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Inspired by a bizarre argument I had on reddit,
I think the question comes down to whether the word "treatment" encompasses strategic behaviors for lessening negative outcomes that result from ADHD symptoms or if treatments are meant to alleviate the symptoms themselves.
#adhd#I don't expect to get many replies#but having dozens of strangers confidently tell me that making a list is a treatment#like I associate treatment with medical intervention#if making lists is a treatment#I've been self-treating since I was 10#like I got away with my ADHD for a long time because I had so many strategies for dealing with my symptoms#but it didn't mean I didn't have ADHD#it just meant other people weren't having to deal with the drawbacks of my ADHD#so it the treatment for me or for others#is the root or the outcome the thing that needs intervention#does this matter on more than a philosophical level?#anyway
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JUST GOT DIAGNOSED WITH PTSD🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 TRAUMA GANG RISE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 RAAAAAHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK IS A NORMAL CHILDHOOD 🦅🦅🦅🎆🎆🦅🦅🦅🎆🎆🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅
#OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH SAY CAN YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY THE DAWNS EARLY LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII#spacie spoinks#wow it turns out im not just making it up!!#chat this is a hashtag SLAY#i was diagnosed with. a laundry list of other things too we wont get into that#she asked me how i felt abt getting my diagnosis' and i said ''it was what i expected pretty much''#KSHFKSDJFHS#im happy b/c now i can get treatment yay!
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dust with a fucked up savior complex save me dust with a fucked up savior complex SAVE ME!!!! he's literally sooo savior complex coded. he killed his underground to "save" everyone and stop the human from killing them. he thinks that it's better that he does the murdering instead of the human because he has better intentions. he's sad at the beginning (rightfully so) but savior complex dust really gets so much cooler when you add in the fact that dust eventually started to LIKE killing his underground 😭😭 like just..... imagine a manic dust who's gone mad going around claiming he's helping everyone with what he's doing when he's really,,,, not. soo cool.,,, (like dude how are you SAVING people if they don't exist after you've killed the person who was killing them. there is nobody to be safe but yourself anymore) (can you tell this was inspired by the one comic of dust killing his papyrus and saying "it was better if i did it" or something)
but also also on the other hand,,,,, revenge fueled dust??? he's gotten SO bitter from the repeated resets and genos that he's genuinely bitter enough to risk it all to stop the human. he doesn't have pure intentions in this one. dust doesn't claim he's saving anybody with what he's doing murdering them all. he KNOWS it's bad and wrong and hypocritical but he does it anyways because he wants to not only stop the human but to make them suffer. he purposely wants them to keep coming back after killing them just so he can kill them over and over and over and have them experience a fragment of the suffering he did with having all of his friends and family killed. but i think a revenge fueled dust (in contrast to savior complex dust) would be a lot cooler if he still felt shitty for killing everyone. it's painful to do but hate is stronger than love and dust's hate for the human is MUCH stronger than his love for the underground atp
#oooffff dust sans.... you are such an amazing CONCEPT!!!!#his au is so vague and barely elaborated on that its just so amazing for coming up with any sort of idea for. I LOVE IT I LOVE IT#these are all just different motivations for dust. salvation vs revenge#because really all dust is is sans kills underground to stop human. there is no other elaboration aside from some small pieces#dust sans is peak representation of the utmv and why it's great because#u can come up with cool ideas like this and still have it be semi canon esque#nothing will ever truely be canon unleas its from ask dusttale themselves but that just allows for cooler creativity :3#i love making dust a little more crazy that i perceive him to be#he's DEFINITELY the most mentally stable one of the mtt but once in a while let him be a freak too#mentally unwell mtt tier list from best to worst goes dust horror killer#horror is fucked up too but he has conscience and empathy and is partially environmentally affected#but killer just has too much going on with him that's fucked up that there is NO DAMN WAYYY he is any better than dust or horror#killer needs to be sent to the insane asylum and given the white room treatment (just like error!)#hey so that first concept of dust with a savior complex is ABSOLUTELY what inspired savior#i saw the idea of dust with savior complex and decided to give that to killer to make dust!killer. lookie at that#ohhhh is this a rant or hc????#i have too many damn interpretations of the mtt for me to call EVERYTHING a hc when its not#tricule rant#dust sans#murder time trio#bad sanses#bad sans gang#nightmare's gang#utmv#sans au#i have 40 fucking drafts and yet i am not posting majority of them. what is wrong with me#and like 10 of them are dust based 😭😭😭 another 10 are horror based 😭😭😭 just post the damn drafts triglycercule!!!!!#nooo but the ideas aren't cool and only i would like them.... i say as i post this
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Thinking about how tf did Nagito knew about Ryoko.
He never canonically meets her, and we never hear or see him and Matsuda meet (ik he has dementia and thats Matsudas specialty, but he has never made a refrence to his treatment, let alone that matsuda is his doctor, which is weird bc chihiro makes a refrence to him and hes refrenced on hajimes page of the artbook). Also he includes the a Madarai brother chilling with them.
But then i think about the dr0 refrences he makes in sdr2.
one of his loved gifts is ryoko's notebook. Damaged, of course, but hes the only one who loves it, nobody even likes it (Not even Mikan). But he also makes a comment during a FTE that hes been reading a novel where a highschool girl is caught up in a serial killer case, but turned out to be the killer in the end. Which sounds alot like Dr0.
Which makes me think, did he read Ryoko's Notebook when Junko died?
She does keep the notebook, stated on the last chapter of Dr0. So she would still have it, and Nagito did go to the school for her hand, so he could’ve easily gotten it. He could’ve then read it, knowing what had happened and learning about Ryoko and Yasuke. Also why he includes the Madarai brother when there would be no connection outside of dr0.
#dr0#scarposts#know im gonna get push back from the nagito matsuda shippers on that one#but i genuinely dont believe that they met#i feel like if the did it would be refrenced *somewhere*#also does not seem like hes seeing alot of actual patience considering hes fucking around with ryoko#getting harassed by the steering committee#and doing bullshit for junko outside of ryoko#bro is never doing research#that last one is for the joke but i still dont see them meeting#also i feel like its stated or heavily implied he isnt getting treatment for his condition#which looking at his world view makes alot of sense#he doesnt need a doctor he can rely on luck#anyway#dont know how mikan feels about the notebook#its not on her love or like list but i cant find the other lists#god forbid you find information on this fucking seires#Genuinely starting to piss me off
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Based and right
#my incredibly based marriage candidates tier list#penny feels like such a male gaze damsel in distress tradwife fantasy I’m sorry I just can’t#and Sebastian screams at his mother and mistreats his sister???#if you haven’t watched Fiona sangsters video ab Maru you should because she makes POINTS about how ableist and lowkey racist#the fandoms treatment of Demetrius and Maru is#also Shane I love but he doesn’t DO anything after marriage#idc if he drinks but I wish he had a job or something#stardew valley#sdv harvey#sdv abigail#sdv alex#sdv elliott#sdv emily#sdv haley#sdv leah#sdv maru#sdv penny#sdv sebastian#sdv shane#sdv sam
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“That mummy guy has such a cool character design I’m so disappointed that he’s a disgusting person”
“I feel bad for being interested in his character bc of his actions 🥺👉👈”
“If you like him that means you simp for him and that you’re sick and evil-”
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#I can’t stand when they say person like mf he’s not a person#he’s a fictional character. a drawing. fucking lines on paper.#there’s nothing wrong with liking him as a character#his character was not wasted you just don’t like how it was used#you don’t have to say I don’t condone his actions it should be fucking obvious without a disclaimer#shoujo tsubaki#midori: shoujo tsubaki#mr. arashi's amazing freak show#midori: the camellia girl#also semi off topic but I’m new in the berserk fandom#and apparently Griffith gets the same treatment as Muchisute#I once saw someone throwing a tantrum on an ig comment section for cosplaying as Griffith#‘omg why are you cosplaying a bad person😡😡😡!!!’ like ctfd Emily#he’s not real#like literally touch grass#liking Griffith or muchisute doesn’t mean that u simp for them#and even then who tf cares???#I could make a list of anime characters that yall simp for despite them being awful irredeemable monsters#god damn hypocrites#anti bs#pro fiction#antis are hypocrites#antis are fucking stupid
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Lower Decks was my "Wow, sometimes Star Trek is Good!" moment, and now I'm watching TNG (from the beginning, so I know it gets better) and getting to experience the crucial oppositional emotion of, "Wow. Sometimes Star Trek. is Bad."
#add me to the very long list of people ready to throw hands over the treatment of Tasha Yar#to boldly split infinitives#(this is not an 'i am going to stop watching' kind of Bad#i like classic doctor who i know what older scifi is like#but boy howdy they sure make some Choices)
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I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up don’t need to live with that. don’t let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if there’s a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and it’s symptoms all-together, unless there’s a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that “birth control” is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious
#kibumblabs#I remember being in late high school and my doctor suggesting it because of how terrible my dysphoria/related depressive episodes related to#menstrual cycle shit is. and like. im not saying it was a flawless transition but good god im serious it changed my fucking life#not to the extent testosterone would but it was still like. a Big Deal#because I was like. what the fuck. I’ve been suffering through this shit for years. and no one told me this was a thing? we’re all just#expected to suffer? because it’s ‘Normal’????#this whole time I could just. turn the bleeding off. or at least Down. turn off the debilitating breast soreness and swelling. etc.#anyway im not sure why im thinking about this but#i guess every time i hear someone (without any known health issues that’d interfere) like ah time for my monthly Week Of Pain And Misery#i want to shake them by the shoulders like. YOU DONT NEED TO LIVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE AWARE OF THIS.#and yes i know it doesn’t work for everyone or sometimes there’s side effects that make it not worth it or what have you#but for a huge huge huge amount of people. they just don’t know it’s an option. because it’s labelled Birth Control. and because there’s#this long-standing quiet fear mongering about it that makes it seem more dangerous and sinister and promiscuous than it is#similar in a lot of ways to other stigmatized hormone treatments. like. well. you know#doesn’t help that when you first get your prescription it comes with the worlds biggest list of Potential Issues (most of which are either#minor temporary or unlikely)#grahhghhhhhhhhh anyway. on a seperate but related note shout out to my fellow tboys who either didn’t have their periods totally stop on t#or (like in my case) they came back after like Years for whatever reason and that had to be dealt with via supplementary contraceptives#cw menstruation
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Testosterone gave me confidence, and that confidence allowed me to put my audacity to good use.
I’ve been joking with my friends that “I now have the audacity of an army of cis men”. Some other symptoms of testosterone include:
“Brave stupidity” such as knowing I will not be able to tolerate Carolina Reaper hot sauce and still eating it anyway (and somehow roping in another [cis] guy into doing it without making fun of his masculinity)
“Cut off all the sleeves of my t-shirts” to show off my nonexistent arm muscles
“H o r n y” That is amusing as it is annoying considering I am asexual and have no desire to fuck anyone regardless of how much I love them romantically
And last but not least: Actually having a semblance of energy to get up and be happy about my life (amazing what gender affirming care will do).
#i hear trans men all the time saying “things I didn’t know would happen when I start testosterone#but then the list is all the things I got told about THREE TIMES during my informed consent meeting#so here are some things that are a bit silly that have actually happened to me after I started testosterone#as of making this post I am two weeks on T!#lgbtq#transgender#trans#testosterone#hrt testosterone#hrt#hormone replacement treatment#hormone replacement therapy#informed consent
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15 to 420 for Miranetra :3
here, baby, only a month late:
15. What is their "Get rich quick" scheme? Only Fans. It doesn't work.
16. Who is the maximalist and who is the minimalist? 🧜🏻♀️ Fisherwoman!Anetra is very sentimental, and keeps a few reminders of thoselong gone. Her grandfather's coat, her grandmother's knife, the fishing nets her father knit, the angel callers her mother made. Anything else in her small house is purely necessary. Mermaid!Mirage, on the other hand, becomes fascinated by human artifacts and starts several collections. She likes bottle caps of different colors and keeps a box of corks, purely because she likes the texture. Anetra brings her something every day from the market, bracelets and necklaces and beads that Mirage braids in her hair. One day, Mirage learns that plants canbe brought inside, and Anetra stops being able to see the walls of the house.
17. What is their ideal vacation like? Mirage gets very intrigued by the mountains. She wants to walk through clouds. Anetra has never been that far from home and it sounds fun, if complicated. She wonders how much money it would cost to buy the silence of a carriage driver who could take them all the way up the mountains and keep quiet about Mirage's tail.
18. Who would get seasick? Neither!
19. If they were stuck somewhere, who would suggest walking and who would be dialing up a ride? Switching to Fake Dating AU, where rides and phones exist: They stayed out clubbing and missed the last train. The next bus won't come for an hour. A cab's a bit expensive, and Anetra could easily walk home in his comfortable boots, but not with Mirage complaining about her high heels every two minutes until he offers to carry her on his back. Plus, it's cold, and he brought a jacket but Mirage did not, and he knows how that ends. So, cab it is.
420. Vape, joints, or edibles? Vapes are so deeply unsexy that I'm banning them from all my fics. Fake dating: They learn to smoke together (and to hide it from their parents). They completely cut it out once Anetra's parents kick him out of the house and Mirage's parents take him in (out of respect for the house, but also fear that it would make the Amuros kick him out too). He starts smoking again once he moves out, and she mostly smokes from his supply but brings him edibles as special treats sometimes.
#asks#petitmonde#miranetra#mirage gets princess treatment in fake dating even way before they start dating#this was fun eli ty for making this list and for sending these!#fake dating au#the mermaid and the fisherwoman#idr the tag uwu#d#m#writing tag
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some of my interests and hobbies in no particular order
evolution, taxonomy and natural history
eusocial insect behavior (and animal behavior in general)
ttrpgs (particularly Exalted 3e but other stuff as well)
indie comics and graphic novels (and webcomics!)
videogames (mostly Caves of Qud and Pokemon)
keeping pet rats
finding and exploring niche art spaces online
looking at cool architecture (like going up to it and walking around)
vintage+historical furry culture
weird fiction and horror
bone collecting and vulture culture
drawing and cartooning
hunting and fishing (though i dont get many chances to do these)
hiking and backpacking (god i wish i backpacked more often)
swallowing sludge
#no reason for this list other than i was asking myself earlier 'ok if you had to make a list of things you were into enough to be notable'#'what would it look like?'#the architecture one sounds understated compared to the rest but it isn't. i go walk the perimeter of the water treatment plan for fun
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Me: *is sad that body is being Uncooperative(TM)*
My brain: don't be sad, go get a tattoo! 🎵
Me: brain. Did you FORGET. That we are STILL DOING THE TATTOO REMOVAL THING. *points emphatically at blistered leg from laser treatment 2 days prior*
My brain: *shocked pikachu face*
Aka:
I want to deal with chronic illness shit by doing body mods, but the body mods must be done in ORDER and I'm NOT DONE WITH THE REMOVAL YET
#i have a tattoo that i don't like the composition of#and i wanna change it#so i need to get it lightened enough to tattoo over#i am 7 treatments in and it SUCKS SO MUCH#i stg#dont get a tattoo unless you're sure you like it#because removal? hurts SO MUCH MORE than getting it in the first place#my health is acting up#i had to add another medication to my list#and im just in general not dealing well with it#and what's the cure for feeling like your body is changing out of your control?#making a change thats in your control of course!#but then. you know. see above.#and im 3 months out from getting surgery#so getting any custom work would not really work timing wise#bc i am not going to do surgery recovery and tattoo aftercare at the same time#but simultaneously. I DONT WANNA WAIT MONTHS FOR THIS COME ON
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Okay, no, sorry, I’m still mad about this. “Be critical of the media you consume and examine why you react to it in the way that you do, support marginalized and stigmatized identities.” Yeah, until it’s about mental illness.
A woman (or even man, if he’s deemed over-emotional) makes music about suffering from mental illness and people just go, “What are they complaining about, that’s so immature, hashtag wangst.” (And then, sometimes, inexplicably, if the mentally ill woman gets better and writes happier music, they then talk about how artistically bankrupt she is now and that she should go back to hating herself.) People LOVE cis white pRoBLeMaTiC (straight) fictional men until they are realistically mentally ill, in which case they’re “whiny” and “insufferable” and deserve to die violently, apparently (or, if fandom is merciful, they’re ignored). (And then they celebrate when they DO inevitably get killed off.) “Do your duty and watch [thing I, mc13, personally find insufferable] For The (white) Gays because it has Gays.” Sure, will you watch c4 Pure, the ONLY show specifically about OCD, then? (No, the answer is no, it’s always no.)
I can’t get anyone to watch Doom Patrol. I couldn’t get people (in general-I did convince a few irl friends thank GOD) to watch Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. One of the most popular and acclaimed shows right now has a character with schizophrenia who was turned into the Big Bad Villain for no fucking reason. One of the most commonly-cited examples of Iconic™ queer media involves a mentally ill man being broken over and over and over again before The Ship™ can reasonably happen. DW introduced a major character who was at one point suffering from mental illness in her past, AND THEN ALL MENTION OF THIS WAS COMPLETELY DROPPED IN THE FUTURE, WITH NO BEARING ON ANYTHING TO THE POINT WHERE I FORGOT IT EVEN EXISTED??!?!? R*tched was a thing that existed despite the Sad Sympathetic Backstory treatment being IN DIRECT CONTRADICTION OF WHAT PURPOSE THIS CHARACTER SERVED IN One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest. THEY GAVE. A SAD WOOBIE VILLAIN TREATMENT. TO THE /LITERAL PERSONIFICATION/ OF ABLEISM. THAT IS HER FUNCTION. TO EXIST AS A SYMBOL OF ALL THE WAYS SOCIETY OPPRESSES THE DISABLED AND MENTALLY ILL.
I am!!! Literally!!!!! The only one!!!!!!!!! Complaining about these things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one else has said ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one is talking about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#*OBLIGATORY COMMENT ABOUT HOW REPRESENTATION/FICTIONAL DISABILITY IS NOT THE END ALL BE ALL OF ACTIVISM*#*OTHER OBLIGATORY COMMENT ABOUT HOW LIKING '''pRoBLeMaTiC''' CONTENT DOES NOT MAKE YOU A BAD PERSON OR A HORRIFYING ABLEIST*#THIS WAS JUST ME GETTING MAD IT'S NOT THAT DEEP#In the Vents#the real horror was the ableism we found along the way#like. in some of these cases yes I /KNOW/ it was not meant to come across like that!!! but y'all accept that as a valid type of media#criticism when it's about anything else!!!!!!!! just not this apparently????!?!!!!#I do not understand how there is such an ABYSMAL treatment of the subject of mental illness in fiction when this is the#memetic Mental Illness Website like genuinely I do not get it I am scaling my walls and banging pots and pans and growling like a rabid dog#IF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT THE MESSAGE A STORY IS TELLING YOU GOTTA APPLY IT HERE TOO#I AM ALSO THE LAST PERSON TO SAY THAT YOU'VE GOTTA ADD A DISCLAIMER OF SOMETHING'S LAUNDRY LIST OF FLAWS BEFORE YOU TALK ABOUT IT#BUT JESUS FUCKING CHRIST YOU HAVE TO ACKNOWLEDGE ON SOME LEVEL EVEN IF IT'S JUST TO YOURSELF THAT THINGS HAVE FLAWS#YOU'VE GOTTA BE AWARE OF SHIT#WHEN WILL WE HAVE THE OUTCRY OVER BURY YOUR DISABLED THAT WE DO OVER BYG (WHICH IS ALSO BAD BTW)#I GUARANTEE YOU WE WON'T BE GETTING A SEPARATE FUCKING CON OVER FANDOM OUTCRY THAT'S FOR SURE#I'm making a rule: if you can prove to me that you've started cxgf after reading this and/or if you can prove to me#that you've watched pure (channel 4/hbo max-the one with charly clive) I'll write a fic for you#let's see if I get sniped for criticizing both the beloved sacred mads show AND the plane crash girls show#if I see ONE more comment about how either of those is a perfect show that Gets What All The People Want I will in fact spontaneously#combust.#(and before you @ me yes I have any and all permutations of show tags blocked I'm not just being mean to be mean)#my god remember what happened the last time I tried to talk about this a;lsdfkajs;ldfkj#good thing I turned off anonymous asks!!#this is not even getting into some of the SMALLER fandoms#like I do not ever want to think about the takes I saw for ctrlz EVER again
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I'm trying to articulate a thought: while a moral reading of a text is necessary and I'd say unavoidable, a judgement of a text cannot begin and end in its value as a didactic piece for teaching morality to the reader (or reinforcing their sense of moral selves).
This doesn't mean people should read books that make apology of things the person finds morally or psychologically repulsive, just because there's some artistic value in them anyways.
But I have seen people for whom reading (and engaging with media in general) becomes a moral race in which their enjoyment of literature must be thoroughly justified by the -often only superficially ascertained- moral value of the themes and lessons of the text, and for whom the things they read are a letter of presentation of the moral principles they spouse.
In other words, instead of the moral principles of the person delineating the framework through which they approach the text, it is a checklist of things the text must explicitly contain in order to be seen as having any worth at all.
Which is a rather sad and superficial way to engage with things.
#Pick say Dracula#to mention a book I disliked#yes part of my dislike is the treatment of Mina's character and also the approach of the lower class characters and the foreigner danger#But also the book has a very strong promising first half that quickly descends into idiot ball convenience so that Mina can get bitten#And it goes downhill from there#I can understand why people enjoy the novel#And also point out the futility and delusion of trying to say that Bram Stoker had a feminist and inclusive perspective of women#The book can be written by an author that doesn't care about women and it bleeds through the text#and you still can derive enjoyment of the interesting concepts characters and dynamics in it#That won't make you a bad person you don't need to force the text into being PureTM#The other way around#yes War and Peace features two adult men falling in love with a young teenage girl and that's yikesy#But it's also a story about how she represents life#and the way their relationship with life creates a contrast and a reflection about the meaning of life and love#Is this a good treatment of Natasha? No!#Does that mean that the whole book is bad because Tolstoy was a bad husband and in general not good to women? Also no!#So yeah it boils down to#you can enjoy quote unquote problematic media and be a good person#Your reading list does not define your morality#The way you engage with the text on the other hand yes can tell things about what you believe and the principles that direct your behavior
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Well, got prescribed cypionate. No idea how much it'll cost, or if insurance will cover it but I kind of don't care? I went through the fucking wringer to get data to prove what I was on wasn't ideal for me. This isn't metaphorical; 2 hours after injection, my levels are ~300. A day after, 500. 2 days after (nominally ~2 hours after peak), 600! 3 days later, 250. Not sure what my actual trough value is yet, but given I get severe nausea below ~350? I'd have to be injecting daily, and that's just not safe for me.
So, fuck it! Cypionate's curves look much smoother, and depending on how I metabolize it I might actually be finally getting close to successfully fine tuning some aspect of my biology :3
#Transition#Estradiol esters#Trying to go as far as I can without using diy suppliers because from what I can see supplies are TIGHT#Although I'm kind of tempted to see how many years supply you can keep on hand without spoilage#Might be prudent? Or at least fun#“oh what's in the safe?” “Enough e to have a village hooked up for a year!”#Fuck having to exchange a not insignificant volume of my blood for my doctor listening to me#The worst part is how despite how fucking burned out I am#I'm doing kind of great?#Like objectively no I'm really not but almost no one is by that metric#But even now while unable to make myself read or write or listen to music#I'm still actually engaged with being present in myself#Given how covid levels are quite literally 130+ times higher than the “total lockdown” levels defined at the beginning of the pandemic#(10k+ cases a day being what we need to stay under to be safe... We're currently pushing 1.3 million a day! Source pmc19.com)#Bottom surgery is. Well I don't want to say a vain hope at this point?#But if I want to keep healthy it may as well be for a while still :(#Anyway mask up#Get your doctor to treat your actual issues not what the reference guide lists as first potential treatment#You can feel like yourself#It's scary and it's worth it
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WE are ALL equal writers. This hierarchy idolizing crap is what drives decent writers from fandoms. The shit that I’ve seen and experienced in this fandom is heartbreaking, especially when you consider that we are ALL in the same boat and SHOULD be SUPPORTING each other, like…
#I could make a list but I’m not going to#just fed up with the treatment that I’ve seen going around#it makes me nervous to even be on here anymore#this also isn’t a callout to any moots btw <3
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