#if its walks like a gay awakening and it talks like a gay awakening

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long (40k+ words) buddie fics

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leading with the left by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels "when buck said he was a "bartender" in "south america" what he actually meant was "stripper" in "mexico." and when eddie said, "what's your problem?" what he actually meant was, "is this about the time you gave me a lap dance?" in other words, there's a few things the 118 doesn't know about buck. Or eddie. Or buck and eddie's relationship." word count: 84k important tags: strangers to lovers, stripper!buck, emotional slow burn, miscommuication your fingerprints smeared on my heart (lead me back to you) by: letmetellyouaboutmyfeels "In 1880, evan buckley of the arriviste set is sent out west to oversee his family's railroad and recover from a broken heart - and meets eddie diaz, cowboy. when fate tears them apart, they make a promise: find each other again. In 2018, buck walks into his fire station in los angeles - and meets eddie diaz, new recruit." word count: 88k important tags: cowboys, soulmates, reincarnation, gilded age, heavy angst

let the world have its way with you by: fleetinghearts "a bucket list that’s really about buck needing to make a change and an eddie who’s ready to do anything to see him fall in love with life again. it takes some crossing off for eddie to realise—the thing at the top of the list in his own heart? it’s been right here all along" word count: 54k important tags: pining, feelings realisation, idiots to lovers, road trips, getting together, eventual smut, gay!eddie diaz good pretender by: likeshipsonthesea "an au where buck broke up with taylor before 5b, ravi and buck become (actually platonic) friends with benefits, and ravi, eddie, and buck all go on a journey of self-discovery that ends with them all getting what they need" word count: 85k important tags: friends with benefits (buckandravi), casual sex, childhood tramua, healing, feelings realisation, jealous!eddie diaz, ptsd, love confessions, anal sex would you lie with me and just forget the world by: colonscopys "eddie diaz is 7, and 13, and 14, and 18, and 34. and he loves, and he loves, and he loves, and he loves, and he loves" word count: 45k important tags: childhood friends to lovers, eddie diaz centric, catholic guilt, angst, happy ending. eddie diaz vs the feelings by: elvensorcess "eddie dives into the mysteries of attraction, romantic love, and asexuality because there's a good chance he's fallen in love with his best friend. aka demisexual!eddie figures out he’s demi and finds the happily ever after he’s been longing for" word count: 62k important tags: demisexual!eddie diaz, idiots in love, sexual tension, frottage, hand jobs, anal sex, soft!buddie, slow burn, top!evan buckley, bottom!eddie diaz courtship behaviours of the southern coastal husbros by: mad_lori "buck and eddie decide to become platonic domestic partners and co-parents. they are 100% super normal about it and absolutely nothing is awakened in them, except a mutual annoyance at being referred to as "husbros." word count: 49k important tags: domestic partners, slow burn, christopher diaz has two dads, friends to lovers, demisexual!eddie diaz, sexuality crisis, first kiss, eventual smut, oral sex objects in the mirror by: sevensoulmates "the voice had always been around, eddie remembers it, like a stream of consciousness that babbled incoherently to the point where eddie just tuned it out. but then the voice started speaking directly to him. conversing like he was a whole person standing right in front of him. like he could see what was happening around eddie. eddie shook his head. no one was talking to him, and eddie most certainly was not talking back. he wouldn’t talk to the boy in his head ever again. there was no boy in his head." word count: 139k important tags: telepathic bond, childhood to canon, slow burn like a dog with a bird at your door by: fleetinghearts "evan “i love you like a dog” buckley has only ever known how to love like, well, a dog, but maybe eddie diaz is the kinda guy to give a flea-bitten mongrel a forever home" word count: 51k important tags: pre-relationship, domestic, love confessions, eventual smut, friends to lovers, protective!evan buckley

when it's you i'm with (everything goes quiet) by: withoutthetiger "eddie can't speak after he and christopher are in an accident, but somehow he asks buck to stay while he recovers. buck can't imagine wanting to be anywhere else, and even in the silence that lingers between them, they both find a way to say everything." word count: 56k important tags: different first meetings au, muteness, intimacy, feeling realisation, friends to lovers, phone sex, blow jobs, rimming, anal sex

the best life is the truth (my best mask is my face) by: letmetellyouaboutmyfeels "the buckleys are celebrating their 50th anniversary, and maddie and buck are both expected to come. to take the heat off maddie, buck impulsively blurts out that he's seeing someone new. obviously, there's only one solution: bring eddie as his fake boyfriend, pretend to be in love with him, and survive the weekend with minimal bloodshed. no problem, except for the, uh. "pretend" part." word count: 43k important tags: fake dating, idiots to lovers, there was only one bed, eventual smut wishing to be the friction by: ipretendtobesane "the straight eddie friends with benefits fic" word count: 97k important tags: friends with benefits, slow burn, hand jobs, blow jobs, rimming, first time, pining, porn with plot

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– Sanji with the 2° genre, prompt (u.) 🍡

You know, I never would've paired this prompt with Sanji, but I think its more harsh nature pairs itself well with a masculine reader, so that's what I'll do! This ended up being pretty long so everything is under the cut

Since this is the first one I'll be posting like this I'll just explain - anything where you only requested one character, I assumed was to be paired with a Reader, since I struggled with making a lot of them work as a solo thing.

Content/warnings: Sanji/M!Reader, hurt/comfort, getting together, reader is insecure, Sanji is kinda cruel at the start whoops, Sanji has a gay awakening

You'd been acting off all day, you knew you had, and while the crew hadn't mentioned it you were aware they'd noticed and that they were beginning to worry. Generally, you kept in high spirits. Not today. It wasn't any much, your insecurities had just been getting to you lately. You also felt ridiculous for letting that spoil your mood all day, which was only making your mood worse. You were the least attractive person on the crew, in your opinion (outside of Chopper because who is calling a kid attractive). Most days, you let yourself be confident in the fact that it didn't matter because that didn't make you ugly and you had a good personality so why did looks matter. Some days it bothered you anyway.

You were docked at an island while the log pose set, and pretty much all of the crew had received attention from people (of their preferred gender and not), outside of Chopper, but again, he didn't count (and he'd still had a group of teenage girls call him cute). You? You'd not gotten a single comment or even a look. It just made your stomach twist. It was stupid and you knew it, but it was eating you up inside. Worrying about that just led to more worrying about other things and you were spiralling a little even if you were attempting to pretend you weren't. It wasn't working.

"What's your problem?" Sanji asked as he emerged from the kitchen having just finished cleaning all the dishes from lunch.

"I don't want to talk about it, Sanji." He'd not gotten much attention from women, but oh boy had Sanji gotten attention from men. He'd brushed every one of them off, rather unkindly, and that hurt too. You'd had a bit of a crush on Sanji for ages now, but moments like that told you that you couldn't ever share that fact with the cook.

"Then stop moping! It doesn't help anything, and it's not great for the mood on board." He retorted with a roll of his eyes, and you rubbed a hand over your face with a sigh. You didn't want to lash out, but you really didn't have the emotional availability to be kind in that moment.

"Sorry Sanji, my bad, I'll just pack it all up and ignore it all - God forbid I have fucking feelings." You snapped, pushing off the railing of the Sunny where you'd been leaving to walk away. You didn't want to deal with his shitty attitude today of all days.

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You'd hidden away to calm yourself down, then taken a shower to release some of the negative feelings you'd had pent up. Residual negative emotions lingered, of course they did, but you were more prepared to push them aside and put on a happy face. You emerged on the deck and sat down with Robin to talk about the book she'd been reading, allowing yourself and your better mood to be more easily seen by the crew.

"What happened? You really looked upset." Nami asked after a few minutes, having come to sit in her usual spot beside Robin.

"Oh, nothing. Just had a chat with Sanji." You said with a shrug, smiling at them as best as you could.

"I hope you're not spoiling these ladies days with your foul mood." Sanji said as he appeared with two drinks, one for each of the ladies in question. Robin and Nami snapped their heads to look at him, unbelieving he could be so cruel.

"No don't worry Sanji - I took your advice and just got over it. Won't catch me moping again. I'll keep that to myself from now on." You replied, mock kindness on your face and in your voice. You weren't going to start an argument with him, but that didn't mean you couldn't be passive aggressive at least. He fixed a hard gaze on you, but kept his smile in place. Wisely, he said nothing, and left the drinks for Nami and Robin before swiftly returning to the kitchen.

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You spent the rest of the day avoiding Sanji, even having asked Robin to save you a plate of food so you could eat away from the rest of the crew and mainly away from Sanji. She'd delivered your plate loyally, and just gave you a smile before leaving you to eat in peace.

Eventually though, the plate did need to be returned to the kitchen. It'd long since gone dark, and you were just hoping that Sanji was elsewhere by now.

"Stupid, stupid, stupid," you heard muttered from the kitchen, pausing outside to listen to whoever was so frustrated inside, "can't even be nice just for once. He just makes me so-" it was Sanji, of course it was. You weren't sure what else you'd been expecting. But he was in there, scolding himself, and it sounded like he was doing it over how he'd treated you.

You didn't knock, just pushed open the door and let yourself in, plate still in hand. Sanji stopped stock still, staring at you as if he'd been caught doing something he shouldn't have. You gently set the plate down on the table, pausing for a moment before turning as if to leave again.

"Wait-" Sanji called out, making you pause. There was another beat of silence while the cook found his words.

"I'm sorry," he said softly, hesitating before continuing, "I was unnecessarily cruel. You didn't deserve that."

"Yeah." You simply said, because just saying that wouldn't make him forgiven. You'd never done anything to him, you'd both just always had a joking friendship, where you'd take playful jabs at each other. They were never genuinely cruel.

"I just-" he paused again, fighting with himself to find his words, "you make me.. feel a lot of things that I don't know how to deal with. I just look at you and it all.. bubbles up inside of me and for some reason the only thing that ever gets out is something mean. What I said earlier was too far, and I am sorry. I was just worried." He finished, and you finally turned to face him. Sanji was flushed red, wringing his hands as if he was fighting not to put them elsewhere - his hair your brain helpfully supplied.

"Okay," you started, nodding slowly, "but that isn't a good reason. You didn't even try to get me to tell you. You didn't probe at all, you were rude when you asked what was wrong and then accused me of ruining the atmosphere on the Sunny. That's what you told me and best you can come up with is you were 'feeling a lot of feelings'?" You asked, growing more and more angry, but also more upset. You knew you couldn't have Sanji the way that you wanted him, but you'd at least wanted him as a friend. Maybe that was too much to ask for.

"I'm sorry! I'm not good with words - I can't make my brain tell my mouth what I'm thinking and I really want to help you understand even if you don't forgive me." You would forgive him, you knew you would, this would be petty to lose him over and would jeopardise the crew. But you couldn't be the same after this.

"Try."

"It's different than with other people. You feel- you make me feel different. I don't understand why. I just look at you and it's like.. the whole world stops moving for a minute," Sanji leaned forward, resting his hands on the table and stared right down at the wood rather than looking at you, "I've never felt like that before. It's scary. How am I meant to deal with something I don't understand? So I'm mean to you instead because maybe then it'll go away? I know it sounds stupid. And then when we're out and people look at you.. something just comes over me. I hate it. I just glare at them until they back down because they're not allowed to look at you like that."

You understood suddenly what Sanji was talking about. All this time you'd been so sure of what you couldn't have and in the background Sanji was having his gay awakening because of you. You were desperately trying to hold back, but you couldn't help laughing. He shot up straight as if he'd been struck, wounded by your laughter.

"I'm sorry- I know this is serious. I promise I'm not laughing at you, just the situation really. Sanji.. you have a crush on me. That's what that is." You told him, slowly approaching to close the space between you two.

"No! I- I like women." He defended, but he was hesitant, as if your words had given him clarity.

"Sure. But you also like me."

The two of you stood, silent, staring at each other. You, waiting for Sanji to decide what the next move was, and Sanji, processing the new information. In retrospect, he realised it was a little obvious.

"I acted like a little boy pulling on a girl's pigtails." Sanji muttered, suddenly a little humiliated.

"Yeah, a little bit." You agreed, and the cook just sighed. You both fell into quiet laughter finally, the tension of the entire situation drifting away.

"So uh.." Sanji started after a while, you let him find his words before responding, "what now?"

"That's up to you. I've liked you back for a damn long while now, but you've only just realised. You can go and take your time to process that new part of yourself if you w-" you didn't get to finish your sentence before Sanji's lips were on yours for the first time.

Yeah, now you definitely wouldn't be the same after this.

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I say this as a certified gwen cooper stan and defender and lover etc etc so if i see anyone in my replies coming for my girl its on sight. But it is honestly completely batshit insane to me the way seasons 1 and 2 of torchwood consistently do this thing where on-screen development or depiction of Jack and Ianto’s romantic relationship is directly preceded by a category five Gwen and Jack Unresolved Sexual Tension event. Like, Jack propositioning Ianto over Suzie’s corpse comes right after a scene where Jack and Gwen make moon eyes at each other from across the Hub; in Kiss Kiss Bang Bang Jack only asks Ianto out on a date after a failed attempt to woo Gwen; in Reset, Martha’s conversation with Ianto about getting him and Jack a red UNIT hat comes after her convo with Gwen where both of them are like “man we must be the only two people in the world who havent been with Jack.” The obviously most insane example is in Something Borrowed when Gwen and Jack dance together extremely intimately AT GWEN’S WEDDING and Ianto literally has to WALK OVER to take Jack off Gwen’s hands. (If I missed any more examples please tell me because i feel like I did. Also Fwiw not every Janto scene follows a Gwack UST event, though by the same turn not every Gwack UST event is followed by a Janto scene. But I think there’s enough here for it to be a pattern.). So there’s this consistent thing where we see Jack make moon eyes at Gwen and only going to Ianto after this fails to result in anything substantial. This creates the impression that Ianto is Jack’s second choice for a partner, and that Gwen is his first.

You could argue that this pattern constitutes Jack choosing Ianto over Gwen, but… I dunno. The obstacle that consistently stops Jack from pursuing Gwen further in the scenes I’m talking about is not his commitment to Ianto but Gwen’s commitment to Rhys. (If you want an example of TW S1/2 actually showing Jack choose Ianto over Gwen I’d point at End of Days: Gwen metaphorically awakens Jack by kissing his corpse (he doesn’t seem to object but Gwen is obviously the one initiating), and then Jack immediately runs off to make out with Ianto. Compare with, say, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, where Jack tries to initiate with Gwen, gets cock-blocked by her engagement ring, and subsequently asks Ianto out. You see the difference?

To set my cards on the table I am obsessed with Jack and Gwen’s straightbait situationship, and I think it is completely fine and cool and entertaining, actually, for Jack and Gwen UST to coexist with canon Janto (Jack is from the Free Love century and has two hands; meanwhile it baffles me that people get on Gwen’s ass for the crime of (checks notes) being into Jack Fucking Harkness, as if being attracted to him is not completely normal and understandable), HOWEVER the show’s scene to scene editing CONSISTENTLY gives the impression that Jack would choose Gwen over Ianto if given the opportunity. So for all that I think a lot of Gwen hate is like, people being unfairly mad at Gwen for “getting in the way” of a gay ship that, per the show’s writing, she never actively interferes with or disapproves of and is generally shown to support, the way the show uses the language of editing does actually kind of value Jack’s hypothetical straight relationship with Gwen over his existing gay relationship with Ianto in a way that frankly fucking sucks. I have no idea whether or not this was intentional or whose fault it is (if I had to blame anyone I’d blame the writers involved and the editors involved, but tv production is complicated and this is a systemic problem that would be difficult to identify if you’re only looking at one episode at a time) but whatever happened its like. A lowkey homophobic element of an otherwise mostly queer-friendly show. Literally what were they thinking.

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Prompt? Prompt. Zhuo Yichen x Li Lun.

Just like Baize token makes Baize Goddess's tears healing and cleansing, Bing Yi's water/ice magic ancestry makes Zhuo Yichen's tears soothing and able to subdue fire in all its forms even before ZYC gets a headshot of Bing Yi's last drop of blood.

Obviously, nobody knows about it because it's not like members of Bing Yi clan just walk around flinging their tears at everyone, right?

However, one particular highly flammable demon accidentally notices.

***

The first time ZYC and Li Lun fight and Li Lun chokes him, ZYC's tear flows down his cheek and touches Li Lun's hand. Li Lun immediately feels a gush of relief, and the pain in his veins dulls. He ... doesn't know what it is, but decides to investigate.

The second time he deliberately chokes ZYC and gets a tear on his skin, the effect is undeniable- it IS ZYC's tear that subdues the smoldering fire in his body and grants him temporary relief. (It's not even his real body, just some meat bag he possesses, which makes Li Lun wonder just how much ZYC's tears would alleviate his pain when they physically meet).

So, he cooks up a plan.

He puts a little piece of a vine inside Bai Ju, next to the boy's heart, and threatens the company that if ZYC doesn't leave with him and doesn't do whatever he wants, he will let that piece of vine travel a little further and split Bai Ju's heart in half. They can have their precious ZYC back - and Bai Ju safe- if they can figure out how to get the ever-burning fire out of him. Until then, ZYC is his.

ZYC agrees, and willingly leaves to find Li Lun in his cave in Wilderness. He is magically locked inside with a very impatient and suffering demon while the company desperately tries to come up with how to save him and Bai Ju.

Li Lun is right- when ZYC's tear touches his real skin, the ever-burning fire subsides tremendously. And so, ZYC keeps getting choked once every 24 hours or so, and in between, they just verbally spar and bicker. When he is not in excruciating pain, Li Lun starts to begrudgingly realize why ZYZ is so fascinated with humans and why he seems so attached to his particular one.

Then, when several days pass, ZYC becomes very weak and passes out. Li Lun is at his side in an instant, confused (he didn't torture him aside from some occasional choking, so what could be wrong?) And then Ao Yin reminds him that humans, unlike demons, actually need to eat, and Li Lun goes "oh, crap!", and sends her to get the food.

Of course, ZYC is faking the fainting spell; he's not some porcelain princess; a few days without food won't do him in like that. He just heard LL and Ao Yin talking about the vine curse and came up with a plan of escape. What he doesn't expect AT ALL is the demon cradling him in his arms, whispering things like "Why are humans so weak and easily breakable" and flooding his body with his demonic energy to wake him up. The more tears Li Lun got out of ZYC, the more the smoke surrounding Li Lun's real body dissipated- and considering that Li Lun chooses to frolic around his cave half-naked, ZYC has been struggling with gay awakening this whole time. And now, instead of escaping, he is nestled on Li Lun's lap, with the demon's hands touching his face, neck, all over his body, with that raspy voice whispering right into his ear, and it bothers ZYC so much he breaks the act.

He is pushed onto the ground in the same instant, the demon growling above him, "You little shit." ZYC tries to struggle, but Li Lun just pins him down harder - the demon is much stronger, always has been - and puts his weight into the hold. Being choked or held in a vice-like grip is one thing, but having a whole lithe demon press along your body while those gorgeous pitch-black eyes stare down at you is another, and it's just too much. ZYC feels his body react to the proximity, and the more he struggles to get away, the stronger the reaction becomes. Heat and embarrassment creep up his cheeks while the demon studies him, then nuzzles ZYC's neck, making ZYC shiver, and smirks, "You're enjoying this." A single tear of mortification falls down ZYC's eyelash and gets promptly whipped off by Li Lun. The demon then rubs ZYC's lower lip and tells him, "you're not getting away from me, Xiao Zhuo" and ZYC feels like he's about to get devoured.

The demon leaves at the same moment, and ZYC crawls back to his corner of shame while dark eyes follow his every move.

(Li Lun has an epiphany of his own- since ZYC invaded his cave, he's been growing more and more attached to the human despite all the attempts to the contrary. When he saw ZYC faint, he felt a pang of fear that he had hurt the boy too much. But when he realized the boy was faking, he got furious - and yet, his hand stilled away from doing any real harm. He realized, to his horror, that he didn't want to hurt the human anymore, but he still needed the tears.... And then, oh. OH. The sweet honey, lilacs and musk of arousal. The more ZYC struggled under him, the stronger the smell became. Li Lun couldn't help but breath it in, savoring it, making the boy he was holding blush and try to hide away from his gaze. A tear rolled down ZYC's soft cheek and Li Lun smiled, the boy was just so sensitive, such an easy crier, the demon hasn't even done anything yet...

And that was the moment when the new plan was hatched. Perhaps, there were other means to make ZYC cry - pleasurable to both parties. Li Lun was definitely going to try the theory out.

***

On the downside, when the company finally presented Li Lun with a cure and got ZYC out of the cave, he could barely walk (even though it was not because of any torture)

On the bright side, the company got a second great demon without suicidal tendencies that, once cured, had a perfectly functioning brain cell and helped them take down the big bad without anyone dying.

***

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It Wasnt in my Head (4)

(a/n: pls lmk if u see any typos! )

Summary: Abby is the starting linebacker at UW and when her team starts to falter her coach decides to get the team into ballet, in order to teach them that grace and stability is important in football too. Abby is just as upset about her teammates about this, until she sees her pretty new ballet teacher...

dancer!reader x football!abby

!!ABBY IS STRAIGHT IN THE BEGINNING. READER IS HER GAY AWAKENING!!

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The light of my slightly opened blinds shone through onto my eyes. The birds were chirping and the sky was a lovely light blue.

And I was pissed off and hung over.

I decided now that its 10 am I should probably pick up Dina's incessant calling and answer Ellies 'im sorry i got u fucked up' text.

My dimly lit kitchen smelled of lavender and burnt toast as I dialed Dina's number and listened to the tone ring.

Oh, so now she isn't going to pick up?

"Hey, D," I said when the ringing stopped.

"Ugh, finally!! I've been calling you all morning," Dina scolded me as if I wasn't so obviously hungover.

"Yeah believe it or not I know,"

"Ok, so, I called to ask you...something,"

This tone with Dina was never good.

This tone means Dina is up to something.

"Oh, jesus, ok what,"

"So, my master plan went perfect last night, and I saw you talking to our new favorite muscle mommy-"

I cut her off by saying "Oh, that was your master plan? It had nothing to do with leaving me to fend for myself so you can make out with Jesse on a couch?"

".....No?"

I let out a quick exhale through my nose, "So whats the question?"

"Obviously my question is: How did it go?"

I sighed and thought back to my interaction with Abby the previous night. "Good. No, bad. Well, good and bad. Gad,"

"What is that even supposed to mean?"

"You knowww, we like talked for a bit and got to know eachother, but the heartbreaking news, is that she is not a carpet muncher,"

"WHAT! NO WAY!"

"I KNOW. You should've heard me she was all: 'you're gay?' and I went: 'you aren't??'"

Dina snorted into the receiver as I laughed along with her.

"Well shoot. That's a bust," She said, still chuckling. "Hey, wanna go to Laverne's? I'm craving pancakes and french fries real bad,"

"Yes please, 'vernies is the best hangover cure"

"Kay, Ill be at your place in fifteen,"

I hung up the phone as my kettle began to whistle at me from the stove.

I walked over, grabbing a mug on the way and poured in the boiling water. I grabbed my favorite tea and walked into my bathroom to help myself to look slightly more presentable.

Jesus I looked like shit.

I began brushing my teeth before there was a knock at my door.

I rolled my eyes at Dina's overestimate of arriving in "fifteen".

"Dina you said fift-" I cut myself off as I swung open the door and was not met with Dina's face.

Are you fucking kidding me.

Abby fucking Anderson was standing at my front door (looking handsome as ever of fucking course) while I looked like I had just crawled out of the sewers.

"Hi" She awkwardly said with a half smile.

"Oh, hey Abby,"

There was a moment of awkward silence before Abby seemingly jolted in memory of why she was at my door to begin with.

"You, uh, left this on the chair you were sitting on last night, figured you might be looking for it," She said, pulling my pink hello kitty wallet out of her strangely large pocket.

"Oh, shit, thanks Abby," I answered before grabbing my wallet back. "I guess that's pretty important,"

Abby exhaled through her nose in a chuckle. "Yeah well I cant be your knight in shining armor every time. Last night hitting hard, huh?" She looked my slightly up and down teasingly and I suddenly felt very aware of my messy hair, thin sleep tank, and pajama pants.

"Yeah yeah I'll be more careful. Thank you again."

"Yeah no biggie. Um, I gotta run, but I'll see you?"

"For sure, see you Abby,"

We smiled at each other before I shut the door.

Oh my god that was so embarrassing.

I glanced at the time and realized I didn't have long before Dina actually got here.

After fixing myself up and being halfway dressed the real Dina knocked on my door. I shouted a "just a sec" before throwing on my jeans and getting my things and opening the door.

"Hi D,"

"Hey sweets, how ya feeling?" Dina teased with a smirk.

I gave her a playful eyeroll accompanied by a middle finger.

She threw her head back with a laugh and wrapped her arm around my shoulder. "I told you not to do that shit anymore,"

"Yeah well after my wakeup call this morning I won't,"

'You're welcome,"

I sighed before replying with "Not yours, although that one was miserable too,"

"Oh? What wakeup call are you referring to, then?" She asked, turning her head in my direction.

"Ugh I'll tell you at Laverne's,"

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The familiar diner smelled like coffee and pie as it welcomed my senses.

Dina and I made a beeline for the back of the restaurant, where our usual table resided right by the kitchen door.

We plopped down in out usual seats and told the waitress our orders before Dina shot me a look.

"...What?" I asked looking around.

"Helloooo, your 'other wakeup call'??" She said looking at me as if I was stupid.

"Oh! Right right, well I had gotten your call, right? And no kidding like two minutes after we hung up there was a knock at my door, so, obviously I thought it was you and answered the door looking like some sort of extraterrestrial and you will literally never guess who was at the door,"

"Was it...girl I don't know just tell me,"

"It was our favorite muscle mommy," I said laughing with embarrassment.

"WHAT?? You're telling me Abigail Anderson was at your fucking apartment this morning??" She asked, a little too loud.

"Jesus, D, keep your voice down. And yes, she was totally there, and looked totally smoking hot,"

"And what did she want?" Dina suggestively wiggled her brows.

"Ugh, unfortunately that's never gonna happen. She was bringing me my wallet, said I dropped it last night,"

"Wait, what? She already have a girlfriend or something?"

"Dina, she's straight, remember?"

"Psh, are you sure? She's like the gayest looking girl I've seen,"

"Dude, I asked. She's straight as a square,"

"Whatever more like a circle"

"Wh-"

I was interrupted by what I thought was the waitress coming in, but was actually Ellie sliding into the seat next to me.

"Hello gentleman" she said with a smirk.

"Hey Els," I greeted my friend.

"Hey Ellie is your f-" I cut off Dina's sabotage with a kick to the shin and my best "you better fucking not" stare before she embarrassed me further.

"What?" Ellie confusedly looked between the two of us.

I gave Dina another look, this time softer and more pleading and I saw her give in.

"Oh, nothing, not important,"

"Hey, liar. What were your gonna say?"

Before Dina could conjure one of her perfect excuses the actual waitress came to give Dina and I our orders, while Ellie made one of her own.

"Ordered a lot of food there, Williams," I teased with a smirk.

"Nah, not all for me," She brushed off my statement.

"Who the hell else would it be for?" I asked, as the answer to my question walked right through the door.

You have got to be kidding.

a/n: hey...hey...how yall doin....

im so sorry for being gone for so long pls forgive me!! Starting up uni again has been rough, especially moving back in for the year. but i promise i will try and update as much as i can.

p.s...it's prob not who u think walking into the diner :3

ok thats all i will say luv u bye

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[katyawriteswhump]

The power of love pt 6 (steddie, stobin, steve whump fic)

Steve has a habit of surviving near death experiences then getting sick for no reason. And Eddie and those fatal bat bites? After an impossible feat of mouth-to-mouth resuscitation from Steve, he’s mysteriously fixed. So, Eddie’s back to being banished, this time with Steve and Robin in tow. Eddie’s healing, but Steve isn’t… and life gets even more confusing, when Eddie develops feelings for Steve, which aren’t entirely unrequited.

Part one Part two Part three Part four Part Five Part Seven Part eight Part Nine Part Ten Part 11 Part 12

Steve POV

“Hey!” shouts Steve, the next morning, as Robin hauls a mass of supplies onto her back. “What do you think you’re doing?”

He half-runs, half-skids down the slippery rocks outside the cave. He tries to wrest the pack from her. She turns sharply, and he loses his grip.

“Steve, chivalry sucks and should’ve died in the Middle Ages.”

“What? I’m not being—”

“I can totally manage! Most of its bedding, and Eddie’s got half the water. You’re sick, remember?”

He rakes his fingers through the hair he’s just wrested into some sort of sub-standard shape. “Honestly, I’m good.”

Honestly, he feels dead rough, though better than yesterday. Anybody would feel achy after a night in some dingy cave. Even with Eddie Munson’s lap as a pillow.

Not that he spent the whole night there. Hell, no.

He woke up with Eddie spooning him from behind, Eddie’s chin tucked on his shoulder. Which screwed him up big-time. Fortunately, Robin was also cuddled up with him, which… helped. Yeah, he’d been kinda nestled on her boobs, but it wasn’t intentional. And it was Robin, and she’d laughed when he’d apologized.

Thinking about snuggles with Eddie is waaaay more problematic—underlined by the swift and silent fashion they’d extracted themselves from each other, both apparently awakening simultaneously.

Both far too groggy to deal.

Almost as bad, he can’t recall exactly what he’d said to the guy last night. He’s pretty damn sure he made an idiot of himself.

He’s still squirming when they set off, neither he nor Eddie having exchanged more than a passing word. Steve insists on taking his turn with the luggage, as well as using the compass and reading the sky. He’s terrible at it, mainly because squinting at the bright sun gives him an epic headache. He ends up walking behind with Robin, while Eddie disappears off ahead.

“By my reckoning, we took twice as long as we should’ve to reach those caves yesterday,” says Steve to Robin. “Do we really trust him with this pathfinding shit?”

“He’s shockingly decent at it. Not sure I trust him with you. Or vice versa.”

Steve stops dead. He can’t cope with walking and with any Eddie-Munson-related bombshells. “What the hell’s that supposed to mean?”

“Oh, come on! I could carve the sexual tension between you two with a knife then sculpt a little love-heart with it. He literally can’t stop flirting with you.”

“That’s total bull. Eddie flirts with everyone.”

“Uh… no. He really doesn’t. I mean, without belittling your troubles, I wish my love life had ever presented me with such straightforward opportunities.”

He facepalms. “Oh Christ, I’m sorry. I-I just can’t right now.” He pushes his increasingly sweaty hair from his eyes. God, he’d kill for a shower. And why didn’t Eddie pack more hairspray?

“Steve?” She hooks her arm through his, and they trudge on together.

“Okay, I surrender. I like him.” He sighs. Why do they seem to be walking forever uphill? “I don’t see how he can be into me, how I’ve been the past few days, and I’m not sure I want to go there. Period. And before you lecture me, it’s not because I think being gay is bad, you know that. It’s because… I honestly don’t know what I am.”

“You’re bi, Steve,” says Robin, very quietly.

“Yeah, and it’s a lot to get my thick head around.”

“You’re not thick, you know—"

“Whatever.” He swipes his wrist across his brow. “We’ve talked this over a billion times. I really don’t need any more meaningless sexual relationships.”

“Why would it be? You reckon you wanna jump his bones, and it’ll flush him out of your system?”

Steve pauses again. Robin’s questions stab his brain, and yet… He finds he can answer the last one, easy enough. “No,” he says. “I don’t want that. I mean, I got urges to be with him, but it feels different… from Nance or whatever.”

“That’s ’cos he’s a dude.”

“Yeah, I noticed.” Slowly, they walk on again, both breathing hard. “You know, I’ve had fantasies and stuff, but they were just that, and…” I want Eddie to jump my bones and... Oooookay, that’s a revelation he didn’t want to deal with this morning, on top of the rest of the shit. “Why are we discussing this now?”

“Because the pair of you are driving me ment—"

A loud roar scythes through the quiet woodlands. Steve barely hears Robin’s terrified squeak. He grabs her bodily, makes a dive for the undergrowth. A chopper passes low overhead, setting the trees shaking, the ground juddering. They’ve landed hard—on Steve’s injured side—and bracken prods everywhere. Extra bruises and scratches, however, are the least of his concerns.

Another large chopper is about to pass directly overhead.

Eddie! Has he been spotted? Are they all about to be rounded up and frogmarched straight to jail? Steve crouches, squints ahead and realises the forest thins out into a clearing. There are only bushy tree stumps, no real cover. The sky above is clear as summer… and he still can’t see Eddie.

Steve’s desperate to sprint on, to find him. However, even hunkered down, he starts to feel sick. Jesus, not now! He squeezes his eyes tight; squeezes Robin tighter, kinda prays, because he’s that desperate. He’d do anything to protect them both. Anything. Anything! Pleeeease? Apart from he can’t hardly breathe, let alone move. There’s a freaky-ass electric crackling in his head, and he’s on the verge of…

Steve blacks out, but only momentarily. He slams a palm to the earth, stopping himself crumpling.

The roar lessens, as the second chopper forges on. A third follows noisily in its wake. Steve glances up. A thick cloud has settled, low enough to obscure the top of the trees.

“Do you think they saw us?” asks Robin, when it’s quiet enough to be heard.

“Nah,” says Steve, forcing himself to think straight. “It’s military, heading toward Hawkins. Bet they didn’t even look down.”

“If they did,” says Robin, “that cloud couldn’t have arrived at a better time.” They extract themselves from the foliage. Robin offers Steve a hand, which he ignores, clambering up himself. “I mean, it’s beyond nuts. The sky was blue—totally clear—a moment ago.”

She folds her arms, narrows her eyes.

He tosses a hand up, exasperated. “What are you driving at, Robin?”

“I don’t know. Weird shit is afoot.”

“Tell me something I don’t know. Jesus, is Eddie, like, taking a slash or something?”

They both yell his name, while Steve surreptitiously checks his bandages. Blood hasn’t soaked through them, so that’s one thing. He’s even more relieved, when Eddie comes thrashing back through the trees.

“That was waaay too close.” Eddie’s totally spooked, and Steve restrains a burning desire to both hug him and pick out the dry leaves that have gotten stuck in his hair. “Is this logger camp really such a great idea? I mean, we’re rounding back on ourselves—getting closer to Hawkins again.”

“I reckon it’s sound.” Steve rolls his shoulders back with a click. “It’d be beyond tricky to land a chopper round here. Too many trees and slopes. If this place we’re heading for is as remote as we hope, it’ll be impossible there.”

“You sound better,” says Eddie, eyes narrowing, like Robin’s had.

“That’s because I am, moron.” Unable to withstand Eddie’s sudden intensity, he turns to Robin. Who remains staring at him, pretty much the same.

He wants to yell, What now? On the other hand, he is indeed feeling more himself. He might test the waters concerning his ‘thing’ with Eddie. Not with Robin AND Eddie gawking at him, like he’s some kinda freak.

Sure, he’s thought about what Robin said concerning Lover’s Lake—about him asking to go there when he was sick. He really doesn’t want to think too hard on it. Yeah, he’s had a couple of close calls there, and yeah, there’s a gate to the Upside Down in Lover’s Lake, but there wasn't always one, and...

“Look, if you two have a problem with me, I really wish you’d come clean.”

“No problem,” says Robin, perhaps a little too quickly.

Frustration flushes through Steve. "Be honest with me, Robin."

"I am! It's just... what with supernatural creepiness swallowing our lives on an apocalyptic scale, I'm so hugely relieved you're okay. It's hard to trust in anything good being real these days."

Yeah, he buys that, and he sure as heck trusts her, plus Eddie's nodding vigorously. He believes them. Maybe too readily, but he does.

Then he hears it—the merest rustle in the undergrowth. Followed by the patter of footfalls. On reflex, he slams into Eddie, hustles him behind the nearest thick-trunked tree. They tumble to the ground, Steve on top. You were wrong, Harrington. Those choppers landed men after all, and… Shit, Robin!

She hasn’t followed. He straddles Eddie’s upper thighs, straining to see. He hears her cry out, “Oh my God, they’re so pretty!”

A bunch of brown deer streak by, their fluffy white bottoms flashing behind them. Doubtless, the chopper spooked them too.

Steve’s jaw drops. Flat on his back beneath Steve, Eddie hoots, sweeping his hair from his mouth: “Thanks for saving me from Bambi, dude.”

Yeah, he’s mocking him. Eddie’s laugh is still totally delicious. Their troubles forgotten, Steve retaliates with his best dreamboat smile. “You’re welcome. I’m at least 2-1 up again in the lifesaving game, huh?”

“The world is back to rights, Harrington.”

Steve leans closer, revelling in Eddie’s laughing eyes, mesmerised by that gleaming smile... This is where we kiss, right?

A twinge of pain, and the effort of disguising it, totally throws him. He lifts his butt from Eddie’s thighs, then offers Eddie his hand. Which Eddie takes. The strain of tugging sets perspiration dripping from his brow.

“My eternal saviour.” Eddie affects a silly bow. Robin laughs too.

Steve dabs his eyes: “We did that joke, Munson.” He slings his pack up over his shoulder and motions them onwards: “Come on, Princesses. Let’s go, let’s go.”

Part 7

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tags: @estrellami-1 @kal-ology (thank you, thank you, thank you!) If anybody else would like to be tagged on this fic or any of my writing, please let me know :) Reblogs, comments and likes also very much appreciated :) Thank you for reading so far :)

(also part of my steve whump fic series on AO3)

[calqlate]

KDRAMA LEADS DEHYA AND DILUC

ALTERNATIVELY: dehya and diluc are so unbelievably kdrama coded that i need to talk about it due to its high importance

MASTERLIST

— DEHYA

she's too good at anything deemed societally masculine. physical sports, shooting guns, manhandling perpetrators... you name it, she does it better than a man. literally the female version of luke pearce from tears of themis.

think jung taeeul from the king: eternal monarch. she can and will get shit done, and she's super girlboss about it too.

she's the girl crush that makes every female have their gay awakening (see also: yuri from xo, kitty). she supports women, takes care of her friends, is so fiercely protective... honestly, she definitely has a fanclub consisting of females surrounding her.

she's also incredibly sunbae coded. she will look after her juniors and treat them once every while to keep their spirits up (cue the big sparkly eyes as they praise her, "dehya-noona! dehya-unnie!"). the juniors worship the ground she walks on and idolise her.

she will princess carry you when you're injured (cue that one scene from strong woman do bongsoon where bongsoon just runs with minhyuk in her arms) and kabedon you unintentionally. prepare yourself to get dommed and blush intensely.

in a modern au, she will be the sort that goes gymming with a sports bra and her attire just shows off her navel (and you can bet she's got abs) and you will be drooling. there are no exceptions for whatever gender her victims are.

— DILUC RAGNVINDR

he fits every checkbox of what every kdrama male lead is like: he's attentive, he's caring, he gets jealous... he's very versatile like that lmao

he's the oppa type that will observe you silently. you're sick? he's got you covered and is right by your side, changing wet towels for you. you're cold? say less, he will warm himself up using his vision and share body heat with you, with his jacket wrapped around you.

he's also the type to invite you over to his mansion to try anything he makes. he's good in the kitchen and will make anything you ask for (cue that one scene from business proposal where taemoo just rents out a whole bistro or something to cook for hari). (adelinde watches as the young master cooks, an absolute sight to behold for any other young maiden in mondstadt, really. donna is green with envy.)

he gets jealous only when these conditions are met at the same time: you're giving him the silent treatment after an argument and you're talking to this other person whom he's noticed you spending more time with recently right in front of him. bonus points is when you get touchy with the person. you'd better get yourself ready because this man will drag you aside and confront you about it which leads to him pretty much making out with you lmao.

like dehya, he will princess carry you and kabedon you as well

modern au diluc would be such a sugar daddy and he will literally leave his black card with you and be alright with you buying anything with it ("anything to make you happy, my love," is his reasoning as he kisses you on the forehead)

[dysfunctionallygrey]

Who the fuck was gonna tell me how gay all the units in pjsk are?!???

I got bored over the summer and decided to download pjsekai again (there's a story behind that but it's too long.) Before this, I knew like 3 things about it: 1. Its a rhythm game, 2. Also a gacha game 3. Emu Ootori. I haven't heard much of people talking about the story, but I did know a few ships (Ruikasa) and that a number of them would have queer ships. (what are you gonna do it's fandom)

I was not however, prepared for the sheer MAGNITUDE of ships and ship material.

Prepare for a long ass post underneath because if theres one thing I enjoy it's yappering. Also spoilers for a few main stories ig.

Jesus Christ what the hell miku why are you turning all the units gay.

I'm not much of a shipper but God, are homosexual tendencies like a requirement for a sekai?????? My god these bitches gay, good for them. And this is coming from someone who hasn't finished all the stories.

First of all More More Jump.

I'm not that big of a fan of Idol Groups but the Sapphic squad™ has really captured me.

I had to rub my eyes in disbelief for a moment everytime they interacted because

The MOMENT Shizuku and Airi walked in and opened their mouths my immediate reaction was: oh?

And then as the story went on i was like: Oh!

OH.

Suddenly my favorite Vocaloid song is Romeo and Cinderella.

THE WAY AIRI SAID HER NAME I CAN'T. THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER SM "You're my Idol." IS THAT SLANG FOR I WANNA GET MARRIED TO YOU AND RUN OFF TO THE COUNTRYSIDE WITH TWO CATS THESE TWO ARE KILLING ME.

I was rendered speechless.

The only consisyent thing to come out of my mouth was "Oh."

Oh spelled backwards is Ho which is one half of Homo therefore the other half is Minori and Haruka.

And dont let me get STARTED on them.

I ddid a quick deep dive into both Shizuairi and MinoHaru.

Let me just say that Haruka was probably Minori's awakening. Actually that is my hc now Haruka was Minori's awakening thank you all goodnight I will be expecting my Nobel Prize tomorrow.

There is so much ship material between these two it is actually insane, PLUS all their cards????

I saw some clips of some event stories and damn. I know these aren't meant to be ship fodder but it is so damn easy to put this stuff through a shipping lens.

Speaking of Len

Vivid BAD Squad???

Not a single het person in sight.

I already had the AnHane tag open on a separate tab halfway through but the way I JUMPED to open the AkiToya one and I hate to invoke the lord's name thrice but Jesus H. Christ what in the hell

I had to open my phone and text my friend if I just witnessed a gay divorce in front of my very own eyes and she confirmed.

I couldn't even make a "girls are fightinggh" joke because my mouth was AGAPE.

OPEN.

AJAR.

The fly nearby was too distracted to come into my mouth because of what it just witnessed.

And Toya's Backstory.

Their Bond???

THEIR RECONCILIATION?????

It only needed to be outside and raining and I would've been SOLD.

The music. The emotion. The words. Akito's speech. GOD. It legitimately made me tear up.

And that marks number 4. I'm not religious anymore but there's smth about these gays that make me start shaking aggressively as if ridden with rabies.

Anyways

This iis getting too long.

I was originally gonna write smth abt AnHane too but that took also a hell ton of words.

And of course I had a few words to say about everyone's favorite gay clowns and no I'm not talking about your friend group I'm talking about Wonderland x Showtime.

I have yet to finish the n25 story. But judging from the overall tone and the look I feel like it's smth I would love.

Insert sentence about Leo/Need here.

Jk I actually love those girls Saki is one of my favs and I am in LOVE with Shiho's cover of Lost ones Weeping.

Part 2 sometime in the future

[anomaly-hivemind]

Sweater Holders || Tanjiro x Inosuke

Chapter Eight

Chapter Seven, Chapter Nine

Roar - I Can’t Handle Change

Washing Machine Heart

Tanjiro’s POV

It had been a few days since the chaotic family game night and I’m still reeling from everything that happened. Apparently, Inosuke’s sister was seeing Professor Kibutsuji… which was none of my business. 

On top of that, Inosuke has a crush on me, not only that, it wasn’t simply that! I'm Inosuke’s gay awakening! I still can hardly believe, the other boy had feelings for me?... romantic feelings.

I sighed, pushing my hair back and got out of the bed. I needed to do something, to do anything else to get my mind off this dilemma. 

………………………………………………

The gym, We're all young adults sometimes go, to not think about society or anything at all. Pumping out testosterone into their bodies so they don't have to feel emotions, just the burning of a good workout. so naturally i decided to spend some time here to clear my head. How am I supposed to face Professor Kibutsuji… I'm sure it would be awkward but I am sure I could act like normal. I mean, I technically don't have any clue what that was about. But Inosuke… 

He’s my friend just because he has… feelings for me doesn’t change that. At least… I hope not. I don't want things to change.  

I put my earbuds in and pressed play and began stretching out my muscles. After a bit I decided to work on working on my back. I was working out, locking in and getting my body to sweat. My music plays a reasonable level into my ears. I don't want to damage my valuable ears by overdoing it. 

Half an hour in and I'm finally starting to feel the work of my labor. I jump from the tap of my shoulders. Turning my head to look at the person… Oh, it's Inosuke. That's great, amazing… stressful. Guess we aren't going to be pushing this topic aside. 

“Oh Inosuke...How Are you?” I smile At him, but I can't think of anything else besides the dinner. 

“I’m good…” Inosuke smiled almost awkwardly as I finally took my headphones completely off to give him my full attention.

We both just stood there awkwardly. Seething in silence as they thought about how to approach the growing elephant in the room.

 For a moment they both thought about just going back to working out instead of working on what is actually at hand. The bright neon sign of an issue that if not careful will burst, embedding its pieces until their skin.  We should talk about it, we need to talk about it, but do we want to really go into this topic and snap the strings of their friendship. 

As Inosuke opened his mouth to say something his stomach grumbled loudly. I couldn’t help as a laugh slipped out. He shifts in place a bit and looks away from the abrupt sound. 

“Wanna get lunch?” I asked,, if we were gonna talk, this wasn’t the place to do it. He gives a short nod and we clean up our stuff before heading out to go get lunch. 

“Well I’m gonna go get my stuff,” I said pointing my way to the locker rooms. Inosuke, the most other gym goers also had stuff in the locker rooms, so I got my stuff and changed out of my gym clothes before waiting for Inosuke 

“It’s not too far from campus so we can walk,” I said as Inosuke walked up. As we walked down the street the silence pained me. I wanted to say something but it was as if the ease of talking with Inosuke had vanished, more so that my mind was so wracked that he couldn’t think of anything.

Luckily we made it to the restaurant quickly enough, but it doesn’t seem to be open. So much for them trying to talk it out at a rest. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be.  

“Guess they’re closed today, I hope everything’s alright,” I said, running my fingers through my hair.

“So… what are we gonna do?” Inosuke asked. Rolled my lips, looking around as I tried to think of what to do when I saw a konbini across the street.

“Oh… well there’s a convenient store around the corner if you… want to go there instead.” Inosuke looked at the ground when he spoke to me. 

We start walking around the corner and get to the store.  We grab a few snacks and sandwiches and find a little park to sit at with little people around due to the cold weather. 

Once they were both sitting on a bench, we sat with a bit of distance. Sitting in a bit of silence, Inosuke broke the tension.  

“So, how were your exams?” I thought for a moment before answering.

“They were alright. I guess you and I.” I said dryly, it was as if we had never spoken before.

“Same”

I took another bite of my sandwich, the sounds of my chews standing out against the ambient sounds of the park.

“So-” Inosuke speaks at the same time as I do.

“Could-” I pause. 

“Oh, you- you go first…” Inosuke said with a bit of a voice crack and clears his throat.

“Oh… I was just going to ask if you could pass the bag, I wanted to get my water out,” I looked down at the bag to his side. 

“Oh, yeah sure…” He said the plastic rustling as he passed it to me.

“So what were you gonna say?” I said looking at Inosuke as I unscrewed the top back onto the bottle.

He seems to tense up while looking away, his ears a faint rosy color. 

“Um… about what my brother said, you don’t have to pay him any mind.

“Was it true?” I blurted out before I could stop myself.

“I… well, I think,I can’t really say, I… I don’t know. uh… maybe” He starts to ramble before giving a vague answer. 

“Oh…” It was different hearing it from Inosuke. “Inosuke… I’m really honored, but… I’m sorry, I can’t return your feelings.” 

Inosuke doesn’t speak for a moment, before muttering weakly. “I understand.” 

They both just sit there, not saying anything to one another or even looking at each other. 

“Well I should go, I have to practice for my dance final, later.” Inosuke said getting up. I started to call out to tell him to wait but I stopped myself, I didn’t even know what to say if I did? Sorry I'm still emotionally raw from my breakup? 

I was left alone for a few moments before I decided it was time to go back home. I shiver, and can’t help but feel like I am bringing back some not-so-old memories. 

As I walked home my eyes met a familiar face walking down the street, it was Kanao, and she was with Genya Shinaguzawa. I glanced down at their hands intertwined and when I looked back up we met eyes. She stopped walking, Shinaguzawa looked at her and then where she was looking. They exchanged a few words and I took the chance to speedwalk away. 

I’m glad at least someone is happy.

[exposed-circuits]

TW: vent, talk of sexual encounters, mentions of dissociation, vaguely explicit (?), uhhh idk what else????

the hoes dont fw my inability to say no to sexual encounters :P

they ask and insist its fine if we don’t do anything but there’s that unspoken feeling that they’ll be disappointed or annoyed if we don’t. or they don’t ask and assume i’ll tell them to stop if they do something uncomfortable (hello hand on my chest. what are you doing here). but i won’t because i don’t have a sense of my body or emotions until much later (hellooo dissociation) whoopsieeee 😋😋😋

there’s a weird phenomenon i assume has to do with my asexuality/low sex drive where i go into sexual encounters assuming i won’t necessarily be up in arms going “yippeeee! yahooo! huzzah!” because my brain is Built Different so i will dismiss feelings of apprehension or lack of enjoyment as “oh thats just what sex is like for a freak like me so i gotta cope for the other person cause im already here so might as well!” which usually ends in me vaguely dissociated (ruh roh) but can you blame a hoe? im committing to the bit of promiscuity here.

anyways what makes this high key asinine is the fact that it is 100% my fault when i walk away from a sexual encounter feeling disgusting and shitty because THEY didn’t do anything wrong (i even was like “hey. wanna grind up on my thigh so we can get this over with.” how do you not fw the activity you chose dumbass 🙄🙄🙄). it’s not their fault i am too much of a creep, weirdo, what the hell am i doing here etc. to properly voice myself.

nonetheless i WILL feel disgusted with the other person because they are a freak and a weirdo for even wanting sex and if they were simply Built Different like i am, none of this would have happened. but i believe this is (and let me check my dictionary here) coping with failure! and having to hug her after that whole ordeal was shall i say vomit inducing 🤭

but again. not her fault. i consented. i have consented in everything i can remember. granted sometimes its right after they say they’re suicidal so wtf am i supposed to do not let them spoon me? i was their gay awakening i made this mf suicidal (whoopsieeee)! and then this other time that person constantly had me wondering if they were going to commit suicide (why is there a streak here what the scallop? where’s the low empathy when you need it tf). but every other time has been normal (btw m&m if ur reading this dont worry u never wigged me out cause i felt in control of any and all situations with u. u too antlers the handjob was simply so casual i locked in.) so there really should be no reason for me to be wigged out this much but alas.

also fuck these fake ass catholics who don’t perform a stress induced communion due to insatiable catholic guilt after experiencing a vaguely sexual encounter. yall fakers you cant just love jesus and love sex- what are you protestant?

[snufflepup]

I mean it's good, I could've sworn I sent it last night, but I was super tired so maybe not lol. I do wanna get them for completionist reasons, but its likely they wont come back cause theyre collabs with companies. They did a sonic collab before i started playing, and i wish i played sooner cause itd be funny to have sonic and tails and shit. It's really cool! There's these phenomena that just turn back time in isolated spots on earth in random times and kill everyone that gets caught up in them. The mc is the timekeeper, the only person that's able to survive in the storm on her own. She's forced to work for the st. Pavlov foundation to find a way to stop the storms. (Forced, because she started working as a kid, and her immunity to the storm was found out when she tried to escape the foundation with some of her friends and all her friends died because they didnt have her immunity. Its really sad how sheltered they are and how badly they want to actually see the world outside the foundation). There's also this other group called manus vindictae, they're trying to speed up the storms happening to eradicate the humans and leave behind just arcanists that. Humans were historically super shitty and racist to arcanists, so the translation of their name "hands of vengence" makes sense! They used to have the only immunity to the storm, but in the most recent chapter, the st Pavlov foundation managed to find one out too, but their immunity item can protect humans too! God I'm so excited about this game!! The most recent patch (2.0) takes place in 1990 in San Francisco and it's so cool so far! We got the first adult guy character in a bit and he's so so hot and cool! It's gonna be a struggle to save up for him over mercuria, the other 6 star that got released in this patch before him. Oh There's also like a good couple canonical gay married npcs too! I love how casually they mention it and how respectful they are with it. A lot of the characters are girls, which I don't really prefer, but their designs are so gorgeous that i found myself actually liking them a lot^^ my favorite character is an italian half-blood arcanist named pavia! Hes so cool, though hes just a 3 star :P. My favorite 6 stars would be isolde, lucy, spathodea, Joe, and jiu niangzi! A cool thing about arcanists too is that theres awakened arcanists, items born from concepts and arcane! Lucy actually is one. Her core is a cog, and she came into existance when the first steam engine made a sound! And shes immortal as long as the concept behind her creation is alive. her concept would be progression and advancement, and omg thats soo cool to me, especially with how her representation of that concept was the first steam engine!! I could go on forever, i love this game so much, ive played since launch and im so glad i did! Things have gotten better with her, but I still think she's trying to limit how much we talk, so I'm gonna try and talk to her about it in a bit. I went trick or treating yesterday, so I wasn't really able to reply sooner, sorry. Did you do anything for Halloween? I walked around so much it still hurts lol.

-ike<3

aaa maybe ? Tumblr can . be a bit odd sometimes and mess up !! I understand how you feel, theres some games and things I like that I want to have everything in as well ! Those sound really awesome ! I'm sorry you missed out (◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ) That sounds really interesting ! oh my god that's so sad :(( The manus vindictae group sounds really really cool too, I can understand why they would . hate humans after all that ! The story sounds really really amazing, I'm glad you like it so much ! I think it's nice you are so passionate over it ^–^ He sounds . expensive . good luck getting him and saving for him !!! aaa yay ! That's good then, it's always good when there are canonically queer characters ! Lucy sounds SO cool omg omg ! It sounds like the game did things in a really awesome and interesting way !!! I see. . . It sounds like a really hard situation, but I think you're doubg the right thing by talking about it with her ! It's okay !! Did you have a good time ? What did you dress up as ? If you did !! I didn't really . do anything for halloween . I planned to watch scary stuff, but I never actually got aroubd to it . and by the time I knew it Halloween was over !

[luffythinker]

i so so so so so love the journey as well your mind OP YOUR MIND

since they go to different schools i imagined while reading what you said Yo if he doesn't live far far away cause i dont know where ketsubutsu and UA are but we know Shiketsu is hailed as the UA of the west it might not be too out of his way to walk Deku to school...WAIT I RUINED MY OWN IDEA Deku lives in the dorms by time he even meets him so he couldn't walk him to school but i think Yo is gayer then Deku just a little (ALOT) fruityer so his gay ass would run all the way from school to visit Deku if he doesn't drive cause Yo is a 3rd year i'll get into Deku being like flustered about dating older by like a year or two jfdzbhjbthd like its not even older but he's blasting out of proportions like "He must be like so mature" and he gets to know him and he's like "Immature little shit, im more responsible one here" in his mind LOL

I bet they talk on the phone all night long. I bet Yo likes to come through his window so nobody knows hes there in Deku's dorm cuddling with his boyfriend. Someone comes in and "WHO THE SHIT IS THAT DEKU DOUBLE???" cause they dont remember him from the license exam and since it's late hours Deku could play it off as "i dont know what your talking about, there was nobody in my room, you alright there?" AND ITS PROBABLY TODOROKI AND TODOROKI IS QUESTIONING HIS SANITY LMAO

Deku leaving at random times cause he's not telling them he's dating someone outside UA and everyone wondering where he's going. Like hes not gonna lie but hes not gonna tell them where hes going. "Im going out." THATS ALL comes back after a date of fighting dumbstruck cause they kissed and he's hungry as fuck.

"I like the scenario we set in the other ask, of them kissing for the first time mid-fight cause it would be hot and impulsive and not planned at all," ME TOO

"they wouldn't know the other was feeling like that. They both realize that there is something there after the kiss, Izuku would spend the week freaking out over it and Yo is like huh guess i do like him after all!" When i read this i thought of it this way, Yo didn't even know he himself was gay, like he was in denial of being gay until he was kissing him. OH SHIT IM GAY? I LIKE THIS??? WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? KISSING ANOTHER BOY?? HOLDING HIM? HES HOLDING ME TOO? I LIKE THIS??? my idea is that Yo is very chaotic in his headspace im sorry lanfrjksndvjfkt

"when they meet again (after 2 weeks cause Izuku likes to avoid it) Shindo is pretty chill about it and Midoriya is like .... ? is that it ? they decide not to rush into anything and just get to know each other better, so their relationship dynamic grows over time."

SEE I LIKE THIS, those 2 weeks are hell for Yo cause he's thinking about him morning noon and night. he wakes up thinking about him wondering why he wont call him or text him or try to talk about this but then again it might be a one time thing but disaster boy over here doesn't want it to be a one time thing maybe? he's questioning himself looking in the mirror wanting to see Izuku by his side, wanting him in his bed to cuddle with im sorry i see Yo as a little bitch baby i love him i mean this in a positive way when i call him a bitch baby.

If Yo finds out Deku is deleberly avoiding him he starts thinking Deku hates him or something or is anti gay or something and he's like "maybe i need to tell him no homo??? so we can keep being friends??"

this situation is so that meme that's like "Too bad your a boy cause if you were a girl i'd date you" they are fucking stupid i love them im sorry if these takes are not what your looking for im half joking half telling you my thoughts so don't take everything im saying complete seriousness.

Deku is the one not questioning anything cause he knows what being gay is, Bakugo will always be his gay awakening and he's openly bi just never brought it up around Yo, he doesn't know Yo doesn't really know anything about lgbt because he's around class 1A all the time and they are the most rainbow fucking people ever including his teacher we are not dis-cluding Aizawa as the skittle squad camp leader. Someone once said Deku's mom she always thought he was gay and was ready for him to come out to her like "whenever your ready you can come out to me Izuku ok? this is a safe place" and when he comes out he's like "Im bi" and shes like "HUH? OK not what i thought but im happy all the same you told me"

The thing Deku is questioning is "will we kiss again? i really like him but i don't think he really likes me that seemed like a spur of the moment thing, we were pretty heated and it was getting crazy. He wants to go back to that moment badly. Poor things decided to stop when one of them pushed their hips together a little too hard in the moment of it all, probably Deku and it was just going completely down hill in the best way but they really should stop.

"could see them working as friends with benefits for a while before catching feelings too!!"

LISTEN, if we agree Yo is the one who knows nothing we can work with friends with benefits for a while like Yo is all "hey i dont hate kissing you we could do it again sometimes if you want" Yo is the shy one, he's the simping one cause hes new to this, he doesn't wanna come off as inexperience but it shows a lot. However Deku is patient with him to a point tho, he can only go on with it for so long until he's probably kissing him for the 17th time in their makeout sessions, he's all frustrated and says "Can we just, please admit we like each other so we can stop beating around the bush please?" and it throws Yo so off his game.

And you know what? i'd even say Yo is the bottom in their relationship like Deku is a switch, he can play the role given but in this situation i can't really see it any other way

Your honor they are a disaster, I not only rest my case i put that fucker to bed, knock him the fuck out in his sleep.

OMG ANON THAT'S A WOLE ESSAY LET'S GET INTO IT

I see the appeal of yo taking him to school / or just passing by to say hi before the day starts!! they totally text all day and call every night, you know those couples who call on facetime just to see each other while they do other stuff? that's them. they call while izuku is studying, they don't even need to talk but just have the other's presence there is so comforting. also Yo coming through the window??? love the chaotic energy this would bring, izuku loves it

I LOVE THE IDEA OF YO GOING DOWN THE AM I GAY PANICKJDKJDFKJF he would overthink it so bad, he defntly googles am i gay quiz at least once a day until he gets to see izuku again. also him thinking deku avoiding him is homophobia is os fucking funny to mekjdvkjvckjfdk he does not know that boy is fruityyyyy, he would probably be scared as fuck having to talk to him again not knowing if he was cool with gay people (but i mean it's izuku could he ever really have hate in his heart for anybody...)

but i also like the idea of deku being chill about it, cause he knows his sexuality so i think he would accept his feelings much better in this scenario, the panic would come to how to tell this to Yo. (also not to go into the rabbit hole of Inko, but can we all just agree that lady is a fucking lesbian???? husband who left and never came back??? cmon lady we know u divorced him because you were in love with ur female best friend i just fucking know it, she would also be like incredibly supportive of izuku, she's the type of mom who gives rainbow socks for pride)

"Poor things decided to stop when one of them pushed their hips together a little too hard in the moment of it all, probably Deku and it was just going completely down hill in the best way but they really should stop." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LOSING MY DAMN MIND HERE

AND YEAHHHH i can see him trying to play cool and just agree to keep doing this but mostly because he doesn't know how to act, he didn't get the gay dating rulebook. AND I LOVE THE IDEA OF DEKU SAYING YOOOOO CAN W EPLS JUST BE NORMAL AND DATEKHDJKDFK

i can see them both as switches tbh!! i guess yo as a power bottom, cause he's full of opinions so i assume he doesn't shut the fuck up during itvcjkfdkjfd and izuku is more of a gentle reassuring (but firm) top which fits perfectly in their dynamic

edit: i forgot to add but i was listening to mitski while reading this, and i must say 'i love me after you' kinda fits them a lot ??

[depressedhatakekakashi]

Just had a thought about Gai in GOS.

When he dies, he regains all his memories from every life time. Probably gains at least part of their abilities too. And its alluded to that on a subconscious level, he keeps certain aspects of himself or certain skills when he's alive. Like his knowledge of the town/ old buildings. An example being Rogue Gai using King Gai's knowledge of the castle/town/ancient churches, to sneak around without being caught for over a decade.

Does that mean when he's dead, he has full access to his Dragon form/ all it's abilities...and is it possible that, under the right circumstances, aspects of the dragon could rise in his living form?

I'm just thinking of things like Soldier Gai being one of the last warriors to die, and wondering if he used some of his previous dragon strength that came out in that horrible battle. Not enough so he could transform, but maybe enough to last a little longer.

Or maybe when Husband Gai has Kakashi die in his arms, his rage, which is a first to come out like that in all his life times, just manifesting some aspect of the dragon while he cursed out the gods, which may have really shook them.

I almost see him walking in shock to a place he and Kakashi loved, during a sunny day (can't get mad like this when his husband is around, so not on a rainy day!). Maybe he was in partial shock a long time after Kakashi first died in his arms... and then him just...punching the ground as the weight of what all happened hitting him. And rage and anger exploding out of him as he finally takes the time to break down. Possibly going ham on a rock/ boulder of some kind...

When he comes to though, and is expecting his hands to be mangled by what he did, he just sees a pile of rubble, maybe even BURNT rubble, and his hands are perfectly fine. He can't explain it but is probably too tired to do so anyways (probably needs another good cry after that. Rational mind knows it had to happen, emotional mind however... needs to grieve. Ugly.).

And that's why the gods are quick to huddle up after, to prevent a possible rampaging dragon scenario, rampaging on them!!!

Ohhhh love that.

Gai’s rage, protective energy and drive funneling inward and awakening an ancient power deep inside of him that scares even the gods.

Gai being so so SO close to really unlocking that power in his mortal lifetime only to feel a hand on his shoulder. When he looks up it’s Kakashi standing at his side smiling at him the same as he always did

That cute little smile that reaches all the way up into his eyes until they close, expressing a deep happiness that Gai has never seen in anyone else before.

The gods, even the gods of creation themselves, cringing when they see all of this and getting together to talk about it because Gai has cursed them

He is still angey at them

If they allow him to die he really could unlock that dragon once again and it might be unstoppable.

Also for Soldier Gai i can see him being the last man standing, ready to give his life, when suddenly this red flame starts to burst around him. Not a flame that burns him, but one that surrounds him,

Soldier Gai dying, but also taking down every enemy with him in a flurry of rage that’s unlocked at the realization that if he doesn’t defeat them than his village is going to be burned to the ground, and he cannot allow that to happen

[seeb2]

anogie asked: i am here for aust1n brainrot !!! omg i write nsfw but very slowly and i wanted to share what a writing idea of mine was that i prob will never do so this is that its very longwinded im sorry so i absolutely adore the idea that g3orge’s gay awakening was aust1n, like on bant3r they said that g3orge was a fan of aust1n for a while, so i picture him having the most massive parasocial crush ever and then he meets austin irl and he is absolutely done for. during the tommy loh era, they went out and kissed while they were drunk at a club and nothing else came of it bcz george got too sick and they slept in austin’s bed together in a nsx way. 

then twitchcon eu rolls around and they spend a lot more time around each other, and austin finds out about george’s little crush, but he also knows that george is entirely in love with the rest of dtk, so he offers that they can sort of make it obvious that they’re “doing things” so that way his friends will get jealous. this is such a long brainrot i apologize im not done yet i just had to say that LMAO. so they end up fucking a few times during the duration of twitchcon, and it makes karl very jealous and clingy, which is why they were all over each other during that, and karl especially loved to try and get back at austin by doing things such as the time when he climbed all up in george’s lap when he was sitting right beside austin. george had marks that were visible when his shirt rode up or was not sat on right and karl walked into george’s room when he was just waking up and saw both areas that the marks were prevalent and it made him so angry because he wanted to be the one to give george those marks. eventually, word got to sapnap and dream about the hickies and the fact they disappeared together more regularly, and dnap r both jealous little shits abt it. george realizes his little crush on austin is sexual attraction and pretty much nothing else, so he tells that to austin who’s very glad because he didnt really feel romantically attracted to george, so they basically started a fwb situation. when george moves to america, they’re together more, visiting karl’s house for different things at the same time, being in LA at the same time, etc. karl is driven even more insane when he realizes that they hooked up in HIS house. they get more and more obvious about it so that the reactions from george’s boys get even more intense. dream’s “my boyfriend uses this app” was a joke that he wishes was real, he wished he had gotten to george before austin had. on banter, sapnap started to lean in to being austin’s type and offering to change his appearance for him, just to draw the attention away from george so he could get his jealousy in check. the two hook up the night after the episode was filmed and it was the last straw for karl, who immediately pulled george into his room when he got the opportunity and talked to him about what was going on and got so annoyed that george knew what he was doing the whole time. the two call sapnap into the room and call dream on karl’s phone and talk it all out. the call ends with all four of them in a relationship. when george tells austin they have to stop their arrangement, austin is nothing but happy for him, and it is a good ending for everybody yippee. some details of what i would write if this was a story, george def bottomed for austin, he was very happy about it too because he loves being a pillow princess. one time george and austin were out with karl and sapnap at a club and were dancing and grinding on each other just to make sure that karl and sapnap saw, and austin made a big show out of pulling george into a bathroom. austin came out of george’s room in the dteam airbnb early in the morning and he and dream just kinda stared at each other in the kitchen. austin was karl’s biggest supporter to talk to george about his feelings before and even throughout the fwb arrangement he and george had. george has a big thing for austin’s abs so he still shows his boyfriends every time austin posts shirtless pictures. maybe karl goes to austin to figure out what george likes during sex so he can make their first time solo the best it could be. george likes to mention his and austin having been fwb because it reminds the possesive assholes that are dream and sapnap that it happened and they get a little bit rougher and mark him up a little more after he brings it up, so its just a win-win for george. thank you for reading this whole long thing if you did i have had this idea stuck for so long with no where to put it dhskd

This is really good never apologize for sending long messages!! Austin being georges gay awakening is sooo good and Im here for it. I think the first couple times they hook up its more like frotting/hjs/oral since we all know austin is a selfish top and I feel like george would be hesitant to bottom at first. Austin being his fwb AND his wingman for endgame dnkn is next-level I think youre a genius 😭 Especially george continuing to use him to make his boyfriends jealous and karl going to him for advice about what george likes. 

[yeahyeahchloe]

It Wasnt in my Head (3)

(a/n: pls lmk if u see any typos! )

Summary: Abby is the starting linebacker at UW and when her team starts to falter her coach decides to get the team into ballet, in order to teach them that grace and stability is important in football too. Abby is just as upset about her teammates about this, until she sees her pretty new ballet teacher...

dancer!reader x football!abby

!!ABBY IS STRAIGHT IN THE BEGINNING. READER IS HER GAY AWAKENING!!

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This whole house smelled like total ass.

Dina was excitedly walking next to me trying to guide me to the alcohol, as Ellie looked for her friend.

"Abby!" Ellie exclaimed from my left.

I turned to look into the direction she was facing and just about shit my pants.

It was the pretty blonde from the football team.

She smiled at Ellie and they gave eachother a one armed hug in greeting.

"So this is Dina and Y/n, guys this is Abby," Ellie introduced us both.

Abby nodded her head at Dina in greeting before turning to me and hesitating.

"Hey, yeah no we've met," She said to Ellie signaling at me.

"Oh? Where?" Ellie inquired curiously.

"She is the little ballerina that got stuck teaching the varsity starters," Abby told her with a smirk.

"Y/n, you didn't tell me you were teaching the varsity starters,"

"I, uh, I guess I didn't think I would be running into one like this," I answered Ellie before turning to Abby, "Well, Abby, its nice to properly meet you,"

"Pleasures all mine," She answered with a friendly smile and a slight head nod.

Oh wow fuck me.

"Okay, well were gonna go get drunk. Bye!" Dina said, pulling my arm and dragging me away towards the kitchen.

I decided to just pour a vodka soda for me and Dina while we chatted.

"So what do you think of Ellie's friend?" She asked, sending a smirk my way.

"Oh, god, was is that obvious?" I reddened and hid my face with my hands.

Dina guffawed before answering, "Only to me I think, but I get it. She's totally your type,"

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"Oh c'mon! She's tall, super built, big nose, commanding presence, athlete. She was basically made just for you,"

"Ok ok fine, she's perfect, but I am way to awkward to ever initiate anything,"

"Well, maaybe just try talking to h-" Dina cut herself off with a large gasp, "Ohmygod Jesse is right there!!" She gasped, pointing to the boy across the room. "I'm gonna go talk to him,"

"No Dina don't leave me,"

"I'm going in,"

"No, D, please!" I begged her as she strutted off.

I turned around and started digging for stuff to make myself a drink, but the stupid grenadine was too high on the shelf.

A hand reached above my own and grabbed and handed it to me.

"Thank yo- oh its you!" I said, turning around to face the person who had helped me.

"What, wishing for someone cooler?" Abby teased with a smirk.

"Ugh, no. Dina is off with Jesse now, so, I'm gonna drink it off," I told her, gesturing to Dina and Jesse making out on a couch.

"Oh god lame. But I kinda get it, I was the same with this one boyfriend,"

My head snapped back to her with a look of disbelief, and before my brain could catch up to my mouth, I blurted; "You aren't gay??"

"No? What, you are?" She asked, matching my disbelief.

"Well, yeah," I said as if it was obvious.

It really isn't, but I'm trying.

"Ah, well, you had me fooled," She said, face tinged slightly pink.

"Yeah, me too" I answered her, exhaling through my nose in an awkward laugh.

"Well aren't we a pair, breaking our stereotypes and whatever," She told me, confidence fully back on. I laughed a little before she continued, "So do you, like, have a girlfriend?"

"Oh, uh, not at the moment, no. Trying to take it easy right now," I responded, before following it with "You must have a boyfriend, though"

"Nah, no. You could say I'm taking it easy too, real focused on grades and sports,"

"What are you studying?"

"Pre-med. My dad's a surgeon, so its kinda in the genes,"

I was shocked by her answer, its not often you see a football player spending their time actually studying something useful instead of doing drugs and partying.

"What about you?" She asked.

"Oh, uh, the arts. I do painting and stuff. And obviously dance, uh, and also law, I'm looking to go FBI," I said, getting embarrassed by my much lamer response.

"Oh, that actually sounds really cool. I bet you have a shit ton of work," She told me, seeming genuinely interested.

"Yeah, well, you only get a scholarship once,"

"Yeah, yeah, true,"

The conversation was starting to falter so I told her to follow me.

"Hey Ellie!" I greeted as we approached the girl.

"Hey, are you ready to..." She made a signal with two fingers signing she wanted to smoke.

"Hell yeah," I answered before turning to Abby, "Wanna join?"

"Of course I do," She responded with an excited glint in her eyes.

We squeezed our way through sweaty bodies and makeout sessions all the way to the back of the large house where the yard was.

Ellie reached in to her right pocket, dug around for a bit, scowled and then reached into her left pocket where she took out a small joint and a lighter.

"Y/n?" She said my name, gesturing the blunt to me, "Wanna light it?"

"My pleasure" I held the joint up to my lips, the flicked the lighter and lit it. I instantly felt the hot smoke flow through my throat into my lungs. I turned my head away from the two in front of me out of politeness and blew out the smoke.

15 minutes later we were all stoned.

"Hey. Hey, beautiful, aren't you like not 'sposed to do this? Cuz you, like, are gonna be a doctor or whatever?" I spoke while turning to Abby.

"Maybe, but I think all be ok," She chuckled at my state.

She held her weed good.

I didn't.

Ellie held hers good.

I really didnt.

I went to answer Abby when Dina came running up to us.

"Hey guys!" She greeted us.

"Heyyy D," I said to her elongating every syllable.

Dina took one look at me before turning to Ellie with the look a mom would have after her kids stole a cookie from the jar.

"Ellie, come on. I told you not to let her do stupid shit like this anymore, you know she's a total lightweight,"

Ellie looked around defensively and held her hands up in surrender, "Hey man, she asked for it. Besides I didn't do any, yaknow, for protection,"

Dina sighed, grabbed my arm, grabbed Ellie's, and told us were going home. I shouted a goodbye to Abby that was somewhere along the lines of "Bye gorgeous see you in class!" and shuffled alongside Dina out the door.

The drive home was filled with Ellies playlist, and when me and Dina climbed up the stairs and into out apartment we bid our goodnights.

My mind was fuzzy the whole time though.

It was full of one thing.

Abby Anderson.

a/n: this took forever to get out, whoops. working on pt 4 asap, might post later tonight if im feeling spicy.