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nokingsonlyfooles · 9 months ago

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OK! The current brain condition is +/-15 hours away from a dose, taken before bed with food and no chocolate this time. Well I did have cake for dessert so probably non-zero chocolate in the system, but just cocoa powder. So let's keep talking about things!

The anxiety is definitely up and down based on context. Stuff that I'm used to doing, like a long stint of creativity, is making me feel unsteady and weird. The parts of the process that are challenging (like starting tasks) are offering me less or a different kind of resistance, and it feels like I'm gonna fall and break. I think it's most evident in talking out loud. That feels easier, and I do NOT trust that. Like: oh, God, why do I have all these words now, I'm going to pick the wrong ones! It's as if someone replaced my stick shift with an automatic and I've never driven one of those. I need to pop the clutch or I'll grind the gears! Where's the clutch?!?

Or maybe it's like going from a bumper car to an actual car? This thing has the ability to veer into traffic and really hurt me or someone else! Put me back in the limited machine that bangs me into walls all the time, I'm used to it! I mean, that sucks and gives me anxiety, too, but being used to it seems to make up for a lot. I can probably learn to drive, but... Wow, I put off actual driving for so long due to anxiety. I quit trying to learn a bunch of times. I hope it won't be like that.

Adding chocolate and other things to the dose is called stacking, and it's based in folk knowledge. It's real hard to do research with "illegal drugs" so I'm willing to forgive a lack of specific studies for the moment. If I start seeing a lot of research that says it's BS, I'll adjust. Until then, mushrooms have had a place in folk medicine for a long time and I'll try their suggestions, even without data on what works and why. I might do better with less or no chocolate, but three doses isn't much for a sample size. I'm still throwing things at the wall to see what sticks.

I think some of the side effects are down to the fact that I've got more than one weird thing going on. When the spouse read that thing about not hearing the music, he said that's kinda how it works for him. He's also on the autism spectrum, but they'd label him as higher functioning than me, and he doesn't test ADHD positive. I used to perceive everything coming at me all the time, but right now, when I see something interesting, the other stuff is, like, GONE. It's there, but it's gone. I don't know how else to express that! It's weird and I'm not used to it!

I also think I'm gonna be an every-other-day type person, if I stick with it. In the last few hours, I really start to lose traction, and going back to normal (normal for me) feels like a rubber band snapping back and hitting me in the face. Like, maybe even less functional than usual. Last night, putting dinner away, I froze up because I couldn't fit two slices of loaf in one container and if I couldn't fit two slices, we wouldn't have enough containers, and that's as far as I got. I just yelled "I don't know what to do!" while laughing at the absurdity.

The spouse came in and said we could just put one slice in every container. "Noooo," I said, still laughing. I could already see what he was gonna do. "That's not the same color! There's not enough!" He pulled down the container that was a different size and colour and I was like, "What is wrong with you? I can't deal with this! I can't watch this! I have to leave!" Still exaggerating to be silly, but I don't think I could've put food away in that wrong-colour container if I had to. I would've put everything back in the pan or just walked away, like, "Actually, we don't need leftovers." That's where my brain was, and that feels so dumb now.

Oh, God. Oh, Jesus Christ. That container that's the wrong colour would've fit two slices. It's big enough. We could've put two slices in one big container, and one slice in two small containers, and that's the smart thing because it takes up less room and uses fewer dishes... WTF. NEITHER of us saw that? AND NOW I DO?? I think he got locked into "one slice per container" like I got locked into "these containers are for the loaf." Or maybe he was distracted because I scared him by getting less functional so fast like that. (Sorry, babe!)

Ya know, any post where I talk about this is just gonna be long as hell because I'm having complex revelations in realtime. Am I even remembering that right? *wanders off to check fridge* Yes. Yes I am. I couldn't see it before, now I do. I have become slightly less stupid about how to put meatloaf away. I can't fix it now, but it's interesting. I could just be like this, huh? As long as the drugs hold out, and I could grow my own if I had to.

My brain now has two modes like my US/CAN keyboard! I get to pick one! Toggling back and forth is uncomfortable, but we'll see how it changes as I adjust. Gonna be a weird couple of months!

How D'ya Like THEM Apples?

So, trying the decriminalized mushrooms in tiny doses for the ADHD (because, in my particular situation, going to a doctor for this might be hazardous to my health in general). The first time I took them before bed, with chocolate, and that upset my stomach a little so I decided to take them with breakfast like they suggested in the instructions (not really a breakfast person). Not an improvement, they upset my stomach more and made me anxious all day yesterday. Can't know if I'm getting used to them or I need to figure out the best way to take them.

Still slightly anxious today, but able to roll with it.

So, here's the deal. A while back, the spouse and I discussed what the prompt "imagine an apple" gets you, in your brain. He can imagine an apple at will. I found out, I can't. I need context. What's it for? Do you want my culture's Platonic ideal of "apple" or are you going to the store and you need to know what's a good one to buy? Do I need to get taste and texture involved here or is it more like set dressing? With some context, I can kinda get you an apple, but it's indistinct.

And I thought, "Ahaaa! That's that 'imagination deficit' they want to see to diagnose the autism. That's what that is! I can't cough up unlimited specific apples without specific contexts for each one, and even then it's not so good!"

But, after that first microdose, while heading off to sleep, I thought to myself, to pass the time, "Hey, wonder if I can imagine an apple any better?" And, uh, I COULD? Unlimited specific apples, no context. I mentioned that to the spouse, and he said, "Can you still do it now?" And, yes. Yes I can. +/-36 hours away from the second tiny dose of mushroom, and I can give you unlimited specific apples, if you need me to imagine that for some reason.

And... It kinda feels nonsensical that I couldn't do that before? Yeah, apples. There's lots. Just pick one. But I know I couldn't. Not even for the sake of a person who would be satisfied with any imaginary apple. Like, I could imagine the shittiest apple and that would be fine, it would be a judgment free zone! But I remember I couldn't do it. I needed a better prompt.

That thing with the apples is not something I've heard about for ADHD, but I did just barely get an internet diagnosis on that (thanks, @kithpendragon), and I only ordered the stuff because my THC vendor has it. I need the THC to keep from waking up from the edge of sleep with a gasp and heart palpitations, fearing to be harmed. If you spend $200 and stock up, they send you more THC as a surprise! That's a good deal! I like not having panic attacks! For months at a time! I'm not liking the stomach ache and anxiety from the mushrooms, but this thing with the apples makes me feel functional and cool. I don't wanna lose that!

I'm kinda concerned I'm gonna end up doing a real Flowers for Algernon here if I can't tolerate the mushrooms, or they go illegal again because politics. Like, I'm not sure how well the brain differences will play with my creativity and productivity. I need to draw things and go shopping and make dinner, ya know? Lots of different stuff. I seem to be able to do laundry and write a long-ass Tumblr post, but I need long-term data on that. In any case, five days a week is the maximum recommended dose and I gotta take breaks or I'll build up a tolerance.

I may end up looking forward to my meds like that one Tumblrite in my feed the other day, even if they make my stomach hurt! Or I may end up trading one kind of imagination for another and going back and forth indefinitely. I'd prefer the former, but I gotta wait and see.😅

#long post #adhd #autism #anxiety #mushrooms #psilocybin #i just noticed tumblr prompted me to spell “psilocybin” wrong #i am not usually this good at seeing typos #i have been making a lot more typos lately but i'm not usually this good at seeing them #that's supposed to be an eye thing - physical! - wtf is going on with me??#is this gonna reset my brain so i can learn how to read like i'm supposed to?#after decades of my weird eye forcing me to read words by shape?#ie: the exercises helped the eye but not the brain but now the brain is different?#i don't wanna get my hopes up but why is it like this now? aaaaaaa!

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creatorteam · 1 year ago

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csmeaner · 2 years ago

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Long Post: An Exercise for CS Impulse Buyers

I see this problem a lot in CS so thought I'd share something my therapist taught me that's helped with impulse buying CS designs.

We're super amazing at self-justifying. Not only that, our brains are efficient at doing stupid things. You can come to a foolish decision and act on it within half a second. In a sense, you don't have a chance to think before you think.

You have to nurture an "inner critic" that sort of stops you and questions your justifications critically. The key term is critically, not cruelly. Ex: "Hm, you say you like X, but you always seem to get rid of Xs, and at a huge loss. Why are we getting another X?" vs "X is so fucking stupid. This is stupid. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

You'll tune yourself out if you're too mean. So you have to be critical, but not unkind. Here's what you do:

1. Find something you want to buy. If that's too hard (ie: you end up buying the damn thing) find something you sort of want to buy, or even something that might be up for voucher one day but isn't now.

2. Justify buying the design. Write down each justification. It doesn't matter how dumb it sounds, just write it.

3. Now reread what you wrote and question yourself critically. Approach each item as if it was faulty or fallacious. You'll end up in a back-and-forth with the over-heated part of your brain as it frantically pulls out all the self-justifying stops. Stay calm. Be critical, but kind.

4. This process can take anywhere from a few minutes to up to an hour or more if you're agonizing. Be patient with yourself and don't be afraid to find something easier. You get faster the more you practice. It's also less stressful, but don't be surprised if you're doing well for a long time, then hit a setback.

Here's an excerpt from something I talked myself down from recently. It's cut down a lot. We'll call the thing I wanted a "Horsedog".

The justifying: Wow, a Horsedog! They have three rare traits--you never see a Horsedog with traits like this on sale. They have such soft, sad eyes. $400 and...

The criticizing: Three rare traits for $400? Isn't that over $130 for each trait?

The justifying: Well, there's two uncommon traits, too.

The criticizing: let's say anything over common is special. We're paying $80 per trait. Don't we have a $1000 credit card bill coming up?

The justifying: Credit cards are meant to be paid off slowly.

The criticizing: That is not what they're meant for. For people with our kind of spending problems, they should be treated as cash unless it's a real emergency. Do we have the cash on hand for the card and the Horsedog?

The justifying: No, but...

In the end, I realized I wanted the Horsedog because it was part of the Horsedog CS and I thought I could fodder it. I could go on but this post is already super-long.

This exercise isn't a panacea, but it's been super helpful. It'll creep into other areas of your life. For example, I binge-eat less now.

Also, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still thinking about that Horsedog every now and then.

#submission #this is good stuff #help

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l0uk45 · 5 years ago

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If students from class 1A and 1B were part of the Riordanverse:

Yuga Aoyama: Son of Aphrodite. Not even a good one, unless you need someone blinded by his glitter-gun. Oh yeah, he has a glitter gun with lasers for maximum flare. Is he completely over-the-top? Absolutely. But is he good in a fight? Surprisingly, yes.

Mina Ashido: Daughter of Hermes and legacy of Hecate, capable of inhuman movements and can produce a slime that magically dissolves anything. She also tattooed her eyes black and yellow for some weird masochistic reason.

Tsuyu Asui: She’s a frog-turned-human by Ochako. She still has her tongue, leaps, hops, camouflage, a reversible stomach and poison that can kill a group of whales. And he can still inflate her throat like a balloon, which makes for good scares.Very good scares…

Tenya Iida: Son of Mercury, he never skips leg day. Never. Seriously, have you seen those legs? He could crush a car with those puppies! Or crush monster heads! Which he does do quite often! He doesn’t skimp out on upper body exercises either, but LOOK AT THOSE LEGS OF THUNDER!

Ochako Uraraka: Daughter of Hecate, she specializes in a set of spells that manipulate an individual object’s or being’s gravitational pull. It’s gotten to the point where she makes anything she touches with five fingers on one hand, it will float, no matter what, which is why she wears gloves all the time.

Mashirao Ojiro: Son of Mars, he’s an expert martial artist and very, very good at multiple of them. He’s lost multiple sparring partners because of his profinity with a number of weapons, and his lethality without any weapons.

Denki Kaminari: Legacy of Zeus and Apollo, each by about 50 generations. About as bright as his godly ancestors (not very), but he still makes one Hel of a lightning bolt, and he’s also pretty good with a guitar and lyre.

Eijiro Kirishima: Son of Vulcan, his blood and skin are pure liquid gold, bronze and diamond he can infinitely harden for a period of time. It also obtains unnaturally sharp edges, and given his tendency to go hard when excited, he has made his friends frequent the infirmary for cuts and broken ribs.

Koji Koda: Son of Actaedon, he can talk with wildlife. He’s also a Legacy of Heracles, hence his size. His hugs are nice, war and gentle.

Rikido Sato: Son of Mars, this guy has a serious sweet tooth. He’s also surprisingly gentle for a guy that can decimate an opponent with a single hit.

Mezo Shoji: Son of Ares, he’s surprisingly level-headed. And malicious. Seriously, this guy always has at least ten different weapons on him, on top of him knowing a variety of potentially lethal moves. His arms are known as the Anacondas for a reason.

Kyoka Jiro: Daughter of Apollo, she’s a top-tier musician, singer and is moderate with a bow and arrow. She can whistle in the ultrasonic range, clap like thunder, sing and play like either a sweet little bird or a whole-ass heavy metal choir without ruining her vocal cords, and she gives the opposite amount of fucks that Zeus does (ie. zero).

Hanta Sero: Son of Hermes, he inherited a pair of magical tape dispensers that can dispense any tape in any amount of any properties he chooses. He uses them to swing around like Spider-Man, which made him a regular visitor of the infirmary until Momo made him a special harness to keep his joints from dislocating.

Fumikage Tokoyami: Son of Erebos, he suffers from split-personality disorder, but it’s fixed nicely by his inner demon incarnate made of pure darkness he calls Dark Shadow. They have a strangely healthy relationship for a boy and his literal inner demon.

Shoto Todoroki: A Legacy, descendant of Hel and Surtr, capable of making ice that freezes fire, and fire that burns ice. He gives so little shit he’s actually oblivious to social cues, which makes for more than a few funny moments on quests with him.

Toru Hagakure: Legacy of Iris, she can manipulate light around her to turn invisible or project bright flashes

Katsuki Bakugou: Son of Ares, with rage and instincts of war so strong and powerful he can convert his sheer rage into explosions in the palms of his hands. He generated more than one explosion with the explosive yield of a nuclear weapon in his life. How he hasn’t gone deaf yet is beyond most people, though he does still know a variety of sign languages.

Izuku Midoriya: A mortal, capable of seeing through the mist, was gifted the Spartan Spirit, a spirit formed by Kratos, Nike, Bia and Zelus, to protect humanity in its greatest times of need. He ends up breaking his bones an absolute shitton, and is a regular at the infirmary.

Minoru Mineta: Died on a quest. His quest-mates say ‘by accident’. Everyone knows it was very deliberate, but then again, everyone hated him and is fine with him dead. Some people wanted to be the ones to kill him though.

Momo Yaoyorozu: A Legacy, granddaughter of Hephaestus and Athena, capable of making virtually any machine. She’s also very fidgety, and once made an entire army of fully autonomous grass soldiers that went on to terrorize the other campers for a bit. In thirty minutes.

Class 1B:

Yosetsu Awase: Son of Hephaestus, he also likes to make stuff. Though mostly he combines already existing tools, gadgets and machines, and makes weird amalgamations. He once fused an automaton bull, an automaton dragon and a school bus, and it actually works.

Sen Kaibara: Son of Ares, he’s pretty chill compared to his kin (especially Katsuki and Setsuna), mainly due to him bottling up his anger. Which he can unleash as tornadoes around his limbs, which he can use to drill through walls. Thank gods he doesn’t lose it too often.

Togaru Kamakiri: Son of Ceres, he likes farming tools. Especially ones with blades. That’s lead to him using all kinds of sickles, scythes (both farming tools and war scythes) and even a few lawn mowers, shovels, axes...

Shihai Kuroiro: Son of Nyx, him and Tokoyami get along exceptionally well. Given his ability to shadow-travel and use shadows and darkness as materials to make some pretty nifty weapons only he can use.

Itsuka Kendo: Daughter of Athena, she excels in critical thinking and a variety of martial arts. And knocking out her piers with precise attacks when they start to get exceptionally annoying.

Yui Kodai: Daughter of Trivia. She excels in potions and spells that manipulate the size of objects, so much so that she has to resort to gloves because she now naturally makes things smaller with her left hand, or bigger with her right hand. She’s the calm one.

Kinoko Komori: Daughter of Demeter, she has a soft spot for fungi and mushrooms. Which she can make grow rapidly. Very rapidly. She’s fun at parties.

Ibara Shiozaki: Daughter of Demeter, she dyes her hair green with actual chlorophyll for some reason (“To feel one with the beautiful plants,” she says), but she can also grow and manipulate vines and other vine-like plants, along with trees, quite effectively, and she has some rose and poison oak (she’s immune to it) seeds in her hair. Don’t ask, her answers are just as ridiculous as the chlorophyll-dyed hair.

Jurota Shishida: Son of Mars, he’s been cursed by most likely Hera to be a humanoid boar/dog thing. He’s especially good at wrestling, and is very diplomatic in his approach. Until he gets pissed, then he charges like a boar and yes, he keeps those tusks of his sharp on a regular basis.

Niregeki Shoda: Legacy of Hermes, son of Hephaestus, he likes to make explosives and plant them everywhere. More than a few campers were scared. Except Katsuki, who tried to outdo the ground (Niregeki’s mine) in explosive yield and put skylight access in the roof of Bunker 9. Niregeki had to repair it.

Pony Tsunotori: Legacy of Poseidon, she can shapeshift. She likes to shapeshift into horses, bulls, deer and goats (including mooses and buffalo), and she has a nifty gadget from the Hephaestus and Vulcan campers in the shape of horns that transform with her, giving her detachable remote-control horns.

Kosei Tsuburaba: Legacy of Jupiter, son of Ares, he’s competitive and can make walls and blades out of air. Especially annoying for monsters because they can’t get to him, period, and every time they try, they don’t get past his walls of air for a whole minute before someone either cuts/hacks/slices them to bits, freezes/burns them alive, blows them up with their fists/explosives/expanding stones they previously ingested or some other way of disposing a monster.

Tetsutetsu Tetsutetsu: Son of Vulcan, capable of turning to pure steel over his entire body, also increasing his strength. Because of this, and his tendency to go hard whenever he’s excited, he’s made his friends frequent the infirmary for bruises and broken ribs.

Setsuna Tokage: Daughter of Ares, she’s actually been hurt pretty badly in one of her fights (she went on a Quest with Katsuki, and no, it wasn’t him who hurt her) and had to have automaton grafts to replace her limbs, a part of her lower jaw, her eyes and the muscles around her spine, along with parts of the vertebrae. Which she asked to be detachable and splittable in as many pieces as possible, which she can control telepathically and uses to troll other campers. A lot. Especially two certain sons of Vulcan.

Manga Fukidashi: No one knows what he is, they just know his head is a speech bubble and he can make anything he writes real.

Juzo Honenuki: Legacy of Gaia, he can virtually liquify the ground (does not work on metal or wooden floors). He trolls a lot with this ability. And I do mean a lot.

Kojiro Bondo: A golem? A person? His head makes it hard to tell whether he’s a demigod or a monster to be honest. And his glue-like spit doesn’t help much either.

Neito Monoma: Legacy of, you guessed it, Zeus! He has a superiority complex because of this, and he frequents the infirmary on the basis of Itsuka or whoever he was annoying KOing him constantly. All that brain damage probably isn’t helping his mental issues...

Reiko Yanagi: Daughter of Hecate she can make things she touches float and fly around using some sort of incantation. The biggest she can do is double her own body weight, but that doesn’t stop her from delivering high-speed flying punches and scaring other campers.

Hiryu Rin: Son of Mars and Legacy of Poseidon, he can shapeshift into various animals. Most notably a mix of human, hedgehog and a lizard. Sharp, painful and deadly precise. And also meditating. And a lot of it.

#my hero memes #my hero academia #riordan universe #percy jackson #heroes of olympus #magnus chase #the kane chronicles

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norcumii · 5 years ago

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Hi! I’ve been following your writing for quite a while and notice you occasionally share posts about mental health and stuff. Do you have any recommendations for grounding techniques (aside the count down for the senses one)? Something to get yourself focused back on the present, rather than dissociating? Thanks!

Hi there! So, first and foremost: most of my therapists have been pretty rubbish over the years, and I was never trained on proper, actual techniques on how to deal with this, so it’s all anecdote and what’s worked for me over the years. (Also, most of my dissociation was during and due to an abusive relationship, so my approaches ended up being primarily “power through it and ignore that I’m manipulating a meat puppet and/or that reality doesn’t feel like reality right now.” That, er, skewed my experiences a lot. “Worked” is a very relative term.)

My primary approach is breathing exercises: slow in through the nose, hold, out through the mouth, hold, repeat. I try to use the hold phase to do a sensory check, sometimes “for each number, register a thing I can feel or try to pull myself closer to the here and now” or just “close eyes and just BE for that count. This is time for ME, outside of everything else that might be going on [and thus prepares me better for when I exhale and go back to the world].” The count tends to range from a slow 3 to an average 5, depending on how asthmatic I am on any particular day.

I wouldn’t actually advise my other approach – it was more of the “still need to get shit done” variety. I tend to have an internal narrative in the first place, which is always a little weird when it’s not my brain reciting potential story bits at me. I try to apply the narrative to what I want to get done, so my brain is “reading” the actions I want done, so I do them, and somewhere in there I make sure to list the emotions I’m feeling but hiding, and giving explicit permission to feel them (most often when the relevant trauma had passed, ie when the Ex had gone to bed).

...Yeah, reading it all written out like that, that does not look healthy. :(

Sorry that wasn’t more helpful, Anon. My areas tend to be sussing out issues and talking about the abuse side of things, and less about particular symptoms. *offers cookies* If I see any interesting posts about approaches I’ll be sure to reblog them, and lots of luck to you in the meantime!

#Anonymous #conversation #mental health #dissociation #abuse #Hugs #hugs for everyone

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scripttorture · 5 years ago

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I have a MC in modern France jail cell. I wanted to have her go through an acute glaucoma attack that causes severe eye pain, vomiting. MC will be unable to see much and speaking/sitting up will be difficult. Would neglecting the prisoner’s severe pain be enough realistically or would tortures probably want to do something extra if they acknowledge the pain at all? Unsure what to use that won’t cause passing out (ex: forced exercise) so MC can overhear something for plot reasons. Thanks!

Alright so, beyond a quick look at wikipedia I have no idea what acute galucoma is. The medical side; how this condition progresses and what it looks like, I’m going to have to leave to you.

I’ve read about a couple of cases from France recently, but not enough to build up a consistent pattern (ie confirm a National Style). So keep in mind that when I’m describing things that seem to be a pattern in France my information is about ten years old. This probably won’t effect your story and it’s only fair to say that part of the reason the information is 10 years old is that France was visited by the European Committee for the Prevention of Torture in 2006. Which may have resulted in increased reporting afterwards.

The prevailing picture was that racism was a huge factor; with ethnic minorities and asylum seekers being targetted more often. The number of cases of torture targetting pregnant black women are particularly worrying.

Ten years ago there was a culture of impunity among French police officers and police would commonly cover up each other’s crimes. I haven’t found any follow up studies confirming that this is still the case but I haven’t seen anything describing sweeping structural changes either. If anything more recent changes in the law are likely to increase incidents of torture by providing more opportunities for it.

This does not mean an increase in torture was the intended effect. However I think it’s likely that the lengths of time suspects can be held, vagueness in the definition of some charges, lack of personnel/support in asylum cases, forced eviction and the police culture would combine in a way that puts more people at risk of torture.

The most common kinds of attacks I’ve read about are beatings, excessive use of restraint and tear gas.

I haven’t read a lot of recent reports involving victims with disabilities or medical conditions. But those that I have found all involved delays accessing medical treatment and neglect which put disabled victims at risk.

I think whether neglect is ‘enough’ depends on what kind of scenario you’re picturing exactly.

If the character has recently been arrested and is brought in then she’s going to be passed between several different groups of police officers. Which means that she could have been treated abusively during arrest and then be more or less ignored by the officers responsible for her in jail. Or conversely she could be arrested in a way that’s reasonable and proportionate to her actions then mistreated in custody.

If she’s actually been sentenced on the other hand then the same group of people are going to be consistently responsible for her care.

Essentially if she’s consistently in the hands of torturers I think it’s unlikely that they would show restraint. In that scenario it’s highly likely that she’d be subjected to other forms of abuse.

But if she’s being passed from torturers to non-torturers (possibly torture apologists), then it’s less likely she’d be actively abused. In that scenario her suffering is more likely to come from these officers trying to cover up the abuses their comrades have committed. Which would essentially amount to ignoring her medical condition and denying access to a doctor or medication.

I think the most helpful thing for me to do now is suggest a few torture techniques that might fit, in case that’s the kind of scenario you’d like to write. :)

Based on more recent French cases I think the most common tortures seem to be beatings. Going back a little further the use of Tasers and stun guns has been quite widespread in France. Waterboarding has also been very common in France and French colonies for a long time.

I’d agree with your assessment that forced exercise doesn’t fit your story. However it’s not particularly common in the French police. I’ve only ever read about it occurring in military environments in France.

I’d suggest avoiding waterboarding for a combination of reasons. It can make victims pass out very easily. It’s- got quite a high chance of killing or causing brain damage. And if it made your character pass out I think it would be more likely the police would notice her becoming conscious again.

Now Tasers and stun guns can make people fall unconscious. But the lack of choking, spluttering, coughing and vomiting means that I think it would be much easier for your character to fake unconsciousness.

And that could fit with your idea of having the character overhear something.

Electrical torture is extremely dangerous. When Tasers are used correctly there are no obvious external marks but that doesn’t mean they can’t cause death in a variety of ways.

Heart attacks are common. So are lethal falling injuries (ie the victim loses control of their muscles, falls and hits their head). Seizures are also pretty common and can be lethal.

It may also be useful to know that people can pass out due to pain and that hearing is often the first sense they are conscious of regaining.

Rounding this off- The torture and neglect of people with disabilities or health conditions is common and a lot of victims report being targetted specifically for being disabled. A lot of people in these circumstances die.

Every torture is potentially lethal and many are more likely to kill disabled people in particular.

Yes I think that it’s realistic a character like this would be tortured as well as neglected if she’s in the hands of torturers.

But that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s the best thing for your story. If you want to focus on neglect and torture is an unnecessary complication to the story; then you can decide that she isn’t tortured.

I think that deciding this happens because established torturers are suddenly ‘merciful’ would be- a bad choice, but there are a lot of other options open to you. These can include the guards/police just not believing her when she says she is in sick and in pain.

Which would make them assholes who are discriminating against a disabled woman, but not necessarily torturers. That makes the character’s survival, and her being able to overhear things more likely.

Similarly if you are sure that torture will add something to the story which neglect alone doesn’t you can decide your character survives against the odds. This does happen. People do get very lucky.

I’d just suggest you make it clear that she was very lucky.

Should you wish to use electrical torture in your story Reuters produced a series of reports on tasers recently which you may find useful.

I hope that helps. :)

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Also now I have constant burn out…

During the school year, you had mandatory breaks. Summer break. Winter break. Spring break. A long weekend in the fall pretending to be fall break. Parent teacher conference days, etc. I also went to a private school where sports (ie where you get exercise-based endorphins) were required, along with a art class helping you improve.

Like don’t get me wrong, a lot about school was unnecessary stress and busywork (especially as an undiagnosed adhd kid), but there was a recovery time for your brain that disappears in the adult world. And (at least at my school) an attempt to make your life more well rounded.

Now you get the side eye for any vacation you take. I work late so usually can’t work out. And my day from 9am until 8pm (or later) is constant paperwork. No lunch breaks beyond walking to the coffee shop to pick stuff up. No more than five to ten minutes of friend time when stopping by their office. No sports. No arts. No free period (to talk or catch up on work). No more time in general … I miss the recovery time. The weekend is not enough when that is also your errand, cleaning, etc time. That only worked in the 1950s when there was a stay-at-home SO and working SO

School sucked. But being an burnt out adult also sucks. I miss college naps

Sharing this from my twitter because I think a good amount of artists can probably relate to this, ADHD or not ö

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drawing-with-lena · 7 years ago

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LESSON TWO: DRAW WHAT YOU SEE, NOT WHAT YOU THINK YOU SEE

The single most valuable art advice I have ever been given is “draw what you see, not what you think you see.”

What does that mean?

Human beings love pictograms. We communicate effectively, across language barriers, by using icons and other visual shorthand to get ideas across. We’re very good at this, because we have a knack for reducing a complex visual to a few minimal, key pieces of information, and then extrapolating from that minimal information by recognizing what it stands for.

For instance, we take the very complex image of a human face, with all its individually unique characteristics, specifically expressing happiness through muscle movements we know to associate with that emotion – flexing of the muscles around the mouth, showing of the teeth, but without upper lip curling, contraction of the muscles around the eyes – and we strip it down to two dots and a curving line:

We cannot tell looking at it who is happy; who is being depicted, whether they are old or young, male or female, anything about them – but we understand that that pictogram translates to someone smiling. The person who draws the smiley face does not draw what they have seen; they draw the idea of what they have seen. In this case, “happiness.”

This is a pretty useful way to be wired. We recognize things quickly, and are able to reduce complex visual input to a few simple characteristics that we can remember.

But it’s less useful to someone trying to learn to draw accurately and representationally.

When we draw, our instinct is to look at the object, recognize the object and apply those simplifications, and then record the simplifications. In doing so, we draw what our brain has already refined and coded, dropping ‘unnecessary’ details and hitting the checklist of items we think we need in order to recognize the subject matter (ie., the sun has yellow lines radiating out from it) – all without realizing that we’re doing it. We draw what we think we see.

A big part of learning to draw is unlearning the pictographic instinct. It’s about bypassing that simplification process, and drawing what you actually see, in whole, without paring it down. It’s about seeing that maybe the smile doesn’t actually curve down in the middle – but if you render it as you see it, you can still have it recognizably be a smile.

This lesson’s exercises will focus on techniques to help you practice seeing what it is you’re drawing.

LESSON TWO EXERCISES

Required Materials: It’s recommended to draw from life by pulling on random objects in your environment for some of these exercises, such as a chair, but nothing too unusual.

Recommended Medium: Pencil and paper. We’re keeping it simple!

EXERCISE ONE: NOT-VERY-MUSICAL CHAIRS

Do you have a chair nearby? Preferably not the one you’re sitting in, but any other chair around that’s pretty lightweight and easy to move. Dining room chair, folding chair, lawn chair, etc. If you don’t have a real life chair available, you can use this picture of one of my chairs:

Now, draw the chair.

Done? Okay. Great. Good job!

Now, flip the chair over.

Draw the chair again. Feel free to give yourself as much time as you need.

When you’re done, look at the two drawings. The first one might say “chair” to you more clearly when you look at it. BUT! Which one is more accurate? Which one more closely resembles the specific chair you were drawing?

The trick of flipping an object upside down is an old favorite when it comes to bypassing your brain’s impulse to replace the object it sees with the object it wants to condense information into. When your brain sees a chair at an angle where it looks like a normal chair, it really just wants to draw something like this:

But flipping it upside down? Makes it look nothing like that. And so you’re forced to look that much more closely instead of relying on your pre-existing mental image of what a chair looks like.

I recommend trying this exercise a few more times with various household objects, sketching them at weird and unusual angles, flipped upside down, etc.

EXERCISE TWO: BLIND CONTOUR

Full disclosure: I hated blind contour drawing for a long time growing up and swore I would never teach it to anyone, which makes me a big honking liar. But while blind contours can be really frustrating because they don’t tend to produce accurate, attractive pictures, they are very helpful in forcing you to look at your subject and rely entirely on your visual input to draw.

Pick a subject. It can be a friend who is really patient and willing to sit for you. It can be your sneaker. It can be one of the toys from the proportion lesson. Or a houseplant. Or your own non-dominant hand. Choose something reasonably complex. If you can’t find anything, try using this photo.

Now, get comfortable. There are two rules here:

Your pencil, once it touches the paper, does not leave the paper. You are going to draw one long, continuous line. You can bear down as heavily or as lightly as you want, but don’t lift your pencil.

From this moment on, you do not look at your paper. It’s tempting, I know! But what is on the paper is not what’s important. Your subject is what’s important.

You aren’t going to worry about shading here, or accurate proportional masses, but you are going to be looking at every single bump and detail (basically the exact opposite of what we did in the proportion lesson). DRAW SLOWLY. Take all the time you need or want, but move very slowly.

Look at your subject. Maybe you start at the toe of the shoe; the tip of the thumb; your friend’s ear. Let your eye trace very slowly along the edges, or contours, of that area. Your pencil should move with your eye. Keep a slow, steady, constant pace. As your eyes trace over the ridges in a knuckle, let your pencil slowly draw each of those ridges. As you look at the eyelets around the laces of a shoe, let your pencil record that information, at the same pace as your eye. There’s no rush here.

Do not look at the page.

Take all the time you need, and when you feel you’re done, lower your pencil and let yourself look.

Odds are, it doesn’t look a lot like the subject. You may be able to pick out bits of detail where you see where you were drawing the pinkie finger/mouth/criss-crossing laces. A lot of it may look like scribbles. And very little of it will be in proportion.

If you got something that looks like any of these? You did great:

Now you may not have drawn something that looks a lot like what you were drawing. Heck, you may have drawn something that looks like a picasso fell down the stairs. But while you were drawing, by not letting yourself look at your paper, you really looked at your subject – and probably recorded details you wouldn’t have normally paid attention to.

Blind contour drawings can actually produce some really cool looking images, even if they aren’t accurately proportional, because of the density of detail they often result in.

And as an exercise, they train you to spend more time looking at the subject than just what’s on your paper.

I recommend trying several more of these. See how slow you can go; see how much detail you can note. Pick more and less complex objects. Let yourself have some fun with it.

That’s it for this lesson, and as always, my askbox is open. You can check out other posts in this series here. In the next lesson, we’ll be talking about shapes and shadows!

#drawing 101 #lena's draiwng 101 #drawing with lena #beginner drawing #draw what you see #observational drawing #blind contour #reposting

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isaxahprescott · 6 years ago

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Isaiah Park (Sinclair) | #312hqtasksfive - A Development Task

what was your character like when they first joined? what were their traits, hobbies, habbits, lifestyle, etc?

Frick, my poor boy was so heckin’ lost when he first came to Chicago. Everything that had went down that caused his decision to leave NYC was still so fresh on the brain and he hated himself so darn much. He was so much more reserved and had no desire in getting to know anyone, terrified that if they got too close, they would find him out and hate him just as much as he hated himself for being a part of the reason that his best friend died. He didn’t freakin’ know how to do the laundry or anything mundane bc it was all done for him growing up. He didn’t know what he was going to do next, he just knew that he wasn’t going back home any time soon.

how has your character changed / developed since working at malnati’s? have their traits, hobbies, habbits, or lifestyle changed?

Zaya’s still a bit awkward around other’s but now he’s trying really hard to make friends and he smiles so much more now and doesn’t stutter as much???? Meeting all these incredible people like Freddi who have helped him get out of his shell or Chardon, who’s had no problem in teaching him how to do things like cleaning or ironing?? Like, he’s in a whole lot better place now and can be a lil shiz when comfortable enough around you. There’s a lot of sarcasm and self deprecating jokes bc there’s still a lot of progress to be made in the self love department but gosh darn it, he’s stopped smoking bc he’s started channeling his nerves into something more positive like playing his uke Sophie or watching space documentaries with Jules. He now sort of sees boxing as more of a form of exercise rather than a way to let out all of his pent up feelings. He’s slowly progressed so much and kind of feels like he’s found himself a second home and I’m so so happy about it :’)

how do you think your character might change or evolve moving forward now? do you have any hopes or goals for them?

He’s still got a long ways to go with accepting that Johnny is now gone and there’s not much else he can really do about it, but now he’s actually been able to share the experience with the people he’s closest to ( ie. Gianna and Freddi) and doesn’t have to bare that burden alone . I’d love to see him be able to go to his grave and kinda give his late best friend the sort of closure that they both need. I want to see him feel more sure of himself and gain his confidence back (not as much to the point that he’s hecka cocky and awful about it like he once was, but a good amount). He’s still trying to figure out what it is that he wants in life and I hope to see him find something that makes him real happy that he doesn’t want to let go of. I really want to see him make more friends and slowly become comfortable enough around them, too. (Especially with Teo, frick, I just need them to make up and become bros again, pls, before I die) I want him to be able to go back to New York and see his family after all this time; to realize that he can stop running from his past now, bc it’s going to be okay. I also want him to meet with a counselor when he’s ready and figure out a way to get help for his anxiety. Overall, I just want him to find peace and contentment in this new lifestyle that he’s built for himself.

bold flaws your character has / italicise ones they used to have, or have partially. ( x )

absent-minded / abusive / addicted / aimless / alcoholic / aloof / anxious / arrogant / audacious / has bad habits / bigmouthed / bigoted / blunt / bold / callous / childish / cruel / cursed / dependent / dishonest / disloyal / disturbed / dubious / egotistical / envious / erratic / fanatical / fickle / fierce / finicky / flirty / gluttonous / gruff / gullible / hedonistic / humourless / hypocritical / idiotic / ignorant / illiterate / immature / impatient / impious / impish / incompetent / indecisive / indifferent / infamous / intolerant / judgemental / lazy / lewd / liar / lustful / masochistic / meddlesome / meek / megalomanic / naïve / nosey / obsessive / oppressive / overambitious / overemotional / overprotective / overzealous / paranoid / peevish / perfectionist / pessimistic / phobic / rebellious / reckless / remorseless / rigorous / sadistic / sarcastic / sceptic / seducer / selfish / self-martyr / self-righteous / senile / shallow / smart ass / solemn / spineless / spiteful / spoiled / squeamish / stubborn / superstitious / tactless / temperamental / theatrical / timid / tongue-tied / unlucky / unpredictable / untrustworthy / vain / weak-willed / withdrawn

bold all that apply. my muse knows how to … ( x )

bold which habits your muse has … ( x )

#312hqtasksfive #IM CRY #i love my son :'(

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UR SO GOOD AT ACTION AND DETAIL I CANTTT do u have any advice for working on that bc holy shit u r God w that shit

finally, my time has come to surpass god :^) jkjk

uhhh well, hmm. i’m gonna try and figure out how to put this into words, but my brain’s a bit mushy rn so We Will See how that goes

a lot of action lies in diction, pacing, and sentence structure. that sounds kinda weird, but it’s true.

listen, when you think action you’re almost definitely not thinking of the mechanics behind those motions. you’re thinking of fast, quick, heart wrenching motions that bring your heart into your throat and have you sitting at the edge of your seat.

writing, as a whole, is an exercise in rhythm and pacing. take, for example, this:

Lee jumped onto Johnson’s shoulders. He laughed and tousled Johnson’s hair, but Johnson grabbed him by the forearm and threw him to the ground.

there are a few mechanics at play here:

lee jumping

lee laughing & tousling johnson’s hair

and johnson grabbing him by the arm & tossing him to the ground

in that blurb, the action doesn’t really flow. it’s just there. we know what’s happening, it makes sense, but it’s not painting a picture or anything

so what could you do to bring it to life?

think about the 5 W’s: who, what, when, where, and why? who’s doing this? what is “this”? when are they doing it, and where? and, most importantly, why are they doing it? while you don’t gotta write out a list of these things (tho it can help if you’re stuck) keeping them in mind can bring immediate change to your writing

another thing that i’ve found to be helpful in writing action/description (especially both at the same time) is a sense of immediacy or involvement with your narrator. what are they seeing, thinking, feeling? how does the scene change if it’s being told from lee’s pov vs johnson’s?

and, last but not least: remember the fundamentals. vary your sentences (begin with -ing, -er, -ly words), end sentences and paragraphs when the subject changes, and keep an eye on the rhythm. (does it feel right when you read it aloud or in your head? are there words clogging up the rhythm and slowing you down, forcing you to wait and see what the fuck’s going on? does it move too fast or too slow for what you’re trying to convey?)

keeping all these things in mind (which is a practiced skill – i’m constantly getting after myself about everything i’ve just mentioned) you can work your way up to a more involved scene with higher stakes

Creeping, Lee nudged his soft leather boots across the branch. Beneath him, Johnson grunted and nudged their broken pod with a steel-covered toe. There was a clunk.

Lee smiled. Jumped. And landed on Johnson’s shoulders.

Johnson squawked and grabbed at Lee’s arm. Delighted with his success, Lee tousled Johnson’s scrupulously tidy hair and didn’t bother holding back the laughter in his belly.

Then questing fingers dug into his skin, pushing, pulling, finding, and Lee felt gravity shift as he was moving – falling.

For a moment, Lee saw the trees. The branches, upended just as he was, blurred with his motion. Then he felt the dank sod against his back, and he was staring Johnson in the eye.

the same mechanics are at play here as before, but now it feels more intimate, more catching. adding detail & focusing on the sensations behind each action (as well as what i mentioned above) can do wonders for a scene.

smth that i forgot to mention above (and apologies for rambling, not joking about my brain being gone) is the rule of thirds. you’ve probably heard of it before in regard to visual arts. so what does it mean for writing?

it creates a specific sort of tension & release in a writing. when you want to up the intensity (ie: Then questing fingers dug into his skin, pushing, pulling, finding, […]) the rule of thirds can do that for you easily.

uhhh shit man i’m not real clear on wtf i’m saying rn so feel free to hmu with some more questions & i’ll try and give uhhh more clear/concise answers but i feel like i’m deadass rambling rn so uhh yea here hope this helps!!

#writing #nonny #answer

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yogaadvise · 4 years ago

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YogaHub Teacher Spotlight: Chris Flack

All people at YogaHub are really excited to reveal the brand-new YogaHub Instructor Limelights on our blog site. Every 3-4 weeks, we'll tell the story of one of our gorgeous trainers. Enjoy!

Chris Flack informs us regarding his yoga journey by breaking down his experience with reflection, as well as uses helpful meditation tips!

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I meditate 24×7. I, am a legend.

... I do not as well as, I'm not. When I started meditating I'm quite certain that was my goal.

On a yoga resort ten years ago we did a walking reflection as well as, I won. I 'd absorbed the environments, considered what I was mosting likely to have for supper and also what yoga exercise pose I could photograph to look awesome on my new Facebook account. I was the fastest to the midway point and also was pleased with myself. At that factor the trainer discreetly informed the group that the idea was to be your slowest self. Heading back I remained in last area the entire means. I remember believing to myself, " I am a tale".

Five years later, pressing myself as difficult as I might for success in the company globe I wound up burnt-out as well as was identified with depression.

Today I practice meditation two times daily. Am I worry totally free? No. Yet I have an extremely active life and also this is an essential component to maintain me solid. My emphasis is extra acute, my rest deeper, and also I do everything slower. That does not indicate I do not get points done, yet I observe initially then respond. An easy instance would be being reduced up on my bike when cycling to work (generally other bikers with earphones). Previously I might have right away screamed '**** off you ****** **** arsehole", whereas currently, I 'd stop as well as possibly silently mumble "arsehole" (nobody is perfect). The advantages, however, just really came when I began doing it frequently, and also yet among the obstacles to meditation for a lot of is locating time. this post will hopefully bring some light to how to remove such barriers.

Why is this relevant to you? Being stressed out is currently normal. The pace of contemporary life indicates the majority of us are conditioned to be on vehicle pilot and in a haze of ideas 24×7. It's as if we get on a continuous adrenaline drip as well as whilst that aids us endure challenges, being ' constantly on' is not sustainable. As mindfulness expert Dr. Jon Kabat-Zinn explains: " We have Stone Age minds in a digital globe,".

If we assume of this continuous sound creating a practice of interruption, meditation is one option to bring us back to the here and now moment. Each time we do it we are exercising a mental workout to strengthen the routine of focus.

Meditation is usually marketed as bells and smells which does not interest everyone. Thankfully this is changing (although I personally enjoy the scents and bells!) and also right here's why:

1) The evolution of mindfulness means meditation is currently clinically proven.

Just to get the definitions out the method here's mine (some individuals might not agree with these however they're how I separate both):

Meditation is a formal method (there are many strategies which I'll go on to in my next message "I'm a meditation flirt"), to focus on today minute without reasoning ie. the image of the individual sitting with their eyes closed. Transcendental Meditation (emphasis on a specific concept in an official practice).

Mindfulness is an informal practice to focus on today minute with no judgement. ie. something we can do in whatever we do. Jon Kabat-Zinn took this mainstream when he established MBSR (Mindfulness Based Tension Reduction) taking this ancient word for recognition, constructing a clinical situation for huge well-being benefits and making it something any person can do by providing it in a secular way. For instance, mindful strolling (ie. practising a normal task however simply doing that point (single tasking), no listening to music or inspecting your snapstreak).

2) Science (neuroplasticity) has confirmed we can improve our brain physical fitness at any type of age.

And why is this important? Workout just truly removed when scientists started to show the advantages. The large difference there was that it gives more pleasure principle towards goals such as limited buns and a six pack.

Celebrity endorsement as well as glossy products like Headspace as well as Buddhify go some way to make it attractive but unlike physical health and wellness, you can disappoint off your mind health and wellness in a bikini so it will certainly be a slow-moving revolution

3) Being 'always on' produces a habit of interruption as well as mediation does the contrary. Most of us struggle in the present interest economic climate and also yet those diversions are only going to obtain stronger. I'm a little prejudice right here as I run UnPlug, a individuals advancement company that runs business programmes to assist individuals develop focus in a distracted world. Disconnect programmes provide behavior change as well as conscious practice is a tiny element of what we do yet a very essential part.

I am confident that (3) will imply meditation and mindfulness become mainstream as it will certainly not simply be a method to aid us with enhanced well-being however an exercise to make use of to maintain focus in an ever disruptive world.

So here are my meditation tips (note: I am not a professional. I'm somebody experienced fatigue, was identified with depression and also researched reflection as one of the approaches to preserve good brain wellness as well as it's functioned):

- Reflection is not a magic pill, it does not treat anxiety, turn you into a hippy or make Trump disappear. If you have a trouble you require to handle, reflection will, however, assistance as a coping device. As the ABC anchorman Dan Harris created it makes him " 10% Happier". For me, I see more concentrate on favorable and also much less on unfavorable in my life. Absolutely nothing remarkable yet gradually that shift is fundamental.

- Reflection is simple however difficult to practice. When starting arbitration, we wind up in a ferocious circle. We try to block out ideas and all of a sudden create anxiety that we can not practice meditation. If we really did not have thoughts it would be like doing bicep swirls without weights. Assume of it rather than not giving the thoughts your interest. When we sleep, we usually have a mind full of ideas and also the much less focus we offer to those thoughts the more unwinded we become. The difference is that we practice meditation with a straight spinal column (so our nerve system is energetic and, preferably (!) we don't fall asleep).

- With the ' constantly on' society this is becoming harder. Nonetheless, what we have to remember is that the very best things we have actually found out have actually come with practice.

- You possibly do not have time to practice meditation. When you practice meditation for some time you'll really have more time as your life will have even more focus. Also if it's simply 2 minutes a day, do it regularly as opposed to binging. Practice is hard yet fool your system by beginning small.

- Meditation can set you back nothing to countless bucks. However, it's worth considering this is your mind wellness. We invest thousands on our exterior appearance and rarely consider our brain health, commonly getting to for tablets when we are worried. One of the most typical anti anxiety medication on the market supplies males the beautiful side result of erectile dysfunction. If being dispirited wasn't bad enough.

- It is necessary to find what jobs for you. Behaviors just develop when we such as something. If tibetan bells or silent retreats make you wince take into consideration a non-traditional reflection such as colouring in books or calligraphy (the trick is to do something you take pleasure in and also single job). Or if your mind is really busy try a more energetic meditation such as strolling or dancing. It's everything about discovering an anchor for your thoughts that functions for you and your present circumstance. I made use of to contemplate the way to work when I resided in Delhi, my emphasis was on the material stream of noise. My mom reviews her prayers every early morning. She's simply doing that a person thing (there's no Sweet Crush in one hand whilst listening to Radio 2 as well as reviewing her prayers). Consider the words utilized. If you're ill of seeing ' Mindfulness' or ' Meditation' in your newsfeed after that take a leaf out of worldwide firm Mondelez's publication. Julia Freeman created a program that never uses those words, instead it utilizes the adhering to words as well as it's been a big success.

Meditation is one point you can do to boost your mind health/fitness. Sleep, nutrition, relationships as well as workout are equally as crucial as well as I'll discuss how I preserve total brain fitness in a future post.

Even if its' just 2 minutes. Do it daily. Change is a procedure not an occasion so try to make it a habit but see to it you start small.

Thanks for reading. If you enjoyed this short article I would certainly value a share. 🙏

Chris is Chief Executive Officer and Creator of UnPlug. Reflection is just one of his individual passions. UnPlug aids people handle digital interruptions resulting in boosted focus. The UnPlug team includes psychologists, technology and neuroscience professionals. Conscious method is a little part of UnPlug's behavioural modification programmes.

#bikram yoga #hot yoga #meditating #meditation #meditation tips #pilates #yoga

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findingmypeace · 4 years ago

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Are you able to explain how your EMDR and ECT sessions work?

Sure. This might take a little while though.

EMDR:

EMDR stands for Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. It’s most often used to treat trauma but it has been shown to be helpful for other things as well. A very simplified explanation of EMDR is processing the trauma you went through with a therapist and then doing bilateral stimulation with your eyes ie: moving them back and forth. It sounds hokey but it actually really works.

A little more in depth explanation of EMDR is you start with a treatment plan which basically divides the trauma into subsections of memories. Then to start there is some discussion about beliefs you have about yourself in regards to that memory. (I am worthless, I am stupid, I am weak, etc) The therapist will then ask you how true that statement feels on a scale of 1-10. After you to that therapist will have you move your eyes back and forth for a few minutes while you think about (reprocess) that memory and that statement together. The goal is to get you to know that, that statement is not true while also discussing different aspects of the trauma. How it works for me is I just let my mind wander from one aspect of the memory to the next. My therapist will have me move my eyes back and forth while I’m thinking and after a few minutes she’ll ask me what I was thinking about. I’ll tell her and then it will start all over.

There is actually a biological basis for EMDR. It’s been proven that the eye movements A)actually help a person feel better and B)help reprocess and store in the brain differently the traumatic memory. There are also other aspects (coping tools) of EMDR that help with the reprocessing such as the “safe place” exercise. It’s an imaginary place in your mind that you go to when the traumatic memories are too strong. For me, it’s a running river with waterfalls and green trees. If the trauma memory gets to intense the therapist will have you go to the safe place or remind you that you are in a safe place in present day and not reliving the trauma. I have found EMDR extremely helpful. Last summer I had such a hard time dealing with memories of my suicide attempt. Now that I’ve reprocessed the memories in EMDR they are a lot more manageable. I know the memories won’t ever fully go away but they are definitely not as intrusive as they used to be.

ECT:

ECT stands for ElectroConvulsive Therapy. It’s been around for more than a century and has been called shock therapy. Thankfully, it is done in a much more humane way. Once a month I have to sign a paper saying I consent to this treatment and no one is forcing me or paying to do it. To start the procedure they put you under general anesthesia. A very short acting anesthesia. You’re under for maybe 30 mins at most. They put little stickies all over. Mostly on your head. This stickies are connected to an electrical impulse. They use them to induce a mini seizure. The seizure usually only lasts a few seconds. The stickies can be placed in different formations thus sending the electrical impulses to different places in the brain and effecting the brain differently. I get right, unilateral treatments. When I first started there was talk of me doing bilateral treatments because my depression was so severe and bilateral is more effective but I said no because the risk of memory loss is much greater when you do bilateral and I still wanted to be able to work. I do still have some memory loss from unilateral but it’s usually the kind where if you remind me of the event all the memories will come back. And the memory loss is usually things that aren’t relevant to my life. Like I forgot a certain NFL player retired. I don’t need that knowledge to function although it is weird to not remember that Peyton Manning retired! That was definitely memory loss related to ECT. Of course I had previously known that! Me, the NFL fan, would definitely know that!

Anyway, ECT can be physically very draining on your body. Everyone’s body responds uniquely but, for me, I always feel like I’ve ran a marathon. Just the day of the treatment. The next day I usually feel fine. But the day of it feels like I’m walking through sludge. It takes so much energy to move. I mean, my body just had a seizure. This last time I also felt really nauseous which I usually don’t feel. Sometimes I’ll have a headache but usually that happens because I came in with one. And a lot of times I will be really sleepy as a result of the anesthesia. Memory loss is a big concern but, like I said, I haven’t experienced anything too extreme. I started and continue to do ECT because the payoff (relief from depression) is so worth it despite the side-effects.

Sorry this is so long! EMDR and ECT are quite complex! Feel free to ask any questions about each if I didn’t answer them above.

#ECT #EMDR

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portraitoftheoddity · 7 years ago

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LESSON TWO: DRAW WHAT YOU SEE, NOT WHAT YOU THINK YOU SEE

Some of my followers are probably already rolling their eyes at this lesson title but by god I will beat this dead horse into the ground if I have to

The single most valuable art advice I have ever been given is “draw what you see, not what you think you see.”

What does that mean?

For instance, we take the very complex image of a human face, with all its individually unique characteristics, specifically expressing happiness through muscle movements we know to associate with that emotion -- flexing of the muscles around the mouth, showing of the teeth, but without upper lip curling, contraction of the muscles around the eyes -- and we strip it down to two dots and a curving line:

We cannot tell looking at it who is happy; who is being depicted, whether they are old or young, male or female, anything about them -- but we understand that that pictogram translates to someone smiling. The person who draws the smiley face does not draw what they have seen; they draw the idea of what they have seen. In this case, “happiness.”

This is a pretty useful way to be wired. We recognize things quickly, and are able to reduce complex visual input to a few simple characteristics that we can remember.

But it’s less useful to someone trying to learn to draw accurately and representationally.

When we draw, our instinct is to look at the object, recognize the object and apply those simplifications, and then record the simplifications. In doing so, we draw what our brain has already refined and coded, dropping ‘unnecessary’ details and hitting the checklist of items we think we need in order to recognize the subject matter (ie., the sun has yellow lines radiating out from it) -- all without realizing that we’re doing it. We draw what we think we see.

A big part of learning to draw is unlearning the pictographic instinct. It’s about bypassing that simplification process, and drawing what you actually see, in whole, without paring it down. It’s about seeing that maybe the smile doesn’t actually curve down in the middle -- but if you render it as you see it, you can still have it recognizably be a smile.

This lesson’s exercises will focus on techniques to help you practice seeing what it is you’re drawing.

LESSON TWO EXERCISES

Required Materials: It’s recommended to draw from life by pulling on random objects in your environment for some of these exercises, such as a chair, but nothing too unusual.

Recommended Medium: Pencil and paper. We’re keeping it simple!

EXERCISE ONE: NOT-VERY-MUSICAL CHAIRS

Now, draw the chair.

Done? Okay. Great. Good job!

Now, flip the chair over.

Draw the chair again. Feel free to give yourself as much time as you need.

But flipping it upside down? Makes it look nothing like that. And so you’re forced to look that much more closely instead of relying on your pre-existing mental image of what a chair looks like.

I recommend trying this exercise a few more times with various household objects, sketching them at weird and unusual angles, flipped upside down, etc.

EXERCISE TWO: BLIND CONTOUR

Now, get comfortable. There are two rules here:

From this moment on, you do not look at your paper. It’s tempting, I know! But what is on the paper is not what’s important. Your subject is what’s important.

Do not look at the page.

Take all the time you need, and when you feel you’re done, lower your pencil and let yourself look.

If you got something that looks like any of these? You did great:

Now you may not have drawn something that looks a lot like what you were drawing. Heck, you may have drawn something that looks like a picasso fell down the stairs. But while you were drawing, by not letting yourself look at your paper, you really looked at your subject -- and probably recorded details you wouldn’t have normally paid attention to.

Blind contour drawings can actually produce some really cool looking images, even if they aren’t accurately proportional, because of the density of detail they often result in.

And as an exercise, they train you to spend more time looking at the subject than just what’s on your paper.

I recommend trying several more of these. See how slow you can go; see how much detail you can note. Pick more and less complex objects. Let yourself have some fun with it.

That’s it for this lesson, and as always, my askbox is open. You can check out other posts in this series here. In the next lesson, we’ll be talking about shapes and shadows!

#drawingwithlena #art lessons #blind contour #drawing #beginner artists #art #learning #long post

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April 27, 2020

Art Became the Oxygen

It is true that artists, many of whom rely on public gatherings for their livelihood, are some of the hardest hit during this crisis. Yet, it’s musicians who are toiling away in basements to serenade us through isolated days. It’s comedic actors who are offering us essential nighttime laughs. And it’s visual artists who make meaning from this madness with images that inspire, console and provoke. The individuals of the creative community are like the unsung frontline workers of this pandemic, only without any salary to support their craft, or a 7 pm cheer to motivate them. Yet still, they make things because they must, just as artists have done since the beginning of history, particularly in times of strife. (SEE: https://usdac.us/news-long/2017/8/9/art-became-the-oxygen-free-artistic-response-guide-available-now)

In previous periods of economic hardship, the US government responded with forward-thinking programs like the WPA (Works Progress Administration) of Roosevelt’s New Deal (1935 to 1943). It was designed not only to fund huge infrastructure projects, but also to employ thousands of artists, musicians, writers, and theatre performers to stimulate the economy. Legacies of this program include Zora Neale Hurston’s Their Eyes Were Watching God; Jackson Pollack’s Composition with Pouring; and Mark Rothko’s earlier urban studies like Entrance to Subway, where you can see the seeds of his famous color studies from later work.

After natural disasters, senseless violence or war, artist activists have also rushed to the front lines, time and again, to help rebuild communities by activating their social imaginations and stimulating their civic agency with creative collaborations.

Philippe Thiese gathered digital stories of Hurricane Sandy volunteers in this short film: https://www.sandystoryline.com/stories/sandy-volunteers-remember-the-storm-and-explain-how-they-got-involved/.

The siblings of Eric Garner, a young African-American man killed by unjust police violence in 2014, came together in grief to write the song, I Can’t Breathe,based on his harrowing last words. Their music served as a rallying cry to a community berieved and betrayed by their law enforcement: https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/eric-garners-family-drops-moving-new-song-i-cant-breathe-192574/

And when a 2011 tornado took 161 lives in the small town of Joplin, Missouri, mural artist Dave Loewenstein asked kids about their dreams for the future of their town, resulting in this stunning piece, The Butterfly Effect.

So, in the great hope that we’ll kick this virus’ butt, and we will be left with a glut of ventilators, how about we use them to revive our society’s artists, since they are the vital oxygen that feed our souls.

In Vancouver, we are already lucky enough to have our City government responding with funding for the Murals for Hope project (#makeartwhileapart), which is transforming solemn, boarded-up shops and restaurants into colorful and encouraging messages that can help sustain us until their doors reopen again.

Geoff and I are also trying to do our small part to stimulate the creative economy, while beautifying our home in the process. We are very excited to have just commissioned a mural artist to spruce up our tiny backyard space, which we’re transforming from a gravel parking spot into our own tropical oasis. Here are some inspirational images as well as a shot of the yard in its current state. And hopefully, I can post the finished product, which will be painted onto the rotting fence, in a couple of weeks.

April 28, 2020

Art of Relationship

This period is not just requiring us to get creative with keyboards and canvases and cameras. It is forcing us to re-examine the very patterns that make up our daily lives and fit them all inside the same four walls with the same self, spouse, and/or kids, 24/7. Suffice it to say, this is no small task. But, if any of you are like me, the grand solutions have sometimes involved tiny changes.

Personally, my greatest challenge has been to find ways to carve out slivers of shared pleasure amidst my partner’s insanely stressful, often 13-hour work day, now that the pandemic has his team at our local transit authority in serious crisis mode. Of course, I’m a firm believer in hard-work. The pursuit of a classical musician requires many years of 5+ hours-a-day of practice. But I’m also a fun-lover, and a huge proponent of life/work balance, particularly having had to learn this the hard way, thru a chronic overuse injury. So, for me, Geoff’s manic schedule during the first month of isolation seemed far from optimal. And while this was especially difficult for him, it compromised joy for both of us.

Seeking guidance as we adapted to the new normal, we found a great online series by Esther Perel, whose regular podcast, Where Should We Begin? always leaves us with sound, simple dance steps that we can apply to the Art of Relationship. Here, she has created a 4-part series that specifically addresses problems which co-habitators might face in our current reality. https://events.estherperel.com/april-2020-webinar-resources/?fbclid=IwAR0kRHkuQvEGxcpNuHvPKmmExamZ2Jj_EMZzR-zGp8eDejCR94hE-ZvGYjY

Inspired by her wisdom, we decided that the 7:30 am meetings, which had been occupying our kitchen and bleeding into our morning coffees, every day, could be skipped for a 15-minute walk thru our neighborhood park. And, let me tell you, what a difference a quarter of an hour can make!

April 29, 2020

Finding Variety in Repetition

It occurred to me, the other morning, that this experience feels a bit like fasting. Since college, I’ve routinely devoted a week, every spring, to some kind of dietary shift, for my general health, and as a general mindfulness exercise. While I’ve tried versions of the Wild Rose and other popular cleanses with some benefit, the method recommended in Staying Healthy with the Seasons has always suited me best. It requires you to slowly wean off many foods (meat/fish, then sugar/alcohol/coffee, then dairy), gradually move to only liquids, eventually evolve to a middle day of just water, and then similarly reintroduce each food gradually. What I’ve loved about this approach is how much more aware of my cravings I become, how much I notice the “manufacturing of consent” that happens all around me to inspire my “wants”, and finally how various symptoms are suddenly absent once I’ve eliminated certain foods. Consequently, the slow reintroduction of foods allows me to notice, in much more specific detail, which foods stimulate which responses in my body (IE. huge bursts of energy from fruit; afternoon crashes from sugar; indigestion from soy; sustenance from bread and pasta - NOTE: Contrary to the wheat-vilifying trends that currently prevail, I typically thrive on an anti-Atkins diet, as someone who reaps tremendous fuel from carbs).

The parallels we are experiencing now relate to the stimuli that we’ve been “denied” by our self-isolating reality. Speaking for myself, instead of travelling frequently, as I often do, or eating at different restaurants every week, or working at a different café every day to switch up the creative energy around me, I have had, like everyone else, to learn to find sustenance and interest in a much less diverse set of circumstances. I am eating at Chez Me three meals a day. We are grinding our own beans and whipping up our own daily lattes. And most all of our daily walks and bike rides now start from our home.

But even within the boundaries that we can reach from the nexus of our own address, we have been able to slowly expand our radius of exploration to corners of our city that we had never seen before. This has felt a bit like switching to a vegetarian diet and gaining new appreciation for the crunchiness of a snap pea, or the filling nature of a portabello mushroom.

In these explorations, we have discovered infinite surprises which include a cliffside view of the Fraser River from Everett Crowley Park (top image), an old landfill-turned-lush green space in Vancouver’s southeastern-most quadrant. We’ve seen old growth forest that we had no idea existed so many kilometres from the shore, in Burnaby’s Central Park on our city’s eastern border. I’ve spotted my first-ever fisher (weasel) sneaking around beachside boulders on the northern edge of the city. And closer to home, I’ve noticed the whimsy of our neighbors’ gardens in far greater detail than I had ever looked before (as in the Gaudiesque, smiley-face hedge pictured above). Our ventures from home have been guided by little more than our edict to “follow the pink”, as in the most blossoming streets. And to document these journeys, I’ve been mapping the various routes we’ve taken. Interestingly, the trajectory somewhat resembles a many-petaled flower.

Looking for minute changes in what seem to be patterns of sameness is also the secret to one of my favorite movements in music and design: Minimalism. Perhaps this is why Max Richter and Steve Reich have become the soundtrack I’ve turned to most during the pandemic. Because their music trains our brains to find beauty in repetition while seeking excitement from the subtlest nuanced shifts.

Meanwhile, I know that many of us would love for there to be a magic wand that could lift all of our restrictions over night and allow us to return to exactly “the way it was before”, in the same way that I long for a mocha frappuccino when I fast. However, what we have been hearing from our leaders is that the more likely and safe choice will be to move into a gradual re-opening of our cities - a slow reintroduction of certain freedoms. So, the lessons we can learn from fasting and Phillip Glass ought to prove very useful as we try to be patient and appreciative of this prudent approach. Then, once we begin to shop and drive and socialize more, perhaps this perspective can allow us to also more clearly notice how we respond to each stimuli as we re-engage with it, And hopefully it will inform a new normal that can be more sensible and moderate and in harmony with this planet that we call home.

And, in case you’re curious to listen to a little minimalist fare...

Notice how welcomed the first chord change is in Max Richter’s Catalogue of Afternoons: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ubjylmxrj9o

Or drape yourself in his hypnotic music like a warm duvet with his 8-hour lullaby, Sleep: https://open.spotify.com/album/0JLN7JryQ2T7lBEYIrSQF1

And for a mind trip of the eyes and ears, try Steve Reich’s Piano Phase on marimbas: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3QoM7dgs_0

April 30, 2020

Film Festivals for free

Pahokee, at this year’s live-streamed Vancouver International Film Festival

Done wondering if Carol Baskin killed her husband? Couldn’t care less if Giannini and Damian actually ever get married? Well, for those who’ve exhausted the Netflix catalogue, there are plenty of other ways to enjoy film from your home. Lots of festivals have generously uploaded their content online. So, whether it’s mountain adventure, short films, foreign movies, or arthouse you’re looking for, here are some easy ways to link to those that are totally free:

Banff Mountain Film Festival - https://www.banffcentre.ca/film-fest-at-home

Cannes, Sundance, Tribeca, Toronto, Venice, Berlin and others have collaborated to bring an awesome line-up of livestream videos to the world in their 10-day We Are One Festival, starting on May 29th. While the festival will stream for free, viewers will be asked to donate to the World Health Organization’s Covid-19 solidarity response fund.

If you happen to remain gainfully employed, and it’s important to you to keep supporting independent film making, Vancouver International Film Festival has created a rental-fee structure for a number of films that they’ve now made available for streaming, too: https://viff.org/Online/default.asp

And Sedona Film Festival has done the same - https://sedonafilmfestival.com/mdfhome/

May 1, 2020

Boredom Killers: Ping-pong, birthday song, and Magritte gong wrong

Combing the internet for creative inspiration that I can share with readers has truly been a joy. It’s also got our own creative jucies flowing. So today, I thought I’d post just a few of the ways we’ve staved off boredom over these past weeks.

Tennis is one of our true passions. It’s actually sort of how Geoff and my relationship began. Given that we didn’t want our paddle skills to get too rusty, we didn’t let the fact that our little laneway house couldn’t fit a ping pong table stop us: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kait-zCV94s

Coming from a huge birthday-celebrating family, I’ve tried to make sure that friends with birthdays during quarantine could still feel pampered on their special day. So, 6 of us put together this silly ditty for our good friend Roger: https://youtu.be/EZKyrdOlvPk

And, we’ve jumped on the art replication bandwagon too. The Met & the Getty Museum have both followed the lead of the Dutch gallery that first initiated the Instagram art challenge which asks people to recreate famous pieces of art with only 3 objects from their home. https://www.instagram.com/tussenkunstenquarantaine/

Here’s Geoff and my attempt with Magritte’s Lovers. The challenge also asks for participants to create new titles, so this is ours, Kissing Strategy for Stay-at-home Lazy Toothbrushers.

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carpediemily · 7 years ago

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On perseverance.

If you don’t know, I’ve been dealing with mental health issues for many-a-year now, as cataloged HERE, HERE, and HERE.

AND HERE’S AN UPDATE.

So. As it turns out, I have treatment-resistant depression, meaning regular, traditional mental health care (ie. medication/therapy) hasn’t worked, or worked enough for me in the past. I have been on six different medications. Only one helped my anxiety. My depression, however, remains a bitch. Exercise, diet changes, mindfulness… nothing seems to touch it. And I am no longer medicated. So I did some research and came across two options. ECT, Electroconvulsive Therapy, and TMS, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation.

ECT is “the scary one” where they knock you out and induce a seizure. This is done around 12 times over the course of a month. Safer than childbirth, though, ECT is currently the Gold Standard in treatment-resistant depression, with few side effects and greater long-term advantages.

TMS has similar, though lesser long- term advantages, with little to no side effects. Over the course of 36 treatments, the patient receives a large number of magnetic pulses to the brain to more or less kick start the pre-frontal lobe, or the mood center.

I chose TMS to start with. I am super lucky to have really great mental health coverage from my insurance, and a very caring and supportive family who have been helping me along the way.

Lemme tell you, though. TMS is fucking weird. The hospital I go to happens to be a medical university as well, so it’s not unusual to have students peek in the room to see what’s going on. My first treatment involved the doctor (Dr. George, who did the first ever studies on TMS for use in depressive patients, and helped to develop the machine I use every day), a fabulous nurse, and three medical students. They first test the patient’s Motor Threshold to find the pulse dosage. Basically, they sent various pulses though my motor cortex to see how high they could go without making my thumb move. And, I gotta say, having five people stare at your thumb for an extended period of time is an odd experience.

TMS itself feels like a woodpecker tapping on my head. It hurts more than you think it would, but it’s not unbearable. Just weird. Sometimes my eye twitches.

I now have a rotating cast of nurses who do my treatments five days a week, and four doctors who poke their heads in to see if I have any questions, and to re-adjust the magnetic coil as they see fit. When I started treatments, I was getting 3000 pulses over the course of 20 minutes. As of Friday, however, because of my lack of response, my dosage has been increased to 4000 pulses in 26 minutes. I’m 20 treatments in with 16 to go. If it’s working, most patients would have noticed a bit of a difference by now. I haven’t, hence the increase.

I like to say that I HAVE depression, rather than that I AM depressed. It makes it easier to separate who I really am from who my depression tells me I am. I mean, when you have a headache, you say “I have a headache” rather than “I am a headache”. To be fair, you probably ARE a headache. I know I am. But that’s beside the point. An illness is something you have, not something you are. You exist outside of illness. And, as attached to you as your illness is, it also exists outside of you.

I’m still hopeful though. I deal with rush hour traffic every weekday morning to fight this. I wake up at 6:30 am, go to my treatment, work 8 hours, and then come home. I am anxious, I am tired, I am doubtful, but I have to remain hopeful. I have to believe that this will work for me. And if it doesn’t, I have to believe that something else will.

I can’t pretend that every day is easy. I’m exhausted all the time. Most of the time I don’t think it’s working. To be honest, I want to give up. I’m fucking tired. SO fucking tired. But I’m still here, you know?

There’s this really great quote in the first Chaos Walking novel by Patrick Ness (who has the most incredible speaking voice, oh my god. I saw him and YallFest and I want him to narrate my dreams) The Knife Of Never Letting Go. The main character, Todd, is on this incredible journey to find truth and love and home and even though he has been traveling for weeks and has dealt with unmentionable horrors, he says “I weigh more than a mountain but less than a feather, but I’m walking. I’m still walking.”

I’m not dealing with horrors. Just my brain. But I’m looking for truth and peace and stability and joy and connection and the deep and everlasting hope that binds us all.

And I’m walking. I’m still walking.

#me #personal #hard hitter #depression #transcranial magnetic stimulation

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iamliberalartsgt · 8 years ago

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Happy Finals Week!

Yesterday was the last official day of classes. Congrats you guys, we did it!

Well, okay, we’ve almost done it. Because yes, there are free breakfasts and therapy dogs, popsicles and bowling—tried and true signs of another term...terminating. (Sorry, that was too good to pass up.) These wonderful fun FREE things do little to disguise the fact that we still have a little ways to go.

Seven days to go, to be exact. And these seven days are some of the most stressful of the semester.

Happy finals week, everyone! For some, this is the defining moment of their weeks upon weeks of worry and stress. For some, it is all that stands between them and graduation, or a fabulous summer vacation. For some, they’re lucky and it’s mostly just a chill period of time to wander around collecting free stuff until it’s time to move out.

Regardless of where you stand, it’s pretty universal that finals suck, but it will all be better in about a week. And in honor of these last seven days, here are seven things that don’t suck, but that can even make everything a little bit brighter~

1. Netflix

Everyone needs a study break every now and then. If your brain hurts, find a short show, they don’t require too much commitment. Girls is my latest go-to, but I also love Friends and Seinfeld. Netflix also has a bunch of really amazing new shows too, one of which is Girlboss with Britt Robertson. It’s based on Sophia Amoruso’s (the founder of Nasty Gal) autobiography by the same name.

2. Exercising

To not feel guilty while watching said Netflix shows, I often go running while I watch them. There are also so many fun classes at the CRC, like barre pilates and power yoga. And, even better, they’re free during finals week! So anyone can drop by and try them out!

3. Ice Cream (and assorted foods, bonus points if FREE)

Exercising is wonderful but let’s be honest, ice cream is also extremely important. So are the aforementioned free popsicles, and cookies, pizza, and breakfasts. This may just be a freshman thing, but it also may be a being-in-the-right-place-at-the-right-time thing. To be determined. ALSO there’s also the new “late night bites” thing at Chick-fil-a and Panda Express in the Student Center, where we can use meal swipes from 9 pm-12am. So either way, brilliant.

4. Music + Art

Make a new playlist, find some new songs, hunt around Spotify for a bit to de-stress. It’s quite fun, and the fruit of your labor (ie. an amazing new selection of songs) will come in handy for when you go back to studying, too. Additionally: if you play an instrument, go for it! Except, you know, not if your dorm has quiet hours.

Otherwise, draw something, paint something, de-stress that way! Last week the Arts Ambassadors (aka me and some of the coolest most wonderful people I have ever met) held an Arts Fest in the Ferst Center! There were tons of free cookies, student artists selling their work at booths, a muralist, interactive art, a Piano Project piano with a chalkboard on the back, student performers... You name it. It was wonderful seeing so many people come in and participate, so exciting and therapeutic to just be in such a friendly and happy and artistic atmosphere.

5. Family + Friends

Don’t forget about them! Yeah it’s just a week with a weekend thrown in there, but study with friends, go on study breaks, get dinner together, etc. Also, text your mom. It’s so much better for everyone’s sanity, and the people who care about you will help you through.

6. Sleep

DO NOT FORGET TO GET ENOUGH SLEEP. SLEEP IS SO IMPORTANT. IF YOU HAVE BEEN STUDYING FOR HOURS ON END AND CAN’T KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN LITERALLY JUST GO TO BED. You won’t retain information as well if you studied with a compromised mental state. And you’ll be crabby as heck the next day so really please just go home and sleep and don’t snore in the CULC this is completely theoretical (it’s not). Sure, I get wanting more hours in the day, but make better use of the ones you have and simply embrace how wonderful and helpful sleep is.

7. Georgia Tech

All in all, there are so many things that are important and helpful, so many yummy and wonderful things. Georgia Tech may not always seem like one of them, as it is also the bearer of the finals chopping block itself. But Tech cares about us, genuinely. There are so many resources that they provide, so many study breaks and opportunities to hit the refresh button. They want us to be healthy, happy, successful—whether you always think so or not. So take advantage of the benefits, give Buzz a hug, study hard but not so hard that you hurt yourself.

After all, it is just a week.

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