#if i hear ONE MORE PERSON say this show is depressing and pessimistic i SWEAR

[dongslinger--420]

When BoJack Horseman (2014-2020) said "you can't keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it ok. you need to be better" and "all we have are the connections we make" and "I really should've thought about the view from halfway down" and "sometimes you have to take responsibility for your own happiness" and "you do the hokey pokey and you turn yourself around, you turn yourself around, THAT'S what it's all about" and "things have to get worse before they can get better" and "in real life, the big gesture isn't enough, you need to be consistent" and "if we hadn't met each other until now, we wouldn't be the people we are now" and, my personal favourite, "every day it gets a little easier, but you gotta do it every day, that's the hard part, but it does get easier".

[just-like-playing-tag]

Yo it's Apollo!Ray AU hours again

I just think Ray would be more fitting as ruthless psycho than Norman? I mean, Ray was willing to sacrifice 35 children out of 37- children that were his family, children he loved. I'm not saying such decision didn't destroy him internally; but if he, after having thought about it for a long time and considered there was no other chance, eventually agreed to sacrifice most of his own family, think about what he might be able to do to the creatures he despises.

Now, I'm not saying I'm 100% sure this is how Ray would act if he was sent to Lambda, and I know I'm on thin ice with remaining in character; but I find it fun to think of what could have been of him and eventually bringing to light some hidden dark aspects of his!

Hear me out: Ray is a complex, predominantly gray character. Through the canon story, he was greatly effected by Emma's good influence for the better. Nota bene!! I don't mean that Ray isn't his own character, and that his personality and development was solely shaped by Emma; what I mean is that he was influenced by Emma's attitude as much as she was of his own, because our personality is also built on the people we're surrounded by, especially the ones we share a deep bond with.

Now, let's say that, at Grace Filed, Ray's heart was still in a predominantly gray zone: a bit ruthless at heart - he really was willing to abandon to death 92% of his family - but still able to be influenced by Emma's good resolutions for the best (even though it's important to keep in mind that he didn't believe an escape involving more than three people was possible until it took place in front of his eyes. I think it's a very relevant detail, as it shows how GF!Ray's cynism and realism often lead to him solely being able to see the most negative results, and not allowing him to believe in the impossible as Emma and Norman did).

Now, things changed as canon Ray escaped. He had seen the impossible become reality right in front of his eyes, and in that moment he vowed he would have never made the same mistake: he would have never given up again; not on his family, nor on his life.

He swore to protect his family, and that he would have never allowed any of his siblings to meet death again: and that's because, for the very first time in his entire existence, he started to believe that no-escape-scenarios can actually be overcame without sacrifices, if only you have enough faith into making it possible. He learned that fighting back will never stop being an option, and he's now willing to do anything, even the impossible, to grant his family an happy life- this time, for all of them.

It's beautiful, isn't it? Well, bad news!!! Lambda!Ray never got the chance to go through this character development. In fact for him after his shipment everything got worse and more desperate!

I find it unlikely that Ray would have left a note with a revisited escape plan like Norman did before leaving... We know for sure in two months he didn't come up with what Norman had thought in a couple of hours, and even though in the circumstances of him being shipped he would have been him to make the recognition, he didn't know about the support of the younger siblings, which was a key element of the escape plan. Overall, even putting aside the fact that Norman is generally considered being a span more witty than Ray, I personally like to think that Ray, for how he is - pessimistic, depressed and everything - after seeing the cliff would have been far too miserable to come up with something as fast as Norman did.*

*Actually, it's hard to tell for sure, because I think Ray would never give up on saving Emma and Norman- but things were happening so fast, so what if he didn't have enough time? What if he just couldn't come up with a plan to overcome the cliff? I fully believe Ray would have done anything to save Emma and Norman, but what if there wasn't anything to be done? It's hard to say.

Ray is shipped to Lambda. This is probably what he's thinking, differently from Norman:

1. Their plan to escape somehow feels as it's already failed, since they already lost one person: without him, the plan of setting the house on fire to distract Isabella has no chance to work, making their already few chances of escaping go down to basically none.

2. Differently from Norman, who never stopped believing in Emma, Lambda!Ray doesn't know if his siblings were actually able to escape; taking into account how pessimistic Ray is, he has probably long presumed them dead. In such situation, it's very likely he considered the work of the six years of his life to at least make Emma and Norman survive gone to waste. I think it's actually very likely for him to get even more depressed and hopeless at Lambda, believing that now all his family is dead, and probably blaming himself for that. The fact that out of all his family he was the only one who survived - him, the one who out of them was the most ready and willing to die - must feel to him like the most cruel joke from destiny.

[For reference: until the very moment they finally met, also Norman didn't know the escape was successful.

Of course, Norman believed in Emma and in her plan, but what about cynical, realistic, I'm-depressed-since-I-was-one Ray?]

At Lambda, Ray is hopelessly stalling, obsessing on this kind of thoughts. His hatred for demons and, for extension, the world he lives in, is growing stronger and stronger. He's slowly sinking in the abyss of his own desperation. Now that all for him is lost, the only thought that keeps him from giving up on his life is one: the thirst of vengeance. A single, dark, rooted thought that somehow manages to be the one thing that keeps him going on. (Once taken on the Apollo facade, there probably was also a component of wanting to stop once and for all the suffering of thousands of children... But in all honesty, I believe with Ray the revenge component would be much stronger than it was with Norman.)

Let's take a moment to reflect on Ray's vindictive side, shall we? Of course, the main reason for Ray to set himself on fire was because according to him it was the safest way to make the others escape (honestly I think a big part of it was also because of him being suicidal kind of depressed, but that's not relevant to the point). But I believe another primary reason for his actions was his seek for revenge: you can clearly see it in his words full of hate and loathing. And I mean, I think that's pretty canon? Ray's beautiful theme in this moment of the anime is literally called “Ray's retaliation”.

That night Ray sought revenge for having ruined his six years plan to save his true friends (since Norman was ultimately shipped without him being able to do anything to save him), together with revenging all of his siblings he saw being led to death. Somehow, it was a moment for him to set all his anger free as his last testament leaving that cruel world.

But as for the Ray of the AU, he never got to experience that freeing moment! Instead, the anger inside of him kept growing stronger and stronger. And now that he believed the whole escape plan had failed and not a single child had survived, it's fair to assume his thirst for revenge would keep growing with it. And also, once again: this time there's no Emma to have a good influence on him.

Now imagine: after escaping Lamba, Ray meets Emma and Norman again!! He's overjoyed: for the longest time, he had thought he would have never got to see them again. He's ecstatic, overwhelmed with joy. In that moment, he swears to himself he'll never lose them again. Skip to the moment of the confrontation between the three of them, except this time it's Ray to expose his plan to exterminate the demons; when Emma randomly speaks her mind and says that, well, she actually doesn't find it very nice to eradicate an entire species, and that in fact she and Norman were already planning a fun trip to a deadly metaphysical place nobody ever came back from to reforge the promise. Needless to say, in the span of minutes Ray is back sinking deep into the abyss. He won't lose them again. He can't lose them again. And click boom, he goes “You know what Emma? Why don't you visit our Paradise Hideout a bit longer instead 😊🔪🔪🔪��

What I'm trying to say is: when the story starts, Ray has gone through all of the most dreadful and disturbing horrors; he's unstable, and depending on his fate when leaving Grace Field he could have easily swing from one extreme to the other. I think Emma greatly helped him overcome his hatred; but what would have been of him, hadn't she been there to support him? What if he only met people who shared his hatred for demons? What if Ray had the choice to kill them all?

[iwaisa]

request. IDK IF UVE DONE THIS BUT maybe the whole alphabet w tsukki if u don’t mind😳 i can’t get enough of ur writing -��@tsukisemi​

a/n. I LITERALLY LOVE YOU BYE- ARE U KIDDING ??? I love YOUR writing! your smau ???? immaculate. i want the amount of big brain power you have. ANYWAYS TSUKKI ALPHABET TSUKKI ALPHABET-

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- warnings. swearing, timeskip spoilers

a - affection (how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?)

↳ bruh you know him always teasing n shit 🙄 that’s his true nature though. he keeps his guard up while showing you he likes you by teasing. if he sees you crying though he will instantly scoop you up in his arms (idgaf what anyone says, tsukki is NOT a sadist !!! </3)

b - best friend (what would they be like as a best friend? how would the friendship start?)

c - cuddles (do they like to cuddle? how would they cuddle?)

↳ loves cuddling but like, lowkey. he’s tsundere about it and will tease you for asking but on the inside he’s freaking out. you?? want to cuddle??? with him???? YES PLS. he loves when you tuck your face into his neck, but most importantly he loves watching your sleeping face <3

d - domestic (do they want to settle down? how are they at cooking and cleaning?)

↳ he definitely has thought about settling down with you, but it’s one day at a time with him. he’s super good at both cleaning and cooking. he likes baking more though <3

e - ending (if they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

↳ he might text you. i hate to say it but he’s too scared to face you. if it’s because of an issue that’s irreversible, he’d do it straight away on text. if it wasn’t something bad and he’s just losing interest, he’d ask you to meet up. either way they both suck LMAO

f - fiance(e) (how do they feel about commitment? how quick would they want to get married?)

↳ because of his place on the sendai frogs volleyball team, he’s mostly focused on that. however, this does not mean that he hasn’t pictured your wedding and what you would look like and what music would be playing.

g - gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

h - hugs (do they like hugs? how often do they do it? what are their hugs like?)

↳ he actually really loves hugs, in public or private. he hugs you each time you’re splitting ways, or just because. his hugs are genuine and super warm. you can definitely hear his heartbeat LMAO

i - i love you (how fast do they say the l-word?)

↳ it takes a while for him to finally say it. he’ll probably mutter it and deny anything when you ask him to repeat it, but you heard it <3

j - jealousy (how jealous do they get? what do they do when they’re jealous?)

k - kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?)

l - little ones (how are they around children?)

↳ hates children </3 they’re so loud and for what? nothing. absolutely nothing. blushes so hard when he sees you interacting with them though.

m - morning (how are mornings spent with them?)

↳ you wake up to tsukki with no glasses!!! he loves being woken up by you peppering his face with kisses. he’ll act grumpy about it saying that you woke him up but he secretly loves it <3

n - night (how are nights spent with them?)

o - open (when would they start revealing things about themselves? do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

↳ oh my. he’s so closed off at first and because of that the only thing you know about him is that he plays volleyball and likes strawberry shortcake (even he’ll take a while to tell you that because he’s lowkey embarrassed that he likes something like that) but eventually about four months in he begins revealing everything all at once. he’ll probably shed a tear or two. kiss his tears away. do it. he loves it.

p - patience (how easily angered are they?)

q - quizzes (how much would they remember about you? do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

r - remember (what is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

s - security (how protective are they? how would they protect you? how would they like to be protected?)

↳ he’s protective but in his own tsukishima way. if he sees someone harassing you he roasts them to no end. it makes it heart BURST whenever you defend him for being ‘salty.’ (lowkey turns him on too ERGIHGIHRE)

t - try (how much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

↳ he puts so much effort in <3 he wants you to see he’s not all teasing and snide remarks. he buys you gifts he knows you’ve given second glances in stores and he doesn’t really like being out much, so for dates he’ll study with you or just cuddle while listening to a playlist he made for you <3

u - ugly (what would be some bad habits of theirs?)

↳ he shuts you out. one disagreement about something or if he just had a bad day, he ignores your texts and calls. he ignores you in person, not even sparing you a glance.

v - vanity (how concerned are they with their looks?)

↳ he lowkey wonders if he would look hotter without his glasses, but other than that, he knows he looks good

w - whole (would they feel incomplete without you?)

↳ he tries so hard to be fine, but he isn’t and he knows this. he knows he isn’t fine with the fact that you’re not there anymore. it bothers him to no end and he starts to self-destruct.

x - xtra (a random headcanon for them)

↳ he finds rap lowkey concerning and he doesn’t like it 😳oops

y = yuck (what are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

↳ i believe he would be open to dating someone either shy and reserved or someone spunky and loud. however, he cannot deal with someone who seems to bring everyone down with their depressive personality. it’s a different thing if you have bouts of depression, but if you’re just pessimistic in general he tends to stay away from that.

z - zzz (what is a sleep habit of theirs?)

↳ he plays on his phone until he can’t keep his eyes open anymore (this is even shown in the manga tehe)

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[bobbystompy]

91 Quotes I Enjoyed From 2020

Below are my favorite quotes from 2020. Though most occurred throughout the year, some took place before but were encountered during.

1) “You don’t have to be new to make new.” - Rick Rubin

2) “He put the beat on and go to sleep then wake up with a verse.” - The Lox

3) “Every opinion is bad.” - Blink-155

4)

(via Twitter)

5) “At the start of every disaster movie, there’s a scientist being ignored.”

6) “Be brave enough to suck at something new.”

7) “Comedy is the only job you can have where you can use everything you know” - Robin Williams via Dave Chappelle

8) “What’s the worst swear word where you live?” - Josiah Hughes

9) “Cookies are a really great way to get everybody to like you for a short period of time” - YSAC

10) “The worst dancer at a wedding is the one who’s not dancing.” - John Mulaney

11) “I never saw the end of the tunnel. I only saw myself running out of one." - Kobe Bryant

12) "A good movie begins as you're walking out of the theater" - Ethan Hawke

13) “When I was young and starting in cinema, there was a saying that I carved deep into my heart which is, 'The most personal is the most creative.’ That quote was from our great Martin Scorsese.” - Bong Joon-ho

14) “Run to the rescue with love, and peace will follow” - River Phoenix via Joaquin Phoenix

15) “Thank you -- I will drink until next morning.” - Bong Joon-ho

16) “Men will bury their emotions for decades and then take it all out on children tubing while they drive the boat.” - @krauter_

17) “They help you with the dumb face stuff, but they don’t tell you how to fix it” - Adam (Nate’s friend), on having older sisters

18) “We all had our connections, but it’s not the details themselves that matter, it’s the feeling behind them. There are a million coming-of-age tales. Lady Bird’s secret sauce is how deeply its creator gave a shit. The older I get, the less I care about anything but the sense of a filmmaker’s personal connection to the material. It doesn’t matter what it’s about, what genre it is, or whether it’s genre at all. I only really care that it feels like something the filmmaker had to tell me, and that it was that filmmaker in particular who had to tell it. It has to answer the ‘why are you telling me this’ question, and not just why are you telling me, but why are you telling me.

Lady Bird is a movie that feels like only Greta Gerwig could’ve made. And it’s only because it’s so specific to her that it can be so meaningful to so many people.” - Vince Mancini

19) "I have cast some lonely votes, fought some lonely fights, mounted some lonely campaigns. But I do not feel lonely now.” - Bernie Sanders

20) “Ever hear a Beatles song you haven’t heard before?”

21) “Drinking is an emotional thing. It joggles you out of the standardism of everyday life, out of everything being the same. It yanks you out of your body and your mind and throws you against the wall. I have the feeling that drinking is a form of suicide where you're allowed to return to life and begin all over the next day. It's like killing yourself, and then you're reborn. I guess I've lived about ten or fifteen thousand lives now.” - Charles Bukowski

22) “You shouldn’t have to hear a band to know if they’re good or not” - Josiah Hughes

23) “I was raised by OGs.  Some of you were raised by IG.  I understand.” - Ice-T

* * *

[Here is where I note the line of demarcation that was the COVID-19 pandemic hitting the US, pushed forward by Tom Hanks’ announcement, the NBA and NCAA shutting down, and, then, the nation itself.]

* * *

24) “There are decades where nothing happens, and there are weeks where decades happen.” - Vladimir Lenin

25) "Taken together, this is a massive failure in leadership that stems from a massive defect in character. Trump is such a habitual liar that he is incapable of being honest, even when being honest would serve his interests. He is so impulsive, shortsighted, and undisciplined that he is unable to plan or even think beyond the moment. He is such a divisive and polarizing figure that he long ago lost the ability to unite the nation under any circumstances and for any cause. And he is so narcissistic and unreflective that he is completely incapable of learning from his mistakes. The president’s disordered personality makes him as ill-equipped to deal with a crisis as any president has ever been. With few exceptions, what Trump has said is not just useless; it is downright injurious." - Peter Wehner

26) "Epidemics have a way of revealing underlying truths about the societies they impact." - Anne Applebaum

27) “A funny thing about quarantining is hearing your partner in full work mode for the first time. Like, I’m married to a ‘let’s circle back’ guy — who knew?” - Laura Norkin

28) 

(Jojo Rabbit)

29) “The world ends when you're dead. Until then, you got more punishment in store. - Deadwood: The Movie

30) “All bleeding stops eventually.” - Deadwood: The Movie

31) “Our Father, which art in heaven… / Let him fucking stay there” - Deadwood: The Movie

32) “It’s like a power outage, but we still have power” - Ryen Russillo, on the pandemic

33) “Whenever Sox baseball returns, it’ll be weird to not have Farmer on the call any more. The relationship between a fan and longtime announcer is always built in the little moments. One afternoon, he’s the soundtrack as you clean the garage. On another night, he’s your bookmark for the game as you stand in line for churros or walk down the ramps at Sox Park to try for better seats in the 100 level. A voice like Farmer’s becomes so familiar that you only really notice when it’s no longer there.” - Kevin Kaduk, on the passing of Ed Farmer

34) 

(via Twitter)

35) “In my songs, I try to look through someone else’s eyes, and I want to give the audience a feeling more than a message” - John Prine

36) “Observe everything. Admire nothing.” - Generation Kill

37) “Trump, by that definition, has always been a wartime president -- always willing to sacrifice people he doesn’t know to things he only sort of cares about” - David Roth

38) "Whenever they speak Michael Jordan, they should speak Scottie Pippen." - Michael Jordan

39) "Fiction is a bridge to the truth that journalism can't reach." - Hunter S. Thompson

40) “Airlines sending me “we’re in this together” emails. When my suitcase was 52 pounds I was on my own.” - Mike Dentale

41) “Sometimes you can be the worst source of your own story” - Ryen Russillo

42) “Family is not necessarily blood, but instead who you would bleed for.”

43)

(via Twitter)

44) "This is the deal that Jordan made, knowingly or unknowingly — that he would trade everything he had for everything he wanted. And then, when he won all those things, he found that he had nothing but that.” - David Roth

45) “I’m brand loyal, but the brand doesn’t matter” - Caitie Miller, on why she doesn’t like generic peanut butter

46) “NOBODY shitposts Gene Hackman!!” - Mark Dehlinger

47) “When a man concludes that any stick is good enough to beat his foe with—that is when he picks up a boomerang.” - G.K. Chesterton

48) “You can be appalled forever, but shocked only once.” - Jeff Weiss, on early Eminem

49) “Whether I’m pessimistic or optimistic, the fight’s the same” - David Simon

50) “Freedom can never be completely won, but it can be lost.” - Bernard Simon

51) “Racism in America is like dust in the air. It seems invisible — even if you’re choking on it — until you let the sun in. Then you see it’s everywhere. As long as we keep shining that light, we have a chance of cleaning it wherever it lands.” -Kareem Abdul Jabbar

52) “In a racist society, it is not enough to be non-racist -- we must be anti-racist.” - Angela Davis

53) “Start as close to the end as possible” - Kurt Vonnegut, on creative writing

54) “You can’t stay woke all the time — that’s insomnia.” - Dr. Cornel West

55) “No, I get it. I’ve dated a lot of Geminis.”

56) “The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.” - John Krakauer, Into The Wild (via Tyler Keller)

57) "I couldn't show them my For You because it's pretty much just lesbian stuff and depression memes" - Maggie Loesch, on showing TikTok to her coworkers

58) "It's 1 a.m. in Slovakia and I've already had one bottle of wine and I don't know how long this press conference will go, so good luck to me." - Marian Hossa, following his NHL Hall of Fame announcement

59) “All I want in life is to go on an Anguilla group trip” - Mandy Gilkes

60) “You miss old friends when you don’t see them, but you miss them more when you do.” - Chuck Klosterman

61) “The only way to appreciate the present is to pretend it’s already the past.” - Chuck Klosterman

62) Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth, oh, never mind You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth Until they've faded, but trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back At photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now How much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked

(”Everybody's Free [To Wear Sunscreen]”)

Second time that essay’s been quoted on this list.

64) "I mean, it's just human nature to suck up to the people above you, crap on those beneath you, and undercut your equals” - Brian, Family Guy

65) “You never quit a job. You quit a manager.” - Brian Bedford

66) “All the pictures in my house are of people I’m not friends with” - Tracy Cunningham

67) “In order to leave something behind, you have to leave.” - Dr. Herman, Grey’s Anatomy

68) 

(via Twitter)

69) “You can obsess about death if you don’t have to obsess about dying.” - Brendan Kelly via “White Noise”

70) “If it’s right to do, it’s wrong to wait.” - Andy, doorman 

71)

72) “When I'm sometimes asked when will there be enough [women on the Supreme Court] and I say, 'When there are nine,' people are shocked. But there'd been nine men, and nobody's ever raised a question about that.” - Ruth Bader Ginsburg

73) "America is mostly people who’ve never left their state saying we have the best country in the world." - Billy Wayne Davis

74) “A writer is someone who knows at least 80% of their writing sucks.” - Gabe Hudson

75) 

(via Twitter)

76) “You’re dead twice” - Brendan Kelly

77) “Perfect is the enemy of good” - Voltaire (via Zach Lowe)

78) “I don’t want to be a savior, I want to be a mirror.” - Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez

79) “I get bad Twitter FOMO but not real life FOMO. That just goes to show I need to get off the Internet.” - Josh Thomas

80) “Is there anything you love in life that you engage with seriously that you don't also engage with humor?" - Sam Sutherland, on his relationship with Blink-182

81) “My favorite genre of music is my friends' bands" - Josiah Hughes

82) “Let’s fall in love like both our parents aren’t divorced.”

83) “Seabiscuit may be the only earthling that was on both sides of the stamp.” - Brendan Kelly

84) “There’s no shame in coming in second, except in, like, wars.” - Family Guy

85) “I feel like I experience writer’s block 100% of the time, and when I do write, I have impostor syndrome.” - Phoebe Bridgers

86) “We teach based on what we most need to learn.” - psychologist on Grey’s Anatomy

87) “Having too many choices is the leading cause of stress” - Grey’s Anatomy

88) “I think we've all gravely underestimated the extent to which this year has changed all of us, permanently” - Kelli Maria Korducki

89) 

(via Twitter)

90) “I wonder if people understand why they don’t have polio” - Sandra E. Garcia

91) “Ending songs is terrible, so let’s keep singing” - Dave Hernandez

[visanimus]

Max & David small analysis

In the first episode of Camp Camp when Max is leading away his new friends away, he says, “Oh no I hope you learned David. I hope you learned that before today you only had one little bastard to deal with, but now you got three, let’s go guys. I’ll take you to our tent.”

He says, “You only had one little bastard to deal with.” He uses the word Bastard to describe himself. Is it possible he calls himself that because he is use to hearing that word to describe him by his parents or by his parent? Is this how adults talk about him when he is around? For how long?

We know Max is sent there because “Camp is a place where parents send there kids when they don’t want to deal with them. That’s why we return the favor when they’re seventy.” He’s sent there by his parent(s) because they don’t want to deal with this “one little bastard”.

Not only is Max depressed, neglected (and knows he is), and sees himself in a bad light, that he does all this terrible things because of how he is treated by the adults on his life that he is just a broken child wanting to rebel and protect himself against them and their treatment - this is coping mechanism (possibly).

It makes sense why he wants to rebel against David because Max knows the pattern; nice people beak under stress and reveal who they are. Imagine a young Max seeing his parents enjoying themselves without him, and when he has to interact with them, he sees what kind of people they are; the kind that never wanted a “bastard” child in the first place. For years he’s dealt with this.

David being so kind is what sets Max off because if he’s use to seeing adults behave so negatively rather than so kindly. He treats Gwen differently than he treats David because Gwen doesn’t hide who she is but David is constantly nice, smiling, perky and etc - this is something Max isn’t use to seeing. Maybe he sees this in brief instances of his parents but constantly - that’s a different story for him to witness on a daily basis no matter what terrible actions Max takes against David.

Max doesn’t hate David, he just hates the persona David takes as a “happy” person and that’s why Max is so hell bent on breaking David’s max to show what kind of person he is. Max wants to force David to reveal what kind of adult he is; to see if David is like every other adult he’s already seen with his own eyes. And when he sees that David breaks into something different.

Max is stumped and his mind has to work out a new way to cope with this.

In the episode where he does break David, he sees something different, he doesn’t see a vicious or cruel adult, but a person who wants to try and care for others when no else will. Max, on the inside, actually feels bad because he could’ve been that naive back then, before he broke into this cruel, pessimistic and uncaring child. Max could’ve been as happy as David and when he (Max) broke he followed the pattern as everyone else.

But when David breaks down and shows a different reaction to Max’s intentional stresses, Max can’t understand why he feels guilty to do this to David. That’s why despite saying, “Do not look into this” Max has to find a way to make it up to David so he no longer feels guilty about his actions.

David showed Max that not everybody will stop caring. David showed Max that not everybody is the same. David showed Max that he is human as well and that he just wanted to do his best because no one showed (David) that they cared. David has seem apathetic people and didn’t like it. David wanted to change that and that’s why he tried to hard to be a happy, caring, and perky man that can handle everything until that episode.

Maybe David, had uncaring parents like Max, and chose to handle it in a different way. Maybe Camp Campbell was the haven David had, those few months to get away from his terrible family. Hell, maybe that’s why he doesn’t like any of his campers to swear because he grew up in an evironment like that as well.

Maybe Max and David are more alike than different. The only difference is how they chose to handle it and grow into the people they are.