#idk my ears are hurting again and i'm just fucking thinking about how maybe these arguments over 'bodily autonomy' aren't about

[barmecidebiohazard]

It's so interesting how I could get my ears pierced at a Claire's in under ten minutes, at age 8, without being harassed by adults who cry "what if you regret it???"

I did regret it, mind you. Hated getting the piercings, hated caring for them, hated wearing them- almost never did. I got an infection, my piercing holes closed but there's always be a little scar there, I still have pain in my ears intermittently. Suffering the long term ramifications of body mods at age 8 because my mom thought it'd be cute.

Nobody was there to explain the possible risks and benefits, I didn't have to go to three therapists and I didn't have to wait until I was 16 or 18 or 20 or whatever. Just walked into a mall and had my body permanently altered. But somehow that was fine.

[li-x1nyu]

how tartaglia reacts when you're drunk and don't recognize him

tartaglia x gn!reader

part 2 is now here

sfw, drunk reader, angst, some fluff, reader has been hurt in prev relationships

A/N: i don't usually post stuff like this hehe, idk what changed my mind to!! hope you enjoy🤭

You had told him if you didn't come home before 2, he should probably come pick you up.

"Hey, you're here!" Hu Tao beams at Tartaglia.

"Thanks for watching them," he grins and gestures to you sitting at the counter.

"Yeah, dude, of course."

Tartaglia stares at you for a little while. He still can't get over how pretty you are, the curve of your nose, the ways your eyes kiss in the corners. Your hair looks surprisingly neat for someone who's drunk. Your expression is distant, finger trailing along the edge of the glass. You seem to be drinking vodka? He thought you didn't like vodka.

Sliding an arm around your shoulders, he leans to whisper in your ear, "Hey, pretty, you ready to go?"

You leap back into the present.

Looking puzzled, you push his arm off of you, saying, "Please don't call me that."

He blinks, a ghost of a smile still on his face. "Haha... what?"

Their faces mirror each other in confusion.

"I'm not going home with you, I have a boyfriend," you say, turning back to the half filled glass.

It clicks in Tartgalia's head, and a teasing grin forms. "A boyfriend, huh? Can I fight him for you?"

"You'd lose," you reply flatly, deadpan.

Dropping himself into the seat next to you and propping up his cheek, he says, "Tell me about this boyfriend of yours."

He watches his lover's expression brighten, like you forgot the entire exchange that just happened.

"Oh, he's the sweetest," you gush immediately. "And he makes me laugh so much, and he's so lively and good with people, but he's so hardworking and stubborn and, ugh, he's so beautiful. How is it possible to be so beautiful?"

His heart is about to explode all over Hu Tao's kitchen counter. His mind can't believe it, he's the reason your face is a beautiful, dreamy, rambling mess.

And you're not done. "I don't deserve him," you say, "I wish I could do something for him, but he always says I don't have to."

Because you don't have to, my dove, Tartaglia thinks. You're doing more than enough already.

Your expression suddenly snaps. "Shit. I'm a terrible person. I need to go home."

Tartaglia snaps out of his own trance in alarm. "Why?"

"He's at home now, and I'm out here getting wasted." You rub your face and search for your bag and phone.

"Woah, hey, you're drunk," he holds you by the shoulders, "I'm taking you home."

"Just because you're literally gorgeous doesn't mean you get to touch and take home random people!" You smack his hands off of you, again. Tartaglia's not sure if he should cry or laugh.

You cover your mouth in surprise at your own words. "Holy fuck, I'm a terrible person," you whisper. "Am I allowed to call someone who isn't my boyfriend gorgeous?"

He's convinced alcohol makes your brain overthink twice as fast as it usually does.

He also thinks it's a dumb question. Have I given them the impression they can't speak their mind?

He thinks it's okay. "Of course you are," he tells you instead, frowning. "He's not a good boyfriend if you have to be allowed to do something."

"No, he's a great boyfriend!" you say instantly. "I just-" You cut yourself off with a sigh and chew on your fingernail. There's a loud thumping in his heart as he waits for you to continue.

"I never know about these things," you say finally. "I feel like he never really tells me how he truly feels. I don't know if there's something I do that actually bothers him. And I'm..." You rub your nose bridge. "I'm scared to ask."

Tartaglia is quiet for a long moment. What he has cleverly deduced from this is that his lover is scared of him. All pride he'd felt earlier from making you swoon is now replaced by a sick feeling of self hatred.

"Maybe there's just nothing you do that really bothers him," he suggests softly, trying to lighten the mood.

Your expression turns glum. Fuck, was that the wrong thing to say? He mentally kicks himself.

"That can't be right," you sigh. "When I have nightmares, he always wakes up to comfort me. I'm pretty sure that pisses him off. And he always says it's okay too, but-" you blink rapidly, like blinking away tears. Tag winces.

"But then he... he takes longer in the shower, adds more caffeine to his coffee. And- and he'll eat less of the breakfast I make him."

"Oh," he says smartly, running out of things to say. He should've paid more attention to the little things, knowing that of course you would.

You shake your head and squeeze your slightly glassy eyes shut. After mumbling to yourself, "stop oversharing to strangers" twice, you put the cork back in the vodka bottle and set your glass in Hu's sink after pouring it down the drain.

"Anyway," you turn to him when you're done, "goodnight, I guess. Thanks for listening?"

"I'll walk you home," he offers again, softly.

You hesitate. Of course you hesitate.

"You're drunk," he reminds you. "I'm sure your boyfriend won't mind as long as you get home safe."

You give in. You let him put his coat around your shoulders, but you don't put your hands through the sleeves.

Halfway home, you just stop walking.

"Love?" Tag tilts his head at you. "Darling, what's wrong?"

You blink a few times. "Tartaglia?"

He grins. "Yes, hi. You recognize me now?"

You blink again. Then a smile starts to spread, and you forget the reason for your daze. You put your arms into the sleeves of his coat. "Yes," you say sheepishly. "Hey, you."

A hand is held out for him to hold.

Their talk can wait for next morning.

sorry if tartaglia is a little ooc! thank you for reading 🫶 might post a part two where he comforts you about it?

[runningfrom2am]

leveling the playing field XI

summary: with nowhere else to go after getting caught cheating to help lucy gray, you both make some desperately stupid decisions.

pairing: coriolanus snow x fem!reader

wc: 3.3k

tags/warnings: capitol brat!reader, maybe slightly ooc coryo, idk i tried my best. do they love each other or hate each other? who knows (we do, kind of). implications and mentions of abuse, so read with caution!! also a little bit of swearing but that's neither here nor there

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a/n: nothing much to say other than thank you guys and i hope you like it :)

next part

"You can't call me that here!" You hiss, taking the final steps out into the summer nights breeze.

"Never mind that, what are you doing here?" Coriolanus asks as soon as the door to the back of the building shuts behind you, leaving the two of you alone in the quiet alley behind the Hob.

You groan, dragging your hands over your face. "I had nowhere to go."

"Well, I... what happened?"

"Does it really matter?" You just shake your head looking up at him now, face red with anger. "If we're gonna talk, how about we talk about how you tried to drag me down to hell with you, huh? How about we talk about you showing up after trying to ruin my life and kissing me like I'm some kind of object to you! After all this time! Let's talk about that!"

Coryo takes a sharp breath in, chewing on the inside of his cheek. "You're not an object." He says, a hint of disgust in his voice, upset that you would even imply that he felt that way.

"Funnily enough, that is the bottom of my list of concerns right now!" You laugh dryly. "I thought we were friends! I thought you cared! And maybe that was stupid of me but don't come back now saying that you do." Your narrowed eyes are rimmed with tears now, and he can see that you're hurt despite you trying to shield it in anger.

"We are friends, I-"

"No, Coriolanus, we aren't, because friends don't do that!"

"Will you stop fucking interrupting me!" He shouts, making you jump. He's fed up with you always having to have the last word. "For once, just one time, will you let me explain?"

You just stare at him, jaw grit as you look up at him. You've never looked softer, your clothes and your hair are so loose and freeing and unlike you and you've somehow never looked more like yourself.

"I'm sorry. Okay?" He says, taking a hesitant step closer to you.

"Is that all you've got?" You scoff, nodding to yourself and pushing past him to walk back inside.

He can't let you go again, he just can't. He grabs your arm, stopping you in your tracks.

"Y/N, listen, I'm sorry. I regretted it the moment I said it, I shouldn't have pulled you into that but they already knew and I just wanted to be able to help you." Internally you roll your eyes, relaxing your arm so he knows you won't run. You'll hear him out. "All I wanted was for you to come with me, I thought they would ship us off together."

"Me? As a peacekeeper? Un-fucking-likely." You reply bitterly. "Did you think that through for even a second before you decided that I would be better off with you? Or were you just scared of being alone?"

The question makes him pause, which was enough hesitation for you to pull your arm away and start walking off toward the street. "Tigris wanted me to tell you they love you, by the way!" You call back over your shoulder, turning the corner and disappearing out of his view.

You walk around the building and back to the front entrance, hoping you could lose him in the crowd if he decides to follow you. You were no longer in any mood to dance, that's for sure, so you would just wait for the show to end in the back where you first talked to Lucy Gray again. You push through the abundance of people dancing, the music blaring in your ears. You make it to the desolate hallway, attempting to gather yourself before you really start to cry.

"Y/N?" You hear someone call from behind you, and you turn at the use of your real name. It didn't sound like Coryo, or any of the Covey band.

"Sejanus!" You squeal, running back toward him and tackling him in a hug. "God, I have never been happier to see your face in my life." You sigh, resting your chin on his shoulder.

"Likewise." He chuckles, rubbing your back. "I'm so glad you're okay."

"Yeah, yeah. I'm great." You grin, taking a step back to talk to him face-to-face instead.

"We have to find Coriolanus, he'll be thrilled to see you." He says, looking over his shoulder to see if he could spot the blonde anywhere in the crowd.

"Ugh." You groan, rolling your eyes. "No, I saw him."

He snaps his head back, looking at you confused. "You don't seem happy." He observes, stating the obvious.

"Tell me, Sejanus," You muse, resting a hand on your hip as you shift your weight. "If you had someone you perceived as more than a friend take the liberty of framing you for something that could cost you your whole life when they knew you were innocent, would you forgive them if their only apology was a kiss?" You ask, raising an eyebrow at him. You knew you were stretching the truth, but Coriolanus had done the same thing, clearly, so what was the harm in wanting Sejanus on your side?

"I... what? No, he didn't- he didn't tell me that." He looks shocked, looking back again to see if he could see him.

"Well. That's what just happened, weirdly enough." You laugh, shrugging to try and portray that you don't really care much more than that.

"I- um... We were told you were sick." He changes the subject now, something you're happy about because one more thought about Coryo and you might be in tears; or you might start throwing things.

"Sick? No." You shake your head. "I ran because if I hadn't, I'd be six feet under in the Capitol cemetery by now, no doubt. That or I'd be lacking a tongue."

"Oh, wow." He doesn't know what to say, so you just hum in agreement. "Coriolanus almost convinced me you were dead, but I knew better. They couldn't kill you if they tried, I don't think."

You chuckle, shrugging slightly. "Well, yeah. So that's been my life recently. Now I'm staying with Lucy Gray." You explain. "But what about you? You follow out here Coryo too?"

"More or less." He nods, a slight smile on his face. "Hey, uh, I've got to go, got some business to take care of but we'll get together again soon, okay? I'm really glad you're alive."

You nod, hugging him again. "Yeah, of course. I'm staying at this ugly, old grey house at the edge of the seam, past the end of the road. There's goats out back, you can't miss it. You'd think there's nothing out there, but trust me, we'll be there. Come by sometime when you're free, okay?"

"Will do." He agrees, hugging you back for just a moment. "I'll see you soon, Miss Sage." He teases, giving you a polite bow before turning to return to the party. You furrow your brow a bit as he almost directly approaches Billy Taupe, Lucy Gray's ex alongside one of his scummy friends, but you decide to mind your business. Sejanus was always too nice to everyone for his own good, anyway.

"Y/N's here." Coriolanus states, both him and Sejanus helping to carry their intoxicated bunkmates back to the barracks. "You see her?"

"I did, yeah, I talked to her." He nods, eyes straight ahead as their shoes crunch over the gravel.

"You talked to her? When?"

"A little after her performance, she was heading to this back room. Seemed awfully upset."

Coryo sighs. "What did she tell you?"

"That you betrayed her." Sejanus answers simply, adjusting his friend's arm over his shoulder. "That she was going to be killed or worse if she stayed."

"That's not-" Coryo thinks it over. "I didn't betray her, Sejanus. We know one baseline thing about Y/N Y/L/N and it's that she is, if nothing else, dramatic."

"Really? I wouldn't describe her that way." Sejanus argues subtly. "She's outspoken, maybe slightly obnoxious at times, but I feel like I am too. The one thing I know for sure about her is that she's not a liar, Coriolanus."

Coryo doesn't know if he's more angry about Sejanus calling you 'obnoxious' or framing it so nicely that you don't keep your mouth shut when you probably should. You were his girl, his. No one should talk about you like that but him- praise you or critique you all the same. You didn't know it yet, necessarily, but you were his to protect and to fix, if need be. You were rough around the edges, that's for certain, but you would mellow out eventually if you ever forgave him. "She wouldn't let me explain."

"Oh, was this before or after you kissed her as an apology?" Sejanus matches the heavy statement with a laugh and Coryo rolls his eyes at his response.

"I just, I needed her to know I did it because I care. I thought she was dead."

"Okay, well, she told me where she's staying. Told me to stop by on a day off." Sejanus admits. "Maybe you should come with me."

"Maybe." He agrees.

It was another week of torturous loneliness before Coriolanus was graced with a day off, and not even so much graced as he had to trade with one of his bunkmates to have the same day off as Sejanus. As soon as they ate they grabbed a couple bags of ice to bring with them to help you and your new friends beat the heat- a peace offering, of sorts.

The early August sun beat down on their backs as they walked through the Seam, a decrepit and rundown residential area that Coryo had no doubt had never seen a single air conditioner in all its days. There's no way you were happy here. Even with the lightness of his t-shirt and the early hour, he still had to fight the urge to remove it and instead drape it over his head to shade his skin from the sun.

"There's nothing down here. She lied to you." Coryo mutters as the already crumbled road falls into nothing more than a trail.

"Y/N said we had to keep going past the road." Sejanus says, looking back at him over his shoulder. "You want to hate her so bad, but you can't."

"I certainly can." Coryo grumbles in denial. "She's giving me the runaround. Obviously, she gave you fake directions-"

"Are you sure about that?" His friend replies smugly, looking through the overgrown trees ahead at a small grey house circled in by a white fence that hadn't seen a wash in years.

Coriolanus doesn't say anything, mentally rolling his eyes at being proven wrong. "Alright, go knock, then." He gestures for his friend to go ahead.

"This is your big plan to win her over? Hide in the bushes while I go in?"

"No. I'm just sure she lied and a local drunk is about to open the door with a gun pointed at your head."

"Suit yourself." Sejanus replies lightheartedly, practically skipping up to the door and giving it a few gentle knocks before taking a step back.

It's only a few moments and lots of chatter from inside before the door is swung open. "Hello there, what can we do ya' for?" Lucy Gray grins, and Sejanus looks pointedly over his shoulder at Coryo.

"Hi, I'm Sejanus, I'm a friend of Y/N's from back home." He explains and she smiles.

"Of course! I thought I recognized you, come on in, she's out in the back but you can just pass right through." She lets him in, looking at Coryo standing just outside of the fence line.

"You coming, Coriolanus?" She asks, raising an eyebrow as she holds the door, leaning against the frame.

He plasters on a smile, nodding and walking up to her on the porch that he's shocked doesn't collapse under his feet. "How are you?" She grins at him. "It's good to see you."

"You too." He nods. "I'm glad to see you made it home safe."

"Hey, well, welcome to the club." She chuckles, closing the door behind him. "Y/N's just out back." She points toward the back door. "But she's not too keen about seeing you, you know."

"So I've heard." Coryo sighs. "The feeling is mutual."

"Then why are you here?" She asks her previous mentor calmly. He's stumped by this, unsure how to respond. "Well, if it helps, I'm real glad you're here. I missed you." Lucy Gray promises, leading him to the back door and swinging it open.

Your head turns at the appearance of Coryo's silhouette on the back stairs. You internally groan, of course Sejanus would bring him. "And you brought Coriolanus." You smile bitterly at your friend, sliding an ice cube from the bag across your bare collarbones over the shirt you had now cut the sleeves off completely to turn into a tube top.

"Yeah, well, I figured you might want to actually talk." Sejanus offers, raising an eyebrow at you.

"We wanted to make sure you were doing okay here. Living up to your high standards." Coryo replies for you.

"Do I look uncomfortable to you?" You ask, placing a hand on your hip. "Well, now you've seen it all. Thanks for coming, Coriolanus, but I'm clearly happy here, so you can be on your way. Don't you have a rebel to shoot at?"

"Hey, woah-" Sejanus chuckles, holding his hands out to you in mock surrender. "Y/N, we just wanted to visit. I know I speak for both of us when I say that we've missed you."

You sigh, rolling your eyes slightly. You were nothing if not polite, raised to be a flawless hostess in your own home. "Alright. Sit." You gesture to the patch of grass next to you, by the little garden you're digging into to start some fall flowers. You've always wanted to try a garden, but your family paid people to do that and you didn't have the time, so why would you?

Lucy Gray and Sejanus do most of the talking, and you try to avoid looking up much from the dirt you're digging up and the small seeds you're planting. Coriolanus is sitting too close to Lucy Gray for your comfort, but you've been working on your temper, and until he showed back up it was going really well.

"Lucy Gray!" Billy Taupe calls from the front of the house, drawing all of your attention. You'd seen more of him than you have cared to since you've been here, he just won't leave her alone.

"Oh lord, here we go." She huffs, standing up and brushing off her skirt.

"I'll come with you." Sejanus offers quickly, standing as well. You're reminded of how, apparently, he and Billy Taupe know each other but you still can't understand why. The two of them disappear around the side of the house, and you're left alone with Coriolanus.

You keep a straight face, continuing with your cycle. Dig a hole, move the dirt, bury the seed, water it, repeat.

"What are you planting?" He decides to break the silence, moving a little closer to you and leaning back on his palms.

"Flowers, some fruit." You mumble back, keeping your focus on your hands.

"Isn't it a bit late in the season?" He asks, head tilted as he watches you.

"Raspberries are perennials." You reply plainly. "And roses bloom until late fall, do they not?"

"They do." He nods in confirmation, smiling a little to himself. Raspberries and roses together. He wonders if you even know what you're doing, or if this was a subconscious yearning you didn't know you had; to be with him in every form.

"Then there's no harm in planting them now." You say, stopping to take a quick break. You lean back on your calves where you were kneeling, grabbing the ice bag that is now mostly melted to drink out of. You hold it out to Coryo when you're done, shaking it when he hesitates to take it from your hand. "Drink. It's hot, you'll get dehydrated quickly even just sitting out here."

Coryo takes it at that, looking away quickly when he catches that glimpse of pity in your eyes, the same look that plagued him in the weeks leading up the the games and after he thought you died. He hated it until then, but now, maybe it wasn't so bad. At least you were looking at him, and it seemed like it was some kind of inherent need you had to take care of him. The thought of that made his stomach flip.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you." You say suddenly, catching him so off guard he almost spits out his water. District life really must have been changing you, and it was worse than he imagined. It wasn't just the loose-fitting clothes that were one stitch away from falling off of your frame, however breathtaking they may somehow look. Now, Y/N Y/L/N was in the business of issuing apologies? Someone call a doctor. "I shouldn't have said... that. It was cruel."

Coryo nods slightly, wiping the sweat from his forehead. "I figured you didn't mean it."

"You were lucky they had already decided my guilt. I would have torn your head off by now, otherwise." That's the Y/N I know.

"Sejanus told me they were going to execute you."

"Well, not necessarily." You sigh, pulling your skirt back out of the way before digging your hands back into the dirt. "It wasn't stated, but it was service that was suggested. Possibly nursing, probably under my father back home. When I climbed out my window, they were discussing the possibility of having me turned into an Avox. Highbottom said I knew too much, but I know my father would rather shamelessly bury me than have his oldest turned into a symbol of rebellion." You explain, now seeing no harm in telling him the full story.

"What do you know, anyway?" Coriolanus asks. It had been bothering him for a long time, and up until a week ago, he thought you took those secrets to the grave.

"That he and my father are proprietors of the largest drug ring Panem has ever seen." You answer simply, a smug smile taking over your features as you press some dirt carefully over a planted seed. "The main storage is in a secret room in our wine cellar, an old bunker from the war. I stumbled into it when I was thirteen-ish. I mean, you wouldn't believe everything they had down there. I haven't seen anything like it. Actual gallons upon gallons of morphling, other addictive crap that'll ruin your life, even weed." You giggle, sitting back again to gesture with your hand how big everything is.

Coriolanus can feel his eyes going wide at your confession, and he stammers. "I- wow, uh..."

"Come on," You chuckle, tilting your head at him like it was obvious. "Doctors don't have that much power unless they're a game maker Like Gaul, or have that money to start. They make money, sure, but not like that."

"Well," He swallows, nodding slightly at the intake of information. "That explains you being able to walk all over Highbottom for so long." He chuckles. It all makes so much sense now, how both you and Highbottom have a seemingly endless supply of morphling on you, and your father had a decently sized sought-after medical practice, but nothing that could add up to the amount of power and influence he possessed back home. "And the weed you brought to Livia's seventeenth birthday party."

You laugh. "No one even knew what to do with it- we were all so damn sheltered." You hum, matching his smile. "Still, don't tell anyone, okay?"

"Wouldn't dream of it." He shakes his head.

"You sure? Because last I recall, you did snitch on me, Snow. And frame me, if I’m remembering correctly…"

Coryo sighs. "I know, I know... But I did mean what I said. I just- it was stupid, but I thought I could protect you. Genuinely."

You don't seem mad anymore, just smiling at him. "I know." You say, voice so sickly sweet and soft in a way he had only ever heard from you once before; when he was on the verge of a panic attack in the arena. You had told him that soon it would all be over, simultaneously you were right but you also couldn't have been more wrong.

You needed him to believe all was forgiven, and the small look of satisfaction on his face proves to you that it has worked. From here, the games were back on.

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[darlingsfandom]

hii idk if u write dark fics but could you do a yandere!emmett where he kidnaps the reader, you don’t have to write it if it makes u uncomfortable!!

hi!! I've never wrote dark fics before but hey! First time for everything right! Also thank you for asking ✨

WARNINGS: kidnapping, fingering, slight breeding kink! Swearing ...

No, it wasn't Emmett's fault. It couldn't have been his fault that you were alone. You were alone in your room at least you had thought. Emmett wasn't really anything to you, just another guy in the village. He was older than you by a good twenty maybe even thirty years, but you can't lie his eyes were a very pretty shade of blue and the scruff wasn't too bad but he's just another guy.

Emmett had wanted you since the day you were found out in the woods. He had found you alone and scared but brought you to the village and helped you get on your feet. Emmett watched your every move since then. It wasn't creepy too him because if you didn't know how he watched you when you went to bed or how you'd cook dinner for one, it's not creepy just merely observing his favorite person.

You were laid out on your bed flipping through some magazine about the hottest new Hollywood couple when the sound of foot steps perked you up. You set the magazine down and then the steps stopped. Your fingers wrapped around the bat you had next to your bed before you got up and slowly approached your bedroom door. With a quick open you jumped back and swung the bat only to realize you were swinging at nothing. You rubbed your forehead with your freehand. "For fucks sake!" You whispered yelled to yourself making yourself try to calm down again but because you let your guard down Emmett took his chance. His leather gloved hand wrapped around your mouth and the other around your waist. Your body instantly went into fight mode, your legs trying to kick and arms trying to flee, but they couldn't. Emmett might be older than you but he's sure as hell a lot stronger.

"Shh!" He whispered into your ear before biting down onto the lobe. Emmett used his strength to drag you down the hallway, out the back door and into his old pickup truck. He made sure to keep everything neat as possible just in case anyone decided they'd stop to see you. You should've ran when he had you the truck but you didn't know Emmett like that. He was crazy enough to kidnap you from your own home, he could kill you right there. Emmett got his truck going and drove in silence as you sat there with your hands tied poorly in some old rope.

Your eyes stung from the tears as Emmett pulled into the dark part of the woods. "Oh my god!" You whispered to yourself as he circled the truck, yanked you out by your arm and dragged you through the wet ground until you were shoved inside a little shack. "Please don't kill me!" You blurted out as he pulled the string on the light.

"Kill ya? Why on earth would I kill ya? You've seen too many movies my dear. I'm not gonna kill ya." He pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head before pulling out the pocket knife , cut the rope and tossed it aside before shoving you into the work bench. "I would never kill ya. Ya might be pretty but ya sure are stupid to think I'd hurt ya doll. Ya see, yer ma girl and I'd never let anyone hurt you so that's why I had to bring ya here. Gotta protect ya!" Emmetts beard tickled against your cheek when he leaned in and kissed you. It took you by surprise and as much as you wanted to push him off and run, your legs wouldn't let you. Emmett's hands ran over your hips before yanking down your pajama shorts. A small gasp left your lips as the cool breeze blew across your wet spot on your panties.

Emmett had the pocket knife in his hand as he held it against your throat. "Now I know ya ain't the brightest star baby , but please don't try anything stupid. I'd had for ya to get hurt. Just let me do what I want to ya because yer mine ! And I will play with ya however I please." The blade ran across your pressure point, down between your breasts, over your stomach and finally ripped open your panties.

"So wet already. It shouldn't turn ya on that I've kidnapped ya and am holding your life in my hands and wet yer soaked." He teased you as his index finger toyed over your folds slowly while his lips attached to the pressure points on your neck biting gently until you snapped back into reality when he pulled away and the feeling of his fingers thrusting in and out of you going faster with each second made your knees buckle while your hands gripped the work bench behind you. Emmett licked over the bite as he pumped his fingers harder. "What a freak you are sweetheart! Getting off on my fingers . " He couldn't handle it anymore and yanked his fingers out leaving a you feeling empty but only for a few seconds because once reality washed over you again that you were in fact getting fucked by your kidnapper, Emmett was already thrusting his fat cock into your tight pussy.

"Ya got a tight little pussy baby! It's mine!" He growled into your ear while snapping his hips into yours harder and harder. "Ya wanted this! Ya NEEDED this! Needed me to take care of ya. No one was ever satisfying enough for ya! " tears streamed down your face as Emmett took no mercy on you.

"Don't ya dare cry baby! Yer already so wet and your thighs are shaking! Can't believe yer going to cum because ya getting fucked by yer kidnapper and lover! So fucked up! Ya dirty slut! My! DIRTY! SLUT!" With each snap Emmett got closer to his own orgasm making you cry harder until the own feeling in your belly fired up.

"That's it pretty baby, cum on my cock while I fill you up and knock ya up! Look so good carrying my baby in ya belly!" His eyes rolled back into his head as he filled you to the brim with his cum which made your own orgasm hit you hard. You cried loudly while dragging your nails down his back.

"Aww see baby, ya really were meant to be mine and only mine." Emmett smirked down at you before giving the most loving kiss you've ever felt.

[lanaxoxoxoxoxox]

No no no you’re getting a FUCKING REQUEST TODAY BABY

Ok so maybe someone of your choice with a really bubbly talkative reader and someone called reader annoying and then they like- stick up for reader

Does that make sense-

Like-

Reader: *talking*

Bitch: “ur annoying”

Person of choice: “not on my watch”

yes yes yes !! im in love with this ask frog oml

angel watch

wilbur soot x loud!reader

warnings: angst?? idk but theres DEF some fluff sprinkled in here

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reader pov

I never really thought about my actions often, but in a good way. Obviously I would know if I accidentally hurt someone, like any other average human being would do. But I never ever thought about my personality and it's own actions.

Ever since I was in first grade, my parents, friends and even teachers would describe me as someone with a "flirtatious, bubbly" personality. That never really got to me, and I found it funny. I mean, it does make sense, as I literally used "bubbly" in my Twitch username for when I stream. I do have to say, it's quite useful when streaming, as it keeps me engaged with my chat. That's what I enjoyed about myself. But I guess my chat didn't that day.

"Hello bubblies! How are we doing today my loves?" I said, smiling into the webcam.

user657: great!!

user342: meh, but ur stream is the best !! :D

userfroggie8: live laugh love y/n

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"Nice, nice! If your day is going pretty shit, I hope I can cheer you guys up!" I said, making a heart sign into the webcam. "Today is going to mainly just be a silly lil' rant stream. Maybe perhaps some storytimes? Maybe some clip reactions? We'll see, loves. But first, I need to remind everyone that you can subscribe to my channel for free with Twitch Prime if you have it and would like to support me."

I continued the stream with talking about random stuff that popped into my head. I was in my little streaming room, in my little shared apartment. What I didn't know is what my boyfriend was watching in the living room.

wilbur pov

Whoever said that cleaning pots and pans from the night before is a "relaxing" thing to do, needs to wake the fuck up. I mean, it's not like I'm going to make y/n do it, especially since they're going to be really tired after their stream. Especially with their cute, bubbly personality, when they get tired, they get tired. They have full on "sugar crashes".

I felt my phone vibrate from my back pocket. I placed the last pan down on the drying towel and slid my phone into my hands. I unlocked it.

"y/n_bubbles is live! "LETS CHAT!!" I smiled into the reflection of my phone. I plopped down onto the living room sofa and opened up the Twitch app, playing y/n's stream. I watched for a while, before grabbing my phone to send a message back to Tommy and catching up with my twitter page. I focused my ears back onto y/n's stream.

reader pov

"Alright, lets take a break from the rants for now. I bet y'all are tired of hearing my crazy rant voice!" I laughed to myself.

Suddenly, my donation sound popped up. "I should probably change my sound from the duck noises. That's, um, real immature from me..." I laughed again.

user10 donated $2.00

i dont watch ur streams often but can you like stop talking once in a while ur rly annoying. stop thinking you're different from other streamers and that ur "quirky". stfu. /srs

"Thanks user10 for the $2! Guys, I seriously can't read, I need to take a second to actually read the donations out loud for you guys, seriously." I inspected the donation closer. "Alright user10, what did you write... 'i don't watch ur streams often but can you like stop talking once in a while ur rly annoying-'" My heart stopped.

Don't let them notice Y/n.

Don't let them fucking notice.

I continued reading. "'stop thinking you're different from other streamers and that you're.." I paused. "that you're quirky. Shut the fuck up.' Um, I'm gonna take a little pause break guys." I said quietly, quickly turning off my webcam and switching to the "BRB" screen. I kicked my legs up to the chair and sat there for a minute, ignoring the rest of the world around me. Is that what they really thought of me..?

wilbur pov

I looked back up at the TV. I thought y/n was just talking about her random new games she enjoyed or about her friends, but instead was met with utter silence. When you hear your bubbly significant other who is the biggest extrovert stop talking, in the middle of a chatting stream, you know something's up. I looked over to the corner and saw a donation from some "user10". "i dont watch ur streams often but can you like stop talking once in a while ur rly annoying. stop thinking you're different from other streamers and that ur "quirky". stfu. /srs"

What. The. Fuck.

Not even bothering to shut the TV off or grab my phone, I ran upstairs to Y/n's streaming room and looked over at Y/n, sitting dead silent in her chair. I ran over to them and spun their chair around, accidentally hitting the keyboard and hurting my arm. "Fuck-".

Shut up Wilbur! Focus on your partner.

I spun their chair around and raised up their head. "Hey, hey, it's okay! That person is being a total dick, and what they said was utter lies." They raised their head up and looked at me in the eyes. "Don't listen to them. You're an incredible person." I stood up and looked down at them. Their legs were still bouncing. I kneeled back down again and placed my hand on their thigh to help them stop shaking.

"I love you." I said, before softly kissing them. I felt y/n stop shaking and smiled into the kiss. They turned back to their monitor and their jaw- dropped...?

"Uh, Will?" they said softly.

"Yes, love?" I replied.

"You accidentally turned the webcam back on when you hit the keyboard. The microphone was also on still. Chat's going fucking bananas." they laughed, placing their head in their hands.

user7798: FUCK USER10

user455: they're dating???? OMG

y/nstan4life: omg there so cute why cant i have that [happy-cry]

mcyt7447: Y/NBUR!!

I looked over to the chat and chuckled. "Oh shit."

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[therantsofawriterrr]

The Umbrella Academy Final Season: My Version

Part Three: Old Faces With New Personalities

Overview: While Lila and Diego keep hiding secrets from each other, Luther encounters familiar faces, that don't seem familiar in some aspects.

TW: Mature language, implied sex (idk maybe), hurt with comfort, the cafe scene except its different, tell me if i missed anything! Pairings in the chapter: Diego×Lila (Fluff alert hehe) A/N: So, I saw someone say that Five attended the Keeper meetings because he was still looking for a way to get his fam and himself back to their original timeline, which ig, makes sense, but i have established smn so yk im going with that but dw, we'll get to see that. Also, again, the Diego×Lila dynamic that we deserved to see. And a little surprise too (⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠).

Masterlist

After the Keepers meeting ended, Lila and Five sat in a cafe in the next block, discussing the contents that were discussed.

"Look, if these artifacts are from different timelines and now they're showing up-" Lila started saying.

"It's possible the old man's reset didn't take," Five finished.

"What does that even mean?" Lila asked, hoping Five would have an answer.

"I have no idea," Five said in a tired voice. He looked like he hadn't slept in a while, which worried Lila a bit.

Over the last six years, she had grown closer to everyone in the Hargreeves family. She'd grown to be a caring aunt to Grace, a fun-loving sister-in-law to Klaus, a caring, supportive one to Luther, and a snarky, sarcastic one to Five.

"Look, whatever this is, don't say anything to the family just yet," Five requested. "Not even Diego."

"Absolutely not," Lila agreed. "He thinks I'm at book club."

He gave her a dirty look, not at all happy with the sentence.

"It's just easier that way," Lila said, her eyes shining with guilt.

"Easier? It's Diego we're talking about, Lila. You know how he can get."

"Yeah. But... you know how he'll get if he gets in on this. He'll jump to conclusions, and make rash decisions and everything. Don't you remember him during the 60s?"

They both shuddered involuntarily as Five nodded. "Alright. well, it's a good thing I never got married. Too much deception involved."

He took a bite of his scone, which got some cream on his mustache. Lila smiled with a sigh as she took a tissue in her hand and wiped it away. "Didn't dear old Reggie teach any of you Hargreeves men how to eat?"

He scoffed with irritation as he said, "Don't coddle me, I'm not a child."

"Yeah, well you surely eat like one," she retorted, balling up the tissue and leaning back.

Suddenly a woman slammed her hands down on the table, making them both jump as she glared at Five.

"Next time I call," she gritted through her teeth. "I expect you to pick up your phone, accept it and put the damn thing to your ear."

Five's eyebrows furrowed as he stared at her with confusion. "How'd you find out my location?"

The woman just stood up and stared at him, pulling up a chair to sit. Lila noticed she was pretty in an unconventional way, with a sugarplum balayage on her dark brown hair and stony grey eyes. Wearing brown bellbottom trousers with a tucked-in maroon shirt, sleeves reaching till just below her elbows, a beautiful vintage watch on her left wrist, and maroon kitten heels on her feet, she looked like a boss lady.

"Did you put a fucking tracker in my outfit?" Five asked indignantly.

"Do you think I had a choice?" she deadpanned, drumming her fingers on the table. "You don't accept my calls, half the time you don't even wanna talk to me."

"Because you're annoying, Clementine," Five declared heatedly.

She only sighed with a roll of her eyes, ignoring the comment. "Anyway, look, we need to talk."

Five took an angry bite of his scone, prompting Lila to throw a tissue at him with a disgusted look.

"Alone, Five," Clementine asserted.

"If it's about the Keepers, then I could help, y'know," Lila interjected. "I've been investigating them as well."

Clementine's eyes lit up as she turned towards her, crossing her arms on the table. "Really? What have you found out about them yet?"

"Oh, well, that it started in New Mexico and everyone's just flocking towards it like lemmings. Oh, also, the Cleanse," she said, mimicking Jean when she said the last word.

"The Cleanse? What's that?" she asked.

"No idea. But, Gene, one of the leaders, said that it's either the end, or a great restoration."

Clementine whipped out a small notepad, turning to a page and starting to scribble in as Five took in a breath, almost looking scandalized.

"What are you doing?" he asked. "Don't tell me you're going to be reporting that to the deputy director."

"I have to give him something, Five," she said, focused on writing in her notebook before lifting her head to look at him. "Why? Are you ashamed that she, a civilian might know more than you, a goddamn CIA agent?"

"Oh, burn!" Lila exclaimed, laughing loudly. "Oh, I like you so much."

"Thanks! You're fun, too!" She exclaimed with bright cheerful grey eyes.

Lila stared at them with a kind of a knowing smile as they continued bickering. Her phone vibrated in her bag, and she took it out to see a text from Diego.

Hey, did book club end? You need a ride? I miss you🥺

She stared at the text with a tender smile before it faded, her eyes turning thoughtful and guilty. She got up, taking her small handbag with her, slinging it onto her shoulder.

"Well, you kids stay safe now," she said playfully, even though they didn't really hear her during their conversation.

Upon reaching home, she found Diego snoring on the couch in front of the TV, making her smile as she went to push some of his hair away from his forehead. She started going to her room to change when a hand caught onto her wrist, pulling her back.

She fell onto Diego's lap with a surprised gasp, her arm automatically going around his shoulders as her legs dangled off his thighs. He smiled sleepily as he gave her a peck on the nose, making her giggle as she gave him one on his lips.

"You should've gone to bed," she said softly, nuzzling her nose against his.

He hummed, his arms hugging her waist tighter, blinking the sleep away. "I can't sleep without you beside me, Lila. You know that."

She chuckled with a shake of her head, her other arm going to rest on his shoulder. "I'm sorry I kept you waiting."

"It's alright. I know you lose track of time during book club. How was it, by the way?"

She nodded with a shrug and said, "Not very informative. But it was fun."

Diego did feel a sting in his heart at the fact that she still wouldn't come clean to him about what she was doing, but he didn't budge on his trust. She'd earned it and so he was giving her the chance to tell him about her investigation when she wanted to.

He gave out a sudden yawn, making her chuckle again. "You can barely keep your eyes open, love. Go to bed. I'll join you after a shower."

"Hmm, can I join?" he asked with a playful smile, making her slap on his shoulder.

"Yes," she said and sauntered over to their room, making him jump up after her as he took off his shirt excitedly.

Simultaneously, a few blocks away, Luther stood in front of his apartment door with a blank look on his face, wanting to bang his head on it. In the time he knew Sloane, he'd memorized the places she went to. Even if Reginald reset the timeline, that wouldn't change.

He worked part-time in a cafe that Sloane usually visited to note down places that she'd visit if she got a chance to get out. All neat and noted. He still had it and usually carried it around with him.

Every evening after work, he worked in that place. Every fucking evening, he hoped that she'd come in, get in line and ask for a latte. But, it always just ended up killing all the hope inside him.

Suddenly, the door next to his apartment burst open, making him jump with a surprised grunt, as he looked to the side.

A guy exited, immediately looking at him with concern. "Oh, hey, sorry man, are you alright?"

"Yeah," Luther said, batting a dismissive hand. "It's alright, I'm alright."

The guy heaved a relieved sigh before giving him a smile. "I'm Christopher by the way, though, I mostly go by Chris."

Luther's eyebrows furrowed a little bit as the cube from Sparrow Academy, who had the same name, flashed in his mind, but he just ignored it and smiled back, not quite reaching his eyes.

"Who're you yapping with out there?" A very familiar voice said, making Luther perk up a bit.

And out the door, walked none other than Alphonso, Sparrow Number Four. Luther's eyes widened as he gave out a tiny gasp.

"Oh, hey. New neighbour?" Alphonso asked, looking at him.

"I... Uh. No. Not really," he said, composing himself. "I just don't get out much out of work, I guess."

"Well, ya should, man! Tell you what, we're going to a bar this weekend with some friends. Not too crowded either, if you don't like that kinda thing. You wanna come with?"

"Yeah," he said with a bright, hopeful smile. "I'd love to."

"Alright. Lookin' forward to it, man," Alphonso said with a friendly grin, before they both walked away, talking amongst themselves.

When Luther entered his apartment that night, he didn't sink to the floor with a blank despair. He sunk down with hopeful tears, and the sobs that wracked his body were happy ones.

And when he went to sleep that night, he knew it wasn't because he'd see dreams of living in a house with Sloane. He'd see dreams of meeting her in a bar. Of talking to her. Of getting to know what she's like in this timeline.

For the first time in six years, Luther Hargreeves went to bed with joy in his heart.

Another A/N: Ok, ik i'm speedrunning this shit, but I just need to write it all down cause the brellie in me is not letting me write anything else. So, here u go, two parts in one day lol. I'm prolly gonna start writing the next part too, so stay tuned!!

Likes, reblogs and comments are highly appreciated. Tysm for reading!!

[porkcutletbowl44]

Alright, this new chapter is currently my favorite, you made a wonderful job while writing it because I can't even describe how many emotions you made me feel😞💞.

I needed time to process the information that Simon left mama bevause he thought she was falling out of love with him even without a factual reasson. Jesus Christ this man needs therapy so bad😭. Even tho now we know why he choose Collen I'm still so confused at his behaviour. Idk this man makes me feel confused as fuck👎👎👎 but I need to admit that the way you portray him makes so much sense at the same time it's confusing. I really don't know how to express my statement correctly but I'm saying that the fact he left mama because he was scared she'd leave him makes sense considering his whole character's (especially in this fanfiction) trauma. He's a insecure person, and he's trying to hide that all behind his mask in an almost literalmente way, BUT IT STILL MAKES ME MAD BECAUSE HE COULD JUST HAVE TALKED ABOUT HIS FEELINGS💔. At this point I'm not even sure I'm confused at all, probably the best emotion that can describe what I'm feeling is frustration. And I loved that, it's just perfect to see how he struggles with his emotions and deal with them in a way that's destroying both himswlf and his family, how he just doesn't realize he needs to be honest with himself at first to start to try making things right with Fawn and mama. He knows he's being a horrible person to them, but it looks like he doesn't want to admit it even tho it's an essencial step to take if he really wants to have his old life back.

About Fawn, SHE'S TOO SWEET I JUST CAN'T READ ANY PART OF THIS FANFICTION SHE SHOWS UP WITHOUT SMILING😭❤. Also noticed the small parallel between mama and her, they both try to undestand and be calm at Simon despite all the bullshit he did with them, Idk if it was intentional or not but either way it made my heart melt because it's so sweet and heartbreaking that she's acting just like her mother when it comes to her father💔. I love her character so much, she reminds me of a little girl I used to take care of and it makes me feel so emotional. The fact that Simon is trying to make up with her for being negligent in the past months is so cute. I don't think he's necessarily a bad father, but he hasn't been acting like a good one either, and it's good to see him trying to make it up for it. When Fawn asked if he still loves mama made me cry too, it must be so odd for both to see him being arrogant and negligent and then acting all worried so suddenly, seeing her ask if they're going to live together like before is so heartbreaking💔. Gladly my "suffering" didn't least long since I was smiling ear to ear when he noticed his daughter was being bullied and went to confront the boy's father for encouraging it(we ignore that I cried a whole river when he fucked up everything with mama again afterwards😞). I'll be honest that my jaw fell to the floor when Simon was so mad at Keegan for being a reliable person for both his ex-wife and his daughter that he went to him JUST to get some satisfaction😭. He's so possessive even tho he's not even married to her anymore and even keeps refering to mama as his wife until Keegan corrects him. But he was really needing to have someone to say some truths to him like Keegan did, even I was tense while they're talking.

AND THW CLIFFHANGER, HELLO??? Maybe I'm overreacting a bit but I'm so worried about the person being alive😭😭😭. Already created multiple theories about who was shoot and why, and I just can't wait for the next weekend to come because I'm really excited to where you're leading this whole thing❤

Hiiiii, so wonderful to see you in my notifications!! I LOVE THIS SUBMISSION!!! 💛💛💛💛💛🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

First and foremost, Simons reasoning for feeling like he fell out of love is something I can 100% see him doing— pulling away out of fear, hurting so bad he gets angry, pushing everyone away because of his history with betrayal and losing people he cares about 💔 I never see this in fics!!! Abandonment issues, relationship OCD, leaving someone before they hurt you because of severe anxiety, it's just... It fits, in a way, y'know?

I kinda struggle navigating Simon with him figuring out his emotions and his course of action; because even though he's terrified of being abandoned, hurt, alone all over again he's SUPER protective of his lady and kid, that's his family, he can't just... Not looking out for them, whether it's up close or from afar.

But God I just can't help myself writing Simon with a fucking adorable daughter that ADORES him 🥹🤌🏻

(There would only be one person mama would be on a emergency contact list for, since it's way too soon for Keegan to consider putting her on his....Simon only has one person in his life he wants to know his private matters.......*hint hint wink wonk nudge nudge* 🤐🫥)

[princesspastel8]

Chapter 24

Third POV

It's now day two of Eboni staying home from school. Her foster parents believed her and also would inform her therapist on taking a break for the week. Thrilled with this, Eboni decides to use this free time to her advantage.

She gives herself new piercings, a bridge, and eyebrow piercing. Eboni remembers showering Jeff with pictures of what she's done - and his reaction was a bit hilarious. The teen found it funny how the killer's response was if it hurt or not. It was such a normal reaction, considering Jeff is a psychopath.

Speaking of Jeff, the killer has been texting her non stop- always asking if she's still breathing. An odd question- Why wouldn't she be breathing? Clearly, something is troubling him, but Eboni would rather wait until they see each other again to ask in person.

The smiling killer has been busy with more missions. As the days pass, Eboni takes note of the breaking news headlines of four more Red Riders gang members found dead. Taylor has been blowing up her phone because of this, and Eboni ignores her every time. She's surprised they haven't shown up at her home yet.

The teen is currently making rice porridge while listening to the latest update on the gang members' deaths. "Still no leads. What a surprise." She said, rolling her eyes.

The fact that only Eboni knows that it's Jeff committing these crimes - it still brings that twisted feeling of excitement. With this thought, she gets another text from the person of topic.

DD🖤🔪: *attachment sent* still breathing?

Eboni opens the message after finishing washing the dishes. She rolls her eyes but grins at the picture. It was Jeff in his classic white hoodie and ripped jeans- knife in hand. She takes a picture of her food and takes a rather revealing picture of herself to send him later.

E: uh, yeah. About to eat. *attachment sent*

DD🖤🔪: Damn... you can cook?

E: Yeah. My mom taught me the fundamentals and her recipes. Ran with it sense.

DD🖤🔪: Save a bowel for me, princess.

E: stopping by?

DD🖤🔪: damnit...fuck Idk. Faceless fucker has me busy today.

Eboni pouts but smiles as she sends that revealing picture she took earlier. The teen is only wearing a pink bra and panties set with a jacket and cat ears headband to hold her hair out of her face.

E: That's too bad daddy...I only made enough for two servings - I guess that leaves more for me 🤭🎀

It takes the killer awhile to reply, but once he does, it makes the girl squeal in embarrassment.

DD🖤🔪: *attachment sent* See what you do to me? Now I gotta deal with this. Gonna be late 'cause of you. You're just itching to be punished, huh princess?

Eboni stares at the imprint of his harden shaft straining against his jeans. The girl whines, grabbing her bowel of food and moves to sit in the living room. It takes her awhile to compose herself enough to reply.

E: Maybe...😖👉🏾👈🏾

DD🖤🔪: dont get shy on me on now. Starting shit you know you can't finish - why? That bored?

Eboni huffs at his reply, typing away before she can rethink what she sent.

E: No shit sherlock! Hell yeah I'm fucking bored! I can still hardly walk so I cant even leave this damn house!😤

Eboni immediately regrets sending that message so she turns her phone on silent and tosses it on the other end of the couch, forcing herself to think of other things. she puts it on YouTube - finding a video suitable enough to watch while eating. Unfortunately, just as the teen is about to take her first spoon full- a ring and knocking are heard from her front door.

Grumbling curses, she places her bowel on the dining table in front of her- throwing her robe on as she walks to answer the door. She's surprised to see that it's the two detectives that she met at the hospital - Smith & Micheal.

"Good evening, Ms. Eboni, been awhile, hasn't it?" Smith said kindly, while Michael just glares at the girl.

"Mhm, yeah, you could say that... but why are you here?"

"It's about the murders of those gang members. We believe you have some -"

Smith elbows Micheal in his stomach, giving him the side eye before looking back at Eboni. "We just wish to ask you a couple of questions. May we come in?"

Eboni rolls her eyes, opening the door wide enough for the two men to enter. She points to the chairs within the living room while she moves to sit back on the couch. The teen grabs her bowel of food that's luckily still warm. She takes her first spoonful, waiting for the two men to start talking.

"Well, we went to your school once given the case - to ask a few students some questions. Two girls were quick to speak up." Smith explains, his tone serious.

Eboni rolls her eyes again, taking another spoonful. "Must've been those girls I saved... unintentionally." she thought to herself, eyeing the two detectives still not speaking to either of them.

"Your silence is speaking volumes." Micheal scoffs, still refusing to sit in the chair Eboni offered.

"I rather you two cut to the case so I can finish my food in fucking peace."

Michael was about to speak, but smith beat him to it. "They said you were walking towards the woods when they suddenly saw interest in you. The first victim was the first to intagonize you."

"Your point?" She sighs, really wanting this to be over.

"We'd like to hear your side of the story. Why were you walking towards the woods, and why didn't you show for school in the past two days? We contacted your parents, and they stated that you're sick... but - "

"You seem to be in the built of health to us." Micheal finished, narrowing his eyes at Eboni - trying to intimidate her - which isn't working at all.

The teen moves to rest her head against the back of the couch before sitting up and staring at the two. "I wanted to go to the woods to get some fresh air, be one with nature - it always calms me. But I came across those bitches beating up these girls."

"There was more than one?" Micheal asked, a bit confused.

Eboni can't help but chuckle. "Oh? I guess the other two must've scared them into silence." The teen grins before giving the detectives the girls' name. "Trisha is the tall one. Beth is the other one. It shouldn't be too hard for you to figure out who they are."

Smith is taking notes as Eboni speaks, not missing a single detail. One thing he didn't believe is the 'needing fresh air' story. Something doesn't sit right with the detective, but he lets it go for now - well, tries to - but Micheal has other plans.

"That fresh air bull isn't adding up, girl. Why aren't you at school either? What are the odds that you miss two days in a row the moment news breaks about this girl's death? And the many others as well! Mr. Smith, I say we call for a search wa-"

Eboni grins, the once annoyed look in her eyes changes to one of amusement. She pulls a bit of her robe down- showing off her hickeys and the bruising on her waist of Jeff's harsh grip, as well as the bruising on her wrist from the handcuffs.

"Say detectives... I think it's my turn to ask some questions, yeah? Have you ever heard of BDSM? If you must know, I was to busy getting my brains fucked out the day of her murder."

The detectives are to stunned to speak. This young girl is still just a teenager in highschool- though she is eighteen now. They never would've guessed that she would admit something so personal in such a shameless way.

"Oh, what's the matter? Thought you hit a break in your case? That's too bad." Eboni looks at Micheal, her grin turning wicked. "You have a keen eye, Micheal. I'm sure you noticed my little limp on our way in here, right?"

Michael doesn't say a word, not wanting to voice that Eboni is right. She seems innocent. There's not an ounce of evidence against Eboni, so conducting a search would be considered unlawful. The two detectives are now left with zero leads.

Eboni laughs, leaning back onto the couch as she closes her robe a bit tighter than before. "What's a matter, Micheal? To prideful to admit I'm right? Oh! Here's another question: When was the last time you got laid?"

Smith chokes on his spit as he quickly stands. "Ok, ok, we got all that we needed from you, Ms. Eboni. It's best we g-"

"But why? He hasn't answered the question." she stands, crossing her arms over her chest.

"I don't have to answer anything! Not only is this inappropriate - but such a question as nothing to do with - !"

"I think it does. The way you looked at the art over my body, you're disgusted- judgemental. So I just assumed no girl has given you the time of day. I mean, who would? You're so uptight, mean, so lanky, and waaaaay too serious! Maybe paying someone to give you head would loosen you up, yeah?" Eboni says mockingly.

Eboni laughs at how red Michael's face is. Is it red from embarrassment? Or anger? Who cares? The teen is finding so much enjoyment in this situation. She never knew reading people and exposing them like this could be so entertaining.

Smith clears his throat, forcing Michael to the front door. "Th-this has gone on long enough. We apologize for barging in with our assumptions. Stay well, Ms. Eboni."

The teen smiles kindly, waving at them. "You too, Smith." She said before shutting the door.

The two detectives walk to their car, both getting in. Smith cranks up the car, pulling out of the driveway and onto the main road. Michael is fuming, body shaking from rage. How could he allow a teenage girl to humiliate him? It reminds him to much of....that murderer.

"You may be right." Smith said, breaking the loud silence as he drives back to the police station.

"About what?" Micheal asks through his teeth.

"That girl... something about her isn't sitting right. That look in her eyes. She's hiding something."

Michael calms down at Smith's words. "So you finally believe that she has some type of connection to Jeff!? Think about it Smith- base on what she told us, it could be Jeff committing these murders on her behalf!"

"That's a stretch, Micheal, and you know it. Though... she might've gained some type of fascination towards that Jeff guy. Something about her seems so...different from the last time we met."

Michael huffs, slumping back into the passenger seat. "Tch, whatever the case is- we'll find out."

Back with Eboni, the teen finished the rest of her food and went back to her bedroom to make a phone call to a certain smiling killer. It takes awhile for Jeff to pick up the video call, his camera pointing away from his face. Looks like he just finished a murder.

"Any idea how much trouble you're in? When I get my hands on you I'm-"

"The police stopped by." Eboni quickly said, watching his bloody hand twitch as the grip on his knife tightens.

Jeff changes the camera settings, switching it to his face that has blood splatters on it. "Why?" He asks, voice chilling.

Eboni bites her bottom lip, losing track of her thoughts at the sight of Jeff's face with blood on it. She finds it so sickly attractive. "...huh? What are we talking about?"

"Princess - I'm still pissed at you. Fucking pay attention or your punishment will be worse. Why were the cops at your place?" The killer knows the answers, he just wants her to confirm them.

"About that bitch you killed. And the other gang members. They thought I had something to do with it."

"What else happened?"

"I showed them the art you left behind. I didn't say who did it, but they took the hint. Plus, they have no evidence against me. You should've seen the look on Michael's face! I really pissed him off!"

That name sounds familiar to Jeff, but he can't put his finger on why. "What did my princess say?" He grins, now leaving the crime scene behind.

"I asked if he's ever been laid. Told him why he'll never get laid. AND said he should pay someone to give him a blowjob to loosen up." Eboni laughs, moving to lay across her bed.

Jeff is cracking up as well, shaking his head at Eboni's antics. "Damn. You're something else. But keep a eye out for those fuckers. They're smarter than they look." The killer warns.

Eboni rolls her eyes, moving to sit up against her headbored. "Oh please, nothing can get past me."

Little did she know, a fellow smiling killer - accompanied by two others - are watching Eboni's bedroom window from the woods across the street.

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Tw emotional abuse, I suppose

Hi, I have a very bad relationship with my bfs mom since the beginning of our relationship. (She was emotionally abusive towards him too so, it's wasn't a "one time" thing).

At the beginning of our relationship I was commited to a clinic because of my ED and my mom was certain that I only did it, to make her mad. To talk bad about her with strangers and to make her colleagues think bad of her. So she kicked me out. She "offered" that I could live with friends of her, who's children just moved out, and I did. These friends know very little of my mental issues and don't believe me either but okay. At some point, after several weeks, my mom wanted me to come back and when I refuaed, she told her friends lies about me, until they kicked me out. I was together with my bf for 5 months maybe at that point and he asked his mom, if it would be okay for me to stay with them for 2 or 3 weeks. And it was fine for her. I had only met her twice before. This is where the story starts. Ah and, we've both been 21 at that time. I've been at his moms house for 2 weeks at that time.

So my bf had a hard time finding a job, since his mom lived outside nowhere, and at some point he considered coming to my city (2h away) and looking for a job there. We could find an appartment together and just live our lives. He asked his mom, what she thinks about it and she got so mad. She started yelling at him (idk what) for several minutes and when he flew into his room (where I was at that moment) she followed him and continued yelling "And I am not a fucking open house for some fucking dirty hobo" which was referred to me. She only knew that my mom and I needed some time seperated. My bf entered his room, locked his door and his mom continued yelling for one hour straight (I don't remember what, I covered my ears most of the time) and came back every hour and yelled again for 10min (at some point because we refused to open the door to have "a serious and open conversation".) For like 6 hours until she went to bed.

She also said, I had to leave the next day and I did. But my bf came with me. He found a job, we found an appartment, it went well. It's been 5 years and she doesn't remember. I am always very shy and closed when talking with her (she's anyways always criticizing me) and at some point she asked my bf, why I was like that and what she did wrong and he just told her "You've insulted her pretty badly" and she was like "I don't remember. But I am sure she deserved it".

But whenever I look at her, talk to her, I know that I can't trust her. Because she's shown how fast she can switch and what she really thinks of me. And she's been really affectionate and hugging a lot etc and I am on one hand sure she means it. But I always think "Stop pretending!!" when she hugs me and idk if I can ever have a neutral relationship with her. Sadly, she's too "perfect" to have an earnest talk about my fear. She has said some other stuff... that was mostly well meant but sometimes just yelling at me for no reason (like, she believed I didn't do something, I said, I did, she said I lied). Etc. Idk, it is hard. I'd love to never have to see her again. But I don't want this to affect my relationship with my bf so I just shut up and join him visiting her everu now and then.

Hi anon,

First of all I'm so sorry about everything you went through. You did not deserve to be treated those ways, and I'm honestly appalled that both your mom and your bf's mom have said such blatantly rude things about and to you. There is no reason to speak to and about anyone that way.

It hurts when not only your mom, but your mother in law disapproves of you. It makes family functions needlessly more complicated. That being said, I do think you deserve to both set strict boundaries with these people and also have those boundaries respected. So for example, you say you'd love to never have to see your mother in law again, and that's okay. That could become a boundary where you say "If you're going to see your mom, I'm not coming. She has disrespected me and has now lost the privilege of my company."

Your boyfriend should be more understanding and supportive of you. When I put myself in his shoes, I would think it's completely valid why you don't want to see her. I wouldn't make you go with me when I wanted to visit her, I would simply respect that boundary because of my love for you, and so I'm curious why your boyfriend still makes you go along. It may be necessary to have a conversation with him and just explain to him that you love and respect him and his family but because his mom has hurt you so unapologetically, you don't want to visit her again, but remind him that he's free to visit his mom by himself whenever he pleases.

Obviously avoiding her won't be completely possible, but you deserve to respect your boundaries where you can, and if you really don't want to see her even at family functions, you may just want to keep a distance from her.

If anyone else has any suggestions, please feel free to add on. Otherwise I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[noah-fens]

I decided to befriend the one other person in class who seemed as quiet and introverted as me, which was in hindsight a mistake because they've turned out to be the most obnoxious person I've ever met:

yapping my ears off all day

usually starts the day with "i'm tired so i might not talk too much today", yet never does shut up

such a loud talker too

complains about everyone else being too loud

does never ever take a hint, will insist on asking if there's something wrong five times a day if i happen to be a little quieter than usual

constantly says they've stopped drinking only to talk every monday about how they went for drinks during the weekend

says they've stopped going out because they hate it, still constantly talks about that time they went to this or that party or club like it's their only hobby

will ask things solely as a segway to talk about themselves

thinks their experiences are, in fact, universal

if i add anything to a conversation, they will be quiet for like half a second before continuing like i didn't say anything - really just one ear in, the other ear out

i don't want to hear about your bunny or see pictures of your bunny!! i've had enough

truly i know their whole life's story, against my fucking will

what do you mean, your ex you haven't seen in two years showed up to propose last week? and you're complaining? i know it's just a way to brag that you have a love life

"yeah yeah i know, i've experienced a lot" sure yes you're the most interesting person in the room at any time, bravo

has complained about someone acting like they're the most special person ever by telling a lot of stories, more than once

said last month they've given up on dating, won't ever try tinder again, now they're constantly telling me about their numerous matches and asking me for input on what to send and like, no. i don't care and i don't understand how people are attracted to you

does in fact think they're the most interesting person alive

one time interrupted me to laugh at me for saying something wrong while i was explaining the mistake i'd made; idk it felt kinda really unkind and hurtful, the way they talked over me, at the moment, i think that is what cemented my dislike (seriously nothing worse to a quiet and reserved person like me to be talked over like that; i don't think i said another word to them that day)

one time kept going on and on about how we should hang out but framed it as me being in need of friends and terribly lonely, like they'd be doing me a favour

does not respect the fact that a quiet weekend at home is in fact a fun time for me

again, sooo loud. always yelling at me. maybe i'm just feeling more sensitive to loud talkers lately

the ultimate irony, told me this week they 'are able to tolerate me'; what? I mean sure but what? who the fuck says that to someone's face when you barely know each other

tells me every day they might not talk too much, gets offended if i say i don't mind

told me i can be very rude, for this precise reason

what do you want me to say??

said about someone "he's alright but he seems gay ... not that there's anything wrong with that of course" okay then why say it like it's relevant or in that tone? can straight people stop doing that?

told me they're into cops and lawyers

because they're a true crime fan

one time kept shoving bread into my hands even though i said i didn't want it, then laughed cause they thought it was just so funny the way they were feeding me

no matter how little response they get from me and how much i must look like i'd rather be anywhere else, they will keep on fucking yapping; will there ever be peace again? i miss when i could spend all my breaks quietly scrolling, but it's gone too far now and there's no way to tell them off cause i just know they'll take so much offense and then i have to deal with that for the rest of the year

is a 24 year old whose mother still makes their lunch and who does not eat the crust of their sandwiches

makes a mandatory weekly comment about how men suck sooo much and are so childish, like can we just get rid of them already, all of them indiscriminately (always the weirdest conversation to have as a closeted trans guy)

made fun of a guy for being shocked by the nude art in their parents' house yet kept going on about how it's very much frontal and detailed etc. like yes, that is generally a thing i might expect from nude art and in fact you seem more affected by it than me, why else are you repeating it over and over in the hopes of getting more of a reaction

has never heard of volume control, seriously stop fucking yelling at me, use your inside voice

might actually just be a me thing, tbh

[alba8688]

Love hurts

Chapter 53

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Today was the gender reveal and both Eddie and I were excited .We couldn't Wait to find out if peanut was a boy or girl but whatever it was we just wanted a healthy baby .

The gender Reveal was going to be at Steve's house because he had a big yard and his parents weren't going to be home like always On a work trip.

I wonder if they even know of all the parties Steve threw at their house ?

Well I think it's mostly Steve's house since he is always the one fixing the ac or the plumbing because they are always on vacation or work trips because his mom can't trust her husband to go alone afraid he's cheating .Which he is ,even when his wife goes to all his work trips he still manages to sneak out.

I would never want to get to that point in a relationship of not trusting my partner .That's no life.

I trust Eddie so much whenever he goes out alone with the kids or Gareth I know he wouldn't do anything even though I know about his past of being a one night stand kind of guy .

Ok ,just thinking of it made me want to kill him maybe slowly I'll torture him for being the hoe he was.

Why was I getting mad ?

All of that happened before he even met me ..

Now I want to cry,stupid hormones making me look like a crazy pregnant lady.

"Fuck you!!" I said it louder than intended. Suddenly I heard Eddie's heavy footsteps running to the room.

"What's wrong sweetheart ?" He asks ,looking at me with those stupid brown eyes looking all innocent like he never broke a fucking plate .

"What's wrong you say !!" I made a beeline towards him standing right in front of him face to face .

Poor Eddie was surprised he didn't know what the hell was going on .

"W-what did I do ?"he stuttered, looking like a deer caught in headlights.

"Nothing!!" I spin around and storm to sit on the bed continuing doing my makeup.

Why do I have to get so mad for something that happened before he even met me ?

That wasn't me but there was something that made me so mad jealous to say just thinking about the fact that he has been with other girls makes my skin crawl,just the fact that he touch them the way that he touches me .

Was my eye twitching?

I really need to calm down before our baby comes out being grumpy all the time.

"Dani sweetheart ." He said sweetly but being that I was pregnant and these  hormones were driving me crazy I mimic him .

Yes I know that was childish of me.

"I love you baby ." He coo pecking my lips softly ,I didn't kiss him back, I just lifted my eyes to look at him wanting to murder him for being with so many girls before he even met me.

"Ok,what's wrong?" He asked plopping next to me in the bed "I'm all ears ." He tells me .

"Nothing."I said flatly

"Well obviously there's something wrong because I kept hearing you cussing all the way to the living room even Nate heard ." He tells me

"Fine ." I groaned "but it's stupid don't laugh." I stood up pacing around trying to find the right words to say without sounding stupid maybe I was stupid .

"Ok,I got jealous because you slept with other girls before me ." I said quietly almost as a whisper .I kept my eyes on him, a big smirk appearing on his face .

"What ?" He ask

"You heard it, don't make me repeat it again ." I rubbed my face with my hand in frustration because it did sound stupid saying out loud ..

"Dani ." I heard him say and then the bed move .

"Huh."i replied

His arms wrapped around my waist swaying me slowly side to side .

"You know I love you ,I mean I know you were with Liam before me ." He says softly

I stayed quiet not saying anything, because if he only knew that Liam wasn't my only one .

After Liam and I were on and off In high school I went on dates and on college as well. When Liam Broke up with me when Nate was 3yrs old my world ended and I became bad wanting to stop the pain, being with other guys .

"It was only Liam right ?" He gulped putting his hand on my shoulders looking at me with a one brow raised.

I bit my bottom Lip.

"No."I whispered hoping he didnt hear me.But I think he did.

"Noo!" His voice went a few octaves higher and it looked like he was going to pull his hair out.

"Noooo!"His voice was definitely higher than usual. I never knew he could go that high.

Ok ,he was worse than I was and i think his eye was twitching now .

Eddie pov

Oh shit my eye is twitching badly I covered it with my hand what the fuck was happening to me i need to calm down That happen way before she met me ,it shouldnt bother me but it does..

Calm down count to 10,or  maybe I'll count to infinite .

Jesus Christ !!!Just thinking that other dudes got to hear the pretty sounds she makes, the sounds that are meant just for my ears, was driving me insane.

Ok ,count to 10 slowly.

1

Breath

2

Breath

3

Breath

4

Breathe

5

Breathe

Ok I feel better I didn't have to count to Infinite.

Now look at your beautiful girlfriend who is carrying your child and kiss her .

"Did you have sex with any of these guys ?" No you weren't supposed to ask that idiot.

You were supposed to hug and kiss her and tell her that everything was in the past .

But no, I had to ask if she slept with them .But she still hasn't answered my question.

"Only like with 5." She said softly, looking at me with teary eyes .Jesus H .Christ!!!I think I just got stabbed through my heart. 5 idiots got to hear her make those pretty sounds.I think i'm dying yes i am .or maybe i'm just being a bit dramatic?

"Five ! " Wait, my voice sounds a little bit to High .

I started pacing around the room ,then turned to look at her "Five !!"I repeated again hopefully I heard wrong.

"Yes, five plus Liam Eddie ." She call me Eddie,she always calls me baby.she is mad she is definitely mad..

Shit ,I fucked up .

"You slept with all those girls on the Hideout,The nigh i went to your show they kept talking about how good you are in bed ,how amazing your hands are ,and how many times you made them cum in one night and that was more than 5 fucking guys that was a whole fucking group of girls Edward !!so dont come at me for five fucking guys when you apparently fucked every girl that goes to The Hideout.

"Ok they might be exaggerating because I never took my time with them. It was just like 5 minutes or less and I'd leave or I'd kick them out, sometimes I didn't even finish  ." Shit ,close your mouth Eddie please zip it.I don't think she wants to know about your past sex  life .

"Get out !!" Dani shouted

"Dani baby I'm sorry ." But she looked furious. I thought she was actually going to murder me .

"Get out !!"she shouted again, I wanted to go hug her and say sorry for opening my stupid mouth. We never had a big fight like this before .

It was always small fights but this was our first big fight .

I got my clothes that I was going to wear for the gender reveal and got out .

Walking like a little kid who had Been gotten after by their parents ,I went into Nate's room to change .

"Fuck ,im so stupid ." I kept telling myself while changing .

"I need a smoke ." After I finished getting ready I walked out to the living room .

Nate was playing on his tablet with his headphones on .

"Uncle Dustin did you ge thim!!" He shouted excitedly .

He was playing that Roblox game with Dustin.

I opened the door and went out and sat on the steps outside pulling out a cigarette.

The door to the trailer opened and small steps were heard followed by Ozzy's tippy taps .

"Hi Dadda ."

"Hey buddy.I thought you were playing with your uncle Dustin ." I smile weakly

"He said he had something to do ,Are you crying ?"he asked

I didn't get to respond because Harrington's car and Gareth's car park in front of the trailer with a masked man getting out and running towards us .

"What the fuck !" I stood up

"Nate go inside ." I told Nate but he didn't listen .

"Sorry Eddie ." The next thing I know

Is that someone put a black pillow case to cover up my face and tied my hands.

"Nate go inside ."i knew that voice,Henderson that little Shrimp ..

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Dani's pov

I think both Eddie and I overreacted .

It was such a stupid fight ,now here I was crying in the room not having nothing to do because

My mom ,Dustin and Steve were the ones that planned the whole Gender Reveal .They wouldn't let me do anything saying I needed to rest to be stress free,but I honestly didn't care if they let me help at least a little bit .Because I needed things to do ,working from home was so boring especially when Eddie was at work and when he was home he was so distracting ,kissing me ,cuddling me while I was supposed to be working.

I had my laptop on the whole day in case Liam would send me an Email or message in the work group chat for whatever I had to do for the day .

Some days were slow where I had nothing to do and some days were filled with Liam and I signing things or making new updates to our app .

And today was a slow day so Liam told me to take the day off for the gender reveal so I could

Get ready .

Now here I'am sitting down on the floor with a pile of clothes around me trying to figure out what to wear and crying my eyes out because I was so mean to Eddie .

Stupid hormones driving me crazy ..

So here I am in an avalanche of clothes crying for my metalhead for how mean I was to him.

“Stupid ,stupid,stupid hormones!”yes I was throwing a tantrum crying and throwing clothes around, Now that I'm looking at my clothes I see I have too many clothes ,Sometimes I wonder why I buy so much clothes that I don't even wear .There were clothes that still had tags on and some clothes I didn't even recognized .

But one piece got my attention: it was a beautiful navy blue floral dress that I had bought months ago and never wore .

It was open from the back giving everyone a perfect view of my back ,I love it .It was perfect .

I hope this gets Eddie's attention and he won't be so mad at me anymore .

Talking about Eddie I haven't seen him since the argument and I haven't heard any noise in the living room other than Nate and Ozzy .

I stood up from the pile of clothes and peek out the door to the living room where Nate and Ozzy were watching TV .

"Nate baby ,is Eddie there ?"

"No momma ."

I furrowed my brows ,where could he be ?

Did he leave ?

Then I heard Nate's littles footsteps getting closer then Ozzy's footsteps following him.

"Momma ,Dadda went outside for a smoke." Nate stops and gets distracted by the pile of clothes on the floor of the room letting himself fall to the clothes laughing .

"Ok and what happened ?" I asked him ." Then I followed him and Ozzy and I sat down with him outside ." He stops again getting distracted by something else ,but I was getting frustrated .

What if something happened to Eddie .

"Nate, baby where's Eddie ?"

"Oh yeah ,then a car came and some guys wearing black masks came and put Dadda a black bag on his face and carried him to the car ,then someone that sounded like uncle Dustin told me to come inside and lock the door,so I came inside ."

"What ? When was this ?"i panicked

"I don't know mamma but uncle Dustin told me to tell you to get Ready for the party ." And just like that Nate walked away to the living room Ozzy followed behind him taking his place back on the couch with Nate by his side .

"Jesus Christ. !" I looked for my phone under all the piles of clothes until I found it and called Dustin,the phone rang a few times before he answered .

"Hello ." He answered

"Dustin, where's Eddie !!" I panicked

"We kidnapped him ." He said it just like

Nothing.

"What do You mean?"

"Just like it sounds we kidnapped him

And he is here with us ,he doesn't know it's us yet but he will ." Then he hangs up The phone leaving me hanging.

I dial Steve's phone number ,the phone rings a few more times until he answers .

"Shit ,Dani I had nothing to do with this, it was all Dustin ,he had all this planned about kidnapping Eddie for the Gender Reveal part of his plan to reveal the gender of the baby ,please don't be mad at me ."

"Steve ,slow down please ." I told him..

So after he explained again I understood what Dustin was trying to do. It was part of the gender Reveal I had to Rescue Eddie to figure out the Gender of our baby together .

All I wanted was to tell Eddie sorry for the way I acted now I have to rescue him.

Steve's house

No ones pov

Steve and Dustin had everything ready for the Gender Reveal; they Even kidnapped Eddie .

They know it was a stupid thing to do because it's Eddie and Eddie was going to get them back triple .

"Henderson you little shrimp take this cuffs off me !" Eddie shouted from the living room where he was cuffed by his own handcuffs .

Dustin had gotten this crazy idea; he had come out with a whole D&D campaign for Dani to Rescue Eddie from a Dragon who had also hidden an egg with the gender of his niece or nephew .Which of course he made the egg with the help of steve.

Dustin thought it was a great idea.He planned everything.He even had parts for the guest.He was hoping everything went well.And hoping Dani wouldn’t get mad.

But Dani wasn’t mad she was less worried now that she

Eddie was in good hands and not in fact kidnapped , so she decided to help Nate get ready for the party Nate had chosen his clothes he force Dani to go into Hot Topic which she didn't mind but she didn't expect for her son to like that kind of clothes he always wanted to dress with cartoon shirts or his favorite character but now he wanted to dress just like his dadda.

Dani hadn't told Eddie about their trip to the mall because Nate wanted to surprise him.Nate had chosen some black ripped jeans from the knees a metallica tee and for the shoes Dani got him some converse.When they finished getting ready they headed to Steve's house to the party.

"Is Dani here yet?"Dustin asked .He was getting impatient. He wanted everything to go as he planned and he really hoped Dani and Eddie wouldn't kill him.

"She is here!!!"mike shouted from the front door .

"Everybody get into position!!"Dustin shouted frantically ,everyone was there Hooper,Joyce, the whole gang Mrs.Henderson uncle Wayne, even Liam who was the dragon who captured Eddie.

Dustin found that hilarious but Liam didn't he ddint understand why he had to be the dragon.

"Dustin can anybody else be the dragon?"liam asked well he pleaded him .

"Nope"dustin told him popping the P

Liam knew Dustin was still mad at him for what he did to his sister even though it has been months since it happen even after he apologized to him so many times but Dustin coudlnt forgive him because he had promise Dustin he was never going to hurt Dani he cross his heart he even pinky promise him and Dustin believe him because he saw how much liam loved his sister.

Liam felt awful hurting Dustin because he saw him growing up. He was there through everything even when he got sick. He was there when Dustin had his first crush in elementary school but he ruined everything when he hurt Dani because he also hurt Dustin who was like his little brother to him.

"Liam!"Dustin snapped Liam out of his thoughts when he screamed right on his face telling him to get into his position on his lair where he had Eddie tied up in a chair .That was the only thing he love about this stupid game having the man that stole Dani from him begging to set him free.

Liam walked back to his lair where Eddie was fumbling to get out of the chair that Dustin and lucas had tied him up.He sat down on the bed and looked at Eddie who had managed to take the blindfold off.

Liam smiled and shook his head. This was like a dream for him .If he were as bad as they said he was, he would have enjoyed torturing Eddie.

But he didn't have it in him to do such a thing.

"What the fuck are you smiling about?"Eddie growled he wasn't in the mood to deal with liam he wanted to get out of this chair and looked for Dani and tell her how sorry he was for the way he acted,he couldn't lose her for his stupid jealousy.

"Nothing."he chuckled ,Eddie made a face at Liam he wasn't really happy being stuck here with Liam of all people.

Was Dustin torturing him ?

"What the fuck are you doing here?"Eddie asked Liam who was sitting down on the bed scrolling through his phone.

"I'm the damn dragon that captured you."liam rolled his eyes, putting his phone down on the bed .

"Huh, interesting."Eddie said, finally giving up trying to get himself free from the handcuffs .

Did he make Dustin mad to be torturing him like this?

Eddie tried to remember if he did anything to him but nothing came to his head at the moment .

From the Distance they heard Dani and Nate screaming followed by Ozzy barking getting Eddie out of his thoughts thinking something bad might have happened to Dani and Nate

"They are here and probably where attack by the goblin charging the fee at the entrance ."liam told a worried Eddie who needed to know if Dani and Nate where ok."They are ok man .just Wheelers little sister might have taken her role as a goblin pretty good ."he chuckled

Oh ok."eddie responded he didn't know how to keep a conversation with the man his girl use to be so inlove with.They stayed silence for what seem like hours Eddie and liam glancing at each other wondering what Dani Ever saw in each other .Eddie wondered how Dani  could go from a God like liam who was very muscular and tall to a scrawny metalhead who barely ever worked out in his life.That made Eddie wondered maybe he needed to work out a bit more .

But Dani has never told him anything or complain that Eddie wasn't strong enough ,well she did complain but in a good way how big Eddie was saying how sore she would be afterwards but she still loves having sex with him.

Eddie wondered if Liam would leave her sore too?

Eddie got lost in his thoughts not even realizing that Liam was also fighting in his head .

Liam looked at Eddie who seemed to be lost in thought while he also heard the commotion from a distance from screaming nate to a barking Ozzy.He chuckled when he heard Nate called someone dumbass but he knew as an adult he would have to talk to nate about saying bad words.

Liam's attention went back to Eddie's bat tattoo on his arm. He wondered if that's what Dani likes.What if he did a tattoo as well.

But what if it hurt ?But he wasn't tough enough to do a tattoo but for Dani he would toughed it out .

He saw Eddie shaking his head trying to move a hair from his face but failed .

Did Dani ever say she likes guys with long hair?

Liam didn't remember Dani ever mentioning anything ..

Did Dani like metalheads all this time ?

Eddie wasn't bad looking ,Liam thought.

"So what are those little shrimps planning?"Eddie asked liam getting him out of his thoughts.

"Umm, they are playing a game of D&D ."Liam told Eddie .Eddie was surprised that Liam knew about D&D and that he even pronounce it correctly.

The only reason Liam knew about the game was because of Dustin.

Eddie didn't ask Liam anything else; they stayed in silence again until the door burst open.

"Eddie.''Both Liam and Eddie turned to look at the door where Dani was standing, smiling at them wearing princess crown made out of what seemed like flowers .

"Dani baby im sorry."was the first thing Eddie said to Dani but she didnt even let him finsihed his sentence becasue she sat on his lap crashing her lips on his.

Dani POv

"Jesus Christ!"Dani shouted when she open the door making Nate screamed as well then ozzy following.Holly Nancy’s little sister jumped out of a box that looked like a small cabin looking house screaming and asking for a fee to enter the forest making Nate go from screaming to laughing by the way she was speaking.

"You talk funny he told her ."trying to poke the fake ears she was wearing

"Dont touch me human!!"Holly bellowed freaking me out but making Nate laugh even harder

"Pay up or you wont enter the forest Princess Dani."she pointed at me with a stick poking my belly slightly,wow she was a feisty little girl.I heard chuckling somewhere around the house and just now i relaized that steve's house had been turned to a forest with a bunch of drawings of trees and fakes trees place all over the living room and the railing from the stairs had wheat wrapped around it with yellow flowers.

"I-i dont have nothing to pay with."i tell Holly

"Shit i forgot to give you the tokens." Steve came running down the stairs wearing what seemed like to be a wizard costume and a fake white beard.

"Steve, what are you wearing?"Dani chuckled, grabbing the small bag of coins from him.

"Don't ask, little Henderson made me dress like this, well more like force me."he rolled his eyes and started walking away back upstairs almost tripping with his robe.

"Pay up princess!!"Molly shouted again, startling Dani and  making the baby move in Dani's tummy.

Dani open the small brown bag that was fill with a bunch of coins ,she got one out inspecting it and smile they had a small baby sleeping and under it ,it said

"baby Munson"

"Mom pay her :"Nate said nonchalantly looking down at his tablet recording his surroundings not caring about what was happening around him he was having way too much fun.He was excited with how everything was decorated .

"How much is it?"Dani asked Holly looking down at the little girl crossing her arms over her chest , giving Dani an angry face.

"2 coins' ' Holly Told Dani,

Dani paid up the fee for entering the forest/harrington home and walked upstairs like Holly instructed to do with Nate and Ozzy following behind her .

The upstairs was also decorated as a forest and the upstairs railing had white Christmas lights with what seemed like tiny wings.

"Those are faries momma!!"Nate said excitedly pointing at them with his free hand.

Dani looked closer at the light  and yeah they were in fact fairies ."wow"she whispered

Dustin and Steve really went all out to make all this look so realistic.

"Momma look!!"Nate shouted, scaring Dani. walking up to them was hopper dressed as an ogre .Hopper seemed not too thrilled to be playing the game ,he was walking up to them stomping his feet like a little kid forced to do his chores.

He stopped in front of Dani and rolled his eyes

"Princess Dani why have yoiu come here?"he sounded so out of character making Dani chuckled .

"Kid what are you doing?'Hopper whisper at Nate who was recording around hopper;

"Recording."he responded

Hopper was over it already. The only reason he agreed was because he was promised a six pack of beer and free food and he loved Dani but he hated dressing up in the stupid costume Dustin had Joyce made for him, he looked stupid he thought.

From the room next to Dani the door opens and Joyce steps out  handing Dani a piece of paper .

"Hi sweetie you look beautiful by the way.''she told Dani, handing her the piece of paper and going back to the room where she came from .Dani looked down at the piece of paper to see what it was.

It was a script of what she had to say to hopper .

"Princess what are you doing here?"Hopper asked once again now that Dani had the script on her hand.Dani looked at hopper scrunching her eyebrows and Hopper signaled her to read what it said on the paper.

"Im here to save my knight"she responded smiling looking down at the piece of paper which must have been written by her little brother by the handwriting that Dani recognized so well.

"Eddie the Banished was captured by the evil dragon and he has him locked in his lair you have to followed this map to get to him blah blah blah i'm done with this."Hopper huffed giving Dani the map and he walked away from her taking off his stupid costume mumbling profanities under his breath.

BUt what Dani didn't know was that Nate heard all the profanities that Hopper had said and they stuck to his head it was new words for him that he didn't know and he was planning to say them whenever he got the chance not knowing that those words could get him in trouble his mom and dad.

"He is funny momma."Nate chuckled; he was now recording Ozzy licking himself .Nate had started to love recording everything he saw, like  his mom cleaning or Eddie playing his guitar or when Eddie and his mom where cooking together he would record them as well

Dani opens the map that was clearly drawn by Dustin. It was Steve's house.

Dani followed the Map to her next destination, which was the master room or Steve's parent's room .

She opened the door slowly afraid that someone was going to jump out and scared her again but when she opened it and walked in nothing happened she felt relieved. There were a bunch of twinkling lights around the room and there was music playing, a really calming music that sounded like the flute .

Dani followed the map that led her to the master bathroom that was also decorated with alot of twinkling lights the music sounded clear now someone was actually playing the flute and it was coming from the shower .

Dani approached as slowly as possible afraid again that someone would jump out and screamed at her and then scared Nate.ONE thing that Dani was glad off was that everything was so calm and peaceful making Nate relaxed a lot the only thing that freaked him out was Holly the goblin.Other than that she couldn't complain and she was happy that her brother made everything to Nate's accommodations.

Actually Dustin wanted more thriller and more noise but he thought of his nephew and he didn't want him to go through any of his tantrums because of his fault so he made everything as calm as possible.

"Hello princess."Dani heard Robin's voice and the music stopped .ofcourse it was Robin playing the flute and dressed like a fairy.

"Robin?"Dani couldn't believe Dustin had as well managed to make Robin dress up and be part of his game.Dani wondered how he did that.Maybe he bribed them.

"A fairy!!"Nate said excitedly, turning his tablet to record Robin.

Robin waved at the camera and gave Nate her best smile making Nate even more excited than he already was.to Nate this was all real not a game like for everyone else.

"Princess Dani i can help you rescue your knight he was taken by the evil dragon Liam."

"Liam?"dani chuckled

"Yes he took your knight and he as well has the egg with the gender of your baby you need to fight the demogorgon thats guarding the lair but first you have to go talk to the wizard and he is going to give you the magic wand to help you defeat the dragon and be able to open the egg."

Before leaving ,Robin gave Dani a crown made out of flowers and put it on Dani's head.

And with that Dani ,Nate and Ozzy headed downstairs following the instructions of Robin and once again Holly asked for a fee which was raised up by two coins and she also scared Nate again making him scream and Ozzy barked .

"Dumbass!!" Nate shouted using his new word he heard from Hopper .Dani was shocked hearing those words coming out of her son's mouth.She had never heard him say bad words before.So Dani made a note to remind herself to talk to Nate when they got home about saying bad words.

On the way to meet the wizard which Dani was guessing was Steve, Dani had to fight demo dogs being Lucas ,Max,El ,Will and Mike after defeating them she walked down to the forest to where the tallest trees were( fake trees) outside by the pool.

Steve was sitting down in a chair that had a bunch of wheat around it and flowers. He was holding a stick or a long wand .

He looked funny and Dani couldn't hold her laughter.

"Yeah ,yeah I know hurry up and get here so I can give you the damn wand."Steve told Dani rolling his eyes .

Dani stopped when she saw on the side of the wall close to the glass doors a beautiful background of a castle and in the center were balloons that said boy or girl and a table with different types of snacks and two white boards that said team boy and team girl and names written on it of the people who thought that it was going to be a girl or a boy .

Dani smiled when she saw Eddies's  name on the board that said team girl.

Eddie had never told her what he wanted the baby to be; he always told her as long as it was a healthy baby he was happy.

"Dani hurry up this thing is hot."Steve said annoyingly

"sorry."Dani walked over to steve to get the wand from him but before giving it to her Steve had to see if she was worthy of the magic wand.HE looked around to make sure knowone  was looking at him because he had to do some magic shit that he didn't feel like doing because he was annoyed and hungry Dustin didn't let anyone touch the food until Dani figured out the sex of the baby.

"Yeah here you go."he told Dani handing the wand

"That was easy .'' Dani smiled. She thought the task was going to be harder but apparently they were super easy.

"The dragon's lair is the pool house."yeah steve wasn't supposed to tell her that, dani still had to fight the big boss Dustin and then the dragon but steve was hungry and hot he was sweating balls under that stupid robe so he just decided to finish the game he knew  Dustin was going to be mad at him but at the moment he didn't care be he knew everyone else was hungry too .Dani spun around running towards the pool house feeling the tears falling down her eyes  because she felt awful after the fight she had with Eddie for stupid things she burst the door open and saw Eddie in his handcuffs and his legs tied to the chair .LIam was sitting down looking at eddie while Eddie was lost in thought.

"Eddie ''Dani saw Eddie moving his lips  but she just ran to him sitting on his lap forgetting about her mission to fight the dragon and she kiss Eddie.

"Sweetheart i don't want to ruin the moment but can you uncuff me please."Eddie pulled away from Dani resting his head on hers.Dani nodded and chuckled as she stood up from Eddie's lap looking down at his enormous bulge in his pants.

"Yeah please uncuff me ."Eddie tried to move slightly to cover the boner in his pants but it was too damn noticeable.

Anything that Dani did drove Eddie crazy and he wasn't Ashamed of it well maybe right now he was because Liam was here .

Liam noticed Eddie's problem between his legs and stood up grabbing the egg from the closet as well as the keys to the handcuffs .It was weird as it is and now having to see that make Liam more uncomfortable.

"Here"Liam gave the keys and the egg to Dani.

"Dude really just for a kiss?"Liam rolled his eyes and walked out of the pool house leaving Eddie and Dani alone.

"I mean i don't mind having you like these back home"Dani wiggle her eyebrows at Eddie making him chuckled.

"Baby don't do that, that's weird ."he chuckled,ok now that he saw Dani doing that he understood what she meant he didn't look sexy at all when he did it .He did look creepy .

"Only if you promised you’ll stop doing it as well."

So promises were made of no more wiggling eyebrows when Eddie was trying to be sexy which he wasn't going to keep because he loved annoying Dani by doing that.

With the Egg in hand Dani and Eddie walked out to the backyard where everyone was waiting already for them and where Dustin was getting after Steve for not doing what he was supposed to be doing because he didn't stick to the plan.

Eddie hold the egg tight on his hand and the other one was placed safely on Dani's lower back he love the dress she was wearing she look beautiful her baby bump was more noticeable and it made Eddie happy knowing that he did that, that Dani and him created such precious thing with there love or maybe there hornyness but who is saying anything right? They created a baby, a little human.

"Dani sweetheart you look beautiful."Mrs.Hederson ran to hug her daughter, uncle wayne walked over to Eddie and hugged him he was so damn proud of his nephew he graduated and was working and he was going to college he couldn't ask for anything more he was the happiest man alive.finally a munson was going to college.

"I'm so proud of you son."Uncle Wayne was never the type of man that showed emotions both Eddie and him were so reserved ,but today Wayne was leading his guard down. He wanted to show how proud he was of his nephew .A few tears did escape but only Eddie saw.

"So I don't mean to be rude but I'm hungry and I think everyone here wants to know the sex of the baby."Max  suddenly says, interrupting the sweet moment of the two Munson men.

Dustin put everyone in position apparently he had more surprises he made Eddie and and Dani stand with their backs to the pool facing everyone else.He also made sure to put Nate's noise cancelling headphones on to make sure he wouldn't panic with what was about to happen.

"Ok everyone ready!!!" Dustin cupped his mouth to sound louder .

"Yes!!!" Everyone shouted back .

"Ok, let the countdown begin!!"

"10."

Dani grabbed Eddie's hand intertwining their fingers. She didn't know why she felt nervous .

"9"

Eddie leaned in to kiss Dani's temple ,still holding the egg in his hands. Apparently he had to drop it and it would break easily. He was glad he didn't trip.

"8"

"7"

"6"

"5"

Eddie and Dani turned to face each other,Dustin told Eddie to put the egg on the ground slowly then turned back to face Dani taking both of her hands on his .

"4"

"3"

"2"

"Step on the egg in one !!" Dustin shouted but he gave them a weird smirk a smirk that he was planning something else .

"1"

Eddie stepped on the egg and it wasn't what they were expecting.Dani looked at Eddie both confused as to what was going on. The whole family got closer to see what was on the egg.Eddie leaned down to get the paper that was inside and read it out loud .

"Turn around."

"1" Dustin and the whole gang shouted that's when two smoke fireworks flew to the sky revealing the gender of their baby .

Pink smoke was now covering the back yard .

Dani gasps and turns to jump  on Eddie's arm .

Eddie caught her on time it was like he was expecting it and spun her around peppering her face with kisses .

(Pic from Pinterest)

"Omg it's a girl !" Mrs.Henderson shouted ..

Uncle Wayne didn't realize he was crying until Eddie  came up to him and hugged him, patting him on the back .

"Congratulations grandpa ." Eddie told Wayne

Wayne pulled away from the hug looking at Eddie, shocked with what he just heard .

"Grandpa ?" Wayne almost choked on his own on his drink .

"Yes ,you're gonna be the grandpa of a little girl ." Eddie hugged his uncle again this time holding each other tight. This was the first time in years they hugged this much .But they couldn't contain how happy they both were .

After finally revealing the gender everyone was able to finally eat and the open presents which Dani and Eddie had asked not to bring any because they still didn't know what the baby was going to be but either way everyone brought diapers lots of diapers that probably Eddie and Dani didn't need to buy for two months .

Liam got the baby a stroller and the car seat .He didn't have too but he did .Because deep down he still care so much for Dani and he also cares for the baby that wasn't even his .Even though sometimes he did wish it was his .but he knows that was never going to happen because he knows he lost Dani forever .

After the party Dani and Eddie thanked Dustin and Steve for the amazing party they had thrown and also thanked Mrs .Henderson for the amazing food she had made.Mrs.Henderson managed to steal Eddie from Dani for a few minutes while Dani was being distracted by Steve and Dustin .So she took this opportunity to talk to Eddie.Well Wayne and her needed to talk to him .

Eddie walked outside to the backyard and saw his uncle sitting down by the pool with his feet inside the pool.

"C'mere son ." Uncle Wayne tap the space next to him for Eddie to sit down .

Eddie was confused; he thought Mrs.Henderson was the one that needed to talk to him .

"I-I thought ." Eddie points with his thumb to where Mrs.Henderson was just standing but now she was gone .

"Yes ,she needs to talk to you too but first come sit here son ." Eddie does what he is told and sits down next to his uncle.

"What's up ?"  Eddie asked looking at the clear water of the pool ,he always wanted to have a pool but given the circumstances he wasn't able to have it. so One day he hopes to give Dani and his Kids a home where they could have a pool To enjoy in the summer .Where he could do cookouts on the Fourth of July and watch the fireworks. He wants to give Dani the big house she deserved with the white picket fence .Something he always hated but now he wanted all of that with Dani,Nate ,Ozzy and their little Girl. He even thought of marriage something that would never crossed his mind before but now he wanted all of that.

"Here ." Uncle Wayne passed Eddie a black small velvet box .Eddie looked at it not knowing what it was .Maybe a gift for the baby?

"What's this ?" Eddie asked opening the small black velvet box ."Holy shit!!" His eyes widened when he saw the gold diamond ring .

"It was your Grandma’s ,My father got it for her when they got engaged. Back then it wasn't worth that much but I found out it was worth around 7k .

"Holy shit Wayne I can't take this!  ." Eddie exclaimed ,yes Edddie thought the ring was beautiful .But he couldn't take something That belonged to his uncle .

"Take it son ,that girl in there deserves nothing but the best,I don't even know what you are waiting for." He pauses and looks at Eddie " that girl went to jail for you she risked her job to be with you son,if that isn't true love I don't know what that is ,so you better ask her soon because that boy Liam has his eyes on her still ."

That night while Dani was sleeping Eddie couldn't sleep thinking about what his uncle told him .He was sitting down in the living room looking at the ring . It was a beautiful vintage 1.97 carat emerald cut diamond ring. It was beautiful just like Dani.

Eddie stared at it for a long time  couldn't take his eyes of it .He still didn’t know if he wanted to propose to Dani not that he didn't want to ,but because he wanted to do it when he had a stable job and he knew he was going to be able to give Dani and the kids everything they deserve .

But he he kept thinking and thinking the whole night until He finally made his decision.

Next chapter

(Dani's outfit pic from Pinterest )

[finsterhund]

Watching my world record run to remind myself that I have skills and aren't entirely a failure and right at the beginning I mention that I haven't eaten?

And yeah, that takes me back to the chemotherapy where I was straight up fucking starving.

And I felt better back then than I do now because Cazza was still alive.

So it's a testament that even though I'm eating better now that doesn't automatically mean I should be better now because clearly losing her is more significant than going hungry in my mind.

I should buy a new wifi adaptor or wire through Ethernet from my roommates room to mine (the router is in his room fjgkgjfjdjd) and then try to stream again. I know I'm able to beat the easy and normal PC runs too. Easy. And I would have if Cazza hadn't died. I never really got back to streaming after. My friend is bringing back his Minecraft server and I want to ease my way back into playing that as well. It will be fun to hang out in real time with friends.

God I really did just try speedrunning maximum involvement in every single hobby I have an interest in trying to feel something and they all failed. I need to remember that HoD is the most beautiful perfect thing in the world. And while I love plants and primitive technology and stuffed animals that HoD is my big thing. The ultimate special interest. The one that unlike Power Island, doesn't hurt me to open my soul into.

Fishy got me a rock tumbler that I'm really excited about and another package that's arrived today I haven't opened yet and I am excited thinking about tumbling small stones and making my own stone beads. I'm certain if I make a day out of building a neolithic hand drill that will also be fun. I need to remember that I'm allowed to have fun. I also need to learn how to make mistakes.

New years resolutions maybe.

When I next get to go to fabric land I'm going to buy some of the exact type of fabric the original Sly or Sly II's heads are made of (velveteen and/or upholstery cotton respectively) and see if that has any bearing on working with the pattern or not. I also have decided I need to aquire more random scraps. Gotta find packages of scraps when the thrift stores have them. I'm even starting to consider getting worn out stuffed animals with the intention of taking them apart and rebuilding them. I've always felt bad about that but so long as they aren't thrown away by the end it's a victimless crime. They're still being appreciated and taken care of.

Again, I wish eBay wasn't so damn expensive. Stupid shipping.

There's a local quilters guild that interests me. I'm so paranoid of human interaction I'm scared I won't be accepted as a young man who has an atypical disabled relationship with the hobby as a newcomer. It's something I should really try to work past more often. I have no clue if they're still even active due to COVID shit but I should at least try to turn up for one of their themed days.

But I feel that seeing people in person working on the craft will help me build skills and learn things.

Will also says he's thinking about getting into soft sculpture so maybe he'll share the stuff he's doing online.

Idk. I'm not entirely down in the dumps this new years but it does feel I'm just drifting aimlessly in life. With Cazza everything felt perfect. It was our blue sky grassy field orchestra music moment. And now it's gone. There is ultimately no overcoming of death except in memory.

The little spectre Sly head (the one I just made out of felt) seems to be the best I've made yet. Despite omitting the horn and ears I've got the snout at the right level of pointiness. Maybe even overkill for a spectre. But that makes me how that I'm going to continue to get better.

I am glad I've had things like the crying dog and Sly to keep me going though. And my friends who love and appreciate me so much it's actually staggering to think about it too deeply. I wish the internet gap wasn't a thing. It's funny. I feel id be no less further from my friends if I was living in the middle of the prairie away from everyone else.

Someday.

But for now there's Sly.

[yams-here]

hi guys my name is yams and I'm addicted to character designing

best team I mean Juniper!!

Jaune looked a little boring tbh (and his sweatshirt looked weird) so yknow, just basic little changes. changed his bangs, gave him some bandaids to show his lack of aura from the beginning of the show and his tendency to get hurt, just made his overall look a little simpler. a lot of designs in this show tend to have a lot of detail so I streamlined him a little bit

NORAAAAAAAAAA she is beloved so I got rid of those weird blue and red details from her first design. give this bad bitch elbow pads cute heart earrings and Ren's signature green as an accent. her ankle boots kind of alude to those chunky boots that tend to be associated with vikings and while I was doing her sketch the sentence "thunder thighs" flashbanged in my mind so I had to lmao

Pyrrha GIRL why you so skinny give her muscles goddamit I gave her pants for some variety and made her chest... thing an actual chestplate. Her actual design was already top tier 10/10 mwah chef's kiss so there isn't much to say lol

Ren's shoes from chapter one weirded me out like boy why do you look like you'll play a sax solo that will change my life. not much has changed but I made his colors a little more vibrant and made his pinks match better with Nora's. He Is Tallest Of The Team Because I Said So

Team that is totally canon and not just a The judgemental critter[tm] idea that I fell in love with, SVCP (sugarpea[?])

(This titters in AU territory but idc so basic background: They're second years, Penny is an exchange student from Atlas because she wanted to have a more normal school girl experience [and I imagine she's quite famous in Atlas] and if there was one person Ironwood would trust to take care of one of his most powerful weapons I mean Pietro's daughter is Ozpin, therefore she studies at Beacon. Cardin USED to be in Team CRDL but he flunked his second year at school so he got reassigned with Sun, Velvet and Penny much to his dismay. idk who was the previous member that Cardin replaced or how it would work and again idc maybe they're also transfer students or Velvet joined school one year late than usual with some experience idk)

Sun's design is lowkey weird to me like everytime I see some detail of it I just think "why tho" So I just kinda threw the skin of it away and kept the bones, like the open shirt and more streetwear look of it. I tried making him look more like a dude that does parkour and also made his shirt actually slightly relevant to his fairytale? idk it looks like he actually does martial arts AND is a fuck boy instead of just being a fuck boy. Give this slut some cool kicks

Velvet is SO CUTE but Too Much Brown bring back the light cyan from her original concept and give some slight modifications to her outfit to streamline it for her various fighting styles (specially her main one with lots of kicks) I gave her a hime cut and made her hair more straight from some variety and gave her ocular albinism to allude to rabbits with red eyes (also her surname is literally Scarlatina give this girl a little red at least). She gets a hairclip because she's a cutie patootie and she's more bottom heavy because again, she's a kicker and it alludes to rabbits :)

Cardin's hair bothers me SO MUCH why does it look like a plastic cap. I made his weave look like REAL hair and gave him some moles to make his face a little more interesting. I didn't change TOO much about his outfit but I gave him some hip armor that resembles folded wings and a butt cape for a brighter shade of red and to resemble a Cardinal's tail. Now go have your character development sweetie!!

Penny's first design was already perfect to be fair, I just did some adjustments for style like having the lace from her boots (socks?) reappear in other places on her outfit, changing her skirt into shorts to call back more to Pinnochio (and also there's too many girls wearing skirts already) and made her bangs actually have the same texture as the rest of her hair

School faculty!! with like only 4 characters in the lineup because I was lazy

Tried making Glynda a little more like The Good Witch from the classic movie while keeping her original "vibe", so I gave her some half up, half down wavy hair, some butterfly motifs and exchanged the dark gold for silver. And her semblance is magic bubbles (they can be big or small and fast or slow, and they can move in big clouds of them) so alude to the original inspo + making her powers make a little more sense

Oobleck is already best boy so I just added some details to make him more visually interesting, like the different shoes now being accentuated by different colored socks, a wrist watch to imply he needs some help keeping himself more organized, (and to imply speed maybe) his necktie being flung over his shoulder and a jacket just barely being held on by a safety pin, maybe he kept misplacing it before that lmao

Coco Adel!! Yes she's a teacher now because I loved her too much to fully discard her for this idea I had. She teaches Care of Weapons (which is weird that it wasn't there already) And is the sassy and fashionable bitch we all love!! Who is now a faunus so she can be the hound to fox's... fox. I just generally tried to keep her fashionable vibe while actually making certain aspects of her outfit make more sense

Fox!! there isn't much to say about him I just tried to make his outfit more visually interesting. Now he's actually a faunus and he has a fox tail + a low ponytail that looks like a fox tail... And he's a teacher now. He teaches about semblances

OK FINAL LINEUP I PROMISE

Neo was already perfect, I just changed some aspects I fould weird personally (Like the shape of her jacket and the double belt) and gave her some moles and lipstick so she doesn't look like a baby and to invoke more of this old timey hollywood criminal vibe. Also her two hair colors swirl!! like a soft serve!!

There isn't much about Roman that I really want to talk about, I just made his hair look more like hair and less like plastic and made his lower half more interesting. Otherwise he was fun and ok enough as is, there isn't much that I could change without just. getting rid of his vibe entirely lol

Emerald was already great, I just changed her for the sake of her not being the only one that remained the same and made her pants a big baggier, hopefully it helps alude to her inspo of alladin a little better

TRY TO MAKE MERCURY ACTUALLY LOOK INTERESTING CHALLENGE: IMPOSSIBLE (?) because idk if I succeded lol, I moved his armor to his legs because that's what he uses to fight, plus added an accent color as a wing on his heel, so it alludes better to his hermes inspo (also makes his color pallete slightly less boring) My ideas for him were literally just... add. give him piercings, give him olive skin, give him the fox eyes so then there's a reveal that he has silver eyes that he can't use because he doesn't love anybody, etc etc, I hope it worked lol

RWBY redesigns cuz idk I just really like the power system

Ruby's design was already great and iconic but I just wanted to bring more red and a little more color variation to her because it kind of blended all together for me? also I miss her poofy skirt bring it back. I think that the corset idea is great but wasn't very well executed Weiss is based more on her snowpea outfit as you can see but brought some ice blue to it (lowkey inspired by her manga design) and golden buttons, not only to have SOMEONE from team rwby have yang's yellow but I feel like it makes her look a little more regal. Also make her blind on one eye fuck it. her fighting with limited field of view is more impressive. ALSO her and Ruby having the same type of skirt threw me off. her skirt is floaty like a ballerina's instead (she's wearing shorts trust) I legit think Blake's vol. 1 design is perfect but I changed it because 1. For the sake of her not being the only one that remains the same and 2. I wish at least she got pants from the beggining, if only for the sake of variety Yang I obviously based her design on her Hunter outfit because that was the only time she truly slayed and love love love it- I would have totally kept her purple bandanna but the idea of her carrying around a piece of Ruby's cape tickled me- and it would connect them as sisters yknow, them having the other's signature color on their hips

[prismatoxic]

fucked up so hard in a social setting today that i had to straight up leave the entire internet to try and deal with the ensuing panic. set do not disturb on both discord and phone before watching devot play through the otacon intro/gray fox fight in mgs1 again.

and i'm still panicking. bc it did not blow over, which... i didn't think it would but i guess i was hoping maybe i was too out of it in panic to correctly assess the situation. no, i got it mostly right... no one seems mad at me specifically because i wasn't the only one involved, but they are mad. and i am having real trouble figuring out what is a likely outcome of this versus what my terrified brain thinks makes sense as an outcome.

i apologized to the best of my ability once i came back and tried to explain my avoidant actions immediately following the encounter. no one's responded yet but it is 1am here.

i have a really fucking long history of messing up socially and then having a bunch of cascading results occur that involve things like being mocked for my attempt at an apology, losing friends, losing my place on a team, staining my reputation within a community, etc etc etc. regardless of whether that was all deserved every single time, i am the sort of person who assumes blame as it is, and because of these past events i then react wildly disproportionately to feeling like i did something wrong.

and the RSD is there too. that's not helping.

as you can imagine all of this makes taking accountability for my mistakes very hard! i am very clearly panicking and presumably feel shame and/or guilt, sure, but people in the past have assumed all of this was like... for my own benefit? like i was being attention-seeking or trying to incite pity. so add that to the pile of past experiences fucking up my ability to be normal about this sort of situation. i feel like if i am too publicly upset that i'm giving off the idea that i'm more worried about myself than the person or people i slighted. which simply isn't true--i am so upset BECAUSE i slighted someone. because i've potentially ruined a relationship of some kind. yes i am terrified of the consequences but everything ties back into remorse. i'm not capitalizing on a bad situation to try and make people feel sorry for me. i am genuinely just having a panic attack.

i'm well aware that the situation isn't about me once i've hurt someone but that genuinely does not make the panic stop. and you'd be surprised how hard it is to calm down from that sort of thing when you feel like at any moment, everything is going to fall down around your ears in response. i got pinged twice to the associated server immediately following the event, both times general or admin pings that had nothing to do with the situation, and both times my panic spiked so sharply that it made me concerned for my health.

none of this is normal or productive and i am well aware and i will... probably call my therapist back on monday to schedule an appointment bc holy shit, lmao. this sucked, not just for me but for the situation as a whole, which i should have handled with more grace.

i am still waiting for more consequences. like getting booted from the admin team or being blocked by the other admin i upset or, idk, something unforeseen but equally terrible. idk how likely any of that is. idk what's a normal response to this situation. my brain won't let me conceive of anything logical while i'm like this.

and like, my trauma is not the responsibility of the person i hurt. so in my apology i did not bring any of it up bc it's irrelevant. i tried to apologize as sincerely as i could while also avoiding trying to make excuses. i don't know if it's going to matter. i cannot fathom a world in which it's good enough.

how do you ask for reassurance in a situation where you're the one at fault, anyway? do you even deserve it at that point? i promise i wasn't being malicious. i thought i remembered something and made the wrong call on whether or not to bring it up, and then didn't nip the ensuing conversation in the bud when it immediately went off the rails. which i should have done bc i'm a server admin. i should have recognized the fucked up nature of the topic at hand before someone pointed it out to me. but i genuinely was not trying to be malicious. does that count for something?

this isn't the first time i've made mistakes in this server. it's at least the third time, but i think there might have been at least one more instance. i have been trying to be useful lately but i never feel like i'm pulling my own weight and if they decided to ax me from the team i'd get it. it would suck and my RSD would absolutely flay me alive over it but i would get it.

i don't know. i don't know how to emotionally handle this sort of situation and that impacts my ability to handle it at all. i'm not fit to be an admin of anything. i'm not fit to have power over anybody.

i'm going to get some food and try to draw or something.

[dontlookatmehereplease]

I'm pretty sure I let myself get stuck in a delusion again, thinking that the person I like really liked me the same way again. I know that like me but I'm feeling like now maybe I was letting my feelings get out of hand on my end without keeping their feelings in mind. I was being selfish with them, which I know we said we could be at the start but I think I let them see my own selfishness in a too big amount. I want to help them bc they aren't doing well but I'm so fucking dumb idk how to do that especially after they told me I need to reel in the romantic side of things for now, I get that we're both aceflux and I know and respect that they can't control their feelings when it happens. That's why I'm writing here instead because if I try to talk to them about this without thinking I know I'll make a bigger mess of things, I want to be selfish and keep them close but I don't want to risk loosing that by speaking about it before I think.

I've cried a bit before writing and I know I'll probably cry more after still but I need to let that out before I can answer them because I don't want them feeling more upset by how I'm feeling, they're already dealing with their own things and I need to let them have some space and if they're comfortable maybe an ear or something, I just want them to be ok but I know that me wanting that won't help them be fine, I gotta give them space, I gotta tell myself things will be ok. Because I'm not helping them or me by thinking how I am right now.

I love them. But I can't tell them that especially after they just asked me to hold off on being romantic towards them. I'd just hurt us both more than I'm hurting us now. I gotta figure out what to message back soon so I don't make them believe that they've upset me, I don't want them to hurt like that.

I can't even talk to someone else about him either because again, my selfishness was calling him mine to others previous to this because that's what we had agreed upon, but now I'm confused on were that agreement stands with us. Is this a break? Are they still mine? Do I still belong to him? I guess what makes this harder is just they way they worded their message, saying they don't want to message something back that would be empty and meaningless in response to my 'feelings'...

God I fucked up haven't I.....

[musicaldamage]

Here we go :)

I think this is the first heaven on their minds I'm seeing where judas actually talks directly to jesus and jesus seems to be at least listening? Instead of judas yelling from afar or talking to himself on the sidelines or jesus fucking off every time he comes near. Local couple has actual conversation, blogger is confused

Is he kissing jesus or whispering in his ear?

Oh this is gonna be an interesting judas mary dynamic isn't it

I love the staging. There's fire

Judas's voice doesn't sound rock-y (?) enough imo but it's a nice voice (bit deep maybe? miss the dramatic rises)

Due to sound quality What's The Buzz more than ever sounds like What The Fuck to my ears which is probably what they'd actually be saying half the time anyway

Oh I LIKE mary

Ah yes judas must climb on stuff of course

Mary just taking the torch like No that's enough playing with fire lmao

I keep expecting judas to start singing les mis for some reason??

Wow they really jist have normal conversations instead of sort of yelling at each other?? Which makes jesus going "you'll be sorry when I'm gone" so much more worrying somehow idek

Also. Polycule vibes with this particular trio are strong

Every caiaphas has such a deep voice idk why I'm still surprised but damn. The song itself is a bit meh here but annas and caiaphas have nice voices

Jesus is incredibly serious huh does he not know what smiling is or is it just too blurry for me to see

Oh Simon's voice is very nice

I love Judas just sitting on his perch like kitty

This jesus seems so calm all the time? He overall seems less "ongoing mental breakdown" than the vibe I prefer but more "resigned to his fate and just sorta waiting for death to catch up" which is also interesting tho (and well I haven't seen Gethsemane yet)

Oh pilate actually looks very Roman™ somehow

The temple feels like it's missing something in the orchestra? Huh

Is it just me or are they hurrying a bit through the transitions? From "get outttttt" straight to "my time is almost through" with barely a moment to let anything sink in

Love the next scene though you xan tell he wants to help but he also very much wants to run away

Though the Don't crowd me is a bit weird bc it doesn't look like anyone's all that close

And mary's try not to get worried also comes immediately again why is there no moment to let his outburst affect you :/

Ok but judas is there??? Right from the start of the scene?? That's a new one i like that omg cute?

Mary like "jeez put your head up lemme shove a pillow under there"

Ok the angle makes it impossible to tell if judas is still there atm but if he is then Mary's "should i bring him down" gets a whole new vibe and I'm desperate for more exploration of the relationship between these 2 in this version I love this Mary

For a second i thought she was checking jesus's pulse lmao

Ok so judas doesn't show up to be a dick in this version after her song. Much to think about

The scenes all feel more realistic somehow than I'm used to? Not sure I like it but i don't dislike it everyone's just having conversations it does detract from the drama which is a bit of a pity it's less dynamic idk

Caiaphas put that club away what is wrong with you look at Judas's babyface and tell me you want to hurt that

Dude's not even noticing they put the money in his hand huh (I never quite understand why they're so insistent on giving it to him anyway what's up with that)

Act II ✨

honestly jesus and mary give off extreme marfied vibes

"this wine could be my blood" husband dearest how much of that uhh blood have you already had

He's still so calm! Even though he's not really but he still is i can't explain it it's weird

... He reminds me of obi wan kenobi. Jesus christ kenobi

Poor mary is so confused and he's just trying to act like everything was normal

Ok idk what it is but the dramaticness of this version just isn't high enough for my tastes like even this whole dramatic confrontation at the last supper feels so subdued

Gethsemane halfway through and his voice and singing are great but he's somehow still too calm I'm actually getting frustrated here like you're not having a conversation with your dad about a controversial topic that escalates into different political opinions? You're yelling at god about the unfairness of your fate you have the entirely wrong kind of anger going on here somehow stop going right back to looking so fucking calm after evefy other line

Ok I was waiting for the "what YOU started" line but. No idk this is not at all doing it for me

*dramatically drinks from not actually poison at all cup*

Ugh cheek kisses. Soft lil hug though

I'd be so annoyed with this jesus if i were sn apostle he has constant disappointed teacher vibes

"Friday 5AM" why does it have to be that early dude didn't even get a nap in

I'm always a bit confused when annas goes "someone christ king of the Jews" bc like. I do not know any scriptures well at all but isn't annas Jewish. Like. Isn't the whole point that he doesn't accept that viewpoint at all why does he talk about "the Jews" like he's apart from that group. Am i fundamentally misunderstanding sth

Oh herod has dionysius vibes?

The way mary appears to look down at jesus after herod's song feels like if i didn't know what's happening I'd be expecting her to turn her back ln him now. Peter too actually idk they feel like jesus is hallucinating them? Is he? ...ok is that judas? There's no way they're meant to be real in that moment hnmm

Ok judas i like your voice but. Something is off ab8all this idk what but even if they're objectively dramagic it doesn't feel dramatic to my heart :(

...it feels. American somehow. Idk why or how to explain it but it has a specific American Musical™ vibe that tends to make things feel weirdly more artificial? to me?

Oh fuck they made mary watch Judas's suicide oh that sure is a choice i wish i could have inserted more scenes to just watch those two

I do like this pilate he seems very reasonable which is a nice contrast to Pilate 2000

Is that Mary there while jesus is getting whippey? Who let her in

Anyway the lashings were nice i slightly take back my complaints about lack of drama at least fpr this scene (he still doesn't look enough of s mess for my tastes tho. He's still just having a conversation with pilate)

This is a very static Superstar somehow why is judas singing at the audience and not at jesus for most of the song i don't think this is doing it for me

Oh i do wish i understood what jesus is saying though does anyone know??

Dude's just catching flies on the cross close your mouth?

Oh is that just all the relevant bible verses running behind the cross there in the end? It got too fast/blurry for me to read but that's kinda cool

Anyway! If you made it this far, I'm honestly impressed lmao. Fun show to watch, LOVE the jesus/judas/mary dynamic, would have loved to see more of that, but overall not quite my vibe

I am watching the 2012 Broadway revival JCS for the first time and I will NOT spam this blog with liveblogging but I am not even halfway through Heaven On Their Minds and already know I will be compelled to put my thoughts somewhere so I guess they'll go in a reblog of this post once I'm through adgshfh