#idk that’s just some shitty writing advice ig

[donothing-nothingworks]

guy who comes up with new characters and immediately starts making alignment charts about it

[platonicmoonwater00]

I see these everywhere. and i mean EVERYWHERE. and also i need motivation so lets go ig

10 notes- i'll drink on weekends too(i forget cos on weekends im just at home and not at school lugging around my frank green in my tote bag)

20 notes- i will(try to) pay attention in class

30 notes- i'll watch my whole watch later playlist on yt

50 notes- i'll actually do the techniques im learning in ✨therapy✨ to help with my anxiety and shitty social skills

75 notes- i'll take my iron tablets every day

100 notes- i'll start my assessments when i get them(i have one due tomorrow which i was gonna finish now but i'm doing this apparently)

125 notes- i'll ask my crush to hangout alone during spring holidays

150 notes- i'll try to go for a run or at least a walk every day

500 notes- i'll write another chapter of my fanfiction

1k notes- i will actually make an effort to get clean

2k notes- if i see someone pretty that i want to go out w in public i'll ask for their number cos holy fuck i need to put myself out there. even if we js end up being friends cos holy shit im lonely

3k notes- i will actually finished the dress i started making

4k notes- i will try to get over my crush cos its ✨never gonna happen✨(she so pretty and masc tho its gonna be hard)

5k notes- (this is so far up here cos idk how to do this so im gonnna need a lot of time to figure out how) im gonna try to demolish the rumour that im gay thats going around a bit.**

6k notes- i will finish all my crochet projects and not start any new ones until im done.

**context. i go to an all girls school and theres a lot of people so its not like everyone knows everyone, even in my year(theres approx. 174 in my year alone, and theres 6 year groups at my school cos high school is 7-12 where i live) but some people know me ig cos i know a few girl who are more notable, im in the top class and i recdntly started sitting with a group that the popular girls call furries.

(theyre a pretty big group and popular girls hate them cos one or two of them are trans - ftm, ftnb etc, no mtf cos my lovely/s catholic school wouldnt let trans girls in- several of them are gay, a few of them are emo, most of them are poc's and a few of them dont have english as their first language. overall they are seen as the "weird kids" in my year)

so this rumour apparently is going around that i like a girl in my class(i absolutely do but if you havent noticed my school is hella hoomophobic and i could very well get beat) which js isnt ideal and is gonna lead to a lot of issues, especially if a lot of people start believing it so if you guys have any advice pls lmk. and its not like i can js get a fake bf and show him off cos its a GIRLS SCHOOL. if i reconnect with a friend from primary school tho we could pretend to be dating and like make a post on social media. but then kids at his school would find out and hed either have to tell them its fake(which would eventually find its way back to my school, and when i say eventually i mean immediately) or he couldnt get a girlfriend so that probs wouldnt work.

i know it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but ive got years to go here and i dont want to spend all my high school years getting bullied bc even if i went to a teacher about it or smthing id have to like analyse them first and try to figure out which ones are homophobic or not.

like learning about why "being gay is a sin"(pretend im saying that really mockingly) is literally in our curriculum.

holy shit that was longer than expected.

no pressure tags: @wishiwereheather13 @loserboyfriendrjl @fracturedsunsets @chasingthemoony @stars-and-leather @starsofleo

thats all im doing idk how you guys can stand js copy and pasting moots over and over i cant do this i did the first six that came up and that seems like enough 🤷‍♀️

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[surplus-of-sarcasm]

ive tried to write women so many times but have failed to the point theres barely any female characters in my stories. and im very aware this is a flaw in my writing because i dont hang around women often and the only long term contact with a female i have is with my family members i dont know how to write female characters on a personal level because i can never relate to them. this sucks ass but correct me if im wrong i think its better to not write female characters at all than write a shitty possibly offensive one even if i dont realize it

Hi.

Okay, here's my take on what you're saying. I know for a fact that the most difficult things to write are things/situations/environments we know so little about. And it's even harder to get it right when it's a more sensitive thing, if yk what I mean. A huge perspective shift like this is definitely a challenge because men and women are quite different.

Here's the thing. I'm not trying to pressure you into writing them, but I'm telling you that even if you have problems with them now, doesn't mean you have to give up on writing them completely. If not writing them at all is your final decision, then that's still okay, still your call in the end, but if you do want to write them, it's very possible.

I know I write both male and female characters, but the first time I ever officially wrote smth that wasn't for school, it was with a female protag because ultimately, I see the world from the eyes of a woman. When I decided to write a male character for a more serious project, I realised I needed to research it. And lemme tell you that again, not every piece of advice in a writing help article is always applicable. It's largely based on the author's own personal experiences. They're more like tips than rules you must adhere to.

Please note that I've spent considerable time around men I'm close to in my family, I had male classmates and currently have a friend who's a guy, so that definitely helps. And it's completely understandable that you haven't spent enough time around women to grasp more about them Ig. My male characters are not exactly copy-paste of these men/boys either, but some of their traits and mannerisms may be connected.

And you not relating to them is completely okay. I'm not very likely to relate to parts of my male character's life that come with him being a man, but what I can relate to is what makes him human. There is definitely an overlap in several traits between men and women. For example, the way I would feel angry abt smth would be different from how a guy Ik would feel angry about the same thing. The key is simply to avoid bad cliches.

Again, I'm not trying to get you to write them if you really don't want to. Forcing yourself to write smth you don't want to definitely won't help, and won't create good pieces of writing. But just in case you wish to in the future, you can practice and research and test it out, and fun fact, part of it involves a little bit of winging it. I've done this for like genres/ideas I haven't tried before, and surprisingly it actually works. But, tbf, it's a lot more difficult when the issue at hand is the opposite gender.

And answering your last question, while it doesn't mean you must give up completely and you will never be able to do it, I can agree that no representation is better than a poorly represented character. Though, there is a chance you might be too harsh on yourself, since Idk exactly what any female characters you've written are like.

And about my reblog on that post abt writing women, Ig it was more aimed at people who've never tried or misrepresent women by applying a crap ton of harmful stereotypes to them. You seem to have made a genuine effort, so that's a pretty good thing.

Sorry for the long post, and thank you for the ask.

[unknwnxquantity]

I need to vent and this feels like a safe space at the moment. Fuck physically writing in a journal my thoughts are too fast for all that.

It’s funny as I type things escape my mind, but when I don’t try to put things into words, I think 30282736 miles per min with 10 different topics racing all at the same time. But I’m tired of negative ass ppl bro. Negative ass nasty attitudes about everything. It’s like i can’t win. I can’t!! It’s so draining. I miss lightheartedness. I miss silliness. Why can’t people find the good in a situation even if it’s shitty?

I ended things with my therapist last week. It feels like a breakup. I mean that’s a little dramatic lol. Love her, she gave me tough love when I needed it (she also shares my sisters bday and my brothers moon sign, that was a nice thing that showed me I was supposed to have her). Had her for a few years but all it was was talk therapy and I’m tired of talking. I started to feel ashamed of myself with all the things I talked about. Talk talk talk. I’m so tireddddd of talking of the same thingssss and bringing them more to life by overly thinking and ruminating, going in circles. I’m so tired of being that person. And i was also inconsistent with her these last couple months with our sessions. Not living in my truth. So I have another therapist that I’m gonna try with but he’s a man so idk. But it’ll be more adhd focused so I guess that’ll be more of what I need.

As the yts call it im “in between a rock and a hard place”. In several different ways. There are easy solutions to my problems. But I don’t take them. Call me a hypocrite, but doing the right thing is not easy. It’s fucking hard. I hate not being comfortable. I feel so isolated. I’m not alone but I feel alone. I feel like a bother and an annoyance to everyone except my kitten. That’s my girly fr. Girl cats are just itttt, I love the dynamics of both boy and girl cats individually. But girl cats are just that girl! I feel they’re more empathetic, caring of your needs/the bond and more loving overall. Boy cats I feel are more standoffish and on their own terms. Get you a girl cat or just a cat in general. Especially black cats they get a bad wrap like pitbulls but end up being the most gentle little things.

I feel I’m becoming like ppl I don’t want to be. Like an old middle aged person full of regrets and envious of those 18-22. I feel like times ticking. I’m 25 I have my whole life ahead of me and yet why do I feel my youth withering away?? I blame social media. That’s y I deactivated my IG fuck everybody I compare myself to. Fuck those ppl who live freely and go to parties while I feel I don’t have that. But also not fuck them and I’m happy for them.

Things are good tho in my life with the places I work. Ppl respect me and love me. It took some time but once I started being myself, with each job me getting more comfortable that much quicker and my anxiety not controlling how I am socially, ppl love me bro. I make ppl laugh!! They ask for my advice! They say they love my good energy! But these jobs aren’t my career path, so it’s gonna be hard saying goodbye which I will be very soon.

I miss my family but also I don’t. If my sister sees this which you won’t, I’m sorry you know what I mean. I live away from them. They give me headaches but they are my soul family (even tho my parents are def more behind spiritually than me and my siblings so the irony is funny). I miss our trips to Marshall’s and starbies. I miss our movie nights and I miss our long walks all together. I miss my mom blaring bad bunny and me pretending like I know the lyrics bc my mom never taught me Spanish 😭 (my moms an og fan dont play with her, from like 2017ish and saw this man several times before he got big). I don’t miss the chaos tho or the dysfunction, or passive aggressiveness with certain individuals that are in my family’s life.

And it’s funny bc today was such a good fucking day. So many synchronicities. I got to see fucking Steve wilkos bro lol and I was taped where you can see me!! Ima be on tv!! It reminds me of my last job where I’d be around famous ppl a lot and interact with them. That was nice. And yet everything’s hitting me like a truck. It feels like I’m not growing. I am but I’m not. I am and have come so far but it’s also like have I? But then it’s like yeah I have.

Anyways my phones dying. I’m listening to blind by sza. I feel that even tho I am not a straight woman dealing with men🤣 no jk bc the songs not really about that. But I do feel blind to all the things inside of me and what my soul tells me. I loveee when women sing/speak about how embarrassing it is to have feelings!! It is embarrassing!! Like yes and no. Also good days is really nice it feels like therapy in a song like blind. I need to listen to more sza. I like her project z tho, I haven’t listened to all of ctrl or sos so I gotta get on that? I need more women artists in my life who speak of mourning and the depths and complexities of their emotions.

Oh well. Should I post this? Why not

[honeymouthedtales]

if you /want/ to be active you should have days for answering about specific things, like hm dys and iotol days. whatever works for you ig. but i love your ramblings. I'm always scared to comment on your posts coz it seems like I'm not supposed to? like maybe you didn't post to get engagement? although that sounds dumb now that im thinking about it. Like why would you tweet into the void lol? But i like when you're active or just rting art and interacting with ms sulbi and some of your more active readers. im guessing the days after your updates get a lot more engagement so you can see how the fyp actually works

The main problem is that while I (sometimes) have confidence in my fics I have zero confidence in my ability to be liked for everything else. It's not an issue for me, I know I'm boring, I have a weird sense of humor, and I am sometimes too vocal about my opinions (something for which in the past I have received both hate and well-meaning but kinda rude suggestions that I should keep to myself or make a twitter only for my fics, so that people who like my fics wouldn't have to deal with my shitty personality). So honeymouthed_ was never an account targeted towards engagement, it needed to work mainly as an archive so that people could easily find updates and answers related to the fics without having to go through everything else.

But of course I love when people interact with me. Every time I write something I do want people to reply and I love it when they do. But I also noticed that some people sometimes don't want to talk to me, maybe they are intimidated, or idk they're happy gushing about the fic but they're not interested in interacting with the writer that much. I don't know how much it's paranoia but this is how I perceive it, so sometimes if it's not a question (I always answer questions) I just like the reply I got and hope it conveys that it made me happy without freaking people out?

This said, I don't know if using the account like it's a job (daily mission: reach target amount of engagement beep bop) would make me or the readers happy. I can only hope that people who are interested in what I have to say will try to interact a little and hope that's enough to boost my account. It helps that the posts that really need to reach an audience are the fic updates and people are always very generous with likes and rts with those 🙏

But I would like to hold a honeymouthed day and a iotol day, maybe not every week but every month? I'll bounce the idea on twitter and see if people react positively.

Thank you for the great suggestions though, I didn't think anyone would actually have advice on this, I had just resigned myself to the sad destiny of being scorned by the algorythm.

[jayt23]

So, here's my opinion on the people I know irl based on their personality types and stuff

So, since I'm an introvert and it would be boring to just put my friends and family here, I'm just gonna include random people I know, like some trainers of this medical gym I go to for my health(I literally don't know what you call these but whatev)

I'm just gonna start with my favorite, INFP: So the people I know who have this type are: My lil sister, my mother, two of my friends, my crush and probably some other people I'm forgetting. Literally I can just dump my random knowledge on them and they're too shy to complain, so thanks for that Ig.

Next is the same but now it's extroverted 😱 ENFP:

People I know w/ that type: My best friend and also basically half of the YouTubers I watch. So obviously I like their humor, but the one I know personally is like the most pessimistic person I know so like, do your job? I definitely shouldn't be the person spreading positivity in our friend group, I suck at that lol.

I don't really have to say much about the next one, aka INFJ. I have one friend and like five online friends with that type and online stuff was all pleasant and the INFJ I know personally pretty much just sits in a corner and reads fanfic the whole time without talking to anyone. She could literally just lock herself in a room with noone to talk to and would be totally fine, but will talk shit back at you if you insult someone she cares about.

ENFJ: One of my trainers, my big sister, my german teacher. My sister constantly tries to improve my life and tells me inspiring shit I already heard thousands of times. The other two pretty much wanna adopt me? My trainer literally always says my name after every sentence and doesn't do that's with others like what's up with that? The teacher always tries to make me say stuff in class because she knows I'm really good at it and it gets annoying at times but it's also nice in a way.

I'm not really doing these in an order, just wanna get the sensors done. ISFP: I don't think I know any of them personally l, but I've always got a soft spot for them. I know like two ISFP YouTubers and both are really precious and sensitive, y'know?

ESFP: My music teacher and one of my trainers. I don't like the tbh, I'm like his favorite or something, always being like "Was that gonna be your answer too?" When I put my hand up but didn't get picked. It was really weird and I didn't like it. The trainer on the other hand is really nice and made me feel more at ease when I first went there

ISFJ: My dad, but I also wanna talk about them in fiction. Two ISFJ I really hate are Superman and Captain America, the former I can still endure to an extent, but I think if there's no saving the ladder for me. My dad is pretty good, we just don't have much to talk about really, he also really avoids conflict and tries to kinda suck it up.

ESFJ: One of my trainers but we barely talk. I don't even really know what to say about her, I remember this one time when I put back a mat and she said I didn't have to and that she would take care of it and I was like "Yeah, but it's on the way, because I left my shoes there y'know?" And then we just stared at each other for a few seconds, that's basically all interactions I had with her.

ISTP: The best friend of a friend I'm gonna come back later to. Pretty much anything you've heard about ISTPs lives with this guy, he's like just quietly sitting on his phone and makes a sarcastic remark every hour or so. We joke about reading porn, that's pretty much it and if we're left alone it's just awkward silence intensified.

ESTP: A jerk who was probably into me in like fifth grade and a fictional character I could write a full personality analysis on. Although they tend to kinda be jerks I don't like personally, I can appreciate their existence and the chaos they bring.

ISTJ: My ex-therapist. Could be wrong about him, but honestly who cares? I was a patient for like two months then he had to move, so yikes. Therapy with him was fine. He would be like "Here's a few solutions to your problem, pick one and move on to your next problem." And I would be like "Oh these are just shitty advices, I'm just gonna do it my way" so I actually got better, whaddya know?

ESTJ: I don't really know with this one, I don't know any ESTJs personally and they're often just these traditional assholes and I know it's hard to write a healthy one, but I barely know any so... Idk

INTP: My type, if you haven't realized from the 'ENFJs want to adopt me' part. Don't know any in person and I tend to not really like them in fiction, there's like two I like, one of which being healthy and the other is just too relatable to me to hate him.

ENTPs: My other best friend and the best friend of the ISTP, but also the clown of my class and my math teacher. Ironically all of them hate each other. Tbh it's just nice to talk to the ENTP I'm friends with and play videogames together, the only problem is that he doesn't like my ENFP friend, since he is one of the most sarcastic people you could know and she doesn't get sarcasm like at all. In fiction I like them for their chaos, similar to ESTPs, but also because of their humor. The only ENTP I dislike and know of is Iron Man and I don't even know why. The class clown hates me and is pretty much failing in every class but german and English and my math teacher is really sarcastic but also has a soft spot for me because I'm really talented at math.

INTJ: one of my trainers and an online friends. My conversations with the latter so far all have been one of us talking about our favorite of something, mostly naming two things and the other sharing one of the favorites but preferring something else over the other. In short, we have so much in common that we would probably like anything the other also likes, but have enough differences in taste to have stuff to recommend. The trainer on the other hand really just leaves me alone. There was this one time he went to leave but he had told me he'd show me an exercise earlier so I kinda just waited to see and one of the other trainers had to help us communicate while we stared at each other since we both didn't really want to communicate with each other.

ENTJ: Idk, I'd love to meet one but at the same time not? They're like the perfect match for INTPs or whatever and I can see why but I don't know them enough to really say anything about them.

So, this is it and I don't really know why I stayed up until like 3 A.M to finish this but whatev

[immortal-enemies]

This is a bit controversial but the reason I love Gabrily so much as parents is because they actually make an effort to be with their kids in how they need them, like offering support to Anna but also giving her a free space to be herself bu gidting her an apartment, how they support Kit eventhough they don’t have that same goal in life. Also that little scene in Chain lf Iron with Gabriel hugging his kids the second he sees them before telling them anything is so cute

But Wessa in the other hand are not as good written as parents, like James acts starnge due to the bracelet and none of them seem to notice, Lucie basically is not sleeping because she is talking t o Jesse during the nights and they don’t notice it, they don’t even notice that she is wearing a random pendant.

And the scene where after Barbara died instead of being with their kids and offer them support Will says “gonaway and let me make out with your mom” like dude…

Also Will advice to James at his wedding is quite bad the thing of we suffer from love because is worthy , that can be very misunderstood

What I try to say is that is sad that a side pairing with little lines and scenes seem to have a better relation built toward their kids, than the actual main characters parenrs

Everytime I see "controversial" in an ask I get really excited ldlsksmmdjdx

YES and also I finally read EET and the scene where Anna opens the gift to see it's a suit and she's so happy and Gabriel's like "HAH I KNEW IT SHE LOOKS GREAT IN BLUE" and Cecily was like "fam we been knew but she would look great in red too"

Like they just paid attention to her and knew what she wanted and thinking about it makes me want to cry.

I'VE SEEN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THAT HUGGING SCENE BUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME I CAN'T FIND IT 😭

The problem with Will and Tessa being parents is that if they actually like looked at their kids for two seconds then the series wouldn't happen bc shit would get shut down real quick

The scene where Will and Tessa get home and then immediately make out after their niece literally dies is so weird?? Why was that necessary??

I know CC can write good parents. (Gabrily and Rosemary) but idk why she doesn't write them more often?

If Will and Tessa actually cared tho then some stuff probably wouldn't be able to happen ig?

So, Wessa are shitty parents because of plot convenience, basically sksnjs

(Also, forgot to say that what Will told James was taken in the wrong way, why would you even encourage your son to find love to be painful that's so irresponsible wtf-)

[tendous-fingertape]

Hiiii can I have a match up please I love u 🤟

Im 5,3, Taurus, have more of like an art hoe style mixed with 70’s, I love baggy grandpa sweaters and disco pants 🕶, I draw a lot, really into film something I’m pursuing right now, pretty smart- I get all a’s and kind of a nerd ig, quiet but then if you get to know me I’m loud as fuck, cross between intp and entp, I play piano, I have brown hair around shoulder length, I have insomnia, really love reading, green eyes, I’m impulsive, sarcastic, pretty outgoing, I’m a slytherclaw, I’m really affectionate and love kisses, pretty average build - bigger thighs, but overall skinny body, pretty weird vocabulary - people tell me I use “big” words, I write a lot, I listen to older bands- a cross between hard rock, alternative, indie, and right now I’ve really been into eletronic/dance music lmfao like goth by sidewalks and skeletons but also mr. kitty, not popular at all but I have a couple close friends , wouldn’t label my sexuality but I’ve been with some girls and I find guys very attractive, guess I would say bi? I don’t really know, I have bangs that sometimes are messy, I like to cook, stubborn, a bit of a flirt but in a funny way with my friends, basically a therapist to my friends- I give good advice, I love giving kisses I’m some way and love when people idk in some way are touching me I’m touch starved ok, I say a lot of shitty pick up lines just because

Thank u love u 🫐

Ilyt🥺 I am sorry this took s long

Since you're confused about your sexuality, i didn't feel right dong just one...so i did two! I hope you dont mind:)

Request and matchups are closed!

I ship you with George!

Shit sleep schedule 

he will try and help you with your insomnia as much as he can

loves you musical talent

tells dream he is so much worse compared to you every day

when you use big words he always just...goes a long with it?

loves receiving kisses

so much

please...cheek kiss this man

will always be cuddling you!

overall a calm and cuddly relationship!

ON TO THE WOMEN POG

I ship you with Minx!

makes fun of your style

but slowly starts copying you

because she NEVER disliked the way you dressed

loves your music

shows it to Schlatt

gets bullies

(this man listens to sunflower from rex orange county, i dont EVER want to hear someone call this man scary EVER again)

please cook for her

her heart will melt

holding hands is a must

like

all the time

overall a hands on and loud relationship

but so cute!

[sondpyo]

𝙮𝙤𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙮𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙

a/n: y’all this is literally my first writing :// sorry ig it’s shitty oop whatever I will do a x1 boyfriend line just bcs i really want a bf rn and x1 are my emotional support kpop boys 🥺 iF you have requests then please just request !!!!! 🤭 whatevs have fun reading this and stream flash 😎

warnings: ,,,,cursing

yohan

yes

he looks really intimidating ngl and his taekwondo shit doesn’t make it better

but like,,, he’s a baby ????

he also likes to be babied u cant tell me shit like hug him, kiss him, pinch his cheeKS MAKE HIM FEEL LOVED

but before

let’s go back to where it all started : )

you and yohan actually met in a coffee shop u were working at

so one day this like tall dude came in and ordered an americano with some typa cake idk honestly

and hes like sitting down

and thats when he saw YOU

he immediately went 👀

you were casually picking up some cups and plates customers have left on the tables

and like u just felt someone was looking at you you just did

so you turned around

sUPRISE

yohan was still like 👀

so you were like ???why that mf staring at me???

his brain took about 10 seconds to process that u were staring back so it went ABORT MISSION !

he turned around quickly

you furrowed ur brows and just shrugged it off like u see weird people walking in here daily

but he was kinda cute tho,,, and u don’t see cute weirdos walk in here daily

when u went back to the counter ur co worker was like bring that shit to that guy

and u were looking at THAT guy

sUPRISE 2.0 it was yohan

so you went there and gave him his things

thats when

„ so do you come here often. ????"

„sir I work here"

„oh"

so you were just like "do you need anything else?"

and he got really shy after saying that so he just answered with a no, thank u and turned around in embarrassment

and a little smile creeped up ur lips

because he was CUTE cute

but you were kinda shy too so whAT SHOULD YOU DO

so you just left

yea

he visited the shop more often

thats when you found out he actually goes to the same college as you

so u were both talking and he finally asked for ur number

this leads to date nr. 1

absolute chaos

he wanted to actually take you out in a fancy restaurant but they somehow didn’t have his name on the guest list

so y’all went outside and it actually started raining

so yall ran to his car

and just when yohan thought he literally fucked up everything

you started smiling

and he was like huh ???

so you were like

"well ur plan didn’t go that well I guess"

he scoffed and put both of his hands onto the steering wheel

he was really confused at first but then thought that you were making fun of him which u kinda were but he doesn’t have to know 🤡

but then you suddenly said "how about we buy a family pizza and go watch a movie or something“ and nudged his shoulder with your ellbow

you know he wanted the date to be perfect and that he was probably sad it didn’t go well

and that kinda touched you because he was really trying hard

after that date you unfortunately went on another and on another and on another one

and you were slowly falling for him and his charms

not only was he opening up to you a lot

showing his funny and entertaining side

he also started realizing that he didn’t have to hide his true self from you

like he wanted to tell you a dad joke? he justfucking went for it

since then he decided

that ur his wifey 😎

so y’all have been dating for 2 years now

and in those 2 years you learned a lot about yohan

boi is shy but loves skinship

cuddling in each and every second? yes

u want a kiss? lmAo here you have 100

like he just loves showering you with love

and showering with you (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

( i sincerely apologize )

ne wa ys

he really likes holding your hand

and he has that habit of playing with ur fingers when he’s nervous

at first you weren’t like used to so much skinship

but over the years it just kinda grew on you and you were just like meh

and he loves teasing you about your height and everything

he just has to put things onto the highest shelf just so he can watch you struggle

he also loves saying things to you infront of his friend just to make you blush and watch you hide in embarrassment

well,,,, his friends

your biggest enemy is hyeongjun

one of yohan‘s best friends

it’s just an ongoing fight between you two about his attention

„listen her u poodle ass looking rat, yohan is MY boyfriend"

„who are you calling poodle ass rat you look like a recycled tana mongeau"

and ur both like 😡😡😡

so yohan is usually like don’t fight,,,,enough yohan for everyone 😎

and you‘re literally like you can keep him hyeongjun

((you and hyeongjun are actually really good friends don’t worry))

soooo

yohan also loves to give neck kisses

if your neck is in sight

hes like mwah 👄

and you act like you don’t like thEm

but we all know you do

(͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

the only thing is that whenever your hanging out with his friend group and he does that

everyone goes like we haAVE MINORS IN HERE

because strangely one of his friends is a 14 year old tall ass bitch that’s still going through puberty ((dohyon why u so tALL))

but friendship has no age I guess ???

he always goes to his hyungs for advice tho because what kinda advice will he get from some kids going through puberty

eunsang in the back: 😤

and seungwoo always helps him with his situations

while seungyoun just says stuff like smaSh Her !

yes seungyoun sweetie ur doing amazing

you both fighted once

where u realized that he actually looks really intimidating like you were genuinely scared of him for a second

and you‘re both kinda hot headed

so it turned out with him taking his jacket and leaving your apartment

yes,,,, a mess

you dIDNT talk to each other for two days until you phone dinged

and you were like !!!

but

hyeongjun🤥: why y’all ain’t talking

and you told him and he’s like you should just go to him like this bitch is dumb we been knew and for the first time ever you bonded with hyeongjun

so you pressed the button of his doorbell

and yohan opened the door looking all sad

he expected his food to be here

but then he saw you and he just hugged you like honestly ???? he missed you :(

so fighting with him usually lays down after 1-3 days

depends

okay but

yohan is a really good listener

like hes a jokster and everything

but when you‘re sad or upset and need to talk to someone he’s always there for you

it doesn’t matter if it‘s about a test you failed or even about the girl in your class that always gives you deadly looks

like when ur sad he usually just caresses your head/hair

and he tries make you laugh again

because he hates seeing you like that,,,you‘re his baby >:( he doesn’t want you to be sad

he eventually also buys food because he just knows that food calms you down the most

so when ur happier shoving down food ur throat than u were in his arms hes like :[ (y’all know that face)

whatevs

you and yohan have a healthy relationship

and you appreciate it a lot

because he isn’t only your boyfriend but also your best friends

so that mEanS pyjAMA PARTIES HELL YE

usually you both just chill on the coach with your pjs on and you put a face mask onto his face

„this thing burns"

„don’t be a pussy"

„you‘re literally putting acid on my face and you‘re telling me I shouldn’t be a pussy“

u usually watch Netflix after

well only you

becAUSE your beloved boyfriend is always trying to get your attention with either whining or kissing you

and sometimes he just succeeds

like the few pecks turn into making oUt

and the making oUt leads to

we all know what

the netflix movie is forgotten by now sorry sweetie

since sometimes both of you are too lazy to go to ur bed bcs ur busy duH? u fall asleep on the couch so often you both wake up in the next morning by either you or yohan falling off it eventually

i don’t make the rules, gravity does

we should come to an end

yohan is a really protective boyfriend

and he would use his taekwondo skills on anyone and everyone that comes near you

well

only when he senses danger and shit bcs he can’t just double turn fly kick hangyul away just bcs he wanted to greet you with a hug

but yes: very protective

loves you

he really does

he doesn’t care about any girl walking past him except junho but that’s another story // like his eyes are always on you and you only + junho 👀

people envy your relationship a lot

mostly girls watching him taking care of you so well

becAUSE he does care about you a lot

so be dAmn grateful

becAUSE yohan is a once in a lifetime man

and he eventually even hopes to marry you one day

so 🥺🥺🥺🥺

[neonwizardheehee]

personal rant & brain dump bc I’m listening to bigbang and feel emo:

so i have a few topics that are circling my mind thus this will get messy (as usual hahaha)

- music as I said I’m listening to bb and the way I wanna cry??? mainly bc i miss my sis talking about them and being all happy and proud.. and just her in general v.v I feel like i overdid her with kpop and that doesn’t feel good. i was supposed to be the baby but i got too invested and now i am so damn invested i scare her :((( it makes me so sad :( but idk how to stop.(current mood & playing: let’s not fall in love) 

 - romance the new girls i met here are so different from the friends i have bc they are extroverts. i never had extroverts as friends before so i feel blessed now. we only met recently but they already were so open to me about things no one ever told me. like 3/4 girls i met talked to me about their first time and BOI i was so glad that we casually talked about it bc my other friends wouldn’t do that in a million years bc they are too shy. it really felt good. also no one judged me which was very reassuring. albeit me feeling a bit dumb bc i couldn’t really add to the convo but apparently I get better at listening ig? also that made me think that sex and dating shouldn’t be such an “important” topic as it is with my friends before. one friend sees it as an achievement to have a s/o but doesn’t talk about it or either brags (kskssk giiirl that’s so funny yet annoying XD yes u can be proud of your boi and brag bc i’m here for that bc i’m just so happy for you but ... not at random moments XDD). this made me realize how ppl refer to their s/o when talking to others. bc my friends who are very chill with their relationship always say their name while said friend (and ofc some others where having a relationship is important) always say “my bf/gf” or “ex” when that specific info is not relevant to the story they are telling XD

anyways it also made me realize how BAD i am with talking about my own feelings and wishes. since talking about my worries feels like complaining and i am good at that - but it feels random and uninteresting for anyone to hear i think to myself (it prob isnt). i feel so smol when asked about that topic and all i wanna answer is “???”. even if there is no pressure. idk why I’m like this and it makes me feel sorry for the people around me :( I’m so confused and idk what the question is. i can do better with writing but idk why but i wanna find out one day hahah. maybe i should just ask my new friends for advice since they are not judging me and i trust them and want to learn to be better with that. altho there’s this thought that I’m uncapable of love which frightens me a lot. I know i’m okay without it and i don’t mind but i feel so sorry for the people who like me? it also might be natural and I’m just stressing myself over nothing so idk what to ask and do -since you can’t force love right? i mean i don’t really believe in love at first sight i guess but rather spending time with that person and liking them a lot. so id why I’m pressuring myself so much with this :( maybe i am just too scared? or maybe i am anticipating too much? it all could be possible bc for everyone love is different and every relationship is different. so it’s mostly me feeling sorry for not giving back as much as i should and could :( - that’s also the reason why I’m so pro polyamorus relationships bc I know I’m not enough and idk how and if i want to fix that bc idk the rules bc there are none hahhaha - but also that makes me feel good bc i know i’m not responsible for someone’s happiness. i am too egoistical and these thoughts work as a self-protecting mechanism I KNOW that’s why i do this. so i’m not stressing myself even more. i just feel so unfairly precious when someone genuinely praises me when we’re just two ppl and no one else :( might be bc i don’t understand that feeling yet. i def want to know that but also i’m scared that it’d take me down a road where i loose myself (for some foolish reason idk why). so in the end ig I keep trying and get used to that (i already made loads of progress this year so ig i shouldn’t feel like I’m being too slow)

- studying okay so next topic is also just me feeling like i do too few. this week went quite okay and i managed to study on out study server everyday (ofc i had my bad days but i still at least smth). well yesterday i hastily did some vocab and then teh whole day i spend with friends & kpop... like LITERALLY until the night. a friend of mine was proud of me for taking a break (me too yesterday) but today i don’t feel good about that :( i missed so much. i’m scared it’ll kick me out of my study routine (since it was so hard to get my ass down to study itself!). i really want to be the person who’s studying every day and feel good about that. so since i have another thing planned today i don’t think i’ll get much done today as well :(((( i just wanna be a wise guy who knows a lot T.T i already made progress i know but... i want more.. i really wanna do well here and not be stuck behind like i was for the past 6 years :( i wanna have ambition again and not just pass... i kind of hope i can manage to study at nights on days like this but also i need my sleep so i stil have to find a solution for that. bc even tho i regret not studying as much i don’t regret hanging out with people. that’s smth i missed out in my first semester and so important in times like this were I’m stuck on my own. 

- religion so i have one christian friend here and yesterday we talked about church services and stuff like that and it was cool learning how it’s with her bc she goes to a very modern church (instead of me going to a traditional one 4 times a year). Suddenly i got sad tho and felt like crying :( even tho she was just stating her opinion i felt attacked and wanted to cry. after some thinking i think it’s just the way we are used to talking about religion bc we both grew up in an area where religion is looked down onto. for me .. i turned to myself and made up my own thoughts and beliefs bc i am too scared to talk and ask someone about it bc of all the accusations around me. religion was not smth to be discussed and only smth for yourself and maybe your family for me. the girl had to fight her way through all the “churches are old and fucked up and scary” things and since she goes to a modern one has good reasoning against them - that’s perfectly understandable and I’m so proud of her for speaking up like that. but like... it hit me on thw wrong side bc i am used to these old traditions and kind of like them even :( so it felt like she was insulting me. even tho she wasn’t.  i just dont know how to talk about religion and how to practice reading the bible or praying and hearing her talk about how she does all these things.. makes me feel invalid :( it’s like the only thing that i have is that i was raised a christian. but y’know for me it was okay since i learned in school not to practice or show my religion.. so idk how to do it... and i feel baby and sad if i have to ask her for some reason. i tried to look up this on the internet but ofc everyone is even more crazily involved there and it scares me SO much. so i unfollowed everyone hahah. i also have this one podcast but i still feel bad bc i’m not able to really read the bible on my own ig :( these days I’m just blaming it on the translation that i have but deep down i know it’s me who’s not able to ask questions at the text. maybe i should try to talk to someone... my sis who’s also in the same situation as me... or said girl to take me along and feel like a complete newbie and a little bit like an outcast bc religion for me is so different than to her.

- christmas i really enjoy the christmas spirit but i also already wanna cry if i think about gifts. i hate that i have so many people i love and will prob get smth from them so i have to make smth in return. i am overwhelmed and scared already. i didn’t even make a list yet T.T feels like i should block time to figure out gifts in my schedule bc I’m just putting it off more and more :( and also i already feel sorry for everyone bc they will get shitty gifts bc I’m so bad at this :(

[bettiesbullshit]

let’s talk about the recent events leading to me wanting to end my shit, shall we?

what i’m about to write is not me talking shit on either person involved. i love them both dearly and i hope they’re okay and doing well. this is just my take on what happened over the last weekend and how it affected me emotionally and how it affected me as far as my mental illness is concerned.

i could also use some advice from my tumblr pals. either drop it below in the comments or send me an anon (please no angry ones saying i’m a shitty person because i did the best i could in both situations). anyway, hit read more.

SO i broke up with my girlfriend (we’ll call her cici?) on Friday bc she wasn’t on the same level as me (the way i phrased it, we’re on two different paths in life) and wasn’t attempting to better herself. obviously, i was still hurt over this less than two days later as, even though i broke up with her, it was still the end of an almost 2 year friendship and a few month long relationship (longest one i’ve had since i was fourteen lol). 

( the rest of Friday, Saturday, and most of Sunday aren’t really important to the story but they were good days. i went to dinner with my mom, her bf, and her bf’s roommate and the roommate bought me dinner--he rejected me the other day tho lol--and then saturday we had a cookout and sunday was just a good day in general BUT ANYWAY, back to the story that no one is going to read )

on the same day i broke up with cici, i messaged my ex boyfriend bc... tbh, i missed him. a lot. we’ll call him peter ig? he drove from about seven hours away to come see me (two days after i broke up with an in person relationship w cici, who i had gotten very close to and loved very much) and i was expected to get over cici and begin a relationship with him. when it was obvious i couldn’t, he left. on his way home, he blocked me on almost everything (and what he didn’t block me, i blocked him on, especially after the exchange between him and my best friend where he told her he wouldn’t ever talk to me again, which is fine btw).

i was extremely suicidal and angry in the three-four hours following this. i called cici out of desperation and she rejected me, claiming i was being suicidal to force her to get  back together with me (despite me saying multiple times that i thought that was disgusting but i couldn’t tell her i was suicidal because of peter). i decided that i was going to drive to a town near mine where one of my old friends lived and pick up some weed. on my way there... i had a revelation (i’m manic, leave me alone). I’M OKAY. like, yeah, i had a mental breakdown and every time i would pass a telephone pole i would have the intense urge to wreck my car into it BUT 

i realized i did the right thing for the cici relationship. i’m going to miss that relationship as we got along really well romantically and physically (not talking about sex, she just knew how to  hold me and treat me etc). but she was not right for me. i’m in college and working full time, i cannot be with someone who is not at least doing one of those things. i also did not have the gas money to make our relationship work with my limited hours. i loved her and i still do. i think had it been better timing, things between us could have gone on for a lot longer.

i did mess up with the peter situation but i did make it clear that i still had feelings for cici. my exact words were “i love her”. it was unfair for him to expect me to get over those feelings so quickly but it was also unfair for me to put him in the middle of that when i was so clearly still invested in her and my relationship with her. however, this experience did give me closure on my relationship with him. i realized that, even though we get along extremely well, we are not a match physically or romantically. the relationship felt small and childish compared to the intensity i had with cici. i still love peter and, if for some reason he stalks my tumblr: i’m really sorry. i did not mean to hurt you again. but i hope reading this gave you some perspective. 

i have had no desire to contact either of them since monday. i have felt a lot better after speaking with my therapist yesterday. she made me set up an emergency appointment with my psych and we played around with my meds to help with the mania. i’m not sure when the mania started but i know the lack of sleep (while peter drove here) and the burst of emotion and suicidal ideation caused to escalate if not cause it in general. 

if anyone actually read this long ass post, lmk what you think of if you have any questions regarding the situation? idk, get involved, i need someone to talk to.

[shesabsolutelysmitten]

this might be a bit much but those asks are really good so uuuuhmmm errr... do... mmmmh.. aLL of the SubjEct thEmEd AsKS MUHaHahaha ❤

oof ok i guess im gonna do this

mathematics: a problem in your life you need to solve- um learning to deal with anxiety

physics: something someone has said or done that moved you- sending me this ask moved me tbh

biology: the last thing that made you feel alive- actually making plans with my friends probably

zoology: the animal you’d be if you weren’t human- this would be choosing my fursona and thats a big deal im gonna need a bit more time

chemistry: have you ever been in love?- i dont think so 

astronomy: the biggest dream/aspiration you have- i want to be able to help people and actually give good advice and shit like that

computer science: who you want to be in ten years time- i just hope im a good person, hopefully in love by then, and have an education and a stable job

psychology: your biggest flaw and how it makes you better- i dont think i can choose my biggest flaw, but low self esteem makes me more humble i guess?

sociology: what you would change about society if you could- i would change everyones motives to helping each other instead of having money 

geology: the person who keeps you most grounded- im not really sure. probably one of my irl friends

theology: what do you think happens when we die?- honestly im not too sure. id like to think theres an afterlife of some sorts but i think its most likely we just die 

geography: a place that’s special to you and why- i dont know honestly. i dont have any place in particular thats special to me.

anthropology: the people you love least and most and why- idk if this is talking about like a general group of people or like specific people you know but im gonna go with people i know. theres no one i love the least really, but the people i love the most are my friends probably. more specifically, i love @aquiffedupphilip and everyone in the sexual eggs gc (@holyemobible @shinomxru @toxicphannie and everyone else in there that doesnt have tumblr) 

history: the biggest mistake you’ve ever made- honestly coming out before i was sure of my sexuality. its one of my biggest regrets in life

drama: the last lie you told and why- oof let me think. that it was 114 degrees outside when really it was 113. i really dont know why honestly

criminology: the number one person you’d die for- @aquiffedupphilip

literature: a book that changed you forever- probably simon vs the homo sapiens agenda 

english: your favourite word and why- fuck. it just has a nice ring to it ig?

linguistics: an expression you say a lot- uwu

creative writing: tell us a short story about  dog and a peach- oh god um. 

once upon a time there lived a dog. he loved peaches. except peaches are bad for dogs so he got stomach problems. the end.

art: describe yourself using only colour and nature terms- hm. kinda autumn ish maybe?? i suck at this sorry 

photography: what would your life look like as a single photo?- i.. dont know if im being honest

dance: the most memorable day of your life- i went to universal studios with two of my best friends and it was absolutely pouring. it was the best day of my life honestly, we were all just fucking around and having fun

woodwork: the life you would want to build for your child- i would want my child to have the life they want, and to have the ability to choose what they want to do or be

foreign languages: if you were a country, which would you be and why?- no clue. canada maybe?

classics: the elderly person you’re closest to and what they’ve taught you- im gonna be real here for a second. both my grandparents on my dads side and my grandfather on my moms side passed away before i was born. the only leaving grandparent i have doesnt speak english, so im not close to her at all. theres no elderly person ive ever really been close to 

music: the most beautiful lyric you can think of- “but to say that I’m a rainbow, to tell me that I’m bright, when I’m so used to feeling wrong, well, it makes me feel all right”economics: the most valuable material object you own- probably my laptop or my phone

health: how is your mental health right now? physical? emotional?- pretty shitty for all three 

physical education: would you rather work in a team or independently?- a team

food technology: something that makes you warm inside- @aquiffedupphilip  (this is the third time ive mentioned u in this post but shhhh)

[welcome-to-the-cafe]

joy liveblogs as we like it

04:16:54 a shakespeare adaptation 04:17:23 i thought this would be set today but it's set instead in the near future 04:17:50 yet they still have taxis...well, i guess it's a the near future 04:18:30 this is taiwan? 04:18:37 i really like the weird jazz(?) in the background 04:20:43 lots of people kissing 04:20:58 animation over frames 04:21:19 someone on a scooter just fell in love 04:22:43 ximenting is an internet free zone 04:23:13 so beret girl is celia, rosalind is our main character, romeo(?) is rosalind's ex? 04:24:10 i feel like i'm watching something really strange 04:25:39 feels like i'm watching an anime 04:25:52 also maybe like i'm watching a stage play 04:26:04 everyone is talking so weirdly 04:26:59 quotes from a different shakespeare play 04:27:21 orlando is very dorky, it's good 04:28:30 "you've got a smell" - orlando (2021) 04:31:41 thugs, enter stage left 04:31:50 that's the fanciest distress flare i've ever seen 04:33:17 oliver presents. orlando's (evil?) big bro. is this the blimp we saw earlier? forest of arden project in ximenting 04:34:34 "your fifth first love?" 04:35:21 doxxing for love 04:36:39 peking opera with rosalind and celia 04:37:09 they come across the doxxing for love flyers 04:39:58 orlando gets a part-time courier job 04:40:05 rosalind gets a haircut. omg the nose brushing. "maybe a rose should become a petunia" 04:40:41 wow they're so cute 04:41:04 omg suits 04:41:34 packing with socks! flashbacks 04:42:42 celia's crop top says "you are cute" which is uh, cute. i want that shirt tbh. 04:43:06 fortune-teller visit 04:44:05 is this like actual shakespeare productions where all the actors are dudes 04:44:39 except here they're all women 04:46:34 idk why but orlando's courier job reminds me of the main character's letter-writing job in her 04:48:02 WTF is that. love doll. what an embarrassing thing to have to deliver. 04:49:27 signboards of anti-internet sentiment. "in heaven there is no internet" 04:50:00 omg a man just came out of a tree. or probably that's what happened in actual as you like it. 04:50:25 rosalind, sorry, roosevelt's new job is so...those sequins 04:52:32 everyone here gives such strange love advice, like maybe kind of unhealthy love memes 04:54:42 the pacing is weird, i want it to be faster sometimes, or slower at other times 04:55:02 reminds me of hot gimmick tbh 04:55:39 wise young boy appears again 04:55:55 wo yao yi ge wan zheng de jia. ig orlando's always had a shitty family life. 04:59:39 lamp bump! idk why that was so cute. "wo ai shang le yi ge ren" subtitles say girl but that's a mistranslation 05:00:25 holds the poster by her face 05:00:38 looks at the camera like in the office 05:00:44 "i love girls. he's a boy." 05:04:45 oh that papermaking scene was delicious 05:05:59 this scene feels super religious 05:06:59 what are they doing...this is such a strange scene. 05:07:30 i didn't realize but i guess the lack of internet is a plot device. 05:08:13 omg what is celia doing here. sorry i've never read as you like it, so like. 05:08:31 i recognize the weird music from somewhere i think 05:09:22 omg did celia just sexually assault someone?? surprise kiss. ig oliver was ok with it. "ni ke yi zai weng wo" 05:10:55 why is this place called the google bookstore 05:11:17 "i'm his...son" 05:13:18 i feel like billiards is kind of gay. inherently. but this is extra gay. 05:18:18 the scene with celia and roosevelt was really silly 05:18:32 also this uh, practicing with helmet 05:20:51 weirdly symbolic foot massage scene. heels drawn over rose's feet? rose as a person who is pulled in two directions 05:23:45 sorry this snail animation is so cute 05:25:32 oliver and this advice-giver playing go 05:25:54 awkward restroom scene. sorry this is. this is great. 05:28:13 normally when i see a sex scene in a movie i feel kind of bad for the actors. but that scene in the car must have been pretty fun to film 05:28:35 also i love this cafe. is that a phonograph? sweet. also i really like the barista's floral shirt. 05:30:23 i think this is actually my first exposure to like. ear-cleaning in a romance. it's special. 05:31:07 roosevelt, stop making sex scene noises, it's just an ear-cleaning 05:31:23 i feel bad for the barista 05:32:41 this smoothie stand proprietor is really sweet. i feel like they're on a series of quests. like a video game. 05:33:25 oh haha rose's turn to look at the camera. 05:36:01 back to the grain house 05:36:05 i should really go back and take some screenshots 05:39:30 tearful reunion with father 05:39:37 "illegal gathering" police. 05:41:16 no offense but these mandlelbrot fractals are disgusting 05:43:15 i want to know how much of this is shakespeare and how much of this is this movie 05:45:05 celia is so scary wtf 05:48:09 rose's deception as a way to get closer to orlando. without really showing her/himself. 05:49:14 harvest calendar change 05:51:50 rose gets a reading. as herself. himself. 05:56:41 it should probably be translated as like. goddess? instead of angel. 05:57:00 yeah "let the baby make the decision" 05:57:27 HAHAH 05:57:39 yeah i do get the real shakespeare feeling. like everyone's getting paired up and whatever. 05:57:54 oh god the fact that they're kissing under so many bananas...cute. bananas! 05:58:34 i counted like over four kabedons in this movie wtf 05:59:30 yeah 8 people getting married at the same time, very shakespeare 06:04:00 i did see soe male actors. i think the policemen were played by men? 06:06:55 i didn't mind the weird like, cgi, hand-animations etc. i think i liked the hand-animations more. 06:10:35 not sure how i feel about this movie. very cute, very shakespeare. how do i say like... i'm glad it was made.

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[kinktae]

jesus christ I'm so sorry to hear you're in a similar, if not worse situation than I am. school is just so stressful and anxiety inducing and people here are assholes. like as bad as paris level asshole which says a lot believe me. I wish I could give you advice but I've never been through college and honestly I have no clue what it's like here or in france. honestly you should clear up your schedule a bit too for next semester/trimester - french anon

I am taking four classes next semester!!! So yes definitely!

Anonymous said: but if I can be honest my schedule for second year (dunno what it’s called sorry) is worse. once again I have no prep - AP US history (I know nothing about this), AP Chemistry, also know little about chemistry and lack the english vocabulary, another honors english class, combining two honors french classes which shouldn’t be a problem but I’m from the country and it’s like satori in korean it’s completely different from standard french for me. like hillbilly french ig- french anon

HILLBILLY FRENCH HAHAHAH. Also, second year is called sophomore year! AP US History, damn girl that is a tough, even for an American. I would see if you can drop out of that class and switch it to something easier like AP Environmental Science (if that’s an option.) But I’m sure if you dedicate yourself you should be able to get through it

Anonymous said: after that we have honors algebra second year, I barely know anything about geometry and trigonometry. I don’t even know how to say trigonometry in french like what? I have another high level music class and then another year of a third language in honors. I don’t even have a study class (hall?) next year and I am in three sports so I practice more than a full time job works, and then I go to school. I think I really messed up here - french anon

Thats so weird bc my french teacher taught us that trigonometry was just le trigonométrie. Anyway, you don’t need to know geometry/trig to understand algebra. They say if you hate geometry then you will love algebra. Algebra is like chemistry but chem has science mixed in. (Also remember that colleges only require that you take two years of the same language in high school, which means you don’t have to take it your third year.)

Anonymous said: I just want to be on the right medication for my mental disorders so that maybe I don’t live off of two pieces of bread everyday for two weeks only to have it happen again. it’s frustrating! I want this to be over! and no offense america but literally why trump he makes everything worse and your politics system makes no sense. like at least in france I don’t have to be aware of it but here it’s literally everywhere you go. - french anon

Ah I hope they can find the right medication for you! As Trump, hahhhhh I have many thoughts on that man as a child of two immigrants. I don’t want to get too into it but just know that the majority of Americans DID NOT vote for him, I think only 47% of Americans actually voted for him lol idk i don’t understand the government

Anonymous said: your language is really weird by the way. I know I’m french and can’t say that technically bc french is just as bad but literally @ english why. grammar sucks. sentence structure sucks. PRONUNCIATION AND SYLLABLE STRESS SUCKS. contractions are weird. there’s literally almost no point to them in english? and overall the people here suck w welcoming foreigners like I cannot tell you how many times someone impersonated my accent to make fun of me. - french anon

LMAO I FEEEEEL. Also I’m sorry people are being shitty ugh. Americans are sometimes too blunt and speak without thinking, we don’t even realize sometimes when we are being rude.

Anonymous said: I said it before too, and I will most definitely say it a bunch more. your. school. system. sucks. ass. it can suck my ass, slap my thigh and call me george for all I care and I would still not think it’s funny despite being an awful joke. I hope your life improves though bc you just don’t deserve this the only human I can think of in america that deserves the shit of their own system is moldy tangerine himself. rip american students. - french anon

MOLDY TANGERINE SDKFJSKJF I personally see him more as a stale cheeto.

Anonymous said: but honestly from what I can tell college sucks. fake news. exams are stressful as heck and if you do good no one but your anxiety rewards you bc I’m the same way, I live off of my grades and atm I have a D+ in English and a C in AP World History. I’m far behind and the final is this week oops. but honestly like,,, why. just why. you only get degraded if you fail and nothing good happens if you pass like what is the point. - french anon

College is actually really really great when you don’t overload yourself with work. There is so much freedom and you can take literally ANY class you can think of. I could take a class all about rock n roll music if I wanted to at my university. Also, I guess if you pass a class, then you get to go to more school. Yay(?)

Anonymous said: I’m going to keep you in my thoughts amour, because I really hope things get better and you get the courage to attend your classes. sorry for going off again in your inbox it’s probably annoying to have some stupid freshman ranting about the school system when your situation seems to be way worse than mine. I hope everything goes well, don’t worry about writing for your followers bc we’d rather you do it for fun than force it. - french anon

Anonymous said: it’s a lot easier to read when it flows naturally from your thoughts (and as someone who stRuggles w reading on occasion I know and I can tell bby). please take your time and prioritize you. please. I’m begging. I can’t imagine what your situation is like but it does not seem fun. so don’t feel any pressure from here and focus on what’s a lot more important. I believe in you, I believe you can pass english. I know you can. okay I’m done, sorry again. je t'aime, mon amour, salut

Ahh you are too sweet. I will prioritize my time. Also psshhh you don’t bother me at all. I mean, we are technically both “stupid freshman.” You’re a freshman in high school and I am a freshman in college ;) Thank you for your kind words, te amo, je t’aime and I love you

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11 questions meme

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1. how would you describe your writing style or “voice” as a writer?

HONESTLY i still feel like i’m growing into my style, lol! and i often feel inconsistent, but i think part of that is a lack of confidence, still, forever #justwritingproblems. being more realistic, i would say that i tend to write from a very firm point of view and my narrators tend to be quite unreliable; i also tend to focus a lot on sensory details. generally i’m very much a stream of consciousness writer! it’s what i love 2 do.

2. do you prefer to write in first person, second person, or third person, and why? which tense do you prefer?

it depends on what i’m working on, and i definitely flip-flop some, but i almost always write in third person. for me, first person works really well for Very Unreliable Narrators who are trying to skew their story in a certain light, or for stories that are literally one person talking to other people. i love love love first person in podcasts! alice isn’t dead is probably my favorite podcast that utilizes first person, and i really love the depth of emotion that it conveys as a result, so i am more likely to us first person for projects like that.

generally, though, i struggle with first person because it limits narration in a way that i struggle with at times. second person kind of creeps me out as a writer because i feel like a soulbonder?? WHICH IS NOT A KNOCK ON SECOND PERSON, i think it makes for beautiful work, but it’s just not for me. so 3rd person limited is my favorite and has been for a while!

as for tense, i used to write exclusively in past tense but now i write exclusively in present tense and i couldn’t even tell you why. is it because the focus on the present makes for more dynamic writing? is it because i’m pretentious? is it both? likely.

3. what is one thing that inspires/motivates you as a writer these days?

oh man haha . . . spite . . . no not really, it’s a little spite but more feeling a lack and a motivation to fill it! my original work right now is based around a lot of feelings i have about both personal and global uncertainty, and while it isn’t a political piece at all, i’ve definitely found motivation to explore topics that i wish were easier to talk about. when it comes to fandom stuff, it’s usually “i love this pairing, but i never see work for it” or “i love this pairing, but i wish there was more diversity of work around it,” because i like filling gaps and also just always fall for pairings few other people care about. i’m also deeply motivated to write character exploration pieces for fandom because holy shit, nothing makes me happier than picking apart a character’s motivations and rearranging them in a new form. i’m the sylar of other people’s characters.

that being said, sometimes my motivation is “why are there only like 2 smut fics of this lesbian pairing and 238974293874 of this pairing of 2 dudes” and that is spite and i’m not sorry for it.

4. what is one of your strengths as a writer?

uhh,,,, i think i have a good attention to detail? is that a cop-out answer? maybe. i have a good grasp of figurative language, i think, and i actually am quite proud of that now that i think about it. i used to write super purple prose, and through the past few years i’ve been able to really neaten my writing up so that it’s . . . still flowery! always will be! not sorry! but it’s not overbearingly so, and the figurative language i use enhances the story rather than drowning it. shoutout to @pentaughast who has been writing with me for like five years and giving me feedback until my writing stopped being a horrible disaster thicket of metaphors, you’re a pal.

5. what is something you’d like to improve about your writing?

(rolls out scroll)

no but seriously: my number one thing to improve right now is learning to stop editing while i write. every writer is their own worst critic, but i will literally write half a sentence and then go back and change the whole thing, because i’m convinced that everything has to be Perfect the First Time. which is in fact a microcosm of my entire personality. so, anne, don’t edit while you write! also, your first draft is not your final draft! i don’t feel a need to just barf out a certain number of words per writing session, but i do think it’ll benefit me to have momentum and iron out kinks later.

6. what is one genre you enjoy writing in, and why?

hmmm this is interesting because genre is such a broad and subjective thing. that said: urban fantasy is and has always been my jam! i wouldn’t say i’m particularly good at it simply because 1) it is a super vague genre with few hard and fast rules, so i’m not sure how much of my stuff is urban fantasy even, and 2) i’ve been struggling a lot with writing original stuff over the past few years, which is where i have written urban fantasy stuff in the past.

overall i enjoy writing in fantasy or fantasy/sci-fi most of all genres, but never high fantasy because it causes me physical agony. aspects of f/sf i like a lot are basically f/sf as a mirror to our world or otherwise connected to our world (without necessarily using f/sf components as a substitution for actual discussion of oppression cuz, nah,) as well as f/sf as satire, that is my FAVE. discworld (t. pratchett) was the first fantasy series i really locked onto and it was v formative, obviously; also gaiman, stiefvater, jemisin. this question was not about my influences but too bad here they are!!!!!!!!!!

7. what would be the biggest compliment someone could give you about your writing?

the biggest, biggest compliment would be: while i was reading this, i forgot the world existed. because that has always been the biggest thing for me as a reader! the way reading can just take you somewhere, so no matter how shitty things might be in your actual situation, you can just take a break from that and follow bilbo around, or whatever. another really excellent compliment that i actually have gotten (both in writing fic and rp) is “i can hear their voice,” either in narration or dialogue. that’s huge! and it makes me really happy to hear. basically i would love for my writing to be an immersive experience for people, and that’s what i’m always striving to improve.

8. what is one piece of advice you’d give someone experiencing writer’s block or feeling stuck with their writing?

READ

idk, for me, fighting my writer’s block literally does not work. just staring at a piece of paper or a computer screen makes me upset and frustrated. reading, though, is both enjoyable and relatively passive; you don’t have to come up with ideas, you just have to take in someone else’s. as a writer, too, you can read both as an audience member and as a fellow writer observing. what does this author do that works or doesn’t? how does this style work in this context where it might not in another? how does it relate to your style? etc.

more generally, do something nice for yourself cuz sometimes that will boost your creative spirit. self-care is huge!

9. what is one piece of advice you wish someone had given you when you started writing?

lskdjfskld uh . . . don’t follow any of the advice people give you because most of it either only works for specific people or is entirely bullshit? i suppose more specifically i wish someone had been more supportive of fantasy/sci-fi as a legitimate genre with meaning, although of course that is a societal view rather than a specific one that surrounded me as a kid. it’s shitty, though, because until fairly recently i viewed the type of writing i enjoyed as “less than”/less meaningful than like, i don’t know, anything written by racist old dead white guys.

also, young adult fiction is fucking valid and doesn’t make you a less “serious” writer. i, a Fucking Grown Up, am still most captivated by YA fiction because there are fewer restrictions on it and writers tend to experiment more and, most importantly, because stories about transformation and trying to figure out who you are will never not be compelling.

10. what is a common piece of writing advice you disagree with, and why?

rubs hands together

one: write what you know. what the fuck is that, i want to know who came up with it because fuck? you??? definitely it’s fine to write about things that you have a personal perspective about, or to write in a way that reflects your worldview or emotions or whatever. but write what you know is literally the stupidest, most limiting garbage, and i have met so many grown ass adults who believe in it so strongly. curse that mess.

two: you must construct x type of work in y format following z formula. a lot of times this is really great and works well for people, but other times it can be, again, really limiting. beginning-middle-end is great, but even that can be inappropriate for certain stories, depending on what they are? for me, strictly following writing formulas made me overly focused on “”accuracy”” and less focused on writing what i enjoyed.

three: this one isn’t quite as cut and dry as the previous two, but: write protagonists that people can relate to. here’s the thing: i feel like this often gets translated to “protagonists that are charmingly aware of their own assholeishness, totally perfect and always right, or bland,” and it’s kind of a shitty trap to fall into? this is another reason i love unreliable narrators, bcause you can have that nuance and imperfection without the entire story being about how shitty the character is. their imperfection is part of the story and perhaps even a driving force, but they aren’t just sort of a paper cutout used to drive the story along. hello i’m anne and i struggle writing protagonists.

11. what writing projects are you working on these days?

excited buzzing. a couple! i am really shy about talking about original stuff, but i am working on scripts for (tentatively) a podcast about a very apathetic and cynical gal who is one of a very few survivors of a series of natural disasters and also may?be the one who made them happen. Whoopsie.

fanfiction-wise, i am working on finishing . . . christ on a raft let me count. four! one-shots. there’s a fifth one that i wrote 10k words of in like 2015 and still haven’t finished and i don’t know if i’ll trash it or not lol. regardless, i am working on those! there is a fic that i started working on a while back that was meant to be a multi-chapter fic called reverse about giorno tripping into vampirism and fugo having 0 idea what to do about it; i’ve let it dangle for ages, but i am slowly fleshing out the plot again and getting it going. i’m very excited to do this! i love giorno having to figure out how to vampire and i love fugio.

finally, @relares and i are starting to work on a reset fugiomis fic which, weeps into tea, will kill us both.