#idk. maybe I’ll regret this
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resigned from the frozen food store!!!
#fuck me man I feel nauseous#I’ve been there for three and a half years. it was my first job#I’ve never quit a job before it’s weird#To think. I only have two shifts left#idk if I’ll miss it. I certainly won’t miss the bosses and some of the staff are whatever#but there are a few who I really like who I’ll miss#and the job itself isn’t too hard#I could kinda just listen to a podcast and stock and I was good at it and it was easy#so maybe I’ll miss that. my other jobs are more involved and require like. talking to my managers (one of which is chill. the other…)#idk. maybe I’ll regret this#but I miss having my Saturdays free and I dread waking up for every shift#so. there we go. I’m gone
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I AM EXCITED FOR FRANCIS’S STORY!!! I WANT HIM TO GET WORSE PERSONALLY!!!
#screaming this into the void#not tagging it as dndads#ok maybe i will#the peachyville horror#thats all#I’ll regret this later maybe idk its late at night and I’m thinking about my love for dndads s3#thoughts in the void#delete later probs
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this is gonna be a long one so bare with me as i ramble
i’ve realized fairly recently that doing art as a job is never going to be sustainable for me. while my hands being injured absolutely sucks and i hate it, it’s made me realize i was actually really stressed out, especially since art has been my single source of income. being a working artist means that there will be very little structure and it’s all on me to create my schedule. i can’t do that very well! and not it a “woe is me i cant do it”, but more of a “i understand my limits”.
the timing of this sucks though because i literally have one more semester left until i finish my art degree :’) but after the initial panic im actually kind of excited! i’ve actually decided that once i finish my degree, im going to get my prerequisites out of the way and then major in marine biology (nobody saw this coming)!!! i’ve always had a tough time seeing my future as a professional artist. it’s much clearer now with this new potential job:)
so once my hands get better (please please please be soon oh my god), i’m going to take less commissions and draw for myself more often 💕
#if u read this thanks for reading! i needed to get it off my chest#only thing i’m not excited for is math 😀 but i’m determined to get thru it!!#also this doesn’t mean commissions are off the table i will still be taking those lol#tbh i flip flopped between orthinology and marine biology but the b1 orcas won me over#maybe i’ll major in wildlife biology idk#my current major is illustration and sequential art!#it was supposed be to be 2 years but uh. covid#i don’t regret it at all tbh i really enjoyed all my art classes (especially art history and sketching comics)#and life drawing!!!! but the professor was kinda. rude lol#okay i’m done rambling
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#having a time again#I fucking hate rsd#I hate just feeling the overwhelming urge to go scorched earth and abandon everyone and everything I’ve ever known#I thought I had it under control and it got triggered again recently#and it leaves me fucking exhausted and regretting all my life decisions in the end#hate fucking relapsing#hate being unable to read people’s minds#being built fucking Wrong#and having people hate me for reasons I’m not even Aware of because I can’t pick up on it and no one just fucking Talks#no one just Says when they’re bothered they let it fester and then it’s My fault#I didn’t Completely burn this bridge yet but god I am staring at it with a lighter and gasoline in hand#all that’s stopping me is that what I’m about to burn meant and still does mean a lot to me but#I can’t keep fucking doing this#it always ends like this#it never fucking changes and I don’t know why I bother I should stay in my little hole Alone where no one can hurt me#and I can’t accidentally hurt anyone else#idk man#having a fucking time#and maybe I shouldn’t even be Talking about it here#becuase who cares it’s social media#but if I don’t spill my guts Somewhere then I’ll fucking explode and cut ties with Everyone in my life at a trigger’s notice#and I need to pour this out somewhere Else#so I Don’t do something I know is Bad#in a moment of fucking rsd anxiety panic attack#lays down under my rock and dies#becomes a mushroom#if I’m a mushroom I’ll have no more problems#the mushroom hive mind will understand me and I will understand the mushroom hive mind
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i would like to go back to virginia and particularly that town bc apparently the town itself is nice we just lived wayyyy outside of it. but so much of my father’s family lives around there and i don’t want to 😭
#idk where my father lives though. maryland? regardless his family also sucks#BUT my internet bestie lives like 20 minutes from there and i’m always regretful that i didn’t grow up there bc then maybe we could’ve met#sooner…… but she’ll be in philly soon and i’ll see her irl again for the first time in 5 or 6 years….
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like this for a little bob starter based on one of the million and one fun facts i have about him jumping around in my head
#i could write them all down but idk got hit with a funky mood so maybe the short and fun stuff is the way to go#memes ⋆˙ let’s do something i’ll regret
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Tried re-designing a better gi/hero outfit for Calem and I think I like this better than the first rendition. It doesn’t look like a cheap costume anymore
#ninjago#lego ninjago#Ninjago oc#ninjago original character#hails’ art#oc: calem kahale#idk maybe I’ll regret it later but right now it’s okay
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the most Crowley coded thing I’ve ever done is eat an Kit Kat bar whole instead of breaking it apart.
#good omens#crowley coded#I headcanon Crowley does the same thing too just to annoy aziraphale or anyone#kitkat#funny I pissed off my cousin doing this and I don’t regret it#anthony j crowley#crowley good omens#good omens Crowley#maybe I’ll draw this scenario idk no promises
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rewatching aloto and my god…….. television really died the day it was cancelled
#GIGGLING KICKING MY FEET TWIRLING MY HAIR WHILE ALSO SPRINTING AROUND THE BLOCK!!!#carson shaw i’ll love u forever#(also im so sorry but carson/lupe dynamic is something very personal and special to me and the DISMAL 27 fics in the ao3 tag is criminal)#does anyone else understand the VISION?????????????#pls………. they’re just really special to me#i just think for a show of majority lesbians why aren’t there more rarepair fics out there!!!!!!!#aloto#a league of their own#ok also i’m only on ep 2 so i’m going on five seconds of lupe content so the rarepair is reeeaaaal rare atm u know#maybe i will regret this later on idk idk but im waiting for the enemies arc coming up sooooon
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I actually want kids someday but who am I kidding. I can’t even raise a dog I passed down my incapacitating anxiety to my fucking dog. My ass is not breaking the cycle lmao
#he has an actual phobia of cars and trucks so i can’t even take him outside w/out it being a Thing#i’m at my fucking limit and maybe he’d be better off w/out me but i can’t give him up he’s my baby#we’ve been through months of training and nothing has changed and no medication has worked#and i can’t see it getting any better at this point idk what i’m supposed to do#anyways if i never have kids i’ll always regret it and if i do then i’ve already failed them <3
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I still have a headache but at least I’ve had a nice mocha :)
The barista didn’t charge me for oat milk either 🥹
I got to see my coworker’s lovely paintings!
We’re having frozen dinners tonight (which is good bc if he wants to bitch I didn’t make dinner fuck him and also there will be food) which is low effort for me yay
I am. In no way able to drive in to school so I’ll just work off of my laptop instead and squinty (which probably won’t help my eye hurting but ah well) maybe tomorrow. (My plan for wed work is literally to either convince mum to drive me in or to take a taxi bc I am. Not going to be able to drive on Wednesday morning)
I’ll just. Shower. Begin anew. And fucking get to it.
#idk maybe I just look extra sad today bc a few people have said so and I feel like I’m normally good at hiding it#also may have misremembered who got to the intersection first and gone ahead of my time by accident#but god knows I’ve had to wait for enough people that went before their turn so bc nothing came of it I’ll just. let it go. let it go.#shatters’ fragments#having other thoughts#having other thoughts too and it’s just. is it intrusive or just me getting bad again ? no time#to dwell on it atm whatever. I’ll be fine. I always am#but god it feels like I SHOULD look like I’m bleeding out etc etc etc#also new tattoo idea#to stew on if that Specific circumstance that would allow me to get it there would happen#which uh. I don’t want to happen#but that and the other bottom of foot tattoo idea I’ve wanted for over a decade now…#they’re BAD but I still Would Not Regret it.#besides. who besides me would know?
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pondering how Myth and Fear were both exploited and hurt by their conjurers and how Psychic killed his conjurers almost immediately after being created
it's interesting to me at least bc that shows that psychomancers are really only conjured when people need or want something from them. their only purpose for existence is to serve other beings. they are essentially sentient tools. at least from what I've gathered.
but Psychic killed his creators. I wonder why, or how he knew to. I wonder if he ever looked back on it later on and wondered how different his life might be if he'd chosen to serve them. could it have been better than what his current master has done for him? Psychic wouldn't think so, but he can't help but idly consider it. I wonder if he considers meeting his master a lucky break. compared to Myth and Fear, the first half of Psychic’s life was a lot lonelier, but maybe he was better off for it in the end.
he’s likely happier serving someone other than his conjurers because even if he didn’t like it at first, Psychic chose his master. he got a say in who he was to serve. even if living as a tool was inevitable, Psychic was never someone who would accept his fate lying down, not if he had a chance to find something better.
serving his master in the beginning seemed like the most productive out of multiple equally terrible options, but Psychic got to choose it. that’s already much better than what Myth and Fear were dealt, and it wouldn’t have been possible if Psychic accepted a lifetime of serving his conjurers. as a result of that, Psychic probably has much more respect for his master than he ever would for his conjurers, because as far as I can tell, to create a psychomancer is to assign someone a job before they are even born. it’s the magical equivalent of having a child to save your marriage. /hj
it’s an inherently selfish thing, conjuring a psychomancer, and Psychic doesn’t respect selfishness. but his master was willing to take him in, no matter what Psychic’s original purpose for existence may have been, and raise him into something more powerful and deadly than Psi could have seen in himself otherwise. and that is something Psychic can respect.
#in conclusion: if you can't make your own psychomancer at home store bought is fine. preferred actually /jjj#maybe i’ll make an unofficial lore doc after my exams so i can at least keep all this info organized idk#while his own unbending loyalty is selfish in itself; psi’s hypocrisy is a post for another time. thank you and good night#analysis#tea for thought#fnf psychic#psychic fnf#fnf mind games#friday night funkin#psychomancers#cmy gang#doubt he ever actually regretted killing his conjurers but we’ll see what river says lmao#this is more a ramble than an analysis but that’s how I tag all long posts now (joke) sorry
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honestly used to daydream abt having multiple degrees and being that sorta 🤪lifelong learner🎓 but law school devastated me so much I’m averse to the idea of taking cc classes for funsies now
#you want me to sit in a classroom again I’ll kms LMAO#if I ever do it it’ll just to learn new languages at this point#but I don’t think I have it in me to juggle my family work and an actual ed program at this point in my life#I thought abt applying to a program at UCI before Covid hit bc a friend was having a good exp there#I was like ooo yeah maybe I’ll get a masters or smthn#but after the past few years I’m just v jaded#it’s a me thing but it’s annoying af when you still get nightmares abt law school 4 years later LMAO#I used to be that annoying ass person who’d constantly raise their hand in class and after law school I’m 🦗😐🪦#I hope my feelings change but idk what good it’ll do for me. I live w regret either way. and debt#xangoeswah
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guys. guys !!!!
#vanu is rambling#ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence.#like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me#but like for these past couple months things have been different.#i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone.#like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or#i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey#where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment.#today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me#and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during#those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears#and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg#and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that.#because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call.#i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends.#it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time#they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable.#someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did#and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent#stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable.#like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter.#they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl.#they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in#friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool#people really. really cool people
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#yesterday was such a long day#we didnt get back home until almost 1am#we went to bf’s sister’s graduation and it was nice but soooooo hot#my feet hurt so bad it hurts to walk#and today is the worst day of the year:(#mommy issues off the charts rn#i have to stay offline for a bit i think#i hate how jealous i get whenever someone talks abt having a nice relationship w their mother#when i rarely speak to mine maybe twice a year#and regret it every time i do#idk. all i know is that i’m gonna finish breaking bad and play ts4 all day 🦋#ily guys i’ll talk to y’all later
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- Spooked at both Pity’s
- but!! got her 1st slot right after first pity
- 2nd Slot from 200 coins
-event memo to MLB
Overall? Happy. (I have had worst luck from this game so I can’t complain too much…) My memo luck stays thriving, slot luck about the same as usual. But I needed a little more light unit MP boost and Duo units are my fav units in game (and we haven’t had once since Nayuta & Mikage I think) soooo I be happy I got the lesbians
#magia record#I swear if the anni character is madoHomu though… fuck idk what ill do?#cry? die? go fall down a hole a begin an evil undertale route?#perhaps maybe spend money#which is even worse than the other options I listed#I imagine the anniversary character will be Historia related#like pleasessssssse#I cannot have it be someone too cool#historically I’ve never caved on a unit right before anniversary soooo let’s hope I don’t regret it! 🥰💕🫶🏻✌🏻🫶🏻✌🏻🫨🫨🫨🫨#also now that I got them I feel obligated to read their stories lol#I’ll def be reading this event#may take awhile for me to read their other stuff
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