#if i can finish this chapter
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I hate writing I hate writing I hate writing I hate writing I hate writing I am so good at writing plans of what I want to happen but the moment I have to actually write in actual sentences my will to live implodes
#nicholas d wolfwood i am suffering for you#you unrepentant repentant asshole#i cant back down now im at 12k words and i can't just throw that away#but also only half of that is actually properly written#oh the fucking agony#my head hasnt worked for over two weeks at this point#but this is for a fic exchange so i do actually have an obligation to write *something* at least#if i can finish this chapter#then that covers the prompt i was given#and the rest is all just a problem i have created for myself because i am silly#this is definitely the longest chapter though#4/8 *should* be fairly short and easy (haha as if) to write up#the last chapter is also slowly sucking my soul dry but that can be a problem for another day#rambles#send help
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Often when trans women ask me when I'm performing next, and I tell them that it's a queer/trans event, they will tell me that they'd rather not go because they do not feel comfortable or safe in those spaces, that they have been dismissed or belittled at such events before. Even trans women who are dyke- or bisexual- identified often don't feel welcome or relevant in queer/trans spaces. And whenever a trans woman or ally points out aspects about the queer/ trans community that contribute to these feelings of irrelevancy and disrespect—such as the way our community coddles those who support trans-woman-exclusionist events or who make trans-misogynistic comments—we are described as being "divisive." This use of the word "divisive" is particularly telling, as it implies that "queer/trans" represents a uniform movement or community—a "oneness"—rather than an alliance where all voices are respected.
Julia Serano, Whipping Girl. Published 2007.
#reading#just finished it and this from the final chapter was my fav moment and one of the few times i was nodding along#the book is solid in certain places#even incisive at times#but it is so theoretically confused and downright wrong in some of its foundatioms#that i CANNOT recommend it as an introduction to transmisogyny and i can only SUGGEST it as a v critical read#may say more later#whipping girl#transmisogyny
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Zombie apocalypse AU hualian designs for my fanfic that I WILL finish.. for real guys...
#posted some designs for this au FOUR YEARS AGO#which is how long I've been working on that damn fanned fiction#but I like having a creative pursuit i can take my time on#the urge to start posting chapters is so strong but i wanna finish it/almost finish before i do that#bc the last thing i want is another creative project with stressful deadlines yippee#but either way i enjoyed looking up that old art and comparing my growth!!!#tgcf#hualian#xie lian#hua cheng#my art#heaven official's blessing#tgcf au#tian guan ci fu
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Fire (part 3)
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(Spade Pirate Sabo AU Masterpost)
#spade pirate sabo au#sabo#portgas d ace#one piece au#asl au#idk what came over me yesterday to finish 15 pages in 2 days but i hope you enjoy#putting the blorbo through the washing and drying machine so he can come out happier and healthier for it hopefully#the amount of side views this chapter made me do is ungodly i probably should have switched it up a bit more#after this major arc is done i might run a poll to see what to draw next because i have Ideas#you know tage is in the trenches when somehow ace is the well-adjusted one between them
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Remember, there is always a great big beautiful tomorrow.
#goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft#hermitblr#my art#Wanted to draw a little tribute after watching the finale so i finished this a while ago and kept procrastinating on posting it HSAJKDHAHw#Jellie's design is from the scarland artbook <3#man ill miss s9 but!! love how scar tried to end the episode with such a positive note there i love this quote#remember that season 10 will be coming soon and there are endless possibilities for an amazing new chapter to begin :D#edit uh ive seen ppl talk about it so a little note#The cape is directly referenced from the scarland artbook and was not meant to be Techno's or Ren's cape#but you guys can take it how you want ig o7
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the brainrot won
#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without-#distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just-#super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff#i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i-#read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :(#SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!!#but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little-#break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think#ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for-#designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much...#WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to#umm. tags.#new life smp#smallishbeans#mythical sausage#geminitay#pearlescentmoon#smajor1995#inthelittlewood#my art#sketch
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End of chapter 1- The Mark
Part 1|| part 2||
#link between links#lbl warriors#legend of zelda au#zelda au#legend of zelda#and that’s chapter 1 babyyyy!!!#sorry this took ten billion years to finish#idk finals got me workin on this#brought me comfort from all the stress lol#don’t know when I’ll get going on chapter 2 but hopefully y’all can handle a longer wait right?#sorry it’s so dark at the end there#but he’s losing consciousness so#yayyyyy#eye strain#cuz of that one panel#the fact that you can see my backgrounds improve from one page alone is crazy#i blame the odyssey#anyways who’s this stranger here 👀#comic#lbl wars
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Song bird and the Rat - part 1
Natto and Moondust backstory time wohooo!
Part 2 ->
All chapters/and story master post
#orange knife#natto#moondust#ok#worm#my art#comic#oc#I’m trying out new comic style#this one is quicker to draw#not because I don’t want cool pages#like those two afterland postal chapters m#it’s more that#I have a bad record of finishing series#if it’s quicker and easier#I can get it out before burnout happens#ye
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MALEVOLENT SHRINE!
#sukuna#ryomen sukuna#jujutsu kaisen#jjkedit#anisource#jjk#my edits#i rewatched this episode in the bluray and wanted to appreciate curie lu i love you curie lu#id gif the whole bit that weilin finished for the bluray also but i seriously do not believe gifs would do it justice#GOD can you BELIEVE this fight is only TWO CHAPTERS in the manga
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The Preferable Alternative- Part 4
Start - previous - next
I really should slow down. But this was a pretty easy update and i had the day off.
In other news, i'm going to go make a masterpost now. I think 4 parts is enough to warrant one
: )
#tmnt#rottmnt#preferable alternative#my doodles#rise mikey#rise donnie#i'm definitely going to have to slow down#but i wanted this part out before i did the masterpost#so here we are#the next bit will NOT be out tomorrow#i can assure you that#probably not for most of the week#b/c i'm babysitting sunday-tuesday#and work wednsday-sunday#there will be no time for going nuts on this#(plus i have to finish the donnie vs chapter thats coming out next week)
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Sweet & salty can be a good mix! Idk about syrup in sandwiches though…
It’s bicorn day!!!
#Dungeon meshi#marcille donato#chilchuck tims#Happy bicorn day!!!#Happy peace and love on planet Earth day#Happy have hope in your heart day#Happy appreciate people as they are day#Happy april 10th. National holiday 2 me#Happy marchil peak day#Dunmeshi fanart#marchil#It’s also succubus day but whatever that#For them i would draw horse anatomy…#Chil can wear lace as a treat#I should draw more of them as centaurs#Didn’t manage to finish my analysis for today… Tragedy that’d have been perfect#Top 5 dunmeshi chapters I am normal about followed by winged lion and succubus ii#honestly this should be swapped bc as we know Chil is virtuous and Marcille is magnetized to brooding lil guys and weirdos idk
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#AUGHHHHHH FUCK#the. the parallel here when she reaches for hawkfrost after her nightmare in chapter 1 vs here#shes been alone for a good while now but now it's permanent and she'll never recover#mws liveread#also finally trying to finish this so i can move on to shattered sky omg. im reading like two other books at a time tbf
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Imagine if Rahab had to answer Elias's curiosity 24/7...
#the ancient magus bride#mahoutsukai no yome#ancient magus bride#mahoyome#elias ainsworth#rahab#artists on tumblr#fanart#TAMB#Finally I can finish this one#I just want elias to dress like british school boy#basically that one panel from new chapter give me this whole idea#I'm so tired the colour is so different from my laptop n my phone#anime fanart
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please humor my self-indulgent artwork for the historical AU I mentioned like half a year ago and finally started writing. Detective Dazai and swordsman-for-hire Chuuya teaming up to solve crime cases during the Meiji period ✨
close-up because after a decade on this website I still haven’t figured out how to get images to look sharp
#take “writing” loosely… my art block was replaced by a writing block… or maybe I can just focus on one per time… someone help 😭#and I overscoped… which tends to happen with my creative ventures but I really hope I will get something done with the au soon#the first chapter is finished but I want to get a few others finished and the rest drafted before posting anything…#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#soukoku#skk#chuuya nakahara#bsd chuuya#dazai osamu#bsd dazai#bsd#my art#this artwork is kind of inspired by a scene that’s going to happen a bit further down the line! skk team work yippie <3
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Eloise🥹💓
#still figuring out how to use color!!!!!! and what better test subject than my angel#this is actually for chapter 1 of my fic#eloise in her muggle clothing#I just scrolled through Pinterest super fast looking at various Victorian clothes and then I was just like#🤷♀️ white dress grey skirt it is😆😆#I love switching up her clothes in different drawings though…sometimes poofy sleeve blouse & skirt…#sometimes full robes sometimes the super cute plaid jacket and skirt…#NEVER PANTS THOUGH😳😳😳 damn…can you imagine…Eloise showing off her LEGS😳😳😳#I think I’ll post chapter 1 here soon/update it on ao3🥰🥰#also I have a bajillion more paintings started so hopefully I get faster at this#as color choice and the different steps become more comfortable😇🙏#this isn’t perfect but overall I am happy!! and the next will hopefully be better#my plans are finish the Bea/leo cómic🥰🥰🥰🥰 and I also have a quidditch Sebastian painting#and a painting of Sebastian in herbology class…you know the one😇#ok that’s all my hashtags for today#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#oh btw this is a redo of one of my first ever pictures I drew of her🥰🥰😳 u can find it somewhere on this disaster blog…..
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