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I gotta know ur thoughts on what sorta fights Dinobot and Terrorsaur would get into. I just know they wouldn't be able to stand each other and idk how Dinobot lasted more than a second with any of the Predacons without snapping his crank, but particularly goddamn Terrorsaur.
Thank you my savior *sobs
Oh I feel like Dinobot on multiple occasion, for the short time he knew/interacted with him, had almost let the demons win and choke Terrorsaur out.
And the same can probably be said for Terrorsaur tbh, Dinobots honor annoyed the shit out of him on top of a multitude of other things.
They would definitely get into general fights about fighting ability an so on. Obviously, itâs Dinobot, he spars, and Terrorsaur has a short temper and urge to prove heâs better in some way Iâd assume
But also I feel like Terrorsaur just starts fights for no reason all the time, and over the stupidest things too. Heâs bored and stuck on some random planet with nothing to do, like..this is NOT what he thought this would be, so might as well get his frustration out and argue. And it shows, they make no sense a lot of the time
Like yeah before it sometimes may have been a genuine fight with Dinobot over Terrorsaurs Insubordination and just general annoyingness, which may still get brought up when they fight against each other of the âfield of battleâ (I saw were you were aiming that one time dinobot)
But then the next moment Terrorsaur starts something so incredibly stupid like why did their ship have to look like that, or why isnât he second in command huh!? He would be faar better than Dinobot at it (then eventually Scorponok), my mind is not letting me think of anything- so on
Then ofc thereâs the occasional shitting on Megatron later on which would quickly turn into him rambling on about how heâd lead far better than him (he would fall for the Maximals saying âhey hereâs a gift, truceâ and then the gift is just blasting a second later, trojan horse style)
Really though, the worst thing to Dinobot is the fact that Terrorsaur just wont shut up.
That was probably something Dinobot nearly shed a tear about when he joined the Maximals, the quiet. Yeah the Maximals talk, they argue, and Rattrap is one hell of a yapper, but even he has NOTHING on Terrorsaurâs innate ability to not shut up
#ask#is this accurate? probably not#for some reason i know everything about my favs until someone asks me about them#we will just say this is how they are in my au yeahhh..yes..uh huh#nervously smiles#beast wars#that last part is saying a lot btw#id imagine they didnt know each other for that long#like they basically met on cybertron close to when they were about to steal the golden disc#terrorsaur is just that bad#did i go off track and not really answer well? probably#adding more#Dinobot i feel hates him so much to the point where his presence alone is enough to piss him off#similar to that of rattrap#rattrap is the closest maximal to being anything like Terrorsaur but ofc Terrorsaur is worse#terrorsaur could be standing in the other room and dinobot would sense that shit and be pissed off
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99% just my autism speaking here but something ive been noticing lately that im sorta kinda đ¶ about is when ppl are like "I think you'll like this" but not bc they ACTUALLY think you'll like it, rather they just got into it and want you to also get into it so "I think you'll like this" is a nice personal hook. i love chill stuff as much as any other person ofc but given i don't divulge that EVER, what makes you think my berserk reading, made in abyss watching, drakengard playing ass would like YURU CAMP????
#gu6chan's musings#am i just taking the phrase too literally???? like i appreciate the thought but also.... what agitates me is the fact theres not any#when i say something among the lines of 'i think YOU'LL like this' or 'This made me think of you' like#its bc i think of THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR or think THAT PERSON IN PARTICULAR would like it#again it's probably just autism brain taking figures of speech too literally but i HATE it bc it just makes me feel like#all the times i shared my interests meant nothinggggg typically i just ask 'neat; what makes you think ill like it?' and ppl start stumbling#and im like :(#whats rlly funny in this case is not only the fact i had only ever established my love of dark fantasy and mystery to this person#but they also flatout asked 'youre not really into modern media much are you' to which the answer was 'not much lol'#and i said the reasons i dont care for 'cute girls doing cute things' anime (re: k-on) is bc if i have the time to watch it then i at LEAST#wanna spend it watching a series that's???? not 'the point of it is to relax :)'??? i can sleep for that#anyways like 2 days later they said they said they think id REALLY like this new anime they've been watching lately and I was like 'oh?'#and it was yuru camp.... and internally i was like 'are you fucking kidding me' but on the outside i was like 'oh sweet what makes you think#id like it? id love some new media recommendations especially if they're newer shows bc ive been having SO MUCH TROUBLE trying to find#something interesting that isn't from 2008'#and they sent me a picture of the most generic anime girl ever and they're like 'it has really cute girls' and then i just wanted to kms#like.... this isn't bc you thought id like it; is it.....#wanted to die internally but i played it cool and was like 'oh no; i appreciate it thoughtfulness and all but i don't think this is for me'#also the time where someone recommended signalis to me and i was like 'oh?' and they were like 'YEAH its SO good the people who made it#were even INSPIRED off of Nier' KNOWING FULL WELL I DIDN'T LIKE IT AND THE AMOUNT MY ENTHUSIASM JUST DIED... i was like#'oh. well that will be a pass then' and they tried backpedaling like 'well it's not SUPER inspired; i didn't know you HATED nier :(' like#my past 15 posts on my twitter werent me realising that the game was absolute garbage and calling it the most regretful thing ive ever spent#money on during my attempted playthrough đ i was like 'thanks; but I'll pass' to which they then responded by promptly sending me#signalis memes i had absolutely no idea how to respond to WITHOUT making it seem like i was super annoyed so i was just kinda đ¶ and didn't#reply and they were like 'sorry :(' and i was like 'haha it's okay! i just have absolutely no idea how to respond to this joke i dont#understand at ALL'#was probably one of the more awkward interactions ive ever had but genuinely speaking i was so INTERESTED until they brought up that it was#inspired by nier i literally psychically felt all the enthusiasm leaving my body from 'damn; i might actually have to look into this' to#'oh well that's a bullet dodged' did not trust the backtracking either....
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#it's so weird trying to describe yourself when u really aren't something u used to be#like until i was probably 21 or so id say i was shy. very very shy. but now im like was that even true? was i ever shy bc im not now#maybe i was just quiet and anxious. maybe thats just what being shy is. but im still both of those things but im not shy#im sorta like a hermit. i dont really go around ppl if i can avoid it but i dont hate being around ppl. its just that im less anxious when#im alone. but if u put me around ppl i like to talk to them so im not shy. ill say whatever. i dont really give a fuck#but if u throw me in a group i go back to being a non entity. i guess thats just being an introvert with an asocial streak#thats a thing i noticed while i was at the grad weekend i attended in march. the group would gather and do things while i kinda just#wandered away from them to poke at trees and sit in the snow. i dunno i just feel better away from ppl. my brain gets a lot louder if ive#been too social. which is a shame bc its interesting to watch ppl and understand how thry work#my friend came over to day goodbye before i leave next week. which was nice. i wish we would have hung out more in person but so it goes#and i think in my head im a lot more contained thst i actually am. like if u set me a task that becomes my focus but im also sorta all over#the place. partly bc i think my brain works on like a lag. and also my mood is a little elevated rn so im sorta like *jazz hands* and#talking too fast and too much and oversharing. yesterday i was instrucing an undergrad and felt so bad bc my brain was all over the place.#could not b made linear. im tired now tho bc theres nothing more draining than being emotionally honest and talking for like 2hrs. woof. it#so hot. like fucking so hot bc the monsoons have started and humidity is up so my swamp cooler is fucked and its gotta b at least 80 degree#inside my apartment. holy christ. and the temp has been over 100 degrees for like at least 2 weeks. its so hot its kinda alarming. and im#glad my friend was also freaked out by how hot its been bc oh god its hot. and i cant focus. ive done fuck all today. but i did get rid of#couch which is so so so great. ugh. someone make the sun stop making it so hot#unrelated#its been over 100 degrees outside for like 2 weeks. not on my apartment#and when i say i wish i spent more time with my friend irl. i mean it in a distant sort of way. like thats how im supposed to feel. like i#dont kno if thats actually what i feel or i kno im supposed to b social but idk if i actually mean it
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posting your artwork publically can be so rewarding and so motivating but most of the time it just results in psychological turmoil inflicted on yourself
#like oh my god girl help#im so sad and over my confidence to do with my art being paper thin and fragile but nothing changes no matter how much i like a piece#i hate the idea that artists only draw for interaction bc i definitely do not do that id have to be stupid to with the stuff i draw#but i also hate the idea that artists shouldn't want interaction on their work? like it's a very human emotion to want your work to be seen?#i just wish people liked my stuff more truly. im aware my style is specific and to a particular taste and ik that my work isn't the like#high flawless standard of most traditional art that gets posted. like ik that and like god i wish i had that skill level but i don't!!#i like what i do tho i just wish it felt like a lot of other people did idk maybe that's vain or something. I don't know!!#i wish i did digital art but i hate working digital lol#ppl don't believe me when i say that digital art is preferred over traditional online but i rlly believe it's true#and if your traditional art does well it's at the level of digital art flawlessness#im simultaneously like im too young to be crazy good like other people online but also im too old to be on the path to getting good. yk#i blame it on a small fandom sometimes but that's unfair bc art within small fandoms still does really well#idk i think im just a flop probably but also i think im insecure. schrodinger's online artist crisis#anyways sorry ignore this im just running my mouth don't pity reblog my shit or anything i don't want that#idk what i want but it's not that lmao#i think i want to be better at art and i want people to like my art. which i have like minimal control over.#being an artist is fun until the turmoil sets in
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Damn
Health insurance gets a lot cheaper when theyre not taking my moms income into account
#$100/month compared to 400#i couldve also gotten several free ones but the copays were a lot higher also if i actually had to USE my insurance for more than regular#doctor visits the deductible and out of pocket expenses were way higher#and i dont go to the doctor as much as i probably should but i might start#this one has a $3000 deductible and only 700 out of pocket as opposed to 7000 deductible and 9000 out of pocket#which is more reasonable#i did not check if gender affirming care is covered cuz my mom was helping me and i got stuck debating if i wanted to get into that rn#the anxiety won out in the end#if my dad hadnt been sitting on the couch gaming i mightve been able to push through it#id rather just tell my mom and then SHE can tell other people#like with my autism#i mean. she tries not to do that cuz she hared when her mom shared personal information about her with other people#but mom. pls. i hate talking to people. i will avoid conversations as much as possible. even if its things i want people to know about me#please just tell them for me so i dont have to#at least when it comes to family#i can tell my friends shit#most of the time#but it helps that i have grandmas on both sides that are extroverts that tend to overshare#mom just has to tell them and itll get out there#i use my oversharing grandmas to my advantage#i just have to be strategic in what i tell them#or in most cases what i want my mom to tell them
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right after work and my shower today i will do that uldaman
#it's a +5 so hopefully itll be easy lol#ulda isnt too bad#i hate the last boss tho. and the trogg boss#they hit pretty hard#the other bosses and the trash are fairly easy#but it IS fort week so it might be a bit rough#idk ive only done a 2 on fort but id imagine a 5 isnt much differnt with the gear i have now#im excited because this might push me to ksm and then im done#i could push to do 7s but eh. think ive done enough m+ for my first season pushing to ksm#i think i did pretty well. theres definitely room for improvement tho#like keybinds... i really need to start using my keybinds instead of clicking certain buttons#ramblings#i will play more remix once i get ksm#i just want the toys/mounts/other stuff and then im done with that#dont have time to worry about doing the mythic raid#titles are titles to me. i never use them#would still be nice to get it but eh people expect you to play like a pro so probably wont ever get into a grp lol
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hii love! i just read your clingy so u distance yourself fic for the bazillion time and i cried again no surpriseđ„č I just wanted to say i love your works so much and would live to request for an angst oneshot with brother bsf chan? basically reader has been pining for chan for a few years but she never got the courage to tell chan cause she thinks she isnât good enough for chan. Then afterwards basically chan got a girlfriend who hated her and basically influenced chan to stop hanging out with her which he listened to and told the reader which the reader told him that his girlfriend wasnât loyal but he thought she was sabotaging his relationship and so they ended off on bad terms but turns out a few weeks later he caught his girlfriend cheating and went back to the reader? sorry if it is kinda long but i rlly need a oneshot like this to read when i just need some angst i really live and admire your works so id be elated if you did my request. thank you and lots of loveâ€ïž
my first piece since I went on a mini little baby hiatus. and i had a lot of joy writing this. so i hope you enjoy <3!!!
Brothers Bsf Chan x Fem!Reader (angst/fluff)
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You didnât know when it started. Was it a simple touch? A brush of a hand or an accidental graze of fingers? Or was it one of those lazy Friday nights where Chan would crack jokes to you and his best friend- your older brother Jisung- while you three were watching movies in the house you grew up in. Or did it stem back all the way to those days where you would chase after Chan and Jisung on the playground, down your neighborhood streets- crying out for them to wait for you. Those cries stopped when Chan would reach his hand out to bring you along.
Maybe it was a combination of all of those things, those things you had tried so hard to forget because it could only lead to heartbreak. Falling in love with your brotherâs best friend was no easy feat for anyone. Let alone when you were falling for someone like Chan, who was so hard to fall out of love with. Maybe even more so for you since he would always be in your life. Him and Jisung were nearly joined at the hip, which made it even harder to hide your pining for him. You wouldnât dare love out loud, but it was starting to whisper through the cracks of your resolve.
You were unconditionally in love with everything about Chan.Â
That's how it was for years, and how you intended it to be for as long as allowed. You spent countless nights staring at your ceiling, wondering if he could ever see you the way that you saw him. You were sure things were only platonic between the two of you, but you couldnât help but linger on the memories of certain looks, certain gestures that you couldnât delude yourself into believing happened between friends.Â
Things started to change when Chan began dating someone new.Â
Duri. Her name was Duri, and the first time you met her, you knew she was the type to turn heads. She had a smile that could light up a room and a confidence you could only dream of. Standing next to her, you felt small, like a background character in Chanâs life story. A girl who captured Chanâs attention so easily. A girl who wrapped him up in her life so easily that you knew you were to be forgotten. He was smitten and her words flowed like the river of the smoothest molasses. She could easily convince Chan, he didnât need you. Because she didnât like you.
You werenât sure why, but it was obvious. And because she didnât like you, her feelings towards Jisung werenât all that different, it seemed. And slowly you felt like Chan was making his way out of your life.
âJi, why isnât Chris here?â You loved the way his name sounded when you said it. Not many people around you called him Chris, so it felt special to call him that. He seemed to enjoy it as well, not ever asking you to conform to societal norms.
âHeâs probably just busy, Y/N-ieâŠIâm sure heâll come back around.â Jisung said one day as you guys sat on the couch, scrolling through movies. It was the first Friday movie Chan had missed. And even if it was the first time he had missed it, you knew it would be a regular occurrence.
In all honesty, at first, you tried to like Duri. She was with Chan, after all, and you thought that maybe you could be friends. That maybe if you could convince yourself to like her then the pain of not being the one that Chan loved would ease.. But the more you saw her, the more you felt her sharp, indirect glances, the way she dismissed you with a smile that didnât quite reach her eyes. She made you feel invisible, as if you were only tolerated because you were Jisungâs sister. Even if she just barely tolerated the latter.
Over time, you saw the changes in Chan too. He became distant, no longer the easygoing guy whoâd spend hours with you and your brother. He was still polite, still kind, but he was pulling away, bit by bit. You told yourself it was just a phase, that heâd come around once things settled down with Duri.
But then, one night, things came to a head.
You, Jisung, and Chan had made plans to meet at your favorite cafĂ©âjust a casual hangout, like old times. But when Chan showed up with his girlfriend by his side, something was off. His smile was forced, his laughs hollow. He barely met your eyes, and when you spoke, and even then it was like he wasnât really listening. To the point that Jisung even pointed it out. Every time you spoke, Duri happened to speak at the same time. Every time a question was directed at you, Duri somehow changed the conversation. You felt small and insignificant and made your way home early. You couldnât stand to sit there and see the man you were so down bad for with his significant other. Duri had sat close to him, her hand always somewhere on his arm or shoulder, marking her territory in the subtlest way, in a way that caused an anger that wasnât so subtle.Â
But even then after leaving you couldnât shake the ache in your chest. You sat down on a bench outside of a convenience store by your home, trying to sort out your feelings.Â
You okay? Iâll be heading home soon. We went out to drink.Â
You quickly type out a reply to Jisung, your fingers shaking as you realized just how cold it was. Just as you were about to get up to leave a pale hand reached out to you with a warm drink.Â
You looked up to see a guy with dark and prominent eyebrows, and a little birthmark on his nose.Â
âYou seemed cold. ItsâŠâ He looked at the can. âMocha flavored.â He handed it back out to you and smiled softly.Â
âThank you.â You said with a small bow of your head, and you couldnât help but smile at the thoughtful gesture.Â
âYou live in the neighborhood right? Your brotherâŠlooks like a squirrel?â The manâs voice was soft and shy, like he thought he was talking too much.
âOh! Youâre our new neighbor? Iâm Han Y/N.â You said with a flourished bow.
âPark Sunghoon. Nice to meet youâŠâ He shuffled awkwardly. âWould you like me to wait before I walk homeâŠI don't want to make you uncomfortable.â
âNo! No! Itâs fine, I'm not uncomfortable. You can walk home with me.â You say quietly. âMaybe itâll be nice to not feel lonely.â
As you made your way back home with Sunghoon you had a weird feeling in your chest. You thought maybe you were just trying to sort your feelings, but it was more of an intuitive sense.Â
Then you got a text from your brother.
Iâm coming home. Duri tried to make a move on me and Iâm not trying to get into it with Chan while she is here.
You blinked at the text, nodding when your voice registered Sunghoon asking if you were okay.
That was that odd feelingâŠ
You didnât know if it was selfish to feel happy that Duri was a tool, but you did. You didnât want Chan to get hurt so you decided to go talk to him. Giving a message on behalf of Jisung, who thought maybe Chan would listen better if it was coming from a girl
âHey, can I talk to you?â you asked, your voice soft but determined, as you walked up to him outside of his job a few days later.
âYeah, of course,â he replied, looking a bit surprised. He followed you to a quieter part of the park, away from prying eyes. âIs everything okay? Jisung hasnât texted me in a couple of daysâŠ"
You took a breath, feeling the words tangle on the tip of your tongue. âChrisâŠI justâŠI feel like youâre not around as much anymore. I get that youâre with Duri, butâŠitâs like youâre pulling away from me and Jisung. My brother is too scared to say anything, but he feels just as bad, if not worse than I do.â
He frowned, looking down at the ground. âIâm sorry if it feels that way,â he said finally, but not much emotion in his voice. âButâŠI need to be there for Duri. Sheâs⊠she doesnât feel comfortable with me hanging out so much with, you knowâŠâ He trailed off, not meeting your eyes.
Your heart sank, a cold dread washing over you. âWith me, you mean?â
He hesitated, but the silence was all the confirmation you needed. âSheâŠdoesnât get why Iâm so close with you. And I donât want her to feel insecure, so IâŠI think itâs best if we⊠keep some distance. Just for now.â
You stared at him, feeling a surge of hurt and anger. âChris, sheâs manipulating you!â you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them. âSheâs making you feel guilty for caring about people who were here long before she was. Because she knows those people will pinpoint, that sheâs a manipulative cheater!â
He looked at you, a flash of anger in his eyes at the words. âYou donât know her like I do,â he snapped.
You flinched at the venom in his voice. He had never snapped at you and you could feel tears spring to your eyes.
âShe tried to make a move on JiâŠâ You said quietly. âAnd donât try and say my brother is a liar, Chris, because you know heâs not.â
Chan gave a sarcastic chuckle. âShe already told me that Y/N. She was drunk. It was nothing more than that.â
âDrunk actions are sober thought Chris!â You shot back.
âOh, so the first time you ever got drunk and confessed your feelings for me was a sober thought?â
You felt your body freeze and you blinked at Chan with wide eyes. You blacked out the first time you had ever drank and didnât touch anything since. You never knew you had admitted to liking Chan.
âSo itâs true then? You actually love me?â Chan let out a large sigh. âFrankly, itâs not fair for you to accuse her of things that arenât true just because you put me on a pedestal. Your feelings for me arenât my responsibility Y/N. ThisâŠthis just feels like youâre trying to come between us because of some childish jealousy. Sheâs my girlfriend, and I trust her more than I trust someone who hasnât been honest to me for years.â
You felt like youâd been slapped. The words cut deeper than anything youâd expected, leaving you struggling for air. âThatâs notâŠthatâs not what Iâm doing, Chan. I justâŠI donât want to see you get hurt.â You tried to say back. âMy feelings have nothing to do with this Iâm coming to you as a friend-â
âFriends donât feel that way about each other Y/N! Once you cross that line friendship canât be used as a label. Do you ever think that Duri might be acting this way because you absolutely suck at hiding your feelings?!â His voice was sharper than ever and you could feel a sad squeeze in your heart. âSo deal with the fact that Iâm going to put my girlfriend first- regardless of what I feel for you.â There was the slightest hesitation and falter in his face at his last words, but you were too upset to decipher what exactly that meant. â Iâm done with this conversation. Iâll see you later, Y/N.â He said in a soft yet defeated voice, leaving you standing there, heartbroken and speechless.
The next few weeks were met with silence. Jisung asked what had happened, but you couldnât bring yourself to tell him. You kept your pain buried, letting it fester in the corners of your mind. Chan had felt terrible for yelling at you, and had come over to apologize with extra snacks for your guys Friday night movie, but to his surprise, it was only Jisung who was there.Â
âWhere is Y/N?â Chan asked, setting down your favorite candy and chips on the reclining chair you always claimed. He looked around the corner to see if you were in your room. Your door was open and he walked in, looking at the little polaroids littered across your room on various walls and flat surfaces. He looked at your books and plushies with a soft smile.Â
âSheâs working overtime tonight. Do you want to watch a Marvel or DC movie?â Jisung called from the living room. Chanâs brow furrowed. He knew the company you worked for closed early on Fridays, all employees getting off early. Something he had realized after observing you for so long.Â
âMarvelâŠâ Chan called out, closing the door behind himself.
As suspected you werenât working overtime.Â
Rather as time passed, you found comfort in unexpected places. One of those places was the attractive man that one night, your neighbor Sunghoon. Who, much to your surprise, shared your interests and understood your silence without question. He became your confidant, your quiet escape from the heartache Chan had left behind.
âHeâs probably over at my house right now with Jisung.â You had mumbled as you cuddled up on his side. Also, much to your surprise, Sunghoon was a great cuddle buddy. What was even better is that he wanted nothing in return, nor were there any ill intentions letting you grow close to him in an emotional and physical way. He had confided in you that a deeper intimacy was something he couldnât ever see himself liking, which was why he was set on settling down alone, and that he wasnât much of a physical person to begin with, but with you he found himself not minding the soft physicality much at all.Â
âLike weâre twin flames right.â You had joked, that day, holding out your pinky. He had nodded, locking pinkies with yours.Â
âYouâre right, but I am more than sure he wonât think to come over her-â
The doorbell rang and you sprung up from your position on the couch as Sunghoon made his way to the door.Â
âWell speak of the devilâŠâ He mumbled.Â
Chan stood at the doorway of Jisungâs new neighbor, delivery food in his hand. He looked at the bag and considered the weight of the bag.
Maybe a couple having date night?
âHello?â A tall and undeniably attractive man stood at the door.Â
DamnâŠwow uh-
âOh, hey! I think your delivery was sent to my friendâs house. I just wanted to make sure you knew it was here...â The man looked at Chan with a blank look.Â
Are kids these days given supplements or somethingâŠwhy is he so majestic lookingâŠ
âOh, thank you.â He said , bowing and grabbing the food.
Before the door was shut, Chan couldâve sworn he noticed a pair of familiar shoes, but disregarded it, making his way back to Jisungâs.
As more time passed, you found yourself missing Chan rather than getting over him.Â
âIs it strange, Sungie?â you asked while you were building a puzzle with him one evening- another Friday. âThat Iâm absolutely pissed, and heartbroken, but I want nothing more than to see him? And I canât think of anything other than I miss him?â
Sunghoon thought for a moment and then spoke softly. âNo, itâs not strange at all. Rather, itâd be strange if you didnât. Sometimes, love clings to us hardest when weâre hurting the most. It's like every part of you is aching for the one person who can make it betterâeven if theyâre the one who hurt you. Missing him doesnât make you weak; it just means heâs still a part of your heart. Sometimes, loving someone means feeling everything all at onceâthe anger, the heartbreak, and that unstoppable longing. Itâs okay to feel it all."
You were at your house, and Sunghoon was over since he had become a regular visitor, after Jisung befriended him and then finally pieced together where you were going every Friday and other odd days of the week when you first heard the news. At first he had assumed you and Sunghoon were a thing until you both quickly shot down that notion by informing Jisung that relationships and love were not Sunghoonâs cup of tea.
But since he now knew that wasnât the case, and had long since known the truth since your first and last drunk outing he thought you might want to know.
âThey broke up. Strange enough, Chan didnât seem all that upsetâI mean, he did seem upset, but you think youâd be more upset when you break up, you know?â Jisung rambled, barely pausing for breath. âInstead, he was, like, really calm, which made no sense to me. I feel like Iâd be freaking out, or, like, super sad, or anxious, or angry. How can you just be indifferent to a breakup with someone you thought was going to be the love of your life? Itâs like those characters in animeââ
You tuned out Jisungâs voice, the news sinking in like stones in your stomach as you laid your head against Sunghoonâs side as he read the ingredients on an air freshener bottle while he waited for Jisung to finish warming up food.Â
Chan and Duri had broken up. Your heart was a tangled mess of relief and pain, of memories you hadnât let yourself fully process. After all those months, he was freeâbut what did it mean now? What did any of it mean when heâd already chosen her once?
As Jisung continued his rapid-fire monologue, you watched to the two people who had been a distraction these past few weeks: him and Sunghoon. Sunghoon, in a more practical way since he knew the depths of your doubts and worries, and easily fit into the spot of your platonic soulmate and best friend. It seemed he was more versed on the Chan-sized hole in your heart than even you were, and you were glad you now had him to walk these roads with you.
Eventually Jisung came back to the living room with dinner, and you were soon enough immersed into the activities of the evening.Â
You were unaware what was about to go down when the knock at the door came, Jisung springing up to answer it, his laughter echoing down the hall as he let someone in. The air around you shifted, growing thicker, familiar, and before you even turned around, you knew who was standing there.Â
You had known him long enough to sense when the man you loved was in the room. His presence filled it quickly enough, his gaze sweeping over the space, lingering a little too long on you and Sunghoon, who seemed to be molded together perfectly, Sunghoonâs arm lazily resting on your leg.
Jisung shot you an awkward glance before mumbling something about getting snacks from the store. He and Sunghoon exchanged a glance, and, with a silent nod Sunghoon got up, and they left, closing the door behind them. You were left alone with Chan in the thick silence that followed, the quiet pressing down around you.
Chanâs expression was tense, guarded, and yet, behind his eyes, you saw a trace of vulnerability. He took a hesitant step toward you, his voice soft. âY/NâŠâ
You met his gaze, pain simmering just beneath the surface. âWhat are you doing here?â
He took a deep breath, guilt etched into the lines of his face. âIâm sorry,â he murmured, his voice cracking slightly. âI should have listened to you. I didnât⊠I couldnât see it. I was so focused on Duri that I didnât see what was right in front of me. She wasnât loyal. I caught her cheating, and I realized just how wrong I was and how right you and Jisung were.â
His words landed between you, each one a mix of relief and ache that clawed at your heart. But you couldnât ignore the questions tumbling through your mindâthe doubts that held you back from even entertaining the hope youâd once felt. You folded your arms, steadying yourself as you looked away.
âChan, I donât even know what to say to you. Itâs not just about her or your breakup,â you said, voice low.
The older boy flinched at your words.Â
âChanâŠâ He mumbled. You had rarely ever spoken his name aloud like that before. So rarely he couldnât even remember the last time you did, and he didnât even recognize your voice when you said it. âI messed up horriblyâŠdidnât I?â
 âYou didnât just choose her.â You started. âYou looked me in the eyes and didnât believe me. You accused me of saying things because of personal feelings. Then went on to accuse me of lying to you because I never confessed my feelings- even though apparently I did and you just omitted the truth of what I said when I blacked out as if that's not also a form of dishonesty. You thought I was trying to ruin your happiness, like Iâd sabotage your relationship out of jealousy. Are you serious, Chan?â
He winced again, his hand reaching toward you as if he wanted to touch you but was too afraid. âI know, Y/N, and I hate that I did that to you. I was wrong. I know I donât deserve your forgiveness, but I just⊠I needed you to know that I truly am am sorry. I didnât think I had hurt you that badly and it was foolish.â
The hurt that had sat quietly in your heart surged to the surface, and before you could stop yourself, you murmured, âSo what? Youâre here now because you need a rebound? You want someone to feel close to because sheâs gone?â
Chanâs face fell, confusion and hurt flickering across his features. âWhat? No, Y/N, itâs not like that at all. Youâre not some replacement or⊠or backup. Youâve never been that to me, ever.â
âThen what am I, Chan?â You shook your head, frustration and sorrow mingling together. âBecause if I was the first one you come to- not even your best friend-â You said referring to your brother. âThan there has to be reason behind that. Let me guess, you feel something for me?âÂ
Chan swallowed and you knew his answer when you saw the look in his brown eyes. You let out and exasperated sigh and tried to hold back your tears, but couldnât so you looked at the ground instead.
âIf you really felt this wayâif you really cared about me or dare I even say loved meâŠthen why did you pick her? Why now, after youâve been with her all this time? Am I supposed to believe that just because sheâs out of the picture, youâve suddenly realized what you want?â Your voice was sad and defeated and you let your tears fall. âIf so that's really really mean.â You whined sadly.
His eyes widened, and he shook his head emphatically. âNo, itâs not because of that. Y/N, I was so stupid. Iâve spent these past few weeks⊠I didnât even realize how much I missed you until I lost you. I canât just go back to how things were, but I know I want you in my life. I donât want to lose you.â
He paused until you looked up at him, his heart shattering even more at the glossiness behind your sad eyes. âItâs not that Y/N-ie not at all. Sometimes you really just donât know what youâve had until you lost it.
But something about his gaze shifted as he glanced back toward the door where Jisung and Sunghoon had left. His mouth pressed into a thin line, his brows drawn together in a dark, unreadable expression. âGuess Iâve already been replaced though, huh?â He said quietly.
You felt your stomach twist at his words, your tears drying almost immediately with the thought of where this was heading. âReplaced? What are you even talking about?â
âYour neighbor,â he said bitterly, albeit soft; the label sharp on his tongue. âYou and him. I came here to tell you how much Iâve messed things up, only to see you with him. I guess it didnât take long for you to move on.â
The accusation in his voice stung, leaving you feeling exposed. You bit back the urge to yell, to let out the anger that had simmered for so long. You knew it brought some validity to his earlier statement, him being jealous of Sunghoon, but God did you sometimes want to smack sense into him.
 âYou donât get to come in here and make assumptions about me, Chan. Sunghoon is my friend. Heâs been here because you werenât. Because you pushed me away. I didnât have a choice.â
âBut you looked happy cuddled with him,â he said, a hint of defensiveness in his tone. âIt didnât seem like you missed me at all.â
You swallowed hard, feeling the tightness in your chest intensify. âOf course, I missed you. But you donât get to accuse me of moving on. I waited. I wanted⊠I thought maybe one day youâd see me. But you chose her. You chose someone who didnât even care about you, and I was the one left behind. So of course I needed comfort.â
He took a shaky breath, eyes softening as he stepped closer. âI chose wrong. I see that now, Y/N. I know I hurt you, and I donât expect you to just forget that. But I canât pretend now that I donât feel something for you.â
You stared at him, searching his face for any hint of sincerity, but doubt gnawed at you. âWe just went over this. How am I supposed to know itâs real? How am I supposed to believe that you actually want me, and not just because itâs convenient? If you loved me before than why not say something.â
âWhy didnât you say something!â
âBecause unlike you I donât go around dating people while I have a crush on someone Chan! If it was âoh so obviousâ than you should have said something. Or I donât know, maybe when I blacked out and confessed you could have done something then-â
âI was petrified!â Chan shouted, causing you to take a step back. âHowâŠhow am I supposed to respond when my best friendâs little sister tells me sheâs been in love with me since we were kids. And thatâs its only growing?â He swallowed. âAm I supposed to take that risk and tell her its mutual, but that I donât want to do anything in case things get messy? Because I donât want to ruin things? Relationships are complicated Y/N! People fight and argue but romantic ones are so much heartier. Those arguments and fights hold more weight than friendships. I wasnâtâŠhappyâŠonly being your friend but I was content. Even if it meant I wouldnât get to hold you or kiss you, or see your face in my childrenâs faces I was okay with that as long as it meant there was no risk in ruining things between us. And that saved me from the risk of getting on uneasy territory with Jisung. So I left it alone. I didnât tell you. I asked Jisung to forget about it even if that meant he was upset at me for quote ârejecting my wonderful and perfect little sisterâ unquote.â
You stood there, lips trembling, not knowing what to say as he lay his heart in front of you.
He reached out, brushing a thumb over your cheek in a tender, hesitant motion. âBut now that I know what itâs like to live without you, Y/N, I canât go back to that. I canât. I donât want anyone else. I just want a chance to make this right.â
The vulnerability in his eyes was almost too much, the raw honesty in his touch searing against your skin. But your heart still trembled with uncertainty, with a fear that ran deep.
âIâm petrified now.â
A tear slipped down his cheek as he nodded, a small chuckle leaving his lips, his thumb gently wiping away a tear that had fallen from your own eyes. âIâll spend every day proving to you how much I love you, Y/N, so you wonât have a reason to be scared. I donât want to lose you, not again. I was blind, but I see it now. And if youâll let me, Iâll do whatever it takes to earn your trust back. To get you to a point where you wonât be able to deny the fact I only want you.â
You held his gaze, your heart wavering between the hope youâd never fully let go of and the fear that heâd break it all over again. And in that quiet moment, with the ache of the past between you, a fragile, cautious feeling began to bloom once more.
You took a steadying breath, bracing yourself as you met Chanâs eyes. âChan, I donât know what assumptions youâve made about Sunghoon, but heâs just my friend. Heâs been there becauseâŠâ You hesitated, the words delicate on your tongue. âBecause I needed someone. Not someone to date, or to replace you, but justâŠsomeone who understands. Heâs helped me pick up the pieces after everything fell apart. And heâs not even interested in relationships like that. Weâre just close in a different way.â
Chan blinked, his gaze softening as he listened, brows knitting in a mixture of relief and confusion. âSo⊠you and Sunghoon⊠youâre really just friends?â
âYes,â you replied, hoping he could hear the sincerity in your voice. âAnd heâs not going to change his mind about that. He doesnât want anything more with anyone. Itâs not in him. But heâs been a good friendâmy best friendâŠmy soulmate really.â Your voice trailed off quietly. âHeâs someone I could talk to when I felt like Iâd lost you.â
Chan let out a slow breath, some of the tension leaving his shoulders as he looked away, processing. âIâŠI feel so stupid. I was so ready to believe youâd moved on, that youâd replaced me. It was like this nightmare Iâd imagined every night, that youâd found someone else who actually deserved you. And when I walked in and saw you bothâŠâ
His words faltered, and he rubbed a hand over his face, frustration and regret etched deep. âBut I know I canât blame you for being close to him. You had every right to find support after what I put you through. I justâŠâ
âYou just didnât believe me,â you finished for him, the words raw but necessary. âAnd then you left, and I didnât know how to fill that space youâd left behind but Sunghoon found a way. But that doesnât mean he warrants any jealousy from you, Chris. Iâm hoping you can learn to love him like you love Jisung. For me?â
He nodded, his eyes filled with regret.A part of you softened at the earnestness in his expression, the vulnerability that showed he understood, at least on some level, of what all of this meant. You sighed, feeling the weight of everything settling over you, but also immensely light.
But Chan seemed like he was struggling for a moment.
âWhats wrong?â
He bit his lip, his gaze darting away for a second before he finally asked, âWas there ever a point whenâŠwhen you thought you could move on? That maybe youâd fall for someone else?â
The question struck deeper than youâd expected, and for a moment, you just looked at him, letting yourself process the vulnerability etched into his features. Did he truly think he could simply be replaced? That youâd spent years loving him, only to let him go?
âI thought about it,â you admitted, your voice soft but steady. âI thought maybe it would be easier if I could just let go. Even before all of this I thought about it. But no matter how much I tried, it was always you. Itâs always been you.â
You felt the familiar sting of tears, and you blinked them away, not wanting him to see just how deeply his words affected you. âFor the record, I donât want to lose you either. But if weâre going to do this, we have to be honest. No more letting other peopleâs opinions get in the way. No more letting doubts fester between us.â
He nodded, a fierce determination filling his gaze. âNo more doubts. I want us to be real, Y/N. Nothing standing in the way, just you and me.â
The weight of his words, the sincerity in his gaze, was almost overwhelming. You felt the warmth of his hand as he reached for yours, his fingers tentative, as if he wasnât sure youâd accept him.
You took his hand, squeezing it gently, grounding yourself in the quiet assurance of his touch. It wasnât the grand gesture youâd once dreamed of, but it was real. And somehow, that made it mean even more.
He looked down at your intertwined fingers, his thumb brushing softly over your knuckles. âThank you for giving me this chance, Y/N. Iâll spend every day showing you that I mean it.â
You offered him a small, tentative smile, one that held a flicker of hope. âAnd Iâll do my best to believe it. But you have to understandâthis is going to take time.â
He nodded, his own smile softening his face. âIâll wait as long as it takes.â
For a moment, you both stood there, hands entwined, caught in the delicate balance between past hurt and the fragile possibility of something new. The wounds might still be raw, but you could feel them beginning to heal, slowly, with each beat of your hearts in sync.
As you looked into his eyes, you felt something you hadnât felt in a long timeâa cautious, budding belief that maybe, just maybe, this time, things would be different.
A few weeks later, things had settled into a comfortable, tentative new rhythm. The past wasnât forgotten, but it had softened around the edges, allowing something new to bloom between you and Chanâno, Chris. Youâd started calling him that again recently, just between the two of you, and every time he heard it, his eyes lit up, as though it was his own quiet assurance that he had your forgiveness, that he wasnât just âChan,â your brotherâs best friend, but Chris, the man you were falling for all over again.
You werenât rushing anything, taking each moment as it came. There were stolen glances, shared laughter, and late-night conversations that stretched until dawn, weaving a new kind of trust between you. He was patient and gentle, letting you set the pace, and every step you took forward felt right. It was healing, a slow rekindling that felt like rediscovering a part of yourself that had been missing.
One Saturday afternoon, you and Chris were sitting on the couch, a movie playing in the background as he leaned closer, his arm resting around your shoulders. Sunghoon and Jisung had left to get snacks- Chris listening to your request and giving Sunghoon a chance, finding out that he genuinely enjoyed the company of your best friend.Â
âIts like eternal best friend double dates.â Jisung had joked.
But since your brother and best friend had left, Chan had been looking at you with that soft, adoring expression youâd only dreamed of before, and it made you feel like you were the only person in his world.
âYouâre staring,â you whispered, smiling as you felt a blush creep up your cheeks.
âCan you blame me?â he murmured back, his voice warm and low. âIâve missed so much time, I donât want to miss a single moment now.â
You felt your heart stutter, a nervous excitement bubbling up as you glanced down at his hand, your fingers lightly tracing patterns on the back of it. The space between you felt electric, and when he gently cupped your face, tilting it towards him, your breath caught. Slowly, as if asking permission, he leaned in.
Your eyes fluttered shut, and then his lips brushed softly against yours, a delicate kiss that felt like everything youâd waited for. His hand cradled your cheek, his thumb brushing gently as if he were afraid you might disappear. You kissed him back, your hand moving to rest against his chest, feeling his heartbeat under your fingertips, strong and steady.
âChris,â you whispered softly as you pulled back just enough to meet his gaze, his name slipping out naturally, comfortably. The warmth in his eyes told you heâd heard everything you couldnât put into wordsâhow he was forgiven, how he was here, truly here, and that was all youâd ever wanted.
The tender moment, though, was cut short by a loud gasp and a stumbling sound near the doorway. You whipped around to see Jisung and Sunghoon standing there, both looking wide-eyed and more than a little surprised.
âOh⊠I did not mean to see that,â Jisung said, covering his eyes dramatically, though you could see the smirk threatening to break through. âMy best friend and my little sister? Wow, I was not prepared!â
Sunghoon, by contrast, grinned openly, the kind of grin that said heâd known this would happen all along. âTook you both long enough,â he teased, making his way over towards you to whack your head affectionately. âI was starting to think Iâd have to do something drastic to get you two together.â
You laughed, face warm with embarrassment, but Chris only chuckled, unfazed even by Sunghoonâs physical touch with you, as he slid his arm around your shoulders again. âYou two need to learn how to knock,â he said lightly, squeezing you a little closer.
Sunghoon just shrugged, shooting you a mischievous look. âIâm sure Jisung didnât feel a need to consider having to knock on the door of his own home.â
Jisung laughed, giving Sunghoon a playful nudge. But then turning to Chan with a serious look. âI might still need to have âthe talkâ with you, Hyung. I know weâve known each other forever, but this is new territory.â
You rolled your eyes, pretending to scowl at your brother. âOh, please, Ji. You never said anything before.â
âItâs because you werenât actually together at the time! But now you are.â
Chris leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head, a look of peace and contentment in his eyes. âYeah, and Iâm not going anywhere this time,â he said, looking up at Jisung and Sunghoon, his tone serious yet gentle. âNot ever.â
Jisung nodded, his expression softening as he took in the scene. âGood. Just make sure youâre good to her, alright? Or else Iâll have to do the brotherly duty of fighting you or whatever older brothers are supposed to doâŠâ He mumbled, turning towards Sunghoon for backup.
âYeahâŠand Iâll do whatever a best friend doesâŠâ He said confused, shrugging as you laughed.
Chrisâs grip tightened just slightly around your shoulders. âYou donât have to worry about that,â he said, his voice low and steady. âSheâs the most important person in my life.â
Jisung scrunched up his nose, pretending to gag. âUgh, okay, I was prepared for the brother talk, but I did not sign up for the mushy romance stuff. Can you two not be gross for five seconds?â
Chris laughed, glancing down at you with a sparkle in his eyes. âFine, Iâll spare you⊠for now,â he said, giving you a playful nudge and a kiss to your nose
Sunghoon, ever the instigator, leaned back with a grin. âHey, give them a break, Jisung. Theyâve got years of this to catch up on. And honestly, Iâm enjoying the show.â
Jisung threw a pillow in Sunghoonâs direction. âWell then maybe you should go find yourself someone if you think itâs cute seeing how my best friend and sister act.â He teased, rolling his eyes but unable to hide the small smile tugging at his lips. âMaybe theyâll have a sister and then you can join our family.â
Sunghoon shuddered and shook his head. âNo thank you. But Y/Nâs kids will have an Uncle who spoils them.â He said, grabbing the bottle of Soju from the coffee table.
âHey! I get the title of favorite Uncle automatically.â Jisung whined. âNo fair.â
Sunghoon shrugged. âThe favorite Uncle has to be from the maternal side.â
âThe hypothetical-â He shot a look at you. âMom in question is my sister!â
âLogic, doesnât always logic my dear friend.â
As Sunghoon and Jisung went back and forth you laughed, settling into Chrisâs embrace, feeling the warmth of home around you. You felt his smile without even looking and it made your heart leap. This, right here, was everything youâd hoped for and more. And as the teasing and laughter filled the room, you knew that no matter what, you were exactly where you were meant to be. With who you were meant to be with.
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The Mailman
Ah yes, the mailman. The new resident in the apartment, the complete opposite of milkman, aka Francis Mosses. How does Francis feel about the new person in the apartment? Will he hate him or not? Continue reading to find out!
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(P.s English is not my first language, feel free to correct my mistakes!This is also written from Francisâ pov)
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I didnât exactly know how to feel about the new resident of the apartment, however I did know his name. M/n L/n was it? Yes, I thinks so. He was..energetic to say the least, quite the surprise considering the current situation about doppelgĂ€ngers. The other residents didnât seem to mind his personality, in fact they all seem to like him a lot..If I had to be honest I envy him.
I mean who wouldnât? Heâs nice,energetic,approachable,and pretty charming. Not to mention he seems to enjoy his job as a mailman, while Iâm stuck here being the boring milkman. Nobody really approaches me, saying I look intimidating and not much of a social guy..rude but technically yeah, I could care less about socializing and I only want to finish my job for the day so that I could go home, I never really had much of an interest for romance or socializing with other people. But he seems to be the complete opposite, whenever we was by each other he would always flash me a smile and greet me. I never really say hi back but he doesnât seem to mind that at all. And whenever he delivers a message or package he would always make small talks with the person, whether it be how their day was or how the weather looks nice. Sometimes I wonder how someone can be so sociable with others.
One time he started talking to me ranting something about space and how he likes stars, he wouldnât stop ranting. And so I told him to stop talking and left..the next day I was doing my usual job as a milkman, delivering milk to people who ordered when I saw him going house to house delivering a mail or a package. And when we went pass each other, I expected him to ignore me considering I rudely left him on the street yesterday. But he greeted me morning as usual..heâs such a strange and unpredictable man.
Few weeks later..
âHm..â I hummed as I press the doorbell of the house, I put the bottle of milk down and continued walking to the next house. I could already hear the person talk about how much of a loner I am, just like the other houses..ugh I just want this deliveries to get done fast so I can go home and lay down on my bed..Ah there he is again with his upbeat personality, as usual. How can someone talk so much, if I ever tried that I would be tired before I can even manage to say a paragraph. What if I try to greet him back this time, would be nice if I change my pace a bit, right?
âMorning Mr. Mosses, nice to see you again once more!â He greeted, tipping his hat down as he flash me a smile.
âMorning to you too, L/n.â I greeted walking past him, I could tell he stopped walking for a few seconds because I didnât hear his footsteps, I walked pass him so many times to the point I could distinguish his footsteps from others..would that be weird for others? I looked back to see that he wasnât walking anymore, rather skipping like a happy person..cute..
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Ugh finally, this day is finally over. I could go back home and rest..once the metal door opened I went inside and gave the doorman my ID and blah blah blah, the usual routine. After checking that I was the actual person, they finally opened the door to let me in the apartment. I walked up the stairs to the third floor which was tiring to say the least, and went to get my keys in my pocket. Once I got it I led the key to the knob but noticed something, the door that led to M/nâs room wasnât lit up as usual. Usually he opens the lights after heâs back from his job, perhaps heâs later than usual? I sighed, itâs probably nothing Iâm probably-
âOh Mr. Mosses!â He greeted, I turned my head to see him standing beside me except..he doesnât have his hat on, is this the first time Iâve seen him without it? âLooks like you got here first!â
âWhat do you mean?â I asked him, a bit confused
âOh itâs nothing..â he said quickly âand uh-here!â He handed me a letter but itâs not showing the front, hold on a letter for me?
âOh thank-â before I could even thank him, he was already closing the door, he seems to be in a hurry. I checked the letter to see who it was from and saw that there was a heart, a love letter? But from who.. âFrom M/n L/n; to Francis Mosses..â I muttered.
Maybe heâs not as bad as I thought..
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Lipstick kiss marks
Synopsis: Five is showered with kisses he swears he hates (He hates them honest you guys!)
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Five sat next to you covered in lipstick kiss marks. His face had them everywhere. his cheeks, his forehead, his nose, his jaw even his neck had them! He was just reading and you went and plopped next to him planting kisses
Five huffed âYou seriously had to go and cover me with kiss marks?â he feigned annoyance but inside he was actually flustered and liked them. it was like a way of showing everyone he was yours.
You chuckled and applied some more red lipstick to your lips to make sure they gave that full mark on him âOh please donât act like you hate them!â you giggled and rubbed your lips together while looking in your little pocket mirror
Five sighed and looked at you âYou know if you keep doing that youâre gonna run out of lipstick.â
You smiled and scooted closer to him âYes well youâre worth it, how about that?â you planted new kisses on his face and then his neck.
Five grew visibly flustered at that. He deserved it? oh god damn it why do you gotta be so perfect! âDamn youâ he took your face in his hands and kissed you affectively getting lipstick on his lips. once he pulled back he smiled softly âYour incredibly lovely you know that right?â
You smiled and kissed the tip of his nose âI think you tell me that quite often.â she looked at him in the eyes till her eyes traveled over the sheer amount of kisses and laughed
his brows furrowed but a smile appeared âWhat?â
you smiled âYou look like a tomatoâ
you and him looked at each other and couldnât hold in the laugh and ended up laughing together. he probably did look like a tomato and id she was joking before about him looking like a tomato then he most certainly did now after laughing so much
Just then Klaus came into the room seeing the love birds. Klaus gasped âWell hello two birds of a feather that flock together. I see one of you has been smoochy smoochedâ
five wanted to crawl in a hole and die. Klaus would never let them hear the end of it. ever.
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"Really?"
He can't believe you're laughing at him. You swear you're notâyou've sworn twice now. He just sighs and snatches your cigarette from you.
"I just kind of can't believe it, Ryuu," you rationalize, pressing your shoulder against his. "I'm not, I promise. I'm not laughing because it's funny. Just surprised, that's all."
Surprised, sure, alright. Look at me, he wants to spit at you, but he's hacking from holding the smoke in his lungs just a moment too long and so you work the dart from his fingers and tuck it back between your lips as he rights himself.
Akutagawa crosses his arms, not unlike a pouting child, and fixes his eyes on the brick wall across from you both and the one you lean back on as you're sat atop some wooden crate, one long discarded after a weapons shipment or whatever else. He can't help but feel a little small beneath your reaction, but you resume issuing soft kicks to the gravel beneath your feet like it was nothingâlike you hadn't just drawn probably one of the most humiliating confessions out of him. He never really gave a second thought to all that before you came around, but now that he's beside you, elbows crossed over his knees as he draws them closer to himself, he suddenly feels like he should've before.
You finish your cigarette in silence, pointedly not moving away from him.
"I'm sorry," you say softly, sincerely as you chuck the butt to the ground in front of you. "Didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."
"I'm not uncomfortable." But he still doesn't look at you. Akutagawa's dealing with more than one predicament at the present moment and he needs to sort them before he can turn his attention back to you.
Oneâhe doesn't know if it would've been more or less attractive, or maybe repulsive, if he could've said, yeah, I've fucked plenty of people before, or at least I've fucked someone, and Akutagawa's aware he's a lot of filthy things, but apparently he's neither a liar nor a whore, and it leads him right to his second predicament, which is this: why does he care whether you find him attractive or repulsive?
How long has he care what you think of him at all? And last: what does it mean, that he does?
It's that last one that his thoughts get snagged on.
You tap your foot beneath you. This alleyway is where you always drag him off to when you feel like getting away from work. He can hardly remember the last time he said no to you when it came to escaping Mori's iron rule for an hour or so. But he wishes he would've today, kind of like he wishes he would've skipped the only other time he can recall wishing to have skippedâthe day you let him smoke one of your cigarettes.
It's funny how your conversation from that day parallels the exchange from minutes ago. It sticks in his mind right now. You, at least two years younger and having known him on a much more superficial level than you do now, had laughed a little; it makes him feel only marginally better about you laughing now. Even then you were reassuring him, not because it's funny, but just becauseâI don't know, that's what I do when Iâm surprised, I guess. He's always envied your ability to find joy in small things like that, after all.
You didn't make him feel small just now. He finds ways to do that all on his own; he knows that. He must've been weak back then because he'd inhaled less tar than you, and he hated that, so he did it when you offered. But now, here he was. You know he's never even kissed anyone, let alone fucked. The sensical pattern, thinking back to that day when you tapped a cigarette out of your pack for him, lit it off your own, good-naturedly patted his back as the coughs raged out of him because he inhaled it all down way too fast for someone with clean lungsâ
Where exactly would that lead now, logically?
It's not like he's never thought about it. But you don't need to know that.
Akutagawa turns his his head away from you, chin on his arms. He can feel his face burn. He won't let you see.
But he knows you now, and you know him. And he knows you'll offer anyway.
You sit in silence, maybe ten minutes more, kicking the ground and letting your eyes flutter open and shut, before you pull another smoke out of your pack and stick it in your mouth.
âWell,â you mumble as your lighter flicks, âIf you wanna change thatâŠâ
He doesnât move. He can still feel the crate trembling from how you tap your foot, which is good, because heâs a little restless himself. You draw off your cigarette; he sees the smoke dissipate in his peripheral as your head falls back to rest on the brick. What he doesnât see is your little half-smirk, but he knows itâs there.
Itâs not that Akutagawa doesnât like you. Anyone that knows him well can probably see he likes you, or at least tolerates youâhe lets you drag him here week after week, shift after shift, after all. He gives you grace, even if itâs small, when you fuck up on jobsâsomething he never gives to anyone else, hardly even Chuuya. He doesnât flinch or swat you away when you absentmindedly pull him in some direction by his elbow or his wrist; he doesnât scoff at you when you lean up against him, like you are right now, and shift away from you or push you off like he might even with Gin. To someone who doesnât know him, he probably looks indifferent to you at worst, and indifference and tolerance, and maybe even liking, tend to go hand-in-hand when it comes to the wielder of Rashoumon. Heâs not outright evil to you, and thatâs enoughâif for no one else, for you. But you know him by now.
And because you know him, you know what heâll say next.
âNo.â
And itâs not because he doesnât like you, which is why youâll do what you do next, and he knows you will because he knows you, too, by nowâenough to maybe like youâyouâll press him.
âAw, why not?â It drawls out of you lightheartedly, almost jokingly.
It might have something to do with the fact that youâve never looked at him with fear, disgust, or hatred in your eyesânot even before you knew one another so well and he would regularly, in response to your antics, threaten to beat you to a pulp with his black beast. It might have something to do with how you seem to look right through him like that, and then inadvertently boost his ego by telling him you think he totally has the capacity to be cool, or even normal, doing things like fucking and smoking cigarettes. He wants to laugh at how silly it all sounds to him. Akutagawaâs never been good at letting himself understand why you make him feel the way you do. Why he deserves your kindness or companionship. Why you canât see him for what he is: a war machine, configured from birth, far beyondâor maybe beneathâany sort of semblance of a normal destiny that includes indulgence. Love. It would make him respect you less, hate you, maybe, if it wasnât so secretly pleasant, the fact that you donât look at him like that. The fact that you seem to think he does deserve something more than misery.
I have a feeling this is gonna be a long partnership, so itâd be a lot more fun if you smoked! You said that the day you were assigned to each other, before you knew about his lung condition, and he knew he shouldnât have ever accepted your offer that day in this very alleyway because he ended up liking the head high cigarettes gave him, even if it was horrible for him.
The same way he likes you, and it makes him unbearably soft. The same way heâd probably like kissing you. Fucking you. Another thing thatâll kill him one day, one way or another. He knows if he gets any closer than he is, and then for some reason you leaveâdie, run away, decide your relationship is awkward now and heâs horrible and you hate him, whateverâitâd kill him, undoubtedly. Better not to smoke the cigarette. Better not to fuck the only real friend he thinks heâs had since he was watching his back every moment he lived in the slums. Anything that felt good was almost certainly a trap laid to hurt him.
âBecause,â he huffs.
If for sole annoyance or disgust, he wouldâve bitched you out. But he doesnât. You note this. So, you let it go. Because you know him.
âAlright,â you sigh. Not disappointed, not dismissive. Just affirming and understanding. It blows his mind all over again. He doesn't move, doesn't look at you. "Well, I suppose we should get back." Your eyes flick to your wristwatch. "Kouyou wanted us for something in about a half hour."
Some silly meeting in some bar. Chuuya's not there to keep her from getting off topic, so Akutagawa sits beneath the low light (on the edge of the booth, thank god), you next to him, while your superior's ordering another round of whisky sodas for the table.
When Kouyou distributes the drinks, Akutagawa slides his toward you, which you then slide to the man on your other side. His name's Shotaâone of Chuuya's subordinatesâand he takes it off your hands happily. You nestle your own between your hands on the tabletop.
"But as I was saying," the scarlet-haired woman continues, "it's going to have to happen over the weekend. I don't think it's wise to do anything until Nakahara's back from Tokyo, which will be Friday at the earliest, and the tracking number for the Makarov shipment on its way in got thrown in the trash so Hirotsu's going to have to..."
Akutagawa's gaze trains steadily on your hands; his own are busy, one propping his chin up, the other circling rings over the rim of his first and only glass, now empty. It's not out of the ordinary for him to tune out of Kouyou's tipsy ramblings, especially when Chuuya will be back in a few days to explain the game plan concisely and soberly. What is out of the ordinary is that he's still stiff, thinking about your conversation from the alleyway and the tone in which you so nonchalantly cooed aw, why not? Almost as if you'd been a little disappointed when he said no, he wouldn't take you up on your offer. Were you? He has to doubt it. You've always been a little too eager to get him fucked up on Chuuya's wine, drag him out of work, pull him out of his comfort zoneâhe'd seen the unmistakable excitement on your face the first time you'd jammed a cigarette between his lips. But that is way too far out of his wheelhouse, and he's pretty sure you both know it.
Even if he does keep thinking about it.
You, wellâyou sip your second whisky and take note of his fidgeting. Although your drinkâs only half gone, you tap your foot against his, glancing between him and the door; he looks at you, then back down at his empty glass, clears his throat and nods ever so subtly. Code exhcange for I'm bored, wanna leave? Of course. So when the conversation lulls, you both stand.
"Kazuha has us at eight-thirty," you explain, bidding everyone good evening and seeing yourselves out the door before anyone has the chance to ask what for.
"Kazuha? That was the best lie you could come up with?"
"Are we still sitting in there or not?" you refute, cigarette dangling from your mouth as you walk with your hands behind your head in the direction of headquarters. "Can't wait to get home."
"Yeah, after your hard day," Akutagawa mutters.
"Hey, watch it," you poke. "I moved shit all morning. Need a shower bad."
Which is exactly what you do after you depart from your partner and scamper up to your apartment. But first you take the liberty of lighting a few candles, cracking your bathroom window for a breeze, dancing around to a little music as a bath full of lavender salts warms, and rubbing out your sore knees with that pain relief oil Higuchi recommended to you. It's true, you did spend all morning getting shipments from the port; the less luxurious side of the life and work of a mafioso moving their way up the ladder isn't something you're unfamiliar with, although you do it less now.
You settle in, sighing. Maybe it's wrong to still be thinking about it, but you had sort of hoped Akutagawa would take to your little quip earlier with at least a hint of curiosity, or bring it up on your walk home even if just to tell you how absurd it was that you'd even think such a thing; perhaps you should've been more deliberate, you think. Or maybe it's a good thing that you weren't. He's one of the last people you'd want to make things weird withâoutside of being the (rather oblivious) object of your affection, he's still your coworker and, as of recent years, very best friend. Somewhat of a literal partner in crime. You snicker at that as your shoulders dip below the water. You momentarily debate trying to dismiss your little feelings for the night, and you will, for the most partâbut while you're relieving physical tension under the soft flicker of your candles and the hum of the city below you, you figure you might as well dispel your disappointment, too, and you trace your fingers down the curve of your hip to find yourself wet in a way that has nothing to do with the water.
Meanwhile, Akutagawa is pacing his living quarters. He's already taken a cold shower to stave off what has only become more difficult not to think about now that you're goneâhe doesn't have to hold it together for you or anyone, and he finds himself trying to sit still on the edge of his bed as his phone sits a few feet away on the nightstand. Should he text you about it? Call you? Fuck thatâyou do a fine job of flustering him when you're barely trying, but if he let you knowâgod, if he let you know, he'd never hear the end of it. Text or call you to talk about anything else, even if just to hear your voice and have your presence? No, he has a feeling that would drive him even further up the tree he's chased himself up; he's sitting, tapping his foot like you were earlier when he should've been able to answer you normally, his apartment is dead silent, his dick's half-hard in his sweatpants and he doesn't know what to do.
You probably weren't even serious. If he was smart, he would've jacked off in the shower and called it a night.
But he likes you. More than you realizeâmore than you can realize, because he's always stone-faced, no-bullshit, hard-ass Akutagawa and he doesn't know how to be anything else, even when you're around and ecouraging him to loosen up. You can't possibly realize how much you've done for him in terms of easing his anxiety over always being good enough, in terms of helping him understand his humanity, in terms of making him feel like a real person.
He suddenly feels like he's on a tightrope of keeping you close and messing it all up, and whichever way he decides to fall will inevitably bring unending frustration that he could've done something different, something better.
And maybe this is an opening. Or a pinnacle that his relationship with you was doomed to come to. Either way, he can't sit in his apartment. Marching forward, like he always doesâno matter how hesitantlyâhe slips his jacket on and shoves his keys in his pocket before he's heading for the elevator.
It's not until he's staring at the interface of buttons that he decides between launching himself to the ground for a long walk along the port or punching in your floor.
And you're so closeâyour back's arching, your jaw hangs slack, you're spilling water down the side of the tub that pools on the floor, but you'll worry about it laterâwhen you hear manic pounding coming from your hallway. Maybe it's not yours, you think, screwing your eyes shut and working your fingers back and forth in tight circles around your clit because you want it, damn it, but your apartment's so damn big that it's almost impossible to conceive of it being for anyone else.
"One minute!" you shout, rising out of the water with grumbling breath to wrap yourself in a towel and blow all your candles out in one swipe. But whoever it is doesn't hear you, or doesn't careâthe harsh knocking pattern booms again, and you almost trip over your pile of discarded work clothes as you fumble out of the bathroom wondering what could possibly be so important, and on account of who, that they had to interrupt your first hour of alone time all day, not to mention when you were so deliciously close to an orgasm you'd been working yourself up to with painstaking care. You'd even edged yourself a little, just because you figured you had time; you would've gotten it over with if you'd have known you were on call, but here you are, unsatisfied and stomping to your door, about to crack it open and take whatever orders were about to be unloaded onto you with a smile and can-do attitude.
You fling the door open.
âWhat?â
Akutagawaâs fist is still raised to knock. You watch his eyes behind his sunglasses as they flit down to youâyou in nothing but a towelâand his face breaks out in a blush youâve never seen on him before.
If you were any less annoyed, you wouldâve smirked.
âRyuu, what?â you snap again as his hand falls to his side. Whatever it is, if someone needs backup, if itâs urgent, you wish heâd tell you alreadyâitâs so unlike him to stand speechless that you almost want to ask if something else is going on. âCan you spit it out so I know if I should get dressed, please?â
No, he wants to croak out, but youâll just keep barraging him with questionsâall he does is fumble his way inside your apartment with please donât get dressed on the back of his tongue and that really strange, dazed look behind his glasses. He can't even blame the alcohol from earlierâhe only had one, and it's had ample time to wear off.
âRyuunosukeââ
He freezes where he is, steely eyes locking onto yours, and his voice leaves him, hoarse. âSay that again, please.â
You look at him incredulously, scrunching your towel up beneath your fist that holds it up. âTell me whatâs going on.â
Akutagawa feels small again. This was the wrong decision. He shouldâve gone for that walk. He shouldâve jerked off in the shower and then went to bed and tossed and turned until he finally fell into an erratic sleep and he should not be here, he should wake up tomorrow morning, sleep-deprived and full of regret but knowing heâs safe because he didnât go to your apartment to find you in nothing but a towel and he spared your relationship, he didnât make it weird, and heâd look at you longingly for the rest of however long, only when you werenât looking just so youâd never know how much agony your stupid little joke from earlier today put him in.
But youâre expecting an answer, and out of all the filthy things Akutagawa is convinced he is, he is not a liar.
His eyes fly to the ground. Your legs, knocking together from the chill of the water droplets that still cling to them.
âI havenât been able to stop thinking about earlier,â he forces out. âWhat you said.â
You hesitate. âWhat I saidâŠ?â Had you said something wrong?
Great, he thinks, mouth falling open. So you werenât serious.
âYou know what, nevermind.â He shouldnât be here. He goes to push past you, toward your still-open door, but you stop him, shutting the door and pushing a palm against his chest.
âTell me,â you mean to say, but it sounds more like a question; his pale face flushes again, and you search him with your gaze. He seems to shrink a little more before he sighs and looks to you once more.
âIf I wanted to change that Iâve neverâŠâ
You wait.
âKissed.â
You blink, cock your head.
âOr fucked anyone.â
Your hand lets up on his chest, and you find yourself taking a step backâlittle, but it sends your partner reeling into self-doubt all over again.
âYou wantâŠâ You speak, quietly, with less urgency than you have thus far. âYou wanna fuck me?â
And Akutagawaâs nodding, more frantically than his pride would prefer. But heâs nodding. Not looking at you. Waiting for you to laugh and clap him on the shoulder with a yeah, as if and tell him to go home.
But your fingers slide up to curl along the side of his neck. When his eyes are still downcast, you cup his jaw in your palm.
âRyuu, look at me.â
Here it comes. The big rejection. Heâs ready. Heâll go home and punch a hole in his wall, but heâs ready to hold it together right now.
His eyes drift to yours again, still cold and nervous, like a dogâs when itâs about to bite.
But you smile, trace your thumb along his bottom lip, and whisper.
He has no idea how much you mean what you're saying next.
âI wish you wouldâve just led with that.â
Itâs like bombs are about to detonate in his brain. He knows what he should do nextâhe should kiss you, he should throw himself at you and let your tongue between his lips, but part of the reason why heâs here is because he never has, and he trusts you to show himâjust what kind of weak has he become, trusting someone with their teeth so close to his throat? It doesnât matter because he wants it, he just wants you toâ
âShow me, please.â
To his displeasure, you don't latch onto him like a hungry animal. Instead, your fingers drift down to his and wind between them; you lead him past the couch to your bedroom, sit him down, and pull your towel a little tighter around you. He wants it off, he wants to see youâeven if the thought of sitting naked himself, in front of you, makes his stomach flip, he wants nothing more than to tear the towel away, get to exploring the ways you like to be touched, hear sounds from you he's never heard before.
"Ryuu," you say, one hand on his shoulder. "Be sure you want this."
"I do," he squeaks out, hardly ever having heard his own voice so meek.
"Tell me. Say it."
"I want it," his words follow yours seamlessly, without another thought. He's already established in his mind that he trusts you. But he's still sort of waiting for you to start chuckling and tell him this is a big joke; his hands tremble as you stare, digging for uncertainty, but you don't find any. So as you hold your towel against you, you crawl carefully onto his lap, astride his waist.
And now, he has you. Between his fingers. They find the curve of your waist as you curl an arm around the back of his neck after you work the jacket off from around his shoulders, tear his glasses off, push his soft bangs from his face. Akutagawa looks at you with so much wonder, so much need; you set your weight on him, and you feel him, and his nails grip your ass through the towel.
"Please, don't be gentle," he whispers when your lips hover immediately over his. He can feel your breath, warm and inviting, as the tip of your nose brushes past his.
You smile into his mouth and wrap your other arm around him.
You let the towel fall as you kiss him.
Hot, slow.
And the bombs go off all at once. Before the towel can pool over his hands he's batting it to the floor, scooting back onto your mattress to accomodate you; he wants to shut his eyes but you grind down against him through his pants as your lips mold against his and heâs probably never felt so alert in his life. Akutagawa gasps in a certain way, another sound he's never heard himself make; when your fingers tangle into the hair at the back of his head, he groans, grips your waist, and his eyes melt shut, finally.
You kiss him until he's putty, and he follows your lead; you grab his wrists and guide his hands to your chest, which has his eyes flying open all over again as he feels his fingerpads twitch over your nipples. You work him onto his back, easing him down with your tongue against his, so warm, so wet; your teeth, harsh in his bottom lip, where your thumb stroked so tenderly before, force his hips in a circle, and, oh, god, you have him losing it already, completely helpless, completely breathless.
You pull back, grinning, before grabbing for the buttons on his shirt.
"This okay?"
It's not okay, it's insane. His pants are too tight. He's never needed someone like this. And you look so angelic above him waiting for him to nod, give you a small yes, before you work him out of his shirt next, taking care to trace every ridge and valley of his ribs and abdomen as you do. He shivers when it's gone, discarded with his jacket and glasses; his arms come to cover himself but you trace those, too, the dips in his lean muscle and severities of his shoulders, collarbones, elbows, wrists. Just as he thinks he might feel too vulnerable, you start mapping him out with a softness he's never felt before; he wants to sink into it, keep it forever. If he wasn't so painfully hard, he might not even need to fuck you; just laying, relaxing into the sheets beneath him as you look at him like he's beautiful, is a heaven of its own.
"You're so pretty, Ryuu," you mutter. You hunch to bite the juncture of his throat and shoulder, then soothe it with a kiss. "So, so fucking pretty. You know that?"
Akutagawa shudders again. "I told you not to be gentle."
You bite him once more, grinding your bare cunt along his clothed cock, and a groan throttles from his chest. After doing the same to the opposite side of his neck, your lips meet his again, and he forgets about shielding himself in favor of letting his hands rock you back and forth against him.
You feel him twitch below you as you work him into nothing but impatient breath and swollen lips; your irritation from not reaching your climax earlier doubles back on you in a wave of arousal, and youâre guiding him out of his pants and boxers at the same time, and thank god thatâs all thatâs left and that youâre so turned on already because when the tip of his pale cock hits his abs, all you can think about is sinking down onto it, feeling it fill you up and pulse inside you.
But you wait, looking at him low-lidded and asking him, âYou want me on top, or you?â
âFor fuckâs sake,â he curses, twisting a leg into the bend of your knee at his side; youâre not weak by any means, but in one smooth movement heâs got you on your back, pinned down by your wrists. âIf youâre going to be gentle, then I wonât.â
Wasting no time. You almost giggle but youâre gasping, his eagerness streamlining into a searing kiss to your mouth and one of his rough hands snaking down to collect the wetness pooling between your thighs.
He knows he should touch you. He knows that much. He wants to knowâ
âWhere? Tell me where,â he growls into your mouth, and you guide him by his wrist and fingers once again to draw tight circles over your clitâones that make you arch, and after feeling how you do it he burns it into his brain, the movement youâre guiding him through that sends your head lolling onto the pillow. Akutagawaâs eyes widen. He could watch your expression replay for hours.
âThatâs it,â you encourage him, breathy, letting him go as he memorizes your rhythm. âFeels so good.â
You bring your two wet fingers up to his mouth, which he accepts without hesitance; his tongue swirls around them and you realize how serious he isâhe doesnât want it slow and youâre losing your resolve against him and you think you need him in you, right now.
He stills when you reach for his cock, dark hair swaying as his gaze trails your hand; he sits back, heaving, as he rubs you, as you stroke him and smear a pathetically large bead of precum across his tip and down his length. Trying desperately not to stop, to keep making you feel good, he throws his head back when you squeeze just beneath the head of his cock and pull him back toward you by his shoulder.
âWanâ you to fuck me, Ryuu,â you whine, lining him up with your weeping hole. Heâs pushing in with hardly a second thought, and, ohâheâs groaning in yet another way heâs never heard before, watching himself disappear into you, bracing himself on your forearms until he fills you up to hilt. So wet, so warm. He hardly realizes how ragged his breath is until he hears your own.
You squirm, and after he presses another series of messy kisses to your lips to stifle the noises of pleasure leaving him that would be so humiliating if he wasnât so drunk on you, you hold him by his chin and look so deeply into his eyes that heâs afraid for a second youâre doing that thing where you look right through him into his very soul, but your mouth is forming around words that he must hear, he must hang onto, you have to tell him what to do, and you doâ
âDonât be gentle.â
So he isnât. He moves, on nothing but your words and intuition and the way you clench around him; thereâs virtually no resistance when he pulls out, slams back in, pulls out, slams back inâand he loses himself in it so quickly, so noisily.
âUnhâfuckââ Your name leaves his lips like a song that has you linking your ankles behind his back as he writhes, pounds into youâand you understand all over again, he wasnât kidding. He doesnât want it slow. And neither do you, you realize, now that heâs dragging his perfect cock along your insides so deliciously.
He realizes something too, as he falls to his elbows and buries his open mouth into your neck; that he never wants anyone else to hear the sounds either of you are making ever again. He doesn't care that you're more experienced than him, or that your relationship is irrevocably changed now that this is happening; you're going to be the first and last person that ever hears him moaning like this, that ever has him blushing from face to chest at the lewd sounds that your bodies emit where they meet and then part each time he pistons in and out of you. Youâre clawing at him, raking tracks down his back and biceps that spur him to a pace he didnât know he was capable ofâhe canât wait to see them in the mirror tomorrow when the rawness has left and theyâre angry red, a testament to how quickly heâs learning you, how quickly youâre both falling apart, how much he thinks he loves you.
Yeah, he thinks he loves youâitâs muffled by your skin, but heâs saying it, he canât help it, he canât keep it in his lungs if heâs going to keep this pace up.
âLove you, Ryuu,â you echo, and he echoes you right back like he didnât start it.
âLove you.â Thrust. âLove you.â Thrust. âLove youâmmh!â
"My good boy," you croon when he reaches down to touch you, to feel you squeezing him down on him. Your good boy. You could turn him into a whore if you kept saying that.
"My name, please," he breathes, high-pitched, almost wheezing; you hold him as close to your body as you can, shortening his unstoppable thrusts against the spot inside you that makes your toes curl, pushes rhythmic moans from your throat, and his hands are all over you, begging for it in his rough grips that undulate into soft caresses back to harsh nails back to gentle strokes.
"Ryuunosukeâ" you choke out, "Don'tâ" Gasp. "âfuckingâ" Gasp. "âstop!"
The most gorgeous strand of strained moans, gasps, and growls leave him as his head batters insatiably against your cervix; heâs falling off that tightrope, and youâre catching him, all his shaking fingers and trembling thighs that still momentarily before he can warn you, before he can tell youâ
"Cum in me," you sigh as you feel him, feel yourself breaking, coming undone as he forces his sounds down your throat; you swallow them all, crying out against his lips as he bites you, furrows his brow, pulls back to bore into your clouded gazeâhe's sure he looks the same if not worse, more unraveled, mouth open, lips wet, when you arch back and pull him flush against you and he's cumming, taking you for every last bit you'll give him until you're hypersensitive, fluttering around him, helping him make a sticky mess beneath the both of you as his head falls forward again, into your shoulder, restless, groaning with aftershock, until his lips meet yours and he kisses you, kisses you, kisses you, neither of you ready to come down yet.
But soon enough you're reduced to exhausted writhing, slow bites, fingers through his hair and he's spentâpleasantly so. Weak, not in the way he feels after he's been brought to his knees by a formidable foe but in a way he will not be content to part with; a comfortable resignation that he could make a home in.
Akutagawa wraps himself around you, and you kick the blanket at your feet up until you can pull it over his shoulders and tuck your nose into his forehead.
"Still kind of don't believe you've never done that before," you think out loud, voice a little absent from how youâve been sobbing for him.
And Akutagawa finds himself smiling into your skin. He sounds just as much of a wreck. "Never. Not until now."
It was good. Not only was it good, but you can feel him softening inside you, and you want him to stay.
"Meant it, by the way."
Then he looks up at you, quizzically. That strange, dazed look is in his eyes again.
But you just look back at him. Push his bangs back, mirror his tired smile. Wipe the drying sheen of sweat from across his brow.
When it clicks, he's buried in your neck again. Grumbling. "I meant it, too."
You hug yourself impossibly tighter around him, muttering his name, rolling you both to your sides where you cup his face once more, pressing smooches all over him, less heated and more playful, and Akutagawa scrunches his nose as you pepper him and start mumbling in betweenâ
"Love you. Love you. Love you."
He catches you in your tirade and kisses you like you first kissed himâslow, deep. His own love you whispered, almost imperceptible. He'll stay. "Thank you. Love you."
Like he never knew he was capable of loving. Heâs not uncomfortable. For once. For real. You caught him when he was falling. He hopes youâll keep doing it.
But right now, he only has one more question.
"Do you have any cigarettes?"
You reach across him, over to your nightstand. âWho do you think I am?â
My angel, he thinks in response as you nudge the filter between his lips to light it. You, in control, let him puff before you steal it for yourself.
And heâs yours. The Port Mafiaâs ferocious Hellhound is your good boy, your angel.
Youâll love him until he believes it.
#csm reference#kinktober? you thought.#vanillatober.#couldnât help it with him i need to love him til he loves himself#i shouldâve picked someone else if i wanted it to be nasty thatâs my b you guys#akutagawa smut#akutagawa x reader#bsd smut#bsd x reader#bungou stray dogs smut#bungou stray dogs x reader#nnnsfw.á#kinktober 2024#with loveâreid#mdni
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Too close to the stars, I Never knew somebody like you, somebody~
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Blue lock boys in: Your Loving Boyfriend Husband who has a soft spot for you
Characters included: Itoshi Rin, Itoshi Sae, Shoei Barou
Thereâs less characters so more words, yey :3 (lowercase intentional)
Itoshi rin is a weird guy all things considered. he prides himself in his calm and cool demeanor and refusal to engage in his emotions for the most part, no bachira doesnât count, heâs a moron. He says this and lives it to a T daily, so itâs always funny to see how fast he forgets to be calm and collected Itoshi rin when you get your hands in his hair. itâs weird to see in action. he hates everything and everyone when heâs practicing, brushing off his teammates and waving off hanging out with them if asked.
âas if id hang out with lukewarm trash.â
he plays mean and harsh and yet always melts into your touch when he gets home, he goes on about how âlukewarmâ practice went, the idiocy of his teammates irritating him. he says it bitterly yet with how his face is pressed into your stomach, it sounds more like slow incoherent mumbling into your skin. he hardly notices how his fingers sink into the plush of your legs, kneading like second nature. you nod along but your focus is mainly on how docile he looks while grumbling, his eyelashes fluttering as he struggles to keep awake against your warmth.
some time between highschool and now mustâve given you enough time to soften him out, he doesnât even know how you got him in the matching onesie. he swore he was still passed out on your bosom, how the hell did you have him posing for silly pictures. to be fair he looked more dazed than anything in the photo so it was hardly a pose. didnât matter, you were smiling wide so he didnât question how it looked or where itâd go. (the teasing at practice tomorrow made him slightly regret that)
Itoshi sae didnât mind indulging your requests, silly as they were indeed. try as he might, no matter how much he steels himself over and swears not to, he caves under your gaze and sweet voice. before he knew it, he was doing everything he just said he wouldnât because itâs like sacrilege to tell you no. from stupid amusement parks to clay making and running his blood sugar stupid high with sweets that heâll definitely hear about from his dietitian. speaking of, heâs totally firing that moron; who does that guy think he is telling him not to consume more sweets under his wifeâs request?
âunhealthy? try unemployed, you useless pain. my wife says itâs fine, so it is.â
itâs probably worse than he thought. thereâs not a thing he does that doesnât have your name in it. even when youâre nowhere to be seen, youâre his best excuse to leave interaction.
âmeeting be damned, i need my wife more so reschedule.â
âtell that lady to wait, my wife is calling.â
âim waiting for my WIFE, yes, im MARRIED.â
if you actually saw it, youâd still be awestruck. he never opens his mouth to tell you about this but everyone you meet knows you. the store workers, his manager, everyone who knows him will know youâre his wife. heâs the kindest person for you, everyone else can wait.
Barou shoei is peak househusband, argue with the wall. everyone sees him as the toxic and red flag type but heâs nothing if not considerate for you. donât openly point it out, he will deny. he loves his family hard and plenty, so once youâre a part of that such extends to you. his sisters love you, truly and heâs grateful for that, his favorite girls getting along does make him content.
he never bothers just telling you he loves you, itâs easier to see when he interacts with you. actions are better in that regard so it makes sense. he gives you nothing but the best. heâs always cleaning up and such, you never have to worry about it when you come home. AND the laundry while cooking dinner? is there something he canât do? he grumbles but never complains even when you forget to clean for the millionth time, or accidentally mess up dinner or stain the carpet with some harsh juice. youâre his wife, of course itâs okay to make mistakes. he actually insists on doing all the chores, he claims that itâs only because he does it better but heâs whipped. what man lets his wife do all that work while he lazes? Inadequate
âjust worry about your work, donât even think about a chore. hey! youâre thinking about it, arenât you?â
a king is nothing if his queen is unhappy. thatâs how he justifies it anyway. it almost makes you feel bad with how he works all day at practice then comes home and cleans tirelessly. when you asked his sisters, they assure you that itâs his love language and youâd argue with that but he seems content being so helpful so you leave it be. . a bit of help here and there doesnât hurt though. donât let him catch you though, heâll chastise you back to bed like a mother hen. so maybe no chores, heh.
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Dragon of the week
heyo been a bit lol, been up to a lot recently but one thing i wanted to share is my covers for a dragon of the week thing over on the wof amino
I tried putting them in order from newest to oldest. My personal favorite is still battlewinner cause I loved drawing the lava. Least favorite is probably kinkajou as I dont feel I did her justice, dont hate it but I would go back and make it more vibrant if i could. Id also like to give dusky a new piece as that one is much older than the rest
also rough to know I broke the streak of "DOTW" being on the left đ lmao
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Geto/gojo/reader âI canât believe thereâs only one bedâ and HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY
THANK YOOUUU!! So, this one really sang to me, I went ahead and combined the two, mostly because they are very similar. Thank you both for the prompt!!
Now Presenting...
Starring: A flirty Satoru Gojo, and a tired Suguru Geto
Your body protested every step you took as you walked into the hotel, screaming at you to lay down and accept the sweet embrace of death. Okay, maybe death was a little extreme, but you could definitely have gone for a light coma in that moment. A yawn you had been suppressing came forward, and you tried to rub the sleep out of your eyes.
âAwe, well arenât you cute when youâre sleepy.â Gojo teased with a smile, earning him a glare from you.Â
âShut up Satoru.â This entire trip he kept making note of how cute you were, and how you needed to be protected, and at this point, he was on the brink of losing vocal cord privileges.
âFlirt later you two, letâs just get checked in.â Suguru muttered as he ushered the two of you to the front desk. He tried to summon a friendly smile for the clerk, but it didnât touch his tired eyes. âHi! Uh, we should have two reservations under Masamichi Yaga.â He said, really hoping they didnât ask for an id. He told his teacher that he should probably put the rooms under one of the three people going on the mission, but the man was more muscle than brain.
The young worker started typing on the computer, before confusion fell over her features. âUm, I found the reservations, but it says itâs only for one room?â She asked. You were a bit taken back by that, and you could tell from the looks on their faces the boys were too. You thought for sure youâd at least get your own room. But, then again, if getting a room with 3 beds was cheaper than getting 2 separate rooms, it did make sense for Yaga to take that route, the penny pinching bastard.Â
âUh, yea that should be fine, thatâs us.â Suguru shrugged, too tired to really argue. Much to your relief (and concern) the woman nodded and happily gave over the room key, not bothering to ask for an ID. What a stand up place. The three of you dragged your tired worn bodies over to the elevator. Well, two of you did. Satoru felt fine, because of course he did. And because he had no problem filling the elevator with whatever came to his head. You shared a look with Suguru.
How do we shut him up? Your eyes asked.
Pillow over his face as he sleeps Sugurus eyes offered.
No, I want him to shut up now.Â
Oh, thatâs not gonna happen. For now, we just have to endure him.
You sighed, knowing he was right and hating that fact at the same time. Thankfully, the elevator door opened, and the room wasnât far from it. Geto unlocked the door, and you and Gojo practically fell over him to get into it. You quickly went to grab your toothbrush, and Gojo went to fiddle with the tv. It was Suguru who noticed it first.
âUh, guys? I donât see another bed.â He said. You and Gojo stopped cold in your tracks, heads whipping to the center of the room and- yep. That was one bed, and only one bed. Not even so much as a pull out couch in sight.Â
âOH ho ho!!â Satoru laughed, launching himself onto the bed and folding himself into what you think was meant to be a sexy pose. âIâve read fan fiction before, I know what happens here!â He cackled, âBe gentle with me, Iâm a virginâ He swooned, acting like a helpless flower.Â
âI call sleeping in the bathtub.â Suguru said, checking out of this battle before it became a war.
âNo, Donât!â Gojo whined, reaching out to him, âThe bathtub is cold and hard, I'm warm and soft. Unless you want me to be hard.â He winked.Â
âI canât believe thereâs only one fucking bed, who sets this shit up?!â You snapped, aggressively waving your hands at the bed.
âGod.â Gojo responded.
âBad fan fiction writers.â Geto retorted, apparently salty about his characterization in my past fics.Â
âSatoru get out of the bed.â You demanded, shaking your head. You did not just get out of a fight with ten, count em, ten first grade curses to sleep on the floor.
âHow about you get in the bed?â He purred.
âI will, as soon as you get out of it.â you scoffed, fighting back a laugh at the absurdity of the situation.
âWhy not get in it with me?â He grinned at you, opening his arms wide as an invitation.Â
âIâd rather sleep in the bathtub.â You replied.
âNot an option, I already called it!â Suguru reminded you.
âWhy donât you sleep with him?â You accused more than asked, âHeâs your man!â
âHe is most definitely not my man!â Geto rebuffed the statement, shaking his head.
âHeâs actually my man, we just havenât taken our relationship to the next level yet.â Satoru purred with a cheeky wink to Geto to really seal the deal. Geto rolled his eyes.
âIâm going to bed, goodnight.â He said, going to grab a pillow from the bed, only for Satoru to grab his arm.
âCome on guys, donât be silly! This bed is big enough for all of us!â He argued, âWe all trust each other, right?!â Gojo paused long enough to look at both you and Geto, but not long enough for an answer. He already knew it. âWe know no ones going to try any funny business, we trust each other with our lives there's no reason for any of us to be uncomfortable tonight!â you and Suguru shared more glances. Gojo may be annoying, but when he was right he was right. The only thing really keeping the three of you from sharing was standard social conventions.Â
âFine, but if any of you touch me Iâm throwing you off the balcony.â You warned. Geto sighed and ran a hand through his hair, sitting on the bed.
âI just donât get why we werenât warned about this.â
âI mean, it kind of explains the weird look she gave us.â You noted, sitting on the other side of Gojo.
âYay, sleepover!â Gojo cheered, grabbing onto Suguru because he was the one that didnât threaten him, âFair warning, Iâm a cuddler.â He grinned, wiggling his eyebrows for emphasis.Â
âI knew I should have just slept in the tub.â Geto sighed.
đïžđïžđïž
In the morning, you were a tangled mess of limbs and drool with your two best friends. Any warning against cuddling being tossed to the wind in exchange for the comfort human warmth brings. You hated to admit it, but it was the best sleep you had gotten in weeks. Gojo woke up not long after you, smiling softly, slowly coming back to life.
âGood morning,â He said. You shook your head and covered his face with a pillow.
âIt was before you started talking.â You muttered.âItâs 6 am, go back to bed.â Suguru begged, not happy to have been woken up.
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[bonus blurb] hotch!reader helps spencer sober up. warnings: alcohol consumption.
not proofread, darlings. enjoy <3
The team was out, in a bar, after a successful case â you had gone straight home, desperate to wash off the remnants of the last city and precinct you've been to. Derek, though, thought it was going to be funny to get the rookie, Spencer Reid, drunk. 23 year-old Spencer Reid, who had never drank more than three shots because his head got too heavy for his liking. You were home, watching TV and happy to be in your place, having rejected Morgan's invitation, not really in the mood for drinking or the noisy place. Two messages made your phone buzz.
[9:12 p.m.] Hiello! Why aren't you here? Everybody's here. - SR
[9:12 p.m.] Derek and I are playing a game.
Oh, hell, no. Playing a game with Derek? And no signature?
Oh, hell, no.
Grabbing your keys and your wallet, you left your apartment. You looked nothing like usual, wearing jeans, a plain t-shirt and a pair of Converse. Pairing that with a jeans jacket, you looked like a teenager. You drove your way to the bar and if the security hadn't seen you parking (which you hated, but tried to do it perfectly), he would've probably asked you for an ID. Upon entering the place, you spotted Penelope, ogling Derek shamelessly.
"Oi, Penelope." You greeted her, who angled her neck so you got out of her way, not willing to let you interrupt her ogling. "Where is Spencer?"
"Hi. What, did you join Panic! At the Disco or something?" She teased, looking at your outfit. "I must say, your dad won't like the switch of careers."
You smirked in response. She shook her head, laughing and leaning back on her seat. "Come on, where is him?"
"That one over there?"
Spencer was surrounded by people, chatting excitedly with strangers. You found it... odd. To say the least. It took him three weeks to be able to look you in the eye properly and not stutter when you were around â composed as ever, he kept digging himself a deeper hole when he embarrassed himself further and further when you were around. You brushed it off, thinking it had to do with pressure he was under, all the genius, overachiever thing going on for him. You truly didn't mind. You wanted to be his friend, because he was the only one around your age in the BAU. It was like being a kid, all over again, and your father took you to dinners over at friends. You searched for any kids in the room. You often weren't lucky.
Approaching Spencer, having the actual need to excuse yourself past people, you finally spotted him, a bottle of beer in his hands. Huh, unusual. He was entertaining people, reciting quotes perfectly from whatever show or book he could think about and was requested to. You rolled his eyes, he didn't even noticed your presence with how much passion he was speaking. You grasped his hand abruptly, but the softness that he felt was what made him stop dead on his speech. Suddenly, his tongue felt like twisting inside his mouth. Upon searching the owner of the hand, he spotted you. He couldn't stop his excitement and the big grin spreading on his face when he recognized you. "You came! You're... you're here!"
"I am."
"I can'tâhicâbelieve it!"
You didn't spare a glance at those around him, dragging him across the bar to sit him down. Maybe you had been rude. You'd think about that later.
"Are you okay, Spence?" You ask.
"Fâfiiiiiine!" He answers, giddily. You fight the urge to roll your eyes.
"Why did you drink so much?"
"Five. Shots, I mean. Approximately 44 milliliters each."
"That is not what I asked." You said, taking the beer bottle from his hand. "Why did you drink so much, hm?"
"I... I dunno," now, out of public speaker mode, Spencer was slurring his words slightly, "Morgan said that IâhicâI needed to unwind and, and... he kept, just... cheeeering..."
You rolled your eyes at that. You were so gonna kill Morgan. First, you hated drunk people and how all over the place they were and how they needed to be cared for. Not Spencer, though. No, never Spencer. Sighing, you mutter, "Stay here, okay?"
"Okay."
It's not like he could walk, anyway. His legs felt heavy and wobbly. As the alcohol ran through his veins, he felt hot, sweaty, desperate to remove his clothes, that were starting to bother him. His brain was also turned into mush, he was so relaxed, but he wanted to talk. To you, that is. And he couldn't because his tongue was tied and he preferred to blame it on the alcohol and not in the way you were so casually dressed, so out of your persona, so close to him.
Close. Closer. The closest you've ever been.
Close, but never enough.
You reached him again holding a bottle of water in your hand. You twisted the cap open and poured the liquid into a small disposable cup the bartender had given you. "Drink it."
"ThankâThanks." He muttered quietly, holding the cup and drinking it. His actions felt so numb, and he was scared to embarrass himself in front of you. Suddenly, he felt so small. As he downed the water, he couldn't help but ask, "Am... I am making a fool of myself, aren't I?"
You sighed. Spencer could swear that he could feel your eyes soften at him. No. It was the alcohol. Sure, it was the alcohol. "No, Spence... Don't worry. Just drink the water, please."
He drank it again as you poured him some more. "That is not how you unwind, okay?" You muttered.
"I... I'm realizing that now." He chuckled, embarrassed. Spencer felt better after drinking water. "How do I, uh, how do I look now?" He asked, trying to zero his eyes on you.
You snorted. "Drunk."
"Oh, God... you... you're going to remember this, aren't you? How drunk andâand, and how pathetic I am!" He asks, covering his face with his hand, the other still holding the disposable cup, trying to hide his reddened face. The last thing he wanted was you, the epitome of sobriety, to think any less of him.
"Don't worry. It's not my style." You revealed.
The corners of his mouth curled a bit at your words as he removed his hands from his face. "You're not?"
"I know these idiots will," you murmured, referring to the team, but looking at Derek, especifically. Turning to look at him, you tried your best to feature reassurance into your expression. "They have been in that state, too, at some point. Keep that in mind when they tease you about it."
"Yeahâhicâ... I'm just..." he trailed off, closing his eyes softly. "Glad you're here with me."
You tensed, but hid it under a layer of sarcasm, "Yeah. You better be, since I'm not shoving alcohol down your throat."
He snickered, and the sound made your heart flutter and all the annoyance (at Derek, of course) leave your body. Spencer felt like the barrier between daring honesty and acceptable words was as thin as hair width. "You... you're here. Taking care of me."
"Yeah, yeah." You said, looking away, trying not to give his words importance. He was drunk, after all.
Spencer took some time to study your features. The soft skin, the color of your eyes and the color of your lips, the tip of your nose. He fought the urge to plant a kiss on your cheek... It just looked so... inviting. The way your face look under the bar dim lights. He fought, struggled, warred against the urge to touch your skin, in any way he could. With his hand, through a graze of his arm against yours, with his lips...
Inside your head, you warred against the questions swimming in your head. About him. All about him. You decided to be subtle, instead. "Do you have anyone I could call, Reid? A roommate? A girlfriend?"
Spencer spluttered, face beet red. "N-no... No... No roommate or... or girlfriend," he said. You were selfish enough to feel relieved. "I liveâhicâon my own."
"Do you need me to drive you home, then? I won't let you drink anything other than water."
His cheeks flushed even more at the appealing thought of you driving him home and he giddily nods, not trusting his mouth to speak properly without pulling you in to cover your face in kisses. The thought of him, in your car, engulfed by your smell, as well as the thought of you, in his apartment, surrounded by his stuff, was so... fitting. So, so right.
Spencer stumbled a bit to rise to his feet, tentatively leaning on you for support. It wasn't necessary, but he thought it was a nice, indulgent excuse enough to be close to you. So close he could smell your shampoo and perfume. So close he could count your eyelashes if his vision wasn't so blurry. He leaned on you, heavily, and it surprised you that he was so light despite his tall frame.
The air outside was cold. As you walked to your car, you helped Spencer get on the passenger seat. Texting Garcia quickly that you would be driving him home so they wouldn't worry (not that you think they'd notice), you sat on the driver's seat, buckling your belt. Spencer was quiet all the way there, and you made sure to drive slowly to avoid him feeling nauseous. "You still live over there, right?" You asked, pointing foward with your finger, hands not leaving the steering wheel.
Spencer, focusing on not losing his mind with being so close to and alone with you nor throwing up in your car, nodded, now aware of his surroundings. "Yeah, yeah. But... how do youâhow do you know it?"
"You mentioned it once."
His heart skipped a bit and he had to turn his head to the window to hide the smile creeping up on his face. You remembered something he had said. About himself. Nothing could ever beat that. He fidgeted slightly in his seat, his long fingers tapping against his knee as he looked out the window as he contemplated getting drunk more often to be on the receiving end of your care. Stop it. Please. He tried to push these plaguing thoughts away, reminding himself that he was still a bit drunk, so, definitely not in the best state of mind. But the way you had felt against him... The heat of your body, your scent...
He would think about that forever.
"We're here." You announced as the car came to a halt.
Spencer fumbled to remove his seatbelt, his trembling hands struggling to have a good grasp on the device. You watched it curiously and you fight the urge to smile or tease him about it. No, you would keep that image to yourself, as selfish as it sounds. Finally, he got it, and awkwardly looked at you, as if he didn't want to leave just yet. "Well, then, this is... this is it." He announced.
"Come on, I'll help you up. Don't want you to fall down the stairs and die."
Before he could react to your deadpan, you dashed out the car to open his door and help him out. He leaned on you, a lot less than he did at the bar, seemingly too aware of your figure against his. As he made his way up the stairs (the elevator was out of service, again, and those stairs were a total nightmare), he tripped over his feet a couple of times. Blushing, he mumbled out an apology. "I'm... not... not usually this uncoordinated."
"I know, Spence. Don't worry."
The young doctor felt a tinge of relief upon your words. You were so, so careful with him, and you weren't judging him for acting like an idiot who could hold in his alcohol. He relished in the feeling of having you close to him, of having your undivided attention, solely on him. He was so, so happy and he mumbled a quiet "Thanks."
"Give me your keys," you asked as you reached his door. Your tone wasn't half as demanding as the words were.
The door swung open once you turned the knob, revealing a small, cozy apartment. Spencer's belongings could be seen everywhere, from books and papers to personal trinkets, and it was so... Spencer. Green walls, leather couch and dark furniture. It suited him. But the darkness was enough told you it wasn't just the absence of light that came with the nighttime. Barely kicking off his shoes, the young doctor flopped down on his couch, facedown. "Nuh-uh. You're going to take a shower. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better in the morning if you do."
"A-a shower?" He asked, sheepishly. The idea made him feel vulnerable.
"Yes, a shower. Or else you'll wake up all clammy and gross. You'll feel awful." You almost threatened. His face scrunched up in disgust as he looked up at you. You fought the urge to squish his cheeks and give him a kiss. No.
As Spencer made his way to the bathroom and you heard the water running, you took it upon yourself to find him something to wear. When you found his bedroom, you entered it. It was neatly organized and you almost giggled at how like him the space was. A bed with freshly washed sheets, a few books scattered on a study desk and a computer among them, a wooden bedside table with a framed picture of a younger version of him and an older blonde woman. You smiled softly. As you made your way to his wardrobe, you opened a drawer and found plain, simple clothes, which you couldn't help but find strange â it was so different from what you were used to see him styling. You looked down at yourself. You wanted him to be different tonight, too. You traced the edges of the flawlessly folded clothes, picking out a pair of sweatpants and a plain t-shirt for him to wear. You left the bedroom, going to the kitchen and filling out a glass of water.
You heard him padding to his bedroom quietly, figuring that he would keep pills in the bathroom. Going over there, you could smell the faint fragrance of his body wash, which brought a giddy smile to your face. You shook your head, searching for painkillers. Upon going to his bedroom to give them the medicine you found him fast asleep, so you placed the water and the pills on his bedside table. Your hands itched, and you couldn't fight it anymore, so you let yourself tuck away a strand of hair that was falling on his forehead. Smiling softly, you left a small note with his hangover kit.
Locked your door for you. - Hotchner
Spencer froze on the spot as he felt your fingers grazing his skin in the slightest. He heard your footsteps and when his front door locked, he sat on his bed at breakneck speed. Holding the slip of paper with the utmost care in the world, he giggled like a schoolboy with a crush. He laid back down, a soft grin on his lips as he held the note close to his face, sighing drunkenly, happily.
â
The next day, Spencer woke up feeling hot and clammy. It turns out that the clothes you had picked out for him were much too warm for him to spend the night after drinking that much â but he couldn't blame you for it. In fact, he was touched by your thoughtfulness and care. After drinking the pills (his head was thrumming, after all), he went to the bathroom to wash his face to go on about his day. As he checked his reflection, he found his name stained, faintly, into his cheek.
It felt fitting. It felt right.
Spencer was yours, after all. Always has been.
divider by @cafekitsune <3
original one-shot
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For me, Shadow and Amy's dynamic is basically two different types of touch starved in a person
((If any of the gifs on this post arenât loading for you on mobile--like they arenât for me--you can download them or check the sources listed. As for desktop, they play just fine, but they wonât line up next to each other like they do on mobile. Tumblr is a comedy of errors.))
Yes! Absolutely. Iâve seen tons of fans say Shadow is prickly and would respond badly to hugs, but canon says otherwise. This is a bad reaction:
[Sonic 06]
Whenever I feel like being sad, I wonder if Bad-Future-06 Silver has ever been hugged.
This is a bad reaction:
[Sonic Unleashed, gif source.]
And I shouldnât have to say this, but...yeah. These are very bad reactions:
[Sonic X]
[Sonic Generations]
Yikes. I feel bad for both of them.
But this?
[Sonic Adventure 2, gif source.]
This is Shadowâs only canonical hug in the games, and aside from jumping slightly from being snuck up on, he seems to like it just fine.
Just look at that smile! Heâs happy. He finds it endearing.
It was a hug from a complete stranger meant for someone else, but he still drank it in--and, given that heâd effectively just lost Maria, he really did need it. Itâs the combination of Amyâs gentleness AND her speech that changed his mind. After all, if someone as sweet as her sees something in the humans, maybe theyâre not so bad.
My buddy who runs @shadowxamyweek recently reblogged a post about this hug, and their tags sum it up perfectly:

[ID: A screenshot of tags on a post. The tags read:
#official art #4kids #shadow the hedgehog #amy rose #YEAH đ #listen I read nothing that has happened with them in SA2 as shippy - and i ship them #THIS HUG? THR SPEECH ON THE ARK? #those are two lonely kids #those are two left behind kids #those are two kids so desperate for affection #for two vastly different reasons #Amy loves with her whole chest and will never stop doing so- no matter what happens #and Shadow does too- that is key to remember- Shadow loves... so fucking much... that it hurts #you are RIGHT op when you say this is probably the first time someone has been gentle with him in a long long time #he doesn't even run away #in the game- when Amy flees- he takes a step after her- a moment's hesitation- a 'wait' #this kid NEEDED a hug #and i firmly believe part of the reason Shadow listens to Amy in the end is BECAUSE she is the only person who showed him gentleness #softness and kindness and affection #if only for a moment #fjdodhdofjgor THIS is what i mean when i say 'be gentle- be kind' #it MATTERS #it FUCKING MATTERS
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Shadow doesnât hate hugs inherently; itâs just that no one hugs him in the first place...
...aside from one person.
Amyâs easily the most affectionate character in the cast. Itâs cute at first glance, but thereâs a common thread to every instance that puts a damper on it.

Sheâs always, ALWAYS the initiator.
She puts more into each hug than anyone else does.
Sheâs always the last to pull away.
The most reciprocated Amy hug I know of in canon is this one:
[IDW Sonic issue #22]
Which is absolutely adorable...but Amy still initiated. Because itâs always her job. Even the characters who like affection donât need it the way she does...with one exception.
And this tiny detail just killed me. The little, âwait, come back đâ
Itâs the only time I know of when someone has actually stepped after her like this. In a game where everyone left Amy behind, he wanted to follow her. Mister so-called-prickly didnât want the hug to end.
Because heâs the only one who needs it as much as she does.
He wants to be held as much as she wants to hold someone else, and no one else is warm and sincere enough for it. Compare these instances:

[IDW issue #6]
Sonic thinks Shadow is wrong about something, so he grabs Shadowâs arm to stop him, and Shadow aggressively wrenches it away and leaves.

[Archie Sonic Universe #23]
But when Amy thinks Shadow is wrong about something and grabs his arm to stop him, he gently removes her hand and thinks about what she has to say.
Even when he doesnât want to be touched, he makes the distinction between âdonât touch meâ and ânot right now, please.â These are from two different continuities, of course, but I think the point stands. Amyâs special. Heâs gentler with her than he is with other people, and thatâs consistent across all canons.
Side note: how often does Amy get to feel special like that? I actually really like that Sonic doesnât place others in a hierarchy of importance, and I wouldnât change that about him even if I could...

[IDW issue #2]
...but Amy does play favorites. I want her to feel like sheâs someone elseâs favorite, too. I want her to have someone who puts her first and likes her best. I think Shadowâs more than capable of that. I believe he craves clinginess like hers deep down, even if he hasnât consciously figured that out yet.
I have an entire tag for these two being affectionate. My favorite is probably this one.
Of course, there may be those who say Iâm reading too much into one (1) hug. And you know what? Maybe theyâre right! We need a bigger sample size. Sega, make more characters hug Shadow, please. Let Rouge comfort him after he confides in her about something. Have Omega give him an awkward metal embrace because he read on the internet that organic beings like that kind of thing. Make Shadow himself pull Silver into a hug when heâs breaking down crying from the stress of always having to be a hero. Show Tails accidentally grab onto him out of fear when theyâre trapped in a lightning storm, and when he gets embarrassed and pulls away, have Shadow hold him for the rest of the storm and admit heâs not fond of bright lights, either.
[Sonic Boom]
That scene where Shadow and Amy rescue Cream and Cheese from Cryptic Castle? That easily couldâve turned into a cute group hug.
[Shadow the Hedgehog (2005)]
And I have seen some absolutely adorable fanart where he holds Creamâs hand while he and Amy lead her through Cryptic Castle to make sure she doesnât get lost đ„ș
Have Knuckles give him an empathetic bro-pat on the shoulder when he finds out Shadowâs the last one of his race, too.
[Archie Sonic Universe #89]
Have Sonic try to hug him, and then when Shadow inevitably pushes him away and says he doesnât do hugs, have Amy arrive and latch onto Shadow instead while he tries to stutter out an excuse as to why sheâs allowed to and Sonic isnât.
The most affection Shadow has in recent history is stuff like this...
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[Sonic Prime season 2 episode 1]
...where Sonic tries to hug him and Shadow immediately pushes him away, knocks him over, and tries to punch him in the face. Kind of says it all. Amy stands out as the only one with a good track record here.

[IDW issue #36]
Especially when you have him look at her like this when someone else is on the receiving end of that affection.
So in the absence of further evidence, I have no choice but to interpret this in the most Shadamy way possible. Your move, Sega.
#shadamy#amy rose#shadow the hedgehog#not a headcanon#ask#anonymous#what is it with touch starved hedgehogs?#not the first time i've used the previous tag. says a lot about these characters#meta analysis#clingy
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Twisted Wonderland boys with an S/O who's afraid of bugs (me too)
Did I literally just post 5 minutes ago? yes. am i posting again? yes. Stuff you should read: Bulleted HC's because i dont feel like writing an essay like i did with floyds tent hc, no beta we die like men, mention of multiple types of bugs Characters: Leona Kingscholar, Malleus Draconia, Trey Clover, Jamil Viper, Vil Schoenheit, Epel Felmier, Sebek Zigvolt, Floyd Leech
(can be read as platonic but i did write it with a romantic relationship in mind)
LEONA KINGSCHOLAR
Leona literally came running into the room thinking you had died or smthn, but no. you were screaming, standing on his bed....all over a small cockroach.
Bro actually sighed. like, a super big sigh, one that youd only get from a dissapointed mother while he stomped on the bug.
"Seriously, Herbivore? You took care of multiple overblots, but a single cockroach gets you all worked up?"
hes grinning so hard. youd want to punch him with how hard hes grinning.
all hes thinking is about the amount he can tease you about this
but, yes. he does get rid of the bug.
unless he was sleeping. then he forces asks ruggie to do it nicely.
MALLEUS DRACONIA
implodes the bug.
im not kidding.
he literally goes full on oceangate on that bug and implodes it
you didnt even have time to properly freak out before the bug was wiped off the face of the earth
"tsunotarou what was that sound?"
"nothing light of my life" *hiding bug corpse*
"are you sure bc i thought i saw a bug"
"nope. no bugs here? should we buy some bug repellant to ease your mind?"
".....no its okay."
you knew he somehow killed the bug.
and it only made you love him even more than you already do.
TREY CLOVER
catches the bug for you and lets it outside.
unlike the first two, he tries his best not to kill the bug.
he pulls the "how would you feel if i stomp on you and kill you?"
"if you killed me while i was a bug i'd thank you"
"you'd be dead, [name]."
"....id thank you from the grave."
he just sighs and shakes his head
probably convinces riddle to let him put anti-bug measures around heartslaybul for you (it didnt take much convincing riddle hates bugs too)
JAMIL VIPER
screams with you
probably set ramshackle on fire more than once while visiting you
you both have to call kalim or adeuce to come exterminate the single cockroach on the ground
again, that one tik tok sound where its like
"YOU KILL THE BUG, YOURE THE MAN!"
"SINCE WHEN."
thats a daily interaction between the two of you
if it happened at scarabia, he'd stay at ramshackle for the next month
literally would abandon kalim (or if he really cant be trusted he'd just bring kalim with him to make sure he didn't cause any problems)
VIL SCHOENHIET
screams with you x2
isn't as dramatic as jamil, but he definitely freaks out about it too.
about the bugs? no. about the bug bites.
again, youd have to call someone to save the both of you so you dont pass tf out and die while he gets eaten alive by a fruit fly
wym fruit flies dont bite? you cant be too cautious.
somehow always has bug repellant with him in the warm seasons
hes prepared and will NOT get any bug bites
EPEL FELMIER
zero reaction, or has a positive one.
"what in tarnation do you mean you hate bugs?! they help with fertilizer blah blah blah blah blah blah (i dont know farming stuff)!"
you have to CONVINCE him to get rid of the bugs, but he'll eventually cave and do it just for you
if you ask him to put up anti-insect measures he'd look at you like youre crazy
"[name]. bugs are actually really good for our ecosystem. back at home we always had to take care of the bugs, or else our crops would die."
"shut up. please. ily, but i cant deal with these bugs."
"okay okay okay fine"
will reluctantly set them up
overall a 4/10 for bug measures he will do it just not unless you beg
SEBEK ZIGVOLT
yells.
not in fear, but in anger because how DARE such a miniscule thing try to terrify the people he cares about?!
doesnt explode it like malleus
but strikes it with lightning.
yk his dorm card groovy? thats what hes doing to a little centipede.
expects you to praise him for protecting you
sure, its a given that he would, but he would very much so appreciate your thanks, and maybe a head pat or smthn
give him one.
now.
FLOYD LEECH
like trey, he lets the bug free
sometimes.
other times he kills it and chases you with the corpse
or keeps it alive and chases you with the living bug
if you REALLYYYYYYYYYY dont like bugs, like straight up sobbing, freaking out, then he wont but otherwise? have fun bro
someone has to seperate you two when you see a bug, because he will do something
sometimes if he's feeling generous he wont do anything and you'll be like "tf? what did you do to be so nice?"
"cant i just be generous towards my shrimpy?"
"no."
".....yeah i almost grilled grim thinking he was food."
"you WHAT."
all of this because of a simple bug
oh to be young and in love ----------------------- m.list @mit0ee 's work, please do not steal!
#twisted wonderland x reader#twisted wonderland#leona kingscholar x reader#leona x reader#malleus draconia x reader#malleus x reader#trey clover x reader#trey x reader#jamil viper x reader#jamil x reader#vil shoenheit x reader#vil x reader#epel felmier x reader#epel x reader#sebek zigvolt x reader#sebek x reader#floyd leech x reader#floyd x reader#no beta we die like men
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