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~Veils Of Crimson~
Chapter 4
Pairings: oz cobb x reader (Carmine Falcone's daughter)
<chapter 1> <chapter 2> <chapter 3>
Reader is a child of the circumstances she was raised in and Oz is still manipulative-I had to take a few breaks from writing this to walk around my house a lil bit-I think I have a pretty clear idea of where I wanna take this story going forward. You get to FUCK that old man! YES! Also, I am currently drawing Oz and 'reader' how I imagine her, can't wait to show yall. Next Chapter is gonna be up as soon as I see the new episode and I get virtually high with creativity.
I took my inspo from Driving Miss Falcone by (https://www.tumblr.com/genevievedarcygranger here on tumblr), check out the story if you can.
Enjoy, give feeback if u want ily xoxo.
Warnings: mature language, smut (oral sex, hair pulling, riding) violence, general horniness.
âWHERE ARE YOUâ
You texted her back that you were out and perfectly fine-nothing to worry about, you apologized for not texting her in time as well. You took a deep breath, trying to calm yourself down. Ok, so you didnât text Sofia that you were gonna leave, so what? Sheâs not your parent. You just unfortunately forgot, in all the excitement of seeing Oswald, you ran out of the door, got in the car and disappeared.
With your heart beating out of your chest, you pressed the handle of the main entrance to the mansion and upon being greeted with the quietness of the estate at this late hour- you went into the kitchen to grab yourself a snack from one of the fridges there.
Where are those damn Milka sweets you brought back from Europe? Did someone eat them? If they did you were gonna-
âSneaking inside at this late hour? How scandalous.â
âJesus, Sofia, you HAVE to stop doing that-â
âWhere were you?â she said, while stepping closer, cocking her head.
Alright, this was older sister Sofia speaking
âIâm sorry, ok? I didnât want to leave like that, Itâs just that-I had some business I had to do, ok?â you said, hoping this lie would be sufficient
She didnât look like she believed you, but she stopped asking any questions.
âWhile you were gone, I found a guy that's gonna help us with catching the rat in our family, once and for all.â -she didn't tell you anything about whatever she had planned
âA guy thatâs gonna help us with finding the rat? Thatâs good. Great even.â
âYeah, it is.â she looked down for a moment before taking a deep breath and coming closer âListen, I think it would be best that you leave here a while, with everything thatâs going on, I donât want to lose you too-â
âIâm not going anywhere,â you said. Who does she think she is? Sending you away like this âthis is my home.â
âYes, yes i knowâ she closed her eyes deep in thought and opened them before continuing âyou are one of the most important people in this family and I know how hard it is to be sent away-but this time, believe me, itâs for your own good. I only want the best for you.â
âNo, no. I can help Sofia, I know I can. Why didnât you tell me about the detective? I couldâve come with you-â
âListen, just listen. I love you, I want the best for you-â
âYou believe imma hold you back. Thatâs it. So you want to send me away, like dad.â you started nodding, mostly to yourself. That was it, she didnât want you around, like she didnât even miss you. âWe have an army of guards at the mansion, I could remain here until everything is resolve-â
âYour place isnât in a power struggle between us and the Maronis, you know that.â Honestly, fuck her. She barely talked to you since coming home, you werenât the little girl she once knew.
âAlright- I guess, let me know if you need anything. Good nightâ You started backing up while talking to her, you didnât even want to see her
âGood night.â she said.
Today was your brotherâs memorial service and everyone important was here. There was food and good drinks, ready to be served for everyone to remember and toast towards your brotherâs life. You really missed him and hoped he was in a better place.
You talked to Carla and Gia-her daughter. Gia told you looked beautiful, like a princess.
Like a princess of death and despair probably, wearing all black.
You saw everyoneâs head turn towards the only person that could pull their attention away from you-Sofia, who was currently shoving a fist full of pasta in her mouth.
Classy-just like you remembered.
You took this moment of ignorance and disappeared into one of the rooms near one of the staircases that lead downstairs for a moment of quietness, you wanted to browse the internet a bit- see if anyone took a picture of you with him.
You talked to Oz last night when you arrived home- he told you to call him when you did, he said that you two will see each other today, that he was sorry you had to leave so early and that he really enjoyed your date, he didnât have that much fun in a long time.
What a sweet man you thought, last night he was incredibly gentle and you could get used to going out with him, being by his side. His big arms, his charisma- everything about that man left you wondering when you two would be alone again, maybe in a more intimate setting- god it felt like you were 19 again, daydreaming about riding him in the backseat of your Rolls Royce, the way his hands would hold you down, guide you down his-
â-I told you to come to me, not go behind my BACK!â
Your uncle Luca, accompanied by Sofia and Castillo were coming down the steps-rudely disturbing your dream.
When your uncle saw you, he pointed at you and asked âYou dragged your little sister into this too?â
You looked at Sofia, then at Luca âWhat?â
âNo, she doesnât know anything.â
âGood, at least one of you listens.â Luca continued. Fuck was his deal? Did he find out about Sofiaâs plan to find the rat?
They continued to go down, still talking. You decided you didnât want to stick around to find out what they were doing so you left and found that every single door was closing? Ok, what the literal fuck is happening.
âSearch everyone for weapons.â
You followed the voice and found some of the guards in a line, unfortunately the man you desired was also between them.
âOz? What happened?â you said as you ran up to him, the sound of your manolo blahnik heels creating sharp clicks against the expensive floor.
His gaze softened when he saw you and before he could say anything one of your guards, spoke up next to him âSomeone iced a Maroni in the basement.â Oh, so thatâs why Sofia was rushing downstairs with Luca, yikes.
âThe fuck. Fuck you!â Viti said, as he was roughly handled by a guard. This fucking asshole, you hoped it was him secretly.
Luca and Sofia joined everyone in the hallway and your uncle called out your name and ordered you to step back-you had to unfortunately, obey.
âFuck you looking at?â You and Oz were both staring but he directed his words towards him. âIt was you, wasnât it?â What was he doing? âYou sent us there to get massacred, what did the Maronis give yaâ, huh?â accusing a member of the family like this isn't wise, Oz.
âWatch your fucking mouth you gimp.â
âFuck your mother ya dirty rat!â Jesus Christ Oz. Before you knew it they literally jumped at each other's throat, well more like Oz went to punch him in the face and stomach.
It took two men to pull the much larger man off of Viti- you were too shocked to say anything. Why was he acting like this? Did Vitiâs comment rile him up this bad? Johnny is a well known shit talker.
âOne of you is a fucking traitor-feeding information to the fucking enemy, I will not tolerate that.â Luca said. You looked at your sister, her face didnât move towards you.
As the guards searched the suspects- Castillo, Sofiaâs personal bodyguard, was found to be the rat.
Shithead, you thought.
âMiss Falcone I swear to God, that is not mine.â he pleaded, what a liar. You glanced at Oz and he gave you a wink- you couldnât wait for him to be let go and kiss him again, the thought alone gave you butterflies.
âYou were there with him that night-you killed him.â Sofiaâs words were full of anger- hate clear as day on her face
âI didnât-I would never.â What a shitty excuse of a human being, lying like this, your brother didnât deserve to die at his hands.
âGive me your gun.â Sofia said towards the guard holding Castillo. Was she gonna shoot him here, in the house? You saw Oz look at you.
âSofia, please listen to me-â
âGIVE ME YOUR GUNâ
âI would NEVER do this to you-â
Luca turned to you and told you to turn around and you tried to as quick as possible-covering your ears and jumping when hearing the gunshot, did she shoot him?
This sort of stuff-this shit should never, ever happen inside the house. You knew your sister wasnât right in the head after coming back from Arkham, but this, this was not right.
With your heartbeat in your ears, you left as quick as you could, you didnât wanna turn around and see a dead body- one who only seconds ago was living and breathing, a human being, who you knew-who pleaded for his life- he deserved to die but not to get shot like this, especially inside the house.
You heard Oz call out your name, but you didnât stop-you had to get outside, you didnât even know if you would want to sleep inside the house tonight-God your knees felt weak.
Was your sister really that brutal? Was that necessary? You felt tears form in your eyes.
âDoll-â you heard the door open and as you made eye contact with Oz your tears couldnât stop, you didnât even know WHY you were crying.
You certainly werenât crying for Castilloâs life, he was a rat, this is how people like him deserve to go- you should not cry-it was probably from the shock of it all.
âI-i'm sorryâ you said-trying to turn away from Oz, you didnât want him to think you were a crybaby or something-you were holding your tears back as well as you could, before he grabbed you in his arms and then you were REALLY crying.
âWhat just happened?â you sobbed, this was horrible-this sort of thing wouldâve never in a million years happen if your dad was alive.
Between Oz shushing you-telling you that you are going to be ok and running his hands along your back up and down you eventually calmed down.
âAre you better? Hm?â he didnât let go of you -you nodded.
âYe-yeah Iâm better, thank you. Iâm sorry.â
âAinât nothing to apologize for doll, you shouldnât have seen or heard that shit, thatâs not how things go.â he looked genuinely apologetic, like he shot him.
âWhat happened to the guy downstairs?â
âCastillo stabbed him in the chest.â he said, while glancing down momentarily
âGood God, what has this house come to? What kind of monster does such a thing?â
âYeah nasty business, horrible really.â
âI donât know if I can step inside again tonight, I donât wanna sleep in there.â you hugged your arms to your chest, between your sister telling you to fuck off and then Castillo being shot, you didnât want to go back inside âIâll get myself a room at the Belle Monicoâ
âYeah well, If you donât want to spend the money you can crash at my place, if you want of course-â
âReally? Youâd have me?â
âOf course.â he said, matter-of-factly âanything you need-you know you can call me.â
âOz, imma need you to take care of this shitshow inside-â Viti didnât open the front door wide enough to see that you were there too
âYeah-yeah Iâll take care of them.â Oz gave him a dismissive wave, Jonny just shut the door as quick as he opened it âThis bald motherfucker is giving me orders too now.â He looked at you, hoping you would laugh at his comment-and you did.
âKeep that smile, ok?â while also smiling- Oz climbed down the steps to the main entrance. He turned towards you and continued âBy 8 oâclock Iâll be done with all this shit and you can drop by-Iâll text you my address. In the meantime, go away from the estate, go shopping or something, I know that it will make you feel better, ok?â you nodded from the top of the stairs âNo MORE crying, you got that?â he pointed a finger at you.
âAlright.â you said âsee ya.â The smile he left you with didnât disappear and as you called your driver to come outside and grab your bag, you were already thinking about what underwear to wear tonight.
The excitement bubbling inside you was undeniable and as you listened to music in the backseat of the mercedes you were getting driven in it was hard not to let your mind wander, first time you were gonna be over at Oswaldâs house, just you and him, all thoughts of the gruesome spectacle that happened today at your mansion disappeared-all replaced by the familiar excitement you always had before seeing him.
This time, however, it was going to be different. You were sure that if you didnât get to feel him on top of you, you might actually pass away tomorrow.
As your driver pulled up into the Diamond District your stomach knotted with nerves, you were a few blocks down from Ozâs place-you tried to distract yourself from all the emotions and looked outside, you mightâve been in one of these shops in the past- even if they looked a bit shitty.
âIâm waiting for you, climb up the staircase when you get in, Iâll open the door.â he texted you
OK, you were really doing this- you scooted back in the driverâs seat and took a deep breath- you put your phone on mute, Sofia didnât answer your call when you left so screw her.
The woman that just kissed his boss on the cheek mightâve been the most put together person he ever saw in his life. She looked like she belonged in a magazine, with perfect manicured nails, beautiful hair and gorgeous bright teeth that were shown to him as she smiled-introducing herself.
Words didnât register in his head, too blinded by this strange creature that just waltzed in like it was noth- Falcone?
He told him about her, after the failed drug transport âa woman like that kid whew -donât think you ever saw someone as beautifulâ he paused â she donât hang around with just any schmuck, you gotta provide a level of security-of money-I promised myself, Iâd get her on my arm one day one way or another.â
This was the sister of âThe Hangmanâ shi-
âCat got your tongue or youâre gonna leave the girl hanging like this?â Oz said and chuckled, but the jolly behavior didnât reach his boss eyes, it sounded more like a threat to Victor âHhey Iâm V-victor.â the nerves he felt were clearly evident- poor kid you thought.
âYou must be Ozâs driver, nice to meet you.â sadly, you werenât alone with him âNice place you gotâ you said, walking around a bit.
âVic, go get us some food- doll, you have a preference for anything?â
âNo, whatever you say itâs best.â
As Oz instructed Vic where to go, you looked around his place.
It was cozy, you liked it. There was a picture frame with the history of this place- this is where they made the jewels you saw outside- well some of them. Thatâs cool, also Oz bedroom had these big ass doors, they looked like they were made to hide money.
As Vic left the apartment you looked outside, the big concrete buildings were a stark contrast to the gorgeous scenery you were used to.
âWhat dâyou want to drink? Got some wine, or the strong stuffâwhiskey, scotch.â He gave you a half-smile, pouring himself a glass. âBut Iâm guessing that ainât your thing.â
âWaterâs fine-â
He raised an eyebrow, scoffing lightly. âNah, câmon. After the crap you went through today? You deserve better.â Before you could protest, he poured a glass of red wine and handed it to you. âTrust me, this oneâs better than what they had back at the restaurant.â
You took a sip as he sat down next to you. He was right, it was much better than the one at the restaurant.
âGuess itâs just⊠everything that happened today,â you said, a bit quieter. âWhat if they come after me next?â
He set his glass down, leaning in close. âListen, dollâŠâ His voice dropped, low and rough as he placed his hand on your knee. You tried to ignore the way his big hands on your leg made you feel. âYouâre safe here. No oneâs coming for you in this place. I got that covered.â He watched you carefully, making sure you heard every word. âYou know Iâd never let anything happen to you, right? You donât gotta worry âbout a damn thing here.â he leaned closer to your face- trying to make eye contact as you gazed at the floor and then back up at him.
His hand stayed on your knee, warm and steady, and the intensity in his eyes made your pulse quicken. He wasnât usually this serious, this protectiveâand it felt comforting. Comfort that you havenât felt in a very, very long time
âYou sure Iâm not in the way here, Oz?â his hand tightened just slightly on your knee and his thumb traced circles on your leg
âStop it with that. You ainât âin the way,â alright?â He leaned back, looking off for a second before muttering, âFuck⊠when you left, I felt like shit..â
You reached over, brushing your hand against his. âItâs alright, Sofiaâs back now; thatâs whatâs important.â
He huffed, giving you a crooked grin and a full image of his golden teeth âYeah, sure. But it ainât just Sofia.â His voice softened, though his hand stayed firm on your knee, possessive, like he didnât want you going anywhere. âYou mean a lot more to me than you think, i'm not gonna let you walk outta here that easily.â
You smiled at him and before you could respond, he closed the distance between the two of you with his mouth on yours with a hungry, possessive force.
The taste of whiskey and warmth flooded over you as he deepened the kiss, his other hand sliding up your back, pulling you in close. When he finally pulled back, his gaze lingered on your face, his hands tucked a stray hair next to your face behind your ear. The deep brown of his eyes had such a warmth to them, like crackling firewood-so gorgeous and full of passion.
âCâmere,â he murmured, his hands guiding you over him. He shifted on the couch, pulling you into his lap until you straddled him, his hands steady on your waist. His touch was possessive, yet gentle as his fingers traced along your hips, holding you there. âForget all that other crap, it's just you and me, okay?â he said when you were on top of him
The feel of him beneath you, this bull of a man- so dangerous yet so soft towards you, so gentle- you alone could make him feel like this and that thought sent a thrill through you as his hands settled on your back, pulling you in closer.
He kissed you again, deeper this time, his lips warm and slow as he leaned into you. The heat between you grew as his hands slipped beneath your shirt tracing your waist and back, his fingers gripping harder into you with each kiss. You felt his hand move from underneath your shirt to slide up, fingers tangling in your hair, gently tugging you closer as his mouth started to press open mouthed kisses on your neck.
âYouâre where you should be, right here with meâ he murmured against your skin, his voice so low you thought your ears and cheeks would light on fire from the heat rushing towards them- the way he enveloped you fully-the lingering whisper of tobacco on his collar, blended with the whiskey on his tongue was making you moan all on its own-the way his hands helped you grind down on him- like heâd been waiting for this.
âOz pleaseâ you didnât exactly know why you were saying please for, just that you wanted him to do âsomethingâ .
He placed you with your back on the couch, still kissing you and he lifted your shirt just high enough to grab hold of your jeans. âTake this shit offâ he roughly grabbed your jeans zipper and pulled you down a little bit by his movement, barely getting them off and when he did- those stupid skinny jeans stopped at your knees and in his urgency left them there- while also ignoring the very expensive pair of panties who you just bought TODAY.
He didn't even look at them and with one hand under your ass, pulling you closer to his face -he started to press kisses on your ass and near your pussy.
In all this rush, you couldnât even think straight. With one hand he almost folded you in half and with the other he was pulling you closer to him. You couldnât believe this was happening- giggling a little bit and moaning- you grabbed your pants and finally pulled them off- tossing them somewhere in the apartment.
You opened your legs to give him space. You felt goosebumps rising on your skin and grabbed his head when he started to lick your clit- placing a hand on your mouth didn't do too much to stop the sounds you were making, but at least you were trying.
His hands went below your shirt, on your tits and he groaned when he got to them-the sound sending a very pleasant vibration to your most sensitive place and making you moan even harder.
One of his hands remained on your breast, massaging it and with his other hand he put his finger inside, you thought that you might actually come from that alone, the way his much bigger finger felt inside of you-a familiar heat started pooling in your stomach-you closed your eyes-trying to not let go of this feeling, âplease Ozâ you sounded so pathetic, whispering like that.
Oswald didnât even respond to you, just started pushing his fingers even deeper inside, the feeling of having his tongue touch you repeatedly where you only touched with a finger, maybe two- was the most euphoric thing you ever experienced and the way his fingers would push up like that-âOh my godâ you breathed out, gripping your mouth- your legs wrapped around his head and you moved your hips, trying to get to feel him as much as you could.
While he switched from sucking your clit to rubbing circles with his tongue on your bud, his hands were keeping themselves busy with your nipples- just peeking over your almost pulled down bra from underneath your shirt. This was too much. âIâm gonna-â You donât think you ever experienced an orgasm like that before, your belly was almost aching by the end, the way you moved against his face made you feel almost sorry, almost.
âLook what you didâ Oz turned his body to the side and got up to sit on his ass on the couch- his erection evident in his suit. You got up as well, sipped some of your wine- god that was good, your heartbeat hasnât slowed down since he grinded you on his cock but now all your nerves were overshadowed by blind confidence that only a woman as young and as beautiful as you could possess when you tossed your top and bra next to you and kissed him as hard as you could, before going down on your hands and knees before him.
âThere she is.â he said, smiling-while you were preoccupied with freeing his penis from his pants, you started to pepper light kisses up and down his length, from his uncut head down towards his balls.
He groaned as he slipped off his suspenders and unbuttoned his shirt, giving you a tease of the hair on his chest. He grabbed hold of your hair from this position and you were thinking you were ready for another round by the way you pussy clenched when he did that- with his brows furrowed he guided you to his cock. Ok, so no kisses? Straight to business.
âCanât even imagine how much Iâve been waiting for this.â as your lips covered the head of his shaft- you tried not to choke as he guided you up and down him. One of your hands went straight for his penis as well to help you- while the other was slowly tracing circles on your still sensitive clit.
âJust like that babyâ he groaned and you could see him hold himself back-with one hand he was holding your head and with the other he touched your face- the cold metal of his rings and his gold bracelet as it touched your upper back sent shivers down your spine and you were sure you jumped a little when it came in contact with your hot skin. You tried to breathe as much as you could through your nose, your hand helping you take care of all of him. He unzipped his pants even more, giving you more access to him, his penis wasnât that long but it was thick, god you wondered how good it must feel inside.
He pulled you off of him to give you room to breathe a little bit and he kissed you again before putting your head on his cock again, his groans and the sounds that your mouth on his shaft made were the only sound in the living room- whenever a moan would leave you, he groaned and pushed your head even deeper down him, almost making your nose touch the dark hair there. Up and down and then again, his cock was fully drenched in a mix of your saliva and his precum- you felt tears well up in your eyes.
He gave a quick inhale before he pulled you off of him and grabbed your body to straddle him once again.
âYouâre so beautifulâ he said before lifting your hips to touch the head of his penis, you kissed him as he grabbed your tits in his hands and you both moaned in each otherâs mouth as you took him.
It did feel really good to have him inside you like this, his forehead had a sheer layer of sweat on it- his eyebrows were furrowed in pleasure.
âOh, thatâs goodâ he pulled you completely down him and it felt like he reached your belly in this position, Oz grabbed your feet and put them in a squat on either side of him before he helped you get a rhythm- you put your arms on either side of his head, palms touching the back of the couch.
Now, you were definitely sure the neighbors and everyone else in the building could hear you, especially because he started to bounce you up and down his cock like you were riding a horse and the horse was galloping too.
âYou like that baby?â he asked you, grinning.
âYes yesâ Whenever his hands would bring you down him, your sensitive clit would touch him again and again- you couldnât even imagine this being as good as it was.
He grabbed both of your ass cheeks from this position and moved you back and forth him-whenever he would bring you forward his dick would brush up against your g-spot, were you really gonna cum again?
âFuck-Iâm gonna cumâ he muttered in your mouth, before his movements lost their rhythm and he pulled his cock just in time to spill himself all over the lower part your back.
You both stayed there for a few moments, breathing like you just ran a marathon.
He cleaned you up with a towel shortly after.
While inside the shower, with the warm water running down your back, realization finally dawned on you- you just made love to the man who you were having wet dreams about since your dad hired him as your driver.
You were butt ass naked riding this man in his living room, while his own driver had to be back with the food, itâs been about 30 minutes, where could this kid have gone to?
After you were done with the shower, you patted yourself dry a little bit and went inside the bedroom, Oz giving you a light smack on your butt as you walked past him to get dressed in the pjs you got for yourself to wear tonight. When you heard the shower starting, you left to get yourself a bottle of water from the fridge and went back to the bedroom to check your phone.
Sofia hasnât texted you, obviously-sheâs too busy with her great plans of taking over the family as the reigning matriarch-
Whatever, stop thinking about her.
After Ozâs driver, Victor, you think, came back- you guys ate some pizza and went to bed. Conversion over dinner was short, just a few âitâs good no?â and âGosh the weather is starting to be very coldâ from Oz and you and Victor being a mute. Surprisingly his driver slept in Ozâs apartment too- on the couch, on which you fucked his boss, yikes.
Ozâs sheets were satin -of course they were, and as he climbed in bed next to you and pulled you closer to him, he said something about your sister coming over tomorrow that you guys had to get your rest- right after saying your âgood nightâ- you fell asleep.
Authors note: This smut scene is only the start, idk if you picked up but I still tried to make Oz seem as if he was in a power trip, the hair pulling his smooth talking etc etc. He does love her, dont worry. Anyways thank uuuu for reading, I tried to make it good :))))).
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casey also talks about sepang 2015 what do you think of that
oh in that podcast? uh... lemme listen again...
yeah idk it's not really anything new I'd say? he's said basically all the same stuff in more interesting and extensive ways elsewhere. I think casey inevitably has a very 'well feuding is bad and helps nobody' point of view, has expressed that before in the past, does it here again, and he's also drawn a parallel between himself and marc on several occasions. which... well, of course there's similarities in terms of public discourse or whatever, but the parallel really falls apart whenever casey argues the feuds cost valentino. like, I do think it's sometimes important to just. keep in mind. it's interesting that casey draws this comparison in his mind but that doesn't necessarily means he's right about this. I'm not sure how you'd argue that starting a feud with casey cost valentino anything competitively? you can argue it didn't help him I guess, and then we can have a debate about the ins and outs of the 2008 season. we can also have an argument that in a hypothetical world where casey isn't ill in 2009, valentino doesn't break his leg and casey isn't on a piece of junk in 2010, and valentino isn't on a piece of junk in 2011-12, then actually maybe valentino sparking open animosity with casey COULD have cost him. but we don't know that! didn't happen! I wish we could have found out, but we never got the chance! as it stands, the tally on this is pretty straightforward: casey won the title when things were reasonably civil between them in 2007, and valentino took control of the following season at the exact moment he worsened the relationship between the pair of them in 2008. obviously, it's all more complicated than that and casey would of course argue laguna didn't negatively affect his subsequent performances... but it certainly didn't help them. like, at the very worst valentino escalating tensions in 2008 is a complete net neutral. after 2009, them being bitchy to each other every other tuesday was completely competitively irrelevant beyond maybe affecting how they approached occasionally fighting for a podium position. hey, maybe casey used that feud to fire himself up through sheer spite throughout the later stages of his career, but that doesn't actually support his anti-feud stance - it's basically the exact same thing as what valentino does. they're both quite similar in that regard! always so hungry to prove a point, to show how someone else is wrong. kinda half the point with this feuding business is to get yourself going, get yourself motivated, yeah. he straight up openly admits to using yamaha's repeat rejection of him as a way of giving himself motivation, and at the end of the day that's really not all that different?
anyway, what else does casey say... oh yeah, that him and the other aliens were already kinda prepared for this and had learned vale's tricks. that valentino had only been able to get into the minds of the previous generation. welllllll *wiggles hand* sure, I mean, he did clearly have to change his approach... he couldn't just use the exact same playbook to get to them, either on-track or off-track. but that's why he did change up the playbook... again, whether you want to believe valentino won his final two titles 'in the head' rather than just through pure pace kinda depends on how you assess the evidence, but it is at the very least a debate. and, y'know, it's always worth remembering that valentino's most important mind games with casey didn't happen in a press conference... it was on the track. and the on-track stuff really is just embedded in how valentino approaches winning. speaking of aliens, this is what dani and jorge have said:
like, valentino's entire approach to his riding, even to the way he's setting his bike up, is deliberately about directly fucking with you... he's not actually always trying to be faster than you as much as he's trying to give himself the tools to make your life miserable, to pressure you into mistakes, etc etc... and again, especially with casey (if anything because he was so mentally sturdy), the off-track stuff was really just window dressing. (I know they bicker a lot after 2009 but it's just so fundamentally irrelevant to actual on-track competition.) so you can be aware of those tricks, but it also doesn't necessarily help you when someone's being nasty to you on-track in a way you just fully do not enjoy. which is what it was like for casey! for casey, a lot of this comes back to the truly unpleasant context of how he was perceived by the public, how he was treated as mentally weak or 'broken' or whatever partly because he had the misfortune of coming up against a bloke who had the reputation for breaking rivals. I think it's quite natural to end up with a bit of a hardliner 'actually I've never been mentally affected by a result in my life' stance - and of course casey is a lot tougher than a lot of people give him credit for. that being said. sometimes your rivals affect you, shit happens, it's part of the game. it's fundamentally a nice idea to think that valentino's tactics weren't just morally wrong but also ineffective, which is kind of the appeal of this narrative, right? you want to believe you're above that, you want to believe you were adequately prepared and wise to valentino's tactic. it's unsurprising and understandable that casey does tend to tell the story that way, but again it's *wiggles hand* also hard to describe it as completely factual
uh. what else. oh I'm thrilled casey does canonically know valentino and marc were friends, he has said he wasn't following motogp too much during that time period so you couldn't be sure of that. does this mean anything? does it tell you anything? well, no, but it's just a pleasing thought to me. I like that. oh also 'provoking particularly aggressive riders isn't a good idea' is kinda a funny take from casey? like, he of all people would hate the idea of being cowed by someone's reputation like that... casey's right that provoking fast riders can potentially be dangerous, but y'know I do think that's probably not news to anyone almost nine years later. um. that's all I've got I think
#i will say idm getting asks like this AT ALL but i do hope that's not like. the only bit of the podcast people are paying attention to#my thing with sepang 2015 takes is that like... when's the last time anyone has said anything genuinely interesting about that event#which yes big words from the feud blogger... but in fairness a lot of the sepang 2015 stuff is from old notes. that's my excuse idc#but that's kinda the thing... i feel like i haven't really had a new original thought about the whole drama for three plus years#u do kinda run out. basically the takes say more about the person saying them than about the actual event at this point#which. yeah. casey's comments on sepang '15 are primarily interesting in what they tell you about how he feels towards valentino#mind u he's actually quite nice about valentino in this one? casey call him let's finally organise that dinner#heretic tag#//#brr brr#batsplat responds#oh casey does go on another spiel against riders who win at all costs. ships that passed in the night of feuds i always say#also he gets the age he enters the premier class at wrong. i held myself back in the last post from pointing this out for tonal reasons#but if people want my podcast hot takes. i do simply have to mention it. just to set the record straight here#'they battle for podium places after 2009' genuinely. twice. like the alien era giveth but a lot of the time it really does just taketh#somewhat ironically casey wins the duel when he's on the shitty ducati and vale wins the duel when he's on the even shittier ducati#whatever that tells you idk#casey was always promising the laguna rematch would've gone differently and I love that conceptually but also we just don't know#he was like next time I WON'T play nice and it's like?? omg what does that look like. casey what were you cooking#for ethical reasons it's probably fine but for character arc reasons it's objectively ass that casey ended up being able to do all his -#- racing in a way he was entirely comfortable with for his second title in 2011. like it's just a complete waste of a year#you have this whole thing building for four years and then 2010 comes along and it's like. well that's enough narrative intrigue now! <3#also casey/jorge are fundamentally too interesting as individuals to have had such an obscenely boring on-track rivalry and yet here we are#it KILLS me because if you rearranged it and made valentino's dogshit ducati years like. 2009 or something#and do a straight title fight between jorge and casey THEN I genuinely think it would've been way more interesting#the problem with valentino is that he is fundamentally the WORST imaginable character you could invent to be casey's foil#literally everything about valentino could have been designed to be a casey-specific nightmare#but unfortunately that also makes him objectively the most interesting rival casey could have gotten#like morally it's on the edge. but narratively? literally could not have gotten a better villain in casey's story#constantly dancing on this faustian line of having to imitate valentino to beat him while trying not to lose yourself... juicy
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online đ every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#đ [ my posts. ]#đ [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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Star Wars clone wars-era tumblr dashboard simulator! this meme format is so old sorryyyy
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hate hate HAAATE that holoblr is so core-centric and youâre expected to post in basic or people just comment asking you to translate. I should be able to post in shryiiwook.
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Hey, your choice of Shyriiwook as an âexoticâ language to post in ties inherently into old colonialist views on Wookies and I need you to be aware of that, if it wasnât intentional. Many people on the holonet these daysâŠ
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hi! op here. Iâm a wookie.
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#core holoblr users stop assuming everyone is human challenge
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ok but whys grandmaster yoda kinda⊠đ„”đ„”
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Everybody on here claiming to be attracted to GILFs is lying except for this guy
#everyone unfollow me i wanna be alone with them
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some of the ppl posting on here against clone rights are so funny like do you have any idea how many clones are on holoblr?? have fun losing like all ur followers lmao
#what do u think weâre doing between deployments??? just standing around waiting to fight????? #clone rights #cloneblr
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I sure hope my pet piece of flimsi is doing well! good thing I left my apartment window open so he could get some fresh air while I was at work :)
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by the stars this canât be happening
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#anyways vote vanilla extract for mandâalor itâs what jaster wouldâve wanted #mandalore #mando discourse #<- for those of u who have it filtered
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anakin skywalker is 22??? he should be at da clubâŠ.
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so was anyone gonna tell me they found out the chancellor is a sith or was I supposed to learn it from a CNL skit???
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posts that make you read opâs url
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#op if you go asking at enough temples eventually a sith might answer
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#yall better like this i spent AGES on it#dashboard simulator#Star Wars#fives#boba fett#anakin skywalker#chancellor palpatine#yoda#the clone wars#arc trooper fives#swtcw
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I salute to you and thank you for your service đ«Ąđ
u guys werenât there in 2018 fighting the atreus annoying and useless allegations like i was. i was on the front lines
#(long rant ahead) i wasnt but i can imagine how terrible it first was#then it got worse for those sticking around since 2018 with rag coming out UGH#atreus/angrboda fans will always have to be battling it seems đ#I lurk a bit so ive seen older reactions to him and im just like man! who knew an 11 yr old is 11!#idk being a new fan i have a completely different outlook on everything so i dont hold the same contempt as others do#alot of this âfandomâ intentionally ignores things bc they dont care and thats fine or whatever but if u dont care for anything or anyone#outside of kratos why are u around đđ#Like we are no longer there anymore bro he has a home with family thats alive and thriving#The extreme negativity is one of the reasons why i was hesitant to be here in the first place#Not the first fandom and probably not the last im associated with but this one i think is the first one where i genuinely feel everyone#is miserable with EVERYTHING.#Matter of fact i dont even consider myself part of the fandom LOL#Im just here enjoying what i enjoy#It really sucks liking a character(s) thats almost universally hated for some(dumb) reason#Like⊠everyone is just negative and i see that even on twitter to the point i just have to mute/block ppl.#I dont tend to care (or try not to care) abt things like this but i dont think ppl realize being in that state can leak into#Smth you dont want. Yes not everything is glitters and butterflies but to stay in that negative mindset is just crazy to me.#ESPECIALLY over a fucking VIDEOGAME CHARACTER like girl byeđđđ#I have my own gripes with my other fave games and fandoms i been in but this fandom takes the cake of being a drag#Sms taking a lot of risks and continue trying with atreus gives me hope for him and angie. Idk what theyll do with them#From here on out but they realize no matter what they do its gonna get some level of hate.#I dont even know if ill like their characterization next game either but with what ive seen so far i think they are in good hands.#Im sorry for the really long rant you guys i just needed to say this LOL#When it comes to atreus/angrboda i get a bit passionate but also since sunny/laya are around my age and knowing how gamers are#Its just really aggravating seeing shit like this#Not to say i cant get crazy myself (cuz i can im ngl) but alot of times i just have to take a step back and BREATHE.#Theres a small change ive seen with the hate towards them (ppl have been getting kinda annoyed with it since thats all they talk abt)#But collectively i hope one day ppl genuinely like them. Not out of pity or anything either. But bc they enjoy their characters :)#Im manifesting that it will happen LOL#manifesting all good things towards atreus/angrbodađŻïžđŻïžđŻïž
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ur highschool bully gojo was chefs kiss đ what do u think about them going to the same college and taking the same classes?? and the reader sitting next/talking to some other guy and satoru gets jealous?? arwahhhshdhshshs so many possibilities, i hope u continue writing it!!
hi nonnie !! thank you so much :) this is ur official part 2 ! i was struggling to think up some possibilities but this helped a lot :oo | read part 1 here ! -> cw: swearing, jealousy, i let it get fic length oops
(former) highschoolbully!gojo on the brain again⊠like. when you end up seeing him again however many months later, and you can tell that heâs changed. itâs not like its immediately obvious to anyone who doesnât really know him like you (used to); but heâs a little softer-spoken and his smiles seem nine times more genuine. itâs not a hundred percent; the kind that really lights up his face instead of just barely falling short of his stark blue eyes, but it's something.
of course, you have nothing to base it off of, because when you do inevitably see him again it's the very definition of meet ugly.
college is a new frontier, but its also a clean slate. its your first time going into something so new without your old bestfriend at your side, but some faint flickering thought reminds you that it might be better that way. but the universe is against you from the very first day, when youre gettin yourself some coffee from the same chain you did the morning of that fateful presentation so many moons ago. you're too busy thinking to yourself what kind of strange parting ritual it is to relive your trauma to notice the lanky, white-haired boy who hits his head on the chiming bell over the doorway. people are giggling around you n sighing dreamily but youre too deep in the music pumping through your headphones to notice and your eyes are glued to the class schedule on your phone, trying to ensure you dont get lost on the first day whenâ
you blink and your ass is flat on the dirty floor of the coffee shop, and the first thing you register is that your stomach is soaked and burning. you'd spilled your coffee. it takes you a moment to realize, but when you do you're pissed. so you quickly get to your feet, trying to reign in what little of your ego you have left to give the offender who bumped into you a piece of your mind as you look up, then..
how unlucky do you have to be?
just like that, satoru's slid himself back into your life, after ramming through its locked gates. you forget that he always forgets the point of keys, both when it comes to his apartment (which you still have the spare key of in case of emergencies), and the door to your heart. to rub salt in the wound, the only thing that's stained with your coffee order are his shoes, which look like they cost three weeks of your old job salary, but it's all over your shirt. of course it is. because why not? make it look like you tripped and fell into a patch of mud on your way to the lecture hall and tack on an unwelcome reunion with your ex-bestfriend.
to you, it's like the cloud of gloom from your highschool youth has resettled over your head like a swarm of gnats on a dreary, hot summer day. the stars always seem to skew and misalign themselves for you. but for satoru, the stars have handed him one of those huge swirly lollipops that you only ever see being paraded about by toddlers. he recovers almost instantly, trading the burn on his feet and the way it sours your expression like he's just squirted pure citric acid into your throat for a pleasant burn of his own on his cheeks. but it's whatever. girls seem to like it when he blushes, for some reason. he won't question it, if it works on the only one he cares about.
he holds his hand out, ready to help you out like the good samaritan he's becomeâ and it's like a real burn to his heart this time when you ignore it and stand up on your own, refusing to look up and meet his pleading gaze. might as well have taken an iron stoker right out of the fire and jabbed him with it. but he's gojo satoru! he won't be defeated by this one mere, maybe very significant reunion. he's got stamina.
so he offers to buy you a new drink, feels his heart sink when you shake your head (can't even spare a little 'no' in his direction), and talks enough for the both of you when you leave the dingy little store make your way down to campus and the lecture building. you clearly don't want to see him, but he ignores that in exchange to notice the way you shiver every so often. the previously searing-hot coffee that stains your shirt turns cold fast, and moisture n wind don't mix well. he wishes he could offer you some of his own warm coffee, no doubt sickeningly sweet, but he has some sensitivity now, apparently. so, in a brash moment, he decides to take his blazer off and drape it over your shoulders instead.
when you cross the threshold between city and campus, you expect him to yank it off your back and be on his merry way. but he keeps walking next to you, so you walk a little faster, and you absolutely loathe the cheeky little grin that curves the corners of his lips up to show a glint of teeth when he effortlessly keeps up. you curse his long legs when you find yourself winded, but at least you can lose him when you get there.
or, that's what you think. once again, your constellations break themselves to rebuild anew for satoru. you're about to call him a stalker when he follows you all the way to your classroom with that smirk that's growing exponentially untilâ oh, no.
your phone that's been on the schedule up until now desperately scrolls to the rosterâ and there it is. he's in your class. needless to say, not another word goes between you as you stomp in and take a seat. luckily for you, you've already corresponded with your roommate's brother (who's annoyingly cute, satoru notices) and agreed to sit next to each other. satoru takes the seat right above you and never stops kicking his freakishly long legs against the wood the entire time.
so yeah, it's obvious he's not a saint; he still has that undoable ego and he's cocky as fuck (as you have the misfortune of finding out when he quickly bullies your professor), but there's a certain familiarity in that no matter how ugly it might appear to others. and if you asked (which he really, really hopes you will someday), he doesn't hang around douchebags who use kids' foreheads for ashtrays and treat girls like they're candy from a glittery pez dispenser. and at least he's switched harassment targets. even though he has an overwhelming sense of superiority over others and never has his lips together for more than five seconds, and even though he has this hellish habit of clicking his pen whenever he's not talking (or when someone else is), it seems like he's changed.
and over time, you gradually find yourself warming up to him. the spunkiness that used to get on your nerves ceaselessly becomes an object of endearment, and you don't really mind the way he never seems to stop moving anymore. it's a nice sort of distraction in the lifeless still of the lecture hall, albeit the pen clicking still drives you near insanity. you notice he always does it obnoxiously and quickly when you're talking to your roommate's brother, but you ignore it.
and for satoru? he hates that he can kinda sorta really tell that you're the only one who can read him like he's a damn book, cus you slowly start to soften up in the nostalgia of his presence like cold playdough between warm fingers that tell you he may have finally caught you again after letting you slip the first time. and he notices it. this time, he's determined not to let you be the one that got away again. but youre really giving him a shit time outta it with the way you constantly entertain the guy who always has his breath in your face.
yeah, he's got a cute face that's sunkissed by freckles. yeah, his hair looks like he models for shampoo companies. and fuck, he has a nice voice. but what of it? satoru's the one with the mesmerizing blue irises and the cloudy white hair your professor wishes he had instead of sad little wisps of old age. still, as chilly days turn into frigid weeks, he gets the perfect backseat angle of the growing relationship between the two of you. the boy's kinda dumb so you copy off of satoruâs work when you need to (he has to hide the 1-0 scoreboard between him and the guy on a sticky note from you when you take his notes), but said guyâs always buying you stuff and lending you erasers and laughing when you flick the shavings at the annoying girl who never stops whispering in the front of the room.
satoru tries to act unbothered, and he almost convinces everyone. including himself. but the angry, burning knot in his chest that's entirely different from coffee stains suggests something more. that should be him at your side. him, making balls of paper with rude scribbles and silly doodles to throw at the people he knows you don't like. him, surprising you with little gifts and the cheap trinkets he knows you adore so much instead of all the luxury things he could afford. there's no way this punk could possibly measure up to him, right? but at least you and satoru are well on your way to becoming friends again. not as close as you used to be, but it's something. substantial. and he's learned to be patient in the time you've been gone.
but he'd be lying through his teeth if he said he wasn't tired of it. heâs endlessly plagued with thoughts of increasing intensityâ first, it starts out with just you. only you. the way he likes it. the way he likes your face, and your pretty eyes and your gorgeous lips and your soft hair and your figure and the complimenting clothes you wear. but it takes a turn; thoughts turn into dreams that turn into fantasies and he's lying when he says he doesn't enjoy them when he accidentally lets it slip during a group study sessionâ and itâs all fineâ but then, that guy appears. the brat who seems to sit a centimeter closer to you with each coming day. not only does he haunt satoru in real life, heâs tormenting his dreams, too. tainting the image of beautiful you.
needless to say, satoru starts to wake up with his hands gripping his damp pillow like he's choking it, acutely aware of the sweat sliding down his neck and over his chest as he stares up at the ceiling, listening to the dorm's air conditioner run and thinking of what it'd be like for dreams (the ones where he replaces the boy) to become reality.
it's a buildup. and soon, he reaches the apex; it's like a rollercoaster, that stomach-twisting moment when you reach the top of the rail that points to the steep descent downward. but this time, he hopes it's a thrill he gets instead of the usual falling fright; the one he got when he realized heâd slipped between your fingers in highschool.
and satoru finally comes to a grinding halt at the top of the ride one breezy fall day when he decides he wants you back in his life after you smile brightly at him and wave goodbye for the day. heâs tired of you having one foot in and one foot out of his heart; he wants, needs more. he always has, he realizes.
so heâs thinking about you and how to approach the feelings heâs realized during those long lectures, and one morning he comes up with some semblance of a plan when heâs high on the sugar from the fruit tea you bought him that morning. and he hopes that, by the end of it, he'll leave your apartment with your hand in his currently empty one, chilled with the remnants of cold condensation from the bottle.
soon enough, satoru finds himself extinguishing his nerves and raising a tense fist to knock on the door with nothing but the clothes on his back and a flimsy plan to ask you out on a midterm study sesh and maybe even a date, but he stops when he realizes itâs slightly ajar. a brief thought of what look might be on your face when he surprises you crosses his mind, so he lets himself in quietly, because he knows every single floorboard that creaks like the back of his palm from his childhood. heâs hit with a wave of warmth and an achingly familiar scent that twists at his heart, and your apartment is cozy and safe and it screams you and he thinks he catches sight of his jacket slung across the back of the couch in your living room, but heâs not sure so he takes a step forward andâ
heâs greeted with the sight of that stupid guy with the nice hair and the freckles, and it makes his heart drop. but even worse, heâs kissing you and his arms are winding around your waist but youâre kissing him back with a slight hesitation thatâs blinded to satoru by his shock and the fingers he thought would end up in his own tonight card through the boyâs hair and your lips glisten with the strawberry-kiwi flavored gloss he watched the boy give you a few days back and his world is turning red and he feels like his throat is constricting and he canât breatheâ
and he doesnât even realize youâve parted lips and youâre calling his name through the newfound tightness of his chest and the painful ringing in his ears thats even louder than any silence of a lecture hall, or the void that shouldâve been filled with your voice during the time you were apart. but now satoru realizes heâd take that any fucking chance to have that again because itâs so much better than what heâs stuck with now. having you, but not really having you, because youâre there but youâre someone elseâs and youâre not his and he isnât yours. the best thing he could ever hope for was for you to own an article of his clothing and a piece of his shattered heart, broken into a million fragments. some cruel voice in his buzzing head reminds him to change the scoreboard to 0-100.
and he could buy you cheap hot coffee or earn your smiles from scrunched up paper balls or even hear your laugh with crude jokes, but thereâs no point when he realizes he canât buy you with caffeine or earn you with hitting the back of peopleâs heads with his bio notes or have you and your laugh all to himself anymore.
itâs almost pathetic, the way satoruâs voice cracks and changes. the look of unadulterated concern on the face of the boy who stole your lips just adds fuel to the fire.
âgojo? what are you doing hereâ hey, are you okay? you look like youâve seen a ghost.â
he noticed youâd stopped calling him satoru a few weeks back. he shouldâve seen it coming.
âhuh? oh, yeah. iâm good. i think youâre the one hallucinating.â
heâd never told a bigger lie in his life.
satoru had left after excusing himself for intruding. how very unlike him to be so polite, you think.
so in the end, he leaves your apartment with something in his hand, after all. but it's not your ownâ just his blazer that youâd given back to him before he stepped out the door, taunting him with the faint scent of coffee and lingering perfume. his hope was foolish, so it seems. itâs too bad, he thinks. if it were him, he wouldâve sandwiched you against your counter while he kissed. but it wasnât. apparently, it was your turn for your stars to align at the price of his.
and so, gojo satoru, the boy force-turned man with a chipped ego and a completely broken heart, loses you again.
bonus bonus.. part 2âŠ.
#here u go. yes!! u!!!!!! sorry it got long#thank you guys for the reception on the last part literally checking tumblr religiously the rbs and comments made me feel like floating#yea hes a hopeless loser srry i dont make the rules#ABND I TRIED TO HOLD HERRR but there was nothing i could do to stop her from cutting her beautiful blue hair off đđ#gojo satoru#gojo angst#gojo satoru x reader#gojo satoru x you#gojo x reader#gojo x you#satoru gojo#jjk gojo#gojo jjk#satoru gojo x you#satoru gojo x reader#satoru gojo x y/n#gojo satoru x y/n#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk angst#did not proofread b i hope itâs good đââïžđââïž#actually i j realized the coffee campus intro part is similar to another fic iâve read sorry if u noticed that it was on my subconscious đ#billet-doux
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Hummingbirds
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From me: Based on a song of the same name--you'll see the lyrics in a moment. You'll need to suspend your belief a bit. I'm not sure everything makes perfect sense, but. Some of this story takes place through emailing and I didn't have a good method for this. So bold will be Harry's emails. Pink writing will be hers.
Warnings: angst, fluff, anger honestly just fluffy. second chance love
Summary: Harry has been angry for a really really long time. Only one person ever made him confront his anger.
âEli, baby, we have to go!â
Harry could hear her from outside. He smirked, sipping his tea while he waited for Buddy to do his business. The air was crisp just like October should be. Decorative spider webs lined the front porch and the flower bushes in front of it. He was utterly pleased with his life. So completely happy.
âMommy! I canât find my dinosaur sneakers!â
âI donât know how to spell it,â Evie frowned. âIâm going to fail!â
âJust do your best and practice, my love. I believe in you,â she assured as she zipped her backpack up at the doorway and stuffed her feet into the slip-on sneakers by the door. They make me feel old, she told Harry. Theyâre the perfect shoes for a busy Mum, he assured her. And I think yâlook hot wearing them.
âEli, honey!â She called back. âTheyâre here by the front door!â
Harry couldnât stop smiling. âHow lucky am I, Buddy?â He asked shaking the leash slightly. The dog turned to him and then tugged him around the yard looking for the right spot; totally unaware or unaffected that Harry had the best life there was to live.
âI-M-P-E-R-U-T-I-V-E.â
âClose, baby girl,â she smiled encouragingly. âItâs an A, not U.â
She looked miserable as she stepped off the porch. Evie approached Harry while his wife bent to help Eli with his sneakers. âIâm going to fail, Daddy.â
He chuckled at the little nine-year-old. Crouched to her height twirling the leash tight around one hand. He straightened her little hair bow on the side of her head, pinning her hair back to one side. He kissed her forehead. âMummy said yâwere close. Yâdid a great job. Yâjusâ have târemember thereâs an A,â he reminded her and then pinched her cheek gently. âLike the grade youâre going tâget, right?â He winked at her.
Evieâs sweet eyes lit up with new hope. She turned to the pretty woman at the door holding Eliâs hand to usher him quickly out of the house now that his shoes were securely on his feet. âMommy! Did you hear what Daddy said to help me remember?â
She grinned so beautifully; it melted him. The center of his chest felt deliriously warm. It felt equivalent to being snuggled under a blanket with her, warm and close while it snowed outside their house. The kids drinking hot chocolate at the coffee table and a movie playing in the background.
It was unbelievable she was all his. âWhat did Daddy say, Evie?â Eli held onto her hand tight while he jumped from the second to last step of the porch while Evie explained the A she was going to get. âWell, I guess you inherited your smarts from Daddy, hmm?â Which was unequivocally a joke. She was a hundred times smarter than him. Or at least it felt that way. But he loved her so much for never making him feel less than. She was good at that. It was impossible to feel less than in her presence.
She was good at everything. Her job, being a wife, but perhaps his favorite thing, she was a tremendous mother. Something he knew she would be good at, but not to the extent he witnessed on a daily basis. Eli hurried to Harry and Buddy petting the dogâs head and giggling when he licked his face. Harry kissed the top of his head and gave his little body a squeeze. âWhat smarts?â Harry asked.
She rolled her eyes as she finally approached her family. âYouâre plenty smart, baby,â she shook her head with a gentle smile. The two kids that looked like the perfect combination of them went to her car and climbed into their respective seats. Harry wrapped his free arm around her back and pulled her to his side. He kissed her temple, nosing along her hairline.
âNot as smart as mâbeautiful wife,â he reminded her. She laughed.
âI love you.â She tilted her head up for a kiss which Harry never let her wait for.
âI love you,â he grinned into the kiss.
âEw!â Eli called.
âMommy, letâs go!â Evie was eager to get to school and ace her spelling test.
âBye Daddy!â Eli shouted. She gave his cheek a final peck and she headed across the yard to take their kids to school. âSee you at my soccer game!â
âHey kitten?â He called.
âYeah?â She asked over her shoulder.
âMâa lucky man tâhave you,â he reminded her.
She shook her head, laughed. âMe too, baby. Luckiest girl in the world to have you.â
The second her door closed behind her a swarm of hummingbirds fluttered so loudly into the yard. Seemingly out of nowhere. The noise of their wings was unbelievable. A dull roar. It was hundreds of the little birds, and she paid no mind to them as she started her car. Buddy didnât care about the intrusion either. Even the kids were indifferent. âAre yâseeing this?â He called out to her. He blinked curiously when she didnât respond. âWhatâs with all theââ
*
I had a dream last night / we were married in that house you always talked about / you were rushing to get the kids to school / packing their lunches, reviewing their spelling words / it was hummingbirds
Harryâs heart was beating like he had just finished a workout. His skin felt clammy. The sheets were wrapped too tightly around his legs. He groaned as his alarm vibrated to the same hum of the birds in his dream. The music playing alongside the vibration made him grumpy. âWhat the fuck?â He whispered and smacked the song off. He wished he could go right back. Did Evie pass her test? Did Eli score a goal?
Did she still love him the way he dreamed about?
*
Dr. Hendren listened to Harryâs dream but very much already knew the ending. It was the same as all his dreams with the house and the girl that he had been hearing for ten years.
âHarry,â the doctor said gently as he watched Harry on his screen. âDo you know what hummingbirds symbolize?â
âNo,â Harry was grumpy. He always was after a dream that was so real so lifelike. It wasnât fair. He just wanted her back. Wanted to see her. Wanted to know.
âHealing.â Dr. Hendren was quiet while Harry processed that. He worked his jaw, swallowing, and flexing it as he tried to get the words to come out. His body felt tense. Like he was trapped inside a box that was too small. That didnât seem right. He didnât feel like he was healed. He was still frustrated most of the time. Work was a minor distraction, and the loneliness was crippling at times. The only reprieve was dreaming of that pretty girl he knew so many years ago.
Why did it have to be her? She didnât deserve Harry and his bad attitude. She already suffered through it for two years at a time when life should have been fun, lovely, sweet. They were kids and Harry was an ass. He never even said he loved her back then.
âDonât you think,â Dr. Hendren continued quietly, and Harry knew what he was going to say. âYouâve been quiet long enough about what you want?â He shrugged. âHarry,â he tutted.
âI wasnât a good boyfriend.â
âYou were a kid.â
âShe deserved more.â
âThen tell her. Worst case scenario, she doesnât want to talk to you and youâll have some closure and you can stop dreaming about it.â
Harry remained silent, looking around his empty apartment. He took a deep breath and nodded. âAlright. Iâll reach out to her.â
âHarry,â Dr. Hendren said quietly. âHave you thought about the best-case scenario?â
He shook his head. Thatkind of hope could kill him. But he knew why the dreams were so powerful these days. Why they were so steady and quick.
Woke up bleeding from my mouth / I bit my tongue right through / well I broke the habit / I guess that Iâd had it not saying the things I need to
The following morning, he searched his inbox from an email he hadnât used in ten years and found the address he never thought heâd email again after he broke up with her way back when.
But Harry wasnât twenty anymore. He was trying to move on. Trying to fix things that should have been fixed a long time ago. He sat on the couch, typed out seven different versions of the message and clicked send before he could overthink it any longer. He slapped the computer shut and rubbed his hands on his pants. He took a sip of the tea he made hoping to calm himself and told himself that it was okay if she didnât answer.
Hey. Long time. Not sure if you use this email. I know itâs been a long while. Hope youâre well. ... Iâve been thinking of you. And truthfully, I had a pretty realistic dream that you were in the other night. Nothing weird. Just my old self and back then and... I donât know. ... How are you?
If she was working, she might just be getting settled. Or maybe out with a friend. Running errands. He refrained from imagining a little family that was waiting on her for dinner but reminded himself anyway that there were a million reasons sheâ
His phone lit up on the table beside the computer and his heart skipped a beat.
Harry Styles. As I live and breathe :) Iâm well! How are you?
That little smiley face made his heart ache with adoration for her. He could picture her pretty face smiling. But she answered.
Good. Yeah. I⊠Iâve been going to therapy regularly. Finally had to and... my doctor and I have discussed a lot of things. You were one of them. I just... wanted to chat with you. Iâm sorry, this is so out of the blue and weird.
No! Not at all, Harry. Iâm glad you reached out. Itâs really nice to hear from you. Therapy? Thatâs amazing! Do you like it?
Iâm a work in progress.
Arenât we all? :)
He smiled feeling relieved. Even just reading words on a screen made him feel at ease. He could practically hear her sweet, encouraging voice.
What are you up to? Do you live in state still?
Yes! I actually just moved down the road from the college. Iâm a guidance counselor at the local high school.
Thatâs lovely. Iâm not surprised you accomplished your goals. Your students are lucky to have you. Are you doing okay? It has to be draining.
A lot of the time yeah. But itâs rewarding as hell. You know I love kids, and I love being able to help.
Harry wondered if it was possible to love her more than he ever had before.
Thereâs a shadow on my shoulder / always whispers in my ear / that Iâm so angry all of the time / I should be alone another year / I didnât say it how you needed it / must have written it down a thousand times / all the things I would scream at the top of my lungs / if I wasnât so busy saying Iâm fine.
Harry had a habit of not saying what he was feeling. He bottled so much of it up and hid it from the rest of the world. Even people he loved. When he was dating her back in college, he kept a lot hidden and exploded when she asked him simple questions about himself. Trying to understand him and why he was angry all the time. Her willingness to look past it, try and help, and just continue to be kind to him made him angry too. It was constant, draining. It was like he couldnât help himself.
There was a tiny voice in his head that told him he was too angry for her. She deserved someone lovely and sweet. Someone who would talk to her and tell her things. Be the person she deserved. Because despite everything, Harry loved love. It was nearly impossible for him to show it back then. But he did. He wanted to love her the way she needed.
But he was so busy being angry and bottling his emotions he couldnât do it. He couldnât love her the right way.
It was so unfair to her and looking back on it made him feel like a proper ass.
So, he was grateful for the email communication. He couldnât imagine having this conversation with her about all this in person. They chatted for days. Catching up on things, reminiscing. Their email chain was up to 100 something messages. Some messages were long. Harry chatted about his family and she about hers. There were updates on work. On friends they still spoke to and no longer did. The conversation continued over the course of a little under a week.
But the most shocking details came from her.
I mentioned I moved... my ex-fiancĂ© broke off our engagement. Donât feel too bad for me, itâs actually a relief in hindsight. Something Iâve been trying to figure through. Itâs why I know that anything you feel you did wasnât nearly as bad as you thought it was. Thereâs far worse relationship enders than a little bit of anger.
Jesus, Iâm so sorry, kitten.
Well, isnât that a sweet name for sore eyes :) Donât be sorry. Itâs good. I have this cute apartment to myself and itâs for the best it happened now before there were too many variables to consider...like kids or a house or something, you know? Iâm definitely sad. But he wasnât the one for me at the end of the day.
Sorry for dumping all that on you. Itâs not really fair given our past. I think a lot of my friends disagree with my choice on this to let him go so itâs nice to just tell someone non-judgmental.
Harry felt angry the way he used to. The way that made him want to scream and he felt the desperate need to message Dr. Hendren because he felt out of his depth. All he said was sorry. How could she feel he was non-judgmental. He was judgmental. He was judging the fuck out of the piece of shit that broke her heart and made her sad.
But he was no better.
The man is an idiot to lose you. I know from experience.
:) I have to head to bed, thereâs a big pep rally tomorrow at school so I have to have my brain ready for chaos. Sleep well Harry.
Good night, kitten.
He reread those messages over and over and right before he was going to fall asleep, his phone lit up with one more message.
Youâre not an idiot by the way. He might be, but you, Harry Styles are not.
So of course, he dreamed of Evie, Eli, and the sweet girl at the other end of his emails that night.
And hummingbirds.
Thousands of hummingbirds.
*
Most of their messages were short.
Iâve been going to therapy for three years now.
Thatâs wonderful, Harry. Really. Do you like it?
Yeah...itâs hard.
:( Yeah... It really is. Do you like your therapist?
Yeah. Iâve had him the whole time.
Yeah? Thatâs good. Iâm... proud of you. I donât want to be weird about it, but I know you were angry. Really angry. It wasnât good. You didnât deserve that. Iâm glad you have someone to help you work through it.
...You were so nice to me. When you shouldnât have been. I didnât treat you right.
You were wonderful, Harry. We were practically kids. If our relationship had any faults, it was because we were too young. I donât regret a second of time being with you.
His heart skipped a beat. He felt that frustration from back when they were young, and she was so understanding but it didnât make him grumpy or feel inadequate. All he felt was a sense of belonging. Something he probably would have felt back then if he could have gotten out of his own way. She was willing to look past it then as she was now.
Youâre much too forgiving. He wrote. Because old habits die hard.
You werenât fine, Harry. You didnât know. We didnât know what we were dealing with at that age.
Harry hadnât a clue what he was dealing with. Did he even know now?
Can... can I give you something?
Give me something?
Yes. I... I can bring it to your apartment or to school or we can meet, I just... Iâve been trying to let it go but I think... I think my dream was reminding me that... thereâs more to you. More I need to do for you.
Sure, if you think it will give you closure.
God, Harry wanted anything but closure.
Just to clarify: I donât think you owe me anything.
I kept a lot hidden from you. I held back and it wasnât fair. All you wanted was to love me and I wouldnât let you.
Itâs a vulnerable thing, Harry. To be loved. You didnât do anything wrong. We were just young.
But... you knew I wasnât fine, and you tried and... I just wasnât fair to you.
You were fine, Harry. I promise. Bring me whatever it is that you need to give me to make you believe you did what you could with what you had.
*
Her apartment had a wreath on the door. It was beautiful with an array of burnt orange and red flowers and green vines. The perfect fall wreath. Beside the door were three pumpkins of different sizes. If he didnât have her address, he almost thought he would know it was her place. He looked at the mat in front of the door that said welcome, and he wondered if there was any other place where someone actually meant it.
Swallowing, he took a deep breath and knocked. After a minute, the door was out of the way.
At 18, Harry thought she was beautiful. The most beautiful girl he had ever met. During the time they dated, he thought she got more beautiful every second. Apparently, he was right because the woman before him somehow got exponentially more beautiful. Her smile was so inviting, so warm. Like he was seeing an old friend. âHey Harry,â her voice was sweet. Not an ounce of distrust, frustration, nothing. Their breakup was ten years ago. Not a degree of anger was left.
Harry wasnât angry either. Not anymore. But if she had broken up with him and he hadnât done all this work to better himself, he would have been. He didnât know how she could be so sweet after all she went through.
âHi,â he swallowed. âI donât want tâkeep you. Sâreally nice tâsee you,â his dream didnât do her justice. Sure, she was beautiful especially with their imaginary kids. Simply stunning. But this was more. This was the beautiful angel he loved so much even when she wasnât his to love.
âYouâre not keeping me; do you want to come in?â She shifted to open the door wider. âI can make some tea. Or we can order pizza?â
âNo,â he shook his head. âI jusâ want tâgive yâthis,â he handed her the shoe box.
She opened the lid. âWell, you know I wonât say no to shoes,â she smirked.
As much as he wanted to laugh at her joke, he felt like he made a mistake. The box was out of his hands. Not because of what was in there but because of the fear of rejection and being so vulnerable. Feelings of inadequacy were currently circulating through his bloodstream. âUm... sânotââ
âWhat is this?â She asked, tilting her head. He swallowed, pinched his lower lip between his fingers and took a deep breath.
âSâletters.â
âLetters?â
âI wrote tâyou.â
âMe?â
He took a deep breath. âMâsure yâknow mânot good at saying what mâfeeling.â
She replaced the lid, leaning against the frame. âI feel like Iâm a little lost here, Harry.â
He nodded, shoved his hands in his pockets so he wouldnât fidget or reach back out to take it from her. His mouth felt dry. He wished he had taken her offer for a glass of water now. Â âI know yâsaid yâthought we were fine. But mânot happy with how I treated you. Yâwere an angel. The perfect girlfriend and I treated yâunfairly a lot. I guess Iâve really held onto that and some of those letters are old but when I hit low points I thought âbout what yâsaid back then. How I wasnât on mâown. I was allowed tâbe angry. But I had tâlet people in. All that. I wrote tâyou a lot over the years. Mâtherapist said it was actually one of the smartest things Iâve done on mâown,â he chuckled. âI want you târead them. When yâhave time. I guess. I donât know,â he cleared his throat. âThis is really scary,â he admitted.
âOkay,â she nodded encouragingly and reached out to his forearm. She squeezed it reassuringly. It was only a touch on his arm, and he felt so good feeling it. He knew it was her training kicking in. Like a broken, beaten student at her office door. âI can do that,â she assured him. âDo you want me to text you about each one? Or just a summary of all of them? Or do you want me to not say anything?â
He looked at his feet. âFuck...â he whispered to himself. âI donât know.â
âOkay,â she took a deep breath. âThank you,â she smiled. âIâll start reading tonight and Iâll decide in the moment. You donât have to answer if you donât want.â
He nodded, looked at his feet. âIâm sorry.â
âSorry?â
âSâa lot.â
âI enjoy reading, Harry,â she grinned and moved her hand to his upper arm and soothingly rubbed up and down. âThank you for trusting me.â
Of course he did. There was no one else he really did. He nodded, feeling nauseous but still lighter. âIâm gonna go now,â he swallowed.
âIâll email you,â she assured him with a smile and headed inside.
*
Like it grows old real fast / how much you can love and not get it back / were we too attached? / Itâs a shame how often goodbyes last / I thought we were better than that / I thought I was stronger at last.
The knock on the door was hurried, eager. Insistent on being heard.
At first, he felt frozen in the kitchen cleaning up the dinner he made himself and placing the dirty dishes in the sink. Maybe he imagined the knock. Maybe he was just dreaming again. Plus, she said she would email right? This wasnât something to feel nervous about.
But the flutter of knocking continued. He hurried from his frozen position as the rapid taps hit the wood. He knew. His gut telling him exactly who was on the other side of that door. Taking a deep breath, he swallowed before pulling it out of the way.
âYou bought me the house?!â She shrieked.
Harry dipped his head to avoid her eyes. âYes.â
âHarry Styles, what the fuck?!â
He felt sick. âYou hate it?â
Her eyes were red, glossy. Not what he expected at all. But why wasnât it? This wasnât normal. After a breakup of her own where she was sure she was going to marry the guy. Harry appeared out of nowhere. Telling her that he had a dream about her, and he hadnât stopped thinking about her.
She covered her mouth and shook her head. âHarry,â she croaked.
âIâmâ"
âYou canât buy me a house! Weâre not even... Harry. This is insane! You have to see that!â
He shrugged. âI guess... but... I donât know, kitten. I think about you all the time. I see this house in my sleep. I see our life in mâdreams every night.â
She was wearing only socks. Like she didnât even have time to put on shoes. She held the paper in her hand wrinkled like she had read it hundreds of times already even though he had only given it to her the night before and he just knew which one was in her hands. She cleared her throat and read the date from ten years ago before she read the remainder of the letter.
To the resident(s) of 1278 Chestnut Street
My name is Harry Styles, and I am a college student in town. My girlfriend and I walk by your lovely home every day when we head to our favorite coffee shop after class. We love your home. Or I should say, my girlfriend LOVES your home. She claims itâs her dream home. The porch, the yard, the location... everything. She even loves your driveway. Every bit of your house is part of this fantastic dream she has of the life she wants in the future.
I donât know if Iâll be with her forever. I am... working on myself. Iâm not very good at all this relationship stuff. Especially when it comes to her. Quite frankly, I think she deserves way better than me. But on the off chance I am lucky enough to keep her in my life for as long as I would like, I want to make her dreams come true. She deserves that. She deserves every single one of her dreams to come true. She is the kind of girl that deserves every good thing that can possibly be provided for her.
If you ever find yourself selling, would you please consider emailing me first? Of course, if you have family that you plan on giving your home to, I understand. I canât even promise Iâll be able to afford it, but Iâll want to know. If only to pass on the message to her somewhere down the line. She deserves the chance to have all her dreams come true.
Iâm not sure where you are in life or if you have ever been in a relationship like this one. This girl is so special. Sheâs an angel. The kind of love that even a movie couldnât show, or a book couldnât write. Iâm lucky to have her right now and I donât know why sheâs with me. I donât know why Iâm even sending this crazy letter other than I know I have to try. Even if sheâs smart enough to leave me, I want her to know her dream home is available. Somewhere down the road. Even if weâre not on the same road anymore. Thatâs what she deserves.
Iâm sorry to bother you like this. I hope you can understand what love can do to a guy in college with a girlfriend who is LEAGUES above him. Thank you for taking time to read this and I hope you continue to enjoy your lovely home.
Sincerely,
Harry
Her voice shook as she read it. âYou sent that when we were in college.â He nodded, swallowed the lump in his throat and looked at the packet stapled together. âThey emailed you,â she whispered. He nodded again.
âDear Harry. We got your letter. When the time comes. Weâll be moving closer to our children. Theyâve never expressed interest in our house the way you have. My wife and I met in college and believe me, I know a little something about finding the girl of your dreams. Itâs nice youâre working on yourself. You deserve the life that fits this house too. We hope itâs with the girl that is leagues above you (although, we imagine sheâd think differently). Weâll be in touch. The Andersons.â
Harry watched her flip the page as she made eye contact with him briefly before returning her gaze to the paper in front of her.
âDear Harry. We hope life is treating you well. That youâre working on yourself, and your girlfriend is still around. If sheâs not, we hope youâre not being too hard on yourself. We wanted to let you know weâll soon be moving to a retirement community close to our son. We want to have you (and your girlfriend) over for dinner if youâre available. Let us know.â
Harry knew what was coming but he was still terrified. Why was she here? Barefoot. Reading the letters to him. What did she think.
âDear Harry. It was so nice to meet you in person. Here is the contract we discussed. See you soon.â
He rubbed the back of his head. âKitten,â he whispered.
âDear Harry. We hope you get her back. Enjoy your home. Never stop giving out your love. The Andersons.â
She was teary, swallowing hard. Her hands were shaking as she held the papers in front of her. âYou bought me a house.â
He nodded. There was a pause. âMâsorry I took so long.â
She dropped the papers and launched herself into his arms. He stumbled back at the impact. Her arms around his neck, her feet barely touching the floor as she tucked her face into his shoulder. âHarry,â she whimpered. Harry sighed, wrapped his arms tightly around her, one at her waist, the other hand cupping the back of her head.
âIâve loved you for so long,â his voice felt raw. Like he was the one that was crying and shaking. Not her.
She sniffled and nodded. âI know,â because she did. She read every single letter. Watched the date change but one thing never did and that was the love she felt in each letter.
âMâso tired, kitten,â he croaked.
âOf what, baby?â She cupped his face. The emotion on his face was tender and nothing like she remembered from ten years prior. Her thumb soothingly rubbed his cheek.
âLife without you,â he closed his eyes tight. âThis house is yours I want nothing more than for you tâhave it, but I want it tâbe ours.â
She sniffled, ducked her head briefly as she glanced around. âYou decorated it for Halloween,â she whispered.
âYou would have done better.â
She snorted. âHarry...â
âIf this is the house that makes you happy then I want it jusâ as much, kitten. But youâre my home. You always have been.â
âI donât know what to say Harry,â she whimpered.
âSay yes.â
âHarry...â she whispered.
âPlease, Iâm so tired of loving and loving and never feeling that way. I know sâhow I made yâfeel in college and yâjusâ dealt with it. Yâjusâ wanted love and I didnât give yâwhat yâneeded. But mâready now. Mâso ready tâdo whatever yâneed tâlove you the way yâdeserve. The way yâalways deserved.â
Not for the first time in his life, Harry prayed that if this was a dream, he would never wake up.
He never thought he would hold her again. Never thought she would be in the house she always wanted. Or that she would know he was sorry for how he was back when he was an angry kid.
Perhaps most importantly, he never thought he would feel her lips on his ever again.
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You need more free art.
I quit my job yesterday. Well, actually I quit my job eight weeks ago, but they finally released me yesterday for good behaviour. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do - but I do it for the wrong reasons. Working for major charities, you learn very fast that 'I want to make the world a better place' is a phrase you use to ask people for money, not to give them things. I was an ass-backwards fit for that world.
You need more free art. I need more free art. Everyone has felt the shift in our media landscape over the last ten years, away from access and towards nickel-and-diming the human experience. That lack of access is making life and culture worse for all of us, across the board. Paywalled news sites leave us less informed, attacks on the Internet Archive leave us less capable of research. Algorithmic social feeds and streaming walled gardens trap us inside smaller and smaller demographic bubbles, where we are increasingly only likely to encounter ideas that have been curated for us by marketing departments. Hasty efforts to resist AI commodification have only led to more artists locking their work away and calling for even more onerous systems of copyright law. This is not good for us.
We all need more free art.
So what am I going to do about it?
This is a question I have been asking myself for years. It's easy to sit here feeilng frustrated and thinking 'boy I hope SOMEONE does SOMETHING'. It's harder to take action in a world where I still have rent to pay. But hard doesn't mean impossible. Sometimes hard just means time-consuming, frustrating and slow. And sometimes it's worth doing something time-consuming, frustrating and slow because...I want to make the world a better place.
I'm going to do this:
1. From April 1st, I am relaunching as a freelance writer and editor.
This is the one that will (hopefully) help to pay the bills. I am a very good and experienced editor. I've worked on hollywood movies, I'm a member of the Chartered Institute of Editors and Proofreaders, I have clients who have been coming to me exclusively for more than 10 years.
Alongside bigger contract jobs, I am going to refocus on offering my services to small-press creators at a reduced rate. That means you, graphic novelists. That means you, itch and amazon writers. I want to help you develop your work, the same way I help large organisations. You can learn more about what an editor even does and what kind of pricing you can expect here.
2. I'm also going to start giving shit away. Like, constantly.
Next week I'm going to launch a new free shop. If you're unfamiliar, a free shop, giveaway shop, swap shop, etc. is an anarchist tradition of setting up a storefront where anyone can take what they like for no cost. Offline, this often means second-hand clothes, tools, furniture, food etc. Online, I am going to be giving away digital art. Copyright-free, no strings attached. It will (eventually) feature everything from print-res posters to zines, poems, tattoo flash, t-shirt designs and anything else we come up with.
Yes, I said 'we' - while this is a curated collection, it will feature work from a variety of credited and anonymous artists and activists, all of whom have agreed to give their work away to the public domain. Some of it will be practical, some of it will be political, but a lot of it will be decorative or personal. This is, in part, a response to recent difficulty I had finding somewhere that would print a one-off joke poster for a friend that featured the word 'faggot'. Enough. No middlemen - no explaining ourselves. Just print our shit and enjoy it.
I'm very, very excited about this project. I'll have more to say about it closer to the launch, but you can expect it to go live on March 27th.
2.2 I forgot to mention the ACTUAL LAUNCH GIVEAWAY
To celebrate my launch, I am going to be giving away a ton of physical prints. When I went looking for my old stock to see if it was worth setting a new (paid) storefront up, I realised I had way more old work in storage than I thought. This will be announced in its own right on Monday, but this is why I've been hinting you should go follow my Patreon.
On April 1st, I will pick 8 random patrons (from across all tiers including non-paying followers!) and mail them a bundle of assorted prints and postcards. The prize pool includes A3 and A4 posters, packs of A6 postcards, and printed minicomics that I've previously sold for up to ÂŁ12 each.
You don't have to be a paying subscriber to enter - this is strictly no-purchase necessary. It is purely and entirely a celebration of the concept of GIVING ART AWAY FOR FREE.
3. PORN, YOU PERVERTS
Because I still have to pay to stay alive, I am going to be subsidising all this free art with the introduction of Fuck You Fridays. Starting from March 29th, I will drop a new 18+ short story on the last Friday of every month, over on itch.io (yes I know my page is desolate right now, don't worry I'll get there).
The first edition, Go Fuck Yourself, is about, well - telling your boss where to stick it. Julia has had it with her millionaire man-child manager, and is just about ready to let him know what she really thinks. It's a short and steamy 5k words, with a gorgeous cover illustration by @taylor-titmouse, and you can pick it up for $3 starting from March 29th.
4. ANOTHER BIG SURPRISE
I'm keeping this one under wraps for now, but April 1st will also play host to one more (FREE) launch. If you've been following me for a long time, you might remember the other significance of this date (no not April Fool's day, though that is certainly thematically relevant to this entire effort). That's all I'll say right now. Watch this space.
tl;dr: I'm sick of paywalls and career ladders. I'm literally putting my money where my mouth is. More free art for everyone and I'm not kidding around!!!
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the big apple ê© .á pt.1
pt.2
pairing - ellie x reader
synopsis - you've just moved to nyc and ellie's your new neighbor. she hates you though and you don't know why :((
cw - mean ellie, eventual side gig dealer ellie, eventual weed, eventual tattoo artist ellie, cigs, drinking, no smut this time but there will be eventually, swearing, reader is feminine, descriptions of outfits, uhh can't think of what else I'm new to this
a/n - this is my first fanfic and english isn't my first language so yea !! there's going to be multiple parts, I'm not sure how many yet. I hope u like it. lots of wish fulfillment here bc I'm not american and would love to live in nyc. I tried to imagine what ellie, jesse and dina would be like irl but I also just did what I wanted to do loll
Your new apartment in New York was dingy, run down and just the slightest bit smelly. But that didnât matter. You loved it because it was yours, just yours. You were going to pay the rent and everything, and you already had a job at a coffee shop lined up for when your savings ran out.
Then there was the matter of the neighbor. You see, very often, the smell of weed crept under their doorway and made itâs way into your apartment, and into your nose. It wasnât that you hated it. No, unfortunately for you, you loved it. You wanted so desperately to know who it was that was stinking up your apartment, and what they must be doing every time they got high.
Did they listen to music, the same kind you did? Or did they just lay there, thinking about life? Where they talking to someone? Touching someone�
You wouldnât be so nosy, you imagined, if you had your own weed. But moving to a city where you knew no one was complicated. Finding a plug was complicated, even if it was in New York, and it would be great if you could befriend your neighbor and ask them for a referral.
Your question about what they looked like was suddenly answered when you came out on Monday morning for your first official shift at the coffee shop. On that day, your neighbor who youâd never seen before just happened to leave their apartment at the same time as you, and as soon as you saw her, you were struck by how hot she was.
Dressed in baggy, stylish clothes, with auburn hair cut to her shoulders and tied back in a haphazard bun, she was your idea of walking sex. The place youâd be working at didnât have a uniform except for an apron with its logo, and suddenly you felt sheepish in your dainty goodwill floral dress and sneakers.
Everyone in New York was so cool, with studded belts and graphic tees from bands you obviously wouldnât know, that your style which had suited you so well living in your small hometown now felt boring. Youâd run away to the big apple to be where the action was, to meet cool people and live a full life. But it was growing increasingly clear to you that maybe those people wouldnât be as eager to meet you.
You turned your head to look at your neighbor, who was exactly the type of person youâd envisioned would be a part of your new amazing life. She had freckles all over her nose and cheeks, creeping down her neck. And she had a beautiful tattoo on her arm. A tattoo! The grand majority of people in your hometown were too conservative to have those, even the young ones. You found yourself wanting to trace it with your fingersâŠ
You realized you were staring, and tried to snap yourself back to reality. Work. You were in the elevator because you needed to go to work.
You straightened up as the elevator bell dinged, then started to walk outâand tripped. The stupid old machine had stopped just below floor level, making it so that you had to step up a bit as if climbing stairs, which you hadnât done.
Right in front of your extremely hot, extremely-your-type-neighbor. Except it didnât matter, did it? You didnât want a complicated relationship with your neighbor (not that you had any confidence sheâd be interested in you like that) and there were so many other hot women in New York.
But when you looked back, she was smirking, and it was the sexiest thing ever. So it did matter, a lot.
At least youâd managed not to fall.
You tried to gain back composure, laughing slightly so it was less awkward. But she just kept that same shit-eating grin on her face. Then she scoffed. Actually scoffed. Goddamn. What made it worse was that her distaste for you only made her hotter, more desirable, in your eyes. You were screwed.
You realized you werenât moving when she walked past you with her hand reaching into her back pocket. She pulled out a pack of cigarettes and did not look back at you as she walked out of the building. You wondered were she was going.
The rest of your day was anxiety inducing. You felt a growing swarm of nerves in your stomach as you were introduced to your co-workers and taught the ropes of your job. You were just thankful they didnât have you dealing with clients yet. During the early hours of your shift, there had been a steady line at the cash register full of all kinds of people, some of them nice and patient, others not so much. Youâd clearly chosen a busy spot to work in.
Then again, wasnât that most places in New York? You smiled to yourself. Things were indeed nerve-racking, but they were also so very exciting.
As the week went on, you began to settle into the motions of your job. Making more complicated drinks was still very hard, but there were simpler manual tasks you would do were you didnât have to think much about what your body was doing. And in those quieter moments, your mind would wander to that elevator, and the embarrassing moment youâd had.
After the inner panic at the thought of it would fade, youâd think about your neighbor. You wondered what her life was like here. What she did for a living, what her weekends looked like, if she participated in the nightlife of the city you had no friends to explore with yet. You wanted to know her name, and who her friends were, and if she had a girlfriend (because you were pretty damn sure she liked girls). But unluckily for you, you received very little hints.
After that first day on Monday, you hadnât seen her in the mornings, nor in the afternoons when you came back home. All you had of her were those moments where the slight smell of weed rose up in your apartment, making you wish you could just knock on her door and join in on the smoke sesh.
Then Friday night came. You were spent from your busy first week and decided to stop by the supermarket on the way home to get yourself some cheap wine and a single wine glass.
It was a warm summer night, so you sat on the fire escape window in your little pajama shorts and tank top, setting down the things youâd bought next to you. Youâd already opened the wine, so you poured it in the glass and took to sipping. When the first glass was done you poured yourself another, already starting to feel a little tipsy. You had just begun to drink it when you heard the sound of your neighborâs window roll up, accompanied with a manâs laughter.
He stepped out onto the fire escape with a beer bottle and leaned against the railing. He wore clothes with a similar, baggy style to your neighborâs. Then came out a pretty girl with dark hair pulled into a ponytail and heeled black leather boots.
âCome on, slowpoke!â she said, extending a hand.
âAlright, alright Iâm coming! I was just checking my phone.â Your neighbor grabbed the girlâs hand and stepped onto the fire escape.
Girlfriend? You thought, feeling like you were deflating.
âYou got a message from one of your little fuck buddies?â The girl teased.
Not a girlfriend. Oh, and your neighbor had fuck buddies. You found it kind of hot, of course. Because you were always into the girls who might as well be walking around with the word âdangerâ written onto their foreheads. It also did makes you feel a little weird, because you knew she wouldnât fuck you, and even if she did, youâd just be a fuck buddy. But what did it matter? It wasnât like you even knew her enough to be able to want anything more. Still, you felt weird.
âClients, actually,â she responded.
âYeah, Dina, you think Ellie would even deign to give any of those girls her number?â
So, her name was Ellie.
âAsshole,â Ellie said as Dina laughed.
Your time spent staring at her was cut short when she noticed your presence, looking directly at you. You couldnât help but notice her grin slide right off her face. You picked up the wine glass and tasted the drink nervously.
âHey!â The guy said, with a bright smile on his mouth. âYou must be the new neighbor.â
âYeah,â you said, hesitating. You watched Ellieâs reaction to this closely. She seemed annoyed her friend was even making conversation with you.
âMuch cuter than the last one,â Dina smiled. You smiled back softly.
âWell, itâs not really hard to compete with Stinky Steve,â Ellie said, and your smile faded.
âDude.â The guy shot her a look. âAnyways, my nameâs Jesse. Iâm Ellieâs friend.â
âNice to meet you. My nameâs y/n.â
âSo,â Dina cut in. âAre you living alone or have you got a roomate thatâs cute like you?â
âUm, Iâm living alone. Iâm new to the city, actually, so I donât really know anybody yet.â
Jesse leaned onto the railing closest to your side. âWell, you know us now.â He looked at Dina and Ellie, taking a swig of his beer. âYou know what? We actually came here to pre-game. Weâre going to this club in like an hour, if you want to come with.â
âJesse.â Ellie looked like she wanted to deck him.
âWhat? She seems cool!â
âYeah, Ellie, donât be such a dick. Be nice to your neighbor.â Dina poked her. Ellie didnât say anything else, just sat down on the window ledge and looked brooding.
âSo, what do you say y/n?â
You thought about it. Maybe the wine was making you more confident, but you kind of wanted to say yes. Not just because you wanted to get closer to Ellie, but because Dina and Jesse seemed cool too, and you really wanted to go out partying in the city. You looked at Ellie, who was staring off into the distance. Youâd feel uncomfortable saying yes, knowing she clearly didnât want you to go. But then you thought it wasnât fair for her to keep you from making friends. It didnât make sense for her to hate you so much. You hadnât even done anything to her.
Yeah, fuck her.
âOkay. Iâm just going to get ready while you guys pre-game, is that good?â
âHell yeah!â Jesse clapped his hands. âKnock on our door when youâre ready.â
âMy door,â Ellie interjected. You thought to yourself that you were going to find some other hot girl to dance with, so you could forget about your rude neighbor.
âOh, one thing,â Jesse said. âHow old are you?â
âNineteen.â
âSame as Ellie! You got a fake id?â
Ellie scoffed. âDefinitely not..â She said it under her breath, but you heard it anyways.
âOf course.â You smiled.
âAttagirl.â
Dina smiled and looked pointedly at Ellie.
You climbed inside your apartment, heading straight to your room. Your excitement was taken down a notch when you opened your closet. Jesse, Dina and Ellie were all wearing stylish clothes. Dina had on a hot club girl outfit, while Jesse and Ellie looked like attractive people youâd see at the skate park. They all looked like theyâd be stopped by one of those tiktok street interviewers who would ask them to talk about their outfits. You thought about Ellieâs clothes. She was wearing jorts and a shirt with the sides cut out, revealing her Calvin Klein sports bra at the sides. You bit your lip, then shook your head, turning to the task at hand.
Your floral dresses were out of the question. You had a few basic crop tops and tanks which would do for a top, but you didnât want something that would just do. You were a resident of New York City now, and you wanted to look the part. Then you remembered something. One of the coolest girl friends you had back in your hometown had given you a dress because youâd said you thought it was hot.
You sifted through your things and fished it out. It was a simple black dress with thin straps, but it was quite short and meant to cling onto your body. Youâd never worn it before, in part because you hadnât had many occasions for it, and also in part because you were worried youâd feel self-conscious in it. Especially because it could easily ride up and expose your ass. Whatever. You took out from your closet some tights you could wear underneath and called it a day.
You slipped it on and put on a few rings and your favorite necklace, then went back to the bathroom to put on some makeup. You put on lots of eyeliner and eyeshadow around your eyes, creating a sort of smokey eye look, then stepped back to look at yourself. Finally, you sprayed on some of your favorite perfume. Perfect. You smiled and walked out of your apartment, knocking on Ellieâs door.
Dina answered. âOh, shit, you look hot.â
âThanks.â You tilted your head, a little shy but happy.
Jesse came up next to Dina. âReady to go?â
âYup,â you replied.
pt.2
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Your best friend Wade who always jokingly flirts with you the way he flirts with everyone - and you hate it because you have a real genuine crush on him and the flirting doesnât mean anything⊠does it? It has to take a mutual friend to be like âoh my god heâs in love with you and doesnât know how to tell you, so thatâs why heâs always joking about bonersâ (please and thank u ilu đ)
omg avo this kicked my ass, the amount of pining for Wade as he (jokingly, you think) flirts with you would be off the charts đ„Čđ I wrote a little drabble with how that might go, I love you and your ideas - thanks so much for sending this to me!!!
â cause every time we touch (i get this feeling)
best friend!wade wilson x mutant!reader
<1k | flirting, dirty jokes, heaps of pining
Blow job. Leg Spreader. Slippery Nipple. Liquid Viagra. Sex on the Pool Table. Pink Silk Panties.
Each time Wade comes into Sister Margaretâs - which is four or five times a week - he asks for dirtier and more obscure drinks.
"Wishful thinking", he tells you, each time.
Even with the roll of your eyes, you have to admit that it keeps you on your toes. That you look forward to seeing your best friend so often - tamping down the jolt in your belly, night after night.
Reminding yourself that yes, he got you this job, but he's not here to see you.
That this always was his spot.
It had been an easy sell. Used to working overnight shifts - security, back then. After the disaster with Weasel, they had been desperate for a replacement. Wade had come to you immediately, dropping to his knees as you opened the door.
Winning you over with a "you could literally get paid to hang out with me. How is this not a win-win-win? How is this not your dream job?"
And here, you didn't have to hide what or who you were. Reading feelings and intent were a bonus, when a handshake could tell you everything you needed to know. Their feelings spilled as easily as they were written, when you were negotiating contracts.
It also helped in-house. A human lie detector. Able to break up fights, settle arguments. A party trick, when things got slow. The regulars trying to get things past you - tales based in truth spun tall, seeing when you'd catch them.
Wade never plays, but you think that's because you know him so well.
And what seems like a sell, quickly evolves into more. Warping, as days pass. Spending more time with a crush sounds tempting, on paper.
The reality is something else.
Yes, there is a seat saved for him at the bar. Literally saved - his name scrawled across the vinyl, and you still haven't been able to scrub it out. Stopping by at all hours to chit chat.
Teasing you - how he's "so glad he doesn't have to stalk you at your old job anymore". An over-the-top sigh about being relieved that you're safe now - in your new job, surrounded by mercs.
Begging for the best job. Puppy-dog eyes. Fake coupons for favors that would make a sinner blush. Crossing his heart that you could have anything, and he means anything you wanted, if he could only get "that thing involving the murder clowns".
It's enough to make you hope.
Later, at home - in the early hours as you're pulled under. Replaying his comments. The filthy jokes and the shameless flirting - wondering if that's all they were.
Wondering if he'd be waiting for you tomorrow, perched on his stool.
But there's the downfall.
You see him - but you also see him with everyone else.
The charming smiles. Head thrown back in a laugh as he works the room. A friend to all, and as you watch him - perched on the knee of a goddess of mercenary as he yaps away, you can't help the swift current of jealousy.
Of foolishness.
It's enough that you're almost regretting agreeing.
Your mood is sullen, as you wipe down glasses. Trying to ignore the ache when you see him flirt. That realization that the something special you thought he had with you, might just be a part of his personality.
And when Dopinder shuffles from the back with more ice for the chiller behind the bar, it only takes one look at you before he's sighing.
"Not again. Please, I am begging you. I cannot take more of your yearning.â
Your lips quirk. Hadn't realized you'd become that obvious. He'd become your go-to, in the long hours you spend together behind the bar. Pinkie-promising not to say a word - but you always thought you'd had a decent handle on your expressions.
"We don't have to talk about it." Your hands raise, placating, "Just let me yearn in peace. I'll get over it."
"You know that almost half of what DP makes a month is funneled back in here, right?" He gives you a long look, "Before you, I saw him once a week. I had to beg him to come get his paycheck."
Doubt still lingers.
"Doesn't mean anything," You shrug - eyes dropping, as you help him restock.
"You do not think Mr. Pool worships the ground you walk on?"
The intensity of his question has you side-eying him, "I mean... I don't think he sees me that way. He acts the same with me as he does with everyone."
âSure.â He huffs, leaning against the bartop, just as Wade plunks down in the seat in front of you.
âGod, I havenât been over here in like-,â Wade checks a fake watch, âFifteen minutes? Feels like longer. Felt like a fucking hour.â
Pivoting back and forth on the stool as he adds, âIs it possible for people to get separation anxiety? Or is that just dogs? Is this how Dogpool feels when Iâm gone?â
You just manage to catch the last bit, as Dopinder slips away.
âExactly the same.â
Tonight, Wade is the first person that sits down in front of you for the game.
A frown, as you peel off your gloves - your barrier, to the outside world.
His own already bare - sliding back-and-forth over his suit-clad thighs. You'd mistake it for nerves, if you weren't so sure Wade had never been nervous in his life.
"What's your story, Wilson?" You ask, "Hope you brought something good."
"Oh, it's a whopper. A real fucking doozy. Apparently, you're not gonna believe it. " His laugh is a little too loud, and your eyes narrow, "But let's give it a whirl, okay?"
There's a flicker, behind the bar. A sideways look towards the bar, where Dopinder's hands cover his face. You don't need to touch him to read the guilt written across his features - the way he almost flinches, under your glare.
You're going to fucking kill him.
The sound of your name brings you back.
âReady to play?â
Wade's hands rest face-up on the table - an offering. For once in his life he almost looks serious, and itâs enough to bring you back.
A breath - before you align your own. Letting them drop down, skin mapping against skin for the first time.
It floods through you.
The lick of heat that almost feels like a caress. A deep yearn that causes your own heart to twinge, layering with the feeling of need. Desire. Want.
It's familiar. It mirrors something deep inside, something thatâs become as much a part of you as flesh and bone.
Oh.
A laugh slips from you, breaking the beat of silence. Relief tinged with disbelief - your smile stretching wide.
âYeah?â You breathe, softening.
âYeah.â He laughs, âThought I was being obvious. But you are pound-cake dense, apparently.â
Hands flipping over, to entwine between yours. Letting that feeling inside him linger, settling warm and comforting over your bare skin.
âBut I like that about you.â Another huff of a laugh, âLike all of you, really. Always have.â
It makes your heart ache. In a way that finally feels full, feels right - instead of the near-agony youâve been bearing for weeks.
Only you could be such an idiot.
thanks for reading! đ
#wade wilson x reader#wade wilson x you#deadpool x reader#deadpool x you#requests#avocado-writings#eupheme answers
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Hello, it's me, your teenaged sisters new adult boyfriend. I hope you don't mind, but I spent the night here. And I got up in the middle of the night to eat food and saw you had barbacoa in there so I microwaved it loud as fuck. I microwaved it so hard that the grease in there popped so loud it sounded like gunshots and scared the fuck out of the cats to the point they peeled out and left scratchmarks all up on the hardwood, climbed up the curtains and knocked the bars down, smacked against the mounted flatscreen and knocked it down off the wall which scared them more to the point they both shit while running andthen did a U turn and stepped in it and got scared because of it and jumped up onto the table and knocked all the shit you got up there offf it. And when that was done I took the little tray of barbacoa out of the now dirty nasty grease splattered microwaved and took a bite but it was gristle so I gagged and picked at it w my fork and threw away all the pieces of it with gristle in them so your 12 dollar pound got reduced to about an 12 dollar Œ of a pound serving. So yeah I had me a plate of it but it was bland so I used up all your fucking worchestershire sauce. I was standing at your open fridge with a steamy ass plate of meat in there and was all up on your fridges side drawer using up all your fucking worchestershire like a fuck ton like over half of what you had left and a little bit of A1 but it was old almost empty and crusty around the rim so I gagged into your fridge but didnt clean the rim up. Then put the empty crusty bottle back. Well by then the grease congealed back into tallow by then so it made me gag when I turned to look at it and threw it away. I want to go home. Do you mind moving your car? You parked behind me.
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missed me, missed me, now you gotta...
SUMMARY: minho wasnât grumpy, nor he was jealous. but he hasnât been the same ever since he fell in love with you.
REQUESTED! by a sweet annonie right here. pookie, your idea was lovely to write! lil grumpy minho, im melting⊠itâs a bit short, but I hope you like it! <3
CW: use of (crack) text messages to convey the plot, starring: han quokka as cupid + readerâs bsf, clingy minho as king of my heart, and ngl, type 1 diabetes fluff ahead. keep insulin shots close just in case! lol
WC: 1.1k
A/N: i love how iâm slowly turning into a minho blog/page lmaoo, only minho: the man, the myth, the legend!
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The same ringtone buzzed again during rehearsals. Its ding had sounded so many times already that it had started to get repetitive really quickly.
Minho frowned as he looked in the mirror, retouching his rolled sleeves just once more for what he secretly knew it had been more than twenty times. In the span of ten minutes. Maybe even less.
But Minho wasnât âgrumpyâ.
He so wasnât.
His day had been normal so far. He had no reason to be grumpy. Not one what-so-ever.
He had woken up in between your arms, and even if he had âcomplainedâ about it, he loved being the little spoon. And also, his cats jumped on the bed and, just for once, none of them landed on his face.
There had been just one thing.
âŠ
Well. TechïżŒïżŒnically more than one.
You had rushed outside this morning. You claimed you didnât have time to have breakfast with him, because you were late for something he didnât really get. Because of that, you hadnât come over to the JYP building with him. He had to drive over alone. And you hadnât pecked him goodbye at the entrance like always.
But he. Wasnât. Grumpy.
Not. At. All.
> sunggie: girl, did you hide his cats or smth?
< minhoâs owner: lol, wdym dude?
> sunggie: he looks like heâs going to kill me.
> sunggie: And he loves me! Wtf??
âJisung-ah.â
Han shrieked in his place in the sofa, his phone almost falling off his hands. He quickly turned it off, hoping that the grumpy dancer hadnât seen the old or new messages.
âWho were you texting?â Minho frowned, deeper this time.
âOh.â Jisung chuckled. âJust checking in on noona.â
âMy girlfriend?â The way Minho enunciated the title felt a bit possesive. Jisung eyed at him weirdly for a second. Even he felt weird himself.
Jisung nodded sheepishly, turning his phone back on but quickly opening a random app.
âYeah. I owed her a call back.â He shrugged, nonchalantly accepting that he had opened Subway Surfers, and started to play.
As the catchy music came from Hanâs phone, Minho shook his head.
Not grumpy.
Not at all.
But the thought that you had been texting Han and didnât text him âinstead of himâ did funny things in his chest.
Now, keep in mind that Minho would never describe himself as a jealous man.
He trusted you with his cats, of course he trusted you regarding your relationship. But he had barely got a hold of you all day. And Han had. By call and text. Like he was doing now.
Not grumpy.
Sure.
< minhoâs owner: you dead yet?
Jisung groaned.
> sunggie: no! you made me lose my score!
> sunggie: and I donât have any keys! ă
ă
< minhoâs owner: sucks to suck, lol
< minhoâs owner: but whatâs wrong with my future husband? did you do something?
> sunggie: heâs moody since he came in this morning.
> sunggie: you werenât here tho. smth wrong between ya?
< minhoâs owner: noâŠ? just had to run to work earlyâŠ
And then, something in Jisungâs paboracha brain connected. Probably because of how he had named your contact in his phone.
> sunggie: omg
< minhoâs owner: what?
> sunggie: that corny dumbass
> sunggie: heâs so stupid
< minhoâs owner: bitch what is it???
> sunggie: heâs moody bc u didnât come in with him today!
You hesitated. Could that be it?
< minhoâs owner: really? u think so?
> sunggie: bitch I know so!
> sunggie: imma go get boba for the boys, get your ass here and come w/ me
Jisungâs brain started to work at cupidâs speed.
< minhoâs owner: omw. be there in 5â
âGuys, Iâm gonna go get boba. Do any of you want something?â
The rest of the gang blabbered something while some kept going over the steps of the choreography and the others rested on the couch, doozing off or on their phones. Han quickly noted down everyoneâs orders, not before being squinted down by Minho. He held back a shiver.
âClingy prickâŠâ Jisung mumbled, leaving quickly.
He walked out of the JYP building, waiving and half bowing to the staff members and other artists in the building.
< minhoâs owner: just parked! ^^
Jisung entered the boba place next to the building, smiling at the cashier as he read down the orders on his note app, and stood aside, waiting for the drinks.
âHey!â You smiled widely at him, taking off your scarf, merely leaving it hanging on your shoulders. He clapped your hand, playfully slapping your back.
âWorking hard?â Jisung snickered, pointing at the bag on your other hand.
You side-eyed at him, giggling softly.
âTook some snacks before heading off.â You shrugged. âWe can sneak these in, right?â
Jisung scratched the back of his neck. âWeâll⊠come up with something.â
You both struggled carrying the drinks, teasing each other and betting whoâd make a mess first. But all giggles came to an end when the security guard stared at you.
âName and business?â He asked in a low huff.
Your body stiffened.
âSheâs my sister,â Han chimed back. You were in fact far from being his sister, but that didnât matter when the guard seemed to nod. âSheâs just helping me carry the drinks inside.â
âAnd the bag? Whatâs inside?â
You cleared your throat, smiling. âClothes for him to change once he finishes training.â You lied.
Thank God for his imagination. And for his stupid idea of shoving your scarf and his hoodie into the bag of snacks.
âOk. You may come in.â The guard smiled politely.
Only after the both of you had gotten into the elevator you allowed yourselves to let out a sight full of relief. You two then smirked, high-fiving.
âThank you, bro.â You teased in a snicker.
He cackled. âYouâre welcome, sis.â
You both laughed and joked until you reached the training room.
âThe person you dream of is back!â Han cackled.
âNoona!â Felix grinned happily.
âYeah, thatâs me!â You cackled at Jisungâs faked frown.
You smiled and greeted everyone as you entered, leaving a certain bunny boy for last.
You sat next to him on the couch, and without missing a beat, he took your legs and layed them on his lap.
You took a sip of his drink, and he stared at you, almost with a squint.
âYouâve made me jealous of fucking Han Jisung.â He stated matter-o-factly, making you practically choke on the tapioka pearls.
You coughed. âWhat?â
âYou texted him all evening. And me? Not even a good luck kiss this morning.â
âAw, are you grumpy, kitten?â You grinned teasingly, speaking only towards him in a soft tone to his ear. You pecked his cheek.
He needed more of those.
Grumpy, huh?
âYes. Very.â He mumbled, hiding his blushed and pleased grin in the crook of your neck. âNeed more kisses.â
âWell, you know how it goes.â You mumbled in a snicker. He hummed at you, waiting for you to explain.
You kissed his forehead softly, his hands stroking your thighs.
âMissed me, missed me, now you gotta kiss me.â
~Kats, who can write this in one sit, but canât figure out how chemistry works (yes have exams, why did I choose this for myself, help)
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the start of something beautiful | a lando norris social media au
pairing: lando norris x private!reader (fc: tyla)
lando is spotted with an unknown woman, and everyone thinks sheâs another fling. however, later revealed as naomi campbellâs daughter, lando's fans slowly start to love her despite her tendency to be private.
notes: btw, iâm so sorry iâve been mia for a while! honestly, i have a ton of drafts iâve written over the time i didnât post, but i lowkey hate all of them lmao. anyways, hope you enjoy this fluff :)
disclaimer: swearing. photos not mine. OLD PIC OF JAZ AND ROSS (yes itâs a warning bc iâm still mourning that relationship, and ik iâm not the only one). there are a few mistakes in the tweets that i was too lazy to fix lol. also, i hope the flow doesnât feel too rushed!
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f1gossip We received these photos of Lando and a girl today! It looks like the same girl he has been spotted with for the past 3 months, but itâs still unclear who it is. âïž
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user three months of them being pictured AND YET NONE CLEARLY CAPTURE HER FACE. thatâs some bs
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user lmaoooo i know the delulu fans are crying that sheâs still here
user Are we sure it's the same girl? Lmfao even if it is, he's probably going to get tired of her soon!
user god i hope people learn and treat her better than how they treated luisinha
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landonorris First time trying wakeboarding đ€
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user lando rlly said hereâs some shirtless pics to distract u
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f1gossip Naomi Campbell and daughter, Y/N Campbell, making an appearance at todayâs GP! It's presumed that Y/N is dating Mclaren driver, Lando Norris. Our sources in the paddock mentions that the two visited the Mercedes, Ferrari, and Mclaren garages before the race. đ
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user this actually makes sense that they knew each other since naomi has been connected to f1 for a while now
user I would be unstoppable if I looked like her.
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landoupdates Max, Lando, and Y/N (seen in second photo, far right) with fans at an after party! We received these pictures a few minutes ago, and the fan included âY/N mostly stood behind as Max and Lando were asked for photos but she was so so kind !! Although you can tell she likes to keep to herself, she told me she thought my dress was cute and even got Landoâs attention for me so I could ask for a picture đ Also, he kept holding her hand !!!â
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user her face card is insane.
user now that we know she's naomi's daughter, i can't believe we didn't see it before LOL
user âhe kept holding her handâ đđđđđ
user I have never wanted someone to go off private so bad đ©
user honestly sheâs my new fav wag
user itâs the way everyone loves her rn lmaoooo
user LANDO CAN YOU FIGHT
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f1gossip Lando, Ginge, and Ethan possibly alluding to Landoâs new relationship with Y/N in the recent Quadrant video đđ
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user not them clowning him đ
user i mean we all know by now that theyâre together but this was the cherry on top
user melting over how he couldnât stop smiling đ„č
user the fact that he kept this clip in đ©đ©
user I AM ONCE AGAIN ASKING âLANDO CAN YOU FIGHTâ
user I get it đ I also wouldnât be able to hide that Iâm dating Y/N
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landoupdates A few photos of Lando and Y/N at the paddock today âșïž
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user literally my fav couple
user when is he gonna make it officially on insta
âł user My thoughts exactly!! đđ I know not everything has to be posted, but Iâm just excited to see him officially announce it.
user my girl y/n looked so fucking good today
user i just want him to post her solely because i want more y/n pics
âł user LOL youâre so real for that
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user THE HAND PLACEMENT
user not tagging her is criminal đđ
âł user girl whatâs the point when sheâs on private
user When will it be my turn đ©
user LANDO??? OMFG
user TURN IT UP IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE đđđđđ
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I love love LOVE the writing you've done for Spencer Reid!!! I'm practically living off of it at this point. I was thinking since we All love Spencer wearing glasses, what if the roles were reversed and HE was the one getting flustered after seeing reader in glasses for the first time?
thank u!!
âWhere is she?âÂ
Spencer doesnât have to look to guess what âsheâ Morgan is wondering after. âShe texted. She woke up late.âÂ
âLate? Is that BAU approved?â Morgan asks.
âI think her phone is broken.âÂ
Emily shakes a hair tie down her hand. Morgan holds her compact mirror open for her. âSheâs not the only one running late. I swear the night gets shorter every time I fall sleep.â She wrinkles her nose, collecting her hair into one hand behind her head, wrapping her tie around in an impressive, painful looking ponytail. Morgan passes her a comb. She neatens up her bangs.Â
Spencerâs head finally lifts at the sound of your hasty entrance and following apologies, âIâm sorry, shit, oh, sorry. Iâm really sorry, Anderson, Iâll make it up to you,â you say, hidden behind Andersonâs tall stature.
âThatâs okay, L/N. Hey, whatâs with the glasses?âÂ
Spencer squints, willing Anderson to move out of the way. âItâs a long story,â you say, shuffling past Anderson to hurry to the front of the bullpen. Spencer locks onto your face,. His hands fall into his lap.Â
Youâre wearing clear-rimmed glasses with metal legs that slip down your nose the closer you get, your makeup lighter than usual, and your clothes a repeat of what you wore yesterday, though heâs probably the only person whoâd notice. He barely gives your rumpled blouse a second glance, too distracted by your hand, your fingers as you push the glasses up the bridge of your nose. âIs Hotch in yet?â you ask hopefully.Â
âHeâs been here since five,â Morgan tells you, double-taking when he spots your new accessory. âOh my god, youâre adorable.âÂ
You raise a hand between you both to hide your face from his view.Â
Spencer gets out of his chair. âI was really hoping heâd be late too,â you say, turning to Spencer with a gentle pout. âItâs like wishing to win the lottery, I guess.âÂ
Holy shit. Heâs breaking a sweat. Thereâs heat gathering at the base of his neck, worse when you push the glasses up again, your eyes shiny and wide-pupiled behind them. âYouâre wearing glasses,â Spencer says.
âOh, I know, I kept that secret, huh? My left contact got all dried up and I figured I didnât have time to mess around, so youâre forced to suffer me like this.â You put your hand bashfully under your chin, a cherub posing. âI look like an old lady.âÂ
âNo you donât.âÂ
âI do, I look aged.â You put your bag on the floor by his chair and brush your hands down your clothes. âSpencer, itâs hopeless. I look like I slept in it. Maybe my glasses are atrocious enough to distract everyone.âÂ
âTheyâre not atrocious, you look beautiful.â
He immediately breaks eye contact to stare at your shoulder. Why did I say that? he thinks. Why do I talk so much? Heat fills his cheeks in a matter of seconds, but he holds his breath rather than let it out, totally frozen.Â
Emilyâs laughing as you step forward, hand out to touch his arm. You tilt your head to one side and Jesus, he wasnât lying, you make his heart stop just looking at you. âYou think so?â you ask softly.Â
You arenât laughing. Spencer nods, a tight up and down.Â
Your lips press together in a shy smile.Â
âTheyâre both as bad as each other!â Emily whisper-shouts.Â
âWhatâs the matter, Reid, cat got your tongue?â Morgan asks.Â
You push your glasses up your nose again, still smiling to yourself, so Spencer doesnât mind his humiliation. You donât call yourself atrocious again. If anything, you glow.
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ËâșïœĄËâËwritten in the stars | DR3ËâșïœĄËâË
pairing: daniel ricciardo x fem y/n reader (she/her)
genre: social media au
warnings: age gap!!
summary: in which you both meet after break ups and mend each other, or in which the world focuses on the wrong things about your relationship
a/n: kind of an old request i never got round to but i fear i need to break up all the charles reqs with some daniel đ hope u enjoy LOL
request!!!: can i req daniel ricciardo age gap fanfic pls plssss
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user15 wtf how did u find this
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user17 SHE'S 22 YRS OLD???
user18 wowwww so young happy birthday i guess
user19 daniel is dating a 22 yr old...?
user20 kind of weird no
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f1gossip daniel ricciardo spotted with rumoured new partner 22 year old y/n y/l/n. the two have sparked controversy recently due to their large age gap.
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user31 oh so they are dating.....
user32 who even cares abt their age gap as long as they're happy!!!
user33 frrrr they're both adults soo?
user34 right and they obviously just met recently
user35 im jus glad to see daniel moving on from heidi
user36 i kind of love them together
user37 we should just leave them alone
user38 agree it's literally none of our business
user39 sooo cute he's whipped for her i fear
user40 i love them ... LOL
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user48 SOOO cute i love that they went thru break ups together
user49 they were meant to be
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