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Gael: I hope this is better than the last-… Brynn: This is not smelly gas station sushi from dirty city, Berty. Gael: [laughs] True. What should we get? [Gael neatly slots his menu from whence it came, wiping his fingers on his shirt as he awaits Brynn’s answer] Gael: Brynn? Brynn: Uhm… … [Wyatt came to an abrupt halt; though unlikely, he figured bumping into someone from the past was inevitable. He wasn’t comfortable with the idea, but at least it was someone on his side, sort of-.. he hoped. She definitely shouldn’t have been, not given-…] Waitress: Hellooooo, Kaito? Wyatt: Hm? Waitress: Table five. … Wyatt: What can I get for you? Gael: Oh, thank god.. I thought I was gonna end up having to butcher Komorebian. Wyatt: Not today. Brynn: You look so much like someone I once know… Wyatt: You’re a long way from home; coincidental, I’m sure. Brynn: He kept his word. Wyatt: He did. Gael: Wha-… Wyatt: I’m sure he’s still very grateful for all your help-.. and your burnt phone. Brynn: Did he find his soul? Wyatt: I think he’s getting there. [Gael’s gaze flicks between Brynn and the enigmatic waiter, thoroughly confused] Gael: Sorry, do you two know each other? [Brynn snaps back to reality, shaking her head] Brynn: Of course not! Wyatt: I tend to humour tourists… Gael: Well, can you humour me with a recommendation? ‘Cause I don’t know where to start. Brynn: [laughs] We have the nigiri sharing platter, please. … [Gael signals to a nearby waitress that they’ve finished, leaving a generous tip beneath the bill that swiftly arrives. He tugs Brynn along with him excitedly, gibbering all the while; though she’s not listening] [She finally spots what-.. or who she was looking for. Locking eyes with Wyatt, she slides her fingers across her lips in a zipping motion. His secret is safe with her] [Wyatt wasn’t sure why he trusted Brynn so readily, but he did; and for the second time whilst in her company, he felt a wave of gratitude wash over him]

[thewingedwolf]

one goofy ass thing i like about my job is we all really like having staff feedback after programs (like after in service, after summer reading, etc) because it just makes it easier to make it actually helpful and easier next time around and that’s all we want right, like PERSONALLY i don’t want to be anxious about a program and dreading it all year, which means i get to do what i Love which is offer my opinion constructively so i can be like “i think some people just don’t understand paylocity, it is a little confusing & for them, going through that app is this scary time sink so they don’t open it ever.” and no one is taking it personally because five other people wrote in “beanstack scares me” and “i’m not using teams” and we can just adjust our expectations of our older coworkers instead of writing people up for it akskd.

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

what the fuck. chapter 31???????

What. The Count of Monte Cristo is so good :0

[coryndoll]

not so bad

college!rafe cameron x reader au

— in which rafe and y/n absolutely despise each other in public but crush in secret. rafe is failing his humanities class & is assigned y/n as his tutor . . . maybe all it took for this relationship to form was just a bit of forced proximity and some time.

warning(s): animosity😋, partying, alcohol, hints to sex, swearing but very little

authors note: needed to feed u guys after the last part LMFAO im so sorry

six | seven | eight

you’re sitting on the couch for the majority of the time that he’s upstairs. a little sad when everybody else around you is getting more and more shitfaced, but all you can wonder is what’s going on with him.

is he seriously hooking up with a girl after that little eye while you two were dancing earlier? you should’ve known.

you’re so stupid for thinking rafe’s changed, even just a bit. it doesn’t matter whether it’s for you or not. the way he lived before you tutored him was . . . embarrassing on his part.

and watching him go up those stairs by that girl is embarrassing now. not for you, but for him.

you’ve tossed his cowboy hat onto the table by now and stared at it for a good amount of time until you realized—you can’t just be more focused on a hat than a party.

aria hops onto the couch with a groan. she tells you she can’t feel her anything. somehow it brings you to a laugh as you ask her if she wants to go home.

she just nods, so you look around for lorenzo and elara. they’re making out just a few feet away, lost in the crowds of students.

you grab aria’s hand like that girl did with rafe and lead her over to the two, rafe’s cowboy hat being dragged by your side as you hold onto its chin-strap.

“would it be okay if we went home soon?” your voice knocks the two off of each other and look to you. elara screams as soon as she sees aria, and goes straight to her to hug her. you watch them in concern. “aria’s kind of losing it.”

lorenzo looks over to the girl with furrowed brows. even elara notices that aria doesn’t hug back; she just falls in her arms.

“aria?” elara is trying to call to her as she carries her by the underarms.

he looks to you and nods. “yeah, probably a good idea,” he agrees, and you nod back. he looks around. “just gotta find rafe and then we’ll go.”

it’s like his name is able to make your heart drop again. it’s a terrible feeling.

you shake your head at him, wanting to tell him it’s because of a hookup. you hand him rafe’s hat, “i think he’s busy. he might just get home some other w—”

you hadn’t noticed rafe coming down the stairs while you were having the conversation. when he appears right between lorenzo and elara holding aria, you stare at him in silence.

rafe is watching the two girls with a grimace, wondering what’s happened to them since he’s left, before he looks to lorenzo.

“are we leaving?” he asks.

he hasn’t once looked at you. something must’ve definitely happened upstairs. you can’t put your finger on it exactly but the energy is shifted. but it’s like only you and rafe can tell.

“yeah, are you coming or do you wanna stay?” lorenzo asks as he hands his hat over to him, and rafe shrugs.

you want him to stay. stay please. it’ll be so awkward in the car if you have to sit next to him again.

“y/n you take her,” elara is a little out of breath from trying all different ways to carry your friend. you’re a little hesitant from the way elara groans and drapes one of aria’s arms across your shoulder so you can hold her up. “rafe, you help.”

jeez, one moment without rafe please!

rafe is hesitant too but he stands in elara’s place and gets under aria’s arm like you do. lorenzo and elara lead the way out, prompting you and rafe to follow in suit.

the way over to the car is a little rough. aria nearly hurls but catches herself before she can—you’re grateful she told you she was scared of vomit a few days after you two met.

you and rafe are silent as you walk. you can tell something’s up, and it’s so uncomfortable. you don’t know whether you should be mad or sad. it’s just like . . . really?

you and him have to work together to open the backseat door and somehow place aria in her seat from before. you hoped earlier that if elara was still handling aria, you could escape and get to sit in the front with lorenzo, but now you’re back to your seat with rafe.

you secure her with her seatbelt and make sure she’s okay. after, you stand back up and realize rafe is still standing there, just watching. he looks clueless.

“you could’ve gotten the door?” you tell him like it’s obvious, and he suddenly clicks back into reality and makes his way over to the other side of the car.

you shut aria’s door, careful that her head isn’t anywhere near so you don’t hit her. you round the car where rafe is standing, holding the door open and waiting for you. you don’t give him a single glance as you climb inside and settle down in your seat, then face aria a little more so you don’t have to even see rafe.

you hear him get inside after you and he shuts the door, then pulls out his phone. it’s so bright by default that he has to turn the brightness down before he’s texting away.

you look away from the window that’s feeding you this sight and just close your eyes on the car ride back.

getting aria inside and up the dorm building to your floor is a little difficult. elara travels with you guys despite not being in the area, just to make sure you’re all okay. but you swear you see her go into rafe and lorenzo’s dorm with lorenzo himself. you and rafe are, again, left to get aria in bed.

after you’ve managed to get aria under the covers and stripped from the costume accessories that you assume will be uncomfortable for her to sleep in, you mutter a small ‘thanks’ to rafe under your breath before telling him goodnight.

he’s a little surprised, you assume, from the way he lingers for a moment.

“goodnight!” you tell him again, this time waving him away.

he’s a little hurt from the way you raise your voice, but he understands. he walks backward a little before he leaves completely, mumbling a small ‘goodnight’ and shutting the door behind him.

when he’s gone you’re overwhelmed. you take aria’s things and place them on her desk, but you feel your eyes well up with tears.

it’s just frustrating. you feel like you’re back at square one again. everything just feels so weird and you absolutely hated having to raise your voice at rafe.

you look down at your costume and pull at it softly, then look around, rubbing your hands together. you need to clean up.

you leave for the shower room again with your things, at the same time rafe exits his room, holding a pillow and blanket by his side. he trudges against the hallway floor, and he approaches your door. he knocks on it, waiting for an answer.

he stands there for a minute or two before knocking again.

and it takes you about an hour to shower fully and complete your nightly routine. you’re dragging your slippers across the floor, carrying your things by your side. your hair is wet against your shirt, just a singular pimple patch on your skin.

you’re humming a few tunes you heard from a different dorm a bit ago before grabbing your key and turning the corner that leads to your hallway.

you continue humming as you look up at the sight of someone lingering in the middle of it. you’re stunned to find rafe sitting by your door, his back against the wall. he’s dozing off on the floor, his pillow and blanket stacked on top of his lap.

“you’ve got to be kidding me,” you mutter under your breath.

you walk over to your door, and your presence wakes him up. he sputters as he looks down at your feet and then up at you quickly. he coughs and clears his throat.

“what are you doing here rafe?” you ask him, unlocking your door and heading inside to put your things away.

rafe falls over and peeks into your dorm, looking around. his mouth is barely open when he takes in your side of the room.

“enzo’s uh . . . he was eating laras face off earlier and i’m pretty sure they’re going to have a private party in his bed tonight so i thought i could just . . .” he trails off, letting you fill in the blank.

you turn around and cross your arms at him. he’s so difficult. but you know that you would be asking the same if you had a roommate who has whatever him and elara does.

you walk over to your cabinet where you and aria keep spare blankets, pulling out one to drape across a spot on the floor. you look over to the door and see that rafe is still there.

“come on,” you tell him.

rafe pushes himself off the ground and bends down to grab his things, then come inside. he tosses his pillow at one of the ends of the blanket on the floor as you go to shut the door.

when you turn back around, rafe is already dead asleep on the ground, his blanket covering his entire body. you deadpan at him.

you turn the lights off before making your way over to your bed, and hop right on. you’re so relieved to be back in bed after the night you’ve had. you take your phone off its charger briefly and lay your head on your pillow. you swipe into your phone and check your notifications.

you had turned your phone off before you left for the party. you wanted to stay away from tech like that and experience a college party for all that it is.

so a bunch of instagram notifications really, but mostly it’s tweets from x. some are from your family, just checking into the groupchat. but one of them catches your eye—rafe’s.

it’s dated from two hours ago. what? two hours ago you were . . . just leaving the party. this must’ve been what he was texting!

‘ sorry for leaving. if you wanna we can talk about it if we’re alone later ’

this is why he was lingering after you put aria to bed. the reason why he was just staring.

you look over the edge of your bed and realize you’ve made a mistake. oh fuck, you’re such a dick.

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[lady-margaret]

bridgerton season 3 episode 3 screaming thoughts (unedited)

this was marked mature for some reason so im reposting 🙃

this is a dream isnt it

okay not a good idea to watch this full volume without any headphones in a dorm building with relatively thin walls

OH ITS COLIN'S DREAM!!?!?!? i was rly counting on it to be pen's..... YES I WANT HIM TO BE AS DESPERATE IF NOT MORE THAN ANTHONY WHAHAHHSHAHS

bridgerton sibs dreaming about their future spouses lol ("anthony's night and day i dream of you" counts)

^ speaking of that i miss daphne

love seeing the bedrooms more and more

WTF HAPPENED TO HIS ARM HELP GREG PLSSS

hyacinth is rly gorg

why are the bridgertons so dumb and bad at

NOT acting suspicious "i slept so well... not even a dream" BUT WTF ARE U TALKING ABOUT WHAHDJSHDJSB

bridgerton blue is so pretty

COLIN STOP ACTING SUS he really is related to anthony and daphne jfc this FAMILY

OH hot air balloon thingy ive been hearing about

IM EXCITED FOR MORE LORD DUBLIN

pLS I WANT THE STIRLING COUSINS!!!!!!!!!!!

lady danbury and the queen: and iconic duo as always

o lord the featherington sisters are insane BWHAHAHAHHAH

URGH I AM LOVING ELOISE GOWNS THIS SEASON

ELOISE AND PENELOPE PLS BE FRIENDS AGAIN SOON IM GONNA START CRYING i hope pen gets to explain huhuhuhu

no dont go in there thats not a good ideaaa

wait theyre cute; theyre the cute couple, kathonys the steamy passionate couple, idk what to label daphne and simon

lord debling is so interesting i actually really like him so far

i love penelope in bridgerton blue

i love the subtle hints of book canon

franny's SO PRETTY how are all the bridgertons so pretty

a-holes, the lot of them also when am i gonna see more kate and anthony im starved

alice is so pretty

LOL colin YES!!! we want penelope to find a husband

BENEDICT PLSSSSSSSSSSSS i love him... im so excited for him to fall in love with sophie

"he's dead" HELP

okay debling is cool but a lil bit intense for me

“oh i would not tell him that"

cressida gaslighting herself to like lord debling Imao

the featherington sisters are hilarious; its really cute how they actually seem to like their husbands

hyacinth and gregory are becoming real faves for me

this is coling following pen around: 🐕

COLIN CALM URSELF o god hes down bad

u kno what i feel like cressida may end up with debling since colin will obviously end up with pen

O GOD WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH pennnnsndnbdnsjdn

colin ur so hot we all kno ur not looking at that damn balloon

where the hell are anthony and kate

HELP BENEDICTTTTTTT ur so cute poookie

eloise 😭😭😭😭😭😭

its giving same vibes as serpentine boat scene from szn 2 for some reason

colin ur so hot colin ur so hot

lol violet ur garden will soon be watered

are anthony and kate seriously on a honeymoon again WHERE ARE THEY

cressida and penelope vying for debling's attention is kinda entertaining

FRANNY RUN pls look for a scottish earl named john stirling ! he will make u happy while he is able to do so and he has a wonderful family! he has a cousin named michael who is great 😌

kate where are u

oh? WHATS UR NAME SIR IM TRYNA SEE SOMETHING IS UR LAST NAME STIRLING

i feel like benedict and his new paramour (okay her name is tilly) is gonna be a diff version of anthony and sienna in the way that it will kickstart his season (BECAUSE S4 IS GONNA BE BEN'S PLS)

debling is so wholesome OH GOD

DID HE JUST GIVE CRESSIDA'S LEMONADE TO PEN

dw cressida he could still b urs

AY ANTHONY MENTIONED now bring him out

АНННН MAMA VIOLET KNOW i just know she loves pen sm

o god colin colin calm yourself ur in a room FULL OF PEOPLE STOP IT colin colin calm down

OH HAPPIER THAN EVER ???????? ouch

[rvspecter]

okay hear me out. what do we think donna's relationship with her mother is like??? and the older sister??? because tbh im willing to bet it's not the best.

first of all, we know her parents separated at some point and that her sister is "much older" than her - im willing to bet 10 years, maybe? old enough to probably be out of the house when the separation happened, but i am wondering how old donna was at that time, and i wonder if she spent more time with her dad during that period.

we're just exposed to her dad so much more in the show, like two or three times compared to the one time in season EIGHT (very late in the series, mind you) where she goes to her mom to reminisce about a trip that was never taken, and the advice she gets leads to her severely fucking with harvey's job. while tbh i might have also told thomas if i were in her position, just bc he was really a good guy and didn't deserve to be fucked over like he would have been, i just find it funny that the one time donna's mom has impact as a character it leads to like a near catastrophe.

do we think younger donna could have blamed her mom for the separation as a child, and that it caused a shift in their dynamic that has been a fracture following donna into adulthood? could her mom be closer with the sister, or have moved to be wherever the sister lives in case the sister has kids or needs greater support?

just like even when donna and harvey get together there's no excitement to tell her mom or an indication that her mom is told, it's just a big thing to talk to her dad about (and FUCK donna's dad by the way, I'm on harvey's team with this one, jim was pissing me off every chance he got!!!!).

anyways I really am just trying to come up with more ways that darvey could parallel each other (harvey's blame to his mom for breaking up their family while sad wasn't all that great but he had a better relationship with him and admired him anyways), and I do want to know your thoughts on donna's sister if you have any!!!

SO I JUST REWATCHED THE DARVEY PARTS OF THIS EPISODE

i feel like she thought her mom was dumb for trusting her dad and giving him her savings. she asks her mom if she regrets doing it because of the way it turned out. and her mom is like how wud i kno how it’d turn out. and donna’s like CAUSE HE LET U DOWN BEFORE re: her dad but also harvey

and then there’s the flashback of her mom promising her all sorts of things that never happened because her mom trusted her dad so she tells thomas because she didn’t want to be made a fool of like her mom

what I don’t get is if this is the case why did she want to help her dad before with money ??

also during the flashbacks of this episode were her parents together or separate because that’s also confusing. her parents are together when they stay at harvey’s place but her mom has a boyfriend whose name doesn’t matter at the dinner party we don’t see. her family situation is definitely all over the place zero stability

i never got the sense that she was distant from her parents. the difference between her and harvey is that he seems to hold onto his anger whereas she doesn’t. i think she’s aware of their faults and conscious of not wanting to be like them but i think they have a decent relationship. enough so that she’s attending dinner parties with her mom and having breakfast semi regularly with her dad

also the episode where donna gets mad at harvey for not trying to build a relationship with her dad - i felt at the time it was donna’s reaction to their relationship like that he was going to bail and she was finding a reason to bail before him!! like what did u think

omg donna’s sister i didn’t even know she had one ahaha

[reluctanttrabbit]

HERE :)

vanessa goes and also smuggles Freddy to one of Gregory's soccer games

vanessa or gregory has a nightmare and the other is there for them

vanessa had a bad day yesterday and Gregory with the help of freddys head attempts to make her breakfast in bed the next morning

vanessa and Freddy help Gregory out when he gets freaked out about his amnesia again

tony ellis and Gregory hang at the fazcade but it drags back old memories

HOPE I HELPED YOU OUT A BIT VANNY✌

YAY THESE R SO CUTE AUGHHHH thank you... for saving me! i was so thirsty!!! /ref

will definitely do more of these prompts buttttt i want to go to bed lmao so this is all u get for now :3 idk idk let me know if you want me to tag you when i update this!!

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Fluttering in and out of consciousness, a very comfortable Vanessa hears commotion from somewhere inside the apartment.

Her eyes were heavier than Freddy's head, and her mountain of blankets weighed her down. Why was she awake, again?

I think.... I heard something. Maybe it was Gregory.

That works like a charm. She can slowly feel herself gain more energy to shift out of bed and sit up. Nail polish and clutter fall off of her side table as she reaches for her phone. Vanessa groans.

Fine, I can just walk without a light. I should know where all my furniture is from memory.

Her feet immediately catch on a pile of laundry she'd been neglecting. "Shit," she whispers as she hops until she regains balance. Vanessa steps more carefully this time, successfully feeling for the door frame and switching the light on.

There's a faint.. sniffing kind of noise. Then it goes quiet.

"..Ness?"

Her heart beats faster as she jogs to Gregory's room, feeling for the walls. It's right at the end of the hall.

Gregory's 'room' (a room she once used for art and sewing crafting, now containing just a makeshift bed and spare furniture) was pitch black; save for Freddy charging on the desk beside his bed. The beam of his eyes allowed her to see just half of Gregory's face.

"Are you okay? Did anything happen?" she runs a hand through her untamed bedhead.

"Oh. Um, I just heard.. you walking around, so I wanted to make sure, uh, it was you. I'm a light sleeper, sorry." Vanessa noticed how Gregory sniffed in between some of his words. Her limited view of him appeared as if he was on edge. Scared.

"..You sure?"

He fidgets with his sweater sleeves.

"Yeah."

It had only been a week since Vanessa took in this stubborn, brave, creative kid. After five days of going through hell together in that mega mall. A hell that she took part in, god, maybe even orchestrated--

That wasn't me. It was never me. I got him out. We're safe.

She couldn't blame him for being so guarded. Especially towards her.

Ness leans on his doorframe. "Look, I um.." she pauses, unsure of where shes going with this.

"I would never want to discount how brave you are. You have ten times the courage I did at your age. But that doesn't mean... you're never scared."

Isn't that kind of contradictory?? She thinks. Gregory's eyebrows furrow; he's just as lost as Vanessa.

"Okay, I'm really sleep deprived. Crap." she mumbles. "What I mean to say is that I don't want you to be scared of being scared. You can.. talk to me about nightmares and stuff. You don't have to push down your fears anymore."

He doesn't respond, looking at the wall for a bit. Vanessa fidgets with her hair.

"It was about the animatronics," Gregory breathes out. "but y- Vanny wasn't there. I don't remember.. seeing her." He motions for Vanessa to come closer. She doesn't hesitate, sitting at the edge of the mattress.

"They chased me out of the pizzaplex doors, and then we were on that hill. But Roxy dragged me back and then I was in some kind of.. mirror maze? It was on fire, and I had to get low to the ground."

Vanessa listens intently. "But Monty started crawling after me, and he got my leg. Then they all started... Um. And then I saw that other rabbit in the mirror right before I woke up."

They both freeze.

"I don't know, the locations didn't make that much sense. But I could see every single detail of the characters. I could feel everything." His voice shakes, right before tears start to form.

Vanessa felt a pang in her heart. She had no idea whether to comfort him or let him come to that decision himself.

"...Could you stay in here for the night? Like, bring an extra mattress maybe.." he trailed off, wiping his eyes.

"Uh- of course. Yeah, I have a sleeping bag somewhere." she takes off to the hallway closet, leaving Gregory to sit and wait.

He stares into the corner of the room. Into the shadows. Something looks like it's there, but his brain knows it's nothing.

With nothing to do with his hands, he hugs one of his pillows. I wish Freddy didn't weigh a million pounds. He glances at the Glamrock Freddy plush sitting on the floor.

Gregory sighs, leaning over to grab it and fitting it into his arms.

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"Is this good now?" Vanessa asks, sitting up in her sleeping bag and attempting to read Gregory's face in the darkness. He nods, seemingly content and burrowing back into his blanket.

Vanessa smiles and makes herself comfortable.

"Tomorrow I could go out shopping for your room, if you want." She stares up at the ceiling, envisioning where she would go. "Maybe some glow in the dark stars? My ceiling was full of 'em when I was younger."

Gregory made a sound that seemed like "mhm." He sounded ready to fall asleep right there and then. Vanessa wondered if her being here made him feel more safe.

"Night, Nessa." he mumbled

"Night, Greg."

[digitalbackroomz]

Dear diaryblr....

last nite i had a super amazing thing happen 2 meh ;w; a friend i thought i lost irreversibly like 10yrz ago & i got back in contact TT_TT We cried & talked it out.

She even accepted my permaregression!! IKR?? I told her rlly ashamed dat i haven't matured & wuz honest bout mental health. I thought itd be a dealbreaker. U kno wut she said? I'll paraphrase:

"I'm relieved u haven't changed. I always liked u the way u were, & still do. I was worried YOU outgrew ME & would be disappointed i [insert her personal non-agere regressionz in life]"

;_; it turnz out what matters stayed the same. But some good thingz DID change, like the stuff keeping us apart. No matter how imperfect our livez are.

I guess wut im tryina say is....!

💖🌺💖UR REGRESSION DOESN'T= STAGNATION OR FAILURE 2 MATURE!!!💖🌺💖

as long as u live long enough 2 cross paths wif destiny.. even if ur 2 small & weak to seek it alone.... U WILL FIND OUT UR LOVED! U HAVE A FUTURE! A HAPPY ONE U MIGHT THINK IZ IMPOSSIBLE!!

Trust meh.... If a goober liek me does? u MEGA do!! >w<

HOPE-FILLED-ly urz!! 🌺~Traci🌺

i srsly love u guys. <3

[podfeels]

Podfeels Adapt8ion Notes: Episode 4

hello, dare again! just as a reminder for how these posts work, stagelights will be covering the notes as a whole, and if i ever have to pitch in it will be with purple text like this! with that said, lets get back into it!

this episode was sort of the first one we ever did, as the original demo for the project way back when (i think it was like 3 years ago now? how time flies) (yeah... its so crazy to look back on) was this episode. we did however make a few new adaptational changes, as well as re-recorded everything, as basically all of us have grown as actors since then. so before we get into the episode proper, we have an adaptational addition already!

at the beginning of each episode, we hear jess (as Narration and then june) saying the quote from the description of godfeels on ao3

these fuckers.

but since june has come out, we can’t just use the godfeels 2.1 one, and the godfeels 2.2 doesn’t necessarily fit. so we (actually i got sarah to do it!) wrote our own specifically for this episode. “My name is June Eg8ert, and now I know I’m human… but will my friends see it the same way?”

ok time for the actual episode

some fairly minor changes. i’m pretty sure the ellipses were meant to be there to help with direction for the actors but we kept them in in the scriptlog because i think they help add to the vibe of roses skepticism

this change was added to help sort of bring this in line with the epilogues. giving off the vibes she’s experiencing the symptoms she talks about in there. this part of the story takes place several months before the epilogues would have happened, so obviously it’s not as severe but its still present. 

line cut for pacing. id say less PACING and more just... sometimes narration things like this, her snapping her head, can be more cleanly conveyed in audio by just having it be incorporated into the performance. the narration described terse body language, so we nix that and deliver a terse performance!

more cut narration. at this point its kind of just routine lol

not necessarily a change but a very fun thing where junes voice and vriskas voice are layered for this line. this was actually also done with the call during the previous episode but i forgot to mention it.

more narration cuts. honestly though i have listened to this episode more than i’ve read the original version so i honestly didn’t even parse the “honestly rose” bit as a change until literally just now lmao. it flows so well that i genuinely thought it was there in the original

self explanatory. im running out of things to say.

the narration is replaced by door slam and party horn sound effects. champagne was specifically mentioned in the notes in the original google doc to be pronounced “sham-pag-in” which is probably a reference to a thing i dont get. YOU HAVENT WATCHED FUTURAMA!?!?!?

lotta cut narration. u kno the deal by now

another not-a-change but a line that gains a completely new context when combined with the actor swap. she quite literally does sound different. i think thats fun. according to sarah, that line was written back in the day with direct plans on it being in reference to her her, having played both john and june, taking a different performance when playing june. its just also taken on an even more stark meaning with having them be different actors, which i think is goddamn beautiful

just more instances of turning narration into stage directions and sound and emoticons into words and vocalizations

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so thats it covered! thank you to stagelights for doing the breakdowns for these episodes! check back tomorrow for episode 5's breakdown!

[senbons]

i saw a comment on ur fic about how we (ur humble followers) didn't really expect u to actually do an anal sex scene and i want u to kno that i also didnt believe it and honestly didnt see it w ur shikatema (where theyre such equals and she, usually, directs the sex). i didn't see how it could happen. but ur fic completely blew me away. i never thought it could be sexy without being fake (like porn) and it felt totally real. i guess im not asking a question (care to comment? lol) but just writing to let u kno it was important for me to read and ty for all the work u do for us

Hahahahaha it's so funny that that's true. I was serious! It was part of initial impetus (my desire to try writing it) for this story! I also feel like I would have wanted to read an anal sex story (i read a lot of gay ffn, but never a heterosexual, woman-receiving story) that captured a good experience and wasn't, as you said, porn-y. It's not just "easy and feels amazing". It takes a lot of time and patience and, for me, feels great, but isn't something I orgasm from (unlike in porn). And it takes a lot of trust in your partner (if you want it to be good). <- I'm not here to advocate for butt stuff and I know most readers probably have way way more experience in sex than me, but that's kind of where i was. I think I would've had a better experience the first time I did it if I'd read about it first in a genuine way (more than just google searching).

But the original comment was interesting and I thought about it a lot. It can definitely be degrading to women, and it was completely necessary that Temari be the one to propose it. Not him! And it needed to go slow with lots of consent and growing into full-blown penile penetration slowly.

Also (and another comment brought this up) it's also supposed to genuinely push how far their relationship has gone.

I imagine it being something she has always wanted to try (I think she's the type of person to never want to "not" be in-the-know... and so solely as a sexual exercise, she would want to try it). But would never have been close enough with a partner to do it. And if men proposed it, for the most part, I imagine she'd go "fuck you, you can't fuck me in my ass unless I can peg yours" on principle. And then with him she feels like she can take these steps when it comes to sex (and can show that vulnerability and trust that is, in a way, disguised by the sex... she can show it and receive it from him without saying anything explicitly about her feelings. yeah okay maybe anal sex is just a *diSGuIse* for her *fEEliNgS*).

anyway this is for sure the most vulnerable we've seen her since she asked for sex in the first place.

[nightguide]

NOBODY TOLD U DIS: that one yt gorl having a desi life is your series of unfortunate racism (u knew dis gorl had some form of racial polarity to you cuz of the way she looked is you in the end (unbecoming of a white heart attack is you being greedy over 'sensitivity issues' is ur mom being a whoroscope for using you (u getting married an out of here)

Jean Paul Gautier Couture Spring 2022

U KNEW THE RACIAL BIAS IN THAT DEROGATORY HUNCH FACT OF NOTRE FART

DIS IS FROM THE SHAM'S AL MA-ARAF U RACIST PIGGGG. NOW I KNO MY FANBASE IS STRAIGHT AND UR GAY

SUN (U RACIST GERIATRIC PIG)

1H: PEOPLE TELL YOU THE TRUTH

WITHOUT ME: U DEAD WITH A THOUGHT

2H: SIGNS ARE EVIDENT WITH A SHIT TO GIVE (YOU KNEW)

WITHOUT ME: DIE TRYING OR JUST EAT WHATS LEFT OVER OF YOUR LASST RELATIONSHIP UR BLACKMAILING UR DESI FRIEND TO LIVE FOR (SHE GOT MORE HOPE THAN U WILL EVER DO)

3H: UR DELULU SOLUTIONS IS ACTUALLY REAL (WINK WINK)

WITHOUT ME: .... BLESS UR HUMBLE HOME (LIKE A HOTEL), I WONT BE STAYING HERE LONG *JUDGES IT LIKE A PRINCESS OF HOLLYWOOD TO U... THE RAT*

4H: OXYGEN. YOU BREATHE OXYGEN (YOU CAN BREATHE EASY NOW (THE VIBE)

WITHOUT ME: UR OKAY WITH BEING FORGOTTEN, OKAY. NOT MY PROBLEM, I JUST FORGOT YOU BY ALGORITHM IF YOU SEEN MY MESSAGE THIS WAY OR ELSE YOU WOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING ABOUT IT (IN REAL LIFE... BY TOUCH.. INSTEAD OF YOU WHINING ABOUT WHINING CUZ U LIKE ME FOR THAT WHAT I DONT GOT (NAZAR LOGIC)

5H: YOU'RE UWU CUZ U CARE ABOUT WORLD PEACE AN IT SHOWS (U ON TV)

WITHOUT ME: I AIN'T YOU (VIBING WITH CELEBRITIES IS A REALITY AN IM GLAD I LEFT YOU BEHIND, BOOHOO NO 1 GONA MISS U)

6H: NEW TAYLOR SWIFT FAN (SHE HATES THOZZZEEEEE)

WITHOUT ME: EVERY OTHER MAN IS WHY YOU NEVER GOT (DOWRY AN UR FAMILY IS LIVING UNDERNEATH BENEFITS CUZ UR NET WORTH IS LIKE UR BO)

7H: YOU KNOW EVERYTHING (STAY KISSING OR PLAY THE PART: U IN THE TV HYPE TRAIN FRRRR)

WITHOUT ME: UR GRANNY DISSED U AN IT WAS PERSONAL

8H: DUBAI LUXE LIFE IS TRUTH (UR HEART IS THE VIBES NOW WHY YOU LIKE IT (U GOT A JOB AT LAST)

WITHOUT ME: UR HOME IS SHIT (PERSONALLY MY OPINION AN U AIN'T GONNA CHANGE CUZ HEART CHANGED ME TO WHY U THINK U OWNED MY LIFE NOW (CEE LO GREEN FARTED ON UR LUXURY DREAM LIFE ENERGY)

9H: UR MAN (NOTABLY WOMEN KNEW (ON A RUMOUR ALL THIS TIME) IS URS TO KEEP (WHY THE VILLAGE LIKED YOU)

WITHOUT ME: U STINK (STAY AWAY FROM MY SEX LIFE (UR TRUE SELF IS EXPOSED NOW THAT I KNOW A GUY/GIRL OF RELATIVE OF THE SAME DIMENSION OF THE REASON WHY I SHOULD LIVE LARGE OR THAT I LIVE WITHOUT YOU ENERGY)

10H: U KNEW WHY (THAT IS GONE)

WITHOUT ME: I AM ACTUALLY AT PEACE NOW (U LEAVE WHAT WAS LEFT OF ME CUZ U HAD A SIMILAR HEARTBREAK IN REALISING YOU LOST A FRIEND U KNEW FOR A LONG TIME CUZ OF THAT SAME ROLE YOU PLAYED TO UR FAMILY (HER RAW SELF) AN THEY DID NOT LIKE YOU IN WHY YOU WERE NEVER THERE FOR HER (SHE EITHER A) DISABLED AND MUTE BECAUSE SHE HAD A WAY IN TELLING YOU (ALL OF IT) AND YOU LAUGHED AT HER OWN LIFE FOR IT (LIKE HER OWN HOME CANNOT SUPPORT IT) AND U ROASTED HER GRANNY BY MOCKING HER ABILITY TO LIVE (SHE CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT HER APPEARANCE WHICH IS WHY YOU OVERSHADOWED HER LIFE AS A MUSLIM WOMAN IN PRACTICE (U LIVE IN HER FEET NOW)

11H: YOU GOT TECH IN THE FORM OF THAT ONE RICH BESTIE WHO LOVES YOU FOR THE SAME REASON WHY SHE BECAME YOU (LONG LOST BFFL WHO IS THE REPLACEMENT ADDICTION ENERGY TO LIFE)

WITHOUT ME: I AM HANGING OUT WITH (THE REASON WHY YOU'RE NOT ME) AND I HATE YOU FOR IT (WHAT YOU FEEL ON THE INSIDE IS ME HATING YOU FOR THAT REASON)

12H: YOU AIN'T CRAZY NO MO', WHAT YOU KNOW IS YOU FOREVERMORE (LIKE FAME IS VIRTUE IN YOU BEING THAT BADDIE U ALWAYS KNEW YOU WERE)

WITHOUT ME: DON'T READ MY INTERNET AFTER 'LYING' ON THE CAMERA FOR 'THAT ONE NIGHT' LIKE U NEVER HAPPENED, BE SCARED THAT U AIN'T FAMOUS FOR THAT *SKANK MOUTH U RAN THE ENTIRE TIME*

SO THIZZZ ZBICHZE (this bitch)

GLINDA: THOT FACE RUN THE COUNTRY (PAKISTANI GORL WHO IS ACTUALLY A WHITE GORL CARRYING A PAKISTANI FACE THE ENTIRE TIME IS WHY U HATED HER (SHE WAS U IN THE END)

ELPHABA: AUTISTIC GIANT WHO NOW IS THE METAPWHORE LIFE OF A WHITE GORL WHO IS A PAKISTANI GORL IN REAL LIFE (DUMB BLONDE AN SHE KILLED THE STEREOTYPE TO BE A BEAST OF THE BEAT THAT EVEN TAYLOR SWIFT LIKED HER FOR IT)

GLINDA ON ZI RED NAZI (RED CARPET)

SHE DON'T 8 IF SHE IS NOT A PAKISTANI GORL (LIKE THE HINT IS R9HT THERR)

MAKES KEANU REEVES LOOK LIKE A SLUTTTTT (HE FUCKS BULLETS, LIKE U CAN TELL CUZ THE ENERGY IS DISSING HIM R9HT BAK FOR THAT THOT SHIT CREATED THERE (PORNO FOR THE ABSENT MINDED DUMB-FUCZ)

GREEN IS THAT EVIDUHNT (SHE BEEN TO A DESI WEDDING 1 TIME, AN ITCHANGEDHERLIFE)

UR MOM IS A PIG AN I CAN TELL (ELPHABA DOES NOT EAT GELATINE)

SCHIZOPHRENIA MADONNA'S WHORE COMPLEX: SHAHADA HOW? (SHE LOOKI @ U)

THE GLARE: SHE CAN TELL WHAT UR DOIN BY UR OWN PHONE GEOMETRY (SHE TALKS LIKE SHE RAN ELPHABA'S CHILDHOOD BY THE DEAD BLACK DAD (U CAN TELL) MISERY BEING HER VIBING WITH TIANA (DISNEY PRINCESS) THAN U (SHE KNEW WHAT U UP 2) AN WILL SLUT SHAME BY THOT TALK (IN WHICH SHE CALLS 'HER SALAAM')

ENERGY HER FAMILY GIVES (SHE HAS NONE): SHE KNOWS A BITCH (ELPHABA POINTS OUT THE MUNCHKINS WHO DID HER DIRTY (DISHES NEED CLEANING IF U SELEB (CELEBRITY) ANAT

WHORE OVERALL (ELPHABA IS HER SLUT FRIEND FOR CONFIDENCE: SHE DON'T NEED NO' MAN TO NEED HER (ELPHABA KILLS THEM 4 IT): SHE MAKES U

SCHIZOPHRENIA HOLLYWOOD: 'AS LONG AS SHE (POOREST BFF NOW FAIMUS CUZOFTHAT (INTERNET HISTORY FOR WATTPAD WRITERS TO OOGLE OVER HER (HER CRUSHES NOW BEST FRIENDS) IS EVERYWHERE (ACTUALLY RUNS HOLLYWOOD LIKE A PRIMARY SCHOOL CLASSROOM,) NOBODY EVER GETS TO IUSE THE HOOVER EXCEPT ME (THE FUNNEST PART ABOUT BEING A 'TEACHER MOLE' TURNED PRESIDENT) I DECLAIRH THE RULES AND ITS FAC (SHE GOT IT ALL AN I AM HERE FOR IT: PERSONALLY READ THAT FOR HERSELF TO 'MOVE ON' LIKE SHE OWNED THE TITANIC MISANDRY)

SHUTHAFAKAP (ELPHABA IN REAL LIFE)

*GLARES IN POOREST ONE OF ALL*

*STAMPEDE FROM LION KING ENERGY* U SCARED FOR LYF (AN THAT PHILOSOPHY STIKS FOREVER (DAD SHAMED)

SCHIZOPHRENIA HATE: U DON FOR (SHE GODFATHER WITH JLO'S AMP AN GOT NO SHIZTS TO GIV (SHE AIN'T THERE NO MORE BUT U: HUNGER GAMES NOW)

SLUT (U GOT IT)

BITCH (U HAD IT)

*BABY COOS OVER THE WORLD OF A FALLEN FRIEND WITHOUT A HEARTBROKEN FELT TIP FOR A LAST STAND MOMENT (BOTH UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER NOW THAN THEN (FORGIVEN LIKE IT SHUD B)

[asterroses]

5, 7, 20, 22, 31, and 39 for odessa? for those rook asks you rbed earlier :)

i need u to kno i did heart hands at my pc screen when i got this LMFAO

5. What was life like for Rook before joining the Veilguard?

odessa's life was kind of . in the shit . considering she flunked her chance at becoming a full-fledged crow that she was banking on [she couldn't let it happen , though . the people were more important . but she does have regrets] , and she was kicked out of the only home she's ever had even if it hurt her more than nurtured her , so she was just kind of coasting . she was by herself which would've also been causing harm to her , as she's never done well all on her lonesome . most of it was disassociation , if you asked her what she was doing , all she'd bring up was varric recruiting her - solely because she cant really remember .

7. Why does Rook agree to join the Veilguard?

for something to give her purpose , and to prove herself . she needed to see for herself that she Can do something , and do it well , without fucking it up . and maybe she was hoping viago would somehow see , and allow her back home . the good thing about joining the veilguard was that she was present , and in the moment , instead of vaguely hovering . we dont talk about how it basically backfired - thats haunting her every step to the point she's refusing to sleep .

20. What’s it like to see them smile? Their laugh?

odessa's smile is cute ; its more of a smirk , a raise of the corner than a smile , but enough that her front teeth show . its something that hasnt really changed since she was little , and her laugh lines are much more noticeable with a smile . she snorts more than she laughs , and its more of a cackle , and its really easy to make her laugh . she loooves jokes , even making her own no matter how terrible they are .

22. Most embarrassing memory as a teenager:

truly she has many to choose from ; most of which were witnessed by viago . one she claims was the most embarrassing was her falling from one of the ziplines into the canal . which was also when viago realized she never learnt how to swim and had to fish her out of there himself . and also when he realized she didnt know how to use the ziplines . that was certainly a time for both of them . and totally not in the presence of many other fledgelings . some that definitely let her forget [they dont let her forget ; heir lets her know shes not the only one who has done it , though]

31. What specialization does Rook pursue? What called them to it?

duelist ! she's been trained more with daggers most of her life , she knows how to dodge , how to avoid , and how to hit Hard . she couldn't see herself being anything but what a crow Should Be . its been ingrained into her . she loves being a duelist , to be honest . is it because she's been read stories abt dashing , mysterious and troubled rogues ? and now she is one ? Maybe So . she will never admit it , though . [yes she will . she has multiple times . shes a bad liar]

39. What is their room at The Lighthouse like?

its very eclectic - which fits her . theres an antivan coffee maker that she bought at the cafe , theres a lute she's trying to remember how to play when she's not so tired , theres sketches of wings on her walls , and a plant in a terrarium on one of her small tables , maybe because she was thinking of lace when she bought it , and how she'd like to grow plants someday . the floor is messy , various articles of belts and holders scattered about . she has a hard time staying in the room , as she doesnt want to sleep , but she tries to spend as much time , so that the fish dont get lonely . shes named them all , too , and gets stressed thinking about how they're fed with glass up to the ceiling and no fish-food designated spot . she thinks solas cruel , for that .

[legendaryskeletonpicklewolf]

Hi! I enjoy your work and I was hoping if you could write a Handsome Jack x reader, make it fluff if possible. The reader’s close friend/family member passed away or was killed and Jack tries EVERYTHING to cheer them up. I hope you have a great day/great night!

OMG I LOVE THIS IDEA!!also thank u for your submission 💗

Y/n was at work stocking shelves when she got a call from their mom they were suprized but answered the call "hey mom" "hey y/n...I have some bad news about your father" and that's when their blood went cold, their mother told them that their father had passed last night from a heart attack y/n was in shock their eyes started to tear up, the phone call went on for another hour before y/n hung up. They hung their head and cried y/n loved their father dearly they wiped their tears and finished their shift before heading home for the day.

(Time skip to y/n walking home)

They opened the door "I'm home!" Jack pokes his head around the corner before running up and hugging them "I missed u so much" He squeezes them tightly he kisses them softly on the cheek "it's nice to be home" y/n looked sad there was no denying it jack noticed this "you okay pumpkin your not acting like yourself?" Y/n walks into the bedroom..which leaves jack confused 'did I do something wrong?' He thought. Jack follows y/n to the bedroom "hey I was talk you, you kno-" they walk out of the bedroom into the kitchen it's like they were ignoring him..on purpose he grabs their hand "hey y/n I'm talking to you!" Y/n looks at him and starts to cry hugging onto him like a lifeline "he's gone jackie and I never got to say goodbye...I should have called more often" he's confused but he hugs them back "who are u talking about?" "My dad he died last night..my mom called me at work today she told me what happened"

He hated seeing them like this so he picked them up and carried them to the couch "I'm so sorry for your loss pumpkin...were u guys close?" They shake their head 'no' jack frowned he turned on the TV and put on their favorite movie y/n falls asleep in jacks arms he gets up and lays them down on the couch 'okay this is my chance' jack takes the keys to the house and leaves.. he's outside now it's so fresh so windy it's so free he hadn't been outside in a while he stands there for a moment before running off he stopped at a store close by he grabbed a basket and started to look around. He found a lamb plushie it looked cute y/n would love it, he got them some candy their favorites of course and then he passed by the bakery section and saw costumizable cakes and he had an idea.

Jack waited for the cake to be done they said it wouldn't take long, a lady comes out 30 minutes later and hands him the cake he says "thanks" and puts it in the cart. Jack got in one of the lines to pay and leave the puts the items on the counter "find everything u need today?" Asks the cashier "yep and a little more than I intend to" he chuckles. He pays scrounging up the money that he "borrowed" form people in the store and leaves walking back home and carefully opens the door to the apartment he shuts and locks the door quietly as possible and sets all the gifts down in the bedroom he places them all in a basket that he picked out for them. He walk out to the kitchen adding the details to the cake and leaving it on the counter for them to wake up to and putting the basket next to the cake before he went back to the couch and rested y/ns head in his lap again petting it softly.

A couple minutes later y/n wakes up looking up at jack "morning pumpkin..I guess more like good night? Idk it's night time now" "mm morning jackie" y/n kisses jack on the cheek he blushes slightly "oh I made dinner I made pasta jack grabs y/n hand and shoes them what he made "looks good huh? " "It looks actually delivered jack thank you" y/n smiles "oh and I got you this" jack show them the gifts and cake he got them y/n was taken back a little

"Wow jack w-wait what does the cake say"

(This is the cake he got y/n)

Y/n reads it "sorry about ur dead dad...huh well um alright...thank u" y/n looks over to jack "really thanks for the cake jack" "your not mad at me right...right y/n?" "No jackie I'm not mad let's eat some cake and dinner and go back to bed doesn't that sound nice?" kisses his cheek "that sounds perfect" "oh! Oh but I got u this too!" Jack shows them the basket ge made for them" they smile at hem "omg it's adorable I love the lamb so much thank u" "No problem hun I just wanted to make u smile" "where did u get all this from?" The room went silent

"Jackie....where fid u get the mobey for all this" " i um borrowed sone money from local strangers in the area im sure they wont mind" they shruge it off. Time passes y/n and jack finish their dinner and have some cake putting rest of it in the fridge they both got into their pjs and snuggled together "goodnight jack" "goodnight cupcake".....

@michaelstoast

[videostak]

my mom had her first instance of driving dangerously to wear every1 in the car was scared n saying she was swerving a ton and where she says she had no idea. I already made a vow to never be in the car w/ her rly at all unless its very specific circumstances like family gathering or smthn unavoidable like tht so i wasnt in the car when it happened but its kinda scary its entering tht territory now but shes only get worse n worse it seems or atleast go back n forth between getting better and a new much worse. She says it was cause of some medication she was taking but no one rly trusts her anymore so it could be that or drinking like usual im rly glad or u kno atleast made the right choice to not talk to her anymore cause the shit i hear her do is so pathetic like she'll guilt trip my siblings to spend time with her watching shows almost always the office when she sounds drunk and very much implies that she'll go to her room to drink if they say no but its moot cause when they are nice to her she still goes to drink the moment some1 takes her eyes off her n then starts gaslighting every1 saying shes not drinking anymore its real embarrassing to hear. She also watches the office so much its like 10 times worse then her watching reality tv cause its like rotting her brain or shes just watching it so much that none of it even registers to her anymore n its this weird gross background noise she always has on while also like worshipping it tiday she was being weird to my little sister when she expressed discomfort n i could tell my mom was rly trying hard to get a free pass by acting the way steve carrell acts on it then asking my older sister if shes funny. Ewww. I kinda get a lil sad at work thinking abt it all its something ive moved on n just observe whenever its in front of me but i di get a bit sad thinking while at work how she was once a good parent n presumably a good person too like she did raise me for real n i think how sad it is how just overtly pathetic n groveling for attention she now is and how apparent her intentions n manipulative behavior is always on display. Like genuinely a lost cause how she'll write iff any and everything n just lie to herself n every1 n then play victim when ppl confront her abt literally anything. Like its weird i legit do not talk to her at all or even make eye contact and i think how ppl would say stuff like "well youll miss her when shes gone" but its like shes already gone basically cause theres no one there worth talking to or even entertaining like shes just a weird shell of a person at this poiny who refuses help from all directions n just screws any1 over that she can for the most temporary validation from whoever happens to be infront of her at that particular moment

[jakowskis]

Day 23 - Discuss Tosh. Opinions? Favorite moment? Least favorite moment? Any unpopular opinions? Any fun headcanons?

tosh my babygirl my princess light of my life angel darling… shes so good. shes so good 🥺 i love her dearly. she’s so damn underutilized i hate how the show regulates her to a supporting role + only uses her for romantic plots. WACK shes so much more than that. i want a plotline about her cyberterrorism like hello??? i want a plotline about her warped little mind.. i want a plotline about her finally learning spanish ;-; that show did not do her justice and it did not deserve her. i often say torchwood’s characters are too good for the show; tosh is probs the best example of that. no other character gets screwed over as badly as she does by the narrative (not even ianto!) she’s so tragic and lonely i just wanna give her the biggest hug ever. 

fav moment… every time she smiles. (or smirks. hrgh. tosh call me.) also every time she geeks out about smth. im tryna think of a specific moment but idk if i have one?? i just love her overall i smile every time she’s on screen she’s my girlie. when i rewatch i might rmr one though

least favorite moment, the absolute only thing i can think of (hell, my only complaint with her as a character other than i wish she’d get over owen cuz bad taste queen pls u deserve sm better) - it’s always bothered me how she goes over to owen’s flat in aditd and just starts babbling about her own problems. she even says something like “you think everything’s about you”, and in that ep it’s like ??? why are they all acting like he’s unjustified being miserable and angry when he's fucking dead?? like they're all so unsympathetic and mean, even tosh, and out of her it's especially weird?? tbh it just strikes me as ooc (+ kind of misogynistic highkey) writing. i mean, by all means, let tosh bitch, she deserves to blow off some steam + esp deserves to be rude to owen tbh fhsdkjfsd, but the way it’s done in that particular moment feels ooc and, like, how men write women as talking too much and never listening lmao u kno what i mean (owen’s tuned out in the actual episode but you can see her full ramble in the original script, on page 23). tosh has never troubled anyone with her issues before, why would she choose now to, and when she knows owen’s struggling? yeah, on second thought, i don’t hold that against her actually, that’s ooc to me fhdkf. thts just the writer being a wiener.

my only unpopular opinions (slash hot takes) are that 1) towen fucking SUCKS get her away from him, and 2) most people like tosh but she’s highkey underappreciated, esp in fanfic, because of fandom racism + misogyny. she’s not bashed like gwen is but she’s ignored completely which is nearly as bad, and a lot of it’s cuz she happens to be in a show with two white men in a gay relationship who are overwhelmingly prioritized 💀 i will never not be petty about the way that ship dwarfs everything else in comparison. also throwing towen into the background of janto is so gross n cheap. if ppl cared abt her they'd do smth more interesting. and it's never well-done either. ugh.

i have a few hcs that are gonna end up in my owento verse (gwen and tosh are prominent characters in it bc i love them, and their relationships w owen and ianto and each other also have value lawl). tbh a lot of em are just things i think they should introduce into their lives to be happier. i want them happy ;-;

she starts coding video games recreationally!! nothing fancy but she rlly enjoys it + also gets into the swing of making little storylines n getting to express herself that way which is good for her. owen playtests shit for her

her and gwen go on spa dates sometimes. they put it on the torchwood credit card

she gets into fish tanks and fish tank care!!! esp like aquarium plants. shrimp and moss balls, that sort of thing. maybe plecos or loaches. she loves it + it’s grounding, which is good for her bc shes otherwise always got her head in her computers yanno. she’ll sit by her tank while she codes her games and the water sounds are calming. 

she also sits by it while she studies her spanish books which she does finally do. she doesn’t get around to the piano, though; doesn’t prioritize buying a keyboard. maybe one day (this is a nobody dies au btw so she will in fact eventually get around to it ;-;)

oh she’s autistic have i said that. the fish tanks absolutely become a spin. she has a few we know of from canon - math and computers, obviously, but also history (gbg) and the uk’s rivers (from gooseberry; i think it was just the uk maybe it was europe’s rivers. or the world’s! i don’t remember). she also loves trivia like she knows a fair amount about quite a lot of things + loves accumulating random info

lowkey also. giving her a kitty. i think tosh should have a lil fuzzy kitty to keep her company 

well this is smth from my owandy verse but i think it should happen anyway. so it kind of kicks off bc gwen mixes up a blind date (it was gonna be tosh & andy and then owen & a friend of hers, but shes an adhd icon n bungles the invites <3)... tosh ends up with gwen’s friend, who’s straight, but they hit it off and she invites tosh to have drinks or maybe come to a bookclub meet or something with some friends of hers?? point is, tosh makes some casual friends. maybe meets a pretty girl there or smth 👁️ but mainly i want tosh to have girl friends like i think she grew up very lonely i want her to have some normalcy

also sometimes i like tosh x andy maybe they have a little meet cute at a torchwood crime scene or smth fshdkfd. i think they’d be cute and he’d treat her well. she'd babble abt tech stuff and he wouldnt understand a damn word but he'd listen very intently

i also like tosh x ianto for similar reasons. i think it’d be a kind of friends to lovers sitch... they should just be close in general tbh, platonically or not yanno, and in my owandy verse i like the idea of smth kicking off between them i just think theyd be so sweet

she’s a very sleepy drunk and also a lightweight. if the team goes out to drink she’ll get two glasses of smth moderately fruity and then fall asleep against someone’s shoulder it’s very cute (this is just cuz i like the idea of a sleepy tosh 🥺 my baby my baby shes so precious to meee)

[zayn-darkshadow]

OC TRANSFEMSWAGBRACKET POGOGANDA. :bangbang:

introducing teh girl ever :

filip quarzen!! (she did NOT change her name post transition LOL. luv her) 

she is trans in universe and out!! in the way where she was litterally originally a little gay boy and then i HIT HER WITH MY TRANSGENDERISM LAZERS!!!!! and now shes a little gay boy who is also a girl. 

personality wise, she’s a silly gal who loves puzzles, musicals, and puppets! on a cursory glance she may seem shy and unconfident in herself and her abilities- and while the later is true, she can actually be very outgoing and bold! mostly motivated by a love of theater, she can be /extremly/ melo dramatic (a famous quote of hers slash catchphrase being “darkest day, coldest night!” at licherly any minor inconveince. shes SO silly!!!!!!!) she also has a tendancy to be sarcastic and a bit rude- since she does NOT have ANY patience. 

unlike her (also ery transfem swagger having) friend luna, filip does NOT care abt rules. her fave thing to do is to CHEAT and BREAK THINGS and FIND LOOP HOLES!! which makes luna want to rip her head off. (they are best friends and also enemies they were not destined to meet and their distance cannot be blamed on fate but merely the poor actions they enacted in their youth that they will pay for in the blood of their own bond for the rest of their lives) and its FUNNY. 

if she existed irl she would’ve made 8 billion bots to vote for vriska on the tumblr woman poll and would be SO MAD when she lost. 

her backstory is also SO transgender coded if u think aboat it. like. her whole THING is that shes the bastard child of this really famous dude, and the famous dude has like. an actual son with his actual wife. so filip n his half brother end up going to the same prestigious school together n it gives filip SUCH horribke imposter syndrome. something something the horrible feeling of looking at the desk beside yours and seeing someone you could never be. seeing someone you wish you could be not because you want to be a man but because you wish you were cis bc then maybe. well maybe nothing would change at all, huh? but maybe you would be happier. he seems so much happier than you. why wouldnt he be? 

and if this sounds super sad and depressing it IS its SAD but she does get a happy ending i promise but it happens LATER and she goes thru SO MUCH furst and im so sorry filip. hopefully putting u in a tswag bracket will make u feel better abt the. uh. everyfin.....

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