#if anyone's interested just send an ask or dm me and I'll share what i got so far

[lordrandreaming]

Sorry for the inactivity :,)

I've been sick and depressed...

But! I have been writing about my headworld fantasy race and everything else that comes with them!

It's a long passion project I've been pecking at for five years now, and it's insane owo

[gatheredfates]

Hi! My name is Sea, and I like to collect things. 🌿

Specifically, as of February this year, I have made it my mission to collect as many resources for the Final Fantasy community as I can; including, but not limited to: Communities, Events, Free Companies, How-To Guides, Lore, Tools and more! I have compiled them into Sea's Community Compendium for FFXIV Creatives, a venture I hope will service as a directory for new and old FFXIV players alike to find places and things they might not otherwise know about, and I'm proud to say that the Compendium has over a hundred individual entries!

...But I want more.

Specifically, as much as this is a call to introduce new people to the Compendium, it is a call for anyone who might know of specific resources/communities that not in the document to take a moment's time out of their day to let me know about them. You can submit specific resources via:

My tumblr dm's.

This handy google form.

Or SEAFLOOR, my support and social community for the Compendium and adjacent projects.

You do not need to be a resource/server owner to submit; there just needs to be a publicly accessible link. ✨

Projects like mine equally cannot survive without the support of the community. If you like what I do, please reblog this post or share it with your friends; post it in your community servers or link it on your social media(s). The more visibility I get, the larger the Compendium becomes and the more likely you are to find a resource or community to suit your needs.

Okay, but really, Is my space suitable for the Compendium? Most of the time, yes! Below the read more is some more information/stipulations. This is all publicly available on the document.

Below are the following things I do not accept on the Compendium:

Personal/Single-Character LFC ads. (Though these get posted to the SEAFLOOR Tumblr Community when I find them!)

Content intended for or can be used for bullying, harassment and OOC gossip. E.g. ‘Secrets’ blogs, receipts, callout posts, etc. This does not include IC tabloid blogs or other ventures used to generate roleplay.

Communities that do not have an RP/writing element (large-scale exempt).

Anything I find personally distasteful or goes against the spirit of this project.

Common-sense rule applies.

I want to put my community on the Compendium but we have an application process. Is this okay?

Yes! Just note somewhere in your application that's a requirement. The only thing that is mandatory for the Compendium is that you must be open to new members or have a public-facing/accessible facet. There's no point advertising a community if no one can join it in some way!

I want to put my Community on the compendium but I only have x number of members —

Also totally okay! People don't start with large communities. Activity is a must but, whether your server has two or two thousand members, if you're looking for new people to join, I'd love to help you find people.

I want to put my community/resource on the Compendium but I worry its too niche?

Okay, and? If your Eorzean Fishing Alliance has four members but you roleplay every second weekend, I still want to know about it. The same goes for resources; if it's relevant to the game, it'll be useful to someone.

How active does a community need to be?

If you find a community has not been active in about two/three months, send me a message and I'll take a look at it. Communities have ebbs and flows, especially event spaces that may take hiatuses depending on member interest/life events. I'm not strict in my implementation provided a space isn't dead. If a link or anything is broken, contact me asap!

I have [insert a question not stated here]?

No drama! Send me an ask or use the #Compendium channel in my Discord!

[vendemiaire-crafts]

Formula 1 Photocards For Palestine! 🏎️🍉

I have 14 custom photocards of Formula 1 drivers laying around, that I’ve been meaning to give away or sell since I’ve lost interest in F1. Then it dawned on me — instead of charging customers directly, why not make it a donation drive to help people in Gaza?

So that’s what I’m doing!

Products

I have one photocard of each of the following drivers: Alex Albon, Valtteri Bottas, Pierre Gasly, Lewis Hamilton, Charles Leclerc, Lando Norris, Esteban Ocon, Sergio Pérez, Daniel Ricciardo, George Russell, Carlos Sainz, Yuki Tsunoda, Max Verstappen, and Zhou Guanyu. Again, there is only ONE card of each driver available, so get your fave before he’s gone! The photos on the cards can be viewed here.

I’m also selling toploaders that I’ve decorated myself! Closeup images of these toploaders can be viewed here. On the availability list, the toploaders are numbered as follows:

You can buy only a photocard, only a toploader, or both, or more than one of either! It’s up to you 🍉

Prices/Minimum Donations

(All prices are listed in USD, since I live in the US (California specifically), but conversion rates between currencies should be easy to find.)

Payment for cards and toploaders will be through making a donation to a relief organization or Palestinian fundraiser. Here’s a list of options you can donate to.

Photocard: $2 each

Toploader: $3 each

As well, for an extra $0.50, I’ll add in a photocard stand!

I'll also add in a couple freebie stickers! 🍉

Of course, you can make a larger donation if you’d like and if you have the money! The ‘prices’ listed are minimum donations to make for a purchase — for example, donate at least $5 to buy a card and a toploader; or donate at least $2.50 to buy a card and a stand. If you’re only in a position to make the minimum donation, though, that’s totally fine too. Money is tight for a lot of us ❤️‍🩹

The Process

DM me on this blog to begin an offer. Select which photocard(s) and/or toploader(s) you'd like to purchase (examples: toploader #20, Alex Albon photocard). Here's the list of which cards and toploaders are still available.

Make your donation to at least one of any of these fundraisers. Donations to multiple fundraisers are fine too, so long as it adds up to the minimum donation amount for your purchase! Then, once you've donated, send me proof via DMs. This can be as simple as a screenshot of your donation's confirmation. Also let me know which fundraiser(s) you've donated to so I can add onto it. Ideally, send me your purchase selection and donation proof at the same time.

I'll then send you your purchase! Note that after you donate and send proof, I'll ask you for an address to mail to. For those worried about privacy, all private messages on this blog stay private. I will not release, share, or sell your address to anyone else, or use it for anything other than mailing your purchase to you. For mailing, note again that I live in the USA.

I'll also donate double the amount of money in your donation to the same fundraiser(s) you gave to. For example, if you donated $5 for your purchase, I'll donate $10. I will send you confirmation of my own donation via DMs.

Questions? Feel free to send me an ask or a message.

After You Purchase

Keep sharing Palestinians' stories. Amplify their voices. Talk to friends and relatives about the dire situation in Gaza and urge them to help too. I of course can't speak for the people affected by the war and constant uncertainty, life or death, I'm just a fellow in the States hoping to help even in a small way.

If you have the money available to, keep donating to fundraisers and relief efforts. If you don't, share links to these fundraisers with others, especially those who can donate. Our brothers, sisters, and nonbinary kin in Gaza need every bit of support they can get!

Know somebody into Formula 1? Somebody who digs photocards and deco toploaders? Somebody in the kpop scene? Just anyone looking for a fun avenue to contribute to a good cause? Send this post to them and encourage them to buy!

Once your purchase comes in, tag me if you post pictures of it!

I'm super excited to be launching this donation drive, and I hope you'll join me in helping Palestinians on their races for safety, stability, and hope for the future once again.

Let's get donating!

It's lights out and away we go! 🏁

[tadpoles-and-daydreams]

A witchcraft basics doc; update, resource call, interest check, and a possible second doc

Bet most of you didn't even know I was working on this >:D

Yes this is a huge post. It's a lot of things.

So, one of my first posts ever on this blog was me mentioning that a friend of mine had NO clue what they were signing up for when asking for the basics of witchcraft. The google doc I wrote took on a life of its own, and the post did as well when people started asking for it. I still plan to tag said people when I post it, assuming they haven't deactivated. The thing is, this doc had become a proper project, and it took a long time for me to have the motivation to work on it again. Now, though, it seems to me like a damn good way to reconnect to my craft after a rut! (which, by the way, is why I've been offline.)

So, my first post back is for a couple of reasons. For one, if you have any resources you'd think would be useful for beginner witches, feel free to shoot me an ask, DM, or comment/reblog on this post! I'll have a list of things I'm putting in the doc (taking recommendations there as well) at the bottom of this post.

The other thing is that I might end up making a second doc, one that's a little less "101" in vibe. It would have a MAJOR MAJOR UPG warning on it, first off, and I'm not sure whether or not I would be marking any UPG either since this would essentially be a second Grimoire/Book of Shadows for me that would be public to others for the sake of sharing information! I can't say I'd call it "advanced witchcraft" by any means, I'm not very fancy lol, but I don't want the basics doc to get too overwhelming. I do, however, want to scream about random witchcraft topics that interest me. So this is also a bit of an interest check for that, as well as the basics doc.

FINAL NOTE: I fully plan on posting this basics doc before it's done. Some sections will be unwritten or unfinished, because if I wait until I find it "finished" I'll never post it. It's going to be added onto whenever I can, but I feel as though getting it out is the best course of action.

A list of stuff in the doc that I'd take resources on (AKA everything planned in it) with * by anything that will be left unwritten/unfinished on purpose until I know more. I will take resources and recommendations on EVERYTHING though. This is in no particular order:

grounding and centering

VOCAB (intention, intuition, UPG/SPG/VPG, appropriation. probably others I'm forgetting.

candle, plant, crystals and safety* (as well as any other tools one might need safety tips for. This is left completely unwritten as I use very few tools of this type.)

deity work* (the whole debate surrounding when to start, as well as information about it. Will include smth about house rules/boundaries. My work is very casual, I'd love to see different POV's of this! This is by nature left unfinished because deity work is so unique to the witch.)

grimoire/book of shadows

tools of the craft* (common tools and how to use them consumerism in witchcraft, etc.)

cleansing

appropriation* (I don't know near enough about this, I just check what's in my own practice. I would like this to include a list of commonly appropriated closed practices, a definition of appropriation and why it shouldn't be done, open pantheons, and common open practices.)

spellwork*

meditation

where someone could go from here* (including sigils, tarot, crystals bc my friend likes rocks lol, maybe astrology but oh god I have nothing about that it makes my brain hurt just looking at an astrology chart /pos. I will probably make a list of stuff that I could add in this section.)

casual/daily/quick/low energy practices and witchcraft

paganism and witchcraft; overlap, what they are individually, why one might be for you rather than the other, etc.*

there'd be a credit section for anyone who wants to be credited for links/resources at the end! If you send me resources plz specify if you want to be included in that or not.

Things I might include in the second doc if I make it:

the craft and mental health and my experiences with it

things commonly touched on in the community (your deities don't hate you, cycles of inactivity and burnout, other things I'm forgetting rn)

deity-specific things, more specific topics of the craft, etc. yet another reminder that this would all include UPG, possibly unmarked, because it would basically be primarily used to give me motivation to research more.

[loganwritesprobably]

Promptober 2024

In the interest of being able to start early because I'm easily overwhelmed, I've compiled my own list of prompts for writing in October.

Similarly to last year, I'll be doing some smut, some fluff and some angst, just to spice things up a little. I'm assuming most of them will turn out as One Piece or Teen Wolf, but we'll see where it takes me!

I appreciate it's a little tricky to read on the right hand side, but white wasn't really helping either, so I'll also paste the list below for easier reading, if anyone is curious

If anyone has any ideas for the prompts, feel free to comment/DM me/send an ask - I'll see what I can do (though it'll only be released in October)

I've not planned which pairings will go with which prompts just yet, I'm just going to see where my inspiration takes me for each prompt as I look at them, because it'll make it a little easier for me as time passes

Prompt List:

1) Fireplace 2) Wake up call 3) Dreams come true 4) Bread 5) Size difference (+18) 6) Scars 7) Napping together 8) DP/Two holes (+18) 9) Can't go home 10) First kiss 11) Hidden injury 12) Sweet tooth 13) Rainy day 14) Deep throating (+18) 15) Caught in a storm 16) Keeping someone safe 17) Presumed dead 18) Starlight 19) Virginity (+18) 20) Touch starved 21) Early morning 22) Childhood home 23) Daddy (+18) 24) Breakfast in bed 25) Breeding (+18) 26) Sharing clothes 27) Blindness 28) Sweater 29) Praise/degredation (+18) 30) Ghosts 31) Free space

[jovenshires]

I hope Courtney knows that she doesn't have to pretend to be part of the lgbt community to be interesting. She's never had any relationships with any girls and most of the people she's dated and were attracted with are men. I think she was so desperate to be as interesting as Damien, Shayne, and Ian that she decided to adopt being queer as her "thing"

hey, what an absolutely despicable ask to send me, a bisexual woman!

this kind of biphobia (although 'bisexual' isn't the official term courtney uses to label herself, biphobia is the most fitting descriptor here and so i'll be using that throughout) in my ask box is disappointing and disheartening. it is not courtney's job to be in (what is perceived as) a same-sex relationship to be queer. they don't have to be in such a relationship to get your approval, or to prove herself as a "real" lgbt person. some bi/pan/queer people will never have same-sex relationships. just like some will never have straight relationships, and some will never have any relationships at all. that doesn't mean the attraction isn't real or isn't there. no matter what their relationship status is, that attraction doesn't fade. she will continue to be attracted to women and to be queer their entire life. liking more than one gender is valid. being queer is valid. courtney's feelings, although they're none of our fucking business even if she's been gracious enough to share them with us, are valid. just because they're in a 'heterosexual' relationship right now doesn't mean she stops being queer - not to mention, it isn't a heterosexual relationship, it's inherently a queer relationship because they are in it. they're nonbinary and lgbt. any relationship they're in will be a queer one.

i'm just honestly... so affronted and disgusted by this whole idea. what on gods earth makes you think they're pretending? why would she drag herself through that mental anguish? if you'll remember, courtney grew up in a religious mormon household. why put herself through that? for 'clout'? to be 'different'? i'll tell you what, as someone who grew up 'different' in a religious family, it is not fucking fun. it is ignorant and disrespectful of you to assume anyone has the comfort to "pretend" they're queer to "stand out." i did not spend years at my bedside trying to pray away the gay just for someone like you to come in and say someone in my community is pretending. i did not go through my formative years lamenting how different i was from everyone around me for you to come in and accuse another queer person of faking it.

and another thing - it is fucking BAFFLING to me that you would say courtney was 'desperate' to be as interesting as shayne, damien, and ian. you named three white straight men. hello???? are you fucking blind to what you just wrote? courtney has been out here BEING different, being unique and interesting and genuinely herself. for as long as i've been watching smosh, they have been the core of that company. as of this moment, they are the only current non-male main cast member and the second-longest-running main cast member overall. she's an accomplished writer, actor, producer, and director. without her, there's no funeral roasts, no reunions, no 'our leaked dms.' without her, there's simply no smosh, because they're a major part of the reason that company even lived through the defy collapse and the pandemic. they're also just objectively one of the funniest cast members there (can you imagine not having boneless. or pov you're a lobster. i honestly wish i could be half the comedic genius courtney is and that's not an exaggeration or a joke). they are interesting because of who they are, not because they're 'pretending' to be anything. courtney would be just as popular and beloved as she currently is even if she had never come out, which they only did because they were brave and trying to be their most authentic version of herself.

this ask left my stomach rolling. i am absolutely appalled. the smoshblr community we've created here is meant to be a safe haven, as smosh the company has become, for outcasts and oddballs, and that is supposed to include the lgbt community. i have praised smoshblr again and again for being the place i've felt most comfortable and accepted, but this is extremely hurtful. as a bisexual woman who has constantly struggled with being 'queer' enough, i take this kind of thing personally. and you may be thinking that this isn't about me, but it is. this is about every queer person who has been accused of 'faking it' by one biphobe or another. if a person says they're queer - they're fucking queer. end of story.

[racheyace]

One Year Anniversary!

It has officially been one year since my OC's Luke and Matt popped into my head and I began sharing their shenanigans with all of you on Tumblr!

It's actually been a little over a year but I've been away on holidays and only just now available to start being active again!

To celebrate their one year anniversary, I did a sketch from 'What The Actual' where Matt discovers Luke's size shifting abilities for the first time.

It's not perfect and Matt looks much more fem than intended but I'm pretty happy with it!

I also have a few stories lined up and ready for editing before publishing them here so stay tuned!

I just want to say a big thank you to my lovely little following on here, interacting with my posts, sending asks (I'm slowly working through replying I promise!) and engaging with me and my characters. A year ago I never would have thought that anyone would be interested or enjoy my stories at all and yet here we are. I wouldn't have had the motivation to get this far without all of you so thank you all so much!

I also want to say that because I love this community so dearly, I am open to doing suggested stories for free, either in an ask or feel free to DM me, I only ask that you stick to SFW stories, intimacy can be implied but shouldn't be explicit.

I can't promise I will write them in any kind of hurry, but as a gift to the community and to my followers I will be taking suggested stories and writing ALL of them! Think of things that you've maybe always wanted to read about in the gt scene, or even more of my characters in certain situations, maybe an idea you've had that you've never been able to get down in words, I'm open to any as long as they are SFW and I will write them all.

Free suggested stories will be open for 3 weeks from today, 6th of November they will end. I will begin writing them from today, I'll have a rough list and will post as they are finished, warning this process may take several months but my promise to you is that they will all get done.

So happy Luke and Matt-aversary! Get your creative thinking caps on, because I will be writing!

Taglist:

@da3dm

@smolcomfycat

@satethesatelite

@coffehbeans

[fl0atingbubbles]

Want to be a part of an Indi animated show??

yep, that's right! I'm working with some friends on an indi animated show inspired by all those who came before! The concept has been building for around a year now and we've decided to start looking for some more artists and writers!

The show is called ZOMBIECORE!

ZOMBIECORE is a horror mystery show about a zombie bunny in a city of cannibal demons! Follow her as she searches for her killer through the 5 districts of Ghastown!

(click on the images to see them better)

Now before I go on any further;

‼️THESE ARE UNPAID ROLES‼️

This is just a passion project that we are working on in our spare time, if things progress further there might be payment down the line, but that is extremely far away and not at all guarantied. If this does not work for you, don't apply!!

info:

anyway, onto the details! We're looking for concept artists/animators as well as writers for the script!

artists/animators will be (you don't have to be doing all of them if you're an artist, just what you're comfortable with!):

- making visual concepts for the show's overall look - character designs - background/location concepts - animation/movement concepts - and anything else that comes up!

this role could also evolve into you helping out with backgrounds, storyboards, or animations when we get further along!

Writers will be:

- planning the episodes - writing the scripts

yep that's about that! some important things for you to note before applying tho!

- this is UNPAID (like i said before) - you only have to do work you're %100 happy to do and take breaks whenever you need - you can drop out whenever - you don't need a specific skill level. We are accepting every and all applications from expert to beginner! so don't feel like your art isn't good enough <3

I'm working as the animation director and a Co-writer, so I'll be there to help with whatever role you have, and if you've been following me for a while you know i don't bite.

How to apply

- Have discord (no way around this) - Send me a DM on discord (user Fl0atingBubbles) - if you want to be an artist, please add examples of your art! Anything animation or concept based would be loved, but any art will work!

Once you have sent me a message I will look over your application and send it to the director (their name is Bloom)! We will then decide if you're allowed on the team! you might have to talk to Bloom before you can join just to check if you'll work, but they're super nice lol

after all that you'll be welcomed to the team and can start helping out!!

If you have any questions about this please ask and I'll give you the best answer i can!!

✨Also, if you guys could share this post around or tag anyone you think would be interested, that would be great! we'd love as many eyes on this as possible!!✨

[virtue1nvain]

SUPER-DUPER INTRO

You can refer to me as Belial :3

I am apart of the Alterhuman community ( I'm perfectly fine specifying what in DM's). PLEASE INTERACT IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR OTHERKIN OR THERIAN FRIENDS PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS!!!!!!! MY DISCORD IS VIRTUEINVEIN!!!! PLS FRIEND ME!!

I am 15, but don't mind minors or adults interacting with my posts or getting in contact as long as you're nice!!

FYI, I'm autistic!! So please be patient sometimes, I'm doing the best I can to keep up, but everyone around me seems to have SUPER long legs !!!

I am transmasc genderfluid and the pronouns I use primarily are he/him, they/them, xe/xem and it/its!!! Idm she/her either!

Fyi, if you don’t want to ask or are too nervous to: just use the pronouns typically associated with whatever kin I'm shifted as!

Im also a fictionkin! im happy sharing a list on in dm's or making a full list somewhere so it's easier to access! Feel free to follow, dm or send me a frq on discord if we're source/mediamates! Im fine with absolutely anything and anyone :3

I also happen to be a part of the sfw age-regression community! Im perfectly fine with anyone looking for friends in the community contacting me, at all! If you don’t like that, PLEASE leave <3

My current interests or hobbies are honkai star rail, jujutsu kaisen, cosplaying, art, talking in general, singing, music, fnaf, the owl house, gravity falls, yaelokre, digital art, comics, most games, pressure, Equilibrium, and some other things!!

I'll pretty much block if anyone follows me and I don't like what I see, I do this for my own comfortability though, so if I do block you don’t take it personal!!

Heres a list of things that will get you a one-way ticket to PERMANENTLY BANNED AND BLOCKED town!! (See below)

DNI if you're racist, xenophobic, lgbtq+phobic, terf/radfem, misogynistic, sexist, transmed, proship/anti-anti, darkship, map/pedo, zoophile/zoo, pro-contact para (? I forget what it's called sometimes, I think this is the right term?), anti-kin, anti-noncanon kin, system discourse, NSFW based accounts (idm if you post it sometimes but FULLY NSFW accounts make me uncomfy) anti-alterhuman/anti-otherkin, furry hunters/haters, support Melanie Martinez, support Dream, support Iskall, support Wilbur, thinspo/pro-ano or trans-med!!

Current kinshift(s): Lizzie (The Life Series)

Id(s): Grian (hc+ls), Mabel Pines (gf), Amy Rose (sth)

I'm perfectly fine being treated, associated, referred to, and recognised as my kins!!! Go wild!

#kincussions - tag for talking!

#memory lane - tag for talking about kin canons, technicalities and other such things. Basically a general kin tag that im gonna swamp with memory dumps

#back together٩ ˊᗜˋ - tag for reblog art of me and anyone from source!

#personal cubby - tag for anything related to me irl! including selfies, pics of plushies, pics of projects, pics of cosplays, or pictures of my clothing!

[spidersins]

⚌ Who inspires you? ♦ How has roleplaying on Tumblr improved since you started out? ☀ What’s the best thing about roleplaying?

Send 📱 To Find Out About My Muse's Phone

⚌ Who inspires you?

oh....quite honestly SO many people in this rpc i can't tag them all but i'll tag as many as i can - @heiilari - vixen is just??? she embodies everything i adore about writing in a community. not only is she the most friendly person, but she will help with every little thing you mention and not expect anything in return. looking for commissions? she sends you profiles of artists she uses. thinking about faceclaims?? she has resources for the characters and sends them all your way. outside of this?? my god, i am a slut for her talent at lore building. she has constructed so many interesting and unique characters, some of which weave into one another and each headcanon and lore post she drops i obsess over for a good few minutes. just....an absolute inspiration @toxitrosia - i mean...shock horror, starlette has to be tagged for this one too. between the aesthetics, the style of writing and her portrayal of valentino i am constantly in awe. they have managed to take the concept of valentino apart, and reconstruct them entirely as their own, in a way i feel delves into darker, more complex themes that i don't believe the show would have time to ever linger upon. between the shift in valentino's demonology and the change of valentino's abilities and rise to power, i am forever inspired & always looking forward to what i'll see next @gamblins - my darling autumn!!! honestly they have been my biggest inspiration, between the wobbly days where i fear my portrayal isn't strong, or i feel as though i'm not active enough they are always there to reassure me and have my back! between our sharing of headcanons, artwork and daily chats they are always inspiring me and reigniting my muse! @blitzbuckz - lizzy??? nah you ain't fooling anyone, thats fucking blitz behind that screen. truly, it's rare that i have a blog where i see each post and just go...yep, that's them. the skill in which they write blitz is mindboggling, and the only reason i KNOW that they're not ACTUALLY blitz is because their drawings are fucking incredible. quite honestly just gazing in pure admiration and inspiration whenever they bring our fave imp to the dash

♦ How has roleplaying on Tumblr improved since you started out?

oof - i mean...it's changed, a lot. not necessarily in the best ways at points? with callout & cancel culture, anon hate and general drama....but i feel as though the way in which everyone writes is better - no shade to paragraph writers or one liners, i'm talking 2010 when we wrote actions with asterisks and used painfully huge gifs that weren't even in context for the writing & i feel like communicating ooc has changed drastically with the addition of tools like dm's i'm showing my age and discord

☀ What’s the best thing about roleplaying?

the connections ♡ i'll say it every damn time, but through roleplaying i've found two of my best friends, one of which i was a bridesmaid for, and another i'll be a bridesmaid for next year *coughs* @cherribxmbs *coughs*- i couldn't ask for a better thing than genuine friendships building outside of actually writing - and already since making this blog i've found so many wonderful people i'm touched to call my friends

[moo-savr]

Hello! Is there a particular way you'd like art request to be sent? Ask or DM message? Are OCs allowed or fandom characters only? thank you for the answers :)

Heyya!! Well I'm glad ya asked this question mate and I'd be happy to answer cuz frankly anyone can send me on what to doodle ^^ I'll be answering your questions one by one since well I need to organise my thoughts

a particular way I'd like my art reqs to be sent:

anyway or form really!! But I prefer on the asks on tumblr or strawpage really! either a scenario of a character ya like or a idea/headcanon I don't mind doodling them out!! Just make sure nothing to problematic really <:)

OCs or Fandom characters:

ANY!! either a character from a fandom ya like or an OC ya have I'd be glad to doodle them either way ^^!! Cuz i think people sharing their interests are cool and sharing their ocs are really cool too!!

Anyways those are my thoughts!! Hope that anyone reading this will be glad to send them ^^ I don't usually get asks often <:)

Anyways ty op for askin ^^

[quiznak4]

Hi guys! Looking for rp partners again! Please be 18+!!

I'm not replacing anyone at all, Just looking for more rp partners. I'm 23, and I'm looking for a smutty rp with dead dove content. 

We can share ou kinks in Dm but I'm looking for a monster/human dynamic with stuff like breeding kink, Mpreg and Ovi, size difference, Transformation (this one is my favorite) and a lot more but we'll see what we want to add and create in dm. 

I'm mostly writing m/m but I'm willing to do m/f if I can play the F. As for playing submissive or dominant I much prefer playing the submissive character but under a few circumstances of the plot I can play the dominant.

 This is going to be dark and kinky as hell so if that's not what you're looking for maybe this ad isn't for you, I do like a good plot though so we could focus on both if that interests you.

I send several messages a day and like Ooc chatter, sending pics and music about our story is just so cool! I would just ask of you that you don't ghost me, I understand we all have lives but if you want or need to stop rping with me please warn me. Promise I won't eat you.

If you're interested don't hesitate to DM me or like this post! I'll reach you as soon as I can 

[gassybbykittenn]

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I am a 26yo trans man who is very into being quite the slob. Though it's something I keep very private from those around me I thought perhaps I would make this blog to allow myself to explore my kinks without having to fear about being judge ^\\^

sub, poly, pansexual, I have a partner but I am open for a friend or maybe something more ^\\^

You can either call me kitten or cat, pup puppy as I prefer those pet names! This blog is just for me to express myself and to make friends with those who are into the same things as I am! if you're not into my kinks and interests that totally okay but just know I will not be accepting any hate towards me or anyone who feels welcome on this blog. I want this to be an open space for those who share my interests! ^\\^

I am heavily into those who want to share all their thoughts, stories, dreams that they wouldn't dare to share with others. Please feel free to send me asks or DM me so I can tell you just how hot I think you are as I am just a sweet baby kitten who wants to know just how filthy you can be!! >\\<

I'll probably share my own experiences, stories, and dreams as well so if you're into that please stay and let me know how much you love hearing about me being a filthy little kitten as I am just dying to be praised about it.

I am heavily into: praise and degradation stuffing, slobbiness, burps, farts, messing/copro, piss, honestly anything that you seem filthy I am probably into (I share what I normally would not share on my personal blog)

I am not really into: smearing/eating, emeto, excessive spit, ABDL (occasional diaper usage is fine)

DNI:if you're transphobic, a Minor, Chaser, or truly not into any of what I have talked about. This is a safe space for those to feel free to share similar likes!!

Feel free to DM or send all the ask your heart desires, I'll be happy to chat with all of you!!

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[momentsofamber]

Y'ALL.

Despite getting like four hours of sleep I just played the most thought-provoking freebie indie visual novel with a simple gothic style to it

-- and last night I played an indie freebie platform with a gorgeous gothic art style --

and since tcoaal is my current hyperfixation ( primary content on my blog, and the reason a lot of folks are here atm ) I thought that as I'm going through my Steam games I've been hoarding forever ( especially freebies ), I'm going to make a collection of games with a similar feel or style and compile a recommendations list here on my blog.

I feel that not only would that be good exposure for those indie developers, but it would also give me the ability to give other people an idea of warnings and whatnot before they click into the game. ( I do not have an major triggers and can play dark fictional content safely without any threat to my mental health. )

Would people like that? A rec list of gothic style games ( some free, some paid ) with content warnings ( but no detailed plot spoilers ) so that people like me who are perhaps impatiently waiting for tcoaal updates can find some similar content or themes in other games in the meantime?

These games may not even fall into the proship or problematic(tm) category but I think it would be nice to share more of what seems to be a niche interest in dark or edgy content for a lot of us, and right now I have the time and means to explore some options available to me.

I'm also open to suggestions if anyone wants to add them! Leave a comment on this post or in the tags if you reblog, send an ask, DM me - whatever makes you most comfortable and I'll check the game out!

[trans-axolotl]

for anon asking about NPD/ASPD resources

For context, anon sent in an ask searching for nonstigmatizing resources for support with PD diagnoses and other stigmatized diagnoses.

And this is such a good ask--it is so fucking frustrating and dehumanizing to try to search for support when half the stuff that pops up is using really cruel language or just directed towards family and friends. The community definitely deserves better, both when it comes to the way psych professionals perpetuate stigma and in regards to the prejudice and sanism that shows up in other communities in our lives. Unfortunately, I don't have a ton of resources on hand, although I do know one good support group. The rest of the resources I know of are kind of mediocre or not PD specific, so if other people could add on I would really, really appreciate it!

Neuromancers runs a discord and a Cluster B peer support group that I've heard really good things about. I haven't been myself, so I can't 100 % vouch, but they're a group with abolitionist and mad pride values.

This might not be exactly what you're looking for, but it's an article exploring cultural bias in PD diagnosis that links to a lot of sources that talk about how psychiatry contributes to stigma around personality disorders. I clicked through some of the studies that it links to and it does use a lot of medicalized language, but I thought I would link the article anyway in case it's ever helpful to have academic sources to show to other people.

Also not exactly what you're looking for, but another article debunking some of the common talking points about NPD in pop psychology (Content warning that it is discussing some very ableist myths in the context of challenging them)

Last sort of general resources for peer support that I have some trust that they are PD friendly are the Wildflower Alliance and Hearing Voices Network Groups. Wildflower alliance groups offer a lot of different general peer support and I have one friend with NPD who has spoken positively of those spaces. Hearing Voices Network groups can vary a lot depending on location, so defintely plan to email ahead, but I've been to a few groups that welcome people who generally identify as psych survivors/mad/ex patients who want to share community spaces around those values. Also want to share is the neurodivergent friendly workbook of DBT skills (the link is to buy it directly from the creator but if anyone who is interested can't afford it rn, dm me and I'll send you a pdf.) Again, I know this is really not super relevant to what you asked for but is one of the less stigmatizing, less medicalizing workbooks I can find for accessing info about coping skills and this is one of my general favorite support resources.

Overall I'm really sorry that I don't have better resources to offer you, and I think that really should be a sign to the mad pride/psych abolition/peer support community that we need to do a lot better job in making sure that our spaces are explicitly welcome to people with stigmatized PD diagnoses. The work shouldn't have to be on you to try to navigate these spaces and figure out whether or not you're welcome, and any spaces that offer peer support, are aligned with mad pride and psych abolition, really should be doing the work to make sure lateral violence and sanism aren't being perpetuated.

followers, esp followers with lived experience, please add on!

[originalgenshinscenarios]

Monthly special: Variable Barricade crossover!

AGH I had it almost done for like a week. BUT I KEPT RE-WRITING THE LAST SCENE so it took me a week longer than I wanted it to 😭😭😭 BUT I’M BACK. And as the poll results are also in next chapter will be start of Miko’s route!!

If you want to join the taglist just send an ask or dm me!

Reader here is female and has established background.

Cw: Age gap (Reader is 18 and the ladies are ages 20-24)

|First chapter|

<= Previous chapter | Next chapter (Miko's route) =>

After the disaster your suitors called not a big deal, your absolute angel of a friend decided to check on your situation personally. Meeting your suitors was a way for her to determine if your grandfather had actually made a mistake by choosing these women. 

But who knows on whose side she'll be on in the end?

Part one, chapter 4- Fight for approval

After telling your suitors about Ayaka visiting they seemed quite interested.

"Just so we're clear, how much have you told her about us exactly..?" you didn't expect Yelan to worry about that, but it's not like you planned to hide that information. 

"I've told her enough for her to be interested. Then again, me and her are close so it was just a matter of time before she requested that I introduce her to you" you thought it was more likely for her to want to meet whoever you decide to choose in the end though, if not for your constant rants about them. 

"Hm, I wonder if she's visiting out of curiosity or concern. Perhaps both" Miko had a smug smile on her face "Ah what I would do to hear just what exactly you're saying behind our backs" 

"You talk like you never start conversations about me" you stare at her blankly. 

"To be fair our interest in you might as well be the only thing we share in common" Ningguang points out. 

You honestly had no words at this point. It just baffles you how one second they're at each other's throats just to defend each other the next. Shouldn't they be rivals? 

Your silence was an answer louder than any words you possibly could convey as you saw how everyone involved in the conversation just now took the hint. 

"So, when is she going to come by?" Eula was the one to finally bring up the question. 

You shook your head "Honestly… I don't even know yet…"

-

A week later, you and Ayaka were having lunch together. With what she promised recently, she decided to tell you only now that she planned to come today.

"I already informed Thoma that I'll visit today. I hope this isn't too much of a hassle that I didn't let you know sooner" she sounded almost guilty. 

"I still don't get why you couldn't call me yesterday to let me know" you huffed. 

"Because I know you enough to know that you would tell them how to behave. And I want this to be as genuine as it can be" she politely explained. 

"You say like they'd listen to me…" you complain. They don't listen to you. They don't even take your feelings into consideration… Most of the time "And also I could have already told them everything already for all you could know" with your answer she gave you the look that made it clear that she knew you were bluffing. 

"See? You were considering it. And they would listen if it meant they'd be able to impress both you and me" she pointed out. Although you weren't so sure about it, you decided to not argue with Ayaka on that matter. 

"Fine, you're right. But what about Thoma? You don't know if he isn't doing the exact same thing" if anyone he'd be the first to set them straight so they wouldn't embarrass the family head's judgement. 

"As much as it's his duty to make sure you warm up to those ladies, he is also curious about my view on the matter" she smiled "Let's just say that he wanted a second expert's opinion" from the tone of her voice it was clear that she only worried about you. But her words did come off as if she was teasing you. 

"And who would be the first expert?" it couldn't possibly be your grandfather right? He's very capable of reading people, but at the same time he hardly can be called an expert at what you might want or need. 

"That'd be Thoma. You know, he contacted me back when he first was starting to get to know them. Even then he tried to convince me to meet them, but I figured it'd be more fun if you were to introduce me to them… hope I did the right call on that…" she suddenly didn't sound as confident as she usually is when talking to you, so you decided to affirm her. 

"It'll definitely feel more natural. I'd feel weird if I were the last person to meet them to be honest" you rest your head against your hand as you let out a little sigh "Was it the same for you and your engagement?" 

You don't often talk about Ayaka's arranged marriage, mostly because she doesn't feel the need to. She accepted it a long time ago with little to no complaints. 

"I was the second person from my family he talked to. First was my brother who gave out the idea" she had her usual ever so polite smile on her face. You only then realize that your question was a rather stupid one. There aren't a lot of people Ayaka's soon to be husband could talk to in the first place… 

You remember when she told you the news. Unlike you she wasn't forced, she agreed to it. Your emotions didn't understand it but your logic did. For such a small family and a huge company, it's not impossible to imagine them needing some additional assistance. But you're yet to hear about her brother's marriage-! 

Your anger was as clear as day and it earned you a chuckle from Ayaka "Y/N, are you thinking again about the situation? It's sweet of you really, but I'm satisfied with how things are" she didn't look like she was lying "I just never planned to marry out of love you know. And if I can do so for mutual benefit, why shouldn't I?" you've already been through this but it still feels so weird to hear how happy she is about engaging in a loveless marriage. Especially since she wouldn't wish the same for you. 

"Ah… This topic is killing the atmosphere, isn't it? Let's discuss something else" and with that your usual chat with Ayaka started shifting topics from one to another. 

-

During your time at school, nothing out of the ordinary was happening in the house. 

"I wonder if Y/N was actually planning on introducing her friend to us" Yelan started the thought. 

"Why not? She probably has her own responsibilities, so surely you didn't think we'd meet her day after Y/N's announcement" Miko commented as she looked through a magazine. 

"Right, I forgot that whoever associates with the L/N heir has to be high class too" Yelan rolled her eyes. 

"It's more about that friend being a classmate from a prestigious school. Not that she'd only befriend someone on her level" Miko sounded bored "I mean, we're her "love interests" and the closest to high class is Eula who got disowned" 

"Don't bring me into this to prove your point Miko, besides it's normal for us to assume that meeting Y/N's friend will be sooner than later and it's been over a week since her announcement" Eula answered unusually calmly. 

"I'm just surprised how Yelan is getting impatient just after a week. I mean we had to wait much longer to even see Y/N in person" Miko rolled her eyes "But you're right, arguments like that will be only boring so I see no point in continuing it. Yelan, I apologize" she faked her politeness. 

"You're lucky I don't feel like wasting my energy either" Yelan sighed as she was thinking about leaving the room.

"It's almost impressive how the mood shifts the moment Y/N is gone. Almost like we're back with how things used to be when we first met" Ningguang joined in on the conversation. 

"Don't even bring it up. It was just disaster after disaster" Eula said. 

"That's true, imagine what would she be like if she heard what sort of things we argued over" Ningguang let out a light chuckle, lighting up the mood "If not for you and Thoma we probably would not be half at peace as we are now" 

"I'm honestly quite surprised how you somehow managed to prevent more fights than start them" Yelan turned to Eula. 

"If you meant it as a compliment, you're doing a bad job" she huffed.

"Speaking of Thoma…" Miko changed the subject "Does anyone have any idea as to where he might be?" 

"He should be somewhere in the house, otherwise he'd tell us that he's leaving" Ningguang answered. 

"I'm here, miss Miko, do you need something?" with Thoma entering the room it was very clear that he was in a better mood than usual. 

"I'd like two things actually. First, could you brew me some tea? Second, what are you hiding?" everyone looked at Miko slightly surprised by her second mention. 

"And what do you mean by that?" he raised his eyebrow at her as he was more focused on her question rather than her request. 

"You're acting a bit different today ever since you took a call. Did the old man tell you something about the engagement process?" trying to guess the reason, she took a closer look at Thoma. 

"Ah, that was just a private matter" he answered before going to the kitchen to prepare the tea. When he turned around though he could feel a little nervous over how he could potentially ruin "the surprise". 

"Interesting, I thought he didn't have any private life to speak of" she chuckles. 

"I suppose he's just that dedicated to serving Y/N. But it is concerning how he doesn't do anything but that" Yelan thought out loud "Do you think he ever even takes days off?" 

"He had to take a few at some point… After all, he has worked with L/N's family for years. There's no way he never took time off" Ningguang paused "But… He might just like his work too much to notice. I definitely was never blessed with such a job but who's to say he didn't just get lucky?" 

"Oh I definitely got lucky" Thoma joined in as he served Miko her tea "You could say that I was made for this job. As for my time off, before you came by, whenever Y/N was at school it was something that could be considered as such" he smiled proudly "That's just the way of being a full-time butler. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Hope this satisfies your curiosity" 

They looked at him without really knowing what to feel about his statement. But they decided to keep all their opinions to themselves regarding his relationship to his work. 

-

Few hours later you were headed back to your "home". As long as you've lived there it couldn't feel any further from the definition of home… But then again, the family estate didn't fit that description perfectly either. 

With Ayaka on your side though, you felt confident and ready to enter. After opening the door the first to greet you was Eula. But she paid more attention to Ayaka by your side. 

"Hello Y/N, I take that this is your friend?" you could tell that she wasn't too pleased with the aspect of a surprise guest. 

"Greetings, I'm Kamisato Ayaka. It's my pleasure to meet you" each of her words was filled with grace and it impressed Eula.

"My name is Eula, as you already know I'm one of Y/N's suitors" you were surprised by how polite she was, given how she acted upon meeting you in comparison "I'll let the others know about your arrival" she walked back to the living room. 

"Hm, she sounds different from how you described her" Ayaka giggles as she waits for you to lead her to the living room. 

"Hmpf, she acts unusually hostile when talking to me" you complain before you walk up to the door. 

"Perhaps she's just the type of person to act like that towards those she's interested in" upon her comment you could feel your cheeks burning up, but you don't respond to her teasing (even though it didn't sound intentionally so) and instead open the door. 

Everyone's attention went immediately to you, only to be turned to Ayaka as she was an unfamiliar face to most. They had seen you talking to her earlier, sure, but it's not like they even knew who she was until Thoma spoke up "Miss Kamisato, it's been a while" usually he also referred to her by name but it was only when it was just the three of you hanging out. 

Ningguang seemed to be quite interested upon hearing Ayaka's last name, but she waited to speak. 

"Right" you say to yourself "Ayaka, this is Ningguang" the two shake hands, you move on and introduce everyone in the same way. 

After the introductions all of you went to sit down, Ningguang was the first to jump on the opportunity to speak "It's an honor to have the opportunity to meet you miss Kamisato" 

"Please, just Ayaka is fine. I wouldn't require formality from someone who wishes to marry my dear Y/N. I'd like us to become friends- if possible" she claps her hands together. 

"Of course, Ayaka then. Mind telling us how you and Y/N got acquainted?" when Ningguang asked that question it was almost like Ayaka waited for this moment. 

"It was a year ago, we already knew each other since we've been in the same class but a year ago is when we really became friends. Although Y/N was quite popular I noticed that nobody really talked to her. So I gathered some courage within, and approached her myself" listening to this sounded almost like she was talking about dating you, but you don't stop her at her tracks "Believe it or not but she wasn't that much interested at first…" your suitors give the look that was telling you how much they believed that part to be true "But I managed to find a trick to get through that barricade. Unfortunately though… Some people claimed that I'm keeping her to myself. I honestly was just confused, because until I talked to her nobody didn't even speak to Y/N besides exchanging greetings and goodbyes… and that's when she stood by my side and told them that she likes my company, I was so moved!" as she fondly looks back at the memory, there was one thing all of them were curious about… 

"You found a… trick to get closer to Y/N?" Yelan asked the right question. And you just now realize that this visit might've been a trap from the start. It all made sense now. Ayaka was setting you up to give your suitors the right push to start getting close to you. 

"You wish to know what it is?" you almost couldn't recognize Ayaka with how she planned her words carefully for this exact moment. Before you got to protest she said "How about we play chess? Whichever of you wins, will get the information" which made you relieved. 

"Chess? Hm, I don't see why should we refuse. Especially if the reward is so valuable" Ningguang looked excited. 

They didn't know what they set themselves up for… which gave you an odd sense of satisfaction. 

-

"How do you-!?" Eula was so frustrated she couldn't even finish her sentence. 

It's been hours, and none of them were even close to beating Ayaka. You already lost count on how many matches started. But Ayaka was unbeatable. You haven't met her brother, but you were told that he was even better… Which gave you a little scare for how good the Kamisato siblings were at chess. 

Everyone was a mess, Eula was mad above all else, Ningguang had her pride trampled upon as she thought she was good at the game, Yelan was hesitating more and more with each move, even Miko lost her poker face after losing so many rounds. 

The worst thing is: none of them planned to give up. Fortunately, Thoma stepped in before it turned into a chess night "I believe it's getting quite late, maybe we should continue this some other time?" 

"You're right, unfortunately I think I should go. What a shame… I honestly didn't expect for this to be so entertaining" she innocently smiles. 

"So the rumors were true after all" Yelan said under her breath. 

"I definitely won't forget this disgrace! I'll have my revenge, just you wait" Eula had a stern look on her face. 

"That was… insightful… I honestly never thought my strategy to be so flawed" Ningguang on the other hand had a soft expression of disappointment on her face. 

"Hm, it's not like I needed that reward anyways. But it sure was fun to play with you Ayaka" Miko waved to her goodbye and went upstairs. 

"It was great meeting all of you. I wish you best of luck" she was ready to leave, and you earlier agreed that Thoma will drive her back. You also decided to tag along to have a talk with her. 

After leaving the house you were hit with the cold air night had to offer. Soon enough you entered the car and said "So meeting them all wasn't your only reason after all" you crossed your arms. 

"I'm sorry Y/N, but it was the best way to see all different sides of them in the shortest amount of time" she defended herself. 

"I wouldn't call those hours short…" you look out of the window and seeing how dark it is, is nothing but more proof. 

"You're right, I did get ahead of myself. But seeing their determination to fight for you definitely didn't leave a bad impression, did it?" 

"... Maybe" you mutter under your breath. 

"Hm? Can it be that you were happy about someone fighting for you in particular?" she says in a hopeful tone.

|Miko|

"I was surprised how Miko tried to win. She always seems so confident that she knows exactly what I want" you answer with a confused expression. 

"Is that so?" she paused for a moment "Maybe she just wanted to make sure the others won't get the answer?" she tried to fill in the blanks for you. 

"That seems possible… But then, letting others have the answer would be only an inconvenience. So I see no reason why she'd play for it so "desperately"" you still couldn't get that image of her losing some of her confidence. It could only lead you to a thought that she may not be as confident as she may seem. 

Then again, seeing her from many sides would definitely work in her favor. You don't necessarily like the idea of her constantly teasing you for the sake of her own amusement. 

Still, you're interested to learn why she thinks that you need her. Maybe it's just a matter of her "profession hunch” or maybe she was out of ideas to make you even slightly consider her so she threw random words in order to save face. 

|Ningguang|

"I remember how when we first played and I had almost the same reaction as Ningguang" you fondly look back at the memory. 

"I remember it too, it almost made me feel bad when I saw that disappointed look on your face" she giggled "So I definitely could see the comparison" she looked at you as if she wanted you to continue the thought. 

"That's right, but I don't think it matters much… I honestly can't tell why it stuck out to me so" it's only a normal reaction when you see that you're not as good at something as you originally thought. 

There was definitely potential in Ningguang for the corporate field. The more you talk to her, the more you're certain of it. So should you end up not liking anyone she would be a safe bet to some extent. 

Although your interactions were limited, you start to consider the fact that perhaps getting along with her wouldn't be so difficult. So maybe she's a better choice than her "title" may suggest.

|Yelan|

"Yelan seems to look out for me the most so far… I… I think I wouldn't really be against it if she were to win" as you think about it, she probably wouldn't even use whatever Ayaka's trick may be. 

"Oh? And how does she care for you exactly?" upon her question, you wanted to bite your tongue out for even speaking up about it. 

"She's just respectful of my boundaries. Nothing more nothing less" you glance away. 

"That's sweet of her. But are you sure it's nothing more?" with her question, you shook your head. 

Yelan… There is something about her that makes you even more interested in her. She's so carefree, additionally there is that mysterious aura around her you can't help but want to know more… 

She also seems to be the most concerned about you from the bunch, you wonder if there is a reason behind it- or is it just her personality trait.

|Eula|

"Although I'm used to seeing Eula mad, this time it felt a little bit… Different" you admit. You weren't sure why exactly, but her determination was something quite charming… Even if she didn't go about it in the best way. 

"Well, maybe because her anger was directed at herself" her way of thinking got you to think. 

"Hm… Maybe you're right… B-but I meant it as a feeling of respect I'll have you know, before you get any funny ideas" there was no way you'd fall for someone this quick. And especially for a reason like this! 

"Noted" she definitely didn't believe you. 

You wouldn't admit that you're the same but… You can definitely see how similar the two of you are, whether you like it or not. Especially given the relationship she has with your grandfather it almost makes you feel like she understood you the most out of the group. 

Then again… You can't help but wonder why it was just now that your grandfather decided to introduce Eula to you. 

-----

Now that you answered her question, you started thinking if you wanted to ask her something too. You thought a bit more about your choice of words as you decided to bring up the topic "Ayaka…" your tone changed, causing the atmosphere to change and making her worried "Why is it that you care so much about me being in love with my future spouse?" you still couldn't get it. Sure, it’s normal for a friend to wish for the best, but Ayaka is almost insistent that you fall in love rather than have a beneficial situation like her. 

"Y/N, unlike myself I think it's just what you need. Of course I don't claim that I know you better than you do but… Can you at least try and see for yourself?" she said with a sweet voice "And if you decide that you feel nothing towards them, I'll be the first person to stop them from pursuing you further" 

You chuckle at her promise as you decided to make one of your own "Okay, I'll try not to deny any possibility of falling in love" 

She was clearly satisfied with your answer "Be sure to update me on the matter, I'm curious to know who you'll pick in the end" 

-

When you were back in the house you thought back on your conversation with Ayaka. You prepared a plan for how you'll proceed from this point forward. You had their files in front of you, you've read it all so many times by now you've memorized everything that's on them. 

"I need to see if I can trust them… but how can I achieve so..?" you think to yourself as you hear a knock on your door. 

"You can come in, Thoma" you immediately answer. There was no need to see who it is, after all only him and you can be on this floor. 

So when he opens the door and serves you something to drink he notices how you were reviewing your suitors. You've started writing pros and cons for each and one of them already and it earned you a chuckle from your butler. 

"I see you're taking this more seriously than I imagined" he looked down at your notes before taking a seat on your couch "But don't you think that it's best if you let your heart decide instead of logic? You have plenty of time. So there's no need for you to set your heart for someone because it's the "best" choice" he says warmly. 

"I have a lot to lose should I make the wrong choice" you give him your perspective "I mean, I don't even know if I can trust them yet" 

He seems to be reading through your notes "So why make those?" 

"It's just to think of compatibility… uhm- either way that is but a secondary matter" you feel embarrassed as you snatched the notes from his hands. 

"Don't you think all this analysis and over thinking is what leads you to being so distant with them? Sure I'm also not a fan of you suddenly being thrown at a stranger, but no matter how hard you think this" he gestures to the pile of papers "isn't going to help you build any connection or relationship with any of them that will be real. You can't calculate your feelings" 

"Then what do you propose I should do?" you look down at your work troubled. You know this isn't going to work… But at the same time you're just too afraid to do anything else. 

"Spending time with them separately should do the trick" he stood up "Or at least take the opportunity to talk to them alone when you can" 

He knows you ignored this solution, but now that he had brought it up it's much harder for you to pretend to be clueless. 

"Really? Why haven't I thought about that?" you say sarcastically "Thoma, I know this is the best way but I just don't feel comfortable around them yet" 

"And you think this will change when you keep pushing every opportunity away?" he walks up to the door "Please consider what I've said, goodnight Y/N" 

When he left you let out a frustrated groan. Him being right made you angry at that moment, but since he was right you really had to think about your actions moving forward. 

You look down at the notes you've snatched from Thoma. You really have a problem with viewing it as anything other than an arrangement. With that in mind you can only laugh at how helpless you are. 

But just because you're helpless now, doesn't mean you'll remain as such forever. 

It was time to prove this to yourself and everyone else.

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