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im-probably-playing-genshin · 3 days

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is it normal to feel sick (like actually nauseous) when you see someone criticizing your favourite writer/artist/fandoms because it makes you feel bad for liking it

is that normal

#and then you overthink about whether or not theyre a good creator for like hours and it ruins your day #if you couldnt tell im actually insane #dude i hate doing this #and then the overthinking ruins your mood so many times you block the (writer) crit tag and IT STILL HAPPENS BECAUSE PEOPLE DONT PUT IT IN-#THE TAG AND IT SUCKS BECAUSE LIKE YOU DONT WANT TO OVERTHINK FOR HOURS #AND ITS NOT LIKE THE WRITER IS A BAD PERSON ITS JUST LIKE THEY DID A FEW THINGS WRONG AND THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BAD FOR LIKING THEM #i hate struggling with this i hate it i hate it i hate it

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luc1-anna · 3 months

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"ᴘʀᴇɢɴᴀɴᴛ ᴡɪꜰᴇ" - R.Sukuna

⋆˚ Your husband had been away from you for weeks, it was a grueling time away from you, normally he'd be fucking you atleast once a week, but in the past 3 weeks he couldn't do that, despite how big his ego was he didn't feel the need to go and cheat especially since you were pregnant with his child. Of course he wanted to treat his pregnant wife when he got home, despite bringing nothing back other than a bunch of dead humans and bones to add to hit collection, he was going to make you scream in joy. - R.Sukuna

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"Go easy on me 'kuna" that's all you could get out before throwing your head back, the stupid baby inside of you had taken all of your energy trying to grow, you already had back pain, which the servants got rid of, but only for the time being. And a giant baby growing inside of your poor womb, but you should've expected this as your husband was a beast, 4 arms, 2 mouths, even two dicks. And so on, you get the point. "Yeah yeah, woman" it seemed like he'd disregard your words but in fact he did the opposite, taking into consideration that you were the only woman to carry his child, so of course he'd be careful with you. Hands trailing along your baby bump, tracing the stretch marks which decorated your skin, they weren't pretty obvious, only to him since he had a good eye.

Legs bound to his thighs as you awaited for him to enter you, you were sick and tired of him teasing your poor hole, you just wanted him to stuff your insides already. "Hurry up" hands placed on your bump as you tried to find your baby boy. "Shut u-" stopping himself from saying anything rude. Fingers resting if you were wet enough for him to enter you, since he was so big it would stretch you out to your max, fortunately he was only going to put in one cock and not both. As he wasn't in the mood for lube up your other hole. Tip tracing your clit, already smudging his precum all along you. Recieving a moan from you meaning he was already leaning on a good path, dick making it's way down to your main prize, slowly opening up your hotel with his tip, already stretching you out. First dipping inside of you, just feeling the warmth of your walls wrapping around him made him want to get you pregnant once again. "Ryo.." head ruffling at the pillows as you tried to adjust to his size. "Shhh" pushing down on some of your womb, preparing you for what was to come. Retracting his hand back as his felt some kicks from his son, refusing to loose more space than what he already had. "Keep it here" positioning his hand so that it was placed on the side of your hips rather than your bump, sending shudders down your spine from his icy touch. Normally he'd never take orders from anyone but since it was you, he'd listen since your comfort was one of his top priority. Not number 1 but it was up there. Cock sliding through easily, watching as you engulfed his length, one inch at a time, he knew that once it got the 5 inches mark that you'd take some time to adjust to him. "Stay still" holding you in place as you shuffled about, trying to relax your breathing from the rather sharp breaths you kept onto taking in. Legs pressing harder into his ass you tried to contain yourself, he already felt so good despite doing nothing. Pushing another inch into your gaping hole, stretching you out for the last few of them. Soon enough he was full in, balls resting side by side touching your skin, they already seemed full enough to impregnate you over and over again. Body involuntarily moving forward and backwards as he used that as a source for his pleasure, soon after using his own to thrust deep inside of you. Skin clapping against eachother, only adding to the sound with his balls squishing itself against you. Moans erupting from your mouth as you felt him, pushing against your walls fortunately he cock had a curve so it was deep enough to reach your cervix.

Angling his body so he was deeper inside of you, tip causing friction as he ran it along the insides. One of his spare hands resting right beside you despite having some of the best core strength. Tongue releasing from its hiding place as it left a wet trail under your bump, drooling down towards your poor clit. Twirling inside, mainly focusing on your lips as he saw how reactive you were whenever he did that. Body involuntarily squirming around, trying to find an escape from his tongue, it wasn't like you weren't enjoying it, more like a new cold sensation on your body. Using his hands to hold your legs down as they tried to push against him, fortunately it wasn't much of an effort since you were so tired. "Ryo" Moaning out his name in response.

Fingers making their way from your sides towards your breasts as you tried to overcome the sensation form down there, getting dick down and getting eaten out by the same man at the same time! His normal attitude seeming to disappear as he saw how vulnerable you were to him. Hands sitting perfectly onto your breasts. Kneading and playing with the fat of your breasts, but his index finger always made its way back towards your nipple, circling your bud with it, always pressing down just to watch it pop back up. Finally getting tired of how little you reacted compared to his other things, resting his palm ontop, a warm sense erupting as you focused on what he was doing, eyes glaring over to your right breast. Tongue slipping out as it circled your breast, suckling on your nipple, practically preparing you for breastfeeding that baby of yours.

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 month

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#the other day i was talking to my dad and he said im at a crossroads in my life except its an intersection of many different roads #and i have no idea which one to take. but because the semester is starting tomorrow it feela more like im standing at the edge of a cliff #waiting for the ground to crumble out from under me. not sure what im gonna tell my PI when i see him monday bc i feel like ive got one foot #out the door. its just hard when you dont know what to do or which direction to go or what opportunities you'll even get #and if i say goodbye to this program im probably saying goodbye to astr0biology. and if i dont go back to my old boss im probably saying #goodbye to microbial ecology. and if i say goodbye to those things i might be saying goodbye to a job where im passionate abt what i do #in exchange for being less insane and being paid an actual salary lol #its just frustrating and it makes me even more twisted up inside bc im teaching this semester and im like #how do i put passion into this when i #when all i feel is frustration and uncertainty. i dont even want to go into my office. when i left i couldnt sit in there without crying #but we'll see. too late to back out now. unless i have a breakdown halfway through #unrelated

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buwheal · 4 months

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Dont apologize !! !!,, loll, theres far more i can do with this route anyways !! !! Im actually quite glad they chose the much nicer route, they couldve learnt more, yes, but i think the ones who wanted to go that route were trying to attempt to shatter that delusion,, uh, which wouldnt happen. //at all// . maybe a /small/ amount if i think they did it ABSOLUTELY perfectly, which was NOT going to happen lmaoo, especially with the asks that begin that route. That delusion, if im gonna be 100% honest here, is probably one of the things keeping him going. They are NOT going to be his therapist ab it either,, i think the chance of breaking that delusion is far far gone at this point. ALSO NEVER APOLOGIZE ABOUT YAPPING IN THE TAGS ITS LIKE MY FAVORITE THING EVER PLEEEAAASSEE I ENCOURAGE IT!!!!!!! TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS!!!!!! READING THE TAGS IS LIKE ONE OF MY FAV PARTS EVER WAAGGHHH I <3 YOU TAG RAMBLERS I <3 YOU PEOPLE WHO LEAVE TAGS AT ALL!!! <- it also helps me monitor what you have and havent figured out or noticed through observation :-3

#every time i say its a delusion i mean it dude like actual definition delusion #he'd need psychotherapy and youre not gonna give him fucking therapy because 1. you guys would do a terrible job. sorry. and 2. hes so far #gone in that delusion youre not gonna change it.#The only negative thing about his delusion is he is unaware and thus cannot help himself better with things like the glitching and when his #joints lock up n shit #he wouldnt take care of himself better regardless in this state i think #even if he knew #sorry but thats just kinda how it is :-P #Youre insanely right about it causing more harm #if they had done this route and successfully broken it(wouldnt happen as flimsy as his delusion is)the breakdown from that would be probabl #one of the worst #you dont want to see that OR inflict that upon him at all #i kind of dont either to be honest #i only liked that route for the first ask of it and that was it LOLLL i was just kinda being a shithead ab it X-P #i <3 tag ramblers #im one of them if you couldnt tell by how much i fucking talk in the tags on every single damn post

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usermoreid · 8 months

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#the doctor and jack actually make me so insane #like. i am going to live for a very long time and i have nobody that truly understands what its like to die and be reborn #and i latch onto people who will die and leave me and i will never get to experience genuinely spending my life with somebody #and you are immortal and you love me and you waited so long for me but i cannot bear even being in the same room as you #the very sight of you hurts.#i met you when you were chasing your past and i was running from mine #and now you chase me as i run from you.#you're too permanent. i don't know what permanent feels like anymore.#like my fucking god i have so much more to say but i am so tired and in so much pain😭 i just love them so much #this is specifically ab ten and jack btw if u couldnt tell #i just think theyre tragic and wonderful and i love them and despise them. u get it.#sorry these r all tags bc my thoughts r not coherent enough to actually post this. so im whispering.#tenjack

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hauntingblue · 6 months

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LUFFY!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! LUFFY BELIEVER FULL TIME!!!!! LET US WORSHIP THE SUN!!!!

#luffy deflating like a balloon..... be serious 😭😭#MOMO NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR LUFFY!!! oh kaido going for the others now..... law could hear his voice too???#NAMI BEING THE FIRST TO STEP UP!!! CHILLS!!! THIS TIME STEPPING UP TO WITNESS THE HORRORS!!! YEAH!!!#yamato really does carry the spirit of oden straight up.... motivating his son and everything...#i feel like i am going insane... I CAN HEAR THE DRUMS!!! nami telling luffy to not die and fulfill his promise WHO ELSE HAD A PROMISE????#is this why his fruit awakened.... because nami reminded him of the promise... omg..... THE DRUMS!!! CHILLS!!!! THE SMILE!!!!! IM SO HYPE!!#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1070 #i am smiling so hard rn. contagious #also the cp0 that died for this ajdja.... suffering from success....#THE BOUNCING SOUNDS!!!! THE DRUMS!!!! THE SMILE!!! SANJI JUST VOLTING AWAKE??? see the clouds over his shoulders remain.... as i was saying #you know this has me realising maybe shanks isn't all that bad and stole the fruit from the gov so they couldnt get hold of it #hiyori saying how oden kept hia promise but also how he wanted to keep the promise of opening wano for joyboy #THE KANJURO THING!!! HIYORI WATCH OUT!!! oh its gonna burn orichi by accident YEAAHHH!!!!!!! FUCK YEAHH!!!!#the animation is so fun.. luffy just junping around and shit while hia destruction power is MASSIVE #this is so!!!! kaido complaining about being bored and having fun thru fighting AND HERE COMES LUFFY WITH HIS LOONEY TOONS GOOFY FIGHT!!!!#they knocked this shit out of the park!!! also END CREDITS????!#episode 1071 #momo saying kaido got fat 😭 actually kaido got pregnant <3 yamato you're going to be a big brother congrats!!!#the eyes 😭😭 damn luffy flew away and exploded... 😞😞 skipping rope with kaido omg.... everyone should go outside and see this...#we are welcoming here in the luffy believers... barto is gonna enlist hundreds of new members #law is luffy believer number 1 damn the speech he is giving kid... omg kaido bonked him ajshaksjak that was so good he needed witnesses..#nami worried abojt luffy being dead and when he appears she is just like WTF IS THAT!!!!!! HUH???!!#wait a second ooohhhh kaido is goong down too fuck yes akdjaksj momo and yamato peeking over the island jahdksk #THE DRUMS BEING HIS HEART I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!! Kaido shoukd be puking up his insides by now but alas this is so fun BOIOIOIOIOING #FIRST TIME SOMEONE ASKS LUFFY WHO HE IS AND HE DOESN'T SAY MONKEY D LUFFY FUTURE KING OF THE PIRATES. HE SAYS ITS HIM. STRAIGHT UP!!!!#NVM HE SAID IT!!!!! GOD IS THAT YOU????!!!!#episode 1072

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dorkicon · 1 year

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bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind #for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at #and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years #only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down #despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down #so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen #and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it #and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first #--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane.#and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl #bc of course they dont give a shit about the library #they just care about how scary the queers are #and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town #and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time #(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the #--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right)#when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting #the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display #its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages #talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w #--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens #sourse: i was one of tgose #and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk #and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look #--elsewhere #bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater #--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education #i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too #but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in #--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on

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sonknuxadow · 1 year

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Trying to find Zeros name origin because we can't find Ogilvies.

LMFAOO

#ok but the olgilvie thing actually drives me insane. well im sure you already know this because i was posting aobut it a few days ago #but i went digging for a source for when penders said that and i couldnt find it anywhere !??!?!?!?! when did he SAY THAT #asks #hold on somebody in my notes just tried to tell me that sonics real name is sonny because the sonic bible says so. for the millionth time #SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP ok im normal again

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hella1975 · 1 year

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happy eurovison!! do your stretches!!!

babe it's been days since i did my stretches at this point im too scared

#in my defence idk WHAT was going on with my sunday shift bc i only waitressed 7 hours and that's a pretty normal shift for me #like im aware compared to a normal person it would be very difficult to just out of nowhere expect them to be on their feet #walking back and forth the entire length of a restaurant regularly carrying heavy things all the while keeping up ABOVE AND BEYOND socially #for SEVEN ENTIRE HOURS with ZERO BREAK like masking that entire time on top of the 7 hour physical workout #like it's insane if u think about it for more than 2 seconds and im really trying to bc every time i falter i beat the shit out of myself #and like? NO? my job is actually very physically demanding and emotionally draining compared to most people's day-to-day activity #it's gonna have impacts sometimes!#so yeah long story short i finished my shift sunday and when i tell you my legs LOCKED UP in bed that night #like mainly my thighs but it was all in my hips and knees and it was so bad that i lay there until 2am before getting painkillers #bc i couldnt hack it #which is SAYING SOMETHING for me bc im normally both quite good with pain and also a hardass for taking painkillers #ive had that happen once before (again after waitressing lol) & never worried about it but my mum recently got diagnosed with arthritis #and ever since ive been like. Looking at my own joints any time they even HINT at playing up #like i am RENOWNED for inhereting all of my mum's medical shit from mental to physical like i KNOW i'll get it it's just a matter of when #and yeah that was sunday it's now tuesday and my thighs STILL feel bruised #and im like. embarassed about it bc it's not like i did anything spectacular? and idk why it's happening?#yeah idk hiiii rori did u like me ranting about my physical health in ur stretch reminder ask sorry do u still think im hot <3 #ask

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hiyari8 · 2 years

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(In response to your tags on the post about working with vocal synths) VOCALOIDS CAN SNEEZE?!?!?!

I've been listening to this music for almost a decade and I'm still amazed by what we can do with this

I'd really like to hear that now lol

no see like the issue is that they can't i'm just cursed and encounter very unique problems lol

#vocaloid #well... to my knowledge.#some vbs have these little .wav file folders with like bonus samples like 'one' 'two' 'haha' lets go' or whatever recorded by the provider #that u can slap into ur track. obvs i dont know the contents of most of them but there may be official sneezes for some of them #in my case it was just a very fucked up [ch] consonant though <3 #idr abt v6 bc i dont have it but vocaloid 5 also has like these attack and release effects #where u can add ornamentation and such to ur notes #would i say it's useful? Well.#it may work better for v5 vocals. maybe it's just derpy as hell because earlier ones are not very compatible with newer technology.#couldnt tell you i've not once used the v5 gang lmao and im not planning on changing that hoenestly #ANYWAYS #it's debatable whether you would find the ornamentation options useful in a traditional way but it is undeniable that you could #bring forth some Quite Interesting sounds and kinds of expression using them if you wanted to #say what u want abt v5 being shit (it is (it has to not crash within 3 minutes first to make that judgement though)) but #if you're insane and like to spend countless hours playing with ur fucked up little gay track to make something unconventional #it's actually quite possible up in this bitch #also as a lily connoisseur the v5 parameters are insane. i can make her stop yelling <3 #i got sidetracked quite a couple of times there sowwy #anyways if u want to it's indeed very possible to frankenstein a sneeze-like abomination given enough trial and error #not officially unless there's a pre-recorded sample but it can be done #unfortunately i dont know how to do it on purpose ): yet.#when im less busy maybe ill play around with it at some point soonish #ask

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sexybabystevie · 2 years

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this is to ONE PERSON and one person ONLY. if you're confused, it's not you!

#you know. i saw you posted today from a different account. and it was one i totally forgot about #i didnt even feel like running back this time. was i curious? yes. did i end up looking? yep.#im saying this even though im 98% sure you cant see it but whatever. since when has that stopped me before?#you seemed fine. to say seeing that didnt piss me off would be a lie. oops i guess #i think its funny how the last thing you posted was stolen from me.#today it was one of those tag games we used to do together. your taglist was empty with some excuse of being absent on this app #i cant help but wonder if thats really all of it. if thats the whole story or not. i have a feeling the answer is no #i dont think youll ever understand the impact of what you did to me and the ways that you treated me. how that immensely fucked me up #or how youve basically thrown me to the wolves ever since you emotionally checked out.#you act like i never mattered to you and its been like that for forever. i made so many excuses on your behalf that i never should have.#these days the thought of you makes me go insane. the kind of insane that leaves me up all night and makes me wanna scream at the top #of my lungs. i have been consumed by anguish and hate. yes. im not afraid to say it anymore. i hate what happened and what you did to me #and sometimes i even hate you. and i dont even feel bad about it. im so over that because if theres anything i deserve after this hell then #its the capability to hate. for once in my life.#i saw your post and wondered if you thought of me. and i hope you did. i hope you thought of me and at the very least it stung.#because whether you want to admit it or not i was someone good. i bent over backwards for you every other day. try finding someone to do #everything that i did for you that you never appreciated. try finding someone who will care as much as i did about someone who couldnt be #bothered to tell me happy birthday. i dare you. because im tired of being sad that youre not here. im tired of being the one whos mourning #im so over it actually. because really i did so much for you. i gave up so much to be a good friend and it was never enough. i genuinely #cared about you. im not going to torture myself anymore by overanalyzing your posts or by thinking that i was nothing to you #because in one way or another youll miss me. and i hope the feeling is hell.#in the wise and paraphrased words of taylor swift. karma only comes back around to those who deserve it #in other words ill be fine #em speaks #tw vent ish #sorry to everyone else although i applaud you for being nosy lmao. gotta have my girlboss moment <3

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gwenlena · 4 months

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everyone else ive complained about this to has told me this is such a niche thing that only im experiencing but theres a music and philosophy festival happening this weekend (howthelightgetsin) in wales and im so mad that i only learned about it this week because i would actually kill to go PETER SINGER IS SPEAKING THERE???? AND ZIZEK??? and also lou sanders and richard dawson are performing?? THEYVE HAD DAWKINS THERE IN THE PAST???

i love music and i love philosophy this would be so good unfortunately i found out about it WAY too late to feasably go... im literally praying they have as cool people there next year because omg i would *kill* to see peter singer in person

#i have written SO MANY peter singer essays (most of which were not very postive sorry i do not agree with him mostly) i would kill to #see him itd be so insane #i also am a little in love with dawkins i also dont agree with everything he says but hes so cool #im trying to find if there are like other philosophy events in the uk because i would actually explode #so lucky that so many of my favourites are alive tbh #i will never get to meet kant ill never see jeremy bentham but i will so happily settle for peter singer #cinn talks about his day #sorry going a little insane if you couldnt tell

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capaldiera · 9 months

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it's soooooo embarrassing that my mum knows i like twelveclara. and she was in the room for last christmas which is embarrassingly close to being explicitly romantic. keep that shit more unsaid please

#and also the magician's apprentice party scene which is super fun and the first time i watched it and she was there i was just openly enjoyi #ng it. well now i want to die. esp bc she probably thinks the pretty woman thing for clara. well no i equally care abt missy.#me.txt #im not used to this shit usually what happens is i care about gay pairings and either it doesnt look that gay or mum will just not react #to it bc she is homophobic and would rather not think about that #or maybe more likely knows i dont want to hear what she has to say. i do appreciate that #wait actually i think half the problem is she probably thinks i have a crush on twelve 💀💀💀😟😟😭😭#well i do but she doesnt need to know that. prolly thinks he's not a dyke n all #also i am just currently thinking that some moments are a little Too open for my tastes.#Also i was talking to mum once about twelve's possible face blindness (and she'd seen the when do i not see you scene and when he couldnt #tell clara was like 80 or whatever #and she was like oh in the kdramas i watch they love to have the guy be faceblind but he can only recognise the girl. mum im trying to talk #about my favourite doctor who and also fucked up hetbait. not your vaguely hallmarkish romances #okay they are not like hallmark they are more creative and also better. she just says she likes them bc they're like chaste. and she started #watching them instead of hallmark shows #anyway. time to go home and watch before the flood and under the lake and she'll probably be there #the problem is that mum likes romances that are nice. and she probably thinks twelveclara is kind of nice or maybe that i think it is #mostly its slay and fucked #it should feel a little bit like being queerbaited (kind of bad but so good and like you may be insane but also you're deeply correct)

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satansappendix · 1 year

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I'm frustrated by my mom

#she doesnt seem to understand my concern that the random vomiting im expericing is esophogus cancer #i mean my dad literally just died from it a few months ago #even when i bring up that this morning i woke up needing to vomit and when i ran to the toilet i literally couldnt #i was doing all the motions of throwing up except having things actaully really exit my stomach #a little bit did at the very begining then stopped #and now i have a tight pain in my chest right arounf where my stomach would be but nah thtas just acid reflux #thats all the classic symptoms according to my mom #which its not????!#like that doesnt make anysense to bereflux #the unexplained vomiting did but this fucking doesnt #and now im so stressed im gonna fucking die from a stupid cancer and i dont feel like i can tell her about it cause shell just think im craz #the same way she thought that when i was so stressed that lageos got hurt after he fell out of a second story window #but nah he was fine you are overreacting #i just cant tell her anything okay #im so stressed about everything and all and my stupid anxiety is making it fucking impossible to seek treatment #like i know this isnt normal and i need treatment for my anxeity and vomiting but i cant get it without help #like i cant function i need help making the stupid calls to the gatroenertoligst #I just cant do this #and i know im probably insane and that its actually some simple thing #but also im so stressed about it and i cant do anything but sit here and have nothing happen or change #you know its funny to be so scared of dieing and also be fucking suicidal #like i dont see anything in my future and it all seems so bleak and like ill be stuck forever #but also thinking about if im gonna die from cancer or something is so terrifying #im in a bad place lol and it doesnt matter #it all feels hopeless and terrifying and i dont want to be a burden #and it feels like everyone hates me and know thats not true but i cant help it #and i want everyone to hate me so i can just sleep and noone will fucking care i can just be done and noone would notice #i dont know im just here i guess #im not well

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leclercdream · 10 months

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tell me who i am pt.4 (final part)

pairing: daniel ricciardo x reader

our favorite couple has some news

author's note: just a little closure. this took SO LONG im so sorry i just couldnt find it in myself to do the whole social media thingy! but here we are, the last part of this smau!! hope you like it

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 ending

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↳ yourusername: he did, i actually wasn't expecting it at all haha thanks for helping lan! you are my favorite child

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Favorite Headcanons for airy?

i have like 10 million headcanons for him but i’ll list as many as i can from the top of my head

-hes autistic LIKE ME!!! and is specifically very autistic about music (like meee) i like to think he had a huge collection of vinyls cds cassettes etc and its all stuff from the 60s to the early 90s. no doubt he had a bunch of posters for his favorite bands and musicians too. and hes awesome on the guitar, great rhythm guitarist… its a shame he couldn’t make his talent a profession like he once dreamed of doing. oh well, at least the number 1 perk of trucking is that its peaceful and you dont really have to interact with many people! plus trucks have radios, and cd players, so airy would often bring along a few albums to listen to as he drove those long days and nights.

-hes also got a knack for aquatic creatures (LIKE ME) of course, being a literal fish monster himself (cool fact my airy design is like actually a fish monster he can breathe underwater and everything and his limbs are covered in fish scales) airy loves fish both as friends and food. hes particularly fond of freshwater fish, which makes sense considering the fact he grew up around the swamps of louisiana (yes im making him louisianan Like Me shaddap) hes also fond of those fucked up looking deep sea creatures, just so fascinating. i think airy liked to do a little fishing in his spare time. And hes awesome at cooking em but fair warning for those with a low spice tolerance… he loves spicy food btw (like meeeee)

-when airy was in the forest, he kept a log of his thoughts on the computer, in an attempt to hopefully give himself whatever clarity he could. the notes ranged from all brief, to desperate, to hopeless, to spiraling, to borderline dadaist poetry? to insanity, to denial, to whatever, really i think his mind was obviously all over the place on a daily basis. things must have been pretty loud for him, that cassette player was probably one of the only things keeping him together, before he numbed himself n all, which is around the time he ceased writing these notes as he saw no point in doing so.

-ok enough about him suffering we’ll get back to that later Airy’s favorite drink is ginger ale i mean look at that guy and tell me he doesnt fw ginger ale or dr pepper are you kidding me. he can have dr pepper as a little treat (too much soda is bad for anyone especially if youre an old feller like airy) speaking of little treats i like to think he has an insatiable sweet tooth LIKE MEEEE and his favorite treaaats are pumpkin pie, macarons and practically anything chocolate he loves chocolate (im like allergic to not projecting onto my favorite characters if you couldnt tell) maybe airy knows how to bake a little bit i mean he is an object show host after all

-this is oddly specific but airy is a chronic pain warrior #JUSTLIKEME so when he was in the forest he’d make like home made heating pads by wetting a glob of moss and putting it against his face while he had his flame on (he sometimes put it on a plank over a bonfire if he felt like it) this was a bit tricky when he broke his face but im sure he managed he always manages (kinda) (relatively speaking)

-well anyway we’re back to the forest and i just mentioned his broken face So you know how he disappeared for seven months after he did that lol well what if it was because the pain and shock from that incident evoked the long lost clarity he’d been so stubbornly avoiding in order to cling on to his meaningless, fallacious escapism which triggered him and sent him into a state of agonizing self consciousness, reminding him of his earthly death, how he used to be Someone, and how he essentially let himself rot into what is now an empty shell of who he once was. after so many years, the first reflection he saw of himself was seen in something broken; shards of glass, of which he couldn’t stand to look at… as there is nothing comparable to the pain of revelation, the burden of truth after having been so lost and festered into the stagnant waters that surround you. he felt he had no choice, he disposed of the shards into the nearby stream. those seven months were not just a matter of physically healing, but as a means to losing himself all over again.

-Aaaanyway i think airy had a cat at some point in his life i think we can all agree hes a cat person right!!! he had a tortoiseshell kitty named goose and he loved her very much. idk why he named her goose he probably just thought it was funny to name an animal after a different animal.

-OH YEAH lemme bring amelia into this listen i am such a huge fan of the theory of airy being related to amelia so i like to think hes her uncle!! when amelia was little she’d stay over at airy’s house while her parents were away and he’d teach her stuff like how to fish, how to ward off snakes, how to kayak, all that jazz cuz he was an awesome uncle. she was kinda like an actual daughter to him. and amelia was so fond of sunny weather as a child, one dayy at airy’s house she had to stay inside because it was too rainy, so she occupied herself by drawing a little picture of the way she wished earth was; always sunny, sky always blue, grass always green, huh! the way she drew that grass as individual little triangles is all too familiar is it not…

OK I HAVE SOMEWHERE 2 GO now i’ll probablt add more later But thank u so much for asking this i love love love infodumping about anything airy related i heart airy

#frank answers a thing #airy hfjone #hfjone #believe it or not this is just a few #i have so many i have way too many i have so so so many things to say about airy oh my gosh #oh my gosh airy

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