#idk what i’m doing anymore PFFF

[liberolover24]

jshdgdggd it’s been 8 months but i finally redownloaded tumblr lmao

[petrovouho]

got tagged by @komplikacije in a question game, thank youu 💜

had fun and wrote a lot so i will shorten the post hahah

do you make your bed: absolutely not and people who do.... something wrong with them, also kinda unsanitary, you should let your sheets get some air and sun to disinfect

what’s your favorite number: 8 i don’t remember all reasons but through my life it just feels like the number was always following me in some way and the main trigger was when i was 8th on an entrance exam for college and i was soooo happy because i really wanted to study architecture and it was the only college that i put on my list (kinda stupid decision now that i look back lol) but it felt like everything just clicked

current job: none

if you could go back to school, would you: i would in a sense that now that i’m older i value knowledge a lot more and i can actually understand the importance of some things that we learned in school, not that i didn’t back then, i was always a great student, but now im able to understand it on a deeper level and connect with other things i know but i don’t really have the time and energy to go through it again.. but i wouldn’t like to go back in a sense of that period of time in my life and the people in school and stuff like that

can you parallel park: i can’t drive, and i don’t think i’ll be good at it either

a job you had that would surprise people: never worked a day in my life… i did some dance gigs at festivals and promotions and those type of events but the money would not go to us but our dance studio. and when i was i child i was always trying to sell shells to tourists and one time my drawings…

do you think aliens are real: could be idk, i don’t really see the point in thinking too much about things that i don’t know a lot about or that we just can’t find out so it never makes sense to me when people who also don’t have some knowledge on space and biology, in this case, have an opinion on it. like it’s cool if you’re trying to understand something and come to the conclusion but i feel like today too many people have opinion on everything and know nothing

can you drive a manual car: no

guilty pleasure: things that i feel guilty about are not pleasurable and things that i find pleasurable i don’t feel guilty about

tattoos: they are very cool and i always thought that i’ll have a bunch but as im getting older i’m not sure anymore hahah i think i’d feel super weird if i had something on my skin permanently.. still like them a lot tho

favorite colour: purple, green and blue

favorite music genre: i guess like indie/rock/punk/rnb/jazz/reggae, not too much of anything hahah but i listen to pretty much everything

do you like puzzles: i don’t remember when was a last time i did one but i do like them

phobias: i don’t have some specific fear but lately i’ve been a bit paranoid that i will pass out when i’m in my room alone and no one will know and be able to help

favorite childhood sport: i never was a sports person but i did go to rhythmic gymnastics as a kid and then in elementary school i started jazz dance and been doing it until last two years, idk if dance counts hahah but yeah i’ve always been physically active

do you talk to yourself: i don’t really think of it as talking to myself hahah more like sometimes my thoughts just come through my mouth when i’m alone or like i will have an inner monolouge sometimes but that’s not talking to myself? i guess idk hahah it’s not like my brain is silent if i’m alone

favorite movies: i don’t really have favourite movies, i do watch movies like dirty dancing, grease, pretty in pink, the breakfast club when i need something comforting because it’s something i watched a lot when i was younger

coffee or tea: i like both but maybe tea since coffee tends to make me nervous

first thing you wanted to be when you grew up: pfff i think a painter or a teacher ohh i just remembered hahahah actually i wanted to be “an adventurer” lmao like some type of explorer that has to do with nature and history and wears that khaki shirt and cargos outfit with boots and a hat

i tag: @midnightpulses @kontra-svijeta @valovita @nismo-na-filmu-zaboga @blu27nature if they want to do it :))

[rawbins-undertale-blog]

hey there again!!!

might i slide in this fine ask box with another HC request?

if yes, then could you please write some HCs where uf and ht sanses and papyruses (seperate of course) s/o gets put in a hospital for a lil bit? you can decide what happened to s/o. maybe a bad heatstroke cuz its summer or something (totally not because its a bad heatwave where im living rn haha nope). idk, i just crave angst or hurt/comfort again from my fave skeletons.

if you're not up for this, its totally fine!!

thank you, have a chill day/night B)

- 🌌 anon whos sunburns arent stinging that much anymore B)

*Evil cackling* OH-HO-HO, yOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MONSTER YOU HAVE UNLEASHED…… I am an evil being who feeds off of angst and pain, and you’ve given me ample opportunity to make some of that sweet sweet angst >:-)))))))))

I tried to keep it ambiguous as to what you’re in for, mostly because I want you to be able to imagine heatstroke and me to be able to think “hahahah stab stab”! ^^

Also!!! The healthcare system in some other countries is fucking insane (like??? You guys have to pay to not die??????) so I’ll be going off of what I know about the healthcare system in Sweden where it’s free. (At least I’m 99% sure it’s free, except for like. Small things. For example, my antidepressants. I had to buy those myself when I was still on them.)

UF + HT BROS WHEN S/O IS IN THE HOSPITAL

Red (Underfell Sans):

He’s panicking so so bad, he’s terrified. What if you die?

Curses out anybody who tries to keep him from you, including the poor nurse who’s just doing their job

Actually he just. curses in general. He’s just spewing cuss words to seem angry instead of scared because That’s Definitely Better

Most likely out of all four to physically lash out at… well, anybody (except you obviously) lol

Red hates hospitals too, to make matters worse. He doesn’t know why, but they make him feel uncomfortable.

If somebody did this to you purposely and he’s not allowed by your side, he’s going out to find the person and kick their ass during that time lol

If nobody did this to you, he’s pacing and cursing and jfc Red, you do realise there are other people here right enjdjdjdjsjsk

This fucker tries to pull a “pfff nah i was never worried” but like. Red. Darling. Light of my life. Stars in my sky. Center of my universe. Bitch of my heart. Everyone can see right through your “anger” and literally your shaking voice is so not convincing. Get a better poker face and voice.

With some prodding, admits that finehewasscaredyou’ddieandhethoughthisheartstoppedforasecondwhichisweird’causehedoes’tevenhaveaheartanywaysthat’sovernowsowhocares

(He’s not great at expressing himself but it’s still progress)

WILL be staying right by you as you recover. You’ve no choice. (You do actually, he respects you and will back off if you tell him to)

Edge (Underfell Papyrus):

Oh no. Oh no.

Edge is trying his very best not to show any emotions but he’s not good at it because like. It doesn’t take a genius to see that him screeching angrily at people and demanding for the doctors to fix this is actually him poorly masking his fear. Edge doesn’t have the best poker face lol

He’s so pissed if he can’t stay right next to you the whole time. You’re his S/O!! What kind of bullshit is this?!

If you do need to be left alone with doctors and such things, Edge will do one or two things depending on why you're in the hospital, how bad what you’re in for is and for how long he can’t see you.

If you’re here for something like heatstroke - AKA something not brought on by somebody else - he’ll call friends and such while pacing and somewhat frantically share your current condition.

However, if anybody did this to you; and you’re in bad shape… Well, even fucking Satan will cower at the brutality of Edge’s revenge.

When he’s allowed to be, he’s by your side and - depending on why you’re in and for what - he might nag you for being careless, reassure you it wasn’t your fault, reassure you in general, and/or just stay silent.

It’s barely noticeable, but just noticeable enough, that you can tell that he’s shaking.

All it takes is a “are you okay?” For him to break and confess how scared he was.

For a moment he was back Underground and it was horrible and he felt so powerless and he hates that. He’s so, so happy you’re okay and he- he swears he’ll be with you on your way to recovery. Please just never get hurt again.

Dusk (Horrortale Sans):

If you thought Red and Edge were scared, just know it’s nothing compared to the absolute terror he feels.

Dusk knows how fragile the human body can  be. He’s seen horrific things happen to humans and monsters alike and he’s always hyper-aware of just how easy it’d be to kill and/or hurt you.

Logically, he knows you won’t die, he knows human anatomy well enough to know this is something you’ll bounce back from, but his instincts are going haywire and all he can think of are the mangled corpses back Underground. It doesn’t matter whether your condition has anything to do with broken limbs or not, because those pictures are what his mind is forcing onto him.

He refuses to leave your side. If he’s forced away from you by nurses/doctors/staff, he’ll protest but if he really can’t be by you for your safety, he’ll be anxiously hovering as close by as he possibly can. Whenever he’s allowed to touch you, he’s practically glued onto you.

If he’s sure it’s just the two of you, and you’re unconscious, he’ll probably cry.

He… He hates being reminded of your mortality. He hates the idea that any day could be your last. He doesn’t know what he’d do if you were gone.

(He’d dust, probably.)

If somebody else got your purposely hurt, he’s going to hunt them down after a while (after you’ve recovered enough for him to be comfortable leaving you alone for a bit). He’s not going to kill them, but he might rough them up a bit -- but most likely, he’ll just intimidate them and/or threaten them. (It’d be a different story if you were murdered.)

Whenever you’re conscious, he’ll do pretty much anything you say, so long as it won’t get you anymore hurt or risk stunting your recovery.

When you’re released from the hospital, he’ll be by your side nearly 24/7 because he hates the idea of you getting hurt again just because he wasn’t there to protect you.

Aster (Horrortale Papyrus):

Tries to look calm and composed, but he does about as poor of a job as his brother. He does better in that he doesn’t act out or get in the way of the nurses, but he’s also crying and shaking and sobbing and can’t stop.

You getting injured triggers him pretty badly. If you’re not bleeding, it’ll probably be “only” a bad anxiety attack, but if there’s any blood involved it’s escalating into a full-blown panic attack.

He’s a nurse himself, but I doubt he’d be allowed to work with the other nurses when it comes to you because of how unsteady he is. He’s not sure whether he’s thankful for it or not, because he doesn’t trust himself to do a good job but he also wants to be there for you. He trusts his colleagues, but it’s still nerve-wracking.

Just like the others, he’s glued to your side when he’s allowed to be. Very metaphorically. He’s the best of them all at giving you space, partially because he’s just more respectful lol and partially because he’s a nurse so he knows not to smother you with physical affection until you’re in the clear.

If somebody caused you to go into this state, he will just like Dusk go and find them. He won’t do anything physical, but he does intimidate the person very effectively. He’s a terrifying giant and he knows how to use that to his advantage.

When you’re fine again, he’ll be acting anxious and protective for a while. He feels really guilty about it (because he should be comforting you - plus, he’s a nurse! He’s seen way worse things on his job) but you’ll have to give him comfort. This whole thing didn’t inspire much positive feelings in him and it stressed him out a lot, it may honestly take more of a toll on him than it does you.

[ratsoh-writes]

Pfff and yeye

I dont use really cool type of rp with characters

I really just say

"Arian: hey bro, u suck pp *she shows the middle finger*"

And when me is talking i use the first person in between this ** things

Pff nice. I’m still deciding if I should keep rats as just a side employee character or scrap her completely. Idk what to do with her anymore

[chellestrash]

Okay, I've just watched new Uncharted movie trailer and I feel like I'm having a stroke, had to pop in to ask if you saw that and what do you think, especially about that Sam part 🙈

(Literally the first thought was - oh god, I wonder what was Chelle's reaction)

(Also - hiii!)

HIIIII HUN HI!! i’ve missed you!! good to see you here!! also it’s so fun to see an ask i dont get them a lot anymore PFFFF ANYWAY

jesus christ listen! i feel like the way you described it “i feel like i’m having a stroke”? yeah, fucking same. i dont…understand who let them hurt the games and the story this fucking bad? honestly? it’s gonna be terrible, it already looks terrible and not only the cgi but the dialogues feel awkward and the story like why did they…pick stuff form two different games and then…the sam part? idk like is he…dead?? it’s it gonna be like in the game or?? i just hun i like literally have no idea KSHSJS OH! you know what’s the worst tho? the casting. i said this to my friend it feels like they made a list of the best candidates and then flipped it upside down and chose those people.

like to me? it genuinely doesn’t feel like uncharted, you know? everything about it feels just…off PFFF

…but yeah what did you think about it all?? PFFF i wanna know!

[ah-ga-seven]

yknow i’m always here. it’s 12am for me and it took me a hot second to finish the finale but OMG. i feel like everything wrapped up so nicely. like when i read till the end of summer, now i don’t know what to do. like i don’t have much to look forward to on here now that sneaky link over smh. but i just love yeonjun and y/n’s dynamic even tho it is messy asl. like when she was trying to figure everything out w juyeon that really stuck with me. as i was reading it, i couldn’t help but feel like it wasn’t that anything was wrong w y/n for not being that “satisfied” with juyeon. i felt like it was more like with him it was easy. like everything kind of came and went with him. but w yeonjun, it was like there was more to fight for that made it all worth it in the end. like he brought a fire to the relationship and juyeon he brought ice, yknow?

take a shot for every time i say like.

i’ll always be here to support u ahga! from till the end of summer to sneaky link to literally anything. love u to the moon and back!

!!SPOILERS AHEAD!!

LMAO you ARE always here, it's insane.

Yes, well...18,5k is...a fucking endless scroll. Awh thanks and SAME now that it's finished after such a long time im like...ok...so...now what. PFFF lmao, that's so dramatic but I get it i feel like not that many people are writing for Yeonjun anymore...I wonder why.

Yes...its unfair and messy but that's literally how this whole story started and I wanted to keep the toxicity alive somehow idk if that makes sense. Ofc it's not wrong to realize you don't belong with someone no matter how much you've grown to love them but yk....cheating... fhgkfdhgdkh even though I write "romantically" its incredibly wrong and we shouldn't normalize that behaviour. So in a way, Juyeon was always too good for y/n. Cause she's lowkey trash for making the same mistakes even though she knows what it feels like to be the other woman. Even though Yeonjun and y/n developed themselves individually, they didn't really change and that's why they're perfect for each other and no one else.

Yeah, I always explained her relationship with Juyeon to be a safe bet. It was good but not what she craved and having her soulmate bond with Yeonjun to compare him with...it just didn't help when Yeonjun eventually returned because being with him reminded her that he was always going to be the one.

DAMN. ok that was a mouth full, but yk, it needed to be said.

Thank you so much for being so constant and sweet throughout the series. It means a lot 🥺🥺 love you too bby💙💙💙

[stray-tori]

TPN S02E10+E11 Initial Thoughts (anime-only)

Sorry for posting this so late (it was finished in my drafts for like a month why did I NOT POST???). since i dont have a lot to say for either, I’ll combine ep10 and ep11 into one post.

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Season Thoughts overall

Overall: not a lot of hype or feelings. I don’t really want to say I don’t care but I was more invested in singular elements than actually seeing it unravel in front of me. I personally like that better than hating it (which I’m glad I don’t particularly feel betrayed or anything), though I guess based on the angle you could argue that anger often comes from a place of caring in those situations so-- maybe it’s a bad sign, but either way, I prefer it this way. the time when it was just stressful hurt.

Though it also hurts to know it’s truly over now (well, there’s the manga, but knowing that I waited for... little payoff haha) -- especially when they kind of teased how it could continue. I respect wanting to wrap it up but tbh just cutting it when they stay behind would have done it too pff-

maybe this will change upon rewatch but for now, here’s my “hype”/investment chart for tpn over the weeks:

I don’t want to call it “quality” because I’m not sure I’m being fair to that at all. I can tell its faults and at this point, I don’t care that much, but that is how I felt each week. active discontent is worse than being neutral for me.

I do think a 12th episode would have help not rush the Ratri exposition as much and maybe have some more of a through line to their quest. Even if it's more slideshow i would have liked a bit more context personally.

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EPISODE 10

that was truly a doctor stone moment where they just built something super impressive (the balloons) out of.... somewhat nowhere haha.

I'm so glad Vincent stuff was just a classic CW cliffhanger-force pfff- I mean why it exists is questionable but I’m glad they didn’t force a conflict into it so late.

Mujika and Sonju went brrr on converting all those civillians haha

Will Emma ever get an epic action shot again, probably not.

Week 4 of wondering if the hideout Cislo or Vincent referenced will come back. at this point probably not but I guess if everyone is basically on their side already, they have the time to go collect every human in the world. [future tori: sadly the show did not] - or Mujika may help collect other humans and bring them to safety! I think I would have preferred a grey ending a la "we go over but who knows what happens" there but I'm still curious how it'll pan out specifically.

When Emma spoke to everyone over the farm speakers I was big emotional--

Somehow all the moms are instantly on their side despite being brainwashed all their lives? I guess maybe Isabella planted the seeds all this time and that’s the implication. It fell a little flat though

Also it implies that the sister/mom that urged Phil to get ready actually knew of the plan right? WHY IS EVERYONE SO OMINOUS pfff-

MICHELLE THOUGH!!! Its herrrrr. that’s a nice nod.

i liked how the tunnels of Sonju and Mujika came back around plot-wise :)

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EPISODE 11

they didnt forget the kids from the mass production farms hazahhh (?) :D

it is kind of hard to unthink that none of the GF kids have reacted to Norman being alive lmao

i would have accepted a cut after the gate closed too tbh, but on the other hand it was rly nice to see the kids in the human world and see some of the frames of the demon world quest

in particular the one on water because it's also in the ratri exposition so I like that it's not completely random.

it is however very random and while I love to put some pieces together myself, I feel like there’s WAY TOO LESS to go off of in this case.

If you're gonna do a charlotte at least give them the 12th episode to work with but oh well

I feel like they could have done the slideshow over the ending but I guess saving effort wherever possible is a goal here sadly.

it's just.... the minimal runtime really hurts it - like a lot of it isn’t downright bad but it’s just so short-lived that it falls flat

as someone who's written very time-jumpy stuff too, I also sympathize because it's kind of hard to do a quick time "overview" right without just throwing in random moments.

I don't mind the slideshow for the exposition, it had a nice astethic and I don't have anything against it inherently bc you can't really quickly show moments after each other if it's not still images. like if its animated its kinda jarring bc stuff moves and its also just on screen for a short moment so i personally dont have anything against the slideshow itself

I do like the general ideas and concepts but it just felt like "okay that happened"

Because it feels like they are building on something with like that standing on water creature in the Ratri exposition and then in the time skip frames, but stuff around a lot of it and other things are just missing and that's why it falls kind of flat. Idk if that made sense. I'm not really angry or upset anymore, which I'm glad about. The elements i like i like and that's that. Though of course. I'll miss the anime. Even the mess of s2 haha because it still had those elements and I could see how it could have worked. Episode 9 however was insulting pff.

I would have also liked some info about how and where they live now tbh 

like that weird on water dragon and the demon in front of it appearing during the ratri expostion and then with Emma - maybe he's like..... the promise manager? "hello we would like to apply for a promise slot. thank you"

it's funny they were fine in the human world immediately when it was set up as "maybe unwelcome". and where did they even get out?? is there just a big ass gate at the ocean haha

I guess the gate just stays open and they can visit Mujika and Sonju from time to time or something? :D Or did they close it? NOBODY KNOWS bc everything is vague

The last episode (ep10) left me wanting nothing.

This episode at least left me wanting more. More of their quest getting all the children. More of the trio in the human world. Just more... And I think that’s better than not caring at all.

[butididnottried]

Legend of Korra season 2

Episode 11

Boo, boo i say.

With every episode i'm just more and more annoyed by how this story goes, how characters behave and what plans they have. I can't even to pinpoint what excatly it it, it's just overall. But it was growing and cumulating from almost the start. And i really liked this season at the beginning.

And also, i have a break between episodes and when i started to watch lok again and plot get back to The Republic City i realized that i truly hate this place. It's not burning and vicious hate that prevent me from even watching and enjoying this show, i just hate it on "deep sigh and eyeroll in annoyance" level. I'm not sure if i even before hated a fictional place before, so at least that’s some new experience for me.

I'm pretty sure that Varrick was perfectly fine, funny and enjoyable when this show was airing for the first time, but now i'm watching this half-assed capitalist and i'm just sucking air through grinded teeth. Ok, he's still funny enough, thanks to his voice actor, but still. He take and innocent (?) woman with him to prison because he needs to have his maidservant (assisant, yeah, pfff) all the time. Wtf.

"Bolin, you're a doll but you're dumb as rocks you bend." I'm dead. Yeah girl, throw that right into his cute, dumb face.

The Fire Nation is the best at making red stuff. I'm again dead.

Aaaand Mako just get advantage on Korras memory loss. Riiight.

Episode 12

Ok, i didn't had problems with this whole "The Dark Avatar" idea, but when Unalaq said it out loud it really sounds stupid. But wait, Wan learned all four elements before he permanently fused with Raava, so how Unalaq, only waterbender, is going to be stronger than Korra? Even with Vaatu he shouldn't have much chances. Aaaand. I know that at the end Korra is going to leave both portals open, so at some point she's going to agree with her uncle than Wan did a mistake when he closed them and separated both worlds. I wan't this to be uphold with some good arguments (ehehehe riiight...).

Let Bumi speak and listen to him for once. And let him be serious. He was admiral - or whatever - in the united forces for years and he's experienced warrior. Cooome ooon!

Oh no, Korra and the rest are in shackles. Guess a little metalbending would be very in favour, huh?

And can Boiln shut up about Varrick. Ok, i get it, you both we're buddies, but baby, put your priorites in the right order. You don't care at all that he was warmonger?

I want' all this to be over. Just give me some fancy and oooh and aaah bending battle. Right now i do not expext nothing more really. :/

Episode 13

Bumi is scared of cannibals. It's such a white bullshit, but holy shit, they got cannibals in this world? What? Where? And Kyas greatest fear is that she dosen't have family and bounds to anyone? What's going on? Oh, look, it's general Zhao. He was there for whole 70 or 80 years, slowly losing his mind and obsessing over Aang. How tragic... Nooot. He was supposed to be dead. Giant water spirit fish fuckin killed him and that was tragic. Go away with that spirit prison for mortals bullshit. ):<

Bolin emotionally manipulated Eska using his great acting skills. But not really. Sooo... ???

Hey, Mako, i guess that shooting lightning at people is probably seeing as unethical in your world, but you're trying to help to save said world, so maybe you could zap a little these twins, huh? No? Ok.

Ok, i must say that scene in where Unalaq was beating up Raava and all past avatars we're vanishing was pretty good. But then he turned into kaiju of darkness... :/ And i don't really get this whole fight between Vaatu and Raava. When Raava wins it’s ok, world is as it was, no changes, like she's having no influence over nothing. But when Vaatu wins he brings darkness and can actually do things. Like... that's not really how balance works? Unless it's about how Raava is the good one because she don't choose to use her great powers of light. Idk.

Episode 14

I just realized that Kya got her name after Kataras mom. Bravo me.

Gosh, this finale was a rollercoaster of good and bad.

The Republic City is in danger and i don't care at all. They brought Dante Basco back for two lines, bad. Laser beams, fuck yeah, why the fuck not, fuck it, bad. Korra is very strong without Raava and can go spiritually apeshit without her, very good. Giant kaiju spirit fight, eeeh could be better. Jinora is doing a... thing, eeeh. Vaatu is spiritbended out of existence, whaaat. He need still to be somewhere. Just ??? Korra lost connection with her past lives. Good. Bold move. Does this also mean that the avatar cycle is broken? When Korra dies the next one is not going to be born? But as i understand this, this whole reincarnation thing was on Raava side, she decided to do that. Well, yeah... that changes everyfukinthing so ok, good for you show, to pulling this off. And she decided to leave the portals open because reasons. Idk. Maybe Unalaq was righ. Because. Reasons. She has no avatar authority no more because. And she can't be the bridge anymore. Because she still is a fusion of human and spirit and that dosen't mean anything anymore. Humans need to resolve this whole new situation on their own. Because Korra made that decision for a whole world while thinking that she is in no position to holding any power over these two worlds. What.

Sooo... Southern water tribe is going to be fully independant from now on. Ooookaaayyy??? It's wasn't before???

But Korra broke up with Mako for good. GOOD.

After all, this season wasn't as bad as internet is making it to be. It started better as is ended, but it's not trash fire or disaster.

[seeliecraft]

Hey heyyyy! I’ve got internet back tentatively so here’s a questions meme thing

1. Nickname: Avalon or Momo 2. Zodiac: Gemini Sun, Capricorn moon, Cancer Ascendant~ 3. Height: 165cm 4. Last Thing Searched: Recipes for miso-based marinades pfff 5. Favorite Musicians: Kerli, AURORA, Of Monsters and Men, In Love with a Ghost, Halsey, Cecile Corbel, 2NE1/CL, MARINA [and the Diamonds] 6. Song Stuck in Head: Don't Starve Together's main menu theme 7. If you had a time machine, would you go back in time or visit the future? Oh no both of those are bad ideas but maybe I could've seen the Library of Alexandria 8. Do I Get Asks: sometimes but I'm really bad at seeing them and remembering to answer ;; I'm sorry friends 9. Following: 245 10. Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich so that I'm not in debt anymore and can treat my friends to everything in the world because they save my life 11. Amount of Sleep: 10-16 hours at least for my narcoleptic ass, either over the course of a day with naps or all at once lol 12. Lucky Number: 16 and 24! 13. What I’m Wearing: pajamas and a big fluffy robe. It's finally getting cold out 14. Dream Job: Zookeeper or the lead/owner of a costume/creature/character design studio 15. Dream Trip: Back to Japan, or a road trip across the USA and up the west coast with my eventual fiancee! if I'm not forever single lmao 16. If you were an animal, what would you be? A sleepy housecat or a smol bird. like a sparrow 17. Favorite Food: Pastries (too many to list! but especially croissants, macarons, petit fours, tiramisu), fried tofu, rice pudding, vegetable soup in a bread bowl, edible flowers, cherry cordials, fresh peaches, wild blackberries <3 18.What are some of your favorite books/films/shows/games/etc?

Books: Stuff by Terry Pratchett, Victorian horror novels, The Kingkiller Chronicles, the Last Unicorn, idk lots of fantasy? Movies: Lord of the Rings/the Hobbit bc aesthetic, too many musicals, Coraline, older fantasy movies like the Dark Crystal and Neverending Story, Studio Ghibli films Shows: Ghost hunting shows, Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell, silly animes, um...I don't watch many shows lol Games: I'm always a slut for sandbox RPGs

19. Play Any Instruments: Piano! I haven't practiced in forever so I can't remember any songs very well but I can still read the music lol. One day soon I’ll start violin 20. Language(s): English, a good bit of French, a teeny bit of Japanese 21. Describe Yourself as Aesthetics: Iridescence, fireflies in the woods, falling asleep in the sun, pointed ears, wildflowers and overgrown gardens, shiny fabric scraps, windy days at the beach, drinking tea in comfortable silence on a rainy day, DnD dice made of gemstones, incomplete artdolls and scattered BJD parts

[janiedean]

What's the matter with the Jaime's redemption arc? I see that some GOT fans are against it and others want it so bad. I noticed that they spend a lot of time arguing and attacking each other...but why?

pfff anon you’re kicking the hornet’s nest but like, tldr:

people who don’t want jaime’s **redemption arc** (which imo isn’t even what you’d call proper redemption arc see link for in-depth rant) should actually be ‘people who decided jaime is the same person as cersei therefore inherently terrible therefore no way he can be a good person or have an happy ending’;

being ‘against it’ means ‘assuming against all textual evidence both in show and book that jaime is a Horrible Person And Will End Like His Sister And/Or Die A Villain;

the other side doesn’t want jaime’s redemption arc, the other side accepts what the text says because it’s not a question of wanting it or not, it’s that it’s textual that it’s where he’s been headed since he got chapters in the books (and I’d argue it was fairly guess-able before as well but nvm) and if at this point people are still arguing about whether jaime is a bad person or not and is on a redemption arc or not I honestly don’t even know what to tell them because he’s been on the quest to go back to the good person he always was/could be and that he didn’t become thanks to bad trauma managing openly since he got chapters, whether one *wants* it or not is irrelevant;

like guys I also really would have wanted for robb to not die or for a ship I don’t care for to not become canon, robb died and that ship is show canon, I’m not going around denying it’s a thing or whatever because both things happened, same as jaime going towards the good side/having the redemption arc for lack of better terms is a thing that’s happening;

about why: idk I mean I’ve had a lot of theorizing but my two cents are generally on:a) people can’t accept that a guy who started the series doing something fairly heinous can actually be a good person all things considered;b) people are working on the assumption that jaime = cersei which is a thing that is not canon whatsoever and at this point if they do idk what to say;c) people think that sarcasm = serious so they take all of j’s chapters seriously including the obvious sarcastic parts which would line with b^.

now: I personally have no interest in arguing with people about jaime’s redemption arc because I’ve been saying what I’ve been saying since 2011 and that’s it, but as far as I’m concerned I really am tired of people in general shoving under the rag 90% of his canon storyline, ignoring pretty much most of the canon-described issues he has, completely disregarding the fact that he has untreated ptsd/has been an abuse victim with in order at least his sister, his father and aerys being the perpetrators (not counting the fact that his entire rship with cersei is based on her having the upper hand always and him annulling himself for her but that’s totally healthy and 50/50 codependent… not really), blaming on him wrongdoings that belong to, er, HIS RELATIVES more than him (same as most people in the narrative do) and consistently refusing to recognize that his entire sl is about a) him realizing he can be the good person he always was/felt he was, b) finding his own way in life outside being defined by other people/thinking he doesn’t have a personality that’s not his sister’s, c) trying to be better and not giving up on it even if it’s not a neat path and he has setbacks same as everyone else.

like, it’s not that I hate that people don’t want him to have it nor that I want to argue about it because I’ve read the source material/seen the show and I like to think I don’t deny stuff that’s dangling in front of me (again: one show canon ship is a thing I really am not into and I never liked it, I’m not finding ten different ways to invalidate it I just accepted it was canon and whatever) so when he actually gets nice things and people recognize he’s nowhere near as terrible as they thought he was (in the narrative) I’ll just go like ‘well I’ve said that for ages’. my problem is that people willingly keep on ignoring the source text and twist it/ignore it/misinterpret it purposefully while keeping on denying that one of the main themes in jaime’s entire story is his complete lack of agency as 90% of his life went to shit because of stuff other people forced him to do/because he was forced into doing things he himself would have not wanted to do in the first place and you can’t go and discuss anything in it if you start from the premise that he actually had it all along, because he didn’t. and I find it intellectually dishonest as hell because then it goes back to victim blaming and ignoring that he has trauma because he’s apparently not a good enough victim to make the cut of people who suffered and so deserve a narrative reward, except that the narrative says the contrary, and people pretend it doesn’t.

and like, I’m personally tired af. but the matter with jaime’s so-called redemption is that it exists and some people have decided it doesn’t because if it does then they can’t say he’s the same person as his sister anymore and it doesn’t add up with a textual reading that has as many holes as leerdammer cheese if not more, and I’ve said everything I had to say. xD

[kastillia]

hi hi! @eunoshin asked me to talk about some of my three houses faves besides dimitri which is a crime btw so here we go!!

first things first! i played the blue lions route but i did end up recruiting everyone. however! i....recruited ferdie and leonie too late to support them but i have started my ng+ and have gotten their respective C supports so far so there’s that

at first glance, i really liked dimitri, felix, mercedes, bernadetta, linhardt, marianne, flayn and claude....

i still don’t think i know enough about claude but he’s good in my book

hey guess what i’m gonna talk about dimi anyway

DIMITRI..... god i. i love him so much. i knew he was gonna be a mess even before the timeskip portrait had been revealed but wow. he’s just. so sad. so much!! so often.... you better believe that i started flailing about every time he would comment on my smile and how he loved seeing me happy. and yes i was incredibly sad in those months after the timeskip where he would barely even speak to me (or anyone for that matter) and i absolutely cried when The Thing happened and he began to open up again and i was just so proud of him and i???? i’m on the floor dying still

felix....he’s a little shit. a big grump. but i love him all the same. when dimi was going through his phase i was so close to being like “you knoW WHAT DIMI MAYBE I’LL GO AFTER YOUR ASSHOLE CHILDHOOD FRIEND INSTEAD” but then i got his A support with flayn and whoops back to dimi. i think felix being voiced by lucien dodge made him score higher on my list fdkjfs but he’s a powerhouse and he was very helpful in battle even if he was a piece of shit to dimi and....many other people pfff also damn have you seen those eyelashes

mercedes....i liked her the moment i saw her portrait. i was like “oh she’s cute!!! even more reason to pick blue lions” and she did not disappoint! there was this one support with byleth where she mentioned how she could usually tell when someone was worried about something and i was like “damn is mercie me” pfff but she’s a very nice and very loving mother figure. also she totally throws lorenz into the sun with her burns and i love it

bernadetta....bernie, bernie, bernie....she’s such a mood....and so nervous....and her timeskip portrait is adorable!!! erica mendez did a very good job voicing her. i’m sad that she’s so nervous all the time and god her backstory makes me so mad but all the more reason to protect her....

linhardt....sleepy boy!!! also such a big mood!!! god i feel so attacked by almost everything he says fgdsjkfd i always had him helping with my missions bc i figured i needed another healer and it was always so amusing to me when he was like “ick...battle...” when you pick him and then the reluctant “i’m awake...” after the timeskip dskfbgdh also he’s very pretty...

marianne...i heard somewhere that you were only allowed to recruit two people outside of your house and when i heard that marianne was an immediate go to. she looks like berkut and rinea’s child!!! no i haven’t finished echoes yet and she looks so tired.... and then i finally talked to her and realized that she’s voiced by xanthe huynh and was immediately sold that’s my baby girl!!!! i’m going to protect her from everything!!!! i also....relate to a lot of things she says which is perhaps a bit worrying but wehh she’s so good....

flayn....do i really need to say anything. it’s flayn! she’s so good! so pure! so excited!!! i love her. and she’s so excited when you get Blessed By The Goddess and you now have similar hair/eye colours

claude....i don’t know much about claude on account of only playing blue lions but. he’s a pal. and he’s a pretty. i didn’t trust him at first thanks feh for introducing him as “the schemer” but....he is good.... i’m still playing blue lions for my ng+ but i invited him over for tea for his birthday and he’s very good

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as for those who ended up growing on me....

there’s sothis, dorothea, hilda, ferdinand, dedue, sylvain, seteth, cyril......rodrigue....

figures sothis is voiced by cassandra lee morris. there was a very palpable morgana aura with the way she was always scolding me fdhkdgf but damn....i....really wasn’t expecting her to be so kind and understanding after jeralt died...and i was actually starting to miss her after she granted us her power.....

now dorothea.... i hate her hat i’m sorry i think it looks so stupid and now that i’m on ng+ i’ve changed her appearance so i don’t have to see if as much fdhgfdf her C support with byleth made me very “no thanks” towards her character since she seemed very much like a gold digger but...she got better....as much as i....didn’t think it would happen pfff but i really appreciate how patient she was with bernie... but also a slight yikes at her supports with hanneman

HILDA...first impressions was that she was just a lazy bitch. i mean i should’ve known since claude was explicitly like she’s the definition of lazy but i really didn’t like how she seemed to just take advantage of everyone??? but her A support with byleth really hit home and it.....changed how i saw her. also her timeskip outfit is cute. also her supports with mari are cute.

from the small snippets of dialogue i had with ferdinand, i kinda got the impression that he was just another lorenz and also extremely annoying about being better than edelgard but....he’s a sweet boy...and he’s cute...he kinda looks like alucard after the timeskip but he’s still cute but boy is his father not

dedue is very much the stoic type. a very tall, awkward man with a hidden gentle side.... funny how he ticks off most of the criteria of exactly my type but idk i just didn’t see it at first fdhskjfds i do think one of the things that had the biggest impact was when he shows up on the bridge all those chapters later after dimitri had said that he had died. i mean i knew that he hadn’t actually died but i was still...very emotional at that point fdhsjkfd also i had tea with him the other day and one of the topics was “dimitri...” and i’m dead SAME DEDUE SAME

i’m sure i can’t be blamed for thinking that sylvain was the typical silver tongued noble who flirts with every girl he sees... and i was very quick to call him a jerk in that C support....but it’s...very understanding actually; his way of rebelling. his supports with mercie were surprisingly cute until the “crest babies” part dsfskj and that part when he said he wanted to kill me was...jarring, to say the least but...he’s been through a lot....he’s a good boy

SETETH. MY GOD. i was SO “oh god not this guy again” every time i saw him for like the first quarter of the game but then after we rescued flayn and he started being....y’know, not as “lady rhea why are you putting your trust in this STRANGER” he’s....very good. the brains of the whole monastery. everyone’s dad. and his blind overprotectiveness of flayn is really endearing as much as flayn doesn’t think so pfff

every time i saw cyril before the timeskip i was like “who is this sassy little kid” like damn he seemed so angry and unimpressed all the time. but, this may have been bc i didn’t focus too much on getting supports until after the timeskip, at least by then i was like “wow he actually doesn’t look like a baby anymore...” and also his bluntness was very amusing in his supports with hilda and manuela dfhskjfds

rodrigue....i....feel bad thinking that he was gonna be a bad guy.....i mean he...kinda looks the part.....and i thought maybe there was more to why felix hated him but......he really was just a genuinely good man...and i’m very grateful for all he did for dimitri especially after the timeskip......such a good man...

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there are...more characters i love.....maybe not my absolute favourites but.....i do like plenty of the cast

i guess i’ll probably have to play the other routes to find out more about their exact circumstances

but for now i’ll revel in my blue lions ng+

[deliicatexflower]

FIFTEEN QUESTIONS, FIFTEEN MUTUALS ( NOT CLICKBAIT!! )

① ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE ? it’s fucken lame, but my great aunt

② WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED ? lolol ... idk 2 weeks ago??

③ DO YOU HAVE KIDS ? nope

④ DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT ? Sarcasm? Don’t know her

⑤ WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE ? Their eyes, body language

⑥ WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOR ? blue/ green, sometimes grey

⑦ SCARY MOVIE OR HAPPY ENDING ? both, both is good

⑧ ANY SPECIAL TALENTS ? pfff no I’m boring as fuck

⑨ WHERE WERE YOU BORN ? murica

⑩ WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES ?  Writing, playing guitar, video games

⑪ DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS ? 3 dogs

⑫ WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED ? does karate count? I used to do that lol

⑬ HOW TALL ARE YOU ? 5 feet 3 inches

⑭ DREAM JOB ? a historian because I’m a nerd for that shit

⑮ FAVORITE SUBJECT AT SCHOOL ? I’m not in school anymore lol but my faves were art, history, biology, chemistry

Tagged by: @mind-the-muses

Tagging: @ofspaceandmyth @kissofthemuses @notyouraveragesecretary @katesgotabow @sassandsnapshots and anyone else who sees this and wants to do it!

[not-giving-up-on-shance]

a dream may not come true

ok I’ve been thinking how to fix and maybe make a 9 season of vld.

Ok here is the idea, first of all the last credits scenes at the end of season 8 are forgotten, none of that happened. (sorry Curtis :c I love you)

So vld crew it’s been flying and making alliances on the Atlas, but the vld team it’s been suffering from some weird dreams that involve into nightmares, at first no one acknowledges this, until one day Lance’s mark disappear.

The team is concerned what this mean. Until Pidge tells them there are some reports in the galaxy about some events, there are some disturbances in the realities, there are some rips in the realities that is affecting the planets.

After some investigation Pidge, Hunk and Coran come to the conclusion that someone, is trying to rip the realities again. More like There are two sides, this side of the realities Allura created (good side), and another side (the bad side), this one is trying to force their way and enter this realities, but what for? it’s not clear yet.

So know they are trying to think what they can do, and what is the relationship with the nightmares.

Seems that, at damaging the realities Allura created, it’s a danger for not only the universe, but for Allura and the lions, they are holding this damage but it seems they are loosing the battle and eventually once this bad creatures make their way throw the realities a huge disaster is going to happen in all the universe.

(I KNOW this has no sense, but pfff season 8 has no sense so fuck logic)

The atlas is attacked by some of this creatures, all their androids and beings resemble spiders or arachnids, with a color scheme with reds and greens.

So, because the evil creatures  are outnumbering the atlas it’s clear they are going to lose but.

It arrives a golden, silver and a white lion. And they defend and save the Atlas.

And team vld didn’t had ANY idea they existed, at all.

so they let this new lions enter the atlas, and through a smoke mist the new vld members approach to the old team.

The golden lion it’s a male pilot, 

The silver lion is a female pilot. 

And the white lion (and it’s a male lion) is a female pilot. 

Neither of them know each other, each lion came from a different reality an picked a pilot.

All of them are humans or some short of human from their reality, but I want to make a point neither of new trio is a soldier, they stumbled with the lions by almost accident and their lions took them to the atlas.

So this new team, has even more flaws in their interactions that the first voltron team. The golden and silver lion always fight, and the white lion (supposedly the leader) is so insecure and shy, she can’t stand the idea of commanding the others and being a leader (yes yes we already saw that in vld and millions of times but I’m just a person with an idea)

So where this lions came from?

Apparently, after Allura fixed the realities some short of residual energy from the lions took physical form, and after the lions saw they themselves and Allura are in danger transferred some of their powers to the new lions so they can help team voltron against the bad creatures.

So, because this lions are new, their powers are way more unstable, they need a stronger bond throw their pilots so they can form voltron, and not only that, they need the new lions to fix the big hole Allura and the lions are desperately trying to hold. It’s a matter of time this hole will explode and make a open gate this creatures enter and put on risk all the realities.

So Coran and the older team try to coach this new team, with new abilities, bonding. At some point it’s clear the new team it’s having more bonding problems so Coran roles them in a galactic tournament, where they can compete so they can finally work as a real team. 

And surprise! since the first team voltron is so beloved, no one likes this new team, once the new team enters the arena the crowd boo at them (”your colors are awful”, “you are not team voltron” “we want team voltron”) And of course all the other teams in the tournament pick on them and try to make them loose but at the end they win. (sorry it’s just I love when cartoons make tournaments like TLOK)

^^ I want to make here a pause, to add that, Shiro is having problems watching the transmission of the tournament, since the arena looks a lot like the galra arena he fought for years, and all the others original voltron team help him with his panic attack. Yes, the older team is still having consequences of their fight against the Galra and Honerva, and they comortf each other as friends and family.

So after all of this it seems the new team is ready to make the new step to try to fix the hole, Shiro and Keith gave lessons to the white lion pilot how to be a leader, so the lions fly to the point of the galaxy where Allura and the lions are.

There’s a big red light energy trapping the lions, and in the center there’s a white light tingling, the older team can feel it’s Allura struggling to contain this big hole, the new lions take a triangle formation, and with the help of the white energy ropes the white lion can produce they try to close and cover this hole. (it’s bigger than all season 7-8 plot holes haha, sorry) 

After some struggles they can close the gap, and there’s a white light, Allura identity floating?, they decide to take her back, since basically she’s not holding anymore the reality rupture, maybe they can bring her back??

So they take her energy, and put it in a capsule, basically she has no longer a physical body, so the only way to put her conscious back is to make a new body for her.

Ok, so now comes the oc time, I was thinking, maybe the white lion pilot is a made up human mixed with a ancient race, there was a time two alien species co-exist, some of them had so much energy and power eventually the others were envious and created a disease to kill the others and that was the end of this species, that was until a scientist decided to replicate their DNA to bring them back and that were the white lion pilot comes, she’s a half human half this ancient species, that’s how she can pilot the white lion, she has lots of energy. 

I’m a bit insecure about this, because I was thinking this scientist- “daughter” is a very toxic relationship, this scientist never let the white lion pilot (twenty is her name) to go out or to make anything that could put her in danger, she’s the only successful experiment to bring this species back, all the other perished eventually so that’s why they never let go out of the lab or basically have fun or enjoy something, it’s like a very unhealthy relationship, instead of father/mother - son, it’s more like scientist - object relationship. That’s why twenty took the white lion to escape, she wanted to know, to explore, to live beyond being trapped in a lab. 

^^ I don’t know I guess it’s too cringy >u<

But ok I don’t know what you think about this, like I think from here in my IMPOSSIBLE DREAM we could make a season 9 and 10 season, fix the things, explore the friends and family relationship.

And I mean it’s impossible, I never studied animation, but I think I will start a animation writer course in an animation school. (vld inspired me haha)

I think season 8 yes it was a bit disaster but the possibilities are not done to fix it, it would just take a bit more of patience and inspiration to fix things

I have more ideas, and I can draw everything, like the villian, the bad creatures soldiers, the new lion pilots.

And of course how the story will develop, how they make Alluras’ new body, how they meet the villain, the major conflict, etc

Dreams works please hear me, i may not have experience, I’m no one, but I’m full of ideas 

So if you guys want I draw or continue with this idea, idk comment, give it a note :) reblog.

[chellestrash]

I feel you, when I was close to graduation, I was just done with all that shit, like fed up to the point I didn't even care! I believe it is some sort of burning out! Just hang on there, try to get through it and think of it as a last step you need to do🤍🤍

That’s definitely what it feels like, a complete burnt-out. I don’t have the energy or will to do anything when it comes to my uni anymore, like I’ve decided to risk it and skip an assignment because i know i won’t do it and i’m putting off my presentations and finals prep i just feel like i can’t do it anymore.

i know it’s like the closest to the end i’ve ever been and i know that it’s only that little bit left, people keep telling me to just push through that little bit that’s left but i genuinely just don’t know if i can anymore, like i want to, of course, i do but it’s causing me so much stress, anxiety and like mental discomfort that i genuinely don’t know if it’s worth it.

sorry pfff i didn’t mean to get all negative here i’m just tired, i’m tired and the fact that i can’t do anything creative now until i graduate is it...idk it’s a lot for me pfff

thank you for the support hun, let’s just hope this whole thing just ends soon

[blaperile]

Homestuck Epilogues - Meat - Page 19 (Epilogue 4 Page 2)

[stray-tori]

An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness

I wasn’t sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?

So. “An Innocent Sin” is a dumpster fire unlike anything I’ve ever seen. I don’t remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)

ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.

And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a “gay” side couple, but still!)

And it destroyed me.

For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, it’s all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. There’s a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (It’s on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)

I don’t THINK you’ll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but it’s been a while.

Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))

(i’m serious, this is fucking long)

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Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff

This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive

What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again

Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever

I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay

This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd

He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist

Save my babyyyy

Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee

This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it

Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep

It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.

yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot

hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???

also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY

they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds

like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho

i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it

[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]

I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks

WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad

OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too

OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly

I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY

I'M :((((

different species confirmed

I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: she’s very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPP 

someone help him he looks so saddddd

not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT

AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft

PFFF

I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((

awww

i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together

OH OH THEY'RE KISSING

best buildup, honestly

the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute

D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed

i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow

Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this

hELP

chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao

[Noah was jealous]

w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs

oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever

DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha

okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION

They [Noah’s family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED

understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so

tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot

hooo

they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too

[current tori: oh girl, it’s neither and it’s wack]

which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy

on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THIS 

SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY

OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO

look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS

how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn

[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]

WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd

cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly

dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs

oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds

this is the best 3 panels in existence.

h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you

[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]

awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this

"well im not okay"

MY BABIESSSS 

they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd

[Dohye sees Noah’s sister and approaches her] N O

N OOOO

this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEE 

:((( babyyyy

I AM EMO

Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED

OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child

i am so emo about this

[reminder he’s been abused TvT]

[the sister: “Don’t you want to know why?”]

i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((

he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD

I AM SO SAD

No

NO

It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy

[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]

what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh

I’M

I’M SO SAD

now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god

I'M :((( 

NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO

N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE

Im. gonna cry more 

Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again

[mei: p-probably not, no]

i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha

BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo

[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]

OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING

its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((

[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee

and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE

I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE

im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much

[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]

dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit

[mei: THAT TOO]

[...]

tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character

i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that

pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet

[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]

yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho

[...]

i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots

[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]

okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace

ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing

[... removed some general confusion about the plot]

YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.

i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD

okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??

one good message 

why 

did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]

im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year

why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING

[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]

its an experience allright WELL

_______________

yup that’s it.

in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I won’t ask because it’d destroy the surprise and ruin the point.

That’s it.

Have a nice day.