#if you feel comfortable

[scientologisabethmoss]

anya weight talk diary entry 1

(trigger warning)

it’s very likely that in about a week or so, i’ll start taking zepbound. i have a lot of feelings about this, most of them incredibly positive and optimistic, but i am processing a lot right now and have a lot of feelings and opinions that i want to start writing about here.

the decision to start this journey was made in conjunction with my primary care physician and my psychiatrist. however, i’ve been thinking about taking a GLP-1 drug for at least six months now. my mom started taking ozempic in 2015 and has just recently transitioned to mounjaro, and these medications have been a godsend for managing her diabetes and helping her to lose weight.

i feel like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, like i actually have a hope of being able to manage my obesity for potentially the rest of my life.

i’ve been trying to work through a lot of my conflicted feelings on starting this journey and taking this medication. part of me feels like a phony, like i’m turning my back on my own politics for trying to lose weight with the assistance of meds. but i feel like a martyr to my own political cause, and that is untenable for me. i can’t sustain that, body or mind.

losing weight - and needing help to do that - shouldn’t affect my own commitment against weight discrimination. and i refuse to have anyone else - especially people lighter than me - convince me otherwise.

anyway, this is just the beginning. i should probably have the prescription by the middle of next week. more to come.

[asymmetricallyanxious]

Hey! I’m gonna talk about neopronouns, xenopronouns, and nounself pronouns for a second!

Before I get started, this is not an invitation for bad faith arguments. I will be deleting bad faith comments and blocking the user who comments them. This is specifically for people who use neopronouns and people who support them/genuinely want to learn more. Anyone who wants to argue can go somewhere else with their punching down shit.

Disclaimer #2: I am a trans masc, I identify as some type of masc, I use he/him pronouns and I’ve never personally used any of the types of pronouns I’m going to be talking about. So! I am not an expert and if anyone has a genuine question or correction I’ll do my best to respond.

Now! Onto the post lol

So I’ve been seeing some things recently surrounding the use of neopronouns, xenopronouns and nounself pronouns that has made me a little upset and uncomfortable. For those who may not know neopronouns are defined as any pronouns which are not traditionally used (for English would be he/she/they/one/it) so any pronouns that is not typically used and usually it’ll be a word that was made specifically as a pronoun or a word that is not typically used as a pronoun that a person may use as a pronoun for themself. Xenopronouns are a little different and the definition is not as clear but from what I understand (lmk if I’m way off base) is a pronoun that is not usually linked to a gender identity but is more linked to the identity of a person without regard to their gender. (IE. DID alters, otherkin, etc.) and nounself pronouns are quite literally a noun used as a pronoun (star/starself, bug/bugself, fae/faeself) and can be linked to gender identity or not usually used by neurodivergent (particularly autistic people) as a more comfortable pronoun to be referred to.

Now with the basic info out of the way, I wanted to talk about the rise in punching down I’ve seen among trans people. Listen, as a trans person I understand the fear running rampant in the world right now. I understand that life feels unstable right now and many of us are holding tight to whatever we feel might help us. I also understand that my identity comes with a lot of privilege as a white skinny transmasc. That being said, that is not a valid reason to tell other people how they can or cannot be.

It breaks my heart to hear people in my community being the loudest bullies against people that are also in my community. Let me make one thing very clear: transphobes will never tolerate trans people. We make them uncomfortable, scared, and irrationally angry at every conceivable level. There is no amount of “socially acceptable” that will keep a transphobe from hurting a trans person. There just isn’t. The reason the trans community is facing so much hatred and suppression right now is BECAUSE OF TRANSPHOBES!!! There is not a single trans person in the world who was so trans they cause someone else to be transphobic. That’s not how it works. And looking more “acceptable” as a community will not change irrational hate. Ever.

People who use neopronouns/xenopronouns/nounself pronouns are doing so because it makes them more comfortable. The same way that he/him pronouns can make binary transmasc people more comfortable. The same way that she/her pronouns can make binary trans fem people more comfortable. They are pronouns. They are a language tool. They are not hurting anyone, least of all the trans community. Can it be confusing to people who refuse to try and understand? Yes! Is it uncomfy for some people? Sure! Is that a dogshit reason to look down on another human! Absolutely!

I am so fucking tired of people who should be the ones who understand continually hurting others. We cannot dictate to others who they are any more than others can dictate to us who we are. The trans community should be the first to recognize that. The transphobes WANT us to fight each other. If we fight each other and hurt each other we are making their jobs easier!

No one is forcing anyone else to befriend someone who uses “different�� pronouns. No one is forcing anyone to USE these pronouns. Please for our communities’ sake stop hurting each other. Stop hurting my family. This is despicable and dangerous behavior and is actively killing people. “Stopping neopronouns” will not make them “take us seriously”. Neopronouns are not “the reason we’re losing our rights”. That is the kind of infighting that a transphobe loves to hear about, and it’s heartbreaking.

Do not do the work for transphobes. Please. For your own sake shut the hell up instead of screaming your insecurities at other people. Please, ask yourself who you’re really scared of. Please, listen to the people who are hurting just as much as you. The world is scary. And it hurts. And it kills. Please don’t make it worse.

And to all of the people out there who use neopronouns/xenopronouns/nounself pronouns, I love you. You are beautiful and worthy of respect. You are real and amazing and I wish I could take all the garbage out of the world, but instead all I have is a virtual hug and an assurance that you deserve better. Please know that the loudest voices are often the ones that are the most afraid. You are not the enemy, you are not the problem, and you will never be evil or ugly or stupid for the words you surround yourself with. You are the curator of your own breathtaking story and you do not owe yourself to anyone. Please take care of yourselves and remember you are valuable.

[spoopyloonerisms]

@aromantic-goldfishdeactivated202 please do share. I would like to know the story behind the accidental Christianity conversion, this seems amusing.

most notable times of being hit on by customers:

guy who tried to impress me with card tricks and failed every single one of them

old man who attempted to get my number when his wife walked away and slipped me his email address ending with “@ aol.com” when i said i don’t do that

cute gay couple that came back to tell me i was cute and then called the shop to ask me out

older professor who i talked to about folklore and told me he dressed as a wizard for recitals saying “this is really embarrassing but umm.. i’d love to get to know you more..” and gave me a receipt with his email address on it

dude in his 40s asking me on a movie date and me saying yes but then he kept starting text conversations with “ahoi hoi”

military guy who said it’d be hot if i killed him with a baseball bat

most notable time a customer did not ask me out:

a man who i knew had a wife and children getting really flustered and saying “um. ive been, uh.. idk if you remember me but um. i come in here a lot and ive uhhh haha umm ive been wanting to ask you for a couple weeks now.. um. have you read the green lantern issue i recommended??????”

[ganymedesclock]

I think cis people should also be their gender of choice. Like, if you're a man, you should get to really enjoy being a man- have fun with it! If you're a woman, take the parts of womanhood that really deeply make you happy. If being a little androgynous or ambiguous or hidden is the part that really makes you happy, you don't have to be trans for that. If you wanna lean really hard into being femme or masc- do it! You have one life in your body, do what makes you happy. Ditch the stuff you don't like.

My sinister queer agenda is I think that everyone should be the gender they like in the way they like it.

[roebeanstalk]

reblog to manifest gender euphoria for the person you reblogged this from

[canonkiller]

but you can't keep holding on like this.

[cat-in-a-mech-suit]

Being forcefully raised as a woman is not any less traumatic and emotionally repressive as being forcefully raised as a man. Femininity is not inherently pure and safe. Coercing someone to perform femininity is not any less toxic than coerced masculinity. Being dysphoric around femininity or having trauma from women doesn’t make you a misogynist.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[catboy-beckett]

Kim Kitsuragi is a fascinating character because there's not that much fun or interesting or compelling about him. And yet somehow over the course of playing Disco Elysium the game rewires your fucking brain around him. He's the middest man you've ever seen in both appearance and personality but at some point he says something kind to you or something critical of you and you feel like you just got hit by a truck and you need his approval like you need oxygen and like how tf did this happen. what are you

[oars]

[noodles-and-tea]

I LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW LITTLE STAN. hes just a little guy.

MY LITTLE FREE SPIRIT STANLEY!!!!!

[hinamie]

"I'll show you every day that choosing to live was worth it"

some of my favourite scenes from @hijinks-n-lowjinks' fic things i would miss from the other side . this fic tore my heart out fr but like in a good way and i wanted to pay it homage the only way i know how <3

[ladybugboots]

I will draw a Pokemon of your choosing for proof of e-Sim donation! (any e-Sims bought AFTER Jan 22nd). The higher the donation, the more effort it'll have.

Please refer to the instructions on https://gazaesims.com/ for how to buy and send an e-SIM for Gaza! Take a screenshot confirmation that you've sent the QR code to the correct email (gazaesims@gmail.com); please include date/time of purchase and amount spent or GB amount!

Then, send that screenshot to ladybugbootsart@gmail.com, along with a Pokemon you want me to draw!

Please do not use my art for hateful agendas, NFTs, AI training, or monetary profit (like selling it). Thanks!

From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free!

05.31.2024 EDIT: Not taking any more atm, but check out for open slots here: https://creativesforpalestine.carrd.co/ !!!

[butchlifeguard]

we need to destroy the idea that girls should wear makeup. normalize bare faces on prom queens and flower girls and cheerleaders. no products at all instead of '7 product simple makeup routine.' no more 10 step skincare and regular facials and dermablading and gua sha just to be comfortable with yr natural face. i want to see eye bags on the funny librarian and acne on the swim coach and wrinkles on all our adult role models. i want to see a 16 year old girl that has never tried putting on eyeshadow. i want to see a 7 year old girl who doesn't have to go out and buy powder for her dance recital. i want to see trans women and girls everywhere to never have to wear makeup, regardless of how well they 'pass.' no more 'contouring to look masc' either. a post-beauty industry world is possible

reblogs are on but if you bring up the stage makeup point that i have addressed three times yr blocked on sight ☹️

[quixoticprince]

I haven't drawn in so long and tf2 comes back with a bat to my brain again after I first got super into it when I was *checks notes* 14 I gotta get my gears wet again and like, rediscover how to draw and I'm wetting my feet again with a heavymedic shit post 😭

------------------- EDIT: The original images contained a text post from someone who did not want that text post spread - So let's have the blank versions instead! Imagine any dialogue in there that you want lol

[quirkycritters]

Game Night: CHAIN ATTACK!!!

i am,,, withering away but ITS DONE ITS DONE IM FREE FROM THE CURSE (<<< still haunted by wips) clocking in at 32+ hours, this sucker has been getting pushed around for 10 months-

while theres some things i would have done differently if i could redo this from scratch, i still had a BLAST cramming in as much detail as i could tolerate >:) some highlights / cut ideas / ramblings are below the cut, but please zoom for details! (if tumblr doesnt shred it to bits)

gonna be real i locked so hard onto drawing ripped jeans that i forgot i could have just shoved legend into a skirt and called it a day

SOCKS. SOCKS. the amount of Joy anytime i figured out how to personalize them with game references: legend (hibiscus), twilight (ordon goats), and four (force gems)

i WAS going to put time in a turtleneck, but had an epiphany and started digging for the most obnoxious hawaiian shirts i could find,,, ft. a sea flower (wind waker) and a saturation boosted plumm (twilight princess)!

yeah so warriors got the sweater instead of the skintight shirt, sorry gang

speaking of if i ever say im going to draw a cableknit sweater again, somebody PLEASE shake some sense into me- warriors sweater was a NIGHTMARE since my art program has an astonishing lack of good brushes (and yet here i am still using it)

MOST of the text has been modified using the twilight princess cipher because yeah. i was procrastinating shading. also the other ciphers were in japanese- times shirt is cropped, but reads "its 5 oclock somewhere"

winds lobster shirt :) that is all i just think its neat

wilds jacket :) link w(ild) 2017, aka the release year of botw

jewelry! sky has the fireshield earrings, and wild has the amber earrings~ could barely squeeze the bombos and quake medallions onto legend, and wind got the joy pendant

hyrule :D embroidery on his sweatpants because i was struck by whimsy- also i 100% thought his shield was purple tinted for weeks while drawing this because the page i used as reference was set at night, and i was originally basing his sweater on his shield- scrapped the cross pattern after several failed attempts but kept the color ^^

the chips are bbq because im biased (reads "crisps" in twilight princess cipher for no real reason except whimsy)

bless my dearest homie for game reccs because the og plan was to have them all be loz games! titles include wii sports resort, elebits, super mario party, smash bros ultimate, just dance 2016 (its box art is colorful ok), and myth makers orbs of doom (I HATE THIS GAME WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, as i should, anyways i should play it again). four is suggesting orbs of doom, buddy aint even playing,,,

kinda was hoping to play around with hair colors and skin tones a bit more, but again, see the hour count- ill get em next time surely,,, also blue vs violet eyes for legend already had me in decision paralysis

the whole gang was gonna have friendship bracelets with color combos based on dynamics i found neat but oops! didnt finish the layer :')

thats a wrap! didnt yap about everything but im curious what yall catch onto- anyways surely ive learned something about biting off more than i can chew (<<< lying liar who lies)