#if I can't get myself to draw by god I will yap

[zephyrartz-owo]

Big Hero 6 Centric Essay Series

Picking apart Big Hero 6 got me noticing a lot of things about the characters and/or world that I find really interesting to think about. There's too many to condense into a single post because the range of specificity between topics, as well as what I have to say on them, is too wide to condense without trimming a good portion of worthwhile disection. So, instead of even attempting to condense them, I'll be turning them into a series of "essays," where I can fully articulate what I find interesting about each topic as well as open them up for discussion. The working name of the series is just "Interesting" so far, but I'll probably change it later.

I won't be going in any particular order, just whatever I feel like writing about that day or continuing a train of thought from the prior post. As of right now, topics mostly related to Hiro and his family, crime culture in San Fransokyo, and extrapolations on Obake and Momokase's characters are at the front of my mind. Of course, when those get written is a bit up to chance, and if something entirely different sparks my interest first, then I'll write about that instead.

Some essays will focus entirely on canon, some including tie-in and non canon media, and some inculding or relating to the City Rising AU if there's ebough relavence. The first part of this series should be done either late tonight or sometime tomorrow, so I'll see yall then!

[emstargazer]

Not sure if these will turn out to be just recurring OCs with a brief backstory or a full-on written fanfic centered around these two or some other format, but either way... Berserker Armor inspired Titan whose Pilot mimics the arsenal Guts uses throughout the manga when paired together with the Titan's loadout and whose relationship with them has an ominous side reminiscent of Guts and the Beast of Darkness.

Does anyone on planet Earth see the vision?

For which audience is this post supposed to cater, you ask?

Me, I am the audience.

Don't worry, I'll be reasonable and put my self-indulgent rambling under a readmore. Beware of some minor spoilers for Berserk.

Considering Vanguard-class Titans are "almost as well armored as a Legion, with the dash capacity of a Ronin" I feel like it fits best class-wise, but it would be a heavily modified Vanguard-based that sacrifices a lot of its defensive capabilities for an incredibly aggressive self-destructive approach to combat. It would also take some design inspiration from Ronin Prime, specifically the concept art (inheriting similar legs and the plates on its sides that remind me of air vents, which I may repurpose to introduce a cooling system) while still preserving the overall structure of a Vanguard. So think of Ronin Prime(Concept) +BT(or FS-1014 or SDV) +The Armor.

They utilize a unique Sword Core that would at first be identical to the regular until it one day develops to have the same, yet way amplified benefits with one additional being the ability to "keep itself together". What I mean by that is while the core's active it's able to keep most of its components functional despite sustaining damage that would otherwise prove to be fatal by using technology similar to the Gravity Star ordnance which upon activation would bend space so that said components can still work in unison, albeit semi-efficiently. It doesn't necessarily repair, but it does let you keep on going for longer even after your Doomed State health bar has completely depleted(yeah, I'm also trying to look at this from a gameplay perspective).

Hmm, sounds familiar.

But the real fun lies in its major drawbacks. First of all, if it does get to a certain point of no return, you won't be able to eject and once the Titan Core ability ends an explosion is imminent. Basically making every instance you use the core into a likely suicide mission. A risky last resort rather than an ultimate ability.

Secondly‚ after every usage the neural link gnaws at your psyche, leaving you with a mental scar, meaning your mind(notably your judgement and self-control) gradually deteriorates over time.

This issue derives from the very nature of the Titan, because its AI is designed to have such a strong link that it inadvertently has access to something which can only be detrimental in the long run and that is the deeper unconscious layer of the Pilot's Mind.

Initially, Titan's AI will have its own set of characteristics, but the better the link becomes, the Titan's control over filtering those unconscious thoughts will falter. Until eventually, the AI splits into 2:

The seemingly original, true self(I know, one may argue that's not the right choice of words, but I disagree considering we've seen how far the Titan's AI can evolve with BT)

An independent personification of the Pilot's Jungian Shadow(I wonder what kind of dynamic will they and the Pilot have, image below definitely unrelated c;)

Now, about the Pilot. Anything relating to their backstory before being assigned with [insert Titan's designated name](been researching military alphabet and code words for ideas, still haven't thought of something that sticks) is currently undetermined.

What is set in stone is they don't have any idea either due to being revived as an advanced simulacrum, until they achieve a complete awakening(like Ash or Revenant) by the unique link they've established as such. The Titan could give insight into the inner workings of their mind that they couldn't fathom as a human, let alone a digital backup of human consciousness with restrictions(ego retention system).

Once awakened, their main objective is to uncover lost memories through the use of said link. The catch is in the drawbacks and the eventual separation of the Titan's AI.

First one is mostly self-explanatory, even in the case that the Pilot's mind component remains intact and gets miraculously brought back into a spare robotic body, it would certainly be a limited resource(same with the Titan) and there would always be a high chance of data corruption.

Second one turns their journey into a ticking time bomb, making every subsequent combat encounter push the Pilot closer to inescapable insanity.

Birth of the second AI inside the datacore causes the Titan's original self to fight for control and question whether the other one is a part of who they are despite originating from someone else, while the Pilot can only bring words of encouragement from inside the chassis.

A story about a Titan and Pilot who both struggle with their identity leading them to form a connection that goes beyond the neural link itself. Exploring how in the journey of self-discovery what one might find to be a part of who they are may in fact be working against them and despite that one should learn to accept it and acknowledge its existence in order to have any control over it. All while affirming interpersonal connection as one of the necessary steps in learning such a lesson.

With hopefully a lot of emotional damage sprinkled along the road.

c:

To the arsenal we go, Titan's loadout would consist of:

an energy-based weapon with a repeating crossbow-like mechanism visually resembling the Ballista from Doom Eternal.

And, you guessed it, The Giant Ass Sword which is preferably going to be unnecessarily longer and thicker than Ronin's canon broadsword to the point where it should theoretically be ineffective, but as a consequence of their unique fighting style and years of accumulated battle experience they'd be able to find unconventional ways to use such attributes to their advantage. Why not use a standard edition broadsword like all the others? Both of them got too attached to their sweet heap of metal^_^. Another significant distinction from it is that instead of using electric charge to produce the Arc Wave, it would harness it to send a shockwave through both the "phase dimension"(one used by Ronin, Simulacra Pilots and others) and our own making it able to damage even those currently occupying the alternate dimension.

Again, one might guess where the general idea comes from.

When it comes to the Pilot's design, I'm keeping it mostly unknown for now. They will be using Pulse Blade since it's the closest thing to Guts' throwing knives and one of their arms will have a use as an Anti-Titan weapon. As ordnance, a large amount of miniature frag grenades.

Ok, I think going into deeper intricacies would be overkill, so I'll put my foot on the brake here.

If you've read this far, I'm beyond grateful you took your time to go through the amalgam of my sporadic unorganized ideas.

Here's a treat!

[changelingsandothernonsense]

I'm still learning about your OCs so I don't have much on headcanons. So instead, I hope it's okay I ask questions so I can learn more! c: Answer for Josh, Sydari, or Erra, or all! Whichever you prefer. Would love to hear you yap about them!!

Do they have any unusual traits/behavior/habits?

2. What is their most controversial belief or stance?

3. How would their closest companion describe them?

Hello! Thank you for the questions!

1. Do they have any unusual traits/behavior/habits? Sydari: Outside of having the power to shake the earth with her voice (when it's not worn out thanks to damage done to her vocal cords), Sydari tends to appear crushingly normal. This is all by design, of course. She's found over the years that drawing attention to one's self can have very negative consequences, particularly in her line of work.

She's worked hard on maintaining a visage of normalcy whilst pulling at the underworld of Riften in the shadows. As far as Skyrim is concerned, the Nightingale and the Thane of Honeyside/Dragonborn are two different people and she'd like to keep it that way. She's so unsuspect that it's suspect. Erra: Erra would not consider the way he looks to be unusual but he tends to stand out a lot when wandering around House Dunmer settlements. This is mostly to do with Erra having a very obvious Ashlander appearance, despite having technically left that life behind. Firstly, he has his coming of age scarification, a series of small, circular scars that frame his face as well as a pigment filled scar that cuts through his bottom lip when he completed the Trial of the Warrior. Ritual scarification in this manner is generally an Ashlander thing, with a few Redoran influenced sects of the Tribunal Temple practising their own versions with different ceremonies. Erra tends to follow a different grooming routine than settled Dunmer. This can mostly be seen in how he wears his hair, which he prefers to keep long, or the fact that he keeps body hair untouched. Cutting one's hair is a sign of mourning in his culture so he finds the idea of cutting it into one of the more popular styles to be a bit odd.

He has a very thick Ashlander accent and is very soft-spoken.

Josh: Josh looks like a Velothi from the Eastern Ashlands (because his father was) and has been treated as such his whole life. He is generally taller than your average settled Dunmer by a lot, and he tends to have a love hate relationship with his Ashlander side up until he meets Erra. He ended up with a lot of very particular scarring after trying to get his corprus cured. During the height of his fame as the Nerevarine he could generally be identified by the hand shaped scar on his left arm in particular. That and the ring that he can't take off.

Josh fidgets a lot, either by drumming his fingers on things or tapping his foot. He's an extremely restless guy and can't sit still for very long without something to occupy him. Oh and he has a huge knife collection. That and the even bigger web of lies he's constructed to hide his identity after the Second Battle of Red Mountain.

2. What is their most controversial belief or stance? Sydari: "Every interaction is a business exchange. This includes making deals with the gods." Erra: "Not every tradition must be followed to the letter. Our people cannot grow if we do not choose to be better". Josh: "Slavery is wrong and you should burn for allowing it." (Josh and Erra are products of late 3rd Era Morrowind, where vanilla takes were controversial.)

3. How would their closest companion describe them?

Sydari: From Joshi's POV: I wish I was as sure of myself when I went to face my destiny. The truth is, Miluth never needed my input or advice. She's doing far better taking on the whims of gods than I ever did. She makes me want to be better, more present, to not run away. I'm terrified that I'll fuck up again and lose her forever this time. Erra: Joshi's POV again: You ever seen someone skewer a cliff racer at a five yurt pace through the neck with a single arrow? Then you have no ability to understand how fucking brilliant he is! Like yeah, there are good archers out there, but not one has compared to what I've seen him do.

Then I get to have him all to myself because everyone else is a cunt and doesn't deserve his embrace. Josh: From Erra's POV: Teldryn is a very different mer if you take the time to get to know him. He puts on a tough exterior that is a little callous at times but that is not truly him. Not in my experience.

If you want to see the Teldryn I know, ask him about his letter chart. I do not understand any of it, I do not speak the language of the Old Elves but he does. He believes he can crack something from what he has found written in stone. I believe he used the term "Reconstruct". I am constantly distracted by the light in his eyes when he speaks on it. That and how he bounces when he makes progress on his project.

From Sydari's POV: Tel tends to be very closed off, aloof would be an apt description. It takes a lot of effort to crack him and actually get a straight answer from the guy. If I'm honest, I've almost given up on a few occasions. It's strange how compartmentalised he can be, even more so than myself. It's like he's wrapped in several advanced puzzle locks, and each one requires a riddle to solve.

If you don't find the master key, that is.

I still wish Tel had told me who he was before I found his dossier, but I guess a part of me understands why he keeps his identity a close guarded secret for so long. I really don't think he associates who he is now with the title of Nerevarine. There's a new side to him once you unlock the truth that is extremely vulnerable and scared. I wish I could see what he was like before the gods crushed his spirit. There's hints of an excitable, very intelligent mer behind the layers he wraps himself in. I want to help draw that out of him as best as I can.

[wiktorianala]

My oc's + characters they were based of in one way or another

I got bored of sewing, maybe gonna continue on weekend, but anyway i decided that it's time to make smthng more with Bouney 'n Handy so there's a lil drawings and if someone is interested in me yapping about them, story, 'n other stuffs then click here \/

Oki, so I'll start with at which point they were based of well, Salad and Madotsuki. Starting from Handy because this will take me less time. She was created waaay later, at moment when I wanted to start working on comic, so I had to make second character just so Bouney wouldn't be only one, well i wanted to make her an object head of some kind to match with the fact that Bouney's head was created out of rotated eye. It is not anymore but that was honestly how I created this little freak. Fine but coming back to topic I wanted to give her some kind of object, and I'm honestly shit when it come to making any decisions myself, so with my friend we just looked throught my entire sketchbook and we found drawing of Madotsuki with hand palm effect (because I was pretty much fixated over this game and bigger part of sketchbook had Yume Nikki drawings), so we just picked hand. Now, with Bouney it's longer story, just like I said, I created him way earlier, so first thing he got after Salad were simple plain clothes 'cuz I'm layzy and absolutelly didn't wanted to bother with drawing anything complicated over and over again (and I picked Salad, because once again, yes it was my fixation at that time, and I want to remind that thos are two different times btw). So at the point when I wanted to start making thos comics and when I already had character designs I had to give them personalities and story, and the story... it was pretty different from what it is now. First vershion of it was too about a empty world and all thos stuffs, this didn't change, but main difference was the fact that in earlier ver Bouney was only living creature in this world. Handy was more of some kind of imaginary friend that appeared in his head due to loneliness there. (this a bit was based out of Salad too, because, ya know, empty weird world, clearly not very sane main creature character 'n thos stuffs) Plot mostly was just like in current vershion pretty goofy 'n just some "everyday stuffs", but at some points it was getting pretty heavy and sad. AND YES I KNOW THAT IT SOUNDED MUCH MORE INTERESTING, honestly at some point even I liked it more in this way, but there were two main reasons why I changed it. First one, fact that Handy wasn't really a physical person caused some technical writing issues that maybe been not that hard to fix, but as once already I said- I'm layzy, so I didn't wanted to be bothered by them. And now second and honestly more important reason (at least for me), it was time when I was making 2nd re-write of "Fragments of Sanity" plot (rn I'm working on 3rd, and I hope last one, because I want to finally make it into comic too) and I mean first version of it was pretty, well sad (I can't really find better word for it), but on second version? Oh boy, let me tell ya this shit is even worse (and main reason for this is probably because I dunno when but Mike ended up being at least in his personality and behavior (not by plot) a bit of self insert). So I didn't really wanted both of my projects to be like that, and I wantd at least one of them to be one with wich I could more goof around, so yeah, I've changed it. Well I guess that's all I wanted to say? I dunno. I know that in 95% no one is about to read this, but anyway I feel at least better when I can yap somewhere about some certain stuffs, and hey, ain't that for what blogs even exist? For people to yap, and do stuffs they like? Damn after writing for such a long time about them I guess I have a need rn to finish this god damned 3rd chapter. So yeah, now that's all.

[palmtreehero]

SAPPY

I have been getting so many really kind messages over here since getting into akeshu fandom and I want to share it on twitter and stuff but I don't want to spam or seem like a show off every time but man it boggles my mind I'm so thankful to each and every person who has messaged me 🥹💕

I don't think I've ever been in such a warm and welcoming + active and very interactive fandom in my life. I'm really just drawing what I like all the time and it's so mind blowing to me whenever people say they like it cuz ngl I always felt like I was a bit of an outlier in terms of the vibe of the art in this fandom LOL everyone is really cool and drawing more meaningful/R18/angst/violent stuff and then there's me like: so about this delusional domestic AU *twirls hair* so I HONESTLY WAS AFRAID THAT PEOPLE WOULD BE TURNED OFF BC IT'S "OOC" OR WEIRD

I'm very self aware about my indulgence and live in delusions + am the type who can't lie about what I like/don't like so it's crazy to me when people tell me they got into akeshu because of me, and I'm in disbelief that there are multiple of you who sent me messages like that. It's wild that even some people who don't even play the game or know anything about it told me they treat it as just art they enjoy or as my OCs because they don't know who the characters are LOLLL also people who tell me they came back to loving the ship because of my art HUH

...and of course I can't thank enough the people who just drop random headcanons and thoughts about akeshu... and people who write fics based on my art or throwaway comments I made?? I am so happy to inspire you to create things.

This is also an open reminder that my art/ideas are free real-estate, please feel free to use it as inspiration for your creative endeavors as much as you like, and I'd really love it if you could share it with me too.

I've always been the type of person who only draws for myself, but I won't lie and say that the community hasn't made me more motivated and have even more fun creating things. I've been so excited to get to my days off every week so I can draw and post a drawing, it's very fun when you guys send me messages to bounce off the ideas I've drawn.

I don't know how to thank everyone enough. I may not be some art god, I'm just someone who is passionate about things I like so I want to express it. It means so much to me that people enjoy what I share.

Anyways, enough yapping from me, I guess I've just been feeling so thankful especially since I've been in fandoms where I often felt empty/lonely for a while. I'm shocked at how kind tumblr is, and how active people are here still.

Thank you all so much ToT

I love the akeshu fandom from the bottom of my heart..!

[stellas-starry-sillies13]

YAYAYAYAYAYAYA MATCHUPSSS

I'm a girl and I'm looking for a pjsk matchup!

my personality?? um, god I'm an annoying motherfucker. when I find someone who's willing to listen, I will yap for hours about my interests. I have hpd, bpd(?), and adhd which is super duper fun totally 😐 but I think I'm funny maybe idk? I'm really insecure and I like actually can't find anything good about myself 😓 maybe I'm a fast learner? I'm sort of a nerd like, I'm in accelerated math 🤓

things I'm most sensitive to? idk what this means but ig I hate bugs and clowns and vomit and that shit. also when my s/o isn't giving me attention I would literally start screaming crying shaking.

my number one talent is simping. 💀 I have a shrine for 2 different people and when I have a crush on someone they're all I talk about 😭

my hobbies are drawing, writing, playing pjsk, and screaming lyrics of songs I like really loudly. I've also been getting back into dance lately that's pretty sigma. age range is 13-15 and there are no characters i don't want to be matched up with

what i want in an s/o? think of seo changbin from skz 🤩 jkjk (only slightly) i want a s/o thats nice to me, is at least slightly taller than me, (5'4), is funny, has decent fashion sense, and a real nice voice (but I suppose that's all the pjsk boys..)

what i don't want in an s/o is as I stated earlier, someone who doesn't give me attention, someone who puts me down, someone who brushes off my interests, and someone with a bad hairstyle /hj

yeah ty!! if this ask gets sent into the void I WILL cry!!!

' . < Project sekai matchup No. 1~! > . '

A/N: omg you do good in math??? You sound like a good s/o already. Girl if you like think think im sure you can find good stuff abt you. Liiiike you have a nice humor you made me crack a smile several times while reading this. Also idk youre just a fun person. ADHD? I xan relate. Its not confirmed but i probably do have it. Liek seriously whenever im doing my my math i just randomly start daydreaming and my mom always has to snap me back to reality. Thankfully she finds it funny lol and doesnt scold me for it. Also we're the same height so yay. Also same age range. We kin eachother fr.

Anyway! For the grand reveal, I match you up with....

` . < Rui~! > . '

A/N: Im sorry when you said you want someone who shows you attention i immediately thought of rui.

He will listen to every single detail of your rambles about your interests

Honestly finds it adorable

As someone who also rambles a lot about his own interests, he can relate

He understands that you have hpd and will give you all the attention in the world if you so desire

I like to think he will be very physically affectionate. With this mam, how could you NOT get all the attention in the world??

Finds your 'annoying' personality endearing

Sometimes just watches you draw over your shoulder without saying a word and then you just turn around and see him there and be like 'wth did you come from??'

Asks you to draw him

Loves to just watch you and observe you dance. Might even ask for you to teach him on of your dances. (Idr if it its canon that wxs dances but they prolly do, so)

Def teaches you one of the dances he performs

Im not sure if he has a decent fashion sense.. Idk depends ony our perspective

His voice though? Its the definition of nice. Like out of all the boys his is gentle and smooth. Sounds nice to me

[scabplucker]

scab, you finally have your asks on!!! I wanted to ask you this since we talked about your modern(?) geto 🤔 (yes I think about him often and have been planning on drawing him)

what bands do you listen to, can you give me some recommendations? 😄 you mentioned back then that you were projecting that onto geto LOL

oh…. my…. god….. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING THIS!!! giving me an excuse to finally yap about music 😌😌😌 appreciate you tumblr user evillex11 ❤️ AND OMG ID LOVE TO SEE YOU DRAW HIM❤️❤️❤️ PREFACING WITH U REALLY DONT HAVE TO READ THIS ALL, i went a little nuts SORRY

OKAY, yes i listen to lots of bands, and as of recent i’ve found myself wanting to project the themes of these songs onto geto so baddd, because sometimes i’ll just be listening to a song and it’ll all just click into place and it’ll physically pain me to at least not sketch up something 😭😭😭 i have a list at this point full of songs for potential satosugu animatic thingies

I’D LOVE TO RECC YOU SOME BANDS!!! I lean towards indie/alt, grunge rock bands but i can get pretty diverse, so it all just depends on what you enjoy listening to. Bands like Modest Mouse and Built to Spill have been getting me through life recently.

Built to Spill always has magical fucking guitar riffs, and you can just tell the guitarist is having fun with it. “Keep it like a Secret” is currently my favorite album from them, with songs like “You Were Right” and “Carry the Zero” being some of my favorites. There’s this song from their album called “Perfect from Now On” that I’ve been closely relating to Geto a LOT called “I Would Hurt a Fly”. WARNING!!! about to geek out about the lyrics in relation to Geto.

“I can't get that sound you make

Out of my head

I can't even figure out what's making it

No one else around even seems to be noticing

It's only small enough for me”

I Imagine “I can’t get that sound you make out of my head,” and so on would elude to the cultists all around them clapping as Geto enters the room, where Gojo stood there holding Riko in his arms. After the fact (post riko and toji and all that shit) I always loved the subtle details of something as inconsequential like rain pattering outside while he spoke to Yuki, sounding like clapping and then slowly shifting to the genuine sound of rainfall. Or that scene where he was taking a shower, contemplating his morality and reflecting on past events, the beads of water falling to the floor slowly shift into the sound of clapping. Like it’s all still constantly buzzing in his mind. Little details like that make me love Geto as a character and just how well written his descent into animosity was towards non-sorcerers.

“There's a mean bone in my body

It's connected to the problems

That I won't take for an answer”

He won’t take being complacent to jujutsu society, or consuming cursers and seeing his comrades die for these non-sorcerers for an answer anymore.

“And I won't take that from you

Because I'd

Hurt a fly”

He wont take that from Satoru, because he’d def hurt a fly!!! song title drop!!!

Anyways sorry for the ramble, but def check that band out! If rough sounding voices is a turn-off for you when it comes to songs then you might now fw them, but this is also the same for my next recc,

MODEST MOUSE!! fucking love this band, i will unapologetically say that “Interstate 8” is a masterpiece. They’re also very rough sounding, which personally i really enjoy. Plus the lyricism is nuts, i love how things are put, especially with “Whenever You Breathe Out, I Breathe In”. It’s one of the more mellow songs, but then again i’d say that album is pretty mellow. I have “Edit the Sad Parts” right before in my playlist, and the song no joke has a couple of minutes of just absolute silence. And I won’t even notice music has stopped playing since I’m usually doing something while I listen, then “Whenever You Breathe Out, I Breathe In” will kick in and I’ll just feel the air punch out my lungs. Love that album so much.

There’s also this really underrated fucking band called “Stuck in the Sound”, I put their “Pursuit” album cover as one of Geto’s pins on his bag ❤️❤️ you might have seen the animation for their song “Let’s Go”, if you haven’t i HIGHLY recommend you watch it. The song SLAPS and got me hooked, I couldn’t stop watching the animation. “Let’s Go” is in the “Pursuit” album which houses some of my favorite songs from them such as “Criminal” which has such a nice sound to it, also a personal favorite “Silent and Sweet” which just hits different when you need a good cry. An all time favorite of mine is in their album “Nevermind the Living Dead” called “Toy Boy”. I used to just strum that song on my guitar til my fingers were sore all the time, it’s so nice to just scream that song out. I LOVE THIS BAND SM 10/10

Also been listening to Radiohead quite a bit recently, and “Black star” is about loving someone who’s mentally ill, I believe, and how you maybe be teetering along a fragile line constantly making sure another day passes by without any extreme conflict. And then the song depicts that person then separating from that love interest only to find themselves prone to the same emotional breakdowns. I thought the concept of that oddly fit well with satosugu if you think about how Geto defecting might have privately affected Gojo. I did a small animatic thing for that with Gojo after having to kill Geto!!!! I’ve mostly been listening to the album “The Bends”, has some hard hitters like “Just” or “Sulk”, I fw the guitar in “Planet Telex” a BUNCH. I ❤️ radiohead

ONE MORE I PROMISE. I’ve always been an all time Arctic Monkeys fan. Their discography is super diverse because they’ve been experimenting and changing a lot throughout the years!!! They go from garage band type rock, to alt rock, to pop, to lounge music type jazz?? I love each and every album. I used the song “Batphone” (personal favorite) for the most recent animatic thing I did, the guitar in it is so strong and cleverly inserted, i’ve always wanted to do something with that song. I started conceptualizing a storyboard with a song called “Secret Door” on their “Humbug” album (every song on there is a banger) that you saw on my instagram story (also an all time favorite)! I def recommend “Humbug”, “Favourite Worst Nightmare”, or “Whatever People Say I Am, That’s What I’m Not” if you want to delve into their rock stuff, but if you’re feeling experimental DEFINITELY check out “Tranquility Base Hotel & Casino”. The album is always super hated on but it’s probably one of my favorites, super underrated. You’ve probably heard songs from their “AM” album like “R U Mine?” or “Why’d You Only Ever Call Me When You’re High?” since they got pretty popular, so if you like a mesh of both pop and rocky elements, check that out too!!!

ANWAYS SORRY FOR SUCH A RAMBLE. TLDR: Arctic Monkeys, Built to Spill, Modest Mouse, Radiohead and Stuck in the Sound is AWESOME!! give them a listen, i know i didn’t really even bring up any grunge bands like at all but Dinosaur Jr is really neat. Not in rotation rn, but the song Sludgefeast is magical.

THANKS SM FOR THE ASK

[sobeksewerrat]

✨and🏳️‍🌈 with Hazbin for the ask game

(Also do I have permission to rant about Alastor to you. I hate that fucker so much.)

(yes you do. Please do it actually)

Note: added the cut cos I ended up yapping

✨what draws you towards your hyperfixation? what is interesting about it?

Tough one. Honestly part of it is that I cannot control my AuDHD and part of it is that it has a lot of potential and possible ideas?? I find myself to be more attached to media I can play around with, only God knows how many TMF fanfics, wips and AUs I used to have, and Hazbin is perfect for that.

Besides, I would consider myself to be religious and I'm quite interested in stories based on mythology and religion, and the core concept of Hazbin intrigued me as a Muslim (funfact! In Islam hell is temporary for most people iirc LMFAO). Also, what better way to explore my religious trauma?!

And it's chock-full of potentially interesting characters and dynamics that go unexplored, so that ties back into the first point.

And last but not least, I tend to be a fan of objectively bad and/or very controversial stuff (*coughs* danganronpa, mlb, Jeff the killer-)

I could yap forever about my love-hate relationship with Hazbin but I think I should stop here for now.

🏳️‍🌈do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

YES!! TOO MANY ACTUALLY!!! Here are some of my faves :3

Adam is SWANA, mostly projecting but all abrahamic religions originated from the SWANA region soooo (obviously the term SWANA and the region prolly didn't exist when Adam was first created but shush) And my Eve is black BTW!

Transmasc Adam!! This headcannon is so, so important to me. So important I created multiple AUs with lore documents about it. I could write an essay about why I headcannon him as that. Multiple, actually.

Albino Lute!! I hc they're SWANA too (and Heavenborn, don't ask how, idk either) , but they have albinism (her natural eye colour is very light blue, they wear gold contacts).

NONBINARY LUTE WITH SHE/THEY PRONOUNS ‼‼‼

the exorcists, mainly Lute n Vaggie, as Adam's daughters (biologically or otherwise)!! I can't live without that headcannon and I'm so fucking upset there's not enough content about it out there

Autistic Lute and Cain (my oc at least). They inherited it from Adam. And Eve has anxiety, we've established that. She also has OCD. Trust me. And ADHD Abel. And Vaggie with PTSD (they all have it but her especially

AroAce Charlie and Angel Dust!! Ik they're bi and gay respectively, but who says they can't be both?

AroAce Lesbian Lute too.

Asexual Adam!! I already wrote an essay as to why I hc that but since then the hc expanded and I can write a better, updated one. Won't be as lengthy as my hypothetical trans Adam one, but still full of yapping. 

Adam wears his mask not out of insecurity (for the most part) or protection (that thing is LED, it ain't protective) but because he was recognised by one of his children during the first Extermination (even though he had already transitioned by then). Let's just say that didn't turn out well, and Adam was unresponsive for days. 

Adam is genuinely afraid of most things, even silly stuff to us like the dark. Because even though us modern people have the privilege of artificial lights, not living in the wild, medicine, etc.- he didn't. He was literally a caveman. A fever could kill anyone in his family. The night meant being at risk of being eaten. Water can and will kill you because of the bazillion bacteria inside. Winter meant death if you didn't have a fire going 24/7 or covered yourself up with anything. But, he hides his fears because he thinks they're fucking embarrassing (even though it's very clearly untreated trauma)

Adam loves his kids, truly. He fucked up A LOT (killed thousands of them and the whole Vaggie situation), but that doesn't mean he hates them.he just learned not to get attached to them. 

ADAM ‼ HAS ‼ ABANDONMENT ‼ ISSUES‼

Adam lowkey feels he doesn't deserve his spot in Heaven.

I literally came up with this like an hour or two ago with @an-theduckin but Adam actually did believe in redemption once and tried to advocate for it. Till he didn't. Wonder why that is 👀 (got a fic idea I won't finish. Dw abt it)

Adam gaining weight as a form of healing‼ I imagine he was deathly skinny on Earth due to food insecurity, and even though he improved after they invented agriculture and got better at hunting, he was still clearly unhealthy (and popping out the entire human population at the time didn't help). And also he just likes his appearance this way (fuck you Lucifer and your stupid fat joke)

ADAM LOVED HIS WIFE!!! SHE LOVED HIM TOO!!! OH MY GOD GUYS PLEASE GET IT RIGHT.

In a perfect world, Adam would've been Charlie's uncle/father figure. 

Lute and Vaggie cared about each other, things just kind of…well, yk how it ended. Lute has immense amounts of guilt over the whole situation, but they'll never admit it. Especially not after Vaggie started being involved the Lucifer's fucking daughter. 

Adam's secretly a feminist. I'm not even gonna elaborate, figure out my reasoning yourself. 

Vaggie grieved Adam and her fallen sisters after they died in the finale. Of course, she'll never admit it. (I HAVE A FIC WIP ABOUT THIS I HOPE TO FINISH SOMEDAY!!)

Gamer and Fandom kid Lute. This hc means so so much to me! I originally stole it from @bluexjayy ! They're really into cringey fandoms too (mainly danganronpa, FNAF, undertale and the creepypasta fandom- probably mlp too). Secretly writes fanfiction.

I have SO MANY hcs for Stan and I's Cain, Abel and Eve but I doubt anybody wants to hear them sooo

Redhead Lilith. It was ginger in Eden, turned blood red when she became a sinner. She dyes it blonde.

Annnddddd I think I should stop now oh my god I'm so sorry for yapping again Thanks for the ask though!! Please feel free to rant about Alastor.

[sakiyaki-sashimi]

Okay so right, I'm back again but in my defense, I let out an audible "Sakki! :D" when I saw you responded and couldn't resist sending in a second grrrrr..

AND OKAY! The only reason I wait until you mention me had been for the literal reason of me not wanting to either overwhelm you or accidentally exhaust you.. but since I know now, I'll make sure to send in one once a day, or every other day at the very least :3

AND FOR YOUR GUESS!! Also a good guess tbh, I actually follow sleepyjiraiminori, and when I was writing out my ask I was thinking "Hm. This might give them the impression that I might just be them." BUT HONESTLY? A great guess, so far? Everyone you have guessed have been people I have at least seen on my dash before so I think you're on the right track :D

And honestly? I can't say I dislike politically charged you.. I'm so bad with politics, my friends say I live in a bubble sort of separate from the rest of the world, so I get endlessly fascinated whenever someone actually is passionate about them.. I find it interesting to listen too soooo..

AND I TOTALLY GET IT FOR THE MYSTERY GENRE THING.. Found family always gets me sighhhh.. what if I just like a big happy family of people who aren't blood related.. Also what you described lowkey was reminding me of Ron Kamonhashi about the whole "Old detective teaches new detective" I also see the appeal in that :33

RP IS SO FUN! So I would be so down :D AND BEING YOUR FAVORITE THING ON TUMBLR? AND I EXPLODE? /pos

But actually, that took the breath out of me, you're one of the (two) blogs I actually check consistently so that's like.. wow, me? Little old me is your favorite thing? (I'm actually holding myself back from saying I'm honored because I can only hear that with Nagito's voice sighhh..)

Oh my god, the ferret description is so cute what? And the taller than you thing made me giggle.. because I'm.. I'm hilariously short.. But I'll take it as a win, today I'm tall! And if I were a ferret I'd coil around like a snake and have you snuggled up against my stomach so uhm! There's an image for you, I laughed evilly..

Okay. I've done my yap. It's actually insanely easy to talk to you, I'm usually pretty bad at that but somehow I don't feel like I'm being held at gunpoint? This is crazy? Okay. I think I'm done now. I uhm, I walk into the sunset and I disappear.

OMG YAYYYYY 2 IN A ROW??? RARE SAKKI W!! Btw u spell my name right, thats true companionship on this hellsite <333

Make sure not to exhaust urself with sending me messages btw!! I’ll never get tired of u but ur fingers might get sore so don’t think for his as transactional!! Only send asks when u wanna <33 I’ll be happy no matter how much we interact bc ur just so sweet and cool!

GAHHHH UR NOT SLEEPYJIRAIMINORI?! I rly thought I had it! Guess I’m no detective Conan, hahhh XD

Fr?? U like political Sakki? Well I’m glad! I’m taking my mandatory civics/US citizen and politics course rn so I’m only gonna get louder from here XD especially since pro-Healthcare CEO ppl keep spamming me uggggh….

OMG I ALMOST STARTWD WATCHUNG RON KAMONOHASHI BUT IT WAS SUB-ONLY AND I LIKE LISTENING ONLY SO I CAN DRAW LOLLLL BUT I WANNA WATCH THAT TOO!!! So many good references with u X3

YES RP I LOVE RP!!! And ye ur my fav <3 it’s rare I have a favorite anything bc I’m just so indecisive, but u rly stick out to me as just THE reason I go on tumblr! Ur asks bring me sm joyyy

Hehehe u can say it’s an honor! I’m not just a Makoto kin but a Kokichi kin, so I kinda like the praise XD but honestly I rly don’t deserve it! Frankly IM the honored one for being one of ur regulars!!!! That makes me so happy that u like my stuff, ur so sweet wahhh!!!

1) glad u liked my description! I try to visualize all my anons bc it makes me feel closer to u!

2) NO WAY u could be short compared to me!! Nuh uh! IM 4 FEET AND 11 INCHES (4’11)/149 CM!!!! (centimeters) AINT NO WAY U AINT TALLER IF UR ANY SHORTER UR STRAIGHT UP A HOMUNCULI

The coiling image is so adorableeee if I was a mouse I’d prob just fiddle with ur nose… long ferret snoot boop it!

I drew me hugging u LOLLL

Anywyayyyy I’m glad it’s easy for u to talk to me, I think the same!! Ur like a pan and im like butter, ur just so civersarional and easy to glide off of! Idk sometimes ppl send anons and i just don’t get the point?? But I always get u! I think XD

Anyway it’s late for me (and u too!!!) so imma sleep but thank u for the second ask, penpal <3

[youremyheaven]

how do u attract love? in terms of romantic and genuine love?

I think we attract who we are. I try my best to be as loving as I can be, I probably give too much of myself to too many people (it's one reason why I answer long asks and type out long answers that take me quite a bit of time) but I enjoy it, it's my nature.

I love to love and I enjoy being kind. Enjoy probably sounds like a weird word to use in this context but I genuinely give to people out of the goodness of my heart and regardless of what I may or may not get from them. A lot of people don't give to others bc "what if they misuse it....." that's none of my business 💛 I trust the universe and believe that I am the conduit through which they have to get certain messages or things. What they do with it, is up to them. The flower's job is to share it's sweet nectar with the world, it's futile to worry about the intentions of the bees 😌. Their intentions will dictate their life and mine will dictate mine. Sorry for yapping too much but yeah, I'm a lover girl 🥰😭 I'll do anything for people I love and I have love for everyone. If I met you today and you needed me to donate blood to you, I'd do it without a second thought. This isn't always a smart idea but I believe that God has always protected me from people and situations that could exploit my loving nature.

In return, I feel like I'm loved beyond measure and surrounded and filled with so much warmth and generosity. Even here on Tumblr, you guys are so beyond sweet and treat me like I'm your friend or sister 🥺🥺🥺

you can't be cruel, selfish, stingy and calculative and expect others to be open, loving, tender and warm. for me, in my life, at least, I think I draw in people who are vibrationally similar to me and I distance myself from those who are not. I'm not a doormat.

There's no key on attracting love. You just have to love and be willing to see what happens. My drug abusing ex who is/was suicidal and caused me much grief? I have love for him too and I hope he's well. I have love for my family despite all the hurt there is. I have love for my former friends, despite the wounds there are.

I don't expect anything from any of them and therefore it's not disappointing when they behave in certain ways. That's a reflection of who they are. I will stand my ground and leave though because I will choose my peace over anything else. Being loving does not mean everybody will be lovely to you. Some people are absolutely horrible and stuck in their old ways. Their biggest punishment is being them. But if you are loving and kind, you will at some point find people who are also gentle, loving and warm.

Even when I was younger and not exceptionally kind (unhealed trauma made me act out) I had people in my life who treated me with utmost kindness and compassion and it made me want to be that person for others 💛💛 to this day I think about some of those people even though we're no longer in touch and I wish them well. How we make others feel is very important. You can be angry, sad, irritated, tired etc etc but how you speak and behave in those moments reflects the core of your being. Being with my pookie, and seeing him go through so many different experiences and yet always speaking to me sweetly makes me realise how precious that is. You can't turn into an asshole when you're angry, not if you love the other person. Everything can be handled with grace ✨

Anyways, that's a long winded answer and I'm not sure if I answered it at all. Being authentic and being sincere is the key and you'll find your people that way 💛💛💛 (and weed out the ones who aren't for u)

[kiszuster]

LA . SEXY ✗ satoru .

hey hey .ᐟ note from manager kiszu ! singer! satoru x singer! reader, lowercase, fluff, slight crack, short drabble for the kiszu nation 😖, fem coded reader but race isn't mentioned !

satoru always acted as if being on time was hard. news flash, it literally wasn't, and the "fashionably late" excuse was getting old. his manager, god what was her face? oh. kiszu was it? oh god. she was gonna wear his ass out about this once again.

“so sorry, miss ( last name ), he's literally always like this.” kiszu spoke. a frown on her face as a familiar car pulled up. mmtch, you smacked your lips as you seen him get out the car waving with that same annoyingly cheeky grin on his face. yup, you already thought he was punchable by just looking at him.

"satoru! your late! again." kiszu scowled as she looked over to you, seeing your hand on your own hip. making kiszu frown worse.

you was completely second guessing this collab all together.

"you can't have someone waiting. especially when you wanted this colla—"

“quit yapping kiszu! i get it i get it, satorus so so sorry." satoru said pointing at himself as he walked past kiszu and to you. kiszu particularly could've slapped this punk. but, he's here now. so. i guess it didn't matter anymore, did it?

"ah, you must be ( name ) yeah?" satoru said, looking you up and down. your irritated expression— pretty lips with obvious glossy lipstick on them folded up into an annoyed frown already, to your pretty curly hair. holy shit, you were WAY prettier in person.

but satoru could never be seen getting nervous. not ever. but at the end of the day he was just some stupid loser.

"I'm aware." you say to his question. watching him laugh like you just said the funniest shit in the world, correction. you didn't by the way. your eyes narrowed down to a glare before you said: "okay, satoru. im not here to waste time. you wanted this collab remember?" you said crossing your arms and sitting on the leather couch in the producer room that you two stood in.

"oh im aware. so since i don't wanna waste the rest of your time. here." his tone was coy and smug, ugh. as he slid over a paper of some lyrics with little scribbled drawings by them. making your eyebrow perk up.

guess that help him when he had to read over his own lyrics? something. you picked up the paper and he caught a glimpse of your pretty light blue painted nails. making him grin a bit.

"oh you painted those for m—"

"no." you immediately shut him down. making his grin widen. oh, you were WAY more of a challenge for him. he liked that. maybe this collab wouldn't be so bad. he saw that you placed the paper down.

"sooo?"

"booooo" you said, giving him a thumbs down. making his grin flip into a quick frown with the quickness. that almost made you laugh and laugh hard— you were just kidding around with him.

"bye satoru I'm just playin'. but i can say one (1) thing." you said lifting a finger up, "why can't we change a few lyrics? like maybe a overlap. where both of our voices are heard singing some lyrics then i have a whole verse to myself."

satoru listened to you— he didn't hate the idea. he's heard your voice in some songs, and it was downright gorgeous. so the idea didn't make him wanna wrap his hands around his neck and scream. maybe this wouldn't be bad.

in his silence of thinking, that's when you really got to see him. blue glasses resting on his nose, pretty blue eyes and only slightly messy white hair, sitting in a ever so slightly man spreading position. whew. lord. he actually had a slight kick to him— but okay what if you threw a bomb at him instead.

“i totally see you eye balling me, ( name )." satoru spoke up, a lazy grin on his face. making your lips frown up because that grin looked nice on him.

but why was he acting like he wasn't eye balling you too? looking at your outfit and everything. he definitely thought you had nice fashion skills and even if you didn't, you were so damn pretty. but he wasn't gonna say that.

"oh shut your mouth, i saw you looking at me too. now what do you think of the idea?"

"ACKKKK, wrong." satoru said, making his voice sound like a game buzzer. which— made him start laughing. at his big grown age....you rolled your eyes before you heard his voice.

"okay kidding. i actually like your idea lots, i say we record it and put it all together and see how it comes out." satoru spoke with a shrug. leaning back into the couch opposite from you. you nodded your head with a slight smile. only happy because he agreed with you.

"okay, im game with that. pleasure doing business with you i guess. satoru."

"oh? you know that's the one time i seen you smile miss ( name ) do it again."

"ughhhh shut up you ruined it."

[phoenixisobsessed]

How do you have the motivation to draw every/nearly every day

I love drawing but sometimes I just can't put shit on the paper/canvas/etc (especially if someone tells me to draw something) I don't know how you do it 😭

I look up to you for that fr

You actually reminded me I wanted to do a second doodle today since I’m gonna be working on my exam project for the entirety of the next week HWUEHSU thank you for that! Anyway…

I tbh have motivation to draw almost all of the time, especially when it’s something I really enjoy, like Transformers. And most people who send me asks ngl is like in the same mindspace about Transformers as me. I’m just rarely brain enough to be able to come up with a new drawing idea every day. So I REALLY enjoy having somebody tell me what to do and then I can go “oh my god that’s so good” and then sit there kicking my feet and giggling while drawing it.

I have also just made a good habit of not pressuring myself too much for it. Since I do this for funsies and for free, it’s more like “I get to draw something once a day when I have free time instead of brainrotting” instead of like commissions where you might feel pressured to do your best and have a deadline. This is just funsies. :3 And I enjoy making people happy with my art!! While ofc also keeping my own boundaries. I sometimes miss a day, and then? I say oh well. I did other things or maybe I was busy. It is how it is.

I also often draw during class / while in high-energy soending social situations due to concentration problems, and drawing helps me concentrate, so I just have a bunch of things I could sit down with and use as help!! You guys are helping me concentrate in school no joke thanks BAHAHA.

And also I enjoy yapping and showing my stuff off so having people ask for stuff is def the best way to do that BHABSHS. SO happy I don’t have to come up with new ideas myself constantly ONG. I’m just a silly little guy who enjoys doing silly little drawings, and I’m happy to inspire others, or simply give them something to look at and be a little happier.

[purplepuddlesuwu]

//My relationship with Art and my ocs//

(Warning talking about serious topics and me Yapping and a little venting)

Sometimes I forget how a lot of my art/Characters is a form of me venting.

Yes even my suggestive art and NSFW art. It's super to think that NSFW art can be used in a form of expressing trauma. Yes both Horrror/Gore/sexua NSFW.

I was thinking I don't do vent art anymore which is how my therapist told me I should express myself. So I thought that meant drawing gore, death, self harm, etc.

But I started experimenting with sex. Mainly like using my persona: Puddles. In a sexual way that represents me in a way. I get goofed on a lot about Puddles being a 'Harlot' or a 'Slut' or a 'Whore' which whatever I guess but Puddles is a lot more than just that to me.

Puddles is an ex- succubus. A failure of a demon. She was banished from hell and heaven due to no one wanting her because of her beliefs and because of the way she wasn't 'made right'. I made Puddles to represent myself in the mind that I wasn't 'made right. I was born into a Jehovah Witness household and raised on those beliefs. But growing up Bisexual, a tomboy, and having ADHD. I didn't feel like I fit into my own family. Especially with the threat of if I didn't worship God right I would be exiled from all family circles and no one would talk to me not even my own parents. My "Family" in this instance to me was my hell.

But the heaven I thought I found with other people in fandoms I was interested in or hobbies I was into or people who were also queer didn't seem to be a welcoming spot for me either. (Not saying all of it but sometimes I did feel unwelcomed in certain spaces at certain times of me trying to figure myself out.) So I sometimes felt like an outsider there too.

I always struggled connecting with people both in my family and in other communities. So making Puddles was kind of my way to express that. Express that I felt alone and yet I still wanted to be involved in sometype of community. Which is where Jin, Cho, Jasmine, Ruby, Sparrow, and some of my other oc's come into play. Jin representing the Warriors Fandom because I based him off of Jayfeather. Cho presenting the furry fandom. Jasmine, Ruby, and Alastor representing the Lgbt+ community and me trying to figure myself out. Sparrow representing those who were raised similar to me in a highly religious household raised on the whole "I don't mind gay people but I'm glad you aren't gay" type of vibe.

And I have plenty of other oc's representing different parts of my life and my experiences and other stuff. But those are the ones off the top of my head.

Sorry I'm getting off topic. Maybe... I don't know. ANYWAY! Sex and expression go hand and hand with me. I started taking antidepressants around 2018 I believe and I was put on birth control in 2019 or 2020 can't remember. So it's safe to say my sex drive was GONE. So I lacked in that department for.... Years. Until 2022/23 when I went off of it when I moved out because I couldn't afford it. It honestly felt so weird and unnatural to have these feelings come back not even gonna lie to you. I mean before then I drew sexual stuff in 2020 but it was mainly because I followed some cool artists that were doing it and it honestly wasn't a lot of NSFW.

But once I got my sex drive back I kinda decided to start expressing all that sexually tension that I was depressed by antidepressants and birth control. Both in a MLW and WLW And MLM. Because it was a form of I guess 'catching up' . Because I mean I used to read a lot of smutt before I went on my meds but while I was on them, nope... Nope... Not even once. Maybe I would glance but it never interested me. Now it all came back and I pretty much dived in and honestly felt sad that I felt like I missed out on a lot of expressing myself through means like this.

Not just in art but also in clothing. I never dressed sexy or showed skin or nothing like that. Mainly because like I said I grew up in a JW household so I would get slut shamed for it but yeah you know what I mean.

I wanted to express myself through sex and suggestive art and sex appeal. It all interested in me especially seeing other artists do the same thing and feel how I felt. Growing up repressed from expressing ourselves our of fear of being labeled a whore or an slut or anything like that. Hell one of my favorite artists I follow is a woman who grew up similar to me and she drawing self ship art NSFW and she very much inspired me and I still follow her and look up to her now. It just feels... Empowering to be able to draw NSFW and dress sexy and be sexy and have a sex appeal and arouse others in the form of art (even if I'm not aroused by it)

It's just exciting and feels rebellious and freeing.

ITs hard to explain to people who don't understand so I'm not gonna try lmao. You either get it or you don't. I'm sorry.

But yeah Puddles, and my other oc's are really just a form of venting and rebellion to me. And I love them dearly.

I feel like this whole thing had like a point to it but maybe I just wanted to Yap I don't know. If you have questions about this I don't mind being asked questions about my oc's/my persona/ or even myself.

[probablysimpledreams]

˗ˋˏ ♡ ANON ASKED ♡ ˎˊ˗

Heya I've seen that your match ups were open and I'd like to give it a try^^ I would like a match up for Bsd °My name is Kristina but most people call me Kris! °She/her {Female} | Demi-Aroace |Mbti- infj | zodiac- Capricorn | love language- gift giving and quality time | Avpd (avoidant personality disorder) •°Appearance wise I'm shorter than average, have short wavy brown hair , brown eyes, got a couple freckles on my face and my body is slim and a bit muscular •°Personality wise I'm really introverted preferring to stay indoors with a couple friends rather than going outside, plus I tend to be timid and closed off when approached but after a while I warm up and become really friendly and tend to yap about my interests 24/7 to my poor friends. If I'm at a social gathering and there's a friend I tend to stick around them because I feel awkward around strangers or people I don't know well enough. Likes/hobbies I really like: painting(it's seriously such a major part of my life), drawing, trinket collecting, sculpting with clay or wood, collecting animal skulls, media analysis, audio books and psychology! •°In my free time I really like to paint on a canvas while I listen to hour long video essays of different topics such as psychology or listen to audio books of classic literature, one of my favourite videos are: The psychology of the fool by Eternalised and Fear of forgetting by Clark Elieson (they are seriously such good commentary and kept my attention 100% while painting) •°I also do enjoy video games such as: reverse 1999(I love the story sm), cookie run games, Pokémon and I sometimes play hardcore Minecraft. •°Skull collecting is also a very big part of my life, it helped me cope with the loss of some animals that were very dear to me and now take care of animals skulls by putting them into glass domes and having my own little museum. It also got me interested into the art of taxidermy and I have lot's of respect for those who perform it ethically •°these are my fave songs and artists! Starset{Fav album• Vessels} {Fav songs• Dark on me, Everglow, Perfect machine, Icarus} Sleep token{Fav album• Take me back to Eden} {Fav songs• Gods, Vore, hypnosis, descending, the offering, aqua regia and so much more!} Dislikes :I don't dislike many things but I'm not a fan of crowded and loud places, cold weather, overly judgemental people that are very narrow minded and people bossing me around. Type: I personally don't really have a type, what I want from a relationship is reciprocated emotional attachment, comfort and understanding of one another and being able to connect on a meaningful way. Dates: And as dates go I prefer to stay inside, order some food and enjoy eachothers company or watch a show Future: As for future career goes, I'm currently applying to become an art major (more specifically in painting) and after that I want to study psychology, I've been really interested in it for a while and I can't help but want to learn more about it (I already started studying on my own, at the moment I'm studying personality disorders and their diagnostic criteria after I've been professionally diagnosed with a personality disorder myself) I apologise for my long yapping session anyways I hope you'll have a wonderful day or night! Love your fics btw!!!

Hii!! Omg no need ti apologize, I appreciate how much thought you put into!!<3 AND THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHH!! I hope you have a wonderful day/night too cutie!!

for BSD your match is......

˗ˋˏ ♡ Atsushi ♡ ˎˊ˗

Yall would be the cutest EVER omg two peas in a pod hehe<3 Okay but fr I think your personality would mix well with his and vice versa. He loves listening to you talk about your interests, he gets so mesmerized when he watches the way you light up as you talk (before yall started dating, he did a lot of research on your different interests so he would have an excuse to talk to you aka ask questions about said interests). He doesn't like to be alone, so it provides him a sense of security knowing if yall go out together you will stick with him. He can get overwhelmed by strangers easily, so it's nice neither of you will be put in awkward and draining situations since yall would stick together anywhere. He thinks you're SO smart and skilled , he loves just learning from you. He especially loves your art, and would decorate the apartment like a museum to show off all your work (he often studies them when he's home alone and he keeps his favorite piece you made him by the bed so if he wakes up from a nightmare he can look at it to calm down<33). You make him feel very calm, but also very special. Whenever you include him in these small parts of your life (whether it be showing him how to use a certain type of paints or pulling out a whiteboard to explain how to play a video) he's just gets so happy and feels so loved!! He also wants the same things from a relationship, so yall share a very deep bound that both of yall nourish and I just see it blossoming into something beautiful<3 Yall both have the same caring, soft yet determined vibe.

[almasscribbles]

Intro to: ME (⌐▨_▨)

Hello to no one in particular and welcome to my account! As of writing this, I'm a newbie here, and I'm trying to get a feel for the site. So far so good, I have more free time now that I'm in winter break so I want to, y'know build up a place that I can share my art and connect with others, to hopefully find some cool people to talk to and also because I want to start doing commissions, but I don't want to get ahead of myself.

First off, hi! my name is Alma, and I'm a 19-year-old university student who's majoring in art (aka future Walmart employee) and minoring in English. My hobbies include drawing and reading (no shit) and I can't say I'm in any particular fandom or fandom culture but some media I'm a fan off in no particular order:

TAWOG PJO What We Do in the Shadows TV show Bob's burgers Ghibli movies Saiki K Webtoons InuYasha Disney movies Beaststars Coraline Niche hour-long video essays on things I've never heard about Mediocre YA fantasy novels Really, most CN cartoons or Western Cartoons in general Niche internet drama Crime documentaries Crappy murder/crime shows (Criminal Minds is good tho <3) idk???? this is all up top of my head

I'm up for anything that looks fun and interesting, but if you want to try and convert me to your fandom, be my guest.

My interests mostly lie with my OCs, and I might post some of that here. In fact, I mostly want to keep this as an art blog, but I'll occasionally be yapping about something since Tumblr sounds like the place to do so and god knows I'm a massive yapper on the inside.

I tend to mostly do cartoony character art of my characters and mostly have western cartoon influences in my style.

Music weis I listen to anything, but ngl I'm a bit of a basic bitch when it comes to my music taste. I listen to a bunch of stuff, artists/bands I've been listening to are:

Queen Nirvana Fall out boy Radiohead Weezer The Smiths boa Lady Gaga The Beatles Jack Stauber Britney Spears Abba MARINA Rob Zombie 2010s Katy Perry 80s music in general 80s-00s metal Literally whatever as long as it goes hard

Anyways, I'm a pretty anxious and socially awkward person irl, so excuse me if I come across as a little goblin man who's been holed up for its entire life, but I'm up for chatting as long as it's nothing weird or like real nasty stuff.

That's about it, about me and my interests, so thanks for reading all that random person who read this to completion for some reason, yes I mean YOU, anyways thanks again, and let's see if I stick around and not immediately abandon this- cheers~

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Random Rambles

Note: I originally wrote this on June 17th and just stored it in my drafts to rot, but then I thought I might as well let the world hear me yapping, so here you go! There might be more to come in the near future.

TLDR: I talk about a lot of useless stuff, like my thoughts on productivity and art. Basically; being solely focused on productivity == not good, and art is fun again.

I have random strings of thought going on in my head and so I'm just gonna write and see where it takes me.

Thought 1 - Productivity:

I want to say that I haven't been a productive person these last few months, but that's not true. However, I feel like this "productiveness" that I've been doing isn't what a lot of "productivity-focused" people would consider productive. I've been seeing a lot of posts online about how to become more productive, or maximize the result by minimizing effort, hustle culture, etc... and idk if it's because I'm getting older or what (sure, I'm in my mid-20s, but mentally I'm 84), but to me this is so unbelievably un-maintainable. I get wanting to improve at stuff, but you'll burnout so fast and feel like shit after, I don't know why people go through that. Hell, that's how I felt with programming; it's super exciting to get started on it, but after months of going at it with very little breaks, it's hard to get back into it once you stop because you realize you don't like it as much as you did at the start, and that's fine. It doesn't mean you're a failure, it just means it's time for a break and to try something else. It feels like there's an expectation to have your identity tied to one thing only, but that's not right. Imagine how nice it is being able to do multiple things in different fields. You can switch your focus to work on something completely different while waiting to recharge. Sometimes it's better to take things nice and slow (if time permits, that is), and enjoy the process rather than the product. The problem is that that's not how the world works, and that sucks. At this point in time, it's a struggle to have a work-life balance for most careers, especially with the rise of hustle culture and gig jobs. And so I guess in my own way, I will continue to quietly rebel against that while I can and accept that it's ok not to be 100% "productive" and to spend time doing things I enjoy, even if it doesn't lead me anywhere in the long run. Ok, this is the end of this line of thought.

Thought 2 - Art:

Now, I want to talk a bit about art. I've recently been watching random videos on the art community and its drama, and oh god. Apparently the community in some apps is really bad, and I can't wrap my brain around why that is. For example, I heard that a lot of artists are discouraging and mocking new artists because of their lack of skill with regards to anatomy and style. I can't even comprehend why someone would do that...? At some point in everyone's life they're a beginner at something, and instead of helping them rise and being excited that someone wants to enter this new world, people put them down. It makes absolutely no sense. Before I started doing art for myself, I hated doing it and would only draw for class in elementary school. But after a teacher gave me an "A" in art class, I was so encouraged to continue because someone believed in me and thought I was good, and that feeling helped me enjoy art. And to think that instead of giving new artists these feelings people just shut them down, is so disheartening. How do you form a community if everyone rejects everyone else? I've been doing art for myself for 12 years now and have gone through long periods of no art, followed by some small bursts of inspiration, and the thing that I remember the most fondly is the friends I made and how excited I was for those specific people to see what I've created. And we'd all hype up each others' art, which motivated us to do more art, and it was the best positive feedback loop one could ask for. And now, things seem so separated and divided and discouraging.

But I'm not all doom and gloom here today. The reason what I said above is bothering me so much is because I've gotten a sudden burst of art inspiration this year, and even though I don't know what sparked it, I'm riding this wave out as long as I can, and I'm having such a good time! For the past 3 years I've been sketching in pen and hated it, but after spending 3 months doing pencil, I've gone back to pen and have fallen in love with it again. A lot of people say that drawing in pen improves your art because it forces you to think about what lines to draw and helps you draw faster, but I realized that those are the reasons why I wouldn't want to draw in pen. Instead, I've found that pen allows me to commit to my mistakes, and instead of being bummed about the sketch not looking perfect, I'm forced to continue and am encouraged to capture the overall vibe rather than the small, perfect, details. And you know what? I love that! Sure, I'll fill a whole page of ugly sketches, but when I'm flipping through my sketchbook and see those again, I don't think they're ugly at all. They convey an idea, and if I want to expand on it and make it pretty, I know that I can. As for the second point of drawing faster; like I said in Thought 1, I think it's better to take things slow and focus on enjoying the process instead of the result. I think it also stems from going against the productivity mindset and the whole short-attention span thing that we all apparently have, where instead of getting things done right away so you can move onto the next thing, you should just sit and focus on one thing at a time and get completely sucked into it. My last finished art piece took nearly 7 hours, and I might get back to it and change some things, but those 7 hours feel like they went by so fast because I was having so much fun! And I think that's the ultimate thing; are you having fun? Because if not, then why bother? And that can be applied to any hobby. I think that's why I'm not doing any coding projects at the moment, because I'm not having fun and I see it as a chore when it shouldn't be.

Thought 3 - Fanart and TV shows:

Now, a lot of my hobbies go through phases, where at most I'll be into 2 different hobbies at the same time. Luckily, hobby 1 (watching tv shows) is directly motivating hobby 2 (art) and I've got such a good cycle of working in my sketchbook because I'm obsessed with the show I'm watching (Money Heist) and drawing so much fanart. And as a side-note, I've only posted 2 digital pieces of fanart for the show and have refrained from looking up existing fanart (I'm avoiding spoilers like the plague), and I gotta say, it feels super isolating because I'm not sharing any of this with anyone, but it also feels really freeing? Like, I have no idea how other people draw the characters or what they like/dislike about the show. I feel like I'm a kid again without internet, just drawing what I want because I like it and the subject matter, not to just show other people. Sure, I already have a piece that I posted and want people to see, but again, I had so much fun working on it that attention to it is merely an afterthought and not the goal. Not only is that cool, but I'm also enjoying something without knowing what the general population thinks about it, and that's so freeing! There's no bias going into it because I haven't heard anything about it. Man...if you can't tell, I'm having such a good time. It's kinda making me want to abandon social media so that way I can experience a bunch of new stories without knowing anything about it beforehand. It's a shame I'm too addicted to scrolling...