#if this ain't how it's gonna go I have no clue lol

[yuseirra]

星は砕け光る

He thought Ai and him were "the same." That's the opposite of worshiping her as an idol.

I believe Ai and Hikaru did love each other as a human being, the happiness Ai wanted to seek as a human(ch9) certainly had him in it.

[omegaverse-seeker]

I have no clue if someone has ever asked this before, but do you have any headcannons for repressed Omegas? Like, literally anything on how they would react, because that trope is just *chefs kiss* to me. It can stand for some many things and I am absolutley feral about this :)

Honestly, I don't know where to even start. I'll just give you some random headcanons. I ain't gonna lie, I'm not really fond of this headcanon. Not because it's not interesting, it's just cause it usually stems from the fact that the Omega has been traumatized.

Nesting isn't natural to them. When they go into heat or are pregnant, they are mostly in bed or on the couch. They are anxious though, mostly because they need to nest but don't know how.

They don't scent. This also causes them to have a fever. If they can't release certain phermones, they'll get sick for bottling it up.

They probably avoid other Omegas. It's not they hate them or don't want to be around them, they just feel lost around them.

I can see them going mute if they struggle with making their regular crooning or purring noises.

They are actually almost about to go feral.

So, I don't know what else to add. Lol. If anyone with a bigger brian than I, please feel free to share!

[amberjazmyn]

we ain't angry at you love, we'll be waiting for you love🥺🫶💔

pairing : f1 grid x platonic singer fem!reader, horner fem!reader

summary : daughter to red bull's christian horner, best friend to the grid, a singer and now an american college student that releases a song with noah kahan 'you're gonna go far' before she leaves. this chronicals the song, her leaving for college as well as everything else including her warm return back to everyone again.

warnings : a little bit of angst, fluff, comfort, noah kahan lol, a swear word, most of the grid (dramatically) missing reader

a/n : don't ask me how i thought up of this because i have no fucking clue but because i adore the thought of writing a singer!reader, this is what i came up with lol. also, obviously, geri is reader's step-mum but their relationship is basically the same as a biological mother and daughter

a/n 2: y.n is your name, n.n is nickname, your bff is your best friend forever and your ex bff is obviously ur ex bff

fc : my face claim is a mixture of olivia rodrigo and pinterest girlies because wtfn

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y.nhorner met noah kahan and may have written a cheeky (soppy) song with him, double thumbs up from father horner and study notes because ya girl doesn't stop the grind now that colleges applications are opening!

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christianhorner i'm so proud of you darling girl, and like mumma always says, you're gonna go far! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner christianhorner thank you daddio! i love you forever

gerihalliwellhorner you are a superstar y.n! i love you so much baby liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner gerihalliwellhorner thank you mumma, i love you so much more

maxverstappen1 how are your notes so perfect wtf liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner maxverstappen1 because i actually want to finish school and get into my dream college and i put in effort??

redbullracing not only is she the princess of red bull but she is a singing queen as well as an academic queen as well! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner redbullracing ily rbr admin <3

charlesleclerc you're releasing a new single??? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner charlesleclerc did i say that???

yourbff i still cannot believe you met noah kahan without me, you lil snitch... liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner yourbff last time i asked if you wanted to listen to him in the car you said no???

otherbff yourbff y.nhorner go off queen, you tell her bestie! liked by y.nhorner

landonorris if you've written a song with noah kahan, i just know it'll be fantastic and very emosh! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner landonorris thank you lanny! love you boo

username hold up, please tell me whatever you've written with noah that you'll release it and soon!!! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner username i have written a song with noah like mentioned in my caption but i cannot disclose whether or not it's gonna be released just yet i'm sorry but do keep your eyes peeled though <3

danielricciardo oh i just know you are slaying right now! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner danielricciardo thank you danny ric! you too are slaying right now

oscarpiastri i have WAITED for you to release new music so i really hope whatever you've written with noah gets released!!! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner oscarpiastri don't worry oscy, you'll know soon i promise!

username the way y.n likes and replies to each comment, i love her your honour! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner username you guys are the reason why i'm here so it's only fair i respond to as many as i can! and i love you too <3

it made y.n horner laugh a little after posting that sneaky post. it was very true that whilst she had met noah kahan that they had indeed written a song together. it was a song that noah had already started to write ages ago but suddenly got stuck when he lost inspiration and just trashed it. that was though, until he met y.n horner, and she told him that she was trying to write a song about how her family felt about letting her go so she could study in america after they had let her travel around the world with them for formula one. showing noah the text messages between her, her dad and her mum, it was clear to noah that the song he had trashed was basically the exact same song that y.n was wanting to write. so, what they decided to do was to mash the songs together, finish writing it and collab together on the song as well as letting noah have his own solo version of the song. and y.n loved it so much and so did noah that they knew that they just had to release it. but, obviously, they couldn't do it straight away so they started to create some mystery around it.

that was until she could no longer keep it a secret so she started to slowly release more details after watching noah do the same on his socials.

y.nhorner posted to her instagram story

[caption 1: missed me guys? well, this is where i've been so keep your eyes peeled my loves, the 'thing' is coming soonnnn💌 caption 2: tb to my first ever show! been missing it since all i've been doing is picking and choosing which colleges to attend in america]

gerihalliwellhorner replied to y.nhorner's story i'm excited my love! is it a single or an album?

y.nhorner thanks mumma, i'm excited too and it's a single but sadly that's all i can tell you at this moment but you'll love it and so will daddio!

gerihalliwellhorner the single you subtly posted ages ago with noah? well i'm very excited now and i cannot wait to hear it🤍!

y.nhorner thank youu, i'm so excited as well! and yes, the single with noah, i cannot wait for everyone to hear it either!

maxverstappen1 replied to y.nhorner's story is this the single that i think it is and that being the reason why you were showing me messages between you, christian and geri???

y.nhorner if i say yes, can you keep it a secret???

maxverstappen1 i can i can i can i can! omg i love you so much y.n!!!

y.nhorner hehe, i love you too maxie!

landonorris replied to y.nhorner's story omg is this the single that you referenced in your last insta post???

y.nhorner maybeee

landonorris fuck, does that mean it'll make me cry???

y.nhorner probablyyy

carlossainz55 replied to y.nhorner's story new song? since when, what is going on in the house of commons???

y.nhorner firstly, what do you think i was revealing in my last post and secondly, please never say that again and don't tell me it was lando who taught you how to say that for the love of god!

carlossainz55 honestly, i don't know, i just thought you were being sneaky like you were last time you announced a single! and i'm sorry, i won't say it again but would you believe me if i told you it wasn't lando but one of your fans???

y.nhorner i'm only joking with you carlitos, i know you've been waiting forever for a new single and so have i so me and noah are trying to release it asap! and, honestly, yeah, i would believe you if you said it was one of my fans. and for that, i apologise that they taught you that and blamed it on lando!

it was after releasing these instagram stories that noah rung up y.n to let her know that they had been given permission by their shared record label to release the song. and that they were releasing the song that very day! it was an exciting moment and she had only just posted those two stories so, now she had to post so many more stories and instagram posts about the release of the new single, it's name as well as the meaning of the song.

y.nhorner posted to her instagram story

[caption 1: releasing tonight is me and noah kahan's newest single titled 'you're gonna go far' and we are so excited and blessed to finally be able to let you all finally hear it after trying to keep it a secret💌 caption 2: not only do i feature on noah's song on his newest album 'forever' but he also has his own solo version that is on this new album along with the duet of the song as well so you get two versions of the same song! enjoy my lovelies!]

y.nhorner posted to her instagram story

[caption 1: for my nosy lovelies, this was one of the first inspirations for 'you're gonna go far' that i shared with noah. there was more to the messages than just this one between me and my mum obvi but this is where this part of the chorus 'we ain't angry at you love, you're the greatest thing we've lost' comes from as does the rest of that entire verse💌. caption 2: then this is some of the other inspo for yggf comes from. it was more than just this convo but obviously this was where the title of the song and the main hook comes from. and yes, i did joke to dad that one day these messages between me, himself & mum would be written into a song one day lol💌.]

landonorris replied to y.nhorner's story omg i cannot stop listening to the song! it's gorgeous and yes before you even ASK it made me cry! i don't want you to leave for college in hawaii!!!

y.nhorner aw lando, i'm sorry! i really was hoping it wouldn't make you cry! and i know and i'm sorry but it's my dream college but i was still just as shocked as everyone else when they accepted me!

landonorris i can still visit you though when you are at college right?

y.nhorner of course you can lando! dad has allowed all of the grid, if they please, to visit me whenever they want with permission from the other team principals!

carlossainz55 replied to y.nhorner's story the song is making me cry so much more now that i know it's context in relation to these messages! please don't leave meee, my heart is forever broken now!

y.nhorner i'm so sorry carlos, i hope you're not crying as much as lando is! and i don't wanna leave either but i have too!

carlossainz55 of course i'm not crying as much as lando is! but i'm still upset, don't have too much fun without us!

y.nhorner aw carlos! i promise you, you will get to visit and i won't be able to have any fun cause you guys won't be there with me!

maxverstappen1 replied to y.nhorner's story whilst i wish i didn't hear the song and these messages before everyone else i'm glad i did because no one could see my tears but now you releasing the text messages are even worse because they'll all know and i'll be exposed!

y.nhorner i'm sorry maxie! but noah suggested it since he was sharing messages between him and i to his socials so i decided it would be a cute backstory to share with everyone! but trust, no one will know that you were the first one to hear the song and to see the messages!

maxverstappen1 i'm totally messing but genuinely, i am so proud of you and this song that you've created and released with noah. it's beautiful and it's truly gonna be very relatable to everyone who hears it. as much as i wish this song wasn't written because of you moving to america for the next few years for college, i am so thankful it was and i am so glad i got to be privileged enough to know about it first. you're gonna go far, y.n and i cannot wait to see how far you actually go, whether that's here in england or in america. i love you endlessly, and thank you for being my best friend during my time under your dad's realm of red bull racing 💌

y.nhorner oh, maxie! that is so sweet of you and now i'm gonna start crying! i'm absolutely scared to move to america for college but i truly believe i'm going to do great things. as much as it scares me, i know that i'll always have you and the rest of the grid supporting me every step of the way. dad and the rest of the tp's giving you guys permission to visit me whenever you feel like you need to! i love you just as endlessly and i won't accept your thank you for being your best friend because there is nothing at all you need to thank me for since it's also been an honour to have you as my best friend💌

logansargeant has replied to y.nhorner's story this is so sweet y.n! the song is beautiful and might have made me a little teary eyed especially knowing why you created the song. also, what made you choose america as a place to study? i know i'm always so patriotic but, why the u.s?

y.nhorner aw, thank you logie! and honestly, i chose america because i've been all around the world but the one place i felt safest was hawaii. and i just knew i had to try my luck and see if i could apply and have it work and it did! but don't worry, like i've told carlos, lando, max and now you, your tp's have all given you guys permission to come and visit me whenever you feel like you need to!

logansargeant that's cute and i'm glad you felt safe enough in hawaii because i know that not everywhere in america is especially safe! and also congrats for even getting into college in hawaii as i've heard it's usually quite hard! and, i'm so glad you've mentioned we can visit you because you best believe i'll be the one helping you move into your dorm room!

y.nhorner you're so sweet logie and i'm glad as well otherwise if i didn't feel safe in hawaii, queensland australia would have been my second choice! and ikr, i was godsmacked that they had approved of my application for hawaii pacific in honolulu! and i'll hold you too that logie, now that you've said it, you will be helping me move into the dorm!

oscarpiastri has replied to y.nhorner's story i'm so proud of you y.n! and these messages are heartbreaking but also so sweet and tender! i know logan's already mentioned it probably but now that you've gotten into hawaii pacific, him and i are helping you move into your dorms because i know for a fact that all the team principals have given us permission to visit you when we need it!

y.nhorner aw oscy, you are so cute and took everything i was gonna tell you out of my mouth! and thank you and yes, logan has put it out into the universe that he is gonna help me move in but didn't mention you but i'm sure he meant to!

oscarpiastri he didn't mention me??? now i'm gonna cry more

y.nhorner no, he didn't oscy but it's fine cause it's been mentioned now and i'm very thankful that the two of you are gonna help me! so please don't cry more!

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y.nhorner has posted to her instagram story

[caption 1: look at these two little lovelies (+ kelly) who wanted to see me off before their flight back to monaco and before my flight to hawaii! miss you guys already💌. caption 2: charles keeping me company but not even looking at me for the photo at the airport sitting on my very huge suitcase before he sees me off to hawaii 💌. caption 3: and yes, lando was there to see me off alongside charles as was carlos and like charles, lando was not looking at me for the photo either. and. fyi, carlos hid himself magnificently every single time he saw my iphone come out of my pocket lol so sadly there is no photo of him this time. miss you guys so much it's actually insane but i promise i'll see you all soon💌]

maxverstappen1 has replied to y.nhorner's story i hope you know that as soon as penelope and i both got onto my private jet back to monaco that we both burst into tears, poor kelly didn't know how to react! leaving you to go to hawaii for four years is devastating me!

y.nhorner aw, maxie! i miss you, kelly and p insanely! but i do promise you'll see me soon!

maxverstappen1 have fun and stay safe!

y.nhorner i will, i promise! both mum and dad have said the same speech as you!

maxverstappen1 i wasn't going to give you the same speech but i'm glad you understand!

charlesleclerc has replied to y.nhorner's story the only reason why i never looked up at you during every photo you took of me was because i knew that if i made eye contact with you, i would have legitmately started crying and i wanted to be out of the airport and inside my car before my eyes even started to feel as though they were tearing up!

y.nhorner awe charlie, i'm sorry i was making you cry! i miss you as well but did you cry in the car after you guys waved me off onto the plane?

charlesleclerc it's fine n.n, it wasn't your fault, i was gonna cry regardless and i'm just proud that it didn't happen in the airport or when you were around! and yes, i did cry in the car, the entire way home to the point that carlos was scared i was gonna crash the car with me, him and lando in it sooo yeah.

y.nhorner omg charlie, who wasn't crying in that car on the way home from the airport cause there is no way you weren't the only one!

charlesleclerc at individual points, it was all of us but by the time we reached the car to go back home it was just me that was still crying so it was carlos that took over after he asked me to pull over on the side of the road

landonorris has replied to y.nhorner's story and yes, i did cry the minute you left me, carlos and charles! charles and carlos also crying but i'm sure you knew that cause i'm sure both charles and carlos has already told you that too!

y.nhorner i love you lando and i am so sorry that i made all of you guys cry (max and penelope included) but i promise the tears won't last too long!

landonorris THE TEARS WON'T LAST TOO LONG?? FOUR YEARS IS TOO FUCKING LONG N.N!

y.nhorner is it still too early to say that it's too much for little lando norris then?

landonorris YES IT IS AND NOW I'M CRYING AGAIN BECAUSE IT IS TOO MUCH FOR LITTLE LANDO NORRIS!

carlossainz55 has replied to y.nhorner's story how dare you expose me for not wanting to be in any photos whilst i was actively GRIEVING THE LOSS OF YOU FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS! my heart was shattered, and there was no way i was letting you take photos of it happening!

y.nhorner how many times do you need me to say sorry carlitos?

carlossainz55 you don't need to apologise anymore n.n but next time, please don't take photos of your best friends saying goodbye to you...nah joking, next time i'll make sure i cry before i've even left you for the second time and force you to take photos lol

y.nhorner ok, i'll note that for next time carlitos hahaha! but srsly, charles and lando have both mentioned that all of you were crying at one stage before you and lando calmed down except for charles to the point he started crying whilst driving you guys home and you had to ask him to pull over...yeah, i am so sorry for being the cause of that!

carlossainz55 yeah, it was intense and a very upsetting moment for all to witness. for sure do not let charles drive when he's crying though cause it is utterly terrifying and i thought i was gonna die so i started praying in spanish! even when i was the one behind the wheel because charles did take the entire drive for him to stop crying!

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y.nhorner the chronicals of me leaving mumma and daddio and moving into my new college dorm at hawaii pacific university for the next four years alongside the wonderful help of logie sarg and oscy pastry!!

📸 of mum and dad on the train taken by logan with oscar's supervision as they took the tube in together to the airport and 📸 of me taken by carlos who alongside max, lando and charles were at the airport as well to see me off with logan and oscar!

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christianhorner miss you already my love! i know logan and oscar are keeping you safe and helping you sort out your dorm! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner christianhorner i miss you too daddio and they are keeping me so safe and helping me out tremendously which i am so grateful for!

gerihalliwellhorner miss you baby! please tell oscar and logan we say thank you for helping you move into your dorm room!! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner gerihalliwellhorner i miss you too mumma! and i have thanked them both and they don't want any thanks for it. they're doing it because they want to! they didn't come to hawaii with me for no reason

maxverstappen1 why is my heart literally breaking even though i already knew you had left and i was with you guys at the airport for me, kelly and p's own flight back to monaco??? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner maxverstappen1 i'm sorry maxie, i knew today would be hard! does it make you feel better if i say that my heart is also breaking?

landonorris i'm actually so uspet about this and i have no clue why! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner landonorris so am i lando but don't worry, you can visit soon i promise!

noahkahan omg, you've actually moved to hawaii now? i didn't realise it was happening so soon! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner noahkahan yeah! it's insane noah at how fast it's all happened but yeah, hawaii's my new home for four years!

oscarpiastri honestly, your dormroom looks magnificant right now. who knew logan and i were such great dorm decor artists? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner oscarpiastri i know right, oscy? it looks perfect and i am so thankful for you and logie for helping me ease into it all!

logansargeant i think the three of us did an amazing job with your dormroom, y.n! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner logansargeant we really did! thank you so much logie

carlossainz55 my heart is breaking into too many pieces all these hours after we saw you off at the airport liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner carlossainz55 mine is too, don't worry carlitos!

charlesleclerc this is too much for me! how will we survive?! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner charlesleclerc damn, i was hoping you'd have the answers cause this is too much for me as well and i don't know how i'll survive!

yourexbff you got into hawaii pacific in honolulu, usa and you never told me?!

y.nhorner yourexbff because i knew you would have reacted horribly and been a jerk about it, telling me to come back home because you can't handle not having the same control over me for college that you had during high school liked by yourbff, charlesleclerc, carlossainz55 and others

yourbff yourexbff y.nhorner honestly, that's some queen shit and i'm so proud of you y.n! well done on no longer tolerating this bitches shit after so many years of dealing with it liked by y.nhorner

username congrats on your move to hawaii! but i'm so sorry to ask such a stupid question but where is hawaii pacific uni? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner username thank you lovely! and don't apologise for asking me, i'm happy to answer any questions anyone has, 'stupid' or not! and hawaii pacific uni is in honolulu, hawaii💌!

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y.nhorner has posted to her instagram story

[caption 1: me crying on my insta stories is now going to become a regular thing btw! so do not be alarmed when these start to happen on the regular💌 caption 2: reason one why i'm crying: college is kicking my arse rn and i wanna kms! caption 3: reason two why i'm crying: i miss home and formula one and ofc my grid family and my actual family back home in england! anyway, how's your day been lovelies💌]

christianhorner has replied to y.nhorner's story oh honey, are you okay? has college really been getting you in the bum? really wish i could do more to help you bubs!

y.nhorner thanks daddio but i'll be fine i'm sure, i just needed to have a little cry! i'm just a little homesick and you're gonna go far playing in my spotify playlist whilst studying did not help me at all!

christianhorner as long as you're sure bubs and speaking of your new song, it's absolutely gorgeous, mum and i love it so much! not only do we play it all the time but it's also playing on the radio often when we're in bed so we fall asleep to it!

y.nhorner yeah, i'm sure dad! and that's so sweet, thank you so much! i'm glad you and mum love it! and i'm glad it's also getting played on the radio! well, i have to go back to studying and doing stuff in my sorority but i'll talk later, love you daddio!

christianhorner bye darling, talk later then! i love you too and have fun xx

yourbff has replied to y.nhorner's story heyy girly! sorry that school's royally kicking your bum, wish i could be there to help you! the grid is missing you terribly but i'm keeping them company and trying to lift their spirits! we've for sure been blasting every single song and album of yours, especially you and noah's newest! also have you heard anything from ex.bff lately?

y.nhorner hey girly pop! it's fine, i'm getting through it the same way i got through h.s and i wish you were here too but it's coming up so soon! i'm missing the grid so much more, i can't even express how much! and that's amazing, i'm glad you've been blasting all the songs, not just the new one because maybe, just maybe i'm gonna come out with a new announcement on my insta grid soon! and not that i've seen, she's most likely blocked me on every other social that i haven't, why?

yourbff that's so good, i'm glad! and i'm only asking about ex.bff because she's been asking some of the drivers, mostly max, lando, carlos, logan and oscar for some paddock passes for the grand prix that you're surprising them at just before summer break happens and she isn't taking no for an answer so maybe you or christian could tell her to fuck off but we'd need permission for you to let daddio horner to tell her to fuck off though...

y.nhorner oh, okay, that's gross and very fuckin weird! there is no way she is going to that grand prix period, paddock passes or not, at the gp that i'm surprising my family at, no fucking way! and go ahead, let daddio tell her to fuck off even though he realistically doesnt need my permission on how he treats and talks to her anymore because she is no longer my friend and doesn't need to be treated as such! dad can say whatever tf he wants to say to her!

yourbff thank fucking god! i'm with christian rn and he's been hanging for your response so, thank you thank you thank you! i could kiss you on the mouth rn if you weren't in hawaii! and wait, did you just say that you were going to announce a new release soon???

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y.nhorner i'm so sorry for my social media absence my lovelies except for a few instagram stories here and there but college was kicking me in the rear end real good and i also may have finished my very first album in my first year at american college in my newly redecorated dorm room at hpu that will be getting released worldwide tonight at five minutes to midnight...

for those wanting an album breakdown since it is my first ever one, i will do the full thing for the songs in a separate post. however, in short hand i will say that there are six originals (including me and noah's song) and four covers of my favourite songs from some of my very well loved artists! thank you so much for all the love and support you gave to me and noah about our single, it's been incredible stepping back and just seeing at how much you guys really love it, it's truly humbling and rewarding! but now saying that, it makes me even more proud to finally be able to release my first ever album because i have worked so hard on it and the reason it's come out so quickly it seems is because all six of my originals had already been written and drafted, i just needed to finish and record them which thankfully didn't take too long. also good to mention that whilst i did finish writing them in my dorm room, every song except for you're gonna go far was recorded in my dorm room! so the acoustics are no joke my lovelies! in saying all of that though, i hope you loves all enjoy my first album, 'little life' 💌

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yourbff so this is what you were talking to me about that day when you left me on read when i finally realised you had mentioned it because i was distracted in letting your dad go off on ex.bff? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner yourbff yes....please don't kill me i'm sorry!

christianhorner i'm so proud of you my darling girl! both me and your mum knew you could do it when we were telling you to continue on creating new music and writing new songs whilst at college! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner christianhorner thank you daddio! and yes, you and mumma were very much correct and i'm glad that you were!

gerihalliwellhorner well done my darling! you should be so proud of yourself for releasing your very first album! it's going to do well, i'm sure of it! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner gerihalliwellhorner thank you mumma! and i am, i'm really proud of myself for what i've done! and i'm glad someone thinks that it's gonna do well!

redbullracing after making all of us cry with you're gonna go far, we'll make sure to stock up on the tissues when it's released because you best believe it's going to be blasting for everyone to hear in the paddock at the next grand prix! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner redbullracing omg admin, are you ok? but, thanks i guess for the free promo though!

maxverstappen1 i'm literally standing in my bathroom in shock right now, y.n! how could you do this to me, to us?! you know we're not ready for this! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner maxverstappen1 i'm sorry maxie but i was too excited and i couldn't keep it a secret anymore! you know i hate keeping things from people!

landonorris well, there goes all my tears for the rest of the year and next year! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner landonorris even though i usually call you dramatic or sympathise with you, this time i'm gonna have to agree with you and say yes after hearing these songs your tear ducts will be dry for years!

oscarpiastri oh crapola! this was not the announcement i expected after getting the notification that you've finally posted again after awhile! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner oscarpiastri i know and i'm sorry oscy! but i won't ever be gone for this long again!

carlossainz55 hermana, are you seriously just gonna go away for ages and then hit us with this announcement and think all of us are going to survive? liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner carlossainz55 yes and no? i'm sorry carlitos but i promise though that you'll love the album though!

sebastianvettel this is fantasic news bubs! i'm so proud of you and i cannot wait to hear this new album after loving your recent single with noah kahan! liked by y.nhorner

y.nhorner sebastianvettel sebby! i've missed you so much and thank you! i can't wait for you to hear it!

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y.nhorner 'little life' album breakdown in 3...2...1:

song one: 'little life' is the title track. it's a cover of cordelia's song 'little life' and like the hook and title suggests, i really do like this little life hence why i decided to cover that song, put it on my album as the top track and then title the album the same thing.

song two: 'you're gonna go far' ft noah kahan is the first single of this album and i have already mentioned briefly what this song is about. but, for those wondering the full story, it was basically a culmination of trashed songs that both me and noah wrote years ago but never came into fruition because it never worked out at the time. that was until we had our very first meeting and i told noah about me wanting to write a song about me leaving england for america for college and showing him the texts between me and my parents. it was funny though because unknowingly, we were both writing the same song that we just smooshed it into the one that we all know and love now! it's truly one of if not my favourite song on this album too, hence why it's the first single!

song three: 'lacy' is what i would call the fine line between envy and homoeroticism. in one lens of the camera, i'm embracing my inferiority complex by personifying the beauty of a girl i used to be intimidated by in school who's been named 'lacy'. i then succumbed to my habit of comparing myself to other women to an extent so extreme that it seemed like it was a crippling romantic obsession. thankfully though, this was when i was in the middle of high school and figuring out my sexuality and i did that by literally hating that specific girl in my class because i thought she was so much better, prettier and inferior to me. hence why the song was created but i do not feel that way anymore but i knew i needed this song on the album so i could also let people know that i'm not perfect and i also have the same thoughts as them.

song four: 'slipping through my fingers' is the second cover song on this album. for those who know me and know me well will know that 'mamma mia' & abba are some of my favourite movies and singing group to ever exist! i could have chosen any abba/mamma mia song but this was the one i chose because it really fit the theme of me leaving home and moving out of the country permanently for college. and also because it was a movie i'd watch with my mum geri when i was younger right up until my last couple years of high school and before i left for hawaii. i also cried my eyes out whilst recording the song in my dorm because that was the night that i was the most homesick i had ever been and when i posted those three stories on my instagram story sharing my first ever cry online since leaving for hawaii.

song five: 'never grow up' is the third cover song on this album. another artist that i absolutely adore with my whole life is taylor swift. and similar to slipping through my fingers, the reason why i added never grow up to this album was because it was the same song to stmf but through a different lense almost. i remember when i was younger, always telling my parents that i always couldn't wait to grow up and get older whereas they were always telling me to slow down and let myself be that young for as long as i could and stay that age and not worry about wanting to be another year older. and now, looking back, especially when i recorded this song for this album, i really wish i listened to my parents when they told me to slow down and never grow up. because now it feels like it's going by so quickly that it can no longer slow down and i hate it but i also have to embrace it because i can't get any younger, i can only get older but that doesn't mean i can't pretend and wish to never grow up.

song six: 'what was i made for?' is the last cover on this album and it's by the beautiful billie eilish. obviously, we all know that this song was part of the new barbie movie soundtrack and as soon as i heard it for the first time, i knew i had to include it into my first album and here we are! similar to the other cover songs, this resonates with me because there are moments in my life, especially recently, when i've been sitting in the dark, on my bed, in tears asking myself 'what was i made for?' 'what am i doing here?' 'why was i even born?' and i was tearing me apart because i was all alone on the other side of the worl away from everyone i love and i was scared to death! before moving to hawaii, i never had to think about the things i have to now because i was still living with/near my parents and, shyness and modesty out of the door, they provided everything for me so i never had to lift my pretty little fingers or feet for anything. they provided my food for me, they made sure i had clean clothes and a clean room, they made sure i was always entertained, they made sure i always had free things, free paddock passes to every grand prix that i wanted, when i wanted them. and then, the second i touched down in hawaii, i had no idea what to do and how to do it. i'm surprised the lovely girls that are my roommates and fellow sorority sisters didn't laugh at me or call me a spoilt brat because they knew who i was as soon as i walked into that sorority house. but what did they do? they taught me everything and they didn't make fun of me, they didn't laugh at me or put me down and tell me i had to do it myself. they realised that from the way i grew up, i wasn't being snobby or a brat whenever i didn't do something. they knew it was because i didn't know how to do it. so this cover is a nod to my lovelies at hpu and in my sorority that helped me find who i was again.

song seven: 'hope ur ok' was a song i actually wrote years ago when i first met a certain red bull driver, mr verstappen and other friends of mine around the same time. even though i've lost contact with most of the friends i have referenced in this song, this song gives them a reminder that nothing is as bad as it seems and i wish them well and reassure them of how proud of them i am and what they've become. this was another song that had me a little emotional because, fun fact, when i recorded this song, max decided to have a cheeky facetime so he watched as i bawled my eyes out to him, telling him that the first verse and the hook of this song was written about him before he sweetly told me it was okay to cry and that he'd love it if he could stay on facetime with me whilst i recorded it. and obviously, i can never say no to maxie so, he watched me and screen recorded the facetime whilst i recorded it and that recording made it into the album.

song eight: 'happier' is a song that whilst many would think is about an ex boyfriend is actually about an ex best friend. and we all know how painful a best friend breakup is however, this ex best friend was someone that was always what someone would call a frenemy. this girl was never actually my friend and it wasn't until just recently, at the beginning of my journey of college life in hawaii that i realised this and cut her off. even though i say in the song that 'she's moved on and found someone new' i mean it in the most pettiest way possible to the point that i hope that new friend she's made realises just how awful she is and leaves her in the same way i left her. this song is basically a best friend break-up song that has the disguise of a relationship break-up and i love just how petty i play it when i practise it live. the song is basically letting her know that i hope she's happier even though i know that she knows she could never be happier when all she spreads is negativity and plays pretend. hence why i ended the song with the lyric 'so find someone great, but don't find no one better. i hope you're happy, but don't be happier' because i was basically the best person she had in her life but she destroyed it because of her own selfishness of not allowing herself to stop being so rude, narcissistic and fake.

song nine: 'jealousy, jealousy' is a song about the unrealistic standards that society has set for young people, young women particularly on social media. in the track, i sing about the constant comparison and self-hatred that social media can often lead to. before i wrote this song, i released a snippet of an unreleased song with a similar theme which also discussed the warped version of reality that social media presents. this was another song that i wrote years ago during a time i was borderline addicted to being on social media and felt crippled by the comparisons i was recieving. thankfully though, i have recovered from this period in my life but it was still a song that i knew i needed to have on this album since i'm an awful liar and there was no way i'd feel proud of myself if i released an album, my first ever, and didn't let people know what was once happening within myself whilst growing up in front of the entire world whilst they were watching me at every formula one grand prix.

song ten: 'enough for you' is the last song on this album and this is another song about the same ex best friend that is mentioned in happier. all throughout high school, i worshipped this girl and looking back, it was depressing and heartbreaking because of how awful she was from the beginning and i never noticed. and then when i did start to notice it as i got older, i tried to do every little thing i could because, like the title of the song suggested, i just wanted to be enough for her. all i wanted was for her to like me and actually treat me like i was her best friend and not like i was the dirt on the back of her shoe which was the way she treated me. and then in my last year of high school, she started to realise that as it got closer to applying for universities within england and internationally and wouldn't be able to control me anymore like she could at school, she got even worse. her biggest thing was she needed to be in control all the time, every single day and when she wasn't and something didn't go her way, she'd take it out on me and the friend group. and it wasn't just verbally it was also physical. to the point i'd come home with bruises because of how many times throughout the last year of high school she'd lose control over me and the other friends.

song ten cont.: and then, i hit a breaking point and i cut all ties with her before our graduation. as it had now been announced, by me publically, as to where it was i was going to for college and that i was indeed moving to hawaii like speculated by those in the f1 world. she got real mad at that that she decided to publically comment and ask me, as though we were still buddy-buddy, as to why i didn't tell her that i was going to hawaii pacific. and i told her, straight up, as many people saw, liked and replied to, that i knew she'd react horribly, been a jerk and tell me to come back home. with the reasoning being that she can't handle not having the same control over me in college that she had during high school. like the song says in the end 'you say i'm never satisfied, but that's not me, it's you. cause all i ever wanted was to be enough but i don't think anything could ever be enough for you. enough for you, oh. no, nothing's enough for you' and it's true because nothing could ever be enough for her no matter how hard you try you can never be enough for her and that's fine with me because i don't want to be enough for her because i don't need to be anymore and quite frankly, that is more than okay. i just hope that she's enough for herself because once she figures that out, i think she'll realise just how awful she is as a human being and maybe think about changing the way she views everyone around her instead of just making everything about her above everyone else.

so, that is the album breakdown of my debut album 'little life'. i really hope you guys enjoy this album because it has been a pleasure to write this and to be able to finally share it with you all! also, comment down below which track number/song title you are claiming (i claim five, six, two and ten btw) 💌

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maxverstappen1 this is an amazing album breakdown and i cannot wait to finally hear it when it's released here in monaco! i claim five, six, seven, two and ten!

y.nhorner maxverstappen1 thank you maxie and good choices of track claiming but just so you know, you guys on the grid can claim the whole album ;)

noahkahan this is such a good tracklist and an amazing album breakdown! i am so incredibly proud of you for your debut album release! and tracks two & four are mine to claim!

y.nhorner noahkahan thank you noah! you know i couldn't have done it without you and, classic choices!

taylorswift omg i am so proud of you, y.n and thank you for covering 'never grow up' so of course that is the track i claim but i also claim track two!

y.nhorner taylorswift thank you so much tay! i love you so much and good choices

logansargeant this is an amazing feat, n.n and i cannot wait to hear this when it comes out! and can i cheekily claim the entire album???

y.nhorner logansargeant thank you logie and of course you can claim the whole album, the entire grid can!

charlesleclerc bursting with pride for you mon ange! and every single track is mine thank you ma'am!

y.nhorner charlesleclerc thank you cha-cha! and yes, every single track is yours mon ange!

landonorris can i claim the entire album under the act of proudest best friend ever?!

y.nhorner landonorris yes you can lando hehe

christianhorner proudest dad ever! i have to claim slipping through my fingers and never grow up of course!

y.nhorner christianhorner thank you daddio and of course, what great songs to claim!

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[caption 1: wait, where am i going lovelies🛫💌. caption 2: where's my redbull at babes? caption 3: home sweet home all way in japan with daddio and a max, lando and oscar 1,2,3💌]

landonorris has replied to y.nhorner's story i still cannot believe you surprised us like that!

y.nhorner was it a good surprise at least?

landonorris abso-fucking-lutely, y.n! that was probably why max, oscar and i were on the podium, we had our lucky charm!

y.nhorner aw, i love you sm lando! glad this made you all happy!

maxverstappen1 has replied to y.nhorner's story welcome back little shit! that was so sneaky of you!

y.nhorner hehe, it really was sneaky but i'm glad i got to see win another grand prix, maxie! it felt so much better being there live then watching it on my tv in my dorm room with the girls in the sorority house

maxverstappen1 do you know when you have to go back if i have to bring it back down a sec?

y.nhorner not until after last race of the season, there is no way i'm missing out on you getting your fourth consecutive championship! the one year i could potentially miss it will not be happening! can't break the winning streak now maxie!

oscarpiastri has replied to y.nhorner's story well this was a nice surprise to see after getting a podium in japan!

y.nhorner glad to hear you appreciated it oscy! i am truly fighting jet lag though right now that all the adrenaline has left my body from the race so i think i might go to sleep soon

oscarpiastri if you're tired n.n, you don't have to keep responding, you can fall asleep sweets! i won't be mad and i'm sure the other drivers that you haven't responded to yet won't get mad and they'll understand

y.nhorner thanks oscy...goodnight 💌

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wowza, that took way longer than i thought it would to write but i am so proud of myself because this truly came out of nowhere! also i do apologise if anything is incorrect like i know that the podium photo was from a couple years ago but pretend it's from this year lol. and i know i copied some of the album breakdowns from olivia's legitimate genius page because it made sense to do so! if you guys want a part two, i'm sure i can do that since i really did love writing this and would love to if i can find more ideas for this to make it into a little mini series!

©⠀amberjazmyn's original work. do not translate or steal any of my fics. 2024

[sunlitewhispers]

Marvus and his money headcanon

(Been surfing through the marvus tags and I've got some thoughts to share regarding this clown)

To start off, I personally think troll currency is more digital than physical. Like everyone uses a card to trade or get items (and its only due to the empresses restrictions on things when she removed the adults from the planet) but physical money is still real, it's just a fun thing that highbloods and high midbloods use to flaunt and to trade amongst each other.

To signify the value of the bills, they have a strip of color from the cast they were made for. For example, Teals =80, Cerulean =90, Indigo =100, etc.

(There were coins that were common amongst lowbloods and low midbloods, but that got discontinued when moving to cashless/digital. There is evidence preserving the old currency existence such as in museums showings of the old times and extremely old paintings in the clown churches.) (You can think that these coins are caegars or not)

With that out the way! On to Marvus and his money 💰

I imagine Marvus doesn't really care about money nor feels that it has a heavy connection to his identity compared to performing/entertaining. Marvus just knows that people wanna see him and lose their shit at his concerts and are willing to drop stacks to be there even with the risk of being culled.

With that, Marvus can be loose with his money, quite literally throwing it around to which some highbloods would critique the act as 'disrespectful' and 'rebellious' since money is one of the ways ancestors can provide to descendants and give them a clue to their existence. (If they want or have left a will if they died, regardless, the empire still sets them up with a small fund)

I dont know if philanthropy would be an actual thing or just be a thing highbloods (like Zebruh) say they do for approval points. But I imagine Marvus would be the type to do so in the most unconventional means.

He probably stopped his tour bus once to grab a grubshake or a handmade sandwich from a small cafe and threw a fat band on the counter saying, "Keep da change lol." Leaving the workers there in awe and fear cause damn he just weirdly blessed them, and damn they now gotta fight off his fans from stealing the marvy money. (If Marvus is there, his fans are certainly gonna be there too.)

Marvus definitely buys his crew lunch or, if he's hanging with someone, offers to pay for them when he's out and about. He stresses tf out of his accountant because he doesn't keep track of how much he spends in a day. You know his ass absolutely has a money gun to use at his concerts.

Bascially when you're Marvus, you're a baller who is a big spender.

When interacting with Marvus, depending on his quadrant, you're gonna see how he moves with his cash.

•♡ Matespirit ♡•

if you got this man in this quadrant, good luck on getting Marvus not to spoil the fuck out of you. Trust and believe he'll take any chance to drop some stacks on you. If you guys are out and you say or point out some items, you can bet that Marvus is buying them.

Oh, you think that clothing line is cute? Guess what? He's ordered the entire line to be sent to your place.

Big fan of video games? No problem! He is getting the newest console out on the market in your favorite color with your name on it.

Love sweets? Bam! He's gonna invite you over to his crib and have you watch a team of trolls bake the best desserts of Alternia.

Money ain't a thang to this man. It gives him a chance to show his love through the material means and show that he wants you to enjoy yourself and time with him. Small part of him uses money to be a temporary fix when he has to go on long tours. If he can't spend time with you on troll FaceTime or in real life, he'll send gifts to show that he's still alive and thinking about you.

However, if large displays of affections through money don't appeal to you or you start to feel overwhelmed by the purchases or think he's being disingenious in his affection, he'll pull it back.

He'll likely give you a card that's connected to his account so you can have the control to buy what you want without feeling like you have to ask him. (And such an act will give him a small piece of security to know you'll have the means to survive financially on Alternia, especially if you've expressed times of financial hardships to him)

Also doesn’t matter if it's public or private, He's gonna randomly place bills on your person, i.e., stuffing them in your pockets, slipping them in your shirt pocket, pinning them to your jacket. If you ask him why he's doing that (or wonder where he stores his cash)(btw he literally has no pants pockets) Marvus is gonna give you a saucy wink and smile all dumb and say "a mf gotta pay dem feez 4 havin a wicked mate lik u b ;0)" than he'll place a smacking wet kiss on your forehead and be all noisey about it while doing so.

•◇ Moirials ◇•

In this quadrant, his spending habit might look casual to outsiders, but with you, they'll be a tad more personal. Still be extra af like in matespiritship but he'll be spending money to clear his mind or yours.

Feeling stressed about some unfinished work? Don't worry. He'll reserve a spa service just for you.

Need to cry out some hard feelings? He's gonna get some matching pajamas and grab some emergency blankets to get that session on.

You know that one ring that SpongeBob and Patrick have to show off their friendship? He's gonna get something like that to represent your guy's moirallgience. Anything involving moirails, he will buy and send them to you.

You're definitely gonna be his merch tester and probably be brought to his trips to the galleries when he goes to buy art pieces. (Need your support and opinion when bidding for art pieces.)

Like with matespiritship, if you feel like he's being insincere or rather prefers more handmade gifts. He'll try to schedule days to create personal gifts. He might pay someone to tutor him about your interests just so you can rant without having to stop and explain what you're talking about.

Marvus will remember what your favorite snacks and favorite meals are for when you're hanging with the crew or just him. Compared to where he won't care about what someone orders, you don't gotta worry about an order mess up or reminding him. He got that locked in, unless you want something different, then just point him to it.

If there is a fucked up order for you, he will raise hell. Typically, he won't care if something he orders is messed up. He'll pay for another one. However, on behalf of his moirial, this mf gonna walk up to the counter like that meme saying they asked for no pickles. The first and hopefully (in his opinion) only time you'll ever see him asking for a refund.

A thing that'll be a routine of your relationship is him swinging by your place late af in the daytime to grab you and get some breakfast before he has to start his night.(Unless you spend the day at his hive than he'll order said breakfast and catch some more Zzzs with you.)

•♤ Kismeses ♤•

Now in this quadrant, compared to the other two, Marvus is a clown who's mischievous as hell. This bitches antics are gonna be up to 100 when it comes to him.

Honestly, you're gonna be on your toes for buying things. It'll become a back and forth of him randomly, not having money than to him having it though being really annoying and lazy with it.

If your someone who's well off, you better hide your wallet. Marvus will snag your card and make an excuse how he left his cash in his other pants/trailer/hive and buy the most stupidest shit under your name. (He'll troll cash app you back but do it so tediously that you hope your account crashes)

If he catches a single hint or a word, even a wrinkle of disgust on you, Marvus will make it the bane of your life.

You dislike the residue of his paint left on your face after a hate-makeout session? Marvus now has to buy this one face paint that is known for being messy. what? His manager told him, too. :0)

You think cowboy boots are clunky and tacky? Guess who's strolling up in some bedazzled purple lined boots that jingle when he walks.

You make a comment on how creepy troll beanie boos plushies are, he's gonna get a brand deal with them and send you a crate of his new designs. A note will be attached saying "4 my numba 1 fan ;0)~".

Similar to moirallgience, you will be a merch tester, yet you won't know if he's being serious or wanting to rile you up. Regardless, when you shit on the design he's showing you, that's how he'll know his fans will love it! Doesn't matter if it's the simplest design, an eyesore to the public, he'll promote it to the point that even your small-time friends will surely mention the product to you. Might even send a shout-out to you on Chitter for your 'help'.

Don't ask him for a bill if you want something from a vending machine. Marvus will pull the most crumpled weirdly stained bill you'll ever see in your lifetime and smile at you plainly like, "Here u go buddi dats all I can find on me atm lmao." Additionally to this, he will slowly count his bucks out if you all are in a line somewhere. (Marvus knows no one will rush him and if you complain, he'll pretend he lost count and start over)

To conclude this, watch out for when he's feeling more petty. He'll make a habit of sending you items in loud peculiar packaging that suggest to those handling it that there's something inappropriate in it when there really isn't.

•♧ Auspistice ♧•

With this one, Marvus doesn’t fit the vibe of where he might truly kill his kismeses. Nor does he seem to want to be in a situation to be aggravated enough to join in murdering someone (Going off his response to MSPA reader when the clown fight happened). However, Marvus may strive on not becoming active on those emotions. Close calls can exist.

A tiff among his roadies about best faygo flavors is a good way. His manager hassling him, and trying to change up his brand is close enough. Groupie sea dwellers trying to follow him back to his trailer and not taking a hint is a real close call.

If you mediate for Marvus a few times, he'll certainly be grateful (and a bit embarrassed) he'll grant you a gift card of some shop of your choice as thanks.

On the other hand, you've been around long enough to spot a murderous Marvus, then you're undeniably a part of his inner circle. With the exception of being his paid emotional bodyguard coach.

As business-like, it might seem in the beginning, you're a trustworthy and skillful individual in Marvus's eyes. He knows dealing with irritated trolls, particularly enraged highbloods, is not a fun nor easy task.

Other trolls may feel like this relationship is wandering into moirallgience territory.(which might be) Marvus won't really care about those opinions and possibly offer to meditate for you in the event he catches you in a tense position.

You’ll be called for his long tours when he has to do shows for sea dwellers and, without a doubt, be put through the ringer. It'll end with you guys munching on loads of the troll version of ice cream in silence.

At any point, you're too stressed to de-escalate a situation. He'll give you a paid vacation and make sure you don't come back until you are entirely stressed free.

He may tell you once he calms down that you should open a private business due to your and I quote "motherfckin dopeazz obzi-va-tional skilz."

Small note : Marvus has dealt with people trying to form a quad with him just for the fame/money, as we seen with Zebruh. So if he catches signs that what's happening, he's going to be acting distant and extremely scripted around you, then like ghost you. You'll be blacklisted from his concerts (unknowingly), and future clowns might keep a close eye on you if you hang at the churches.

Welp, that's all! Hopefully, this was entertaining to read! I do apologize if some parts feel rushed or that there were more details in some quads, I tried to keep them around the same length.

[nattikay]

now that 3.0 is done and ready to go, here's all the iterations of my head over the past seven years holding their respective con badges!

since the outside is not all that matters for a fursuit head, I also tried them all back on to give wearability scores under the cut, and also threw in a boopability score because why not lol

1.0

Wearability: 2/10 Absolutely atrocious. I can't see squat and my nose is completely crushed up against the foam. I have NO clue how I managed to navigate a convention in this thing. That said, the large open mouth does allow plenty of airflow, so breathing though my mouth is easy (which is good because I sure ain't gonna be breathing through my smushed up nose).

Boopability: 8/10 Legitimately her most redeeming quality tbh. Large nose with a foam core, very boopable indeed.

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2.0

Wearability: 4/10 Vision is pretty poor, but better than 1.0's. The muzzle is completely hollow, but the mouth opening is pretty small which limits airflow so it could get pretty stuffy in there. It's also the only one built on a 3D print base rather than a foam base, as well as the only one that isn't lined since there's no absorbent foam to protect, and I remember when I would sweat the plastic inside could get very slick and start to move around on my head; if I turned too fast, instead of the fursuit head turning with me, my nose would just slip and end up smack in the middle of the eye mesh.

Boopability: 2/10 Minky topstitched over faux fur and 3D printing plastic, not particularly boopable. But at least the minky is soft.

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2.5

Wearability: 9/10 This one's actually quite comfortable! Not so tight as to feel constrictive, but not so loose as to wobble around on my head. Fantastic vision. This head may not be perfect, but it's very nice to wear!

Boopability: 4/10 Made of stretchy fabric with a tiny bit of polyfil inside. Not bad, but definitely feels like it could use a bit more polyfil for better booping potential.

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3.0

Wearability: 8/10 Very similar in overall comfortability, breathability, and excellent vision quality to 2.5, perhaps just a tad more snug but not uncomfortably so. The only reason she's getting an extra point docked is that the backs of the eyes sit much closer to my real face to the point that my eyelashes sometimes brush up against them when I blink, which is a bit annoying and not a problem 2.5 had.

Boopability: 6/10 Bringing back the foam core of 1.0 and the minky covering of 2.0, this suit is decently boopable....but still not quite as boopable as 1.0, mostly because the nose is just so much smaller.

[joltai-showa]

currently planning on doing a long post as a reply to someone else's thread, so in the process of putting myself through unimaginable pain (rereading Naruto chapter 599 and onwards)

and stumbled upon this curious line

(chapter 614)

so the context for this is that delulu grandpa and the guy who spent most of his life acting like the delulu grandpa just threw a Tailed Beast bomb at the Alliance HQ and are now arguing about who is gonna fuck over the other harder

and here we can see Obito explain that the reason Madara didn't, you know, just BLOW THE FUCKING ALLIANCE UP using Ten-Tails' Bomb is because that would for some reason kill Obito as well...

but it literally isn't true lmao?

(chapter 363)

now sorry that I won't go into the whole "exact comparison for all types of explosions within Naruto plot" thing, because I don't have neither the time nor patience for something like that, so I'll just be referring to a video that I have seen a while ago where a guy literally, like, took all images of Tailed Beast's bombs and such and compared them with the regards to the surroundings, and basically the conclusion was that Deidara's C3 (the one he dropped on Suna during fight with Gaara) has about the same size of explosion as a regular Tailed Beast bomb, while Deidara's C0 is about the same as Ten-Tails' bomb

(yes insert an angry rant about how absurdly powerful Edo Deidara was and how Kabuto and Obito seemed to have decided that it would be better for him to sit out in the entire war in bondage somewhere quiet instead of wiping off literal divisions🤬🤬🤬🤬)

But here we can clearly see Obito getting caught up in C0 and he was clearly fine following that (except I guess emotional damages of having to go through "sitting on his ass, chilling, watching birds chirp and squirells munch on nuts" to "BEING IN THE MIDDLE OF A NUCLEAR BLAST THAT WILL CERTAINLY SEND YOU IN PAST TENSE" in a span of 0.001 seconds)? Like, what is exactly the argument that Obito is telling Madara? The main difference I see between C0 and Ten-Tails blowing up the area where they are standing is that Obito is connected to Ten-Tails to keep it under contol, but Obito can just disconnect and send himself into Kamui, and even if he is afraid of Madara keeping control over Ten-Tails while Obito is away, BUT LOL MADARA AIN'T KEEPING IT EITHER if the bomb goes off, Edo Madara will be decimated along with the alliance and only recover after a while, so like???? why is Obito trying to bargain his life in front of Madara like that???? both of them know he isn't dying??????

I really have no clue what is going on here other than "villains chose to be dumb so that heroes can survive"

P.S. this chapter also has this gem

I'm actually about to cry from Obito's expression, he HATES Madara so much😭There's pure DISGUST on his face😭😭😭to be fair Obito did have to glaze Hashirama at every opportunity while acting as Madara, I would probably hate the old man's guts if I had to keep up this bullshit for 16 years straight😭😭😭😭😭😭

[shads-shipposts]

Finally. Five years after the story actually takes place, I can share with y'all the book that was meant to start Adventures!AU. This book has gone through an insane amount of iterations, and is actually unrecognizable from  the original script. But the delay is a benefit, because now I have a better idea of where I want the series to go as a whole and am also better at writing. 

This story should be finished by the end of the year 2025, with chapters 0-20 completed. How long it will be, I haven't a clue. "Act I" was originally 10 chapters and now it's 20, so who knows lol. 

This story occasionally features the main characters of the movie (Tintin, Haddock, Sakharine) but is mainly focused on the sailors. This story won't be as gut-wrenching as my other fics (especially OtRaTtW), but there will be pain. It's not a Shadow story without it. 

This story does deal with sensitive topics from time to time, but each chapter will have a warning before anything intense. However, this is the only warning posted for the minor stuff typical of my fics: adult language/humor, graphic descriptions, and canon typical/atypical violence.

I realize the fandom for this lot is small, but I really do appreciate any comments or votes on this fic. I plan to remaster this after I finish this "first draft", so if there's any constructive criticism you have please let me know!

Enough talk, enjoy the ride! It's gonna be a wild one.

Also, Merry Christmas!

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"Scared, Allan?"

It wasn't the first time he'd found himself here after he closed his eyes. It'd been months since the incident that gave rise to the scene playing over and over again in his dreams, but time hadn't dulled any of his emotions concerning it.

"I must say, your fear scent is... unique. Fishy and tart."

Confusion, horror, shock, disbelief.

"Don't worry your little head there. I respect you and, strange as it may seem, I do find the need to fear you."

Yes, fear there too.

"Funny ain't it?"

And who wouldn't be scared?

"An Alphian fearin' a human."

When they were faced with an alien of unknown magical abilities?

"Don't see that every day."

The scene wobbled and fizzled at the edges, like staring at a reflection on the surface of a stormy sea. The secrets surrounding the scene trapped deep in its depths, unreachable even if one tried their hardest to grasp the answers.

Allan Thompson walked through the scene, removed from his own actions as if he were just on autopilot. He couldn't change the scene, no more than someone watching a reel on a screen.

He sat at the table, across from the half-human, half animal woman that watched him like a hawk. Dark stripes cut through her light skin like thick shadows across a moonlit patch on deck, a black and white tail flicked behind her, and piercing eyes the color of glaciers scanned him inside and out. She was a head shorter than him, yet power radiated off her like heat from an open flame.

His voice reached his ears, muted and distant.

His own and yet... not, in a way.

"Kid... I'm sorry about Turtle."

The alien looked up at him, the furry ears on the sides of her head flattened against ginger hair.

"Thanks, man."

Those cat-like eyes shifted to the side, as if searching for any other threats.

He knew it was a dream. Knew what was about to happen.

It did not ease the churning of his stomach.

"Actually," she continued, mouth moving but voice coming from the very walls surrounding them. "I kinda wanted to ask you about something related to that."

Allan knew what was coming. Knew what she was going to ask.

Knew how badly it would go, how swiftly the scene would turn dangerous.

But he was helpless to do anything but follow the script. Follow the events as they unfolded.

Eyes on her hands, waiting to see those thorn sharp claws, Allan again heard his voice from far away.

"Aye?"

He wished he could change course. Wished he could prevent what came next. Perhaps, if he could, then things would be different.

But no.

"Let me go after that short slaver with the dark brown hair. I want his head for orderin' me to kill Turtle."

There it was. The request that shattered everything. The request that would leave Allan with gaps in his memory that no amount of pondering or searching could ever fix.

He felt the shock course through his body, felt his spine stiffen and his heart skip a beat.

"I'm sorry," he heard himself say. "But I can't allow that."

Ears shot up, a tail bristled, sharp teeth bared, and anger blazed in those icy eyes.

"What?"

If only he could alter his words. Explain more, explain better.

Save himself.

If only.

His voice came again. "I can't allow you to kill him."

He had dreams. He had nightmares.

This hell was something else entirely.

Pupils narrowed to slits across from him, jagged scars streaking down the table as wicked claws dug into the old wood.

"Is that your final answer?"

There was red now, deep in those eyes.

He could only watch, silently scream in his head as he fought with all his might to change the memory.

"Aye, I refuse to let you go after him."

Futile. The scene would play out as it had many nights before this one.

The woman stood, ears low and tail lashing.

"Whose side are you on, Allan? Huh? The slavers?" A snarl curled her lip, the temperature around them plummeting as ice snaked out from her hands across the table. "How disappointin'."

The edges of the scene corrupted, bleeding red and black.

He wanted to scream. Wanted to run. Wanted to hide.

Hide from the devastation bearing down on him like a hurricane at sea.

But there was no refuge. No escape.

"There will be another time to kill him."

He had to witness the event that would alter his fate.

Words came faster now, a distorted echo to them that sent chills down his spine.

"But I heard the other slavers talkin'! He's goin' on patrol tonight! I can't pass up this opportunity to claim revenge for what he did."

"Look, kid. I said no, and that's final."

"Nobody's gonna stand in my way. Not even you. Stand down now, Allan. I don't want to hurt you."

He got up.

Walked over.

"I told you no, kid! That's an order!"

"Give it up, Allan. I'm doin' this my way. I'm killin' him tonight and you can't stop me. Don't even try to."

He got close.

Too close.

It was over fast. She winded him with a headbutt, driving him back into the wall hard enough to stun him. He didn't even have a chance to rise to his feet, weight pinning him to the floor. A rag clamped over his mouth and nose, drowning the world in a sickly-sweet haze.

Darkness followed swiftly after, a growl echoing in his ears.

"You brought this on yourself. Sweet dreams."

And those were the last words he ever heard from Scarlett Hyde.

Allan sat up in his bed with a gasp, cold sweat pouring down his face as he fought for breath.

Was that her now, hiding in the dark corner?

He flicked on the light, fingers struggling to grasp the knob.

Nothing, just his trenchcoat.

It was too hot. Too stifling.

Air.

He needed air!

Staggering to the porthole, he yanked it open. Cold, salty air and the distant chime of harbor buoys greeted him and he leaned against the wall, eyes closed as he fought to catch his breath and soothe his racing heart.

Lifting his eyes and scanning the docks, Allan found them still bathed in the warm glow of the harbor lights with the inky black sky above devoid of stars thanks to the light pollution from the nearby city of Antwerp. The Karaboudjan sat desolate in her berth, undisturbed and peaceful with her own lights turned off and the crew inside her still sleeping.

Utterly lifeless.

A relief to Allan, for no one had seen him fling open the porthole and gasp like a half-drowned man starving for air.

No, Allan realized with a flash of irritation. There was a person standing near the bow of the ship, Allan could see them from the corner of his eye.

Must have been that damn FBI agent that had been sniffing around the past few days.

Allan told that aristocratic fool Sakharine to be more subtle rather than just strolling about like he owned the place. His insistence on dressing fancy all day and probably night instantly set him apart from the dockworkers, drawing unneeded attention, but he just had to let his pride and ego get in the way of keeping a low profile.

Great, he thought. Not even dawn and I already need to deal with...

He nearly fainted when he finally turned his full attention to the figure.

That was not the FBI agent.

In fact...

It wasn't even a human.

Is... Is that an Alphian?!

Certainly looked like one, there on the street staring up at him from under the amber cone of the street light. For a tense moment, Allan thought Scarlett had come back; a long black tail covered in silver stripes, tall pointed black and white ears sticking out from holes in a dark hood, and bare lower legs covered in the same markings from the knee down.

But... no, Scarlett's ears were rounder, fluffier. Her tail was thick and furry, not sleek with a large black spade at the tip. She also had thinner, longer stripes cutting through the black base. Not thick, broken spots.

And the glowing green eyes gleaming from beneath the hood most certainly weren't Scarlett's.

An ally, maybe?

Allan hesitated, gathering breath to call out but uncertain if he should or if the Alphian was even there.

A work truck trundled by, sputtering as it struggled with a load of crates.

After it passed, the Alphian was gone.

Mad.

Allan Thompson was actually going mad.

He could hardly be blamed.

First his old boss starts trying to get him to return to his fleet with his temptations slowly mutating into threats that grew more vicious every time.

Then a new man in a fancy suit and tie presents his own offer of money in exchange for Allan's aid in a treasure hunt of all things while also being far too interested in Allan's drunken captain who couldn't even piss straight let alone remember his ancestors.

Then he started having flashbacks of a hijacking that brought him into contact with not only slavers, but fucking aliens, one of which joined forces with him only to knock him out to go slaughter some of the slavers...

What was even worse...

After that fight with Scarlett, any and all memories of the Alphian ceased. He couldn't even recall what happened once he woke up, which alarmed him greatly because there was a significant event he just could not remember. Because they sure as hell didn't go from being overrun by slavers to being back at their home port without any sign there was even a hostile force occupying the ship.

Only one man had memories of Scarlett that went past Allan's; Tom Anders.

His friend and trusty right-hand man. The closest person to Scarlett on the ship prior to her mysterious disappearance.

Allan hoped he could have shed some light on Scarlett. Maybe Scarlett somehow drove off all the slavers after knocking Allan out, accessing some type of beast mode or something. She was an alien, and could shapeshift, so it wasn't entirely implausible.

But no.

Tom's last memory of her was Scarlett heading off the ship into the woods. Tom went after her, only to find himself face to face with the same slaver Scarlett was after. The slaver attacked him, but Scarlett showed up in some animal form and attacked the slaver. She won the fight but was stabbed in the process. Tom tried dragging her back to the ship after she shifted back to that half-human form, but then his memory too went dark.

That was it. The trail ended. Went cold. With no hope of recovering the fractal memories.

Maybe Scarlett was around longer, and had some alien way of wiping their memories. Why, then, did he have any memory of her at all? If she truly aimed to wipe all memory of her existence, he should have forgotten her in totality.

Instead he was left with only partial memories and no explanation that could even remotely make sense of the event.

Every port they stopped at, every contact he knew, he asked. When Scarlett Hyde rang no bells, he tried the false name she gave at first; Shadow. Still nothing.

He tried her description, her species, her family name, everything.

Nothing.

As if neither she nor her species even existed in the first place.

But now, after months of searching and dealing with intermittent nightmares, an Alphian just shows up outside his window only to vanish into thin air.

If it was even there to begin with.

"Get a hold of yourself, old boy," Allan laughed nervously, running his hand halfway through his hair before gripping it tightly in a feeble attempt to ground himself in reality.

He was seeing things.

Yeah, he...

He was just seeing things.

A knock sounded on his door, and Allan turned away from the window to stare at the clock by his bed.

05:00 am.

His port watch wasn't due for another few hours, so it couldn't have been someone calling him for that.

"Al?"

Tom. What was he doing up this early?

Passing through his dayroom, Allan opened the door and found Tom looking almost as disheveled as himself. "What the hell is wrong with you?" Allan asked, taking in Tom's bare feet and backwards shorts.

Tom rubbed his arm. "It... happened again."

Allan's eyes widened. "Scarlett."

Tom nodded.

Allan stood to the side to let him in. "You too, huh?"

Tom straightened, looking slightly more alert as he sat on the couch in Allan's dayroom. "Same dream?"

"What other dream would it be?" Allan growled.

Tom wasn't put off by his tone, but then again he never was. "What are the odds, huh?" he said in an attempt to lighten the mood, a weak smile accompanying the joke.

Allan wasn't amused. "Real funny." He leaned on the table, pushing his hair back. "This is the fifth time in two weeks," he growled. "I do not need this. We got that proud peacock prancin' 'round like he owns the damn ship, orderin' us to and fro like damn dogs. I don't need this headache on top of it."

"At least the cap ain't givin' us any issues."

"Don't think that old man would notice if I scuttled the damn ship," Allan grumbled, pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Probably not." Tom tilted his head. "Don't think the dreams mean anythin', do ya?" he asked, somewhat desperately.

"Concurrent dreams about an alien that we both know had the power to alter dreams?" Allan said. "It's fishy."

"Think she's comin' back?"

Allan shrugged tiredly. "Hell, Tom, I don't know." He glared in the direction of the door. "At least Sakharine finally tracked down the second ship. Then we can be back at sea, and I'll have other things to keep my mind on."

"Yeah, can't wait to have that guy off." Tom shuddered. "Gives me the creeps."

"Feelin's mutual."

Allan wondered if he should tell Tom about the... apparition on the docks. He quickly decided against it, not wanting to wrangle Tom when the man tried to hunt the ghost down.

It would be his secret.

Just get through the day and you'll be back at sea. No more FBI agents snooping around, no more headaches from watching Sakharine waltz through the docks like a blind idiot, no more...

Whatever the hell that just was on the docks.

Allan stretched. "Guess I may as well get coffee, not like I'm gettin' any more shuteye today," he said gruffly. "Want some?"

Tom nodded, stretching too. "Won't say no." He shuddered. "Anythin' to keep awake after that nightmare."

Allan understood his hesitation with going back to sleep. Tom's dream was far worse than his, with the man being hunted down in dark woods by a slaver bent on murder. Scarlett's animal form wasn't exactly comforting either, Tom describing it as a large feline with saber teeth that was a third again the size of a normal tiger.

"Alright, I'll be there in a minute. Maybe Vinny or Yanny have somethin' already."

Tom nodded. "I'll wait outside."

As Tom left, and Allan headed back to his room, the first mate mumbled under his breath.

"I really hope it was just coincidence." He punched the door open. "Because I cannot deal with anything else." 

[elsa-rain-world-stuff]

What got you into rainworld?

OHHOHHHOHOHOHOHO

It's been 2020, middle of autumn, i tired from playing same 3 games on repeat (hollow knight, sundered and undertale (? i'm not sure)) and looked in my steam library, in search for something i haven't played. I had i think 3 games i bought and never played, and Rain World was one of them. I had no fucking clue what is this game, i didn't even remember how i got it (i got it same year spring with 80% off, as my purchase history says). So i downloaded it and jumped right into, without watching any trailers or rewievs.

It was... something. I didn't expect anything, but i was surprised anyway. I had no idea you could pick different character, i didn't know you supposed to play as white slugcat, so i started as Monk.

First thing that surprised me is how HEAVY slugcat felt. Compare to Hollow Kinght where you can jump 10 times your height... yeahh. And second thing - controls, which i changed immediately, because i ain't playing on arrows! ALSO at the beginning i had a thought for a moment that maybe i'll get some upgrades, but even then i felt like it's not gonna happen

And after that i lost track of time. And when i woke up, it was 5 am and i was in shoreline. Then i was stuck in the first room of subterranean with centipedes killing me all the fucking time and i thought that i can't go back through the gates lol

I also remember miros birds breaking my overseer in meme crypts and how i thought that it was gone forever

This is my very first rain world screenshot (i didn't understand what to do with this flower and overseer seemed to point on it (at least it what i thought)

under cut there's a tonn of screenshots and some of messeges with my friend while i was playing. I had a friend, who helped me in the beginning. They played just a bit, but knew a lot about the game

october 10, 2020

Elsa Fogen 22:57 : Oh you can store food for the next day to spend all the time for exploration, neat Elsa Fogen 23:02 : So i was grabbed by that thing, that pretended to be a pole, but i managed to escape and it grabbed a lizard instead october 11, 2020 Elsa Fogen 6:57 : Fuuck, it's 5 am and i've been playing Rain all this time [Friend name here] 6:29 : How did you... Elsa Fogen 6:29 : I'm in the location with green wamter Elsa Fogen 6:31 : I was fucking flooded 3 times Elsa Fogen 16:13 : I'm fucking tired of these monkies They don't let me go through Fuckers

october 12, 2020

Elsa Fogen 18:11 : AAAAAAAAAAAHH FUCKING ELECTRICAL CENTIPEDES, I HATE YOU SO MUCH Elsa Fogen 18:14 : just fucking look how many times i died in the same room because of these fucking creatures

[Friend name here] 18:15 : Oh. Which location this is? Elsa Fogen 18:24 : trins where [Friend name here] 18:25 : no fucking way... Wait. WHY ARE YOU GOING THERE IT'S TOO EARLY Or wait. You have already been at Five Pebbles?!?! Elsa Fogen 18:27 : where???? I can't go back anyway......... [Friend name here] 18:27 : fuck... it's too early to go there/ Too early. Why can't you return? Elsa Fogen 18:33 : door was closed................... okay i get it all over again [Friend name here] 18:34 : nononno NO NO NO!!!! WAIT FUCK STOP WAIT WAAAAAAAIT DON'T RESTART LOTUS MOTHERFUCKER (lotus was kinda my roleplay nickname lol) DON'T YOU DARE Elsa Fogen 18:37 : wha how then [Friend name here] 18:34 : You talking about gates with karma? Elsa Fogen 18:38 : yes [Friend name here] 18:38 : Fuf... there... look. So you went through. You sleep one time. And you can go once again. Elsa Fogen 18:38 : 🤔

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Elsa Fogen 18:53 : Should i look for this thing?

Elsa Fogen 19:54 : What should i do here?

[Friend name here] 20:03 : GO TO SLEEP THEN YOU GO THROUGH HORRIBLE LOCATION TO THE WORSE Don't touch the flies Elsa Fogen 20:23 : And what if i touched them Elsa Fogen 21:43 : Damn it's so dark here

Elsa Fogen 21:54 : Damn there creepy creatures mechanical Elsa Fogen 22:40 : FUCK I SAW AN ART WHERE BROKEN VESSEL HAD THIS FUCKING BLACK-BLUE THING IN THE HEAD

[Friend name here] 23:01 : btw, you're ahead of me xD I just... i need to recover my nerves Elsa Fogen 23:05 : btw this thing that leads you can it be killed? [Friend name here] 23:05 : Yes. Elsa Fogen 23:05 : Fuck) I think mine was killed Elsa Fogen 23:10 : So what should i do if my thing was killed...... Elsa Fogen 23:15 : Are these things dangerous?

Elsa Fogen 23:24 : What a creepy fuckig thing

but it's neat i love their design so much i saw same things in the location with pile of monkies these fucking things annlyed me so much there was a lake and two of these fuckers lived there Elsa Fogen 23:56 : Fuck, can i kill this thing? It's sitting there and that's it............

[Friend name here] 23:56 : You can but.... MANY SPEARS. VERY MUCH. Elsa Fogen 23:59 : OMG OVERSEER, MY SUNSHINE

october 13, 2020

Elsa Fogen 00:00 : OH YES I MADE IT TO THE NEST [shelter] And i understood why the fuck these things for [grapple worms] Elsa Fogen 00:23 : THERE'S 3 OF THEM

Elsa Fogen 00:28 : That's what i call TOTAL FUCK UP

Elsa Fogen 00:31 : i lived Elsa Fogen 00:31 : is that a fucking infection

Elsa Fogen 01:03 : i n f e c t i o n

Elsa Fogen 01:23 : fUCK

Elsa Fogen 01:28 : ....how many spears i need to kill this you say?

[Friend name here] 01:28 : More than 10. :) Elsa Fogen 01:29 : too loose a concept "more than 10" more than 10 can be and 11 and 100 well, two already there ahaha....... [Friend name here] 01:28 : Well.... Hm...... Not 11... Well maybe 20 or more. Elsa Fogen 01:30 : now this sounds as threat of avengers level [Friend name here] 01:30 : One moment. I'll look up their hp. Ha.... Ha.... 200 hp.... Elsa Fogen 01:34 : ................... and how much damage spear does?? [Friend name here] 01:36 : ... [RW wiki screenshot saying how much damage deals every slugcat per spear throw] Elsa Fogen 01:34 : *HYSTERICAL LAUGH* okay i died already around ten times BY JUST FALLING IN THE FUCKING PIT

Elsa Fogen 01:34 : infected snot

Elsa Fogen 01:34 : f UCK i found the door, but it needs the highest karma AND I'M WITH THE LOWEST BECAUSE OF ALL THOSE DEATHS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK Elsa Fogen 02:19 : FINALLY FINALLY YES I WENT FURTHER OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SO TIRED OF THIS PIT Elsa Fogen 02:21 : WAIT WHAT WHERE DID I FLY

IS IT BECAUSE I ATE TOO MUCH INFECTION? [Friend name here] 02:22 : Well it's... It's... If short, there's troubles with gravitation and... THERE'S MANY DADDY LONG LEGS ON THE WAY But first you have to bring around 4 flies to Moon)))) YES YES YOU'LL HAVE TO GO BACK BRING 2 FOR NOW There will be more further Elsa Fogen 02:25 : ah. these?

Elsa Fogen 21:11 : fuck this shit....

[Friend name here] 21:12 : ))))))) YOU'LL HAVE TO))))) Elsa Fogen 21:12 : no i'm leaving ahupzhvalvva [Friend name here] 21:12 : YEEEEES)))) YOU NEED THIS TO COMPLETE THE GAME By the way Moon quest is not necessary Elsa Fogen 21:14 : thank god

october 16, 2020

Elsa Fogen 20:59 : these fucking tentacles discourage all desire to play rain 🙁

Finding and translating all this takes fucking forever and after this point i moved to another chat and i don't know which one so let me know if you want to see more of this!!!!!!

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[stackslip]

people went insane about the last two pages which, valid, i cackled out loud myself, but there's so many little details in this chapter that make my head spin, like:

nayuta getting her classmates to give her their desserts. that's so insanely petty i love this child i love that she's still very much the control devil and a little shit

the scale of the mass deaths and disappearances makes so much sense and it's gonna keep getting worse, and it's good to see how it affects everyone in society. so far we've mostly been seeing orphans who've lost their parents but kids themselves are just as likely to die, if not moreso!

asa's recurring dream.......... What Does This Mean

oh i'm losing my mind about this one. "report any persons inciting fear" could mean anything, from reporting wannabe doomsday prophets out of worry they'd increase the fear and thus the power of devils, to grifters, to an excuse to report and jail anybody who says anything about the government as "people inciting fear" lol

also yeah this is affecting the entire world. fun

I FUCKING KNEW HARUKA WAS GONNA BE A FIRE PUNCH SUN STAND-IN I KNEW IT. SUGAR WE ARE GOING DOWN SHIT IS GONNA BE SO AWFUL

watch the chainsaw man society get more and more powerful, watch as pochita's powers decrease, watch as eventually something happens to turn awe and adoration of chainsaw man into utter terror and thus increase his power

there's something really nasty about the talk show host inviting teenage haruka who's seen so many people die and is obviously so dedicated to chainsaw man in part because the world is so fucked up just to poke fun at him, like his classmates weren't murdered a couple of weeks ago.

i really, really like the use of mirrors here. genuinely

also fami's "you don't need to think"........ hmmmm the makima parallels are increasing

a world without evil.......... yeah they're gonna try to use pochita's powers to erase some things huh. we know yoshida talked about erasing death a while back huh

g-d i generally have absolutely no feelings on yoshida whatsoever except that he's fucking hilarious. hysterical even. gosh denji sure is good i plucked you out of class huh!!!!

he is certainly not beating the accusations either lmao

also denji losing his mind at public safety (bc no way this ain't public safety or a government org) putting their hands on nayuta......... emo

you know for all the jokes about yaoi it's definitely kinda chilling that denji would propose sexual favours in exchange for nayuta's safety. like idk if fujimoto is ever gonna explicitly state that denji is a csa survivor but it's hard for me to not think of this as another clue in that direction

only one week wait this time YIPPEE

[beardedmrbean]

Brother, want some news that made me big mad to hear?

In my hometown a couple weeks ago someone shot a California Condor and now the Games warden is tearing ass to get the guy that did it.

Got any fun facts about that bird to brighten the day or do you wanna suffer with me?

We finally got those off the critically endangered list a year or so ago I thought, ain't just gonna be the game warden going after him. Feds are gonna get in on that and not the FBI but one of the ones that actually does its job.

Wrong about the critically endangered, but we're getting there.

Here's a kinda weird infodump that plays in no particular order, except the last 3 images because I noticed they were numbered.

Here's from 2019

Went through like 15 pages to find a good video, birdoftheweek was on the first page.

Looks like there's a bunch over at Pinnacles, used to hike and climb there all the time but there were no condors that I can recall from the mid to late 90's.

Let's see what the Park Service has to say, (they say there were I'll trust them)

California condors once ranged from British Columbia, Canada down to Baja California, Mexico. This range shrank with the increase of European settlers moving west. The causes of the decrease in condors included poisoning, shooting, habitat degradation, and the collection of eggs and feathers. By the late 1800s, naturalists were already making note of the California condors’ declining numbers and in 1967, condors were listed as an endangered species. Despite this protection, their population continued to decrease and dropped to a low of 22 individuals in the 1980s. All wild condors were then trapped and placed in captive breeding programs in an effort to save the species from extinction.

Since 1992, captive-bred condors have been released at five different sites in western North America (Pinnacles National Park, Big Sur, Hopper Mountain Wildlife Refuge Complex, Vermillion Cliffs, and Baja California). Each release site monitors the flock’s behaviors, movements, nesting attempts, and mortalities. Pinnacles joined the recovery program in 2003 with the release of 2 captive-bred condors on December 20th. In 2016, the first condor chick since 1898 (condor 828) fledged from a nest within Pinnacles. Since their reintroduction, condor numbers in the wild have slowly increased thanks to wild nesting and the release of captive-bred condors. As of the end of 2018, there were a total of 488 condors in the world, with 312 of those flying free in the wild. However, condors today are still dying due to lead poisoning, consuming litter and microtrash, and electrocution from power poles. Learn more about what you can do to help condors and other wildlife here.

ones over by Pinnacles might be in the group for your local deal, or maybe there's other groups in the area too.

Speaking of that area, can I just tell you how confusing it was for me as someone who had done the 152 run oodles and oodles of times when the Hollister clothing brand came out and made it big.

All I could think was who in the world would think that's a place that should have a "cool" clothing brand named after it.

Few years later I learned it was a gap thing and most people had no clue Hollister was a real place, lol.

You may proceed to laugh at me now.

[seijorhi]

Aaahhh fracture. What an amazing fic. Kinda embarrassing to say but i keep going back to that one to try to squeeze out more clues about osamu's thoughts... he's just as fucked up as he's hot lol but also very enigmatic. (Spoilers ahead)

We know he probably wasn't very happy about reader distancing herself from him and the sister, but did he know it was to give them space as a couple? if the sister hadn't threatened him with divorce, what would he have done to get the reader? was he going to conform to watch her from afar while he was married to her sister? what if reader got a bf/gf? during the end, he also says things along the line of "i know you want this too" is it pure gaslighting or did he delude himself a little?

Sorry if these questions are annoying, i just love your miya twins fics... scar tissue was amazing too, i wonder how he's gonna deal with reader now </3

have a good day, rhi!

the reader was always going to spend her summer break with her sister and osamu, and osamu was always planning on using those weeks together to make his move; the only difference would've been that if her sister was still alive, he'd have used her against the reader, threatening to tell – and that would break her poor sister's heart, wouldn't it?

and while the reader knows her sister loves her, deep down there'd be that flickering doubt that if osamu went to her and said she'd come onto him while she claimed he'd raped her, her sister might take her husband's side, and that would destroy her.

now osamu didn't go into the relationship with an intention of using the reader's sister to get with her instead. he truly liked his girlfriend, possibly even loved her – in the beginning. he fought with the burgeoning attraction, which quickly gave way to obsession. he tried to convince himself that the feelings the reader brought out of him were a product of his happiness in his relationship with her sister, which is easy enough when they're spending near on every weekend together. ofc when she started drifting away and spending less time with him them, that became more difficult, and that's when the cracks started forming in his relationship.

the distance drives him nuts. dealing with a failing relationship without having her around to take the edge off drives him nuts. it gets to the point where he's fucking his fiancee and the only way he can get off is by closing his eyes and imagining that it's her moaning beneath him.

so yes, they're both aware that the reader – oblivious to the growing disconnect and with the best of intentions – is trying to give them space. unfortunately, her pulling away only drives a wedge further between the two of them.

as for how osamu would react to the news of a romantic partner, he's not going to be thrilled about it, but he also doesn't necessarily view it as competition either. some college punk ain't really gonna hold a candle to him – he's older, better looking, knows how to take care of her, plus, she's basically his anyway. has been for a long while.

he's not delusional delusional. he knows that the reader doesn't want this, but he's playing into her insecurities and fears. he's already planted the seeds of doubt and she's already on the edge after dealing with so much over the past few months. he's not going to give her another option – they're family, and she's always loved him. maybe not in the way he wants her to, but she can't pretend that there hasn't always been something between them, that connection that drew him in.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Also forgot to mention it but yayyy Eddie putting the fire out 🥳🥳

Yeah not safe yet :')

Ahh right calling her is a good idea

Is that what we should be worrying about right now?

Ahhh yeah apparently yes 😬 ohh nooo

Was it her o.o

It better not have been her xD

Okay phew it wasn't we have another theory, which is probably correct xD

Uh ohhh

CRAP

What's the plan guys 😬

Okayy okay

Phew no one's seeming to know her

Or they ain't snitches xD

And they don't know where she is lol

But they seeming way confused for probably knowing who she is, like context clues probably? If they heard she was a sergeant anyway xD

Ope!

AHHHH (awh not aah) so that's the plan :DD >:D icons

"That cop" lol

Imagine him being in handcuffs slfjhsds

Well genuinely though after a plane crash like xD

Well emergency landing

Anyhoo

PHEW

Okay now lie and say a different hospital

Or they go to a different one than he says?

Okay he did say one

Ohhh they're somewhere else aren't they :O

PHEW they're going

AHHHHH (awh not aah again) THERE :D

YEPPPP

ICONICCCC

I love them so much gosh xD

Okay and now we're going somewhere safe lol like prison or the police station or something idk lol

YES they're gone okay good

OPE OH okay dang we're just going there o.o right now this episode okay xD

Lol where?

SLFKGJDKHGS THE A I R P O R T XDDD

Would've been handy if there hadn't been plane issues lol, just be right there xD

Okay go y'all lol

Ohhhh okay :O

I hope he didn't bury it or something lol

Hopefully like a car I guess?

Ahh yeah okay :D

Well that should work

Lol the worker just chilling xD

Ohhh right that's what it is :o yeah that is kind of important

Is Bobby's uniform not enough lol

Nahh bro if you're allowed to/can physically we're doing it

Athena, badge time?

Yep LOL

Yeah exactly xD nice

Glad he's not still trying not to lol

Nahh they got it

Yep xD

Okay okay

Woahh niiice :O

Hmmm alright

This better not be a trap of some kind xdd

C'monn c'monnnn c'mon

YES nice

A literal black book :O

Good job Bobby :DD

Honestly I did kind of expect that xD

The book

Guess it means I've not style sense not practical real life sense lol

SHOULD WE BE LOOKING THROUGH IT RIGHT NOW ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ

LIKE JUST GET OUT OF THERE AND GO

Okay at least check it's the right thing yeah

Okay it is go lol

WE DO NOT NEED TO DO THAT

WE ALSO DO NOT NEED THAT IN OUR HISTORY 💀💀

Oh gosh they won't even show us 😬😬😬

Yeeeahh let's not and let's go guys xd

Oof 😬😳 a senator is not good

I mean it's always those up people like that but 😬

And voting for him xd sorry Bobby you can never unsee that 😬

OKAY YES let's go 😭

AHH CRAP

I knew they couldn't just get away 😭

Uhh ohhh

Oh dang so they've been searching o.o

Hmmm uh oh

Wait on what?

OHHH ON THE LIST O.O

Well who is he though?

Ohhh I guess just a "normal" FBI agent before this (and yk. the event that put him in that book xd) o.o

Crazyyy

Nahhh uh uh

NOO

Y'all how are we gonna do this

Bobby calm as always :) xd icon

Okay okay

UH OH

C R A P- OH DANG!!

Thank goodness :OO 😌😌!!

I mean I don't want him to die either but xdd

Ohhh no oh dang no we're still in the same position as before o.o I suppose y'all weren't close enough to rush him while he was shooting or something xd

Oh nooo

Nahh there'll be proof in some way

The gun or the cameras or something

OOP Athena go off

Nahh bro I don't think you will-

HOLY CRAP!!! OH GOSH GO OFF SIR!!! THE SHIV :DDDD 🥳🥳🥳 :OOOO!!!!

AMAZING LOL

SHIV THE CROTCH MY GOSH :OOO

Yelled that out loud y'all XDD

YESSSS

NIICE MAN

? OH FINALLY SHIVVED SOMEONE L O L

Ohh right shanked

FINALLY SHANKED SOMEONE LOL

Good for you man xD seems like one of those typical jail experiences

Gotta have it, especially to be able to relate to anyone 🥰 xD

Oh gosh thank goodness this is all over lol

Now let's get out of here xD

[no1maddoxfan]

They got us:

Really thought it was gonna be Asaka since she's got some new cards in newest OCG Rush box, but since they pulled a duel from him last ep, they gotta make up for it lol.

Speaking of Asaka, she fr smart!! Like she got us! I had no clue she gave Monster Reborn to Damamu, like how would you retrieve it?? My opinion of her has increased, though I liked her from the beginning lol. Hope she still duels at least once (Yuna??? Please???).

Look, I got the upmost respect for Yuamu here. Ik Ive been saying "fuck the Ohdos" for awhile, but it's supposed to be mostly a joke. Let her be the BBEG for this arc, maybe even season, to make up for what they did with Queen. But imma be genuine for the first time, ok? I really think she kinda blundered here real hard, not taking Damamu with her. Like ik there needs to be drama and all but if she could've used the Dark Power™ to knock out Damamu from the beginning, why not take them?? And even if she didn't want to do that, Damamu likes her and Yuhi and Zwijo. Just ask and they'll probably come. Am I stupid?? Or overthinking this??

Like I wasn't expecting her to know everything and her plan on the spot was pretty good, sussing out Asaka and all that but like, leaving one of the most powerful beings in the universe alone with probably the only person who could stop you is, a move ig. I mean now they're in two, when you could've just had the one locked down. They can move at the speed of light and are now a free agent. Also, what if Kuaidul just, never let go of Yudias and didn't return to Earth?? Would she have turn Earth inside out then have to fly back and hope they were still there?? What if Yudias had dueled enough times to revive another person -1 and now there were seven Damamu?? What if Damamu handed it off for whatever reason to someone and they tore it up?? AM I STUPID?? OR OVERTHINKING THIS??

This is they ONE thing I've thought about, and honestly it ain't a big deal, like we need tension and drama, if Yuamu had Damamu and found out they had Monster Reborn, regardless of when, her plan would have been just that much closer to completion, but idk. Not everything gotta be a twist, but it's still a good one lol.

Also Yuhi bout to get whiplash flipping sides like that. Yuamu, please don't beat him too hard.

[uburdn]

i dont know how to talk about this but im wondering if there will ever be a magical movement that appears that is like "get undiagnosed neurodivergent middle eastern people diagnosed and accomodated" en masse

cause otherwise bro im trying my fucking hardest day to day to either survive or move my diagnosis process forward and it's always gonna fucking be oh this psych diagnosed me with depression or some shit this psych thinks im just having a moment this psych dismissed my long psychosis for being the whole problem and also perscriped "anti psychs that will do god fucking knows what lol i dont care just take this fatass dose for a whole month and come back to me when you develop into a deeper psychological torment than you ever dreamed of" instead of ever anyone thinking to deal with the CLEAR AS THE SUN IN YOUR EYES problem and then i try to go to a private psych but cautious as fuck because $70 is basically a kidney to me but then i have a very horribly confusing chat with them soon before the session and they (seeeeem to??) agress in a way very non-conducive of understanding autism so thank fuck i guess that i didnt go to them cause that probably woulda been a waste but then you're just stuck in this world where it feels like ain't nobody ever gonna listen to you or understand you and- BAAAHAHAHA DOCTORS? come on now, don't be funny this isnt a stand up show, but anyway yeah no one is gonna listen to you other than basically a fucking unicorn (which is whatever fantasy activism movement im dreaming up) and even talking to people in the medical industry i still have no fucking clue like bro i cannot read your intentions i don't understand what you have in mind what you know or don't knoe i dotn fuckign know what they see in me and just no one understands anything anyway what was i saying whatever angel come save me or something or like give me teleportation powers thats pretty much the same level of fucking, power it feels like i will get, thats literally what i imagine, when i imagine time control abilities thats literally equivalent to me just being able to process social situations like an allistic or not being mysteriously hated and bullied by everyone, god what was i fucking saying, that's it

[bambiraptorx]

For mcmt:

👻 Does Draxum have any fears?

👤 Are there any oc’s in your au?

👻 Does Draxum have any fears?

Oh, absolutely. A lot of his worries center around his kids, mostly around them getting hurt, not doing well in school, struggling with friends, etc. The standard parent fears, if dialed up a few notches for various reasons. However, he's also very afraid of his kids finding out the truth about how he made them as soldiers (at least, without him being the one to tell them that). He keeps telling himself he's going to explain it to them, but it's been thirteen years and he still hasn't told them the truth. (He's uh. Not gonna be the one to tell any of them.)

He also potentially has a lot of fear around his kids not being able to defend themselves, but that would be based on the inclusion of a specific traumatic event that might or might not end up canon to the au. We'll see.

👤 Are there any oc’s in your au?

Oh, so many. There's Poppy, a fox yokai who runs a restaurant, Buana, a tiger yokai who teaches a few classes at their school, that rabbit kid I still need to rename, Sofia, the fennec fox yokai, Jember, the English teacher, the school principle, and more.

I have a general trend of including characters that are kinda like some of the well-known characters from other iterations people like to add (Kitsune, Tigerclaw, Usagi, Alopex, Leatherhead, etc), but with different names. Part of the reason for different names is that I'm really only familiar with Rise and I know nothing about the personalities/fighting styles/backstories of the original side characters lol.

For example, my Leatherhead equivalent is the turtles' pediatrician (because she likes science, is good with kids, and is also a reptile). Does that make sense for her in the context of Leatherhead's normal characterization? Ain't got a clue. So I'm not gonna worry about trying to fit her into an existing character concept, and just give her a different name. It's easier for me that way. (And even if I did give her the name Leatherhead, she'd still functionally be an oc anyway since I know nothing about Leatherhead lol.)

There's other oc's that aren't sort of versions of TMNT characters too, but they haven't really showed up in the story yet lol. ask game

[sharksa-shivers]

Trio derps and religion cuz ye

Kristy: She's agnostic as in.......She has 0 clue wtf happens whenever she dies...But uhhhh she's VERY VERY HOPEFUL that there's something afterwards and she's not gonna just poof out of existence entirely... Sharky: He's Neptunist, an undersea religion. There's various religions that are in the sea, some seafolk believe in landie religions anddddd some seafolk believe in nothing. Neptinists/Neptunism is a p big thing in series tho i will not say why lol, no spoilers for you!! What i can say is Neptunists have a few diff beliefs: -They were given life by Neptune along with their parents. Life is sacred and not to be taken for granted. -Neptunists also believe in several goddesses that help Neptune take care of the world/universe. Sharky himself is pretty to himself about his beliefs, kind of how Neptunists are in general, but it does come up sometimes lol so yeahhhhh. Max: He's that athiest...THAT KIND of atheist that's a jackass...Though Max will only be a jackass if somebody gives him a reason in that regard...Other then that, Max will be respectful of others...Tho he won't be quiet about his beliefs either lol... Max also thinks if there IS a God, that God hates him IN PARTICULAR... Fedora tipping intensifies ---------------------- BONUS: (p sure i've posted before butttttttt idc lol, it fits here...Also below bit is still p goddamn accurate so yeah lol) --- (Earlier moment during an earlier mission, idk the context, kinda just convo xd)

Kristy:(curious as they move through like an older area of some sort, idk, maybe it's like a gravelike area or some shit, asking, anxiety kinda in her voice)Hey, Sharky? Do you believe in ghosts? Cuz…I do…

Sharky:(nods, trying to be quite and respectful as they go through the area, walking carefully)I mean…I'm a Neptunist, so…Yeah? Kinda? I believe that Neptune made us all and he's made heaven, hell and purgatory…So in my thoughts, ghosts are people who just…Never find a way to any of those, they're just lost souls either by accident or by choice cuz your spirit would be your consciousness so yeah…

Kristy:(thinking, nervousy still)Dunno how that's supposed to really make me feel better about going through here…

Max:(chiming in, atheist mode activated, trying to comfort Kristy)Gonna be kind of an ass here maybe but uhhh, you can feel relived in knowing that none of that's true sooooooooooo-

Sharky:(annoyed with Max making things worse as well as shitting on his religion)Can you maybe not?

Max:(continues anyway)Nah, cuz i'm sorry, ghosts and spirits and all that shit just ain't real. We're born, we live, we die and that's it, blep. Eternal sleepy blackout whenever our lifeclocks hit 0.

Kristy:(anxiety spiking)Hahahahaha, this REALLY isn't helping me feel better, i feel like I'm just having a panic over there being no afterlife now and my existence just fucking stopping, fuck fuck, oh god…

Sharky:(irritated at Max)Max shut the hell up, you aren't helping. (looks at Kristy, kind, comforting)Look, the ghosts that would be here are probably pretty chill ok? I promise, there's nothing to worry about ok?

Kristy:(nervous)You sure? What if they are angry and pissed off and-

Sharky:(kindly)I doubt it ok? This seems like a pretty old spot so…If any are still around, i doubt they're gonna just attack random people for no reason…