#if i dont post this now im gonna wait like a gd week

[sonic-4-episode-ii]

sonic fucking loves cars. i think he gets, like, overly excited when he sees any that look 'weird' (distinct), or ones that match his quills or the ones that can almost match his slower running speeds

sonic hates cars, because theyre shit for the environment, and all the ones that claim to be better are just as bad, if not WORSE. every month at least once a month he has to physically restrain himself from going off to blow every damn car manufactory up

sonic LOVES cars. he loves the way each person personalizes them, how they grow to fit each others molds. the connection some people have with theirs

sonic HATES cars, the massive ones five times as tall as the average mobian driven by assholes who seem to think that if anyone's short enough to get in the blind spot, they should be fast enough to dodge out of the way - or small enough to just let the car pass over them harmlessly.

sonic loves cars. he loves his car, and his friend's cars, and the way they're all made just for them. how they've been meticulously modified by tails to be perfectly neutral in their carbon footprint, how they give him and his friends fair grounds in races together, and, honestly, how beautiful they all look

being a good activist, and a decent person, sonic advocates against the overuse of cars and the refusal to run them on anything but gasoline.

but, he still gets some guilty pleasure out of 'ooo'ing and 'aaa'ing at new models from his favorite brands...

[captainimprobable]

This photo popped up on my Facebook memories and I nearly lost my gd mind.  Everything under the cut is depressing so don’t click if you don’t wanna be bummed out

This is from Mother’s day, May 10th, 2015.  At this point I had been breaking down every night for a month, taking Ativan like it was candy, because lower doses stopped working since I took them so often.  I dropped out of college during finals week instead of just waiting for the semester to be over because I didn’t know if I could make it through another week. 3 days after this picture was taken, I checked myself into the hospital.  It was a planned check in, preemptively done so it wouldn’t come to a place where it would be an emergency.  I stayed for about a week, and when I got out I wasn’t cured or anything, but it had been the restart I needed to start working to get better. 2015 was the Year From Hell for my me and my family. (So far, it’s still beating 2020. Like. That many bad things happened in 2015.)

I spent most of my recovery alone, aside from my mother.  I had friends, that I loved and who I knew loved me, but when someone is going through something difficult and you don’t know what to say, sometimes you just say nothing at all.  Not to mention I kept all this very very quiet.  On the outside I looked fine.  I’ve been told by many, many therapists that  I’m the only patient they’ve ever had who can fool them into thinking things are great even if I’m wildly depressed, and my friends weren’t trained, so. Nobody really knew. I’ve been working my ass off for five years.  A year after this picture was taken, I graduated college.  By the end of that year I got my first job.  It took me a long long time to get to a place where I thought I could actually, maybe be a real person.  I was finally planning to start my career, which was going to lead to me moving out. I was finally, FINALLY, after 7 years of trying and failing, going to travel to japan. And then Covid happened.  And here I am, five years to the day later, feeling the same things I felt then, completely rewinded, like the past five years just haven’t happened.  We’re back, babes!!!!!! We’ve returned to the Shit Zone, no feeling good allowed!!!!  We’re back to having to take everything minute by minute, sleeping a lot and popping that Ativan again because I can’t stop crying. I’m fucked, my dudes.  Every year I’m so proud of how much progress I’ve made since May 13th, 2015. But right now all I see is the same pattern, the skipping work, the spontaneous sobbing mixed with being Totally Okay Somehow for a few days, and I’m alone again, because quarantine means nobody knows when we’re all gonna see each other again.  On top of that, i have nothing to look forward to since cons are cancelled.  Cons were basically the only thing I had..which I guess is shitty and lame, but it gave me an outlet, it was a place where I could be super gay and not worry about where I am, I was surrounded by people like me and not here, in my religious town, where nobody is like me.  (I am the Queen of the Drama Queens. Wow.) So all I see in front of me is the same thing, nothing, forever.  But hey the smores frapp comes out in two weeks!!!! Thank god.  I dont know what I would do without the smores frapp. (This is serious. Im not being sarcastic.  That shit is GOOD) Posting this is incredibly embarrassing for me because I’m not usually this open when something is wrong, but this picture popped up at an exact moment I was freaking out about something and I just had to do something.  So now, on top of everything, I’m severely embarrassed and I feel about three inches tall. Hi up there guys!!!! Things are great down here, I’ve managed to corral a spider and now I have a way of getting around without walking everywhere, so that’s rad.  Sorry if you think less of me. Surpriiiiiise Ive been a loser all along!!! I’m used to being vented to but the other way around...doesnt.....make sense??? Like, this feels illegal.  Was this too much information? I straight up Do Not Know. Anyway, thanks to the few people who know I’m losing my mind and have helped. Also I’m totally safe yall, that’s not something you need to worry about, I promise. idk wtf this post is for. actually. i might delete it like. soon. bc this feels Wrong and like Im crying for attention and i am a small helpless child. And Im not. But. Ill see. God this is bad if people see this they’re gonna think less of me but Im supposed to be this big advocate for mental illness on facebook, so I wanted to be honest, but I couldn’t get myself to post it on facebook so I’m putting it here and. Idk.  Sorry.

[aprilma3]

So I was really tired right

And I kinda in my half awake state thought of the fic I was trying to look for but just decided to write it out since I couldn’t find one like it. So here’s the fic I really wanted to read because I’m a masochist and I love angst

Mari is drunk and annoyed, self reflects on how fucking stupid it is to pine after such an oblivious guy for over three years. Like does she even know him other than what she believes him to be.

Understands it’s not his fault since it’s his feelings and she can’t get mad at him just at herself. Oh and the ‘she’s just a friend’ she can get mad at that and she will. Literally smashes the pedestal she’s shoved him on and leaves herself a message on a post it

“Fuck mr she’s just a friend and be that fucking friend”

Mari understands her crush is too much of just a crush, understands she actually has to get to know the guy to feel like she can truly love him.

This leads to a hungover weekend of her just reflecting and going over this, ultimately her suffering heartbreak playing depressing music and basically breaking up with her previous self to be a fucking butterfly.

She’s now a lil worried about facing him on Monday just incase she bursts into tears but she goes fuck it I’ll just ignore his presence. Yeet

Mari, to ninny’s and alya’s surprise, manages to speak to Adrien normally since she’s managed to purge herself of her previous obsessive nature.

Alyas like holy shit you fucking mature ass bitch I Stan. Ninny’s like holy shit I’m so proud love u loads nette.

Adrien on the other hand is confused on where his cute little stuttering friend is. Marinette is back to acting indifferent towards him, as if she is just a friendly acquaintance again. He thought her little quirks and stutters were normal since that’s all he saw of her.

NEWSFLASH IT AINT BRO.

Adrien then basically starts to realise she’s kind of ignoring him, and actively going out of her way to not be alone with him.

Mari on the other hand is feeling fucking amazing, she finally feels independent and as if she can do fucking anything. And then Luka is like yo and she’s back into crush town

SIKE

My baby girl is mature as heck now, understands that to truly like the guy she has to be friends with him first to get to know the guy. And then she finally realises she’s already pretty close friends with Luka and it just works. Something she’s never been able to do with Adrien.

Speaking of the banana boye. He’s having like a little crisis over here, my lil jealous dude tryna understand wtf is happening. He tries his hardest to see Marinette by even going as far as inviting her over or to do shit most days of the week.

She declines most of the time preoccupied with her job at the bakery alya or now Luka.

Adrien finds out about Luka through a picture on marinettes Instagram because modern relationships amirite.

Side note - Luka and Mari aren’t together they’re just testing the waters seeing what’s happenin

Adriens finally facing the ‘it’s just a friend’ consequences and realises fuck I’m too late

Adrien doing the whole drunk thing, this time actually doing the opposite of Mari and setting himself the aim of making the girl he realised he has a crush on as happy as possible.

Remember this time he doesn’t see LB in her so he’s not putting her against another gal, nor does he truly know how she acts. (Idk why I wrote it like I’ve written a fan fic about this before but I’ll roll with it)

Then he sees her whilst as chat due to her running out at an awkward time and nearly being punted into the Seine but quick ass reflexes saved her ass. Adrien is like wtf she is literally an everyday LB.

He starts to see her act like this all the time and actually falls in love, that cute lil pure love where he’s like if I can’t have you im sure as hell gonna make you happy even if it’s with another guy.

Issue with Luka, he’s going to the US for band shit and Mari is like well at least we tried she doesn’t wanna leave and is like we didn’t even date I met you like three times Yeet. (KEEP IT PG MAE DONT DO IT)

Mari obviously a lil heartbroken but not much compared to that drunk night TM

She gets over it with the help of her new best guy friend Adrien being there for her and cheering her up

Like he thought she was in-love with Luka

She wasn’t

She finally is like shit I love this

I love this Adrien

The true Adrien and is like holy shit I actually love him

This isn’t superficial or fake it’s true

She’s shit scared to tell because who wouldn’t be

Adrien is like she needs more time

So time passes a lil bit year 1 of uni about to start and Adrien is trying to spend as much time with the 4.

Story carries on but it’s the awkward they both like each other and it’s so obvious to everyone but themselves but they don’t think the other likes them back. So ANGST TM

They decide to go on holiday the 4 of them before uni starts.

They go to Italy bc why not just chill around Rome for a bit.

Adrien is like fuck this I gotta tell her I’ve waited long enough

Really big angsty reveal, Mari tells him about the night TM and Adrien tells her about his.

They cry bc Adrien is a cry baby confirmed because ofc he is he’s starved from any love because of mr cane up his ass Gabriel Agreste

Alya sees them next morning together (like they cried themselves to sleep (mood) together idk relationships n shit) because she went in early to get Mari for brekkie and is like holy shit my otp

Mari is like fuck it yeah I’m with my dream dude share it I’m not ashamed.

All is happy then they realise they gotta go back to Paris and the whole akuma shit.

LB makes a ref a while later on that chat links to Mari and is like head fuck wtf

Mari makes a few links with chat and banana boye, they both probs did since they had been dating for a while also both of them are actually smart they’re just idiots

Adrien figures it out first and is like fuck yeah I beat you. And is like I saw this coming ngl it’s so obvious now

Samezies with Mari and it’s all gd in the hood

So if anyone knows of a fic like this orrrr is like 30040403x more talented than me and can turn this garbled shit into an actual fic be my guest just tell me bc I would read the shit outta that

[rorypcarson]

it’s hope??? again??? yes u read that right here’s my son rory love us this blog is so new so nothing will be in the tags i hate everything lmao anyway like this or message me to plot ily bye

triggers: car crash, drunk driving, stroke, abortion, death, depression ( mention )

╰☆╮ DACRE MONTGOMERY ─ RORY PEARSON identifies as CISMALE and uses HE/HIM pronouns. they’re a YOUTUBER/MUSICIAN, and they’re only TWENTY-TWO ! they’re said to be +CANDID, but also -DESPONDENT. i guess that’s why they’re known as THE ACCIDENTAL BILLIONAIRE in the tabloids. ( kendall schmidt, logan henderson )

did i use two btr bois as his vc??? u bet ur ass i did & i have no regrets ok anyway on to my son 

background: 

rory pearson was born and raised in fairhope, alabama.  his parents were teenagers when they had him and lived with his grandma scarlett.  his mom jean marie was ousted by her parents when she told them she was pregnant and his dad’s mom took her in with open arms.  

of course his grandma wasn’t going to let them live in the same room in her house without being married, especially with her grandbaby on the way.  so after talking with them, and his parents agreeing, they went to the courthouse and got married three months before rory came into the world.  

rory was born on april 20th, 1996 and he was without a name for six days.  his parents couldn’t decide so they named him rory wyatt vincent pearson.  he was always told that since his parents couldn’t decide on naming him after jean marie’s grandfather or greyson’s father, they picked a third name and gave him both of their names for middle names.  

when rory was two and a half years old ( not really half, it was june ?? ) his parents graduated high school and went out for a party.  unfortunately their designated driver wasn’t so sober and the group of four recent graduates crashed into another car.  

his father was in the passenger’s seat and died on impact, his mother was pronounced dead in the ambulance on the way to the hospital.  

scarlett legally adopted rory after that and raised him.  she always told him stories of his parents, but avoided telling him anything about what happened to them for as long as she could.  

he was ten years old when he saw the memorial and recognized his parents from their yearbook photos and came home asking about it.  

honestly this is jumping ahead a bit but rory didn’t learn to drive until he was twenty years old.  and even now, esp now, since he lives in nyc he doesn’t drive often. 

okay when he was seventeen years old he met bethany in an airport.  he was on his way to a college interview on a connecting flight that got cancelled due to weather conditions.  they were both sitting in the same terminal so they got to talking and !!! hit it off

bro legit asked her out 5 seconds after their flights were announced to be back on

“hi yeah we just met but we’ve got two hours before your flight leaves so wanna go grab some food with me???” 

and the rest was legit history

he can remember every moment of their conversation and first date like it was yesterday. oh my god he was SO IN LOVE 

the human embodiment of the hearteyes emoji

and so the pair stayed in touch and went on a couple more dates and the boy was so gd smitten that grandma scarlett took his phone during one of their phone calls and was like “darlin if you don’t fly down here to meet me i’m going to think my grandbaby is just talking to a complete stranger on here.” 

and then bethany flew down and met scarlett and she was so excited because !!!! her grandson had a girlfriend !!!! 

grandma scarlett was the biggest supporter of anything rory did in life oh my GOD 

at his graduation it was just grandma scarlett in the crowd for him but boy did it sound like the whole crowd was cheering for him when his name was called 

anyway flash forward to he’s in college and he’s moved away to be closer to bethany.  which should not have affected his life but when he was looking at colleges fr fr after acceptances the boy chose one closer to his girl

we love a softie ok 

anyway on bethany’s 19th birthday he took her to an airport and was surprising her with a trip to disney that he’s been saving up for for MONTHS !!!! 

and at the airport he was like all jittery and nervous bc in his pocket he had an engagement ring but he did his bEST to hide it all from beth bc surprises 

not that he planned the whole thing ( he did ) but it just so happened they were in the same restaurant waiting for their flight as their first date way back when

and in the middle of dessert, the waiters singing happy birthday this boy attempts to be sly and gets down on one knee.  but didnt realize there would be someone coming up behind him to keep up the singing and he ..... kinda caused a mini avalanche of people

and he apologized and is like still on one knee and now he’s looking at bethany with a BRIGHT RED face and he had had this whole speech worked out in his mind ok but all that comes out is, “i love you, please marry me?” in like an awkward stutter because he just TOOK OUT AN ENTIRE WAITSTAFF 

somehow bethany said yes ??? and they’re engaged ??? 

oh and someone got the whole thing on camera and like that happened 

the video skyrocketed to the most viewed video entitled “i witnessed an awkward proposal???? and she still said yes?????” 

which is also lowkey how he started his youtube channel ?? 

“hi yes it’s me the guy who proposed to an olympic athlete while taking out a whole waitstaff?? i dont know why she said yes either but i love her??”

and for a long time it was mainly vlogs of him and beth and him and his friends 

okay so fast forward and rory’s graduated college with a degree in history education bc he wants to be a teacher and he’s got to fly back to alabama and miss his graduation because he got a phone call and grandma scarlett had a stroke

so the boy is freaking out but it’s fine !!! grandma goes home and he winds up staying down and now he’s trying to figure out how to be with beth, find a job in ny, but also take care of his grandma 

for a while he toys with the idea of moving grandma up to new york and helping her find a place.  so he goes back to new york to talk to beth about it and he’s freaking out and he gets home and she tells him she’s pregnant

of course he never expected to be like 20 and having a baby but ??? whatever.  now he’s freaking out because his grandma is not doing good and he’s worried about her and now he’s got to figure out what to do with a BABY ???

and bethany then tells him she wants to get an abortion and rory’s already stressed and so he flips bc of emotions and they get into a huge fight and it just winds up with him leaving and heading back to alabama and bethany in their apartment  

so rory goes home to alabama and he keeps getting notifications on social media about bethany so he just shuts his phone off and i’m talking like he goes days without touching his cell phone.  he takes a hiatus from youtube because he’s freaking out and 

two months after he’s home he seemed like scarlett was doing better so he took her to a party in town to see some of her friends and at the party scarlett had another stroke.  

she died six days later, never waking up from the medically induced coma they put her in.  

flash forward a couple more weeks after he’s working with lawyers for his grandma’s estate and rest assured scarlett pearson had nothing but her house, her garden, and her beat up corvette that her deceased husband wyatt bought her for their anniversary one year

so its a shocker to find out that scarlett pearson was worth 43.7 billion dollars 

and now that money all goes to rory because he’s her only living heir ???

so rory gets this BOATLOAD of money and the local newspaper picks it up which brings it to the national news and somehow it made international news

“local alabama boy from youtuber to billionaire overnight” 

so he kept his grandma’s house in alabama because ..... he can’t seem to let that go and why should he ?? its a good house and holds a lot of memories

but he does in fact buy a brownstone in manhattan its HUGE and he doesn’t have enough things to fill the whole space up but ??? he’s working on it slowly. 

he created a makeshift recording studio in one of the upstairs rooms and has been working on music, which is new to him ?? he was always a bit artistic but never sure enough to like try it out

oh and he’s returned to youtube, he’s got a decent following i guess 

i mean lbr he’s hot ???? and sings ??? so ??? ya know 

personality: 

okay so this is long already so im gonna keep this short n sweet

rory is a sweet boy, never really an athletic type always more focused on his studies than sports.  

spent a lot of time with his grandma and he’s very easily attached to people he’s close to.  not exactly clingy, but it’s really hard for him to let people go i guess ??? 

used to love shows like survivor and big brother and amazing race. always toyed with the idea of applying to be on amazing race but he never had anyone who would go with him, or could for that long.  

he’s a real kind hearted guy and clumsy as fuck

a bit awkward when you first meet him but ??? you warm up quickly and so does he

clumsy af as noted earlier 

kind of depressed ??? idk he’s not seeing anyone for it but post losing beth, his grandma, and like the possibility of a family in the future he’s kinda ..... morbid 

puts on a happy front for youtube

oh and he does a podcast talking about stuff with his friends idk what exactly but ?? its prob music and movies lbr

connections: 

best friend(s)--self explanatory; people who he gets along with and they’re like his ride or dies.  

nerd friends--give him someone to geek out with please he’s SUCH A NERD !!!! or someone who likes learning random things he’s got u 

musical friends--people who he met through starting to delve into music 

youtube community--give me people who !!! met through youtube and often do colabs together.  probably ppl who were shooketh when he came back and was like “bro i have 40 billion dollars????”

wealthy friend(s)--give me someone who will teach this boy how to be wealthy ??? like cause he knows nothing about that he struggled a lot growing up and with college and several part time jobs he doesnt know how to like party or anything 

idk anything else