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rieamena · 13 hours ago

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i. takuma

fantasy!au-ish ,, kind of??? idk dont quote me on anything

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riea's comments: slowly but surely coming out of my hiatus... idk what's with me and writing angst recently... especially since i love takuma so much

the moonlight spilled through your bedroom window like liquid silver, bathing the room in a soft glow. it was here, in the quiet sanctuary of your chambers, that he had stolen countless moments with you. moments that no one else could ever know. he had always been someone whose eyes burned passionately, but tonight, that light in his eyes was clouded with turmoil as he stood before you

"how long have you known?" his voice trembled, low and raw with the weight of emotions he could no longer hide

your lips parted, but no words came. his gaze bore into yours, searching for answers, demanding the truth

"princess," he whispered, stepping closer, the warmth of his presence a stark contrast to the chill that had settled in your chest. his hand found your wrist, grounding you as his thumb brushed over your skin. "please, tell me how long it's been."

your mind raced, pulling you back to the nights spent in his arms, the stolen kisses behind the royal gardens, the laughter you shared as he snuck you out of the palace to explore the city incognito. the memory of his lips on your temple, murmuring, "you're more than a princess to me. you're everything."

"three weeks," you finally admitted, your voice barely above a whisper

the devastation in his eyes was immediate. "three—when do you meet him again?"

"tomorrow," you replied, heart hammering

"and the ceremony?"

"next week."

his jaw tightened, and he turned away, running a hand through his tousled hair. the sight of him—so vulnerable, so human—made your heart ache

"run away with me," he said suddenly, spinning back to face you

"what—? you know i—"

"you can't," he interrupted, his voice sharper now. "because of your parents, your family, the kingdom. whose life are you really living? is it impossible to live for yourself? doesn't being happy matter at all?"

"not when you're a royal," you countered, the words tasting bitter even as you spoke them

his hands cupped your face, his touch gentle yet urgent. "you're more than a crown. you're a person—a person i love. i don't care about titles or kingdoms. i care about you."

you reached for something—anything— to hold. the silk of your dress felt coarse and unpleasant between your fingers. you remember how his face beamed as he snuck into your bedroom, bag in hand. how he watched your eyes light up when giving you the present he diligently saved up for. how you scurried away to your bathroom to slip it on, deliberately leaving the zipper down so he could zip it up for you. how he did exactly that, kissing your cheek once he was done. and how he carried you to your bed with a flushed face, your giggles bouncing off the room as he continued to compliment you

"takuma, you know i didn't ask for this!" you snapped, dragging yourself back to the present. "i never wanted this!"

"then why won't you act like it? you won't even fight for us, for me."

"it's more complicated than that! what will people think of us? what will my family think of us?"

"for god's sake," his voice raised, "i love you."

you felt time stop for a bit. it was the first time you heard those three words slip from his lips. you'd be lying if you said you didn't want to hear them, you just wish it could've been under better circumstances

"you—you've plagued my mind and my heart, princess. do you not understand? i feel graced by the gods that everyday i live is a day i get to spend by your side. i don't care about status, i just care about you, about us."

"i—" your throat tightened, and tears welled in your eyes, "i'm sorry, sir ino, but—"

"don't call me that." he said, his voice breaking, "it's takuma to you. i'm takuma."

"i don't love you." the words left your mouth with a fight. you knew you didn't mean it, and you knew you weren't convincing him

"prove it to me." he said, stepping closer, "prove to me that you've never felt something towards me. look at me. [name], look at mmph—"

it was a confession in and of itself. your true feelings, all of them. your soft lips on his, melting into each other, yearning for the same thing: a world in which a princess could be with her knight. his hand slipped to the small of your back, subtly pushing you into him. you caressed the nape of his neck, kissing him harder

"thank you…" you whispered, pulling away from the kiss, ignoring the string of pleas falling from his lips, "for everything takuma, my valiant knight,"

"no," he choked out, tears streaming down his face. "don't say goodbye. don't—"

"i love you," you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them. "i love you."

his head fell to your shoulder, his sound of his sobs mixing with yours. and all that could be done was to hold each other tightly, as if it was all a nightmare

—

a knock on your door didn't stir you, you were already awake. "princess?" a sweet voice belonging to one of your maids called out, "won't you please get ready? your soon-to-be husband will be arriving shortly."

a groan escaped from you as your feet thumped against the floor towards the bathroom

"oh, and one more thing." the maid added. "that knight of yours, grand knight ino? he was placed on leave. his mother has fallen ill. not to worry, your parents will be putting another knight in his stead but i doubt you'll like him."

"takuma's mother…?" you whispered, stopping in your tracks, your heart clenching. "make sure to send them the best care package we have" you said softly. "and come back later to deliver a letter for him as well."

"yes, princess."

—

the days leading up to your wedding were a blur of decisions that didn’t feel like your own. the lace of your gown, the jewels on your crown, and even the words you were to speak at the altar were all chosen for you. but behind the veneer of perfection, your heart throbbed for takuma

you had thought the ache would fade with time. that the whispered words he'd left you with—"run away with me"—would become nothing more than an echo. instead, the memories of him consumed you

your fiancé, was everything the kingdom could want: kind, loyal, attentive. he spoke softly of your future together, of the peace your marriage would bring. one evening, as you walked the castle gardens together, he pointed to the stars. "do you see that constellation there? it's called the lovers. legend says the stars only align when two souls are destined for one another."

you smiled, though it felt hollow. "it's beautiful."

he glanced at you, his expression warm. "i hope you'll look at the stars with me after we're wed."

you left him unanswered.

the castle halls became suffocating. everywhere you turned, preparations for the wedding surrounded you. your fiancé's attendants showered you with affection, yet it only magnified the emptiness within you. in quiet moments, your mind would wander to takuma—his smile, the rough timbre of his voice when he teased you, the way his touch lingered just a moment too long. you clutched your engagement bracelet tightly as if it could anchor you

it didn't.

you escaped to the gardens alone. the magnolias were in bloom, their scent a bittersweet reminder of the times you'd spent there with takuma. you sank to the bench where he had first spoken of running away. his words haunted you

"we could leave all of this behind. find a quiet place by the sea. you'd never have to wear a crown again."

tears slipped down your cheeks. "takuma," you whispered to the wind, praying that it would carry your words, "i wish you were here."

—

the day of the wedding dawned, and you felt like a prisoner in your own life. the cathedral was packed with nobles, their faces glowing with anticipation. your soon-to-be husband stood at the altar, his expression serene

but as the doors opened and you began your walk down the aisle, your eyes scanned the crowd—and there he was. that familiar head of brown hair. those kind eyes that were now red-rimmed. and a bittersweet smile full of unspoken words

the world seemed to fade. there was only him, the one you couldn't love anymore.

a tear escaped from your eye, and shattered onto the marble floor.

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raguonmynieceandnephew · 16 hours ago

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EPIC THE MUSICAL SONGS RANKED BY ME

With the release of the Ithaca Saga, I can finally rank all the songs from the musical! I did this before, for Act One, so I naturally I gotta do the whole show.

Before we dive in some disclaimers:

This is my personal opinion, and forewarning here, there are some hot takes and very unpopuplar opininons below. If you disagree you are welcome to talk your shit on the notes because there is nothing I love more than arguing with strangers on the internet. No really, I mean it. Give me your worst. Just have some decorum, dont get your panties all twisted

ALL SONGS ARE GOOD. I LOVE THE ENTIRE SHOW. Just because a song is low, it does not mean I dislike. I just like it less than the ones above them.

I am ranking based on overall quality, replayability, personal enjoyment, basically just what my silly little brain thinks about it.

40 - CHARYBDIS

Truly a nothing burger. She's just...there.

39 - SIX HUNDRED STRIKE

This song is to me what The Godfather is to Peter Griffin from Family Guy. Do with that information what you will. Also, first impressions unfortunately matter, and that CG animatic...yeah.

38 - GET IN THE WATER

Poseidon should've a second verse before Ody had his. If he did, i'd like this much better. And by now you can deduce what is my least liked saga LMAO, and I really didn't want it to be so, but these three are probably the only songs in the show I actively dislike. Unfortunately the hype was too high on these, and they did NOT live up to it. I fear we lost a little bit of the plot after the Thunder Saga, although Wisdom was (much) better than Vengeance.

37 - POLYPHEMUS

It's slow, heavily dialogue-y and is not very fun to listen to outside of a full listen through of the show. Just not my vibe at all. Still love her tho <3

36 - STORM

My opinion on her has not changed in the slightest since the last time I ranked it to be honest, but the addition of the 20 other songs made her plummet. Still think she lacks a little bit of flavor, a little something. Haven't felt her since tiktok teaser days, still don't.

35 - LUCK RUNS OUT

I said it once and I'll say it again. I am pissed at the change from the teasers lmao, the rappy version of Eury's first verse was SO much better and I am still salty about it, but it is a good song overall and I like Eury's character beginning to blossom here.

34 - LITTLE WOLF

Don't shoot! The song is great, i love Athena's part, but idk, it's so weird to put it before We'd Be Fine. Like, I just can't put my finger on why, it's just my truth.

33 - THERE ARE OTHER WAYS

We have officially entered No Skip territory. 33/40 is a great score.

The intro and the duet are amazing, I am a sucker for duets between man and woman: Bad Idea from Waitress is one of my fave broadway songs of all time, and that last high note is life changing but Circe's second verse is kinda meh. It has grown on me quite a lot since last ranking.

32 - PUPPETEER

Anyway, I love me some Puppeteer. The intro is amazing and fooled me, i thought Eury was going to profess his love or something. The Lyricism, the dynamics between Ody and Eury, perfection.

31 - KEEP YOUR FRIENDS CLOSE

She is weird but she is good. Another song I love that plummeted in the rankings because of the second act lmao. Jorge has since then showed us the twink.

30 - THE UNDERWORLD

My opinion hasn't changed but I'm tired of Polites showing up everywhere lmao

29 - LEGENDARY

Pretty good song to introduce Telemachus and Antinous, silly and fun, but not much else to say. Very solid, good song, nothing to complain about.

28 - ODYSSEUS

She is incredible. The edge, the villain era, the violence and the climax of it all, remarkable. The vocals are insane, the extras, all. I screamed when Telemachus appeared.

27 - DONE FOR

Oh how the might have fallen LMAO this was ranked 7th last time, but the competition is STEEP baby. The second act songs just blew it out of the park, plus many songs I ranked low last time went up so yeah. Still an amazing song, and i will always love it as the one teaser that truly got me into this musical.

26 - MUTINY

ARMANDO JULIAN. Stellar performance, and that Just a Man reference my GOD.

Truly insane how low this song is, when this is song TWENTY SIX the other 25 have to be absolute bangers, which they are.

25 - FULL SPEED AHEAD

The harmonies, the character intros, the simplicity, the naïveté, the HARMONIES, YES, AGAIN THE HARMONIES. Troy saga best saga, and if you disagree you can eat my ass

24 - WARRIOR OF THE MIND

This song was second to last on my Act One ranking and I would like to apologize, as I ranked all athena songs kinda low back then. The cultural impact this had alone makes her stand above many. Great song.

23 - DANGEROUS

Hermes wouldn't disappoint me, even among the Vengeance Saga he shines. I love this song. Animatic on the live stream kinda sucked, (no shade to the artist, I loved your work on I Can't Help But Wonder) but the song has been stuck in my head since before Troy was cast.

22 - HOLD THEM DOWN

YES. YES. I LOVE A VILLAIN WHO IS JUST IREDEEMABLY EVIL. God, I love Antinous's character so much, and Ayron Alexander's performance is simply insane. His death was SO FUNNY, truly, I love this song.

21 - LOVE IN PARADISE

Another song that snatched my ass during teaser era, I adore Love in Paradise. The percussion, the immaculate vibes and the emotional whiplash at the end, i just love it.

20 - GOD GAMES

I'm so sad she isn't better LMAO, the gods' arguments were too short! This should've been an 8 minute song, and I am so serious. Either way, despite my gripes with it, I love it, and I want Luke Hot to step on my neck, respectfully.

19 - OPEN ARMS

A classic. What's not to love about her? The dialogues get a bit meh, but c'mon, who cares? Love Polite's solo moment. I just with it had more duet-y parts.

18 - SURVIVE

This song grew on me tremendously. I didn't like it as much at first and i ranked it pretty low last time, but holy shit. This song is so ALIVE. it fills me with, idk, gas? You get it, right? PUSH FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWAAAAAAAAAAAARD!

17 - DIFFERENT BEAST

The payoff on Monster, a masterpiece tbh. Great song, very dark and violent, just how I like it. First time Ody actually scared me.

16 - MY GOODBYE

Perfection, but I wish Ody and Athena really had a proper duet, like harmonizing together and stuff at some point on the show, and I feel like here would've been the perfect opportunity. But the song is phenomenal, and the JUST A MAN REFERENCE? Lifechanging.

15 - REMEMBER THEM

Top 15 mean we have entered perfection. All songs from here on out are 10/10, with zero notes. Perfection. Immaculate. No suggestions, no way to be better, no. PERFECTION. The rankings are just numbers atp, ngl, except for the top 5.

She is serving rock pauleira, serving angst, serving outro. Like, she is neither man of mythical like, what else you want me to say?

14 - THUNDER BRINGER

My GOD. Oh Luke Holt, you are so sexy, just one chance please!

13 - THE HORSE AND THE INFANT

What an opening. That duet, the set up for the best song on the show (spoilers IG), THE DUET WITH ZEUS? HELLO? (have I mentioned I find Luke Holt attractive?) Perfection.

12 - SUFFERING

Oh she is SO FUN and so catchy, and Anna Lea? I have to stan.

11 - WE'LL BE FINE

This is so beautiful, honestly, Mico's voice is the sweetest and I said before i LOVE duets between men and women, idk why, it just hits all spots on my brain. That first "MAYBE" they sing together sounds fucking angelic.

10 - NOT SORRY FOR LOVING YOU

@ghostlycollectorchaos hates to see me coming at 5:50 am belting this at the bus stop. Calypso they could never make me hate you. She was just in a silly goofy mood u guys!

9 - WOULDN'T YOU LIKE

Oh Hermes, I love you so much. The TikTok snippets had me on a chokehold. (Hermes, however, is not my fave character anymore. Penelope snatched his spot from his hands)

8 - THE CHALLENGE

Speaking of the Queen, OH THE CHALLENGE HOW I HAVE LOVED YOU FOR YEARS! For those who don't know, this and NSFLY have been (kinda) out for a long time before release because Jorge presented them on workshop before even the Troy Saga came out! And The challenge has always been one of my favorites. Anna Lea delivered a spectacular performance. It brought me to tears to finally see it out.

7 - I CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER

I wish I could forget this to listen for the first time again. Tears, every single time. Also ATHENA IS ALIVE YALL.

6 - MONSTER

I mean, come on. Do I even have to say anything? When he quoted Poseidon. The venting about all he lost, THE CONFIRMATION THAT HE DID, IN FACT, KILLED THE BABY. HE BECOMING THE MAN TIRESIAS SAW IN HIS PROPHECY. I MEAN, COME ON

5 - NO LONGER YOU

Wig? Snatched. This was my favorite song for a while, I even auditioned for it lmao. Deffo my favorite one to sing, still. Mason DEVOURED this track, and the prophecy? Odysseus's scream? Setting up Monster, AKA one of the best things in this show? Gagged me, your honor. I can't stress enough how much I love Mason's performance here.

4 - RUTHLESSNESS

I was INSUFFERABLE when this came out. I made this song my entire personality for a good 3 months. Ask anyone close to me. She was on repeat for WEEKS. Steven Rodriguez, man. God. That man's voice. That man in general, actually.

3 - SCYLLA

The most hype song in the show, sung exquisitly by who can only be described as vocally insane KJ (have yall seen the video of them belting her lungs off while KAYAKING?) But honestly, what I love the most about the song is the lyrics in the chorus.

"Die in the blood where you bathe" will forever be my favorite line in EPIC.

2 - WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AGAIN

Tears. Every single time. Shit, i'm beginning to tear up writing this. The voices, the harmonies, the rage, Penelope's gambit, THAT RIFF ON "FOR YOU", THE JUST A MAN INSTRUMENTAL THAT MAKES ME CRY. The fact that the show ends in "i love you". I just can't describe in full how much I love this song. I can't wait to see the many actresses that will play penelope on broadway.

1 - JUST A MAN

Remarkable, showstopping, absolutely the best song ever made in a musical. The lyricism, the production, the poetry, vocal performance, I really don't have much to say because it's not needed. All of my favorite moments in this soundtrack, unreleased songs included, are moments in which this song is referenced.

I love this song so much i literally can't think about things to write that can represent how much I love it. Shit, this entire part is straight up copy paste from my act one ranking.

My life's dream is to go to broadway once to see this fucking song live, and i know it will be life changing.

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sweet-rabbit · 2 months ago

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my brain is nothing but dugeon meshi mixed with vaguely victorian aesthetic... there shall be fic

and unintentional pun with the word "charming" how fun!

#dugeon meshi #farcille #thistle dungeon meshi #marcille donato #falin touden #the fic in question is for sure mainly kabumisu BUT farcille shall ideally appear starting chapter 2 #and yes thistle is their ward #idk why but i just... really like these three as a family???#like if thistle were deaged and we got ourselves a sailor moon saturn situation #thistle only gets two lesbian moms instead of three tho

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stromer · 8 days ago

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can't get over qh43 actually speaking up about the locker room tensions in van and the jtpete divorce debacles x5 . like imagine being a 25 year old captain talking to a canadian market like "yeah, we all kinda hate each other rn Lol"

#the jtpete divorce lawyer and it's just their captain saying “yeah petey can have the powerplay if jt gets the brunt of the canadian media”#quinn speaking on love and family as if the dudes in his locker room wouldn't kill each other with a gun given the chance #can't imagine coming off the first playoff berth in literal years because you led your team there and breaking records and what have you #and now your star players are in their millionth round of teenage girl drama reminiscent of sophomore year in high school #and rick is just in media like “yeah i won the cup THREE times btw" like my brother congrats #me and my grandpa bruce boudreau taking notes and observing from the outside like.. remember when we actually loved each other despite the #trials and tribulations??? do you guys even remember that??#idk why we act like jt and pete having some sort of beef is new news also. this happens literally every single year #they're like the toxic exes that you tell your friend to stay the hell AWAY from and they say they really will this time #and they're back together by the end of the week because we need them on a struggling powerplay

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gjsxj0 · 4 months ago

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mindless rambling in tags don't mind me

#not art post #rambling in tags because i can and its MY BLOG #anyway its about tdp *waits* ok for the three of you that actually care #someone retweeted one of my threads from 2019 after s2 dropped (imo the BEST tdp season) and i reread it #and tbh i am still right about viren's characterization #obviously canon changed some things but TO BE REAL..... i dont care what the writers say bc i had beef since s3 #how am i supposed to believe any viren and callum parallels and callbacks when they..... havent talked since when?#and uhhh viren's demise lol i expected it but wow i am not happy with the lead up to it #more cool and eloquent people put it in better words on twitter and probably tumblr too idk i just say things and hope they make sense #anyway viren is still the very real traumatized angry severely depressed old man from s2... his life was just revealed to be so much worse #like damn. he was poor he was orphan he got divorced and then a stupid mirror started ruining his life even more #yes the mirror was the start of it why do you think aaravos revealed himself after viren's firey break down #aaravos went i can make him worse and ran with it #should viren go to prison? yeah i never once denied that lmao but god he and his family were really the ones to suffer in the show #at least viren is gone so i can just *plucks him out of the dirt and morphs him into my own oc* (im for real)#i got maybe more to say but this is long and im lazy and im not too smart so i will just move on #i will watch s7................................... i GUESS and if you find salt i will probably be there lol

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hauntingblue · 2 months ago

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Jayce telling vi she won't make it on her own.... okay mr. projector...

#viktor just turned his body into the arcane and you dont even know!!! his leg is purple!!!!#im not going to excuse vi for saying the kid knew what he was getting into bc he didn't bc he is a kid (here we have ms. projector)#but telling jayce he has always been complicit of this he just didnt have to see it... yeah exactly.#and like she obviousky regrets the kid dying but it was jayces fault lmao why does he blow up on her??? the name calling got to him #jayce thinking omg he is going to off himself and viktor just trying to hide the evidence of his murder akdhsksj well yes he does want to...#i was wondering why the council was so Flabbergasted about the nation of zaun?? like they dont care and basically dont intervene #in the undercity bc they don't have any interest or profit in there. they don't gain anything at all from there.#so of course when silco asks jayce says sure fuck it. the only thing the council needs from zaun is the gemstone and its not even theirs #it's probably just fear of agression towards piltover as another nation and not something they can control or repress #silcos reaction to cait being wheeled in akdhaksj it sounds like he said 'what' he probably didnt know the girlfriend part... understandable #i forgor about her bringing the platter out... like ofc i didnt forget it but i didnt see it coming there. with bad memory you can be #surprised every time you watch the same show 👍🏻#i haven't cried because well the foruth time is a stretch now to cry but i still got chills at the end with the missile impacting....#and like whay would have happened if cait didn't free herself.... like ofc she would have bc everyone in that room could have killed her #not vi etc etc but she did just leave her so who knows really #anyways the monsters appearing in jinxs vision when vi mentions her past family is so poignant to her change.... they dont have the intended #reaction vi meant.... and silco is trying to shut her up for jinx's sake and look what happened to him. like vi really couldn't understand #her sister now and maybe back then either.... like not to be a silco apologist but it seems like he was the only one who could handle her #maybe im exaggerating but it would have gone wrong either way i think like no matger how much love there is in between them #idk man its so bad. like maybe this could have been avoided but it would have gone wrong in a different way for sure #and this couldn't have been avoided #talking tag #watching arcane #three weeks away still.... what now....

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skrunksthatwunk · 5 months ago

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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here #it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening #and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time #we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please #idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest #but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work #sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon #ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for #my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell #happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and #when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends #and i don't wannaaaaa #i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but #it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being #the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it #we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line #i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know #and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot #but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class #even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig #i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me #and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh #i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like #The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed #but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me #and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it #and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh

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fumblingmusings · 1 year ago

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Just for my own clarification regarding timeline stuff and baby America as is depicted in canon.

What is actually shown in canon is Finland is the first to see America after the Netherlands takes over New Sweden. This happened by 1655. The Anglo-Dutch War then occurs, which kicks the Netherlands out of America. This happened by 1674. England and France argue over who gets to be America's big brother - this is presumably resolved before the end of the century, say by 1697 with the end of King William's War.

We know from the Davie comic that Arthur visits at least twice over the course of a human life. We know that by the end of the Seven Year's War both America and Canada were babies still. America then grew at a human pace, Canada about half the rate of that.

I guess, essentially, what I'm saying is that England and America barely spend time together. I'd say, between England officially taking ownership of America and the Revolution, England is shown to visit on at least six occasions.

The length of time he spent visiting America in that field,

the time informing America about the flowers that are native to the UK,

the time he returns to give America the flowers,

the time when he introduces and spends time with both Canada and America as one household,

one more time when America looks like a six or seven year old,

and finally when England comes back to see America as a seventeen year old.

Six visits in around 100 years. (I have definitely misremembered other instances, but you can probably even conflate some visits into one event).

America was separated from other nations for around seventy years, and Canada seemingly had to wait until the Seven Year's War for a decision to be made about his prescence. The NA pair were alone for a significant chunk of their existence, and having England or France barge in changed very little.

I think my point is, yes, fanon enjoys creating familial connections, but in canon, you can't argue that they are genuinely present. And that’s the point almost. England saying he's going to look after America and then being awol for the next 100 years means the War of Independence was less a breakdown of what relationship there was and more a cracking of something that could have been.

It's never been an equal relationship (because America was a colony) compared to now where the two go on holiday together or spend new years in the pub. Distance and how to traverse it is an issue, yes, but it’s also a sign of how much England is delusional on what his relationship to and his understanding of America actually is. And what it is is very little.

By the end of the 18th century, the two genuinely were strangers to each other. If they were anything more, it was playing pretend almost, trying to squeeze a dynamic out of a strained acquaintanceship. It's telling that Canada is then shown to spend far longer stints next to England going forward. Not exactly the right lesson learned, but... well, it's something. Canada actively sought out England to spend time with him. America never did that.

#i say this as someone who did write a family fic but the reality is like... those two had very little #thats the point of those toy soldiers gift and the nice suit #arthur did not have a fucking clue about alfred #hetalia #canon #spending the equivalent of three years together in 100 #it's different laid against the fanon arthur got alfred in 1608 and then raised him from there #idk its just why i always go a little suspicious of the insistence that theyre family #like are they??? are they really?#hws england #hws america #headcanon #op #yes we all play around with how we understand their relationship but those early years were... not... good

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spikeyjo · 3 months ago

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also uh im kind of not thinking about it much because its insane. but if everything goes right (and i mean a considerable amount of things that probably wont go as planned) but if they DO... i will have a major surgery in like two weeks

#vertical sleeve gastrectomy to be exact insert nerd emoji here #i might document a lot of whats going on with it and even take some videos honestly #not to share here other than some oversharing text posts about probably constipation LMAO #but like no one shares whats it like to be mentally ill and go thru vsg and like the process and not many people as young as me get it #feels weird calling myself young on the chronically 13 year old website #but anyone that does post about it posts for like a year and then falls off the face of the earth #genuinely there are so many youtubers that start talking about this stuff #then you find their channel three years deserted and its like man.#i sure hope this means you found better ways to spend your time #and like okay time to get sappy and corny as hell in the notes so go ahead and skip this part idk who even reads my notes hello #but basically everyones that gets this shit is like you gotta find your why #and most of them have kids or like a husband or plans to travel the world or do better at their job #and none of those things really apply to me #i kind of have the perfect storm for being fat #i dont do anything work wise that encourages any kind of movement #im chronically afraid of planes and i cant afford that shit anyways rn #also not very good at romance LOL and never want kids and my entire family is also fat barring my brother #thats not to absolve myself of any of the blame for this shit either like i know i put myself in this situation #i just think like wow my life is pretty much perfect for staying fat but i DONT WANT THAT #I want the highlight of my week to be more than eating takeout man #i want to live life instead of meal to meal to something better #idk what yet maybe jewelery piece to jewelery piece #i could do some serious kandi making while im down for the count #but i dunno man my therapist tells me that in order to feel like a person and not get tired of life i have to do people things and #participate in life yknow?#and its hard to do things like go to the gym talk to people explore fashion styles when i have this overloomingness of being fat #so i guess that could be my why? like i want to experience more of life #i want to be able to walk in a mall and look at all the stores. i want to walk in a mall period. cause it fucking hurts the way i am now #thats all to say the actual “why” that i have is Goddamn it i want to be able to jump from a swing #and not break my fucking ankles

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drxgony · 2 years ago

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Points and Laughs SMELLY boy cringe ass. Here's my depiction of Alek throughout the years.

I like to imagine he had blonde hair then dyed it black during his bad bitch running from the Jedi council phase (it's not a PHASE Revan...)

exile/meetra lineup. revan lineup.

#i have so much lore built for this gang and also this man #basically hes much more a scholar. a poet if anything and hes really in the book scene #thats also why i think squint is such a fitting nickname cause he has eyestrain reading things sometimes and just... squints #also i like to imagine he had a bit of a crush on exile but like #they are all friends first etc #but also gets jealous of both revan and surik at times.#anyways his loss of his people doesn't manifest well and when revan talks about going against the mandalorians he is on board #and changes his hair as said in the descrip #thats when he goes on a dark path cause when surik is gone he just. he wants to kill her straightup (canonically)#and revan who like... he loves her like a sister they all made this little family amongst the three of them is like what?#idk red flag number one of alek. hes willing to betray her?#anyways this ends up with them going and finding star forge stuff which is also aided by aleks like knowledge of books #And we know how the rest goes #ALSO I WANT TO SAY.... i headcanon that sometimes when surik sees mical laugh she momentarily sees alek and just. idk. nostalgic #anyways ill elaborate on this so much more in the future #kotor #knights of the old republic #darth malak #alek #alek squinquargesimus #squint...#jedi #so yeah jedi consular while surik is a guardian and revan is a sentinel #anYYWAAYS #star wars #star wars knights of the old republic #sw: kotor #sw

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mako-island-moon-pool · 7 months ago

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Personally of the belief that live action fans who go onto animanga posts uninvited like 'I DESPERATELY NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT I THINK THE ART STYLE IS UGLY EVEN THO THIS OPINION IS IRRELEVANT TO THE POST' should be hit with a big rock. We already moved past this ten years ago, get with it or get lost. Swallow the hunger inside of you that demands everything be palatable to you. Maybe you could stand to be a little uncomfortable for a while

#Keep ur trashy comments to yourself #It's not even ugly! It's just not the conventional anime style so you deem it ugly. That's so fucking sad of you #You're the type of person who sees a piece of art and is like OMG WERE THEY ON DRUGS?!?!?!?!?!#Idk I think the art style is very fitting for the gigantic world Oda has built #People are allowed to be ''ugly'' because not all of us were born to be models. Shock and horror I know #(this is NOT aimed at the ppl who critque the way Oda draws women (to a degree...) bc I agree he could've done the same for women as he doe #The men by giving them way more diverse features and body shapes)#No this is aimed at the ppl who think the style as a whole is ugly and demean it bc it doesn't suit their tastes #Meanwhile their taste is the most conventional cookie cutter bland pretty boy/girl bullshit out there #(I say to a degree up there bc I think ppl go way too far with the criticisms like the one person who posted the Charlotte family identical #Sisters and went LOOK HOW SIMILAR THESE WOMEN ARE ODA SUCKS when they were MEANT to look similar)#^ yes that is an actual post I saw in like 2018 or 2019 when WCI was reaching its end in the anime and it made me die laughing #There are dozens of other examples you could've given but no. You intentionally chose the triplets (quintuplets? It's been a hot minute)#Rebecca and Nami and Vivi and Shirahoshi all having the exact same face with different hair? No I will use the identical twins as proof #What a unique way to undermine your own argument bc I was with you up until that #Anyway yeah the more I think abt the more I think the live action sucks actually for getting rid of Sanji's eyebrows bc they'd 'look bad'#Who cares? It's part of his design. You are cutting off parts of his character. Same w/ Usopp's nose.#Who fucking cares if it would have looked 'bad' or 'ugly'? Is that all you guys really care about? Keeping up appearances???#I'm so sick of the shit I like getting 'remade' to appeal to people who will never actually appreciate why stuff looks the way it does #It's so shallow I hate it #<- yes I'm still bitter about what they did to my boy WW in the three guns reboot iykyk #And Livio and Razlo for that matter. What the FUCK was that about #Idk maybe it's cuz it's something I recognized in myself and attempted to squash so it's frustrating seeing other ppl do it #And again obvs Oda isn't perfect w/ this either as he draws evil women as fat old hags and his protags as skinny and beautiful #Or how he thinks not following ur dreams will make u ugly and fat and following ur dreams will make u conventionally attractive #I get it. Storytelling method. But u can do better. Use colorschemes instead of physical attributes or something like Veneer does

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linabirb · 1 year ago

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(therapy stuff so if you're uncomfortable, you don't have to read!)

me: *talking about my anxiety, did, hyperfixations and other stuff* but WHY did i learn to do this. why did my brain learn to do this. why did it come up with this whole. idk. survival guide

my therapist: because it was the only thing that could help you survive back then

me:

#like. like. like yeah she's right but also.#sometimes i just think about my childhood and go man. why the hell did this happen to someone who was so young #and also it really hurts that i can't open up to my family about it bc. they don't really take this stuff seriously #“oh your memories make you sad? well just forget about them!” *holding my three (and possibly more) alters* BOY DO I HAVE N E W S FOR YOU #“wdym you suffer from a lack of attention you're literally the most spoiled person ever”#you know there are different types of attention right.#and like. they accepted my did but they're also kinda. idk like they make jokes about it and it's kinda. hhhhh #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 1 year ago

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I would say that the United States, as of right now, has three main food groups (aside from junk food) and those are, Italian, Mexican, and Chinese. All of which have been Americanized here to some extent but differently in different parts of the country. I find this very funny because I have heard people from Italy be indignant about what we’ve done with the stuff (and about good restaurants too!) like, sorry if you guys weren’t creative, mixing things up a bit is great. “What about (regionally popular food)?!” I know we all have those, I haven’t heard of bitches in the south eating lefse, but that’s not my point! What was my point actually? I think I was going to say that, even if we bastardize stuff a lot, I’m super glad we have, as a country, agreed that more seasoning is good. Because if this place had been like “fuck immigrant food forever, we are eating British style” I think I would die.

This country has historically treated immigrants like shit, but we do tend to cave eventually and go like “actually,

your food is really good” a kind of shallow prize I guess, but I’m glad we actually start doing it eventually because I WILL mock British food and I WILL be sad that the only good family recipes my family has from before immigrating are all desserts. Don’t get me wrong, I love sweets, but I’m pretty sure there is a reason we stopped making other stuff

Wait, I re-read this today and realized I sound like my family is British. We are not. What even are British desserts? I bet they don’t have enough cardamom. Although lefse doesn’t have cardamom and i like a lot of things without it, my point is that their holiday and special event foods probably don’t have enough! Which wouldn’t surprise me tbh because apparently the only place that went crazy for the stuff outside of where it originated seems to have been Scandinavia for some reason. At least some maps I looked at seemed to suggest it. Which rocked me to my core

#emma posts #and I know that there are Native American foods that were really here first #but the three most popular quisenes (idk how to spell that) on a country wide scale #are those three #and also. I’ve seen a few Italian recipes from Italy and you guys don’t always use enough seasoning #I don’t care if that’s insulting #foods should have depth if they are going to be good #and I think people (at least around here) rely too heavily on cheese #even aside from the vegan thing. since i have diversified my diet more I am like #cheese is not a substitute for other flavors #this is my hot food take #my take on hot foods though is that I thought I couldn’t handle hot spiciness but then #I heard about British people reacting and also ate with older people here and was like ‘oh my god. that’s so sad’#my mom thinks udon is too spicy :(#i hope this doesn’t come across wrong but this IS the bad reading comprehension website #going to a local Scandinavia festival and admiring the arts and the sweets and then they start talking about other cultural foods and I’m #just like ‘why would you do that to fish?’ and judging my ancestors #in THEORY I understand why. food preservation and all that. but in practice…#like I said. there is a reason dessert and bread recipes are what my family still has from before America and I’m not really mad about that #being the only food #we’ve all heard the old people talk about lutefisk and we are like ‘nope’

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