#idk what this is it's just vibin
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“I dreamt that you died last night,” he said suddenly, and Romano half-turned, surprised at the admission, at the tonelessness of it, that emotionless void a chasm he almost fell into, tangible in its brusqueness. He’d been strange all day, oddly quiet and unsettlingly depressed, barely speaking to any of them, always one step behind Romano, with hands in clenched fists and a mouth set in a bitter frown, every inch the raging empire in collapse.
Somehow, Romano knew that his fingernails would leave dark crescents in his palms. He wondered if Spain even noticed the pain. He wondered if Spain even counted it as pain at all, considering all else he’d been through. All else he’d caused.
Romano blinked, floundered, mouth opening and closing around a voice he couldn’t seem to find, the air in his lungs leaden enough to stay with him, refusing to leave, heavy and cloying. Not that it matters, his mind supplied. Nothing you can say will change anything. He knows that.
Spain stared into the distance, skin illuminated in tangerine and fire beneath the radiant sky of sunset, eyes locked on a horizon they had walked beneath for decades, centuries, dancing around willowing orange trees and sleeping beneath midday haze. Romano wondered what Spain saw when he looked out at a landscape of memories turned antique with change. Romano wondered what Spain saw when he looked at him.
He didn’t say anything, only watched Spain stare into the rolling fields of a land Romano would never call his own.
“Y’know what the worst part is?” Spain’s voice was soft, feather-light and delicate, only just carried from bloodied lips to Romano’s ears through a breeze scented with citrus and perfidy. “When I woke up, I felt disappointed that it was just a dream.”
The air in Romano’s body felt poisonous, rancid, fetid with betrayal and hurt and a grief so profound it felt tangible, like a mass within his body that he could hold, mold, could wrap his fingers around and see the validation of his sorrow. Like he could hold it out to Spain as proof of his apology, words he could never say lost to the inevitability of the future, a timeline of events to which he could only play spectator.
Romano supposed he should be glad Spain hated him. Maybe at one point it meant he had been loved.
The setting sun lengthened their shadows, and Spain’s silhouette was touching his, melding them together into the way they used to be—one form, one being, a single heart beating between the two of them, held together by dewy tomatoes and freshly-made churros and the echoes of tarantella across the tiles of Spain’s floors.
Romano pushed away, gagging on the sour taste of nostalgia grown cold, of yearning for that which could only bite, could only hurt, made bitter and beautiful in its lack of reprieve, of sentimentalities honeyed with war-ravaged brutality. He heard, after a moment, the rustle of grass and the footfalls of steps behind him, and he stopped in surprise when scarred arms linked around his waist, when a chest pressed against his back, when a voice laced with sorrow and imperial madness danced the shell of his ear.
“I hope you and Venezito do well.”
Romano stared at him—his eyes were always green, so green, he noted distantly, vaguely, green and earnest and too fucking good at burning hot with hatred—before shaking him off, walking away, forcing more distance between them, the too-steep edge of a cliff neither of them were willing to cross.
Spain didn’t run after him this time. Romano couldn’t bring himself to feel disappointed.
#aph romano#hws romano#aph spain#hws spain#spamano#hetalia#hetalia fanfiction#mango minifics#idk man i just think mean spain is sexy what do you want from me. dont look too deeply into the historical accuracy of this i was vibin#maybe one day ill write a fic of spain's reaction italy's unification and how spain didn't recognize italy's nationhood until 1865 (iirc)#though lord knows i have enough going on in my wips#but until then have idk whatever this is
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hi so like, what's up with Earl? What creature was this guy spliced with? What's the deal with im'?
Earl, my friend Earl! He's just a big, chill dude!
His name is short for Earl Grey Tea, bc that is very funny to me, and he has Hooded Seal, Elephant Seal and Leopard Seal DNA in him! No actual leopard, despite the spots, only seals
He has a child he adopted, called Sugarcube, but he does look after/protect some other aquatic/semiaquatic clones in the little area he lives in, along with his best bro, Tuna Fsh (who has not been shown yet)
Also, the blue thing on his face is called a snood (like a turkey) and it can be blown up like a balloon, and make weird noises! Why? I don't know
#OC: Earl the Fake Peppino#OC: Sugarcube the Peppiclone#idk what else is 'up' with him he just vibin'#but if you have any more questions feel free to ask hehe#also my last four drawings have had a confused clone in them I did not mean to do this jfskfdgfd
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got tired of not knowing what to write so i made a wheel of all the chapters i have yet to write and its spinnin time baby
#gotta leave it up to fate#at this point most of the things i have left are tricky. so i keep avoiding them#cause it's PLOT and VIBE and AUCITHUHCHEGCICHH.#but i need to. so the wheel it is#i did just look at what i have vs what i have left for really the first time tho#and ive written juuuust under 40% by chapter. by word who knows bcause idk how long these ones will end up#and theyll probably be longer on average than what i have so far#BUT. that aint bad. we vibin#alright. time to spin the wheel
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can't tell if it's just a good day or if this epiphany/shift in thinking is actually gonna last 🤔
#I have been out in public all day but I'm like. still doing good. I've had a really nice time actually.#I prioritized my comfort re: clothes & other sensory issues and like. decided to (try) to stop caring so much what anyone thinks of me?#and it's working?? wild. granted I think I was already on an upswing w the whole Depression thing but like.#idk. idk idk tmw ur like 'ok I'm probably autistic so I'm gonna just start accommodating myself'#and u suddenly start having a less miserable time lmfjajfkgsh#anyway yeah hi I'm alive I'm feeling p good & I'm?? gonna have a nice new laptop next week????#it's uh. it's been a day lmao (but like in a GOOD way for once ajfkgsg)#I'm vibin. maybe I'll be vibin enough to write once I'm home. maybe I'll just read all night again. who knows??? not me!!!!#but I do think regardless of whether I write tonight or not I'll be back into things v soon 👀#byan is rattling the bars of their kennel again & I've had more energy the last day or two sooooo 🤞#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw
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chibo belly :)
#idk what he‘s doin i just wanted to draw him vibin belly out#so yeah enjoy#and as always click for higher res!#jrwi#artists on tumblr#jrwi fanart#chip jrwi#jrwi riptide#just roll with it#chip lastname
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this game's flags are held together with fuckin hot glue and a dream is2g
#im gonna be spoiling rogue trader in the tags dw about it#remind me to make my flags CONSISTENT ACROSS THE BOARD.#when i build a game. this is wretched#trnya figure out why a dialogue option wont proc n it looks like it's been changed so thst it doesnt exist but more importantly#it was glitched before so that doing cerysin things invoked the opposite effect. but its been fixed. but i have not seen ANYONE say#anything about it. so anyways you no longer have to uno-reverse marazhai. in case you were wondering#idk if i actually wanna romance him i think i just like tormenting my followers#and having him around makes things funnier by the second#but if not him. jae is calling to me.....#yrliet has also won my heart i wuv her shes just vibin...#also quinn if yr reading these i did the quests in act 2#definitely worth it. i smell trouble on the horizon and i cant wait to see what it is#havin a lot of fun even thiugh the pst 12 hours have been 'IM SO TIRED. NO MORE ELVES. NO MORE.#despite hating running around act 3 i think i have a newfound appreciation for the haemonculus. theyre like weirder fabius biles to me
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Here’s a doodle i never finished and also won’t ever finish
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honestly this entire account is just a circus and you are the captive audience
#★ ˎˊ˗ melonrambles!#in a silly#funky#perhaps#EVEN#BONKERS#mood rn#!!#thats pretty crazy if yo uask me#idk about you but thats pretty goofy wild#hUH uh shUCkS#dododoodododooooooooooo YeaAHhHhHhhHHhhHhhHHhhhhhhhH#jammin vibin and most possibly rIpPlIng#dont ask me what that even means#im trying to use synonoyms and they are not working well#head - on fire#brain - melted#current statis - emminent crisis#i was going to say “HEY THAT RHYMES” but it doesnt#im just a fool#OIDSJSLK:DG#okay this mightve reached the tag limit or whatever so uhmalksdf#.v
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Thinking about tadc sidequests lore again.
#{ pinky screeches; occ }#(( Self indulgent time but for reasons i will not be tagging people probably anymore))#(( Credit always and every time but taggging? noooo ))#(( im about to get so uncanon and silly and i doubt anyones gonna reallt be vibin with that so im just gonna use the proper tags ))#(( and the same goes to other aus probably. ))#(( i mean they all already know what i do and can promply ignore me/find my stuff anyways ))#(( But IM FEELING SHY AGAIN ))#(( Im pretty sure tho snuffydoo would be the only one i tag confidently again because they like everything and honestly power to them ))#(( And mayyybeeee sm baby ))#(( Because. i feel like they simply dont care sksks ))#(( like they have a 'your doing amazing sweetie' Aunt vibe ))#(( Oh yeah and Rabid. idk how they feel about me as i dont talk to them ever but we do acknowledge eachothers existences. so maybe. ))
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In my...✨ depression bed ✨ phase <3
#vent#oho five hours babeeee hungry AND hot AND depressed?? what is this?? my birthday?#hahaha yeaap. it’s cool it’s cool I’m chillin#just vibin. head feels. weird. but I don’t entirely know what up with that it could be a few things if I’m being honest lol#hmmgf when was the last time I just. laid here this often?#laid? layd? layed?? whatever lol#hmm I found a fuckin uhh. vent diagram thing that showed BPD ASHD and Autism and their specific traits and overlaps#is uh. uhm. too close!! like sir!! who gave you!! permission!!!!#oofy anyways uhmmmmmm. realized that I!! don’t interact with people!! as much as I did when I was younger!!#like I had my classmates. my friends. my family. the ppl on tumblr and stuff. yknow#I was talking to someone and shit like!! every day!! for multiple hours!! a day!!!!#now it’s like. wow boy howdy. what are the chances I y’all for more than an hour with LITERALLY ANYONE today :)#uhhghgh gross ew ew nasty. I totally. don’t care that I’m not getting my enrichment#I’ll jus read tags on my art and look through old messages in place of actually. talking to anyone#mmm. conversations hard. hate talking about myself. don’t know anything besides myself. hate certain topics (but won’t say anything bout it)#anndd yeaa!! I don’t understand ppl and their motives and why they like me specifically. I put on my best personality for youu#I’m playing off of you and mirroring how you act so you’ll be ok with me <3 but that’s ok I suppose. I don’t think anyone here is out for my#guys so I’m doing good at least somewhat lol. ahmm. you ever not care about being something special to someone else. and then they kindaa.#squash that idea? and in theory you shouldn’t care since you didn’t want it in the first place but. them saying it hits? different? like oou#oh and question I don’t expect anyone to answer. you ever cried cus. someone aid you were their friend? best friend specifically? idk man#2 ppl have said I’m their best friend an I had to literally force myself not to get emotional at the first one and then I legitimately cried#with the second one LMAO like. how ridiculous is that yea? yeah#it’s. yeah. I’ve called ppl my bffs or whatever before but. it’s different when someone says it to you first ig. before I think they only#gave me the label out of convenience. not that we weren’t actually friends (at least I hope we were DHHDV) but. idk!! I literally yearned#for like!! basic shiittt!! I got put in time out like beginning of kindergarten cus I cried over my 1st best friend partnering with a new#girl instead of me!!! 😭 woof. that was the ONLY time I ever cried in public EVER. didn’t matter how many time I got hurt physically or#emotionally or how stressed I got or how confused or embarrassed and humiliated I was!! I’m NEVER letting people look at me like I’m stupid#for caring EVER. AGAIN. woof ok getting off the rails here I was like at least sort of ok when I started writing this but now I’m very much#NOT lololol so uhhhhhhhhhhh. anyways. let you get back to scrolling or swiping or whatever. I’ll be finnee totally. just. here
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#mushy fluff au#beartrap#the yellow-ish purple-y au ship of choice yay fun#dumb shipname maybe but I used it back in 2016 so I'll stick to it bc ye#my au is wonky af and makes no sense but idk not gonna rant about it atm am just having fun bro#pose is dumb and lots of stuff looking off probably and lots obviously cut off bc too much effort so looks weird and lazy but eh just vibin#maybe still cute maybe not it's whatever ha#enjoy or don't#whatever floats your boat#fnaf au#fnaf au shipping#five nights at freddy's au#nightmare fredbear#springtrap#I draw what I want#now to draw some proper fronnie of some kind maybe or something like that or perhaps bombeep idk we'll see
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Idk what they put in this but I am GROOVIN
#it’s the timing for a cha-cha or samba#but I just like gettin down to it#idk what is in this song but I am vibin at 1am for no reason#lc screams#I LIED ITS JUST A CHA-CHA#mackey and kenta
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RUSSELL TRINGHAM KINNIE 🫵🫵🫵🫵
*also pointing in a mirror bc me the fuck too*
uh oh!! ive been spotted!! run away!!
#no but idk what happened the russell tringham kinnie thoughts have always been in my brain since i first watched 03 FMA.#mans influenced so much of my life lmao. idk how but. he really wormed his way into not only my brain but my mannerisms too lmaoo#we're both just vibin huh? vibin in our tringham kinnie-ness ..kinnie nature? idk..#us russell tringham lovers gotta stick together
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i just want a drama series w akina and ryuj.i investing sada.ko's murders and akina calling her a bitch every five seconds .
#keeping up w the horror hoes .#this is what i want .#cjjddbkspwoqnsjs#i aint vibin again but maybe it's just that time of the month idk hehe#ooc.
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Why are the vampire chronicle people getting so worked up over nothing. Is it just a hostile fandom?
thats what im wondering hahaha i literally havent talked to anybody from the vc fandom before, im just like rambling to myself over here and then getting weird anons about stuff i say that i dont even mean to be negative
EDIT: I just realized both times it happened after i commented jokey tags on one particular blogger's gifsets, so im going to do us both a favour and delete those reblogs and then block them so i won't see their posts anymore (it was probably them sending me the anons! and if so perhaps i was directly bugging them sort of after all! oops)
#like im def not trying to bug people haha im just vibin#and i would not even be putting any fandom tags on my own ramblings if i wasnt also trying to tag for spoilers#i still cant really tell what the vc fandom here is like rly other than#a lot of the decent analysis seems to be from ppl who really have sincere crushes on the characters and actors and defend them hardcore#and idk if im actually attracted enough to any of the vampires to fit in with that vibe#p#vmpcs
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It was supposed to rain today lol
#sometimes it’s nice when the weatherman is wrong#I’m back where I was hiking yesterday but for a picnic instead#vibin in the sunshine c:#shoutout to the group of hikers who just walked past who were apparently here for the first time#and arguing that ‘no if there were bears here they’d have to post a sign’#my dudes#I ran into a mother bear with a cub last summer hiking here 😂#my husband’s work borders the nature reserve and he’s seen bears here before too lol#it’s PA there are bears everywhere idk what to tell you XD
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