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[punkrastination]

Lonely fag yells at antifa to step up their anti ableism and wear a damn mask. My contribution to PD La revue N° 7

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Antifa [soulève -untranslatable, play on the word which means both rise up and fuck] me

Historically more keen on political ardor than passion, from half a life of painstakingly performing femininity, and social anxiety only extinguished by the fire of rebellion, I came to anti fascism before coming to faggotery. Anti-ableism and the fight against rising eugenics in late stage capitalism followed this commitment naturally. My desire to form relationships with people who shared these values became a core part of my identity.

Because I know I will never fuck a fash, I will never get naked in front of a boss, will never put my heart in the hands of a cop. Why would it be any different with a cute left wing boy, unbothered with aligning himself with a rhetoric, practices and a general indifference worthy of the far right when it comes to COVID?

For some time I attempted the endeavor of the encounter. However I found myself helpless when confronted with the task of explaining to left wing people (often claiming to be antifascists) that it is important to avoid disabling your comrades (among others), and risking killing some of them, by not protecting yourself from a virus that promises exactly that. So I am left with solitude. Invisible in my masked visibility, the looks go right through me or worse, I find in them the familiar judgement, half badly hidden, that us deviants are used to receiving from unnerved heterocis eyes.

Activist solitude, which pushes me away from antifascism despite myself, because some are antifa only when it's easy, when it doesn't require you to shift your habits or make sacrifices. It stings to be deprived of community when we know how important it is in our lives on the margins, even more so in a period of rising fascism, massive instability, growing violence and exclusion. Even those who make some efforts on the subject do it begrudgingly, garbage accessibility that doesn't hold up more than 5 minutes, and that isn't conducive to meeting anyone I would be inclined to kiss.

Interpersonal solitude then, since neither activist spaces nor social gathering places are safe, and the people who frequent them live in a world where risks only concerns other people, vaguely ascertained as fragile, who can well stay home if they want to protect themselves.

So having barely stepped into the intimacy game, I see my options, already limited by my being trans, be obliterated by my values and my yearning for safety. After years of hesitation, I am finally on solid footing, ready for the experiences I was promised: community, solidarity, connection… They slip between my fingers like the years already gone. Meanwhile they all close their eyes, decide that the roulette is worth it, that I remind them too much of that reality they don't want, that a thousand times over they will take the risk over me, my masks, my tests, my vaccines and my figures, my fears, my hopes, my rage, my sour desire.

I wonder how things were at the very beginning of AIDS. I think of the Cassandras of the time, fighting against the state's deathly silence, and their peers who would say We can hardly just stop living. Hardly. To think you need to breathe to get it on. So you'd expect something else from faggots, used as they are to the government's minimizing lies about epidemics. But even grassroot community health groups are spineless or fully absent when it comes to covid. I look for solidarity in the crowds but no eyes meet mine. What antifa, mask clad when it comes to protests, will take my hand?

I'm left with hope in the fight, from my brethren in [autodéfense sanitaire, untranslated: grassroot covid arm reduction movement]: fags, trannies and crips held together with tape, rage and true solidarity. A minuscule grain of sand in the cogs of the neoliberal individualism eating up our communities.

Antifa fags who are ready to challenge the capitalist poison haunting every breath we take, join us.

[cubbyhole-for-flea-bee]

Once the theatre monkey discovers angsty broadway musicals its all over y'all

or: I got a new personal project I'm workin' on! I'm at the first pass on the animatic rn! I forgot that 'generate matte' is a thing you can do in SB Pro for a whole hour!! I'm suffering!!!

[kk1smet]

food for thought this friday: international quidditch star/captain/seeker hjp ;)

[khattikeri]

one of my favorite things about mdzs is that for how heavily its plot involves politics of classism and misogyny... even the characters most directly impacted by it can't and don't free themselves from it. literally the closest exception is mianmian.

meng yao being the "son of a whore" wasn't some sort of commie awakening for him that led him to wanting everyone to be socially equal. he played the political game, climbed the ladders, sucked up to and backstabbed and murdered people, including other prostitutes who actually had nothing to do with how he and his mother were treated at the brothel he grew up in.

he put in so much extra excessive effort for even a fraction of the same respect that members of gentry cultivation clans got. and he did deserve to be treated more humanely! but he feeds into the exact same system that created him, leading to his own undoing.

his efforts were for a fragile upward mobility that was never going to hold up. he never surpassed his origins nor did he empower others in similar stations, because the society he lives in is not one that would accept that.

the second he got caught and all those crimes exposed, he was scapegoated to hell and back, replacing wei wuxian as society's terrible one-sidedly evil boogeyman overnight.

speaking of not-quite male gentry, i think it's interesting that wei wuxian explicitly doesn't try to climb the ladders in BOTH lives, knowing full well that anything he does will be punished just for the sheer fact that he is wei wuxian.

wei wuxian is scolded for giving intelligent and correct answers in school. lan wangji does the same and is praised.

wei wuxian occasionally lounges around with fellow disciples and is punished. jiang cheng does the same and mostly escapes.

wei wuxian refuses to carry his sword around in public (after losing his golden core, which nobody knows) and is scorned as an arrogant upstart. nie huaisang has been doing the EXACT SAME THING for YEARS and nobody bats an eye.

unlike jin guangyao, wei wuxian knew subconsciously from the start that his acceptance was superficial and that he could be cast out any time. when he was 10 and recently taken in by the jiangs, he canonically would not eat or use "too much" food and water because he thought they'd find him a nuisance for "wasting their things" and kick him back out.

now away from just the classism, yu ziyuan is a proud and strong noblewoman in a society that belittles and derides women for everything they do. her strong cultivation doesn't matter. she's victim to the vicious rumors of her husband loving another woman who is strong like her but apparently had a more likeable personality.

it doesn't matter even if jiang fengmian didn't cheat or that wei wuxian is wei changze's son with cangse sanren; yu ziyuan can't bear with the humiliation of herself (and by extension her children) not being "good enough". she's ridiculed for "failing" in that one duty as a wife, mother, and woman.

she lashes out and takes out that anger on everyone present for years, giving her children lasting trauma and also being a key element in how the jiang family and yunmeng jiang sect are effectively wiped out at the hands of the wen clan.

madam jin doesn't even have a name outside of the fact that she's married to jin guangshan. i don't even remember reading anything that indicates if she's a strong or weak cultivator, or what, which in itself proves that to most people, it doesn't matter. she's "just" a woman.

of course she's angry at her husband's affairs and all the bastard children they bring in. but she also can't do anything about them, so she lashes out at the few people she can: servants. non-cultivators, probably. those very same bastard children.

shoutout to meng yao getting shoved down a flight of stairs at age fourteen, because if madam jin tried that move against her husband instead, it would make her lose even more face, which as a noblewoman she'd never do.

and that's not getting into how jiang yanli is consistently sidelined for being physically weak.

that's not getting into how mianmian was actually a good cultivator, but was mocked by everyone around her for trying to stand up for wei wuxian when everyone was turning on him. how everyone scoffed at luo qingyang's words as "just some lovesick woman" who "obviously wants to marry or bed him since he saved her".

luo qingyang is the only one of these characters who HASN'T died. she didn't play society's games like jin guangyao. she didn't dig her heels in confidence of her own abilities like wei wuxian.

she didn't bitterly lash out like yu ziyuan and madam jin. she didn't gently accept it like jiang yanli.

she just LEFT.

she married an ordinary merchant and cultivates separately from mainstream cultivation society, and therein found her own peace and happiness.

mxtx doesn't bother with particularly class conscious or feminist vocabulary to hand-hold readers into understanding these disparities, but that choice highlights them & the deeply entrenched politics of their society even more. i really love it.

[shanalikeanna]

"....What have you done?" Fic (Bad Ending) Author: @pluck-heartstrings Read the full fic here I'm BEGGING YOU it's really good I promise TW:Blood under the cut

[uhohbestie]

I wanted to do this while the new year is still sorta new! My 2024 MCYT fanart year in review <3

I love drawing MCYT fanart, I love writing MCYT fanfic. I love these characters and this fandom, and most of all I love that I get to do it all with my bestie Key, who I share this fandom and this space and everything I draw with <3 -🔒

[voidcreations]

A little video editing thing I made as practice.

The song is ▲◻X⬤♡☆◻⬤ by @lacecap,

DECT is by @mothcpu

I couldn’t figure out how to crop the video easily for the life of me I did NOT mean for there to be so much white space sorry!

In the original lyrics the ‘duet’ part is a bit different as I swapped around the lyrics a little at the last second. I felt it fit the characters better, I don’t really imagine mirage would refer to herself as dead. I also thought about hell and what that line could mean in this context but decided to leave it up to you guys to interpret as you wish :)

The binary doesn’t really translate to anything but I really liked the idea of it when listening to the notes playing as the shapes show up in the original video. Made me think of the binary part in 'little austronaut’ by Aku P. Mirage starts out with a 1 as she’s more positive and settled in to her situation while V2 is fresh from hell, having no strong emotions either way at the start.

[lighthouseshepard]

here's a shorter chapter before the one i initially intended to write next c: thank you for reading!

[silverlininghills]

so ive had this project ive been working on for over a year now, where ive been doing a textual analysis of everything the band has put out (songs, music videos, live shows, interviews, social media) in order to find connections and otherwise just like. Understand the narrative they've been telling for the past X years

and originally i wanted to try to get it out in some form before clancy came out, so that i cld like. idk ~predict~ what wld happen in it? for cool points or smth? idk man

but anyway i obviously didnt achieve that goal and now that a) clancy's out and b) we know it's not the end, i still wanna release this analysis, but i just feel like i shld wait, yknow? like wait until the narrative is complete and then go back over everything. its like i dont wanna complete a puzzle until i know i have all the pieces. and we're still, very obviously, missing pieces.

so anyway i guess i just wanted to ask like. is that smth ppl wld be interested in? like it wld be long as fuck, spread across many posts (and maybe even videos??? idk some of this wld be easier to show/explain in video form). i always get the like, imposter syndrome feeling like i have nothing new to add bc im such a new clikkie, like everything interesting or worthwhile has been said already. and i know intellectually that that's not true, but i cant help but feel that way emotionally.

basically what im asking is, is it worth it for me to construct this whole big Thing to explain my interpretation/analysis of the text, from NPI to clancy (and beyond)? wld ppl wanna read it? pls convince my emotional brain that what i have to say is interesting to literally anyone else skdjlkdsjf

[cubtales]

omg i keep forgetting to send u the pic but !!!!

heres my clow book + the bird wand necklace >:]] the cards are BIG BIG and it has all the cards + ones that appeared in the movie too !! except clear card and sakura card, theyre their own book ><

SCREAMSMSMSMSMSMSM google mapping myself to ur location because OMGOSH THEY LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL NICK EPEPEPE !!3!: cardcaptor sakura? nope cardcaptor nick starring me as kero ୧(๑•̀ɜ•́๑)૭ THANK U FOR SHOWING ME HEHE

[whatsthebestanimeop]

What's the Best Bleach OP? Round 2

.･ﾟﾟ･(／ω＼)･ﾟﾟ･. Feeling overwhelmed with the massive support for this tourney, what a special way to kick off this blog. I am super thankful for everyone that's shared and reblogged any of these polls. I love you all! Round 1 bought surprises (no Aqua Timez to Round 2?!) and fierce support for underdogs (I read every tag and agreed many times bc I too am a fan of the underdogs! My heart especially goes out to Tonight Tonight Tonight 💔)

Round 2 will consist of 4 matches. One poll will drop daily. At the same time, I'll also be running loser's matches. For Round 2 this is simple, the loser's in each bracket will face off! These will also drop daily - so each day you'll be served a delicious Naruto Shippuden poll and a bountiful two Bleach polls 🥐 Match-ups here:

Each poll lasts a week so expect Round 3, the Semi-Finals, to commence next weekend!!

Other Poll Updates

T2 Best Naruto OP: Results for R1 will start coming in tomorrow. As all results will be final once all voting matches of R2 of T1 will have dropped, R2 of T2 will start to pick up this gap this weekend.

T3 Best Shippuden OP: Continues as is - one poll dropping daily.

Bonus: How y'all look devouring/voting on these tasty polls!

[librarydilf]

with extraordinary predictability, these are two of my favorite lines

[khattikeri]

maybe a controversial opinion but while i really love jiang cheng as a character he is deeply self-centered as a person. and seeing people fight tooth and nail claiming he isn't, or is just misunderstood, or that he has genuine valid reasons to be selfish when plenty of other characters make the difficult choice to forego status and opportunities for what they believe is genuinely right to do (read: wei wuxian, wen ning, wen qing, lan wangji, jiang yanli, mianmian, etc.)

it's just odd to me. especially if they're talking about the novels.

mxtx didn't give jiang cheng the name "sandu shengshou" as a quirky coincidence. there's a REASON she named him & his sword after the 3 poisons of Buddhism (specifically ignorance, greed, and hatred). it's crucial to the story that jiang cheng is NOT selfless and that wei wuxian IS.

it's important to accept that wei wuxian is, by their society's standards, not morally gray; he represents several Buddhist ideals in direct contrast of jiang cheng and multiple people attest to wei wuxian's strong moral character, which is a lot of why jiang cheng even feels bitter about him to begin with.

it's crucial, because by the end of the novel jiang cheng realizes the extent of this and begins to let go!

the twin prides thing wasn't jiang cheng wanting them to 100% mirror the twin jades. he does care about wei wuxian, but he wanted wei wuxian to stay his right hand man, in part the way wei changze was for jiang fengmian.

and if there's one thing you can notice about wei changze in the novels, it's that literally nobody talks about him. he is only ever mentioned when his cool mysterious mountain sect wife cangse-sanren is mentioned, or (even more rarely) when they discuss him as a servant to jiang fengmian. regardless of jiang fengmian's own feelings, wei changze was considered lesser to him and didn't seem to outdo him, since nobody's out there years later still waxing poetry about wei changze's skills.

it may not be the only thing jiang cheng wants out of a twin pride dynamic, but it is a big part of it. regardless of his parents' intentions in taking wei wuxian in and treating him certain ways, this twin pride right-hand man thing is what jiang cheng has felt owed since childhood. he gave up his dogs for wei wuxian, people gossip about his sect heir position with wei wuxian there... jiang cheng wants the reciprocation of what he views as personal sacrifices.

he is ignorant to the depth of what wei wuxian must've suffered for over 6 years as a malnourished orphan child on the streets. he hates how wei wuxian's intelligence, witty charm, and cultivation abilities are naturally stronger than his own. he does care about wei wuxian a lot and want them to be together as sort of-brothers, sort of-friends, sort of-young master and sect servant...

...but if it's between that unclear (yet still caring) relationship and being able to save himself just a little bit more, jiang cheng nearly always manages to clam up in the face of danger and choose the latter, which ultimately benefits himself most. maybe it's a stretch to call that sort of thing greed, but it certainly isn't selfless.

there are of course plenty of justifications for this. it's his duty as sect heir. his home and sect was severely damaged by the wen attack and subsequent war; he had to protect himself, etc.

but doesn't that prove the point?

wei wuxian may be charming, but in terms of pure social standing, he is lower and far more susceptible to being punished or placed in harm's way by people who have more power and money. to protect wei wuxian, yunmeng jiang's long-term head disciple and semi-family member, even in the face of backlash and public scrutiny would've been the selfless thing to do. this is what wei wuxian does for the wen remnants in the burial mounds.

jiang cheng does not choose this. it's not even an unreasonable choice for him to make! nobody else in the great clans is doing such a thing, stepping out of line to take on a burden that could weaken them in the long-run. wei wuxian himself doesn't hate jiang cheng for it; he lets go of these things and focuses on what good he can do in the present.

jiang cheng thinks further into the future - what would happen to him if he continued vouching for wei wuxian and taking his side? what about jiang cheng's face, his sect's face? would wei wuxian even care to reciprocate somehow? everyone expects him to cut off wei wuxian for being dangerous, for threatening his position, for...

do you see what i mean? to call jiang cheng selfless for falling in line with exactly what people expected him to do after the war is not only wrong, it's foolish.

"but they faked their falling-out!" okay. why fake it to begin with, except to protect jiang cheng and the jiang sect's own face? is that selfless? who does it ultimately serve to protect? wei wuxian canonically internalizes the idea that he stains all that he touches, including lan wangji, and agrees to the fake fight because he doesn't want to cause the jiang sect harm. regardless, it eventually slides into a true falling-out, and in the end jiang cheng is more or less unscathed reputation-wise while wei wuxian falls.

that isn't selfless. it's many things! it's respecting his clan and his ancestors, it's making a good plan for the future of his sect and cultivation... but it isn't a truly selfless in the interest of what's right rather than in the interest of duty and what's good for him and his family lineage.

that brings me to my next point: even though wei wuxian hid the truth of the golden core transfer, jiang cheng spent nearly 20 years believing that the golden core "renewal" he was given was a birthright gift of wei wuxian's from baoshan-sanren, an immortal sect teacher of wei wuxian's mother's and a martial elder to wei wuxian.

of course we all know that's a big fat lie, but jiang cheng believed that wei wuxian gave up a critical emergency use gift to him for decades! he was lied to, yes, but jiang cheng immediately agreed without even needing to be convinced. the light in his dead eyes came back with hope the moment wei wuxian even said baoshan-sanren's name. he accepted wei wuxian's offer to give that up to him and take it via identity theft without missing a beat.

with how mysterious and revered baoshan-sanren is, that's obviously not a light sacrifice to just give up to anyone, no matter how close they might be to you. pretending to be wei wuxian to take the gift could even be considered dangerous. what if she found out and got offended? could wei wuxian be hurt by that?

jiang cheng doesn't even hesitate. wei wuxian is the one who mentions that if jiang cheng doesn't pretend to be him, the immortal master could get angry and they'd both be goners. and funnily enough, the day they do go to "the mountain", jiang cheng is the one worried and suspiciously wondering if wei wuxian was lying to him or had misremembered.

of course they've both been traumatized like hell prior to this point. but still: it speaks to how broken he was at the moment as well as to his character overall.

i digress: jiang cheng "gets his golden core back" via what he believed was a gift that should've been wei wuxian's to use in serious emergencies. rather than use it for himself, wei wuxian risked his own safety and gave it to jiang cheng... and jiang cheng still ends up embittered and angry, believing that wei wuxian is arrogant and selfish.

if he truly views them as 100% brothers and equals with no caveats, why would he think that way? it's not like he needs to grovel before wei wuxian for doing that, or to reciprocate... but this is what i mean when i say jiang cheng feels he is owed things by wei wuxian. wei wuxian's actions hold a very different weight in jiang cheng's mind, and jiang cheng himself doesn't ever act the same way, except once.

is it wrong for him to feel like he is owed something? it depends. many asian cultures, including my own, feel that a person owes their family in ways that may not make sense to westerners. for example, it's considered normal for a child to owe their parents for giving birth to them, or to other caretakers for feeding, clothing, sheltering, educating them, etc.

however, something like verbally saying "thank you" or "i'm sorry" to family is considered crazy- why would you owe that? you're supposed to inconvenience your family; saying thank you or sorry is the sort of thing you say to a stranger or acquaintance. i get half-seriously lectured by my elders on this a lot even now, even though they know such phrases are just considered good manners in the US.

this muddies up the idea of wei wuxian being jiang cheng's family vs his family's charge or servant even more. jiang cheng wants wei wuxian to be close... but ultimately doesn't really choose to use what power he DOES have to protect wei wuxian. he considers himself still owed something that in his mind wei wuxian flagrantly never repays.

this isn't even getting into how despite spending a majority of his time with the yiling patriarch he never once noticed that wei wuxian stopped using any spiritual power-based cultivation. even lan wangji, who met them far more rarely, realized that something was wrong and that wei wuxian had taken some sort of spiritual damage, hence the "come with me to gusu".

of course manpain is fun and i'm not immune to the juicy idea of them reconciling and talking things out... but jiang cheng is deeply mired in his own desire to be "above" wei wuxian in multiple ways, and doesn't realize the extent of wei wuxian's actions, the intentions behind them, and the consequences wei wuxian knowingly faced for them.

to not recognize this about jiang cheng, especially in the novels, is really revisionist if you ask me. i reiterate that i really do like him a lot. he's flawed, angry, traumatized and has poor coping mechanisms, an overall fascinating character... but he is not selfless nor ideal, and i seriously draw the line at people saying he is.

wen ning shoves this all into his face at lotus pier to disastrous results. it is the reason why jiang cheng's a total mess at guanyin temple, and the reason jiang cheng ultimately doesn't tell wei wuxian about the fact that he ran towards the wens on purpose.

for that one last act of his to have really been selfless, he needs to not seek anything in return. he did it purely because it was right to do to protect someone else. if that means wei wuxian never finds out about it, so be it.

that moment that ended up causing jiang cheng irreversible harm is not a debt that wei wuxian owes him. it hurts, but no matter how bitter it is, that realization is so important to him changing in the future.

[esmes]

someday i will share my lovett/sweenett playlists bc i have curated them with an absurd amount of tender love and care, but for now i really just need y'all to listen to "siren song" by bat for lashes and tell me it's not such a revival!nellie lovett song

[bunnyboy-juice]

uwu

[pubbee]

OH NVM it's gonna be Taash that everyone is gonna hate huh lmao