#if I take the day off I’m gonna go to the movies 😞😞

[narumi-gens]

torn on whether to take a personal day today. I feel like the distraction would be good, but I know I won’t be able to focus on anything.

[cheesysoup-arlo]

*cough* *cough* Sick day

Reader is sick and AJ comes over to take care of her

A/N: so sorry this is so short also I totally didn’t make this for my sick mutual @ashecampos (I did lol)

You have been sick for the past couple days. You have an absolutely horrible cough and you feel like shit. You stayed home from school which sucked because you really missed your girlfriend.

AJ(bubs)🛹💕: hey baby how are you feeling?

(Y/N): like shit 😞

AJ(bubs)🛹💕: aw I’m sorry to hear that, is it ok if I come over after school I miss you

(Y/N): I would absolutely love that

AJ(bubs)🛹💕: ok I’ll be over after school, try to get some rest ok?

(Y/N): ok bubs I’ll try, I love you 💕

AJ(bubs)🛹💕: I love you more baby sleep good 😘

You decided your girlfriend was right and you had like 3 hours before she’d be over so you let sleep take over your body.

~3 hours later~

You woke up feeling a little bit better not a lot better but a little

*knock knock* someone’s at your door you sluggishly walked over wrapped in a blanket

You open the door and see “AJ!” You immediately pull her in for a hug “hi baby” you pulled away and coughed like a lot “aw baby go lay down, I got you your favorite soup from that one place you like and some crackers” “you’re the best girlfriend ugh I wish I wasn’t sick so I could kiss you” “it’s ok baby, you go put a movie on and I’ll get your food all set up” she says kissing your forehead, you head over to the living room to clean up a little then putting on the tv and looking for a movie for you and Aj to watch. “Here you go my love, have you taken any medicine for your cough yet?” Aj asked setting the food and a few other things on the table “mhm but it’s been like 4 ish hours?” You say a little unsure of when you took medicine last “hmm you should probably retake it soon if it’s a 4 hour one” “it’s a 6 hour one” you say grabbing a couple crackers “I missed you so much today” you say leaning into her “I missed you more, now eat your soup beautiful” you ate some of your soup while Aj played with your hair, you loved being with her so much…your happy thoughts were interrupted by the overwhelming need to cough you quickly got up and set your soup down coughing so hard your body ached. Aj quickly went over to you to rub your back while you coughed and then hugging you when you finished “poor baby” Aj said holding you close and rubbing your back as you melt into her arms “I hate being sick” you pout “I know baby, how about you lay down ok maybe some more sleep will help” “but-“ she puts her finger on your lips and pulls you over to the couch “no buts you need rest or you’re not gonna get better, I promise to be here when you wake up, ok?” “Fine I’ll sleep I guess” you say as she helps you lay down on her, pulling the blanket over you “good night Aj, thank you for taking care of me” “of course I’ll always be her to take care of you baby, sleep well” she says playing with your hair as you slowly doze off thinking about how lucky you are to have her in your life

[sylvie-fics]

do another arcane as texts

Arcane Characters As Texts From My Friends (3)

Jinx

What’s the rules on the woodshed? Can we be in there without a more adult adult?

i have that cow skull, i want to find some use for it as a whole BUT it has a bunch of teeth which are loose like i could get pliers and take them all out

I understand there are reasons I got bullied throughout my entire school career, and this is definitely one of many contributing factors.

Are you volunteering to put me down like a horse with an injured leg 

Vi

Ive been informed that if I apply for the “best buddies” club, I receive my own personal sorority girl

And my bed wasn’t like, actively on fire? 

You masturbate every day and commit adultry all the time 

I thought he was asking out of competitiveness, but he said he was asking because he’d heard about tourists having heat strokes and such while visiting because they aren’t used to the heat. Then he got upset when I said I don’t wear sunscreen

Ekko

I am not hitting anyone with my car… intentionally.

Bitch doesn’t know how to use a phone so suddenly I’ve forgotten too

I’m like a year into this and just now looking at the instructions. Apparently there are many unsafe things I’m doing? It’s not gonna stop me from doing it tho

And I was like— yeah— very league of legends of me

Silco

Mr horse bones isn’t a monster he just autistic

Have you ever heard of the Hindenburg disaster?

He’ll watch a horror movie but not interior design?

im pretty damn sure something wrongs going on in there

People think Satan is powerful or whatever but they’ve never met me

Caitlyn

Damn y’all gonna mess around and get an American girl doll movie made about you

Don’t you dare use my coping mechanisms against me woman

I’ve decided to become a slutty nun 

You have such good energy so much ugh and just kindness radiates from you like orb. You’re my best orb.

Viktor

I totally scorched a little bit of my hair welding today 😞

Resin will outlive me, My immortality pact having fallen through.

I eat symbols for breakfast, and my body has amalgamated them into something much more horrifying. 

I want you all to know that I love each and every one of you dearly. But If I don’t stop coughing soon I’m about to start sacrificing you all off one by one as an offering to whatever god controls health

Jayce

A wise philosopher of ages past once spoke, “we are living in a material world, and I am a material girl.” 

what role does Skeletor play in the history of our world, then, if He-Man, his greatest enemy, was a collective of unspoken heroes?

According to TikTok because I’m not going to fact check it, blue whales are so loud they can kill us if we’re too close

I blink my eyes real loud and get what I want

[badgirlhungry]

December Diary ⛄️🧦🍁🎄🎅🏼🎁🎉🎂🎈🍾🎆❄️

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My goal is to add to this everyday of December to help keep me accountable to my goal.

My boyfriend’s family always does a huge New Year’s party and last year I didn’t go because I was embarrassed of how fäț I was.

This year I want to show tf up and amaze everyone w how good I look.

My birthday is this Saturday (24🥳) so I want to get to 155lb by then, and then I have the rest of the month to lock in and hopefully get to a MAINTAINABLE 150. I’ve never gone below 155 (yes I know that’s embarrassing).

I always make progress and then mess it all up when I get emotional because of my bipolar disorder. My sugar cravings get so so so bad and then I give in because I get depressed and miss my boyfriend.

But I want this month to be different. I’m holding myself accountable. I want to amaze everyone. If I look super good I might go get a piercing or tattoo or dye my hair so that I can post on IG and woo everyone lol. So self-centered!

So anyways, here we go,

Sunday 12/1/24: walked 4.5 miles today while on 24 hour fast! Lifted at the gym for an hour. Then came home to eat around 5pm.

Had an Oikos Triple Zero 15g protein greek yogurt (90kcal) mixed berry flavor. So delicious.

Added 2 tablespoons of flax/chia seeds (70kcal)

Then, I snacked on half of a 16oz bag of baby carrots (90kcal). Dipped some of them in dijon mustard before I read the label (so stupid—I threw the bottle away immediately after) (100kcal😞).

total intake: 350kcal || calories burned: 300

not bad. weight after my walk: 164.4

let’s hope tomorrow I go #2 lol. But I am planning to see a movie w my boyfriend… so hopefully we don’t get any food 😳😳

Monday 12/2/24: just woke up, went #2!!! lol weighed myself before drinking water and now I’m 162.8!! Yay not bad!!! 5 days to lose 7 lbs I think I can do it…? Will update later

update 12/2/24: well my bf got hïğh and slept all day, so we didn’t end up going to the movies. we did other stuff instead ;-) but then he order mcdonald’s and i was so uncomfortable bc he wanted me to eat some. i refused but he stuck one (1) french fry in my mouth and made me take 1 (one) tiny bite of his sandwich (so gross). but other than that i fasted. not mad.

when i got back, I went on the treadmill and did 4 miles in 68 mins (ik im slow). I also lifted earlier. so I just weighed myself rn and im 161.0!!!! almost back to my pre-thanksgiving weight!! very happy w this number but really hoping for more by the end of the week. kinda worried of how drastic im taking it (even tho ik to some this ain’t sħïť lol). butttt hopefully no bad consequences. now im gonan drink some tea and sleep 8 hours :-) excited for tmrw it’s a big day. im turning in my grad school app! yay <3 burned 400 cals and today i bought a vâpè (don’t tell me bf lol)

12/3/24: GRAD SCHOOL APP SUBMITTED!!!! HUGE DAY!!!! Berkeley Fall 2025 here I comeeee!!!!!! lol but because I was grinding out my application today I did not have time for any movement. Didn’t get any steps today :(

But, I’m not too mad. I didn’t eat today again so we’ll see if I lost any weight in the morning. I doubt it but it’s fine because today was a needed work day. All the stress lifted off my shoulders! Thankful to be alive and healthy rn. Let’s make tmrw a good day 💕

12/4/24: just woke up and weighed myself and omg! 158.8!! 3.8 more pounds to go in 3 days!! I think I can do it ! I haven’t ate since Sunday! Hopefully i’ll spend some serious time at the gym and doing cardio today. Gonna try to drink a lot of water today bc yesterday I didn’t. But, I have bad news. I have a doctor appt today for a check up and Im nervous. I don’t know if they’re gonna notice the disorder or if I’m gonna slip up and accidentally hint at it. We’ll see. I’ll update soon.

doctor appt was fine. scale at dr office said 159 (clothes on duh). blood pressure was good. came home and ate 6 egg whites: 6g protein each equals 36g. 30 kcal each equals 180 cal. omad done. 72 hour fast complete. honestly i got full off of the first one and it hurt my tummy, but it’s okay bc i feel like it was healthy. whatever. tmrw my prof said they are bringing snacks to class so im gonna try really hard to be mindful of what i eat. hoping to stay disciplined. happy w my progress so far. only walked 2 miles today tho that’s lame :/

12/5/24: holy crap I had such bad anxiety going to school today after 3 weeks off. But I went and for both my classes my professor brought cuties. So I had two in my first class, and then two in my second class. I wasn’t sure if I could eat them but I googled the nutrition facts and they’re mainly water and high in potassium and vitamin C of course so I decided it was okay. 40 kcals each so 160 kcal total. I think that’s okay. Now I just got home and I’m kinda hungry so I decided I’m going to boil two eggs. 70 kcal each with 6.5 grams protein so about 17ish grams protein today and 300kcal total. not bad. Later I went to the gym and lifted and walked 3.5 miles on treadmill. Probably burned 150kcal.

12/6/24: Well, my bday is tmrw and the goal was to be 155. I weighed myself this morning and I’m still 158.6. That’s okay though I knew 155 was a lofty goal. Hopefully my boyfriend thinks I’m attractive. At least I still have until Dec 31 to get skinnier.

Anyways, rn I just had a Oikos triple zero yogurt strawberry flavor which is 90kcal 15g protein. Now I need to go workout and get some steps in. Check in later. Update I did only 1.5 miles lol

12/7/24:!!!! it’s my birthday!!!!!! my boyfriend came over last night and we had so much fun 🥰🥰 now we’re going out today and I’m gonna have crumbl cookie and my favorite italian restaurant !! im not gonna worry about the calories but i am gonna watch my portion. im gonna eat super slow and chew my food intentionally. im gonan take home most of it so i don’t eat a lot. then my boyfriend can eat it all later. so excited for this challenge. i wanna show myself i can be strong around food. also!! just weighed myself and…. drumroll… im 156.6!!!! the goal was 155 but im still really happy with that!!! i lost nearly 10 lbs this week so i think i did a great job!! im almost to my lowest weight. it’s okay that im gonna eat a lot today bc what’s the worst i can do? gain 3 lbs? im not mad!!! yayyyyyyy birthday!!! cheers to good health and more blessings 🥰🥰🥰

okay update for 12/7: i ate hellllla. i had starbs and crumbl cookie and fettuccine alfredo. but im NOT UPSET about it. it was an amazing birthday w the loml. not weighing myself until after my next fast.

12/8/24: so I had to babysit all day today and I always eat hella when I do bc the ppl I babysit for have sm good fresh organic healthy food. So yes, I binged, but it was all healthy food like grapes, strawberries, low sodium sausage, etc etc. not mad about how much I ate because it made me happy.

12/9/24: so today I went way overboard. I had a hot chocolate that a friend got me. then my boyfriend got me pancakes from ihop. I know I didn’t have to eat them but I did. so now I feel like a huge fatty. three days in a row of eating is crazy. but I’m starting my fast now and im not eating for the rest of the week. I will weigh myself tmew after my fast.

12/10/24: haven’t ate since yesterday at about 4pm so im already at the 24 hour mark. I still don’t want to weigh myself bc I haven’t gotten in any cardio. i’ve been doing finals all day. I’ll weigh tmrw bc im scared.

12/11/24: finally went to the gym today. still haven’t eaten so i passed the 48 hour fast mark. still haven’t done any cardio but that’s bc i wanted to use the extra food i ate to build muscle so i trained legs and booty hard. I weighed this morning after going pee and im ashamed but im 162. so I gained 5 lbs. that’s not horrible tho. ik i can lose it if i keep fasting. im going to weigh myself again tmrw morning and see if it changes which i think it will. im seeing my boyfriend again this weekend so i need to get back to 160 at the very least. even tho he doesn’t care but whatever. i love him. at least i feel strong rn. tmrw im gonna try to wake up early to go work out before class. wish me luck.

update 12/11: fuck i broke my fast after 54 hours :/ i ate 3/4 can of tuna (140 kcal) (28g protein) with some lite mayo (40kcal) and half a bag of baby carrots (80kcal). so ima round up to like 280kcal. not bad but damn i was doing so good.

12/12/24: in-class final today and i ate a lot. had 3 slices of pizza, and like a handful of cookies man. but that’s okay it was well deserved. but then I smoked after and doordashed ben n jerrys. fumbled. ate the whole pint. so def over 2thousand kcal today. pain. painnnn.

12/13/24: first day of work today. fasted. boyfriend coming over so i has to buy some groceries for him and me. got us healthy foods. we got high and i ate the other ben n jerrys pint. fuck. fucked up. def over 2thousand kcal again. fuck. least i had a good ass workout before he came over.

12/14/24: boyfriend and i went to the movies and got popcorn but it tasted like shit. we also got sonic drive thru bc i had a gift card and i ate more ice cream. then bc i was uncontrollable binge, i doordashed more ice cream and cake and chocolate once he left. i didn’t eat it all but i did eat a shit tone. prolly over 5thousand kcal fr. kms whatever.

12/15/24: i hate my life but whatever. fasted all day. i miss my boyfriend so bad i keep crying. wanted to dǐě today. wish he loved me more. then i finally got dressed and did my makeup to go to the gym only to find out my university gym is closed for 5 weeks until next semester. devastated. kms. so now i need to figure out what ima do without it bro. ihml. i just wish he loved me. time to starve another week away. work tmrw. man :( i’ll weigh myself maybe tmrw. we’ll see

12/16/24: didn’t eat at work. came home ate salmon fillet cooked in olive oil but. ate it w nori and an avocado. not even gonna measure that shit but it can’t be more than 1thousand kcal. i’m tired asf.

12/17/24: ate 3 pears at work and other random shit. not more than 1thou kcal. too tired to gaf. idk why i’m depressed.

12/18/24: alright today was a good day. finally fucking weighed myself. walked 2 miles at work, then got home and went for a mf 5 mile walk biiiiiiiiiťch. 16k steps. at work i ate like 3 chicken nuggets, 2 handfuls of cranberries. a few spoonfuls of mashed potatoes. prolly like 600kcal tbh. then i went straight to the gym and lifted heavy. then my walk and i weighed myself and i was 162 again which is good considering i was 167 again after my weekend binge. so i’m not mad. i can get back under 160 by the weekend as long as i don’t fuck up. still so far from my december goal tho :(

but then i got amazing news. my bf told me his mom asked me to come over for their new year’s party (i already assumed i was invited, but it still feels nice to hear her say it). so that DEFFFFF motivated me to lock in more bc ik she’s gonna wanna see if i’ve lost/gained weight. so now i’m super locked in. for dinner i ate 2 of the oikos triple zero with some raspberries and blackberries. so 250kcal we’ll say. but i’m just excited for tmrw bc it’s gonna be a busy ass day and i’m hoping that i burn hella calories. might snack thooooo. we’ll see. it’s okay bc i’m locked in. and ima try so hard to go to the gym after work. ily guys. pray for me to get to 155 for new years please omg.

[kaylatoonz]

Agree to disagree 🤷🏾‍♀️

I still think there are many creative ways to implement her character into the movie.

The Video has even mentioned some examples

like Amy already living on earth without the team's knowledge, if her needing a connection to the humans is really that important. (honestly, I don’t think she needs to live a day on earth to care/want about every living being and to give them a chance).

Also, I don’t think “ sonic redeeming shadow” is necessarily the direction the directors are going with in this movie (I could be wrong though🤷🏾‍♀️). From what I could remember from one of their older interviews about Sonic Movie 3 they mentioned that “ Shadow would be a tougher nut to crack compared to knuckles due to his trauma and that a simple speech from Sonic wasn’t going to cut it this time” (not exact quote but something among the lines)

(Edit found a photo of the quote not sure what article it's from though)



It seems like they don’t want to rehash Sonic redeeming Shadow as he did for the last movie with Knuckles. So it makes sense for a new character with a different way of approaching others on a deeper and more empathetic level to take a swing at it… like Amy.

Besides they already gave Amy's moment to Sonic in the Archie series and Chris in Sonic X in the past… and yet neither of them was as impactful or memorable as the original one. (I don’t want there to be a round three of this.)😞

Lastly, I don’t think the movie should be 100% about Shadow's story/origin so there should be room for characters like Amy and Rouge. They can save any other ideas they didn’t get to touch upon in the third movie for a Shadow for movie spin-off or series. (we all know that we’re getting one😒).

And Maria and Gerald (though rumors mention he could be alive in this version) are characters that died in Shadow’s story so I don’t think they’re gonna have a huge amount of screen time .

Most Amy and rouge fans are not asking for the movie to give these characters, huge roles that take up huge screen time like most fans think. We just want them to be there and not be replaced or brushed off. (the film could easily set up a small foundation of their characters/roles for this movie and give them bigger roles in later movies).

They are important characters that play a huge role in Shadow’s development just as much as Maria and Gerald.

Sure the roles they play may be small but they always have a major impact on other characters or the story by the end. (that’s literally what Amy Rose is all about).

Whether Amy and Rouge are in the third film or not I’ll try to respect Paramount‘s decision but I would be lying if I say I wouldn’t be disappointed or bitter about it.

 My hope is rather low on them making it in the film, despite my passion for these characters. But I’m still keeping my fingers crossed that they’ll make it into this movie and prove everyone wrong by exceeding everyone's expectations.

And if not, then I hope they make one heckuva fourth movie with these two to make up for it😤.

Opinion: I don't really want Amy or Rouge to be in Sonic 3 that much, or at least I wouldn't mind if they weren't in it.

1: The 2nd movie already felt so crowded with all the characters it had. Tails and Knuckles were fighting for screentime, and Tails' developmemt ended up feeling super rushed and forced. I'd like if the third movie just focused on developing Shadow so it doesn't have a similar problem.

2: As far as Amy goes... I think it would fit better if Sonic gave the speech to Shadow, not her. Sonic has spent a long time on Earth getting to know humans, and has formed close bonds with several of them. If he did the speech, it would be alot more impactful then if Amy just appeared on Earth and did it in the same movie. If she were to appear in a movie, I'd prefer it to be in a possible fourth one that adapts Sonic CD.

[mouthfulloftoothpasterry]

Much more cowboyrry x y/n Pleaseeee I’m obsessed

Okay I got you besfran 🫡

I’ve already made it clear but her family is just so obsessed with him

Like they could call over to invite him over for dinner or something and not bother to tell Y/n (mainly because they knew she would already be coming over, or that Harry told her)

And when they were “sneaking around” I feel like her family kind of knew. There is no hiding who is up in the middle of them night when you live in an old farm house with doors that squeal like a teapot everytime you open it

And they could catch the little pecks and the hand holding but never say anything to their faces

But definitely talk about it behind their backs

But let’s talk about cowboy dad Harry…

Like we know Edward, we love him

But what about their second baby?

I’m thinking it’s gonna be a girl

Maybe some cute name like Hazel or Fern

And once Edward was around one they would start trying again because they missed when he was a tiny, chunky baby and still had that newborn scent and was always asleep in their arms

And it takes a couple months but he finally knocks her up again

Omg he would be so happy when they found out it was a girl, over the moon excited

Already setting up her nursery and building a crib and painting if purple because they were going for a lavender and sage green for her nursery colors

Harry would run out and get tiny little cowgirl boots that had purple accents on them 🥺

Ugh he would be so so cuddly during her pregnancy

And both pregnancy’s were equally as exciting and special but there was something different about this one now that they had Edward

he was always cuddling up with her bump and trying to talk to it in his baby gibberish ☹️

Harry would be so so happy

Like he’s always tending to her every need and want even if she doesn’t want him to but during her pregnancies he’s a little more… extra with it

Going into dad mode now when she doesn’t feels good, constantly checking in and asking her questions “want me to fluff your pillow? I’ll go move Eddy to his bed if you want me to? Do you need another blanket? Need the fan on?”

He would never give himself a moment of rest but when he was finally done for the day he would fall asleep cuddled up with her bump every night after rubbing it and talking to it for as long as he would keep his eyes open

I just know the man is obsessed with pregnancy sex… let me just 😞😞

Feeling her bump and seeing her bump just does so much for him because he put that baby in her

And he would take every opportunity he got, even if he was tired from a long day of working in the heat he would still agree to lazy sex in the bat, or the shower, or something quick to get them both off in bed

And I just know he’s such a tit man (even if you don’t have much, it’s okay 🙏) especially during pregnancy when they are extra sensitive and big ugh

Just giving them a little squeeze whenever he can, but also being gentle because he doesn’t want to hurt her, resting his head on them and using them as pillows because he wants to cuddle and they are there for a reason, so why not? (which he likes to think is for him but they are obviously not)

And I could see her being so annoyed with him during the pregnancy

Maybe she’s in the kitchen, making a peach cobbler for dessert after dinner and he’s like “the oven is too hot, you don’t need to be around that.” Or when she’s outside playing with Eddy he’s like “did you check the temperature? Get inside, please. You two can go play in his playroom.”

Omg and what if she’s a Christmas baby 🥺

They would be sitting on the couch together, Edward cuddled up between then, drinking some hot chocolate or eggnog, frosty the snowman rubbing on the tv with the movie and the lights from the Christmas tree being the only things to light the whole house

And they are both multiple chapters into parenting books on baby girls or baby name books their parents or anyone in their family passed down to them now that it was there turn to make babies

STOP WAITTT

I could imagine Harry’s side of the family so obsessed with y/n so it’s all balanced out

And they would come over all the time during her pregnancy, measuring her belly and keeping a log

Coming over at least every week so they could document each week of her pregnancy with measurements of the bump, photos from ultrasounds, photos of the soon to be family of four, her symptoms, her cravings, what had gone on that week, updates on what they were doing in the nursery, new little things they bought for her,all of the details

And they would gift it to the family on Christmas, and now they know why they were always measuring the bump, asking so many questions, taking so many photos

And it would bring them both to tears and once they got a moment of peace they would flip through it together and see her bump grow from when she was only a month and a half from a day or two before she gave birth

Omg what if she was born on Christmas or Christmas Eve (we could be twins, mine is the 23rd 🤞) 🥺

Stop they would be so excited like “best Christmas gift ever!!” But be so sad bc Edward couldn’t have a proper Christmas bc they were stuck in the hospital for a day with his new sister☹️ but at least he was young so he wouldn’t really know the difference

And they would scurry out of there as quick as possible if she was born on the 24th so they could go to their family’s Christmas’s

And everyone would be so so excited

And they would be so so tired but trading off with naps and things like that so the next day they would be ready to wake up with Eddy and give him the Christmas he deserves 🥺

[queenofbaws]

(*me scouring you supermassive list* aw no new years kiss fic 😞)

Okay in all seriousness, coming in late cause i ain't got no free time left no more and I'm awake when everyone be actually sleeping like normal people should. And while I know exactly what FuckNO_beginning is about, you also know that I desperately need to literally anything you have for it like right now, so let's go with that one lol. And backinblack(wood) just for the fun of it too if you don't mind!

ALAS!!! the nye kiss fic continues to elude me, but...one of these days. one of these...days... ;P hehehe

i talked an itsy bit about fuckNO_beginning already, buuuuuuuut i’m more than happy to give another snippet, because...well, because it’s fuck no: the movie: the au!!!!

He turned to her, trying desperately to smirk but only pulling at his stitches in the process. “Can’t just take my word for it, huh?” The fine muscles in his mouth quivered, shook, went slack, and he did his best to ignore the finger of heat that wrapped its way around his head like a vice. “Everything was backed up on my computer back home.” He wasn’t sure why he was telling her that. He’d sworn erasing that mess would be the first thing he did when they let him out—sooner, if possible. “Cochise knows how to log in.”

“Chris isn’t the one asking for it,” she said, briskly too, if he had to pick a word; all the while pulling out the pen she always seemed to have tucked away in her hair when she wore it up, clicking the nib out and holding it over the palm of her hand as if she’d known from the start she’d be walking out with what she wanted. “How about you tell me instead?”

And because he’d never quite mastered the art of timing, that was when his tired mind finally settled on the question he wanted to ask her most: “What happened to you?”

“You did.” She didn’t miss a beat. “Now are you going to tell me how to log in, or not?”

and backinblack(wood) is PRECISELY WHY I NEED TO BE FINISHING UP OF MUMMY MEN & BATHTUB SOUP!!!!!!! this may or may not be the next “official” installment of the CREEPiverse, where all of our favorite ghost hunting podcasters ignore every last piece of horror movie advice and do the one thing you’re never supposed to do: go back to the haunted house once you’ve escaped.

He nodded, setting his chin atop her head. “Hey, so am I! Look. Blackwood’s…complicated—” Josh snickered when Sam let out a judgmental sound, “—but. But but but…do I think the bullshit we dealt with last year’s gonna happen again? Nah.” God, he hoped that sounded half as convincing as he’d intended. “For one, I’m pretty sure you, Miss Giddings, sent the girls packing.” At that, Josh pulled back just a bit so he could look down and meet her eyes. “Dunno about you, maybe you’ve just been all zipped lips about it, but I haven’t been getting any weird speech-to-text messages or creepy things written on my mirrors or rocks thrown at my head…well, okay, rocks thrown by invisible entities, at least…” Sam laughed and that was a good sign, but it wasn’t exactly an answer. “…have you?”

“…no,” she sighed after a moment, laying her cheek flat against his shoulder. “I mean…other than the crap that happens in your apartme—”

“We do not address the apartment poltergeist,” he said, speaking in the atonal drone of a subway car announcer. “We ignore the apartment poltergeist and hope it gets bored and fucks right off.”

“Yeah, because that’s worked so far.”

ask me about my wips!! ;P

[prettyboykatsuki]

hihi! i saw that you might’ve felt down on the dash so i am here to run my big mouth and say that i really loved your draken fic! the one that you wrote a few days ago! it was so good and it’s been so long since i’ve read an amazing fic like this!!!!!

like the way you set up this tension between draken and reader bc of his response to emma’s death was superb and so clever! that’s definitely something draken would take to heart, even if it wasn’t his fault. he takes the responsibility of too many things that aren’t even his to begin with and it’s just. the way you touched on that and expanded in that was so big brained of you, like i wanna give your mind so many kisses. you made me feel pity for him with that even though he pissed me off so much in the beginning bc of the way he was so defensive to reader on that issue. like damn she just wanted to comfort you. i wanted to beat his ass 😒. doesn’t matter if i’m 5’3 and he’s this buff 6’0 man. all i gotta do is kick his shins and the back of his knees and that bitch will go tumbling n it’s gonna be a big drop too. but it sucks that he did that to her bc she did so much for him like comforting him through the bad break ups of his exes, and she came up to him non-confrontationally just to understand him better! no I’ll intentions or selfish motives to her either! and she was being so kind to him and i cried w/ her bc i felt so bad and related to her too.

gawd thinking about it makes my blood boil. THEN THE FUCKING BITCH WOULDNT LET HER GO WHEN SHE WANTED TO LEAVE. AND AFTER ALL THAT TALK TOO. LIKE NAH BITCH GET YOUR GREASY HANDS OFF HER. if it was me, there definitely would have been a fight and signs of a struggle that would’ve lead to a murder scene and a homicide case 💀

but when you lead up to the smut, i did a 180 so quick bc he started acting all sweet to her. definitely made me raise a brow like sir 🤨 what happened to our argument 10 minutes beforehand. had me thinking it was about to be fight night, like we were about to tussle. BUT IT WAS RIDICULOUS HOW YOU HAD ME GIGGLING AND SCREAMING INTERNALLY AND SILENTLY DURING THE FUCKING PORN. THROWING MY PHONE DOWN EVERY TWO MINUTES TO SMILE AND CALM MYSELF. PULLING MY HAIR OUT. FUCKING BEATING MY FIST AGAINST MY BED IN SHAME. PERKING MY HEAD UP WHEN I GOT TO SOMETHING DRAKEN SAID THAT MADE ME BLUSH. LIKE WTFFFFFFFF. AFTER OUR ARGUMENT AND HOW MUCH I WANTED TO WHOOP SOME ASS. YOU PULLED THIS SHIT ON ME?????!?! was literally fighting for my life at 3 in the morning to keep quiet and not scream 😞

but your writing was beautiful! and not a single sentence was of waste. every single sentence contributed to your story telling and it kept me on my toes and everything flowed so nicely!!!! and god was the smut sublime.

it all played out like a movie to me and i just wanna say how amazing that is of you. bc (and i’m not shitting on anyone) some writers on here have some sentences or parts in their fics where the tension or excitement of the story dies down and it goes in this direction where there’s a lot of explaining of things that feel almost excessive or bland. but i understand that. i know writing is hard—i myself am one too, so i speak from experience, especially bc i suck and my tiny brain isn’t complex enough to deal w/ it 🤡. so i know that it can be hard to string up words that fit the tone and mood of the story, and to do it in a way that isn’t too much or too little. but if i could i would forget this story just so i can experience reading it for the first time again. that’s how much i loved it.

sorry for the long ramble! i honestly just wanted to geek about your draken fic and yet, here we are.

i read this so many times last night trying to think of express my gratitude and reply because this is genuinely so kind and so thoughtful im not even sure what to say like im really so so grateful you would take the time out for ME and write this it just means so much.

i think draken is such a complicated character but he's just so grounded at the same time!!! i feel like there's so much burden he has to endure but he seems so simple because of how much he loves and cares for mikey and emma - he's just really willing to put himself aside for the sake of others in a way i find to be really impressive. ALSO I KNOW I WROTE HIM but i remember being so IRRITATED with him KJDSKLS LIKE I WAS SITTING HERE LIKE.. god ur so annoying ur so lucky ur dick is huge KJHFDK he was very frustrating even for me because i am very invested in my conflicts

I TRIED RLLY HARD TO MAKE HIM EXTRA SWEET HEHE!! i think after a big fight like that he would owe it to reader to be extra sweet yk? soft and kind and gentle on her.. so im glad that came through.

THIS ENTIRE ASK IS JUST SO KIND IVE BEEN STARING AT IT ALL DAY TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO REPLY BUT PLEASE KNOW IM GIVING YOU A BIG KISS ON UR CHEEK I LOVE U THANK U SO MUCH FOR SNEDING THIS

[marvelwoman-sugarbaby]

Well that was a lot of emotions 😃 Mainly the sad kind sooo… yay 🥲

First off that first paragraph. I have said it before and I’m gonna say it again. Your ability to write an emotion so well that the reader can feel it is spectacular 🤩 Then the talking about how things reader would do just bring back memories 🥹 It was so amazing and it was only the first paragraph.

When Lizzie brought up the bakery I’m not gonna lie I thought that was a douche bag move. Like I get that Lizzie wants reader back but she should really let it happen gradually and not just force it on her 🤦🏻‍♀️ I also get that she just wanted something to fill the silence but I’m sure she could have figured out something else to talk about 😑 (I still love her either way🫣).

I love that Reader ended up taking Wanda to her favorite or what seemed to be her favorite spot despite the fact that there are still some things needing to be resolved. Like I know they want to go through scripts together but I think Reader could find a different place.

OMG WHEN WE GIVE LIZZIE SHIT FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO BAKE 😂 I think that memory is my favorite and will remain my favorite for this series 🤣 Especially since we ran out all wet in nothing but a towel AND THEN SLIPPED 🤣🥹 Oh god that will never fail to make me laugh. OH I ALMOST FORGOT TO ADD LIZZIE FACIAL EXPRESSION 🤣 That was amazing, truly a top tier moment 😂

Now on a less funny note. The fact that reader was able to go to Lizzie’s place just shows how strong she is. I mean she obviously still has things she needs to get through but being able to go to her house really shows how strong she is. I don’t think she would have been able to do that without all her emotions getting the better of her if it had been a couple months earlier.

I love that you added in the little things that they would do. Like it may have been a while since they seen each other but Reader just showed old habits for hard when she folded the blanket. It may have not been much but it was something that showed it doesn’t matter how much time passes, if you do it enough and your put back in a similar environment those habits will come back.

It was truly sad when Reader found out from Lizzie that they were playing live interest 😓 Like being able to go to an exes house is one thing but then having to play a love interest with them is COMPLETELY different 😞 Then Lizzie trying to convince Reader to go on with the movie while she freaking out 😡 Seriously, Reader just doesn’t want to be hurt again and all that is going through Lizzie’s head is trying to keep her in the movie 😤 BY GOD LIZZIE IS LUCKY IM IN LOVE WITH HER

The scene that really broke me was when Reader asked if Lizzie cheated 😔 I felt that and it hurt… even made me cry a little. What I don’t get is how Lizzie wasn’t able to see what all that bailing looked like 😠 Seriously, what did she think we thought. Did she really think that all that bailing made her look innocent 😒 The least she could have done is try to see things from Readers perspective and get that it looked like she was seeing someone behind their back. But of course she got angry and didn’t calm down until Reader looked defeated.

What hurt the most was when Reader left and Lizzie just said “I never cheated on you.” And just continues to sob 😭 Then we go to Reader and find out she was at the door for a little while trying to hold back tears 😞

Anyway, I’m so sorry it took so long for me to finally get this out. You already know what my week has been like and why but I’m still sorry 😖 You did an absolutely phenomenal job writing this chapter. I am always amazed and in aw of your writing. Stay safe, don’t stress yourself out, have a good day and night, and I love you mom 🥰

See Ya ✌🏼

Half Love (Ch. 5) - Unspoken Questions

Elizabeth Olsen x Fem!Reader ; Katie McGrath x Fem!Reader

Summary: Y/n's relationship with Lizzie has been in a rough situation and goes downhill. What should Y/n do when there's no choice left to say and a new future opens up with someone new in it?

Warning: This is a collaboration book with my co-writer / friend @stonemags and it’s an 18+ series. Angst, angst, fluff, smut, and swearing words. I do not own any pictures, GIFs, name, brand, song titles and anything I use in this story.

A/N: Hello! Welcome back to this series! Thank you for your patience for the updates. We hope you enjoy the emotional ride in this one. Happy Reading.

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Lizzie texts Scar that she'll go with you. She follows you walking to the car, watching you from behind for a bit as you walk. Adoring the view and your perfume that passes through her face, evoking her nose as the wind blows it her direction. She always loves how you smell. As she finally picks up her pace and catches up with you, a thought pops up. How could she forget how much she loved your scent? The smell of you was addictive. She forgot when was the last time she cherished it or the smile your face patched only for her. She forgot when was the last time she appreciated your…presence and everything about you. These series of thoughts rapidly bounce all over her mind until you call her name.

“Liz? Are you okay?” You ask. “Huh? Y-yeah. Yeah.” She blinks a few times as she comes back from her train of thoughts. “Well okay, hop in.” You open the passenger door for her like you always did.  “Thank you s— uh y/n.” She stutters as she tries to thank you and she gets into your car. The same car you always had. The view of you opening the door for her feels like a time machine.It brings out a lot of memories of how you always opened the door for her or all the dates you both had and the pet name she used to call you with, almost slipped out because of it. Luckily, she blocks it fast enough before you notice it.

She doesn’t know where you are taking her. The only thing you told her was it’s 20 minutes away. It might not sound too long for you to be in a car ride with her. Or does it? Her mind questions that and it’s dying to know the answer. Because for her, it sounds like a long ride or if she can add, it’s an emotionally difficult one. She sits awkwardly. You don’t say a word like you used to do when you both were in a car ride. She can’t help but notice you still do your habit while driving, resting your right arm lazily on the center console, so close to her while your hand sometimes on the gear. Your finger taps on gear following the music you play and the only differences are you are not holding her hand nor talking much with her. You used to always hold her hand or occasionally pull it to your lips to kiss it. You used to talk a lot with her or even sing for her. She can’t believe she misses all of that now. She is thinking all of these memories that were long stored in the back of her mind and almost forgotten way before the day you left.

You are not immune to those memories either. You didn’t expect they would be trespassing your mind. Well, apparently the memories that you thought that all long gone, buried somewhere God knows, found its way back to your mind. You are not happy about it but it subconsciously soothes some part of your heart you didn’t know long for. It’s like a drop of rain on the Sahara desert, it’s unexpected but it’s not enough to cool down the whole desert. Those sweet memories are not enough to fix your wrecked heart. You are fighting it. You are not letting this 20 minutes car ride drag you back to square one with her.

She steals glances at you. Gosh, this is a painful car ride for her but she doesn’t want this to end. Being in this moving steel box with you, tricks her brain to forget the heartbreak she has been having since you left. Your hand and fingers that she is dying to touch, to entwine them with hers. She misses you, she misses everything.

“Two weeks ago, I went to the bakery we used to go to.” She breaks the silence. “Oh really? How was it?” You shift your sitting position as if you are preparing yourself for another memory invasion that will come from the conversation she started. “They still make your favorite pastry. Oh Henry still works there. He asked about you and said Hi to you.” A small smile of sadness slowly formed on her face, you know it was probably because of the moments you both had there when you were still together. Yeah, memories, memories and memories. They are the main culprit that makes this whole situation difficult between you and her but you put all of the effort you can to fight it. You try to act cool about it. “Oh really? He’s still there? Last time he said he wanted to retire and let his kids run the bakery and that was like a few years ago.” You answer casually.

“That was exactly what I said to him when I saw him and all he did was laugh. He–uh didn’t know what happened to us, so he gave me two of those pastries you like for me to give to you.” Her smile slowly slid down.

“Oh.. well he always does that. If I come there, he probably would do the same and give me your favorite pumpkin bread to give to you.” You shrug your shoulders without even sharing a gaze with her as you respond as if it’s just something usual that happens, nothing big. Nothing special. Once again, the casualty you show makes her wonder if you have moved on from her that easy. “Yeah. You are right.” She answers. Just like that, everything falls back into silence until you arrive at where you are taking her.

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“Are you sure we can park here? It’s a private spot.” She asks. “Yeah I know. It’s mine. Come on, it’s a 5 minutes walk.” You answered.

You finally get to a small cozy coffee shop. You casually greet the lady behind the counter as you walk in. She smiles at you and her eyes flicks between you and Lizzie. “Hi y/n, the usual?” The lady asks. “Hi Jess, can you actually give us a sec and a more private place, please?” You politely ask. “Yeah sure, just go upstairs. Your spot is free right now.” She smiles. “Thank you Jess.”

You walk to where the lady said followed by Lizzie. Confused at first but she finally connects the dots and asks “This is your usual place to get coffee?” She asks and a silent nod is all she gets from you as an answer.

You both sit at a cozy corner table near the window. She is not surprised that it’s your spot, it’s everything you like. Cozy, soft light, soft music plays near the window for you sometimes people watching. She thought the more time she spends with you today the easier it gets for her to be around you. Worse luck, she is wrong. She is still nervous and her mind is all over the place now, uncontrollably. She wonders what is actually beneath that calm and quiet exterior of yours. She can’t tell if you are nervous too or not. It’s slowly but surely driving her crazy.

You break the silence. “Okay, Liz. Just so you know, it’s awkward, first you have to stop staring at me like I’m some kind of a ghost or something.”

She is surprised with what you just said and instantly turns her cheeks red. "Oh. Shit. Uh, sorry y/n.." You coldly interrupted her. "Second, we will be working together and it's a big chance for the both of us so let's try to be civil and professional with each other, yeah?" Your straight forward statement felt like a dagger stabs through her chest.

She is confused and feels like she is in a limbo. At one moment you were sweet but then you gave her cold shoulders. She can't figure it out but she doesn't want to let you make her feel that she is under your grip. So she subtly fights back and plays along the way you want to play it..

“Okay then, let’s go through breaking the ice so we can be like you said.. Civil “ She answers as she does an air quotation mark on the last word and she lets out a forced smile.

She clears her throat before she continues. "So--uh what happened after you...after we uh--..what happened for the past year and a half?" Her smile slowly curves down to frown but then she tries to hide it by looking away for a quick second. You take a deep breath before you start to answer her question. “A lot and not  so much at the same time, I moved in with John. He helped me get through everything and then I moved to New York. I got a chance to play at Lincoln Center for the performing arts and I took it. I saved up some money." You tell her casually. Your eyes keep coming back searching for her warm green eyes sprinkled with gold speckles no matter how hard you try to avoid it. You can’t lie how much you miss those eyes that you always adore.

Her eyes sparkle with excitement and pride for you and oh boy, that’s one of your favorite things for you to see in her eyes so it’s just getting harder for you. “Oh my God! That’s great! It’s like one of the best places. I had lessons there when I was younger. It was such a magical place!” Her excitement slips out of her control and she spontaneously holds your hands. This time your breath hitches softly right after you feel the warmth of her hands on yours. You swiftly pull your hands away.

Lizzie pulls her hands away awkwardly right after that. “Uh-I-I’m sorry, y/n. I got carried away. I was too excited for you, you always wanted to play at New York’s theaters. It has been your dream. Sorry.” She tucks her hair behind her ears nervously as she slowly blushes and it’s obvious to you.

You shake your head slowly as you answer “It’s okay, Liz. No worries.” You can hear your heartbeat in your ears. That quick touch from her feels like a quick shot of tranquilizer and it weakens your hands and knees. It feels like you slowly float up to cloud nine but you quickly pull yourself back down. “But, I gotta say, I miss those feelings I used to get from holding your hands.” Her stomach does somersaults instantly. She curses herself internally why on earth she would say that to you.

“Remember, Liz. Let’s keep it professional.” You remind her as your hands go to the edge of the tables and unthinkingly hold it to fight the urge to grab her hands back.

“Right..Right. Keep it professional. I’m sorry.” Her gaze jumps around from one spot to another except yours. She pulls her hand off the table and keeps them on her lap for a little while. “Where is the waitress? I need some water.” She is acting all nervous and awkward.

“She’ll be here soon, Liz.” You answer. “Oh okay. Good. Well, how is your family?” She is relieved that she finally picked something to talk about. “All good and healthy. They visited me a month ago.” You reply as calmly as you can. “Well that’s good. Oh and how is Luke? I miss him.” She tries to sound as positive as she can in front of you as she draws a smile across her face.

“Yeah… me too. He’s gone.” You respond and grief sounds clear in your voice from your best friend's death. Lizzie gasped in such surprise and instantly felt massive sadness as if she could feel it from you. “Oh my God. You, Luke and John were best buddies. I’m sorry, I didn’t know that he–” You suddenly cut her off. “How would you know?”

Before Lizzie could say anything to your snarky comment, the waitress came to take your order. Despite how you act just not to her, you ask her “You want the usual?”

The awkward Lizzie can only nod to your question. You order her coffee, yours and a dessert for both of you to share.

“What about you tell me what happened to you for the past year and a half?” You try to look as casual as you can when you ask her even though internally you feel the need to know. She is actually caught off guard with your question despite her act looks as if your question doesn’t have any effect on her.

Her mouth feels dry, her mind is fuzzy. Rapidly thinking what’s the right word or how to answer your question. “Uh, what happened to me? Um, okay. Well–” She clears her throat, shifts her sitting position a little bit hoping it will shake off her nervousness. “I have been busy with work and work. I meant–”

“Well, so nothing new? Just you with your work. I should’ve known.” You didn’t let her finish her sentence by once again your bitter comment. “No. No. Jesus, y/n. Can you let me finish? I was trying to answer your question and it is not easy.” She quickly tackled your comment. She can’t hold herself back to slightly argue back at you after how you acted to her and your cold words. “I thought you wanted us to be civil?” She adds as she returns your own words against you. What you hear from her makes you bite your tongue, thinking if you are too harsh to her.

“Fine. Fine. Okay.” You look at her expression that makes your stomach turn to a knott and your heart pounding through your chest. Your eyes accidentally catch her lips in your sight, you quickly look down for a few seconds only to see her finger wearing her promise ring. It does make you feel something in your heart that you can’t decipher. Now, you are thinking maybe looking straight at her face or those lovely green eyes is the easier choice to do right now. You cross your arms chest in a protective stance from any other ambush on your heart as you see her start to talk again.

“Well, I’m not gonna lie to you, everything was hard for me since that morning you uh–left. I was lost but I got through all those. I had to. I buried myself in work. When I didn’t work, I stayed at home alone. I learn more about cooking. I tried to cook your recipe once.” She answers so softly, trying to suppress all the emotion in her as she speaks.

“Oh okay—” You pause and subtly inhale. You don’t know how to react to the first half of her answer. “So, which recipe? Your favorite stew?” You ask and pick the cooking topic to talk about just to make the conversation as light as possible. She nods as she notices what is exactly what you are doing. “How was it?” You ask again.

“It wasn’t as good as how you always make it, plus you weren’t there singing around the kitchen with the spatula in your hand as your mic.” She answers followed by a bitter chuckle as she lowers her head, avoiding eye contact with you. You try not to let yourself slowly submerge into the memories with her hence the silence from you after that.

The stillness between you starts to recreate the iceberg between you that she has been trying to break and she hates it. "I tried to bake a pie." She awkwardly continues. You can see her effort to break the tension.

One memory pops up as soon as you hear what she just told you but you try to ignore it and once again you try to keep your cool and ask her casually. "How did it turn out?"

"I burnt it." She looks embarrassed but she raises her right index fingers as soon as you are going to say something and says "BUT.. not as bad as I did before. I know what you were thinking." She interrupts. 

"You meant that time when the burnt pie made the smoke detector beeping like crazy?" You can't help yourself to mention that memory. She lay her arms on the table and leaned a little more on the table, being a little less tense.

"Yes,that day. You ran out of the shower only with a towel and panicked, all wet but then you slipped and fell in an awkward position." She accidentally slips out a little laugh. And there it is, your other weakness from her. The sound of her laughter and that smile. Your heart skittered. Warmth spreads in your heart and pain shoots through it at the same time. One side of you wants to hear more and the other is trying to ignore that contagious laugh, because you know you shouldn’t miss the sound of it and the feelings you got from it.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t laugh at you slipping and falling but it was really funny.” She lets out another little laugh and just like that, it broke the ice you both thought was hard to break. You are betrayed by your own body. You uncross your arms from your chest then your shoulders slowly roll down. Your lips curved to a smile subconsciously. “Funny, huh? You should see your face. It was a mix of panicked, trying hard holding a laugh but confused between helping me first or taking care of that burnt pie. Yeah, imagine that.” You no longer have control over yourself, you finally respond to Lizzie’s memory trip with you.

“Baking was never really your thing, Liz.” Eye contacts finally made and trapped between you two. “I know. That day, I was just trying to make your favorite pie for your birthday surprise.” She presses her lips as she responds to your comment softly. She doesn’t know if she should smile or frown from the sweet yet painful memory.

“Yeah, I…remember that.” You reply and your voice slowly fades on the last two words as you break eye contact. You and Lizzie instantly look down on the table at the same time awkwardly. No words were found between you two until the waitress came with your order.

As soon as the waitress put the decent size dessert cake in the middle and two small spoons wrapped with a napkin, Lizzie asks politely “Uh, can we get two small plates please?”

“Sure.” The waitress answers but as she turns around you stop her. “It’s okay, Jess. You don’t have to. It will save you a trip.”

You slide the dessert closer to her as she looks at you bewilderedly. “You’ll love this. Try it.” You insist, leaving no room for her to refuse. She cuts a little bite with her spoon and gives it a try. “Wow. This is delicious.” She comments. You give her a dampened smile as you nod to respond to her comment.

She then slowly and silently slides the plate back to the middle to share it with you. You grab your spoon and take a small bite of it. Her hopes kindled. She doesn’t mind the silence right now even though you are confusing her. You don’t say a word to her yet you share a cake with her from one plate like you both used to do. Not that she is complaining about it. It’s another thing that tricks her brain to forget that both of you are not together anymore. This is like a few minutes of sweet treat for her broken heart after a year and a half.

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“I didn’t bring my scripts. We can just use yours.” You suggest. “Sure but it’s at my apartment. Should we just check out the scripts at my place?” She internally begged that you agree. You agree. You take care of the check and you both get ready to leave.

As you walk out of the coffee shop, you turn left to where you parked your car but she grabs your hand to stop you. You are surprised and spontaneously look at her hand holding yours. It instantly reminds you and Lizzie of the last time you were at her house before you left with the rest of your stuff. She quickly lets your hand go. “S–Sorry. My place is a block away this way. We can just walk.” She points to the right as she tells you. You nod and you walk with her.

“Do you mind if we stop to buy some wine?” She asks as she looks at you and waits for your answer. You nod. “Sure, a little liquid of courage won’t harm.”

You stand behind her, waiting for her to open the door of her apartment. You both walked into her well furnished one bedroom apartment. “This is it. Welcome to my temporary home here.” Her hands swing as if she is presenting something. She tries to hide her excitement that you are actually here with her, at her place.

Meanwhile, you feel something in you. Something odd but somewhat comfortable, being in her place with her. It’s a lie if you said you don’t feel like you are reliving the feelings of being home with her, the same feelings you had back in L.A.

You look around subtly and quickly. You see her favorite navy blue throw blanket on the couch that you bought her for Christmas. It’s the one that you used to fold for her everytime she was done using it. You notice her touch in the apartment, some of them are just like the one she added at your and her home. You see a little coffee cup holder stand next to the coffee machine the way she likes it. You remember how you want the cups to be organized in the cabinet but she wants to keep some cups next to the coffee machine so it will be faster and reachable for her. You can’t help but notice how she puts a decorative bowl for keys just like how it is back at her home.

“It’s a nice place.” You comment casually. “Yeah, I picked this because it’s the closest to the set and it’s a nice one.” She explains and sounds more relaxed. She grabs the script from her room. Your eyes followed her walking to her room then you pulled out your phone to distract your mind from her and you found there was a text from Katie but you ignored it and you end up just mindlessly scrolling your phone. You try to gain control back over your mind.

She comes back and sits on the couch that finally tangled your attention to her again. “Here we go. Come, sit here.” She looks up to you as her right hand pat the empty space next to her with her left holds the scripts.

You remove the throw blanket, you casually fold it nicely out of habits. “You bring this with you?” She looks at you. “Yeah, it’s my favorite and it’s from you.” She answers as her eyes haven’t left you. You put the folded blanket on the arm of the couch. “You haven’t changed at all.” She comments on what you were doing. “You haven’t either.” You reply as you sit next to her.

She looks at you, internally admiring you. You swallow hard and clear your throat. “Shall we check out the scripts now?” You brought her back from her daze. “Oh y-yeah. Sorry.”

Being caught red handed, clouds her mind and she doesn't realize she keeps holding the scripts. This is the first time the two of you have been so close to each other for a long time.

You can’t avoid stealing glances at her since you both left the cafe. She clears her throat and breaks the silence. “So you are totally okay with it? seeing from how calm you are." Lizzie asks and it grabs your attention instantly.

"Okay with what? What are you talking about?" You drag your sight to her with a perplexed look. "Oh. You didn't know. Uh, you play as my character's love interest." She explains slowly, trying to anticipate your reaction.

"Wait. Wait. Wait. What??" You exclaim in great shock. Your face loses its color in a split second. Your heart jumped up to your throat and it felt like it thumped right to your ears.

"I know..I know.. I was just as shocked as you are now. I found out about it this morning from Scar--" She is interrupted by noticing your uncomfortable state. "Y/n, are you okay?" She asks as she sees your breathing start to fasten up a little bit.

You feel anxious. It's harder than you thought it would be. You thought you could handle it, working with her. It would be easier if you don't play as her love interest or will it be this difficult no matter who you play as? You don’t even know the answer. All of the sudden all of the pain you felt two years ago came back. You start to think about quitting. “I–I can’t do this role. No. No. It’s too much. I should quit.” You mumble under your breath but clear enough for her to hear you.

An alarm rings in her mind. "What? No, y/n. Don't quit. You can do this. Look at me..look at me please." Her hands are now cupping both sides of your face. “Y/n sweetie, I need you to focus on my voice, okay? Focus on the sound of it.” She tells you gently. You try to focus on her voice, it soothes you but too many thoughts come in.

“Don’t worry. You’ll do great. We’ll be as professional as we can. I know we can do it. Please. Please don’t leave the role. Don’t quit.” Her hand gently strokes your hair back away from your face. Her voice breaks a little. A weight settled on her heart. Her heart aches thinking about it. She doesn't know what's going on. She thought she would refuse the role if she knew you were in it but now she wants you to stay.

Why? The question that pops up even though she tries to focus to calm you down, to convince you to stay.

Then the question becomes a real one. She hears your voice asking the same word and she quickly hopes you didn't mean the same question.

"What did you mean?" She lets out a confused expression on your question. "Why do you care so much for me not quitting?" You ask with a little bitterness and urge to know.

As if your question got her tongue, she can't answer it in an instance. Her mind rapidly thinks, even asks herself why and answers it at the same time.

"Tell me, Liz. Why do you care so much?" You repeat the question and it makes her feel like she was being pushed to the edge.

"Because I-- because I know this is your chance to go big in your acting career. You are a great actress. I want you to succeed." Her eyes start to glisten. She told you the truth but it wasn't the actual answer. It wasn't the main reason. She can't tell you that. She doesn't want to look vulnerable in front of you by telling you why.

She prefers to keep it herself no matter how hurtful it is. She needs to convince you to stay because this..this is the only way and her only chance to be around you...to try her best to fix everything and win your heart back.

As you are thinking about her answer, your eyes are suddenly trapped on a framed picture of both of you that she puts on the little shelf next to the couch. It hurts you to see it. It hurts like hell. The calmness you almost reach instantly is replaced by even a bigger tornado of feelings.

You are helpless from all sorrow and vexation. Anger roared inside your head, pushing you closer and closer to one question that you always wanted to ask her two years ago or every time you both argued but you never did. You never asked her because you cared too much that It will hurt her if you asked her.

Right now, you are at the point you can no longer keep it because that question keeps clawing your heart deeper and deeper. It's unbearable for you.

You look deep into her eyes. She feels your gaze as if it slices her soul. "Be honest with me, Elizabeth." Her breath hitches. She hates it, it hurts her to hear her first name slip out of your lips that makes her feel forced to accept that both of you are strangers to each other. She nods in defeat.

Your lips slightly open letting out a shaky breath as if it's trying to stall you not to ask the question but you finally ask her "Have you--have you ever cheated on me?"

Her breath hitches once more from the question. Your question feels like a spear stabs through her. Her eyes rounded and her jaw dropped. She can barely breathe. She is as shocked as possible, making her lose her words.

The few seconds of silence from her lead you to your own conclusion. You thought it's enough to answer your question. You stand up then grab your coat.

Lizzie quickly grabs your hand to stop you from leaving. "Oh no. No. No. You are not leaving right now, y/n." She demands then she quickly stands up.

"What the fuck was that question, y/n? You know I would never do that to you!" She continues in an offended tone. You pull your hand away from her and she loses her grip on you. She clenches her fists and tries not to get lost in her anger from your question.

"Do I? Do I, really?" You replied with sarcasm, and as you are ready to leave, her question stops you again. Rage bottled up inside you. "What was that supposed to mean?" She retorts. Her eyebrows furrowed in such vexation.

You walk closer to her as you talk. "Did YOU.." You pause as you realize that you raised your voice. "Did you really think that leaving me alone all the time, always coming home late, ditching me on our dates or forgetting about my birthday would not make me suspect something? Think for a fucking second on how did it look like from my perspective, Liz?” Your voice slowly rises and fills with more and more emotion.

“I know I wasn’t an angel!” She retorts. You instantly scoff at her words.she tilts her head at your reaction, extremely offended by your scoff. “But cheating? Really? That’s how low you think of me??” She simmered in anger. Her annoyance flared and her voice raised just like yours.

You clenched your jaw then you answered her on the top of your lungs. “It’s not about what I think of you! It’s about how you made me feel, Lizzie!" Your pulse slammed in your neck, almost breaking a scream. Pain, sadness and anger are all mixed together and made their way to her ears.

You look down to avoid her gaze. You feel so vulnerable right now and look so broken. Lizzie notices that easily and shifts her steps closer to you slowly.

"Y/n, look at me...Just… please…Look at me…" She pleads with a shaky breath and low voices. You bring back your heads up to look at her glossy eyes. "I have never ever cheated on you. Never. I promise, y/n." She explains slowly with quite a firm tone to add assurance in her answer.

You look away as you say "Don't promise me anything. I don't believe in promises… especially if they are from you. I'll see you at work." You make your way to the front door and leave her in silence. You didn't even give her a chance to answer you. You slam the door as you walk out.

She slowly sits down, tears escape from her eyes. Silence fills the room as she starts to sobs from everything that just happened. "I never cheated on you." She says it under her shaky breath. Trying to bear the heartache that she feels right now.

After you walked out of her place, you really couldn’t walk right away. Too much is going on emotionally and physically right now for you. Despair drags you down and numbness infuses your body. You are trying hard to hold back your tears. You keep telling yourself that everything between you and her is over. You inhale and exhale multiple times to calm yourself down and to ignore the old pain that you already forgot existed. Once you feel that you are back on your feet, you pull out your earphones from your pocket and play " I Caught Myself" by Paramore loudly. You walk back home while you are lost in your own world.

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[mierdita]

I’m trying to blog the way I used to- at least do a monthly recap sort of thing so here’s SEPTEMBER

Let’s see I basically started the month by being demoted and transferred out of the place where I’ve been working for nearly three years 🤧 well more like, I ended August with the news. But then Ezoo happened so I was distracted for 3 days

EZOO was super fun. I basically got the tickets for Will’s Father’s Day present, along with all the other cool stuff I got him. Anyway. We met up with different friends so that was nice too! Last year we only met up with Isaac like once I think, and we might’ve seen my brother and Melissa there last year? I’m not sure but, this year we met up with Isaac, his cousin Emily, Terry (!!), Gary, and Dora. We met up with them different days, except Isaac and Em we basically saw them all weekend. This is like my fourth Ezoo or something 🌻

Uh let’s see. I went to speak to my new GM, and she’s actually nicer than I remember. She had her two week schedules done so I was out for two weeks because the other one just got me off his schedule. But whatever. I took a couple of shifts here and there and got to spend a lot of time with Ty.

Tyler started standing up in his crib! One day I woke up and he was just there LOL. He’s growing so fast my little one.

I went to. bridal shower so it was nice to see friends from high school. Oh fuck the wedding is in like two weeks and I forgot all about it. Yikes LOL. Anyway. I had to leave early because I had to go to a housewarming party. Wills sister and her girlfriend moved out and got an apartment near my HS so that’s super nice. Terry lives like 8 blocks away from there so that’s pretty cool too! I get so many memories any time I’m around there.

Uh, let’s see. I’ve had some short shifts (TBH it lowkey feels good not being a manager). I went to visit my old frens from my old store cause I’m only a train stop away. It’s the first time I visit since I left and everyone was happy to see me. Carol talked to me for like an hour and she was talking to much shit LOl. Apparently they’re gonna need a manager 🤧 Y I K E S

Anyway I did the same the following week except I got a margarita this time and then everyone was trying to take it from me lmao mind you everyone was on the clock. They were all super stressed out because they went over sales and the store was a mess. After that I went to pick Will up, and we went out to eat. It’s harder for us to have alone time anymore so it was nice.

Then wed we were both miraculously off, so we went to watch Downton Abbey with his mom. We dropped Ty off at my house and my dad watched him. The movie was actually really good, I should watch the series. Last year we went to a Downton Exhibit and it was pretty cool. I’ve lost those pictures tho but I hope will has some. - actually I just remembered I sent some to wills mom so I found one yay! Anyway. We went out to eat after that, to Friday’s.

While we were at Friday’s Riki texted me saying that they were taking Middnight to the vet because he’s been having diarrhea for a couple of days, and he’s not eating well. At the vet they had to put him down :( my poor baby. I’m so upset I didn’t get to spend more time with him, but at least he’s resting now and I got to see him once before he was gone 😞

There might not be anything else eventful in the next three days, so this might be it for the month