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Man, I miss and hate my times in twitter rp
#i got an undyne nendroid today#well i bought it alongside a gift for my partner#and i just think about how weird it was..... being in an rp space again and an alter forming at the same time#both times it happened#idk what comes over me when i obsess at that level#NO THREE TIMES CAUSE GOOP AND SKYLAR#anyways it was weird being a 3k follower rp account and getting randomly#@'ed by wendys or some shit#at the same time i fucking hate thinking about it#even with skylar#what a bad fuckinf energy#mumbles#vent post
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after midnight pt 2 | carmen berzatto x reader
summary: you leave a surprise for carmen at work that lets him know he's been caught watching your content & the aftermath that follows. she/her pronouns used!
contents: perv!carmy, mentions of anxiety, mentions of filming sex tapes, dirty talk, fingering, hand job, oral f receiving, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, doesn't pull out (sorry he's possessive idk what to say). he also has this lil god complex over your other subscribers
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author notes: i had to cut a lil out bc otherwise this was getting lllooonngg. thank you for all the love on part one & i hope you enjoy this one too!! <33
part one
Carmen wonders what you think of this mysterious new account that keeps donating to you. Sending you small gifts. It's nothing too large - He's not trying to put himself into debt by any means. But it is his way of cosmically balancing the scale of viewing your content without you knowing.
Sometimes he lets his mind wonder and entertains the idea of filming with you. Letting all these losers who sit alone at night watching you get a glimpse of how good he could treat you. Your knees over his shoulders as he folds you in half, harsh and rough strokes pounding in and out of you. Sometimes you get smart with him - It's the nature of the kitchen. He thinks about you in that position whenever you pop off with some snarky remark. Pinned under him, two fingers in your mouth. "Put that pretty mouth to use for me. There you go, Baby." His fingers sliding in further, causing you to gag around them but you reach up to hold his wrist in place to let you know you're good.Â
Heâd fuck you until you canât think straight, a moaning mess against his fingers as youâre reduced to coming around his cock with no warning. Orgasm shaking through your body and Carmen would just keep fucking into your sensitive body until he canât take it anymore.
This becomes his new morning routine. Waking up 20 minutes earlier than he really needs to because he just knows heâll be hard from dreams of you. Itâs a bit of an obsession at this point in all honesty but he canât help himself. He pictures you laid out against his bed sheets, sleepy and grabbing at any inch of him that you can. Youâd just be able to relax and get fucked well to start the morning, heâd do all the work for the two of you.Â
Any mental space not occupied by the restaurant is fully dedicated to you.Â
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Carmenâs barely awake when he walks into the restaurant. His eyes still feel so heavy and there's a level of exhaustion that he just can't seem to shake in his bones. He's grunting acknowledgment at the team, doing a double take as he catches you grinning wickedly at the board in front of you. Thereâs a familiar pang of jealousy - Whatâs got you so entertained this year? He scoffs at his imaginary man heâs made up thatâs vying for your attention as he heads into the office to work on this weekâs orders.Â
Except heâs stopping dead in his tracks at the sight of lingerie he just sent you last week folded neatly in the center of the desk. His heart drops to the bottom pit of his stomach as he steps closer and sees a packing order next to the set - His name and address under the billing information circled in a bright neon pink Sharpie. Carmen knows for a fact that he double, triple checked that this was supposed to be a gift and for his information to be excluded so what the fuck happened?Â
Heâs throwing his jacket over the desk just in case someone walks in before he can take care of this situation but heâs got to get a handle on you first. Heâs embarrassed at getting caught. Imagining you must think the worst of him. Trying to justify it by at least he was sending you stuff, right? Cotton boy shorts he thought youâd look so delicate in and lacy pieces of barely there bodysuits he wanted to rip apart and leave stained with his cum.Â
He's storming over to you now, ignoring the way Richie called out his name to join him for a smoke break. You hear him mutter out a "Okay then, Cousin. I'll just go fuck myself." That Carmen doesn't even acknowledge. All his attention fully focused on you. His words are coming off harsh as his body tries to process all the different emotions coursing through his veins.
"We gotta fuckin' talk."
The words hang heavy in the air and you find yourself entertained with how assertive heâs being.Â
âWhyâs that?â Youâre looking up at him doe-eyed and innocent. Thereâs anxiety practically rolling off of Carmyâs body and youâre gonna get to soothing him in a minute but youâre letting him sweat it out first. You didnât mind that he saw your videos but you were a little pissed he didnât bring it up. Half because you could have been putting him knowing to use, half because it did feel a little taboo for your boss to be trying to anonymously send you lingerie.Â
âNah, donât play that shit right now. You know why.â His voice is harsh but you know heâs not angry with you. You can smell the combination of cigarettes and spearmint gum on his tongue with how close he is. His cologne comes into the mix and itâs heavenly in all honesty. Heâs embarrassed for getting caught, worried heâs gonna lose one of his best chefs, and worried heâs upset you. Someoneâs yelling that they need Carmen to sign for a delivery and your time with him is coming to an end for now.Â
Normally your hand never dips below his shoulders or the top of his chest. Always friendly, light touches. This time your hand comes up to rest flat against his heart and you can feel it quickly beating. âCarmy - Breathe.â Your eyes donât leave his as your hand slides down his chest, fingers trailing along the soft cotton of his shirt. Stopping only once you can feel the dip of his hip. âWeâre okay. Go handle your restaurant, Iâll talk with you tonight.âÂ
You pat the back of your hand against his hip heâs being called for again, feeling a little dizzy under the intensity of his stare. Heâs still nervous, knuckles turning white as he keeps a death grip on the line. âCarmen Berzatto, youâre fine. Weâre fine. I promise you, okay?â Finally taking pity on him you give a warm smile, stepping back and breaking eye contact. âGo sign for the clams before we have to change tonightâs special and Sydney kills us.â
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Everyoneâs long gone by this point of the night. Tina tried to convince Carmen to go home and get some sleep about twenty minutes ago but he made some excuse about wanting to reorganize the walk-in before tomorrowâs service. Really heâs just counting down the minutes until the two of you are alone. You havenât been able to talk today - Too many listening ears around for Carmenâs comfort. In your defense, you just minded your business and kept on top of your station.Â
But God he canât stop admiring you from across the room. Thereâs less shame to it now that you know. Still anxiety, yes. But your comforting earlier has him⌠Hopeful? Hopeful for what heâs not sure.Â
You catch him staring at one point during dinner service, risking a glance around the kitchen and throwing him a wink before turning back to work and deliberately giving him a small shake of your ass. To anyone else it would probably look like you were just swaying mindlessly. Not to Carmen though. Youâre teasing him and itâs working.
Tinaâs finally shouting out goodbyes and Carmenâs eyes are trained on watching as you walk towards the office. Any pretend task he was doing is quickly forgotten as he intently follows you. Heâs played this situation over in his head a dozen times, even burned himself on the cigarette he forgot he was holding earlier.
He finds you standing by the desk, running your fingers along the edge of it and grinning. âWhat happened to my present, Carmen?âÂ
âChucked it in my locker. Couldnât risk someone findinâ them, you know?â Itâs embarrassing enough having to answer to you, he couldnât imagine trying to explain to the staff (or God forbid his sister) why thereâs lingerie with his name on the desk. Carmenâs face is overheated and his heart is pounding. For all the hours heâs spent fantasizing about you, heâs never really considered this conversation until today. Typically he skips right towards fucking you however youâll let him. But now heâs stuck face to face and trying to figure out how to acknowledge his actions.Â
"You know I, uh -..." He's sputtering out, trying to figure out just how to defend himself, "You're very, very pretty if that means anything. Fuckin' gorgeous, honestly."
"Did you get off watching me?"
There's no going back now.
"Yeah, I did."
You're grinning at him now, stepping closer and Carmen swears the temperature in the room just went up by ten degrees. He's got his eyes trained on your face for the second time tonight. Hunting out exactly how you're feeling. What he doesn't expect is to feel a feather light touch along the waistband of his pants, nails scratching along his skin as you slide two fingers under the fabric. "Did you think about fucking me? Or did you think about me getting on my knees for you more?"
Carmy's starting to wonder if this is real. Maybe another daydream? For the time being he decides to stay with it though. Trying with all his might to sound as confident as he's mentally done so many times having this part of conversation with you in his head before. "Fucking you. Always thought how much better I'd feel for you than those little toys you use. Sometimes -" He takes a deep breath, straightening his shoulders and trying to build up the confidence to keep this going. He's still not convinced he isn't in some sort of trouble with you. "Sometimes I'd watch you play with your clit. Watch you whine and just knew how badly you needed me to be there."
Your hand slides lower now, fingers pushing through the patch of hair at the base of his cock. Carmen's breathing stops at the touch and you can feel him getting hard under your touch. "Really?" You hum, flattening your hand out and running it down his length. His hips twitch involuntarily as you cup your hand over him, middle finger dragging along his tip. "I've thought about you too, you know? Sometimes you get so fucking pissed off during a rush. I think to myself 'God, he needs to take that anger out' and wonder if fucking me out back would help calm you down. Letting you use me. Sometimes I think you'd walk away after you finish but I know you'd never leave me there all needy and not taken care of, right Carmy?"
He's shaking his head, his heart pounding and he's pretty sure he has never breathed his hard in his life. Labored and uneven while his cock keeps getting hard under your hand. He wants to kiss you, drop to his knees and lick you until you forgive him or decide to take pity and let him fuck you. But instead he settles for showing his need by rocking his hips up against your hand, letting out a broken little groan. "Never would just leave you back there. All I wanna do is - fuck - treat you right. Every night I think about how pretty you must sound begging for me."
You wrap your hand around the base of Carmen's cock, giving him a pleased grin when he fucks himself into your dry fist instantly.
"Do you think you deserve my pussy, Carmy?"
Another jolt of his hips. "No, no I fucking don't."
You lean in, just barely ghosting your lips against his. Carmen has given up all control and allows himself to be fully at your mercy. Your hand pulls back from his cock, sliding out of his pants and he's whining. Shamelessly whining. You're kissing the corner of his mouth, lips traveling down his jaw while you make quick work of unbuttoning your jeans. You grab ahold of his hand, sliding it down the front of your pants and into your underwear. Keeping his hand flat along yours, you use your fingers to navigate his. Rewarding him with a quiet moan right in his ear as the two of you press down against your clit. "I'm so wet for you, Carmy. Been thinking about what you must feel like ever since I caught you watching me." Your hips are rolling down against your hands as you come back up to face him again, bumping your noses together and rewarding him with another moan when Carmen's hand starts to move on its own. Two rough fingers sliding down from your clit to between your folds.
"C'mon, Chef. Want you to fuck me just like you've been dreaming about. Can you be a good boy and do that for me, hmm?"
Something deep in Camren finally snaps and heâs ready to fully earn your praise. One hand comes up to cup the back of your neck and pull you into a deep kiss while the other hand focuses on teasing your clit. His tongue is licking into your mouth at the same time one of his fingers begins to push into you and the combination of sensations is heavenly. Youâre moaning into the kiss, both of your hands coming to wrap around his chest so you can begin pressing your fingers into the muscles of his toned back.
He doesnât let up - Tongue sliding along yours and his fingers messaging the back of your neck while his other hand pulls out of you. Youâre whining at the loss as Carmy pulls back, his fingers coming up to lips as he licks you off of them. âBeen dreaming about what you taste like.â He looks sinful - Blue eyes staring into your soul as he follows his early fantasy and pops his fingers out of his mouth. Index finger tracing over your bottom lip until you take the hint and let your jaw fall open. Carmenâs fingers slipping in and weighing heavy against your tongue. âDream about you begging me to come all over this pretty face.â
You start to rub your thighs together as the heat builds in your core, finding yourself getting more desperate as time goes on. Carmen drops to his knees, making quick work of pulling down your jeans and helping you step out of them. Heâs making sure you're balanced once again before looking up to realize youâre wearing a pair of the underwear he sent you. Carmy smirks to himself, realizing heâs played right into your little game.
You want to make some cocky remark but suddenly his face is between your thighs and you lose all train of thought. His nose bumps along your covered clit before he licks a strip up the soaked fabric. âCanât believe how fuckinâ wet you are.â Carmy reaches up to slide the panties down your thighs, taking his time and keeping his eyes looking up at you while he does. You watch as the pair is stuffed into his back pocket and he begins to place open mouth kisses along your inner thigh. Lips exploring closer and closer but always just far enough away from where you need him.
Your hand comes down to lace in his hair, the other one reaching over to try and steady your shaky legs by gripping onto the desk. âCarmy please.â You give his hair a little tug, unsure of his pain tolerance but youâre rewarded with a guttural groan coming from below you.
âFuck - Pull my hair again.â
So you do, getting a better grip at the base and giving his hair a good pull. You direct his head closer to your center and Carmen lets you until he finds himself buried into your pussy. His tongue lapping over your folds and completing a circuit around your clit before going back down to the base of your hole. Heâs moaning your name into you, his hands coming up to grab ahold of your ass. Helping you stay balanced while making sure you canât get too far away from him.
Heâs pretty sure if you say his name again heâs going to come in his pants so heâs putting in as much effort as he can to keep you distracted. Delivered a sharp smack to your ass at the same time he sucks onto your clit. He brings his other hand back between your thighs, tongue still working against your clit while he traces you with his bare fingers.Â
Thereâs a finger being pushed into you and you tug on Carmenâs hair once again as he quickly pushes another in, dragging them both along your walls and all he can think is how good youâre going to feel wrapped around his cock. âSâgood, Carmy. So fucking good. Jesus Christ.â
Your thighs are clamping around Carmy's head and both of your hands fly to grab a hold of his hair as you feel your orgasm start to build up in your stomach. âShit! Carmen please!â He doesnât let up, sucking at your clit while his fingers continue to curl inside of you. No one has been able to make you finish like this before and youâre a mess of gasps and moans and hips jerking involuntarily.Â
It only takes another minute of him stretching you out and licking you up for your orgasm to hit. A mess of curses and cries falling from your lips as the sensation falls over you. Your legs instantly go weak and Carmenâs quick to grab a hold of your hips to keep you upright.Â
Heâs helping you hop onto the ledge of the desk with a reassuring little âRelax, I got you.â Your thighs are shaking, whole body vibrating and youâre keeping your thighs apart to avoid any pressure on your overstimulated clit. Carmenâs so proud of himself at the sight of you trying to recover. Heâs between your knees, pressing down his work pants and his boxers before haphazardly kicking them across the floor. Your eyes drag along his chest, over his tattoos, along the length of him thatâs thick and beautiful and ready to be buried inside of you.Â
His hands find the bottom hem of your shirt, grabbing ahold and pulling it over your head. Your bra follows suit next. Both of your clothing is covering the floor of the office and you can't help but giggle at the mess made in Carmen's otherwise prestigious space. He's letting out a hum of appreciation at the sight of your breasts. Cupping one in each hand and letting his thumb drag across your nipples. "Fuckin' gorgeous. Been wanting to do this for so long."
There's a mouth wrapped around your nipple now, Carmen making quick work of sucking at it. Flicking his tongue across the hard nub. He pulls back, blowing a stream of cool air against your wet skin before switching to your other breast and repeating the process. You get to sit there and savor the feeling, playing with his hair while Carmen takes his time exploring your breasts. When he thinks you're just blissed out enough, he kisses a path up to leave a small hickey onto your soft skin.
You notice, of course you do.
But you don't complain.
Carmen wonders if you'll let him mark you up before you film anymore content. Wonders how many men will realize they don't stand a chance with you anymore and that you belong to him already.
There's another nip being delivered to the skin of your breasts before he comes back up to give you a warm smile.
Carmenâs leaning in to grab ahold of your jaw, kissing you gently while you reach out to grab ahold of him and get rewarded with a moan. Rubbing your thumb across his tip to collect a bit of moisture and lazily jerk him off. Heâd be fine with this and nothing else for the rest of the night. Getting you off and finishing wherever you ask him to but he knows that wonât be enough for you. For now he enjoys exploring your mouth. Getting to taste you and he wonders if youâre tasting yourself on his tongue.Â
You scoot towards the edge of the desk and wrap your free arm around Carmenâs neck. Youâre both so hot to the touch. Hearts beating fast, breathing uneven. Needy and unashamed how obsessed with the other you both are. His hands start rubbing up and down your thighs as he gives you a second to recover from your orgasm. Heâs got you smiling against his lips as you kiss him, giving a playful nip to his bottom lip. You canât decide if you want him to use you while youâre still riding the aftershocks or obsessed with how heâs letting you savor the moment.Â
Once your thighs stop shaking you wrap them around Carmenâs waist, dragging his body closer to yours. Heâs chuckling at you, firm hands sliding down to grab at your hips and your ass, whatever he can get a hold of first. âWanna watch you put me in. You do so good at fucking yourself in your videos, Baby. Wanna see you tease yourself with me instead of those fucking toys.âÂ
You drag the tip of him through your folds, teasing the both of you. Carmyâs giving up every ounce of control in this moment, all given to you. âSo big. Youâre gonna make me feel so good, Chef.â Thereâs a sound coming from deep in his chest, âUse my name.â Oh. You nod the best you can while being so close to him, giving a chaste kiss to his lips. âIâm so wet for you, Carmy.âÂ
Youâre sliding the length of him between your folds again, tapping his head at your own clit before bringing him to settle right against your hole. Your hand comes around to press on his ass, directing him to push in. Itâs hard to tell which sound is coming from who but soon the small office is filled with broken moans as he starts to stretch you out.Â
His first stroke is slow, both of you adjusting to the sensation. Heâs sinking in inch by inch, thinking of whatever bullshit nonsense he can to keep himself from instantly busting when heâs barely even inside of you. His brain is glitching, trying to hold onto this one time he walked in on Fak taking a bubble bath to keep his orgasm at bay but at the same time youâre moaning his name and playing with the hair on the nape of his neck and his balls feel so heavy and heavenly resting against you as he bottoms out and -Â
âCarmen please, please.â Right, focus.Â
Heâs kissing you once again before rolling his hips. Thereâs his strong arms wrapping around your torso to keep you in place and you feel so warm and safe and full. You decide maybe Carmy deserves a little more shit soon for not burying himself inside of you the second he found your channel. âGonna take care of you, Honey. Feelâs so good huh? Been dreaming of you wrapped around my cock and itâs so much better than I could have imagined.â
You nod and feel your body going limp, leaning your head down to rest your forehead on his shoulder while he starts to fuck into you. Each time you press a warm, open mouth kiss to his neck his speed picks up. The lewd slapping sound of his cock sliding into your wet pussy combined with his balls slapping against your ass filling the room. Heâs bumping his shoulder up against your head, âLook at me? I wanna see your pretty face.âÂ
It takes all the strength left in your body to pick your head back up, âSo much better than when I do it myself, Carm. Needed you so bad, so fucking bad.â He grunts, rewarding your praise with a sharp jerk of his hips as he brings his hand down to toy with your still sensitive clit. Your head falls back at the sensation so Carmen brings his free hand to grab your jaw, tilting your head back to look at him. âEyes on me.â He wants to make some empty threat that heâll stop fucking you if you look away again but he canât even pretend to want to step away from this.
His thumb stays on your clit while we keeps fucking into you at a steady pace. His lips ghosting over yours as you both get closer to falling apart. âYou can give me another, Baby. Wanna feel you come around me. You can do that for me, yeah? Wanna be good for me donât you?â Your nails drag along his back and something about the hiss it draws from his lips and the way his pace sputters at the feeling.Â
Youâre a blubbering mess in all honesty. Any facade from your videos of being cool and collected is long gone as Carmen chases your orgasm. Just whimpering out his name and pleas to the best of your ability until thereâs one fateful stroke combined with your clit being brushed against that has you coming undone. Nails dragging into his back and he keeps your head in place to watch as your orgasm plays over your features.Â
Within seconds you feel him start to pull out of you, presumably for his own release. âPlease, Carmy. Wanna feel you fill me up.â Remember how Carmenâs become more religious since he started falling for you? In this moment he truly thinks God made you special just for him.Â
His lips are crashing into yours, sloppy kisses meant for nothing more than to convey need being shared until you feel his body go stiff. Hips jerking on instinct as he fills you deep with cum. One of the thrusts causes some of the liquid, a combination of the both of you, to push out around the base of his cock and he stores that feeling for later. âFuck you feel so good like this.âÂ
Carmenâs sensitive and getting soft but he canât help a few more thrusts into your sloppy pussy. Savoring the way heâs been able to claim you as his. Thereâs a stray thought that he really does want to film with you one night, keep the camera steady on your pretty body as he defiled it.
He stays buried in you, not quite ready to pull out. Carmenâs analyzing your features from this close - The curve of your nose, how well your lashes frame your eyes, the sleepy little content smile on your lips. Heâs fascinated by you. The feeling is mutual as you trace over his tattoos, rolling your shoulders back to help relax your body.Â
The two of you stay like that for a while, both just soaking the other in. You finally look up from his chest to give him a sheepish girl, leaning in to press a kiss against his lips. âSo - Better than what you imagined?âÂ
Carmenâs laughing, the sound rumbling through his chest and warming up your heart. He looks lighter than he did when he confronted you this morning, a sparkle in his eye even. âHoly fuck, so much better.â You get another kiss from him after the admission, his hands coming down to grip at your ass. âLet's get you cleaned up and Iâm bringing you back to my place for the night, yeah?âÂ
Itâs your turn to grin, nodding enthusiastically and giving his bicep a squeeze. âYes, Chef.â
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OBSESSED: FUSHIGURO
A/N: OH. MY. GOD. Anon. I love you and hate you for this request. This wasâŚhard. I told myself I wouldnât publish it unless it was fucking perfect (you should see the scalpels I took to each goddamn sentence before this version).
SECOND: I will square up with Gege for writing the most enigmatic, LAYERED, complex, muddled character to exist. I wanted this to be Megumi. Through and through. His darkness, his light, his reservation, his crazy, all in one. And IDK. I think I did it? This one is purely to prove to myself that I can write for characters that are hard to write for (*cough* yuta im glaring at you *cough*)
THIRD: if you do read this (I get people feel things about aged up characters etc), I implore you to listen to this. Guys. I heard this at 0200 IN THE OR during a 6 hour case and the entire concept for this came to me. Meg is sophisticated and unruly, selfless and selfish, etc. So this has some NSFW but definitely probably more on the poetic, long ends of my works.
CW: Aged up characters (20+), college AU, fluffy/raunchy/dark romance-y because LOOK at him. He takes after Gojo AND Toji. Mature, 18+
âYou like it when Iâm rough.â
Megumiâs melody rings crystal clear.
Low.
Precise.
An F-14 Tomcat fighter jet, flying dark. Below enemy radar.
The piano keys float beneath his tone. His long, slender, deft fingers effortlessly execute the sheet music before him. Itâs his GPS system, a personal flight map.
Little Beethoven, his advanced music theory professor calls him.
Truth is, Megumi is a prolific pianist and vocalist. He can tame any note, any melody, any harmony faster than any of his Shikigami.
Speaking ofâŚ
Megumi pulls off the piano and tortured love song in an instant. Just as the grade 3 curse creeps through the open door.
The part between his right long and ring fingers is automatic. His left hand grips the web space between his right thumb and index finger.
âDemon dog.â Megumi summons.
Low. Precise. Decisive.
âEat it, boy.â
A small, approving smile tugs on the corners of his lips. Low level curses are the nothing more than chew toys to his divine dogs. With a tiny wave of his fingers, his technique buzzes inward.
Megumiâs eyes float to the ancient analog clock on the wall.
13:50
10 more minutes until youâll meet him for your date.
No. Not date.
Study. 10 more minutes until youâre meeting him to study.
Your thought blooms within him like wildfire. It sets his normally cool, porcelain skin ablaze.
Megumi whips his body around to face the piano. To exorcise the feeling. The keyboard has always been his outlet. His life blood. Playing, singing, musing in and out of written songs is his catharsis.
Words donât come easy. They never have. But lyrics do.
And when he gets to ride lyrics with his voice, his runs..?
The words he can never find on his own are suddenly out there. In the atmosphere. Coating empty rooms in a mist of his thoughts, his feelings.
No certain promise that the person the words are destined for will ever catch them. Or ever walk through the room and be kissed by the remnants of his musical trail. But Megumi has said (sung, played) them. And thatâs enough.
âSorry if I come across a type of way.â
âIâve been trying to get out of my wayâŚâ
His fingers dive into the keys. Angrily. Earnestly.
âI know it doesnât seem like I care, but you know I careââ
âWow Meg, you sound incredible.â
You bring him to an abrupt stop. Your voice is maple syrup trailing down Megumiâs neck, leaving goosebumps in its candied wake.
Pitch fucking perfect.
A soft, ethereal C, gliding down Heavenâs staircase. You infuse sunlight into his name, whichever way you choose to say it.
And itâs hell. Itâs cruel. To have as keen hearing as he does. To listen to you sing his name and have nothing else follow.
âFushiguro.â Megumi shoots up from his seat, slinging his backpack over one shoulder.
âWhat?â
âFushiguro.â He repeats, eyes briefly meeting yours before settling above your head. Heâs at least a head and shoulders taller.
âNobody calls me Meg.â
You throw your head back. Feather light crescendo in your laughter. Itâs pretty. Tantalizing in the way chandeliers twinkle when they capture a beam of light.
His eyes dart down to catch the feminine column of your neck. Curving into your delicate collar bones. How are your lines so seamless?
So cinematic. Like heâs watching a figure skater land a triple axel. Or a prima ballerina en pointe. Itâs not fathomable.
Gorgeous.
You are gorgeous.
âI call you Meg.â You retort with a smile that liquifies all of his joints.
You double your walking speed to keep pace with Megumiâs long strides. Both of you exit the sound engineering building. Heading straight for the campus library a couple blocks away.
âWho were youâoh,â Megumiâs glacial hand along the small of your back steals your voice away.
Your eyes and feet follow his gentle push, shifting you to the other side of him.
âWalking on the wrong side.â He mutters, monotone. Matter-of-fact. Obviously.
Heâs a gentleman. Of course he is going to walk on the traffic facing edge of the sidewalk.
Of course he didnât feel the electric currents wire through his fingers to clench â suffocate â his heart.
No, he didnât hear that punched out, falsetto gasp when his hand cradled your perfectly tapered waist.
Or notice how well you fit into his hand. How light you are under his touch that had none of his real strength behind it.
Youâre made of alluring lines. Intoxicating sounds.
What would it take to coax a pretty melody out of your pouty lips?
His fingers?
Theyâre long. And smart. Cold. Remarkably patient. Youâd like them.
He could make you love them.
Crave them. Need, whimper, whine, and cry out for them.
âSo who was it?â You tether him to reality.
âWho was what?â Megumi counters, leading you to a private study room.
âThe way you were singing earlier.â
Hairs along the back of his neck stand at attention. Blood runs Siberian cold. Megumiâs gaze on you is subzero.
âIt had to be for someone.â You lower down into a seat in slow motion.
The sweetheart neckline of your sundress is mean. Your supple mounds tilt and ripple with every micro movement. Megumi has forgotten why heâs glaring at you.
âYou sound tooâŚpretty. It canât be wasted on thin air.â You continue.
âShe must beââ
âLetâs just get started, okay?â He sharply redirects the conversation.
And promptly shifts gear to low autopilot. Heâll speak when spoken to, answer questions intermittently. But his mindâs true coordinates are a galaxy away.
Megumi retreats to his shadow garden.
Watching you.
Drinking you in.
Savoring each detail on his tastebuds like dessert.
The pencil eraser leaves an indent on your bottom lip where youâve been pressing too hard.
Megumi wants to roll your bottom lip under his teeth. Until it flushes rose and swells beneath his relentless pull.
His eyes fall to your bracelet, far too big for your dainty wrist.
He could hold both of your wrists in one hand above your head or behind your back for hours. Without breaking a sweat.
His other hand would take its time.
To stroke you. Pet you. Learn your sheet music. Then play your body like a harp until youâre a chorus of beautiful, soprano whimpers and moans. Begging and pleading so prettily, enticing him to give in.
But he wonât.
Not until youâre soft enough. A babbling, warm, ruined brook beneath his fingers.
Then heâll take you, gorgeous.
Searing pain from his sharp swallow and nails digging into his thighs rip him down to the present.
Vision a little fuzzy. Head a revolving door of vulgar scenarios. A dull, demanding ache between his legs draws his eyes to his lap.
Fucking hell.
His jeans are uncomfortable. Heâs stiff and needy. Not nearly enough strength in his pants to hold back his drunken arousal.
Not to the mention, theâ
swarm of shadows growing at his feet?
Is his���innate domain materializing around him right now?
Megumi aggressively slices through the air at his hip level. Below the table, but you donât miss his sudden stirring.
âMeg? You okay overââ
âGoing to the bathroom.â He gruffs through a clenched jaw. Megumi places his forearm over his crotch before hurrying out of the room.
He can barely recognize the man in the mirror. Flushed to his ears. Volcanoes threatening eruption in his eyes. Api Biru. Pure, triple distilled, blue lava coursing through his veins.
Snap out of it, Fushiguro.
The splash of cold water does nothing for his internal heat. But his milky complexion returns to its effervescent state.
But then he turns a little too quickly to leave. And his painfully hard length drags along his fabric. Itâs blinding.
A feeble moan tumbles out of his tight lips.
âFuck.â
Megumi slams his eyes shut. He needs to readjust. But if he touches himself now, he might not be able to stop.
A slow, steadying breath fills his lungs.
âJust adjust, donâtâŚâ His voice trails off. Icey fingers around his hot, angry base is enough to rip the carpet from beneath his feet.
âOh, fuck.â Megumi mumbles through one quick pump up his shaft.
He shakes his head as if to tell himself enough. He rests his erection along his thigh before zipping up. Still painful, but tolerable.
A tornado obliterates any remaining resolve in Megumiâs mind on his walk back to you.
You are a dream.
Or a nightmare? A curse?
It doesnât matter. He couldnât care less.
Megumi would follow you. Deeper than the crypts of his 10 shadows. Into hell if it meant he could have you the way he wants you.
The way he craves you.
Because fuck the cost.
Heâd pay anything.
Youâre working on an elaborate concept diagram on the white board. On the tip of your toes. Lip curled under your teeth. And you are just irresistible.
So, he wonât resist.
âMeg! Took you a bit, you okay?â
Megumi is silent. Unblinking. Sauntering toward you.
âMegumi?â
You lower to the soles of your shoes. Neck craning to look at his face. Your eyes widen at his persistent silence. Rosy heat dusting your cheeks.
Pretty little doe, rooted in place by his wolfish glare.
Megumi takes the marker out of your hand and tosses it behind him in one swift motion.
âHmm,â a tiny acknowledgment of his name. Just because it sounds so sweet rolling off your tongue.
Megumi corners you against the wall. Both of his hands casually in his pockets.
He watches you shift. Flicker your eyes in every direction. Fiddle with your thumbs.
His quiet.
His presence.
It flusters you. Well before heâs gotten the chance to run his hands along the lazy curve of your waist and hips.
âSoâŚso blue.â You stammer. Your warm eyes metronome between his.
âThey are.â
Megumi steps impossibly closer. His eyes drop to your chest. Dainty, nervous heaves. Up and down. Up and down.
âYou are so,â you swallow thickly, dropping your gaze. âhard to read.â
Megumi snakes his large, graceful fingers into your nape. The temperature difference between your warmth and his cold startles you deeper into his grasp. Your head evanesces into his pull.
A beautiful, shocked gasp escapes you. Just as Megumiâs lips trace the shell of your ear.
âI want you.â
His breaths collide with yours, now. Heat welling deep in his groin. His cock thunders against his thigh.
âCan you read that?â Megumi rasps. Ensuring his voice vibrates down your spine.
A new sound tumbles from your lips. Like you choked on your last swallow. How pretty. You gurgling and gagging like that.
âW-want me? Megumi whââ
âI.â Megumi nudges his thigh between your legs. His steel pipe erection digs into your dewy, hot core. He angles his leg slightly upward, inching you on the tip of your toes.
His prima ballerina, en pointe.
âWant you.â His lips ghost against yours. Free hand cups the flesh beneath your thigh. Pads of his fingers twitching to dig in.
The two of you drink in this lock-in-key fit. Megumi revels in you. Like this. At his complete mercy.
The prodigal son, born with more power than he knows what to do with.
Ten shadows. Ten Shikigami. Itâs been centuries since the last head of his bloodline had power buzzing beneath his fingertips like him.
And somehow heâs never felt more powerful than this.
With you, heavenâs most precious angel, cradled in his arms. Drowning in sinful ecstasy. He brands this freeze frame into the most permanent part of his memory.
Then, he free falls off your cliff edge.
Megumi takes your lips with unfettered greed. Hunger woven into the way his tongue traces every corner of your delectable, soft mouth. His fingers push your head deeper into him. Sucking and nibbling on your warm muscle.
You shower him with airy, choppy little pants. Moans and whines so light they crescendo to fairy dust. You canât keep up with his bruising kiss. His other hand palms your thigh, kneading little bruises into your silky smooth skin.
Marking whatâs his.
âOh my god.â
You breathe into his mouth when he lets you up for air. Megumiâs eyes dart down to the meeting point of your sex and his muscular thigh.
Did you really think he wouldnât notice how youâre rutting your pretty little cunt against his leg like that?
Crimson high on your cheeks. You look away when he tries to catch your fucked out gaze.
âDonât hide from me, gorgeous.â His hand traces up to your hips. You preen into his firm grip.
âMegumi.â
âDonât stop, pretty girl.â He forcefully moves your hips in more dramatic, languid, deep rolls against his thigh. Heâs not paying any mind to the pool of his precum soaking through his pants.
You bury your head in his neck. Fingernails digging pretty crescent moons into his back. You take over the pace. Undulating against him. Shameless. In complete heat.
âYou feel s-soâŚso good.â Your lips smear against his dampened neck. Megumi responds by circling your puffy, slick bud with his fingers.
And fuck. The slurred, broken whimper that rings in his ears.
The way you hump him even more sloppily.
He could finish from that alone.
Your hand flies to your mouth. Empty huffs spilling. Whines ascending in pitch. You are close.
âSuch pretty sounds, baby.â
âMegumiâŚmeg..I-â
âLet it out.â He grips the back of your neck. Feeling dangerously close to his own nirvana. Drunk off your precious melody.
âSing for me.â
âF-fuck, GOD.â
You bite down on his neck. Waves of pleasure crashing into you like hurricane winds. He grips your waist steady. Feeling every involuntary twitch and jerk of your doll-like frame.
Blessing or curse?
He doesnât know.
But he will follow you to the end of his lifetime and the next.
âGod, Fushiguro. That wasâŚâ The lusty haze from your peak settles around you. The once shattered world, slowly pieces itself back together.
âNo.â Megumi pulls you out of his neck. Dropping his lips to yours, so he can breathe the air directly from your lungs.
âMeg. You call me Meg.â
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i know most ppl havenât seen it yet but wanted to write something abt how annoyed some of the critical discourse abt I Saw the TV Glow is making me. MAJOR SPOILERS below the break, be warned!!
so idk iâve seen so many reviews of the film positing that itâs about the dangers of obsessive fandom and overidentification with fictional characters, esp vis a vis real life self-actualization/coming out. (like, essentially every review has some of this in it, from what iâve seen.) and, like: i donât think thatâs wrong, but i also think itâs massively underselling what schoenbrun is doing here. the metaphor of the showâs bleed-over is so smart because works in both directions at once.
like, in one direction: when maddy asks owen to come into the show by burying himself alive, you can read it as her asking him to abandon his real-life responsibilities, and the material facts of his real life body, in favor of a fantasy life where everything is already fixed. sheâs inviting him to skip over the hard, messy work of transitioning and to sink even deeper into the analgesic obsessions he uses to numb his dysphoria. in this interpretation, itâs, like, the equivalent of overprioritizing âtransition goalsâ instead of actually medically/legally/socially transitioning if thatâs what you want, living forever in the ideal instead of taking difficult steps to change the material. (also, uh, if you donât think sheâs literally correct about the nature of reality, she is in fact asking him to kill himself. thereâs that.)
BUT! it also works the other way. when maddy tells owen that the show is real, that their lives are just the buried dreams of dying girls in another life, she terrifies him by confronting him with something heâs always known about himself: he was supposed to be a girl. what she proposes is radical, dangerous, seemingly unhinged, and based on a childish fixation: all the things scared closeted trans people worry transition is, basically. on a more figurative level, too, the feeling sheâs telling owen is real â that his real life is just a dream within a dream, that his home is not his home, that he belongs somewhere else, that he is supposed to be SOMEONE else â is something so, so, so many closeted trans people have felt before, myself so much included. when he sobs in the shower, yelling âthis isnât my home!â at his dad, i felt a sense of identification stronger than iâve almost ever gotten from art before. when maddy finally calls him isabel, itâs the gentlest thing i can imagine.
in this read â which i do love, while thinking the other one is simultaneously true â itâs less âcome sink deeper into delusion with me instead of dealing with your own lifeâ and more âitâs going to be terrifying, but that childish dream of being a girl you once held wasnât childish, and it can be real if youâre courageous enough.â he says he runs away from the football field because he thinks maddyâs not mentally well; it takes very little analysis of subtext to figure out heâs running away because heâs afraid of how much he wants what sheâs offering. and, of course, the idea of the visible world being an illusion laid atop the world in which one is oneâs truest self is a classic trope of trans cinema going all the way back to the matrix. (also: while iâm pretty death-of-the-author-pilled in most media analysis, it kinda seems like schoenbrun themself has interpreted the film in this way, as theyâve spoken at length in interviews about how, to them, transition felt like asking to be buried alive.)
all of which is to say: i think the film IS commenting on fandom, obsession, overidentification, and the ease with which queer people can sink into art as a way to dissociate from real life. but i think it makes the film so much more cynical and so much less tender to treat it as the ONLY read of the filmâs relationship with the pink opaque. art, especially the sort of slow, metaphor-laden art schoenbrun makes, is best when it is complex and productively contradictory. the pink opaque is a problem, and an escape, and a fantasy, and itâs real, and one day isabel is going to wake up.
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OMG YOUR HUGH JACKMAN FICS GIVE ME LIFEEEEEE đĽ´đĽ´
Could I request something like Reader having a fixation of his hands? Idk I just keep noticing them in edits and I want them in my mouth or in my puâ đâ¤ď¸âđĽđđđ
Hands
18+ No Minors
A/N: lol I forgot to put warnings.
Warnings: teasing, oral (m recieving), mouth f-ing, fingering
You weren't sure when exactly you became obsessed with Hugh's hands, all you knew was you constantly wanted him to be touching you in some way, shape, or form. Hugh never minded either, he loves the fact that you have an obsession with them and he even teases you about it sometimes... or teases you with them... and tonight was no exception.
Tonight, he's spent the better part of an hour massaging your back or sliding his hand down between your legs massaging your pussy, causing you to become more desperate by the second.
"Hugh, please.." You beg for the 5th time as he massages the outside of your heat. "Please what, darling?" Hugh has a teasing voice, causing you to whimper with need. "I need your fingers inside of me." You try moving your hips against his hand but his other one comes down and spanks you, hard, causing you to cry out when you feel his hand cup one of your globes on your backside.
"You need to learn patience. I'm giving you everything you want, just not at the pace you would want. I know you're obsessed with my fingers, with my hands, so let me give you what you want by letting me touch you wherever I want to..." Hugh catches your eye when he brings up your liking his hands and you swear you see a smirk flash across his face.
He flips you over, smiling softly as he admires your body, bringing his hand back down to in between your thighs while the other runs up your stomach. His fingertips graze softly over your breast as he leans down to kiss you.
Hugh kisses you softly, moving his hand up your thigh, grazing two fingers over your clit and you let out a whine. "I'll take care of you, darling. I always do." He whispers as he slides the two fingers inside of you, a moan slipping out of your mouth as he does but he quickly sticks his other two fingers in your mouth.
"Suck on my fingers, darling. Show me how desperate you are for me." His voice is low, and you notice how lust-blown his eyes are as you start swirling your tongue around his fingers. You bring your hand up to his shorts, feeling the tight strain his hard erection has against it as you rub him softly.
A low groan falls from his lips, and he moves his fingers faster, bringing his thumb down to your clit and rubbing it softly. You pull his shorts down enough to let his erection pop out, looking up at him with innocent eyes.
"Want me to replace my fingers with my cock, darling?" He asks and you nod softly, moaning as he removes his fingers and slides up to your head. "What do you do if you need to stop?" His voice is level, looking down at you as he continues to move his fingers. "Tap your thigh twice." You state, taking him in your mouth as he fully pushes in until he bottoms out.
"Your mouth was made for me, darling." He moans out, slowly fucking your mouth. You rock against his fingers, moaning around his length causing him to twitch. "I can feel you around my fingers, darling.. are you fixing to cum for me?" Hugh asks, angling his fingers slightly as you moan in response.
His hips move faster, your gags filling the room as your orgasm hits, hearing Hugh moan as his dick twitches in your mouth, his load shooting down your throat. He lets both of you ride out your orgasms before pulling out of your mouth.
"Ready for round 2?"
#hugh jackman#hugh jackman x reader#logan howlett#hugh jackman imagine#hugh jackman smut#logan howlett smut
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Nearly every time I've rewatched Infinity Train Book 3 since I first saw it in February, I saw more parallels and narrative echos, and infodumping my friends about them isn't enough anymore
I figured I should do a post about this one because I don't think I've seen a post about that specific thing yet, and I love this show's writing, and. idk. I just need to praise it I guess
So, the most obvious part first:
Grace became everything she hated about her parents
When Grace mentions her mother in the Debutante Ball Car, it's made pretty clear she's trying to distance herself from her mother as much as possible, and at this point, we realise retrospectively that Grace's room in the Mall Car in episode one was full of sports clothes - it seems she tries to avoid things reminding her of her life before the train. And of her mother. And yet-
She tries to control everyone and everything around her, and makes people do what she doesn't want to do
And she decides what's cool and what isn't
She makes people kneel in her presence, like her mother towers over her in her mind's eye
Obviously she constantly lies to get what she wants, and her dad does that in her tape
When her younger self looks up, she looks right through adult Grace, and it's actually her parents she's looking at! Her younger self is metaphorically seeing her parents where her adult self is standing!! I still can't get over this shot
Also I feel the need to mention her mother has the same voice actor as her in her tape and even if it might be to cut corners in the budget, that feels significant (and to be fair, sometimes you can cut corners while making meaningful choices at the same time)
Now you might think I'd have nothing to say about Simon on that matter, since we don't see any flashback of his life before the Train, and we know next to nothing about his parents. But I think it's very telling that the only actual backstory we get for him is his backstory with The Cat.
Because-
Simon became everything he hated about The Cat
Ok I never see anyone mentioning this, but hear me out
First, we have no idea if Simon knew The Cat was routinely invading people's privacy through their memory tapes, but he sure has no issue doing the exact same thing
But that doesn't stop there. He also collects things obsessively
And makes kids collect things for him as well, by the way
He thinks he's above others, but he immediately switches to victim mode when it comes back to bite him
HE. ABANDONS. A CHILD. WHO WAS UNDER HIS CARE!!
And. Uh. They both dig their heels instead of trying to change, too
Don't get me wrong, on some level I would have liked to know what Simon's parents were like too. I would have liked that a lot. But there's a good chance it wouldn't change anything, because everything we need to know about his background to understand why he's Like That⢠is already in the show
But yeah, Grace and Simon both pretend they found freedom on the Train, and both distance themselves from parental figures who are at the source of their trauma, claiming they're different and better than them - and yet they are both subconsciously repeating patterns that caused at least part of their problems and/or trauma in the first place
And since they decided that making numbers go up was good, as long as they stick to that idea, they are bound to never escape from that self-perpetuating loop of harm and trauma
And I love it
And I hate it
#infinity train#grace monroe#simon laurent#samantha infinity train#this has been in my drafts since May
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â Â kisses : shigaraki.
⼠scenario: kissing tomura. ⼠no triggers; not rated. ⼠i don't have any beta readers - you get what you get. ⼠requested! it is a whole mess.
⼠series: tomura - izuku
â§*ĚĽË some stuff *ĚĽËâ§
tomura comes off as a rather aloof person; someone with many walls and deep rooted trust issues. so, if you're kissing me, we can already assume your relationship to him is one build over a good amount of time. it would be a very, very intensely personal experience for him. he's not used to physical touch by any means, so it would put him in an almost awkward mindset. he probably wouldn't fully know how to process being so.. ( god, i use this word a lot, i'm sorry ) vulnerable and close.
kissing him would be soft and slow. he would be hesitant, like you were something fragile, also trying not to fuck something up. he's navigating something new, so it would take time for him to get the hang of it. and, it would make him smile - which is a feat all in it's own. he would show you this small, gentle smile; a genuine expression of warmth and adoration that's incredibly rare.
i can't even put into words how soft this man would be over kisses. and, he's not going to be picky once he gets the hang of it. he would really, really enjoy:
moth kisses
forehead kisses
jaw kisses
slow make out sessions
in the beginning, he would ( idk, is this surprising? ) not be in control of shit. he would actually hand the reigns over to you and enjoy the ride.
the thing is, he's a really good kisser???? because any time he kisses you, he's kissing you like it's the very last time. he's got a hand on the back of your neck, fingers settled against when your hair stops, just.. drowning in the intimacy of the moment. his other hand gripping onto your shirt at your side - he'd have hell letting go.
he's obsessed. and, honestly, unless he's in a foul mood, it's the best way to distract or help him feel better. though, i should add, i feel as though he'd become just a tad bit clingy towards you once you made it to this level of intimacy.
if i keep going, i'm going to go down a rabbit hole of trapping him on the couch and kissing him til neither of you can breathe, SO - i'm going to slide down into a scenario.
â§*ĚĽË tiny things *ĚĽËâ§
⼠moth kisses: ( so, do you remember the last time we actually saw him play a game? no? me either but- ) moth kisses are mostly to attempt to annoy him, which.. may only actually work once or twice. the type of kisses you give when interrupting him. when you just cup his face and kiss all over, quickly, not giving him a chance to do anything about it.
⼠forehead kisses: god, please, give him forehead kisses. he really appreciates them in the morning or before bed, the way you brush his hair aside and linger for a moment. i feel like this is a gesture that really makes him understand that you're there for a reason. and you're genuine.
⼠jaw kisses: when he's working on things, you generally know better than to fuck with him too much. so, as you're tucked up beside him, that's when you nose and press little kisses to his jaw. you try not to jostle him too much.
⼠temple kisses +: this is more of something he does for you. because it starts as temple kisses, his eyes closed as he layers kisses over the spot for a few seconds. he'll slowly move down until he's nosing at the spot behind your earlobe, either humming or whispering little things. very much a private moment that no one else sees.
⼠the aforementioned slow make outs: usually when this happens, he's either tired or it started because he was in a shit mood. he likes how it starts as just small kisses and then turns into closing his eyes, lungs clenching, need building but it's still going so slowly, it's nearly killing him.
⼠the one time you almost died: because it was in the middle of a fight. it wasn't your fault that when you caught his gaze, you both seemed to stop. however, when you plant an unexpected kiss on his lips before disappearing into the fray once more, he's briefly distracted and a little agitated. you were being reckless but fuck if he didn't continue on with wanting more of you.
â§*ĚĽË first kiss *ĚĽËâ§
withdrawn.
that was somewhat normal but he seemed even further gone than usual. his responsibilities and the pressure on his shoulders, it was starting to wear on him and you could see it. the way he sank into the arm chair, picking at the hem and staring off into space. it wasn't something you enjoyed seeing.
you shift from your spot by the doorway, approaching to settle on the armrest of his chair, lifting his hand into your hold. a few minutes past in silence, neither of you feeling the need to say anything. you could see some sense of helplessness behind his eyes, making you frown and squeeze his hand. he didn't pull away despite how he flinched, fingers curling into the touch.
'tomura..' you said softly, not really know what could be said in the moment, considering he'd never done too well with encouraging talk. 'i'm here, you know?'
it took him a second before his head turned, guarded expression briefly flickering to give way to something softer. he didn't say anything, gratitude seen in his gaze. it wasn't hard to identify the conflict going on behind his eyes, something you knew you couldn't do much to fix or aid in. the most you could do was attempt to distract.
you didn't think about it too much, or at all, when you began to lean closer, the distance between you shrinking quicker than your mind could keep up. you were really leaning far too close into the personal space of one of the most dangerous men you knew and couldn't really stop. your heart felt like it was in your throat the moment your lips pressed against his own. the kiss was tender and hesitant, lasting only for a moment.
when you pulled back, you weren't sure how to act. his eyes were slightly wide with bewilderment, frozen and free hand anchoring him to reality with it's grip to the armchair. 'why...?' he began, barely above a whisper, not trusting his voice. you could hear the confusion, clear as day, but beneath it - there was something else. the smallest note of longing.
his voice completely erased the mild panic that had grown and you just smiled, light and careful. 'because you matter to me? because i adore you. and, i want to be there for you.. in any way that i can be.'
you weren't expecting to make a confession and he surely wasn't expecting to receive one. thankfully, he didn't respond to that. 'thank you,' was all he managed to get out, taking in the words and warmth that spread through him at the kiss.
the room fell quiet once more, though the atmosphere shifted into something new. there was a newfound understanding created from the simple, yet profound, moment of intimacy.
and, it would only grow from that moment on.
#mha#mha imagines#mha scenarios#mha imagine#mha x reader#shigaraki x reader#shigaraki tomura#shigaraki tomura x reader#tomura x reader#bnha
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⥠sanrio obsessed reader x ellie headcanons
im not sure why but i think this is super cute though and i love the thought of ellie just being really confused but also thinking its cute AAAHH this is also super super short idk, i thought it was cute, also im working on like 3 other ellie fanfics so !!!! might be done with the first one tn, im not sure, im kind of tired.
nsfw headcanons at the end (i'll put a warning before !)
she'd be really confused when she went into your room for the first time
like, she knew you were all cutesy, but this was to another level
she'd be really amazed by your plushie collection, and your bedding, with your sanrio themed blankets and throw pillows
she'd pick up one of your my melody plushie
"doll, what's this one called?" she said, holding it up.
she does not remember a single one of their names besides hello kitty, she would ask you the names but then just forgets, so she makes nicknames for them.
pompompurin would be pumpkin, cinamaroll would be poodle, exc.
idk why but i feel like she would call rilakkuma "freddy fazbear" as a joke but it just stuck
when she falls asleep on your plushie infested bed, you could cover her up with all of them, and burry her under them. when she wakes up she'd just pull you into them with her, and cover you up as punishment.
she constantly tells you that your room is so childish and unnecessarily pink (she absolutely loves it but is just too prideful to admit it)
whenever you gift her one of her favorite sanrio characters (which is definitely keroppi prove me wrong) she will complain and tell you how stupid it is, and how she has no use for it. but if you try and take it back she'll have a fit.
she secretly has a collection of all the plushies you give her on her bed that she falls sleep in but she hides whenever you come over
she gives you small gift baskets and leaves them in random places in your house, like really random, to the point where sometimes you wont find them for months, they'll be in the back of your cabinet or under your bed, and they'll just have extra plushies and knick knacks to add to your collection
she watches hello kitty and friends supercute adventures with you and cuddles (she'll be asleep or on her phone, just letting you enjoy yourself)
(NSFW UPCOMING!!!)
she'd keep you quiet by stuffing one of your plushies in your mouth
she would put her strap on your really big life sized rilakkuma plush and make you ride it
she sometimes sets up all your plushies and figurines up to watch you two, especially when you're being a brat, since you usually face them towards the wall so they can't see you two
she absolutely degrades you for it but then she'll praise you for it
ty for reading this weird idk little drabble i was just bored and was looking at my korilakkuma plush and was like "ellie would look really cute holding that" yk
#ellie williams drabble#ellie williams x you#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams x female reader#ellie williams headcanons#ellie williams smut#ellie williams fanfic#ellie the last of us#ellie williams x fem reader#ellie x fem reader#ellie williams tlou#ellie x reader#ellie x you#ellie williams x y/n#ellie x y/n
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as much as i want to see fiddleford recover and enter his much-deserved era of good mental and physical health, i also want to see the effects of his head trauma follow him forever. itâs important to me that while he heal and find a level of normalcy and peace, he never return to his old self.
kind of a side bar, but itâs relevant so: i also think thereâs something to be said about old man mcgucketâs confidence. boldness? idk how to describe it. i wouldnât say his paranoid tendencies have vanished, but for the most part heâs. breezier. part of it is the brain damage, and maybe part of it is genuine self-evolution in the right direction. but i think the obsessive mind-wiping just⌠broke that part of his brain. itâs like heâs no longer affected by fear in the same way. and i hope we see strong traces of that damage until the day he dies.
itâs important to me that fiddleford heal and emerge into self-awareness once more. itâs important to me that ford still look at him as very much the same person, despite all of the damage. but heâs also changed severely and irreversibly. i think of old man mcgucket as a much rawer version of fiddleford in that he holds less reservations and has no filter. heâs healing but heâs also broken, and those scars will forever be visible. and thatâs important to me because it also changes ford and fiddlefordâs dynamic a lot.
ok one last sidebar, then iâm done. when i say it changes their dynamic i mean it in the way that because fiddleford now wears his heart on his sleeve and ford himself is a bit wiser about relationships, there is less self-sabotaging going on between them. romance or friendship wise. and if nothing else, they both feel theyâre getting too old for biting their tongues, so i imagine the discussions of certain difficult topics comes a bit easier now.
like, given that theyâve both made many catastrophically terrible decisions over their lives, they have a better perspective on life in general and have had time to reorient their previously fucked priorities. ford lives with a lot of shame for how he treated stan, dealing with the devil, and bringing about the end times. fiddleford lives with a lot of shame for how he treated emma-may and tate, starting a cult that ruined lives [especially his own], and not to mention the multiple death robot incidents. even though they both had good intentions or else thought their actions were justified at the time [mostly], it all collapsed on their heads because these actions were ridiculously stupid.
i think all of this is part of why the rekindling of their friendship happened so easily. fiddleford is eager to forgive ford and embrace him because heâs learned first-hand what grief and paranoia can drive a person to do, and so he feels the best thing he can do is accept his old friend back into his life, no questions asked. maybe ford will forever think he doesnât deserve it, but he learns to accept mcgucketâs kindness and tries to learn from it. theyâre both healing even if itâll never be Backupsmore again. itâs still them, despite it all.
#fiddleford mcgucket#old man mcgucket#stanford pines#im just thinking out loud here btw. my forgetful adhd ass isnât the best at analysis#given that i wonât remember half of the important details even though i just watched the show start to finish lmao#but. idk. they itch my brain. especially fiddleford#also side bar of he century here but. fiddleford is a hopeless romantic. maybe not super traditionally but itâs there#ford is on the aroace spectrum. fidds has loved him romantically since college#ford isnât good with understanding his feelings but he comes to realize that heâs loved fidds for a long time. just in general#their love for each other is mutual by the end but they still make for a very unconventional couple. almost queerplatonic i think#but thatâs for another post lmao#gravity falls
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Kokonoi has me obsessed!!! If possible, could I please request an Alpha Bonten Kokonoi x omega male reader
Like maybe while koko is in a meeting with rest of the high members some low level member comes and flirts with reader till the point heâs uncomfortable, koko just senses distress and dashes out and beats up the other guyâ idk somethign along those lines đ (love your writing man, youâre fabulous)
Of course dude. Aww thank you man. I love writing for you guys. Hope you enjoy!
(Name) sighed softly. Watching his husband lovingly. Kokonoi had called a meeting, due to something (Name) had found while he was going through the financials. (Name) had found that money was being taken from Bonten and wired to an off shore account.
So of course he immediately told his husband, who quickly called a meeting with the higher Bonten members. While they were discussing who had access to the main account, (Name) felt like he was being stared at. He shifted uncomfortably before looking around.
He met the eyes of a smug looking Alpha. He was staring at the Omega, like he was some meal he wanted to devour. (Name) shivered at the look before he raised a had to his bond mark. He stared down at his lap, not noticing the distressed pheromones he was releasing.
When the silver haired Alpha smelt the pheromones, he stopped talking an growled quietly. He looked towards his Omega. (Name) hadn't even noticed that his Alpha had stopped talking. He just continued to grip his bond mark, while staring at his lap.
The silvernett clenched his fist and looked around. Trying to figure out what was making his Omega so uncomfortable. That's when he saw the smug looking worker staring at (Name), like he was some prey. The other turned to see what had made the male so upset, when they saw the new guard staring down the Omega.
Kokonoi looked at his boss, silently asking for permission. Mikey waved his hand at the other Alpha, giving the guard his own glare. Kokonoi quickly made his way over to the guard who didn't take his eyesore the figiting (Name).
That was until his view was blocked. The guard growled and glared up before he froze. A livid Kokonoi staring back at him. "Are you eyeing my Omega like he's some piece of fucking meat?" (Name) looked up at the growl made by his husband. The guard had stared trembling and was as pale as a ghost.
(Name) went to stand but a softly placed hand on his shoulder stopped him. He turned to see his pack Alpha and Boss shaking his head. (Name) sat back and watched nervously. The guard didn't say anything, angering Kokonoi more. "I said" he grabbed the guard shirt collar and dragged him close. "Were you eyeing MY OMEGA LIKE HE WAS A PIECE OF FUCKING MEAT?!"
(Name) flinched at the raised volume. The guard opened his mouth then closed it. He shook his head no, obliviously lying. Kokonoi grinned menacingly. Ran laughed loudly. The guard turned his head to the laughing Alpha.
"Mm what a liar. We all saw you doing it. If you thought lying was gonna save you, you were oh so very wrong." Kokonoi threw a punch at the distracted males face. Throwing the guard to the ground he continued. Throwing punch after punch.
(Name) once again tried standing. Wanting to calm his raging husband. Before he could actually move to comfort his Alpha, Kokonoi stopped and slowly stood. He turned to Sanzu with a wide grin. "Have some fun Sanzu. I'll join once the meeting is over." Sanzu shot two pills into his mouth then laughed psychoticly.
"You got it~" he quickly grabbed the unconscious male and practically skipped out the room. Kokonoi pulled a handkerchief out of his pocket, wiping his hands and face off. Then made his way to (Name), kissing the Omega softly before going back to the meeting.
That night the guards screams filled the Bonten hideout. Reminding all the workers, don't mess with the upper members Omega's. Or else.
#male omega reader#male reader#x male reader#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers x male reader#bonten#bonten x male reader#bonten kokonoi#kokonoi x male reader#kokonoi#kokonoi hajime#hajime kokonoi
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spirit baby reading đ§¸
Disclaimer: I usually speak to the feminine collective when I do these so if youâre not mom and youâll be dad switch things up so they may resonate for you. <3
Iâve literally always been so obsessed with Bey as a mother so I refuse to use anybody else for my banner. Sue me if youâre mad, otherwise have a great time, Iâm gonna do these as channeled messages this time, so if youâre in a high-level soulmate or twin flame connection these could be really good to get some insight and understanding from a different perspective. When we talk about spirit babies, weâre speaking of the spirit or the souls of babies that are waiting to be born and spiritually connected to you.
Often when youâre in a soul connection or a twin flame connection, the person youâre connected with is part of your soul family and the children youâre meant to have will choose the two of you as parents are a part of your soul family as well. They love you both unconditionally, free of judgment and misunderstanding because they see everything before they come to you and forget everything about their soul's purpose and about why they chose you as a parent, and what it was like to choose you. They often play a huge role in you and their other parent getting together as well. They protect and guide your connection just as much as the divine. Hope that this is helpful if youâre in a high-level soulmate connection or a twin flame connection, love you! đ§¸
pile one:
Before I begin, I just want to say someoneâs child is really obsessed with the chicken dance song, idk if you remember what that was from when you were a child but hereâs a link to a weird YouTube video with the audio.
âMom, the best thing you can do right now is to relax and release your control and enjoy yourself. I know that dad is taking a long time but heâs coming to marry you and be with you very soon and you just have to be patient.â For some reason, Iâm getting we you could be expecting multiples at some point soon. âWe know how much you care about Dad and how patient and gentle youâve been with him and we ask that you send him lots of love and encouragement even though you guys arenât speaking that much.
Donât think that he doesnât love you or doesnât want you just because he hasnât said so because he does. All he wants is to be with you and to build a family with you and that time is coming. Heâs closing out karmic cycles and making sure that everything is perfect before he comes towards you because he knows itâs what you deserve. We told you this when we spoke to you in your dream. Dad is making sure that he gets lots of money and gets everything ready so that you will be comfortable and well taken care of and he can buy us lots of stuff.
Please donât become discouraged or try to forget about Daddy because it hurts that heâs away. We connect with you every day and weâve been sending you messages through your social media so that you know weâre here waiting for you. Remember that separation and time apart are only an illusion and only exist in one realm of existence. Time to us over here goes by very quickly and you and Dad are not truly separated because you are connected spiritually and are married and in union with one another in spirit.
You and Dad are taking the time out to do the inner work and grow and thatâs why youâve been given this time apart by the universe so that everything can be perfect and ready when you guys come together because the two of you deserve nothing less than perfection. You and Daddy both are doing the inner work and have been working very hard. Continue to do things that you care about and enjoy and take care of yourself in the ways you deserve. Dad is releasing karmic energy within his life, leaving behind third-party interferences that are standing in his way because heâs no longer going to allow anything to get in his way of loving you and being with you. Heâs learning to love beyond his fears and his ego and heâs learning to follow his heart every single day after a long time of living for others.
And when he comes to you, he will be completely unrecognizable and heâll be different from who he was before, when he had a hard time and couldnât be there for you the way you wanted him to. Youâre going to be so proud of him and so happy to see him again. Let go of any self-doubt Mom or any negative ideas about if Dad loves you or if heâs coming. I know you know he is so hold onto what your heart and your spirit are telling you and just relax. Everything is going to be okay.
Dad needs you to release the past and fully let go of past versions of your connection and even let go of the present because it is not a full representation of what he feels for you. After all, heâs not where he truly wants to be right now which is right by your side. There was a lot of hardship that the two of you went through but even you feel in your heart that it was ages ago and we know that you love him and we know that you love him because you can forgive him and show him so much grace even the second he makes a mistake. Cycles are coming to a close. Your time is coming. Please, just rest. â
channeled messages or things I picked up on during the reading đŁ:
multiples or a set of twins to be specific (a boy and a girl)
âTake me out to the ballgameâ one of these children may really like baseball or grow to like baseball as a sport. You could have an elder family member who enjoys baseball as well.
May enjoy gardening as a hobby
Blue and green as well as purple and orange
Heavily adorned scrapbooks or photo albums
A boy or son being born first or older. He protects.
Close sibling/twin relationship. Irreplaceable to each other. Incomplete without each other. They may grow to enjoy a lot of the same hobbies, I'm getting swimming and recreational sports or arts and crafts they may share together. Not shying away from twin-ness and pride themselves in being very much alike because they respect one another so much.
Boy/son is very caring and emotionally intelligent and compassionate
The girl/daughter may be very shy in nature and very petite and take after her mother in face and stature. I'm hearing she's a diamond. People will really be fond of her beauty and adore her and people who know you or knew you may find her face very nostalgic because she looks so much like you.
I'm also getting that she's got a timeless beauty. She's someone who will grow up to be very stunning and beautiful and would've been that in every era or point in time.
I'm also getting that she may grow up to be fond of music and the arts.
She may like to dance (getting ballet) or do gymnastics.
I'm hearing whoever she marries Daddy is gonna make them pay a big fat dowry or go to the ends of the earth for her and her brother will see it through
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pile two:
The divine masculine in your life could be tall or something or this baby may come out heavy or just be in a larger percentile for his age group. I instantly got that song Sza sang on SNL âI Need a big boyâ
âMom, things will be made right. I really don't want you and Dad to fight or have trouble but sometimes conflict is necessary because things have to fall away and come out in relationships and sometimes things go wrong for a reason and we have to be strong enough to deal with them. I know that you're sad or you're not feeling hopeful right now. And you may feel like everything is going wrong and everything is against you but thatâs just not true. You have to trust in the divine and trust that things will come together and work out for you in the end.
I know that there have been delays and blockages within your and dadâs relationship and with you really getting what you truly desire. And these circumstances have given you bad dreams and made you very scared and anxious but I want you to get some rest and relax. Nothing good comes of being tired and exhausted. Take care of yourself and focus hard on what you can do to make things good around you and enjoy yourself even if things are rough with you and Dad or in other areas of your life. Remember that you and Dad are both growing and sometimes we donât have all of the answers and donât have the solution to everything.
The universe is trying to teach you to find wholeness and happiness within yourself right now Mom because thatâs what you need the most. You may feel like you need dad or other people and things to feel happy and thatâs not true. All the things youâre stressed about arenât good for your health and arenât all your responsibility to carry with you so you have to take some time to release your control and release all of this stress. I see whatâs going on and I know that youâre unhappy and having a hard time with your current circumstances but things are always capable of getting better and these feelings and these times are temporary.
This is a good time to decide what you want to do with your time Mom or want you want to do with your life and how you want to live. Sometimes when there are blockages, separations, or dramatic changes and events in our lives that means that we need to focus on ourselves more. Dad has lots of internal wounds, karmic cycles, and blockages that he needs to work through before he can be there for you the way you need him to and so the best thing to do is to show him grace and compassion and focus on finding happiness and support within yourself. â
channelled messages or things I picked up on in the reading đŁ:
TikTok, social media, or clinging to social media or using social media as a distraction or a way to cope with emotional pain
Umbrella by Rihanna âooo baby itâs raininâ raininââ.
NFL babies /sports babies
âSomewhere over the rainbowâ and itâs lyrics
The Wizard of Oz, the cowardly lion, or the Tin Man and their meanings
Miscarriages/infertility/struggle to conceive or complications during pregnancy, or post partum
Plays, performances, or the theater
A boy/ a son
The color blue
Sports teams/mascots
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pile three:
âI see that youâve been working very hard Mom, taking care of yourself and taking care of your responsibilities and taking responsibility over your life. Itâs time you start thinking about what direction youâd like to take in life or what you really truly want to do so that we have a good foundation for ourselves. Sometimes Iâve seen that youâve had a hard time focusing or a tempted to put your energy into other things. But you know that nows not the time to be distracted and itâs a lot of progress being able to be tempted and have the strength to stay focused and Iâm very proud of you. I know that youâve been feeling alone or have been alone but I want you to know that in isolation the universe brings us growth.
And that sometimes in life people have to walk away from us or we have to walk away from people and even sometimes we drift apart from our friends and loved ones. Itâs a natural part of life and when doors close new doors open Mom. The universe gave you time alone so that you can establish things for yourself and really decide what you want for yourself and take initiative over the directory in which youâre going. All the times weâve had a hard time. All the times weâve undergone lots of change in your life, all the times there was chaos and we were confused were all for a good reason, and in life we have to learn to see the lessons in our experiences.
Itâs time for you to branch out on your own mom and remove your dependence on others and other things in your life that keep you from living authentically and really growing into the beautiful woman youâre meant to be. And one day youâll be happy and youâll be celebrating just how far youâve come all along. Thereâs so much potential for you to grow and for experiences and endless opportunities to reach you. And donât worry about not having found Dad yet Mom because soon you will meet him and soon youâll finally get the love and the relationship youâve dreamed of all along, all this time. â
channelled messages or things I picked up on in the reading đŁ:
This sounds like a girl or a daughter
âAlrightâ by Kendrick Lamar
You may choose to be a single mother or look for a donor when youâre ready to have a child
You may not know who your person is or havenât met your divine counterpart yet or received the love or the relationship that youâve desired for a long time
This child is going to be really attached to you and take after you in many ways. The two of you may bond over fashion or you may end up being the primary parent and main support system
This child may come at a time where youâre going through a large transition or youâre entering a stage in life where you want something new or different
This is a big girly girl. A huge fan of pink and flowers and may like to get her nails done with you.
She may come out looking a whole lot like you as a child or as a baby
This baby is going to heal your inner child by being able to live the life or have some of the experiences you wouldâve wanted for yourself.
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I hope this gave you some guidance or was something you really wanted to hear tonight đ If you ever need a personal reading, you may go to my Instagram and click the link in my bio to book a reading with me! Love you!
#self love#self care#self improvement#self discovery#dream girl#self expression#healingjourney#self healing#manifestation#divine feminine#divine masculine#spirit baby reading#pick a card#pick a card reading#pick a pile#tarot#tarot readers of tiktok#tarot readers of instagram#tarot readers of tumblr
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what are your modern au sns headcanons?
i like to incorporate as many things from canon into modern aus as possible tbh so i kinda already joked about sasuke being probably hunted down by true crime obsessed ppl trying to interview him about his insane murderer brother and also naruto finding out later in life he might be a nepo baby and his father was a big political figure idk itâs funny to me
as for narusasu specific hcs
they met at an orphanage (because unlike konoha who lets children raise themselves i feel modern au they just get shove into the system)
growing up they definitely liked to vandalize places, especially monuments. or well naruto did and sasuke covered for him because he likes naruto.
naruto spends half of his time in middle and high school carving sasukeâs name into tables and walls. he says he does it so sasuke gets blamed but heâs just in love and has a sasuke brainrot.
naruto is a collage drop out and ends up working with plants (i refuse to let him suffer by going into politics) and sasuke also drops out with him but comes back later to finish some because he ends working with reptiles specifically snakes.
naruto loves buy matching stuff All the time but he never admits itâs matching. he just buys things like bracelets or mugs in purple and orange and thatâs it. sasuke is very aware of this but he never complains and uses everything naruto buys.
after they start dating they do wear those stupid matching necklaces kishimoto drew.
in their free time, sasuke is really good at playing instruments whereas naruto is more into painting (heâs so into street art!!!). sasuke for sure has a electric guitar btw
sasuke did narutoâs first piercing (eyebrow one) when they were 14. it hurt so bad they had a physical fight. still, sasuke does the rest of narutoâs piercings too.
they fight a lot!!! everyone is weirded outtt. but itâs normal to them. and five minutes later they are making out. they have a thing for fighting during sex too so thereâs always a black eye or busted lip in the morning.
i canât really see them dating other people prior each other tbh. itâs like in canon they are The One for each other since forever. they have some surface level crushes here and there before they get together but itâs never serious or affects them.
naruto picks kurama when heâs a kid and mistakes it for a puppy. it is in fact a fox but like by the time heâs told that (an hour later) he has already developed affection so no one can do anything about it, thatâs his pet.
neither has a driver license. sasuke gets too annoyed at the traffic and the people in said traffic. meanwhile naruto gets distracted all the time. naruto still has a car and drives it because he thinks itâs fun and since sasuke lets him get away with anything heâs okay with both dying in a car crash because naruto kept singing loudly.
naruto texts sasuke 24/7 and even if sasuke doesnât reply to all, he does read them and remembers them. sasukeâs texts consist in these two emojis: đ and đ
i disagree with the idea that either of them smokes sorry. naruto tries it once but sasuke says he doesnât like the taste after he kisses him and it makes naruto want to kill himself so bad, he never again gets close to do it again.
yeah, they share toothbrush and all (gross)
they are super competitive over video games and itâs probably the reason of 90% of their fights
each of them has seen like ten psychiatrists through their lives but they never stick around nor follow any instructions. they are rawdogging it at life and itâs okay, they make each other happy thatâs what matters
they get married at 18th on impulse. when their friends find out they disapprove and think it wonât last but they do! they never file for divorce or anything
these are all so messy but yeah i canât see narusasu being normal in any setting, they also donât want to be normal
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Timekeeper Raymond Leon pt. 1
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Pairing | Raymond Leon x reader
Summary | Raymond becomes obsessive trying to catch a suspect.
Warnings | 18+, canon level violence, smut, Iâll add tags for that in the next part, guns, angst?, idk what else to tag tbh
Words | 3k
Notes | Idk when part 2 is coming because I still have to write it but Iâll do my best to get it out soon.
Ao3 link | <3
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âIâm timekeeper Raymond Leon.âÂ
You snickered and raised your brows in disbeliefâ what an introduction.Â
âWhat can I help you with, timekeeper Raymond Leon?â He made no indication that he was affected by your mocking, which wasnât all that surprising.Â
âSomeone stole a lot of time and their last known location was with you.âÂ
âReally? I donât recall having any visitors recently. Except you of course.âÂ
âMaybe you just need something to jog your memory.â He reached in his coat pocket and pulled out a somewhat blurry picture of you and the man in question. It was clear enough that you could recognize yourself though.Â
âThatâs not me.â You shrugged.Â
âThatâs not you?â He asked, pointing to the mostly clear picture of your face.Â
âNope.â As he stared at you, you studied his face, trying not to get flustered by the fact thatâ for a timekeeperâ heâs fucking hot. After a moment, he sighed in what seemed like annoyance.Â
âI tried to do this civilly, but if you wonât cooperate Iâm going to have to bring you in and question you officially.âÂ
âCome back with something other than a blurry photo to prove it was me and Iâll talk to you. Until then, fuck off.â He pursed his lips and nodded as he thought.Â
âIf I have to come back, things will be a lot worse for you. This is your last chance.â He warned and you had to refrain from rolling your eyes.Â
âI think Iâll take my chances. You can see yourself out, timekeeper Raymond Leon.â He only stared at you for another moment before standing up and leaving. The second you saw his car pull away, you rushed to pack a bag, not wanting to stay here and make it easy on him when he inevitably returned.Â
You did help that man. In exchange for a place to stay for the night, he gave you one of the time bars he collected. You didnât ask where or how he got them, honestly you didnât care. With what he gave you, you can spend your days hiding from the timekeeper rather than working and giving him another easy place to find you.Â
That proved to be more difficult than you expected though. Multiple times now, heâs almost caught up to you, almost found you, and every time you always run. But you were getting tired and the worst part is that it doesnât seem like he is too. If anything heâs only more motivated to catch you after all this timeâ as if it was personal now.Â
You were walking down the street, continuously checking behind youâ heâs made you so paranoid that you flinch at the slightest sound. When you rounded a corner, your eyes widened at the black car slowly driving in your direction. You immediately turned around and started walking impossibly faster out of nerves, which only seemed to draw attention to yourself because you heard the siren turn on behind you, making you take off into a sprint. Every once in a while you checked behind yourself, finding the car right on your tail. When you turned down an alley, you heard the door slam shut and then loud footsteps, running after you.Â
âStop!â Fuck. Part of you was hoping it would be literally any other timekeeper besides him. But youâve never had good luck.Â
You rounded another corner, chest starting to burn from the exertion, and when you turned down yet another alley, you slowed to a stop at the sight of a building in front of you, high enough that you wouldnât be able to climb over it. You cursed under your breath and turned around to go back and keep running, but he just caught up to you, slowing to a stop a few feet away and pointing a gun at you. When you staggered back, he followed you slowly, gun and eyes completely trained on you.Â
âNo where else to run.â He said, making you look around again just to be sure. Heâs right. You were surrounded by three buildings, there was no way out other than behind him.Â
âThis doesnât seem like a fair fight.â You said, glancing at the gun.Â
âIâm not fighting you.âÂ
âWell I'm not going with you willingly so your options are shoot me or fight me.â He stared at you a moment, then scoffed a laugh and put the gun away.Â
âFine.âÂ
Truthfully this decision mightâve been a little stupid. You donât know how skilled of a fighter he is and youâre not even very good yourself. But you figured having a slight chance was better than having no chance.Â
Everytime you attacked, he blocked it easily with a smirkâ he wasnât even fighting back. Wanting to position yourself on the side of the only exit, you started trying to circle him, but he caught on almost instantly and made sure he always stayed between you and the street. Â
The first time your fist landed on his cheek, both of you were stunned. He snapped out of it though and grabbed your wrist while you were still off guard, then twisted you around so your arm was bent uncomfortably behind your back. He pushed you forward until you hit the wall and then placed your other arm behind you as well.Â
âI didnât even fucking do anything.â You spat, squirming in his grip.Â
âYou ran, lied, and interfered with an investigation.â He said lowly, pressing his body against yours to limit your thrashing.Â
âNo shit I ran. I donât know if youâve noticed, but people like me usually end up dead because of people like you.âÂ
âI wouldnât kill you.â He said simplyâ as if his words would be enough to make you believe him.Â
âNo⌠Youâd just take my time because I âhave too muchâ and then Iâd die.âÂ
âI would only take back the time that doesnât belong to you.âÂ
âSomeone gave it to me. I donât fucking care where they got it from, you should be punishing them not me.âÂ
âTrust me, we have. But since you aided a wanted criminal, you need to be punished too.â You felt him lean back a little before continuing. âOnly ten hours? Whereâs the rest?âÂ
âI wasnât about to walk around with too much time and get myself killed.â You scoffed, thrashing again.Â
âThatâs not what I asked.âÂ
âGo to hell!â He suddenly turned you around, slamming your back against the wall with a firm hand wrapped around your neck.Â
âWhere is it?â You clenched your jaw as your gaze hardened, ignoring the way your chest was heaving and your stomach was fluttering from the proximity alone. âItâs not at your place, we already checked. So where did you stash it?âÂ
âFuck you.â You muttered, making his grip tighten on your neck. His free hand grabbed your wrist and he looked down at it, making you do the same. âHey!â You tried yanking your wrist free as the numbers kept going down and down. He left you with 30 seconds, then looked back up at you.Â
âIâd talk quickly if I were you.âÂ
âThis is not fucking legal!â Your eyes kept rapidly glancing between his face and your armâ 25 seconds now.Â
âEither you tell me where it is and I take it back, or you time out and no one uses it anyway.â 20 seconds.Â
âOkayâ okay Iâll tell you, just- give me my time back.â You rushed out, chest heaving in fear rather than arousal now.Â
âTell me first.âÂ
âFuck!â 15 seconds. Your eyes burned with unshed tears as you watched yourself grow closer and closer to death. Should you just tell him? Give him a fake answer? Maybe heâs bluffing⌠But you donât know for sure whether he is or not. Ten seconds. âPlease- please, Iâll tell youââ You whimpered, but he just waited. Five seconds. âItâs in my apartment!â Your time was going up now, but only back to 30 seconds.Â
âWe already searched there.âÂ
âI- I have somewhere to hide it. Please.âÂ
âShow me.â He said as he gave you an hour. Pulling away from you, he motioned for you to start walking, so you did. âI doubt I need to remind you, but if you try anything, youâll be dead in an hour.âÂ
âFuck you.â You muttered, bottom lip quivering. You were glad you were at least in front of him so he couldnât see you wipe your tears. You canât even remember the last time youâve been that scared.Â
He walked taciturnly behind you, his boots heavy against the pavement compared to your worn down sneakers.Â
âWhy are you doing this?â You asked, not bothering to try and face him.Â
âWhy am I enforcing the law? Because itâs my job.â That made you halt suddenly and you couldnât help yourself when you turned around.Â
âBullshit.â You spat, crossing your arms over your chest. âYouâve been fixated on me for weeks just because itâs your job? Itâs only a few years, the other guy had hundreds. Why am I so fucking important?â He stared at you silently, his cheek flexing as he clenched his jaw, and you did your best not to shrink under his gaze.Â
âIâm not giving you more time until I have what was stolen so I suggest you hurry up.â You huffed and rolled your eyes at his response, then turned around to keep walking. As you neared your apartment, you tried to think of a way out of this. You werenât lying when you said you had somewhere to hide it in your place but you couldnât just give it up that easily.Â
You entered the building and walked up the stairs, then down the hall to your door. Fumbling with your keys, you tried to give yourself more time to think, but he caught on quickly.Â
âStall all you want but you have less than an hour before you time out so I wouldnât recommend it.âÂ
âHow do I know youâre not just going to leave me with this anyway?â You spat, turning around to face him.Â
âBecause unlike you, Iâm not a liar.â He countered and you tried to maintain eye contactâ to not give in. But after only a few seconds, you clenched your jaw and turned back around to open the door.Â
âI need to go to the bathroom.â You said, setting your keys down on the counter as he scoffed a laugh.Â
âSure. After you give me what I came here for.âÂ
âI need to go now.âÂ
âThen you better hurry up.â Your teeth grinded together painfully as you glared at him, but all he did was raise his brows, waiting.Â
âFine.â You opened a drawer in the kitchen and grabbed a screwdriver, then walked to your room as he followed, carefully watching you. You eyed the messy space and gave him an annoyed look. âThey couldâve at least put everything back instead of completely trashing my room.â He didnât respond. Just waited by the door impatiently.Â
You walked over to the nightstand and picked up the alarm clock to unscrew the back. You only bought this clock a couple weeks ago for the sole purpose of hiding the time capsule since you knew theyâd search your apartment.Â
Reluctantly, you took it out and set the clock back on the side table. He walked closer and held his hand out, but you hesitated. Despite the fact that youâve been obsessively anxious and vigilant for the past couple weeks, theyâve been the most relaxing weeks of your entire adult life. You werenât always hours from death, you didnât have to overwork yourself to the point of considering just laying in bed and letting yourself time out.Â
âPlease.â You said quietly, looking up at him. âPlease⌠Canât you just- say I got away? Or that someone stole it from me?â You begged, grip tightening on the capsule. Â
âNo.â Your face fell from just that one word. Even if he gave you back the ten hours, youâd still be dead before you could find work. You looked around the room, gauging how close you were to the door or window and if youâd have a chance. âDonât do something stupid. Youâll only make this worse for yourself.â You turned back to him, eyes starting to burn with tears once again.Â
Impulsively, you decided to take your chances and go for the window since it was already open. You barely made it a foot away from it before a gun was going off, making you jump and squeeze your eyes shut, waiting for the pain you were sure youâd feel. When you opened your eyes, you saw a new hole in the wall in front of you, only inches to the left of your head.Â
âFine!â You yelled, voice breaking. Turning around, you threw the capsule at him and he caught it effortlessly. âJust fucking leave. I donât want the time back.â You knew you probably only had half an hour left, but you felt completely and utterly defeated and exhausted. Â
âWeâre not done yet.âÂ
âI gave you what you wanted.âÂ
âYou still broke the law. Numerous times.âÂ
âSeriously?â He just stared at you. âFine. Iâll time out there instead.â When you walked passed him toward the door, he grabbed your wrist, making you freeze.Â
âNot yet.â He said, then after a few seconds, released your arm that now showed two hours. âLetâs go.â Your gaze shifted between his hands, one with the gun and one with the time capsule. You knew you had to try something before you got in the car because after that youâd have no chance.Â
âRemember what I said about doing something stupid?â Your eyes snapped up to his.Â
âWhat so Iâm just supposed to willingly fucking kill or incarcerate myself by going with you?âÂ
âYes.â He all but shrugged, making your gaze harden. Eventually you just huffed and walked out of your room to the front door as he trailed behind you.Â
The walk back to his car was silent and while you tried to walk slowly, every once in a while heâd nudge your back with the gun, warning you. When you rounded the corner only a block away from his car, you recognized the man across the street.Â
You met him a few days ago. He was on 20 minutes, frantically begging on goers for any type of job theyâd be willing to give. So you gave him a day. He seemed to recognize you too, then noticed the timekeeper behind you. He looked the other direction, spotting the black car a little ways down, and seemed to understand what was happening. Pulling his hood up, he started walking in the opposite direction you came from, then crossed the street so he was behind you.Â
You heard a loud step, then turned around to find the timekeeper catching his balance before turning around to see who had pushed him. You reached for the gun and since he was distracted by your savior, you managed to take it from his loose grip, making him turn back to face you. His eyes quickly changed from shocked, to completely fucking pissed. You took a couple steps back and pointed it at him, watching the other man run away.Â
âGive me the capsule.â You said, gaze shifting to his hand for half a second before looking at his face again. When he took a step forward, you took one back and adjusted your grip on the gun. âSet it on the ground and kick it to me.â You urged.Â
âNo.âÂ
âExcuse me?â You asked, brows shooting up.Â
âIf you want it, youâre going to have to kill me.âÂ
âPlease just give it to me.â You begged, knowing you didnât have what it takes to do that. Slightly lowering the gun, but still keeping your guard up, you stared into hard, unforgiving eyes. He was suddenly rushing toward you, and it all happened so fast that you donât even know what you did, but one second he was moving forward, the next he was on the floor. You could see blood pooling in the pavement and you almost gagged at the sight of the hole in his leg.Â
âOh my godâ oh my god, I- I didnâtâŚâ You quickly threw the gun as if it had burned you and kneeled down next to him, anxiously looking between his pained expression and the wound that was gushing so much blood it almost made you throw up. âAre you okay?âÂ
âAre you fucking kidding?â He hissed, making you flinch.Â
âSorryâ Iâm sorry.â He stared at his leg for a second before growling and discarding the time capsule on the floor so he could put pressure on his leg. âWhereâs your phone?â You reached for his coat pocket, making him flinch back.Â
âDonât fucking touch me.â He spat.Â
âYou need to call someone or youâll bleed out!â How is it possible that youâre more panicked than he is right now? He seemed to understand his options though.Â
âFine.â You reached in his pocket and took out his phone to call 911, making sure to specify that it was a timekeeper that needed help so that they didnât take their time. You donât know why you did that for him though. He was about to arrest you for god's sake. After hanging up, you put it back in his pocket then reached for the time capsule, making sure to stay out of arm's reach. You gave yourself three days, then set it down next to him.Â
âIâm sorry for shooting you. I honestly didnât mean to.â He gave you a look of almost disbelief and irritation at the fact that youâd said something like that.Â
âYouâre not running?â He asked, breathing getting more and more labored.Â
âIâm waiting until I hear the siren.âÂ
âWhy?â
âBecause I shot you and I feel bad.â You said sheepishly, making him scoff.Â
âAfter all this time, you care enough to make sure I donât bleed out?â He snarked.Â
âWould you rather I go?â You asked, gaze still nervously moving between his eyes and his leg. He let out a quiet huff and rolled his eyes. âPlease donât try to find me again.â You begged.Â
âYou shot a timekeeper. Youâll be lucky if the order isnât to shoot on sight.â
âPlease.â You whispered urgently.Â
âI donât have any control over that. But even if I did, Iâm not going to stop.â
âPlease, Raymond.â Your head snapped up at the sound of sirens quickly growing closer. Before you stood, you grabbed the gun just in case. âPlease.â
âRun all you want. Iâll find you eventually.â
Part 2
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My Stand-In Episode 10
Just a few scattered notes of things I have on my mind.
I have been very very very obsessed with the moment where Joe breaks up with Ming after Ming's mom went in on them. See, originally I took Joe at his word: He's tired. He's tired of the constant melodrama, the neverending battle just to exist. Ming and his family already killed Joe once, he just wants some quiet contentment and to not feel like he's fighting for his life every time he holds his boyfriend's hand. Honestly, I really loved that, that their breakup this episode wasn't a contrived fight full of blame and accusation, but was simply Joe realizing he's too exhausted and walking away.
But then it hit me like a load of bricks, that no, actually. Joe didn't end things in that moment because he wants peace and quiet. He left before Ming could hurt him again. He left because he didn't believe Ming would stand up to his mother or his family - or more like, he didn't want to let himself start hoping he could, and get disappointed. Since the funeral, Ming has been giving Joe everything he ever wanted Ming to give him and more (I mean if you don't count "respecting his boundaries" as something Joe wants but 1. Ming is kiiiinda starting to get there by the end of this ep lmao? 2. I'm talking about everything Joe wants to feel from Ming on a visceral level, more than what would make his relationship safe and sane). Ming has been telling Joe over and over again that he loves him, showing Joe over and over that he chooses him, showing Joe at every turn that Tong is nothing to him. No matter how much Joe or Ing push Ming or test Ming, Ming just keeps coming back and reaffirming his commitment to Joe, adapting to who Joe is now and offering him anything and everything he can give, sincerely, determinedly vowing to put him first. Joe has been trying so hard not to let himself want it or believe in it, but by the time they're in that meeting room with Ming's mom, he is back in honeymoon mode with Ming, truly starting to believe he gets to have the kind of relationship (two-sided. equal. where Joe is taken care of and spoiled and chased, not just the caretaker and spoiler and chaser) it used to feel too greedy to dare hope for.
And then Ming's mom reminds him of how easy (Joe thinks) it will be for Ming to pull the rug out from under him again, and send it all crashing down. Just like in his first life in honeymoon mode, when he realized Ming was here for Tong and not him, that this relationship that was making him feel so whole and safe was all a lie.
Like with something as big as breaking with a family that will never accept his sexuality, Joe has no instinct to "test" Ming or give him an ultimatum. I don't actually think it's with real disappointment in Ming himself that Joe gives up on Ming choosing him before Ming even gets the chance to try. I think Joe is probably completely sympathetic to the choice he expects Ming to make, and intellectually, doesn't begrudge it of him, the way he would (or should) begrudge so many of the actual terrible things Ming has done to him. But it still hurts so much to have reality force its way into their bubble, and remind Joe that even Ming trying his absolute hardest can't protect Joe from feeling that crushing loss again. So he takes himself away from the situation before it has the opportunity to hurt him again.
Idk if I'm getting at why I'm so obsessed with this, but there's just something to me about how happy Joe must have been feeling at Ming's side, to need to proactively remove himself from the situation to avoid getting his heart shattered like those mugs. Like "I'm tired" means "I can't do these high-lows anymore. I can't feel this good and have it taken away again." This is exactly why he's been trying so so so hard to freeze his heart around Ming: So he's not vulnerable to the particular kind of hurt he never recovered from in his first life.
And I just find it very moving that the source of that hurt this time isn't Ming making disastrous choices. It's something neither Ming nor Joe has control over. And Joe knows that! But it still hurts too much to hope and want things.
Meanwhile, Ming is like: Hope and want whatever you want, beloved. I am now Mr. Makes Shit Happen. I can do anything as long as you're alive in this world.
Which is another thing I've been thinking a lot about. Sol and Ming both trying to make themselves into these superperson supershields so things will be Different This Time, and smacking up against some natural end limits to their abilities. For Sol, no matter how hard he turns himself upside down trying to make himself into someone Joe can pick instead of Ming, the attraction will never be there, and Ming always WILL be there, reminding Joe of his feelings for him. For Ming, the limit on his absolutely determined devotion to Joe is his family. And Sol and Ming, both trying so hard to be bigger and more than they are, when they come face to face with their limit still refuse to back down. No matter how laughably futile it is.
To me, Ming standing there looking all tiny at the bottom of the stairs with his dad looming at the top is the equivalent of how manically out of his element trying to do the impossible Sol was in episode 9. But just like Sol, Ming can't stop now. No matter what happens in episode 11, Ming has to try to fight this impossible fight. Neither of them is willing to leave anything on the table after losing Joe once before.
Idk I wonder if they will have to work together before the end hahaha... we'll see.
I had more thoughts but this is once again a monster post so I will end by simply reiterating how amazing and hilarious I think it is that Tong tried to get Ming to pay him HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF BAHT for the privilege of removing the only source of happiness from his life. Like come to the meeting room, Ming! Let's make a deal where you go back to being depressed and alone, and give me all the money I want! Surely this will work out in a way where we can both walk out satisfied! The lion the witch and the audacity of this bitch <3 <3 <3 <3
#my stand in#my stand in the series#my stand in spoilers#dear diary#why does it take me so many words to express such simple thoughts and feelings#i don't feel like i even got across what i wanted to with sol and ming though which is that they're both so tiny#and like inadequate for their own purposes#trying to puff themselves up and make themselves able to fill so many more roles#do so many more things#anything it takes#than they'll ever be capable of. it moves me#ming practiced making instant noodles over and over....#mingjoe
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is it too early to love you? - final part (7)
(moodboard made by moi)
part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7
summary: reader and spencer meet in the afternoon like theyâd promised to play chess and get coffee. everything is prefect and comfortable, even as reader gets brave enough to do something she felt sorry for not doing sooner.Â
a/n: gang⌠i donât wanna end this one⌠but idk what i should do past this partđđđ but if yall want more just request smth cuz im obsessed with how this turned outđ¤ ALSO ty for all the love youâre given this series, ive had a blast writing this (literally destroyed my sleep schedule i made because i go back to school in like four days or some bullshit) and itâs rlly awesome being a writer that makes fun little things that ppl end up loving!!!! so big ty to all of yall whoâve been readingÂ
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was this too much?
i stared at myself in the mirror as i adjusted the collar of my sweater with my fingers.Â
iâm just going to see my best friend, so why am i dressing like this is a date? and why am i so nervous.Â
itâs a good nervous. the kind that had an entire rabble of butterflies fluttering around my stomach.
it wasnât fancy, just a casual outfit that heâd definitely never seen me in before. i would wear this on a date though. on an occasion like this one.
i stepped away from my reflection. it was 11:30 and it wouldnât take me longer than ten minutes to get to the coffee shop but i got my shoes on anyway. it doesnât hurt to be early.Â
i left my apartment in a giddy rush. my feet were louder on the stairs than usual due to my quick pace.Â
one of my neighbors who was walking inside gave me an amused smile. âwhatâre you getting up to today?â she asked.Â
i directed my eyes towards her. âiâm going to see a friend.â my lips were pinned in a smile.Â
she grinned widely. âis it that boy whoâs always coming over? the handsome tall one with brown hair?âÂ
âmaybe.â i nodded.Â
she gave me a knowing look. âoh honey, are you sure heâs just a friend?â
i tried to hide the flush over my cheeks. âiâm sure.âÂ
âokay.â she nodded slowly like she wasnât convinced. âiâll know when heâs more than that.âÂ
i rolled my eyes and left the building, deciding to walk instead of drive. maybe itâll help my energy levels.Â
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i was cold by the time i got to the coffee shop. the autumn air was motionless apart from when cars would drive past me on the street, and the chill bit at my face and hands, even though i had them hidden in the sleeves of my sweater. it was bearable though.Â
âwelcome in!âÂ
the cheerful voice of a barista behind the counter mingled with the bell above the door and the chatter of customers placed across the establishment. it was warm inside and it smelled like coffee, for obvious reasons.Â
âhey.â a familiar voice sounded behind me. i turned around to look at spencer while he closed the shop door behind himself.Â
âhi.â i smiled.Â
âhave you been here long?â he wondered.Â
i shook my head and freed my hands from my sleeves. âno. i got here a minute or two agoâŚâ spencerâs hand on my face had me trailing off. his fingers moved some of my hair away from my eyes.
âdid you walk?â his brows were pinched together, more so as i nodded. âitâs cold out.âÂ
i smiled. heâs too sweet. âiâm okay. itâs not that bad.â i promised him through the tone of my voice and the look i gave him through my lashes.Â
he smiled softly with a nod. âgood.âÂ
âwe still have a chess game to go play, so you better not let the temperature get to you.â my hand reached out to gently clamp around his wrist so i could pull him after me into the short line so we could get our coffees and then walk to the park.Â
âcan i try yours?â i asked while walking down the sidewalk, outside again. i gestured to his coffee by tapping the side of it with my index finger. our arms brushed as we walked.Â
spencer hummed a âyesâ as he handed off his cup to me.Â
i excitedly took his cup and sipped from it, cautiously because iâve heard morgan say that it would put him in a coma if he had more than a sip of it after mixing up an order. this happened years ago but morgan still talks about it.
he was right because when the drink hit my tongue i closed my eyes, pulling a face at how sweet it was. âjesus!â
spencerâs sweet laughter swirled inside my head. he gently took his cup back. âtoo sweet?âÂ
i nodded quickly. âyeah. how do you drink that everyday?â i sipped my own coffee to try and get rid of the sugar that still lingered on my tongue.Â
when we kissed he tasted like that.
he shrugged. âi donât know, Iâm just used to it i guess.â
our arms brushed again because i canât walk in a straight line but he didnât seem to mind. âwhat did you get?â he quizzed.Â
i read the baristaâs handwriting on the side of the cup. it was what i got whenever i went to a coffee shop but i still liked to get my answer right. âa half dark half white chocolate mocha with caramel. i got a double shot of espresso today so⌠weâll see how that plays out.â my eyes trailed up to his face while we stopped at the crosswalk across from the park. he glanced down at me, eyes all content. his pupils were blown wide which made it hard to see the brown of his eyes.Â
âdonât get a caffeine rush on me.â spencer told me. âi might not be able to handle you.âÂ
i scoffed with a squint of my eyes. âplease, youâre able to handle me no matter what.âÂ
he agreed with me.Â
while we were stepping away from the safety of the sidewalk i mindlessly grabbed spencerâs hand. it was just a habit iâve always had. an instinct to reach out and hold onto whoever i was with while crossing the street.Â
when we reached the other side i quickly released his hand. i met his eyes with my own. âsorry. force of habit.â i smiled shyly.Â
spencer smiled back. âitâs okay.âÂ
he found an empty table to play chess at, which was the only one that wasnât occupied. i never knew people favored playing chess in a park so much until now.
i sat down on a stone chair on one side of the board while spencer sat across from me, pulling a box of chess pieces out of his bag. i watched him slide the white colored pieces over to me. âdo you just carry those around all the time?â i wondered while placing all the pieces in the correct places.Â
âyeah.â he nodded.Â
i smiled. âyou have a marry poppins bag.âÂ
âi love marry poppins.â spencer hummed.Â
i laughed quietly in endearment. heâs really pretty today.Â
âokay,â i put my hands flush against one another and rubbed them together. âprepare to loose.â i slid one piece forward.
spencer shook his head. âin your dreams.â he moved a piece.Â
i watched him and processed a few things i could do before moving.Â
we went back and forth in silence for a few minutes before i looked up at him. he was looking at the board with furrowed brows. âwhen did you learn to play?âÂ
spencer moved a piece before answering. âwhen i was a kid. me and my mom would play a lot.â he focused on my lips for a moment before shifting to my eyes. he smiled almost timidly.Â
i stole one of his pieces with my next move. it was held between my fingers beside my face. âgotcha.â i whispered.Â
he took a piece of mine and mirrored me. âyou were saying?â
i frowned. âyouâre mean.â i moved again.
âthis is all part of the game.â he laughed as we kept playing.Â
i rested my head in my hand and stared at the pieces in thought. i moved another piece over the board before taking a quick sip of coffee.Â
the park was nice today. there were a lot of people walking or sitting or playing chess like us. it was comfortable. i donât know why i havenât come here as much.Â
spencerâs hair fell over his face when a light breeze blew through the park and i wanted to reach out and brush it out of his eyes.Â
i donât remember moving my arms to do so, but i leaned across the small table and did so anyway. spencer didnât take his eyes off of mine, not while i was moving his hair with my fingertips on his skin, and not when his hand mirroring mine took the one in his hair in his own. he intertwined our fingers and i thought i was dreaming as he moved so our elbows were propping our joined hands over the board.Â
he nonchalantly went back to the game, taking one of my pieces. âyour move.â he squeezed my hand to snap me out of my trance the physical contact put me in.Â
i nodded, pursing my lips. âright.â i felt like there was more attention on me and it made my focus dwindle. i still moved a piece that spencer took after a few moves, but he smoothed his thumb over the small extent of my hand he could touch.Â
i smiled suddenly as i took a piece of his. âwhile i was leaving my building my neighbor asked me where i was going. when i told her i was seeing a friend she asked âthe handsome tall one with brown hairâ and i thought that was such an accurate description of you.â i sipped more of my coffee. being outside had cooled it down significantly.Â
spencer squeezed my hand that i was convinced he wasnât ever going to let go. i met his eyes. âyou think iâmâŚâ he trailed off momentarily while he moved another piece. âtall?â he asked, that stupid but addicting smile slipped onto his lips.Â
i scoffed, mouth open in an amused smile. âyes, yes i do.â i nodded with a laugh. âall 6â1 of you.âÂ
spencerâs eyes were so soft on mine. they were just full of adoration and endearment. i didnât have a problem with getting lost in them. iâd get more lost just in his company every day.Â
âyouâre so beautifulâŚâ his voice was so quiet i wouldnât have caught what heâd said if i wasnât looking at him. i read his lips in slow motion.Â
âthank you.âÂ
we played the rest of the game in silence and secret glances. spencer won which didnât surprise me. he told me i was good though, and that must mean iâm really good if its coming from him.Â
spencer let go of my hand so that we could put the pieces away. my hand got cold immediately. i worked quickly to group the colors of pieces and slide them over to him.Â
when we left the table, people immediately occupied it. i laughed slightly.Â
âis there this many people here often?â i asked, my hand brushing his as we walked.Â
he slowly interlaced our fingers again, being casual with it. âthis isnât the busiest itâs been.â he replied. i nodded, looking down at our joined hands.Â
my feet stopped moving across the sidewalk and spencer stopped with me. âyou okay?âÂ
i looked up at him, searching his eyes for what he must have searched mine for when heâd first kissed me.Â
i wanted to kiss him.Â
i canât deny that anymore.Â
so in the middle of the park in the afternoon i did just that. i stood on my toes and kissed him. my chest pressed against his and i swear i could feel his quickened heartbeat while our lips gently pressed together.Â
spencer dropped my hand to cradle my face, meaning i couldnât pull away so soon. and i was just fine with that.Â
i slid my hand around his waist to his back. my palms pressed flat into him, making a soft hum pass from him to me.Â
when we did pull away for breath, spencer whispered, âitâs not too early to love me.â his forehead pressed against mine.Â
i smiled. âyou heard me that night?â
âyeah.â he nodded subtly. âand iâve played it over and over again in my head.âÂ
i smiled, tilting my head to kiss him once. âit sounds like you love me.â i ran my hands down his back.Â
âi do.â he whispered. âi really do.âÂ
my head rested on his chest as i hugged him closer. his arms wrapped around me in an instant. âiâm sorry i made you wait for me.â i muttered.Â
âiâd wait for you no matter what.â spencer replied, kissing the top of my head.Â
i smiled in content, breathing in his scent that was like a muscle relaxant. everyone and everything around me and him just faded away.Â
until both of us got a phone call.Â
i frowned and dug into my pocket to answer the same time as spencer.Â
âhello?âÂ
âhello my lovely, we have a case and need you here ASAP.â penelopeâs cheerful voice filled my ear. i sighed and looked up at spencer as he gave me the same look.Â
i nodded. âokay. weâll start heading over.âÂ
âwhoâs âweâ?â penelope asked.Â
âme and spencer.â i replied, not really caring if she freaks out because itâs worth it for him.Â
she squealed over the line. spencer had already hung up and was waiting for me. âthatâs so adorable. okay, get here quick, hotch is looking at me impatiently.â
âokay. see you soon.âÂ
âbye!â
i shoved my phone back into my pocket. âthere goes the weekend.â i took spencerâs hand as we walked to where his car was parked.Â
âiâm glad we got to do this.â he told me. i smiled, running my thumb against his hand.Â
âme too.â i agreed.Â
spencer stopped in the middle of the sidewalk to kiss me once. i giggled with my eyes closed. âwhat was that for?â i wondered.Â
âjust to make sure this is real.â he replied.Â
i stood on my toes to kiss him again. âit is.âÂ
he kissed me one more time, which resulted in some guy telling us to âget a roomâ to which i started laughing, head leaned back.Â
spencer started dragging me to his car with that, we were in the safety of it when he kissed me one last time.Â
âthe team is waiting.â i reminded him.Â
his eyes went wide. âi forgot.â he chuckled softly.Â
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when we made it to the roundtable room morgan whistled at us. âabout time.âÂ
i smiled awkwardly and sat down, spencer following right beside me. âsorry. my car wouldnât start.â i lied.Â
âah yes, so you repaid pretty boy with a kiss?âÂ
i whipped my head towards spencer and noticed a mark from the tinted chapstick i was wearing on his lips. i discretely used my fingers to wipe away any color that escaped my lips. âthatâs not from me thatâs from⌠a random girl on the street.â i avoided everyoneâs eyes while attempting not to smile. âshe thought he was handsome.âÂ
the whole team exchanged a series of unconvinced looks. hotch was the first to speak. âstart the brief garcia.âÂ
with that she got started, talking about the new case full of gruesome details that i only heard half of. i was too distracted by the way spencer grabbed my hand under the table and squeezed it to assure we were okay.Â
the team definitely didnât believe any of what iâd just said but it didnât really matter. neither of us cared.Â
it definitely wasnât too early to love him.Â
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Summary: follow along with joe and his wife evie as they go through his football career.
*face claim is yasmin quintana*
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joeyb_9
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joeyb_9: my first dump
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sam_hubbard_: excellent
charmin: First dump huh, we got you covered. đ¤
> evie: ohhh. this is crazyyyy! đ¤Ł
user: I LOVE THIS POST
evie: big dumps only. make sure you wash your hands after.
> joeyb_9: if thereâs one thing iâm good at itâs post dump hygiene.
user: the arms?????
user: chess king
evie
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evie: like we were in paris..
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user: iâm obsessed with you guys
millyg: i double tapped every pic bc well i love you
> evie: not the triple double tap!!! đđ
user: do you follow him everywhere
> evie: he typically goes to football practice alone.. so nope.
joeyb_9: i was taken by the view..
> evie: careful jb your swiftie is showing.
> user: itâs okay ev, we already know he secretly loves her.
> joeyb_9: i only know the words because evangeline has listened to it no less than 500 times since we landed..
user: does joe always have to make an appearance in your posts?
> evie: i mean.. heâs like.. idk.. my husband??
user: yes yes yes
> evie: xoxo
joeyb_9
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joeyb_9: with @voguemagazine doing some new things
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nfl: đĽđĽđĽ
user: gosh i love u
evie: babe literally who gave you the right
obj: Brrrrrrrddddd
user: @evie tell us the tea.. did he have the bracelets on under the suit?
> evie: đ
user: joey you know exactly what youâre doing
> evie: yes, he does.
user: this is great on so many levels
user: very chic joe!
user: MY MY MY WHAT DO WE HAVE HERE
> evie: a major hottie
user: ev how do you handle the epic levels of thirst under joes posts?
> evie: i just canât really blame anyone.. i mean đĽľ
evie
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evie: pasta 10/10
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user: you are perfect
millyg: MRS worldwide
> evie: angel face.. come see me soon.
user: eating good huh?
> evie: eating GREAT actually
joeyb_9: đŽâđ¨đŽâđ¨đŽâđ¨
> evie: lovie đ
user: i remember when you used to do lives eating mcdonaldâs in bed, now youâre eating pasta in paris!!
> evie: dreams really do come true..
> user: donât act like you got yourself here, youâve been piggy backing off joe for years.
> evie: yes, iâve been using my HUSBAND for years to get rich and famous (even though when we started dating he was a backup qb). go to therapy.
> user: eat them up bby.
evie
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evie: iâm so in love that i might stop breathing
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millyg: damn near 10 years together and youâre sooo obsessed with each other. itâs sick.. and precious.
> evie: quit being so jealous mills. you know i love you too.
user: i am SOBBING
> evie: me. too.
user: i want to be you when i grow up
user: happy sunday, you deserve this love.
> evie: iâll do everything in my power to make sure i keep deserving it.
joeyb_9: forever and ever x
> evie: never gonna change. đ
lahjay10_: oh burrow is going to be obsessing over this
> user: @ all the people who complain about her posting him too much. he loves it shut up.
> evie: you said it đ
evieâs stories:
*tell a friend to tell a friendâŚ. sheâs baaaaack!!! i just couldnât stay away from evie for long, idk how often iâll update these throughout the season but they will be coming sporadically. meanwhile, send requests!
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