, we need as much rest as we can get.â You stretched out your legs before standing back up, just now noticing that you were the only two left inside the workspace, the light from your Chiefâs office still peeking out past the dusty blinds. Maybe your Chief knew.Â
Packing up your briefcase, you smiled at Yeonjun. âShould I dye my hair too?âÂ
Yeonjun pouted, resting his own briefcase against his hip. âThatâs my thing.âÂ
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Particles of dust and dirt filled your lungs, joining the blood that you began to choke on. It hurt to breathe, but your body carried on supplying oxygen to your lungs, not giving you a choice in the matter. You rolled over onto your back to face the night sky, your teary eyes focusing on the twinkling stars and the bright blue moon that loomed over the town, storm clouds rolling past until they blocked out the pretty view. Heavy rain began to pour down, soaking you to the bone. Even though you were losing the will to live, you still held onto the silver pair of scissors that you used to prove a point, even though it mightâve cost you your life. That was still something. However, your dear mentor still stood over you, his neck being clutched tightly by his trembling fingers, crimson slowly slipping past them.Â
âSee what happens when you bite the hand that feeds you? Ungrateful brat,â he choked out in between shallow breaths. Frustrated, he let out a gurgled growl, tossing his bloodied shank onto the dirt road beside his feet. You couldâve sworn you saw tears slip down his flushed cheeks, but then again, it was raining. âI didnât want to do thisâŠbut you gave me no choice.âÂ
His closest companion took a step forward to securely grasp his upper arm, urging him, âSir, we need to get you to the nearest hideout. I wonât let you bleed out like this.âÂ
The disheveled manâs other trusted subordinate placed a gloved hand on one of his shoulders, squeezing into it with urgency. He surveyed you past his foggy glasses, pushing them up the slope of his nose. His eyes were once filled with a sense of endearment when he looked at you, but now, they held contempt. âShe made her decision, sir.âÂ
The struggling leader turned his head to look back and forth between his dear followers, then at his men who all waited behind them, their rain-streaked faces contorted with conflicted apprehension. They stood perfectly still like statues, until the all too familiar sound of sirens rang out in the distance. Thatâs when they all scattered, like rats, escaping from the flashing lights and disappearing into the dark of the night. Â
Your soon to be killer was the last one to leave, looming over you as though he was Death himself, beads of rain, sweat, and blood dripping from his chin and down onto your face below. âJust one question, darlingâŠâ He held his neck tighter than before, growing dizzier from all the blood loss. âWhy?âÂ
A small, self-satisfied laugh painfully bellowed from your chest, causing you to grab at your stomach where it had been sliced into. âThe blade cuts both ways, sir. I was just following your leadâŠâ You weakly lifted your hand up in the air, as though you wanted to reach him, but simply couldnât. âWhy arenât you proud of the monster you created?âÂ
The man began to beam at you, but the corner of his lips stretched to an unfathomable degree, as though he had carved a smile into his own face. He lifted his chin up just enough to rid himself of the shadow that was cast over him, his brown eyes now void of anything, simply black. Soulless. âOh, darlingâŠthe monster was always there. I simply dug it up.âÂ
You suddenly woke up and sat upright in your bed, your entire body covered in a layer of sweat, leading you to desperately kick off the comforter that had trapped you inside the sweltering heat. Upon realizing you were no longer caught inside a warped memory from your adolescence, you looked down at your stomach, lifting up the edge of your shirt to see if your scar was still there, sighing softly when you saw the jagged patch of skin.Â
Your past doesn't define you. He doesn't define you â none of them do. And, now, you had the opportunity to create your own definition, and get a little revenge while you were at it.Â
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âDo we ring the doorbellâŠ?â Yeonjun asked from beside you, nervously shifting his weight from foot to foot, getting a bit dizzy from trying to take in all of the glory of the Kim Estate.Â
You were too busy studying the faded stains of blood left on the stone floor below to notice how out of character Yeonjun was already behaving, not that you could blame him. A similar prick of anxiety was already embedding itself into your mind, but you waved it away as soon as it made itself present. âWe may be entering a lionâs den, but we wonât behave like them. Iâll knock.âÂ
Yeonjun nodded swiftly, clutching the handle of his messenger bag tightly inside his sweaty hand. âHopefully they donât eat us alive.âÂ
You gently pushed a few strands of hair behind your ear, making sure you didnât disturb the positioning of the micro earpiece that was sitting just behind your tragus. âThey wonât, as long as we prove our worth.âÂ
You grabbed onto the obnoxious ivory door knocker, and just as you were about to make your presence known, you found yourself being yanked into the mansion by someone much bigger than you, Yeonjunâs squeaks of protest becoming background noise as soon as the man slammed you against the nearest wall. What felt to be the cold barrel of a compact handgun pressed up into the bottom of your chin with a click, your assailantâs focused, deep-set eyes boring into your own. âIs this how you welcome all your guests?â
âNot all of themâŠsome I leave dead on the doorstep before they can even get a chance to beg on their knees,â the man muttered in a distinctly gravelly voice, a small chuckle bubbling out of his throat. Usually, the people he dealt with would be pissing themselves at this point, but it just seemed to be another day for this strangely familiar visitor.Â
You could almost see your partner out of the corner of your eye, already on his own knees, his distinctively red hair being held onto by a nameless man in a 3-hole knit balaclava. It was then that you angled your head up slightly to get a good look at your old friend, feeling the barrel push harder into your skin. âEvery guard dog has to have their fun, right? And, if you blew my head off now, well, whereâs the fun in that?âÂ
âYouâre right, doll.â The tall manâs plump lips quirked up into a smirk, slowly dragging his gun past your chin, down your neck, and along the softest parts of your body, poking and prodding at you in an attempt to humiliate you. âShould I see how many new holes I can give you? Fill them all with hot lead?âÂ
âAt least buy me a drink first,â you said through gritted teeth, trying not to show any discomfort when he pushed the loaded gun roughly into your abdomen, directly into your scar, not that he couldâve known it was there.Â
He seemed to enjoy your pained response, leaning his head back to let out a sudden laugh, one that was short and abrupt like a bark. âYouâre one crazy bitchâŠâ The man licked over his plump lips. âI like that.âÂ
It was just then that somebody else entered the foyer, their presence so distinctly powerful, the lot of you couldnât help but notice before he even stepped foot in the room. âIs that any way to treat a valued guest, Mingi? I thought I trained you better than that.âÂ
Mingi immediately de-cocked the gun and brought it behind his back, tucking it away inside the waistline of his tailored pants. âIâm sorry, sir.â
Seonghwa patted Mingiâs shoulder with a gloved hand, giving him a small nod of understanding, before turning his attention to you and Yeonjun, the both of you cautiously standing with your backs against the paneled wall. âI do apologize for my guard dog. We try to keep him on a tight leash, but sometimesâŠhe gets loose.â His shifting eyes formed half crescents. âYou understand.âÂ
Yeonjun glanced over at you for guidance, and you responded with a small smile, before nodding your head obediently at Seonghwaâs words, Yeonjun following your lead. âItâs not a problem.âÂ
Seonghwa clasped his hands together, shaking his head slightly, a strand or two of raven hair falling past his forehead from where the rest of it sat perfectly still. He couldnât seem to understand why he was experiencing a bout of deja vu. âWhere are my manners?â He pressed his palm into his chest, and gave a small bow. âIâm Park Seonghwa, the second in command, if you will, here at the Kim Estate.âÂ
Yeonjun bowed back instantly, pushing his dyed hair behind his ears as he stood up straight. âMy nameâs Yeon. Thatâs what I go by online.âÂ
Seonghwaâs eyebrows raised up slightly. âAh, I know you.â He chuckled to himself, glad that he was able to pinpoint the air of familiarity, but still annoyed that something wasnât quite right. âYouâre that hacker thatâs going around and fucking with the local government, arenât you?âÂ
Yeonjun was glad he didnât eat too much that morning, otherwise he wouldâve already thrown it up by now. He brought a peace sign up to his face and smiled. âThatâs me, professional shit-stirrer at your service.âÂ
As more men began to trickle into the foyer to see what all the commotion was about, Seonghwa slowly turned his attention back to you, the true object of his frustration. Itâs like he had seen you many times before, in a dream, perhaps? In the casino they ran behind closed doors? Or maybe you were one of the many playthings that were brought in to appease the voracious appetites of his degenerate cohorts. Either way, Seonghwa both loved and loathed the way you were already inside his mind, like you had already lived there, and your existence had simply been unearthed by the sands of time.Â
âAnd, you areâŠ?â he asked in a slow, calculated manner, his head tilting to the side.Â
âIâm a diamond expert,â you explained vaguely, motioning to the large suitcase of supplies you were holding. âI can see the value of most things from a mile away, much like your dear leader.âÂ
Hongjoong was already aware of your arrival. You could feel it in your bones.Â
Seonghwa brought a closed fist to his chin, nodding at your words, still not completely sure why he felt so uncomfortable. âBut, who are you?âÂ
Your bubbling amusement was starting to rush to the surface, unable to keep yourself from smiling. And, just like that, you reunited with your dear mentor, except on opposite sides of the chess board. You were delighted everyone was there to witness the beginnings of your awaited rematch. âWhy donât you ask him? I think heâll have an idea of who I am,â you replied giddily, prompting you to motion your head to the man that stood above the rest of you.Â
You felt something stir within the men that looked at you, as though what had been hidden for so long had finally come to light. You werenât a ghost, much to their surprise â well, at least, not yet. You were, of course, taking a gamble with your life, and your partnerâs as well, but risks were meant to be taken, rules were meant to be broken, and strings were meant to be cut.
As though right on time, Hongjoong dug his nails into the mahogany railing of the expansive landing, his free hand unconsciously adjusting the bow that was wrapped securely around his neck. He understood the most out of all them. Value. You looked up to him, moving your fingers as though you were using a pair of scissors.Â
âRemember now?âÂ
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Hold You Tight: Part 14
Pairing: Club Owner!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader
Fic Summary: The owner of The 107th wants you to be his girl whether you like it or not.
Part 13 | Series Masterlist | Part 15
Chapter Word Count: Over 5k
Chapter Summary: The manager of The Red Room gives you a little advice regarding your situation with Bucky.
Chapter Warnings: DARK AU, backstory, reference to stalking, hopelessness. inner turmoil, slight feels, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?), more warnings to come.
A/N: More Hold You Tight! I realize some of this may feel like filler, but it's happening for a reason. Thank you for sticking with me! Bucky edit by the beautiful @nixakimbo . â€ïž Beta read by the lovely @whisperlullaby , but any and all mistakes are my own. Divider by the talented @firefly-graphics . Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!
Ray kept a close but respectable distance as he took you to his car. It was similar to the vehicle he drove Bucky around in, but a slightly different shade of black that wasnât as flashy. You should've spotted it sooner, but you werenât exactly looking for it, were you?
âHave you just been driving around following me all day?â you asked once you were in the car.
âI followed you on foot, too. Iâm good at blending in,â he said, giving you a sideways glance as he buckled up and made sure you were buckled up, too. There was no boasting in his statement, just truth. âIt wouldn't surprise me if Iâm the one asked to stay nearby when you join your friends on Saturday.â
âBut perhaps if she really does want to go and youâre unable to accompany her, boss, someone could discreetly keep an eye on her.â
With his looks and massive build, he shouldnât be able to blend in so easily. How many people paid that close attention to their surroundings though? You hadnât before. You needed to be on guard more. And what was that going to do to your stress levels?
At least it would be Ray watching if he was asked and not one of Buckyâs other friends.
âWell, I hope watching me drink wine doesn't bore you,â you said, glancing out the window as he drove off, watching the cars and people go by. âHow did you get so good at what you do?â
âMaking sure you're safe doesn't bore me,â he said. Ironic considering his boss put you in danger. âAnd I think thatâs a story for another time.â
Ray said he had been working for Bucky for a few years. You wondered just how they met. There had to be a story there. âDo you ever think about walking away from it?â you asked curiously, bringing your gaze back to him while he kept his eyes on the road. âI mean, you have a life outside of this, right?â
Did he have family? Friends? A loved one? He had to have a hobby at least. Something.
He tapped a finger on the steering wheel. âDo you think one simply walks away?â
âNo, I guess not,â you replied. It was unlikely that you would ever escape, but you didnât know how it was for people who willingly ran in circles with men like Bucky. You still had a lot to learn. âBut Iâd like to think thereâs hope for you if thatâs what you want.â
âI appreciate the hope and I donât want you to lose that,â he said, sparing you a sad glance. âBut you should place it elsewhere.â
Where exactly would you place that hope when Bucky continued to infect everything in your life?
You nodded once, feeling a bit sad for him, too. He just seemed different from the others Bucky surrounded himself with. âSorry for the questions.â
âDon't apologize,â he said, tapping the steering wheel again. âItâs nice that you care enough to ask.â
You smiled to yourself, content to sit in silence after that. Grabbing your phone from your bag, you aimlessly scrolled through your messages and stopped at Buckyâs name. There were no new messages, but would he send something at the stroke of midnight? And if he was in a mood without you around and Ray eventually told him that Zemo introduced himself to you, what would he do?
âWeâre here,â Ray said after a minute, parking his car in front of a tall, sleek building and getting out. He held up a hand to stop the valet from opening the door for you, opting to help you out himself. âThis way.â
The sleek theme continued as you went into the lobby and you understood why it was called The Red Room. The color was everywhere, balanced out by a mix of black and gray and soft lighting. The nearby sofa and chairs looked high-quality, as did the art. It appeared to be an oasis of luxury and a place for a well deserved break.
You stopped Ray before you got to the desk. âHow much is a room? I get paid tomorrow, butâŠâ You had some money in savings you could transfer over to cover what was surely an expensive cost.
âYou haven't checked your account today, have you?â
Taking out your phone with a furrowed brow, you quickly logged into your bank account. An embarrassing squeak came out when you saw the amount, your eyes wide as you looked between your phone and Ray. That had to be some sort of mistake. There was no wayâŠ
Bucky.
âHe put money in my account?â you whispered, double checking the amount to make sure your eyes weren't deceiving you. Why did he do that? âI can'tâŠâ
âHe did and he won't take it back if you try,â Ray confirmed. âRegardless of how much you now have, if my boss found out that I suggested you stay here and made you pay heâd have my head.â
âWell, whatâs the point of having this money then?â you pressed.
Not that you intended to use it. Spending even a dime of it would likely encourage Bucky to give you more. Or was it a test to see if you would spend it? Would he know if you did?
Maybe, just maybe, you could get Addison and Brady a nice wedding gift.
âTo make sure you're taken care of in every possible way,â he said, gesturing to you to move forward.
âWelcome to The Red Room,â a woman in a black dress smiled, Ingrid from the name on her tag. âDo you have a reservation?â
âWe do not,â Ray said, sliding a card over. âAnd Iâll need to speak with Natalia regarding a room, please.â
âNatalia?â Ingridâs smile didnât slip, but a hardened look took over her eyes and you suddenly felt uncomfortable. âIâm afraid thatâs-â
âItâs fine, Ingrid. Iâll be happy to take care of them.â A redhead in a similar black dress walked over, her heels echoing on the marble floor. She carried herself with grace and power and looked like she could snap your neck without breaking a sweat. So did Ingrid for that matter. âWhy donât you go on break?â
âOf course.â Ingridâs smile was back on her face. âEnjoy your stay,â she added, gliding away.
âRaymond. Good to see you,â Natalia said, her voice warm as he gave her a nod. âYouâll have to excuse Ingrid. She gets a little protective when anyone asks for Natalia. You know you're one of the only men around who still calls me that.â
âItâs your name, is it not?â he asked, though her tag read Natasha.
âIndeed it is. Maybe one day youâll call me Natasha,â she said, cocking an eyebrow at you. You didnât think she was judging you, but you still felt a little self conscious under her gaze. âI wasn't supposed to meet you until later. I also expected Bucky to be with you when that happened.â
You held your breath before you remembered that Ray said the manager had worked with Bucky before. âSo you know who I am,â you said. For Bucky to preach about your safety, a lot of people were aware of who you were. âDoes everyone know who I am?â
The corner of her lip quirked up. âNot everyone,â she said, turning her attention to Ray. âWhy is she here early? Did something happen?â
âShe needs a place to stay for the night and sheâs not to be disturbed. That includes my boss.â
She raised an eyebrow again. âUnderstood. Iâll give her suite 213 and put you just across the hall.â Her fingers flew across the keyboard before she slid the card back to Ray. âFollow me.â
âIsnât a suite a bit much?â you asked. And for Ray to pay for that, you had to pay him back somehow.
She paused to stare at you. âAll of the rooms here are nice, but the suites are a bit more spacious. Itâll give you room to breathe while you relax,â she gently spoke. âYou look like you could use some rest.â
Did she know the extent of what you had gone through? You werenât claustrophobic but with Bucky smothering you, breathing and rest didnât come to you as easily. âI appreciate that,â you said. A spacious area would feel nice.
She nodded, pressing the elevator button. âYouâre also welcome to book anything in the spa at no charge and whatever youâd like from the restaurant or room service menu is on the house.â
You gaped at her. âSo because Iâm Buckyâs girl, youâll just give me these things for free?â you asked, noticing that she stood on one side of you and Ray on the other. âI mean, Iâm not trying to sound ungrateful, but thereâs no need for the special treatment.â
Everyone so far in Buckyâs circle fawned over you. But what had you done to earn anything? Nothing. All you did was catch the eye of a powerful man.
âNothing in life is free. Thereâs a price for everything,â she said above a whisper. âAnd I know youâre not ungrateful. Youâre just not used to it.â
You werenât sure if youâd ever get used to it since you grew up with the belief that you had to work for what you were given. âYou asked why I was here early. When exactly was I supposed to meet you?â
âNot to spoil the surprise, but Bucky booked a dinner reservation and our best suite for a romantic evening.â She gave Ray a glance, who didnât look too pleased. âI think he plans to tell you the day of, if I had to guess.â
âWonderful,â you muttered, a shiver running through your body. You weren't an idiot. If Bucky booked a suite for the two of you, heâd expect you to sleep with him.
âI thought you were good at keeping secrets, Natalia,â Ray uttered.
âIâm very good at keeping secrets that are actually worth keeping, Raymond,â she retorted.
âIâm glad you told me,â you said. In her defense, you asked a question and she gave you an almost direct answer. âBesides, itâs just another thing to add to the list of âsurprisesâ for today. Bucky having Ray follow me. Meeting Zemo.â
âZemo?â She didnât give anything away, but she gave Ray another look. This guy didnât seem to have a lot of fans. âYou met Zemo? When?â
âHe introduced himself to me at the park just before we came here,â you replied.
She pursed her lips when the elevator door opened. âI canât wait to hear how Bucky responds to that.â
Your stomach sank. You saw what he did to John after he insulted you. Zemo likely wouldnât fare much better, but he also seemed to be a bigger player in whatever went on in the city.
âWill you let me do a sweep before she goes in?â Ray asked before Natasha could open the door.
âNo one has been in this room and no one knew you were coming here, but I know you'll be chewed out if you donât,â she said, stepping aside for him.
âYouâre not planning to bug the place, are you, Ray?â You didnât want to think he would, but you had to ask.
He didnât look offended by the question. If anything, he seemed to understand your concern. âThis is meant to be a safe haven for the rest of the day. I wonât take that from you,â he promised, shutting the door behind him. It was nice to have him somewhat on your side, even in the smallest capacity.
The hall was eerily quiet as you stood alone with the redhead. Your gaze darted back and forth, expecting Bucky to waltz in and tell you that this wasnât a haven at all. That heâd drag you to the suite bed and do whatever he pleased.
âIâve been told you have a kind heart,â Natasha said, bringing your attention back to her. âThatâs good for Bucky.â
âIs it?â you asked, looking down the hall again.
âRelax,â she urged. âYou donât have to feel nervous here. Youâre safe.â
âYou work with Bucky, so Iâm naturally going to feel nervous and suspicious,â you said. You wouldnât apologize for that. âHow much do you know about me?â
âA man named Jake who does security and surveillance works for both Bucky and I. When Bucky needed him for an extended period of time, I was naturally curious as to why. He gave me just enough pieces to put the puzzle together.â
âSo you know Iâm trapped,â you said. She had to know it wasnât a consensual relationship.
âMore or less,â she said.
âAnd let me guess. This Jake guy specializes in bugs and listening devices?â
âHmm. So you know about the bugs,â she said. Bucky was all too proud to share that when you asked. âJake does specialize in those and you might meet him at some point. If and when you do, don't blame him for doing his job, please. Not everyone gets to choose their line of work.â
âWell, I wish he wouldâve stopped him,â you said. You could blame this guy, but it wouldn't do you any good. Like Natasha said, he may not have had a choice.
âIf itâs any consolation, he wasnât pleased when he realized he was helping bug an innocent person's place, but he has a sister and niece to consider,â she said, giving you a hard stare when you opened your mouth. âAnd before you ask because I know youâll ask, I canât help you.â
You tried not to get upset at her immediate denial to help. âMay I ask why not?â
She sighed, toying with the delicate gold necklace around her neck. You wondered if the arrow charm was symbolic. âThe women who work here⊠We didnât exactly have the best upbringing and we didnât have much freedom, even as adults. Including my sister,â she explained, a haunted look taking over her eyes momentarily. âBut Bucky stepped in some time ago and helped us. Without him, I wouldnât have been able to open this place or give us normal life. Iâll be forever in his debt for that.â
âHe helped you?â you asked. Marc mentioned that he donated to the local hospital and charities, but this was something else. Was this a normal hotel or some kind of refuge?
âHe did. When he isn't doing bad things, he actually does some good,â she answered, still toying with her necklace. âIn all the time Iâve known him, there have only been two things Iâve ever heard him say he wants and youâre one of them. If I help take you away from him, I donât know what heâll do.â
âSo you wonât help me, but itâs really more like you canât,â you guessed. She was essentially in Buckyâs pocket and had to think of the women under her employment and her sister. She couldnât put them in danger. âNo one will help me.â
âBarnes isnât the kind of man you win a fight against. Itâs better for most to stay on his good side than to be his enemy,â she said, putting a hand on your shoulder when you hung your head. âHey. Iâm not telling you to just lay over and accept your new relationship for what it is, but I donât want you to be surprised when people keep telling you ânoâ when you ask for help.â
âEveryone just looks the other way and that isnâtâŠâ You bit your lip to keep from screaming.
âIt isnât fair. I know,â she whispered. Her sympathy didn't make you feel better. âI wonât make excuses for him because what he has done is awful, but he isnât entirely evil. Heâs⊠flawed. We all are.â
Would Bucky be so flawed if people didnât enable him or look the other way? âDo you think Iâll get used to belonging to him? I keep fighting it, butâŠâ Doors kept getting slammed in your face in terms of help and that hope continued to fade. Was it time to accept the inevitable?
She considered your question. âI canât say if youâll get used to it, but thereâs a careful balance between embracing a circumstance while maintaining your own boundaries. You need to find that.â
âBut I have no boundaries thanks to Bucky,â you argued. He took them away.
âMaybe not now, but you could get some back down the line. He isnât a man most people win fights against, but heâs still just a man. Use what you know about him and sway him. You have a little more power than you think.â
You thought back to the club when Jax flirted with you. Bucky worked himself up, but your touch and soft demeanor helped calm him down. âI guess I could try,â you said. It seemed easy enough, but he was so good at swinging things in his favor that you had a hard time believing you had a chance.
âAnd it isnât much, but I can offer you a space here to use on occasion if you need time away from him. I know you donât believe heâll let you use it, but I think you can convince him and you deserve a safe haven,â she said, smiling a little when she handed you a card. âI could even have one of the girls teach you some self defense if youâre interested in any lessons.â
You turned the card over. There was only a phone number listed and a black widow spider. âI appreciate the offer, Natasha,â you said, tucking it in your bag. It wasnât freedom, but it was something. And whatever Natashaâs full story was, your heart went out to her. âCan I ask what the second thing is?â
âExcuse me?â
âYou said Bucky has only wanted two things in the time youâve known him and Iâm one of them. Whatâs the other thing?â
She shook her head. âThatâs for him to tell you.â
Ray came out of the room a moment later. âAll clear. Not that I expected anything less from you and your staff, Natalia,â he said. It earned him a small smile as she passed his room card over. âIâll be just across the hall if you need me.â
âAnd you can ask for me personally if you call the desk,â Natasha added.
âI appreciate it, but Iâll be fine,â you said honestly. As long as Bucky didn't show up. âIâll just order some wine and food, curl up in bed, and finish reading my book.â You didnât need much else.
âAre you sure?â Ray asked.
âIâm sure,â you smiled softly. He had done enough by bringing you there. âThank you both.â
They each gave you a sympathetic gaze as you stepped inside and shut the door behind you. The red, black, and gray theme continued in the tastefully designed suite. It was the nicest hotel room you had ever been in. Too nice for someone like you.
Setting your bag down and removing your shoes, you went right to the bedroom with your phone and book. The large bed looked comfortable and inviting. Sighing as you stretched out, you stared at the ceiling and tried to reflect on what had recently transpired.
Natasha. She couldn't directly help you and she had her reasons, but she might be a good ally. She was at least in the camp that you deserved some sense of freedom and offered you a small form of sanctuary. It was better than nothing.
Ray, you still couldn't figure him out. Like Natasha, he wouldn't directly help you. Bucky said he was loyal and didn't let emotions cloud him. He seemed to care to an extent though.
You froze when a message popped up on your phone. It wasn't from Bucky though. It was from your coworker, Kate.
âHey, girl! You know Clark? Pretty blue eyes. Super hot. He stopped in and asked when your next shift was.â
Your stomach twisted in knots. Why was he asking? âHey. What did you tell him?â
Kate messaged back quickly and your stomach twisted up more. âTold him youâd be in tomorrow and he looked happy until Mrs. Crandle announced that you have a boyfriend?! Girl, WHAT?! I need all the details!â
You groaned and hid your face in the pillow. Mrs. Crandle meant no harm, but this was the last thing you needed. Maybe Clark wouldn't come around after hearing that. âIâll tell you about it during our next shift together.â
You didn't look at your phone for the rest of the afternoon. Instead, you lost yourself in the pages of the book and only took a break to order a drink and meal from the room service menu. And true to Natashaâs word, no one disturbed you. The food was left outside of the door once ready. Natasha even had a nice pair of pajamas sent up for you.
It was a quiet and relaxing rest of the day.
But as the sun went down and you got ready for bed, you held up your left hand and looked at your bare ring finger. A shuddering breath left your lungs as you imagined a ring around your finger. How happy your friends would be that you found love. How happy Bucky would be to have you tied to him forever.
Glancing at the empty side of the bed after your delicious meal, you wondered how it was going to be sleeping next to Bucky. Was he a cuddler or would he want his own space? Would he hog the covers? You would find out soon enough, wouldn't you?
But for today, he left you alone. He kept his promise. Yes, he sent Ray to watch you, but he hadn't shown up or reached out. He actually gave you some space instead of smothering you. And with you in the suite, he didn't have eyes on you.
Who knows? Maybe his mood improved and he had a good day without you. One could only hope.
âGood night, Bucky,â you whispered, closing your eyes and getting the sleep you craved.
A loud knock on the door woke you. Slowly opening your eyes with a groan, you wondered what time it was. Your body alarm clock said it was too early. Stretching, you made your way to the door and stopped when you heard raised voices outside.
âGet the hell out of my way, Natasha.â
You gasped when you heard Buckyâs voice, the quick anger rushing through you making you clench your fists. God, you knew it. You knew heâd show up.
âDon't make me put you on your ass, Barnes.â Natasha didn't sound afraid at all. What was it like to not have fear? âIâll repeat myself in case you didn't hear me the first time: My instructions were that she wasn't to be disturbed and that includes you. So unless you're checking in, I suggest you leave. The fact that youâre even on this floor after I promised no one would bother her-â
âHe was up here to speak with me,â Ray cut in.
âAnd I did. Now I need to see her,â Bucky said, the desperation in his voice making your heart ache.
âBoss, itâs two in the morning.â
âExactly. You need to let her sleep. Itâs the least you could do,â Natasha urged.
âI promised her the day to herself, but that day is up and I have to see that sheâs okay,â Bucky argued. You were lucky he didn't knock on your door at 12:01. âI just need to see her with my own eyes.â
The bugs at your place would've given him access to whatever he wanted, but he didn't have that in the suite. It was probably driving him crazy. He sure as hell sounded out of sorts.
âWow, an entire day. How generous.â You almost laughed at Natashaâs snark. It was appreciated. âIs this about Zemo? I know he saw her at the park, but he hasnât been around here. We both know Iâd never allow him to set foot in the door without a very good reason.â
âI still need to deal with him and heâll be lucky if I donât kill him with my bare hands,â Bucky growled, making you tense up.
âYou have enough blood on your hands, but whatâs one more body?â Natasha asked, the conversation reminding you once again that Bucky was a killer. âLook, Iâm not going to disturb her and neither should you.â
âNatasha-â
âNo. You played this wrong, Barnes. You could've chosen a compassionate route of courting her and eased her into this, but you intimidated her from the start and made it so she wonât ever be free of you. Maybe you're more like your father than-â
The sound of something colliding with the nearby wall made you jump back from the door, your heart thudding. It took a moment to get your bearings before you threw the door open to make sure Natasha was okay. The redhead, Ray, and Bucky all looked toward you and no one had a single mark on them. The wall beside the door, however, had a fist sized hole.
âKotyonok,â Bucky smiled the second he saw you. He looked like he hadn't slept much. Good. Now he knew how it felt.
âWhat are you doing here?â you asked, not having it in you to scream, cry, or anything else. âAnd did you just punch a hole in the wall?â
He chuckled sheepishly, brushing off his gloved hand. âYeah, I did that.â
He was unbelievable.
âIâm so sorry he woke you,â Natasha said, putting out an arm to stop Bucky when he stepped forward. âBack up, Barnes. Youâve seen for yourself that sheâs fine.â
âYep. Iâm fine.â You gestured to yourself and yawned. âCan I please go back to sleep?â
âCan I come in for just a minute?â Bucky asked, a touch of guilt in his eyes when you narrowed yours. He was pushing his luck when all you wanted to do was go back to bed. âPlease?â
âApologize to Natasha for damaging her property,â you demanded. He had no right to do that.
âIâm sorry, Natasha,â he sincerely stated.
Natashaâs mouth parted before her cool expression took over again. âThankfully no one else was on this floor, so you hopefully didn't disturb anyone else.â
Bucky's eyes were still on you, full of longing. âMay I please come in?â
You mulled over it. Technically he still kept his promise and let you be for a day. You could be angry later that he showed up so early. For now, you needed sleep.
âCome in,â you said, surprising everyone, yourself included. âItâs fine,â you assured Natasha and Ray.
The redhead nodded after a moment and lowered her arm, but the bodyguard shot his boss a subtle glare. âYou know I'll have to bill you for the damage,â Natasha told Bucky.
âI know,â he said. He could afford it.
âThank you, Ray. Natasha. I hope you both get some rest, too,â you said, letting Bucky into the suite and shutting the door.
Bucky let out a breath as he looked you over, but didn't move any closer when you backed up. Of course he had to invade what was meant to be your haven for the night. Strangely, you weren't as nervous as usual to have him so close. âHi.â
âHi,â you mumbled, crossing your arms when he slipped his jacket off. âYou really couldn't wait until after sunrise to see me?â
âIâm sorry. I was up late at the club and Ray said you were here and⊠I missed you,â he explained, his expression soft.
It was kind of nice to be missed. âIâm sure you did,â you yawned again. âKing of the loopholes,â you added under your breath.
He ran a gloved hand through his hair. âAnd Iâm sorry about Zemo. I should've known he would-â
You shook your head quickly. âNope. Not having this talk when I'm still sleepy,â you said, heading toward the bedroom. It was too heavy of a discussion to have in the middle of the night. âTake your shoes off. We both know you aren't leaving.â
He looked surprised all over again when you looked back at him. âYouâre letting me stay?â he asked, a smile on his face like you handed him a gift. âYou aren't telling me to leave?â
âStay or go, up to you, but I'm going back to sleep,â you said, curling up on the bed. âAnd if you sleep next to me, don't you dare let your hands wander.â
âAnd youâre letting me lay with you,â he said, the mattress dipping beside you. âYouâre being very agreeable.â
âYouâre lucky Iâm choosing to be nice instead of kicking your ass or letting Natasha kick your ass for disturbing me and my sleep,â you said, tensing up when he spooned you, his arm wrapped tight around you and his breath warm against your neck. âWe have some things to talk about when I wake up.â
Ray following you. Zemo. Natashaâs offer. Buckyâs mom. Your relationship.
âWe can talk about whatever you want,â he whispered, nuzzling you gently as your eyes shut. âDid you miss me yesterday?â
âNo,â you mumbled.
Your reply didn't stop him from chuckling. âNot even a little bit?â
You sighed. âIf I say âyesâ, will you let me sleep?â
âI will,â he answered.
âI missed you a little,â you said, snuggling further into the pillow. He placed his hand over yours and you blamed your tiredness for why you didn't tense up again. âNow sleep.â
He pressed a gentle kiss to your neck, but didn't push any further, thankfully. âThank you for letting me hold you.â
Your heart clenched. He sounded so happy just to be around you, just to be in your space. You were his everything.
âYouâre welcome,â you mumbled, drifting off not long after.
Your last thought before you fell asleep was that you hoped Bucky would behave himself.
Lovelies, I think we all knew Bucky would show up the first chance he had. What do we think of Natasha? Is she being truthful that she can't help or is she biding her time? Will Bucky behave? Love and thanks for reading! â€ïž
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Sukuna
[Chapter 1] Offerings
Story Masterlist - Next Chapter â
Pairing: Trueform!Sukuna x f!Reader
*Just want to preface that this is a historical AU but there will be some historical inaccuracies so if you see something odd, don't point it out. Also this is still a curse AU! if that isn't clear with four-armed Sukuna. Anyway I hope you enjoy!! Any general story warnings can be found in the masterlist!
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Sukuna is missing something, heâs not sure what it is but he knows that heâs bored. Heâs bored of everything that once thrilled him, tired of the same routine. But no matter what he does, he feels empty.Â
Heâs done everything possible to soothe that boredom, which has come to the expense of many lives. It entertained him until it didnât. Occasionally he does find joy in the horrors that he causes but it doesnât feel like thatâs enough anymore. Thereâs something that heâs missing, but heâs not quite sure what it is.Â
He has everything a man could possibly wantâ Although he isnât exactly a man so his wants and needs are obviously different. He isnât going to be fulfilled by the foolish ideals of happiness that men have. He doesnât have much of a guide though, therefore heâs lost in how to fix his problem.Â
âUraume.â Sukunaâs voice isnât all that loud, yet Uraume nearly comes running to fulfill his request. The temple is uncomfortably quiet; everyone is ready to fulfill Sukunaâs every request, and their king does not raise his voice unless adrenaline rushes through him, or heâs upset. No one knows which is the worst of the two.Â
âMy king.â Uraume kneels down before him. Heâs quiet, too embarrassed to even bring up this question. Itâs unlike him. Uraume is truly the only person that he respects which is why asking the question is hard for him to actually say. He wouldnât trust anyone else with it though.
âWhat do men usually do?â He asks, which is odd for Uraume to hear. Sukuna was a man too, once upon a time. But he doesnât remember that stage of his life, and heâs sure he wasnât happy either which is the reason why heâs the monster he is now.
âIâm not sure.â They sound reluctant. âIf you could be more clear, I can search for an answer.â
âGet out.â He orders, and they bow again before exiting the room. He wants to be left alone to gather his thoughts. He has all the time in the world to figure himself out, but he wants even more time. He doesnât want to be bothered now of all times at the very least.
âThereâs a woman with an offering.â A servant tells him from the other side of the tatami doors, followed by a shrill cry that makes a smirk come to his lips. Thatâs his answer.
Sukuna wants a successor.Â
âTake it to the servants, answer to her needs.â Sukuna answers, not really caring to listen to any requests. His mind is now preoccupied, detailing his next course of action. He needs to find the perfect woman to carry his heir, which he knows will be a hard taskâ Perhaps the hardest challenge that Sukuna has come by in all of his years of living.
âPlease eat, Haru.â You put the bowl beside the young boyâs mat. Youâve been slowly watching your brotherâs health deteriorate, slowly watching his death near. Worst of all, you have been looking for a cure that seems impossible to find because itâs not something thatâs affecting anyone important.Â
Itâs not a disease thatâs affecting anybody else, really. Itâs not infectious, you quickly found that out. You were glad about it at first, but then you realized that thereâs no cure yet. Days pass by, and he gets worse. He refuses to eat anything, and when he does, he canât keep it down for more than a few hours. His death is imminent.
âI did everything I could to get the right ingredients for your favorite food. Auntie made it extra special for you.â You make sure to tell him, but he can barely move. You kneel down beside him, grabbing his utensils and preparing a bite. âJust one bite, Haru.â
âIâm sleepy.â Is all he manages to mutter, and you feel a pull on your heartstrings. Your hand caresses his arm.
âJust one bite, okay? Then you can sleep all day.â You try your best to convince him. All he does is sleep, and no matter how many hours he sleeps, he wakes up tired. He prompts himself up, and youâre fighting back a smileâ Itâs barely any progress, if you can even call it that. âOpen up.â
Thereâs a smile on your lips as you bring the food to his mouth, and he begins to chew. He takes the utensils from your hand, grabbing the bowl of food and putting it on his lap. You stand up and tell him, âIâll get you some water.â
âHeâs finally eating something.â You share with your aunt, making sure your voice is low since there isnât all that much space. Her eyes go to him, and she really wants to say that itâs a sign of him getting better but it really doesnât mean anything. Sometimes he eats everything thatâs made for him, but he throws it back up.Â
âI really wish this meant he was getting better⊠But we both know that heâll get worse tomorrow.â She responds, and you want to curse her for even mentioning it but you know sheâs right. You donât like hearing it though, youâre helpless. Thereâs nothing more you can do for Haru, youâre just waiting for the day to come.Â
âI really think he can get better.â Your eyes begin to feel with tears, knowing that you donât even believe yourself. Youâve tried everything you possibly can, but you know that his time nears. You canât just accept that fact though, heâs your baby brother, you canât let him go. âLet me get his water.â
âIâll get it⊠Think about what the medic said.â Your aunt reminds you of the visit from the physician. One that youâve forgotten because you refuse to consider his one and only suggestion a possibility. The words flow back to your head,
âYour best bet is the deity up north. You have to bring him an offering, and if he deems it worthy enough, he will cure him.â âBut if he thinks itâs beneath him, heâll kill you.â
You donât want to risk anything, but lately that seems like your only option. Heâs not getting any better, even though you so badly want to say that he is. Throwing up everything he eats is not much improvement than not eating at all. You just have to figure out what is considered an offering worthy for the deity to save him, and to save yourself.Â
âIâll be back, I have to figure something out.â You say, smiling back at your aunt and your little brother. They barely acknowledge you before you leave the house, which youâre thankful for. You just need a moment to gather your thoughts, decide what youâll do next.Â
You need to sort out your offering for the deity, an offering that will hopefully sort out all of your problems.
âMy king, thereâs a woman with an offering.â It feels like the hundredth time that week in which Sukuna hears that sentence. Humans are greedy beings, and they all fucking need something. Itâs unnecessary, purely materialisticâ Itâs a side of humanity that he appreciates though. How much a human is willing to sacrifice for wealth or the promise of good fortune. Sukuna canât judge, he's the sole winner in the end.
âLet her in.â He says, and the tatami door slides open. A poor maiden with a pale yellow kimono, and a woven basket in hand. You walk in with your head down, following the strict instructions that were given to you.Â
Youâre trembling as you kneel down in front of the deity, bowing down to him. You remain bowing for however long he pleases, keeping your eyes shut because thereâs tears building up. You have never been this terrified. Willingly putting yourself at deathâs door is no easy feat.
âRise.â He orders, and you straighten your upper body, remaining on your knees. You donât dare look anywhere past his feet, keeping your eyes low and steady. You know that heâs staring you down, studying you. A smirk on his lips, thinking about how heâs found her. âWhat do you want?â
âMy brotherâŠâ Your voice is shaky, and you try your best to compose yourself. You canât start crying in the middle of it, youâve gotten this far, heâll surely kill you if you begin to sob at his feet. âHeâs sick. The medic canât cure him, and he told us you were our only choice.â
Heâs not really listening. Something about a brother is all he grasped. Heâs more into the way your lips move, and the tears of pure fear that well up in your eyes. He can tell that you really made an effort into your look today, even though you donât look extravagant. Which for some reason he likes, he doesnât want an arrogant woman in his chambers, he already has enough of them. He especially doesnât want one of them carrying his heir.
What really draws him in is that certain look in your eyes. The clear innocence thatâs written all over your face. Youâre the perfect lily that he canât wait to tear apart, petal by petal. That finalizes his decision.
âWhat do you have for me? Open the basket.â He orders, and you do as he says. Regret washes over you as you open it, immediately knowing that itâs not enough. You donât know what came over you when you had the bright idea of picking it. You unfold the cloth with shaky hands, revealing the gift for him. Heâs usually furious with these types of gifts, since they hold no value to him but he wants to hear your reasoning since he has other plans with you, âWhy do you come to me with this?â
âPomegranates arenât native to the land, and theyâre scarce this time of season. I found some while searching for an offering and thought it was a sign.â You explain, and he scoffs. A stupid reason, one that should get you killed. If he wanted fruit, he would send Uraume to get it for him. He guesses itâs creative though, especially when almost every person that walks through the temple is willing to sacrifice a life. But you donât gain points for creativity, no one ever has.
âPomegranates? What am I supposed to do with that?â Heâs mocking you, and you swallow the lump in your throat. Heâs right, what is he supposed to do with a pomegranate? Heâs not like you, heâs not just going to eat it. Youâre usually smart about this type of thing, but you guess desperation got the best of you this time around, and now you have to pay for the consequences. As to be expected, thereâs no answer from you, and he orders, âLook up at me.â
Your eyes slowly move up his body to his face, and youâre in awe at the sight. A mix of emotions flow through your body. He really isnât a human. You were terrified earlier, but now youâre simply astonished. You never really believed the tales that were told about him since you couldnât wrap your head around the fact that a being like him could exist. But now he stands before you.
âDo you really think Iâll do anything with the fruit?â His voice sounds serious, but thereâs a hint of a smile on his lips. You shake your head which irks him. âYou have a voice donât you? Use it.â
âNo, my king. My apologies.â Itâs strange, but you sound more confident as you look at him compared to before. It brings some sort of satisfaction to Sukuna since usually people that are allowed to look directly at him can barely communicate. Â
âIâll give you a chance to redeem yourself.â Heâs thinking about how merciful he isâ Which isnât entirely a lie since Sukuna never gives a second chance. Except you have no idea how you can redeem yourself unless he dismisses you. Little do you know what heâs thinking for you. âI have a proposal for you.â
âA whatâŠ?â Your eyebrows perk up as curiosity takes over you. A proposal from a deity, itâll surely be something that you have yet to hear.Â
âBear my child, and Iâll forgive you.â He says, and you almost fall back. Your ears must be deceiving you, thereâs no way that the proposal that you just heard is real. Your eyes are wide open, and you hear him laugh. It must be a joke then.Â
âUraume!â Sukuna yells, wanting it to be clear that he doesnât want to waste a single second. Not even a second later, and theyâre in the room, waiting for their kingâs command. âTake the maiden and prepare her for me tonight.â
âWaitâ Youâre serious?â You dare to ask. You havenât even agreed, yet heâs getting you ready for tonight, to have a baby with him of all things. âYou donât even know my name, why would you want me to carry your baby?â
âWhatâs your name then?â He asks, clearly irritated by the question, and you have no choice but to answer. If you donât, youâre screwed. âThere we have it. Take her, Uraume.â
âWait!â You shout, but Sukuna isnât going to listen to more of it. Uraume guides you outside, a task that they usually do harsher. At any other time, theyâd be dragging you outside but youâre not just anybody.Â
Youâre the woman that will carry King Sukunaâs heir.
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pt 1 | Not Even at All
jinx/powder x female reader â đŠđđŹđđđ«đ„đąđŹđ
summary: vi is off limits until her sister gets a date that doesn't end within the first ten minutes. eager to date vi, a certain girl approaches you with a proposal. date jinx. win her over. and for your efforts, she's willing to be generous. (10 Things I Hate About You AU) warnings/themes: fluff, kinda enemies to what, one sided fake dating, highschool, modern au, smoking (reader), kat!jinx, patrick!reader words: 5.8k notes: because of the age difference, caitlyn is in college that's why she's always on calls.. â â© part one, part two, part three, part four, part five
You pick up at the third ring, hearing a deep sigh of relief. âOh, good, you picked up.â
It's Caitlyn.
You put the phone down for a few seconds to eat your sandwich, before picking the phone back up. âWhat now?â you ask through a mouthful of sandwich. âI just woke up, y'know.â
The line is silent for a minute.
Then, you hear Caitlyn clear her throat. âAre you busy right now?â
It's 9am on Sunday, of course you're not busy. âKinda busy eating my breakfast,â you reply, taking another bite. âWhy?â
You hear some shuffling on the other end, some muttering, and another pause before Caitlyn speaks again. âI have⊠a proposition.â
A proposition already, and so early in the morning? you put your sandwich down, sitting up and making sure you heard that right. âI'm listening.â
Caitlyn clears her throat again, and there's sounds of footsteps and whispers in the background, as if she's moving somewhere more secluded. ââŠDo you know Jinx?â
It's a strange question. Pretty much everyone knows Jinx. âYeah,â you reply. âWhy?â
The shuffling resumes, a few footsteps, and the murmur of voices. âI'll cut to the chase. I'm asking for your help. I need you to do me a favor.â
You pause, raising an eyebrow. What does she want? âDepends on what it is.â You shrug. âAnd what I'd get in return.â You take a sip from your glass.
The murmuring on Caitlyn's end of the line stops, and you hear the sound of a door clicking shut. âI want you to take Jinx on a date.â
You nearly choke on your drink. âYou want me to what?â you manage to ask between coughs.
âIt'll be a fake date!â she says quickly. âIf you can make this date go smoothly and⊠make her like you, even a little bit, I'll pay you a hundred dollars.â
Your eyes nearly pop out of your head. â100 dollars?!â You cough again. âYou can't just throw me under the bus like that. You've lost your damn mind.â
âPlease just hear me out,â Caitlyn pleads. âIt's not like you have to ask her to marry you. Just think of it as a challenge. You get 100 dollars if you can get her to enjoy a date with you. Come on, you're good with girls, aren't you?â
What does she think you are, some suave James Bond-esque ladykilling playgirl? while you've kissed a couple girls, you can't call yourself super suave.Â
âCaitlyn, Jinx hates me.â It's common knowledge. Jinx hates nearly everyone, especially people she was in class with. âShe's gonna kill me if I ask her out on a date.â You shudder.
âThat's why I chose you for this,â she says. âI figured you were the type to face any challenge head-on.â
âThis isn't just a 'challenge', it's a mission for the suicidal,â you retort. âYou're setting me up to embarrass myself and get ridiculed in the process.â
You hear her scoff. âSo you can flirt and tease the whole damn school, but a date with Jinx is the line you draw, is that it?â
You scowl at her comment. You've been known to flirt and joke around with a few people at school, but thatâs all it isâmeaningless flirting with no strings attached. This is completely differentâthis is Jinx we're talking about. âYou're comparing apples and oranges here,â you protest. âThey're not the same, Cait.â
âMaybe,â she replies. âBut I've seen how you've charmed your way out of trouble. You're good at talking your way out of things. And that's exactly what I need right now.â
That's true, but that's with a teacher, or a TA, or a store manager who's trying to bust you for shoplifting. Not with Jinx, of all people.
âCaitlyn, c'mon. She's either gonna punch me in the face, or call me a dumbass, or both.â
âJust listen,â she cuts in. âAll you have to do is go on a fake date with her. You don't have to actually like her.â
âNo, no, no.â You shake your head, gripping the phone in your hand. âNo way, no how.â
â150 dollars.â
âYou really, really want me to go on a fake date with Jinx?â you murmur. âAre you that desperate?â
âI'm very desperate.â
You groan, rubbing your temples. âWhy are you so fixated on me doing this?â
You hear movement on the other line, like Caitlyn's pacing back and forth. âOkay, look,â she begins. âI⊠really like her sister. Like really like her. LikeâŠâ
This wasn't just a fake date. It was a way to get closer to who she liked. âOh. Ohh.â
âYeah...â
Wow. This was a lot more desperate than you initially thought.
âBut why don't you just ask her sister out?â you ask.
âI did.â She sighs again. âI asked Vi out last week, and she said she can't go on a date with me until her sister finds someone. Jinx has to be happy before Vi can go on dates, according to her.â
What the hell kind of ridiculous rule is that? âSo let me get this straight,â you start. âYou want me to go on a fake date with Jinx.â
âYes.â
âUntil she becomes my... girlfriend?â
âYes.â
âAnd then you can date Vi.â
âYes.â
It sounds crazy, ridiculous, batshit insane. âHoly shit, Caitlyn.â You run your fingers over your eyes, shaking your head to yourself. âAll of this just so you can get laid?â
A huff comes from the other end of the line. âAre we making a deal or not?â
âHey, wait a minuteâI'm gonna need the money first,â you say, drumming your fingers against the table.
âExcuse me?â
âYeah,â you explain. âYou know, the whole dating thing. Dates, food, gas, that kinda stuff. You can't expect me to pay for all of that with my own money.â
Caitlyn doesn't respond immediately. You can hear some shuffling, and you can imagine her biting her lower lip anxiously, maybe staring out the wall.
âThere's a high probability I won't even get a Harley after all this,â you add.Â
Silence.
âSo I'm gonna need the money...â
There's a pause, then an annoyed hiss. âDon't you trust me?â
âOh hell no. Give me the money first and then I'll consider the deal.â
She sighs. âFine. Whatever, I'll give you the money.â
âAll of it?â
ââŠYes. All of it. All 150. For your shitty, awful fake date.â She huffs. âDeal?â
âDeal.â
â
You step into the office, finding Caitlyn's mother already hunched over her laptop, staring over the rim of her glasses. You hated coming into this office. It always felt like you were in the principal's office.
âI see we're making our visits a weekly ritual,â Mrs. Kiramman says, staring at you over her laptop.Â
âOnly so we can have these moments together,â you reply, your mouth already curving into a grin. âShould I, uh, get the lights?â
Mrs. Kiramman sighs, her eyes scanning over the paper in front of her. âExposed yourself... in the cafeteria,â she mutters. âI seriously don't understand why my daughter associates herself with you.â
âIt was for a good reason, I swear.â
âOh, really?â She raises her eyebrow. âAnd what reason is that?â
âI was joking with the lunch lady,â you explain, spreading your hands out. âShe was being snippy with me, so I started unbuttoning my shirt, it's not like I was actually going to flash anyone.â
Mrs. Kiramman takes off her glasses and pinches the bridge of her nose, her other hand coming to rest on her forehead.
âBut I suppose if we've already looked through all my wrongdoings, you can release me back into the wild, eh?â you continue.
âJust... make it more than a week before coming back here, alright? I don't want to see you in my office every weekâyou're a walking headache.â
âSure thing, Mrs. K.â
âAnd stop calling me Mrs. K.â
â
Jinx kicks the ball here and there, back and forth, side to side. She's taking all of her frustrations out on this ball, dribbling it down the field, passing it to her teammates, dodging opponents.
Her moment of peace is interrupted when a player tries to intercept her pass. She grins, dribbling out of the way and kicking the ball hard into the player's face.Â
The coach blows the whistle. âGreat practice, everybody!â
Practice over. Jinx tosses the ball aside. She rubs her eyes with the heel of her hands, a headache thudding against her skull. She bends forward to grab her water bottle from the edge of the field, taking generous swigs from the bottle.
Jinx is the captain of her high school's soccer team. She's goodâreally good. She has quick feet and a mean kick, and she's scored a lot of points for the team. In games, however⊠Jinx is aggressive. She kicks hard. She kicks fast. She kicks a lot. She does not pull her punches when it comes to her opponents.
She's halfway done guzzling water when a voice interrupts her.
âHey there, girlie.â
Jinx pauses, swallowing the last of the water in her bottle. She glances up at you, watching you approach her as you shove your hands into your pockets.
âHow ya doin'?âÂ
âSweating like a pig actually,â she replies, pulling out a small towel and wiping her face. âAnd yourself?â
You hum, rocking back and forth on your feet. âI'm good. Just thought I'd come and chat with our wonderful captain.â
Jinx grumbles as she slings the towel over her shoulder.
âThat was quite a performance out there,â you continue, raising a hand to give her a slow clap. âYou were brutal today. Worse than usual, not-gonna-lie.â
Gathering her stuff, Jinx zips up her bag, slings it across one shoulder, then strides past you.
âHey,â you say, quickly catching up to her. âWhere are you going?â
âWhere do you think, genius? I'm leaving.â
You huff, following her as she marches out of the soccer field. âPick you up on Friday, then.â
Jinx makes a face at that. âOh, right, Friday,â she mimics. âUh-huh.â
You cock a smirk. âWell, the night I take you places you've never been before.â
âLike where? The 7-Eleven on Broadway?â
âHa, very funny.â You shake your head. âAnd actually, no, smartass.â
âDo you even know me?â she asks, not slowing her pace.
You hurry to keep up and shrug. âYeah, we have the same class on science and english.â
She stops in her tracks and turns to look at you, eyes flitting up and down, up and down. Once, twice, three times. âYou're the one that never shows up in Mr. Viktor's class?â
âHey, to be fair,â you say, putting your hands up. âThat's an 8 a.m. class. No one shows up for an 8 a.m. class at ass o'clock in the morning.â
Her expression remains unamused as she shifts her bag's backpack strap further off her shoulder. âExcept you're the only one who never shows up. You have the same attendance rate as Mr. Blitzcrank,â she tells you, turning back around to start walking. âWhich is absolutely none.â
âWhat can I say?â You chuckle, jogging to catch up to her again. âI'm very talented. Gifted, even.â
She mutters something under her breath that sounds suspiciously like âTalented at being an idiot, more like.â
âHey, I heard that.â
âGood,â she says over her shoulder. âMaybe don't try to impress me with your shitty grades and your non-existent attendance record next time, then.â Without a second glance, she continues walking, leaving you behind.
âOuch!â you exclaim. âRude, by the way!â you shout at her, and you see a flash of a smile over her features.
â
Jinx stands at her locker, gathering her booksâa variety of books with names like Introduction to Rocketry, Engineering and Architecture, Chemistry Vol. 3: Chemical Reactions, Organic and Inorganic Compounds and Mixtures, and a few other engineering books, all with worn spines and yellow pages.
âHey,â you greet.
She doesn't even glance at you as she continues sorting through her books, shoving what she doesn't need aside with a flick of her wrist.
âYou hate me, don't you?â you ask, leaning against the locker beside her.
She gives you a side glance but doesn't fully look away from her locker. âWhat are you, five?â she asks. âI don't really care enough about you to hate you.â
âRude.â
âIt's the truth. As far as I'm concerned, you're better than a mosquito,â she says, continuing with sorting through her locker. âAnnoying, but not something worth paying attention to.â
âMosquito, really?â
She slams her locker shut and locks it. She turns to look at you, adjusting her backpack straps on her shouldersâa backpack that is covered in various patches and colorful pins. âWhat exactly do you want?â
âSpend Dollar Night at the track with me.â
She arches one eyebrow. âAnd why the hell would I do that?â
âCome on, the ponies, the flat beer... you with money in your eyes, me with my hand on your assâŠâ
âYou covered in my vomit,â she cuts you off. âThat's what's going to happen. If I go within ten feet of whatever greasy-ass food joint and cheap liquor you're going to take me to.â
âDamn, you're feisty. I kinda like that.â
She scowls at your words. âAnd you're annoying. I kinda despise that.â
âOuch,â you mock. âAnd you're a bit more than feisty. You're like... feisty on steroids. Are you always like this?â
Her scowl deepens, and in one second, she suddenly has one of your arms twisted behind your back and pinned to your torso.
She leans forward, her face so close to yours. âMaybe, if you stopped annoying me,â she whispers. âI'd stop acting like this.â
You flinch, letting out a low hiss. âOw, ow-â You try to pull away from her grip, but she only tightens it. âOw, okay, I get itâlet go, let go!âÂ
She holds you still for a moment longer before roughly releasing her grip. You stagger forward, rubbing the spot where her hand had been. âWhat-â you gasp â-the hell was that for?â
âConsider it a learning experience, dipshit,â she snaps, before stalking off, her long blue braid swinging behind her.
âYou can't just-â you start to call after her, but she's already halfway down the hall. You huff rubbing your sore arm.Â
Yep. Jinx is as prickly as a cactus. This is gonna be harder than you thought.
â
âShe's a freaking Ronda Rousey,â you mutter into the phone, massaging your throbbing arm. âShe damn near twisted my arm off!â
âJinx? Did she hurt you?â
âJust my dignity.â
You hear Cait chuckle faintly. âI'll take that to mean it didn't go very well?â
âYou could say that,â you grumble. âShe's difficult.â You watch your clothes spin around in the washing machine. âI think this may take longer than you think, Cait. Waaay longer.â
âI can't just flirt my way through this,â you go on, moving to grab one of the nearby magazines to distract yourself. âShe's smart, witty, and sassyâthe whole package. Very pretty, too. But she's rude.â You shift your phone to fit between your shoulder and ear.
âRude,â you stress again, flipping to a magazine page with random trivia questions on it. âWho the hell is rude these days? It's all sugarcoating, bullshit, and fake smiles.â You glance idly at the question titled 'How Compatible Are You with Your Ideal Partner?'. You scoff, turning the page. âShe's downright ruthless.â
âHave you even tried asking her out?â
âHell yes I have. I even tried asking her to go to Dollar Night at the track.â
âYou tried asking her to go to the race track?â
âYou don't think she's a fan of ponies and alcohol?â you reply, grinning.
âI think she's a fan of punching you in the face.â
âYeah, she did not like that idea.â
There's a pause on the line.
âOkay, I'll admit that wasn't the smoothest plan.â
âOr smartest,â Cait interjects. âAnyway, are you reading a magazine right now?â
âI'm at the laundromat.â
âAnd you're reading a magazine.â
âTo pass the time,â you justify.
âMhm.â
âI'm boooored.â You set the magazine down on a nearby chair, turning back to watch your clothes spin around. âAnd I'm tired of watching my clothes spin around. It's boring. I haven't had a good date in ages.â You move to rest your head against the glass. âI need something interesting. Someone interesting.â
Your eyes move across the storefronts and streets outside of the laundromat.
Wait⊠It can't be...
But, yes.
Yes it is. It's Jinx's car.
Your gaze focuses on the shiny blue vehicle before shifting to Jinx, who gets out of the car and walks over to a nearby music store just down the road.
You hear Caitlyn's muffled voice. âDid you hear anything I just said?â
âYeah, Cait, I heard you,â you lie, taking your eyes off her car to turn your attention back to the washing machine and your phone. âUh, I'll call you back. I think I just saw Jinx.â
â
Jinx pushes the entrance door open, juggling a small bag of CDs in one hand and rifling through her purse in the other. Her lips form a small 'o' when she finally pulls her keys out...
...and looks up to see you sitting on the hood of her car. She groans to herself.
âNice ride. Vintage fenders.â You turn around to face her, leaning back against the hood.
Jinx stops a few feet away from you, shifting the bag of CDs to the other hand. âAre you following me?â
âNah,â you shrug. âI was at the laundromat,â you pause, gesturing to the building in front of the store she just walked out of. âSaw your car. Thought I'd say hi.â
âHi,â she grumbles.
Jinx walks over to her car, but you quickly stand ahead of her, placing yourself between her and her vehicle. âYou're not afraid of me, are you?â
âWhy would I be afraid of you?â she retorts, her nose wrinkling.
âSome people are,â you reply.Â
âI'm not.â âMaybe you're not afraid of me⊠but I bet you've thought about me naked.â You smirk, taking the time to wink at her.
âAm I that transparent?â she mutters. âI want you... I need you... Oh, baby, oh baby.â Jinx rolls her eyes dramatically as she tries to step around you, but you shift your body to block her path again.
âNow, don't ignore me,â you tease.
âLet me pass, I have places to be,â Jinx says irritably, trying to step around you for the third time, only for you to once again move and block her.
âCome on now,â you urge. âJust a few minutes of your time.â
âYou're being a pest,â she complains. âWhat do you want?â
âJust a little bit of your time, that's all,â you answer, holding your hands up in surrender before resting them back on the car. âC'mon. You don't have anything better to do anyway, right?â
âPiss off,â Jinx snaps, reaching out and grabbing the handle. The door swings open, throwing you off balance and causing you to topple forward.
Jinx throws the bag into the passenger seat, slams the door shut, and starts the car. She doesn't hesitate to throw the car in reverse, and you have to lunge out of the way to avoid being hit.
RUDE! You scowl in Jinx's direction, watching her drive away. With a sigh, you reach into your pocket and grab your phone, heading back into the laundromat. You begin to dial Caitlyn's number.
The phone only rings once before it's picked up immediately. âWell? what happened?â she starts without any sort of introduction.
âI just upped my price,â you declare.
âWhat?â
â200 dollars a date.â You stand your ground. âIn advance.â
âAnd why are you increasing the price?â
You sigh heavily, rubbing your forehead. âI told you she's difficult,â you remind her. âShe's prickly, short-tempered, and violent,â you explain. âI'm increasing my price because I'm taking a hell of a lot more risk dealing with her.â
âForget it.â
âForget her sister, then.â
Silence falls for a heartbeat. Then, reluctantly, she grunts. âFine. 200 dollars a date. But I want results.â
âNo promises,â you warn her. âAnd first things first, we need to find some way to make Jinx actually want to go on a date with me. How well do you know her?â
Caitlyn hums. âShe's Vi's sister, so we have some, ahâŠâ She searches for the correct word. âHistory,â she finishes awkwardly. âBut I'm not an expert on Jinx's inner workings, if that's what you're asking.â
âGreat.â That really wasn't the answer you were hoping for. How was it that Caitlyn was apparently able to make this plan without knowing anything about Jinx? âDo you think Vi would have anything?â
â...Maybe,â she responds slowly. âI could probably ask Vi.â She pauses. âActually,â Caitlyn continues. âI might know someone who... might know Jinx pretty well.â
âWho?â
âEver heard of a kid named Ekko?â
â
He glances over his shoulder at you, a paintbrush in hand. âWhat do you want?â
After a bit of searching, you're able to find Ekko at his usual spotâpainting the empty space on the school wall. Some of your friends mentioned that he usually hung out here during free periods.
âI want to know about your friend... Jinx.â
Ekko rolls his eyes, resuming his painting. âYeah, sure, stranger I donât even know.â
You huff in annoyance. âAlright, listen,â you begin. âI'm not here to cause trouble, or gossip, or any of that. IâŠâ you pause, shifting uncomfortably. âI'm trying to ask Jinx out on a date,â you explain. âSo I thought you might be able to help me.â
That makes Ekko pause. He blinks slowly, slowly glancing back over his shoulder at you. ââŠYou're shitting me, right?â
âI'm not,â you insist. âI'm being serious, alright? and I'm not getting into some of the details, but IâŠâ you pause awkwardly. âI kind of need this date to happen.â
âYou need this date?â Ekko echoes, staring at you. âThe hell does that mean?â
âI mean,â you reply, avoiding direct eye contact. âI just need it to happen, and for reasons I'm not going to disclose,â you add. âI need it to go really well. You get me?â
Ekko scoffs but nods his head. âSounds like you're desperate or something.â He sets his brush down, turning around to face you. âWhy Jinx, anyway?â
âIâŠâ you start, not really sure how to explain this to Ekko without spilling every detail. âLet's just say my reasons are my own.â
âHm.â He studies you up and down. âFirst off, who the hell even are you? how do I know you're not some creep trying to take advantage of Jinx?â
You open your mouth to defend yourself, but then close it and sigh. âOkay, you have a point,â you admit. âBut listen,â you soothe. âI'm not a creep. I'm a senior student, like you and Jinx. I want to ask Jinx on a date, and no one really knows her all that well, so I thought you could help me because she's your friend-â
Ekko shakes his head, picking up the brush once again. âNah we're not that close anymore.â He gives you a sidelong glance. âJinx and I used to be close friends a few years ago,â he explains, returning his attention to the painting. âBut things between us⊠got complicated.â
Juicy. But thatâs none of your business, and definitely not Ekko's place to share. So you move on, clearing your throat. âRight. Um⊠Okay, so back to Jinx,â you begin. âYou still know her better than most, right? you must have some good insight on her.â
âI don't know,â he replies slowly. âYeah, I know a bunch of things about Jinx. But⊠honestly, there's just as much that I don't know.â He starts painting again. âShe changes her mind like⊠every five seconds. She's unpredictable. Reckless. Wild. Dangerous.â
âI'm not here to psychoanalyze Jinx,â you clarify. âI just need to know⊠how the hell to even talk to her one-on-one, without her throwing a pencil at me or something.â
Ekko snorts. âOh, that's easy.â He glances at you through his eyelashes. âGood luck.â
â
âOf all the places you want to meet up, you chose here?â
You straighten up and glance over at Caitlyn, who's standing off to the side, looking around the place. She looks rather out of place here, especially compared to the other customers in the pubâgreasy-looking old men, rough-looking teenagers dressed in leather and denim, and drunken bums hanging around the slots.
Caitlyn grimaces as another patron spits tobacco juice to the floor. âGrossâŠâ she mutters, wrinkling her nose.
You shrug, taking a puff from your cigarette. âYou're never late,â you reply. âAnd this place is never busy. Figured it would give us privacy.â
âRight.â Caitlyn takes a seat on a nearby stool, folding her legs neatly. âSo⊠how's Ekko?â
You line up the cue ball to the 8, taking one last look down the table before glancing at Caitlyn. âUm⊠he's good,â you reply. âA bit unhelpful, but that's alright.â
You aim the cue ball at the 8 again and give it a good hard smack, watching it glide across the table. It hits the 8 ball, which rolls a few inches before stopping. Damn. Youâre just off.
âWhat about you, how's Vi?â you ask, taking a drag from your cigarette and exhaling a billowing cloud of smoke. You set the pool stick down.
Caitlyn coughs, fanning her hand in front of her face to try and clear the smoke away from her lungs. It doesn't work very well. âFirst thing you should know...â She snatches the cigarette from your hand and drops it to the floor. âShe hates smokers.â She stomps on the butt to snuff it out.
âSo, youâre telling me that I'm a-â You make air quotations with your fingers. â-non-smoker.â
âFor now, yes.â
âAlright, alright. No smoking, got it.â You lean your pool cue on the wall. âHappy?â
âAnother thingâŠâ She purses her lips, eyes flicking over your features. âVi mentioned that Jinx⊠likes pretty girls.â
Silence.
âAre you telling me I'm not pretty?â
Caitlyn jumps as soon as the words leave your mouth. âN-no!â She gestures at you. âYou're pretty. Definitely pretty.â
âWell, thatâs reassuring.â
Caitlyn reaches into her pocket, pulling out a thick sheet of paper with a few bullet points written on it. âAnyways⊠there's more.â She glances over the list, then looks back up at you. âJinx likes: âŠart, drawing, bombs, explosions, tinkering, sweets, plushies, dogs, punk music...â She continues reading down the list. âDislikes: teachers, school, rules, authority figures, boredom, being told what to do, being ignoredâŠâÂ
She shoves the list into your hands, and you stare down at the words written in neat, orderly rows. âThat's everything that I could get out of Vi.â
A few likes and a bunch of dislikesâwhat an absolute nutcase.
You look back up at Caitlyn. âSo what does that give me? am I supposed to⊠bribe her with art supplies, draw her a picture, give her some sweets, then blow up a building?â
âHave you ever been to The Last Drop?â
You respond with a nod. You've been there a few times... it's usually filled with shady people, but the alcohol is reasonably priced.
âLetters to Cleo will be playing there tomorrow night.âÂ
âNo.â
âCome on, it's just one night-â Caitlyn coaxes.
âNo.â
She gives you a nudge. âJust assail your ears for one night. It's her favorite band, after all.â
It's a stupid idea. Spending your free time in a bar, listening to some god-awful music? It's the perfect recipe for a terrible night.
But if it's what Jinx likes... âFine.â
âAtta girl,â Caitlyn grins, clearly satisfied. She pulls out her phone, glancing down at the time as her fingers dance over the screen. âOh⊠and I'm throwing a party on Friday night,â she says, looking back up at you. âIt's the perfect opportunity.â
You blink. âOpportunity for what?â
âFor you to ask out Jinx, of course.â
ââŠI'll think about it.â
â
Your car pulls up to a stop out front, the engine making a low noise. You step out of the car and start walking towards the entrance when you notice Sevika standing outside.
Sevika looks up, and her lips stretch into a smirk as she sees you. âAh, my friend,â she greets. âIt's been a while.â
You shake her hand. âIt's good to see you again, Sev.â
Sevika eyes you up, raising an eyebrow in surprise. âDidn't have you pegged for a fan,â she says. âAren't they a bit too pre-teen belly-button ring for you?â
âJust a fan of a fan,â you reply.Â
The door is slightly ajar, and you can faintly make out the music coming from inside.
âDid a blue-haired girl come in by chance?â
Sevika nods towards the door. âJust sent her through. She's with some other gal.â
You nod and head towards the entrance when Sevika calls out to you. âWhat happened to that girl you brought in last time?â
Ah, right. It has been a few months. âI dunno,â you reply with a shrug. âI just never called her again.â
Sevika chuckles and shakes her head. âThat figures.â
You squeeze through the crowded floor and eventually find an open spot at the bar. The music from the stage is so loud you can feel the floor vibrating under your feet.
You flag down the bartender and place an order, then start idly scanning the crowd. You can make out a flash of blue hair, and your gaze lands on Jinx singing along to the chorus of the song.
You rest against the counter and watch Jinx dancing along to the music. Sheâs happy, and surprisingly, no âattitudeâ is presentânot the usual scowls, or frowns, or cold looks.
Seeing her like this⊠giddy, with a wide smile and flushed face, makes you find yourself⊠smiling.
Huh. Thatâs... something.
â
Jinx, who is thisclose to having her eardrums explode, yells at the top of her lungs, âI NEED AGUA!â
âSorry, what?â Lux yells over the music.
âI need agua!â Jinx yells again.
âAgua?â
Jinx nods and points to the bar.
âAlright!â Lux yells, but Jinx is already pushing past her through the crowd.
Jinx manages to reach the bar and signals for the bartender. She glances around as she waits, her eyes landing on you a few feet away.Â
Shiiit.
Before she can catch your eyes, you look at a random patron nearby, pretending to be looking at something else.
The bartender walks up to Jinx, shouting over the music. âWhat can I get for you?â
âTwo waters,â she responds, casting a glance back in your direction only to find you completely focused on the stage.
The bartender brings out a pair of water bottles from the cooler and sets them on the counter. Jinx fishes out some change and pays, then grabs the water bottles.
She approaches from behind and raps a knuckle on your shoulder. âIf you're planning on asking me out again, you might as well do it already.â
Playing dumb, you gesture back at the stage. âDo you mind? you're kind of ruining it for me.â
Jinx seethes, but stays where she is. âYou're not surrounded by your usual cloud of smoke.â
The music dies down for a while to give the band a rest, so you no longer have to yell over the music. You turn to face her. âI know. I quit.â
âYou... did?â Jinx gives you a weird look, trying to figure out your angle here. âAre you feeling alright?â
That's a pretty fair question, to be honest, because for once in your life, you're actively not trying to flirt with someone.
What's even more weird is that Jinx is actually engaging with the conversation. Jinx moves closer to the stool, standing beside you. âSince when?â
You clear your throat, avoiding her gaze. âSince⊠yesterday.â
âYesterday? you quit smoking just yesterday?â
âJust yesterday.â
Jinx looks you up and down. âWhy?â
You look over at the band, who are currently changing out their gear. âBecause... apparently they're bad for you,â you mumble. With a shrug, you gesture back towards the stage. âThey're no Bikini Kill or the Raincoats,â you reply. âBut they're alright.â
You step into the crowd, and Jinx is surprised enough to be momentarily stupefied. âWait-â she sputters before following you. âYou know who the Raincoats are?â
You stop in the middle of the crowd, spinning to face her. âWhy? don't you?â you ask. âI saw how you were dancing out there. Iâve never seen you look like that...â
âI.. well, I-â she stutters, before clearing her throat and collecting herself. âYeah, I do,â she replies. âI'm into grunge and punk and stuff. Ever heard of Nirvana?â
You scoff. âOf course. Who hasn't?â
Jinx laughs, and you resist the urge to smile when you hear it. âYeah, fair point. What about... Siouxsie and the Banshees?â
âLove them. But you can't tell me you don't know The Damned?â
Jinx's eyes light up at the mention of The Damned. âHell yeah, they're awesome,â she exclaims, before frowning. âWait, how do you know The Damned?â
You give yourself a pat on the back. Nailed it. âExcuse you, I have excellent taste in music,â you reply. âHow do you know The Damned?â
âI'll have you know, I'm very into music,â she retorts. âI've got a collection of 1300 CDs. Mostly punk and grunge, but some 70s rock and other stuff.â
Her response is a pleasant surprise to you⊠and maybe attractive. But you squash that thought down because she's Jinx, and no way are you going to feel your heart flutter at anything this woman does.
You whistle. âOnly 1,300? That's cute. I have almost 2,000.âÂ
âNo way.â She shakes her head. âNo WAY you have 2,000 CDs. You're bluffing.â
âI'm not,â you insist. âI've got 2,000 pieces of music in my home.â
âDamn. You got me beat, then.â She looks around the club, then looks back at you. âAnyway, I gotta-â
âCome to Caitlyn's party with me. Friday night,â you cut her off.
â-Why should I?âÂ
â-Because I guarantee you'll have a fantastic time.âÂ
She laughs at your persistence. âYou never give up, do you?â she mutters before walking away through the large crowd.
âWas that a yes?â you yell after her.
Her only response is a middle finger held high in the air.
You cup your hands around your mouth. âI'll see you at 9:30 then!â
This is good. Not great, maybe, but not awful either. You didn't get kicked in the face for asking, so you're taking that as a win.
â
âHow did it go?â
You tap your fingers on the steering wheel. âHey, CaitâŠâ you hesitate, glancing around at the empty street. âHow much money does it take to buy 2,000 CDs?â
The line goes dead.
âŠ
After a few minutes of silence, it rings again.
âYou've got to be kidding me.â
#arcane#jinx#arcane x reader#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#arcane x female reader#arcane x you#jinx x reader#jinx x female reader#jinx x you#jinx x y/n#jinx imagine#10 things i hate about you#fluff
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Gender? Who Cares About That?
Billyâs never really been one to really care about gender. Look, if you wanna be a girl, youâre a girl, same if you wanna be a boy. Or at least thatâs what he thinks. He just doesnât get the hype about it. So, whenever he feels like it, he just turns into a girl. No one really cares and heâs been doing it since the sixties so heâll keep doing it. Well, at least no one cared until nowadays.
Marvel: *in female form picking up some rubble to clear it after a villain attack*
Reporter: âMaâam!â *trying to flag Marvel down*
Marvel: âYes, miss?â *carefully puts rubble down*
Reporter: âHello, maâam. We at channel five news have been meaning to ask you a few questions. Are you related to Captain Marvel, and if so, are you blood related?â
Marvel: *visible confusion* âUh⊠I guess.â *honestly thinks itâs a little funny* âBut, miss, I am Captain Marvel.â
Reporter: âHuhâŠ?â
Marvel: âDid you not ask any of the citizens?â
Reporter: *looks to the camera guy before looking back at Billy* âYes- Iâm sorry, I was under the impression Captain Marvel was a man.â
Marvel: âI am.â
Reporter: âYet youâre a womanâŠ?â
Marvel: âYeah. Whenever I feel like it, I turn into a girl. Then, whenever I feel like it, I turn into a boy.â
Tourist: âSo youâre gender-fluid?â
Marvel: âWhat is that?â *sounds confused*
Tourist: âLiterally just what you described.â
Marvel: âOh. Then I guess I am. I didnât know there was a label for it.â *
For reference, female Marvel looks like Marilyn just with blue eyes and black hair. As for why he doesnât know what gender-fluid means? Well apparently it originated in 1994, and in my AU he was trapped in a time bubble and got out in 2016. Heâs an old man guys. He canât work computers. Theyâre too overcomplicated. If you were to ask a random citizen from Fawcett, they wouldnât know either.
Marvel: *back in male form, frosting some cookies at the Watchtower*
Supes: âCap?â
Marvel: âYes?â
Supes: âSo⊠uhâŠâ *awkward and looks the other JL members*
Other JL Members: *peaking from behind a corner*
Supes: âWe just want you to know we support you.â *awkward smile and pat on shoulder*
Marvel: âCool? Whatâre you supporting?â
Supes: âWell you know⊠Do you really not know why?â
Marvel: âNoâŠ?â
*silence*
Marvel: âDo you want a cookie?â
Supes: âYes, please.â
Yeah, he doesnât care. Like stated earlier, he doesnât care, and neither did the Fawcettâs citizens. He didnât even think this was something that people were supported for. Thatâs why he had no clue what Clark was talking about.
Marvel and GL: *have monitor duty together*
GL: âSo, dude, are you going to the pride parade in Metropolis?â
Marvel: âWhy would I go to one of those?â
GL: âCause youâre gender fluid?â
Marvel: âWhat?â *already forgot what that meant*
GL: âYou know how you switch between girl and boy all the time?â
Marvel: âOhhhh that. I still donât see what that has to do with the pride parade.â
GL: âDude, thatâs apart of pride.â
Marvel: âI thought pride was for queers?â
GL: âYeah. You being gender fluid makes you queer.â
Marvel: âReally?â
GL: âYup.â
Marvel: âHuh. I had no idea. I guess I could go, but I donât really wanna go alone. Are you going?â
GL: *nods head* âMe and a couple others.â
Marvel: â âkay, then can I go with you guys?â
GL: âHell yeah, man!â
Bonus:
Mary does the same thing as Billy! Whenever she turns into a boy though, she looks like Billy because twin power.
#billy batson#shazam#dc captain marvel#captain marvel dc#fawcett city#fawcett comics#fawcett#mary batson#mary bromfield#green lantern#hal jordan#superman#clark kent
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broken, pt. 2 (3tan) (m) | myg
title: broken (pt. 2) pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series:masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party | basketball | stay | sidewalk talk | friends | dalo | like that | anytime | sundress season | yoongiâs interlude | forfeit | flutter | video call | busted | broken (pt. 1) rating/genre: m (18+) ; angst , fluff , smut ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au summary: the championship game lights up... and everything goes down. note: not too much to say other than thank you. this part is definitely another very, very close one to my heart. please buckle up and enjoy the ride. warnings: [spice warnings under the cut] language, angst, tension, alcohol mention & consumption, fights, basketball!yoongiđ§ââïž, cocky!yoongi, jiminđł, tense situations, did i say angst?, long hair yoongi, crying, brođ, reader is a real one i donât make the rules, arguments, the chains stay on(???), âŠbad boy yoongiđđ, saying softhours puts some of this lightly, brođ„Č, blood/wound mentions, hurt/comfort, thereâs just a lot in here yâall idek, taehyung being the best ever, âŠangst. drop date: february 9th, 2024, 10:37pm est word count: 17.7k my god
smut warnings: cursing, choking, light slapping, breast play, angry s*x a ha ha, crying, multiple explicit scenes y'all istg don't perceive me lol, c*nt slapping, penetrative s*x, brat!reader, protected s*x, edging, consent king ofc :), rough s*x, b*cksh*ts and a lot of them, ...unprotected s*x (yeah it's here and y'all better be responsible or so help me!!!), f*ngering, or*l (m/f rec), brat tamer!3tan yoongi!!!, reader loses themselves for a sec, but yoongi is a king, pain k*nk whewwww, kissing, so much kissing lmfao, c*m play, slight bond*ge (yoongi hands), spanking, aftercare ofc :'))
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Thereâs no way.
How the fuck is he here? When did that horrible excuse of a guy even join a team? Had he been playing intramurals this whole time?Â
âNo fuckinâ way.â
Your eyes find your brother standing rigid at your side, wrists tensed to hell and shoulders spiked. Did he not know he was playing, either? Judging by his smoldering question, youâre going to guess he wasnât aware.Â
âWere they always on this team?âÂ
âNo.â
âI donât remember them being on any teams.â
They? Them? So they recognize more from the court on that day you try to not think about. Shifting your vision, you start gauge reactions under sounds of the growing crowd.Â
Itâs Yoongi that looks at you first, eyes lowering to the hand you still have on your arm damn it you should be okay about that night already. But you canât seem to let your limb go, your fingers covering it in a weak attempt at protection and resilience.Â
The blaze in his eyes makes you shake. Even as you swallow your pleas for everyone to just go home, he doesnât look away. Instead, he walks over to stand in front of your knees, motioning for you to scoot over one so he can take the end seat.
Normally, you would slightly question why he wouldnât just sit next to you. But this time, youâre hyper aware of what heâs doingâand why. Itâs so obvious that you wanna reach out and grip his sweaty hand.Â
Yoongi absolutely sat there to shield you.
And your heart burns and burns.
If only he could do more, be more, show more. Because with a rattled ego and tainted mind, youâre already yearning for his touch, wanting him to whisk you out of here and bring you back to the comfort of his homeâjust like he did that night.Â
God, he makes you dizzy doing absolutely nothing.Â
âWhatâs the plan,â he asks, eyes on the court and palms between his knees.
âDunno yet.â Your brother shakes his head before looking back, eyes narrowing at the laughs on the other bench. âBut I might get my ass thrown out if weââ
âPlay.âÂ
Immediately, all three of them snap their heads your way. Fuck, your arm is stillâŠÂ
One person cannot have this hold on you. Thereâs no way youâre going to let him control your every waking moment, and your determination bubbles into your commands. âPlay the game and beat his ass,â you seethe, holding yourself together and aiming daggers everywhere. âJust make it quick.âÂ
Yoongi gives you a look before Jimin snags him with an eyebrow raise.Â
âAnd youâre paying me double.âÂ
Looking at the man beside you, itâs almost comforting seeing his attention fully on your face. If it werenât for your ghost on the other side of the scoring table and your brother standing there, you wouldnât hesitate to kiss him.Â
But you only nod, getting a huff and a lopsided curve in response before you watch him lock eyes with your brother, âWhat do you wanna do?âÂ
After a long, resigned sigh, your sibling finally relents, âFuck this shit up.âÂ
Good. Yes. This is what you wantâfor you and them. âExactly.âÂ
Scanning around the tight circle, you notice that you have everyoneâs attention.Â
But one person seems to send a question without any words at all. In kind, you answer the same way, wings battering your stomach when all of them send thunder to the court with lightning in their eyes.
Yoongi scoffs through a slant, carrying the air of someone you never want to mess with in your fucking life. âThe fuckinâ nerve.âÂ
Jimin hums, sliding a finger along his flexed to hell jaw. âBold,â he adds. And his voice drop sends shivers when he turns to you,
âDonât worry, love.âÂ
You stare.
âThis will be over soon.âÂ
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The game is⊠just a game. For now.
No oneâs taunted hard other than a few smirks and winks, and right now it seems as if both teams are just being competitive more than antagonistic. Which relaxes you to the point where youâre cheering from the bench with the other playersâand their coach that arrived lateâjumping and yelling and clapping when things go in their favor.
Your brotherâs slamming down dunks. Jiminâs been playing amazing defense with his quick reflexes and high stamina.
And Yoongi? Has gotten sickeningly sharp. All those late nights at the rec center are paying off in this championship and, when he scores a hard shot, the pride you feel launches you to your feet.Â
âNice job, bââ Oh fuck you almost shout something that should never be public knowledge. Holding your tongue, you quickly switch it up with a hasty, âLetâs go!âÂ
That was close. Way too close.Â
Get it together.Â
But you cannot help it right now. Seeing Yoongi facing off against the man you both wanna square up against? And making it look easy? The fluttering you feel in your belly grows double. Triple. Tenfold. His gestures, the way he acts like itâs nothing, his shrugs at their failed attempts to stop himâeverythingâs making you scratch proverbial walls and kick bench chairs.Â
And itâs not just himâthe whole team has been playing excellently. Each play seems intentional; every pass and movement is strategic. If you didnât know this was a casual rec game, you would think theyâre gunning for a real, prestigious trophy.Â
However.Â
When itâs starting to be very clear who the better squad is, thatâs when things start getting more than tense.Â
On a foul call, both sides start getting in each othersâ faces. And you peg that as normal until someone on your team gets shoved and your brother immediately gets between the action.Â
Both you and the coach shoot up from your seats.Â
Shit, shit, shit. If thereâs one thing your older siblingâs gonna do in this game, itâll be finding any excuse to deck that man in the face. And once that happens, thereâs no telling how many injuries are gonna walk off polished floors.
Thankfully, everyone separates without a ruckus, and timeout is called on your side. The crowd starts to yell in favor of either team, and thatâs when you notice that Taehyung has been joined by Shiv and your friends. From the looks of things, all five of them are laser focused on you.Â
You hold a quick thumbs-up before youâre covered by hot and sweaty men huddling around the bench. And you immediately agree with their coach when he barks,Â
âI need you all to calm down.âÂ
âNo can do, coach.âÂ
âNot if they arenât.âÂ
Shit. All of them look fucking livid, not giving any shits whatsoever if theyâre willing to talk back to their leader. Whatâs really been happening on the court? Has it been even more tense than you perceived?Â
Oblivious to the context behind this matchup, their coach keeps yelling, âLook, I donât give a shit if you have something to settle. Play the game and leave it on the floor. Understood?â When thereâs charged silence, he yells it even louder.Â
And a smattering of agreement comes out before all of you hear an even bigger yelling session booming from the other bench. When you look over, itâs quickly noticeable that theyâre getting reamed over there, too.Â
Jimin watches before speaking, and it seems like your coachâs pleas fell on deaf ears, âFifteen went for my legs.âÂ
âSaw that. Letâs switch cus he canât guard me.âÂ
âK.â Park swivels his head to address someone else. âYou good to keep playing?âÂ
Your brother responds with a nod, wiping his never-ending sweat. âYeah, Iâm good.âÂ
Huh. Even though you know heâs mad, the man seems⊠Calm. Eerily calm. Itâs reminding you of the way he acted after you came home from Yoongiâs.Â
And you donât like it one bit.Â
But the timeout is over, and both teams eye each other on their walk back onto the court. As it continues, the gym erupts into life again, with a bit of back and forth shots racking the scoreboard up.Â
And Yoongi keeps scoring. And scoring. And scoring.Â
Which lands him in a bit of trouble when the same idiot from Dalo pushes him during a layup. After he manages to make the shot, Yoongi immediately flicks him offâwhich gets a whistle blown. Which also means he has to sit on the bench for a second because his coach is pissed.Â
Ignoring the scathing remarks being thrown, he dumps himself next to you. And you immediately feel the heat roll off of him in waves, trying hard to focus on the game. âDonât be stupid,â you jut out.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âDonât be stupid. These guys arenât worth it.âÂ
âAfter what he did to you?âÂ
The way those words leave his mouth ice you over, flares spiraling through every fiber of your being. Your reaction is so visceral that you can barely get your response out, âYeah, butâŠâÂ
Leaning on his knees, Yoongi wipes his forehead with a crinkled to hell jersey, excess sweat pinging onto his sneakers. The crowd is loud and the buzzers even louder, but they arenât enough to drown out his bite,
âI canât let that shit go.âÂ
âYoongi.âÂ
âSorry, doll.âÂ
âPlease justââÂ
Yoongi leaves the bench before you can finish, and you whip your head in a rush, hands jutting out in a desperate attempt to hold him back.Â
Only for him to be just out of reach.Â
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After halftime, itâs a whole different game.Â
From an outside perspective, itâs as if everyone was using the first half to sniff each other out, circling around each other before deciding how and when to go in for the kill.Â
And Yoongi isnât the only one that youâre starting to worry about. Jimin, your brother, and even Rohan and the other guys are on edge, playing hard and doing everything they can to keep their scoring lead.Â
Both you and their coach know you canât stop whateverâs going on out there. And youâre starting to feel yourself getting angry at how your brother and them are egging the guys on.Â
Why are they taunting? What the hell is making them so bent on making the other team pissed? Yes, all that went down with you, but nothing else had happened since then. And they clearly arenât listening to anyone telling them to calm down.
If they end up starting shit you are going toâthe fuck!Â
Yoongi gets straight shoved again as he goes for a layup, and you shoot up in your chair as he hits the back wall with a thud. While the players at your side are yelling and everyone on the court starts grouping in shouts, you stay rigid, solely watching Yoongi eye his attackerâthe same idiot from Dalo.
Fuck everything, you wanna rush into the fray and throw hands yourself because that looked painful.
The only thing thatâs stopping you is the chilling fact that Yoongi is⊠Grinning.Â
Wiping his curved lips, he waits while the refs break up the squabble, still looking triumphant as he walks to the line to shoot his free throws. When both of them are made, he stares directly at your assaulterâas you finally call it like it isâand doesnât stop even when the coward looks away.
A whistle blows, and the game continues to be close. Too close, too close, too close. A couple more timeouts let you see just how laser-focused everyone is, and youâre a little shaken when it feels like they forgot you were even occupying their bench.Â
What the hell is being said on the court? Even Jimin is brimming with anger.Â
But after a few back and forths, Yoongi passes to your brother for a hard dunk, basket ringing from his throwdown and shaking when he lands.Â
Thank god. Those points are enough. Theyâre gonna win.Â
All the pent up anxiety youâve harbored all game releases as everyone starts cheering, and your pride soars as your boys stare down their opponents while the clock winds down.
Itâs over. The game is over, nothing too serious happened, and you can all go the fuck home to eat dinner and celebrate.Â
Your eyes catch Yoongi throwing a rudely lopsided curve across the court. Even when Jimin comes up to push him back in excitement, his expression doesnât change.Â
And you find that wildly, unfathomably attractive.Â
Then, as it goes, your brother comes up and they all share quick daps, eyes ablaze and not letting the losers out of their sight.Â
Well. All of them are infamous for a reason. You would guess their energy altogether certainly contributes to that. Because the aura you feel oozing from them fills the gymnasium all the way up to your knees.Â
And the sigh you let out mingles with their coachâs shake of his head.
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Things are still tense as they all shake handsâor at least offer hands to shakeâwith the other team. The atmosphere is even a little iced when they receive their trophy.Â
But the way youâre currently being surrounded as your guys converse hides you from plain sight, so you feel heavily protected. Even Jimin, whoâs usually cheerful even when exhausted, wields sharp eyes as he keeps glancing over his shoulder.Â
Honestly? You wouldnât know what to do without them. Both your brother and all his friends, good pasts or not, are great people. They didnât need to shield you like this. But theyâre doing it anyway, because they wonât give that lowlife another reason or chance to approach you.Â
Yeah. Your older sibling knows how to choose his circle.
Itâs making you wonder ifâŠÂ
Nah.Â
Thatâs still too big a reach.Â
When it seems like all of them and their cheering squad are gone, everyone starts making their way over to the bleachersâand youâre acutely reminded of what went down under similar looking ones the other night.Â
Your shivers are overshadowed by Yuriâs telltale screams to Rohan, âYou were so good, baby! Are you okay?â
Reia and Dom shake their heads before focusing on you, the latter being the spokeswoman, âSo what was all that for?â
âDonât ask,â you sigh, knowing exactly what sheâs referring to. âIâm just glad they won and that we can go home.â
âYouâre not coming to Yuriâs?â Reia asks. âI thought we planned on that, no?â
Ah, shit. Earlier this week, you did make plans with them without really thinking about what day they were gonna fall on. But now youâre so mentally drained that you kinda just wanna goâ
âIs anyone else starving? Iâm hungry as fuck!âÂ
Right. Food. Adrenaline made you forget you were starving. Glancing towards your brother, you quickly remind him, âYeah, me. And youâre paying.â
âAh, shit, thatâs right.â As he lets out a hard groan and deals with Jimin and Yoongiâs comments, your sibling relents, âAlright, where are we going.â
âUp to you,â you shrug, stealing a little look at the man you want to kiss like hell for his performance tonight.Â
God, Yoongiâs so handsome. As Jimin leaves his side, he silently wipes his forehead of any excess sweat, hands and shoulders shining in the lights wait wait wait. Hold on.Â
Walking over, you toss any care about who notices you out the window. And as he eyes your approach, you murmur with care and concern, âIs your back okay?âÂ
Blinking once, twice, the man nods. âYeah, itâs all good.â
âYou sure? That lookedâŠâ
Of course he decides that now is the perfect time to rake his sweaty locks back. Speaking so low that only you can hear, Yoongi reassures with a fist full of hair, âIâm fine, doll.âÂ
Motherfucker.Â
Pinning down your urge to reach out and smother him, you only breathe relief. And before you move away to put some distance between, you whisper, âThank you.â
Yoongi looks your way again. âFor what?âÂ
Swallowing whatâs left of your anxiety, you sigh. âFor not getting into it out there. I was about to get mad as hell, but.. Looks like they were all talk.âÂ
âMm.â
Honestly? Itâs a miracle. The gameâs over without any hitches or brawls? More relief starts blossoming in your chest, prompting a smile to grace your features. âYou looked so good out there, by the way. I almost called you baââ
âWhat are yâall talking about over there!â
Your mouth snaps shut as soon as you see your brother watching, but Yoongi is quick to fire off an insult, âThe way you always take so long to pick something.â
âI picked already!â
âThen letâs go then.â
Laughing, you join the whole crew as youâre all the last ones to walk out. Your friends and Shiv parked in another lot since one side was already full, so you tell them youâll meet at the restaurant.
Some other teammates decide to join, with jerseys being shucked off as everyone heads out the door. Immediately, body odor swoops into your nose, making you welcome the crisp, fresh air of night.Â
Scratch that. You smell oncoming rain.Â
Conversations cease, which only leaves the sound confirming your observation: booming, rolling thunder. Stopping at the edge of the gymâs awning, multiple heads turn up at the rumbles, watching lightning crack the sky.Â
In front of you, Jimin shifts his head to the side. âStill?âÂ
And when you look at who heâs asking, you see Yoongi nod.Â
Weird.Â
But itâs not raining just yet, so all of you make your way into the lot and to your cars. As you do, you check your phone while making your way over, aiming a question at Tae, âYou know where weâre going?âÂ
âYeah, itâs not far,â he responds, fishing out his own device. âI think weâve been there before.âÂ
We? Looks like things are progressing nicely over there. Since youâre lingering behind the guys, you start to take a small jab, âWe, huh? Cute.âÂ
Lips spread as tight as his eyes, Taehyung parries. âCute? Look whoâs talking, miss whipped.âÂ
âYouâre whipped.âÂ
âNo, you.âÂ
âNo, you,â you giggle out, reaching out to tickle Taeâs side and laughing as he flinches away. You chase him for a few seconds before you see his whole body freeze completely, asking a small question before going quiet. Â
And when you slowly follow his line of vision, your heart freefalls to your gut, smashing it so hard you feel bile sting the back of your throat.Â
The man from Dalo. And all the guys from the court plus some.Â
Surround both Jiminâs and your brotherâs cars.
Fuck. Oh, fuck, thereâs so many of them, standing and waiting and unflinching in the bursts of thunder inching closer and closer what the fuck are you gonna doâÂ
âTaehyung.â
Your eyes shake.Â
âGet her out of here. Now.â
And youâve never screamed so loud.Â
Every word rips out of your mouth before youâre promptly shushed by large fingers, icicles pinging around your heart and holding it down, âDonât fucking do thiâ!âÂ
To your horror, Taeâs already hauling you back, voice low and firm in your ear, âCome on.âÂ
âNo! What the fuckââÂ
âWeâre leaving.â
âPleaseâ!â
There are so many of them. So, so many of them. Panic drowns out your words and excess leaks out of your eyes, your own storm preventing you from seeing that your best friend is just as torn apart.Â
âBabe, we have to go now.âÂ
âNo, let me go!âÂ
Theyâre outnumbered. What if they have weapons? What if the police are called? What if something happens that you arenât prepared for?
Youâre screaming. Curses, their names, or whatever whatever you donât even know what the fuck youâre saying because your toes are kissing the edge of madness.Â
Dragged a good distance away, your yells devolve into incoherency, your nose and eye sockets smashing into Taehyungâs solid forearm so hard it hurts.Â
Make it out, make it out, make it out. For the love of everything in the fucking universe and beyond it, make it out alive.Â
Some movements and backs straightening are the last things you see before getting pulled around the corner.
And when Yoongi calmly rolls one of his shoulders, you feel a wick of your soul burn out.
Panic. Worry. Panic and more panic. The car ride that Tae paid for is the blurriest muddy water youâve ever waded through.
Truthfully, you donât even remember blankets being pulled over your shoulder. Where even are you? Oh, youâre in a bed. Whose bed are you in because this isnât yours. But what does it matter anyway what does anything matter anyway nothing matters thereâs nothing you can do you gotta get up and go back over there get up get up goâ
As soon as you yank his bedroom door open, Taehyung is there, holding you back and pushing your frantic energy back inside. âTae, if you donât let meââ
âDo what!â
âIâm going back!â Wrestling out of his strong hold, you bolt down his hallway, head clanging as your shoulder bumps into a wall. âWe need to go backââ
âStop!â You hear running as you burst through the living room, whizzing past the glowing television. âWe have to stay hereââ
No no no. Thereâs no way youâre staying here when you need to be back at that lot. Who the fuck would call for help if anyone needs it? When theyâre gonna need it? Your vision proves so blurry you canât even find your shoesâ
Arms wrap around your waist and you fight back with a scream, âLet me go!â
âStop and just think for a secondââ
âWhy arenât you with me on this, theyâreââ
âDumb as fuck!âÂ
Your friendâs quick comment is so sharp it cuts your breath. As you still in his firm but comforting hold, you finally stop to breathe. Breathe, breathe, breathe as youâre turned to level a look with his eyes.
Eyes that are red-rimmed and so, so raw. âTheyâre idiots,â Taehyung grits out. âBut they will be alright.âÂ
From the shake of his voice, you find that neither of you think that for sure.Â
âI need to.. ToâŠâ Your breaths are ragged, energy spent and head dizzy from your quick exit from his bed. As you come down from your volcanic high, every weight the world places on your back proves too much.Â
âYou need to relax,â Tae advises, guiding you further back inside. And you donât speak as he leads you past the couch, past the pictures on his hallway wall, and into the dark of his bedroom.
Maybe itâs over. Right? Maybe someone will answer if you ring them up. âCall. I need to callâŠâÂ
âShh,â he soothes again, walking you backwards away from his door. When the bends of your knees hit his bed, Taehyung lets you down slowly until youâre sitting. âIâll do it.âÂ
Brain fried from hyperactivity, you can only nod.Â
Your friend steps away to fiddle with his phone, the light illuminating his beautiful features in the night. When he holds it to his ear, this is when you hear rain and the television in the living room, noticing that itâs playing a movie he watches for comfort.Â
Shit. Heâs going through it just like you are, and yet heâs still finding energy to calm your nerves? What have you even done to deserve him?
Guess you know how to choose your circle, too.Â
Going unanswered, Taehyung lowers his hand, thumb rubbing the homescreen before gripping the device hard.Â
Both of you are in the same boat. So steer when he canât do it anymore. Soft but assertive, you rise to your feet, offering your embrace while calling his name, â..Tae.â
When he turns, the man wastes no time in dropping his phone to bring you in close. âItâll be okay,â he murmurs, and you hear his words on your head but feel the trembles in his chest. âOkay?â
Feeble fingers grab at his soft shirt, and you bury into his scent while soaked and tired eyes shut.Â
You want to believe him. You do. You do.Â
But hope may be a bitch.Â
So you donât.Â
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Forever passes while you both lie still in his bed, with Taehyung holding you close and keeping you subdued with notes of honey and wood. You both try to have conversation, but itâs disjointed and manufactured, so giving up is a group effort.Â
Youâre about to give up on a lot of things before you both jolt at Taeâs phone vibrating.Â
The world shifts quick as you both sit up, the call immediately being accepted and a low greeting whooshing at your side, âHey.â
With bated breath, you hear Jimin on the line. âHey.âÂ
âYou okay?â
âYeah, weïżœïżœïżœre all alright, butâŠâ
We. We, we, we, all of them thank the fucking world. As your breath is held, Taehyungâs voice is solid, âSay it.â
âMy eye is pretty fucked. Yoongiâs face is cut up and heâs got some nasty bruises on hisââÂ
You donât even remember yanking the phone to your mouth. âWhere is he.â
Jimin audibly pauses on the line before having the audacity to chuckle. Irked and feeling ire bubble back to the surface, you seethe, âThis isnât funny, Park. Where the fuck is he?âÂ
âWith us.â Us. Shit. âIn the car.âÂ
Oh.Â
âYour brotherâs here, too.âÂ
âAh.â That means theyâre all there. Theyâre all heading home. âAm I on speaker.âÂ
âUmm.. Yeah.âÂ
As much as youâre relieved theyâre all okay, stockpiled anxiety transforms into anger, your limit striking the thundering sky. âActually, you know what? Good. Now I can say youâre all idiots and immature as fuck.âÂ
Itâs your sibling that responds first. âHey, wait a damn minuteââÂ
âI waited long enough!â you scream, ignoring Taehyungâs wide eyes.Â
You know you need to relax. But you canât help whatâs happening right now and all you feel is pain. âI know this shit isnât new to yâall, but really? You didnât need to do this.âÂ
âHe was gonnaââ
âAll you had to do was play the game! Whyâd you have to make them mad? Do you even know what couldâve happened back there?â Damn it, you werenât supposed to cry during this part, not when you just want them to know they fucked up.Â
And the response is dead silence. Because of course it is. But if they wonât answer you here, theyâre gonna answer another, âJust tell me one thing,â you plead. âIs this gonna happen again?âÂ
That one your brother answers with finality. âThey wonât be coming around anymore.âÂ
Gulping, you give Taehyung a glossy-eyed look before staring at his lit screen again. Trying not to let your voice waver, you accept his response, âOkay⊠Are you okay?âÂ
âMe? Yeah, the hits I took were weak as fuck. Iâll get home soon so if you wanna order in tonight we can.âÂ
âFuck that.âÂ
âHuh?âÂ
What an idiot. âBro, you donât even know how fucking mad I am,â you accuse through gritted teeth. Thereâs no way in hell you wanna deal with their bullshit. Ignoring your pleas and staring harm in the face? Forget it. âIâm going to Yuriâs.âÂ
âWhat? Nah, come home tonight and weâll talk.âÂ
âI justâNo.â Taehyung has to grip your shoulder before pulling you into a hug. And youâre still steel in his arms because you havenât been this upset in ages. âIâm not talking to any of you for awhile.âÂ
And you mean that.Â
ââŠFine. But go asap then. I donât want you out late on your own.âÂ
So you gotta listen to what he wants but when it comes to what you say, itâs crickets? Goddamn, youâre furious. ââŠOf course you donât.â
And you hang up before anyone can say anything else.Â
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You open the front door to your brother leaning against the hallway wall.
Both of you eye each other, one of you with a perfectly fine face and the other that isnât so lucky because heâs a fool.
And no words are exchanged as you trudge your frustration to the kitchen.Â
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Ice. Bandages. Dinner. Anger propels you through it all.
Whipping up a quick but hearty meal, you let your brother patch himself up after demanding he showered. The smells of comfort food waft through your nose as things sizzle on the stove and, through the whole process, you donât think about anything except how upset you are.
Theyâre all okay. But like Taehyung so abruptly put it, theyâre all stupid.Â
As you turn off your burner, you transfer everything to a bowl, sighing so loud it seasons the top with fire. When you approach the bar, your actions speak pretty damn loudâthe dish clank shoving out a question from your sibling,
âIs there something you wanna say to me?âÂ
âThereâs a bunch of shit I wanna say to you.âÂ
âItâs about Yoongi,â he asks, the absence of hesitation making your insides squeeze. âIsnât it.âÂ
But luckily for you, your rage is so potent that it overruns your fear. As soon as your brother stands up and starts to repeat his question, your correction clangs through the room,Â
âItâs about all of you! You say you wanna be there for me but what the fuck will doing this shit do?âÂ
Freezing, the man waits in shock as you keep going, âYes, that guy deserves hell. I was so scared when he grabbed me at the club.â You stop to swallow. âBut I had them both there and we left.â
Fuck, this is hard. Having to relive that shit is difficult but you need your brotherâand all of them, for that matterâto know how hurt you feel right now. Mustering up enough bravery to get to the goddamn point, you finally squeak out,Â
âIf I lose them? Lose you? Because of something as stupid as a fight?â Your eyes search his, and your heart cracks when you see glassy sheen amongst his bruises. âWhat would I do then?âÂ
You expect silence. And silence is what you get. Itâs drawn out, loud, and telling. âWe know.âÂ
âDo you?â
âYes,â he whispers, eyes lifting to meet yours with sincerity. âAnd weâre sorry.â
Another moment passes between the two of you, the food you made left uneaten on the counter and the rest sitting still on the stove. But you know your sibling will eat it all tonight, whether youâre there or not.Â
And you step forward at the same time he holds his battered arms out.Â
Freshly showered, he still smells like rain and exertion. But his heart beats under your chest, heâs present, and back homeâthings you need to stop taking for granted.Â
But youâre still mad. And getting things off your chest has only made you tired, so you decide that itâs finally time to go before you circle back to other scary territory brought up tonight. âIâm leaving now,â you announce as you step away. âBut just think about that.âÂ
âI will.â
âIâm serious.âÂ
âI will.â
Staring, you take note of his cuts and injuries, wondering how the others are faring even though you donât wanna deal with anything else. Because it hurts too much, and if you see who youâre thinking about, thereâs no telling what youâd do if you were like this with your brother. Thereâs no telling how youâdâŠ
No. You choose to go the easy route this time. Everyone can simmer in their sore, swelling consequences while you have a night of de-stressing with your friends.Â
So you leave to go pack without another word.Â
Itâs raining.Â
Hard.
And even though your car is heading to Yuriâs, your heart is beating backwards. Tugging you somewhere else and not letting up.Â
With a ping of chill, you canât shake it. Braking at a stop sign close to your destination, you sit in silence, letting the rain pelt every side of your vehicle and wondering what the hell to do.Â
Truthfully? Your brother looked like shit. But your body isnât telling you to go back to the house, which can only mean one other place. And you know for a fact you donât wanna talk to him, either.Â
So fucking upsetting. They did all that for what? You can barely keep your thoughts in a row because they keep yelling at jostling each other just like everybody did on the court. If anyone had to fight the dipshit, it should've been you.Â
Fuck! Your head connects with the wheel, an inner monster rumbling with the thunder because youâre so fed up with everything that happened.Â
Your brain is the one yelling. But your heart is begging for it to listen. Go to Yuriâs? Go to Yoongiâs. Find shelter in that warm bed of hers and sink in her plushies to comfort you?Â
A sigh. Maybe you can at least call him to tell him off one more time. He needs to hear what you told your brother because if you ever, ever lose himâ
Your eyes burn.Â
Yoongi: Outgoing Call
No answer.
Yoongi: Outgoing Call
Pick up. What the fuck.
Yoongi: Outgoing Call
âŠTurn the fuck around shit, shit, shit.
Curses flying, you whip your vehicle in a flash, heart pounding so loud itâs blocking out the storm. Which is morbidly impressive considering how horridly itâs pouring.Â
Thinking in leaps, you pivot and make another decision. Tell her and make it all quick.Â
Yuri: Outgoing Call
âHello?â
âHey, Iâm not coming.â
âYou okay?â
âIâm going to Yoongiâs.â
âYoongiâs? Why?â
Ah, shit. Oh, fuck. She doesnât know.Â
Banging the steering wheel, you smash your teeth, stressed as hell from braving the rain in the dark and now snitching on yourself to someone else.Â
Damn it. What do you say? What can you possibly even say when youâre so mad and stressed and conflicted and worriedâ
âHello?â
âBecause heâs the one,â you whoosh out, your vision quivering twice as much as it should. âAnd things went down after the game and now something feels wrong.â
âOh, shit. Is that why yâall didnât come toââ
âYes.â When you say all this out loud, now it has weight. Horrifying weight on your chest and a block pushing down on the gas. You hear a bit of shuffling on the line, and youâre starting to get so anxious that you blurt, âPlease donât say anything. Please.â
âI wonât. Not about this.â
âThank you.â
âHang up, babe. Make it safe.â
âOkay.â
Go, go, go. Please, just get there.Â
Letting up, you change your speed, hoping to everything good in the world that this feeling you have is only a feeling and nothing more.Â
Yoongi: Outgoing Call
What a strange emotion, wanting his reason for not picking up solely being because he doesnât wanna talk to you. That is an answer you can deal with.Â
But you still canât fight off the jagged pulses telling you itâs something else.Â
After an agonizing drive, you finally see his complex, tensing harder the further and further away you have to park.Â
Whipping into a spot, you screech into it before hauling your bag out, popping the trunk and desperately grabbing a plastic box you always keep inside.Â
And the mad dash drenches you long before you seek cover, your bones shivering shivering shivering from the chill.
Yoongi has to be home. His car is here.Â
But he still wonât pick up the fucking phone.
Skidding at his door, your knocks are rapid, knuckles singed from the ice cold wraps.
Answer, answer, answer. For fuckâs sake, he better answer.Â
After a haunting moment of silence, you decide to call one more time, head wet and bones shivering as you press the phone to your damp ear.Â
Finally. âHello.âÂ
âOpen the door,â you jump into commanding, hearing nothing other than a voice that sounds so crushed and low that it crumples you inside.Â
âYouâre here?âÂ
âYeah, let me in.â Fuck, your teeth are clattering against each other, whether itâs from the rain, the cold, or anger, you canât tell.Â
But the reply you get is the coldest thing imaginable. And it sets your whole body aflame.Â
âNot tonight.â
Hell no. Hell fucking no Yoongi is not going to get rid of you that easily. Not when you have a boatload of things to say and only one dock to dump them all on, âYoongi, I swear to godââÂ
âNot tonightââ
ââyou donât let me in Iâmââ
âGo homeââ
âIâm fucking staying out here until you open the goddamn door!â
Oh, youâre pissed. Youâre so fucking pissed because this all couldâve been avoided if none of them were stupid. Or prideful. Or whatever the fuck boys decide to be when they canât let something go.Â
And this man still has the audacity to give you the stiff arm, silence on the line before he rasps out another short, âIâm serious.â
âNo.â
âGo home.âÂ
âNo!âÂ
He says your name. So, so softly, before a gut-wrenching,Â
âPlease.â
Breath shaken, you rest your forehead against chilly wood, hoping it quells the fire you feel rising from your rib cage.Â
You canât give up. Not when you have so much to say. Not when you have to check on him and make sure heâs fine.Â
Not when you give into the strongest premonition that you need to be nowhere else but with him tonight.Â
You will stay. Stay, stay, stay. Even if he doesnât want to see you.Â
Voice trembling in rage and concern and everything in between, you feel your eyes sear through when they close, mission boiling down to one more desperate choice,Â
ââŠNo.âÂ
Youâre cold. And wet. But you will stand out here for as long as it takes him to let you insideâa night, a day, no matter what.
And for a moment. Or a few. You think heâs dead set on making you prove that.Â
But you finally, finally, finally hear a sigh before a lock turn, and you try to prepare yourself for what you see but he opens the door and his face comes into view holy shit he looks like a wreckâ
âWhat the fuck,â you grit out as you rush in with vision swimming, digging into your bag for the medkit you hastily stashed and swinging off your sandals because you gotta get something in theâ
A hand grips you hard, tugging you back before you even register whatâs happening.
As your feet stumble back onto linoleum, your gaze snaps to the ground.Â
And your breath cuts like itâs your last.Â
Shards.Â
Pieces.
Thousands of wood and glass chips litter the entire open area of the living room.Â
And realizing where they came from strikes like lightning.Â
Fuck. Oh, fuck, what did Yoongi do?
âI told you, doll.â
You choke on a sob.
âGo home.â
Your breaths return before you straighten, tears flowing freely as you donât know whether to start cleaning up the chaos or finally facing the one who caused it.
No, no, no. Get rid of it.Â
Throw it out, all of it, all of it.Â
A new fire roars to life, forging your steeling commitment as you wrestle out of Yoongiâs hold.
What did he do, what did he do?
Revving with smoke out of your ears, you burn a path to the kitchen, grabbing a trash bag before marching into the wreckage. Up go the biggest pieces first, chucked into plastic before the smaller ones follow.
Throw it all. This one, this one, and this one.
Yoongi isnât even wearing shoes. He can cut himself up even more if this all stays where it is.Â
Shit, this is everywhere.Â
When you realize youâre gonna need a broom, you storm back into his laundry closet to yank one out and keep going. When you go to sweep, the sharpest voice cuts through your fingers.
âStop.â
Your grit grips the tool even tighter. Because you wonât. Donât dare look into his expression, either, because you know that one glance will melt every scream on your tongue. So you stay resolute and shoot rejection to the ground, âNo.â
âJust go, please.â
âNo.â
This hurts.Â
This really, really hurts.Â
Yoongi has never, ever said these things to you and it feels like a knife jabbing into the same spot over, and over again. You almost prefer three new months of no contact over whatever the hell this is.
But you have to keep going. Eyes clenching, lips wobbling, you must keep going.Â
Because you came here for a reason other than this mess. And heâs gonna have to do better than this to kick you back out into the rain.Â
âI got it.âÂ
âLet me do it.âÂ
âYour brother needs you.â
âYeah, well, I already tore the fuck into him and Iâm gonna do the same to you.â You harden your fist on the sweeper, tugging it more towards your shoulder with finality. And you gather all the energy you need to leave no more room for arguments, because Yoongi is going to listen, âSo sit down.â
It hurts.
He wants to say shit. You know he wants to.
But he only breathes hard with eyes closed, following your orders and carrying his dark clouds to the dining room.Â
When he finally leaves you alone, this is when you look his way.Â
In sweats and a shirt, he appears fine. But with a deep pang, you notice heâs slightly limping. Judging from those knuckles, you wonder if theyâre red from the fight or from hitting another wall of his apartment.Â
Or from whatever the fuck happened around your feet.
Shit.
While he dumps himself at his table, you clean up the pieces of his rampage, mentally noting that one plan of yours has now changed.Â
This one. These, too. A string here. A metal piece there.
You donât know how long it takes you. All you know is that youâre burning inside, determined to clean everything and sweep this chaotic energy away.Â
One more. Two more. Another one here.
As soon as youâre done, you lug the trash bag out of the front door and donât give a shit what happens to it now.
Keep going. Thereâs more that you need to take care of.
The fuel inside of you rages on, anger conflicting with anxiety and past worries and sadness for something that didnât even happen. As you spin, you vow yourself to keep pushing until you canât anymore.Â
Sniffling. Shivering. But staying strong because things couldâve gone a lot worse.Â
Yoongi meets you by the table, messy, damp hair shielding his features. âYouâve done enough.âÂ
âI still need toââÂ
âJust.â He looks away. âGo home, doll. I canât do this tonight.âÂ
âDo what? Iâm helping you.âÂ
Thatâs what you do for each other, right? You both help each other. But now youâre not so sure because Yoongi comes back with not an acknowledgement, nor a way of relenting.Â
But ice.Â
âWho said I needed it?âÂ
And in all the time youâve spent with this man, this is the first time youâve felt downright cold. âYoongi, what?â Your eyes travel across his face, chest caving in when thereâs barely any hints of vitality. âAre you serious?âÂ
âYou think Iâm joking?âÂ
âYouâre kicking me out? What happened to saying youâd never do that, huh?âÂ
âI say a lot of things.âÂ
âŠOh.
That hurt. That⊠That physically couldnât have hurt any harder.Â
Nodding, you look away, shaking your head in disbelief because you are on the verge of losing it. âYou know what? You do say a lot of things.â
Walking away, you start rearranging pillows on the couch pushed askew. âLike how perfect I am.â Picking up his books from the now non-existent coffee table. âAnd how thereâs no one else.âÂ
As you give the volumes a new home on his intact tv stand, you turn to face him again. âThose are just words, too, huh?âÂ
Yoongi kicks his head back with a smile, one that cuts instead of mends. âNah⊠Not tonight.âÂ
âNot tonight what.âÂ
âWe arenât doing this tonight.âÂ
âThe fuck we arenât.â Itâs his turn to walk away, with a slow head shake that you really donât like. âWhere are you going?âÂ
âNowhere.â Yoongi shifts his head to the side, but not enough for you to fully see him. Itâs almost as if he doesnât want you to. âBut youâre going home.âÂ
Somethingâs off. Thereâs something completely off but all you feel is sadness and rejection in your ribcage. âSo this is how it happens, huh. Now Iâm just like everyone else.âÂ
He finally faces you, miles away even though youâre just rooms apart. âYouâre gonna go there?âÂ
âI am.âÂ
âWow.âÂ
Thatâs what he comes back with? This is gutting you from the inside out and you have no idea whatâs happening but now rage is flaring into your mouth, âYou think I wanted to come here? After what all of you did?âÂ
âDo you even know?âÂ
âNo! But how the fuck would I? You donât tell me shit!âÂ
âThatâs cusââÂ
Your response sears over his floors, âI can take care of myself. But none of you told me about that dude from the court. None of you.â Breath shaken, you continue dumping out all your thoughts and previous concerns, âIf I had known? That whole Dalo thing couldâve been avoided and I wouldâve ran.âÂ
For a person that youâve come to know as so warm, Yoongiâs entire aura freezes you over as you keep talking. âAnd today? You know how fucking scared I was? If I⊠IâŠâÂ
All he does is stare. Why isnât he doing anything else? Is he really flipping the switch and choosing to legitimately let you leave this time?
Fine then.Â
âYou know what?â Giving up, you laughâharsh, and breathy, and without any joy at all. âForget it. Youâre not even listening anyway.â
âI swear toâI just said not tonight.âÂ
Frustration from the game, fear from the ambush after, anxiety from not hearing from them. All of it coalesces into something you canât even control anymore. Your buffer shuts off, the monster you created seizing the reins, âNo, I get it. I do! You want me gone. Sure. See you in three more months.âÂ
Stunned, Yoongi huffs in disbelief, jaw working overtime. âAre you serious?âÂ
âYes, I am. Trying to help you but it looks like you donât even want that. So good fucking bye.âÂ
And it looks like he has a beast of his own because his next response to your last attempt has you reeling back in shock,Â
âWho asked you?âÂ
Dark liquid drips onto your soul.Â
You can only stare, unblinking and feeling like youâre in an entirely different universe. âWho asked me? Who asked me.âÂ
âThatâs what I said.âÂ
Forget the question of who asked you because⊠Who are you even talking to? Who is this person standing in front of you because itâs not the Yoongi you know. Itâs so jarring and hurtful and strange that you truly feel thrust into the middle of a nightmare.Â
Youâre gonna do it. Youâre actually gonna leave this time.Â
âYou know what? Kiss my ass, Yoongi.âÂ
God, it hurts. It hurts. It hurts.
It hurts.
You donât even know where this is all coming from. All you know is that youâre angry and thereâs no stopping the hot magma bubbling in your center.Â
Silence fills the room.
And it rains. It pours.
But finally, you hold a sob back before burning a shaky path to his door, wrestling with the lock before yanking it openâ
Only to have it shut back in your face, so thrown when you realize youâre getting spun. Air whooshes out of you before your shoulder blades connect with woodâ Â
And this is the goddamn breaking point. The walls you haphazardly built to keep you upright collapse and tumble. Itâs so potent and blinding that you donât even realize your hands are connecting with his chest in the weakest, saddest ways and you are outright screaming.Â
âGod, what the fuck! I told you toâWe didnât hear from you for hours and IâI didnât know if you were okayââÂ
âWhoa, hold uââÂ
âI thought the worst and Iâdidnât even get a chance toâI finally told you want I wanted and youâFuckââÂ
âJust listenââÂ
âDonât ever do that again! I donât wanna lose you and today was so fucking scary and Iâm not, fucking, leavingââÂ
Your lips are smashed to hell, his lips bruising so hard you feel it in the back of your skull. And itâs a whole storm as Yoongi pins you against the door, leg wedging between yours and his hands gripping you like a vice. Itâs intense. Itâs overwhelming.Â
âI swear toââÂ
You donât know what to do. What to do what to do what to do, and all your madness jangles as youâre yanked and slammed against another wall, breath leaping into his open mouth before you tug at his hair, digging anger through his shoulders.Â
âCanât fucking listen, can you?âÂ
âNo,â you rip from your throat, shoving him back only to gravitate right back and lock lips again.Â
And he rips at your clothes, tearing the front of your shirt so far your chest emerges on full display. Before you can even react to the cuts on his face, Yoongiâs hand clenches around your throat, making you gargle just how you fucking want to right now.Â
âShouldnât even fucking be here.âÂ
âWhen has that ever stopped us.â You groan as you get rapidly led back into something hard, and you realize itâs the dining table digging into your ass.Â
âHeâs still home.âÂ
âSo?â
âShouldnât youââ
âThen kick me out!â you taunt. âFor real. Let me go. Fucking do it then.âÂ
Yoongi works his jaw before gripping tighter, making you groan and your gut flare into something primal. Nostrils flaring, he moves to grip your head hard enough to make your stomach flip but not firm enough to scare you.Â
Never to scare you. âYou arenât gonna leave me alone.âÂ
Your eyes are ice.Â
âAre you.âÂ
You solely watch in determination, breath harsh from your nose and billowing out like steam. Drilling your answer into his eyes, you charge the surrounding air enough to spark like the flashing sky outside.Â
And Yoongi cracks like lightning.Â
âGoddamn it.âÂ
Everything happens at once and in quick succession. Teeth grit to hell, Yoongi pulls you upward before fast stepping you to his bedroom, slamming you through the door before you shove him right into his desk.Â
Things teeter and shake and clang with each impact, your storm disrupting everything in its path and creating a tornado of desire and thoughts in your brain.Â
Something swirls and twists between your souls, tightening and condensing into emotions darker than midnight. And as angry as you are, itâs slipping into a dangerous mania, and youâve never been this excited for anything in your life.Â
âStubborn.âÂ
âCoward.âÂ
Your back stings as youâre pushed back into his door, the wood smacking into the spackle of his wall. Rough lips smother yours as you claw at his shoulders, neck, hair, and you hear him growl into your mouth,Â
âWant me to kiss your ass? Suck my dick then weâll talk.âÂ
âFuck you. I give better head than you anyway.âÂ
His words rival the deepest growl, âProve it.âÂ
âMake me.â
Whirlwind. Storm. Tempest. At this point, itâs a whole goddamn high. Your body is thrumming and the only way to feed your anger is to channel it through actions.Â
And truth be told, you need this. You both do. With all the high strung emotions that had nowhere to go until you collided?
This is liberation.Â
Youâre shoved onto your knees before Yoongi dives into his pants, and youâre already hungry and impatient enough to help him shrug his sweats down before he can do it himself.Â
âChoke on it,â he commands, holding his dick and watching as you note how hard he already is. When you waste no time taking him in, you elicit the deepest groan youâve ever pulled from him when you fling spit onto his length.Â
Maybe his reaction is to your face. Because youâre still mad as fuck and you arenât done letting him know that.Â
With a passing thought, you realize that this is all new. But youâre welcoming it because itâs working. Only Yoongi can bring out this passion even in anger, or maybe the two of you were going to get to this point no matter what.Â
âFuck.â He steadies the bottom of your chin while you suck him off. âUh huh. Got anything else to say?âÂ
You flick him off, and he hums with a rumble, his cock reacting and hitting the back of your prideful throat.Â
âFuck you, too, doll.â His talks devolve into hisses, grunts, moans when you slobber all over yourself, and your cunt is already dripping with your own slick. âThere you go. Gonna take it all? Or are you gonna keep running that mouth?âÂ
And you pop off before taunting, âFind out, pussy.âÂ
And youâre swallowing him before he shoves you all the way forward, your body arching up in a gag but filled with him him him, your nose flat against his pelvis and his dick squeezing tears from your eyes and your throat overstuffed to hell and thereâs no way heâs gonna forget this moment. Youâre making damn sure of it.Â
Another middle finger raises as youâre tensing around him, and you can barely hear him above you but you do know heâs massively pleased. Tears stream down your eyes when youâre yanked off, gasping for air and being pulled off the ground.Â
âHoly fuck.âÂ
Throat hoarse, you attempt speech but it doesnât matter anyway, because his lips steal them all. And your cunt is slapped with a whole palm, making you flinch and shoot out a whine into his kiss.Â
Before you know it, your body hits the bed before he joins you, arms bulging as he rips your top open completely. You canât even think straight as he teases your earlier efforts, âIâve had better.âÂ
âOh, you fuckingâShut the fuck up,â you growl, a moan leaving without permission as he palms your cunt again. Just when you think heâs gonna top you, Yoongi hauls you up, hastily leading you around the bed until your back connects with another wall.Â
You love that shit. And youâre starting to think Yoongi is very, very aware of this fact.Â
âTake those fuckinâ pants off,â he orders. âAnd hands on the wall before I put them there.âÂ
âCanât make me do shitââ
Fingers grip your chin before Yoongi gets right into your face, primal instinct making you go on full alert. As his tongue prods his cheek, your whole lower body quivers. âI can. And I will, if you donât behave.â Tapping your jaw in a warning, he hums. âNow do what I fucking say.âÂ
Holy shit, heâs not playing around. Which only heightens your desire to peaks previously unreached, and youâre shucking your bottoms off while he yanks his drawer open for condoms. Hurrying, you fling your clothes away before plantingâ
Yoongi smashes his whole front against your backâpinning your whole body against the cold, rough wallâbefore intertwining long fingers with yours. âGood girl.âÂ
Hitching your hips back, he sticks your ass out as you slip, and you feel his cock tease your entrance. Groaning, you grip your hands into fists as he continues to rub your cunt but never enter. Denying, denying, denying. Smacking your pussy and still not letting you feel him inside.Â
And itâs maddening. âPlease!âÂ
âPlease what,â he asks, giving your ass a spank that has you flinching into the wall.Â
And, without any shred of mercy, this goes on for longer than heâs ever held out. Itâs so sickening that tears start flowing from your eyes, and you devolve into saying anything to get him to fuck your brains out. Between spanks on your ass, slaps on your tits, and aggravating kisses on your back, Yoongi doesnât let you phase him for minutes.Â
Itâs when you choke on a sob that he finally, finally squeezes inside of you, checking for your nod before wrecking you completely.Â
âOh, fuckââ Your eyes shut tight as you try to keep yourself upright, hands pushing against the wall as your legs shift with every thrust.Â
âThis ass. Fuck.â Yoongiâs pace is relentless, hands bruising your hips and your cheeks smacking into his pelvis over and over and over. âItâs a goddamn problem.âÂ
Youâre trying so hard. So, so hard to stay on the wall. But your hands are too sweaty; they're starting to slip with each attempt. âBed,â you command. âBed now.âÂ
And he obliges immediately, pulling out and yanking you back. Mouth to your ear, he both checks in while making your legs jelly, âYou tapping out?âÂ
âBreak my fucking back,â you rasp in return, hearing him growl in satisfaction before burying you facedown into his bed. As he plunges inside again, you grip at his sheets, driven to the brink and reveling in all the things heâs saying to you while feeling him in your stomach.Â
Suddenly, you feel your arms pulled back, and you yell into his mattress as he buries himself even deeper. Everything youâre screaming makes no sense, but the phenomenal sensation you feel as you go limp renders you speechless anyway.Â
Yoongi knows exactly what heâs doing as he pushes his thumb into your asshole, because you clench so hard around him that he chuckles darker than dark. Careening into space, you kiss the edge of euphoria before he inconveniently pulls out, launching a sling of insults from your mouth.Â
âWhat was that?âÂ
âI said fuck you!âÂ
âThought so.âÂ
Not done in the slightest, Yoongi hauls your thighs so flush against him that you have to use your fingertips for support. Just as youâre about to argue, he rams into you from a new and impossibly enticing angle and holy fuck it feels so good you want to weep.
âPut that fucking hand down,â he growls, smacking away the fingers you didnât even know were on your mouth. âIf you wanna talk shit.âÂ
âFuckâ!âÂ
âUh huh. Let it out, baby girl.â
Youâve never felt this out of control. This wild. This out of body. Your head is yanked back, your back pressing into the front of his shirt before you feel him so far into your guts that you quiver.Â
Now at the mercy of his tongue in close range, you hear his gravelly tone in your ear, âWhatâs my fuckinâ name.âÂ
âAssholeââÂ
A hard smack to your tits has you crumpling with a whine. âSay it.âÂ
âIâll say it if I wanna say itââÂ
Another spank to your inner thigh and youâre gone. Eyes roll as he tweaks your nipple, and your words are almost garbled when he grips your chin from behind. âThis what weâre doing? Hmm?âÂ
You laugh breathy before you taunt, âUh huh.âÂ
âMmâŠâ Despite your laugh, you shake. âI wouldnât do that, doll.âÂ
âMake me. Bet you canât.âÂ
Tensed and veins angry, Yoongi grips both your tits before snarling, âThatâs enough.âÂ
Swiftly, he shoves you down into the sheets, muscular frame pinning you as he strokes up into you just right. Again. Again. Itâs all too slow and too effective and youâre trying to stay mad but all you can feel is perfection, your back arching at his thrusts and mewling at his low growls in your ear.Â
âYou wanted this.â Another thrust. âTalking shit.â Your jaw goes slack. âPissing me off.âÂ
Your groan is downright erotic. Why why why? Just knowing youâre making him this mad flutters your cunt and, from the sinister chuckle shooting into your neck, Yoongi definitely felt that.Â
âFuckinâ thought so.âÂ
When he reaches to grab your breasts, the last thrust has you crying out in a flurry of pleasure.Â
Every single thought is Yoongi, from beginning to end in a biblical cycle of debauchery. Exertion leaves you slick, sweat coating the expanse of your skin only to press into his bed, your mess your mess your mess. At his hands. The smacks of his cock. The rolls of his hips. Are you gone? Are you here? If heâs bruised then you feel like you are, too, and you welcome the temporary pain as Yoongiâs fingers dig ever deeper into your waist fuck oneâs now pinning your head down.Â
The moans you let out are unending, and your thighs shake when all you get in response is a laugh of condescension.Â
âLook at you. Canât even stay mad.âÂ
âFuck you!â Youâre close, youâre close, youâre close again. Release is at your fingertips, but Yoongi yanks himself out to rip it away from your outstretched fingers. âNo!âÂ
âWhat, doll.âÂ
âPlease!âÂ
âNah.âÂ
Body sore, youâre flipped over with no mercy as something else presses against your cunt.Â
Fucking hell, heâs eating you out now? Shaking, you feel Yoongiâs tongue swirl around your thrumming clit before he sucks, edging you to the point of tears and heartbreak. And it proves too much as you grab at his head, yank at his hair, because he lets up when youâre close.Â
Every. Single. Time.Â
Your madness spirals into your curses, and he relishes in your despair, continuing to lick and suck and slap your thighs with patience. âWhat do you say?âÂ
âPlease!âÂ
âMm. Not loud enough.âÂ
âYoongi, please.âÂ
âOh, weâre saying names now?âÂ
Fuck, fuck, fuck, it aches. Itâs starting to borderline hurt. âIâll be good,â you barter, beg, plead with a head spinning off its own axis. âIâll do anything.âÂ
âDo it yourself then.âÂ
Later, when you look back on tonight, youâll be embarrassed and shy to hell. But right now, youâre so over any shyness that you donât hesitate, reaching down to rub at your clit and moaning when itâs so sensitive.
And Yoongi gets a front row seat.Â
His groan is gutteral. And it doesnât take you long to quicken your pace, bucking your hips and whining to the ceiling. Youâre so so so close itâs right thereâ
Your hand is smacked away. And after you try to wrestle out of his grip, you are a flat out, blubbering mess. âYoongi⊠PleaseâŠâÂ
âNah.âÂ
This is torture. And youâre frightened at how much youâre enjoying it. âIâm so close.âÂ
âYouâll come when I say you can.âÂ
âPlease! âŠPlease..â
âYou done being a brat?âÂ
âNo! Fuck. Yes!â If you werenât so far gone, you may have deciphered a tiny smile of amusement. But it wonât be for months later until youâll realize that you were wrong.Â
Because the menacing flash of teeth you see is much too wide to be anything other than pride. âThe fuck did I say? Use your words.âÂ
You know youâre still upset. You know Yoongi is still upset. But for some reason, you feel closer to him than you have in awhile, and you wonder if lust and madness are two sides of the same coin. âLet me come. Please.âÂ
Yoongi finally obliges with something he hadnât pleasured you with yet. And your vision blanks as you yelp at the sensation, his slick fingers pistoning into your folds so fast youâre arching so taut. From between your quivering legs, you hear one final command,Â
âThen fucking come.âÂ
And you burst, so hard you almost feel like something threatens to spew from your cunt. But all you can do is shake and thrash under his grip, so erratic that you feel like Yoongiâs starting to pin you down. Gone, gone, gone, youâre sure the veins of your neck threaten to break through your sweaty skin.Â
Then you feel his cock thrust inside of you, and you whip your head forward only to get your airway cut off. âAgain,â he calmly repeats, flinging you back to the last time this happened.Â
Only this time, thereâs even less room for you to make any other choice.Â
âI said again.âÂ
Your body cannot fathom disobedience, pulsing and milking his perfect fit. Over, and over, and over. You hear rumbling from a dragon above, feel breaths of steam whooshing as it watches you come undone.Â
âYoongiââÂ
A light slap to your cheek is your only warning before your chin is tugged, lips smushing into yours to swallow your straining sobs. Fuck, fuck, fuck, your body is still thrumming, inundating around his cock until your emotions spill from your core. Toes. Fingers. Everything is straining and locking in place.Â
âSo fucking hot.â He rips your soul right out. âShit.âÂ
You fly through time and space, gathering emotions and feelings and spiraling spiraling spiraling. Crying. Youâre crying. Full on crying youâre so overwhelmed with everything truly you were so mean to him you upset him holy fuck you shouldâve left when he told you toâ
âBaby.âÂ
But you cannot stop crying, choke choke gasping on sobs.Â
âBabe.âÂ
âIâIââÂ
Your name stabs you with a crisp shot, coupled with a firm grip on your chin, snapping you back to lucid. And Yoongiâs eyes are frantically searching your own. âLook at me.âÂ
You do. Do you? You do. And his eyesâŠÂ
Theyâre not angry at all. Itâs pure concern. Steadfast concentration. And something reflecting your soul. âBreathe.âÂ
âOh, shit,â you whisper, coughing and reaching for oxygen you didnât know you were denying. Air rushes back into your lungs as you inhale.Â
âThere you go. Keep going.âÂ
You do, gulping down air and hiccuping a breath or two. Your cheek is being caressed, you think. And with another pass, you know it is.Â
âRelax for me.â And you hiccup a sob. âBreathe, babe.âÂ
You do, you do, you do. Yoongi kisses your forehead, your cheeks, your nose, and you breathe more and more through it all. âYou with me?âÂ
âAlways,â you answer, filter off because you are hanging by a thread and heâs holding the top. âPlease donât kick me out ever,â you hiccup. âPlease, baby, Iâll do anything for you but Iâcouldânever handle thatââÂ
Youâre tenderly hushed before lips slide over yours, attempting to swallow your thoughts and your sobs and your oncoming tears. As you flood his bed with apologies, Yoongi keeps wiping them all.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
âNothing to be sorry for.âÂ
âIâm really sorry.âÂ
âBabe.âÂ
âYou told me so many timesââÂ
âBreathe, angel.âÂ
You blink at the change in name, and it makes you focus just a bit stronger. Floating down from the precipice.Â
âI wasnât kicking you out,â he slowly explains, kissing sweat from your forehead. His words feel like a calm, rock-filled river over your eyes. âI felt like an idiot and hated you seeing me like this.âÂ
âLike what?âÂ
âJust⊠Like this.âÂ
âYouâre perfect like this,â you hitch out, not caring about what flows out of your mouth. âSo perfect. Always to me. I just wanted to help you, baby, Iâm so sorryââÂ
He hugs you so tight more tears squeeze out.Â
And so do more confessions, âI⊠I care about you. I think a little too much. If I lost you, I wouldnâtâbe ableââÂ
âIâm here.âÂ
âSo please donât push me away.âÂ
âI wonât.âÂ
âI know you donât make promises butââÂ
âI promise.â Without an ounce of doubt, Yoongi places a firm, lingering kiss on your temple. âPromise. Fuck.â As he holds you tight, you feel him shake before you hear the tiniest sniff at your ear.Â
Oh. He doesnât need to be like this, too. You try to move your hand up between your bodies to comfort him, but your whole limb feels gelatinous. So you simply whisper, âItâs okay, baby.âÂ
You canât tell how long you lie like this, with his beautiful weight on yours. But time is irrelevant when your mind is unwinding from hours of whirring, starting to finally accept the fact that everyone is okay and you donât have to be angry anymore.Â
âCome on,â Yoongi rasps, voice cracked and airy. âLetâs go.âÂ
âHmm?âÂ
âShower.âÂ
âOh. Okay.âÂ
Youâre so thrown and dizzy from what just happened that even getting to the bathroom is a blur. What you kinda feel is Yoongi holding you upright when your legs buckle, but you donât remember when he leaves your side to turn the water on.Â
As he flips on the light, your eyes squeeze until they adjust, and you watch as he tests the water while fully clothed. Air conditioning starts to give you a chill, but the shower warms up just in time because he reaches out to guide you inside.Â
Wait. Is he not joining you? Bleary, you grab at his shirt when he steps away, eyes pleading. âAre you coming in, too?âÂ
Yoongi stops before he gives a shake of his head. âIâll take mine when youâre done,â he says through a slight smile. âWeâll take care of you first.âÂ
That doesnât make sense. Even in your depleting haze, you know something doesnât add up. âYou can join me now. I donât mind.â When you try to lift his shirt, Yoongi visibly flinches when you brush over his ribs.
And all the murk around your head vanishes in a snap.Â
He kept his shirt on that whole time. Not once did your positions allow you to see his upper body fully. And now heâs not gonna get in the shower or take his shirt off?Â
Your voice lowers two octaves when you reach full clarity. âLet me see.âÂ
Unblinking, Yoongi tries to back away, âDonât worryââÂ
âLet me see it, baby,â you command, breath cut until he finally allows you to lift his shirt up holy fuck those injuries look so painful tears prick your eyes. âOh, my god, YoongiââÂ
âIâm fine.âÂ
âYouâre hurt.â You feel these wounds deep in your ribs, and you tell him to get your kit what the hell he fucked you while feeling those?Â
Attempting to alleviate your stress, Yoongi decides to strip fully and step into the shower, ignoring your pleas to grab your med kit and promising you can take care of him when youâre done washing up.Â
âAre you sure youâre okay?â
âYes, doll.âÂ
âAre you sure?âÂ
âPromise.âÂ
And when his arms wrap around you, this is when you finally let go. Huge, chest-wracking sobs echo around tile, and Yoongi stays quiet through your cathartic release.Â
Thereâs another reason you were so upset. And it has nothing to do with any of them, but with yourself. The main reason youâve been so riled up and frustrated is because⊠This is technically your fault, too.Â
But, unsurprisingly, he wonât let you take any blame whatsoever.Â
âYou got hurt cus I said to play.âÂ
âNope.âÂ
âI wore the outfit that day.âÂ
âDoesnât matter.âÂ
âAnd lost my friends at the club.âÂ
âNo.âÂ
Sniffling in quick succession, you think about one other option. Some form of closure that can double as compromise. Voice soft, you suggest the last resort you have,Â
âHow about we share it.âÂ
Yoongi blinks twice before he clarifies, âYou wanna share the blame?â When you nod, he huffs through the tiniest smile of confusion. âMm. Then itâs our fault.âÂ
âOkay.âÂ
After shaking his head, he closes his eyes, molding his forehead with yours. âWhat are you doing to me.âÂ
A sniffle. âWrecking your water bill.âÂ
His laughs join yours as you barely get your sentence out before giggling, and to feel him so close and present and here makes your worries slink down the drain.Â
Hands trace down your arms, walking along falling rivers before creating ponds with your fingers intertwined. âGonna clear me out someday.âÂ
âDuh.âÂ
Heâs himself again.Â
And after a whole night of chaos, you feel like yourself again, too.Â
Thatâs all you both need to feel peace.Â
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You keep that tranquility carrying you through his room, peeking into his closet to grab the biggest shirt and sweats you can find before drying your head.Â
But no matter how much water you can dry, your body will keep being washed in relief. And itâs the calmest feeling, watching as Yoongi does the simplest things near his bed.Â
Your lips curve when he pulls up his pants; your heart beats when he grabs a tee. Itâs in this moment that you admit that these outfits of his are your favorites, and you gravitate to him as he slips cotton over his damp head.Â
âCome on,â you softly offer as you turn. âIâll make food and get you some ice.â
Again, Yoongi just stares with a faint smile. But his eyes are alive again, so youâre more than fine if he just follows your lead without a word.
In the kitchen, you pause amongst the appliances, the cabinets watching as you utilize your phone to find a good recipe. âWhat shall we eat⊠Stew? Or, waitââÂ
Looking up, you eye him in thought before choosing to focus on something else. âActually, letâs figure you out first.âÂ
Opening yet another tab to add to your hundreds, you type away before selecting a good starting point. âOkay, letâs see. Youâre breathing fine, so no bruised ribs. UmmâŠâÂ
Scroll, scroll.Â
âIt looks really bad there, though. You sure you can move right?âÂ
Despite asking, you go right back to your phone before Yoongi can even respond. Scrolling and clicking and reading again.Â
Scroll, scroll.Â
âOkay, so no bruised ribs, and according to this you donât have any broken bones. And nothing fractured, either, thank godââ
âI love you.âÂ
Time bursts.
Your chest glows.Â
Everything starts to beat, beat, beat in slow motion.Â
And you donât even feel like youâre in the room anymore. ââŠWhat?âÂ
You need to hear it again. You need to need to need to, because if you heard him wrong, you will check yourself and bolt right out the door.Â
His eyes.Â
Despite the battlefield on his skin, they are dripping, and sparkling, and full. The whole world suspends as he stares right into your soul, caressing it with his wounded hands and cradling it in his bruised arms.Â
No matter how hard the moon will tryâfor years, and years, and years moreâit will never outshine this single, shaken, solidified admittance.Â
âI love you, doll.â
You donât know what to do. You donât know what to fucking do.Â
Why is Yoongi saying this now? Why is he choosing now of all times to make you the happiest person in the universe?Â
No.Â
Happiness isnât even close to what you feel and youâre pretty sure youâre crying but nothing makes sense and your vision plunges under sunlit waters.Â
âAnd you donât have to say anything. I know I donât deserve to.âÂ
What?
âI canât be everything you want. Or need. Or whatever the fuck Iâm trying to say. But I just needed you to know because I canât fucking fight this shit anymoreââÂ
You lunge forward before he offers his last syllable, careful to avoid his wounds and not mush his face because he would do the same for you.Â
And itâs all too much tonight. The lingering fear, the dying anger, the floods of relief, the joy. You canât stop your sobs from coming out in bursts, your whole body wracking with overwhelming emotion as he grits into your skin,
âGoddamn it, Iââ
âYoongiââ
ââso fucking much.â
Yoongi loves you. Heâs here. He loves you, loves you, loves you and the beats of your heart pulse orange and blue, blue, blue.Â
Nothing will ever compare to this moment. Nothing. You will bottle this one up in a jar to place next to all the others you have stored, and when you are lonely, or hurt, or even when youâre doing just fine, you will uncork it to surround yourself with this memory and know that everything will be okay.Â
He loves you.Â
Fuck, he loves you?Â
You choke out his name with a sob, and he squeezes you even harder. When you canât reply with anything else, he buries his face in the crook of your shoulder, his tears taking root and blossoming into beautiful vibrant fruit all along your rib cage.
He loves you.
Why canât you seem to say it back? What the fuck is wrong with your tongue?
Maybe itâs because saying it doesnât feel like enough. Like itâs laughable that there are words for this feeling because they donât nearly represent what you harbor in your very being for this man.Â
Thereâs no way any words are enough. Not for him. Nor for you. Because right now, Yoongi needs something more. And youâre going to give him more than everything.Â
âYoongi, Iââ
He captures your lips in his, and you let him push you against his counter and consume you everywhere he wants to. Between his claims, your sobs have room to breathe. Which makes for a horrible showing of your attempting to say what you want to. âI⊠I canât⊠Yoongiââ
Fingers press into the back of your head, a forehead smushing into yours and shutting you up completely. âIâm sorry,â he says, words rolling down the tracks your tears have walked. âI wonât ever be able to say that enough.âÂ
âBaby,â you hiccup, resting a hand over one of his. âItâs okay.âÂ
âItâs not.â
âIt is.â You squeeze his hand, feeling the lovely digs of his knuckles in your palm. His scent wafts around you like an embrace, and you know thereâs nothing quite like it. At all. âYouâre okay, so Iâm okay.âÂ
After he plants a warm kiss on your temple, you feel his hands ball into fists at your ears. âI justâfuck.âÂ
Thereâs no telling what heâs thinking about in that brain of his. But you need him to know that thereâs nothing more for him to be sorry for. All you care about is that heâs present, responding, and himself.Â
âBabe,â you whisper, still not believing those three words coming out of his mouth. âIâm here.âÂ
âI know.â He sighs, smushing into your lips and holding you so tenderly, yet so tight. As he laps at your tongue, youâre more than sure he can taste your rainfall.Â
None of this is real. Because you canât believe it at all. Even as Yoongi continues his journey across your neck, your shoulders, your jaw, your face, you still canât piece together that this is truly happening.
When you feel him hard on your pelvis, you remember that he didnât get the same release you got earlier. But youâre not gonna be the one to suggest going again, all of this will be what he decides.Â
And what Yoongi decides is to pull you closer, breathing you in while you do the same. His kisses are never ending, and your hands roam languidly along his shoulders, his hair, stretching across the expanse of his back. One that has held the weight of the world and then some.
His name leaves your mouth in a sigh, your back arching as softly as the kisses being planted along your breasts.Â
âIf you only knew,â he whispers, laughing to himself as he wraps an arm around your side.
âKnew what?â
âNothing, babe.â You gasp into his next rough press to your lips. âYouâre soâfuck.â
You said youâd let him lead. But as Yoongi starts to walk you into his bedroom again, you think about his injuries and feel more concerned after knowing theyâre there. So you quietly stop him as you reach his bed, âAre you sure?âÂ
âIâll be alright, doll,â he whispers, lowering you down and smiling so tranquilly your heart lurches. âAs much as I think you enjoyed the first time, this time will be better.âÂ
Giggling, you fight the heat from searing your cheeks as you smile. âYou enjoyed it more than I did, I think.âÂ
âI donât think so.â Yoongi smirks, getting up. âLemme get a condââÂ
âItâs okay,â you halt him with a hand, and he freezes.Â
Full stop. No movement. Not even a breath. â...What?âÂ
âWe donâtâŠâ You swallow, stomach fluttering at his expression. âWe donât have to this time.âÂ
Because Yoongiâs eyes have not left your face. âYou sure?âÂ
Then something causes you to smile. Knowing that if thereâs anyone you want to do this with, itâs this man right here and now. Thereâs genuinely no one else in the world with whom you would wanna share this experience, and the fact that heâs still asking makes you emotional.
Cradling his face with the most tender touch you can imagine, you confirm, âJust for a little bit.â And you add something you think he needs to keep hearing. âI trust you.âÂ
Gulping down any extra emotions spilling from your heartâs chalice, your words come out a little wobbled. âAnd I want to, if you want it, too.âÂ
âI want what you want, doll.âÂ
âThen itâs okay.â Â
Clothes on or off, you still feel so shy underneath him.Â
But this time, you vow to shove those feelings of unworthiness to the side. Because you are fully invested in this moment above all others. And Yoongi deserves more than you can give.Â
When he slowly tugs his sweats from your legs, youâre already choking back tears. As he climbs on top, you await the connection you never in your dreams wouldâve imagined.Â
And when Yoongi stares at you one more time, you know exactly what heâs asking.Â
âYes, my love,â you wisp into his skin, craning up to kiss him and swallowing his last slice of doubt. Knowing youâll say it again and again and again.Â
His brows pinch as he kisses youâslow, purposeful, understanding. Then he positions himself, and you can physically feel his hand brush your cunt as he does so. If he ever asks if you felt him shake, you will deny it. But only for a year or two.Â
As soon as you feel himâonly him, solely himâyou swell with a current of emotion. And it pulls you all the way under when heâs fully sheathed inside.Â
âHoly fucking shit.âÂ
âYoongiââÂ
âFuck.âÂ
Simply having him inside, with no barriers or obstacles in between? Youâre already close. Thereâs no early explanation, but you already feel overwhelmed enough to come.Â
No no no. You want this to last forever, so you wait for Yoongi to gather himself because he appears to be fighting, too.Â
Chuckling, you ask, âYou good, baby?âÂ
And your lover snaps his gaze to your face, bangs sweeping across your cheeks and eyes unblinking. âYeah, just...â He stares at your inquisitive expression before whooshing out a harsh breath. âJust this is about to make me bust.âÂ
You burst into laughter before admitting you were just thinking the same thing, and his slow grin makes you want to cry. âWeâre not good at this.âÂ
âNo. Youâre too good at this. I canât even move.âÂ
âYes, you can,â you whine. âYou wreck my shit all the time.âÂ
Feeling a twitch more prominent than ever, you giggle as Yoongi puffs out pained amusement. âDoll, if you keep talking like that, Iâm pulling out.âÂ
âOkay, okay,â you surrender, loving how out of sorts he seems. Heâs fighting for his life and youâre enjoying the hell out of it.Â
âYouâre a little too perfect right now.â
Maybe one day you will agree with him. But that day is far from reach, your head shaking in quiet disagreement.
âYou are.â
âNowhere close,â you whisper.
His nose brushes against yours. âSay that again and see what happens.â
âIs that what you tell all the others fuck!â
His shove up your cunt makes you see stars. âWhat did I fuckinâ say?âÂ
âWhatââ
Another launch has you careening through space, lip bitten and suppressing a hearty whine. âYou think thereâs someone else?â Again. âHmm?âÂ
Again.Â
Youâre so dazed and mind-fucked to pieces that your speech is barely audible. But your chin is grabbed as youâre snapped straight, and your eyes try their hardest to focus on slitted ones above. âYouâre gonna regret saying that.âÂ
You just laugh, whine pinging sharp into the ceiling as he shoves forward so hard your whole body shifts upward. âOh, yeah?âÂ
Yoongi doesnât respond with words, thrusting up again and sending you twisting and winding towards the edge unbelievably fast. âUh huh.âÂ
âMake me then,â you gasp out. âMake me really sorry.âÂ
The sound Yoongi makes comes from deep within his stomach, the rumbling hum shooting right into your veins like liquid fire.Â
And the full-on attack he bursts into renders you completely speechless. Everything Yoongi does pulls you deliciously in all directionsâhis thrusts, his chain hitting his chest, his grip on your wrists, the way he snags your chin. Everything.Â
âTaking me so well like this.âÂ
âIââ
âSo fucking tight.â
Fuck fuck fuck itâs habitual for you at this point, and you unhinge your jaw a split second before he smacks the side of your face. Desire lowers your lids halfway as you feel empowered, and you donât even recognize your voice as you order him on the spot. âDo it again.âÂ
Yoongi doesnât stop his pace as he keeps his eyes on you.Â
âDo it again,â you growl, fully limp and a groaning mess when he does exactly what you want.Â
Fuck, the pain feels good. So good that you reach up and choke him out. But the back of your head is grabbed before you feel hungry lips smash into yours. You feel your wrists pinned again by one large palm, air chilling for a moment before a hot mouth captures one of your nipples. âOh, fuck, Yoongi!âÂ
âUh uh.âÂ
âPleaseâpleaseââÂ
Youâre still tensing as he devours your chest below his shirt, strokes now slower but just as powerful.Â
Your arms still havenât been freed, but thereâs something about being under his control that has you loving this position. Without question. Maybe itâs the fact that you can see him now, losing himself just as he saw you washes in the throes of passion.Â
And he licks, sucks, lolls his tongue all over your tits, whispered praises sinking through your bosom as he keeps a grip on your wrists.Â
âBaby,â you gasp. âIâm close, IâmââÂ
âShit.â Air whooshes over you before you feel your arms freed and him yank himself out, and you freeze as he unloads right on your stomach, a sharp cocktail of pride and shock in your gut.Â
Holy fuck, Yoongi was that close? Did he hold out as long as he could? Shit, heâs breathing so hard his jewelry shakes as it dangles.Â
Youâre still so surprised that your arms are still locked into bends, and he glances up at you from his kneeled state. âFuck,â he laughs, and is that⊠Is Yoongi shy? âThought I could hold out.âÂ
âNo, no, itâs fine,â you assure through your own tiny chuckle. âOh my god, I promise.âÂ
He leans down to plant a heart fluttering kiss on your lips, but you hate how he looks pained on the way down.Â
Those hits he took⊠Now you kinda understand his perspective. Because now you want to avenge him in five hundred thousand waysâalmost half as many ways as you want to show him how you feel.Â
âStay there, beautiful,â Yoongi orders as he moves to get off the bed, wincing in passes. âIâm not done with you.âÂ
Damn. He looks even more exhausted than before. âBaby, are you sure?âÂ
But Yoongi walks right to his bathroom to retrieve a towel, and your eyes may as well transform into hearts when you watch him come back to you. So handsome, even now. Even when heâs simply holding a washcloth, hair completely mussed, soul sparkling and face bruised.Â
As he sits to clean your face before moving to your stomach, you can only observe his eyes. So experienced. Calm. At peace. When they drift to yours, itâs instinct that has you shying away. âWhat, love.âÂ
Another reason to crumble inside. âI just⊠nothing,â you whisper.Â
And Yoongi finishes with the cloth before tossing it somewhere. âTell me,â he says, lying down on the ribs with more damage. âI wanna know.âÂ
âCome on this side,â you tell him, and he obliges without a word. âItâs a secret.âÂ
âA secret?âÂ
âMmhmm.âÂ
Yoongi settles before lifting your chin, rubbing an affectionate thumb over any tears still persevering on your cheeks. âI can keep those, you know.âÂ
Smiling, you fold way too easily. âOkay, Iâll tell.âÂ
When he leans in, your nervousness and excitement to tell him almost spoils your ability to do so. Like someone gifting a present while wanting to say what it is before itâs even opened.Â
âI love you, too,â you whisper, tears sprinting to your ducts as Yoongi freezes. When he looks at you, you canât help but choke on a sob seeing his eyes get as red as the marks on his cheek. âAnd you deserve more than I could ever give.âÂ
His eyes hold the heavens and the seas.Â
Youâre right. Just saying it isnât fucking enough.
Youâre already liplocked again before you can think, saltwater on your face and you donât even know whose eyes it came from.
Determined, Yoongi starts kissing a trail from your lips to your jaw, and you start to cry as he makes his own journey down the expanse of you.Â
All of you.
Is this what it feels like? Is all of this actually, genuinely real?
You hope so, because you feel devotion in each press of his lips, and every touch will be remembered in its own right. Its own pocket of time.
Every single stop.
It almost feels divine when his mouth reaches your folds, lapping at your essence and swirling around your clit. When you say his name, Yoongi says nothing, instead palming your thighs and eating you out like he has all the time in the world.Â
Swelling, you already feel close.Â
But the way he gets you to fantasia is so natural that you slide into your quivers seemlessly. The transition into your heaven flows like a stream, and your waves engulf his tongue and coat his mouth without trouble.Â
This is what it feels like. What it feels like with Yoongi.Â
And you wanna keep making love until only sleep can take you from him.
Your hands jut into his hair, gasping as he keeps his pace, and no matter how you squirm he is dead set on holding you down until holy fuck youâre coming again.Â
How? Whatâs happening to you? This constant stream of release is shocking you to the point of crying out, and Yoongi groans into your orgasm and prolongs it with the whole press of his tongue.
âHoly fuck, babyâ!â Another wave overcomes the next, and you outright quake in his hands, eyes rolling and vision blinking white. Muscles lock as you canât keep up with the pleasure, and youâre mercilessly let go only for lips to descend on yours.
Your tears spill into your ears as you kiss him back, wrapping tired arms over his shoulders and raking in deep.Â
âFuck.â And you feel his cock lodge against your entrance, and youâre amazed how hard he is again.Â
Does he want what you want? Is he ready again?Â
As Yoongi quietly gets up to get a condom, youâre amazed that he wants to keep going after everything thatâs transpired. But, if he feels like you do, heâs ready to keep going until the sun comes up three whole times.Â
When he sits next to you, your better half appears shy as he bites the wrapper. âDonât take this the wrong way.â
âOh, I already know.â
âK. But god, I fuckinâ want to.â
You bite your lip to hold back your smile, remembering what he said a long time ago and bringing it back full circle for the next thing you both wanna try. âOne day.â
Yoongi only grins.Â
And for the next hour, your lover, your secret, your home gives you everything he has, and you come for him more times than you ever have in your life.
Every time, he drags your pleasure out, expertly tearing you down with his movements and building your confidence up with his words. He tells you youâre perfect, and he disagrees when you disagree. When you find tears on your face, he kisses those away, too. When you feel along his silver, he simply watches you in silence.Â
No sadness, doubt, nor anger to be found.Â
After you physically canât do any more, Yoongi lies at your side, silent as you play with his hair. You do your best to stay still, not wanting to accidentally push into any of his injuries that youâre gonna beg him to get checked in the morning.Â
Once heâs healed? Thatâs when youâll never let go. Because you want to crush him into you completely. Mold into him, just so he can feel the brevity of your highest affection.Â
âIâm sorry for yelling,â you finally whisper. âBut I really was so mad at you. All of you.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
âI donât wanna lose you.â
âIt wonât happen again.âÂ
âThatâs what you said last time.âÂ
Yoongi stares, seeming to withhold something from you before he palms your cheek. âThey were gonna follow us home if we didnât, babe,â he reveals, snapping your heart back in two. âWe all knew that.âÂ
âOh, fuck.â Everything hits you at once: why they stayed, why you and Taehyung had to leave. Why Tae didnât bring you straight back to the house. And the burns at your eyes match the searing in your gut. âI didnât⊠I didnât think about that.âÂ
When you start to cry, Yoongi sits up and hangs his head between his sweats. âYou donât need to think about shit like that,â he murmurs, sounding defeated as ever. âBut we talked after you told us off. We wonât hide that from you anymore.âÂ
Sniffling, you whisper out a thank you. But you donât want Yoongi to feel like he has to distance himself, so you untangle himâslowly, gentlyâ-before bringing him into your chest.Â
After dealing with all that and the tempest in his living room, this man still let you in. From the looks of things, thereâs a lot that he had been fighting, and youâre more than appreciative that he opened his door. Not knowing how to put these feelings into words, you say the first things that come to mind. And for some reason, they feel heavier on the way out,Â
âThank you for letting me in. It was raining really hard.âÂ
Yoongi stiffens hard before holding you closer.Â
âBabe?â
No response. Just another batch of weighted quiet.Â
Worried, you tilt your head. âHey. Look at me.â
If he stays right where he is, youâll have to respect that decision. But he ends up pushing himself up, and as soon as you see moonlight catch on a falling tear, all your instincts reach for him, âOh, fuck, come here.â
You surround him with everything you have, wanting every single bit of warmth birthed from his love to fill his space instead of yours. Whatever he needs, you will give. âItâs okay, baby,â you whisper, holding him so close but not nearly close enough.Â
Never close enough.
His face is buried in the crook of your neck, and you will let him live there whenever he needs to. âIâm not mad anymore, okay?â God, you hate how heâs still so silent. You get it, but you hate whatever made him default to this state. âIâm just glad youâre alright.â
After light rain fills the room, your soul breaks at a sniffle, and you crush your love even tighter.
âThis isnât about that, doll,â Yoongi finally whispers, burying wet eyes further into your shoulder. âItâs justâŠâ
Itâs what? Whatâs he thinking about? Hopefully itâs not anythingâ
âItâs so fucking better when youâre here.âÂ
When you choke out a sob, his body locks, words pouring from nowhere and everywhere. âI sleep better. Eat better. Fuck, I even feel better even if nothing else changes.â
âYoongiâŠâ
âItâs true.â Sighing, he sniffles again before letting his weight drop onto you in resignation. Or relief. âI mean that.â
âThen⊠Those three monthsâŠâ
âOne day, Iâll tell you everything,â he offers, making you wonder what the hell heâs been through in the past. And if it has something to do with that guitar he smashed to pieces. âBut from now on, you can be here whatever you want.âÂ
Many things have shifted tonight. As if an earthquake had upturned everything between the both of you, only peace has settled in its wake. A peace you had never felt before. As you brush fingers through his hair, you joke, âSo I can come to those parties you host, too?âÂ
âThose werenât my idea, by the way. Jimin made me.â Kissing your shoulder, Yoongi continues to admit, âHe was worried. And hoping you would show.â
Oh. Thatâs news to you.Â
âI knew you wouldnât. But.â He exhales before nestling in further. âI did hope to see you, too.âÂ
âItâs okay.â You rub the back of his neck, your fingers feeling nothing but warmth and the softness of his clothes. âIt wouldâve been too obvious.â
âWhat wouldâve.â
âThat I wanted you all to myself.â
âYou already have that.â
When you stiffen, your words are tiny. âYou know what I mean.â
Yoongi laughs soft, taking one of your hands in his and bringing it up for a kiss as you blurt, âMy brother was the one that invited me. To come to those, I mean.â
The way he blinks is comical. âHuh.â
âI know.â Itâs your turn to bring his hand close, kissing along his knuckles before you stare out the window behind him. âIt makes me wonder if he knows.â
âWhat if he does?â
You snap your eyes right to his. âDoes he?â
Yoongi watches your lips linger on his fingers before he tells the truth, âNo.â
âOkay. But youâre sure I can stay?âÂ
âWho do you think you bought those groceries for?âÂ
Oh. Wait. âWhat?âÂ
Grinning so sly, Yoongi reveals the plan he had all along, âI get you for a week, right?â
Oh. Holy shit. You cannot quite possibly deal with what this man is saying. That whole time you were shopping for his list⊠No wonder he was already done with dinner when you got there oh youâre gonna get him back for that.Â
Light bursts from your center as you grit out through a grin, âYou sneaky littleââ Pulling his tilted mouth in for another kiss, your heart pulses little pink stars as he leans in with a laugh, and you meet lips again and again until he slowly, reluctantly stops.Â
âOne day,â he murmurs out of nowhere, and you flick your eyes to his. âIâll be better.â
Of course he will. You have no doubts. But, just like he always does for you, youâre gonna start offering the same reassurance out loud, even if he knows itâs there.Â
And you canât contain your little laughs at your own joke, despite him just staring into your face right after you crack it, âDonât make it just one day, silly.âÂ
Even if youâre very serious, itâs in your nature to lighten things up. Especially after hearing such wonderful news for whatâs coming. Clutching a little bit of his shirt, you whisper with complete devotion,Â
âWeâll make it as many as we can.â
You hate how you feel him freeze, knowing what that means, what plaguing little thoughts are embedded in that tiny shift.Â
Yoongiâs still hesitant to accept.
Because you are, too. In many ways. But this man has been picking you up and making you stronger day after dayâin both his presence and absenceâthat you canât help but fight to do the same.Â
Does he ever think about you? Does he know that youâll always be with him? No matter how close or far apart you are? You hope so. Because itâs so true that your heart is searing that promise into your soul, branding it as a reminder to reciprocate all this genuine love youâve never been given before.
He loves you?
You still canât accept that as fact.
âŠMaybe one day.
You chuckle to yourself, deciding to keep talking because Yoongi is still so very quiet. âAt least. Until the day I get to meet my cat,â you huff in triumph. âThen Iâm running away with her.â
Itâs a perfect strike of a match. âOh, yeah?â
âYeah.â You pretend to pout. âBut Iâm starting to think she ran away already and you wonât fess up.â
Yoongi laughs so suddenly you flinch. After a playful scoff, he tries to make you feel better, âSheâs still here!â
âLies.â
âHow much are you betting, doll.â
âHow much are you willing to lose, babe.â
âThis much,â he finally says, pinching your sides and hissing laughter when you scream. âMaybe Iâll make you leave after all if youâre gonna be a problem.âÂ
âYou did threaten to kick me out before.âÂ
âHuh? When?â
âThat day I showed up,â you remind him through a chuckle. Thrown back to that first night, you start to see all the parallels between then and now. And how vastly different things have become. âSaid you were gonna kick me out for hustling you.âÂ
The glorious laughter from the depths of his belly makes you grin, and you cringe when his brows pinch in both laughter and pain. âI shouldâve!âÂ
He needs to get those hits healed. âYou really shouldâve.âÂ
âPlayed me from the very start. You happy with yourself?â When you nod, Yoongi shakes his head. âCourse you are.âÂ
âYou love it.âÂ
âI do.â Your eyes meet, which proves dangerous for you because he bites his smirk before pulling you in for a kiss. âThought I was gonna say it, huh.âÂ
âNo!â You lie. Because no, you certainly were not! ââŠMaybe.âÂ
âGuess what.âÂ
Suddenly paranoid, you give him a look, already expecting to be tricked again.Â
But Yoongi captures your lips without warning, curling your toes into sheets youâre now achingly familiar with. After a few passes, he shifts above, planting a hand at your side and letting his chain slide against your chest as he slots a leg in between yours.Â
Yet again, you think about that first night, that first time. The first of apparently, surprisingly, wonderfully unexpectedly many.Â
Who wouldâve thought rain and a broken ego would bloom into something good? Who wouldâve believed a person so close to your roots would be your home?Â
As he lets up with one last slow stroke of his tongue, you whisper, âWhat were you gonna say?âÂ
At this, Yoongi spreads closed lips, taking his time planting a peck on your nose. âI just fucking love you, doll.âÂ
Oh. Heâs a menace and the most annoying tease on the planet.Â
When you canât do anything but flee into his chest, Yoongi immediately laughs, forcing you back out of your little shell. âYou canât hide now, babe.âÂ
âI can!âÂ
Leaned forward in your struggle, you give him no choice but to swoop his head into your neck. Which backfires on you immensely because he decides itâs the perfect time to rasp deep against your ear, âI love fucking you, too.âÂ
His name flies out of your mouth in disbelief and embarrassment, and his heightened amusement puffs into the burning column below your chin.Â
This is the moment something comes over you. Slams into you. Washes you in present nostalgia like lingering footsteps on a balcony.Â
And it hurts. It really, really hurts.Â
Instead of laughing along, you come down from your high, squeezing him like the pillow that couldnât replicate his warmth for months. âI miss you.â
After a second, Yoongi questions, âHow? Iâm right here.â
You know that. You do. But with every hello thereâs a goodbye, and you donât want that this time. Especially now that your heart knows that his beats the same.Â
Breathy and shaken, you rest your head in his chest, hoping he doesnât hear but does at the same time, âI still miss you.â
Strong fingers weakly press into your sides, and while you canât see him, you know for a fact that his smile is gone. Because he also knows goodbye is coming again, and you canât stay here forever as long as this is all a secret.Â
You feel a sigh wisp over your head before words that make no fucking sense follow it out, âI canât do shit like this anymore.âÂ
âŠWhat?
No. No no no he canât be done just like that you both just confessed everything you need to fight say something anything anythingâ
âI wanna do this the right way.âÂ
Oh.Â
Yoongiâs chest⊠Itâs shaking.Â
Pushing yourself up, you search his eyes for answers. âWhat are you saying?âÂ
When he looks at you, thereâs a fire in his eyes that wasnât there before. Or maybe it has been there all along, and he only needed a spark to set it ablaze. âIâm saying Iâll tell him, doll. Just me.âÂ
Oh. Oh, shit. Didnât he say not yet? Didnât he say he needs more time? He said heâd figure it out what is with the suddenâŠ
Your tears are automatic as Yoongi roams his gaze from one eye to the other, and heâs swallowing before taking a step. A step you didnât think heâd make. One you didnât have the courage to take yourself.Â
When he utters the words, your soul lets rain fall just as the storm resides.
And right as moonlight shines through his blinds.
âIâll tell him everything.âÂ
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to you 2,000... or... 20,000 years from now⊠â ryomen sukuna.
As they stand to leave, his gaze drifts to one of his portraitsâa work that captures a moment from another time, another life. In it, the King of Curses sits beside his beloved concubine, her expression full of light and laughter, radiant in a way that suggests an unbreakable bond. Ryomen Sukuna pauses, his hand still entwined with hers, and a rare, gentle smile crosses his face. Looking at the painting, he lets himself hope, just a little. Perhaps, even in a world he once saw as cold and unyielding, there are threads of something beautiful woven into his story. Perhaps, even for someone like him, there could be a happy ending, one heâd never dared to imagine. He leans down and whispers softly, almost as if confessing a secret. âI like to think they found each other again, you know? That somehow⊠this time, they got to be happy.â
GENRE: alternate universe - reincarnation;
WARNING/S: post canon, future timeline, fluff, possible romance, getting together, mild angst, reincarnation, conflicted feelings, hurt/comfort, dreams and nightmares, distress, grief, feelings, physical touch, character death, moving on, flashback, humor, no curse future au, pining, light-hearted, happy ending, depiction of the future, depiction of reincarnation, depiction of letting go, depiction of flashback, depiction of getting together, depiction of depiction of character death, depiction of distress, depiction of grief, mention of character death, mention of the past, mention of letting go, mention of grief, reincarnated! sukuna, reincarnated concubine! reader;
WORDS: 15k words.
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HE DOESNâT KNOW HOW HEâLL GET THROUGH THIS. Heâd never felt like this before. What do his other artist friends call it? Oh, thatâs right. A slump. An artistâs slump. Yeah, thatâs what itâs called. Heâs never had that before.
But why should he? Ryomen Sukuna was a protege. He was a stellar artist with a golden hand, one who never stops. The one who works as though heâs running out of time. Itâs him.Â
And yet, at that moment, he wasnât.
Ryomen Sukuna had a problem.
He was stumped from hell and back.
And he doesnât understand why.
A loud exhale releases from his mouth as he looks up at all the drying canvas in front of him in the various easels. Theyâre all beautiful, donât get him wrong. But theyâre all the same.
And that bothers Ryomen Sukuna as he purses his lips in a flat line. His own studio has become a homage to these paintings and sketches as of late. There was nothing else coming out of him. Nothing else was occupying his mind.
In the maze of half-finished canvases and dried paint of his studio, there were only those same eyes staring at him. He could feel it even now under the dim lighting casting long, wavering shadows across each and every tender gaze.
He couldnât stand up anymore. Heâs exhausted. Heâs been up since god knows when. Everywhere there was paint. His hands are stained, his shirt splattered with colors that have long since dulled. Itâs been weeks.
He doesn't know how to deal with this. How could he, when she finds him in every moment? How easy it was to be that way. Heâs stopped keeping track of time, because time means nothing when all he can see, all he can paint, is her.
As of late, it was this that haunted him. It was the same as always. It was this woman with those kind eyes looking back at him. That same tender smile greeting him. That same beauty yearning towards him. Everything about the womanâs face consumes him. Everything that she is continues to follow him like a ghost, over and over.Â
He canât even pinpoint when it started. It just started happening out of nowhere. At one point there were normal dreams and soon enough, there were something else.
And as time passed by, there was nothing else left but her. Her beautiful smiling face looking at him. Every single time, she never fails to be warm towards him. As though she could feel him, as though she could see him.
Sheâs become more than a fixation; sheâs an infection, seeping into every corner of his mind, haunting the hours heâs awake as much as those precious few where he drifts into a broken sleep.
She first appeared in his dreams like a fleeting whisper, but her image has grown, intensifying with each passing night, filling his dreams with a crescendo of color and dread. And over and over, it was repeating.
Like a piano key stuck on the board, playing over and over that same repetitive note. And yet, it was still lovely. It was still tender. And then suddenly, it wasnât. That was the worst part of it all, he thinks. He captures the beauty of her and then suddenly, it just disappears. It goes. Almost like smoke.Â
The dream is always the same every night. At first it was terrifying to him. Heâd never seen anything like her before. Heâd never seen what happened to her before, not to anyone. Not ever. But with her, it repeats.
That nightmare continues over and over again. And he hated it. He hated how he has memorized it. He has hated how it was all he could see over and over again. He hated how this was the fate that such a beautiful, kind woman had to meet.
That beautiful lady, she would stand there and smile at him. Often, she stands at the edge of a crumbling cliff, the ocean roiling and dark beneath her, waves crashing against jagged rocks far below.
She turns, her eyes fixed on him, lips curling into a smile that might be tender, might be mocking, it shifts each time, eluding any attempt to decipher it.
She extends a hand, beckoning, imploring him to come closer. His heart races, his feet propel him forward, but just as he reaches for her, she slips, and heâs left grasping at nothing but empty air.
Again and again, he tries to save her. Again and again, she falls.
The dream wakes him in a cold sweat, heart pounding, breath shallow. He stumbles to his studio, and without thinking, he begins to paint. Her face materializes with each stroke, her eyes holding secrets he canât unlock.
Her smile flickering with a mystery that tightens his chest. He paints her until his fingers go numb, until his eyes blur from exhaustion. He paints her even when heâs on the verge of madness. And he hates itâhates herâbut heâs powerless to stop.
The people around him have noticed the shift, though they donât understand it. They speak of his new works with reverence, captivated by the haunting beauty of the unknown woman heâs made famous.
But they donât see the toll she takes on him. They donât see the shadow of sleeplessness etched into his face, the dark circles under his eyes, the wild desperation lurking just beneath his cool exterior.
Every time he tries to paint something else. Absolutely anything else, it does not work. Not anymore. He would feel his hands freeze, his mind goes blank, and all he can see is her smile.
Sheâs everywhere, a ghost in his waking hours, her gaze piercing through every wall he builds to keep her out. The thrill of creation is gone; all that remains is the raw compulsion to recreate her face, an act that feels more like exorcism than art.
Ryomen Sukuna slumps back into his chair, eyes trained on the painting before him, hands limp and smeared with shades of red and soft violet. Her face, the delicate arch of her brows, the smirk teasing at her lips. All of it stares back at him, alive, taunting.Â
Itâs as though sheâs watching him, laughing softly at his obsession, fully aware of the hold she has over him. The painted eyes seem to flicker, and in his exhaustion, Sukuna wonders if heâs the one painting her, or if sheâs the one reaching through the canvas, carving her image into his mind with a precision that leaves him helpless.
âDamn it. This is so annoying.â he mutters, his voice echoing hollowly in the quiet room. He reaches for his brush, the movement automatic, but his hand falters, dropping it back onto the table as he releases a frustrated sigh.Â
The curse feels weak, a pitiful attempt to regain some control, but he knows itâs useless. Sheâs an endless riddle, one heâs compelled to solve yet doomed to never fully understand.
No matter how many times he paints her, he canât capture herânot completely. The harder he tries, the more elusive she becomes, as though sheâs slipping through his fingers, mocking his every attempt.
He sits there, shoulders slouched, the steady tick of the clock filling the empty space around him. Hours blur into each other, and yet he canât bring himself to look away, his gaze locked on her face, that faint smile hinting at secrets she will never share.
And then, just as the clock strikes midnight, he hears it. That tender voice giving him grief. That warm voice turning him cold. That voice echoed that whisper, soft as a breeze, calling his name.
âMy lordâŠ..my lord Sukuna.â
He closes his eyes, the sound reverberating through him, familiar and yet so distant. Sheâs there, in his mind, like an echo carried across lifetimes, the warmth of her voice stirring something deep inside.
He knows itâs a dream, an illusion conjured by his own obsession, but he doesnât care. For a brief moment, he lets himself lean into it, lets her voice wash over him like a balm.
âMy lord, my beloved lord SukunaâŠâ Her voice is softer this time, coaxing, filled with a strange tenderness that heâs certain only exists in his imagination. He can almost feel her fingers trailing along his cheek, the faintest touch, leaving warmth in their wake.
âWhat do you want from me?â he murmurs, his voice a weary plea, barely audible, as if afraid to break the fragile spell sheâs cast over him. âYouâre there every night, haunting me, making me see you even when I close my eyes. But what do you want?â
In his mind, her laughter echoes, soft and familiar, as if sheâs toying with him. âYou know what I want, my lord Sukuna. Youâve always known.â
He clenches his fists, frustration simmering beneath his skin. âThen tell me, damn it. Tell me what I need to do to set you free.â
âSet me free?â she repeats, and thereâs a hint of amusement in her voice, as if the very idea amuses her. âOh, my lord Sukuna⊠itâs not me who needs freeing.â
His breath hitches, her words cutting through him like a blade. The realization settles over him like a heavy weight, and he knows, somewhere in the back of his mind, that sheâs right.
She isnât the one trapped hereâhe is. Bound by his own memories, his own regrets, unable to let go of the past that has woven her image into every part of him.
He opens his eyes, staring at the canvas again, her face seeming to shift. It was almost ever so easy for her to taunt him like that, to tease him. Everything about her gave him that feeling that overwhelms him. Feelings that he's never felt in his entire life.
He could feel her eyes glinting with a knowing look that sends a shiver down his spine. He reaches for the brush, hand trembling as he adds another stroke, trying to bring her into focus, to finally capture the essence of her that has haunted him. But no matter what he does, he canât reach her, canât grasp the fleeting vision that seems to dance just beyond his reach.
âIâll keep painting you. I swear.â he whispers, his voice raw, laced with something close to desperation. âEvery night, every dream, until youâre satisfied. Until you let me go.â
But he knows, even as the words leave his lips, that she wonât; sheâll never truly leave. Sheâll linger there, a silent muse, a relentless force guiding his hand, embedding herself deeper with every brushstroke.
And he, trapped in this beautiful, maddening cycle, will keep painting her face, night after night, each canvas only revealing a fragment of her and yet never enough.
The clock ticks on, marking the hours that slip away in her wake, but heâs long since stopped noticing. Sheâs there, in every line, every shadow, every flicker of light on the canvas.
Sheâs his prison, his muse, his madnessâand he knows, even as he tries to break free, that he wouldnât have it any other way.
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BY THIS POINT, HE WOULD HAVE BEEN FINISHED WITH HIS COLLECTION. Usually, Ryomen Sukuna finishes his pieces weeks ahead, leaving everyone else; especially Gojo Satoruâscrambling to catch up. Well, perhaps because he usually doesnât work until he stops messing about.Â
Still, the rivalry is a running joke among their peers. Gojo Satoru would tease him endlessly, his voice loud and mocking. âThe world might as well end if you didnât finish first, Ryomen Sukuna. Iâd have to check if hell froze over.â
Gojo Satoru would say with that infuriating grin, and Sukuna would just roll his scarlet eyes, barely dignifying it with a response. He didnât need toâheâd simply outdo him, his work claiming the prime spot at the National Gallery, cycle after cycle. Thatâs just how it works for them.
But now, as the days tick by and his canvas remains trapped in this maddening loop, the weight of that old joke feels heavier. Maybe it would be better if the world did end, he muses grimly, his frustration boiling under the surface. Each day that he fails to paint anything else, fails to break free from this womanâs imageâdrains him.Â
Every line, every shadow, every detail is etched with painstaking care, and yet each piece feels incomplete. He lets out a heavy sigh, his eyes narrowing as he looks once more at the canvas, the same haunting face staring back.
Another artist would leave the piece for a day, perhaps even a week, and come back with fresh eyes. But not Sukuna. Heâs stubborn, relentless. Yet this time, it feels as though heâs been bested, and that thought is infuriating.
A soft knock sounds at the studio door, but he doesnât respond. The door creaks open, and he doesnât need to look up to know who it isâhe can practically feel Gojo Satoruâs grin from across the room. This was a rare visit from his rival and somewhat friend. But, he already regrets giving him his address.
âNot done yet?â Gojo drawls, strolling in with a lazy confidence, hands shoved into his pockets. âWell, this must be itâthe end of the world. Should I start making apocalypse preparations?â
âLeave, Satoru.â Sukuna mutters, his voice a low growl. But Gojo just chuckles, unperturbed.
âCanât. I live wayyyyyy tooo far. Besides, I came all this way to see the fall of the great Ryomen Sukuna. And boy, is it a sight.â Gojo steps closer, his gaze shifting to the canvas. âHer again, huh? Your mystery woman? I thought you were done with her!â
Sukunaâs jaw tightens. âSay another word, and youâll be painting with your own blood.â
Gojo just laughs, crossing his arms as he leans back against the wall. âFine, fine. But itâs⊠interesting, donât you think? You, stuck on the same image, over and over. And all of this because of one woman.â
Sukuna can feel his patience fraying, each word from Gojo Satoru like sandpaper on a wound that refuses to heal. But Gojo doesnât stop, his tone shifting from mocking to genuinely curious. Itâs already giving him a headache.
âSo, bestieâŠâŠâ he says, a glint in his bright blue eyes. âWho is she? A muse? Some long-lost love? Because whatever it is, youâre about to drive yourself mad over her.â
âSheâs nothing.â Sukuna says sharply, but the words lack conviction. He doesnât want to dive into it. Especially for Gojo Satoru. Heâd only try to make it all a joke and laugh about it. âJust a woman. Just a damn face that refuses to disappear.â
Gojo Satoru couldnât help but arch an eyebrow. âNothing? Couldâve fooled me, seeing as sheâs all youâve painted for weeks. Either sheâs âjust a woman,â or sheâs haunting you.â
Sukuna clenches his fists, his voice dropping to a murmur. âI canât⊠get her out of my head, no matter how many times I try. Itâs like sheâs taunting me. Every stroke feels like a chase, and I canât catch her.â
For once, Gojoâs grin fades, a shadow of understanding passing over his face. âSo thatâs it, huh? Youâve finally found a challenge you canât conquer. Even after all these years.â
Sukuna scowls, eyes narrowing. âItâs not a challenge. Itâs⊠more than that.â His voice trails off as he glances at the painting, his expression a mixture of longing and frustration.
âThen stop,â Gojo says bluntly. âIf sheâs driving you insane, stop trying to capture her. Paint something else. Anything else. Get back to your work, to the craft thatâs kept you sane all this time.â
But Sukuna only shakes his head, his gaze fixed on the canvas. âItâs not that simple, Satoru. I canât stop. I need to understand⊠Why is she here? Why does she keep coming back to me?â
Gojo sighs, running a hand through his bright snow colored hair, clearly torn between amusement and pity. âWell, I canât say I envy you. But maybe you should try looking beyond the canvas, for once.â
Sukuna scoffs, though a hint of doubt creeps into his expression. âYou think thereâs anything outside this room that could give me answers?â
Gojo shrugs. âWho knows? Sometimes the answers we need are the ones weâre not looking for. But if this is whatâs keeping you chainedâŠâ he nods towards the door, his voice lowering, âthen maybe itâs time to find out why.â
Ryomen Sukuna says nothing, his gaze flicking between Gojo and the womanâs face on the canvas. And as Gojo slips out the door with a knowing smile, Sukuna feels the weight of his words lingering, as if daring him to break free of the chains heâs crafted for himself.
Gojo Satoru stayed in his studio for a while; the entire time his head hurt. But he couldnât help admitting that his frustration was put on hold and that he was grateful for it. Annoying as he was, it was better than suffering what he had been suffering with the woman that haunts him.
But when Gojo Satoru leaves, he finds himself unable to leave either. From the night before, he hadnât really found himself to sleep. But if he was still being honest, he really doesnât think he made any progress from the ones he had already made that he feels happy about.
Well, except perhaps three more additions to his deluded dreams of this woman. He couldnât stop with that. That was not something he could enjoy. It didnât look good. He didnât think it was the best he had ever done. He looks at his canvas again and squints his eyes. It was as though he was hoping that he had painted something else. But he knew he hadnât. There was no need to double check.Â
Okay, well, he should be more honest â itâs four now. This is the fourth one. The fourth one for a while and itâs only past lunch time the next day. Wait, is it really lunch time? He looked around again and saw his clock. His mouth agape in shock. Itâs already been a whole day? Itâs already the blue hour? What the actual fuck is going on?
He groans as he puts down his paintbrush and covers his face with his hands. A loud groan echoes against his skin, reflecting that bitterness he feels. He was going mad, heâs genuinely sure that heâs really going mad. This time for real. The world is ending and heâs going mad.
Once more, Ryomen Sukuna sits slumped in his studio chair, the dim, cold light from the nearby cityscape casting a pallor over his face. How can this be possible? He's rubbing his temples, staring at yet another drying and yet truly unfinished portrait of her when a familiar voice cuts through his brooding. Ryomen Sukuna turned his back and turned it back once more, just as quickly.
Fuck, its Uraume.
Shit, shit. Is it already that time?
He hasnât messaged them for two days.
How the fuck is he going to surviveâ
âSukunaâsan, you have the exhibition in two weeks, you know that!â Uraume reminds him, waking over with their tone both gentle and insistent. Theyâre standing at the edge of the cluttered studio, arms crossed, their eyes flicking between Sukuna and the growing stack of canvases lining the walls. âEveryoneâs expecting new work, Sukunaâsan. You canât just say you arenât producing anything when this isââ
He cuts them off with a frustrated wave of his hand, as if trying to dismiss both them and the exhibition out of his mind. âI know, I know, Uraumeâsan. You already know that I know. Donât you think I know? I justâŠâŠ Whatâs the point of even going here? Itâs notâŠitâs not finishedânothing is complete.âÂ
âThatâs not what youâre supposed to be telling meââ
âI know, I know.â His voice trails off, heavy with exhaustion. He looks at the half-finished canvas before him, her familiar eyes staring back, mocking him. âLook, I need time. Okay? Just a little more time to get over it. I promise. It will be done soon.â
Uraume steps carefully, sidestepping the mess of brushes, scattered paint, and half-finished canvases that litter the studio floor. Their usual calm is tinged with a hint of bewilderment, their brows furrowing as they glance over at Ryomen Sukuna, who sits slouched in his chair, staring blankly at the portrait before him.Â
This is the first time theyâve seen him like thisâso unfocused, so⊠lost. Itâs unnerving. For as long as theyâve known him, Sukuna was always in control, his power and his confidence absolute. Nothing stumped him; nothing could shake him from his single-minded determination.
And yet, here he is, surrounded by portraits of a woman theyâve never met, trapped in a spiral of obsession that they donât understand.
âGet over what, exactly?â Uraume asks, a soft but firm edge to their voice, breaking the silence that has grown heavy in the room. âThe exhibition is practically sold out already. You are the star of this showâyou know that.âÂ
They hesitate, crossing their arms as they study his profile. âIf you let yourself slip now, youâre going to lose everything. They expect something⊠groundbreaking, something other thanâŠâ
Their voice trails off as they catch sight of another painting, and then another; all of them of her. Each one shows a different expression, a different tilt of her head, a different light in her eyes, but always the same haunting face. Uraumeâs gaze lingers on the latest painting, her smirk, subtle yet all-consuming, as if sheâs daring anyone who looks at her to understand.
They shake their heads slowly, exhaling in frustration. âThis obsession of yoursâŠâ They struggle for the right words, their gaze hardening as they glance back at him. âI donât understand it. Who is she? And why are you letting her control you like this?â
Sukuna looks up, his expression weary, but thereâs a flicker of something dangerous in his eyes, a glint that only appears when heâs truly challenged. âYou wouldnât understand, Uraumeâsan.â he mutters, his voice low, almost as if heâs talking to himself. âNo one would. Not unless you felt what she did to me.â
Uraume raises a brow, taken aback. This isnât like himâthis vulnerability, this almost painful honesty. Theyâve seen Sukuna bring cities to their knees, watched him command fear and respect with the simplest look, but now? Now, he looks more like a man haunted than a man in control.Â
âThen tell me, Sukunaâsan.â Uraume says, their voice softening slightly, more curious than before. âWhat is it about her? Why does she matter so much?â
He leans back, a bitter smile crossing his lips. âItâs like⊠no matter how many times I paint her, sheâs always out of reach, Uraumeâsan.â he says, his eyes flicking to the painting in front of him, the smirk that never changes. âEvery stroke, every colorâitâs as if sheâs taunting me, daring me to try again, knowing Iâll never capture her.â
Thereâs a pause, the weight of his words settling between them, thick and tangible. Uraume takes a step back, their expression wavering. Theyâre used to seeing Sukuna drive toward a goal with relentless force, breaking anything that stands in his way. But this? This is something else. Something they canât touch.
âIs she worth all this?â Uraume asks, more gently than they intended. âWorth losing your edge, your control?â They gesture to the canvases around them. âIf sheâs haunting you this much, perhaps itâs time to let her go.â
A dark laugh escapes Sukuna, low and humorless. âLet her go?â he repeats, his gaze still fixed on the painting. âIâve tried, Uraumeâsan. But sheâs there, every time I close my eyes. And I canâtâŠâ He stops himself, the words caught in his throat. âShe wonât let me go.â
Uraume watches him, feeling a pang of something they canât quite nameâpity, perhaps, or fear for what this fixation could mean for him. They take a step forward, daring to place a hand on his shoulder.Â
âYouâre stronger than this, Sukunaâsan.â they say softly, but firmly. âWhatever hold she has over you, it doesnât control you. Youâre the one in charge here, remember?â
For a moment, Sukuna seems to consider their words, a flicker of clarity in his eyes. But then he glances back at the canvas, at her knowing smile, and his face hardens, as if heâs resigned to the fact that heâs already lost.
âI thought so too, Uraumeâsan.â he murmurs, barely loud enough for Uraume to hear. âBut Iâm beginning to wonder⊠maybe sheâs the one painting me.â
Uraume watches him in silence, feeling the cold truth of his words settle between them. They realize, in that moment, that they may be witnessing the unraveling of the man they thought was unbreakable. And for the first time, they wonder if he can even escape from the shadows of his own creation.
Sukuna follows their gaze, feeling a surge of irritation and helplessness. âItâs not that simple, Uraumeâsan. God, itâs justâŠ.â he mutters, running a hand through his messy fuschia hair, which is starting to look as unruly as he feels.
âSheâsâsheâs everywhere to me. And maybe thatâs why sheâs always here. Every time I try to start something else, there she is. Like a bad dream I canât wake up from.âÂ
He glances at Uraume, searching their face for some flicker of understanding. âDonât you get it? I need to work through this. You canât just snap your fingers and make it go away. If I had magic, it would have been fine, but I justâŠ.â
âThen maybe make her part of it.â Uraume replies, unphased by his frustration. âPeople will want to see this obsessionâwhatever it is. But they wonât be satisfied with half-finished canvases of the same face over and over.â
He stands up abruptly, pacing, as if movement will shake off the weight pressing down on him. âItâs not an obsession,â he says, though the words sound hollow, even to him. âI just need⊠time. To figure this out. To move past her.â
Uraume watches him with a calm patience that only irritates him further. âYouâve had time, Sukuna-san. And every day, Iâve watched you do nothing but chase shadows.â They gesture to the rows of unfinished canvases, the dozens of faces that all share her haunting expression.
âMaybe you donât need to get past her. Maybe you need to go deeper, to figure out what sheâs trying to tell you.â
Sukuna clenches his jaw, feeling the heat rise in his chest. He hates that Uraume, of all people, might be right. But how could he go deeper when sheâs already consuming him? They should know that this is not what he needs right now. He needs support about this trying situation. He needs kindness about this. He needsâ
He turns his eyes slightly and soon enough, they land on the first portrait heâs drawn of her. It was rough around the edges, it was true. But he was trying really hard to capture what he had found in her. He thought he would never see her again. That first time, it was all too interesting. Because he thought he would never see her again. And her smile would have been everything even that one time.Â
That once would have been enough, it would have fulfilled him whole enough. That one portrait, that first one â it would have been enough for Ryomen Sukuna to feel like someone was always going to look at him kindly.Â
That someone would always look at him with such tender eyes. He purses his lips in a line. Here she was. Once again, staring into his soul. Frozen in time. Looking towards him as though he was the world. As though life can only be known through looking at him. He gulped.
âIâll figure it out, donât worry.â he says finally, forcing his voice to steady. âJust⊠let me handle it my way.â
Uraume sighs, a long, exasperated sound. âFine. But remember, Sukunaâsan, time waits for no one. Especially not for you.âÂ
And with that, they turn, leaving him alone once more in his dimly lit prison, with nothing but her face and the ticking of the clock to keep him company. Ryomen Sukuna could not move anymore for a while. He couldnât. Not when you were looking at him like that.
The echoes of the night pangs into the slumber of the bright starry sky, and the silence in Ryomen Sukunaâs studio is absolute, broken only by the occasional soft creak of his chair or the quiet scratch of his brush against the canvas. And he despises it. Usually, he would be happy about that. It helps him focus on his work.Â
Yet, heâs almost afraid to move or make more noise or appease the silence with his enjoyment. Ryomen Sukuna was afraid that if he does, heâll break the spell thatâs settled over him, the fragile connection thatâs come alive between him and her.
This ghostly woman, this chasing woman who has rooted herself so deeply in his psyche. He knows sheâs not real, and yet every inch of him feels as if sheâs in the room with him, closer than a shadow, more vivid than any memory.
The woman on the canvas feels different this time. Heâs pushed past the limits of his frustration and reached a depth of expression that feels raw, unnerving. Her face, no longer a series of lifeless shapes and colors, seems to breathe on the canvas.Â
Her smile is softer now, her eyes almost⊠knowing. But the knowing isnât comforting; it unsettles him, strikes some primal nerve deep inside. He steps back, shaking his head as if to clear it, to dispel the irrational thought that sheâs looking back at him with intent, with purpose.
But even standing back, even half-closing his eyes, he canât unsee her. She seems more real than ever before, like heâs peeled away another layer, only to find her hiding deeper within. He feels his heart beat faster, a slow wave of dread creeping into his veins. How can a face he created himself feel so alive? So sentient?
He backs away from the canvas, his hands covered in paint, feeling a chill settle over him. Heâs been pushing himself to exhaustion these past few weeks, painting her in every possible way, but thisâthis feels different, like heâs crossed an invisible line. For the first time, the compulsion to paint her is laced with fear.
Still, he canât look away. Her presence fills the room, and he feels the weight of it like a physical force. His eyes roam over her face: the faint shadows around her eyes, the suggestion of pain hidden in the tilt of her lips, the look of sorrow mingling with defiance. Each detail tells a story heâs not sure he wants to know, yet heâs desperate to understand it.
Uraumeâs words echo in his mind again: Maybe you donât need to get past her. Maybe you need to go deeper, to figure out what sheâs trying to tell you.
He shudders, the thought reverberating through him. What if this woman, this apparition, isnât just an accident of his imagination? What if sheâs here for a reason, some purpose heâs been too afraid to uncover?
He recalls the dreamsâthe cliff, the ocean raging below, the way she extends her hand to him with that haunting smile, beckoning him forward only to disappear again and again. Itâs always the same. He canât save her, but he canât let her go.
Heâs always believed that his art comes from somewhere deep within him, from emotions he doesnât fully understand, from memories he canât articulate. But this feels different to him. He had never dealt with this before.Â
It was almost as if itâs coming from outside of him, as though sheâs reaching through the boundary of his mind, using his hands as a conduit. He lets out a shaky breath, clutching the paint-stained edge of his workbench. Is this woman, this image, an echo from his past? A ghost? Or something darker, something heâs unlocked without meaning to?
The thought stirs something in him, a strange, unexplainable pull to keep going, to lose himself in this process of bringing her fully to life. He walks back to the canvas, hand trembling as he picks up his brush once more.
This time, he paints her hand, reaching out, as if extending toward him. The fingers are delicate, almost ghostly, and he layers shadows beneath them, giving them depth, weight. He works until the details blur, until his vision is smeared with exhaustion.
He steps back again, chest tight. Her hand stretches toward him now, inviting him, her fingers just a breath away. The air in the room feels thick, electric, as if sheâs drawing him closer, beckoning him to cross some unseen line. He reaches out instinctively, the tips of his fingers barely brushing the canvas.
In that instant, a shiver courses through him, the chill going bone-deep. He feels his hand pull back, but itâs as if something is holding it there, holding him in place. His heart races. He hears the ticking of the clock, each tick louder, more insistent. The woman on the canvas seems closer now, her eyes sharper, more alive, her expression shifting as though sheâs on the edge of speaking.
He tears his hand away, stumbling backward, the sudden movement jarring him back to himself. His studio comes into focus, the familiar mess of paint and brushes scattered around, the quiet hum of the city outside. But sheâs still there, her face on the canvas, watching him with that faint, knowing smile.
His heart still pounding, he grabs his coat and stumbles out of the studio, leaving her behind, feeling her gaze burning into his back even as he shuts the door. The air outside is cold, crisp, and he gulps it down, trying to shake off the feeling that heâs walked out of a nightmare he canât wake from.
But even as he steps into the city streets, even as the lights and the noise surround him, he can still see her in his mind, as clearly as if she were standing beside him.
And he knows, with a strange certainty, that no matter how far he runs, sheâll be waiting for him, waiting in the studio, in his dreams, until he finally dares to confront whatever truth she holds.
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HE REALLY CANâT HELP IT. Ryomen Sukunaâs heart hammers in his chest, louder than the muffled hum of voices in the museum, louder than the memories raging through his mind. He stands frozen, his scarlet eyes locked onto her.
This was the woman from his dreams, the face he painted until his hands went numb, until his sanity frayed. The woman he has known is like the back of his hand. Sheâs here, in the flesh, not on a canvas or a hazy memory, but real, close enough to reach out and touch. And yet, at this moment, she feels farther away than ever.
The woman doesnât notice him. Of course she wouldnât have. Why would she? He doesnât expect her to know what heâs feeling now. Sheâs oblivious to the storm her presence has unleashed in his chest, the way his pulse spikes as he watches her, every nerve in his body caught between reaching for her and running away.Â
Sheâs gazing intently at the displays, her head tilting thoughtfully as she studies each artifact, and with each subtle movement, she reminds him achingly of herâof the woman heâd known in that past life, his concubine, the one heâd lost so long ago. She has that same air of quiet intensity, that gentle focus, the same soft curiosity he remembers.
And then she steps closer to the display holding the hairpin. That hairpinâthe one heâd given to his concubine as a symbol of the promise he couldnât keep, the one she had treasured even on the darkest nights, when the weight of their hidden love had pressed heavy upon them both. The hairpin heâd clasped in her hair before she was taken from him.
The sight of it had been a punch to the gut even before he saw her. But now, watching this womanâa stranger, yet painfully familiarâreach out as though to touch the glass, Sukuna feels something crack open inside him, a wound heâd buried lifetimes ago tearing fresh and raw.
She lifts her hand, her fingers hovering near the glass, her eyes lingering on the hairpin with a look he recognizesâsadness, longing, nostalgia she canât possibly understand.
Her face is calm, her expression serene, but he knows that look, knows that feeling. Does she feel it too? Does she feel the echo of something lost, something distant yet so deeply embedded in her soul?
His own hand trembles at his side. He wants to go to her, to pull her aside, to demand to know if she remembers, if somewhere in her heart she feels that same aching void heâs carried for centuries. But the reality sinks in, cold and unyielding: to her, heâs a stranger.Â
She has no idea who he is. She doesnât remember their stolen moments under moonlight, their whispered vows, the quiet, forbidden love that had bound them tighter than any promise. She doesnât remember his face, doesnât know the agony heâs endured, living each lifetime haunted by her ghost, painting her face in the desperate hope it might bring her back.
And yet, the hairpin calls to her. He watches her, rooted to the spot, as she studies it with a reverence she canât name, canât explain, an inexplicable connection to something lost to time. He can almost see the weight of her past life hovering over her like a shadow she doesnât even know is there.
Sukunaâs fingers twitch, aching to touch her, to break this unbearable silence and tell her everything: that heâs waited lifetimes for her, that heâs dreamed of her every night, that every stroke of his brush was a desperate attempt to remember her, to reach her, to feel even an echo of what they once had. But how could he explain that? How could he unload centuries of grief, of longing, on her shoulders, when she doesnât even know his name?
She turns, moving slowly to the next display. But for a single heartbeat, her gaze drifts in his direction. Their eyes meet, and in that split second, the air thickens, everything around him falling away. Her eyesâthose same eyes, dark and deep, full of questions and secretsâfix on him, and he feels the weight of their shared history settle like a heavy cloak over them both.
He watches as something flickers in her gaze, an almost imperceptible flash of recognition. She blinks, and itâs gone, but he clings to it, desperate. Did she feel it, even if only for a moment? Did she feel the weight of a life before, a life they shared, a love they lost?
But she turns away, her brows furrowing slightly, as if shaking off a strange thought, and the moment shatters, leaving him stranded in a sea of regret and unspoken words. She disappears around the corner, her silhouette swallowed by the shadows of the exhibit.
A bitter pang cuts through him, deeper than anything heâs felt in centuries. Sheâs here, alive, within his reach, and yet sheâs still lost to him. Heâs still haunted by the echo of her smile, the shadow of her memory, the woman he could never save.
Slowly, Ryomen Sukuna forces himself to step away, his gaze lingering on the hairpin. He clenches his fists, feeling the familiar sting of regret, of promises broken, of lives tangled and torn apart.
Heâd thought he was prepared to face her, though he could handle the pain that would come with seeing her again. But the reality is raw and relentless, tearing open old wounds he thought were healed.
In that moment, he was the only one who knew the truth: heâll always be trapped in this cycle, drawn to her only to watch her slip away. No matter how many times he finds her, sheâll always be just out of reach, a dream he can never wake from.
Ryomen Sukunaâs heart nearly stops when he feels a soft hand on his arm, drawing him back to the present. His present. In front of this woman, this woman who haunted him with everything and anything in him.
âAre you⊠okay?â the woman asks, her voice gentle, her eyes warm with concern.
Heâs stunned, his breath catching as he looks down at her, the stranger with the face heâs known all too well, the stranger who feels like a ghost comes to life. But he forces himself to gather his thoughts, to act like this is a normal interaction with a stranger, even though every nerve in his body feels charged with recognition.
âAh⊠yes, IâmâŠ.Iâm good.â he finally says, his voice rough but steady. âI just find the gallery⊠interesting.â The words feel absurdly inadequate, but itâs the only thing he can manage.
A small smile breaks over her lips, and the sight of it sends a sharp pang through him. Itâs so familiar, so achingly familiar, that he has to clench his fists to keep himself grounded. She glances around the exhibit, her expression softening with a hint of pride.
âIâm glad youâre enjoying it, stranger.â she says. âIt was⊠hard to tell the story. To do it justice, I mean.â Her gaze returns to his, warm and inviting. âIâm a Mikoto, by the way. A descendant of Hiromi.â
He feels his heart stop at the name, and it takes him a beat to respond. âRyomen⊠Ryomen Sukuna, thatâs my name.â he says, his voice catching slightly as he introduces himself.Â
He could only watch as her eyes widened in surprise, and she studied him, the weight of recognition glinting faintly in her gaze, though she didn't seem to realize its true depth. She probably did not expect him to have that name, that exact name, also.
âA descendant of Hiromi, too?â she asks with a soft laugh, her expression open, friendly. When he doesnât answer, she shakes her head with a lighthearted smile. âItâs okay. The familyâs too big for everyone to know where they come from anyway.â
He nods stiffly, a bit overwhelmed, struggling to keep his composure as memories flicker before him. Thereâs so much he wants to say, so much he aches to tell her, but he swallows it all down, letting the silence sit between them, as heavy as it is fragile.
Then, gathering his nerve, he glances at her. âCan I⊠can I ask you something about the exhibit? About Ryomen Sukuna?â
She tilts her head, curious. âOf course, you can.â she says. âBut fair warningâitâs going to be a long story. A sad story.â
He meets her gaze, and in that moment, he sees a flicker of recognition in her eyes, something deep and familiar that calls to him. He nods. âThatâs okay.â he says softly. âI think I need to hear it.â
She studies him a moment, as if trying to understand his need to know. Judging from her own reaction, it's a difficult story to even try and tell. But he was curious. Perhaps for the first time in his life, he wanted to know so badly.
He wanted to know more than anything how these two people lived. How she lived, that woman in his dreams â the woman right in front of him. He looks at her tenderly, curiously. And she nods, a quiet understanding in her expression.Â
âRyomen Sukuna⊠and his concubine. Their stories are really not easy. Nor is her own. His concubineâs story is difficult. She led a long, sad life. They were together for a long time, longer than Sukuna and Hiromi were wed.â Her eyes lowered, the sight gleaming with sorrow as she touched the glass, trying to reach for the hairpin.Â
âShe was devoted to him, in all the ways that one could describe devotion. And yetâŠ.she suffered under him⊠Quite a lot, if weâre to be honest. She gave him a son and she lost him and his indifference at times, it broke her.â She hesitates, glancing at him before continuing. âThough in his own way, he loved her. But well, was it enough? We cannot truly tell. From what we know from Ryomen Chiharu, she died without knowing. But perhaps, those are claims.â
The words pierce him like a knife. Hearing it from her lips, from her gentle voice, makes it all feel too real. The bitterness, the heartbreak, the weight of it all surges within him, yet he canât look away from her. Is that what she has had to live through all that time? Was it only the heartbreak she had lived through? In that past life, in her past life â was it just grief born out of more, one after the other? Is that why she kept falling to her death? Suffering in all that pain?Â
âIf he had loved her thenâŠ.â Sukuna could feel some sense of anger bubble through him. âWhy is it not ever clear, his feelings? If you love someone, youâŠ.you tell them! You make them know when theyâre alive. Not when theyâre gone! What kind of man is he? Is he even a man at that point? Thatâs cruelâŠ.ThatâsâŠ..â
In that moment, her eyes turned wide as she gazed at him. She had seen people get angry on behalf of the long suffering concubine of the King of Curses. That was normal, to feel anguish on her behalf. And yet, this mayhaps is the first time heâs ever seen someone so infuriated. And aggrieved. And bitter. Truly, in the sense of the word. Her heart felt warm about that.Â
She smiles softly at him and places her hand on his own. âYou knowâŠ.he still did care. Even if he was a terrible man. In some ways.â
âEven thenââ
âCome with me, stranger!â she says, her voice soft as she takes his hand, her touch sending an electric shock through him. She leads him to a long table draped in dark fabric, a single scroll lying open at the center. It was a magnificent piece of work.
In the middle was her, that concubine. With her elegant features and her bright eyed gaze, her tender smile that could bring life to a mundane world. The colors illuminated her with such ethereality that one couldnât even understand. It would have taken much too much time to do this in their lifetime, during the Heian Era.
 And yet, it was so carefully made, carefully thought of. So full of devotion to her, details that one couldnât even find in any other portraiture in that time. Sukuna could only watch as her fingers glide along its edge with a reverence that pulls him in, as though sheâs sharing a secret between them. Her smile grows wider.
âThis is painted and written by Sukuna himself, mayhaps, a few years before she passed.â she whispers, her eyes shining as she looks at him. âWe donât know, if he had painted and made this in secret. Or if she had known and seen it. ButâŠ.it was to her⊠a message. From him to her.â
The scroll is faded, ink blurred by age but unmistakable. And as Sukuna reads it, he feels his breath leave him, his pulse racing as he takes in the words he never thought heâd see again. In ancient script, barely visible, are the words he remembers writing so many lifetimes ago, a promise that felt foolish and desperate even as he wrote it:
âTo you, my little one, from a thousand years to another twenty thousand years from now, you who will continue to be dear to me.â
His vision blurs, and he forces himself to swallow down the ache rising in his chest. How is that man ever so contradictory? How could he cause her hurt and then doâŠdo something like this? How can one ever make amends, or show love, knowing they had caused grief and pain and suffering?Â
He purses his lips, his face echoing in conflict. He could feel his hand tighten in a fist. The woman he saw in his dreams, and the woman he sees before him now. How they both suffered to get to this point.Â
That smile a thousand years ago, so gentle and yetâŠ.so pained. And now, so beautiful and serene, happy. Truly so happy. He couldnât help but be so overwhelmed by emotion. By all of this. She looks up at him, her face soft with empathy and warmth, her hand still resting lightly on his arm.
âWhat kind of person do you think could write something like that?â she asks gently, studying his reaction.
He swallows, searching for the right words, his voice barely a whisper. âSomeone who knew⊠heâd never find peace without her.â he says, almost to himself, his gaze lingering on the scroll. âSomeone⊠who wanted more time.â
Her eyes meet his, something unspoken passing between them, a quiet understanding that hangs thick in the air. She doesnât say anything, but her expression shifts, her gaze softening, as if sheâs sensing something she canât quite place, something from another life pressing against the present.
In that moment, he knows he canât tell her, canât burden her with the weight of it all. This life may not hold the memory, the pain, the love heâd lost, but here she stands, still at his side. The universe, fate, something unknown has brought them here, and for now, in this fragile moment, itâs enough.
Sukunaâs mind swirls, each beat of his heart drumming louder against the silence that now surrounds them. The faint traces of this manâs ancient wordsâhis promise, his pleaâare scrawled on the scroll, untouched by time.Â
The weight of it feels unbearable, as if this fragile piece of paper holds not just a message from the past but the entirety of his soul. He risks a glance at her, the woman with his concubineâs face, her warmth, her spirit.
Sheâs watching him with an intensity that pulls him back from his reverie. âI wonder if he ever found her, if he was ever reborn and given new life.â she murmurs, more to herself than to him. âIf⊠across all that time, they somehow managed to find each other again. And are more truthful to each other. I always thought that, even when I was a child. I hoped and prayed that they found happiness together in a new life.â
Her words send a chill down his spine. He wants to tell her they did, that heâs standing here, right now, because of her. But he knows he canâtâno matter how much his heart aches to reach out, to let her in on the truth heâs carried alone for so long. The curse of knowing, of remembering, is his burden alone.
Instead, he lets his fingers drift across the edge of the scroll, keeping his gaze lowered. âMaybe he never stopped searching. Even if he is reborn. Maybe if he doesnât remember it all. He should find her and make amends.â he says softly. âMaybe thatâs why his name and his memory linger even now. So that sheâll notice. AndâŠmaybe theyâll live the way you want them to.â
She tilts her head, considering him, her smile touched with the slightest hint of sadness. âThatâs a beautiful thought. Almost⊠almost as if heâs still out there, waiting. Even if he had to endure every lifetime alone.â
Sukuna swallows, struggling to keep his composure. âSometimes, we donât have a choice, about it all.â he says, his voice low. âWeâre bound by memories we canât remember, by the promises our futures will have to remake, even if we have to carry them alone.â
She studies him for a moment, her expression thoughtful, as if sheâs trying to glimpse the truth beneath his words. âThat sounds like something he would have said, perhapsâŠ.perhaps to her.â she murmurs, almost to herself.
The weight of her gaze feels like a hand pressing against his heart, pulling him toward her, tethering him in a way that feels more ancient than memory. But she turns her attention back to the scroll, breaking the spell, and a soft smile touches her lips as she reads the words he once wrote.
âYou know,â she says after a pause, âmy family used to tell stories about Sukuna. Heâs more of a legend now than a real person, but there are so many conflicting tales. Some say he was ruthless, others say he was capable of great kindness. Iâve always been fascinated by that contradiction.â She glances up at him, eyes alight with curiosity. âWhat do you think? Was he a monster⊠or was he something more?â
Sukunaâs breath catches at the question, the answer sitting like a stone in his throat. How can he possibly explain that the truth was more complicated than either legend or history could capture? That he was both and neither, a man torn by his own humanity and haunted by a love he couldnât protect?
âItâs hard to say what he was.â he answers carefully. âMaybe he was both. A monster to some, but to others⊠he was someone who gave everything he had. No one isâŠ.no one is truly a villain, after all.â
She nods slowly, seemingly satisfied with his answer. âI like that answer.â she says quietly. âI think we all have pieces of light and shadow inside us. Maybe he was just⊠someone trying to find a balance, even if he had caused so much hurt. Even if he had failed.â
The irony cuts deep, the tragic poetry of her words like salt in an old wound. Her voice is gentle, but thereâs a conviction in her tone that makes his chest tighten. If she knew the truthâif she knew what heâd lost, the sacrifices heâd madeâwould she still look at him this way, with this soft reverence and understanding?
Lost in thought, he hardly notices her reaching for his hand. Her fingers wrap around his, warm and grounding, and heâs stunned by the simple, natural ease of her touch, as though theyâve done this a thousand times before. Her hand fits perfectly in his, and for the first time in centuries, a glimmer of hope stirs within him.
âCome with me again, stranger.â she says, leading him past the scroll and into a smaller room at the end of the hall. âThereâs something else I want you to see.â
They walk in silence, and he lets her guide him, his heart racing, wondering if perhaps, just maybe, sheâs starting to feel the pull tooâthe invisible thread binding them across lifetimes. She stops in front of a display case holding a small, intricately carved pendant, its silver chain gleaming under the soft lights.
âThis pendant, it was passed down to Ryomen Chiharu, after a few years.â she says, gazing at it with a fondness that surprises him. âIt belonged to her. His concubine. One of the only things she kept close to her heart.â
Sukuna stares at it, his mind reeling. The pendant was once his gift to her, that King of Cursesâa token, a promise of protection. Seeing it now, preserved and cared for, feels surreal, a whisper of the life they once shared. He doesnât trust himself to speak, his voice thick with emotion heâs barely keeping in check.
He wondered, maybe if it was the right time, the right place. If he hadnât been so enthralled with another â maybe it would have been a match that would have ended with less pain and more joy. Perhaps if the King of Curses had found himself able to move forward, he would have been happier. Maybe his concubine would have been happier.Â
But that was a thousand years ago. And humanity keeps making that same mistake. Little by little, you could find people repeating it over and over again. That makes Sukuna so bitter and sad, grievous and angry all at once. How could fate be so twisted? How could fate seem so indifferent to it all? How couldâŠhow could fate not stop such suffering of people who wish to be happy?Â
âI always thought it was sad, you know?â she continued, her tone soft. âShe must have known heâd never be hers completely. But she still kept this close to her heart. Thinking of him. Itâs like she never stopped hoping.â
Sukunaâs throat tightens, the weight of her words pressing into the raw ache within him. âHopeâŠ.hope is fragile.â he echoes, his voice hollow. âIt can be a painful thing to carry, especially when thereâs no chance of seeing it fulfilled.â
Her gaze turns up to him, searching, as though she can sense the depth of his grief but canât name its source. âMaybe.â she says, her voice a whisper. âBut sometimes⊠hope is all we have.â
He looks away, afraid sheâll see the truth in his eyes. He wonders if she understands, if somewhere deep down, a part of her remembers. But even if she doesnât, he can feel her empathy, her gentle warmth reaching out to him, soothing his restless spirit.
She squeezes his hand, her touch gentle and grounding. âThank you,â she says, smiling softly. âFor listening to her story with me. I know itâs heavy, but⊠itâs part of our legacy, isnât it?â
He nods, his heart raw and open, feeling the weight of the centuries fall away, even if just for this fleeting moment. Itâs not enoughânot enough to heal the wounds, to bring back what theyâd lostâbut for the first time, he feels something close to peace.
And in that silence, in her quiet smile, he dares to hope that maybe, just maybe, there will be a way to find and know each other again. She was right there. He likes to think she is. Right in front of him. There was hope, somehow.Â
That she would be happy. That maybe, just maybe â he could see her smile so beautifully again. A smile that would reach all the way to her eyes and warm her face and towards the reach of all the heavens.
Sukuna stands there, his fingers still brushing the edge of the glass case, the pendant gleaming faintly beneath his touch. He feels an unfamiliar warmth stirring within him, a strange, hesitant urge for something⊠more, something real and tangible. He looks down at her, her expression still soft with that quiet empathy that unsettles him as much as it comforts him.
Before he can second-guess himself, he clears his throat, casting a sidelong glance her way. âWould you, uh⊠would you like to grab a coffee sometime?â he asks, a bit gruffly, as if trying to sound casual. âMaybe you could help me with some ideas for my art. IâmâŠ.an artist by the way. â
The question hangs in the air between them, and for a moment, he feels exposed in a way he hasnât in centuries, like heâs offering a piece of himself heâs long since hidden. He braces himself for rejection, for her to smile politely and turn him down.
Sukuna watches her smile, a genuine, radiant expression that spreads across her face like dawn breaking over a darkened sky. Itâs infectious, igniting something deep within him, as though it was a feeling that has lain dormant for centuries beneath layers of pain and regret.Â
Everything in him felt warm inside. Everything in him grasped to life, hoping that she could nourish it to last forever. Her acceptance feels like a lifeline thrown into the stormy sea of his existence, and he clings to it with a desperation he canât quite articulate.
âTomorrow sounds perfect, stranger.â she says, her voice a gentle balm against the jagged edges of his heart. âOh, I should stop calling you that, shouldnât I? My apologies, Sukunaâsan. I wanted to tease you for a little more time.â
As she writes her number on a slip of paper, the world around them fades into a blur. The museum, the exhibits, the weight of historyâall of it dissolves until itâs just the two of them, suspended in this fragile moment of connection.
He takes the paper from her, fingers brushing against hers for the briefest second. It sends an unexpected spark through him, and heâs momentarily lost in the warmth of her skin, the softness of her touch. He forces himself to pull away, catching her gaze again, wanting to savor the moment a little longer.
âWhat do you like to drink?â he asks, trying to keep the conversation going, to stretch this fleeting connection into something more tangible.
âCoffee, mostly. I love a good espresso.â she replies, her eyes shining with enthusiasm. âBut Iâm always open to trying new things. Iâm sure the cafe will have new wonders. How about you?â
He nods, remembering the countless cups of coffee heâd consumed over the years, each one a bitter reminder of the countless sleepless nights spent alone. âIâm more of a dark roast person myself. Stronger the better.â
âThen Iâll make sure to introduce you to the best place in town. They have the most incredible brews, fit for a long suffering artist.â she says with a playful grin, and for the first time, he canât help but smile back. Itâs a small, simple thing, but it feels monumental, like a bridge forming over a chasm he thought would always divide him.
âGreatâŠ.I uhâŠ.â he replies, his voice a little steadier. âI look forward to it.â
They linger for a moment, both seeming to hesitate, caught in a bubble of anticipation and something deeper that he canât quite name. Heâs never been one for lighthearted interactions, especially when it comes to connections. Yet here he is, standing before a woman who feels like a piece of his lost history, someone he feels inexplicably drawn to.
With one last lingering look, she steps back, her smile still warming the air between them. âSee you soon, then, Sukunaâsan.â she says, her voice light yet meaningful.
âYeahâŠ.. Iâll see you soon.â he echoes, his heart pounding in his chest as he watches her walk away, the soft sway of her figure leaving him breathless.
As he turns to leave the gallery, the weight of the memories of a thousand years presses less heavily on him. He had left behind Sukuna's world, and birthed a new. He hopes he can. He wants to. He wants to make that woman happy. She deserves to. She deserves to be happy, in the way he couldnât do it. He promises himself that.
For the first time, he feels a flicker of inspiration reigniting in his chest, like a spark thatâs been waiting for just the right moment to burst into flame. The idea of coffee, of sharing thoughts and laughter, of discussing art with someone who understands the nuances of his legacyâit excites him in a way he hadnât felt in what seems like an eternity. It excites him to burn with joy.
The streets outside are bathed in the warm glow of the setting sun, the colors alive and vibrant, reminding him of the canvases he has yet to fill. He can almost picture it now, a new piece forming in his mindâa swirling mix of shadows and light, of loss and hope, reflecting everything that has led him to this moment.
In the days and nights that follow, he begins to sketch again. The womanâs face, a beautiful blend of familiarity and freshness, dominates the canvas, layered with strokes of longing and the bittersweet pang of memory. He paints her laughter, the way her eyes sparkled with enthusiasm, and the gentle warmth that radiated from her smile.
Every brushstroke feels like a conversation, a way to weave their stories togetherâa blend of art, history, and the unspoken connection that binds them. The artistâs block that had once felt insurmountable begins to crumble, each session at the easel pulling him deeper into his thoughts and feelings, and farther from the suffocating grasp of despair.
He dreams of their meeting, the way her presence felt like coming home, and as their coffee date approaches, he finds himself wrapped in a mix of excitement and nerves. What would they talk about? What would she think of his art?
That evening, as he stands in front of the mirror, he catches a glimpse of himselfâdisheveled fuschia colored hair, weary bright scarlet eyes; but beneath it all, thereâs a glimmer of something he hasnât seen in ages: hope. A hope for the future. A hope for a new world, a new life. One that will echo years and years from now about joy.
Tomorrow, he tells himself as he brushes down his shirt, it will be different.Â
Tomorrow, heâll make her the happiest person in the world.
Tomorrow, heâll hope that she will never have any more days to frown.
When the sun rises, he feels it all too well. There was a flutter of anticipation in his chest as he prepared to meet her. Each step feels lighter, each moment filled with possibility. The thought of sharing coffee and storiesâhis past entwined with hersâignites a spark of creativity he hadnât realized heâd been missing.
As he enters the café, the aroma of freshly brewed coffee envelops him, and he scans the room, searching for her familiar face. When he spots her, seated at a cozy corner table, her hair cascading softly around her shoulders, he feels a rush of warmth.
Her smile brightens the space around them, and as their eyes meet, he knows heâs ready to embrace whatever this connection holds. Itâs a chance to delve deeper into their stories, to explore the tangled threads of fate that brought them together.
âHey!â she says, her voice lighting up the air between them as he approaches. âIâm so glad you made it.â
âWouldnât miss it for the world.â he replies, the weight of the past lifting as he takes a seat across from her. âSo, whatâs first on the menu?â
As you sit together, enveloped in the warmth of shared memories and laughter, Sukuna leans forward, his gaze both intense and gentle. The edges of his usually guarded expression soften, and the small lines near his eyes deepen with a smile thatâs almost boyish.
âYou know," Sukuna says, his voice low and thoughtful, âI have to say this to you⊠but⊠I never thought Iâd find someone who could understand me like this. The things Iâve seenâitâs hard to explain to people who havenât lived through the same nightmares."
He glances down at his coffee, a faint smirk on his lips. âBut with you, it doesnât feel like explaining. Itâs like Iâm just⊠remembering with someone else who was there too. This feels so natural. Between you and I.â
She smiles, feeling a warmth blossom within her. âItâs strange, isnât it? I mean, if someone had told me even a month ago that Iâd be here with you, talking like thisâŠâ She trails off, laughing softly, feeling a little lost for words. âI wouldâve thought they were crazy. But here we are.â
Sukuna chuckles, the sound surprisingly warm, free of his usual biting edge. âCrazy doesnât even begin to cover it.â He pauses, his gaze meeting hers, searching as if heâs trying to decipher something hidden. âIt feels like I know you⊠not just from now, but from a long time ago. Almost like I was meant to find you.â
His words send a shiver through her, a feeling both comforting and unsettling in its intensity. She nods slowly, letting the feeling settle within her. âI know what you mean,â she whispers, her voice barely above a breath. âItâs like weâre picking up where we left off⊠wherever that was.â
He takes a sip of his coffee, his gaze never leaving hers. âEvery lifetime,â he murmurs, as if saying it to himself. âEvery single one, I think Iâd find you.â His hand drifts across the table, his fingers brushing hers in a tentative, almost reverent way. âAnd every time, Iâd be the luckiest man alive.â
She looks down at his hand, his touch grounding her. âDo you believe in that, then? In soulmates? Lifetimes together?â
He smiles, almost a little sadly, as if unsure of his own answer. âMaybe I never did before⊠but with you, I canât help but think maybe I was wrong.â
A comfortable silence settles between them, the words hanging like a delicate thread binding them together. After a while, he speaks again, his voice barely more than a whisper. âYou⊠you make me see things differently, you know that? I just met you, but I just⊠I think itâs meant to be.â
Thereâs a vulnerability in his eyes, one sheâd never expected to see. âLike maybe life doesnât have to be as lonely as I thought it was. Or maybe, it just doesnât matter, as long as Iâm here⊠with you.â
Her heart aches at his words, sensing the pain heâs carried and the hope heâs now daring to hold onto. She laces her fingers with his, giving a gentle squeeze. âYou donât have to do it alone anymore, Sukuna-san,â she says softly. âNot as long as we have this. As long as we have each other. Maybe⊠maybe weâll find something more to life together.â
He closes his eyes for a moment, exhaling a breath he didnât know he was holding. When he opens them again, thereâs something raw, something almost fragile in his gaze. âIâm⊠Iâm honored,â he whispers gently, a small smile forming on his face. âIf that means Iâll be able to live by your side in this life.â
She blushes, feeling the depth of his sincerity. âIâm just as grateful, you know?â
âThank you.â he says, the words rough, yet sincere. âThank you for seeing me.â
âYou never have to say thank you to me.â She whispered back to him, smiling even wider. âOr say sorry. Okay?â
âOkay.â He smiles back at her, almost contagiously.Â
âSo, do youâŠ.do you wanna watch a movie with me?â
âIâd be honored.â
In that moment, it feels as though nothing else existsâjust her and him, caught in the quiet gravity of each otherâs presence.Â
As the sun sets outside, casting a warm glow over their table, Ryomen Sukuna feels a flicker of something he thought long extinguished.Â
And as long as sheâs beside him, he knows heâll be right there with her, finding a new meaning to every breath and every heartbeat, perhaps better than heâd ever dreamed.Â
After that day, Ryomen Sukuna stopped having those nightmares about that long suffering concubine.
Instead, he started to dream of a tall man and that long suffering concubine, walking away from him â smiling. Together.
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HE WAS LUCKY HE MADE IT. He hadnât slept much, but it was all worth it. He liked to think that he made his best gallery presentation yet. He knew she liked it just as much as he did. And that had made him even more happy.Â
He wasnât the best of storytellers, he knew that much. Writing was more or less something else to him. But, art like this? He could do it. And so, as he promised, he would make happiness appear on his canvas. He would make that concubine happy again.Â
 As the evening progresses, the atmosphere in the gallery transforms, infused with a blend of excitement and reverence. Guests drift in and out, their whispers and laughter weaving a tapestry of shared appreciation for Sukuna's work.Â
The vibrant energy of the space pulses with life, but at its core lies a poignant sense of introspection; a collective acknowledgment of the stories each painting holds.
Sukuna stands near the centerpiece, his gaze lingering on the depiction of himself and his concubine, locked in an eternal moment of tenderness. The hues swirl together, capturing not just their faces but the very essence of their souls; a connection that feels almost palpable. Each brushstroke is infused with the weight of longing and regret, but now, standing beside his companion, he recognizes a glimmer of hope amid the sorrow.
As the crowd ebbs and flows, Sukuna finds solace in watching her interact with the guests, her warmth radiating in waves. She engages effortlessly, sharing her thoughts on the art, her enthusiasm infectious.
He catches snippets of their conversations, her laughter ringing out like music, and he canât help but smile at the ease with which she navigates the social landscape. Itâs a stark contrast to his own guarded demeanor, and yet, her presence encourages him to lower his defenses, to engage in this world he once viewed from the shadows.
With each passing moment, Sukuna feels a shift within himself. The uncertainty that had plagued him for so long begins to dissolve, replaced by an exhilarating sense of possibility. As the crowd gradually dwindles, he glances at the painting again, his heart swelling with emotion. Itâs more than just an image; itâs a testament to love that transcends time, a narrative that binds past and present.
Suddenly, he turns to find her standing close, her expression reflecting a mixture of admiration and something deeper. âYouâve poured so much of yourself into this, Sukuna.â she says softly, her eyes shimmering with sincerity. âItâs not just about the concubine; itâs about you, too. Youâve laid bare your soul.â
The intensity of her gaze sends a shiver down his spine, and he swallows hard, feeling exposed yet liberated. âI wanted to capture the essence of what we had⊠to honor her, in my own little ways.â he replies, his voice low and steady. âBut I realize now itâs also about my journey. This is as much about my pain as it is about her love.â
She nods, her understanding palpable, and in that moment, he feels a deep connection; there was an unspoken bond that links them through shared experiences and emotions.
The weight of his past no longer feels like a burden; instead, it becomes a source of strength, a wellspring of creativity he can draw from as he embraces this new chapter in his life.
âI think youâve done an incredible job of that, you know?â she says, her voice softening. âYouâve shown that even in our darkest moments, love remains a guiding light. Itâs beautiful.â
Sukunaâs heart races at her words, and he feels a warmth blooming in his chestâa mixture of gratitude and affection. âThank you, really.â he replies, his voice sincere. âIt means a lot to hear that from you. Youâve been⊠a source of inspiration for me.â
Her smile deepens, and thereâs a spark of something electric in the air, a subtle shift that sends his pulse racing. âIâm glad I could be here for you, you know?â she says, her voice barely above a whisper. âItâs a privilege to witness your journey, to see you reclaim a sad story to a happy one.â
He looks at her, the soft glow of the gallery lights illuminating her features, and he feels a wave of emotion wash over him. For so long, he had been shackled by the weight of his past, haunted by the ghost of his concubine and the mistakes that had led to their separation. But here, in this moment, standing with her amidst the beauty of his creations, he feels the chains loosening.
âWill you stay a little longer?â he asks, almost hesitantly, fearing her response. âIâd like to talk more⊠about the paintings, about everything.â
Her eyes light up, and the warmth in her smile reassures him. âIâd love that.â she replies, and they find a quieter corner of the gallery, away from the remnants of the eveningâs festivities.
As they settle into a cozy nook, surrounded by the lingering essence of art and history, Sukuna feels a sense of calm wash over him. The world outside fades, leaving only the two of them and the unspoken connection that has blossomed between them.Â
âWhat do you see in these paintings?â he asks, eager to hear her perspective.
She leans forward, her gaze thoughtful. âI see love, loss, and resilience. Each piece speaks of a journey, a struggle to find beauty amidst pain. But what resonates most is the longingâthe desire to reconnect with something that was lost. Itâs powerful.â
He nods, her words echoing his own feelings, and as they discuss each painting in turn, he feels an exhilarating rush of creativity and clarity. The art becomes a conduit for their emotions, a way to explore the complexities of their shared experiences.
They dive deep into conversation, their voices low and intimate, each word exchanged drawing them closer together. She shares her own stories of loss and heartache, of moments when she thought sheâd never find her way again. Itâs a cathartic exchange, and he listens intently, captivated by her honesty and the strength she exudes.
With each revelation, Sukuna feels the walls that the King of Curses had built around himself begin to crumble. He shares his own struggles, the weight of his legacy, and the guilt that had shadowed him for centuries.
And perhaps, redemption may soon come for him in love. In this safe space, he finds himself opening up that man, that myth, that curse, in ways he never thought possible, unearthing emotions he had long buried.Â
The night wears on, and as the last of the guests trickle out, the gallery transforms into a cocoon of intimacy. Itâs just him and her, surrounded by the echoes of their stories, and for the first time in ages, he feels a sense of belongingâa connection that transcends time and pain.
âI never thought I could feel this way again.â he admits, his voice thick with emotion. âAfter everything Iâve lived through⊠I thought Iâd lost the ability to truly connect with anyone.â
She reaches out, her hand brushing against his in a gentle, reassuring gesture. âYou havenât lost that ability, Sukuna. Youâve just been waiting for the right moment, the right personâŠ.the right time.â she says, her gaze steady and filled with warmth. âIâm here now, and I want to be part of your journey.â
The sincerity in her words washes over him, and in that moment, he knows heâs found something rareâa connection that has the potential to redefine his understanding of love, art, and the future. The vulnerability he feels is both terrifying and exhilarating, but he knows heâs ready to embrace it.
As the last notes of music drift into silence and the soft, warm lights dim, the two of them sit close, hands intertwined, surrounded by the vibrant, intimate world he has created.
Each painting on the wall, each sculpture in the dim light feels like a memory brought to life, and she feels him relax beside her, the weight of his past somehow easing with each quiet heartbeat.
His thumb gently strokes her hand, and in that small, tender motion, she feels him say more than words ever could. With her here, in this sanctuary heâs built out of his own creativity and passion, heâs no longer the solitary figure haunted by shadows. Heâs simply a man who has finally, against all odds, found someone who can see past his darkness and anchor him in light.
As they stand to leave, his gaze drifts to one of his portraitsâa work that captures a moment from another time, another life. In it, the King of Curses sits beside his beloved concubine, her expression full of light and laughter, radiant in a way that suggests an unbreakable bond.Â
Ryomen Sukuna pauses, his hand still entwined with hers, and a rare, gentle smile crosses his face.
Looking at the painting, he lets himself hope, just a little. Perhaps, even in a world he once saw as cold and unyielding, there are threads of something beautiful woven into his story. Perhaps, even for someone like him, there could be a happy ending, one heâd never dared to imagine.
He leans down and whispers softly, almost as if confessing a secret. âI like to think they found each other again, you know? That somehow⊠this time, they got to be happy.â
She squeezes his hand, her eyes shining with warmth and understanding. âI like to think that too.â she replies gently, her voice full of affection.
They walk out together, the cool night air surrounding them as they leave his art behind. And as he catches her smile, he feels his heart swell with gratitude and a strange sense of peace.
For once, he isnât looking back, haunted by the ghosts of what once was. Instead, heâs looking forwardâtoward a future that, with her beside him, feels so much brighter than he ever thought possible.
In his heart, he offers a silent prayer, hoping that theyâll continue to find each other, in this life and in all the ones to come. And as they disappear into the night, hands intertwined, this Ryomen Sukuna hopes that the King of Curses finally allows himself to believe that, this time, happiness might be his after all.
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THERE WOULD BE NO MEMORY OF THIS WHEN HEâS REBORN. Ryomen Sukuna knows that much. That is the will of the unknown, of the gods unseen and unheard. He does not care much about the propriety of the accuracy. Why should it matter what their name is? He was dead, why should he care? Â
In the stillness of the afterlife, everything feels suspended, timeless. Everything was not what he had expected. Long ago, he had resigned himself to the thought that a final death would lead to the depths of burning inferno. And yet, it was not. He was stuck in a journey, a journey that continuously repeats over and over again.Â
He does not know what those gods intended with that. What was the purpose designed by the gods? What was the purpose of this journey? He had asked himself that for hundreds of years, walking and walking like the pilgrim he was and yet without end in sight. There was no road that was left to find a stop.
Perhaps, that is until now.
Ryomen Sukuna was the first to notice.
There was a wide shoji that appeared before them.
Ryomen Hiromi was quite unsure about what that was all about. But when she stepped right in front of it, the field protecting it had barred her from even touching it. She pursed her lips in a flat line. This door was not one for her to enter.Â
And she probably had already known that. Looking at him with those knowing purple eyes, she knew that it was not for her. It was for him. The gods had sent him a path, and it was not to be with her. It was a road for him to take, a road that was for him. Only him.
He took a short step towards it and allowed his hands to feel the space occupied by the massive wooden shoji. His touch could pierce its space. It was truly for him. There was no mistake in that. Uraume looked at him with a tense uncertainty. His most loyal Uraume is quite that timid child, still. Just as when Sukuna had met them years and years ago.Â
For a moment, it reminded him of Chizuru. That gentleness of that youth, that tenderness of youth. He could only see his little one. The little one that he misses most. His soul is already at peace, and perhaps Sukuna would never see him again.Â
He doesnât deserve to. He wasnât a good father to him. But moments like this, it gives him relief. Even if Chizuru didnât need him anymore, then someone else did. And that someone still needed him. Even if he wasnât the person suited to be needed.
Sukuna looked down at them, and then nodded reassuringly. Uraume reached forward and gasped. Their touch too pierced through its barrier. Of course, Sukuna thought to himself. Uraume tied their entire life to him.
They were one in the same. The loyal servant cannot live without the master. No, no. Sukuna corrects himself. There was always a need for someone. People will always need people.
He stands there idly as Ryomen Hiromi stood beside him, though keeping a distance. Everything around them had grown brighter. Brighter than before. All that surrounded them had been bathed in a soft, eternal light that neither burns nor fades.Â
This place, this moment, is for closureâa place where the bonds of the past can either linger or be released. A purgatory for souls, sinner or not. All souls look the same to the gods. Well, thatâs what Hiromi had told him.
Sukunaâs gaze rests on Hiromi, taking in the warmth in her expression, the calmness in her presence. Even here, she glows with an inner light that he has always cherished. Serene as the moonlight, as mellow as the clouds.Â
There had always been a quiet grace that no one could replicate. He had known that in his long lifetime. And for as long as he had lived, he thought that his job had been to protect it. To protect her. No matter what, with everything in him â even if it often meant tearing down the world around him.
For a long while, they simply stand together, the weight of their shared history resting between them. A thousand years, feeling even more than that, reflected in the understanding that came in the silence. He had known her too well, she had known him too well.
There was nothing left between them. Only knowing. And perhaps, thatâs why it wouldnât have ever worked. He thinks about that. Knowing someone, even too well, will never truly be living a life with them.Â
There was too much he did not know about her life. There was much she did not know about his own. They had lived lives that grew out of their tender love. People who loved each other so much, that they risked everything in the world â finally became two boats in the night waiting for each other to pass.Â
Perhaps thatâs all that there could be, he thinks about it now. No matter how much he loved her, no matter how much he still does love her â they were parallel lines. Right people, wrong place. Right place, wrong time.Â
That in itself was hard to admit, he knows that. He always has. But it was hard to say. It was hard to accept. Perhaps it always will be. Yet there is so much more beyond that grief of something already lost. Of life already lived and passed by. No matter how much he wants to follow Ryomen Hiromi with all the love in his heart, with all the devotion given from all his life, there will always be fate. And fate knows better than he.Â
As much as he tries, he was not a god.
He will never be one, he has tried to be.
He was just a sinner, a cruel cursed sinner.
Taking a deep breath, Sukuna speaks, his voice soft, yet resolute. "I can feel it, Hiromi." he says, looking down at his feet. âSomewhere out thereâŠâŠ..I am soon to be reborn. SoonâŠ.I must enter this door.â
Ryomen Hiromiâs face softens, and a knowing smile tugs at her lips. She tilts her head, teasing, but with a hint of sadness that she canât entirely hide. How could she? Ryomen Sukuna was her person. He was her family. Her dearest friend, her confidant. The man she loved, still does love. The love of her life.Â
But she knew that he was not yet ready. Perhaps he will never be ready to move forward like this. There was much tying him to the world of the living. To the earthly life. And she knew it wouldn't be her. It will never be her.Â
She could see it in the corner of his scarlet eyes. He too had lived a life. He had moved on. And he wants to see that loved one again. He wants to return. Even if he does not know it. He wants to see that smile on her face again.
"So, youâll stop following me now, huh?"
He chuckles, the sound quiet, almost reverent, as he brings her hand to his chest. "Iâll love you most in the world, you know that.â he murmurs, each word weighed with truth. âYou were the part of me that was good, Hiromi. Everything I amâŠ.was because of you.â
She looks at him, shaking her head. She remains smiling. âEndless flattery is not your style.â
His eyes warmed towards her. âIt is not flattery if it's true. You know that most. I do not lie, not easily. Not without reason.â
âI know.â She huffs back in response, her eyes lowered to the floor. âI know you too well.â
âI need to go. You know that. There are stillâŠ..too much left undone. I have a lot to make amends for, things I must repair.â His voice grows steady, almost solemn. âI need to start with someone else I love. Someone whoâs waiting, on the other side of the shore.â
Hiromiâs gaze flickers, her surprise shifting to understanding. Thereâs a light in her bright purple eyes, a pride that only deepens as she studies his face. For a moment, she wondered when he had grown up. When had he aged this well, lived this well. A part of her mourns the things they never saw. But she knew it was too late. He had someone else waiting to see those sides of him now.Â
âI always hoped youâd find something worth living for, beyond me. Beyond our clan. Beyond Jujutsu.â she says, her words carrying an emotion he hadnât expected. She laughs. âYouâve done well, Sukuna. I know you would. And now youâre better at admitting your faults. YouâveâŠ.youâve truly grown up! Father and uncle would be so glad to see it, donât you think?â
The weight of her words settles deeply into him, her silent devotion across lifetimes coming into sharp focus. Ryomen Sukuna closes his eyes, feeling the immensity of all that theyâve shared, all that heâs never truly expressed.Â
âThereâs still much for me to set right, Hiromi.â He looks at her, his expression softening as he finally speaks the words heâs never quite managed to say before. âBut the love we shared⊠It's the best part of me. Itâs the part of me I want to carry into the next life. Everything you taught me, it will be for the better.â
A soft laugh escapes her once more, and she shakes her head as if sheâs hearing a promise sheâs waited lifetimes for him to make. Her hand reaches up, gentle, almost motherly, as she brushes a stray hair back from his face. Leaning in, she presses a delicate kiss to his cheek.Â
âYou donât have to say anything else. Iâve always known you loved me.â She pulls back slightly, her hand lingering against his face. âIâll always love you too, Sukuna. But we have different lives now. Paths that arenât tied together anymore. No paths are bound, after all. Isnât that what was taught?âÂ
Her words are tender but firm, and he nods, finally accepting what sheâs known all along. âI know.â he whispers, the smile on his face tinged with the bittersweet ache of goodbye. âBut I think Iâll be alright, night flower. Iâve found something, someone⊠who I believe can make me better. Sheâs out there, waiting.â
For a moment, she could feel her heart shatter. In that moment, to remember what he had called her. With those words, with that tone of finality. With that tone of farewell. She could feel the warmth of water echo through her eyes. But she tries to make sure they do not pour. Those tears shouldnât be poured. Not for him. He does not need it. She must send him happily. She must send him off with a smile. A good farewell.
Hiromi pulls away, her hand slipping from his, though her gaze remains fixed on him with a profound love and pride. Her bright eyes gleamed at him, even brighter than before. She smiles at him, though he could notice how tight it was. No matter how happy she is for him â she will mourn. She canât help it.Â
âThen, I want you to find her, hm?â she says softly, the conviction in her voice like a benediction. âFind her and find your happiness, the kind that lasts. The kind that you finally deserve.â
He nods, and thereâs a rare, open softness in his expression, a gratitude as deep as the ages theyâve spent together. He takes a good look at her, as though he was memorizing this moment. For as long as it still lasts, he wants to remember it. He wants to remember her, giving her blessing.Â
âThen, Iâll go, nightflower.â he says, his voice low and filled with purpose. âIâll find her⊠and try to live the life I dreamed of with you.â
Hiromi smiles gently, and with one last lingering look, she turns to leave, pausing only to say. âSomeday, I hope to meet her tooâthe one who brought you peace. Bring her back with you. So that I may thank her for taking care of you.â
He nodded at her. He takes a deep breath as he lowers his gaze and sees Uraume looking at him, as though asking for courage. Sukuna takes Uraumeâs hand and tightly grips it, but is careful not to hurt them. A ghostly smile appears on his face, beaming it towards them.Â
Uraume could feel their eyes glisten as they felt the warmth of that smile. Uraume could feel warmth in them, tenderness â tenderness that molds their will to live with courage. Sukuna turns his head slightly, looking at Hiromi. His smile gets wider, and becomes more honest than before. She smiled at him, waving him off.Â
As he and Uraume walked towards the shoji, Ryomen Hiromi knew that she too has to move away. Ryomen Sukuna slowly watches her walk away into the path of light, alone, feeling the weight of a thousand lifetimes lifting from his shoulders. He could feel his breath hitch as he watches her walk away, perhaps for the final time, perhaps until they get reborn again.Â
If you were not waiting for him, if he had not met you, if he had not loved you â perhaps he would have turned away from these doors and moved towards the path of life and rejected rebirth. He would have let his soul rest in peace for all of time. But he knows that he was no longer that person anymore. He wanted to move forward. He wanted to break the cycle. He wanted to be with you.
Ryomen Sukuna is ready to face the world again, this time with a purpose that is as clear as the love he feels for the woman he will now seek. He must atone. He must live a new life. He must make you happy.Â
Both of you will be happy, he knows that. And as he steps forward, towards his own rebirth, he carries her blessings, his heart finally open to the happiness he had once believed was out of reach. He will live it now. He will atone, he will find redemption. He will make you happy.
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THERE HE WAS... shirtless out in the sun on his front yard. you couldn't help but blush when you saw this abs glazed in sweat due to the heat. his black sunglasses rested on the bridge nose as he soaked in every bit of sunlight.
sim jaeyun, your handsome, flirty next door neighbor. ever since he moved into the neighborhood, he always found his way to be near you. it started with his soccer ball landed on your yard, he would knock on your door asking if he can come get it.
now there he was, laying on a towel; shirtless. you couldn't help but stare, watching him lay out in the sun. you continued to stare, making sure you weren't so obvious, or so you thought.
"hey pretty." you near jake call out.
"oh hey.. what're doing out on this humid day?" you casually played it off.
"just soaking in some sun you know? say, wanna help me out for a second doll?" he asks, creating a small pain in your chest.
his question makes your heart skip a small beat, you were hesitate; before agreeing without any second thought. "okay." you replied, walking over to his yard.
jake sat up in his spot, putting out a tube of cooling liquid. "do me a favor doll and rub this on my abs? i've got a really bad sunburn."
his question made your face flush mixes of red and pink, you didn't know what to say for a second. your hot neighbor wants you to rub a cooling liquid on his abs, he wants you to touch him.
"how come? why can't you do it?" you ask jake, curious as to why he would want you place your delicate hand on his skin.
"cmon doll, you have a soft touch. and not gonna lie it's burning me. would you do it? please pretty?" jake slightly begs, trying to not sound desperate; but also hide the pain of his sunburn.
you feel bad jake was suffering with a really bad sunburn, especially on a delicate place on his body. you pour some of the cooling liquid onto the palm of your hand, before sliding it onto jake's toned, tight, ridged abs.
you stopped as your palm hit his abs, rubbing his abs gently; allowing the cooling liquid to spread. a low groan left jake's lips.
"how's that?" you asked, wondering if your touch alongside the cooling liquid calmed down the burning sensation on his skin.
"thank you doll, i told you that you have a gentle and delicate touch." he bit his lip. "i should burn my abs more often." jake joked, a small laugh leaving his lips.
you playfully rolled "yeah yeah. i'll see you around jae." you began to walk back to your place, that was until jake called back for you.
"doll face, come back here."
you turned back, stepping foot back in his lawn. jake approached you more closer, his hands reached your waist; pulling you closer to him. his eyes met with yours, a flirty smile resting in his lips.
"how about a reward? for being such a good neighbor and helping me out."
"reward? what were you thinking?" you asked curiously.
jake paused, no words left his mouth; before his lips met with yours.
his tongue lapping on yours, his grip on your waist gaining tighter. your arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer to you as your lips crashed. his veiny hands make their way to the bottom of your tank top, caressing the small exposed skin available to touch. his hands made their way under your top, resting onto your lower back.
he pulls away from your lips, a small smirk on his face. "you're so gorgeous.. fuck" he groans before he kisses your neck, sending a rush of desire to you. "are you free later?" he asks, pulling away from your body slightly.
"well i'm going out with some friends later..." you replied, a slight frown falling onto jake's face as he hears your response.
"well cancel them doll, i need every minute i can get to savor every inch of that body." jake smirked, his hands finding its way back to your waist.
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Angel Calling
Fandom: Marvel (Mob Boss AU)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x F!Reader
Summary: You've formed a friendship with Brooklyn's most fearsome mob boss. But he isn't James Barnes, White Wolf, head of the Barnes Family Crime Syndicate. No. To you, he's just Bucky and he'll be there whenever you call.
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Bucky usually doesn't step in when it comes to interrogations but this one was different. Sam and Joaquin managed to find the mole in his organization. Said mole would relay any information about the workings within the Barnes Family to Hydra, sabotaging any efforts for Bucky and his family to continue to reign over Brooklyn.
So things were tense and the mole, his former lawyer, Sitwell, was slumped in a chair, bloodied and bruised.
Bucky had forgone his blazer jacket, the sleeves of his black turtleneck rolled up to his elbows. His pinky ring with his family's sigil on not was caked in blood, a mix of Sitwells and Bucky's, but mainly Sitwells.
The older man sobs, "Please, just kill me," after Bucky lands another blow to his body.
Bucky straightens up, a devilish smirk on his face, "You think I'd make it easy for you after all the shit you pulled? After how well my family and I paid you to help cover up for us? Nah, buddy. This is your own fault. You thought Hydra could save you, but you're just scum to them," Bucky punches the man again, "My family and I were generous to you and this is how you return the favor?!" Another punch to the cheek, blood dripping onto the pavement.
A shrill ringing suddenly echoes within the warehouse and Bucky glares to his men behind him. Joaquin immediately searches the pockets of Bucky's jacket. When he pulls out the phone, he turns it to his boss, "It's her, sir."
Bucky's eyes immediately softens when he sees your name on his screen. He then turns to Sitwell's unconscious body, "Saved by the bell," he murmurs.
Sam tosses Bucky a towel and gives Joaquin a nod. Joaquin accepts the call and puts you on speaker.
"Hey, angel, you okay?"
"...don't say you told me so but-"
"Your car finally die?" Bucky answers with a smirk as he wipes as much blood from his hands as possible.
"...yes."
Bucky snorts, "Where are you?"
"Literally a few blocks away from my apartment, which is the most annoying thing. It couldn't have waited to die after I got home?! Anyway, if you and your guys can help me push the car-"
"Angel, we're not pushing your car down a few blocks. I'll pick you up and have one of my tow guys get your car."
"Bucky," you give him a warning tone.
"Angel," he gives the same energy back.
"It's fine, Bucky," you try to reason with the mob boss even though you know you probably won't win. Bucky is incredibly persuasive.
"I got it handled, angel. Let me do this. I like to take care of my friends." When he says this, Joaquin and Sam give each other a look and Bucky give them a finger. The other two men snicker.
"I'll let you pay half for the repair costs," you compromise.
Bucky scoffs, "Repairs? Nah, angel, we're getting you a new car."
You sigh, and Bucky imagines you shaking your head, "We'll discuss it when you pick me up. I'll send you my location."
"Alright. I'll see you in a bit. Just wait inside your car. Lock the doors and keep that pocket knife I gave you in hand."
"Yes, sir! See you soon. Bye!"
"Bye," Bucky replies and ends the call.
Sam makes kissing noises and Joaquin laughs. Bucky rolls his eyes at the two, "Shut the fuck up." He looks over his shoulder to the still slumped, unconscious Sitwell, "Keep an eye on him. Ask him more questions if or when he wakes. I'm gonna clean up a bit more and head out."
"Sounds good. Say hi to your angel for us!" Joaquin says as Bucky heads to the bathroom to scrub off the remaining blood from his hands.
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You jolt away when you hear a knock on your window. You see Bucky standing there with a teasing smirk. You roll your eyes and open the door, "You scared me."
"You shouldn't have fallen asleep. Something could've happened to you."
"I was tired from work and you took too long!"
"It took me twenty minutes to get here, angel."
"Well that twenty minutes was the longest twenty minutes of my life!
Bucky playfully rolls his eyes and rests his hands on his hips, "Okay, we going or not? Grab your stuff. I don't want you freezing out here any longer."
You grab your work bag and purse, and hand them to Bucky. He guides you to the passenger seat of his matte black Rolls Royce. He opens the door for you and lets you slip into the car. He hands you your stuff and then shuts the door.
He swiftly goes to the driver's side, getting into the car and starting it. He cranks the heat up all the way. He saw you shivering in your car. As the heat spreads throughout the vehicle, your shivering decreases.
You look to Bucky in appreciation, "Thanks for getting me. No one else was answering since it's late."
He quickly glances at you with a soft grin, "I'll always answer when you call, angel."
A warmth spreads through your chest and you know it's not from the car's heater.
The car ride is short since you only live down the next few blocks. Bucky parks on the street and immediately rushes to your side to help you out of the car. He grabs your bags and follows you to the front door where you punch in your code and the door swings open.
"Come up with me so I can bandage your hands," you point to his right knuckles that are covered in cuts.
"I'll be fine."
"Then at least have a drink with me and we can talk about a new car."
A grin appears on Bucky's face, "I'll humor you into thinking I'm going to let you pay for any portion of your new car."
"I'm not easily swayed, Barnes."
"Don't I know it," Bucky replies as he follows you into the building and towards the elevator. You stand beside each other as the lift reaches to the fifth floor.
In a comfortable silence, Bucky follows you to your apartment. As soon as the door opens, your cat, Willow, gives you scolding meows since it's passed her feeding time.
"I know, honey. I know, I'm sorry!" you rush to grab her food and scoop it into her feeding bowl. She happily scarfs down her food as Bucky bends down, giving soft pets to your cat.
"She's so cute."
"She's a menace, but I love her," you say as you head to the kitchen, "Beer or whiskey?"
"Beer, please!"
You grab a bottle from the fridge and fill a glass of water for yourself. You hand Bucky the bottle as he plops onto your couch.
"So, for the car, I don't need anything fancy or super expensive. Literally just a normal car that runs, has good mileage, and doesn't require a shit ton of gas."
Bucky chuckles as he opens the beer bottle with his metal prosthetic, "I'll take you to a few dealerships tomorrow. You don't work on Thursdays, right?"
You look at him in surprise, "Yeah...you remember my schedule?"
He shrugs, trying to appear nonchalant, "Just in case," he mumbles, sipping from his beer.
"Anyway, yeah, I think it's best you come with me to the dealership anyway. Because sales people will try to get one over me because I'm a woman," you roll your eyes in annoyance.
"Well, all the local places know me so they'll know not to give you a shit deal."
"Sweet," you say in excitement.
Willow, done with her meal, hops onto the couch and onto Bucky's lap. She sniffs him and looks up at him expectantly, giving him a meow.
"She wants you to pet her," you translate for him.
He chuckles, "Well how can I say no to an adorable face like that?" he says, scratching Willow behind the ear, which she loves. She leans into his touch and it melts Bucky's heart.
You snicker, "If only your friends could see you now."
"If you tell any of them this, I will deny everything."
You laugh, "Don't want everyone to know what an absolute softie you are. Bucky?"
"I'm only like this when it comes to you, angel," he says.
"Hmm," is all you respond with. You turn away from Bucky and the air shifts.
Bucky gently picks up Willow up and places her on the floor. He turns his body towards you, "I'm sorry. I didn't-"
"You're so confusing, Bucky."
"Huh?"
"Or maybe I'm just stupid. Or both. I don't know."
"What do you mean?"
You let out a deep breath and turn your body to face him, "One moment, I think you're flirting with me and it seems like you like me. But then the next, you keep mentioning how we're friends and you like to treat your friends a certain a way. I just-I dunno. It's hard to process how I'm feeling with how your actions and your words don't match up."
It's true. Bucky has been holding himself back. He does like you. He really does, but he's also scared. You're a civilian, a completely normal person. Whereas he was born and raised in a prominent crime family. He leads a dangerous life and he's scared to get you involved in his shit. But he also loves spending time with you and talking to you, it makes him feel normal.
Bucky runs his fingers through his shoulder length dark brown hair, "You're right. I haven't been very clear on where I stand in this...thing between us. The truth is...I like you. A whole lot, angel. I didn't expect for things to go this way. I didn't expect you to stick around after finding out who I really was, but it's nice being with you. In my crazy hectic world, everything is so loud and busy. But when you, I feel peace and there's silence.
"Truth is, angel, I've fallen for you. I just don't want you to get caught up in my shit. But I also can't seem to stay away from you."
You scoot closer to him, placing your hand on top of his metal one, "I really like you too, Bucky. And I understand where you're coming from. I'll admit that what you do is scary to me, but I also trust you enough to keep me safe."
"So...do you wanna try this out?"
You nod, "Yeah. I do."
"Great," he says breathlessly, eyes darting to your lips, "Can I-"
"Please," you mumble before pressing your lips to his.
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Bucky holds a gun to the man's head, a deadpan expression on his face as the man begs for his life.
"I swear, it was only the one time! I-" his words get cut off as Bucky's phone rings. Bucky looks over his shoulder to see Sam holding up his phone. A picture of you and "My Angel" on the screen. A grin breaks out onto Bucky's face.
He turns to the man, "Enough of this," he pulls the trigger, the man falling back onto the pavement with a bullet in his head.
Bucky walks over to Sam, trading the gun for his phone, "Hello, my beautiful angel."
You giggle, "Hey, Big Man. Just making sure you're coming over for dinner right?"
"Yes, ma'am. I'll be coming over in an hour and I can help you cook."
"You don't have to help, Bucky."
"I want to."
"Softie."
"Only for you," he replies with a soft grin.
"Alright. I'm gonna start prepping. Say hi to the guys for me. Bye!"
"Will do. See you soon. Bye!"
When Bucky ends the call, he points a finger at Sam and Joaquin, "Not a word!"
The two men laugh as Bucky walks away. He's ready to spend the rest of his night with you, his angel.
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Rile Him Up
Pairing:Â Professor!Spencer Reid x Female!Reader
Word Count:Â ~700
Warnings: sexual tension
Summary:Â Class is so much more fun when Spencer Reid is your professor.
Square Filled:Â college au (2020) for @cm-kinkbingo
Authorâs Note:Â any and all comments are greatly appreciated <3
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The desks in class have always been uncomfortable, but youâre feeling a bit extra this morning. Your entire body is sore and there is stiffness in your neck where there shouldnât be. The back support isnât great in these small desks, but you make do with what you have. Your best friend walks into class, and you sit up straighter and put a smile on your face.
âHey, Ames. How was your vacation?â
âOh, I wish I was back in Paree,â she says with a slight French accent. âBut Iâm also glad to be back here with you. How was your weekend?â
âTiring. I barely got any sleep last night, and my neck is sore. Maybe I slept on it wrong, I donât know.â
âAfter class, Iâll give you the name of my massage therapist. He works wonders on my body, and heâll even take you for free as a courtesy to me.â
âAre you fucking him?â you grin.
âThatâs neither here nor there,â she giggles.
âWell, thanks. Iâll take it.â
The rest of the class comes into the room including the young professor, Dr. Spencer Reid. All the women in his class have googly eyes for him. Whatâs there to look at? He just has honey-brown eyes, curly brown hair, a lean but toned body, and a very intelligent brain. Heâs every womanâs dream, apparently.
Instantly, whispers fill the room, mostly from the women. Spencer sets his bag on top of his desk and walks to the whiteboard. He grabs a marker and writes âCriminology 101â on it.
âI have graded your tests from last week. I have to say, the majority of you did not pass. I do encourage office hours for those who need extra help. There is no shame in asking for it,â Spencer announces.
Spencer takes the graded tests from his bag and starts to pass them out. You donât want to turn back and hurt even more from the kink in your neck, so you only watch him when heâs in the front of the class. He gets to you and sets your test face down on the desk without sparing you a glance. You grab your test and turn it over, silently scowling at the B.
You deserved an A.
âIf you have any questions about the grade youâve received, please see me at the end of class.â
You take your laptop out of your bag as Spencer moves on to the next subject. He speaks but you donât hear a word heâs saying. You lean back in your chair and spread your legs slightly like how a man would spread his. Spencer briefly looks your way before moving on.
âThis next project weâre going to do is worth thirty percent of your grade, so youâre going to work in pairs to get this done.â Chatter picks up as people already pick the person they want to work with. âOnce you have your partner, youâre going to research a famous criminal in world history, create a profile about that person, come up with victimology, and how you would apprehend them. Once you have the criminal in mind, come up and let me know. No two groups will have the same criminal. Get started.â
You and Amy immediately pair up and start researching famous criminals, but you canât look down long because your neck will start to hurt.
âDamn, you must really have hurt your neck,â Amy says.
âYeah,â you mumble.
Your phone rings and you see a text pop up from your boyfriend. You smirk and hide your phone away from Amy even though she isnât paying attention to you.
My Loveđ:Â I hope I didnât choke you too hard last night.
Me:Â Maybe a little, but I liked it. We should be talking about the B you just gave me.
You look up and lock eyes with none other than Dr. Spencer Reid. He leans back in his chair but the expression on his face doesnât change.Â
My Loveđ: Your argument was weak. You can do better than that. What we should be talking about are those pretty pink panties I see peeking out from under your skirt. Close your legs. Get back to work.
You smirk and put your phone away. Instead of replying to him, you open your legs a bit more. Even from where you are, you can hear him growl softly. Class is so much more fun when your boyfriend is the professor.
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Heyy! I was wondering if I could request a satoru x reader x Suguru smut? With like, some bdsm mixed in yk. Tying reader up, satoru is a tease, and likes to make her squirm and ask questions he know she canât answer because Suguru is fucking her throat. But Suguru is mean. Mean and tougher than satoru. He tells satoru to stop being so gentle with you, that not only do you deserve rough treatment but you like it. And satoru listens to him, of course. I just want them to run through me like a trainđ
Also same mean geto anon (again lol) Iâm gonna just sign off w an emoji now :3 -đ
Hi Anon!
This isn't my cup of tea, it's my FUCKING jam!!
Summary: Gojo and Geto had been on a two-week-long mission, which hadn't gone as smoothly as Suguru wanted. He was pent-up and frustrated. So, of course, Gojo called you to warn you it might not be a good idea to come over. You, of course, did not heed his warning. The second you get home, you realize that you were screwed.
Word Count: 3,706
Warnings: BDSM, rough sex, oral sex, so much sex, degradation, teasing, the smuttiest of smut
A/N: Good God, Satoru x Reader x Suguru is my weakness!! I put my whole heart into this. Geto Suguru, teacher AU, is my kryptonite!
Part Two
She Likes it Like That
âY/N babe,â Gojo said in a hushed whisper, âyou probably shouldn't come home tonight.â
You cocked an eyebrow, looking away from the first year's training. âI'm sorry, did you just tell me not to come home. . .to our apartment?â The world âourâ came out like acid.
Gojo sighed overdramatically. âDon't say it like that. I'm trying to save you! Suguru is in such a bad mood.â You listened to him walking around. âI sighed out loud when I noticed the last of my mochi was gone. Fuck you for that, by the way, and do you know what he said to me?â You pinched at the bridge of your nose, waiting for the rant to continue. âHe told me to shut the fuck up! For sighing!â
âWhat did you do to piss him off? Oh, and just an FYI, I bought you more mochi, asshole.â
âOhââ silence, âthank you-Iâm sorry, please don't return it.â
âSatoru! Forget about the mochi. What happened to Sugu?â
The mission your partners were sent on did not go as planned. Their hotel had flooded; it was not like they had time to consider sleeping. The higher-ups sent them to an abandoned mountainside village full of cursed spirits. Poor Suguru had to swallow dozens for nearly two weeks. Gojo had enough; he couldn't stand the pained expression on his face as he gagged the last spirit down. So he decided to Hollow-Purpled the entire village.
The second they got back, the higher-ups scolded the hell out of them. Chastising them, complaining that they didn't do a good enough job. After all their hard work, the time they spent away from home, from you. Those bastards dared to complain about their hard work. It sent Suguru into a terrible mood, one that was bound to end with either a fight or someone getting fucked into the mattress.
One thing about Suguru was that when he was pissy, things felt out of his control. He needed to take control back. Which meant he wanted to have sex. He would be rough, really rough, tying either you or Satoru up, not letting you go until he had calmed down. Or if one of you was fucked too stupid to continue, his eyes focused on the other that wasn't tied up.
âSo please, just stay with Ieiri tonight. I'm going to lock myself in my room. Last time he was this pissed off, the both of us were so sore we couldn't move.â
âUgh, fuckinâ whatever.â This whole situation wasn't fair. You hated how your boyfriends were mistreated.
âYeah, just stay theâoh, hi Suguru.â There was a shuffling in the background. âNo, I wasn't talking shit.â Satoru nervously laughed. âLook, Suguâno, put down the ropeââ
âToru?â Panic for your boyfriend sank into your stomach.
âHey! Wait a secondâSuguââ
Before any other indication of what was happening came through the receiver, the other line cut off. So you quickly yelled to the students you had to leave and took off. By the time you made it, you were breathless from running and realized that in your panic, you left your keys at work.
You picked up the spare key hidden under the doormat. Just as you were about to unlock the door, it flew open. You slowly blinked, looking up at a very irritated Suguru. The man radiated gloom and tension. He was in his sweatpants, and his hair was tied in a messy bun, and, dear God, he looked pent up.
âWhy the fuck are you using the spare key?â
âI-I uhââ
âOoooh~ there she is~!â a hand gently rested against Suguruâs shoulder as Satoru peered down at you from behind your dark-haired boyfriend. âThere's our girl!â
It only took a moment to see that Satoru mirrored Suguruâs frustration and anger. Oh fuck. The key fell from your hand as you took a step back. Suguru was demanding and rough when he was pent up. Satoru, on the other hand, was a tease. He liked pushing you, making you cry. Both of them being in a pissy mood simultaneously, this was a nightmare for you.
âY-You, I thought you were in trouble!â
âOh yeah, no.â Suguruâs soured face slowly twisted into a smirk as Satoru licked his lip. âBut you~?â Suguruâs hand darted out, grabbing you by the front of your shirt, preventing you from moving further back. âYou're royally fucked.â Before you even had a chance to respond, Suguru and Satoru grabbed you, yanking you inside.
âAwe~â Satoru hummed as he trailed his kiss up the bare thighs he lay between. âLook at you~ trying to clamp your thighs shut.â Gojoâs fingers were buried deep inside of you. Finger fucking you to the edge of yet another orgasm he would deny. âBut you can't, can you~? Suguruâs got you all tied to the bed, spread out for us to use you.â A muffled moan escaped you. âHuh? What was that princess? You gotta use your big girl words.â Satoru tilted his head, cupping his free hand around the back of his ear. âOooh! That's right, you can't talk when getting your throat fucked.â
You gagged as Suguru's cock hit the back of your throat. He was quiet, his eyes shut in concentration. He looked so fucking hot, so focused on the feeling of your mouth. Sweat was beading on his forehead as he pulled in and out of your mouth, grunting softly as you hollowed your cheeks. But the more Satoru spoke, the more Suguru knitted his eyebrows.
âI bet you want me to stuff your pussy, too, don't you~? You want to be spit-roasted between your two boyfriends?â Your pussy twitched at his words. âOooh~!! Your cunt just twitched. Is that what our sweet girl wantsââ
âSatoru,â Suguru snarled, âshut the fuck up.â
âWell, excuse the fuck out of me. Y/N likes it when I tease her.â
Suguru tsked, pulling his thick cock out of your mouth. You gasped and coughed, spit and precum coating your chin. Between your pants and the gasps for air, Suguru went to what you thought would be a head pat. Instead, his fingers tangled in your air with a hard yank, pulling you up to look down at Satoru. His face was flushed, cerulean eyes wide as he looked between his two partners.
âLook at the fucking slutty face she's making.â The grip on your hair tightened. âYou think she looks like this because of your pitiful teasing?â A shaky moan escaped you as he tightened his grip harder. âNo, she looks like this because this little slut likes it rough.â
Fuck, you wanted more, to run your hands over Suguruâs arms, to grip his cock, urging him to keep fucking your throat. You were desperate to trap Satoru's head firmly between your thighs, forcing him to kiss and lick your clit. Instead, you weakly tugged at the purple restraints tied to both your wrists and ankles. Suguru had set up the rigging underneath the mattress, making it impossible for you to move. Meaning if you wanted his cock back in your mouth or Satoruâs tongue inside of you, you had to wait for them.
What made it more frustrating was the fact that you were completely bare. Not allowing you to hide the way your body reacted to Suguruâs dirty words. He was telling the truth. And the truth was behind your body's reactions. Gojo could see it in the way your tight entrance clenched around his fingers. He could feel your pussy drip around him, your wetness running down his knuckles. Suguru was right; you did like it; no, like wasn't the right word.
You fucking loved it.
Suguru could see the wheels turning in Satoruâs head as his eyes glittered with lust and excitement. âSatoru~ do you finally see it?~â The way Suguru purred his name had Satoruâs cock throbbing. âYou see why she came home, even though she knew sheâd get fucked?â
âYeah, yeah, she's a fucking slut.â
âYeah, she is.â A sharp tug on your head made you yelp. Suguru grinned, cocking an eyebrow at you. âYou want it rough? Want me to fuck your throat so hard you cry, pretty girl?â
âY-Yes, please.â
Gripping his cock at the base, Suguru slapped his thick meat against your cheek. âThat's a good girl. Now open up.â slowly, you opened your mouth to him. Watching your tongue slip out had his tip angry, throbbing red. âNow,â he smeared the beading precum over your bottom lip, âsay ah~.â
âAhh~â The second that sound left your pretty mouth Suguru shoved his cock in your mouth. Your eyes stung as tears filled your eyes.
Satoruâs fingers had stopped their slow movements inside of you. His mouth was dry as he gulped. Suguru had been rough before, but this was a whole new level. His thick fingers wrapped around your Y/H/C hair, holding your head in place. His hips pull back before slamming forward, his ass clenching with the force of each thrust. Blue eyes slowly trailed over to your face. Your eyes were red, big tears slowly down your cheeks, and your throat was fucked. Satoru swore he could see Suguruâs tip bulging in your slender neck.
This was fucking hot. Suguruâs bare back glittered in the low light of the bedroom, a sheen of sweat beaded over his toned muscles. It was like watching a god fuck a mortal Suguru radiated a dominating power as he watched their girlfriend choke and gag on his cock. Satoruâs cock was so hard it fucking hurt. Reaching down, he wrapped his hand around his throbbing shaft, jerking it slowly as he leaned down, kissing and nipping at your inner thighs.
The gentle kisses had you sighing contently around Suguruâs cock. Looking over his shoulder, Suguru sighed as he watched Satoru. His pink tongue was stuck out, gently teasing your damp folds. The sensation had you sighing around his dick, and that was not what he needed right this fucking second. Suguru wanted more; he needed it to relieve the tension in his shoulder. But that relief, the release he needed, wouldnât happen, with Satoru teasing you like he loved to do.
âSatoru,â Suguru's voice was rough, âI just told you Y/N likes it rough.â
âUh-huh~â Satoruâs voice was muffled as his face buried in your pussy, making you whine around the cock buried in your mouth.
âYouâre not being rough enough.â Satoru pulled back, making you whine in protest. âOh, Iâm sorry. Do you want to come down here and eat Y/Nâs pussy while I get my dick sucked?â
âNo.â The cocky smile that was beginning to form on Satoruâs face was suddenly gone as Suguru reached his free hand down, wrapping his fingers in soft white hair. âI want you to fucking eat her cunt out like you fucking hate her.â Your eyes rolled back as Satoru was slammed back down into your pussy. The moan that left his mouth vibrated just right against our clit, making you cry out. âAh~ fuck yes.â Your cries vibrated around Suguruâs cock, just the way he wanted. âThatâs it, Satoru, keep it up.â
âMmmmph.â Finally, having a picture of how Suguru wanted him to act, Satoru found himself motivated. Again, it might be because his boyfriend was tugging and pulling at his sensitive hairline. Yeah, that was motivating him. Fuck you like he hated you, he could do that. He was just as pent-up as Suguru was.
Fingers slammed inside your pussy, fucking in and out of your tight hole with a force and speed that had you crying out in pleasure. Your moans felt so fucking good, and the more you opened your mouth to cry, the deeper Suguru fucked your throat. He hit the back over and over again, his hand pressing firmly against Satoruâs head, pushing him harder against your clit. The two of you moaned while your mouths were being used; the sounds of whimpers, squelches, and gagging were like a symphony to Suguruâs ears.
Out of all the ways for him to relieve his stress, this was by far his favorite.
âHahâfuck keep that up, Satoru, bring her right to the edge, then stop. I want her cumming with both of us inside of her. Fucking her so rough she has to call out of work tomorrow and Friday.â The thought of that had you pulling on your restraints. âOooh oh, you like that? You like knowing the two of us will make sure you canât walk or talk tomorrow?â Your muffled moans were quickly molded into gags as Suguru roughly fucked your face. âYeah, you fucking do, you nasty little slut.â
Your mind was spinning as you felt yourself climbing closer and closer to your orgasm. The room was so hot and reeked of sex. It was all you could do not to allow yourself to cum right then and there. Satoru could feel it, the way your little swollen clit throbbed against his tongue, how your walls clamped down on his fingers. He wanted to send you over the edge. He was close to following you as he fucked his hips helplessly into the mattress, wishing it was your wet pussy instead.
One orgasm wouldnât hurt, would it? You had been so good to them, allowing the duo to drag you into the house, strip you in the entryway, and tie you to the bed. Plus, on top of all that, they had left you alone for two weeks. You had to rely on that stupid vibrator Suguru insisted on allowing you to keep. That stupid toy was nothing compared to his tongue. Which was probably why he was bringing you to a mind-blowing orgasm in under three minutes.
Yeah, he was going to let you cum.
Curling his fingers up into your g-spot, Satoru fucked you as fast as his wrist would allow. Suguru instantly knew what was happening. From the way your eyes shut to how loud you were moaning around him, you were seconds away from cumming. If he was in a better mood, he might have allowed it to happen. Unfortunately, he wasnât done with you yet.
âStop.â Suguru scolded, pulling Satoru away from your dripping sex.
Both you and Satoru made disapproving groans as your orgasm slowly faded out of sight. âDoesnât she deserve a treat? Sheâs been so good!â Satoru whined, licking your juices off his lips.
âI agree. Y/N does deserve a reward. But you need to give it to her in the roughest way that you can.â Suguru pulled his cock out of your mouth, allowing you to catch your breath. âLook at it this way. We get to blow off the steam while we make up for making her play with herself for two weeks.â
âHuh?â Those words struck a different chord in Satoru, and his cock twitched.
âY/N, sweetheart, how often would you say you played with yourself when we were gone.â
You swallowed at the air greedily. âI donât know, seven, maybe eight times.â Both your boyfriends shuddered, hearing the hoarseness of your voice.
âAnd out of all of those times, did you cum as hard as you do with us.â
âNot at all. They were all baby orgasms.â
Suguru shut his eyes, nodding his head. âSee, Satoru, not only does our little slut like us rough and demanding, but we have to make up for those eight little orgasms.â When the dark-haired man looked back at Satoru, he saw a flash of white before your scream of shock and please bounced off the walls.
Suguruâs eyes were slightly wide as his brain tried to catch up with what his eyes had just witnessed. What he saw was Satoru balls deep inside of you. His thrusts were sloppy and needy, and fuck you looked as stunned as Suguru. One second you had been empty, pussy craving a cock deep inside of it from the denied orgasm. In the blink of an eye, Satoru was fucking into you more brutal than heâd ever fucked you before.
âI fucking told you, that toy was nothing compared to us.â Satoru snarled against the crook of your neck, digging his teeth into the sensitive skin. âFucking stupid toy, not pleasing my girl.â
âOh myâfuck, holy fuck!â You cried out, mouth wide open. Giving Suguru the perfect opportunity to get back to fucking your throat. The bittersweet taste of pre-cum had your mouth watering. He returned to the brutal pace he was in several minutes again.
âShe needs that Satoru. What if we get sent on another long mission? Sheâs just supposed to suffer?â The thought of that had Suguru tilting his head, bangs falling in front of his eye. âYou know what, I think you might be on to something. If we take her toy away, then weâd have to fuck her even harder the next time we get home.â
Satoruâs teeth sank harder into your neck as the tip of his cock slammed almost too hard into your cervix, making you scream around Suguru. âExactly. Let me use reversal red on it, Y/N, please, baby.â You started to shake your head in a desperate plea to let you keep it. But Suguruâs cock in your throat made it impossible to do so. âWhat was that? Oh, right, you have your mouth full.â His lips moved against your pulse as his fingers dug into your hips. âGuess weâll just have to say the way your clamping down on my cock is a yes in our book.â Your eyes darted up to Suguru, who had bought you the toy, for help.
âMhmm fuck, yeah, Iâm pretty sure she just hummed an âuh-huhâ around my cock.â
You wanted to argue, to fight against this rash decision, but you felt so good it was almost impossible to care. You were screaming around Suguruâs cock. Tears streaming down your face, leaving behind trails of mascara. They were both being so mean and rough. God, it was so fucking good. Who cared about a clit sucker when your throat and pussy were being fucked into next week.
âSheâs close.â Satoru cried out, his balls slapping against your ass. âOh fuck sheâs hugging my cock so tight Iâm going to explode Suguru.â
With blurry eyes, you glanced up at Suguru. His cheeks were flushed, and his eyes shut tight. âI know, oh fuck I know, Iâm so close, Satoru, donât fuckinâ stop, make her cum, make her cum so hard.â Both his hands grabbed your face fucking your throat roughly as Satoru cried out, his hand pressing roughly on your clit, rubbing it in fast circles.
That was all that you needed. You cried out, squirting all over Satoruâs crotch, abdomen, and the mattress. Your orgasm set a domino effect between your boyfriends. Suguru followed behind you, his body hunched over you, his hands gently squeezing your head as he filled your mouth full of his thick cum. You weakly tried swallowing all of it, but that was somewhat difficult as Satoru extended your orgasm.
His thumb continues to rub your clit until his face scrunch up, mouth open in a feral growl. Satoru's orgasm hit him like a punch in the gut. He fucked all three of you harder, closer to oblivion. The headboard slamming against the wall as the restraint dug into your wrists was the only thing grounding you to remain on Earth. Satoru didnât let up on the rough thrusts until he felt his cum dripping around his cock onto the bed.
The throbbing pain in the back of your throat, deep inside of your pussy was all the confirmation you needed that your boyfriends had fulfilled their promise. Never in your life had you been fucked so roughly. But it was a pain that you warmly welcomed.
After coming down, Suguru was the first to move gently. The rough hands that had been holding you in a vice gently held you as he pulled his softening cock out of your mouth. âLay down.â His gruff, gentle voice whispered as he helped rest you against a pillow.
âOh fuckââ Satoru lifted his head off your shoulder, âI havenât cum that hard in a while.â He was so slow, pulling out of you, grimacing as you cried out. âSorry, fuck Iâm sorry, baby.â
You shut your eyes, listening to Satoru getting out of bed. You could hear water running in the bathroom as gentle fingers began undoing your restraints. âYou did such a good job, Y/N,â Suguru whispered. âSuch a good girl for us.â His praise had you humming happily as he made quick work of the rest of the ropes.
âSuguru, letâs order in, yeah?â
âYeah, that sounds good.â
The next half hour was a blur of warm happiness. Satoru helped wash your body in a bubble bath before Suguru joined you, kneeling next to the tub, lovingly stroking your face and hair. After you were cleaned up, your hair brushed, and pajamas on. You crawled into your bed with fresh sheets and relaxed. Satoru and Suguru fluffed your pillows and brought you a cup of tea for your raw throat. When your dinner arrived, the three of you sat in bed together to eat as a B-grade horror movie played on the television.
After eating, Satoru left to throw out the take-out containers. âMmm, thank you for letting us do all that,â Suguru said as he crawled into bed after his shower. âThat mission, it was rough.â
âIâm always happy to help.â Your voice cracked, making Suguru frown. âStop frowning,â you flicked his forehead. âI like it rough.â
The bed dipped, and Satoru wrapped his arms around your waist. âY/N can handle it. She is dating the two strongest, after all.â Both you and Suguru scoffed, relaxing in the growing silence. âOh, by the way, Y/N.â
âYeah?â You yawned, snuggling into Suguruâs chest as he turned the bedside lamp off.
âDid you bring home my mochi?â
In the dark of the room, you heard a thump and Satoruâs whine before Suguru pulled the three of you closer to him. âSatoru shut the fuck up about the mochi.â
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Hold You Tight: Part 6
Pairing: Club Owner!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader
Fic Summary: The owner of The 107th wants you to be his girl whether you like it or not.
Part 5 | Series Masterlist | Part 7
Chapter Summary: You're determined to have a quiet rest of the day without seeing or thinking about Bucky.
Chapter Word Count: Over 3.5k
Chapter Warnings: DARK AU, stalking, inner conflict, insecurities, manipulation, possessiveness, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?), more warnings to come.
A/N: More Hold You Tight! Hope you lovelies continue to enjoy. Bucky edit by the beautiful @nixakimbo. â€ïž Beta read by the lovely @whisperlullaby , but any and all mistakes are my own. Divider by the talented @firefly-graphics . Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!
You sat in the tub, the cascading water from the shower head flowing over you as you stared at the opposite wall. Normally you welcomed the heat and billowing steam, but you shivered the longer you stayed there. The sound of the water droplets couldn't drown out Buckyâs moans or words from your mind.
âIâm so hard for you. And youâre wet for me, arenât you? Fuck, I wish I was there to take care of you.â
âYouâll take it. Youâll take me. Like a good girl.â
âWish I was there to help clean you up and get you dirty all over again.â
With a groan, you leaned your head against the wall. The man jerked off to the thought of you. No one ever desired you like that, at least not that you knew of. More than that he wanted you in his home. By his side. Why? You couldn't grasp why he wanted you so badly.
You also couldn't deny that his words got to you, if your wet your underwear was anything to judge by when you peeled them off. Were you so desperate for a semblance of affection that a few dirty words from a terrifying man turned you on? What did that say about you?
Just like the last couple of days, that was too much to unpack.
âIâm not special,â you whispered.
You could practically see Bucky across from you with sadness in his eyes, the way he looked at you when you argued last night that you weren't special. He didn't believe that for a second. Quite the opposite. He saw something in you that others didn't. Wasn't that what you wanted deep down? To be seen? Cherished?
Not like this.
âGet up,â you muttered, carefully getting to your feet. You weren't going to sit there and feel sorry for yourself. Things could always be worse. All things considered, Bucky hadn't hurt you. Hadn't lied to you either, as far as you knew. Which made your heart ache at that thought of leaving your place behind.
If Bucky kept his promise and forced you to move in, what would you tell your friends? Would they think you were crazy for moving so fast or would they not question it at all because Bucky was rich, handsome, and they would assume he made you happy? Youâd say what you had to if it meant keeping them safe, but feared it could possibly put up a wall between you and the group since you couldn't tell them the full truth. Maybe his intention was to drive you away from them and bring you closer to him.
Your head began to ache from the overanalyzing. âIâm not going to think about Bucky Barnes.â Shutting the water off, you pushed the questions and scenarios as far from your mind as possible as you went about the rest of your morning. The rest of the day would be routine, normal, nothing out of the ordinary.
Naturally, Bucky messaged you once you finished getting dressed to prove you wrong. âThinking of you. Are you thinking of me?â
You swallowed dryly as you typed back to him. It was like he knew you were trying to forget about everything. âI think you want me to think about you.â
It didn't take him long to respond. âOf course, I do. I hope youâre thinking about our chat from earlier and when we can finish it.â The man didn't want to just get in your head. He wanted to get under your skin. âIs it too much to ask for a photo? You have such a beautiful smile.â
You scoffed both from the audacity and boldness. It wasn't enough that he pleasured himself while talking to you, he wanted a photo of you, too? He specifically noted your smile. Was it really beautiful? âJust because you sent me photos of you in your jackets doesn't mean I have to send photos back.â
âPretty please?â
It was almost cute. âNot today. Sorry, Bucky.â
âThatâs okay. Was worth a shot. Maybe I can convince you to let me take a photo when I see you tonight.â
You froze. There it was. Not âifâ heâd see you tonight, but âwhenâ. There was no stopping him, was there? Maybe it was that thought that possessed you to goad him because you couldn't otherwise explain why you sent what you did. âYou wonât see me because I have plans. But tell you what. If by any chance you do see me tonight, Iâll let you take a photo.â
You blinked and reread your message. Why did you do that? Sending that was as stupid as it was impulsive and would only encourage him.
âIs that a challenge or a promise?â
Your stomach twisted in knots, but you sent one last reply. âItâs whatever you want it to be.â
Bucky was so convinced heâd see you and there was a good chance he would, but youâd make him work for it a little. You wouldn't stick around your apartment. That would probably be the first place heâd look for you.
Catch me if you can.
Your shift went as normal as could be. Steady enough to keep you busy, but not feel overwhelmed. No difficult customers. No surprise visits from Bucky either, though you kept waiting for him to walk through the door.
There was no relief though once you clocked out since you had no idea where you'd hide out for the rest of the day. Everyone you reached out to was busy. Addison, of course, was going out to dinner with Brady and you didn't bother messaging her. Dana had a double date with another of your friends. The rest all had romantic evenings planned, too. They apologized like always.
Was it bad that you were kind of used to it?
A message from Bucky appeared the second you stepped out of the shop. âAny chance youâll give me a clue where youâll be?â
You sighed, a sense of weariness seeping in that you couldn't blame on work. âNot a chance.â
âShould I go find you now? Iâm a little bored.â
Your gaze darted from left to right. Was he already nearby somewhere watching? âIf you're bored, read a book.â
A smile crossed your face when you suddenly thought about where to go. You told yourself earlier you didn't want to think about Bucky for the rest of the day. What better way than to distract yourself with a book? And what better place than your favorite bookstore, Turn the Page?
Before you tucked your phone away, you turned the GPS off just in case Bucky had a way to get access to it. You wouldn't put it past him to try. You wouldn't take your normal route either. It was crazy to think things like a routine could be a bad thing, but Bucky made you question everything.
Walking through the city, you occasionally glanced back over your shoulder to make sure no one was following you. No one looked your way, too occupied with their own agendas as they shuffled around you. Something still felt off, goosebumps forming on your arms and your heart sinking as you felt a pair of steel eyes on you.
You didn't realize you stopped walking until someone nearly collided with you. âIâm so sorry,â you said, giving you the push you needed to move again. Quickening your pace, you reminded yourself it was still light out. People were around. Even if Bucky was following you, what would he do?
You moved forward and didn't look back until you found yourself at the bookstore, taking a calming breath before you walked in. Turn the Page had a cozy and peaceful atmosphere with a range from classic to modern stories. You could spend hours there and feel perfectly at home.
âHey, Marc,â you smiled at the man behind the counter.
âHey. Good to see you,â Marc smiled back. He took over the bookstore over a year ago. Friendly for the most part and took pride in the shop. âAnything I can help you find? Just finished setting up some new releases.â
âNo thanks,â you replied, selecting a thick romance novel that would pass the time. âI was just going to hang around and read for a bit if you don't mind.â
âNot at all. Can I get you anything to drink or eat? Coffee? Baked good?â He offered, nodding to the tiny cafe area in the corner.
âJust water for now, please,â you said. You probably needed to eat, but youâd wait for your nerves to fully settle. âCan I ask you something?â
âSure, whatâs up?â He asked, going to grab you your drink as you followed.
âHave you heard of The 107th?â You asked. You weren't sure what possessed you to do so. Maybe it was because he seemed like a neutral person to talk to.
âThe nightclub?â Mark eyed you curiously. âThat doesn't seem like your scene.â
âIâve only been once. A friend's bachelorette party over a month ago,â you explained, assuming he meant it wasn't your type of scene since you weren't a party girl. âBut I may have met the owner recently.â
Marc kept a neutral expression, but noticeably paused before he handed the glass over. âYou met Bucky Barnes?â
âYeah,â you answered, shifting on your feet. âDo you know him?â
He busied himself by cleaning the counter. âYeah, I know him,â he said, your chest tight. How? âWell, I wouldn't say I know him well. Iâve only met him a couple of times. A lot of the local owners have since he has a hand in quite a few endeavors. Donates to the local hospital and charities, too.â
âThatâs nice,â you croaked, taking a sip. If he had a hand in local businesses, was it possible that he met your boss? âHe seemed very driven when I spoke to him.â
âThat he is,â he agreed, tossing the rag away. âAlso dangerous,â he added under his breath.
âDangerous?â You repeated. The man threatened your loved ones, but why would Marc call him that?
He paused to look at you, his eyes wider than before. âYeah, but youâre too sweet to get mixed up in any of that, so forget I said anything. Please,â he urged. You wished you could. âHe hasn't been poking around your shop, has he?â
âNot that Iâm aware of,â you said. You hoped not.
âSorry, I just assumed since you said you met him. Wouldn't surprise me if he stops in soon though with the anniversary coming up and all.â
âAnniversary of what?â You asked.
âHis family. TheyâŠâ He trailed off when the phone rang at the counter. âSorry. I need to get back to work.â
âThatâs okay. Iâll just start my book,â you said, going to take a seat on the other side of the shop. You took your usual spot on the couch and wished you hadn't said anything. Marc knew Bucky enough to say he was dangerous. And why would he eventually poke around your shop? Anniversary⊠FlowersâŠ
âI wish you could've met my mom. She would've loved you.â
âSheâs gone and thatâs a topic for another day.â
You settled further into the couch with a huff. Buckyâs family and endeavors were none of your business. You weren't going to question it any further. You were going to sit and enjoy your book.
That was exactly what you did.
A few customers went in and out of the shop as you lost yourself in the story. It was easy to imagine snuggling with the hero as he whispered how much he loved you and always would. The sweet sort of romance that brought a smile to your face and allowed you to relax against the cushions. You were surprised you didn't fall asleep.
What time was it anyway?
âHowâs the book?â
A shiver rolled over you as you peered up from the page and saw Bucky standing in front of you. He wore the blue jacket and his eyes stood out just as you said they would. Where you expected to see triumph in his gaze, there was only curiosity and awe. Like he happened to bump into you by accident instead of intentionally.
âWhat are you doing here?â You whisper shouted, not wanting to draw attention. While it wasn't a complete shock that he managed to find you, it was a miracle your heart hadn't given out from how fast it pounded over the last couple of days. âHow did you find me?â
Did he actually follow you?
He smiled a little. âYouâre the one who told me to read a book since I was bored,â he said, taking a seat beside you and slipping his arm around you. You tensed as he pulled you close, but he merely rubbed your arm with his gloved hand until you relaxed. âAnd finding you was just a process of elimination. I know you didn't go back to your place after you left this morning and there aren't too many places you like to venture by yourself in the city.â
âAnd just how do you know I didn't go back to my apartment?â You asked.
âI may or may not have an eye on the building,â he said casually. It could've been a joke or serious answer, neither of which were a laughing matter. âOr maybe you knew that would be the first place Iâd try to look for you, so you decided to avoid it.â
You bit your tongue. That was exactly what you did. âOr maybe I wouldn't be there since I was supposed to go out.â
He nodded. âYou were supposed to go out, but your plans fell through, didn't they?â He asked sympathetically. You didn't want his pity. âIf I had to guess, they fell through even before we talked this morning.â
âMy original plans fell through, yes,â you confirmed.
He hummed. âWere you embarrassed to tell me?â
You wrung your fingers together. There was no reason for you to feel bad for not telling him. You didn't owe him anything because he wasn't your boyfriend. âNo,â you whispered.
âDid it just slip your mind when we talked?â He teased. At least he didn't sound upset or disappointed. Why wasn't he upset? Was he testing you?
âNo. I just wanted a night off from beingâŠâ you trailed off, not sure how he would react in public to something he didn't want to hear. And what was it a night off from exactly? Being his new girlfriend?
He scratched along his chin, drawing attention to the gray hairs. âYou know what I think?â He asked.
âI have no idea,â you replied.
âI think you were testing me because you wanted me to find you. You want me more than you want to admit,â he said. Your mouth fell open, but you couldn't speak. âOtherwise, why push me to look for you? Why hang out in one of your favorite shops knowing I could easily track you down?â
âI didn'tâŠâ You took a breath. You didn't want him to chase after you. That wasn't it. âI didn't push.â
âMoyo Kotyonok, you dared me with that message and you know it,â he smirked.
Biting your lip, you didn't deny it any further since he was partially right. You egged him on by offering to let him take a photo if he found you, which wasn't smart. If you had real plans, you wouldn't have done that. But you didn't do it because you wanted him to find you or wanted him in general.
You didn't.
âBut we can talk about that later,â he said, gentler than you expected. âIâm sorry about your plans. What happened?â
You finally closed the book in your lap and exhaled. âAddison and I were supposed to hang out, but sheâs going out to dinner with her fiancĂ© instead,â you explained.
He narrowed his eyes. âSo, she ditched you,â he said, disappointment finally seeping into voice.
You shook your head. âNo, she didn't ditch me. We rescheduled,â you argued, quick to defend her. She didn't maliciously blow you off. âThings come up. It happens.â
Bucky smiled softly. âYou stuck up for her immediately. I admire that,â he said, shifting to face you more. He practically crowded you. âWhy not hang out with another friend?â
You looked at your lap. What was he playing at? âBecause my friends are busy,â you whispered. It hurt to say it and it shouldn't. It was just a downside of being the single one in a group of friends who had significant others. No one was obligated to keep their schedules open in case you wanted to hang out.
He tilted your head up. Why wouldn't he just let you hide? âJust so you know, I will never be too busy for you,â he whispered. It wasn't fair that he looked at you like you mattered. âYouâre my top priority.â
You ignored the warm sensation that spread from your heart. So many people made you an option. âI shouldn't be,â you whispered.
âBut you are and that isn't going to change,â he said, steadfast as always. âAnd since this shop is going to close soon, why not go to the club with me? It'll be fun.â
You gestured to your comfortable outfit. âIâm not dressed for your club. Besides, I was going to call it an early night after I left.â
His eyes roamed your body with interest before he shrugged and took the book from your lap. âI have that dress waiting for you, but you can wear whatever you want since you look beautiful in anything.â
âAre you listening to what I'm saying? I said I want to call it an early night.â You moved to stand, your limbs tired from sitting. âFor someone who claims to care, you don't take my feelings into consideration.â
He reached to grab your hand and took it before you could walk away. âI care more than anyone else,â he whispered vehemently before he took a breath, his eyes burning with passion as he stood up, too. âIâm not ignoring your feelings. Itâs a compromise. We won't stay long, so come with me.â
âThank you for the offer,â you began, trying to put out the fire in his eyes. âBut why would I want to go to your club when all I want to do is read and relax?â
âDo I need to remind you that some of my friends will be there and they still want to meet you?â He asked, gently guiding you toward the front of the store. âAnd I can take your right back to your place after so you can rest. You'll still have an early night.â
He considered that a compromise? âBut I-â
âYouâll be in bed before 10. You have my word.â He walked you toward the exit, past the remaining customers, and gave the associate behind the counter a smile before you could protest. âAnd don't worry about the book. I paid for it.â
âWait, whereâs Marc?â You asked. You hadn't spoken to him since your earlier conversation.
The associate looked at Bucky before she smiled. âI think he went out back for a quick break.â
âBefore closing?â You asked.
âLetâs go,â Bucky said, heading out the door with you.
He helped you into the car by the curb as you were still catching up to what was happening. He effortlessly coaxed you out of a store with people around and into a car, alone. The man had no fear.
âWhere's Ray?â You asked since the partition was up. âShocked you didn't send him in to get me.â
âHe actually offered, but I wanted to go in myself,â Bucky replied, chuckling at your expression. âAnd don't worry. He's close by.â
You huffed and stared at the garment bag where your dress waited when he put an arm back around you. âI just wanted some peace and quiet tonight.â But he got you right where he wanted you.
âLike I said, you'll meet my friends and youâll be in bed by 10.â Bucky dragged his nose along your throat and inhaled your scent. Your eyes closed, but your body didn't freeze up the way you expected it to. âWeâll both get what we want.â
What you wanted didn't matter. âBucky?â
âYeah, doll?â
You closed your eyes. âJust how dangerous are you?â
âIâm the most dangerous man in the city, but you're safe with me,â he replied against your skin.
âAnd what if your friends don't like me?â You asked.
âYou have nothing to worry about. Theyâll love you,â he promised, bringing his head up to kiss your temple. âBut no one will ever love you more than I do.â
Love.
You shuddered. You weren't sure what you feared more. That his friends would love you enough to help keep you by his side or how much Bucky claimed to love you. Because there was nothing more dangerous than a powerful man in love.
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