#idont want to eat

[ennuidays]

i h😂

[itsalwaysdark]

i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

[toadbelly]

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[bellflower-goat]

dear fuck en G od what is going on

[demon-of-the-ancient-world]

Dune dashboard simulator

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🤖justice-4-machines Follow

friendly reminder that the butlerian jihad was an atrocity and violation of human rights :))

🌌spice-snorter2828 Follow

Tell me you know nothing about the Butlerian Jihad without telling me you know nothing about the Butlerian Jihad

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🤴imperial-bussy Follow

I know I know eat the rich and all that but have you SEEN Shaddam IV in his 20s????? we didn't stand a chance

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🐛shai-hulud-bignaturals Follow

🌏idont-likesand Follow

...fellas is it time for a second butlerian jihad yet?

🤺weirding-gay Follow

I'm crying didn't he literally purge his 30th planet TODAY?? you're sick

🦠 gaydi-prime-ribs Follow

ppl saying kill as if they could even if they tried lmao

🏜 treading-rhythmically Follow

"people are choosing fuck when he doesn't even fuck his own wife??? as if" skill issue. im here & im pegging him.

🧿realwormrider Follow

Okay in all seriousness this is fucked up. I know people cope in different ways but he is LITERALLY a dictator and a colonizer. People like you who make light of that is the REASON SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS!!! Maybe YOU haven't suffered at the hands of his holy war yet but ffs have some compassion for those who have

🏜 treading-rhythmically Follow

or you could just...block the emperor muad'dib tag?? the best you can do in times like these is curate your own life to the best of your abilities my dude

🧿realwormrider Follow

Or OTHER PEOPLE could just NOT SEXUALIZE DICTATORS!!!! Also - what about the WOMEN in his life who are currently also suffering because of him??? no love for them I see??

🏜 treading-rhythmically Follow

ok im gonna sexualize him though

🐛shai-hulud-bignaturals Follow

@/realwormrider make your own post why don't you

🏄‍♂️surfin-thedunes Follow

@/realwormrider wants to fuck him so bad it makes them look stupid

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💧freminomenon Follow

Sigh. some idiot brought a fucking shield into the Sietch. time to evacuate while a motherfucking grandfather of a worm demolishes it ig.

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🍝sandworm-spaghetti Follow

*reminds a kindergartener to use their indoor voice but they're the kwizatz haderach and use their Indoor Voice From The Outer World to yeet my ass into the maw of the Maker*

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🎆arena_girllll Follow

Once again because apparently this HAS to be said: REGULAR FETISH GEAR IS *NOT* GEIDI PRIME APPROPRIATION!!!! There is a world of difference between our traditional clothing and bondage stuff. I'd argue that insinuating they're the same thing or even similar is far worse. If you want proper examples of GP clothing my ask box is open, if you're going to "defend" a culture from appropriation get your facts from someone WITHIN THAT CULTURE for fucks sake

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💋tleilaxu-catgirl-meow Follow

Heard Thufir Hawat had to milk a cat to get the poison out of his body...not to be That Girl but hmmm could've milked me instead and I wouldn't be mad

👽simpin4sandworms Follow

Where's that guy who calls for a second Butlerian Jihad on cursed horny posts?

🐮tired-ass-bullfighter Follow

hate to break it to you op but i'm pretty sure this didn't happen and is actually just harkonen propaganda

not saying it couldn't happen though live your dreams

🌵bless-themaker-bless-hiswater Follow

by the Mahdi you people are dogs. i will reblog as usual.

🪐ix-the-tenth Follow

none of these words are in the oc bible

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🐀muaddib-did-nothing-wrong Follow

PAUL ATREIDES IS LITEARLLY DISABLED YOU GUYS!!! I CAN'T STOP YOU HATING ON HIM BUT ABELIST "JOKES" HAVE NO PLACE HERE!!!!!

🌺settler-of-kaitan Follow

...since when tf is he disabled

✋i-must-fear Follow

He literally has??? no eyes????

🌺settler-of-kaitan Follow

Ok but he can still see though

✨not-a-fedaykin Follow

sigh. not me being the one to explain AGAIN that his oracular vision is a disability aid, not something that erases it entirely. from what I understand he sees a couple seconds into the future by use of prescience, it's not the same thing as Actual Sight. (not a supporter, just someone with an unfortunate hyperfixation)

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🏞 caladan-fake-news Follow

Shame Paul Mudad'dib Atreides became a Spice-addicted despot bc I bet he would've made some sick podcasts if given the chance

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☢️blessthecumming&goingofhim Follow

THE MUDAD'DIB WAS AN IMPORTANT FREMEN SYMBOL *LONG BEFORE* YOU-KNOW-WHO . ME HAVING A MOUSE TATTOO DOES *NOT* MAKE ME A SUPPORTER OF P*** A****** OR HIS GOVERNMENT. I HATE ALL OF YOU.

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🪰 melange-maxxing Follow

soooooo apparently there's a stone burner on arrakis now :) if I don't post for a while its bc i'm on the waitlist for tleilaxu eyes fyi

💧freminomenon Follow

this post is 8 months old should we be worried?

✨not-a-fedaykin Follow

Not true op. pls stop spreading incorrect information without a source, you're no better than the people who claim they brought back duncan idaho

🌴fear-is-the-dick-killer Follow

ummmmmm they literally did bring Duncan Idaho back???? don't claim information is false when YOU haven't done your research maybe???

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♟real-harkonnens-dni Follow

Guys....I know I said I wouldn't do rpf but the new transcript of the conversation before Paul's ascension that just came out??? I'm tempted to jump on the threesome train and write Shaddam/Paul/Feyd-Rautha it's actually destroying my sleep schedule.

In this translation the term Shaddam uses to describe Leto I COULD translate to "honorable" but some say it COULD translate to something closer to "beloved"????????? I'm???

So it got me thinking...if..you know...he and Leto I....what would he think of Paul, his only living descendent? (and don't come at me with the "he's underage stuff", HE WAS 18) ahhhhhhh idk maybe I'm too deep into this but I wanna see the 3 of them together so badly 😭😭

♟real-harkonnens-dni Follow

OKAY OKAY I DID IT! I GAVE IN

Last Drop of Blood

Shaddam IV/ Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen/ Paul Atreides, 9K, Rated E [WILL CROSS POST TO AO3 LATER]

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🧿realwormrider Follow

@/shai-hulud-bignaturals told me to "make my own post" so here it is 🙃

Fuck, Marry, Kill: Irulan Corrino

(answer in tags bc my polls option got fucked)

👾shy-hulud Follow

your polls option getting fucked was a sign for you not to make this post

🌆lurkin-inthe-blackgoo Follow

Lmaooooooo as if she's any better she's the daughter of one emperor and wife to another. idc how much she's "suffered" by being married to mudad'dib she's still immensely privileged and a fellow colonizer. you are not morally superior for being horny about her instead of her husband lolllll

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🧠spice-sexual Follow

kinda want to fuck a guild navigator who's stopping me

💋tleilaxu-catgirl-meow Follow

^^^

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🧿realwormrider Follow

You thought this was fucking over?

Her Desires

Irulan Corrino x Reader, 12K

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♟real-harkonnens-dni Follow

Omg

I'm in tears of ???? joy???

literally my hands are shaking you never miss op 🥵

[screampied]

Thoughts on which jjk men would get turned on by watching you eat a phallic food? Licking ice cream, eating a banana, etc

- 🐌

hmmmmmm

satoru def gets turned on from watching you eat ice cream. his brain short circuits if it ends up spilling down your chin / down your chest. offers to clean it up ( with his tongue and not a napkin so he can “save resources” ) 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

toji gets hard watching you eat a banana idk ??? if you purposely tease him he’ll go crazy. he kinda wants to see you choke on it🧍🏽‍♀️

IDONT KNOW ANY OTHERS 🧚🏽‍♀️. i can see choso getting turned on from his s/o eating a popsicle. maybe suguru too. nanami probably won’t get turned on. he’ll just wait until you’re done eating so he can fuck

[first-boy-wonder]

The phone rings. Should you choose to accept it, this is what you hear.

A chirpy voice can be heard through the speaker, as a young lady begins to speak.

"Hiya there little one! Are you the Richard Grayson my friend spoke to earlier today?"

"I'm calling about solving your unfair predicament. You're a smart kid, I'll assume you know that word. It hasn't been fair for you lately, has it? You're lonely, aren't you? If you just need a friend, I'm right here! If you want an escape, we can still help you."

"You can be loved, you clearly arent unlovable, kid! But maybe this place isn't the right place for that yet, hm?"

@anotherhumanheart

M not supposed to talk to you, they said you wanna steal m organs and keep telling Hal to eat us. That's weird! Weird weird!!

But idont want a friend who's creepy but i don't wanna be unloveable! You're beingnice. Whyareyounice? Im lonely but,,, why wouldyou be ableto make that anybetter? Mmm can y fix it?

[blue-pikmin-gaming]

Friend Log: Louis

the louer is a weird... but he kindof funy . not entirly sure whatkindof starfol he is?? looklike dad but smel sorta difrentthough. ahwell

heput thing inmy "mouth" a lot. kinda scarysometime dontput arm in there i dont want to eating you?? but idont rally mind when smal thing.

helike to eat alot of thangi think he ated some othr pikkin befor? weirdhave not seen anyother starpeole do that. buthe not dangr idont think not anymor.

he hostd the gril! thegrill was fungood time veryshort though. the explosiin.

yknowi nevr actualy gotto try aneat that mcdonal fry....... :(

anywy. the louee is in "cocon" rightnow. "metamorhis." wondr whatl happin.

[carcin0-88]

i am trying reakly hard not to bite rhe container idont even want to eat rhe vaseline anymroe

[fyodorinbsd]

i got melatonin fix my shit sleep schedule

idontkno w if imtiredornotbutyayayayayayayayaummmmifeelkindanumbnshitrn andidkwhyim typing like this ok it went back to normal am i dissosiating idk maybe im tired or maybe not maybe im just tired oh i said that i mean typed that already wellwhatever i got nothingdonetoday i dont reallt rmemeber all i did ithinkwasplayvideogame andiplayeditforhoursmaybethewholedayidontknow i ate pancakes for breakfast it was nice i love pancakws it wasng the thick ones itwasthethin ones that some people call crepes i dont like calling them crepes i only call them pancakes i also call them the quote wrong quote names in my other laungage im bilingual no sorry ive defo talked about it before i dont needa mentiin that im bilingual but peoplecomplainbecauseicallitpancakein the laungage and not the proper name but its stupid because it is a damn pancake but yeah i atedinnertooithink i yes i didiatwdinner and i ate a banana that was good ivebeenskipping meals recently i dont think its anything concernkng since its not an eating disorder i just am nothungry,oriforget,or im tired but yeah i pcmicked the scabs on my legs again they didnt bleed which was distressing i want them to bleed thats the only reason i pick them but no beads of blood its horrible horrible horrible but i got another wound it was small but there was a tiny bead of blood which was nothing mich but bettwr than nothing but i want tve beads to be bigger i wonder if anyone notices my legs but yeah i dont know i want to dissosicate so bad but idont knowi think the melatonin is kicking in or idk kf it is ive felt numb for a few hours but maybe i should sleep i think i should i shouldnt fight the melatonin good night

[smileymoth]

Ed weigght loss/numbers as per usual bc i cant stop thinking about my weight yayy 😍 i have worms in my brain and theyre eating me !!!

I m so scared that i ts not possible for me to lose anotjer 20 kilos like ive always been fat . I weighed 77 kilos when i was 15. Which was still like. overweight or whatever. Thats what the doc said at least. Worst part she measured me wrong lol like i was 174 and she meazursd me 2cms shorter. Doesnt chsnge too much but still. And im still harping on about it like bro that was 7 yeears ago youre an adult now bruh. But like. Whatever. I feel like it might be it for me. Idont know if i have enough self control around food to get to a normal weight. I know i lost 22 kilos in a year so im no longer classified as obese yayy but i still have like another 15 to lose to be in the normal weight area. Dont tell me bmi is bullshit bc i KNOW i just have mold in my brain that looooves numbers. I dont even want to claim i have an eating disordrr bc while i do get anxious avt food i still just gobble up everything i can. Esp recently. Like its been so difficult to eat less. Like ive been lpsing 2 kilos per month which is HEALTHY weight loss. I cant consider myself disordered. Id just be lying. I got back into the flow last week and then theres been parties and whatnot so ive just been eating too much again. Mayne next year when i have less school stress i can properly lock in . Uuugghhhhhhh i hate myself so much

[bpdfox]

Vent/thought dump I wrote a month ago. It's long and disjointed and I was also high when I wrote it. Figured I'd put it here, this is sorta where my head has been lately.

Am I nothing more than a mirror??

I don't know how to even get my thoughts out. I'm so… isolated.

I've felt a profound sense of isolation and separateness since I was born. Like literally.

Sitting there picking holes in my leg, pulling the hairs out so I know I can feel.

I can only think clearly when I'm tearing myself apart.

HOW CAN I GET WHATS INSIDE OF MY HEAD OUT?

Even today during therapy my therapist just sort of

I NEED TO BE SEEN.

She just sort of like. Had a lot of stuff she needed to process with all of the church shit and all of the fucking bullshit going on with that

I'm not worth it unless I can provide a service to someone else

I cannot connect

I don’t know if I'm capable of connecting and that scares me. That terrifies me. I can't imagine going the rest of my life feeling this way. I don't think I can. I can't.

I feel so small when I'm on these, everything is tall and towering above me

I feel inferior, threatened, judged when I'm around my younger brother. Even he is rejecting me? I've been asking him to play some games with me for weeks and he wont and I feel so fucking stupid trying to

Its' like im a kid trying to tell my dad that my goat is dying in the shed but he's too busy working

I CANNOT CONNECT

When my aunt was trying to use her fucking 'healing' bullshit on me and she was sitting there holding my arms and telling me what she thought was going on in my brain, that I was having such a hard time, blah blah. She was telling me exactly what was going on in her brain. She was using me as a reflection.

I'm' not your fukcing passion project

People only come to me when they need something from me

I'm a project, a side project, a 'once-in-a-while' hobby that maybe they’ll return to when they get bored

I'm so alone. I'm always alone.

I've felt this way since I was a kid

Even in my old friend gorups I was always the odd one out, people would cycle through me and talk to me if they

I AM NOT ENOUGH

IM NOT WORTHY OF CONNECTING WITH

I AM NOT WORTH CONNECTING TO

WHY

I was ripped out of my mother's womb and isolating was the only way I survived

I had to be in a stupid fucking box, incubating me, with the stupid fucking earmuffs that made everything louder, and I WAS ALONE

I WAS ALONE

I WAS ALONE

My mom is only talking to me about my brother

My brother is a fucking homophobic asshole and it makes me so sad and scared and upset and mad that my mom wants him to feel supported

I'm leaving my feet behind always, I'm forgetting them

My legs don't feel like a part of me, I don't feel like a part of my body. Is this what people mean by out of body experience

Even my therapist

Idont thinki can fucking do this

Im a leech, im a leech im a leech im a leech im a leech and im alone

And that's how I'll always be

My brother is going to his fucking stupid homophobic transphobic stupid fucking religious cunt ass fucking school and

I HOPE OAKS DIES, I REALLY DO. I REALLY FUCKING DO

I HOPE HE CHOKES ON A FUCKING FORK, I HOPE IT GETS WEDGED IN HIS FUCKING ESOPHAGUS AND HE ASPHIXIATES ON HIS OWN FUCKING BLOOD

I'm not worth connecting to

I cant get anything out and that scares me so bad

Because nobody understands unless I can get it out but I fucking cant I fucking cant

All I am is disgusting, gross, unloved

I'm only loved if I meet the conditions, if I meet the criteria. I can't do taxidermy in the barn but my brother can tan a rabbit hide inside the house?

I'm a hazard an inconvenience. I didn’t want to eat what the rest of the family wanted but that didn't matter. I'm a scavenger, I have to pick from what's left and hope I can make it through the night.

I'm disgusting I have mental fleas I'm always itchy and crawling and I can never fucking get comfortable, never get comfortable, I'm so tense all the time, I cant get to sleep because I cant get comfortable, I'm not meant to be in my fucking body

I think everyone can see it and that's

All I am is a hole

Is this all there is?

I noticed a new spot on my scalp, scab scab scab. Ipicked it. Why do I evne bother trying to not pick. Who am I fucking doing it for.

Im so fucking alone. I think im fucking cursed like genuinely. I cannot fucking connect. No matter how hard I try. And so I isolate and I sabotage myself

I'm fucking disgusting im not worth taking care of im not wroth anything. Im not worth anything. Im not worth anything. I'm a leech im a leech im a leech I'm a scab I'm a fucking useless piece of shit. EVERYONE CAN FUCKING SEE IT. EVERYONE CAN FUCKING SEE IT. And that's why im alone and that’s why that willn ever fukcing change

I try to show my photography and I just get a

Its no wonder I started fukcing drinking I cannot handle it. I cant handle it.

I have been drowning and alone since I was born at 28 weeks old. And nobody fucking cares. And nobody fucking sees. All I am is a mirror.

I don’t have a fucking personality I just cling to whoever I hope will give me approval and I don’t even pay attention to whether I'm liking whatever the fuck it is, all that matters is that they're having a good time

I can't keep doing this but I don’t think I can stop. I was programmed this way and this is all I know how to do and it's going to fucking kill me. It is going to fucking kill me.

I'm running myslef over again and again I'm the coyote that wasn't fast enough and I'm the car that didn't stop. I'm the road that wasn't takencare of and the guts that spilled across it and the dying breath of the animail terrified alone and that's all that I will ever fucking be. Only here for the bugs. I'm carrion. I'm already dead and im wasting away and everybody can see it and nobody will ever love me because once they see past the mirror all that's left is the fucking pit. The hole the empty the nothing.

I have to be funny because then maybe if im lucky they’ll want to stick around but I don’t thinkanybody really does. I'm always terrified that they will leave. They are going to leave me when they realize how useless you are.

Myeyes hurt.

I havent cried like that in so long. It gets stuck inside me and it's like congested. I'm congested and I cant get anything out and im ALONE AND NOBODY CARES AND NOBODY SEES

I CANT FUCKING DO THIS. I CANT FUCKING DO THIS.

IF I DON’T G

I CANT DO THIS

I AM

It's all loss IT'S ALL LOSS. ALWAYS. REJECTION REJECTION REJECTION

I CANNOT

HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO GO ON HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP GOING LIKE THIS.

MY BROTHER HAS FRIENDS MY SISTER HAS FRIENDS

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME??

I'M ROTTING. I'M NOTHING. I'M WASTING AWAY HERE AND IM USELESS.

I cannot

I'm really struglging with how alone I am. How alone I am. How alone I am

Christ.

Something broke insidwe of me but theres nbody there to witness it

Ive been out to them for ten fucking years. And they still misgender me. They don’t bother to get it right. I don’t know if my sister's husband even knows im nonbinary

I'm not fucking worth the effort. Im not worth the effort. WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN TRYING

I'm howling alone and im hoping to hear a response but it's only mirrored

Nobody will ever respond

And even if they did I don’t know if it could reach me truly. Im in a fucking bubble. Im a specimen under glass for inspection and reflection and to look at when things get boring but I always endup back on the shelf.

Went through everyone in thefamily except for me . Left me out of the speech.

All im good for is to consume

I can only think clearly when I'm hurting myself

Picking myself apart

I'm going to be alone. Christ im going to be alone.

I don’t understand it and im struglging to keep up

I can feel myself closing up again. Goodbye.

The doors are closing again.

[cupcraft]

idont think ctommy would want cake on his bday btw i think he'd make a mud pie and eat it then spit it out over the edge of the cliff near his bench with ctubbo going "its going to be okay" while rolling his eyes

[sin-content]

Dont feel very good, all I want is to eat a mango rn, I dont like mango much so Idont get why

[anyatomy]

idont know if im just wrong about the quality of my art or if im seriously noticing a pattern here but like i cannot fucking believe a like. fully shaded and dynamicish piece of mine got 46 notes snd i scroll down ONE post in gerrys tag and the next thing is a plain colored piece with over a thousand

Is it because i draw him fat is it because i she her’d him i feel fucking insane.Notes should t matter but i would. Like to be able to build some following to get comms ykow so like . Like. What. I dont want to sound conceited bht i LITERALLY. FEEL CRAAAAZY. PEOPLE USUALLY EAT UP STUFF SIMILAR TO WHAT I DREW I FEEL .

[sw33t-oubliette]

11 n 12?

what do you consider to be romance: when 2 people love eachother in some way they both describe as romantic ithink .idont really give that much of a fuck abt labels yolo

what’s some good advice you want to share: dont hold off happiness 4 special occasions life is a special occasion etc yk the post . Also dont develop and eating disorder they suck ass to deal with