#if i post it at 2AM it should be ok right lol

[hollowfaith]

umbrella because Aury needs someone to be nice to him today :P

actions speak louder than words // umbrella, sender lets receiver under their umbrella.

Rain fell, sudden and sloppy, on the eve of one summer afternoon in Spirale City. It plunged the last light of the waning sunset to darkness, painting the skies gray and the air thick with the wet, humid gasps of a fading day still struggling to live.

There were still a good amount of pedestrians in the streets at 7PM on a Friday, but all of them had places to be and people to see. No one paid much attention to the blond man standing beneath the awning of a shuttered pawnshop, one hand stretched out to catch stray droplets. Or if they did, it was only to look at him and away again, with private thoughts wondering whether they'd seen him somewhere before.

Was he a model? He was tall enough, but not nearly so ostentatious. An actor? Yet he seemed too much at ease with his own obscurity. Maybe a businessman? Perhaps, though one ill-prepared to be alone in bad weather...in any case, some hidden sense of awe made them keep away from a place where they obviously didn't belong.

The mysterious man might have stood there all evening in his elegant coat (strange pick for summer, yet it suited him nonetheless), leather shoes, and blasé attitude if it wasn't for the appearance of a second man (equally tall and just as imposing) and his timely umbrella, which he extended to the blond in obvious invitation.

"Aurelius."

At last Aurelius turned, dropping his rain-soaked palm to his sides. He smiled and said back, in equally measured tones, "Legato."

"Are you waiting for someone? I have an umbrella, if you don’t mind sharing—though maybe I'm assuming too much for an angel to be trapped by rain."

Hearing that, the blond steps beneath the new shelter with no hesitation.

"You're halfway correct," he admits. "Though what traps me is less rain and more thought."

"By picking me up, you've become the very person I'm waiting for."

He begins to walk and Legato keeps pace without batting an eye, his body only a half-step behind the angel temporarily under his care. Someone else might've asked where they were going, but Legato is used to being told things in their own time, and so waits for the next subject to crop up.

It comes soon enough in the form of a question.

"Have you ever contemplated loneliness?"

Blinking, Legato tries his best to think of an honest answer.

"I...not recently, no." Though it's true that in his darkest hours, he had harbored fears of being left alone and forgotten—which in retrospect, was probably its own form of isolation. Obviously Aurelius isn't here to pry into his heart, but to share his thoughts with him, so Legato doesn't elaborate.

As expected, the angel soon resumes speaking.

"I had a chance to entertain the thought before you arrived. I saw multiple people pass me by, none of them interested in me whatsoever, and considered who conceivably would think to pick me up in this storm. By the time you offered, I could think of merely three—perhaps four—persons in total."

Besides the obvious gratification at being part of Aurelius' private shortlist, Legato is more surprised that the number is so low. "Surely there are more..."

"More people dislike me than you think," Aurelius said simply. "Those do not bother me. Instead, it was the idea of you four joining their ranks that troubled me more. It should not affect me so. It certainly wouldn't have in the past."

Legato stayed quiet this time, waiting to see where he'd go next.

"The thought of these people ignoring me, disregarding me—it rankles. Not at my pride, but something else entirely, a hollowness like a hole in one's chest. Within that I believe I've glimpsed a semblance of an emotion I've never had before. For while I was alone, I was never lonely."

"That," Legato tries slowly. "isn't necessarily a bad thing. Having people you care for, who care for you in turn..." he trails off, temporarily lost in the warmth of his own memories. "...it brings a special sort of joy, a kind of gift you don't know you missed until you have it for yourself."

"Do all your gifts come with such burdens?" Aurelius asks as he stopped—not from Legato's words, but because of the traffic light on the street corner. These little human restrictions were irritatingly quaint in their own way. "I cannot help but find it cursed—for in obtaining a blessing, one cannot help but imagine a future where it doesn't exist."

Legato suppressed a subconscious shudder at the idea. "That's a...surprisingly bleak observation from you, Aurelius." Although a part of him wondered if that statement was too blunt, the other was more curious to hear what the angel was thinking. After all, this was the same being who told him to keep walking and stop looking back. It was unusual to see the blond experiencing his own brand of hesitation now.

"Perhaps it is because I do not trust anything too human by default," Aurelius admitted after a while. "They are imperfect beings—and regardless of their virtues or vices, destined to wander as lost souls while fixing their flaws. To embrace their ways too intimately jeopardizes my position as their guide and better—don't you think?" He suddenly breaks off, fixing Legato with mute appeal in his eyes.

Legato isn't sure what he reads in those golden irises. He can feel a strong sense of conviction as well as the—not stubbornness, but purpose driving their owner. For a moment, he feels as if he understands the angel exactly: a soul cut to such precise proportions that even the slightest deviation would threaten the integrity of its facets. Like a diamond, Aurelius shone brightest when held at the perfect angles to fill himself with light. Tilted away, he was no different from glass: clean, pure, but ultimately empty.

Words rise to his throat, urging him to voice his thoughts. Yet before Legato can speak, a hand rests over his own on the umbrella handle and presses it down. Cool air washes over them both as the sky unfolds above their heads: clouds clearing after the storm, the horizon dyed a dark purplish-gray. Even the light's finished changing, filling the streets beside them with cars speeding through the intersection as 'WALK' flashes at them in bright white lights across the street.

"The rain's stopped," Aurelius remarked.

"So it has," Legato answered by way of reply.

Bereft of their shared space beneath the umbrella, a distance grows between them even though neither man has budged an inch. It becomes even more palpable after Aurelius lets go of the umbrella handle, severing their last point of connection. Legato tries the sentence resting on his tongue, almost tasting it as he wills it into form, and yet—

"I'm afraid I've been rambling," Aurelius speaks first, cutting off the man before he ever begun.

"Do think nothing of it—only a passing whim of an idle mind."

"Aurelius—," Legato starts, but pulls back before he ever starts to push. "...shall I escort you the rest of the way?"

“That’s kind of you," Aurelius begins, and Legato hears the rejection already, "but I'll be fine. My destination isn't far."

He graces the human with a nod and takes one step, two steps, backwards and up—

Golden wings appear in the dying light, eclipsing the sky with their twilight radiance, before Aurelius bids his final goodbyes.

"It is no fault of yours, of course," he adds pleasantly while hovering in the air. "But in the course of our stroll I have discovered how enjoyable agreeable company is—and in turn, how very new such sensations are to me at all."

"We can take another walk—in the future, when you're feeling up to it again," Legato offers simply. Another gift, with no strings attached. Now isn't the time to ask why and what.

"We will," Aurelius said in his curious way that turned suggestion into fact. "But for tonight, I aim to get reacquainted with my solitude. One wonders if absence makes the heart grow fonder, even in such a case."

Legato manages to smile at that. "An interesting question to consider."

"It seems the mortal realm has no end of them."

After a soft laugh, Legato managed to collect himself. The angel was still there, so he simply called out his name once more. "Aurelius."

"Yes."

"Your wings are quite beautiful."

Four golden ones glimmered as their owner gave them a languid flap. "Do they shine as they ought?"

"Yes, of course."

"...then all is not lost." Something small relaxes in Aurelius' expression—and then he's gone, a blur of wind and feathers ascending to the skies.

[judasgot-it]

Ello o/, may i request again (dk if i can tho, don't feel pressured if not maken), really love the post you made for the request my heart literally- aawkwkw, i have so many things to say to that post but really busy asfck like if i wnated to, i could literally write a essay or thesis statement, */ahem anyway

BSD boys, while having a fighting/argument with s/o they suddenly grip they're s/o's wrist too hard and ended up leaving a mark (they didn't mean to tho ;-;) that reminded the reader's past child abuse/not used to this type of conflict which lead to angst to comfort or just angst hehe. Idk this is just a random 2am thought(my time rn) I have classes later waking up at 4am too…

AHHHHHH omg yes I'm so sorry I haven't like set up any request rules yet which I should do lol, but I'm so shehejwj but I don't have limits on requests! I just try to get to them when I can <3 Also I'm so sorry about the late response! College is hard x[

But also, I wanna do some scenarios for this, so I'm gonna have to only pick a few that I feel I can write the best for this if that's ok cause ngl I feel the mercury retrograde rn,,,

Scenario: Accidentally triggering past abuse/trauma during an argument (Ranpo, Dazai)

Ranpo

Ranpo was a rather loud guy. That's not his fault, since he's only loud whenever he has a reason to be - he's confident because he knows he can get away with it. He's smart enough to survive some of the most dangerous killers, and is bold enough to laugh in their face about it too.

But god is it aggravating as hell whenever you want to truly talk to the man one on one. Sometimes, you just want to have a normal date with him - like a normal couple and do normal couple stuff.

Like right now, you just want to walk down this busy street and not have to listen to him boast about how stupid people were. It was embarrassing how loud he was about it, how the person who got hit with a car could have easily avoided it had they just checked both sides of the street.

A normal conversation to have after witnesses a horrible event, but you could feel the stares from across the street from the mans wife. Especially towards Ranpo, who seemed to have no social boundaries as everyone else in the area seemed to instead be occupied with the normal human behavior of freaking out after witnessing a man flying in the air and being hit by a car.

To save face, you dragged him away, with him still talking about it as if it were a normal everyday thing. In his world, it probably was - but not to you. Not to normal people, who didn't think about death everyday.

"Ranpo, you need to quiet down."

"What? I'm just saying. It was pretty avoidable you know?"

You turned around to glare at him, gripping your enclasped hands tightly. He thought nothing of it, swirling his ramune bottle rather casually. The ball clinked around with each step the both of you took together.

"I know that. But you do know that it's pretty insensitive to say that in front of him and the wife who saw her husband get hit with a car."

"Y/n."

You were forced back as Ranpo stopped on the sidewalk. It was apart of a narrow stretch of road, empty and away from the commotion, which forced you to look at him. He was staring at you with his eyes, as if trying to puzzle something.

"You don't actually care about them."

There was a pause. You blinked once. Then twice.

"What do you mean by that?"

He held your hand tighter, almost painfully so.

"You don't really care about them that much. So why are you defending them?"

His viridian eyes bore into yours, which deeply unsettled you. He meant nothing by it, especially with the iron grip he had on your hand which kept you in your spot.

"Because not everyone is a superfreak like you Ranpo!"

But it made you incredibly uncomfortable.

You felt the need to defend yourself, somehow.

"Some people have 'empathy' which I know is a foreign concept to people like you."

It was as he cocked his head to the side, like a crow trying to understand what you had just told him. It was as if what you just said had gone right through him, like the wind.

"You don't mean that."

He pulled you towards him. You tried to step back, but you only found yourself stepping around and trying to find your balance again.

You flinched when Ranpo reached to balance you, but you still felt the energy from your sudden bout of frustration pumping through your body. It was embarrassing, but your mind and body were reacting all on their own.

Ranpo kept staring at you, looking past your angry scowl and into something deeper.

"I'm not your enemy Y/n, I know you're upset but there's something more."

He left you feeling naked there.

"It's not that deep. You don't need to defend yourself against me."

You looked down, avoiding his eyes. The sidewalk underneath you was rather cracked and abandoned - there was a dandelion growing just underneath your feet, a rather resilient flower.

"I'm not defending myself, I'm just..."

Ranpo lifted your chin up so you could meet his eyes again, which were now softer, as they had quickly figured out the puzzle that he's struggled with.

You looked back at him. A part of you wanted to keep arguing - it was in your nature, to keep fighting. Unfortunately, it was something you've done for a long time, which Ranpo has figured out by now.

Another thing that made you feel a little uncomfortable.

He met you with a cheeky smile, like a little rat. He closed his eyes, his cheeks raising to meet his eyes.

"I know. You're a good person Y/n."

Dazai

"I just don't think you understand. I can't expect you to, but it's not your problem, so why are you so upset about it?"

Dazai was looking at you from the couch, watching as you were once again picking up bottles he had left from one of his drinking binges. He still smelled of last night, wearing the same clothes and smelling of the various drinks he had lost himself in.

"It clearly is my problem. I'm the one cleaning up your mess right now, so how could I not be involved? Dear god, do you ever look at yourself and want to even try to be better?"

Dazai looked at you, sitting up from his previous lounging position. He stared up, his elbows resting on his knees as he stared at you - his eyebags prominent in the early morning sunlight.

"What do you mean 'try' to be better? Have you ever even known what it's like to be like this?"

You rolled your eyes, dragging the bag to the front door so you could later bring it to the dumpster of your apartments. In your eyes, he was clearly being dramatic - sitting like some sort of mafioso, needing only a cigarette to seal the deal.

"Everyone has had it hard at one point Dazai. Losing yourself to alcohol every night and weekend doesn't justify it. You have a life to live you know? It's worth living."

You heard footsteps approach behind you, and looked up to see Dazai standing a little too close for comfort. His body was warm, and you could see the sweat and stains on his bandages. His hair was usually fluffy hair was greasy, but his eyes - they were dark, simply staring down at you.

"What do you know about living?"

"What?"

He had backed you into the wall, his hands now on either side of you, blocking you from exiting the danger that had become him and whatever emotional rage he had thrown himself into.

"You act like you know so much about life but you know nothing! You don't know anything about death or life - I don't think you know anything at all really. You feel all too comfortable making these assumptions about me when you don't know who I am, do you?"

He was smiling but it didn't reach his eyes at all.

You pushed at him, trying to find space to escape from his hold. His clothes and warmth made you want to burn your skin and run at that moment, and you closed your eyes in order to avoid the worst of your fears as you knew he was staring at you with those eyes that seemed to hold nothing but contempt in that very moment.

When you couldn't break free, instead feeling him pressing himself more against you, you felt your eyes begin to tear up.

"Dazai get the fuck away me."

"Or what? What will you do, oh sweet belladonna?"

You could feel tears build up in your eyes as your pushing did nothing against him - so you resorted to what you knew would work.

You raised your knee as hard as you could, and watched as Dazai fell hard on the ground, falling like a sack of potatoes. He writhed around, clutching his pearls while you gripped your pants, trying to soothe your nerves.

"Dazai I'm..."

You looked around your apartment, looking at the mess that it had become because of him. You looked back down at him, who was still on the ground and wasn't saying anything.

"Dazai I'm going to leave for a bit. Sorry."

I'm so sorry this took so long waaaaahh I'm a slow writer I'm working on it tho ;( also I was thinking about doing Jouno but I felt that it would've been super harsh so maybe I'll do him another time

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Recap of my first con experience!! Besides all the back and forth from the last few days that I've already posted lol

I ended up going with my brother. Our tickets got us in after 3pm which meant we missed David Tennant's q&a. But we were supposed to catch John Barrowman's q&a. I told my brother when we had to leave. Very early bc parking would be bad. He showed up 25mins late. We didn't park until 3:30/3:45. Which still meant we should have left earlier than I first said. But still. My brother was like oh wow it's really packed. ???? Yeah. The walk took a while too so we got in right at 4. No John Barrowman q&a either :( ok next. I really really want David's autograph. Took us a while to find the booth but we did. Uh oh they only take cash unless you prepaid. (I didn't prepay bc I knew we couldn't get in till 3 and there was no info on how long he was staying but today was his last day. I was worried we'd get there and he'd already be gone.) OK fine there's atms. We get the cash. We get in line. David Tennant is FIVE FEET FROM ME OMG. The lady hands me a post it to write my name on. She sees the cash in my hand. They're not taking cash anymore only prepaid tickets. NO DAVID TENNANT AUTOGRAPH. YEP. AFTER ALL OF THAT. I DO NOT HAVE HIS AUTOGRAPH. OR A PICTURE. OR ANYTHING. I SAW HIM IN PERSON FOR LIKE. A MINUTE. THATS IT. I almost cried and had a complete emotional breakdown BUT my last hope was that the BMW cast was still out and I didn't wanna be crying in my pics with them sofhskdhjs so :) I got Danielle Fishel's autograph and a selfie with her :) I wanted to get the same with Rider Strong. Bestie disappeared. And as soon as I was done with Danielle, Will Friedle and Trina McGee also disappeared. So :((( but at least I got Danielle's!! And!! I had written off getting anything from John Barrowman bc I though his autograph was more expensive but it turned out it was cheaper than I thought! So I got that too! And a good amount of interaction with him bc the line was long and he was super chatty. THEN. There were 3 Doctor Who panels that lasted all night and we ended up staying for those and im really glad we did!! It was just. Nerds hanging out and talking about Doctor Who ksjfjsks they were all really fun and funny. We got home at 2am!! And overall everything that we did do was really fun im just still disappointed about what I missed :( the last bright side is. Now I've done it once. So hopefully next year will have good guests too and I'll feel more prepared

[kyalarys]

(sorry to hijack the post)

This made me think of something I talked with a colleague yesterday

So I'm a developer and the dude is the one in charge of our dev quality. He's rigorous, takes his job at heart, and has put a lot of process in place so that we don't get bad things in production. He's also a little shit that yells a lot and if you work with him you have to learn to bite back, which isn't to everyone's taste (tbh he's a bit more sensible than people give him credit for, and he adapts to the ones in front of him. I told him that I wasn't comfortable with him saying some things about my work and he's working on that)

The root of the talk was "I'm sick of people saying niceties, if I don't like something I don't like it and if you ask me I will tell you"

Right now you might think he'd be really bad and we would hate him or whatever

But no. First thing is he takes 1 day to explain the project to everyone that comes onto it. Then he'll take at least an afternoon to explain our front end framework. He even taught JavaScript to one of us because the other had never done it and he was going to work on a hard task.

Anyway. If you try he's happy, if you're struggling he'll just be pissed if you don't ask for help.

Last time we had to deliver a version, he noted that the dev quality was subpar. He was a bit annoyed, and then sent us an invite for a meeting about it.

He then spent an hour and a half teaching us what he wanted us to be vigilant about, because "we all learned that one aspect on the job, and I figured that's why we struggle with it". (we're not talking about him writing that at 2am the night he decided to do it because he's very much not supposed to do that lol).

Ok I went offtrack lol.

What I mean is, your criticism doesn't even have to be kind to be good. It has to be constructive. Sometimes people won't like something, and that's ok. Doesn't mean what you did is trash.

Also back to the work aspect, but I used to work with people who wouldn't give me feedback or hard tasks to do, because they were afraid of losing time and money while I learnt. They then put me aside from interesting tasks because I didn't progress as fast as I should have.

Let's just say that they were kind but they almost made me quit development. A few years later, I have feedback, I'm encouraged to take up hard things, and right now I'm doing a fucking hard task and I've never been more proud of my job.

So yeah, even kind criticism can kill someone's spirit. Basically don't imply that someone can't get better.

[bokutobaes]

I loved the bad day hc it was so gooood🥺 can I get a hc (w the same boys👀) of ur first night over their house?? Bet Atsumu snores like a freight train lmao😭😭😭

first night at the inarizaki boys house :p

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆- with: suna, atsumu, kita

☆- no warnings!

☆- a/n: this request was soo cute i had so much fun writing this🥺thank u for requesting i really hope you like it <33 and im so happy u enjoyed the bad day headcanons

authors: lu and sen <3

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆- suna:

-you were in fact enjoying a nice saturday in your room, pixie lights strung, your favourite show playing and you in a warm fuzzy blanket. it was bliss

-until.. the vibration of your phone shook you from the scene you were watching, and who else would call you on a saturday at 1am

-“hello?”

-“hey”

-“uh whats up”

-“wanna come over.. to sleep”

-“suna- it’s one o clock in the morning”

-“so?”

-“so why would i-”

-“i miss you..”

-your heart just exploded from the fact he just said that

-“say no more okay i’ll be there in 10”

-“okay :)” you could hear suna’s smirk from his voice

-you’d snuck out before in your first year of high school just to hangout with some friends so you knew the basics

-you left a note to your parent(s) saying that you went to a friends house early in the morning because she had a boyfriend emergency

-the things u do for suna🙄

-the way to sunas wasn’t long, he only lived a few streets away so you packed a bag, threw on your comfiest cutest sweats and headed on down

-when you got there suna was already at the door leaning against the frame with his hands stuffed in his black hoodie

-“hi”

-“hi.” he hugged you, “come on it’s cold out” then he grabbed your wrist and with a finger on his lips telling u to tip toe and whisper you headed to his bedroom

-now, you’d definitely been to sunas bedroom before to hangout after school and study and whatnot

-but it now dawned on you that you’ve never stayed the night

-heat rushed to your cheeks

-“so where am I gonna sleep”

-“here?” he said

-“where?”

-“in my bed. you’re sleeping in my bed.”

-“suit yourself, but I kick people in my sleep”

-he scoffed, “and I’ll kick you back tf”

-you guys hopped in the bed and just immediately went on your phones

-but you were in one of those close ass positions where you could see what was on eachothers screens

-so you exchanged tik toks and tweets

-the night was filled with you both trying so hard not to laugh out loud

-you guys rambled on for a long time after seeing a post about astrology

-“i don’t get it.. your saying i’ll be in a bad mood on the 5th of next month because mercury is in gatorade.?”

-did he really just disrespect retrograde like that

-once it was getting really late your eyes started feeling heavy

-you switched your phone off and snuggled deeper into suna’s chest

-you were basically hugging eachother

-suna yawned

-“goodnight y/n”

-“goodnight rin”

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆- atsumu:

-you were already at atsumu’s house, you’d walked there together after school to spend the friday together

-currently you were in osamu’s room with the twins playing “winning eleven”

-why they were so obsessed with this game? you do not know

-but right now you were being betrayed by atsumu

-he told you he’d “go easy on you” since you’ve never played before

-then just abandoned that idea

-“atsumu wtf your not even going a smidge easy on me”

-“hey it’s not my fault yer skills are lacking baby”

-ur about to punch him

-“ok then here” you hand your remote to osamu and cross ur arms scooching away from atsumu

-“wait heyyy hey don’t be like that I was joking” he paused the game

-osamu was literally on his phone at this point

-he smushed your cheeks and you rolled your eyes

-“what time even is it?”

-“10:43” osamu drawled

-“omg it’s late i have to go soon”

-atsumu got up and told you to come his room so you waved to osamu and headed out

-“stay the night”

-“really?”

-“yes really please i don’t want you to leave yet”

-🥺🥺🥺

-“awww tsumu”

-“SHUTUP! are you gonna stay”

-“yes I’ll stay” <3

-he took your face in his hands and kissed you all over

-you shot your parent a text saying you were sleeping at your friends house and then sat on the bed where atsumu was already sprawled out watching something on his phone

-“i don’t have a toothbrush”

-“there’s an extra in the bathroom babe”

-“i don’t have clothes”

-he looked at you

-“i have clothes”

-“aww are you gonna give me your hoo-“

-“nvm go home now”

-LOL

-it was already almost midnight after you had watched some movies on his bed

-you guys got up and brushed ur teeth together

-“next time you’re gonna sleep at my house instead and we’re gonna do face masks”

-you though about tsumu in a panda sheet mask and laughed to yourself

-when you were done washing your face he asked if he could put the moisturizer on for you

-so you sat up on the counter and he was being so gentle🥺 just looking at you

-your cheeks starting feeling hot and atsumu noticed

-“oh embarrassed now are we?” his stupid smirk plastered on his face

-“shutup tsumu” you looked down smiling

-it was half past 12 when you guys finally got in bed and you were honestly tired since it was the end of the week

-atsumu squeezed you tightly from behind and was playing with your hair

-it knocked you out

-“g’night baby”

-“goodnignt tsum”

-(you were not prepared for the snoring that came out of him at 2am but you loved him anyways)

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆- kita:

-this sleepover with kita was actually planned by the two of you

-you wanted to spend time together outside of school and you thought this was a nice idea

-you came over a little before dinner and he was cooking when you got there

-“hi!” you said walking in through the kitchen door

-“hi love” he stopped stirring a pot on the stove and came over to hug you

-he kissed your forehead and asked how you are

-(like he didn’t ask you 1 hour again when you were texting)

-you ate dinner with kita and his grandma, she told stories about kita when he was younger embarrassing him but making you awww out loud

-after dinner you headed to his room, you’d put on something to watch but it ended up just being background noise in a conversation you were having

-“y/n.. did you wanna sleep in the spare bedroom? i want to make sure you’re comfortable”

-“its okay babe i don’t mind sleeping with you”

-so you both were on his bed just looking out the window together, now that it was later you’d switched from watching tv to sharing earphones and looking out the window at the stars

-a song came on, something soft and gentle playing through your ears

-“wanna dance?” kita said looking at you with a smile

-heart combusted

-“of course”

-you got up and he grabbed your hip, hand in hand you two just swayed slowly looking at eachother

-both your cheeks burned but you were so happy that you were here with him right now

-now you’d been dancing for a few minutes and your face was in the crook of his neck

-you were both starting to get a bit tired but then you remembered the face masks you’d brought in your bag

-“kita..! we should do face masks”

-“face masks?”

-“yep! i brought some. let’s go”

-leading him to the bathroom you started to put the sheet mask on him

-the fox imprint on the mask made you laugh being on kitas face

-you two looked so silly, a fox and a panda in pyjamas on a saturday night

-after taking a few photos the masks were done and you washed up for bed together

-it felt like taking a look into the future

-soo domestic

-sleep came really easy that night, you lay on kitas chest and rambled for a bit before you noticed he had fallen asleep

-poor bb probably tired from volleyball practice

-you fell asleep soon after right after kissing him on the cheek

[magicshopaholic]

Ok, so for part two of my feedback, my actual thoughts around this. more generally.

First, this is around the F1 worldbuilding. I used to watch it with my ex and his brother so I kinda get it but I'm not big on following sports. What I do enjoy is the behind-the-scenes, the pressure, drama, politics, emotional toll, etc, so I enjoyed the Netflix series. I think you're including just enough to get what's happening and what's at stake (either during the race, like the fraction of a second, to the type of maneuvres, or outside of it, like how 25 points are so detrimental and how loosing to Max is what's she's been running away from this whole time - I'm proud I remember this actually from my actual F1 knowledge). There's not too much detail to the point that it's overwhelming or boring for someone who isn't a fan, but just enough to set the stage and make us invested. I wouldn't usually seek out to read about sports in general, but I think I would read other fics of yours in this setting based on this.

Second, damn I feel for Dilara, the pressure of the position she's in would be huge anyway, but to add to this being the first woman racing with the men (wow imagine this actually happening... it hasn't right?), to loose 25 points over a teenager on a Vespa when you're already stressed to the max, man she needs a hug and a drink and an island holiday, away from all things BTS lol.

Also, I like how you've written this timeline. Like you've skipped a huge plot point, then slowly revealed it, with a tini tiny bit of info at a time. Keeping us on the edge of our seats, I like it. Also, the way all of their stories show such different couples. This one is probably the most dramatic, I like that some of them provide us comfort (i.e. Namjoon x Kaya & Jungkook x Lia - JK & L my faves I miss them, good old fluff is needed to cleanse us from the stress of Jimin & Tae), others not so much lol.

Your fics are a unique collection of cohesive works, with enough realism and distinction between stories, also with OC with clear and defined personalities, that I find myself being extremely enthralled by your work.

Overall, 10/10 looking forward to whichever member you choose to post next because you could write about Spongebob at this point and I know I'd enjoy it. This is to say that regardless of my go-to preferences for casual reading, I will always enjoy your stories.

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk, it is now 2am and I should crash soon.

Be still, my heart

Firstly, I LOVE that there are a few readers mentioning how they used to watch F1 or maybe watch DTS or have like a bit of knowledge and it's all suddenly coming in handy 😂 But absolutely, the important stuff isn't about who's in which team or how the race is going but the nuances of it, like what a big deal 25 points is or how quickly drivers can lose a seat. I'm not a sports buff by any means either but I absolutely love F1 and I need to make a conscious effort to not detail out unnecessary stuff (my initial drafts are so much more race heavy - exciting, but only if you're a diehard fan).

Timeline: yesss. I thought about it quite a bit, about making it linear or doing it this way but in the end, I chose to kind of mirror how it happened to Dilara. Again, not giving anything away, but it's a fair sense of foreboding before the truth hits her in the face and that shock is still kind of staying with her.

I'm so glad you love the different couples! Different people have different dynamics and I can't imagine Seokjin, for example, having this level of drama in his life. He just wouldn't have the patience for it while Tae, despite everything, is such a passionate person that he would lowkey like a certain level of drama (not this level, but a Confessions level probably). Namjoon and Kaya probably think themselves too mature for stuff like this and Jungkook and Lia are way more laidback - so there's something for everyone <3

Thank you so much for enjoying my work and my OCs (my loves) AND taking out the time for such a fantastic review. Honestly hoping to post the first Yoongi and Hoseok ones soon so that all characters are truly interconnected so I hope you enjoy those as well!

[sixteenthshen]

my rant on episodes 31/32

I feel so conflicted about them.

On the one hand, I wanted to watch the shared horse scene so much. On the other,  there were so many inconsistencies and WTF moments. I can't bring myself to touch those episodes again to make more gifs, which is such a pity because WKX falling down the cliff? SO PRETTY. 

Spoilers behind the cut. If you do follow the drama with Chinese fans, you’ll probably have heard the same things like a million times. To save yourself more angst/stress, skip my post. 

The upside is that the director took the fans complaints to heart. They were making edits until 2am last night. I heard it’s already live, but I’m still trying to prepare myself. There’re some things that can’t be fixed >< 

*hopes for the best on Tuesday* 

In episode 11, WKX wanted to tear the Scorpion assassins into ten thousand little itty bits because ZZS had some blood on his lip, which made me mentally scream so much from joy. In episode 31, he  LETS Duan Pengju, that evil dickface(TM) go, just like that? Where's the rage? Where's the anger? Do you see the colour of ZZS's face? Can you see what he's wearing? Do you know what dickface did? 

Although it's a very touching moment when WKX decides to acknowledge the shixiong/shidi relationship, it's super weird that the ghosts are behind. I mean, I suppose it can make sense if we focus on the fact that he's planning to "retire" from being the big bad CEO of Ghost Valley. But it seems careless to expose a weakness in case someone tries to take advantage of it since they have to kill you to get to be the new CEO. 

There's no follow up on the injuries sustained from being tortured by the evil dickface(TM). How could they make WKX seem so callous? Maybe a scene where ZZS asked Wu Xi to hide his injuries from WKX, but WKX's right outside. He overheard ZZS telling Wu Xi to hide it from him, so he pretends not to know. *cue angsty scene for WKX here* 

The only thing related to injuries was when Wu Xi said ZZS could be saved from his self-inflicted nailing. Okaaaay. What about the piercing of the scapula? (穿琵琶骨 (piercing pipa bones) - it's supposed to cripple your martial arts ability until you heal ok) 

WKX suddenly decides to go off and be a career man, which is perfectly fine. But he suddenly has Gu Xiang watch over ZZS like a hawk, not letting him drink. (Seriously, I forgot if this belongs in TYK or if this is yet another thing stolen from Sha Po Lang) Where is WKX showing any concern over ZZS's total loss of 2 out of 5 senses? I ASK YOU MS. SCRIPTWRITER. What have you done to WKX's character??? Poor WKX, poor ZZS. 

And did everyone laugh off the fact that ZZS can't taste, so why should he drink wine? Ok, I can make myself accept this if I remind myself that ZZS would not like people making a fuss and pitying him anyway... (but shouldn't someone, anyone care???) 

We get many hints that WKX has a sneaky scheme, but he doesn't tell Gu Xiang, his closest friend since childhood. He doesn't talk to his soulmate about this either. 

WKX and ZZS's dialogue just before he falls down the cliff... Seriously reminiscent of Silent Reading, when Fei Du makes the same self-flagellating confession & Luo Wenzhou stops him. 

ZZS draws his sword and stands beside WKX. What is going on?! How does he still have his martial arts ability? Did months pass since WKX saved him from evil dickface (TM)? Nothing makes any sense!  

ZCL's hidden weapon is what forces WKX over the cliff. If ZCL did not know about the sneaky scheme, then WTF is this kind of scriptwriting? ZCL's character turned from a good, young child to a prop-causing drama and angst. Even if he felt betrayed, was he not there to see how depleted WKX made himself trying to save Han Ying? Did he not see how WKX tried to keep his shifu safe? Or taught him how to fight? Did ZCL become stupid all of a sudden just to create angst? 

 It only makes sense if ZCL knew about the scheme because of all the info he was privy to, such as Zhao Jing as the villain behind it all (when he heard WKX and ZZS talking). How would he go from knowing that to thinking ZJ should be the new head of the alliance? As a matter of fact, how could Shen Shen?  

Ye Baiyi has to be in on it unless WKX suddenly gained so much martial arts ability in the short time since they last fought. I mean, it only makes sense that WKX got so much stronger because he got injured by YBY, then depleted his strength saving Han Ying. 

So ZCL, YBY, Scorpion King and his buddies, fellow ghosts, possibly Shen Shen... WKX only kept it from the two people closest to him? The two most likely to do something stupid when they find out? *flails at this logic* 

The scene where ZZS's nails magicked their way out of his body... It's so awkward!!! I mean, we're supposed to feel emotional, but the special effects are just awful. I tried not to skip through it, I failed. 

So now what? ZZS essentially sacrificed himself to help WKX complete his goal. He gave up on his chance to be saved to fulfil WKX's pursuit of revenge (and take revenge for WKX's death). And it's all because of a misunderstanding. 

Between ZZS's nails and the ZCL-issue, I'm drowning in dog blood. What happened to WKX and ZCL's characters/personalities???? 

Also episode 32 is VERY choppy, it seems like we’re jumping to scenes randomly, the flow isn’t there. 

I can only say that the "Priest" spirit is gone; it's not a bad drama by any means. I'm still watching & I'm still going to buy the new episodes on Tuesday. But the random angst and abusive scenes inserted without no reason nor much logic are very un-Priest-like. 

I feel a little cheated about the scriptwriter being a fan of Priest. Priest's novels always feature couples who communicate. The supporting characters can come off flat in a drama sometimes because they're so normal. They don't have ridiculous backstories that make them tragic villains, and they behave logically. 

The angst "created" in Priest's novels makes sense. Characters don't suddenly change their personalities so that we can watch something exciting. The "dog blood angst/drama" is the big failing of so many Asian dramas. *CRIES* 

Now, the GOOD & HAPPY STUFF. 

WKX SAVING A-XU. *heart eyes* 

NGL, no matter how short it was, I liked the horseback scene 

There was a cute moment between Qi Ye and Wu Xi, scriptwriter knows how to ship!! & knows how to make it clear who’s gong/shou lol. 

THE HAIRPIN SCENE. IT’S EVERYTHING.

Even though I’m 90% sure the no-alcohol thing is copied from Sha Po Lang... I have so much love for Gu Yun and ZZS that it made me happy. My drunkards <3 

Did I mention WKX looks extremely pretty when he falls down the cliff? How do you fall so prettily? Plz teach me. 

WKX also looks pretty fake-dead. ZZS looks pretty when he’s heartbroken

I ship xiangcao so hard even though I know what’s gonna happen. (Cao Weining & Gu Xiang) They’re too cute.

I love the Poisonous Bodhisattva, I thought the Tragicomic ghost would be my favourite because of how gorgeous she is, but she’s too tragic & not enough comic. Poisonous Bodhisattva is my new goddess.

[kanmom51]

Hello hello again!

Thank you for answering my previous Anon question ❤️

Hope you are having a good week/weekend? Btw I'm doing great at 2am in the morning (nobody asked tho, LoL).

So this one thought keeps bothering me and I really need a second opinion on this.

There's a video where BTS talk about their past relationships. In that JK states that he dated or was seeing someone for 2 years after turning 18 but eventually it didn't work out?

My question is, was that scripted? Or is it possible he really was seeing someone?

I ask this because 18-20 (JK age) that's the period 2015-2017. In jikook world that's a crucial period for their relationship. So is it possible that JK maybe was seeing someone casually and testing out his interest (maybe subconsciously)? He also says he was encouraged by his hyungs, so maybe the members also wanted him to figure it out for himself (given that they knew his interest in Jimin or him being bi or I don't please fill in blanks...... 😅). But then what about JM? Did he simply sit and wait for JK or did he also maybe tried (seeing others)?

I know it sounds a bit negative but this thought always makes me anxious even though I kinda (coz it's not revealed) believe in jikook.

Also, yes they are artists and they were also busy doing "BTS" stuffs most of the time but then relationship and feelings would always travel with you in your heart right?

So basically what should I ummm think of that video? This is my question 😂

Hope it's not offending in jikook shipping/supporting community.

Please answer soon or route me to a post where it has been discussed?

- I'm a 🌻

Ok flower anon, so I really don't know exactly what video you are talking about, I am not aware of a clip where JK talks about dating someone for 2 years. Please do send me the link of this clip you saw.

The only time I am aware of where JK actually talked about his dating life is during American Hustle Life, in 2014, when he was 16 yo.

This is the only time I know of JK actually talking about his dating history. He is 16 yo when talking about it and he is talking about it like this is something from a while back.

Again, I am unaware of JK talking about his dating history when he was 18-20 yo. Please send me that clip you are talking about.

[grungepoetica]

grungepo plays minecraft at 1am for tumblr clout

i promised that i would do this MONTHS ago. surprise! i didn't forget; i just suck at multi-tasking. so here it is now! my helter-skelter mess of a recap!

(shoutout to @allthesarcasm who has been waiting patiently for me to do this lol)

the first few days:

so i spawned on the edge of a plains biome, with some flowers scattered nearby, animals wandering around me, and acacia trees in the distance (you can't see them here because i had a really low render distance at first). acacia is my favorite minecraft wood, so the distant savanna was a nice surprise ^_^

and then, as i continued to wander around my little spawn hill, i saw some rocky cliffs, a nearby jungle island, and... A RUINED NETHER PORTAL!

after i looted the chest (and used the objects inside it to make a flint & steel - which i SHOULD NOT HAVE MADE SO QUICKLY) i spent some time making a hidey-hole in the cliffside, and preparing to hunker down for the night. but i took some time to enjoy the sunset & sunrise too.

my plans for the next morning were:

find iron, make shears, & get wool - i didn't want to kill any sheep right away

find a suitable house location - i knew that i wanted to recreate this underground base design by Zaypixel, but i also wanted enough flat open space to create gardens & stables around it, and spawn did not have that kind of space

make a boat & explore the jungle island, get some jungle wood in the process

i didn't find enough iron to make shears, but as soon as i passed by the jungle island...

A MESA!!!! BADLANDS CLIFFS!!!!! (and no i had not fixed my render distance yet, shut up lol)

the place i ended up choosing for my house was on the other side of the river, just beyond a beach. it's a MASSIVE open field, with plenty of room for farms, and lots of animals hanging around already. i would've taken pictures of everything, but... let's just say there's a reason i titled this post "playing minecraft at 1am."

i was legitimately playing this game until 1am. i'm writing this at 2am. also, the house build is not finished.

welcome to Grungepo Being Hyperfocused; you're stuck with me :P

pictures from the house build:

(and remember, this is what i'm trying to create)

the hardest part of making the base so far has been clearing everything out. like fuck, that was the true meaning of grunt work. but then i finished digging it out...

...and then i realized that my dimensions were off and i had to re-do the pattern. and then i realized that i had accidentally made the whole pit one block too small on every side, and i went fuck it, it's fine as it is. also, i decided to dye my bed blue.

have some blue lol

i had to make a few pit stops at the mesa, the jungle, and the savanna biome near spawn to gather up all the blocks i needed for the base structure, as well as gathering extra wood & charcoal to fuel my furnaces. after that, it was a long and arduous game of placing blocks and waiting for other blocks to finish cooking.

(also, i didn't light up one section of the field well enough, so i ended up getting ambushed by a spider and a baby zombie as i was trying to go to sleep. they killed me, repeatedly, because i kept respawning with both of them next to me. i screamed multiple versions of FUCK YOU BABY, GODDAMN, DO I LOOK LIKE PHILZA TO YOU? before i managed to kill all the monsters and sleep successfully. this is not important to the story of me building my house. it's just an important look into my mental state while doing it.)

by the time i finished (meaning i got tired irl) there was a wandering trader sitting on my roof because why not

so i moved my bed into the bunker and called it a day! hopefully the next time i boot this world up, i'll be able to actually finish the interior and make it look nice!

ok that's all for now - play your games more responsibly than i do lol

[nightswithkookmin]

Hello Goldy 💜 So JK dint post for Jin and so does Tae. Both of them di t post for Jinins bday also. Whats going on here ? I dont understand if JK and Tae have been banned from posting on their boyfriends bday. As u can tell i am both Jikook and Taejin shipper. What do u think is happening or should i say not happening.

This topic...

Hold on, lemme put on my tinfoil hat:

I got nothing. Lol.

Secondly, aaaaah Tae Kook!

Lol. Tae Kook. The evil power duo of BTS, my favorite rageddy boogie men of ship street Avenue, PPP- pathological party poopers of Bangtan fantasyland- stomping on shipper's parade, putting commas in people's hopes and dreams. Y'all didn't get the memo? When we said y'all be snatching hearts, this is not the kind of horror heart snatching we was talking about! Y'all ratchet for this shit. Lol.

Someone give them the memo. Atatatatatat.

Lmho.

I mean for Jk, I've already speculated a few times- several times now, how I feel he's kind off been on a self assertive journey since late 2019 and coupled with a lot of things I felt was happening with him, Jimin and group around that period, that him not posting for the members' birthdays sort of make a lot of sense to me.

I've also speculated on what I felt was going on with Kook, RM and Tae around JM's birthday this year, so Tae not posting for JM also sort of made sense to me?

Tae missed Jimin's birthday as well. It would have been 'problematic' in today's social media climate if he posted for any body else within the group after that. It's the same with JK when he missed Jin's birthday last December- had he posted for anybody else, I'm afraid several trucks would have been sent to BigHit HQ demanding his head on a spike. Chileee.

Can't blame them though. Even the members themselves, during 2017 Festa, descended hard on JK for gifting a present to Jimin and not the others- they pay attention to these things, you know? Jin in his recent VLive had said he had been up waiting for texts and all- or something along the lines of that, and I'm pretty sure he pays attention to who posts what on their Twitter account on his birthday. Well we know Jimin does this too. Lol.

You don't need to be a mad scientist to figure out that one member posting for another and not the others would make the members feel some kind of way about it even if they don't say it out loud.

Frankly, like I said, I feel they set themselves up for this shit- miss one, miss them all or risk solo stans coming for your ass. That's how we roll on these fang gang streets. Lol.

But for Kook, I sort of felt his was deliberate- may be an impulsive decision at the time, but deliberate nonetheless. I mean he had all 24 hours post Jin's birthday to belate that shit- better late than never, but he didn't do that.

Whatever had transpired within that period- which I've speculated on in past posts, I feel that had pushed him to his breaking point and had incentivized him or propelled him to reel back, reevaluate his goals, intentions, purpose, calling- whatever you wanna call it, and eventually had embarked on a journey to reassert himself and take back control of his life all throughout 2020- until recent times...

- Y'all see Jikook's dynamics have flipped again post Jimin's birthday right? Clear your schedules. We gone talk. Soon. Muhahaha.

I don said, Jikook have/had been asserting themselves against eachother and against the group this year. And for Jk, that self assertion would come in the form of him putting up boundaries and reinforcing already existing boundaries among other things, which would in turn require him demanding and demonstrating his independence from anything and anyone he had relinquished his self autonomy to- prior to. In my opinion.

I'm gonna step on a few toes here and regurgitate, JK didn't just take a step back from his life, he took a step back from Jimin as well, in my opinion- I can literally hear temperatures rising. Chilee. Lmho.

It's easy to lose yourself in the process of loving someone. And when you love this person more than you love yourself, in the thick of love, under heavy public and peer scrutiny, where you are being told to change this and that about yourself everyday and everytime as a prerequisite for being able to love this person you want within a group; then you are bound to end up with nothing but the total eradication of who you are at your core or at least a drift away from your true self and the expressions of it... Sigh.

I mean all the, 'try not to be so possessive, he's our friend too' 'operation neutralize Jikook' 'chilee, don't lean too much into him, this is an award' 'I've got Jimin, restrain Kook' 'oh I think you stared too long here' 'look away' 'you got him a present, why didn't you get us any' 'is that your heart eyes?' 'Tuck it away' 'why do you film Jimin a lot?' 'use this person, not Jimin for your GCF if you want the clicks' 'GCF in Tokyo? How about OT7 in wherever mate?' - all these little tweaks and adjustments he's had to make to his personality and his expressions of self in order to hide his relationship within the group climaxes honestly. In my opinion. And late 2019 to me was that peak for JK. Again, in my opinion.

Changes like these don't come drastically. They creep up on you. Its slippery slope till you're caught knee deep in the mud. For instance, notice when the members complained about him not caring for them because he hadn't presented them with gifts like he did Jimin, he had agreed immediately to give them presents in the future in order to not answer to their question of why he had chosen to give just Jimin a present. That compromise to me was one of the early signs of him losing his authenticity. In my opinion.

Jimin and the members were quick to point out that he didn't have to do that because giving and gifting were not obligations and honestly they were right. He doesn't have to do things if he doesn't want to.

That's the paradox of Jungkook. He does the things he wants to do without shame and he is fearless and unapologetic about it. But you see, he is also often very passive when it comes to the things he doesn't want to do and would hesitate in insisting on his boundaries until he is pushed to his limits- from my observation of his interactions with the members and I think Suga and RM have talked about this too.

A classic example of this is his conversation with Jimin about their friendship- when Jimin said they were in between love and friends. His hesitation was a sign he was uncomfortable with that description but he didn't assert himself over it.

Another example would be Jimin saying during their log that he was taking a liking to JK- JK didn't react as much but JM turning to ask him if he was ok with him saying things like that was a sign they had had the talk about 'boundaries.'

JK is a very assertive person but his position as the youngest within the group places a lot of restrictions on his assertiveness I feel.

We talk a lot about Jimin being Kumbaya and sacrificing a lot of their personal happiness for the good of the group- well, I've been talking. Y'all don't say shit much- fuxking lurkers 😒 y'all suck. Lol. [Delete before you post, you idiot. They don't know you like that]

Anywho, we often talk about Jimin in this context but we- by we, I mean I, don't talk enough about all the ways JK often sacrifices his authenticity for the Kumbaya of the group as well. But unlike Jimin, I feel JK does it so he can keep his glass closet- fucking whippidy whip whipped. Lol.

And it's crazy because that sacrifice he makes of his true feelings and it's expression is what often leads people to question whether he acts exclusively with JM at all.

Often I hear shippers complain about how he did this with Jimin but he did similar thing with another member- listen, if you've heard JK sigh upon seeing RM imitating his mannerisms to try to neutralize his nonverbal gestures around Jimin, you'd understand what exclusivity means for him.

And when, you think about that he had to apologize to and explain himself for choosing to wear his man's bag over another member- it's not hard to see where his authentic self began to erode- It started from the moment the apologies begun. Never apologize for who you are- class dismissed. Lol.

Then he goes on to talk about losing his passions for his GCFs, his music- this is a person everyone within the group had said is or was the most passionate member within the group... You gotta wonder where it all went wrong. Know what I mean? Come on work me. I'm writing this at 2am. Lol.

I think Jimin was right when he said giving should never be a task. You should give from your heart and from your own free will. Not for show, and certainly not to please anyone.

Wishing a member a happy birthday should never be a duty, task or obligation- especially when such moments and expressions of it has become performative over the years rather than as true expressions of the love and affections they have for eachother- ok, I'm dozing off now. Lmho.

I mean let's face it, posting on Twitter for eachother has become more of a culture and an established tradition within the group that sentimental members within the group hold on to.

The birthday twitter post has been hijacked and lowkey/highkey advances the OT7 kumbaya agenda BigHit is bent on pushing and sells the BTS bromance fantasy to us rather than an actual representation of their love for eachother. In my opinion. I could be wrong about this.

JK asserting himself would mean him choosing not to participate in expressions that to him are performative, shallow and lacks depth whatsoever.

I know what you are gonna say- but but Jimin's birthday. But but but nothing. Lol. I have said I felt he was going to post for Jimin's birthday. Dude geared up for it with the 5/8 and everything.

And given as he's been on a journey to do the things he wants to and to pursue meaning in his expressions of self within the group, I feel and I believe he believes wishing his man a happy birthday on social is meaningful- Confirmation bias this shit. Lol.

Not that the act itself is meaningful, but that the act holds meaning to Jimin. I think I've talked extensively about Jimin and how important his birthday is to him. The only reason I feel he wouldn't or didn't post for him was if Jimin had asked him not to- which I believe he did. Posting for Jimin would have been tantamount to outing their relationship gangster style. Lol.

And we all know how the members feel about that. Smirk.

So no, I don't think he's been banned from posting for his man's birthday. I think this is him deciding not to partake in performative expressions of love- perhaps because that has never been him?

I don't know for Tae's Journey. His decision not to post feels very random to me. Who knows, he and JK have been talking a lot lately it seems and getting closer post Sope. So if you ask me, this perhaps is him taking a page out of JK's self help book and pursuing that authenticity of self expressions I've talked about?

I mean he did do awesome things for Jin's birthday so I don't think we can complain much. Getting his friends to wish Jin a happy birthday certainly pulls weight over a second post on Twitter. Jin got a birthday party with the members, RM had the same.....

The thing that bothers me and my friends over here about Jikook's incident is the lack of closure after that traumatizing experience.

With the others JK didn't post for, at least we got to see him in a VLive with them interacting and just giving us moments here and there. So even if he didn't post, we know he was with them and they shared the memory of that day together- which I feel is what we shippers want. For them to show eachother love- whatever way they express it.

With Jimin- Nada. Zero. Zilch. We got nothing my guy. Jimin didn't share any insight or give any details remotely resembling closure for us. We were hoping for a bangtan bomb or Episode but nothing so far. I hate it here.

We didn't get to see JK showing the love we know he feels for Jimin- he's proven time and again he loves that man. We didn't get to see them share the memories of that day together. Not even through narration- Jimin, you sonova bish! Lol.

Would I ever move on from that incident? No.

Do I want to move on from that incident- chileee I've been trying. It would haunt me for the rest of my Jikook life. Lol. I still get get nightmares thinking about it and it's Christmas. Sigh.

I think we would have to observe rather than anticipate how they choose to express and communicate their love for one another- especially Jikook and by extension Taejin- chilee Anon, I respect your hustle. Lol.

I don't blame you though. I mean sometimes Jin be looking like he wants to gobb-ok

What was your question again? Lol. I hope I answered it. Chilee. Keep supporting Jikook.

Signed,

GOLDY

[blatant-attitude]

I Think I’m Gonna Kiss You

I finished promised earlier today id finish editing a WIP, and i said i had something special when i posted a drabble earlier! Its currently 2am and I’ve finally finished said editing, lol. Enjoy!

Summary: A rewrite of that one scene in 05x02, with an added scene after. :)

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x Emily Prentiss

Rating: T for this one :)

“You didn’t have to walk me up here, you know.” Hotch tells her as he strides through the door and begins punching the buttons to silence the alarm.

“I know.” Emily replies back as she closes the door behind her, glancing at Aaron after she watched the doorknob slide into place. “So you think Call’s gonna be okay?” She asks him after a split second of silence. 

“I don’t know.” He replies simply, hands dropping to his sides before he clasps them nervously in front of him. His eyes subtly shift back and forth around his living room to look for anything out of place.

“He got his answers. Killed the man who haunted him.” She tells him, subtly trying to shift to talk of him and the nightmares she knows he has. She has them too, only he doesn’t know who the main antagonist of her nightmare is.

“And what else is there.” He looks to her, eyes glancing at hers for just a second before he shifts his eyes somewhere else. Avoiding a conversation he needs to have.

“The years of torture.” She tells him as her own eyes flick to her shoes before flicking back up to meet his. He’s finally staring back at her.

“Think he’ll get over that?” Aaron tells her calmly, eyes shifting down her body for a second or two before shifting back up to meet her eyes again.

“How could he? But at least he doesn’t have to feel like he’s alone anymore.” She tells him with a little shrug and a tilt of her head. She sucks in a breath, hands clasping in front of her. She hopes that he will be ok. 

“He doesn’t have anyone.” Aaron replies, aware that they’re not talking about Call anymore. They’re talking about him. Aaron Hotchner, the man who let a killer getaway and now he’s paying for it by coming home to an empty house and no promise of the next time he’ll see his son.

Emily feels her heartbreak softly, looking away from him to the kitchen just to the right of him before the turns her eyes back to him. Back to his dark brown eyes so full of sadness, he won’t let anyone soothe. “You have me, Aaron. You’re not alone.” 

He just gives her a sigh as he looks down at the floor. He doesn’t comment on it. She takes his silence as enough of an answer. She turns away from him, facing the door. “Get some sleep.” She tells him as she glances at him one last time. Her heart throbs slowly in her chest

Her eyes drift back to the doorknob as she reaches for it. She twists it, opening it slowly before he finally responds. 

“Yeah, you too.” 

She gives a single nod in response and leaves. As soon as the door is closed her body is slouching against the door, lungs filling with air before sighing it all right back out. With a push to the door, she was standing right back up and making her way out of the apartment building and back to her car.

______

It’s several weeks later when she finally decides maybe she should confront him again. Maybe he didn’t realize what she was saying that night. He continued working along with her like she never said anything so that’s the possibility right?

She walked up the steps of the bullpen carefully, hands tucked into her back pockets as she thought about what had happened yesterday when they arrested the most recent unsub. When Aaron went after the unsub alone, anyways.

She can’t believe it. Aaron Hotchner, Mr play by all the rules, actually broke the rules. The guys they were looking for had been killing women and taking their eyes to use for his taxidermy. 

Morgan had said something, her brain can’t process it at the moment because she’s to busy looking at Aaron, making sure he’s actually ok and not hiding any injuries. He goes to slide past her, smirking at her as he asks her, “What?” 

“Nothing.” She’d replied it loud, giving a little huff of a laugh before turning back to follow him. She just stood still for a moment and let her thoughts take over. ‘I can’t stop thinking about how much I love you.’ She shook her thoughts out before following the team back to the station and eventually back to the long flight back to D.C.

A hand on her shoulder shakes her out of her thoughts. It doesn’t surprise her that it belongs to the man she was currently thinking about. He looks concerned before he looks slightly relieved. “Are you alright? You were just standing out here. I’ve called your name three or four times.” He tells her, worry etching his tone, but stern expression slipping back into place.

“Yeah, I’m fine. Just got lost in my thoughts I guess.” She tells him, sucking in a deep breath and standing a bit taller. “I actually wanted to talk to you about something.” She corrects herself and follows him into his office when he nods towards it. 

He glides around his desk and stands, waiting for her to sit before he does. Ever the gentlemen he is. Emily closes the door before she stands on the opposite side of his desk. Her hands tangle nervously together before she forces them to break apart and tuck into her belt loops.

“I love you, Aaron. I thought I made that clear the night I walked you to your apartment but you just brushed it off and then continued to work like it never happened. Then last night you went after that guy alone and I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I loved you and how lost I would’ve been had you gotten seriously hurt—“

“Emily stop,” she’s cut off by his voice, much softer than she’s used to, “I love you, too. But we both know that we can’t do anything about it because if Foyet knows I’m seeing someone he’ll make it his mission to kill you. Besides, we’re co-workers.” He finishes, sitting the file she hadn’t noticed he was holding onto his desk.

“Now you’re just making excuses.” She starts, moving to stand behind his desk with him rather than on the other side of it. “Besides, I think we both know I’ve never been one to back down from a fight. And I have definitely never been one to follow the rules.” She chuckles, hands sliding back into her back pockets as she looks at him. 

“The team-“

“Will get over it. Besides, I think the only one that hasn’t figured out I’m in love with you is Reid, and the only one who hasn't seen the lovey eyes, as JJ calls it is Garcia.” She responded with a huff, and a grin on her face. 

Aaron’s phone chimes on his desk and they both look down to see a text message.

Rossi: Team is going out for drinks at Joe’s. My treat. Kiss Emily already and meet us there.

It makes Emily smirk, and she dips her head down before looking back up at him. He’s just staring at her, glancing between her and the phone. “Well, are you going to kiss me or do you need some liquid courage first?” She teases, biting her bottom lip softly. 

“I think I’m gonna kiss you first.” He tells her and then grabs her face in his hands, cupping her jaw on both sides as he pressed their lips together. Her hands slip from her back pockets to grip his neck as she slides her body to form against his. 

His lips devour hers, pulling that bottom lip into his mouth and nipping at it which has her letting out a little moan. His hands slide to hold her better, one hand running through the hair at the nape of her neck as the other one holds her firmly to him by her waist. 

She grins into the kiss, hands sliding so she’s hugging his neck tightly while he continues to devour her mouth. She lets out a sigh as he breaks their kiss for air. His mouth moves down her neck instead, hand tugging her head back to expose the ivory skin better for him to kiss. 

“No marks. Wouldn’t want to team to think something up.” She teased him, laughing when he shuts her up by sealing his lips over hers again. Doesn’t take long before they’re both panting and pulling apart again. 

“We should probably head to the bar before they think something is up. Like I bent you over my desk and fucked you or something.” He told her with a grin that has her groaning into his shoulder as he grips her ass in his hands. 

Another text chime from his phone has them pulling apart to look down at it again. 

Rossi: Atta, boy. Now let's go to the bar.

It makes Emily laugh before she’s tilting her head back up to kiss Aaron once again, softer this time. 

They walk into the bar an hour later (his arm around her waist as she leans into his side), after choosing to bask in a little bubble of them before the team inevitably asks questions they already know the answer to. 

The night ends with the both of them sweaty and tangled in her sheets. ‘I could get used to this,’ She thinks as he sinks below the sheets to taste something other than the whiskey on her tongue.

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For those who were sad over my last post, here is a bit more angst but it gets better, promise :)

The timeline is kind of hazy, a sort of post S2 in terms of timing of the relationship but without the actual events of S2. OK it doesn't make any sense, just read lol.

The rules of tricking

I stand there, lost in thoughts, admiring the man laying on the couch in front of me. His body still makes my heart beat faster, a work of art if I ever saw one. Oh, how I wish I could be immune to it by now. Life certainly would be easier for me if I had been able to just get it out of my system. To just fuck him out my head, of my heart.

“Justin”

He startles me out of my musings, eyes on me from his position on the couch, hands in the hair of the trick blowing him. Not wanting to be left out any longer, I come closer, bend over the armrest of the couch and run my hands over his chest, play with his nipples. Brian sighs contently, music to my ears. I look at the other man straddling his thighs. He’s pretty hot, perfectly fitting the rules I secretly follow when choosing them. Hot enough that Brian would want to fuck them, not hot enough that I would not want him to fuck them. It’s a tight rope but I manage.

I remember clear as day, the night we came up with this new deal.

For the umpteenth time, we were coming home from Babylon fighting. I had caught Brian in the backroom fucking some twink, or was I the one being fucked? It doesn’t really matter I guess. Once in the loft, neither of us wanted to back down until, and boy was I stunned when it happened, Brian took the first step.

“Look Justin, this is getting really old. We have to find a way to just handle this better. How about some rules?”

“Rules? Like what?”

“Like, I don’t know… No tricking in front of each other for starters, no tricks in our bed, and we have to be home by 2AM every night.”

Seemed to me like he knew very well what he meant by rules. Apparently, he’d been thinking about it for a while. Still reeling from our fight though, I didn’t want to be amicable. So, like a five-year-old I stumped my theoretical foot and said “How about no tricking at all?”. It was worth a shot, right?

The look he gave me told me all I needed to know, so I switched gears rapidly. If he wanted a negotiation, then I had to come up with a proposition of my own.

“How about the total opposite?”

“What, like more tricking? Justin, that doesn’t make any sense.”

“No, I meant opposite to your proposition. Here’s my counter offer. We trick together, I pick them, we get them here and then we share them. No one on one, no repeat.”

I should have taken a picture of his face at that moment. The perfect mix of surprise, awe and lust. Yes, I had him.

“You sure?”

“Yes.”

“OK.”

“OK.”

That was 4 months ago, and since then, we’ve shared guys about once a week. I guess I thought Brian would get tired of it at some point, that he would break the rules and I’d have to go back to watching him fucking anything that moves, but he seemed to enjoy it and we’ve never talked about it again.

Back in the moment, I glance at the pretty brunette blowing my … Brian. He’s very enthusiastic, too much if I say so and I need to reassert my control over the situation.

“Don’t you dare make him come” I snap.

Brian scoffs below me and says “Not a chance, babe”. Cocky bastard. I would have believed him too if it wasn’t for the way his voice broke on that last word, betraying how turned on he already was. Stupid trick.

I bend lower to catch his mouth with mine. The angle is all weird, being upside down, but somehow it makes the kiss better, filthier, sexier. I deepen it, pressing more of my weight onto him, until I feel his hand pushing urgently at my shoulder. I break the kiss and look at him questioningly. That’s the moment I realize he’s having trouble catching his breath. I must have been crushing his airways and he has to take big gulps of air now. I’m about to apologize when I notice how dark his eyes have gotten, how harder his dick is in the other’s mouth.

Smirking, I say to him “You liked it”. He plays dumb, of course. “What?”

“Don’t lie to me Brian” He never has, I don’t want him to start now.

“OK, yeah” then in a breath “Please”.

“Please, what?” I know I’m enjoying this way too much, but damn, it’s not often that I get that kind of dominance over Brian fucking Kinney.

“Please do it again” he reluctantly asks. Not ever having been able to deny him, I comply and for the next minutes, it feels like it’s just the two of us again.

Later, after we relocated ourselves on the bed, I find myself watching Brian prepping the other guy to get fucked. He’s got two fingers inside of him, and the pretty boy is already writhing under him. He’s still clear headed enough to stroke my cock so there’s still that. Once he’s ready, Brian pulls him up on his hands and knees, puts on a condom and enters him in one swift motion. The trick moans loudly and although I hate it, the sound makes me harder. Having Brian Kinney fuck you is a religious experience, it’s hard to focus on anything else. I’m this close to patting him on the cheek and say I understand how he feels. I let Brian get into a rhythm before I slide myself under them and shove the trick’s dick in my mouth. I’m not giving my best, it’s been a while since I did, but apparently Brian is putting in enough efforts for the both of us because the pretty boy is losing his mind, crying out loudly.

Few instants later, I feel Brian’s eyes on me. I know what he wants, same as always. He wants me to look at him when he comes. As if that would make what we’re doing more normal. I usually comply. Anything to pretend that it’s just the two of us. But tonight, I can’t. If he looks into my eyes, he’ll see. He’ll see all the things I’m not saying, all the things I don’t want him to know. That I cannot stand it anymore. That all I feel at this moment is disgust and sadness. So, I close my eyes to avoid his and I suck harder. I want this to be over already. I don’t have to wait long. A few deep thrusts in his ass and the trick is coming down my throat, taking Brian with him few seconds later. I swallow it all, out of habit at this point, and as soon as I feel his cock start to soften in my mouth I get up and leave. They are both catching their breath as I make my way to the bathroom. Glancing down I realize I am not even hard anymore.

I take a quick shower, trying to make it last long enough for the intruder to be gone when I get out of the bathroom. I perfected my timing so well over time that as I step out of the shower, I hear the door open and close. I dry up quickly, tying a towel around my waist and I get out of the bathroom. Halfway to the bed I walk around Brian, standing there only wearing his jeans, top button undone. I don’t stop, eager to put this all night behind me. He won’t let me though. He catches my wrist and pulls me into him.

“Hey, don’t.” The softness of his voice just about breaks me. I have to push through though, if I want to keep him, I need to play by the rules, he’s made that much clear.

“Don’t what?” I try. I know I am not fooling him, but I’ve been trapped in this role so long I don’t even know how to be anything else now.

He sighs deeply then lets me go and looks at me. I am not sure I know how to read his eyes. Is that pity? Suddenly panic is rising inside me. I went too far, I let him see and now he’s going to get rid of me. It happened before, when I started caring too much. It’s always the same with us. He tells me not to expect anything and I don’t for a while, and then I start to want more, and he pulls away, saying he won’t give me what I want, what I need. I leave, certain I will be better off without him, yet every time I come back, surer than ever that what he has to give is enough if it means I get to be with him. And again, and again. Except this time, he seems to be the one wanting me gone and the thought of not being able to come back to him makes my eyes burn.

“You’re unhappy.” He states. And I know where this is going, so I lie through my teeth. “No, I’m not. Look I’m sorry I wasn’t really into it tonight; this guy wasn’t really doing it for me I guess. I need better standards.” I try to joke, but it falls flat.

“Justin, we have to stop this.”

No, no, no, no, please don’t.

“Don’t worry Bri, next time will be extra hot, I swear. Might go for a blond next time. You’d like that right?” I try flirting. I never go for blonds. The only blond that gets to be fucked by Brian should be me.

“Justin, stop! There won’t be a next time.”

That’s when my heart breaks. I feel it in my chest, it’s being torn apart and shred to pieces. Then suddenly, as if something jumped started my system, I have to move, to run. I cannot be here anymore. I cannot look at him, still in the fucking afterglow of coming in this guy’s ass and see anything else than the pain of losing him, for good I suspect this time. I walk to the couch and start putting my clothes back on. When I’m dressed I grab a bag and go to the closet, I take whatever I come across, some might not even be mine, but all I think about is how I need to get out of here and fast.

A few minutes later, I’m making my way to the door when Brian stops me with a strong grip.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?”

“Getting out of here before you kick me out.”

He looks at me puzzled. Then something clicks in his mind and he smiles. The bastard is smiling at me when all I want is to be alone, so I can break down in peace.

“Justin, I didn’t mean it like that. What I meant was we need to stop with the tricks.”

“OK… “ I am really confused at this point and it’s messing with my dramatic exit so I just stand there waiting for him to elaborate.

“Shit, I’m so bad at this. Let me try again.” He’s visibly struggling with whatever he’s trying to say, and despite the overall pain I feel deep inside my bones, it’s my turn to smile. I mean, how often do you get to see Brian Kinney struggling to express himself?

“Justin, I want new rules.” He finally says with a resolve that scares me a little. OK, fair enough.

“Yeah sure, do you want to go back to fucking them on your own?” Please anything as long as I can stay.

“No.” Fuck.

“OK then…” I keep trying to delay what I feel is inevitable. He cuts me off right there.

“Would you please just shut up and let me say this?!”

“Yeah, ok, sorry.” Go ahead, break my heart, I’m all ears.

He takes a deep breath, like he’s preparing himself for the worst and then looks at me and says:

“I want the new rule to be that we only fuck each other. No tricks, no backroom, no cruising, no nothing. You and me in our bed, or well anywhere really, from now on.”

I’m having a stroke. It has to be it, right? I can’t feel my legs, my heart is racing, there’s a white noise in my ears. I want to say something but my brain’s not working, my mouth either. I’m just gapping at him like a fish out of his water bowl. A minute has passed, maybe twenty for all I know, and I manage to find my voice again.

“Do you mean that?” I hate how small I sound, but I have to make sure. I can’t let myself hope.

“Yes, I do.”

“But you need it.” I feel stupid for fighting him on this, but that’s what he’s been saying for the last two years. Monogamy is shit. I don’t believe in love, I believe in fucking. Those are his words. What kind of game is he playing now?

“I need you more.”

I realize I’m crying now. 4 words. Not the 3 I desperately want to hear but this is certainly close enough. He needs me. More than he needs to fuck random guys in a backroom. More than he needs to be the king of Babylon, of Liberty Avenue.

I jump into his arms, sobbing in his neck, peppering him with kisses. I’m so happy I could sing, dance, whatever. He wraps his arms around me instantly, holding me tight. I feel his smile against my hair and it makes me cry harder.

“Hey come on, don’t cry. You know I don’t know what to do with crying people.”

I ignore his attempt at lightening the mood and kiss him deeply, letting myself feel it all. After a few minutes, we break apart, both breathless and hard.

Brian, pulls away slightly and looks at me like he can see into my soul.

“Justin, you know I …” He trails off.

His eyes are pleading with me not to push it, not to force the words out of him. I see the fear, but also his desire to make me believe, that in his own fucked-up way, Brian Kinney does love me.

“Yeah, I know. Me too.”

Relief floods his features, he must have been really torn up over this. I’m an asshole for enjoying it but I feel like I deserve it somehow.

“So now that it’s settled, could you stop being such a drama queen and put that stuff back?” He points at the bag on the floor.

This time, I let him joke the seriousness away and throw the bag in the vague direction of the closet.

“I’ll put it back later. First, I need you inside me, seems I’m the only one who did not get off tonight.”

I take his hand and lead him to our bed. From behind me, I hear him murmur, not sure I’m even supposed to.

“Whatever you need Sunshine, whatever you need”. And for once, I know he means it the way I want him to.

[luminecho]

hey there~ i started writing a reply on your post about your writing, but apparently replies have a character limit, and i didn’t know if you’d want me to reblog your post so~ sending my long rambling message via an ask, lol. hope that’s ok. XD

we’re all our own worst critics, and it’s taken me a long time to overcome my own self-doubts. but what’s helped me most is remembering that i’m writing, first and foremost, for myself. i’m writing for fun and self-fulfillment and the joy of creating. so i write things that *i* love, and am proud of, and feel passionate about. i’m not writing to fill anyone’s expectations, not even my own. sharing my creations when they’re done is just a bonus. and besides, if i don’t love what i’ve made, how can i expect anyone else to love it?

so i think you should write whatever the hell you want, whether or not you think other people will enjoy it. write for you. experiment, be messy, have fun. and just know that you *will* write trash sometimes. the most brilliant writers have off days where all that comes out is garbage. other times, you’re going to have those 4am bursts of inspiration where the writing just...happens. you sit down and type out some brilliant story that you didn’t even know was inside you.

but those trash days and those inspired days are the exceptions to the rule. writing is a process. i’d say i spend an equal amount of time, if not *more* time, editing and revising a given story as i do drafting it. i draft something, then tweak it, and build on it, and tweak it again, etc, etc. maybe that sounds tedious, but it shouldn’t be. it should be exciting. that whole process is a chance to be messy and experimental and have fun. you can *make it* fun. you’re in full control.

so when you write a sentence and you think it’s trash, there’s good news: that’s only step one of the process. that’s just the seed that you’re going to cultivate into a beautiful flower. it’s going to take time and patience, yeah, but in the end, it’ll be worth it. and how amazing is that, that you can write something “bad” and transform it into something “good?” or that you can write something “good” but then make it “great?” you have the power to do that. you’re never locked in by whatever you put down on the page the first time around, or the second, or the twentieth.

so don’t be afraid of writing trash. it’s never a waste to write, anyway, even if you decide to scrap something. you’re improving your skills every time you decide to write something. *every time.* i guarantee it.

anyway! it’s past 2am and i’m babbling now. i hope this wasn’t pedantic or something. i just have a lot of feelings in this. writing has been “my thing” since i was a kid, but at some point i started doubting myself. i spent *so* many years afraid of failure, afraid of judgement, afraid of inadequacy, that i more or less quit writing. it’s only been in the last year that i’ve gotten back into it, and god. does it make me happy. i forgot just how much *joy* there was to this. and it hurts when i see other writers or artists caging themselves in with self-doubt. i want everyone to experience this joy, you know? you deserve it. the world deserves to see the beautiful pieces you create when you allow yourself to do it.

ok, i kept babbling there, skgnjsks, but i’m *actually* done this time. i hope this message isn’t a bother to you. feel free to ignore it, honestly. best wishes to you. keep creating. <3

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You have no idea how much this means to me, oh my goddd. The fact that you took the time to write all this, I’m just,,,,,, thank you so much, hhhh

I’ll have you know that I’m saving this forever so I can read it over and over again because this helps so much just to hear that. Seriously, this means the world to me, thank you <3 <3

It’s not a bother AT ALL, thank you so much for this, words can’t even express my appreciation right now, I’m just. I’m JUST.

Thank you <3

[pinkyshy101]

So I got bored and decided to type out a list of the cartoons/tv shows I’ve watched, cause why not! I think this is all I’ve watched, or at least recent enough (I’m thinking like…. 2014/15 onward, when I actively started to watch more cartoons)

It’s kinda long, and I’m kinda rambley, so I’ll put it under a keep reading thing (if I can) so you don’t have to scroll through that if you don’t want to. Idk who will actually read this, but hey maybe it’s an idea of what kind of things I might reblog on here! I’m always taking any suggestions for shows to watch, I love learning about and watching more and more cartoons! So if there’s something I didn’t list as something I watched and you think of be interested, feel free to please recommend it! I may update this with a reblog or an edit or something at some point in the future, idk though. For now, its September 19, 2020, and here’s what I got for ya

This ended up way more rambley than I meant for it to be but I started writing it at maybe 12:30ish am and now its almost 2am when I’m getting ready to post it so oops 👀 I’m not really expecting anyone to read this but hey, it’s something! Read if you wanna know what shows and other stuff I watched lol idc

Cartoons I’ve watched in their entirety (or what’s all aired as of today 9/19/20):

(updated 12/2/20 as starting with ATLA)

Gravity Falls - watched since late 2014

Steven Universe (including the movie and Future) - watched since mid June 2015, right before the second stevenbomb/sworn to the sword (early season 2)

Over The Garden Wall - watched back around when it first came out, can’t remember exactly when but sometime in 2015

Star vs The Forces of Evil - watched the first 2 seasons as they aired, then stopped watching for a while and rewatched the whole show in June 2019

Hilda - watched for the first time in I think October 2018, rewatched in May quarantine

She-ra and the Princesses of Power - watched all 5 seasons about/not even a week after season 5 came out, idk why I waited so long to watch it

The Owl House - started watching it after the grom episode aired, idk why I waited so long to watch it but molly and noelle and everyone was screaming about grom on twitter, so of course I had to watch it then

Kipo and The Age of Wonderbeasts - watched it all in early August, right before I watched The Owl House

Infinity Train - watched the pilot back in 2016, then the first season when it came out, but then I started college and didn’t get the chance to watch the 2nd/3rd season until I decided to watch the whole series (s1 again, 2/3 for the first time) this past week

Ouran High School Host Club - ok I know it’s anime not a cartoon and I can’t see myself reblogging anything from it but it’s literally the only anime I’ve watched more than like 1 or 2 episodes of/the only one I’ve seen in its entirety so I figured eh I’ll mention it

Camp Camp - I almost forgot to mention this one! I started watching it when there was I think only 3 episodes of season 1, so back in 2016, and I’ve loved it since then! I guess this summer’s season couldn’t happen cause of covid.... But I’m still excited for when/if it does eventually come out!

Avatar the Last Airbender

Shows that I’ve partially watched but not completely:

We Bare Bears - I’ve seen the first 2 seasons, maybe some of the third I can’t remember, I watched it when it first came out but I haven’t watched it in a while, so I would probably need to rewatch a bunch of it (I did rewatch I think the first season sometime this year? But it was while working on school projects so I wasn’t giving it my full attention), apparently there’s also a movie now???

My Little Pony Friendship is Magic - I was huge into the brony fandom from roughly 2013ish-2017ish, I’ve seen up to season 8 and a few episodes of season 9, and the 4 equestria girls movies, and the mlp movie; I probably know seasons 1 - 4 the most, maybe a little of 5, 6 and 7 are kinda fuzzy but I’ve seen them, 8 I watched over quarantine (since it’d been a few years since I had watched any of it, I also rewatched bits of 5-7) as well as I think the first episode or so of season 9, but I don’t remember them too well. I watched the movie (the pony one, not eqg) when it came out in theaters, and not too long after that I drifted away from the mlp fandom (tbh I was drifting a little bit before it came out, but I knew I had to stick in there at least until it came out since I had been waiting for so long for it). The equestria girls movies, I saw them all when they first came out (I even saw rainbow rocks in the theater). I think there’s like, half hour shorts or episodes or something?? That’s in the eqg universe?? But I don’t think I’ve seen any of them, and if I have it was probably a really early one a long time ago because I haven’t really kept up with anything after Legend of Everfree came out

Animaniacs reboot - I’ve seen the first 5 episodes and it’s nice!

Shows that I’ve only seen an episode or few of that I (probably) intend on continuing to watch:

Glitch Techs - I saw the first episode! Definitely want to continue it

Rick and Morty - I watched a few episodes of the first season in like March/April quarantine, but I was still dealing with online school at home finishing out last semester then. I think I want to watch this eventually, but I have other shows that I want to catch up on/watch before I’d get to this one

Tangled the Series - idk if that’s the name I’ve seen multiple names but I hope you know what I’m talking about, I saw a handful of episodes from the first season I think sometime around fall 2019, but I’d probably have to rewatch the whole thing

Adventure Time - I’ve never had cable/cartoon network so I didn’t watch this growing up, but I’ve heard really good things about it and seen a bunch of stuff from it (I’d have to be living under a rock to have not seen anything lol) but it’s so long and I just haven’t gotten around to it yet! Well I’ve seen maybe a dozen or so episodes of the first season but it was a while ago so I’d have/want to start over probably

Shows I haven’t started

Amphibia - I’ve heard it’s good! I just haven’t gotten around to it yet

Avatar the Last Airbender - probably next on my list to watch, I’ve been meaning to watch it for years but I haven’t yet, its on Netflix now so that should make it easier to watch and a friend from school made me promise that this would be the next one I’d watch so that’s what I’m doing (I did watch the last 2 seasons of infinity train that night though, since I was really wanting to finish it first… But atla is next) watched it! (updated 12/2/20)

The Legend of Korra - obviously I’m waiting to watch it until after alta, and I’m probably going to watch it right after I finish atla

The Dragon Prince - idk really anything about it other than I think it’s on netflix? and apparently it’s good and maybe gay idk but I’ve heard it’s good thus why it’s on here lol

Black Horseman - idk too too much about this other than apparently it’s good but also kinda depressing. Similarly to rick and morty I want to watch it eventually but its not insanely high on my list

OK KO - don’t know a ton about it other than it’s decent, a step up from r+m/bojack on where I want to watch it but not urgently

Ducktales Reboot - similarly to OK KO, don’t know much about it other than it’s decent, same level of want to watch

Milo Murphy’s Law - saw a couple episodes when it came out, haven’t watched it in forever so if I ever do want to rewatch it I’d have to restart it, not super high on my priority list though

Bee and Puppycat - another one I almost forgot! I don’t know a ton about this but I’ve heard its nice! Plus from what I’ve seen I like the artstyle so  👀 maybe someday

Animaniacs (original) - I started to watch the reboot and I think I want to watch the original eventually! Just haven’t gotten around to it yet

Clone High - listen it’s not that I desperately WANT to watch this, I just have friends who are like, hey, watch this lol it’s apparently not super long so why not

Other non cartoon shows I’ve watched:

Brooklyn 99 - idk when I started watching it, maybe around season 4/5ish? I think sometime in 2018 so idk the season, idk, most of the episodes I’ve only seen once so I couldn’t tell you exactly what happens in every episode but I still like it

Rise - ugh I miss this show, I started watching it after/around when the 3rd episode came out (end of March 2018?), and I don’t think I’ve watched any of it since it ended (mid may 2018) cause its not on any streaming services anymore :/ at least not that I know of but I loved it and would love to rewatch it

Andi Mack - I’d heard it was good but hadn’t watched it after it ended (early august 2019 I think I watched it), haven’t rewatched it since then but it was decent, I mainly watched it cause I had seen clips of gay but yknow it was alright

Sex Education - watched 1st season sometime in 2019, when rewatched it/watched season 2 when it came out January 2020, this is like WAY more mature than like anything on this list but like it has an interesting story

Love Victor - watched first/currently only season when it came out mid june 2017 (how was June so long ago what)

Queer Eye - I’ve seen a couple seasons of it idk I figured why not add it lol

Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist - I think I watched this around when there were maybe a few episodes of season 1 left (well there’s only one season now but still), idk I liked it cause like musicals and stuff idk

Idk what else to add to this section but if I think of anything (to any category on this list) I’ll probably update it later maybe idk (again I’m not necessarily going to be reblogging stuff from all/any of these but like, I figured I’d mention it cause idk)

Musicals:

Another thing I love is musicals, like I’m a design/tech major in college rn so yeah I like theatre lol so I’m going to list some I’ve seen (mostly watched bootlegs of, but I’ll list some professional/tour ones I’ve seen in person)(but if it doesn’t say anything special I probably just watched a bootleg, 2017 was a big year for me and my google drive being filled with bootlegs…) This might not be all of them and I won’t go into as much detail (I hope, I haven’t typed it yet) but we’ll see:

Broadway tours I’ve seen: (I swear this isn’t bragging they were cheap seats way up high lol)

Dear Evan Hansen (May 2019)

Wicked (first professional show I saw, October 2017, haven’t watched a bootleg or anything of it since then and I went in completely blind)

Mean Girls (November 2019, last professional show I saw before quarantine)

Come From Away (September 2019)

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (November 2018)

The Book of Mormon (August 2018, was hoping to again this August but quarantine :( )

Non professional/high school/college/other shows I’ve seen in person/been on crew for (not all of them, but some) (assume I’ve also seen bootlegs/proshots if there are any)

Newsies

Spring Awakening (spot op)

Shrek (props)

Legally Blonde

I’ve seen done way more but I don’t feel like listing them or that they’re anything I’d want go reblog/actively look at fandom content for (that’s not saying it reblog stuff from shrek the musical but still lol)

Other shows I’ve seen only in proshot/bootleg form:

Basically every Starkid show

Spies are Forever

The Solve it Squad

Hamilton

Heathers

Be More Chill (yes I was in that big amalgamation of musical fandom stuff with these and deh in 2017 aaaa)

Falsettos

Beetlejuice

Spongebob

21 Chump Street

Les Mis

Phantom

(Again maybe not necessarily all but some there’s a slight chance I might reblog things about)

Musicals I still need/want to watch/listen to:

The Prom

Six

The Great Comet (not typing it all out)

Hadestown

Waitress

Bonnie and Clyde

Something Rotten

Tuck Everlasting

Again there’s more I want to see I’m sure but I haven’t really watched bootlegs in a while…. Idk feel free to suggest shows tho

Movies I’ve seen/like: obviously I’m not gonna just every single movie I’ve seen but heres a few I like:

The Sound of Music

The Wizard of Oz - these 2 have actually always been my favorite movies since I was little, I can’t dee myself reblogging much of anything about them but figured I’d mention them cause why not

Love Simon

Some but not all Disney movies (I grew up with no cable/mostly just pbs)

Most pixar movies?

I don’t think John Mulaney shows count as movies but eh whatever I’ve seen them on netflix

Idk what else lol I know I’ve seen more movies than this but eh

If anyone actually read all of this... Wow I’m surprised honestly lol have a free cookie or something for your struggles or smth, idk, thanks for reading this though lol I appreciate you (but also slightly worry, this was a lot of words and a lot of rambling)

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17, 19 (which is a bit diff since it’s rpf so don’t feel pressured to answer this one if u don’t want) and 20

@heriz asked 17 and 19 too so I’m combining the asks! 

17. Describe a fic that is still in the ‘ideas’ stage.

Ok so I just checked my “2am fic ideas” folder and found the following: 

Britpop AU

Always wanted to do one but then @portraitofalarryonfire mentioned Niall in lockdown had real damon albarn vibes and I ran with it Equivalent characters:  Louis/liam - Oasis equivalent Niall - Basically damon (the right kind of asshole vibes) Harry is obviously Jarvis Cocker except not older but younger - Pulp-like with Mitch and Sarah Zayn is in some portishead or massive attack esqe group - It is 1996-7 - they have all done too many drugs and things are starting to fall apart The battle of the bands - extreme rivalry with niall, who just shows up at events with a different kind of chaos energy - HAVE to include Niall’s band making an absolutely stupid vid with D. Hirst and L & H cracking up over it Harry as Jarvis-esque is kind of removed from the whole scene, but keeps getting lumped with them all, hadn’t really interacted much with louis before because he and Li were in their own bubble but now that Lou is on the outs with Li he isn’t hanging around with the bubble as much - starts hanging with Harry who pushes him on his song writing - what it means to write about the working class lives they come from rather than just putting words in an order that sounds cool

So that’s the general idea and now that I’m thinking about it again I really fucking love it, though the problem is everyone obviously associates Harry with Jarvis but songwriting wise Louis is much closer. Ah well. I’ll work it out.

19. What’s your favorite character headcanon?

Ok so obviously I’m deep in the SPN hyperfixation right now but technically it’s only canon that Dean is Bi in spanish, so that’s a headcanon I obviously feel strongly about. I also love thinking about what dean could have done in the 4 years pre-series that Sam was away, the idea of him driving down to south america or up to alaska. I’m planning a GK crossover fic where he joined the marines. 

I don’t have too many 1D head canons these days, so I’ll have to disappoint you on that one. That or I’m just drawing a blank. I do like hearing about other people’s headcanons though! 

20. Do you have a favorite fanfic or author? If so, tag them/post a link and share the love!

So I do but there are many. I have 400 bookmarks, 160 of which are 1D fics lol. 

My favourite fic in 1D fandom has, for a long time, been Things Have Gotten Closer to the Sun by starseas, aka the solar flare fic. It is actual perfection and I love so much fic but nothing as much as that one. 

Right now, in 1D fic, I am really loving everything @helloamhere is writing, and @harrybridgers too. But they’re both writing WIPs write now so I’m waiting for more. 

In SPN fandom I’ve just read komodobits’ So Says The Sword which is, honestly, breathtaking and if you are interested in spn/destiel, you should check it out. 

Probably my all time fave fic is a Calvin & Hobbes yuletide fic from a long time ago called Theories About Nuclear Winter by hollycomb. I love it deeply and completely. 

Other all time favourites are an old SPN fic from LJ days called A Good Man Is Hard To Find by kimonkey7, which has lived in my head rent free since 2007, and my fave drarry fics: Doing the Lambeth Walk  by blamebrampton, and House Proud by astolat. 

[wexhappyxfew]

First off, love your writing. Second, do you have any advice for us who want to write multi-chapter fics but are struggling to find the motivation to do so? Thanks a ton!!!

hi anon!! and AW THANK YOU!! :) that means sm, truly, i appreciate your kind words!! writing is such a passion of mine and such a good escape from the world, i’m so thankful for writing, truly!! :) 🥺💛 and yes of course!!

for me, multi-chapter fics were always SUPER daunting. i’m a shy person, i’m also a quiet and anxious person so me writing multi-fics was not something that added up to me?? BUT HERE I AM LOL! for me, my motivation, comes through research, if you need it for the story, and KNOWING YOUR MAIN CHARACTER! i feel if you don’t know your main character is every single way you can, you may struggle to write because then you don’t know what little things tick them off, what inspires them, their goals, their reactions to certain things. if you really know your character, ive always found it super easy to then write for them, bc it’s like you are living through the character writing them.

some other types of motivation i think about are what is that goal you REALLY want to reach, what do you want readers to feel when you’re writing, what sort of emotions do you want to evoke, how can you make your character relatable so that people can really connect with your story? just a bunch of little things that really push you outside your limits. 

another this is, try using writing prompts when you write, or other things like quotes to kick start a story or a paragraph or something, make it interesting, make it a story you would want to read. and think about...what would you want to read? WRITE THAT! if you want one sorta story that you feel just hasn’t been shared with the world yet, go ahead and write that story! i feel the best sort of motivation is, writing a story that only you will know each and every detail about, and other people may just never find out! and when you write the story, make sure you have fun with it, don’t try to stress yourself out or overwork yourself because for now, writing should be F U N !!!

but here are some of my FAVORITE MOTIVATIONS WHEN WRITING!!

- watch tv shows for dialogue inspiration and just study the way they have their characters speak - it is very inspirational i feel!

- make it a habit to right even just a little bit each day, put something on the page, see where you can go with it (ive woken up at 2am just to write down a bit of dialogue before LOL)

- when drafting simply just write and you can edit later, usually i get on a roll and just don’t edit i simply just write and write and write until i stop and decide oh ok i’ll go edit now!!

- find what inspires you! if it’s a quote, a want to get your writing out there, then you work towards that!

- make your own YOU! make your own path in the world, be your own leader, be different, be unique - telling myself that i don’t want to be like others, is the best motivation!

- ASK ANY OF THE LOVELY PEOPLE ON HERE - they all have different experiences with motivation, such as these being my own, but get yourself out to others because people are ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS willing to help out and talk about characters and ideas and such, people are always willing to help! and so am i! you can message me privately whenever you please and i can help with anything you want to talk about, truly, i always hope my posts help out just a little bit for new upcoming writers!

- DO IT FOR YOU!!! you are the most important thing in this process - remember that, you are the author do what’s best for you

- SET GOALS, just in general set goals for yourself, if you just kinda wing it, something i do, but i always make sure a goal is set, have little goals spread around, like a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. know what you are working towards and what you are working with

- KNOW YOUR STORY going in blindly never ends well for me, because i feel there always needs to be a general plan. if you are feeling helpless with your story, and can’t feel yourself being motivated to write, sometimes it can simply be, you just don’t know where to take the story, just knowing your story is always the best help

if you would like me to elaborate on any anon, please just send me a message and we can chat privately - i’m always open!!! but i truly hoped this helped because this is normally what i go off of when i feel unmotivated! my messages are always open though, so don’t be afraid to drop on by and we can talk even more if you want, i know this was more general and vague with things :) thank you sm for the ask and the kind words about my writing - i appreciate it more than you can imagine!! stay lovely <3